The Rememberer
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- čas přidán 9. 05. 2020
- I’m sure we’ve all been through that phase when you just want to make 30 minute thinly veiled monochrome allegories about your fear of ageing.
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Bonus trivia: This video is not finished. But if I don’t let it go now, I will be.
The beginning fell into my head several months ago. I assumed it would take a few weeks to make, at most. Little did I know it would sprout multiple heads and take over my life for two and a half months. If you didn’t enjoy watching it, take comfort that I didn’t enjoy making it. (Just jokez. Thanks for watching my stuff as always, and hope you’re well :) )
Bonus bonus trivia: The original title was supposed to be "The Nine Isles of Neverdead", but google told me Neverdead is already a thing; apparently a video game about demons and stuff.
I'm sorry this one took a while. I'm especially sorry to folks on Patreon. I think I told you it would only be another week about three weeks ago? Apologies, but I didn't want to put the thing out half baked.
A very, very big thank you to a friend who wishes to go by the name Jimmy Cakeshoes. When the editing was almost done, it was impossible to render the video because my PC kept having little meltdowns and locking up. One genius technical fix later from Dr. Cakeshoes and all was well. Big love to you, man.
The poems mentioned at the end are:
The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock by T. S. Eliot
www.poetryfoundation.org/poet...
The Rime of the Ancient Mariner by Samuel Taylor Coleridge
www.poetryfoundation.org/poem...
Kubla Khan also by Samuel Taylor Coleridge
www.poetryfoundation.org/poem...
I fully admit to stealing that line from the end of The Great Gatsby.
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And as always, the entirety of this one was edited with the feline sleeping on my lap. - Krátké a kreslené filmy
"Sir, this is a Wendy's drive-through..."
Did I stutter?
@@woahflamingo ye
@@woahflamingo yeah say all of it again
@@woahflamingo i sure hope not
Well that depends
Had my headphones on and my mum thought I was crying to a stock photo slideshow
Chet Faker this is the best comment I’ve ever seen
Lmao
I mean technically-
And, submitted for the Academy's consideration, my nomination for best comment of 2020...
I'm into this comment
"You've been honorably discharged of being dishonorably in charge"
-Exub1a 2020
That was smooth
I am definitely stealing that quote
Vishnu's arse!!!
Is this the future "ok, boomer"?
Dayne Coveyou Yes.
Yes, twas.
I don't have the words to describe how this made me feel. Fortunately, you do. Thank you.
Lmao, you too?
Thankfully.
I just Listening to this video and "insane"
in succession and it was great.
This is my third time watching this, and I just realised that this story is presented in the PAST TENSE! This means that he has remembered, and is recalling what happened!
He might be regaining his memory, perhaps one day his generation might gain forgiveness.
Omg it is
ohhhh, I'm on my 3 time past 2 years, but think i need to rewatch just to get that perspective
thank you for noticing and sharing, this gives me a lot of hope
@@miajar Hope??? lol
“You have been honourably discharged for being dishonourably in charge”. Genius.
Seriously that was such a killer line. I had to pause the video to admire it for a moment
The best
@@enisarifi6878 so what? this guy has made such an amazing video with lots of genius lines and quotes, and your just gonna sit there and shit all your negativity over it? Jesus...
@@enisarifi6878 So what? Even so it's a good line despite the writer.
@@enisarifi6878 Go find it you cynic.
Ah yes my utmost desire, to become a Bananacoin billionaire.
Bananacoin trillonare
I suggest we all conspire to make this happen for Royal Pancakes but instructions are so far unclear
@@Exurb1a oooo
Quadrillionaire
@@Exurb1a we'll need another reciever then.
I’m rewatching this for like the 10th time over the years and just noticed that at 11:58 you referred to the ones who waged war as “empty heads” the way the “main character” was called at the beginning, alluding to the twist at the end. Such a great video
I just realisdd this for the first time, too. I've heard this many times over the last several months since I found this channel.
this is one of the greatest works i’ve ever seen - a pure, deep illustration of dementia & age and the art & prose conjurable by the human mind - truly amazing
Listened to it more than 5 time. I always cry because it makes me think of my father and my late grandfather.
Though dementia is dominant in the story but it's used as a metaphor to explore multiple themes
Beautiful comment. Beautiful poem. I was riveted and saved it so I can watch again. And again. Journal time.
The wise turtle has returned to the realm of mortals
Yeah this guys a bro
*depressed turtle
@@liamkarmasine8793 Creativity comes along with depressing many times especially in art.
@cornyhiptsogt love your profile picturw
How did you write that an hour ago when it came out 38 minutes ago.
Never has Exurb1a not left my mind melting after one of his videos.
double negative? My mind melts also :)
Do we watch the same videos?
Kimochi (~+~)
I realy do not know why or how, but this video managed to make me cry
da pancake you could have made it rhyme, just by switching how and why. Like in the video
I just had a wholesome thought about this story.
Like pretty much every single time when I'm bored I recited The Rememberer in my head to the extent that I remembered it. Now, a moment ago I noticed it was written in the past tense and in the first person perspective from the grandfather's view. So what I got from that is that he remembered the whole thing. Since the story ended in him remembering poems and the old days together with his grandson I made this theory that they decided to write down all that happened that day, for the grandfather will have to return to the nursery at some point.
So that would mean they remembered the day they had together and wrote it down so the grandfather could look back at that day and make sure until his last days he will at least remember he had a grandson. We just got to read that text they both worked on together, which, in my opinion, is a pretty wholesome thing.
Maybe this was just really obvious and you people got all that immediately but well. It also took me about three rewatches to even understand what is happening ^^
That would also explain why the whole story is written in poetry
@@ionic7777 Yes! They both had a passion for literature.
You've remembered the rememberer to the extent you can recite it... Even just bits and pieces would be to much for my brain i can't even remember the words to my favorite song or piece which song is playing until the coarse comes in and even still the name of the song is out of reach for me i envy what the human brain can do and wish so deeply that I could remember if I could I would recite this daily but I've watched this video on repeat and come back to it every so often and cant rememeber even the name of the video if it wasn't saved in a playlist I made I fear id forget it ever existed I once remembered that it does exist but couldn't find it and panicked I felt empty and upon finding the video again had a heart touching moment only comaprable to a rebirth through religion my entire heart was clenched as if i had never seen this video pior but bits and pieces struck me as if they were lyrics in a song i had once heard passing by and to this day I come back to this video and cry my eyes out because I will never remember my heart breaks daily knowing that I know so little about my own surroundings and where I stand on this forsaken land I wish I could commit something to memory I sit here now knowing all I know could be lost tomorrow except for a few unforgettable things such as my love and the language I speak i once knew a good bit of Spanish but that has long since passed as did the memories of a younger me I'm 20 but my oldest memory is from when I was 15 its vague but thats when I met my love and so much had changed since then I should know but placing what haven't a clue I wake up and all that I know is i have a job and a love and family but id forget I have friends if they didn't text me id forget I like music if other people didn't play it sometimes if forget there's a world of wonder if someone didn't show me and ID forget the horrors of the world if I didn't see the news everyday the world I live in is so vastly different from anyone else's that my heart breaks when I remember that other people remember things when I hear someone singing from memory I feel envy jealous sadness and sometimes a weird sort of joy as i get to here that song for the first time again and again... I want to be a creator but I fear that I cannot make it muscle memory as they remember more than my brain does I want to make music art something that had a positive impact on the world but I feel negative towards even remotely trying to because tomorrow I will forget I even tried to tomorrow I will forget today and I simply cannot remember or even fathom how someone else can I cant process that people live in a entirely different world than I do it breaks me down and the only thing I have to build me up is hope and love and a dream that one day I won't have to remember anyways I can just exist and be free to forget as time passes and loved ones die and o forget they existed I can just sleep and forget and one day die
@@potatobros3347 You could try capturing your feelings and memories in drawings. In case you forget and want to refeel them or just simply remember them. Keeping a diary could also be a nice idea. Write a few lines every time you feel like it and it's done. By the end you'll have a tapestry of all your life from this point and you'll be able to go back to whenever whenever you like. The earlier you start the more of it you'll have in the future.
@@potatobros3347 about that music thing, make your memories into songs.
But as far as i can tell you know enough to do your work and all that is to do with English. So my thinking is that you tell yourself you don't know, but actually do remember, in case you didn't know, believes can shape the perception of your surroundings and since you believe that, your ability to remember is self sabotaged, after some time it becomes self reinforcing. Get some medical help because that is not normal, even people with dementia remember stuff, just not learn new things.
For poetry, I cannot write.
But every night I take battle
And every morning I fight
The same war as my every kin
And though repeated,
I never win
Through this existence,
I cannot take solace
The beginning, middle and end are all a terror
As each one feels like an incredible error.
In search for answers,
I retire shaken and tired
No original thought can bring the peace I desired
And so, I return to your perception of life
For poetry, I cannot write.
Can I please use this for a school project?
Looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool@@iammikig1443
@@iammikig1443okay
3 months and no reply
@@karsteinsvendsen7550 I don’t want to be at fault for someone potentially getting a terrible grade
My grandma passed away this week, not too much older then yours. I was okay till the dedication at the end. I haven't been able to cry about it yet, and you've gave me freedom to do so.
She experienced wars, and her husband going off to war, and her the fear of her son's being drafted.
She experienced famine, and drought, and plague. She nursed the sick back to health and she mourned the ones that she couldn't help.
But she also experienced peace, and love, and community. She lived to do crafts and arts and coloring books with me and my siblings and cousin.
We baked cookies and read books and watched movies. And she loved my family, she loved her children and grandchildren, and even got to live to meet her great grandchildren.
She never raised her voice, or got upset. She never didn't have candy to sneak to the kids. She was always knitting, and making gifts and cards for Christmas and birthdays.
She was strong, and wise, and she had love and kindness to give to everyone she met. She took care of strangers even in her old age until they had to take care of her.
And in all of my 20 young years of life she didn't miss my birthday once.
I love you Grandma. And I hope I'll be able to see you again someday.
My grandfather passed recently too, also not much older than his as well
Funny how a video so niche can touch so many people in the exact same way
Sorry to hear that.
May she rest in whatever lands she so desired
Zach Erickson My grandmother died last year, we went to see her grave today. May they both Rest In Peace.
Rest in piece
R.I.P. Thanks for sharing.
This is what happens when the god of existential crisis tries poetry
He could do with having a bit more existentialism.
And fails miserably...
@@frazerlaing7264 i dislike you
Whys that?
_tries?_
It’s lovely that this was dedicated to his grandmother, also the ending might have made me tear up a little
MIGHT HAVE?
@@felipevalencia1141 potentially
im crying becuz of the ending-
@@nexusless yea it’s very emotional, he is very good at what he does
My Grammy died a couple years back.
Can’t stop crying starting from 23:00 till the end. This reminds me of my grandfather who has recently started to lose his memory and barely remembers me. But i do remember him and all the things he did for me. I love my grandfather and I remember everything for the both of us.
“We ditched the milk but kept the bottle so ask away young Aristotle” that’s a bar
For real!
*intelligence... say it aloud smart ass🤐
Every line could be analized and it would even be annoying like literally analysis
Im gonna be that guy yea i kno it i wanna see the world burn in hate.
Im gonna do it.
I'm the 421st like shower me in your tears
Mate I said the same
I’m starting to believe this guy is from the far future and has come back to tell us everything that ever happened between now and his time
FaTL Unique I’d believe it cause he made a vid on how to rule the world on time travel
Should stock up on bananas then.
BANANAS
Ive been thinking this for a while
I believe this is a prequel to "and then we'll be okay"
Funny how the mind works....I listen to this long enough, and I start reading everything like it's a poem, looking for everything to rhyme and flow.
3 years later, and about 20 listenings, still bringing delight to my ears and a mishmash of thoughts to my head
“How does one blow up a moon?”
“By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it”
Ah, there you are, existential/depression/galaxy turtle.
*as if God had struck it with his mighty galactic co-*
There is another method.
A yellow superfast tentacle monster that wants to be a teacher could do it.
@@sirapple589 That's true
@@sirapple589 ehhh..... Never liked a show more than ac, thank you for making that reference
@Sir Apple you mean a mouse
How old are you?
-"I'm 800 years old."
Exurb1a, an intellectual: "Let's say there is a tree that needs watering once a century, then I've filled my watering can eight times."
How long till we can think like this?
There is a sparrow, and within it's beak it gently holds a piece of felt. Once every million years it flies across a tall mountain, draping the piece of felt across it. When that piece of felt has worn that mountain down to a mere hill, we will have only begun. That is how long it will take.
Or something..
he means the tree they read under with the sparrows
But if she’s 800 years old but with the body of a 12 years old ? That’s the true question
22:54
@@ilanlm1 the true question is really is she legal.
My dad's passing was hard. Demntia made the final years of his life a malaise of melocholy miasma. The struggle to retain the thoughts of inspirational rhetoric he bestowed unto me was made harder each day, yet something during this time of caring for him happened... I ended up being the one to inspire.
When I brewed his daily coffee, when we sat and talked, I patiently awaited for the waxing clarity of his waining mind to be brought forth. Sometimes I'd get to have my dad back for 5 minutes... those were the happiest days I could ever get. Sometimes he'd be gone behind the fog, and my hopes that he would return again kept me going. It's those short moments of talking to the real version of my father that made caring for him worth it.
And though he never told me, I knew behind my father's eyes that he was always proud of the man I had become. I was fortunate enough to have my dad's " true moment of clarity" a full hour in which he dispelled nothing but the love he had for me and the lack of fear he had for going to the other side. I feel that whatever awaits him, must be better than being trapped in a vessel where the lights are dimming.
Bro im so sorry for losing your dad man. This video made the feelings of losing my grandmother to dementia resurface, she died when i was like 11 and I guess it was sad back then but now 6 years later i suddenly miss her so much. I can't Imagine the pain my dad had to go through seeing her deterioate, she used to call my dad thinking i was in her apartment and being worried. I thought it was funny at the time but damn it must have hurt for my dad :(
To my dear CZcams algorithm ,
Now we're fucking talking ,
bring more of that this way
EXISTENTIAL CRISIS MAN IS BACK WOOOOOO
edit:
i am now very sad after watching it through
"EXISTENTIAL CRISIS MAN"
HOW DARE YOU ASSUME HIS SPECIES HE IS THE TURTLE
The end was kind of sad
This made me feel a certain way
That words will not portray
I've been good with language since my youth
But I forget that I lie , not lay
But though I lie , I'm not a liar , for I speak the truth
I and you both desire that life will treat us good
Treat us well is the correction
But now rhyming's my intention
And correction's wrong as well
Irony is fun as hell
This is not a comment , but an entry
A long way to say " I like poetry"
I loved it
This just makes me think that the only reason to perpetuate the human species is to tell each other more stories, it seems to be the only worthwhile thing we do, inventing things in our heads that aren't out there.
It’s how we started…l guess it’s the thing we are the best at.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't crying by the end of this.
I'd say most of us are, or at least feeling the emotion that triggers it. Simply stunning writing
I am just in tears at the end almost bawling, such a memorable story, so how does one write this? as to make people cry in remembrance?
as would all of us
Im surprised you made it to the end
I am too.
I woke today, not expecting
To find myself so deep reflecting
On another man’s accepting
Of our people’s grand exception
Nor did I expect to find
Countless others of my kind
Freeing poems of the mind
In this CZcams comments section
But that’s the beauty, is it not?
That despite our world’s persistent rot
We can exult, our rampant lot
In a world we won’t live to see
For when I fall, to time or blade
And must pass through golden shade
I shall do so, unafraid
If only they remember me
wow
Hello friend, (such a funny word friend is) I'm writing this as I am seeking your help in a project of mine
Hello good sir can I get some tips on writing a poem
I can't poem
kassie rose Hello friend. I must confess myself intrigued. What sort of project?
I was taking a walk and when the twist was revealed, I had tears fall out of my eyes while everyone on the walking track stared at me.
9:45 “how does one blow up a moon? By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it.”
This part was so impactful to me, and has been since the very first time I listened to this. I have shared this with friends and teachers alike, but the way it has changed my life is unmeasurable.
nukes be like
The path of humanity currently to lead to two destinations from my knowledge
-either we stay on the path we are on right now till its point of no return, refuse to learn to look at where we are going and choosing to stay in the illusion of what we have in the present. Money, fame, that useless thing you bought off amazon the other day, they will be gone eventually. However, it isn't looking like we are seeing this. Most of the people who rule us and run this 8 billion gear clockwork we call society (and a lot of other people who do not have that responsibility) have proven to be some of the most incapable and close minded people (Ironically, the people in power who do the best job using it normally have the smallest share of power). Their is only a few years of that oil, and I doubt we will be liking the end result of its depletion. Where this path of ignorance and self destructive selfishness will lead to? Probably destruction and chaos.
-However, Their is another path. If we allow ourselves to look to be successful in the long run of civilization on mass and treat power and control over society as a responsibility and put people of responsibility, intelligence, resourcefulness, determination, wit, bravery and good intentions for that task, we may thrive as a society and be known as the species who defied our own grave fate made by our elders hands, override our mistakes for the sake of a better world that could last for millennia or (if we nail this well enough) eons
We have more power than any species that came before had. We can either chose to take that responsibility and improve our world to help the generations of tomorrow. Or we can choose to take the path we are on now, either killing ourselves suddenly, or slowly descending into madness chaos. Every day, every hour, every second of your life, your parents lives, your neighbors lives, your friends lives, your girlfriend or boyfriends lives, your coworkers lives we go farther towards the event horizon of our own fate at our own hands. We can still change it, as long as we don't pass that point, but every second that passes this change to the second path requires more power, more will, more determination, which all at once is becoming a scarcity among our world.
The clock is ticking ladies and gentlemen. Every soul that takes up the will to defy our own ignorance is a slight push against the tide leading to destruction. with enough determination, wit, bravery, resourcefulness, responsibility and intelligence, we can reverse this path entirely and build a world beyond our wildest dreams. We just need the manpower
I am writing this at 11:08 PM after beating Deltarune Chapter 2 Because my ADHD wanted to get inspirational and philosophical for no apparent reason
Exurb1a, I hope you know that in spite of all the memes filling the comments, us viewers really deeply appreciate what you do. Your poetry, creativity...sometimes I really do forget you're not some mythical being telling stories from the ether. Thanks for making this video (even if you had a hard time). Hope you're doing okay with this virus havoc.
I concur!
Love this message because it's everything I wanted to say but was afraid I'd repeat someone else's words. Best of luck to you and your writing! Take care.... and your grandma as well :)
assuming he's not a mythical being telling stories from the ether
Thank you for saying it, my english sucks and I didn't know how to say this with my limited vocalubary.
Literally
I did not expect this today, but I'm so grateful for it. Exurb1a, you're one of the very few who can play the quietest stings in my heart
Well thank you very, very much indeed
@@Exurb1a ur so sexy
This video actually made me cry, thank you Exurb1a.
I find it simply amazing how 42 people lacked finger dexteriety and failed to tap the like button
@@jimb473 49 now alas! Some people are dense.
"The secret to acquiring everything? Buy it. How to see far? Squint. And how to live well? Well..."
It's sooo fucking good. A satisfying line indeed. I'll try to be graceful in stealing it.
This video is literally my adult bedtime story when I can't fall asleep at night. This story gives me peace as I play it while trying to drift off. I've come to this web address many a slumber. Thank you, Exurb1a.
Not even gonna lie but this was an incredible poem and story
No more likes sorry I took the last one
I've learned so much, but I can't verbally explain
Kevin Sinram I’ll like yours instead
English teachers
When Watching these in misery
A friendly soul calls out to me
With passion in his poet words
He hits me deeply to my nerve
I had a gun put to my head
The hand that held it almost dead
But his wise words did stir in me
Memories of being free
The dying man who's hand is mine
Decides instead to come alive
To kick addiction in the teeth
And be the man I aught to be
Seeking freedom from the drug
The Turtle's words feel like a hug
And though he knows not who I be
He will always have a friend in me
Abccddbbefgbhhbb rhyme scheme just because I can
Crap, that comment is absolutely touching...
God damn stay strong
"have a friend in me"
I was here for the first time when the video came out and there was another poetry thread that started, glad to see another one here
I was looking for a distraction
I found a poem so beautifully crafted
You'd think the author was grafted
Now im ashamed of my action
This made me feel some sentiment
The ones you feel once a year
Made me think in dreadful fear
All about the nature of the dent
Our house, our planet
And the more we crave and crave
The more we are filling up that grave
Time is slowly passing
Soon enough you might not remember anything
Not your dad, not your sister, not your husband
All because of one bad bastard
The one who makes us forget
The ones you meet, the ones you met
All the more the worse it will get
So I must thank them for evertything
That doesn't exclude you or anything
Thank you for your effort
I'll then pat you for your endevour
Every posting you might present
I shall share it with my friend
Thank him for his devotion
You made me feel real emotion ❤
exurb1a: does "and then well be okay" and "epsilon dies backwards"
everyone: holy shit thats good
exurb1a: wanna see me do it again?
Legit af
because theyre all the same universe, i hope he adds more videos to this trilogy
And then we'll be okay fucked me up real good, I was bawling my eyes out
isn’t it upsilon
@@watermomantic4828 wait, srsly? Can someone make a timeline for this?
Edit: so upsilon dies backward is the first one right?, then uh..this one then what the last one is we'll be okay? The island that the narator and sebastian made? Im confused? Help?
Does agatha and oliver still alive? What happened to the zeus? What the hell happened in the trilogy? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?!
I just realized how great a grandfather you'd make.
KorterKaks imagine your grandad whips this story out before bed and you enter an existential crisis aged 6
Grandfathers are underrated
God damn, ive listened to this so many times yet it still manages to draw tears
"Sir, whatever ordeal you just been through, has perhaps releaved the sense from you"
How is no one talking about how this man can write a story and then make it all poetry and half an hour long
Did he write this
@@zavix4374 Yeah
I quit 2:21 minutes in, it doesn't mean anything unless someone can tell me what it does mean.
@@Ignirium Its a 30 minute story with some twists and lessons. It didn't really make sense till the final twist for me, I then started crying. I highly recommend watching the whole thing instead of just the first 2 minutes.
@@juniper2739 I just found that it's about a "fear of ageing."
I use philosophy(even art/music) to find understanding about meaningful and difficult subjects about life. I have criticisms about the utility of Poetry to convey meaning; mainly how it can communicate anything concisely, concretely, explicitly. I don't find Poetry useful for that reason, It works a lot like "Music" which allows its meaning to penetrate a person deeply, but i still don't know what it means... If the truth about the subject matter was easier to find in bedded within its communication, i'd like it, i can't find it so easily with poetry.
If this guy ever makes a movie will pay 10,000,000 shells, up front!
That’s a lot of shade time.
banana coin is the true way to go!
you cannot represent his level of genius with visuals. A movie wouldn't work
I'll triple it!
@@thescarecrow897 It might work if it was his own and not tarnished by those in hollywood.
Im crying rn. Beautiful work!
Ahh. My father who died was like to your protagonist. Before he left for the next isle, I swam with him in the seas of sound that are Elliot, Coleridge, Whitman, Whitehead, Tennyson, Hopkins, and Blake. As they closed the hatch on his last vessel, I spoke him Thomas, as he desired: “Rage, rage against the dying of the light...” Thank you for this story that allowed me to visit him once more.
"You have been honourably discharged from being dishonourably in charge"
This is what I'm here for
A chiastic structure as well
Is the result "in charge" or just "honorably discharged?"
Honorably discharge is the result, being dishonorably in charge is the causation. 21:31 btw for anyone looking for it
thank you ass cheecks
"Here we ditched the milk and kept the bottle,
So ask away, young Aristotle"
This one really got me.
What does it mean exactly? Just that society there had lost focus on the actual purpose of what wealth achieved?
I don't think I understood it properly either. Explain, please?
Instead of drinking milk as infants, we now drink alcohol the same way as adults. Unquenchably, as if for sustenance. All to alleviate our yearning feeling.
@@gentlydown41 @MiraculousMed Same as UltimateKyuubiFox said already, they changed the means, not the behavior. This reflects how today's adults are mere affection and care-dependent as a child would be, only that the adults changed the way they are coping with the issue, not necessarily how to fix it or get over it.
I think this really hits in everyone's adulthood because the one thing that should have been properly educated and which would've helped with today's problems is emotional resilience/intelligence.
I personally think that they're keeping the bottle to store alcohol since they feel that they no longer a child and now they don't need the milk anymore
I’m going through the process of accepting losing my own grandmother now, at 94 and most of the 95th. The timing made it feel so relevant, but even that aside, this is beautiful, sad, happy and compelling. Thank you for making it ❤
I can't describe with speak noir writing but the conclusion was intense.
Now I'm crying alone in my bed, and the tears burn immense.
Thank you for this work of art.
Even though it feels like everything is falling apart.
After a half-hour of deep thought, I have come to one conclusion. Exurb1a doesn't like war.
It would be nice to avoid it
@@Exurb1a Right? War is sucky, without even experiencing it but only seeing it, it makes me feel numb and lethargic like I don't even want to move if war ever happens
WERE GONNA F*CKING DIE ITS ALL A DREAM😧🤯
Neither do I.
@@Exurb1a war is an inevitability, there will always be people, cruel and clever, to take charge and cause chaos, therefore there is always a need for those, kind and wise, to take charge and stop their madness, whether it be a bloody war, an economic war, a political war, or a social war, there will always be war, for if there isn't, the world will suffer.
Between five thousand other comments I'll see mine buried and forgotten, but I have to put to words what I now feel.
You, man, are the greatest content creator I have seen, your videos make me feel things no other can, every time I watch you, my mind is blown apart, and then I have some time to recuperate until another one goes out and I'm back here to have it blown again, it's like a drug now.
But above all, thank you, because you put this out here for us to see, because you share this part of you with us without expecting anything, and for that, I thank you. Thank you.
You know what? I am making this comment my back ground, so That I do not forget it easily.
Thank you for articulating the exact feeling I have for Exurb1a!
I agree with this more than words can say.
I felt the exact same about him...
Until I read this. It's sickening. I'm sharing it not to ruin your joy, but because people deserve to know the truth.
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@@loerpiou How do we even know that it is real?
I have never understod poetry, I have never understod the art of it. But now, now i question that stance. I think after this I do understand poetry. 15 years old, death anxiety, a head that is fucking killing me, and a family I don't ever want to spend time with. I do not fear anything other then death and other people. I do not fear anything more then growing old and losing who i am, i do not fear any other thing more then losing my loved ones and freinds. But in the end i am selfish, i would rather live a 1000 years with only myself then live a human life with friends around me. One can't make an educated choice on this matter until they have lived a 1000 years, but the choice I am making right now is to fear death more then anything else. I want my thoughs, my mind and soul, i want me, to still be around when the skys turn red. I want me to still be around when we will have to leave earth because we could only live in the mercy of or sun for so long. I want to be on that rocket that takes us to a new world. I want to help with my knowledge and my strength. I want to se poeple change, i want to see children grow up. I want to experience everything there is to experience before i die. If i did not die before i had experinced everything i would stay forever. But i am mearly 15 years of age. I do not have the wisdom to answer the question i ask myslef, "When i die, will i be happy with my life or will i long for more?" When i die will i not stay longer, dont i want to do something more on this gods forsaken planet? Will i not want to keep feeding my human desires like i have done all my life and will continue doing?
Nay, this 15 year old does not understand poetry. He does only understand that ofter this poem he was a crying mess not being able to get the fear of death out of his head. He does not understand poetry, I only understand my fears, and that I do all to well.
Sir i would like to ask what death is.What is the fear without fear .What is the meaning without the mistery.
I understand you and hear you, all too well. I am different yet in thought and self exchange, the same. I hear you. Thank you for your thought provoking comment and honesty. Im here to talk and exchange philosophy.
This is why I love philosophy because it helps ease that worry. All I want is a simple life and be happy but I still have that nagging voice saying that if I don't do somehtong great then I'll be nothing. All I want is to be simple.
This is probably the most beautiful representation of dementia I've ever seen. I watched it a few months ago, linking it to my grandad with dementia. It was so insanely poetic but still real.
Now a few months later, He's passed on. I remembered this video a few days ago, and finally worked up the effort to watch it. It holds a completely different meaning for me now, but its just as amazing as the first time. Thank you for telling the story of so many who can tell it themselves anymore.
'I'm not crying, you're crying!'
Haven't been moved like this in a while. Thank you.
SKADADDY
That kinda sounds weird
same lmao
@@JM-kj3dh brub he is an ex-CS pro,it's natural for him to be great at Valo. And hmmmm,I believe that his playstyle is currently the the highest tier in Valo. It's weird considering that he is from NA. Same with Brax and Shroud
"What is it, may I ask, that you remember?" "Ah, I know all the shows on cartoon network. And in all my years and places I've been, that little pickle man was the funniest shit I've ever seen."
Ahahahahhahahahaha i love this
Yup
Take my thumbs up and get out...
“Say, wheres the island of 21’s? The og memers and lords of the craft?”
PICKLE RIIIIIIIIICK
This is the first story that made me cry and sob. Thank you.
Makes me cry all over again.
let’s just thank the world for giving us this man who wakes some up and helps others sleep good day to you
I won't take the compliment, but my god, that is such, such a good line
@@Exurb1a, I don't know you, I don't know your name, I don't know your life story, but you're my favorite artist. Ever. With any medium. I truly truly mean that
@@antonioskontonasakis Thank you, Tony, that's ever so kind! Much love
@@Exurb1a It was random recommendations of CZcams the way I found your channel, the first video universe in 4 mins and next and next. Never had listened such literature such creativity I was fan from the day one and I found you in the lockdown period, my greatest gem. From that day I continue to listen your videos like I'm addicted to it. It help me to complete my essay in essay competition from 'thoughts about writing' later came castrovitity that was too good. Then, in perspective of seeing world thank you for everything. Handling myself in tough times with your videos, the humour, the deep meaning like picture of lady in the border of line of understanding everything is just perfect. I had even posted in Facebook "thoughts from deadbed". Currently I am a student studying but its been a bucket list when I will be independent I will be your galaxy patron and explore and read all your books,I will one day and if possible may we will meet one day. That would be cool, that would be a treat, One day.
Thank you exurb1a 💜💜💜
Much love than you expected from Nepal 🇳🇵🇳🇵🇳🇵
So true
"You have been honourably discharged of being dishonourably in charge." - oof
Loved that line
And seeing as I'm in the military the recounting of the old world really struck a cord with me.
Damage has been dealt
and who might this "oof" you mention be?
@@youdontknowme3935 i do not know you but i know you are funny.
Okay, this is one of the BEST pieces of literature I have heard/read (?) in my life, until this point. It's so emotional, impactful, entertaining, and engaging throughout. I honestly cannot articulate my thoughts about this AT ALL. The ending, the language, the patches of humor and the plot twist, all of it so brilliant and wonderful and amazing! Probably no one will read this, but I feel the need to get my thoughts out there.
Stuff I Thought of During the Video ---- SPOILERS AHEAD
At 11:48 the friend of sorts says, ' in their empty heads,' and the main character was called empty head by his grandfather in the letter--so perhaps he was one of the people from the barbaric times, and his 'friend' is his grandfather? Or maybe the grandfather bit is a bit of a stretch? Idk. I'm still watching it through.
EDIT: Woah! I love how the seven and eight were memorizing a certain book or speech, to jot down on their new homeworld--just like in Fahrenheit 451, and I know Exurb1a's fond of Ray Bradbury, so I think that's a neat allusion (whether intentional or not)! Or maybe I'm just overlooking into things...
EDIT: HOLY---so he's old? That must be why the woman said, 'Look at what the centuries have done to your memory,' and she says that he was from the generation of the fall, of the old world. That must be why he's also referred to as empty head... by his grandfather? The description says it's about the fear of ageing--maybe the fact that one day everyone will be in a nursery, being taken care of by nurses and doctors while their memories fade and their cognitive abilities decline, they get a sort of dementia and live hellishly, and then die.
My grandad passed away with dementia a couple years ago, this to me and many others is the most beautiful piece of art you have produced yet. You will be remembered, your ways with words are unlike any other.
I know you probably wont see this but back in september of 2019, shortly after you released you video titled "Sleep is just death being shy" my best friend, a huge fan and long time follower of you, took his own life. This video gave me so many emotions im crying while writing this, thank you for being a part of his life, and shaping him to be the person i knew, even if for a short while.
My condolences, mate. I'll give you an upvote so Exurbia might see this.
i really wish i could write something more helpful or comforting or time worthy, but i'm just young and cant even imagine your experience. i just hope you're doing alright with all my heart, stay safe
Noah, I can't even begin to imagine what that must've felt like. I hope you and their family are in a better place now, and if you're not, take every little thing he or she has taught you, utilize it, and think to yourself "See, ______? I did the thing."
You can do the thing, and the day you are gone, I hope you can tell them that you did it
His videos are truly remarkable, nontheless this fascinating community with people like him and you who share close to poetic messages gives (if no one else) at least me chills... On how percious the little things in life can be. My condolences buddy
my condolences too
My father died on April 23rd, 2020 and my mother-in-law died on February 11th, 2020, the two most important people in my son's life next to his mother and me. My father told me he was feeling unwell on April 1st, went into the hospital on April 3rd, and died 22 days later. I could not see him before he died. My son is only 10, so he's not ready for this--not their deaths, not this art. I was not ready either. The Remember came up in my feed when it released but I couldn't bring myself to watch it until tonight when I heard the words "grandfather" and "empty head" and thought about my son and my father, how he teased my son about knowing so much and so little at the time. My father was a mathematician, but he got lost along the way and found himself bored on the isle of 6 with many shells and too much time--too little as it turns out. I want to say thanks for this. To exurb1a, to the people who don't have imaginations like exurb1a such as me, but can still pay attention and listen to such a unique mind. This work, and all of your work, has truly been a gift to me, and to my son, I hope, eventually, said he.
I hope things go well for you man and stay strong
That’s very strong, I feel your emotion.
Your son's going have a well of strength
I try not to go through the comments section too often as I'm frankly concerned about reading damning criticism I'll never be able to get out of my head, but messages like yours keep me sane. From the very bottom of my heart, thank you enormously. I'm so, so sorry to hear about the loss of your father and mother-in-law. The timing is absolutely horrendous, I can't even imagine how difficult it must be. I hope you and your son are doing well nonetheless, and thanks so much for the kind words. All the love in the world, and thanks again!
@@Exurb1a So even giants fear the ants bite.
listened to this on the bus this morning and even though the journey was conveniently 28 minutes long, i still almost missed my stop cause i was just physically STUNNED by the ending. fair play turtle man, fair play
it's very hard to make me cry. This isn't the first time you have done it. Good job. Very good job.
The same goes for me.
"As though God Himself had struck it with His mighty galactic co-"
- Exurb1a
But nay
2:37 for replay
Lmao
𓂸𓁟
mighty galactic cock?
Me, awake unreasonably early: Boy I sure wish there was something to do for 30 mins while my brain starts.
Exurb1a: Yes
Stuart Simon same.
Damn, I must've listened to this over 10 times over the years. My favourite poem of all times is by a youtuber. What a time to be alive. Idk who tf you are exurb1a, but thank you for this words .
Another occasional rewatch done. Once again, utterly brilliant.
Keep going mate. Never stop with your absolutly brilliant videos.
Me: *isolation related anxiety and stress*
Turtleman: *uploads*
Me: *nervous sweating*
me: FARTS
lol...
any time i see nervous sweating i just think of the key and peele skit where jordan is just dripping
@@splatmat8360 lol
One of the things that haunt me the most in this world are reddit meme format youtube comments, It pains me mentally that I may have to see these everytime I peer into the comment section.
I was absolutely crying by the end. My grandmother has dementia and lives in a retirement home so this hit me really hard. I want to be there for her like this as she grows older.
By age the moments we´ve spent grow faint and dull, for i wished you where still bright and tall. I know your true face however time´s tooth is unforgiving for it will make you loose it all.
Dang I wish to never grow old and get dementia in any way, i fear of loosing myself and becoming something i wish not to be.. I miss my grandmother like she used to be...
I was not prepared for the sudden dose of reality
Dementia runs in my maternal line. It’s the thing that chases all of us down...
My grandmother had dementia too before she passed away, she forgot her home, her life, her being. But the one this she remembered was me. As she lied on her bed I was the only one she could recall, but as I was a child I was not there when she wispered my name then pass away as she did so. Though life has treated me harshly, and faded my emotions, this is the only memory that makes me cry. I wish you the best pantalimon, and remember; only the things no one remember, truly dies.
Yeah it's really hard. Dementia is a bitch. My grandmother had it the last 10 years before she died, gradually worsening. And I spent three years looking after the elderly, it's one of the most horrible diseases to witness. Don't forget her, go and visit her. So many families avoid going because they can be crazy and difficult, but it will make her day every time. Until she forgets who you all are... :/
It just occurred to me that the speaker (the Grandfather) recounts this story in verse because in his dementia, only the poetry really sticks.
I clicked on this by random chance yesterday, the day that my grandfather died. He was 98 and 3/4 years old, his birthday a mere 2 months away. He was every one of these things your grandmother was to you, and he was the last of a generation. I am currently crying and I just wrote what I felt. Thank you for this, I didn't realize I had all this feeling in me since I'm still numb at the moment.
I love you granddad, you never gave up on me, and because of that, I don't think I'll ever give up on me either. Not because it's what I'd have done, but because it's what you no doubt are still doing. Thank you for believing in me, for telling me how proud you were of me every single damn day that I saw you, and for blessing me with story after story and knowledge and wisdom and care and love and joy and remembrance and all these things I can now only realize I took for granted. I will find the words to speak at your funeral, and I will muster the courage to stand up and do so, because ill be damned if its hard or if ill fall apart, because you were worth it all from the start. I was born into a family that loved and cherished me, headed by a man with the utmost dignity. And while I sit here a blubbering mess, crying and thinking of all that I missed and the days together I'll no longer get to have with you and the memories of your voice speaking my name that will only ever exist in my mind from now until forever, do I find some semblance of the words I wish I had told you. I love you granddad with all my heart, you were not just the head of our family with a big heart, but a friend and father that chose now he would part. I hope you're with grandmom up in the clouds and feel safer and warmer without a care in the world. I hope you two dance into infinity together and happy at last, no longer by the world now beneath you. You've given rise to a family that loves you deeper than ever and that feels broken but able to carry on your legacy. And as one of the only two children left with your name, my brother with the same, will I carry myself into the future with pride and with dignity that only you could have given me. I am afraid of the world but know that I can because I've had the best damn family in all the land watching me carefully and guiding me gently with a kind tender hand that I could always feel softly. So thank you for the life you've given me and the blessings of your words. Thank you for letting me travel with you and talk your ear off till the sun sets and the night takes the sky. Thank you for being my biggest fan and for loving me always, and for believing in me when the world seemed to have nothing left for me. Thank you for seeing the possibility and willing to bet it all on me, so you just watch from up there in the sky cuz I'm gonna make you damn proud. I fucking love you granddad. I'll see you when I see you, and thank you for having a birthday.
"So you think age leads to becoming some great sage, do you?"
Had no idea how meaningful this was at the beginning.
Trey a poem/story to enjoy 🧐👉🏽czcams.com/video/L6AFC5U3qUU/video.html
@@wutaeworld I'd say "don't advertise your videos here" to you, but given exurb1a literally got his name because his main acc "exurbia" got banned for self advertising on r/videos I think you get a pass.
@@ashleybyrd2015 youtube accounts can get banned for advertising on reddit? hows that work?
@@alexrogers777 Can't quite remember why his youtube acc got banned, It was probably mass flagging or something like that, though.
@@ashleybyrd2015 if his youtube acc got banned doesnt that mean hes ban evading?
Oh my god man, this is incredible. I'm genuinely speechless, I've been attempting to put together the words to say just how blown away I am every time I watch one of your incredible videos for a good while now, and I can't. You push the boundaries for the quality of these every time you upload, and that's not something I can say for any other person creating art, whether that's CZcams, music, drawing, writing, anything. You turn my world upside down every time I see one of these, and you inspire me to no end!
I always look forward to uploads! His story’s never tire or disappoint.
you said it for me
here's a couple other amazing channels dude brew, KURZGESAGT in a nutshell, apeture, LEMMiNO great ones similar in style to this channel other great ones are
jon bois
, Kreal Tube, Code bullet, GradeAUnderA, The Thought Emporium, summoning salt, Micheal Reeves I did a thing. check them out i swear every singe one of those channels is worth at least watching one of those videos but especially the first ones if you like that style a lot you probably no in a nut shell but still hope u enjoy
BeepBoopboi while all of the channels you mention do create top tier content, none are as emotional or brilliant as exurb1a’s content. The only thing that comes remotely close is The Egg by kurzgesagt but that ones just a mindfuck.
God's mighty galactic co-
Had the pleasure of temporarily not remembering the whole thing even though I watched it back before
The story was and still is impactful it made me cry
I come back to this time after time. This is poetry. This is literature. It makes me feel like the most beloved classic.
They will analyze this in English class for centuries to come
If...only
This will be someone's responsibility to memorize in a millennia or two
Alas, it's too long to recite on tik tok, so kids won't notice :(
@@medicat6494 Farenheit 451?
@@parishna4882 As the average age of a tik toker who loved every moment of this you're absolutely right
"The greatest work of the quarantine era "- future literature and philosophy classes
I can legitimately see this becoming literature in a few decades
Within the decade will this artefact bring light.
Oh shut up you don't seriously believe this will go on for longer then a few months (or, in the case of wave two, perhaps half a year)
I get it, everybody wants to feel all important and go down in history rn, grow up.
Revisiting after 4 years, because I remembered how good it was.
My grandfather passed away only a week ago. This video, as well as "and then we'll be okay" summarize my thoughts better than I ever could. Thank you, for making me feel.
Three default emotions to feel after watching Exurb1a:
“I’m going to go ahead and curl up in a corner and cry for 10 minutes or so”
“Existence is meaningless, dimensions are relative, time is irrelevant, and free will is an illusion”
“What the hell did I just watch?”
-Option D: “Aaaaaaw”-
Option E: sEND help pLOX
Option E: *uncontrollable weeping*
I love option C
Dr Bright that so be facts tho
Dr.bright, just in case you forgot, please take into consideration rule #160 when talking in CZcams comment sections. Do not even think about it.
this could probably be seen as one of the best presents a grandmother could ever recive
Receive
This may be the greatest CZcams video I've ever seen
After watching this for the 6th or 7th time I can safely say that this is my favourite video on CZcams.
That was legitimately touching and well-written. For school I have to a project on a poet of my choosing and you just bought yourself that spot.
Jebedo Nackle good luck fellow patron
I already did a project like that but I wish I found this earlier
Can we just acknowledge how incredible of a storyteller Exurb1a is?
He is pretty good
He consistently makes me cry with his stories and I love him for it
Probably preaching to the choir, but uh... have you read his ebooks? I highly recommend the Fifth Science or the Prince of Milk. Bloody marvelous, both of em. Not quite sure which I love more, but were a gun to my head, I'd probably go with the Fifth Science.
I've just finished listening to this for the first time on the day that I leave for university. The day that I may well leave my grandfather who knows who I am for the last time. Albeit deeply saddening. You have brought a moment of peace to my fearing soul tonight. And for that... I thank you
I love language and wit; always have.
And in my unhumble opinion, you're an excellent writer, my friend.
They say you die 3 times
Your actual death
When your remains decay to dust
And then when your name is uttered for the last time
My name will disappear before I decay to dust lol
Basically like in Coco
WakaTP R6 aha same and it’s a sad truth
then you might not die if the name you use will be as common as Ben
But in my religion the burn the body to ashes, so basically 2 of my deaths is merged into one.
This is the modern poetry of the 21st century. We look back on old poems like ‘Charge of the Light Brigade’ and ‘In Flanders Fields,’ but I do hope that in the future, these are the types of poems that will be for our generation.
videos are the modern medium of story telling, so it's likely that a lot of the famous poetry that gets passed down will be in video form. Although the poetry that we study now is really just the most famous poets, not necessarily the best.
Dm this is/was good - past present future 27:50 bless your grandma as yours is 98 and 3 quarters, mine was 99 and a half, and I miss her sorely :(...and miss her stories
Do you ever think about how we are at the peak of art, with nowhere to go but up. This video, a relatively unheard of poem even by poem standards - but absolutely fantastic, with MILLIONS of views and THOUSANDS of comments preserved possibly for all time, a discussion around one painting in an art gallery containing the entire world at our fingertips. I can't not imagine an ancient forum, some version of a court reporter only able to chisel out the speech of maybe a few important people. A stone that might make one or two thesis's once found in modern times. One might hope that in a thousand years internet archeologists, future anthropologists might one day find a backup of this trove of art, that could sustain the needs of hundreds of thesis's written for every piece, comments that could give our descendents a view into our lives that would be beyond astonishing for us to have for our own ancestors. The future is really coming, and one day I hope the world gets to see this again, and people will know you loved your grandma just as Sebastian said.
I like to believe this is in the same world of “and then we’ll be okay”
The Exirb1verse
God, please make that happen
the existential crisis extended cinematic universe!
More of a parallel universe if you will.
They lock up demented people under the waves for deeds done but the few in the name of collective guilt. Sounds quite a bit more like a vindictive cult society.
Moral of the story :
To live well one needs
LOADS OF DRUGS AND HIGH STRENGTH BEER
Greetings, @@harrycullen2213 I want you to know that I intentionally took the 70th like for myself.
It belongs to me now.
Kind Regards,
An Asshole
I don't think u get the point
@@megaredscoutlive5289 wooosh
@@megaredscoutlive5289 no, you don't get the point
U right
I can’t count the number of times I’ve revisited this video. I listen to this story before bed to help me sleep when I’m really anxious or overwhelmed and need something to help me get my mind off things. It’s like the perfect bedtime story for my inner child. Thank you for this wonderful piece of art.
This so undescribably beautiful. I listen to this on a monthly basis at least. Never have I ever enjoyed a single video- no, a single story this much. It is perfectly told and perfectly said and brings me to tears everytime it's been read. Thank you exurbia for existing, thank you for all your amazing, deep and thought provocing videos and stories and thank you for this one as well.
"and then we'll be okay" feels like a sequel to this, the new gods are the ones who left on the spaceship, leaving the old to revert back to base instincts, and the women from the story is one of sebastions grand children, this may be a stretch, but it feels like they fit together a bit too seamlessly
So I'll gladly tipsily admit that was totally where I was hoping to go with this. I really wasn't trying to build a shit version of Middle-earth, but that was secretly the plan
@@Exurb1a i love this video even more now god it makes so much sense
@@malaise7110 x2
@@Exurb1a Dude..so...the old folks here..they stay..."old" ?
@@Exurb1a Is the video about the star who became a white hole exploded back in time also connected to this?