"Unless I'm high, I'm not happy" | Denver, CO | Addiction After Dark #48
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this is the type of person i have so much empathy for. she’s so full of shame and guilt. she’s not blaming the world, she knows what she’s done. i hope she’s able to recover or find a program because people who are victims of their own consequences in this regard still deserve help.
She’s not a bad person .
She’s a little flower .
God bless her .
Drugs are just demons. People want to escape this satanic planet and invite a level of darkness into themselves that masquerade as an angel of light. I totally get it.
I think the saddest part was her admitting she was a joke idk how we can fix these addicts but giving them money and shelter is clearly not the problem I think they need something that validates them
watch the whole vid he’s not giving them money he’s offering rehabilitation
@@AKA_Gee it’s about having a purpose and being productive member of society consistently not just getting clean, going through the same cycles
Need to fix herself internally. She,l either die or get fed up with the bullshit of being an addict. But giving them free shit of whatever just enables them to keep using
She needs therapy. Probably years of it. Almost no addicts had good childhoods, most are absolutely tormented with lifelong trauma.
@@hannahm.9881 ure pretty right I'm a drug addict then alcohol, luckily I just gut fed up with it all , never had therapy though .should of
I feel her pain. What a beautiful woman inside and out. Most people won't see that about her.
She’s so grateful for the opportunity it’s so wholesome to see
i live in the denver area and i’ve also been addicted to fentanyl for a while. i have also lost my son this year and i’ve been going on a crazy drug binge because of it, i empathize with rose to the max. if i ever come across her i hope i can find the courage to tell her how strong she is for living this fucked up life :(
Please ask for help. Go to a clinic. You can take sub get off the dirty and reclaim your life ! You are loved you are a mom. You will always Be!! Tomorrow is a NEW DAY!! Hugs** reach out. Ask for help.. you ARE loved way more than uknow !
Please, you are worth so much more & deserve to live life not just survive it. I was you, I am you.
We are all joined at the broken places - none of us better or worse than the other. I pray you drop the hammer & find the faith to climb out of hell - we are worth it, we are not our past nor does our addiction define us & you are not alone.
Can’t wait for life to be good before you decide to be happy - my prayers to everyone sick & suffering in & out of recovery.❤❤
@starsunmoon30 I live in Denver and struggle too. Problem with using sub is you have to be off fent for like 2 days or more and those days are a living hell and Problem with clinics is it takes forever to get into one and they are only open in early morning also they cost money....sometimes money you don't have. If you have a job it's a crazy balance to try to handle and keep the job at the same time.
@Placker8102 I think you can take sub after 24 hours of not taking anything else. The 1st signs if withdrawal true physical signs, you can take a Lil if it does well. Then take more . I do think the clinics want way too much $ but thier are marketplace health insurance that can make it cheaper . HTH.
@starsunmoon30 from personal experience I took a tiny sliver of a sub after 24 hrs and went into precipitated withdrawals witch is like withdrawals cranked up 100%. It probably depends on metabolism so some probably can after 24hrs some need to wait longer. Although methadone would work without that catch. The problem is they start you out on such a low dose and only let you go up by 10mg a day and I'm not a hardcore user I do around 10 a day and 30mg of methadone will have me not hurting for about 6 to 8hrs and then I start hurt really bad.
She's broken. So broken. It hurts my heart to see it. I hope she can decide to fix her and not attatch her self worth to her baby daddy
Bro, do a follow-up please! She's so lovely and such a sweetheart!
Sweet girl! I hope you find your way with the resources you are being offered ❤️ You are a beautiful soul ❤️ People who judge others trauma and their response to it suck.
She’s SO tired it breaks my heart, she couldn’t think straight if she wanted to people need help
She doesn't know the difference! I'm a recovered addict and you get used to the uncontrollable shaking! That's how you know there high!?
She is sober working not homeless and I hope the team that interviewed her would reach out to me so they could interview an update to see the real her and I know this because she lives with me and I just dropped her off at work
I wanna see it .
Proof?
That’s amazing
Love to see it! Wishing her the best❤
Thanks for sharing ❤
Awe poor baby everyone deserves real help especially when they are asking for help ❤
This woman is smart and thoughtful and passionate. To think she hasn't slept in 5 days and is speaking this honestly and truthfully is amazing. I wish her the best
I feel her pain to the damn max bro...
I have been off Fentanyl & back home here in STL for a year..
The happiness in my life is mostly non existent.. 🤍
I have been fighting every day to become & be a better person but none of it seems to matter..
The fight gets harder & harder.
I'm praying for you babygirl...
You're NOT alone. 💕
7 months clean off heroin and fentanyl and I feel this. I'm on Suboxone, all that does is help with cravings, but joy.. real happiness, I don't have. I hope it comes back . My life is better. I'm with my babies. I'm just.. here
It will come back I promise! I never did any of that stuff but just oxy.. a lot of it… and now I take suboxone. Honestly been on it for 13 years. My psychiatrist here in Seattle is amazing i see him every two months, he takes insurance. Don’t get me wrong. I have my bad days my very bad days and I get super depressed but I remember that I am OK I’m happily married to my best friend for 20 years. I have a home I have an amazing job and every day is a new day. Please love yourself and the happiness and joy will come back. 7 months is amazing but still very early and I can see why you’re still craving. Do you guys have hobbies? I redo furniture / paint it and sell it. When someone buys my work it’s the best feeling in the world knowing that I went from that to this! Keep good people around you and have a good support system. Have a great weekend and congrats on sobriety!!
It will get better. It takes a lot of work but it’s soooo worth it!
My comment was deleted.!!!! Wth
@@vintagejunktofunk4616 that happens to me ALL THE TIME
Even at this low point, her first thoughts are about her son and his dad. Can you imagine what she could accomplish when she gets healthy? We got your back girlie!
The fact her brother did that to her she needs help ❤
God bless her and everyone else here. We all need positivity
Oh my god. That's Rosalee. We were in treatment together in Tampa about 6 years ago. We were roommates. She used to talkb about Kade all the time. This is so sad. I had no idea she went down this road. She has a lot of trauma and I hope she accepts the help being offered to her.
If she could sleep and get consistent meals for a few days that isn’t jail she could think clearly and it wouldn’t fix it but those moments of clarity come from having your basic needs met and meeting humans basic needs when they need help shouldn’t be an outrageous thing to do
I hope you can do a follow up on her and she fights for her sobriety
Crazy I’m sitting in Denver’s airport rn … you’d never imagine yes things happen everywhere but I can’t explain it ugh sending all my love
Did you know Americans die every 6 minutes from Fentanyl⁉️ #trump2024
I'll be praying! I wish I was still in Colorado. Celebrating ten years sobriety, 7 years in opiates/ injecting heroin. Know that you are loved and more importantly, the Lord loves you.
It’s a broken system
She's so pretty too. So sad. I'ma pray for her. Reminds me of my bbma.
Oh, no lies, i feel bad for her
The constant moving is torturous.
I had akathesia and only for a short time. Theres no better word than torturous.
I wish her well.
Started crying as soon as she talked about her son
baby girl u still have a chance !
I wanna hug her these stories are so sad
Bless her heart 💔
🔔 A real man is a protector, provider, leader & teacher! Sending ❤💪🙏
This breaks my heart.
Oh bless her
Hope she manages to get clean and gets to spend time with her son
Girl I hope ur better now bc u just told every store u go to. I will always pray 🙏 for you. U can do. This u r a smart young lady GIVE URSELF A BREAK ❤❤😢
I literally went to high school with her. Heartbreaking. I hope you can get sober Rosalee.
I relate to her sooo much.
We as addicts are not a joke, we are created by God and He loves us. These videos have just brought me to tears. Thanks for letting them tell their stories.
I hope she chooses to get sober. I see her aura shining through and she deserves her simple life
I lived in wheat ridge for awhile and I saw some things that spooked me
I feel that
Denver is basically Gotham now
Its sad. Ive lived in denver my whole life and the drug problem has been getting bad
I lived in wheat ridge for awhile and wasn’t ready.. grew up in the suburbs of NJ where the drugs were few and far in between. Within a couple days I was pressed by a dude clearly on some shit asking me what time it is and going “you sure? You sure?” Where you from? Is that the time? Weird stuff man
I grew up with her and her baby daddy Austin. He died shortly after this video was uploaded
Oh no 😢
How did he die?
He broke into a condo and OD’d in there
I actually lost my virginity to her shortly before my 14th birthday.
How sad! Did she get help w sobriety?
I could never see myself going back to drugs its so hard being a addict its a full time job 2 hears clean 26 months to be exact
Do they do updates?
Fuck man this broke my heart
Omg 😢
Can you post an update on her? Did she receive help?
She needs medication is why. Self medicating isn't helping you hun. It's depleting you not only physically but mentally.
She's such nice,lovely person💖 My' heart goes out to' her. I wanna give her a big hug 🤗. I can relate to' her/you' babygirl❤( If she ever gets to read/ see This'.) Because I was addicted to drug's Meth back in 1991until 1999. Until I got arrested went to prison for a 120. Saved my' life❤ tho'. But', anyways This' ain't
about me. It's about Her💓! God bless her🙏. (Hope you do a follow-up with Her. And she's gotten the help she' wants and needs. Broke my heart 💔when she said she's a joke. She/you're anything But' a joke. Sweet 😘child.
😢
so.. did she go to rehab or not?
Yo that girl saved my life when I was using ... Rose if you see this I fucking love you... And you're life is so worthwhile
I feel bad for her, what a mess she is..Looks sounds absolutely Terrible... She has to be tired of living like this..
Stay away from drugs kids.
Did she go to rehab
She can get treated the system just don’t see a good reason why
My wife bro.
FYI, A real man is a protector, provider, leader & teacher
If you read this keep seeking jesus , i was a 25 year addict saved by gods grace ,get some.kratom herbs and detox naturally i hope and pray to God for strenght for you and you see this. GOD BLESS YOU ,YOU DESERVE FOR YOU AND YOUR SON TO BE HAPPY , THE BEST I HAVE EVER BEEN DOING WAS WHEN I GOT SOBER ,#WEDORECOVER I WAS SICK AND TIRED.OF BEING SICK AND TIRED
Amen! Kratom saved me from alcoholism. What’s crazy is I rarely drank till I was 27 and started working at a liquor store. We would get everything at whole sale prices so I would get it cheapest in the state basically. Within four months I was downing a handle every day and a half and still going to work no problem. It got bad real quick and I never cared for it before. These substances are nothing short of demonic. My heart goes out to everyone struggling.. I heard of Kratom and gave it a try. I loved it! But first 3-4 months I was doing both.. but after awhile I would puke everytime if I did both so God slapped me up a bit and saved my wretched soul. Stopped it cold Turkey and can’t stand the scent of booze much less drinking it
Her Mum took her son away from her and instead of trying to get him back she gave up and started Herion instead knowing she would lose the chance of ever getting him back, the sympathy in the comments section is not warranted at all.
Don’t speak about addiction and things you’ve never experienced. She started at 16, her brain is chemically different due to addiction it is not this black and white topic you think. The sympathy is warranted you can see how much she wants to get better here
@@katylynvazquez9549 fact still remains the same. Look just don’t touch it in the first place you’re not getting sympathy from me you knew what it was and even had kids but couldn’t have the will power to fight for them. People like this make me sick and this is her punishment
Lord please help her find the way 🤍🤍🤍