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It's amazing that the internet has brought me someone talking about Nietzsche over a Street Lights cover. Sisyphus, thanks for aiming and hitting right at the center of my heart.
I'm a bipolar artist. During my last mania I was planning to build a street legal car out of wood. With therapy and medication I finally figured out that I didn't really need a wooden automobile, but my therapist said with my talent I could have probably built it. Creativity without direction is insanity. I know I could build it, but what would a practical purpose be?
the purpose of art can be simply to be different, do it. don’t talk yourself out of it. why not do it anyways? you can do anything you set your mind to. doing takes you to more places than not doing. good luck friend I believe in you every step of the way❤️
“Being mentally ill is not an excuse for being a jackass.” You’re right, Pete. But it should give us the benefit of the doubt when we sincerely seek to remedy our jackassery. We are as honest in our remorse as we are in our ignorance. It’s a disease. Would you call a cancer patient a jackass for vomiting somewhere inappropriate? Then don’t call a bipolar person a jackass for having to endure a manic episode whilst having to be in the spotlight 24/7, please. I can’t even imagine. I’m one of the lucky ones who gets to work out 99% of my manic jackassery at home or with my therapist or friends who understand how to keep me down and level. It’s all about having good people around you who understand you and your special needs.
Same here and I agree with you. Not only that but for I do at times post outrageous comments while in this frenzy state. I apologize to some expect for the ones that I know that a simple apology would be mute, to these postings I usual just make a parody of my own illness as a way to hint to others that even though it was me it wasn't the right me they were dealing with.
I see what you're saying and mostly agree with you. I'm not bipolar but I have other mental health problems that make me act irrationally sometimes. But, I think some people put there dont want to get better. Take my father for example, he probably has bipolar, hes abusive to everyone around him, and he does not want help. Hes NOT most bipolar people, but some are like him. I think people like this should be held accountable becuase if they're not then they will keep acting badly towards others. Even myself.
He isn't going down to a low or depressed state, according to himself. He is Bipolar disorder type 1, do some research. If on YT, choose a channel where they KNOW what they are talking about, because this guy hasn't a clue. I have Bipolar disorder, type 2. Very short and simplified: Type 1. From just a little worked up, increased energy, losing understanding and ability to handle money, buying things just for the buying. easily losing temper, less to no need for sleep, endless energy, can become maniac, which needs treatment in hospital. Can be a danger for himself and others. Grandios thoughts about himself, believes he is invincible. Psychotic, hearing voices and sounds, seeing things that don't exist but in the person's head. Type 2. From becoming tired, at an extremely low level of energy, barely make it out of bed. Don't want to have people around, not talking to anyone. Can feel really good, but lacking energy, if being left alone and "charge the mental batteries". Feeling low, life is useless. Not to be confused with being suicidal. Someone said about this: "I don't want to die, just not live anymore." Meaning I want to live, but not this life. It has nothing to do with being spoiled and wishing for a life in glitter and glamour, it can be without the bipolarity, perhaps some chronic pain, economical problems over the limit when you have any chance to sort it out, etc. För Down to a severe depression and a large risk of committing suicide. Medical treatment at hospital is crucial. Mixed episodes. Can be shifting from one status to another in a few days or within an hour. Usually beginning with an edgy temper. Equally tough for the person as it is for the people around. Mental rollercoaster. Some people swing between the darkest of darkness to mania and psychosis. Some only become a little low and lack energy, some become more energetic and maybe shouldn't have access to his/hers credit card... You can find everything in between this, any different varieties. I wrote "simplified". This IS simplified. Bipolar disorder is a complex and complicated disorder, and it really pisses me off when people with knowledge barely reach the ability to spell it, put up a 20 minutes video of bs, pretending it's some sort of facts. He didn't even know Kanye/Ye whatever, has type 1, and what that means. Sad.
My manic periods always end with an acute self doubt. It's like realizing your genius, and overestimating your capacity. But then when I hit the limit of my capacity I take that as proof of my stupidity. Then I realize my genius, and the cycle spirals out from there. Over and over, and over, and over. That is the nature of my life.
@@goodbye3771 my depressive periods always lead to self harm, then insight, acceptance, self improvement and then to manic periods leading to comfort, narcisim, overconfidence, lazyness, failure and back to Depression. The trigger for depressive periods i have found to be incomprehensible huge achievements. Hope you can get something from this.
Thank you. I have Bipolar 1 disorder. Seeing everyone laughing at Kanye manic state is very sad to me. Because I know the crash he is going to feel after this episode. He will need to learn that he needs help and life is much better when the mood swings is lowered. I hope he finds within himself to start taking his medication and talk to his therapist. Thank you for this video. I don't have to explain myself to people anymore. I can just send them this well made video.
@@GUSX4NMAN That's not true at all lol. I'm on medication and it's literally saved my life? I take an anticonvulsant that works wonders, I'm not some walking zombie. It's because of comments and statements like this that made me evade seeking help for years. Finding the right medication can be tough for some but you need to realize this is an incurable life long illness, nothing is gonna make it go away it's just about giving you the best quality of life period
@@fade4952 it can be healed with plant medicine and it only has to be administered a handful of times not taken everyday so i would say ignoring that is just as harmful. stripping people away of their potential
Gamer-sama “I thought about killing you” has a similar message, talking about how he thinks about killing the manic side of himself through medication.
You can stretch back to 2005 to hear Ye's battles with his persistent issues right now, in Common's "They Say", his verse ends like: "They say because of the fame and stardom I'm somewhere in between the church and insane asylum I guess it's messin' with my health then And this verse so crazy when I finish I'm just gon' check myself in - again"
This song is such an accurate depiction of mental illness and Bipolar Disorder. I think if everyone took the time to listen to this song, they would be able to extend a little more grace and compassion to his struggles. Mental illness is obviously not an excuse, but it is a reason.
I have schizoaffective disorder which is like a mix of schizophrenia and bipolar on top of each other and let me say that I can't imagine a worse position to be in than Kanye. being a huge cultural icon which a huge overly supportive fanbase and media hanging on to my every word seems like the worst thing possible for delusions, grandiosity, paranoia and mania. I wish everyone would just ignore Kanye for a while and let him get better...
I'm a writer and I have bipolar I. During my manic phases, I tend to have a burst of inspiration and creativity. Often, I would get what feels like a world-changing book idea and dump all of it into a single novel in a short amount of time. In the moment, I would think I'm going to change humanity with my totally awesome new book. Once the mania goes away, I would look back at my work and cringe at how terrible it is. And then I'll throw the whole manuscript away. Mania can bring on cool ideas, but I don't think it's good for writing sensible and understandable work. Also, great video! Love your channel! :D
As a bipolar recording artist Kanye is someone I have always had an eye on. He's gone through a lot, like bro has had a rough go at things, and to add on to it he's been in the spotlight during it all. It makes me sick how the media picks at him, especially when he's manic. I love the idea of using your mania as a superpower too. It really can be, most of my music has been written and recorded while manic, which makes sense. Mania is fucking amazing, it feels like a better version of cocaine, makes me feel confident and full of myself, it makes me feel like I could write and record a platinum album in a night. It also makes me toxic overreactive, blind to my faults, aggressive, incredibly hypersexual and honestly sometimes incredibly fucking annoying. It's a double-edged sword that often ends up dealing more damage to the one suffering from it than helping them. I also feel like what I produce when it comes to art is like that of a stimhead, the ravings of a man blinded by the overconfidence and lack of near masochistic sense of perfectionism that makes true artists great. But it's incredible. The depression is a whole different story but I kind of just figured I'd share a little on how mania can feel from my own perspective. I've never really found a good place to talk about bipolar, even the bipolar rated tends to be more of a slurry of people who are not treated arguing for treatment against the slurry of people who aren't (which isn't what I want.) I have a bunch of stories if anyone's interested, but I'd also like for this comment to be a place to share stories or feelings on the disorder if they chose to. Or maybe this will get buried. 🤷♂️
They also then cause a great amount of destruction and the biggest ones will consume everything around them until the universe turns cold. Appreciate the poetic power of the phrase but the implications don't quite follow
There are worse things than to relate with one of the most successful and influential men of his time. See the mistakes he makes, and work hard to make sure you don't make them as well! We cannot control our circumstances, but we can control what we do with them ☺️
@@PimpolloMorales We should not work hard to try not to make mistakes because the mistakes are the symptoms of an illness; instead, we should work hard to cure the illness and we will know we have fixed it when the symptoms have left us.
This message is for my friend who unfortunately also suffers from bipolar disorder, if you read this, hope you stay strong and safe! -"bestboi" just a boy
Love Kanye and always bummed to see him go through it. I’m 27. Been dealing with a lot of these feelings. I finally pursued my dreams of tattooing last year. I’ve become the best artist in my area after only a year. (I would usually never say that). I truly thought everything would be better after I got this job and achieved the goals I put in front of myself, but tbh it’s just as bad. I’ve been coming to terms that I might need help these past few months. Knowing my creativity will still be intact is really reassuring. Now I just gotta make the phone call. Thank you for this video
That's something that I've been concerned over myself. I've put a lot of time and effort into working as a pharmacy tech, got certified and all that, and have for quite a while now been hinging basically my whole immediate future and life satisfaction on starting this career. But I'm nervous that after I do finally succeed in that endeavor, I might find that not as much will have changed as I had hoped for. At the same time though, with where I'm at in life currently, I feel like I'm trapped in a burning building and if I don't jump _real_ friggin soon I'm going up in flames. I definitely need to make some moves, I just worry that like, what if I jump out this window, and my ass just lands in the burning building next door, same situation different scene. I even sometimes wonder if *any* of the windows actually lead to safety, or if it's just fire all around me. Then I remind myself that either way, I definitely won't benefit from standing still, and surely the fire can't be THAT big. I can do anything if I try, I'll totally make it! So I try to jump, but I trip and smack my head into the wall instead, and then I get discouraged and tell myself I'm just not good enough and I should just give up. So I resign to sit down on the floor, and watch the flames inch closer -- until I remember just how fuckin hot it is, and how badly I need to escape it. At that point I get all motivated that I can do whatever I desire to do, and so I try jumping to safety again, and bounce my head off the window sill this time (a bit closer than the wall), And then the cycle repeats,
My dads bipolar and I’ve grown up my entire life surrounded by what I see as the beauty of it. I’ve became a huge fan of Kanye over the years because I feel a comfort in not only his music but his career because he reminds me so much of my dad. When I see him in these manic episodes I understand it at a different level then I’d say most and sometimes forget not everyone has had the experience of being around someone with bipolar disorder. The outlandish things he says and stressful incidents he may find himself in are so closely resembled to situations my dad can be in and I wish everyone could see the beauty of the minds of someone with bipolar disorder and the creativity that they bring.
This resonates with me so much, got quite emotional reading your comment. I’ve always loved Kanye’s music since before I could really comprehend my father’s bipolar disorder. Growing older I’ve come to realise that there’s a level of depth to Kanye that most people will never be able to grasp. People are often quick to label and ostracise others with the condition, but a world without the bipolar mind would be such a dull place. Though at times it can be devastating to deal with, this condition can also come with so much beauty.
Chris Morrish I completely agree, I try to share how truly amazing bipolar can be to people and even my father, who I feel can sometimes feel the pressure of society’s lack of understanding of his condition. In my eyes my dads a genius he can have trouble explaining things sometimes (like Kanye) but I still understand what he means and where he comes from and the art work he makes is beyond beauty it’s like a key to his soul. Someday I hope to share what I know about bipolar to the world so others can see how truly amazing the mind of someone with it is.
I miss the old Kanye Chop up the soul Kanye, set on his goals Kanye I hate the new Kanye, the bad mood Kanye The always rude Kanye, spaz in the news Kanye
i’m sure kanye when he gets back to baseline after mania doesn’t like the spaz kanye either. I say that because i have BP 1 and i always disagree with behavior/thoughts i had while manic.
In manic phases productivity and creativity can absolutely skyrocket, you dont even need more than two hours of sleep without even feeling tired after so little sleep. Could definitely relate
This is a wonderfully informative video-- I would simply add a single thing to it: Another reason why many people with Bipolar shy away from medication is due to the nature of the treatment. In order to be treated, they need to find a combination of medications that work for them. This can take dozens of adjustments; and imagine that during this process, you lose those manic episodes and remain stuck in a mixed (or depressive) state. This is the reality when it comes to seeking treatment for bipolar. It's not an understatement to say that pursuing treatment can sometimes be more torturous than the illness itself.
Sisyphus, I want to thank you so so much for making this video. Being a Kanye fan is feeling all the love and energy, the feeling of being greater than just 1 person in 1 world. Kanye, without a doubt, is a severely afflicted person and this is all anyone really sees in the media, but actually listening to his music you can understand the struggle he faces within himself and how he chooses to share his superpower to project feelings of grandiosity to people who can use it for better. I can't tell you how much it helped me to hear Kanye sing "I can't lose."
My dad has bipolar and I think you have covered the condition incredibly. He Can be so low but when he’s on a high he can create incredible art and becomes eraticly happy it’s weird, but I think you have covered the condition very well
Hey, just wanted to say thank you for this video! I have bipolar I and i found the descriptive parts extremely accurate, especially the ones not that frequently discussed - people really wouldn't get why it's so hard to deal with it, even while already in treatment, if they never experienced mania. It's everything you've said and more. But the parts with analysis are what really got me. You know, it is really hard to give up on this great self, even if you kinda realize that something's off and the grandiosity gets out of hand. Really, the ethics are mostly to be thrown out of the window when you're that good without even trying to be, you do feel like some sort of divine force. Then it ends, and if you aren't lucky enough to finish your work during mania, you sense of self-worth is fucked, which then gets amplified by depression - which is a completely necessary payoff for mania: I've had months long manic episodes, it got physically exhausting, yet it wouldn't stop, and I (unbelievably) wished I was depressed so I could get some rest at last. (For clarity: I was already in therapy when it occured for the first time, so I was aware that something was up - and I had an understanding of how to observe my state.) And then you can't function in society properly for months, until it hits you again. It's like wishing for summer in the cold of winter and then complaining about the heat, and it goes on like this every year. And you really want to function well, but you can't comprehend the whole "slow and steady wins the race" kind of thing, because it has never worked for you, so you don't have a reason to believe that it someday will. You talk about that in the video, but I'm not sure that understanding that helps, the leap of faith is needed - and it's too long of a free fall, to be honest. Here's the thing: I've been depressed for a couple of months now and the knowledge that mania will come back kinda keeps me going, because before my first time depression was all I knew and I was actively suicidal. It's much scarier without the prospect of this painful euphoria, but it just might cause the depression, and there's no way to check, really. Basically, I have no idea how to deal with it, and you've managed to put into words why - it's important to understand a thing to deal with said thing.
My dad has bipolar I so seeing Kanye be the punchline because of his manic episode is really distressing. Thanks for making this video. It’s also allowed me to put into perspective my internal prejudices/inability to understand what my dad goes through. It’s rough seeing him oscillate between such extremes but I know, deep down, that he’s a fundamentally good person. Pete Davidson’s take on mental health is far too reductive when you’re looking at something as complex as bipolar.
it's interesting that you talk about ontological deprivation. I recommend you look into the way we class symptoms of psychosis and in particular schizophrenia as being positive, negative or disorganized. the positive symptoms, like hallucinations and delusions, add something to the "normal" self, the negative, like deprivation, poverty of speech and sensitivity take something away and the disorganized symptoms muddle and distort the self. pretty useful ways of viewing different symptoms actually and the idea of symptoms being additive, subtractive or distortive can be applied to most mental illnesses as a helpful way to think of parts of an illness
Thank you so much for this. Kanye is my favorite rapper/producer/I relate to him and his music a lot and because of that I’ve grown somewhat attached to him. While people were shitting on him during his episode on twitter a week or so ago I was so mad. People nowadays are so “focused” on mental health yet seemed to bash him mercilessly, although I believe part of it was people’s lack of awareness around bipolar disorder, it’s understandable how they were angry about the comments he made. I couldn’t help but think of Saint Pablo when I saw the comments, people don’t realize how many intricate layers Kanye has to him. Anyways. I was a bit hesitant to watch, as many people just call Kanye insane and look at him like a dangerous creature, but you really did an amazing job. Not just describing Kanye’s bipolar disorder, but bipolar in general. The high of manic episodes, then the crash into desolation/depression. The part at 8:34, R.D Laing and Foucault was a great part too, something I often contemplate myself and it was cool to learn that there are philosophers looked even more into it. The epilogue was super beautiful. I never usually comments on videos. But, wow, I don’t really know how to put into words how well made this video was and how much I loved it. Thank you man 👍
To be bipolar is to be your own greatest hero as well as your own worst enemy. It is seeing yourself soar to heights that you never knew possible but also to carry the cross of failed endeavors everywhere you go. It is to be loved or hated by those who you’ve met, based solely on the time that they met you. It is to often feel that others do not understand your true psyche, though it can not be held against them as you don’t understand it either.
I have Bipolar 1, with mixed phases (both manic and depressive at the same time). I have stopped taking my medication over a year ago. You say that it is only the delusion of mania that makes one think their medication will neutralize them too much, but I can tell you from experience that it really can do this. When medicated, my mood was stable... a little too stable in fact as I became extremely nonchalant. I had been bipolar for as long as I could remember and I was not ready for this stability. Some of the most stupid stuff I did was while I was medicated, simply because I had vices and immaturity that my bipolar disorder kept in check. I will not say that a bipolar person should not take their medication, but that medication is only surface treatment: therapy is also very important, and I may even say that in my case it is even more important. I did not actually get therapy, rather focusing on religion to become more mature and have more watchfulness, although now that I'm doing somewhat okay personality-wise I'm thinking of seeing a doctor again soon.
I really love all the videos on this channel, this one especially. Great insight and the lesson about how bipolar individuals experience mania is something that more people should hear. I feel like bipolar is shrouded with negative stigmas while people never understand the whole picture. The part which mentions how mania can make our families afraid is basically the only perspective that the general population takes when the word "bipolar" is mentioned. And what's more, the families of bipolar individuals often don't get the whole picture which can lead to alienation. It's very sad, and there should be more open talk about bipolar disorder in order to combat the hottible stigma.
Who would've thought that after watching this channel for over a year now, helping me get through the painful nights of loneliness and depression, that a video with a sponsor from Ridge wallet about an artist I don't even like and a disorder I don't even have would be my favorite video from you?
I concur! The epilogue was awesome! Well written my friend. I have schizo affective disorder which is a cross over disorder between bipolar 1 and schizophrenia. It gives me great strength to think of all the great people who suffered and benefitted from disorders like mine. I just got home from a psychiatric unit two days ago and this video brought me some peace thank you.
hey man this might get lost but i really appreciate your videos they’re just something great to dive into when i have the time i like the vibes thanks for your work keep it up man thanks
Yo Sisyphus great content as always. please start leaving the links to the tunes that accompany your videos, I really loved the tune that started playing at the epilogue but I don't know where to find it
Hi Sisyphus if you read this I want you to know that the portion where you point out bpd patients don't want to be cured snapped me back into reality. I've since sought help. Thank you so much for making this video.
I have bipolar disorder and this video is incredibly accurate. It's good to encourage people to get help. I was diagnosed when I was about sixteen and I've been on varying medication since then. Depression feels like my normal state. I've wished every day to not wake up the next. I've thought seriously of suicide when I forget to pick up my medicine. It's a horrible thing. I get by in life by helping others. I chose a profession where I can help kids. Maybe helping them and giving them a chance at a better future, I can somehow justify my existence. That's what it feels like, anyway. Help others to help yourself.
It’s beautiful to help children. I battled type one and have been stable for a few years. I believe you can live depression free, you’ll find a way. Bless you.
Hey man, good video. One thing I will point out that I feel is glossed over is the assumption that Hip hop is a grandiose form of music, or that it consistently uses grandiose themes. Grandiosity is a psychological term, but often rappers are aware of the affects of self-praise. This is a very psychological dissection of what is more a cultural phenomena as it is emulated by other rappers/producer. I’m the streets where you sell ego is your survival tool, it is not simplified and demonized like modern society has interprétate. I would argue against that interpretation as hip hop was created as a social movement protesting harsh conditions of the 70s and 80s. The inflated ego of hip hop is not like the large statements of heavy metal, hip hop artists are come from communities where their financial disempowerment completely conditions how they act and so often in that situation only way to strengthen oneself against a hostile world is personal development and fortification. When the world is racist and cruel ego is the only thing that can turn those negative social thoughts/expectations and into nothing. Black/Latin people have shown natural ubermench levels of personal development as is seen in the intensity of black spirituality and social movements. Look at Akon and africa, Jay Z after pushing crack, any dead rapper who funneled money back into te community, etc... people with strong personalities are seen as egotistical but when you see how most hip hop artists funnel their energy back into the culture and communities, it paints things differently. When you speak to rappers you find that they value themselves greatly, but their capacity to care and give back is something that you don’t find anywhere else in the music world. Through that, I would think hip hop is the least grandiose, even though it talks the most shit 😂
I'm Hispanic, and I was very pleasantly surprised when I found out that I'd developed into Nietzsche's ideal human being almost completely due to circumstance and only a moderate effort of my own. Guess it makes sense that our cultures produce that sorta stuff more often
Antony Arango I agree with everything you say except one thing, grandiosity can mean that you have what it takes to back up all the great things you say about yourself, but in many ways those who are grandiose are comparing themselves to what they see around them not the objective realities of the world. So, kanye unlike other rappers is unable to see where he is not the best or greatest and thats where grandiosity comes in (its when you feel on top of the world but your actually still human with skin and bones)
Gabriel Morales it’s a universal human experience that happens naturally as humans evolve themselves, nietzche knew that even if he never wrote anything, that a rose will always grow in a bundle of thorns if that makes sense
Angel Fuchs Absolutely, and I find that Kanye is so righteous about his own grandiosity which makes him so full of shit. As for the grandiose point, There is a saying in the Tao that says “when no credit is taken accomplishment ensues”. It’s a choice between duty and the intangible future, or the immersion in the concrete (albeit illusionary and glamorous) material world you have. Grandiosity is a choice that happens after a result, even to experience it means that you are coming to some sort of conclusion to your actions. Righteousness though, is not the quality that pushes justice- that is benevolence. Grandiosity in this sense is similar to how righteousness is not the same as benevolence. , There are poor 16-18 years who go to war daily who have infinitely more greatness than this man, their country shoves warrior culture down their throat yet their own sense of honor does not spill over into a sense of grandiosity. It is until after the war is done that the ego perceived the reality of result. A master at a craft may not be grandiose with their work, but be extremely complex. There is nothing honorable about doing the right thing, if you are doing it truly for yourself and selflessly. This is why a war hero may never speak or think of his actions again, because he does not see it as honorable but as necessary. Mindset of a street soldier is not too different but Kanye is NO STREET SOLDIER LMFAOOO. Everything Kanye has done after MBDTF has been for other people’s opinions, and that is why he turned into an egotistical asshat who needs his goddamn lithium
Gabriel Morales Look at how our music like salsa is totally spiritually charged, the suffering of slavery has molded our culture to produce serious levels of community connectivity
As someone who has lived with bipolar for years and is one of the people who has avoided medication etc to neutralise things, the perhaps unintended main lesson that I took away from this is that some of the biggest examples of genius that we can point to are rooted in mania. If I roll the dice and don't end up killing myself when I feel low, then the pay-off is that I have my best shot at manifesting greatness when living through my more euphoric moments. I'm not convinced that I'd have the same capacity in a more neutral, constant state. It's not obvious to me that I shouldn't roll the dice.
You have to learn to no rely on the mania, its a drug your body produces. It is better to be stable. If you're gonna ride the tiger you have to get yourself to a point of stability thay you're not harming your own life with overly extreme episodes. I'm a new artist but I can tell that most of my best ideas come with manic, but the high of it will make me perceive poor technique as good. You need all sides of yourself to manifest greatb3ss and this can be a gift. But in today's world its near impossible for this spiritual lightning to not be a burden, tread carefully. I have medical marijiana to help me when psychosis and mood swings are too strong. I hope you have a system because the only way to do this is to have more self control than the average person.
Looking back into history, back when diagnosis and treatment was not possible, you COULD be right ... but when you look back, notice the lives of people that have similar symptoms to bipolar today. Study this strain in history carefully, and then consider the matter like a good investor would: you need strong discipline to find a system that works for you, and a strong support system (therapy can be helpful here). You also will need strong skill development, and an honest group of people around you who are not given to mania or depression to help you assess what you are producing and then choosing to market. For every genius we know of with mania, there are a whole lot of people lost in the dust of time for whom their mania paid them dust. That is not obvious because history tends to record the successes ... but if you examine the matter carefully, you will see that what is not obvious is nonetheless important. If you are not well-disciplined, you might consider not rolling the dice as you get older and things break down as they must for all of us ... those dice you are rolling may be snowballs that become an avalanche.
I’m 22. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 in 2017. I started out taking Prozac and I did shrooms and acid and smoked weed occasionally while on it. I wanted to reach a place creatively and I did. 2020 pandemic lockdown i went nuts. Wash us in the blood came out and I was doing acid that day. My mom was terrified watching me tweak in awe of Kanye. Now I still smoke weed and I take 300mg of lithium twice daily. As I write this august 2023 has begun. My mania is ending. I had a bad episode today.
That final thought hits hard. I can't help but already feel like it will be sticking with me all day. This was really well put together, I liked it a lot.
Ive always been a Kanye stan because his music and history within the music industry is just so intriguing and awe inspiring to me, but always felt so conflicted whenever he talks outside of that sphere. I dont want to pull a Laura Ingram and tell him to "shut up and shoot the damn ball" but his pedestal and controversial mindset is definitely something that makes me facepalm that hes my favorite artist more often than not. Thank you for making this video and giving me a more analytical perspective on not just why he might act this way, but why i relate to him more than most other artists too ❤
i love how street lights was playing in the back at the end, this was an amazing video highlighting and explaining points of bpd, honestly i probably have learned more stuff on this channel than school at this point
I was diagnosed as bipolar some 3 weeks ago and this video helped me to better understand myself. I appreciate this content more than I can express. Thank you for making this content. You have earned a subscriber in me.
im not bipolar but to a lesser extent ive felt a form of mania. during school i was very introverted and shy, and often depressed but once in a while i would feel breakthroughs and would become very outgoing, confident, loud and angry at students, teachers and my family. during these periods i would also improvise endlessly for hours on the piano and spend lots of actual practice as well, feeling godlike. id get the ability to play video games and read books hours on end, all up until that energy would crash into a family member. the end of these episodes usually resulted in breaking furniture or hangjng myself out of a window in my house, then followed by a long period of intense depression. ive always had therapy, and good support from friends and family so it never became too serious, but the choice to try to conform was difficult. i know i can be a narcissist, but i also feel sympathy for people and i can catch myself become narcissistic even if it causes depression. the comedown from godlike mania to the depressing realization that youre just another ordinary person can be torturous, which i think makes the mania not worth it
I think it's important to mention that Pete Davidson also has a mental disorder (BPD) and that by telling Kanye that "mental disorders don't give you a reason to be a jackass" Davidson likely is rationalizing how he attempts to take accountability for his actions when his disorder makes him act out and that Kanye should do the same rather than placing blame on the disorder. I think that context is important as these words could be interpreted as ableism.
You know that's fair, but even still every experience is different and Pete being judgemental is a dick move but nothing so bad as to actually be upset over it. People can only use what their experience tells them to understand the world and eachother. I just assume I'm ignorant to other people's struggles and just let them be so long as it isn't affecting me or mine.
To hold any sort of dislike for someone and to feel all that disdain is hard to do when you understand that you are no better and that a lack of information on either side would easily fix whatever qualms you have with them. It's just too much effort to be upset all the time but it's big buisness keeping people angry at the world because angry people click news articles about the things they don't like and content people don't
The manic state is not all about overestimating owns abilities to do things. For creative people mania (hypomania mainly) feels invaluable because of the abstract ideation and the flow of novel perspectives. Being stable is a deal breaker when it comes to many of our greatest artists. It has given the world way more than anyone can ever imagine.
That was beautiful. The epilogue was just the perfect way to end this video. This is the exact reason as to why i look forward to your videos. Hope you're doing well.
Do you feel tempered outbursts, that you cannot control? Feeling lonely, even when you are with people, feeling blocked. Feeling blue, sad, feeling disinterested in things, feeling fearful. Are your feelings easily hurt? Feeling that people are unfriendly, or do you feel like people dislike you? Kanye West- Song : I feel Like That
Best part about your vids are the extra things that I want to look into and research after the video is done. You bring a lot of stuff to the table. Keep it up!
Honestly this channel is helping me through so much, I don't want to go into detail Although, i do want to say thank you. Please keep making videos truly inspiring
My bipolar delusion is that however I feel right this second is how I always have and will always feel. Constantly changing, but even more the same every time.
Incredible, informative and relevant. I hope this gets more young people thinking about psychology and studying (insert ANYTHING here) more closely and with enthusiasm.
This is very insightful for what I'm going through! I'm a struggling musician and I have been told that I might have bipolar yet I always denied finding myself justifying toxic behavior. I had myself convinced that everyone is wrong about my biplolar while I'm some supreme being and my manic self is real me. I have lost a lot because of my actions and I try my best stopping myself acting like a "jackass" while bunch of "fans" and metal nerds love me being toxic.
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It's amazing that the internet has brought me someone talking about Nietzsche over a Street Lights cover. Sisyphus, thanks for aiming and hitting right at the center of my heart.
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This may just be my favorite video by you. Bravo. Brilliant.
Didnt expect you here. Love your vids. Keep up the good work or whatever. You can choose what you wanna do
I loved the part about wallets
I'm a bipolar artist. During my last mania I was planning to build a street legal car out of wood. With therapy and medication I finally figured out that I didn't really need a wooden automobile, but my therapist said with my talent I could have probably built it. Creativity without direction is insanity. I know I could build it, but what would a practical purpose be?
Should’ve done it bro that would’ve been dope
the purpose of art can be simply to be different, do it. don’t talk yourself out of it. why not do it anyways? you can do anything you set your mind to. doing takes you to more places than not doing. good luck friend I believe in you every step of the way❤️
neurotypicality is the disease of capitalism. build a wooden car you magnificient fucker
Do it, but on meds, so when you finish and take a step back you can say, "this is dope, but fucking why."
The car would run on water 😂
“Being mentally ill is not an excuse for being a jackass.”
You’re right, Pete. But it should give us the benefit of the doubt when we sincerely seek to remedy our jackassery. We are as honest in our remorse as we are in our ignorance. It’s a disease. Would you call a cancer patient a jackass for vomiting somewhere inappropriate? Then don’t call a bipolar person a jackass for having to endure a manic episode whilst having to be in the spotlight 24/7, please. I can’t even imagine. I’m one of the lucky ones who gets to work out 99% of my manic jackassery at home or with my therapist or friends who understand how to keep me down and level. It’s all about having good people around you who understand you and your special needs.
I second that
@Mari Jay Monzon
I hope you’re having a nice, peaceful day.
💙💙💙
Same here and I agree with you.
Not only that but for I do at times post outrageous comments while in this frenzy state. I apologize to some expect for the ones that I know that a simple apology would be mute, to these postings I usual just make a parody of my own illness as a way to hint to others that even though it was me it wasn't the right me they were dealing with.
I see what you're saying and mostly agree with you. I'm not bipolar but I have other mental health problems that make me act irrationally sometimes. But, I think some people put there dont want to get better. Take my father for example, he probably has bipolar, hes abusive to everyone around him, and he does not want help. Hes NOT most bipolar people, but some are like him. I think people like this should be held accountable becuase if they're not then they will keep acting badly towards others. Even myself.
everyone is suddenly acting like an expert on mental health and bipolar, but FINALLY, there’s a good take on kanye’s mental health.
Sophie this has been out for 2 years
He isn't going down to a low or depressed state, according to himself. He is Bipolar disorder type 1, do some research. If on YT, choose a channel where they KNOW what they are talking about, because this guy hasn't a clue.
I have Bipolar disorder, type 2.
Very short and simplified:
Type 1. From just a little worked up, increased energy, losing understanding and ability to handle money, buying things just for the buying. easily losing temper, less to no need for sleep, endless energy, can become maniac, which needs treatment in hospital. Can be a danger for himself and others. Grandios thoughts about himself, believes he is invincible. Psychotic, hearing voices and sounds, seeing things that don't exist but in the person's head.
Type 2. From becoming tired, at an extremely low level of energy, barely make it out of bed. Don't want to have people around, not talking to anyone. Can feel really good, but lacking energy, if being left alone and "charge the mental batteries".
Feeling low, life is useless. Not to be confused with being suicidal.
Someone said about this: "I don't want to die, just not live anymore."
Meaning I want to live, but not this life. It has nothing to do with being spoiled and wishing for a life in glitter and glamour, it can be without the bipolarity, perhaps some chronic pain, economical problems over the limit when you have any chance to sort it out, etc.
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Down to a severe depression and a large risk of committing suicide. Medical treatment at hospital is crucial.
Mixed episodes. Can be shifting from one status to another in a few days or within an hour. Usually beginning with an edgy temper. Equally tough for the person as it is for the people around. Mental rollercoaster.
Some people swing between the darkest of darkness to mania and psychosis. Some only become a little low and lack energy, some become more energetic and maybe shouldn't have access to his/hers credit card...
You can find everything in between this, any different varieties.
I wrote "simplified". This IS simplified. Bipolar disorder is a complex and complicated disorder, and it really pisses me off when people with knowledge barely reach the ability to spell it, put up a 20 minutes video of bs, pretending it's some sort of facts. He didn't even know Kanye/Ye whatever, has type 1, and what that means.
Sad.
My manic periods always end with an acute self doubt.
It's like realizing your genius, and overestimating your capacity. But then when I hit the limit of my capacity I take that as proof of my stupidity. Then I realize my genius, and the cycle spirals out from there. Over and over, and over, and over. That is the nature of my life.
i feel this on a spiritual level
@@goodbye3771 my depressive periods always lead to self harm, then insight, acceptance, self improvement and then to manic periods leading to comfort, narcisim, overconfidence, lazyness, failure and back to Depression. The trigger for depressive periods i have found to be incomprehensible huge achievements. Hope you can get something from this.
I should not watch this video
your vids are gold
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Two crazy underrated Canadian creators
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Thank you. I have Bipolar 1 disorder. Seeing everyone laughing at Kanye manic state is very sad to me. Because I know the crash he is going to feel after this episode. He will need to learn that he needs help and life is much better when the mood swings is lowered. I hope he finds within himself to start taking his medication and talk to his therapist.
Thank you for this video. I don't have to explain myself to people anymore. I can just send them this well made video.
Medication only hides the problem never solves it and no one wants to be medicated all their life
@@GUSX4NMAN That's not true at all lol. I'm on medication and it's literally saved my life? I take an anticonvulsant that works wonders, I'm not some walking zombie. It's because of comments and statements like this that made me evade seeking help for years. Finding the right medication can be tough for some but you need to realize this is an incurable life long illness, nothing is gonna make it go away it's just about giving you the best quality of life period
@@GUSX4NMAN WELL THEN INSANE BASTARDS JUST GO AWAY, THE WORLD HAS ENOUGH PROBLEMS DEALING WITH WEAK SCUM
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@@fade4952 it can be healed with plant medicine and it only has to be administered a handful of times not taken everyday so i would say ignoring that is just as harmful. stripping people away of their potential
Listen to Kanye’s unreleased track, “I Feel Like That”. If that doesn’t show you the polarization of Kanye’s mentality I don’t know what would.
Gamer-sama “I thought about killing you” has a similar message, talking about how he thinks about killing the manic side of himself through medication.
You can stretch back to 2005 to hear Ye's battles with his persistent issues right now, in Common's "They Say", his verse ends like:
"They say because of the fame and stardom
I'm somewhere in between the church and insane asylum
I guess it's messin' with my health then
And this verse so crazy when I finish
I'm just gon' check myself in - again"
This song is such an accurate depiction of mental illness and Bipolar Disorder. I think if everyone took the time to listen to this song, they would be able to extend a little more grace and compassion to his struggles. Mental illness is obviously not an excuse, but it is a reason.
Wow, I was going to comment this. Such a good feeling to see someone reference that incredibly underrated song.
It's not a reflection of the artist if the "artist" didn't write it. Unless you're calling him fake, then it's appropriate.
Bi-polar 1 here. Really loved the epilogue
Bi-polar 2 here. really hated the epilogue
Bi-polar 2 here. really loved the epilogue
Bipolar 1/2 here. Really thought the epilogue was ok
@@CluckN good to know!
@@nox6438 excellent!
I have schizoaffective disorder which is like a mix of schizophrenia and bipolar on top of each other and let me say that I can't imagine a worse position to be in than Kanye. being a huge cultural icon which a huge overly supportive fanbase and media hanging on to my every word seems like the worst thing possible for delusions, grandiosity, paranoia and mania. I wish everyone would just ignore Kanye for a while and let him get better...
Which is why from my point of view; The greatest monster is Humanity ourselves.
Ervin Morris stfu
@@callumosullivan7546 Why?
Ervin Morris listen to yourself
@@callumosullivan7546 You have a point, I will take a break. You have my apologies.
I'm a writer and I have bipolar I. During my manic phases, I tend to have a burst of inspiration and creativity. Often, I would get what feels like a world-changing book idea and dump all of it into a single novel in a short amount of time. In the moment, I would think I'm going to change humanity with my totally awesome new book. Once the mania goes away, I would look back at my work and cringe at how terrible it is. And then I'll throw the whole manuscript away. Mania can bring on cool ideas, but I don't think it's good for writing sensible and understandable work. Also, great video! Love your channel! :D
As a bipolar recording artist Kanye is someone I have always had an eye on. He's gone through a lot, like bro has had a rough go at things, and to add on to it he's been in the spotlight during it all. It makes me sick how the media picks at him, especially when he's manic. I love the idea of using your mania as a superpower too. It really can be, most of my music has been written and recorded while manic, which makes sense. Mania is fucking amazing, it feels like a better version of cocaine, makes me feel confident and full of myself, it makes me feel like I could write and record a platinum album in a night. It also makes me toxic overreactive, blind to my faults, aggressive, incredibly hypersexual and honestly sometimes incredibly fucking annoying. It's a double-edged sword that often ends up dealing more damage to the one suffering from it than helping them. I also feel like what I produce when it comes to art is like that of a stimhead, the ravings of a man blinded by the overconfidence and lack of near masochistic sense of perfectionism that makes true artists great. But it's incredible. The depression is a whole different story but I kind of just figured I'd share a little on how mania can feel from my own perspective. I've never really found a good place to talk about bipolar, even the bipolar rated tends to be more of a slurry of people who are not treated arguing for treatment against the slurry of people who aren't (which isn't what I want.) I have a bunch of stories if anyone's interested, but I'd also like for this comment to be a place to share stories or feelings on the disorder if they chose to. Or maybe this will get buried. 🤷♂️
I appreciate your insight
Stories
I love you
He's an ego maniac like trump and thinks he's a chosen one. Ha. Ha. Ha.
"The dying stars shine the brightest"
Beautiful.
They also then cause a great amount of destruction and the biggest ones will consume everything around them until the universe turns cold. Appreciate the poetic power of the phrase but the implications don't quite follow
Ace360x .MLG well there is a positive and negative in everything.
@@npc1172 que?
The worst part is feeling this on a personal level.
There are worse things than to relate with one of the most successful and influential men of his time. See the mistakes he makes, and work hard to make sure you don't make them as well! We cannot control our circumstances, but we can control what we do with them ☺️
@@PimpolloMorales We should not work hard to try not to make mistakes because the mistakes are the symptoms of an illness; instead, we should work hard to cure the illness and we will know we have fixed it when the symptoms have left us.
This message is for my friend who unfortunately also suffers from bipolar disorder, if you read this, hope you stay strong and safe! -"bestboi" just a boy
"POWER" and "yikes" are perfect examples of what someone suffering with this condition will feel during their manic states.
I called it "zero to hero, then back to zero just as quick" when Homecoming played at school dances. Thanks for normalizing this even more.
Spot on
My father never held me as a boy 😔 he got stabbed last month 😔 my brother said he wouldn't cry if he died but dayuammmm that's pops.
Wut lol
Love Kanye and always bummed to see him go through it. I’m 27. Been dealing with a lot of these feelings. I finally pursued my dreams of tattooing last year. I’ve become the best artist in my area after only a year. (I would usually never say that). I truly thought everything would be better after I got this job and achieved the goals I put in front of myself, but tbh it’s just as bad. I’ve been coming to terms that I might need help these past few months. Knowing my creativity will still be intact is really reassuring. Now I just gotta make the phone call. Thank you for this video
That's something that I've been concerned over myself. I've put a lot of time and effort into working as a pharmacy tech, got certified and all that, and have for quite a while now been hinging basically my whole immediate future and life satisfaction on starting this career. But I'm nervous that after I do finally succeed in that endeavor, I might find that not as much will have changed as I had hoped for.
At the same time though, with where I'm at in life currently, I feel like I'm trapped in a burning building and if I don't jump _real_ friggin soon I'm going up in flames. I definitely need to make some moves, I just worry that like, what if I jump out this window, and my ass just lands in the burning building next door, same situation different scene.
I even sometimes wonder if *any* of the windows actually lead to safety, or if it's just fire all around me. Then I remind myself that either way, I definitely won't benefit from standing still, and surely the fire can't be THAT big. I can do anything if I try, I'll totally make it! So I try to jump, but I trip and smack my head into the wall instead, and then I get discouraged and tell myself I'm just not good enough and I should just give up. So I resign to sit down on the floor, and watch the flames inch closer -- until I remember just how fuckin hot it is, and how badly I need to escape it. At that point I get all motivated that I can do whatever I desire to do, and so I try jumping to safety again, and bounce my head off the window sill this time (a bit closer than the wall), And then the cycle repeats,
You should post more of your work quite lovely and I subscribed!
Hey man I would love to see your tattooing have u got an ig page or something
Toni R yeah man. It’s jpxgomez. I’m not the best but I’m working on it
My dads bipolar and I’ve grown up my entire life surrounded by what I see as the beauty of it. I’ve became a huge fan of Kanye over the years because I feel a comfort in not only his music but his career because he reminds me so much of my dad. When I see him in these manic episodes I understand it at a different level then I’d say most and sometimes forget not everyone has had the experience of being around someone with bipolar disorder. The outlandish things he says and stressful incidents he may find himself in are so closely resembled to situations my dad can be in and I wish everyone could see the beauty of the minds of someone with bipolar disorder and the creativity that they bring.
This resonates with me so much, got quite emotional reading your comment. I’ve always loved Kanye’s music since before I could really comprehend my father’s bipolar disorder. Growing older I’ve come to realise that there’s a level of depth to Kanye that most people will never be able to grasp. People are often quick to label and ostracise others with the condition, but a world without the bipolar mind would be such a dull place. Though at times it can be devastating to deal with, this condition can also come with so much beauty.
Chris Morrish I completely agree, I try to share how truly amazing bipolar can be to people and even my father, who I feel can sometimes feel the pressure of society’s lack of understanding of his condition. In my eyes my dads a genius he can have trouble explaining things sometimes (like Kanye) but I still understand what he means and where he comes from and the art work he makes is beyond beauty it’s like a key to his soul. Someday I hope to share what I know about bipolar to the world so others can see how truly amazing the mind of someone with it is.
I miss the old Kanye
Chop up the soul Kanye, set on his goals Kanye
I hate the new Kanye, the bad mood Kanye
The always rude Kanye, spaz in the news Kanye
i’m sure kanye when he gets back to baseline after mania doesn’t like the spaz kanye either. I say that because i have BP 1 and i always disagree with behavior/thoughts i had while manic.
I miss the old Kanye as well. Now he's just becoming more and more a trainwreck.
Thats so Kanye
Remember his album with spaceship on it.... those were the days.....
MK Ultra.
I JUST got diagnosed with bipolar a week ago. Fun stuff. I do feel more creative when I’m in a manic state but not very grounded.
16:53
Could this possibly relate to Kanyes increased productivity working on 5+ short albums in 2018 for multiple artists?
In manic phases productivity and creativity can absolutely skyrocket, you dont even need more than two hours of sleep without even feeling tired after so little sleep. Could definitely relate
I also thought about it. And then I started thinking for the worst. But I mean, if he found "consolation" in religion, then its gonna be good
This is a wonderfully informative video-- I would simply add a single thing to it:
Another reason why many people with Bipolar shy away from medication is due to the nature of the treatment. In order to be treated, they need to find a combination of medications that work for them. This can take dozens of adjustments; and imagine that during this process, you lose those manic episodes and remain stuck in a mixed (or depressive) state.
This is the reality when it comes to seeking treatment for bipolar. It's not an understatement to say that pursuing treatment can sometimes be more torturous than the illness itself.
Sisyphus, I want to thank you so so much for making this video. Being a Kanye fan is feeling all the love and energy, the feeling of being greater than just 1 person in 1 world. Kanye, without a doubt, is a severely afflicted person and this is all anyone really sees in the media, but actually listening to his music you can understand the struggle he faces within himself and how he chooses to share his superpower to project feelings of grandiosity to people who can use it for better. I can't tell you how much it helped me to hear Kanye sing "I can't lose."
bipolar is not an excuse for erratic behaviour, it is a cause.
It’s an explanation, and a basis for understanding
My dad has bipolar and I think you have covered the condition incredibly. He
Can be so low but when he’s on a high he can create incredible art and becomes eraticly happy it’s weird, but I think you have covered the condition very well
Hey, just wanted to say thank you for this video!
I have bipolar I and i found the descriptive parts extremely accurate, especially the ones not that frequently discussed - people really wouldn't get why it's so hard to deal with it, even while already in treatment, if they never experienced mania. It's everything you've said and more. But the parts with analysis are what really got me. You know, it is really hard to give up on this great self, even if you kinda realize that something's off and the grandiosity gets out of hand. Really, the ethics are mostly to be thrown out of the window when you're that good without even trying to be, you do feel like some sort of divine force.
Then it ends, and if you aren't lucky enough to finish your work during mania, you sense of self-worth is fucked, which then gets amplified by depression - which is a completely necessary payoff for mania: I've had months long manic episodes, it got physically exhausting, yet it wouldn't stop, and I (unbelievably) wished I was depressed so I could get some rest at last. (For clarity: I was already in therapy when it occured for the first time, so I was aware that something was up - and I had an understanding of how to observe my state.) And then you can't function in society properly for months, until it hits you again. It's like wishing for summer in the cold of winter and then complaining about the heat, and it goes on like this every year.
And you really want to function well, but you can't comprehend the whole "slow and steady wins the race" kind of thing, because it has never worked for you, so you don't have a reason to believe that it someday will. You talk about that in the video, but I'm not sure that understanding that helps, the leap of faith is needed - and it's too long of a free fall, to be honest.
Here's the thing: I've been depressed for a couple of months now and the knowledge that mania will come back kinda keeps me going, because before my first time depression was all I knew and I was actively suicidal. It's much scarier without the prospect of this painful euphoria, but it just might cause the depression, and there's no way to check, really.
Basically, I have no idea how to deal with it, and you've managed to put into words why - it's important to understand a thing to deal with said thing.
I'm bipolar and an artist/ musician & I think you did a really great job on the tone of this video. Thank you.
i rewatch this so many times, this video is truly a piece of art
the music in this is perfect
My dad has bipolar I so seeing Kanye be the punchline because of his manic episode is really distressing. Thanks for making this video. It’s also allowed me to put into perspective my internal prejudices/inability to understand what my dad goes through. It’s rough seeing him oscillate between such extremes but I know, deep down, that he’s a fundamentally good person. Pete Davidson’s take on mental health is far too reductive when you’re looking at something as complex as bipolar.
it's interesting that you talk about ontological deprivation. I recommend you look into the way we class symptoms of psychosis and in particular schizophrenia as being positive, negative or disorganized. the positive symptoms, like hallucinations and delusions, add something to the "normal" self, the negative, like deprivation, poverty of speech and sensitivity take something away and the disorganized symptoms muddle and distort the self. pretty useful ways of viewing different symptoms actually and the idea of symptoms being additive, subtractive or distortive can be applied to most mental illnesses as a helpful way to think of parts of an illness
You should think about making your own commentary.
Thank you so much for this. Kanye is my favorite rapper/producer/I relate to him and his music a lot and because of that I’ve grown somewhat attached to him. While people were shitting on him during his episode on twitter a week or so ago I was so mad. People nowadays are so “focused” on mental health yet seemed to bash him mercilessly, although I believe part of it was people’s lack of awareness around bipolar disorder, it’s understandable how they were angry about the comments he made. I couldn’t help but think of Saint Pablo when I saw the comments, people don’t realize how many intricate layers Kanye has to him. Anyways. I was a bit hesitant to watch, as many people just call Kanye insane and look at him like a dangerous creature, but you really did an amazing job. Not just describing Kanye’s bipolar disorder, but bipolar in general. The high of manic episodes, then the crash into desolation/depression. The part at 8:34, R.D Laing and Foucault was a great part too, something I often contemplate myself and it was cool to learn that there are philosophers looked even more into it. The epilogue was super beautiful. I never usually comments on videos. But, wow, I don’t really know how to put into words how well made this video was and how much I loved it. Thank you man 👍
revisiting this today because of the whole "leaking the record deal" thing. i honestly feel very bad for kanye.
To be bipolar is to be your own greatest hero as well as your own worst enemy. It is seeing yourself soar to heights that you never knew possible but also to carry the cross of failed endeavors everywhere you go. It is to be loved or hated by those who you’ve met, based solely on the time that they met you. It is to often feel that others do not understand your true psyche, though it can not be held against them as you don’t understand it either.
I have Bipolar 1, with mixed phases (both manic and depressive at the same time). I have stopped taking my medication over a year ago. You say that it is only the delusion of mania that makes one think their medication will neutralize them too much, but I can tell you from experience that it really can do this. When medicated, my mood was stable... a little too stable in fact as I became extremely nonchalant. I had been bipolar for as long as I could remember and I was not ready for this stability. Some of the most stupid stuff I did was while I was medicated, simply because I had vices and immaturity that my bipolar disorder kept in check. I will not say that a bipolar person should not take their medication, but that medication is only surface treatment: therapy is also very important, and I may even say that in my case it is even more important. I did not actually get therapy, rather focusing on religion to become more mature and have more watchfulness, although now that I'm doing somewhat okay personality-wise I'm thinking of seeing a doctor again soon.
you are me
Why am I awake when this was uploaded
Please sleep man, you'll feel bad when you wake up tomorrow
As someone who suffers from Major Depression, I am grateful for this incredibly sensitive overview of bipolar disorder.
I really love all the videos on this channel, this one especially. Great insight and the lesson about how bipolar individuals experience mania is something that more people should hear. I feel like bipolar is shrouded with negative stigmas while people never understand the whole picture. The part which mentions how mania can make our families afraid is basically the only perspective that the general population takes when the word "bipolar" is mentioned. And what's more, the families of bipolar individuals often don't get the whole picture which can lead to alienation. It's very sad, and there should be more open talk about bipolar disorder in order to combat the hottible stigma.
Who would've thought that after watching this channel for over a year now, helping me get through the painful nights of loneliness and depression, that a video with a sponsor from Ridge wallet about an artist I don't even like and a disorder I don't even have would be my favorite video from you?
i feel like a lot of people need to see this now. before ye becomes a statistic
last time i was this early kanye was a college dropout
I concur! The epilogue was awesome! Well written my friend. I have schizo affective disorder which is a cross over disorder between bipolar 1 and schizophrenia. It gives me great strength to think of all the great people who suffered and benefitted from disorders like mine. I just got home from a psychiatric unit two days ago and this video brought me some peace thank you.
If Kanye had got himself a ridge wallet maybe none of this would have happened.
hey man this might get lost but i really appreciate your videos they’re just something great to dive into when i have the time i like the vibes thanks for your work keep it up man thanks
man this vid is hitting hard right now
Yo Sisyphus great content as always. please start leaving the links to the tunes that accompany your videos, I really loved the tune that started playing at the epilogue but I don't know where to find it
Currently working on getting the tracks available! They aren't actually released anywhere as of now. Musician is Housecat (link in the description)
Why do people always mystify artists? It’s like they alien-Iize them, hindering from understanding them...
I hate being a Kanye fan , it's awesome
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Hi Sisyphus if you read this I want you to know that the portion where you point out bpd patients don't want to be cured snapped me back into reality. I've since sought help. Thank you so much for making this video.
I have bipolar disorder and this video is incredibly accurate. It's good to encourage people to get help. I was diagnosed when I was about sixteen and I've been on varying medication since then. Depression feels like my normal state. I've wished every day to not wake up the next. I've thought seriously of suicide when I forget to pick up my medicine. It's a horrible thing. I get by in life by helping others. I chose a profession where I can help kids. Maybe helping them and giving them a chance at a better future, I can somehow justify my existence. That's what it feels like, anyway. Help others to help yourself.
It’s beautiful to help children. I battled type one and have been stable for a few years. I believe you can live depression free, you’ll find a way. Bless you.
Hey man, good video. One thing I will point out that I feel is glossed over is the assumption that Hip hop is a grandiose form of music, or that it consistently uses grandiose themes. Grandiosity is a psychological term, but often rappers are aware of the affects of self-praise. This is a very psychological dissection of what is more a cultural phenomena as it is emulated by other rappers/producer. I’m the streets where you sell ego is your survival tool, it is not simplified and demonized like modern society has interprétate. I would argue against that interpretation as hip hop was created as a social movement protesting harsh conditions of the 70s and 80s. The inflated ego of hip hop is not like the large statements of heavy metal, hip hop artists are come from communities where their financial disempowerment completely conditions how they act and so often in that situation only way to strengthen oneself against a hostile world is personal development and fortification. When the world is racist and cruel ego is the only thing that can turn those negative social thoughts/expectations and into nothing. Black/Latin people have shown natural ubermench levels of personal development as is seen in the intensity of black spirituality and social movements. Look at Akon and africa, Jay Z after pushing crack, any dead rapper who funneled money back into te community, etc... people with strong personalities are seen as egotistical but when you see how most hip hop artists funnel their energy back into the culture and communities, it paints things differently. When you speak to rappers you find that they value themselves greatly, but their capacity to care and give back is something that you don’t find anywhere else in the music world. Through that, I would think hip hop is the least grandiose, even though it talks the most shit 😂
I'm Hispanic, and I was very pleasantly surprised when I found out that I'd developed into Nietzsche's ideal human being almost completely due to circumstance and only a moderate effort of my own. Guess it makes sense that our cultures produce that sorta stuff more often
Antony Arango I agree with everything you say except one thing, grandiosity can mean that you have what it takes to back up all the great things you say about yourself, but in many ways those who are grandiose are comparing themselves to what they see around them not the objective realities of the world. So, kanye unlike other rappers is unable to see where he is not the best or greatest and thats where grandiosity comes in (its when you feel on top of the world but your actually still human with skin and bones)
Gabriel Morales it’s a universal human experience that happens naturally as humans evolve themselves, nietzche knew that even if he never wrote anything, that a rose will always grow in a bundle of thorns if that makes sense
Angel Fuchs Absolutely, and I find that Kanye is so righteous about his own grandiosity which makes him so full of shit. As for the grandiose point, There is a saying in the Tao that says “when no credit is taken accomplishment ensues”. It’s a choice between duty and the intangible future, or the immersion in the concrete (albeit illusionary and glamorous) material world you have. Grandiosity is a choice that happens after a result, even to experience it means that you are coming to some sort of conclusion to your actions. Righteousness though, is not the quality that pushes justice- that is benevolence. Grandiosity in this sense is similar to how righteousness is not the same as benevolence. , There are poor 16-18 years who go to war daily who have infinitely more greatness than this man, their country shoves warrior culture down their throat yet their own sense of honor does not spill over into a sense of grandiosity. It is until after the war is done that the ego perceived the reality of result. A master at a craft may not be grandiose with their work, but be extremely complex. There is nothing honorable about doing the right thing, if you are doing it truly for yourself and selflessly. This is why a war hero may never speak or think of his actions again, because he does not see it as honorable but as necessary. Mindset of a street soldier is not too different but Kanye is NO STREET SOLDIER LMFAOOO. Everything Kanye has done after MBDTF has been for other people’s opinions, and that is why he turned into an egotistical asshat who needs his goddamn lithium
Gabriel Morales Look at how our music like salsa is totally spiritually charged, the suffering of slavery has molded our culture to produce serious levels of community connectivity
As someone who has lived with bipolar for years and is one of the people who has avoided medication etc to neutralise things, the perhaps unintended main lesson that I took away from this is that some of the biggest examples of genius that we can point to are rooted in mania.
If I roll the dice and don't end up killing myself when I feel low, then the pay-off is that I have my best shot at manifesting greatness when living through my more euphoric moments. I'm not convinced that I'd have the same capacity in a more neutral, constant state.
It's not obvious to me that I shouldn't roll the dice.
You have to learn to no rely on the mania, its a drug your body produces. It is better to be stable. If you're gonna ride the tiger you have to get yourself to a point of stability thay you're not harming your own life with overly extreme episodes. I'm a new artist but I can tell that most of my best ideas come with manic, but the high of it will make me perceive poor technique as good. You need all sides of yourself to manifest greatb3ss and this can be a gift. But in today's world its near impossible for this spiritual lightning to not be a burden, tread carefully. I have medical marijiana to help me when psychosis and mood swings are too strong. I hope you have a system because the only way to do this is to have more self control than the average person.
Looking back into history, back when diagnosis and treatment was not possible, you COULD be right ... but when you look back, notice the lives of people that have similar symptoms to bipolar today. Study this strain in history carefully, and then consider the matter like a good investor would: you need strong discipline to find a system that works for you, and a strong support system (therapy can be helpful here). You also will need strong skill development, and an honest group of people around you who are not given to mania or depression to help you assess what you are producing and then choosing to market.
For every genius we know of with mania, there are a whole lot of people lost in the dust of time for whom their mania paid them dust. That is not obvious because history tends to record the successes ... but if you examine the matter carefully, you will see that what is not obvious is nonetheless important. If you are not well-disciplined, you might consider not rolling the dice as you get older and things break down as they must for all of us ... those dice you are rolling may be snowballs that become an avalanche.
I’m 22. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 in 2017. I started out taking Prozac and I did shrooms and acid and smoked weed occasionally while on it. I wanted to reach a place creatively and I did.
2020 pandemic lockdown i went nuts. Wash us in the blood came out and I was doing acid that day. My mom was terrified watching me tweak in awe of Kanye.
Now I still smoke weed and I take 300mg of lithium twice daily. As I write this august 2023 has begun. My mania is ending. I had a bad episode today.
A lot of people say Kanye is “just like me” meaning they think they’re him. I’m mentally unstable and I see the parallels between me and him.
What a time to watch this
That final thought hits hard. I can't help but already feel like it will be sticking with me all day.
This was really well put together, I liked it a lot.
so great to see so many bipolar people in the comments sharing their experience, makes me feel less alone.
Ive always been a Kanye stan because his music and history within the music industry is just so intriguing and awe inspiring to me, but always felt so conflicted whenever he talks outside of that sphere. I dont want to pull a Laura Ingram and tell him to "shut up and shoot the damn ball" but his pedestal and controversial mindset is definitely something that makes me facepalm that hes my favorite artist more often than not. Thank you for making this video and giving me a more analytical perspective on not just why he might act this way, but why i relate to him more than most other artists too ❤
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this has helped my understanding of this mental disorder and how it impacts those in a creative environment, thank you sisyphus
i love how street lights was playing in the back at the end, this was an amazing video highlighting and explaining points of bpd, honestly i probably have learned more stuff on this channel than school at this point
Kinda went crazy during the part where you said a majority of bipolar ppl wouldn’t get rid of their disorder, I really relate, mania is like a drug.
I was diagnosed as bipolar some 3 weeks ago and this video helped me to better understand myself. I appreciate this content more than I can express. Thank you for making this content. You have earned a subscriber in me.
I keep finding myself coming back to this video. I have bipolar 1 this helps me a ton with explanation to friends.
I love these videos, this is the first ad I’ve seen on this channel and I’m happy that you’re getting something back from these amazing videos
im not bipolar but to a lesser extent ive felt a form of mania. during school i was very introverted and shy, and often depressed but once in a while i would feel breakthroughs and would become very outgoing, confident, loud and angry at students, teachers and my family. during these periods i would also improvise endlessly for hours on the piano and spend lots of actual practice as well, feeling godlike. id get the ability to play video games and read books hours on end, all up until that energy would crash into a family member. the end of these episodes usually resulted in breaking furniture or hangjng myself out of a window in my house, then followed by a long period of intense depression. ive always had therapy, and good support from friends and family so it never became too serious, but the choice to try to conform was difficult. i know i can be a narcissist, but i also feel sympathy for people and i can catch myself become narcissistic even if it causes depression. the comedown from godlike mania to the depressing realization that youre just another ordinary person can be torturous, which i think makes the mania not worth it
I think it's important to mention that Pete Davidson also has a mental disorder (BPD) and that by telling Kanye that "mental disorders don't give you a reason to be a jackass" Davidson likely is rationalizing how he attempts to take accountability for his actions when his disorder makes him act out and that Kanye should do the same rather than placing blame on the disorder. I think that context is important as these words could be interpreted as ableism.
You know that's fair, but even still every experience is different and Pete being judgemental is a dick move but nothing so bad as to actually be upset over it. People can only use what their experience tells them to understand the world and eachother. I just assume I'm ignorant to other people's struggles and just let them be so long as it isn't affecting me or mine.
To hold any sort of dislike for someone and to feel all that disdain is hard to do when you understand that you are no better and that a lack of information on either side would easily fix whatever qualms you have with them. It's just too much effort to be upset all the time but it's big buisness keeping people angry at the world because angry people click news articles about the things they don't like and content people don't
The manic state is not all about overestimating owns abilities to do things. For creative people mania (hypomania mainly) feels invaluable because of the abstract ideation and the flow of novel perspectives. Being stable is a deal breaker when it comes to many of our greatest artists. It has given the world way more than anyone can ever imagine.
i binge these videos while working around the home. i really appreciate your rationality and understanding in your work.
The level with which i relate to this video brought me near to tears. Thank you with genuine appreciation Sis
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That was beautiful. The epilogue was just the perfect way to end this video. This is the exact reason as to why i look forward to your videos. Hope you're doing well.
Do you feel tempered outbursts, that you cannot control? Feeling lonely, even when you are with people, feeling blocked. Feeling blue, sad, feeling disinterested in things, feeling fearful. Are your feelings easily hurt? Feeling that people are unfriendly, or do you feel like people dislike you?
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Love these pieces on contemporary artists. This & the Donald Glover vid might be 2 of my favourites from your channel, thanks man :)
Best part about your vids are the extra things that I want to look into and research after the video is done. You bring a lot of stuff to the table. Keep it up!
This is one of my favourite videos ever and you’re a top creator currently, keep up the great work!
God this was so good!Keep up the good work man.Your way of expressing things so fluently and clearly is mindboggling
This was a beautiful video. This moved me to tears. Thank you Sisyphus.
Bipolar 1 as well. Thank you for this. This is stunning.
That poetic ending was beautiful. Overall a great video, that's what I've come to expect from this channel.
Honestly this channel is helping me through so much, I don't want to go into detail Although, i do want to say thank you.
Please keep making videos truly inspiring
My bipolar delusion is that however I feel right this second is how I always have and will always feel. Constantly changing, but even more the same every time.
Informative and clear video with solid support and effective writing throughout, leading up to a compelling conclusion.
Man, fantastic video. I'm so happy to have found your channel. You're really well spoken!
the ridge really does pick its sponsorships well... congrats and love the videos !
It took me 7 minutes to realize that Kanye songs were playing in the background.
Incredible, informative and relevant. I hope this gets more young people thinking about psychology and studying (insert ANYTHING here) more closely and with enthusiasm.
This is very insightful for what I'm going through!
I'm a struggling musician and I have been told that I might have bipolar yet I always denied finding myself justifying toxic behavior. I had myself convinced that everyone is wrong about my biplolar while I'm some supreme being and my manic self is real me.
I have lost a lot because of my actions and I try my best stopping myself acting like a "jackass" while bunch of "fans" and metal nerds love me being toxic.
This is the best video I've ever seen. Thank you!
Thank you for making this.
I love the videos on this channel and I am so happy to see more videos on CZcams about Psychology from both a philosophical but also scientific standpoint. Really great videos on so many interesting topics
Thank you for the Sources!!! Also great video.
Thank you for making this video. There is such a negative stigma about bipolar.
One of my favourite vids you made so far man. Very interesting
I relate to this man so much. Praying for you Kanye ❤️❤️🙏
Housecat's music is so chill. Just became my new study music. Thank you
I genuinely love your videos