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It felt surreal when Colleen sat down in her office chair holding Wesley in her arms. I was like "he's really home" ✨🥺💜
Omg yesss
I was thinking the same thing. 💜
i really hope maisys home before christmas…
Imagine how it is for Colleen
Now we wait for Maisy 😢
I love Flynn's different hairbands he wears everyday. It somehow makes him give more of an Erik vibe but look like Colleen. ✨
i think he is literally a mini Erik
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@@ashtoncory404 everything about him reminds me of Erik, the most Colleen thing I have seen of him is Flynn making the Miranda face at the camera when being told about what he needs to teach the babies.
This is my exact take.
@@savannabrewton9566 i thought the same thing haha he smirked exactly like her
Colleen frantically eating fries and Coke whilst digging through her purse is the most mom thing I’ve ever seen.
When you know you know 🤣
Hahahah, accurate!
Yes😂😂 legit did this today
I’m a mom of two and I can definitely agree with this
IKR
😂 Wesley's facial expression to seeing the Christmas decorations looked like, "yeah, they're nice. No glitter, that's good." Like father, like son! 😅
You know a lot of times twins get lumped together with just about everything. So, a positive spin on Maisy not being home just yet is that she gets to have her very own welcome home day with celebrating and meeting Flynn too!! 😊❤️ Happy holiday season and Merry Christmas to all the Stocklin/Ballinger family!! 🎄🤗🎉
Awww, that is such a lovely positive way yo look at it!!!!!
it seems like flynn has picked up on the fact that him saying "another one?" when you open advent calendars makes you laugh and is now doing it every time 🥺 cutie!!
I can imagine when Colleen brings Maisy home and Flynn will go “another one?” HES so adorable
@@kaiaswrld I will melt into a pile of mush if he does that. So freaking cute
@@kaiaswrld LOL I HOPE OMGGG
My thought and hope is that Maisy comes home on Christmas Day, or even Christmas Eve. She’s a strong wee girl and we’re all willing her on xx
Yep that’s my guess too
Yeah that's what I was thinking, and I know this isn't necesarily how it works, but if Maisy really is 2 weeks behind Wesley then 2 weeks on from the 10th is Christmas Eve
I was premature, born and on Nov. 18. I came home on Christmas morning. It was a surprise, they called my parents on Christmas morning and said come get your baby! They sent me home in a stocking.
yuss!
@@hippymama100 that’s so cute!
Those little newborn noises, get me every time ♥️♥️♥️♥️
The best sound ever makes me miss the newborn stage the toddler stage is something else 😂🥲
I feel deeply that Maisy will be home either Christmas Eve or Christmas Day, as you said in your last video these little babies love having special moments on special days, so I’m thinking that. She’s a little fighter and she will be home soon💜
I have that same feeling. Christmas Eve. That’s the day.
I had that thought too. She will be a little cute Christmas presents for the family 💕
I second that . If not for sure new years 💗❣️💗🤣💗
So kind and sweet! 💗
I do too! I truly feel she will surprise them on the morning of Christmas eve. It's just a feeling I have in my heart, and I really hope it comes true!
Colleen, read the poem “Welcome to Holland”. It talks about mourning what you expected but getting something else. Not that what you got isn’t beautiful and wonderful, but it’s vastly different then what you expected. It’s a beautiful poem. Many parents in NICU’s and frequent flyer medical parents relate to this poem a lot. Working at a hospital I introduce new parents to it all the time. You read it and like it.
Just looked up the poem, and wow! It's so beautiful and moving! Thanks for sharing.
@@ceecee3181 I’m glad you like it!!!
The way she confused HER THREE KIDS names was so cute 😭😭😭 She’s a MOTHER OF THREEEE!!!
u know...i was thiking god knows her body despises pregnancy. so he was just like..imma just give her two of these babies at one time so she doesnt have to do it again lol
She has a toddler and 2 twins (it makes her feel younger)
@@stubbs322 YESSS i was thinking the SAME THING!
Wesley’s face when being shown Christmas is so funny. He’s like “hmm let’s investigate” 😂
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Ikr? :D he looked like a judge on a Christmas tree competition taking his job VERY seriously. Like he thinks "huh, very interesting choice of ornaments there 🤔"
he was literally like “mom this is kinda sus idk if i like this.” he even ROLLED HIS EYES.
@@imgabiireyes I know haha!
He was like wtf put me back in bed.
“Oh I can see myself” ✨🤠✨…. I literally DIED of laughter.
So proud of you and your continued strength, Colleen and Erik. I haven’t had a baby, but this journey of yours has been one of my favorite to watch. Love y’all and all you do ❤️
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The fog is such a perfect analogy. I can tell you as a former NICU mom… it absolutely goes away. I have always felt that you documenting your journey is beautiful for two reasons: 1) your experience is power! I know that I was very unprepared for NICU mom life and knowing that my physical and emotional experience was similar to another mom is incredibly empowering! 2) As hard as this phase is, you will forget and I think it will be beautiful to relive some moments from your experience. The twins will have the ability to look at the incredible strength and love showered over them during this time which is the true gift you give as a mom. ❤️ You’re doing such a great job!
I was thinking about this today. The twins will get to see this and know how loved they are and how strong their mom is. This is priceless
Maybe you can bring a swaddle that Wesley has used for Maisy. So she knows her Brother is around, similar to your pads for the twins.
It will be great. All your babies are strong.
Also, I am the same way as you when it comes to expectations. For me, small things seem very big to me and I always need to talk out my emotions or journal. To know if it's just me or if how I'm feeling is correct. I hope this makes sense. Your feelings are valid. Your expectations are valid. And Im praying for your strength to get through it all. Love you
Maisy does what she wants. That's the moral of her entire life thus far. You've got an incredibly strong little daughter (which I know you already know!) and she's going to come home when she decides the time is right. Shes never been too far behind her brother, and for that reason I think she's going to come home soon. Your family will be together under the tree.
Its gonna be a Missy and sheldon 😂
Erik is just the best dad. You can just feel how sweet he is to his kids!!
I love that we’re all emotional about seeing wesley in her arms while talking to us 😭😭it’s so surreal🥺 I feel like a proud aunt
omg I was just going to comment this! It's so wholesome to see her in the Tortilla Talk set up but holding widdle Wesley 🥺🥺🥺🥺
Oh my goodness this is so accurate! Love this! I do kinda fell like an aunt! 🤣❤
Flynn’s personality is freakin magical. Just like the brightest, bubbliest little dude ever. Unintentionally the most stereotypical little boy I’ve ever seen lol. He cracks me up.
TORTILLA TALK: PLEASE get the twins tortilla swaddle blankets to celebrate when they both are home🥺🥺🥺 I feel like its such a cute full circle moment :,)
As a former NICU baby, I'm rooting for Maisy to be home soon! She just needs a little extra time to get ready and be her best self!
Me too! Maisy just needs more time
so happy that wesley is home! praying that maisy cones home soon. she is such a warrior 💕
@@sexygirls9123 I'm reporting this
@@ruby_willow1862 same, I’m very sick of seeing these links in the comments of family channels this society is nasty 🤢
@@ruby_willow1862 I did too
Me too
As strange as that fog might seem, it’s protecting you a little. That’s how I see it anyway. I’ve felt that way before and realised after the fact that, if it weren’t for that “fog”, I would have fallen to pieces. You’re doing amazing.
I agree with you!
I think it’s our brains’ way of protecting us.
Can’t wait until Maisey is home and they get to take their first picture all together as a family!!
Can’t get over how much of a Ballinger Wesley is. I just see Parker and Christopher every time I see him!
I think Maisy has Colleen’s face!!!
Agreed
I think he looks like Eric. Maisy is definitely Colleen!
Envisioning Wesley and Maisy in Colleen’s arms in their home and willing and praying for it to become reality as soon as possible! Sending so much love to you all as always! Come on Maisy girl you’ve got this! 😘💜🥰🎄✨
Maisy is like my boy, took him forever to bottle feed and he has a huge personality! She’ll be home, I’m praying for you! My boy came home a couple days ago, best feeling ever!
Congratulations mama... do happy your precious baby boy is home with you. Merry Christmas
@@dawndanelle3488 thank you! The sleepless nights are so worth it ❤️
That "hazy" feeling is a classic trauma response. Once Maisie is home and things start to settle, definitely do some reading on PTSD/Complex-PTSD, I think you might benefit from some of the therapies aimed towards treating it. ❤️
I haven't had any children but I did grow up in an abusive household, and it took months removed from that situation before I felt like the fog lifted. And I still have the occasional day where I feel like I have this brain fog I can't get rid of till i wake up the next morning (thanks but no thanks comorbid mental Illness ✌️). I've been seeing a psychiatrist but just barely started going back to therapy to deal with the trauma that sits deeper in my psyche. So I'm so relieved that Colleen already has an established relationship with a therapist whose only role is to help her personally recover from trauma. She's a wonderful mother who's dedicating so much love and energy to her babies to help them recover, but she still needs and deserves someone who helps *her* recover.
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It’s dissociation - also could be derealization/depersonalization . This happens to me but I have PTSD. Deff think Colleen should do some research on it, it can be hard to control on your own 🤍
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This is just something I read online, but apparently when you've just had something traumatic happen it can be helpful to play Tetris. Sounds weird, I know, but it helps the brain process things using side-to-side eye movement like in EMDR therapy.
Man, when Colleen was talking about living in a fog and nothing feeling real it really reminded me of my last years in high school. It's like everything was moving around me but I wasn't there, present for any moment. Everything from then still seems foggy but I'm thankful to be here and feel like I've gotten out of that haze. You got this Colleen ! Maisy will be home in no time 💜
Flynn becoming a little vlogger and explaining things to the camera is SO FREAKING CUTE
I'm happy you have Wesley home but sorry that it is so painful having a piece of your heart still in the NICU. Thank you for continuing to show various ways motherhood is difficult and being so transparent.
The “fog” you’re describing sounds a bit like dissociation. A response to extreme stress, ask your therapist about it. I do believe it will get better once the stressful situation chills out.
Yeah, it's pretty common for people in situations like this. I have a genetic condition that has caused me to be hospitalized for weeks and weeks at a time, multiple times a year and it always felt like I was in this fog. It's so drastically different from your regular life, that it just doesn't feel real. Likewise, when my husband was in the ICU before he died, it felt so surreal. I barely even remember those 11 days, your exhausted, your emotions are raw and your just so far removed from what your everyday life is that things feel surreal and foggy. I wouldn't necessarily call it dissociation because you are present in the moment, and Colleen seems present when visiting the babies, but it's more so just being plucked from your regular typical life, into the exhausting hospital life, it feels so surreal that it's hard to explain. I remember talking to my therapist about it years ago because I was struggling with being terrified of being admitted to the hospital, to the point of ignoring obvious health signs that I needed to be admitted and I told him that when I was in the hospital, I felt like everyone elses life was going on normally but mine felt like someone hit the pause button. he said that it's fairly common to have this reaction because hospital life is so far removed from normal life, that it doesn't feel real. Its not a uncommon experience, most hospital patients or NICU parents speak of feeling the same way and it is kind of like dissociation but my therapist said there is a difference. I remember specific things being said to me, I remember feeling and crying and I wasn't completely detached from what was happening around me, it's just as a whole, felt weird and surreal and blurry. Colleen seems to be very present while at the NICU, crying and singing to the babies and she seems to understand and retain what the nurses and doctors tell her when she is there, it just seems like extreme stress and the surreal nature of suddenly basically living at the hospital
@@Juwlz Dissociation exists on a spectrum - it can be mild and chronic or severe and episodic. I cannot be certain that what she’s experiencing is dissociation, but it sounds like it might be. That’s why I suggested she talk to her mental health professional about it.
Yes this
@@OctoganicAngel for sure, I'm just sharing what I was told when I asked lol it's hard to describe how surreal things feel when your life is suddenly just revolving around the hospital but I was just saying that what I was told, is this is fairly typical for everyone suddenly thrown into hospital life and the fact that I was completely able to retain the information the doctors were telling me and have complex conversations regarding my health or when my husband was dying, his health, was a good sign that it wasnt anything I should be concerned about(but I'm not saying that's the case for Colleen, I was just sharing my experience and how surreal the hospital life can be) I had actually reached out after I had zero memory of my brother visiting me, apparently we played a board game for hours in my hospital room. Flash forward two weeks, I'm home and he asks me to play it and I'm like "sure if you teach me how" and everyone panicked because I had zero memory of that visit happening. Turned out it was after the hospital gave me Ambien (I get mega anxiety in the hospital and they said they were concerned I wasn't sleeping) and it was Ambien amnesia.
I wanted to add to the fog. I know that when I had my baby I felt like I was in a fog and they told me I had postpartum so I know yours is a little different because your babies have been in the nicu so long but make sure that you get checked for this
Wesley fussing a little at the very end when you talked about wanting Maisy to come home. Brought a tear to my eye. You can tell he wants his sister home just as much as you! Manifesting that she comes home before Christmas!
Colleen, realizing you’re “morning the loss of what you expected” is so wise and important. Changing your perspective can do wonders for situational* depression/“fogginess.” YOU ARE SO AMAZING
Don't ever feel embarrassed in front of the NICU nurses. They know more than most, just how hard this is. The nurses in my daughter's NICU were absolutely amazing. They hugged me when I cried, they celebrated every milestone with me, and they truly care. Lean on them! You are an amazing mom and I'm so fucking proud of you.
He does look like a little glow worm, at the end when you were holding him in your office. He’s adorable. I can’t wait to seen Maisy at home and so full of personality. You are a rockstar mom.
He’s like the size of a baby doll 🥺 he’s still a newborn 😭
I feel like Maisy developed mentally much quicker than other premies and Wesley developed physically and that played a part in where their bodies put energy.
That kind of makes sense!
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@@hernameispekka_Rebecca I just thought of it because when my son got older he was off the charts in certain areas and behind in others and I was kind of concerned. His doctor said he wasn't concerned because it just meant my son's energy was going all towards developing in one area and eventually would even out- which he did. :)
Her twins really were not that early honestly
@@samg873 werent they 8 weeks early? 32 weeks is only 1/3 into the third trimester. definitely not the earliest ever recorded, but still pretty dang early!
Maisy’s theme song for the next few weeks should be “Christmas (baby please come home)” ☺️✨❤️
Last night i caught myself singing "time to go to sleep my maisy moo" 😅😅
That is my favorite Christmas song
I just sang that song at my chorus concert and I was the soloist!
what your talking about with the fog is dissociation, sometimes when people go through traumatic events they dissociate as a form of protection.
0:20 Erik dying inside as his life flashes before his eyes… Flynn the vlogger. 😂🤣😂🤣
I’m glad that nurse said that to you. I remember the first few hours after I had my baby I broke down and told my husband, “nothing happened the way I wanted” (he had just arrived because he was working out of town when I went into labor, so he wasn’t even there) and I cried about that quite a bit over the next week since my baby was also a nicu baby. And u said it perfectly, u gotta grieve what u thought it’d be..it really is a pivotal moment in feeling better about it all.
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As someone who has depression that hazy/foggy and not real feeling makes so much sense to me! I’ve been dealing with it for 3 years now but I wish the best for you Colleen!!
I've learned to make friends with that feeling, as it at least helps me dissociate through the work day and help it go by faster :') but that is quite literally.. the only real upside to it.
My depression had definitely gotten better but back when it was worse I felt that feeling so much
Because a trauma dump is exactly what she needs in these times :-)
@Enyx Flynn "i've been dealing with it for 3 years now but I wish the best for you Colleen"
I think the issue people are having with this comment was that it reads like you’re diagnosing her with depression, but I think you just meant that you both have foggy/hazy feelings but for different reasons. 🖤🖤
Anyone else notice that Wesley has a little point to his ears? It's freaking adorable.
Yes! I noticed that in the last video too. Like a little baby elf 🥰 (in the best way possible, obviously)
It is
Our little elfy baby omg I just absolutely love it!!
@@kats3969 A Christmas elf! 💗🎄
Yesss! i was actually looking for a comment that mentioned this to see if anyone else noticed this!! Its so cute, and imagine if maisy had them too 😭😭😭
I'm a mom that struggles with OCD and Anxiety and while I've never been a NICU mom, the feeling you're describing sounds exactly like my experience with Derealization. It's a survival response from your body when you're so stressed or anxious that it would be damaging for your brain/body to feel it all. Your mind basically shuts down to protect itself from being overwhelmed. You feel like you're in a dream or fog, slightly detached from the world around you. For me I often felt like I was also a little outside my body almost, like when I was doing things my hands would feel a bit farther away than they should have been. Obviously I'm not a doctor and can't diagnose you, but I can't think of anything more stressful for a mom than to be separated from her babies and i hope that if it is derealization then it can bring you some much-needed peace knowing that once you have both your babies in your arms at home the feeling will go away. Sending you lots of love, your vlogs have been a bright spot in my life these last few years as a new mom struggling with PPA and I can't thank you enough.
Maisy is going to come home Christmas Eve, I just feel it! You’ll get to have your whole family together and celebrate the holiday and that fog you’re stuck in will be lifted and you’ll be JOYFUL.
We need a video of just Wesley for like 10 minutes straight. He is sooo cute!!!!!
I'm so happy for Wes and cannot wait for Maisy to come home x
Same
Colleen, I never had a baby in the nicu. But I was told my whole pregnancy I was having a girl. Unplanned c section and found out at birth she was a he. I experienced the feelings of needing to mourn the loss of the daughter I never had. It took a long time to get over that initial shock and bond with my son. People would brush me off and say at least you have a healthy baby etc. but it still hurts. Please know you’re not alone in feeling that way that you are. Be gentle on yourself and know what you’re feeling is valid. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh my goodness I can't imagine getting to know your little girl in your womb your entire pregnancy to find our he was a precious little boy. Thank you for sharing this because when things go unexpected (I also had an emergency unplanned c section with my first, and my area does not offer VBACS, therefore my 2nd was c section and I'm expecting #3 which HAS to be c section) it does require time to grieve/mourn what we expected to be.
@@dawndanelle3488 yes, that’s exactly what it felt like. We had everything from the name to clothes to the nursery all ready for someone who never came. I’m sorry about your emergency C-section. It’s never easy. It’s hard because you’re trying to process what just happened but also learning to live a new way and take care of a little person that is so entirely dependent on you! My son is almost 3 now, and I’m so grateful for him. But it was a rocky start.
8:43 Colleen seems confused each time at the message on the Fancy Feast advent doors but I have the same box and if there are musical notes on the door it's part of a well known Christmas Carol with the end words changed to something cat food related I started singing them and they totally work!
I think if she caught onto that she would sing it too and actually love it! They don't need to rhyme or even make much sense once you figure out what song it is...it works! While minor with all that is going on, I do hope she figures it out as a little cat food Christmas song would brighten her cat advent time instead of an eye roll at it each day.
No no no she is "confused" because the lyric changes are very low effort and throw away the rhyme scheme.
When Colleen was showing wesley the christmas tree and she said "do you like it" he looked over at Eric like "dad... im glad there's no glitter but this is ALOT" 😂😂
Flynn looks so much like Erik, awww. Even down to his little outfits.
And Wes is such a cutie pie, I'm so happy he's home!
Wesley is so cute! he kinda looks like he has little elf ears. so happy he’s home with you guys now :) good luck
I literally said to myself that it looks like he had little elf ears
That’s exactly what I thought! It’s adorable, those little pointy ears 😍
yes!! i thought that in the coming home video, i love it i think it’s adorable🥰
That foggy feeling is a very normal trauma response! It's a way your brain tries to "parachute itself" out of things that feel dangerous or scary. It's such a yucky feeling to just autopilot through such a long chunk of time. I have a lot of personal experience with derelization/depersonalisation. You're doing great. Hoping the fog will break soon for you. ❤️
You're the HEALTHIEST vlog family because you dont DO anything for the vlogs you just DO what you normally DO. And that's such a great authentic normal family vlog channel
My NICU baby just got into the college of his dreams! We reflected on his birth and almost death when he was born, hence the NICU, and we can’t believe how far he has come. You are amazing and incredibly normal to feel the way you do. This is a tough season but you have many wonderful seasons ahead! I had no one to talk to when my son was in the NICU, not one of my friends had gone through this type of birth experience, you are a tremendous blessing to all the families going through this. You have the experience because you CAN handle it and you will do good things because of it! Never stop being an inspiration! Praying for you and your precious family
The NICU is such a powerful teacher 💜 learning to accept that grief, learning to see the silver linings, learning to celebrate such little milestones that are big like eating! You’re right, as on as my son came home I barely remember what that felt like
Idk if anyone has mentioned this yet, but i've noticed, that Wesley(and maybe even Maisy too) have elf ears- for example, look at him here: 9:58... I LOVE IT.
I noticed it !
Yes! I definitely noticed the elf ears 😍
They are so adorable, I was hoping my twins would keep their elf ears but they rounded up.
tortilla talk question: how is the nursery coming along and when will we see it? i know you are so busy so no rush of course! YOURE A SUPER MAMA!!! i’m only 19 but i hope you know how PROUD i am of you. love you colleen!
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I'm thinking she won't reveal the nursery until Maisy is home as well.
@@Hannah-vj4vx hm probably cos then it’ll make her feel like it’s complete
8:32 I'm wheezing! That was the most adorable and hilarious thing ever! I love Flynn so much!!!! Also the bandana is on another level of cuteness!!! 😍
Congrats on bringing Wesley home, I can't wait until you can bring home maisy
Flynn saying “oh I can see MySeLf” made me die of laughter, had to rewind and watch again!
This is the quickest I’ve ever clicked!
Same
Oml same
I think I clicked quicker when I saw the title “BIRTH OF MY TWINS “
@@Juliapulia353 true, but I have been loving the content she’s been putting out lately. She’s been so real and honest about everything
Colleen mixing up names is the epitome of parenthood
I love her😂😂😂
I have a Aubrey and a Reuben... The amount of times I've called them Aubren 🤣🤣 Reuben is 5 months and Aubrey is 3!! 🤣
When Colleen said her kids like birthdays and was thinking of who’s is next.. Jesus’s Birthday! The 25th! It would be so awesome to have Maisy home for Christmas, y’all got this! ❤️❤️❤️
That's what I felt too!!
Um.. he was born in the spring not on Cristmas.
I thought that too! I’ve been praying that she’s home by Christmas!! 🤞🎄🙏
@@imjuliewaters umm no you should go to a Bible lol
@@imjuliewaters no he got resurrected in spring
Maisy Is such a fighter❤️ We are praying for you all! Hope she comes home on Christmas ❤️
8:30 Erik's laugh when he gets taken by surprise is one of the most wholesome things in the world 🥺🤗
it's such a dad laugh
off topic but you’re so pretty!! pp is stunning
@@abbynay Aww! That's so kind of you 🥺 Thanks, it's one of my favourite pictures! 🥰 Have a fantastic holiday season 🌟🎄
@@dumisalengwati3068 I hope you have a wonderful holiday season as well!
Holy goodness. That look on Wesley’s face when you showed him the tree. I swear that boy is adorable. You all make gorgeous babies .. Don’t worry momma .. Maisy will be home really soon xoxo
As a southerner, I whole heartedly accept Flynn into the fold. He’s got the accent down!
Now I can see that Wesley looks like Eric. How cute! They're both so darn, precious! You're such a trooper Colleen!
Maisy just like "I don't need to eat, I got a whole world to understand"
The summer my son was in the NICU feels like a giant time lapse in my memory. I love that you will someday have these videos to look back on as you process your trauma from this experience. It’s all like a dream that you don’t want to remember but someday it will feels so distant that you’ll want to remember it. At least that’s how it was for me. My son’s 2nd birthday this past May made me realize his surreal his birth and his NICU stay all was. Love to you as you patiently wait for Maisy girl to join you at home.
That's what i said. Its like once they are home u dnt remember a time when they werent home. Its like a lapse in memory. Mine was in there for 5 weeks
@@tiffanimcmillian3058 I agree completely. We were there for 4 weeks and it was life changing. The connection I now feel to any NICU parent is a strong one. It’s the hardest, most surreal experience that no one else really understands unless you’ve been through it too. I still have a hard time looking at pictures from those first 4 weeks without crying. But once he was home, it’s like there wasn’t a time where he didn’t exist at home where he was meant to be.
Im so proud of Wesley. He is so cute and so strong. I cant wait for this vlog!!!
“Oh I can see Mysealf!!!” i died Flynn is so cute 😂😂
Flynn is learning so many words! He is soo grown up! I can't believe it! He still feels like the baby. But then I see him next to Wesley and it is soo precious. Prayers that Maisey girl gets home soon!!
As someone with ADHD I KNOW how hard transitions are for us and this has got to be THE HARDEST transition you must be experiencing. ON TOP of being a new mom to twins, a mom of a toddler, a mom of newborns, one newborn at home, one at the NICU, and you’re someone HEALING from the trauma that is childbirth, let alone a C Section… AND you’re doing this during ALL OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS and the Holidays when being home with your loved ones is so important to so many… giiirlll. You are so so strong and so brave and you are an incredible superhero and I am so proud of you!
And don’t forget that tears are the release that your body needs to work through feels and emotions and overwhelm!
Sending you sooooo much love!!!
So happy to see that he is home! Many prayers that Maisy will be strong enough to come home in time for Christmas 💚❤
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I think you’ve done a marvelous job of keeping your family strong in this trying time. Just looking at Flynn’s joy and carefree spirit is evidence that your own hurt and struggle has not been passed on to him, which is a HUGE credit to your strength as a parent. Much love to you. We are all sending love and support for little Maisy to join you soon. You’ve got this, Mama. You are one strong lady ♥️
Ballinger babies are seriously the cutest 😍 can’t wait until we get to see two bundles of joy under your roof! Let’s go Maisy Jo! 💛
The fog does lift when everyone is home. That said, every year on my twins' bday, I cried. The feeling of concern for their health would overwhelm me. I couldn't explain it, but it happened for their first 4 bdays. On their 5th bday, I FINALLY felt like the "babies" were ok. I share this to give you a heads up of what could happen in a year.
Babies focus on different things. Sounds like Wesley is all about fine motor skills and Maisey is about cognitive skills. She’ll catch up. And he’ll catch up cognitively.
Oh Colleen, the way you described your experience is exactly the way I felt after the birth of my daughter. She was not a NICU baby, but we had other struggles and I developed postpartum depression. I always associated PPD with just feeling sad or crying a lot, but for me it was so much worse and different. When you said that you felt in a fog/bad dream and felt that nothing was real it resonated with me. I am feeling much much better now, still not 100% back to normal but I am confident that I will get there. It has been 7 months. You will feel better too, with time. Hugs to you and your babies!!! 🤗🤗🤗
Wesley is so adorable!! Flynn is precious. He is really enjoying his calendar.
Colleen, I just wanted to say thank you! Not only have you helped your family but you have helped so many of your fans. We love you x
“oH i CaN sEe MySeLf” had me DYING😭😭😭 Flynn is so funny, he is going to be constant entertainment for his little siblings!! Love it!
I think Wesley gave Christmas the look Erik gives it. Hahaha as if he was saying “ugh just look at that glitter daddy has to clean up”
So happy that he is home! We are praying that Maisy will be able to come home soon as well! 💓
Hey Colleen, I’m so sorry this has been so hard for you. I’m not a mama yet, but on oct 21st my dad went into cardiac arrest while driving and got into an accident. It’s been an absolute roller coaster of emotions yet I can definitely understand the feelings you are having. It’s a totally different situation but the emotional toll is still so similar. I visit my dad every day but it’s so frustrating to not have him home. Sometimes, we lose sight of all the progress made because it’s so painful. I basically just wanted to say that I’m super proud of you and how strong you have been. I feel like I am going through this experience with someone who might understand the feelings. You are amazing and you inspire me and so many others. I know I can’t fix this situation but just know that you are loved and supported.
Stay strong beautiful! Sending positivity your way ✨
You are a strong and lovely person who is trying to reach out to support Colleen, as you yourself are going through your own family crisis! I wish your dad a full, smooth snd speedy recovery and that you get through this in the best way possible. ❤️
My son passed away shortly after he was born and one of the hardest parts about my pregnancy, birth, and postpartum was mourning the loss of how I imagined everything would be. It’s okay to be sad and upset! Little Maisy is doing so good 💕
im so sorry:(
I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤️
Laela I'm so sorry, thinking of you. Our family experienced pregnancy loss. My sweet nephew Miles died during his birth. I hope you had all the best support you needed to get through this trauma. For me it's still all so vivid but the pain eases over time. Sending my ❤
I’m very sorry for your loss. Im sure he’s looking over you ❤️❤️
Im so very sorry for your loss. I lost a daughter at 16 days, she had an undiagnosed heart defect. It's so hard mourning what you thought would be. Just awful. Sending you love this holiday season!
No I died at Wesley's unimpressed face🤣🤣🤣
Colleen, you should put Wesley's foot up to his Thanksgiving craft to see how much he's grown!
Everyone savour this moment when the twins are tiny babies. Because soon they’ll be running about joining the nightly dance parties with their big bro and we’ll wonder where the time went. ✨
Yes 💓
So true!!
For a NICU parent's perspective: Five Two Love (youtube) gives a lot of good advice- they were in the NICU for 10 weeks with quintuplets. And one of their babies water broke at 21 weeks. They were given a 0% chance of survival and now have 5 healthy 3 year olds. They make me so hopeful- if they can get through that, I can get through anything!
Wesley’s already doing his own tortilla talk in the end there 😂💖 because he looks like a little burrito 🥺💖
I've been sitting here trying to figure out who Wesley looks like, I couldn't figure out who it was. Then I realized he looks SO similar to your mom! I'm curious if anyone else sees it! He's beautiful and so is little Maisy girl xoxox
I see it!!
Your intro should say “I’m vlogging I’m crying I’m colleeeeeeenn.” 😂and I totally mean that in a lighthearted way. I love how you show just how hard it actually is, and that you are comfortable doing so. It makes me feel more normal. I cried practically two months straight after my baby was born. PPD/PPA sucks!
Tortilla talk question: have you given a thought to how you’ll introduce the twins in Miranda’s channel? Probably not something you’re thinking about because you just want them to get stronger and everything 🙏🏼 but just curious to know if you have something planned☺️. Sending love to you and your family!
Love this question!!
Flynn loves Miranda so they might have no choice! 😂
When baby girl does get to come home you need to do a big “both babies are home” walk in the house. When you go get her take Wesley with you and Have both babies and carry them in as a final hoorah!!!😍😍😍 I can’t wait till your heart can feel whole with all the kids under one roof!!!
its gonna be so cute to see the twins have their lil presents this christmas!!
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Hey Colleen! This is my first time commenting.. I've been watching you for about 6 years now (I'm 17) and I finally decided to create a channel. Not enough words can explain how proud I am of you for how much you have grown and who you have become! You truly are an inspiration and a hero. You are incredible in so many ways, from raising money for childhood cancer, to being a NICU momma and also parenting wonderful Wesley (yayyy I'm so happy he is home!!) and of course the outrageously funny and amazing Flynn!
You have helped me through some rough times in the past couple years. My dad passed away about two years ago, and my grandmother about 8 months ago, and watching your videos has brought me a different kind of joy and comfort that no one else can. I look forward to your vlogs every day, and I am so thankful for you and to have grown up with you and see you as your life blossoms! Thank you for all that you do, and I am so sorry it is so hard right now with little Maisy in the NICU. She is a strong little girl, and I hope she can come home soon. I love you and your family (I also have been watching Rachel and your brother and his giant family for around the same amount of time) so so much and I will definitely be commenting in the future!
All the love to you, Erik, Flynn, Wesley, Maisy, and the rest of your wonderful family. -Emily
OH I CAN SEE MYSELF...ERIKS LAUGH...this is so wonderful and precious. Flynn is so adorable with his words. I loved it so much I played it a few times. Just adorable with that accent. He will have a blast with his siblings. His words will melt their hearts too, as they get older.