Therapy is great! But if anybody, ANYBODY, makes you feel annoying for still grieving a pet or a breakup then they are not your people! Grief has no time-limit! ❤❤❤❤❤
Just Don’t use the therapy company she’s promoting!! They illegally sold all their clients medical records! She’s aware of this and keeps promoting them unfortunately
It is an age thing, Nikki. I did so many embarrassing things in my 20’s regarding being overly emotional and/or clingy. I was your exact age 34 when I finally started to awaken to my real or mature self. Met my now husband at 36 after working out following finding your videos (you were great motivation). I got married at 39 and have been happily living the life I always wanted. Don’t beat yourself up too much for past relationships. Just enjoy your days and keep discovering you!❤
100% agree. I am 31 and I did the same thing in my 20s and it’s definitely the age. It also is therapy. Nothing to do with birth control at all. I am on birth control because I’ve PMDD in it literally has no effect on me in that way.
We all remember the Castle Blackfinch videos of when you decorated in October. That house was pretty epic all decked out for Christmas before Halloween had even passed. Excited to see more fun videos!
hey! So I am pretty sure I watched every single video of yours since 2014 and I love how you changed and evolved, but also how you got your glow back! Also it's awesome to see 2x week videos! Cannot wait for another one!
I’m sure Nikki’s contract has her in a position with better help. I just feel almost obligated to point out that better help got into pretty hot water for selling their patients’ data for profit. If you are considering using them, please look into it. Edit: typo
I know of 5 other CZcamsrs that have gotten out of their contract (probably because the contract became void once BetterHelp broke the law) i honestly feel like Nikki keeps using them as a sponsor because they pay her so well and her CZcams channel isn’t doing very well so she needs the paycheck
They kept taking my money after cancelling. 400 pounds at least. And the therapists where absolutely useless so i basically wasted hundreds of pounds. But they gave me 10 in return for selling my data, may buy a yacht or something.
Wish she would find a different sponsor. They literally illegal sells clients medical records for profit and Nikki is fully aware and keeps promoting them for the money 😢
Wow. This video is really telling of who you are. You still prove to me all the time how truly genuinely real you are. You really care and have issues that we can all relate to a million times over. I’ve been here since 2014!! Love what you do. ❤ you!
I really enjoyed the variety of questions, never knew what you were going to get next, but I also think having the combination of specific topics and then everything else that wouldn’t fit in a topic would be fun. ❤
Love seeing you so light and happy. Love all the videos lately. I feel like the move has been so good for you. I thin that other place had some stagnant energy in it :)
You mentioning pet grift ugh. I lost my dog of 11 years about 7 months ago and there are sometimes my soul is just grieving it hurts so bad 😢. But thank you! ❤
Does Nikki and Jasmine still talk? I think I must have missed something years ago. Never see them in each other’s videos but they don’t even talk anymore.
@@Mariely1 I hope so. I understand if they are never in each other's videos again, but they don't even mention each other. Maybe they are just friends but not super close anymore. I still remember the days, Niki, Jasmine, Whitney, and a a few more, always doing collabs and such.
Nikki! I’ve been following you for a decade now. I love you so much! I just need to make sure you’ve read ACOTAR. I just read it and I thought you’d love it lol also I’m so proud of you. I’m 34 too with no kids and single. So I feel you on everything.
23:55 nikki, you deserve to be with someone who accepts you for who you are. Never feel the need to change your body for anyone, especially for a guy. You are more than your body. 💕💕
I hate to ask but im a long time viewer. Confused. Is the “big breakup” you’re talking about the last one or the first when you were in when starting vlogging? It’s wonderful to see the light back in you! 💜
She probably meant the first big breakup because maybe she would’ve said the LAST big breakup if she was talking about the recent ex. I felt it too when she went through those, so happy to see her journey and how lighter and happier she seems. It feels like her happiness is coming from within herself.
I think she’s talking about the one like 8 years ago because she also said she’s not “lashing out” in her 30s so this was back when she was in her 20s!! I know in a big offender of the lash out so I totally understand ❤😂
Oh you should foster cats or kittens. It's a great way to test the waters of a 3rd cat while helping your local shelters/rescues. This way too if it's overwhelming you don't have to foster again or you might find a wonderful match for your current kitties. I have 8 so I totally understand. 3 is actually a great number because I always felt when I had 3 they always had someone to play with when one wanted to just chill.
I get a strong feeling that he may have been very very immature in many ways. He didn’t grasp adult relationships or how to empathize, communicate or work together with a partner. He may have been fairly bright and ambitious but emotionally and socially he was much MUCH younger than his age. I could see he was painfully naive too.
He immediately got back with his ex girlfriend after breaking up with Nikki. Which made me like him even less. They are now married. Imagine going through a pet loss, moving cross country for someone, a relationship loss, and come to find out ur ex proposes to his ex girl within months of a breakup!!? Ouch. My poor babygirl Nikki went through so much
31 y/o and I love making messes and just having fun with it. Doesn't matter how if it's cooking, painting, gardening etc anything that I do and can make a mess. It's the most freeing feeling lol I have so much fun making it and just as much fun cleaning it up. Cheers to your 30's 🍻🥂
Enough with the betterhelp! Why are the viewers having to warn others about the issues and the class action lawsuits so the influencers can get their sponsor money. Be better.
Omg the bikinis look so good! The second one that you’re not sure about looks AMAZING girl, so flattering, I always think higher waistbands on things give the illusion of longer legs (my legs are short), so the fact that it’s more narrow and higher really suits you if you’re comfortable In it!!
I love you SO much & this is JUST what I needed today! thank you for being so open 🩵 I was a lil distracted by the "among us" (?) audio in the background prob due to my neurodivergence lol but I wanted to mention that a lot of CZcamsrs have been finding some GREAT royalty-free background music that actually reminded me of your vibe! you know way more than me though & regardless, I SO appreciate you uploading, & seeing you happy makes me so happy! 💙
Hey Nikki, quick question are you going to dye your hair that cowboy copper color. I remember you saying you were few videos ago. My sister and I were wondering!!!! lol 😂 😊
I've said this before!! A long time ago. She has patterns, and it always ends the same. Even her mumbling hasn't changed when she mentioned years ago she knows she does it and was working on it. Poor girl is stuck in a never ending cycle.
Definitely noticed she seems addicted to male validation. All the traits of needing male validation describe her perfectly! Theres for sure a pattern of her content improving when Shes in a relationship then declining when Shes not. Heartbreaking. Hope she gets help for it. She deserves better❤
Nikki for the love of god stop promoting a therapy company that profits off illegally selling clients medical records. Do you not care about your viewers at all. If you need to use such a morally wrong sponsor just to make ends meet maybe it’s time to find a new job 🤷🏼♀️ you’re the only CZcamsr that still uses this sponsor and that says a lot
Can relate on the June gloom - I live in England so the whole year is just gloom and it’s depresssssing. I try not to be phased by the weather but after 32 years I’ve had enough 😂
Watching you find yourself after your big public break up 8 years ago, was a beautiful thing. It was vulnerable and real.
It feels like the good old days with nikki on youtube again 😊❤
till the next breakup which will definitely happen lol
My thoughts exactly!❤
@@steveaustin8870dude you keep commenting this. Are you okay? Lol
@@CurrentlyReadingWithKimberly I am but she isn't...
2016 CZcams was terrifying if you searched bikini haul and clicked the related links 😮 (iykyk)
Therapy is great! But if anybody, ANYBODY, makes you feel annoying for still grieving a pet or a breakup then they are not your people! Grief has no time-limit! ❤❤❤❤❤
Just Don’t use the therapy company she’s promoting!! They illegally sold all their clients medical records! She’s aware of this and keeps promoting them unfortunately
It is an age thing, Nikki. I did so many embarrassing things in my 20’s regarding being overly emotional and/or clingy. I was your exact age 34 when I finally started to awaken to my real or mature self. Met my now husband at 36 after working out following finding your videos (you were great motivation). I got married at 39 and have been happily living the life I always wanted. Don’t beat yourself up too much for past relationships. Just enjoy your days and keep discovering you!❤
100% agree. I am 31 and I did the same thing in my 20s and it’s definitely the age. It also is therapy. Nothing to do with birth control at all. I am on birth control because I’ve PMDD in it literally has no effect on me in that way.
You give me hope. I’m 36. ❤
I love that you're back on your vlog game! You used to be one of my fave vloggers!!
I swear man 😢❤
till the next breakup which will definitely happen lol
OG nikki energy
We all remember the Castle Blackfinch videos of when you decorated in October. That house was pretty epic all decked out for Christmas before Halloween had even passed. Excited to see more fun videos!
My cat Nikki (last name Blackcatter- for ours truly) . Was so concerned when Squish was meowing for the shower. 😂
That is the best advice I've heard about responding to someone coming on too strong. Very smart! Sage woman!
So happy for you and where you’re at in life, Nikki! 😻❤️
The whole Q&A I was just admiring how beautiful Nikki’s hair is love love this color on her
hey! So I am pretty sure I watched every single video of yours since 2014 and I love how you changed and evolved, but also how you got your glow back! Also it's awesome to see 2x week videos! Cannot wait for another one!
I’m sure Nikki’s contract has her in a position with better help. I just feel almost obligated to point out that better help got into pretty hot water for selling their patients’ data for profit. If you are considering using them, please look into it.
Edit: typo
I know of 5 other CZcamsrs that have gotten out of their contract (probably because the contract became void once BetterHelp broke the law) i honestly feel like Nikki keeps using them as a sponsor because they pay her so well and her CZcams channel isn’t doing very well so she needs the paycheck
They kept taking my money after cancelling. 400 pounds at least. And the therapists where absolutely useless so i basically wasted hundreds of pounds. But they gave me 10 in return for selling my data, may buy a yacht or something.
So glad to see you happy and no longer depressed, you’ve been through so much! hopefully a forever ever after! 💍 ❤️😍 much love! 🤗
till the next breakup which will definitely happen lol
@@steveaustin8870alright loser, are you planning on orchestrating it or something?
What a sad little man to be hating on a harmless vlog.
@steveaustin8870 which big break up is she talking about? She always a different boyfriend everytime she pops up on my socials.
What's the point of you watching her content and commenting negative things? Get a life Steve. @@steveaustin8870
@@beccs5050 it’s called life you guys! You evolve and grow! Should try it some time. Moving on…
Love having you back this much. Such a treat. Been here since blondvsworld 👀❤️
Wish she would find a different sponsor. They literally illegal sells clients medical records for profit and Nikki is fully aware and keeps promoting them for the money 😢
Wow. This video is really telling of who you are. You still prove to me all the time how truly genuinely real you are. You really care and have issues that we can all relate to a million times over. I’ve been here since 2014!! Love what you do. ❤ you!
I really enjoyed the variety of questions, never knew what you were going to get next, but I also think having the combination of specific topics and then everything else that wouldn’t fit in a topic would be fun. ❤
This hair looks the best on you!! So cute! Love you xo
Love seeing you so light and happy. Love all the videos lately. I feel like the move has been so good for you. I thin that other place had some stagnant energy in it :)
I love your new place! This video gave me Houston vlog vibes but better!! (when you lived in the four-story home)
You mentioning pet grift ugh. I lost my dog of 11 years about 7 months ago and there are sometimes my soul is just grieving it hurts so bad 😢. But thank you! ❤
Love Nikki! We grow up and whatever is the past is the past. You’re doing awesome! 😊
“He he he look at these” hahaha I totally feel this. 😅
Ohhh you responed to my question :D! hehe I am flattered.
Is his name hunt or will? Or goodwill hunting?
😂 this is what comes to mind for me lol
The message thing was 100000% an age thing! I did the same after my big break up - I was 24, I’m 34 now and looking back I WOULD never.
Does Nikki and Jasmine still talk? I think I must have missed something years ago. Never see them in each other’s videos but they don’t even talk anymore.
They can’t be in eachother videos bc they live a couple hours away. But I’m pretty sure they are still friends
@@Mariely1 I hope so. I understand if they are never in each other's videos again, but they don't even mention each other. Maybe they are just friends but not super close anymore. I still remember the days, Niki, Jasmine, Whitney, and a a few more, always doing collabs and such.
They still are! I had asked Jasmine during one of her TikTok lives and she said yes!
Nikki your like your old self again 🥰🥰🥰 but bettterrrr!!! Hold onto you always boo ❤
You’re so funny! You’re a lot of fun! God bless.
I love your dark hair, but this caramel, bronde colour is just beautiful!
You look gorgeous in PINK!
Nikki! I’ve been following you for a decade now. I love you so much! I just need to make sure you’ve read ACOTAR. I just read it and I thought you’d love it lol also I’m so proud of you. I’m 34 too with no kids and single. So I feel you on everything.
Nikki never misses! Loved this video esp the breakup advice! your under-eyes are so bright! What did you use to conceal? Love you Nikki 💕💕💕💌
23:55 nikki, you deserve to be with someone who accepts you for who you are. Never feel the need to change your body for anyone, especially for a guy. You are more than your body. 💕💕
I hate to ask but im a long time viewer. Confused. Is the “big breakup” you’re talking about the last one or the first when you were in when starting vlogging? It’s wonderful to see the light back in you! 💜
She probably meant the first big breakup because maybe she would’ve said the LAST big breakup if she was talking about the recent ex. I felt it too when she went through those, so happy to see her journey and how lighter and happier she seems. It feels like her happiness is coming from within herself.
@@drx6139you’re dumber than a box Of rocks
I was wondering this too!
I think she’s talking about the one like 8 years ago because she also said she’s not “lashing out” in her 30s so this was back when she was in her 20s!! I know in a big offender of the lash out so I totally understand ❤😂
@@josephinehaas5337 haha good deduction skills! The lashing out in texts is relatable, I think we all have once or had a friend that has done this lol
Oh you should foster cats or kittens. It's a great way to test the waters of a 3rd cat while helping your local shelters/rescues. This way too if it's overwhelming you don't have to foster again or you might find a wonderful match for your current kitties. I have 8 so I totally understand. 3 is actually a great number because I always felt when I had 3 they always had someone to play with when one wanted to just chill.
Don’t get a 3rd cat. I have 3 cats and they don’t play with each other. The first two that were bonded are less bonded now
Purposely saved this for Monday morning to get me out of bed 😂
OG Gymshark Meetup in Washington, DC 🤩🎉 it was a vibe and so great meeting you Nikki 😊
That ex Teddy seemed bad for you like he was a Narc
He was also young wasn’t he?
@@SusieQZeeyep!!
I get a strong feeling that he may have been very very immature in many ways. He didn’t grasp adult relationships or how to empathize, communicate or work together with a partner. He may have been fairly bright and ambitious but emotionally and socially he was much MUCH younger than his age. I could see he was painfully naive too.
He immediately got back with his ex girlfriend after breaking up with Nikki. Which made me like him even less. They are now married. Imagine going through a pet loss, moving cross country for someone, a relationship loss, and come to find out ur ex proposes to his ex girl within months of a breakup!!? Ouch. My poor babygirl Nikki went through so much
@@Mariely1 this is awful! She literally moved to be with him. Ughh! How do you know he’s married?
Love the videos and your happy vibe! Keep posting, q&as are great!
Loved this vlog. Your attitude is rockin girl. Such positive energy, and inspiring words.
I stopped counting my age at 30 😂
Side note, the lighting is so nice in this new house lol
When you've been following for so long ypu're confused about which big breakup she is talking about.
I think the first one ! The big one. Miles and teddy weren’t that big. I think more mutual breakups.
love your videos!! So glad to see you posting more XO
31 y/o and I love making messes and just having fun with it. Doesn't matter how if it's cooking, painting, gardening etc anything that I do and can make a mess. It's the most freeing feeling lol I have so much fun making it and just as much fun cleaning it up. Cheers to your 30's 🍻🥂
Your kitties are so precious.
Enough with the betterhelp! Why are the viewers having to warn others about the issues and the class action lawsuits so the influencers can get their sponsor money. Be better.
Couldn’t agree more about June gloom
Hi Nikki, I'm new to your channel and just wanted to say hi 👋 and I am looking forward to seeing more of your content 😊 ❤. Love your chill vibes 😎
Sometimes, we just lose ourselves in relationships unfortunately
Omg the bikinis look so good! The second one that you’re not sure about looks AMAZING girl, so flattering, I always think higher waistbands on things give the illusion of longer legs (my legs are short), so the fact that it’s more narrow and higher really suits you if you’re comfortable
In it!!
Love the 3rd person journalling ❤
Shoulders be bouldering and I’m in support 🎉
You’re gorgeous
Love this Nikki! 😊
Enjoyed this!😊
pink bikini is adorable and super flattering!
Yes please more q and a’s!!!
❤❤❤ love ya Nikki!!! OG follower here!!
I love you SO much & this is JUST what I needed today! thank you for being so open 🩵 I was a lil distracted by the "among us" (?) audio in the background prob due to my neurodivergence lol but I wanted to mention that a lot of CZcamsrs have been finding some GREAT royalty-free background music that actually reminded me of your vibe! you know way more than me though & regardless, I SO appreciate you uploading, & seeing you happy makes me so happy! 💙
Hey Nikki, quick question are you going to dye your hair that cowboy copper color. I remember you saying you were few videos ago. My sister and I were wondering!!!! lol 😂 😊
Its so weird to think I’ve been watching you for 10+ years hearing about how the fitness industry has changed!
Gray May June gloom lmao 😂 20:15
Nikki! Im going to San Diego in August, id love a video on what to do there from your perspective!
You notice you start posting videos when you are in a relationship?
I've said this before!! A long time ago. She has patterns, and it always ends the same. Even her mumbling hasn't changed when she mentioned years ago she knows she does it and was working on it. Poor girl is stuck in a never ending cycle.
She’s only happy when she gets into a relationship and that’s very sad. She needs to be happy with herself and not only when a guy validates her
Definitely noticed she seems addicted to male validation. All the traits of needing male validation describe her perfectly! Theres for sure a pattern of her content improving when Shes in a relationship then declining when Shes not. Heartbreaking. Hope she gets help for it. She deserves better❤
Nikki for the love of god stop promoting a therapy company that profits off illegally selling clients medical records. Do you not care about your viewers at all. If you need to use such a morally wrong sponsor just to make ends meet maybe it’s time to find a new job 🤷🏼♀️ you’re the only CZcamsr that still uses this sponsor and that says a lot
Can relate on the June gloom - I live in England so the whole year is just gloom and it’s depresssssing. I try not to be phased by the weather but after 32 years I’ve had enough 😂
Hi Nikkiii!! omg watching here from Europe 🩷
Was there a link for the bathing suits?!
They’re from Knight swim - you’ll love them! My fave swim brand!
Nikki your voive is so soft and soothing girl im falling asleep listening to you ❤️
Hey hey Nikkiiiiii miss youuuu xoxo
Thank u for your advice.
You’re dating a will?!?! I love that!! ❤❤❤❤
Why are u still promoting better help :(
You don't like it - you don't have to be influenced...can't we allow her to just have her sponsorship.
Yesss, more YT 😺
I looooove the last two bikinis on you!
Much success
it was definitely a birth control thing for me and my cousin, now that we are older we can afford to get off of it thank goodness :)
Let’s go!!!
❤❤❤❤❤ you're the best
May gray, June gloom.
Nikki!!
Kids change them alot.. small ones are 10/10! You forget u even got any.
Nikki💜
I really like the pink and red it looks good on you 😳💯 6:36
No you don’t miss it 18:24
I am just wondering do you make all your income from CZcams?
No you have the right cats because normally same sex cats want to fight and not play fight but throw down 😂 19:56
Yay
Girl, get a husband.
One thing Nikki gon do is find a new man! I need to go outside more lol
damn that beginning jump scared me
looking old asf
Lmao 😂 19:07
😂 1:36
😂 0:09
I have 2 cats and they are like enemies. One is a boy and one is a girl and idk how to make them friends. 😂
Do you ever want to get married
Jk I hope it heals soon 3:08