Reacting to why I am a loser. Life is now meaningless. I want to die.
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- čas přidán 25. 05. 2021
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I Am A Loser
I am not looking for pity. This is just a rant for CZcams.
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My name is Travis Balitz. I have been living with Bipolar Disorder since 2008. I have had many other diagnosis such as anxiety, depression, schizoaffective disorder and bipolar type 2 . I am currently diagnosed with bipolar type 1. There have been many ups and downs in my life. Here on this channel I am advocate for Mental Health. I share my experiences, good and bad and in between. I also give advice and share my general experience with hospitalizations, partial hospitalizations, group homes (IRTS), dialectical behavioral therapy, personal therapy, psychiatric experiences and my knowledge on all of the medications I have been on. I hope you can learn something from my channel. Also do not be afraid to reach out if you are in a dire situation. Please contact the suicide hotline if you are at a risk for your mental health. Number is here: 800-273-8255. Text BRAVE to 741741. Thank you.
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Nah man, the term "loser" was created by society to explain things they can't understand. Losers aren't this genuine and vulnerable. Cheers, brother
ah thanks man... i totally appreciate your statement... its just that i dont know... close friends around me don't really approve of the lifestyle I choose to live, and it sorta just got me down cause it had me thinking... oh yeah and I was trying to get into IT and I ended up failing the basic certification 4 times now. Debating if I need a new career change or not.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog Sometimes you have to re-evaluate the friendships you have to see if they're lifting you up, or tearing you down. I know it's hard to make such big decisions - what do you want to do most in life?
@@JoshHitti lol i guess sometimes its no better whether you have friends or not... especially toxic ones or at least ones that don't know any better...
OH by the way man you channel is exploding... Have you considered monetizing your channel... THe basis are this: 4000 views a month and at least 1000 subscribers. I think you are way past that. and if you want to create your own personalized youtube link you need at least 100 subs and you have that to... i can talk to my brother to walk you thru it. I only know this cause back in the day we had a monetized channel. one video of mine had 2.4 million views but it was way before adsense took place and we only made like a 100 bucks each page... but anyways let me know what you think. id be glad to help you out.
Oh yeah to answer your question... my dream was to become a composer. I have ton of instrumentals on www.2uo7rax.com over 100 tracks and about 74 music songs i wrote rap and sung at www.realgroupstation.com. you should check it out. I also have been an artist @ www.travisbalitz.com/artwork and ive been into fitness.. but my dream was to make it big on youtube as a composer where views = monetization but couldnt get my music out there. I never imagined myself as a performer. To be honest i have had bipolar since 2008 and i hung a rope in the gazebo cause i was contemplating suicide. And then started my denial and then tribulations. Was in a group home 7 hospitalizations and 2 partials and over 30 different meds. I always wanted a relationship as well. I was going to marry one but i wanted to prioritize my passions and since i live with my disabled dad helping him and not much money from my creative stuff. I was at a crisis cuz my friends dont like me being on disability and hinted i should work. I charge my dad 18 an hr do do things for him since he injured his back. But sometimes i question whether it was a bad decision to follow my passions when society is so focused on making a living and settling down with a family. Of course i want that to but i dont think it is possible. I want to make money my way. Im not gay but i think you are a really good looking guy. Back in the day did you make it well with the ladies? I wish you lived in minnesota. Kyle and i are looking for a workout buddy cheers. You have a nice house and an attractive wife. What is your dream? What do you do for work?
Josh sorry about the long comments. I am interested in a video on how was social anxiety as a teen and early 20s. Was it hard to find your wife? Did it make relationships tough? Does your wifes anxiety makes it even harder to find friends? Does your wife have severe anxiety as well? Have you ever had therapy? What about the friends you did have were any of them coworkers? Have you tried meeting your wife online dating app? What was your first date like with her? I have single 5 years and i am just curious how your life played out with dynamics with her. Dont answer here id just like to create topics you could talk about.
Dude.. you're not a loser at all..
thanks man... i know I am not a total loser its just what my friends think of me that has me questioning.
*see my response to this on Facebook*