Spice Addict interview-David
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- čas přidán 17. 03. 2021
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of David, a lifelong Skid Row resident and spice addict.
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Such a kindhearted man... another example that childhood trauma haunts people even in their adult lives.
Child hood trauma is 93% of the interviews on this channel
well he still became a decent person, which masses of non abused persons did not
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Yep. Please stop having kids you don't want.
“Been crying all my life, not on the outside but from the inside” #Heavy
SO HEAVY
He seems like such a kind soul. He deserves to know love- TRUE love, even if it's through getting a little doggie or something (if he gets to a point that he can care for it of course) . He has so much love to give
Very
This first line...
never know what a person been through
He lit up when he talked about fathering that duckling. Just because somebody never received love, doesn't mean they cannot give so much love in return. Wishing David the best and all the happiness he so deserves.
Yes he did. He’s full of LOVE....you can definitely feel it when telling that duck story. He made me 😀!
I loved seeing him telling about that. Hopefully he gets stable enough soon and maybe he could get a little dog or something. This man deserves love. It breaks my heart.
What a sweet man
He's carried his mother's words with him since he was 6 yrs old 😢
right? i don't remember much from when i was 6 and i'm in my twenties. i hope things look up for david
Lol ill always rember my step mom telling me “if i had it my way youd be 6 feet under right now”
Seriously its fucking crazy, but for him to still be here after all of that shows his strength
Tongues have no bones but they can break a heart.
@@TobyW360 terrible thing for an adult to say to a child 😒
Anyone ever notice how many of the peoples stories start with being sexually abused as a child? It may just be the worst thing that can happen and it goes on everyday
E v e r y single one seems to have been sexually and/or mentally abused. AND seems once they get put in foster homes the abuse gets worse. It is just so sad.
It’s so everyday in way people just won’t accept it. It’s imposssible to stop.
Trauma is the REAL GATEWAY “DRUG”
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@@jonescrusher1 I won't say it's impossible. Change begins with awareness, and thousands of eyes are being opened with these stories. The original comment shows just that.
It broke my heart to hear him say, at six years old, "..but why do you hate me, momma?"
We ALL need validation from our parents/guardians or whoever has raised us. We look up to these adults and that is what gives us the confidence, in our lives.
The truth is, we are all "broken" in some way.
So crazy 🥲🥲🥲
@@adamschaeffer4057 I wish u and ur son many blessings. U are a stand-up man. 💯 The mother will reap what she sow. There is no reason for a woman to not have a natural bond and automatically nurture their child. I apologize ur son is experiencing that.
@@adamschaeffer4057 blessings to you and your son my mother did the same thing please do your best to build and protect his confidence and trust 🙏 ❤
@@adamschaeffer4057 I raised my daughter as a single parent. How I dealt with the situation was to explain to her that some people are grown up on the outside but on the inside they're little kids.
I know. This was so sad 😞
This one really got to me. I really wish all the best for him. He needs a dog, they love unconditionally and he deserves that. Wish I could give him a hug.
That's what I said! He's such a sweetheart. He deserves to know what love feels like before his time is up and I can tell by his duck story that he has so much love to give. ❤ I hope to see a follow-up with him.
I wonder if he realises his Duck loved him, and he was important to the Duck.
He nurtured that Duck, and gave him everything he didn't have, he gave his time, companionship, he wasnt neglectful and when the time come for this Duck to move on, he sought the best place to meet his needs. I just noticed his favourite memory was providing what he didn't have to the duck. He is such a precious soul.love does not need to be linear, just a scatter of moments. May he have more love in his life, moments of love! X
He's definitely a loveable human being.
"God's been crying with me all my life" 😭 that was heavy
He lit up when he remembered his duck 🦆 🙂
He was pooping every damn where... it made me chuckle. So sweet
And the therapist advised him to put him in a shelter. That broke my heart
It was really sweet, but it made me sad that that was his favorite memory.
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@@sheepnomore8063 having a pet or someone to be there for you can be a huge memory regardless of how old you are. He was on the streets for 48 years and finally getting a pet that he could be with isn’t a small thing like it is with others his age
I'm glad the state is minding him with housing etc. He's a gentle soul.☘
I didn't realize there are programs that do that much. It's encouraging.
@@4knewt505 There'd be a certain amount of housing put by for people like him in Ireland. Having his accommodation looked after, and utilities paid for the remaining of his pension to feed himself etc.
This man deserves so much more love than he as ever received. Yet he seems so kind. God bless.
I totally agree with you
What a sweet soul. Im sorry for the trauma youve been through sir.
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Man the first 15 seconds of this is heartbreaking
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Can you imagine living a loveless life based off survival. He’s not living, but just existing for the last 48 years? God bless this man
He's pitiful...emotional pain will make a person do a lot of things they shouldn't be doing
@Mike Ratliff kinda cold hearted no?
@@SittinNBitchin how mean
What's the difference ?
48 years to get his stuff together. There is people with upbringing 10 times worse and they still make it thru life.
He is by far the best interview that I have watch from this program. This man is so insightful. He just gets it. He very wise. I could listen to him talk all day. He would make a great public speaker. Please do more follow ups with him. He has made more sense to me in this short interview than many people have in my whole lifetime.
He's amazingly together for being a spice addict.
He might not abuse it
@@itslilbackwood currently trying to kick that shit, i know like 1, maybe 2 people who sometimes use it but not abuse. one of the hardest drugs to use but not get spiraled into a terrible addiction. it might sound like bullshit but actually isnt when people say its the crack version of weed
He said "I been crying al my life" I felt that.😐
Shts sad
In the process, K2 makes you cry inside all the time… on the bright side, for some addicts that started binge-smoking marijuana and moved to spice at one point , if withdrawing using all drugs at the end it gives you some closure I guess most struggling addicts been looking for throughout the whole time
I remember when I was younger & wondering why my mother didn’t want me, I was raised by my grandmother and she did an EXCELLENT job with me and did sooo much for me. I am now 22 years old and I can count on one hand how many times I have spoken to her. My self esteem was tore up and I felt so low. Everyone who came into my life and actually loved me, I ended up pushing them away. BUT, through a lot of prayer & a great support system I’m doing wayyy better. I wish my mother no ill will, but I’m content now with not having a relationship with her.
God has helped me a lot to get beyond the pain and disappointment of my childhood. I trusted Him to give me a heart of flesh for a heart of stone and He did what I couldn't do.
I'm happy to hear that trusing in Him has made a difference in your life.😊💖
May God bestow many blessings upon you.
My heart breaks for this man. Despite a solitary life and everything he's been through, he chooses to look at life in a very practical way. He hasn't let the world beat him down and make him bitter. Sometimes the people that least deserve to struggle are the ones who end up struggling the most.
Well said💜
My thoughts actually.
My heart breaks for this man. But also makes me smile because from what I see he is trying to be a good man and with all his circumstances and setbacks that life has dealt him he still seems to have a great perspective. I wish him only happiness!
@Floyd Dobbler no just bad grammar but thanks for the correction.
I know
48 years on skid row in Las Angeles...damn. That's quite the feat sir. You're a survivor. Salute!
If anyone was able to donate , this man is one who would genuine appreciate it .
“Everything I went through I had to feel, now I don’t want to feel.” My god. I pray for this man.
The most stark example I’ve seen yet on the channel of growing up with no love. Heartbreaking.
Holy shit he can’t think of a single happy memory...
you literally took the words out of my mouth.
@@MLMenjoyer His duck! 🦆
Man... trust me.. it amazes me how these interviews continue to move me... the human experience really is beautiful even in the most gruesome ways
This was so painful it took my breath away. As a mother, I ache for you, David. You deserved a better start. I am so happy to hear that you have an apartment. I am an artist and I would like to send a couple little pieces of art for your apartment, if possible. Mark, is there a way to DM you?
David seems to have a pure heart. His story made me cry hard. Not just from the inside but many tears running out too. Keep on being blessed David. God bless you. God is so great.
please do a follow up. for his sake. i think you mark could offer him his first experience of brotherly love.
@Mike Ratliff how is this "gay"? And even so how is that an insult?
@Mike Ratliff dude come on, u can’t be that hateful
Great ideal
@Mike Ratliff stfu
@Mike Ratliff being attracted to men makes you gay, nothing more or less dumbass
It’s breaks my heart to hear David’s story. Knowing someone can go their entire life feeling unloved. The only sense of love David felt in his life was when he had his duck. It speaks volumes about David’s heart that he was able to give up his only source of love. Only to better the life of his duck. I wish you the best David.
Brought tears to my eyes. Heart break is so serious, and it can affect someone for a lifetime.
Bruh! This dude reminds me of my dad!!! No matter what always had faith and Knew God was with him. And he was! MAY GOD BLESS YOU WITH MANY MORE YEAR DAVID! ... that "I've been crying my whole life, But God has been crying with me" that part 💪🏿💪🏿
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I loved that part too, Kevin.
Amen, Kevin.
I'd really like to give David a hug and extend my hand in true friendship. He seems like such a good dude. 48yrs....my heart broke for him but now I just want to be his friend.
"Sometimes when I be telling these stories, I be crying but I be crying from the inside. You never see a teardrop, but from this eye, I've been crying all my life. I've been crying all my life." WOW.
His story of raising that duckling is so precious. David, you’re a gentle, beautiful soul.
God, please continue to help him. His story literally broke my heart. Wish I could let him know that I love him with the love of God!
mark please do a follow up, this sweet man needs somebody anybody, i appreciate your impact on people mark you’re a good person
Damn I did not see that story about the duck coming that was some wholesome shit.
I think that's why he was especially joyous. It's amazing the things that make humans so elated. He is a blessed man to have survived everything. May God bless and keep him safe always.
I couldn't help but feel sad when he said even the duck was taken away from him due to a psychiatrists opinion though. People have weirder shit going on in their homes, why can't this man just have a pet duck !?
Hallo Mark, I'm a subscriber from Germany.
Can you(we) make a donation for this man so that he can at least afford a dental prosthesis?
Your channel is a enrichment and blessing, really appreciate your work. God bless you and all the nice caring people in the comments.
If you go to Mark's GoFundMe (link in description box), you can make a donation and specify that you want it to go to this man, and suggest he looks into some dental help.
Bless you xx
So kind 🥺❤️
This is amazing
That was incredible. That's a guy who deserves to have peace in his life. A gentle soul.
I really truly enjoyed listening to David, he's so humble and kind. We need more stories like David in the world!
I don't think, considering the life David has had, he could have turned out a better person. A better life awaits him. God Bless him!
Amen!😊💖
Amen!
Amen!!
David touched my heart tonight. I love that he has his own apartment and is doing okay for himself. And he loves helping others with his advice and life experience which shows what a truly WISE man he is. He has been through so much and is learning to overcome at his age. And he's got God figured out alright!
this is one of the most depressing interviews i've seen on this channel. it hurts
Compared to some stories I heard on this channel, his is not that bad. I heard stories here that just cascades from tragedy to tragedy. He seem to be in good spirit despite it all though.
@deltawaave u anit seen nothing yet keep watching
He is the sweetest little man.
Im really sorry the therapist had him give up his duck, the one thing that brought him joy?! I suppose it was best for the duck. Maybe?
I am happy he can still smile after all that he has been through.
He is a perfect example of a Godly person. He has forgiven his mother & people from his past.
Im glad he has a place to live. He deserves it.
It’s so hard to forgive people who’ve hurt us......let’s live by his example....let’s be Godly people too, 💕💗💞.
I’m so happy he has housing, what a sweet kind hearted man. There some real evil child bearers out there, I call them that as they are nothing more.
Well put!
I’m super happy he has housing and assistance too, some people don’t deserve it but people like this do.
Taking into account his mother may not have ever known love to give to someone else. We don't know her upbringing and damage she carried over. That's why its called a CYCLE. His best words... can't say if life is or isn't fair. It's life. Move along with it. Nice to see he did to the best of his ability. A kind soul. He broke the cycle by not bringing a life into this world being unsure he understood LOVE --- to give it -- and didn't take on that responsibility with the uncertainty. Let's not judge his mom. He didn't. Maybe he realizes she was a broken person before his time and gave her grace. What a wonderful human he is.
@@catzee4720 I suppose then... you have much to say about the many on this channel who have had children themselves, not nuturing them, neglecting them, allowed them to get into an iffy foster system and or left them with their own abusers in some cases... or have no idea what abuse their children are enduring while they are destroying themselves in an attempt to manage / cope with their own abuse. I'm clear what WRONG is. But I find it interesting some of you will sympathize with these folks as they tell their stories, judge their parent(s) yet you dont and cant hear their own children's stories.
As this gentlemen said...best lesson...don't judge. You or many or thousands thinking it's WRONG is not going to stop it. Or it would have stopped a long time ago and the world would be nice. It's generally learned behavior, passed along ... as normal....that is a web of issues difficult to unravel, with a FAMILY HISTORY.
How do we stop it ? Stop judging. Start shedding light on it...as Mark is doing. So that maybe MORE like this gentlemen will break the cycle. Thank u. Have a great night.
@@catzee4720 Sure. I wouldn't know. SMH. You know nothing about me either.
No favorite memories. A tear just dropped from my eye. Thank God for the duck
With tears in my eyes I was thinking the same thing.
He seems like he's got a lot of valuable things to say and offers them generously to those in need around him. It also seems like he wrestles with joy and sadness, managing to hold both. Great answer to if the world is fair or not: "I don't know, but it is what it is, so deal with that and don't worry."
Wise Man 💕
He seems like such a kind hearted person.
David is a veteran of the streets. I'm so glad he has a safe place to sleep after all those years. And after all those loveless years, he is still able to have a laugh. What I totally love about you David is that you have taken everything that has happened to you and made yourself stronger. Not bitter, not hateful. A caretaker of ducks. Have you ever had a cat? They can be great company too.
Such a kind-hearted soul...❤
So glad he now has his own place to call home... wishing him the Best!
I'm reminded of a quote from Silent Hill: mother is God in the eyes of a child. A mother's love, or absence thereof, makes or breaks a person.
Yeah
Hello David, thank you for sharing what a resilient soul you have .
Hello
@@destaniedillard1001 hello
This man is amazing. All he’s been through yet he has a kind heart.
So sad, he had a shitty start in life, but he's so sweet and kind. No holding any grudge on anybody. And that says a lots aboit him. 48 yrs in skid row from the 70's can you imagine what has he's seen over the years? Wow
He reached the peace of mind. He's got his flat, so no struggle for money nowadays. Good video. I wish him some happiness real soon
"You'll never see a teardrop but from the inside I've been crying all my life".
Very profound statement.
This is the most lovely person I've seen on this channel. May God continue to bless him.
It breaks my heart when he said as a 6 year old “why do you hate me mama?” 😪🥺 so terrible I’m sorry David.
OMG, already physically assaulted while still in mother’s womb, then subjected to F’d up parents. What chance did this poor soul ever have?
😢😢😢
And they say a baby in the womb feels things.💔
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Almost no chance at all. 💔
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I'm happy that he at least has a place to lay his head.
Crying on the inside my whole life....that was deeply profound.
He really is lovable.
Sweet Blessings to him.
The joy on his face talking about his pet duck. 🥲
I hope he gets a cat
If you're ever having a bad day, remember this man. He's probably been through much worse...and he can still smile and be kind. He's a hero.
The Sins of the Parent is the beginning of IT ALL 😔
Your words are so true thanks
This is the best one I've seen in a while BRING HIM BACK
He would be an awesome animal volunteer ! Very therapeutic too!
These interviews are almost a therapy session for me. It might sound wierd but it gives me the opportunity for self reflection and to look inside myself and as myself things that maybe I never would of before so thanks alot..
It’s not weird at all. I feel the same way. Seeing certain situations through another’s eyes gives me a kind of mental clarity that I’m not often afforded.
same
same here
he cry only from the inside , i seen this i cry from the outside what a beautiful person is this, Blessings to him
Awww I just want to hug him. God protect this gem.
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Very powerful interview.
It’s sad how he said he doesn’t want to feel😭😭he’s numb 🤧
It's heartbreaking that he's had to become numb just to survive life. And he's such a lovely, gentle man.
If you’re reading the comments, thank you for being honest and staying a good person! I have no doubt you will find love in many ways
David = a wise intelligent interview.
Thanks Mark 🥰
I’m relaxed that he is at least taken care of most don’t have access to his bare minimum social safety net
@Mike Ratliff did you miss the part where he was on the streets in skid row before he did even pot..... some people have different situations than your judgement of them lol
@Mike Ratliff also even if he is on drugs 24/7 does that mean he deserves to die on the street in this country
@Mike Ratliff What a charming person you are.
his soul is beautiful
Jesus, just when i thought things in my life are bad, i see and hear this poor guy.
As close to a real life angel as I've ever seen.
Honestly bless this Guys soul . I appreciate being able to hear his life story an add it my life experience. Bless the ppl that’s ever helped him along the way
To be able to remain so positive with everything he went through, what an amazing man. We could all learn something from his outlook on life
This has got to be my favorite character/interview yet. What a guy.
This literally broke me completely. Such an amazing man, I really really wish only the best for him. 😭🙏🏽
Would love a follow up! He’s a older gentleman like to see how his mental holds up. This man is the definition of taking it on the chin and keep going
Legendary interview
I met David down in Skid Row, he's a very kind individual.
hi brandon how did you meet him ?
i would love to meet him as well
This is the heaviest one yet. Safe travels, David, I hope you find your sunshine.
Seen a lot of videos you've done, this dudes been my favorite. You can learn something from him about how he talks about life and being blessed. Definitely would like a update on him a few months from now.
David was such a pleasure to listen to. I felt various emotions for him; I cried, I smiled, I felt anger. To hear him say, " God cried when I cried 😢" and to be able to go through the life experiences that he has and not be bitter, is a gift. May God continue to bless this gentle soul.
He is such an inspiration. I know he is an addict but he really has made it far in the world. He is a tough guy. Keep fighting!
David made me cry telling his story 😢 What a good soul!!! 🙏
What a beautiful soul. Sending him love from Scotland x
Such an extraordinary human. The human spirit is quite resilient. It's evident here. Bravo Sir. Keep on truckin'. Wishing you peace and love always
And hes still here. Legend you will get your bliss. Bless.
This is so sad it’s heartbreaking that he has lived like this
he only looks at the positive side of things no matter how bad it is or was such a gift
This interview touched my heart in so many ways.
Someone get this guy into an animal sanctuary where he can help animals and maybe, in doing so, heal himself!
He is a kind gentle soul
This man is love ... bless him
Praying for this beautiful man. I pray that he doesn’t die feeling so lost. I loved seeing him smile, very humble.
Some humans can be so disturbing to their children. Imagine being 6yrs old and you hear that from your Mother/ Father. Your only advocate? Some things should just go unsaid. He would of felt very devalued as a child and that is very sad. Everyone deserves to feel valued. It should be a god given right and I’m not religious.
Peace be with you brother... respect ✊🏼!!!!
My heart hurts for this man,
He is so inspiring! God bless you brother in Christ