I cried so hard after watching this video. Was diagnosed with Cyclothymia and Borderline Personality Disorder. I recently tested for ADHD and was diagnosed with that too; my father had antisocial disorder and depression; my mom was diagnosed with histrionic disorder.. all my life, I felt alien, isolated and suicidal. but I also was a happy, bright and loving person. it was hard to understand why and how i saw so much beauty but would take myself to such dark places. I hid it well until I moved to NYC to pursue my craft with my daughter.I started experiencing anxiety recently and understood it as, a side effect of suppressing and hiding my emotions for so long to be strong for my daughter. Eventually, my symptoms got worse and it is now unmanageable. I feel we do live in this culture that you can just overcome it. I My body and mind forced me to realize I just couldn't will my depression away. I stay in the house a lot still, but now i see a counselor once a week. after watching this video, I now know I need more help and that its okay to get help. Thank you for sharing this; i am so much more calm about all the things going on. The courage this took, I hope to one day pass on.
Jayla P. awe...my heart goes out to you. And thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your experience. Please don't hesitate to get whatever help you need! Because when you do it for yourself, you do it for your daughter too! I tried everything and as much as I am anti-medication, I can't be anymore because it has changed my life! The natural way wasn't enough for what my brain required and to get my anxiety /depression under control. Although I don't take medication for my ADHD because I find that I can manage it a bit through diet and exercise. There is hope, and one day you will pass it on. You're not an alien and you're not alone!
Before even watching this, I thank u and thank God because I'm going thru the same at 30 and I know I wanna talk about it to help ppl but of course it's scary and embarrassing
I can't believe how on time this video was for me. I'm 7 months prego with my 2nd child and just got off the phone with my father crying my eyes out because I can't seem to do anything with my life. I'm college educated but I don't have the courage to get a job. I hate going out during the day because I prefer to be unseen. I'm extremely temperamental and I'm trying to parent a 3 year old who's showing signs of ADHD. And I'm like you, I'm a lover of holistic treatment but I appreciate the way you broke down the importance of building neuron connections. I will do more research on SSRs and possibly try a pharm approach post partum. Thank you so much for your transparency because if u didn't help anyone else please know that you did a ton for me.
DrGirlfriendPHD you're so welcome!!! And I am soooo happy and super humbled that this video helped you! And thank you so much for sharing. You are not in a hopeless place! If medication does work for you it can change your life!! I hope everything works out for you! And God bless you and your children!
Hey Nikisha! I am a college student, and I look up to you and your courage to bump opinions out of the way and speak on your reality. There is so much stigma around these topics, but you are right that it's crucial to get the word out and let people know they aren't alone. You are a beautiful person, and it made me happy to see this. Peace :)
Thank you so much for your transparency. I feel like you have mostly told my story instead of you telling your own. I also have GAD and I also suffer with Dysthymia or low level depression and it has made my life so difficult!! I find it hard to complete things, hard to concentrate, and I avoid people, places and things that cause me stress. The people part is worse. Imagine how difficult it starts to get when you avoid people's calls and limiting yourself on social media because you want to disappear to them. It is bad. And I know it is a huge problem. I cannot handle high pressure jobs. My job in corporate America was a hard experience and I do feel so much better in the arts (I am working on being a writer), as well as in the health field, where I can be in a caregiver role. I love the feeling it gives me. I have done therapy in the past but my doctor seemed to think I was okay because I was able to express myself and can be sociable and funny. But I am not when I am alone, or with my family who sees me all the time. I have moments of clarity, and normalcy but I tend to fly off the handle quickly and get angry very fast. You have convinced me to find another doctor who can really help me the way I need to. Thank you so much for helping me to realize I am not alone.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. My son was diagnosed with severe ADHD early on in life. It has been a real struggle for me as a mother who after having two children being diagnosed, realized that I too suffered from ADD. I wish someone had figured this out when I was growing up. It would have made things so much better had I been treated. But I digress, what I want to say is that I wanted to cry after listening to your testimony because what you described is exactly what my son has been going through. He recently had a break down, he expressed a desire to end his life and couldn't stop crying, and had to be hospitalized. I am so frustrated because they held him for a week and did absolutely NOTHING to help him. He is 20 years old now so I am no longer allowed to make medical decisions for him. This also frustrates me. He has all the symptoms you mentioned, stomach aches, trouble sleeping, constant worrying, difficulty being around other people,feeling awkward, he spends a lot of his time when not working or in school, sitting in front of a computer. Everything escalates in his mind. He automatically draws the worst conclusion to any scenario. I like you rather use holistic methods but recognize that he needs to be on meds. My frustration is finding the right doctor. Do you have any advice? We live in NY by the way:) I am worried for both y sons. While my oldest doesn't present with anxiety, he is very negative, and always angry. Self medicating . Has no drive. He has so much potential, this was a child who could ace a test without studying, but is working at Starbucks. I know he needs help. I just am having a hard time finding it. Again thank you for sharing your testimony.
Thank you so very much for putting your heart on your sleeve and breaking out of the stigma. I blame that stigma for being the biggest reason I was unknowingly trapped in my own undiagnosed ADHD for 37 years. I was ignorant, my family was ignorant, and even every doctor I ever saw was ignorant. You are not alone. Thank you for being a light and a voice in a very dark and quiet corner.
i have an anxiety disorder that was diagnosed when i was 17 and suspected adhd in combo with a high iq which caused me to struggle hard in shool. thank you for this video.
I don't think I have ever connected with a person more than you right now. There is someone else who feels this to. I don't have ADD or ADHD, I don't think At least, but I do know I suffer from anxiety and depression. I tried committing suicide at 15 as well and I am currently going through things as well. I understand completely when you talk about not going outside it has been 2 weeks since I have stepped outside. I only feel comfortable going out with someone. I am even horrible at math lol. I don't know what I am going to do to get out of this, life is to hectic and there are so many unknown variables. I fell trapped and like I'm suffocating. All I know is that you just gave me so much hope and have possibly saved my life and I don't know how I can express the love a gratitude I have for you. Thank you. You have shown me that it does get better. A lot of my anxiety and depression come from the fears of rejection, being unsuccessful, not being loved or being lonely and you are living proof that someday you can be happy and you can find love and you can be successful. Thank you, thank you so much!!
Thank you for sharing your personal story. I too was personally moved on the morning when I first heard about Titi Branch. She graciously attended my show and we shared such warm moments, I too decided to address the issue of mental illness in our community.Most people don't realize that mental illness tends to show up in early 20's - 30s (when young people are off to college on their own). It's so important to feel supported. May I also suggest yoga (especially Kundalini which focuses on the breath and meditation) I know as you are healing others that is a powerful healing is happening for you. Sat Nam
Although I did not watch this in one sitting, this post was right on time! ( I may have some ADHD, too!)Thank you so much!. I too have depression and it started in my undergrad of college. From then, it has been a thorn in my side along with learning disability. I also had struggles with suicidal thoughts. It was hard telling my mom about it and she understood my need to go to therapy. Growing up in church, it seems that it was expected of you to 'have it all together' spiritually, and there have been challenges and changes with that. For the most part, I love my spiritual family dearly. Depression is one of those things that is so taboo to talk about in church. Because people still think, you're a Christian= you're perfect, you are immune to problems. That thinking is backwards and so far from the truth! With the help of friends (who shared the same struggle as me! Go figure!) and studying the Word ( characters in the Bible like Job and Paul), I have learned that I can use the weakness to help others... In the past 10 years there have been recovery groups to provide a safe place to talk it out, which helps also. Thank you for this!
Thank you got sharing your story. I've been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression during my sophomore year in college. I used to cry for days and lock myself up in my room. Also, I was known as the miserable child growing up. I used to be sad and worry all the time. When I found this out, It was hard for me because my family do not believe in mental illness. I remember telling my mom that I had suicidal thoughts and she yelled at me. If you can guess it didn't make the situation better. I am much better now because I have support of my friends, went to therapy, and have a clearer understanding of my illness. I would control it for a while but when the pressure is on again, it comes back. Right now, I'm a senior in college and my anxiety attacks are happening again. The crying for days and constant worrying whether or not I'm going to graduate plagues my life. When you said that "putting things off because you feel overwhelmed", that's me! I hate the stigma that mental illness has especially the black community. I feel like because of the illness I can be perceived as a lazy person or 'miserable' and non social person. And I'm far from it.
Mykalee McGowan thank you so much for your support and for sharing your personal battles. I couldn't agree more that we as a community need to get rid of the stigma because it's hurting us. Please don't be ashamed to go and get the help you need to live a fully productive life. And if that means medication, then so be it!
Everything that you're saying, especially about GAD, resonates with me, and I am going to see someone about it. Thank you so much for talking about this. This gives me a lot of hope.
This is a big step for you and I am very thankful that you are sharing your story, mental health/illness is REAL. I am in nursing school and taking behavioral health right now, and it is such an amazing class, and I love hearing my clients stories and helping them to develop coping strategies etc. Education is very important in understanding mental illness. Keep doing your thing girl! Spread the Awareness! God Bless!
Kali Elaine Thank you so much for the support and your blessing!!! And God bless you for being passionate about helping others! My mom was an R.N. and she was so passionate about it! Nurses have big hearts!
Wow this was definitely an eye opener and I thank you so much for sharing. You're strong and I commend you for bringing light to this subject. You are actually making me evaluate myself and how I deal with and react to things. There are a lot of similarities in some of your anxiety symptoms that I definitely have. I would worry about some of the smallest things that would actually stop me from going to certain events or places due to me worrying about what people think of me or feel about me. Now I know that this is not normal. :-/
Thank you for sharing your story Nikisha ,I'm 27 years old and been depressed all my life and always have suicide thoughts , but I didn't know exactly why I feel that way , always scared to talk to ppls and afraid of critics and had a lot of troubles but didn't know why until 2 weeks ago my husband were looking at something about perfection cause he s one of them everything have to be perfect for him and that's when he start telling me that he knows that he loves me dearly but something is wrong with me and he start looking at ADD/ADHD and 100 % the symptoms I have all of them and I start to cry and say sorry to him cause sometimes he think that I was gonna leave him and run away, and I went to see my DR he sent me to see a specialist today I am so scared and nervous I can't even sleep , I can't stop cry as I'm typing this right now , but watching your video give me hope .Thank you I will let you know what the DR said ...God bless you.
Andleen Delisca God is sooo good!!! I pray you get the help you deserve. Don't be scared or nervous, you are on your way to getting the help you need! God bless you!!!
Wow. this was so refreshing to hear someone talk about their personal experience and problems w/ anxiety and adhd. Your vulnerability and honesty really helped me and gave me some insight on how I can deal with my constant anxiety. I'm a senior in high school and I suffer w/ anxiety and constant worrying about personal issues. I'm going to try working on improving my everyday life by practicing organization and better daily habbits before I jump to medicinal help. Thank you so much! it feels so good to see you making videos again. You have such a warm and pleasant presence. Keep doing what you're doing! xoxo
and it's true about ppl w/ adhd loving the arts because I am a vocalist who loves rnb and practices singing classical operatic music in multiple foreign languages. it eases the stress :)
Sooo super proud of you, Nikisha! As someone with similar issues (plus a brutal PTSD from abuse during childhood), I totally admire your openness and willingness to help us all grow in understanding! Well done, you!
Oh my Lord! I'm so happy I came across this CZcams clip! I've been following you for a few years now, but I recently found out about your CZcams channel. I thank you for sharing your experience and indicating facts that are associated with this type of disorder. This past week I have made the decision that I want to cleanse myself from my bad attitude/mood. I don't want to fit the stereotype of the angry black women particularly that I'm now married and working on having children so I'm working on changing my attitude about things for the good of myself, my marriage and my future children...etc. I started meditation which feels great, but I have been this way for so long that I may need more. I had a severe anxiety attack back in college, and since my attack are more like panics and nervousness nearly all the time. Let's not talk about the depression part! I'm freshly new Christian just like you, and I took my concern up to God, and I believe that finding this clip is in connection with my prayers. Thank you so much for your transparency! May God continue to bless you and may your healing be permanent.
Brittany Minor thank you so much for your support!!! It's very unfortunate but I have already received judgement for sharing such personal information. You can't please everyone and I'm not trying to. My aim is to help someone else that really needs it before it's too late.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is so hard for people to talk about mental illness. It is that. An illnes. Just like any other illness there is something wrong and help is needed. Mental illness gets so stigmatized and it shouldn't be. Again thanks for being open and candid. God bless you and your family with everything you need to be happy healthy and sound.
Love this. Thank you. I am 33 and just recently diagnosed but have suffered my entire life. Now that I am expecting, I am over joyed with finally accepting my diagnosis and and making positive changes for myself, my boyfriend and my baby. I understand the stigma surrounding mental disorders and applaud your honesty.
Thank you so much for your story. I've experienced anxiety disorder in my 20's and I'm a testimony that you can overcome this condition without the use of medication. It was so bad at one time that I became depressed which led to me having phobias of staying inside the house. Through much prayer and reading the Bible, changing my diet and regular exercise, I overcame all of these disorders. It was a very scary time for me. I will be praying for you. Stay strong! I love your videos, girl!
Natural Raw Essence thank you soooo much for sharing and for your prayers. I've been reading my Bible, memorizing scriptures, praying, as well as eating healthy, and working out, for the past few years and it has helped tremendously, but my brain still wasn't producing enough serotonin and the frontal lobes of my brain due to the ADHD still weren't stimulated. But I believe God can heal and also this medication helps to build the neurons I don't have, so I wont have to be on it for the rest of my life. God bless you!
UrbanBushBabes Thank you, Nikisha! Yes, I truly understand. No need to explain. No judgement on my part just concern. Many times people are quick to take medication before trying natural methods but your video clearly states that natural methods wasn't working. I'm glad that you know that you will not be dependent on the medication for the rest of your life. I'm also glad that you changed your environment which is priority. That change alone is a major factor that is so important in dealing with anxiety disorder. Blessings to you. Much love.
Natural Raw Essence thank you again for the love and blessings! And yes, I agree that environment is sooo huge. I refuse to be around people who cause me anxiety, ie: dysfunctional people. I did it for too long.
When I made up in my mind that I didn't care about people's opinions over things I cannot control I was also 31. I am 35 now and still in therapy. I don't know exactly when I realized that I am anxious but I am seeing a therapist to help me. I know that I will be in therapy for a few years. It is what it is. The formative years are important and things from the past make me anxious about living in the present. I am no longer suicidal but I continue to struggle in social situations. Its hard but keep up the good fight.
Thank you for sharing your story because it's wonderful to see someone like your beautiful self, who despite having adversities in life and having mental disorders has been able to build a successful and fulfilling life! Its hard to remember that sometimes when your someone like me suffering from anxiety, depression etc on a daily basis. Thank you again and lots of love and best wishes from Australia!
Fairuz Bhuiyan thank you so much for such beautiful encouragement and support! It does get really hard to remember. That's why it's so important for people to share their triumphs with issues like these. People need to know there is hope! I hope that you get whatever help it is that you need to live a beautiful and fulfilling life! Blessings to you from Austin!!!
Thank you so much for this video. It touched my heart. I have an anxiety disorder 6ys. I'm about to graduate college (I went back to college). I have mentioned the disorder to even a close friend and got negative comments (unkind), or people will say "there is nothing wrong with you." Family knows better. I always hope more African American people would educate themselves on this subject. Thank you again for sharing, I am encouraged.
Wow! Nikisha, thank you for sharing this, I can relate to the whole skipping school thing and dropping out, I have always felt like I have ADD. I wasn't a hyper child or anything but it was hard for me to stay focused I could get bored so easily, I was also a huge daydreamer in class. I have never been diagnosed but I think I should go see a specialist, I have always been a little ashamed to admit something was wrong with me, but after seeing this video i'm really inspired.
Mrsnik rog thank you so much for sharing your experience! Not being able to focus and getting bored easily are definitely two of the symptoms of ADD/ADHD. Don't be ashamed! There are a lot of super bright and successful people who have ADHD. The way our minds work can be such a blessing for certain areas in life. We tend to be better in the arts and being creative because our mind is so active.
You definitely are helping a lot of people with this video. Thank you for being s honest, straightforward, open and courageous enough to share your story. I wish you continued happiness, as you rise above your diagnosis.
Thanks for sharing your story I also have GAD and I think I may have ADHD because I go through some of the symptoms u speak about and am so happy u spoke about how people on meds are judged and that there's nothing wrong with needing meds. love the vid.
HI Nikisha, Im grateful for your post and I appreciate your honesty. I am also living with GAD. I am 34 years old and had been diagnosed a year ago. I was placed on meds (paxil) but was afraid to take it due to the stigma that is attached to being medicated (psychiatric drugs). Your video encourages me to talk to my doc again bat my meds since verbal therapy is not enough. I have a bachelor's degree in English and had aspired to be a public school teacher but is having difficulty passing my high school level exam. However, I managed to pass my Middle school Language Arts exam. Im currently a Substitute Teacher in a urban community. I hate being a sub but is having difficulty passing my exam. I experience terrible anxiety attacks while taking the exam. i requested extra time but my doc refuse to sign the documents. He encourages studying and trying to relax. I do not know what t do at this point. Do you have any suggestions? I also had a child at the age of 17 and I also have a four year old and is in a dysfunction relationship with my son's Dad. I have a depressive personality and often lose touch with reality. Please offer any suggestions where possible. Thanks
This was an awesome video! I admire you so much for your courage to speak about these issues. You are empowering other people to speak up and help family and friends to become more educated about mental illness and to realize it isn't something we can just will ourselves to fix. It is indeed an illness just as diabetes is an illness. You are an amazing and courageous woman. Thank you for giving a voice to those of us who are learning to live a more productive life and enjoy each day.
Thank you for being a light and for sharing your story. I know that it has helped someone, I've always believed that we are all responsible for each other and for you to come on this platform took great heart and courage so for that I honor and respect you for being real...thanks again and I wish you all the best!💜💜💜
Thanks so much for posting this Nikisha! I hope that this video will get to all the people who can really benefit from it. It encourages anyone experiencing any kind of torment in their lives to just talk about it and know that it's okay to seek out professional guidance. I appreciate how organic you are; you are awesome and inspiring! :)
Thanks for sharing your story & all the best to you & your family. I use to work in the social services field & have dealt with individuals with these mental health issues. It is Interesting that you bring up this subject, since in Canada on January 28th it is Let's Talk Day, which focuses on the issue of mental illness in Canada. The campaign is to bring awareness to the issue & to reduce the stigma associated with being diagnosed with a mental health concern. I applaud you for being transparent to your viewers about your personal struggles, & God Bless you!
Gee Light thank you so much for your blessing and encouragement!!! I really appreciate it! That's crazy that I spoke about this so close to "Let's Talk Day"! I was born in Canada, but I never knew about that!
Thank you for being transparent. We don't as women or as a community do not open up and discuss these issues. Just know you will help someone understand, identify and overcome ADHD Anxiety. Again, thank you!!!!!
Lovelaughjoy Madison thank you so much for the support!!! I really appreciate it!!! And I agree with you, we need to be transparent and discuss these issues.
You are so awesome and brave to do this video. Thank you sooo much! I have much to say but I can't type it all up right now : ) I can't imagine people being critical of you making this video. I applaud it! I am happy you are feeling better!!
TFS, my 7yr son has been diagnosed with ADHD & Anxiety Disorder and I'm just learning how to help him through out his school year. I have gone through the same thing with my son teachers. I though his behavior change was due to life change when I separated from his father, I glad I look further into reaching out for more help. I've heard so many horror stories of meds and would love to learn more of holistic methods. I don't have any know knowledge of any one on either side of the family having this disorder and honestly it was hard for me to accept.
Thanks for touching on this topic, My boy friend son has ADHD and at first I didnt understand until I saw first hand some of the for myself and gain some understanding.
Thank you! I believe this video and your testimony will push me to go get help. I know Im depressed I just never talk about it because while growing up in school and with my family I was dismissed and labeled lazy and weird. Now that I'm nearing 30 and just getting by emotionally, I would love to feel normal.So again Thank you
purethinkinsol you're welcome!!! My heart is so happy to hear that you're encouraged to get help! I hope you do!!! You deserve to live a life that's beautiful and fulfilling! God bless you!
You posted this at the right time. I'm still feeling some type of way being on meds and going to counseling for my depression and anxiety. I feel pathetic that I got to this point. It's only been 2wks into my treatment, but I know I need it. The depression knocked me down so hard I can barely get up like I used to. And I've been suffering from anxiety for far too long. This post is a sign to keep going on despite perceived stigma. Thank you so for this. (e-hug)
susiq1121 you're sooo welcome! And don't you dare feel pathetic for being aware enough to realize you had a problem, and being brave enough to go do something about it! You are not pathetic, you are strong! You did the best thing you could do for yourself. When we are able to really look in the mirror and do some deep digging and uncover hurtful, painful things in order to see the bigger picture and then go and get help, that is truly loving yourself and taking care of yourself. So I strongly encourage you to keep on getting whatever help you need to live a healthy life. Forget the stigmas, because someone is always gonna have something to say regardless. It's people like you and I that can break the stigmas. So keep going!
continue to speak, our words do more power then we think. always speak positive things around you and you will see a difference. I pray God strengthens all of our weaknesses and protects his people.
Don't worry! I was diagnosed with both of these along with Tourettes, and Depression. I've been able to control it for the most part but sometimes its hard, other times its very easy. My doctor also thinks I may have Aspergers.
i think i have an anxiety disorder but im ashamed to tell anyone. i knew something was wrong when i looked back on how i acted and how i still act now. I used to hide in the bathroom at parties or avoid and make excuses as to why i couldnt go. ive recently been waking up at 5am and 7am and this has been happening for days. and my stomach has been in knots for several months. I always get nervous even when im just simply going to class....i feel like people are just constantly watching me and judging me so i purposely get away from people so that i dont interact with them. i need to see someone about this because im getting worried
Sister Thank you for sharing this video, I pray that you can keep growing in your life and always stay happy . By you talking this is helping others ,everybody in the world have some form of depression ect.So never feel that you have to feel ashamed or anything like that. When I see a beautiful women whose marry,have a child,business women smart I would never know. I see a sister who got it together regardless what you going threw your weakens is your strength and you are helping others. Thank you again Peace and Love!
Kudos Nikishia. I truly appreciate you taking this step to speak on your journey. It's commendable that you will make a difference for someone. As a breast cancer survivor I know first hand how beneficial it is to me to meet other people who have shared my walk. My prayer is that you will find continuous peace.
SEB Baylis Thank you so much for such beautiful encouragement and your prayer! And thank you for sharing! I can't imagine what it's like to have cancer, but I am so glad that you are a survivor! May God bless you with continuous health and a cancer free life!
hi nikisha, thats me right now. i cry a lot too. omg thats means i have adhd. i spend time writing down my feelings. im indecisive too. i am 21 and i dont enjoy life. i get angry with everyone around me for no reasons. but i keep to myself and talk to no one, thats how i express my emotion locking up and not eating for a day or so... i have insomnia. i stay up at night up to 2:00am thinking a lot and crying. i would like to discuss this with u. this is a short synopsis. thank u
I think you are wonderful and brave for sharing your story. Thank you, I can relate I suffer from mental illness too so again thank you for this video.
Girl I admirer you . Yes you are not along with this. There are people I kno who are too dealing with mental disorders. I am learning that u cannot ignore it but try to really understand the disorder so I can be of some support.
i can relate so much to everything. it's getting to the point where it's affected my jobs, it seems like people think they have to coddle my feelings or either frustrated (i pick up on all these microagressions) all the time and now i don't get called for jobs anymore (it's on call) and at my other job it's suggesting that i transfer for more hours which i think is code word to resign because i'm get wayyy less hours so now i'm like freaking out, and this is just one issue which pales in comparison to other problems i have. can you make a video on what you did to get assessed? like how did you bring it up with your doctor? i feel helpless on how to go about everything...
You are an amazing person, and really brave to, to tell more about your self Thank you and I hope that your story will help others God Bless again and all prayers and hugs to you!
wow, your life mirrors mine down to your Husband name. My daughter and I are both going to get treated next month for ADD and for me anxiety. I swear it feels like no one understands and it is doubly as hard because now not only do I have to help myself but I have to get my daughter through this.
TheUrbanHousewife16 I believe everything happens for a reason. It is tough because most people don't understand and they don't take this seriously enough. That's why we must continue to speak out. God bless you and thank you for sharing!
I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2006 when I was twenty and I *know* I have depression. I'd say it's mild, but from Aug.-December 31st (yes!), It was pretty bad! I've had both since I was young... I thought It was "normal." The ADD (They told me something like ADD is no longer used, that there is always some form of hyperactivity linked with attention deficit) was so bad, but I never really had behavioral problems... I'm so appreciative. I have struggled with school because I refuse to go back to Adderall, *even though it DID help*, I am very anti-medication, and it's hard and shameful for me to deal with. I know we live in a "pop-a-pill society," but that's NOT me!! I may VERY WELL be throwing away the future God wants for me because I'm too prideful to take medication. God bless you for your transparency and bravery. You're helping a lot of people.
ade52286 thank you so much for your encouragement and blessing!!! I agree 100% that we do live in a pill popping society and I was very anti-medication until I realized that there are different contexts in which medication is handled. If taken responsibly and not abused,certain medications change lives and save lives! I realized after experiencing these struggles myself that I'd rather be in support of a person getting whatever help they may need to live a productive life and be able to their full potential. Everyone's situation is different and everyone needs different things. So don't be ashamed, and do whatever you need to do to make sure you're living out God's full purpose for your life.
Thank you for giving so many people hope. I had just blogged about something similar and then I saw your video. Much love to you and Cip and the whole fam :)
I lost a cousin to suicide in 2014 October he committed suicide the day and way his dad had committed suicide in 2003. I'm been having lots of suicidal thoughts but I'm trying to stay strong I've also been diagnosed with ADHD.
Lza MichelleI'm so sorry to hear this! It sounds like it may run in your family. There is no such thing as staying strong. Allow professionals and others who are going through the same thing help you. Please don't do it alone, that's the worst thing you can do for yourself.
*cyber hug* Thank you for sharing your story with us who are probably watching & dealing with similarities in their symptoms or know someone who does. Stigma continues to be placed upon mental illness because I feel most people rather think it doesn't exist. Those who are going through this, know that you can function and get through life normally; however there may be some assistance as you mentioned to be in place. Mental illnesses should be nothing that we run from instead embrace, accept and help each other. I feel there is no one alive who does not know one person who is going through some form of mental illness whether it is mild to severe. I think you are very strong Nikisha and have a purpose in your life to touch others, guide them with your knowledge and experience and know it is going to be OK. To hold on, take a deep breath and know it will be manageable and able to cope. For some of us we have to do 5x more than the other person to get through the day. If it is what it takes, we must strive to do this but remain healthy. I like the idea of holistic living and incorporating it into self-care. For those who are undergoing personal challenges, you're not alone. It is better to seek help, advice on how to track your patterns, be mindful of your physiological responses and triggers. Many blessings to you Nikisha and your story will help those in need to first acknowledge where they are, second what steps to take and three say to themselves "I can and will get through this in my life."
lifejourney2bnatural thank you soooo much for your beautiful encouragement and blessings!!! And thank you for sharing such a beautifully written response to this! Our dialogue on this will help spread the truth and shed light for so many who need it!!! God bless you!!!
I was diagnose with Panic Disorder about a year ago. People would never guess I suffer with that unless I tell people. It's okay girl, we all have mental problems. Some people just haven't been diagnosed.
UrbanBushBabes No, I thank you for sharing. This is a subject a lot of people will not touch. We all thank you for sharing a piece of your personal life with us. Hopefully this will get people to speak up and get checked out for their symptoms.
this is so not easy to talk about and I commend you for your bravery. I also suffer from anxiety and I know how HARD , esp in moments of panic. I sought out counseling and I regualrly practice meditation- both of whcih make a tremendous difference in controlling my anixety. If I need to do more in the future, I will..I was wondering if you tried any of those routes? My anxiety doesn't keep me in bed per se, but it does cause panic attacks and stagnation in life(I have been trying to get into graduate school for 2 years). Best of luck with everything - God bless!
TAG010 thank you soooo much for your blessing and your wonderful support!!! I was doing meditation with my Bible which helped for periods of time but not in the long term. I still do it, but my medication has made a huge difference!!!
I appreciate your video and message to other individuals who are struggling with similar challenges. I expect to graduate with a msw degree and plan to work with clients as a mental health clinician after May this year. Would you mind if I use your video as a support source for my clients who ate questioning the benefits of therapy and medication?
(Hello fellow STEM major) Do you or have you ever considered a meditation regimen or even seeing a Reiki? I only ask from love, I went through some very dark times, prescription anti-psychotics included. I found things of this nature to be phenomenal and successful in my understanding and healing. Namaste ♥ ~Peace, Love, & Light
Thank you for sharing this video! I have dealt with similar background and issues. I am currently looking into EMDR. Have you looked into that? Might be something helpful.
I cried so hard after watching this video. Was diagnosed with Cyclothymia and Borderline Personality Disorder. I recently tested for ADHD and was diagnosed with that too; my father had antisocial disorder and depression; my mom was diagnosed with histrionic disorder.. all my life, I felt alien, isolated and suicidal. but I also was a happy, bright and loving person. it was hard to understand why and how i saw so much beauty but would take myself to such dark places. I hid it well until I moved to NYC to pursue my craft with my daughter.I started experiencing anxiety recently and understood it as, a side effect of suppressing and hiding my emotions for so long to be strong for my daughter. Eventually, my symptoms got worse and it is now unmanageable. I feel we do live in this culture that you can just overcome it. I My body and mind forced me to realize I just couldn't will my depression away. I stay in the house a lot still, but now i see a counselor once a week. after watching this video, I now know I need more help and that its okay to get help. Thank you for sharing this; i am so much more calm about all the things going on. The courage this took, I hope to one day pass on.
Jayla P. awe...my heart goes out to you. And thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your experience. Please don't hesitate to get whatever help you need! Because when you do it for yourself, you do it for your daughter too! I tried everything and as much as I am anti-medication, I can't be anymore because it has changed my life! The natural way wasn't enough for what my brain required and to get my anxiety /depression under control. Although I don't take medication for my ADHD because I find that I can manage it a bit through diet and exercise. There is hope, and one day you will pass it on. You're not an alien and you're not alone!
Before even watching this, I thank u and thank God because I'm going thru the same at 30 and I know I wanna talk about it to help ppl but of course it's scary and embarrassing
Being diagnosed with Autism in my forties, I know what it is like to have anxiety taking over my life. Thanks for sharing
I can't believe how on time this video was for me. I'm 7 months prego with my 2nd child and just got off the phone with my father crying my eyes out because I can't seem to do anything with my life. I'm college educated but I don't have the courage to get a job. I hate going out during the day because I prefer to be unseen. I'm extremely temperamental and I'm trying to parent a 3 year old who's showing signs of ADHD. And I'm like you, I'm a lover of holistic treatment but I appreciate the way you broke down the importance of building neuron connections. I will do more research on SSRs and possibly try a pharm approach post partum. Thank you so much for your transparency because if u didn't help anyone else please know that you did a ton for me.
DrGirlfriendPHD you're so welcome!!! And I am soooo happy and super humbled that this video helped you! And thank you so much for sharing. You are not in a hopeless place! If medication does work for you it can change your life!! I hope everything works out for you! And God bless you and your children!
Hey Nikisha! I am a college student, and I look up to you and your courage to bump opinions out of the way and speak on your reality. There is so much stigma around these topics, but you are right that it's crucial to get the word out and let people know they aren't alone. You are a beautiful person, and it made me happy to see this. Peace :)
msmimi3102 thank you soooo much for your support and encouragement!!! I know my courage comes from God. :)
Thank you so much for your transparency. I feel like you have mostly told my story instead of you telling your own. I also have GAD and I also suffer with Dysthymia or low level depression and it has made my life so difficult!! I find it hard to complete things, hard to concentrate, and I avoid people, places and things that cause me stress. The people part is worse. Imagine how difficult it starts to get when you avoid people's calls and limiting yourself on social media because you want to disappear to them. It is bad. And I know it is a huge problem. I cannot handle high pressure jobs. My job in corporate America was a hard experience and I do feel so much better in the arts (I am working on being a writer), as well as in the health field, where I can be in a caregiver role. I love the feeling it gives me. I have done therapy in the past but my doctor seemed to think I was okay because I was able to express myself and can be sociable and funny. But I am not when I am alone, or with my family who sees me all the time. I have moments of clarity, and normalcy but I tend to fly off the handle quickly and get angry very fast. You have convinced me to find another doctor who can really help me the way I need to. Thank you so much for helping me to realize I am not alone.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. My son was diagnosed with severe ADHD early on in life. It has been a real struggle for me as a mother who after having two children being diagnosed, realized that I too suffered from ADD. I wish someone had figured this out when I was growing up. It would have made things so much better had I been treated. But I digress, what I want to say is that I wanted to cry after listening to your testimony because what you described is exactly what my son has been going through. He recently had a break down, he expressed a desire to end his life and couldn't stop crying, and had to be hospitalized. I am so frustrated because they held him for a week and did absolutely NOTHING to help him. He is 20 years old now so I am no longer allowed to make medical decisions for him. This also frustrates me. He has all the symptoms you mentioned, stomach aches, trouble sleeping, constant worrying, difficulty being around other people,feeling awkward, he spends a lot of his time when not working or in school, sitting in front of a computer. Everything escalates in his mind. He automatically draws the worst conclusion to any scenario. I like you rather use holistic methods but recognize that he needs to be on meds. My frustration is finding the right doctor. Do you have any advice? We live in NY by the way:) I am worried for both y sons. While my oldest doesn't present with anxiety, he is very negative, and always angry. Self medicating . Has no drive. He has so much potential, this was a child who could ace a test without studying, but is working at Starbucks. I know he needs help. I just am having a hard time finding it. Again thank you for sharing your testimony.
Thank you so very much for putting your heart on your sleeve and breaking out of the stigma. I blame that stigma for being the biggest reason I was unknowingly trapped in my own undiagnosed ADHD for 37 years. I was ignorant, my family was ignorant, and even every doctor I ever saw was ignorant. You are not alone. Thank you for being a light and a voice in a very dark and quiet corner.
i have an anxiety disorder that was diagnosed when i was 17 and suspected adhd in combo with a high iq which caused me to struggle hard in shool. thank you for this video.
I don't think I have ever connected with a person more than you right now. There is someone else who feels this to. I don't have ADD or ADHD, I don't think At least, but I do know I suffer from anxiety and depression. I tried committing suicide at 15 as well and I am currently going through things as well. I understand completely when you talk about not going outside it has been 2 weeks since I have stepped outside. I only feel comfortable going out with someone. I am even horrible at math lol. I don't know what I am going to do to get out of this, life is to hectic and there are so many unknown variables. I fell trapped and like I'm suffocating. All I know is that you just gave me so much hope and have possibly saved my life and I don't know how I can express the love a gratitude I have for you. Thank you. You have shown me that it does get better. A lot of my anxiety and depression come from the fears of rejection, being unsuccessful, not being loved or being lonely and you are living proof that someday you can be happy and you can find love and you can be successful. Thank you, thank you so much!!
Thank you for sharing your personal story. I too was personally moved on the morning when I first heard about Titi Branch. She graciously attended my show and we shared such warm moments, I too decided to address the issue of mental illness in our community.Most people don't realize that mental illness tends to show up in early 20's - 30s (when young people are off to college on their own). It's so important to feel supported. May I also suggest yoga (especially Kundalini which focuses on the breath and meditation) I know as you are healing others that is a powerful healing is happening for you. Sat Nam
Although I did not watch this in one sitting, this post was right on time! ( I may have some ADHD, too!)Thank you so much!. I too have depression and it started in my undergrad of college. From then, it has been a thorn in my side along with learning disability. I also had struggles with suicidal thoughts. It was hard telling my mom about it and she understood my need to go to therapy.
Growing up in church, it seems that it was expected of you to 'have it all together' spiritually, and there have been challenges and changes with that. For the most part, I love my spiritual family dearly. Depression is one of those things that is so taboo to talk about in church. Because people still think, you're a Christian= you're perfect, you are immune to problems. That thinking is backwards and so far from the truth! With the help of friends (who shared the same struggle as me! Go figure!) and studying the Word ( characters in the Bible like Job and Paul), I have learned that I can use the weakness to help others... In the past 10 years there have been recovery groups to provide a safe place to talk it out, which helps also.
Thank you for this!
Thank you got sharing your story. I've been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression during my sophomore year in college. I used to cry for days and lock myself up in my room. Also, I was known as the miserable child growing up. I used to be sad and worry all the time. When I found this out, It was hard for me because my family do not believe in mental illness. I remember telling my mom that I had suicidal thoughts and she yelled at me. If you can guess it didn't make the situation better. I am much better now because I have support of my friends, went to therapy, and have a clearer understanding of my illness. I would control it for a while but when the pressure is on again, it comes back. Right now, I'm a senior in college and my anxiety attacks are happening again. The crying for days and constant worrying whether or not I'm going to graduate plagues my life. When you said that "putting things off because you feel overwhelmed", that's me! I hate the stigma that mental illness has especially the black community. I feel like because of the illness I can be perceived as a lazy person or 'miserable' and non social person. And I'm far from it.
Mykalee McGowan thank you so much for your support and for sharing your personal battles. I couldn't agree more that we as a community need to get rid of the stigma because it's hurting us. Please don't be ashamed to go and get the help you need to live a fully productive life. And if that means medication, then so be it!
Everything that you're saying, especially about GAD, resonates with me, and I am going to see someone about it. Thank you so much for talking about this. This gives me a lot of hope.
This is a big step for you and I am very thankful that you are sharing your story, mental health/illness is REAL. I am in nursing school and taking behavioral health right now, and it is such an amazing class, and I love hearing my clients stories and helping them to develop coping strategies etc. Education is very important in understanding mental illness. Keep doing your thing girl! Spread the Awareness! God Bless!
Kali Elaine Thank you so much for the support and your blessing!!! And God bless you for being passionate about helping others! My mom was an R.N. and she was so passionate about it! Nurses have big hearts!
Wow this was definitely an eye opener and I thank you so much for sharing. You're strong and I commend you for bringing light to this subject. You are actually making me evaluate myself and how I deal with and react to things. There are a lot of similarities in some of your anxiety symptoms that I definitely have. I would worry about some of the smallest things that would actually stop me from going to certain events or places due to me worrying about what people think of me or feel about me. Now I know that this is not normal. :-/
Thank you for sharing your story Nikisha ,I'm 27 years old and been depressed all my life and always have suicide thoughts , but I didn't know exactly why I feel that way , always scared to talk to ppls and afraid of critics and had a lot of troubles but didn't know why until 2 weeks ago my husband were looking at something about perfection cause he s one of them everything have to be perfect for him and that's when he start telling me that he knows that he loves me dearly but something is wrong with me and he start looking at ADD/ADHD and 100 % the symptoms I have all of them and I start to cry and say sorry to him cause sometimes he think that I was gonna leave him and run away, and I went to see my DR he sent me to see a specialist today I am so scared and nervous I can't even sleep , I can't stop cry as I'm typing this right now , but watching your video give me hope .Thank you I will let you know what the DR said ...God bless you.
Andleen Delisca God is sooo good!!! I pray you get the help you deserve. Don't be scared or nervous, you are on your way to getting the help you need! God bless you!!!
Wow. this was so refreshing to hear someone talk about their personal experience and problems w/ anxiety and adhd. Your vulnerability and honesty really helped me and gave me some insight on how I can deal with my constant anxiety. I'm a senior in high school and I suffer w/ anxiety and constant worrying about personal issues. I'm going to try working on improving my everyday life by practicing organization and better daily habbits before I jump to medicinal help. Thank you so much! it feels so good to see you making videos again. You have such a warm and pleasant presence. Keep doing what you're doing! xoxo
and it's true about ppl w/ adhd loving the arts because I am a vocalist who loves rnb and practices singing classical operatic music in multiple foreign languages. it eases the stress :)
Sooo super proud of you, Nikisha! As someone with similar issues (plus a brutal PTSD from abuse during childhood), I totally admire your openness and willingness to help us all grow in understanding! Well done, you!
UrbanEmpress thank you soooo much for your wonderful support and encouragement!!! And thank you so much for your openness to share!
Oh my Lord! I'm so happy I came across this CZcams clip! I've been following you for a few years now, but I recently found out about your CZcams channel. I thank you for sharing your experience and indicating facts that are associated with this type of disorder. This past week I have made the decision that I want to cleanse myself from my bad attitude/mood. I don't want to fit the stereotype of the angry black women particularly that I'm now married and working on having children so I'm working on changing my attitude about things for the good of myself, my marriage and my future children...etc. I started meditation which feels great, but I have been this way for so long that I may need more. I had a severe anxiety attack back in college, and since my attack are more like panics and nervousness nearly all the time. Let's not talk about the depression part! I'm freshly new Christian just like you, and I took my concern up to God, and I believe that finding this clip is in connection with my prayers. Thank you so much for your transparency! May God continue to bless you and may your healing be permanent.
I can't believe anyone would judge you. Mental illness is real. Thank you for bringing light to a highly stigmatized subject.
Brittany Minor thank you so much for your support!!! It's very unfortunate but I have already received judgement for sharing such personal information. You can't please everyone and I'm not trying to. My aim is to help someone else that really needs it before it's too late.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is so hard for people to talk about mental illness. It is that. An illnes. Just like any other illness there is something wrong and help is needed. Mental illness gets so stigmatized and it shouldn't be. Again thanks for being open and candid. God bless you and your family with everything you need to be happy healthy and sound.
Love this. Thank you. I am 33 and just recently diagnosed but have suffered my entire life. Now that I am expecting, I am over joyed with finally accepting my diagnosis and and making positive changes for myself, my boyfriend and my baby. I understand the stigma surrounding mental disorders and applaud your honesty.
Thank you so much for your story. I've experienced anxiety disorder in my 20's and I'm a testimony that you can overcome this condition without the use of medication. It was so bad at one time that I became depressed which led to me having phobias of staying inside the house. Through much prayer and reading the Bible, changing my diet and regular exercise, I overcame all of these disorders. It was a very scary time for me. I will be praying for you. Stay strong! I love your videos, girl!
Natural Raw Essence thank you soooo much for sharing and for your prayers. I've been reading my Bible, memorizing scriptures, praying, as well as eating healthy, and working out, for the past few years and it has helped tremendously, but my brain still wasn't producing enough serotonin and the frontal lobes of my brain due to the ADHD still weren't stimulated. But I believe God can heal and also this medication helps to build the neurons I don't have, so I wont have to be on it for the rest of my life. God bless you!
UrbanBushBabes Thank you, Nikisha! Yes, I truly understand. No need to explain. No judgement on my part just concern. Many times people are quick to take medication before trying natural methods but your video clearly states that natural methods wasn't working. I'm glad that you know that you will not be dependent on the medication for the rest of your life. I'm also glad that you changed your environment which is priority. That change alone is a major factor that is so important in dealing with anxiety disorder. Blessings to you. Much love.
Natural Raw Essence thank you again for the love and blessings! And yes, I agree that environment is sooo huge. I refuse to be around people who cause me anxiety, ie: dysfunctional people. I did it for too long.
I'm like literally crying watching this. You have no idea how much I appreciate this video. Thank you
When I made up in my mind that I didn't care about people's opinions over things I cannot control I was also 31. I am 35 now and still in therapy. I don't know exactly when I realized that I am anxious but I am seeing a therapist to help me. I know that I will be in therapy for a few years. It is what it is. The formative years are important and things from the past make me anxious about living in the present. I am no longer suicidal but I continue to struggle in social situations. Its hard but keep up the good fight.
Thank you for sharing your story because it's wonderful to see someone like your beautiful self, who despite having adversities in life and having mental disorders has been able to build a successful and fulfilling life! Its hard to remember that sometimes when your someone like me suffering from anxiety, depression etc on a daily basis. Thank you again and lots of love and best wishes from Australia!
Fairuz Bhuiyan thank you so much for such beautiful encouragement and support! It does get really hard to remember. That's why it's so important for people to share their triumphs with issues like these. People need to know there is hope! I hope that you get whatever help it is that you need to live a beautiful and fulfilling life! Blessings to you from Austin!!!
Thank you so much for this video. It touched my heart. I have an anxiety disorder 6ys. I'm about to graduate college (I went back to college). I have mentioned the disorder to even a close friend and got negative comments (unkind), or people will say "there is nothing wrong with you." Family knows better. I always hope more African American people would educate themselves on this subject. Thank you again for sharing, I am encouraged.
Wow! Nikisha, thank you for sharing this, I can relate to the whole skipping school thing and dropping out, I have always felt like I have ADD. I wasn't a hyper child or anything but it was hard for me to stay focused I could get bored so easily, I was also a huge daydreamer in class. I have never been diagnosed but I think I should go see a specialist, I have always been a little ashamed to admit something was wrong with me, but after seeing this video i'm really inspired.
Mrsnik rog thank you so much for sharing your experience! Not being able to focus and getting bored easily are definitely two of the symptoms of ADD/ADHD. Don't be ashamed! There are a lot of super bright and successful people who have ADHD. The way our minds work can be such a blessing for certain areas in life. We tend to be better in the arts and being creative because our mind is so active.
This took a lot of courage. You were sincere and caring. I pray this message will encourage someone that needs help to get it.
Well done. Thank you.
trulyfabulous01 thank you soooo much!!! I pray the same!!!
You definitely are helping a lot of people with this video. Thank you for being s honest, straightforward, open and courageous enough to share your story. I wish you continued happiness, as you rise above your diagnosis.
Thanks for sharing your story I also have GAD and I think I may have ADHD because I go through some of the symptoms u speak about and am so happy u spoke about how people on meds are judged and that there's nothing wrong with needing meds. love the vid.
Nikisha You are a beautiful soul. beautiful. humble. work in progress. brave. smart. human. sending you so much love and light. this is so timely.
HI Nikisha, Im grateful for your post and I appreciate your honesty. I am also living with GAD. I am 34 years old and had been diagnosed a year ago. I was placed on meds (paxil) but was afraid to take it due to the stigma that is attached to being medicated (psychiatric drugs). Your video encourages me to talk to my doc again bat my meds since verbal therapy is not enough. I have a bachelor's degree in English and had aspired to be a public school teacher but is having difficulty passing my high school level exam. However, I managed to pass my Middle school Language Arts exam. Im currently a Substitute Teacher in a urban community. I hate being a sub but is having difficulty passing my exam. I experience terrible anxiety attacks while taking the exam. i requested extra time but my doc refuse to sign the documents. He encourages studying and trying to relax. I do not know what t do at this point. Do you have any suggestions? I also had a child at the age of 17 and I also have a four year old and is in a dysfunction relationship with my son's Dad. I have a depressive personality and often lose touch with reality. Please offer any suggestions where possible. Thanks
This was an awesome video! I admire you so much for your courage to speak about these issues. You are empowering other people to speak up and help family and friends to become more educated about mental illness and to realize it isn't something we can just will ourselves to fix. It is indeed an illness just as diabetes is an illness. You are an amazing and courageous woman. Thank you for giving a voice to those of us who are learning to live a more productive life and enjoy each day.
Melissa Tweed thank you so much for sharing and for the sweet sweet support!!!
Thank you for being a light and for sharing your story. I know that it has helped someone, I've always believed that we are all responsible for each other and for you to come on this platform took great heart and courage so for that I honor and respect you for being real...thanks again and I wish you all the best!💜💜💜
You are so brave to tlk about these issues. I wish you all the best and continue to share your story.
Thanks so much for posting this Nikisha! I hope that this video will get to all the people who can really benefit from it. It encourages anyone experiencing any kind of torment in their lives to just talk about it and know that it's okay to seek out professional guidance. I appreciate how organic you are; you are awesome and inspiring! :)
Great video that sheds light on this topic of mental disorders like anxiety disorders etc.
I applaud you for this....my prayers are with you, your family and everyone who is going through the same thing.
newnat77 thank you so so much for your support and your prayers!!! i really appreciate it!!!
Thanks for sharing your story & all the best to you & your family. I use to work in the social services field & have dealt with individuals with these mental health issues. It is Interesting that you bring up this subject, since in Canada on January 28th it is Let's Talk Day, which focuses on the issue of mental illness in Canada. The campaign is to bring awareness to the issue & to reduce the stigma associated with being diagnosed with a mental health concern. I applaud you for being transparent to your viewers about your personal struggles, & God Bless you!
Gee Light thank you so much for your blessing and encouragement!!! I really appreciate it! That's crazy that I spoke about this so close to "Let's Talk Day"! I was born in Canada, but I never knew about that!
Thank you for being transparent. We don't as women or as a community do not open up and discuss these issues. Just know you will help someone understand, identify and overcome ADHD Anxiety. Again, thank you!!!!!
Lovelaughjoy Madison thank you so much for the support!!! I really appreciate it!!! And I agree with you, we need to be transparent and discuss these issues.
You are so awesome and brave to do this video. Thank you sooo much! I have much to say but I can't type it all up right now : ) I can't imagine people being critical of you making this video. I applaud it! I am happy you are feeling better!!
selinda2009 you're so welcome!!! And thank you so so much for your support and encouragement!!! I really appreciate it!!!
God bless you. I'm praying for you & all others suffering from this. You are loved!
Cierra Jefferson thank you soooo much for your support, love, and prayers!!! You're so sweet!!!
So good to hear someone overcoming these issues. Thank you for sharing and being a light for others, you've helped a lot!
Ísis Silva thank you so much for your beautiful support!!!
TFS, my 7yr son has been diagnosed with ADHD & Anxiety Disorder and I'm just learning how to help him through out his school year. I have gone through the same thing with my son teachers. I though his behavior change was due to life change when I separated from his father, I glad I look further into reaching out for more help. I've heard so many horror stories of meds and would love to learn more of holistic methods. I don't have any know knowledge of any one on either side of the family having this disorder and honestly it was hard for me to accept.
Hey, thanks so much for doing this. This has been super helpful for those of us who are going through what you went through. Thank you.
Sarah Joyce you're sooo welcome!!! And thank you for the support!!!
This was very helpful. Thank you for being brave enough to share such a personal story.
lorettadot Thank you so much for your wonderful support! My heart feels so happy that it was helpful for you!
Thanks for touching on this topic, My boy friend son has ADHD and at first I didnt understand until I saw first hand some of the for myself and gain some understanding.
Thank you! I believe this video and your testimony will push me to go get help. I know Im depressed I just never talk about it because while growing up in school and with my family I was dismissed and labeled lazy and weird. Now that I'm nearing 30 and just getting by emotionally, I would love to feel normal.So again Thank you
purethinkinsol you're welcome!!! My heart is so happy to hear that you're encouraged to get help! I hope you do!!! You deserve to live a life that's beautiful and fulfilling! God bless you!
You posted this at the right time. I'm still feeling some type of way being on meds and going to counseling for my depression and anxiety. I feel pathetic that I got to this point. It's only been 2wks into my treatment, but I know I need it. The depression knocked me down so hard I can barely get up like I used to. And I've been suffering from anxiety for far too long. This post is a sign to keep going on despite perceived stigma. Thank you so for this.
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susiq1121 you're sooo welcome! And don't you dare feel pathetic for being aware enough to realize you had a problem, and being brave enough to go do something about it! You are not pathetic, you are strong! You did the best thing you could do for yourself. When we are able to really look in the mirror and do some deep digging and uncover hurtful, painful things in order to see the bigger picture and then go and get help, that is truly loving yourself and taking care of yourself. So I strongly encourage you to keep on getting whatever help you need to live a healthy life. Forget the stigmas, because someone is always gonna have something to say regardless. It's people like you and I that can break the stigmas. So keep going!
This video is a blessing. Thank you Nikisha
Your brave.... This will help someone. There's no but love in the message.
Samantha Cousins thank you so so much for your support!!!
I really appreciate this video, Nikisha. Thank you.
This is very brave of you and I am certain it will help someone.
continue to speak, our words do more power then we think. always speak positive things around you and you will see a difference. I pray God strengthens all of our weaknesses and protects his people.
Thank you for sharing this information with us, it's good to know that when one is dealing with anxiety, that they are not alone.
Antoinette Miller you're so welcome!!! And yes, no one is alone in this!!!
Don't worry! I was diagnosed with both of these along with Tourettes, and Depression. I've been able to control it for the most part but sometimes its hard, other times its very easy. My doctor also thinks I may have Aspergers.
Wow! Nikisha, this was incredibly inspiring, informative and enlightening.
May God continue to bless you and your family Nikisha :-)
i think i have an anxiety disorder but im ashamed to tell anyone. i knew something was wrong when i looked back on how i acted and how i still act now. I used to hide in the bathroom at parties or avoid and make excuses as to why i couldnt go. ive recently been waking up at 5am and 7am and this has been happening for days. and my stomach has been in knots for several months. I always get nervous even when im just simply going to class....i feel like people are just constantly watching me and judging me so i purposely get away from people so that i dont interact with them. i need to see someone about this because im getting worried
Sister Thank you for sharing this video, I pray that you can keep growing in your life and always stay happy . By you talking this is helping others ,everybody in the world have some form of depression ect.So never feel that you have to feel ashamed or anything like that. When I see a beautiful women whose marry,have a child,business women smart I would never know. I see a sister who got it together regardless what you going threw your weakens is your strength and you are helping others. Thank you again Peace and Love!
2 words-- THANK YOU!
Thanks for sharing. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder when I was 16.
Kudos Nikishia. I truly appreciate you taking this step to speak on your journey. It's commendable that you will make a difference for someone. As a breast cancer survivor I know first hand how beneficial it is to me to meet other people who have shared my walk. My prayer is that you will find continuous peace.
SEB Baylis Thank you so much for such beautiful encouragement and your prayer! And thank you for sharing! I can't imagine what it's like to have cancer, but I am so glad that you are a survivor! May God bless you with continuous health and a cancer free life!
Very brave, very beautiful. Thank u for sharing Nikisha💖
Miss Lissa2323 Thank you sooo soooo much!!!
I'm so proud of you!
selinda2009 this means a lot!!! Thank you!!!
hi nikisha, thats me right now. i cry a lot too. omg thats means i have adhd. i spend time writing down my feelings. im indecisive too. i am 21 and i dont enjoy life. i get angry with everyone around me for no reasons. but i keep to myself and talk to no one, thats how i express my emotion locking up and not eating for a day or so... i have insomnia. i stay up at night up to 2:00am thinking a lot and crying. i would like to discuss this with u. this is a short synopsis. thank u
monique robb you're welcome! You can email me at "nikisha@urbanbushbabes.com".
I think you are wonderful and brave for sharing your story. Thank you, I can relate I suffer from mental illness too so again thank you for this video.
I'm so glad that you're better! :) thanks for sharing! xoxo
You are so brave for sharing this! ❤️
Thank you so much for this. You're amazing and you're helping us and many others.
Thank you for sharing your story. You are an inspiration to many. GOD bless.
All I can say is you are AMAZING!!!!!!
II appreciate you sharing this video and I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder myself.
Wow nice speech I'm Diagnosed with SVERE ADHD,CT and MILD HIGH FUNCTIONING AUTISM
and I have a lot of struggles.
Girl I admirer you . Yes you are not along with this. There are people I kno who are too dealing with mental disorders. I am learning that u cannot ignore it but try to really understand the disorder so I can be of some support.
Victoria Ouste' thank you so much for the support and being so understanding!!!
Wow this was awesome! Thanks for the information!
Oldskool Chic thank you so much!!! And you're welcome!!!
i can relate so much to everything. it's getting to the point where it's affected my jobs, it seems like people think they have to coddle my feelings or either frustrated (i pick up on all these microagressions) all the time and now i don't get called for jobs anymore (it's on call) and at my other job it's suggesting that i transfer for more hours which i think is code word to resign because i'm get wayyy less hours so now i'm like freaking out, and this is just one issue which pales in comparison to other problems i have.
can you make a video on what you did to get assessed? like how did you bring it up with your doctor? i feel helpless on how to go about everything...
You are an amazing person, and really brave to, to tell more about your self Thank you and I hope that your story will help others God Bless again and all prayers and hugs to you!
thank you for sharing this. very admirable. very courageous.
Jonathan Boese thank you sooo much for your support and wonderful encouragement!!!
wow, your life mirrors mine down to your Husband name. My daughter and I are both going to get treated next month for ADD and for me anxiety. I swear it feels like no one understands and it is doubly as hard because now not only do I have to help myself but I have to get my daughter through this.
TheUrbanHousewife16 I believe everything happens for a reason. It is tough because most people don't understand and they don't take this seriously enough. That's why we must continue to speak out. God bless you and thank you for sharing!
Thanks for sharing,really great story! Stay blessed:)
NaturalDoll15 z thank you so so much for your support and your blessing!!!
I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2006 when I was twenty and I *know* I have depression. I'd say it's mild, but from Aug.-December 31st (yes!), It was pretty bad! I've had both since I was young... I thought It was "normal." The ADD (They told me something like ADD is no longer used, that there is always some form of hyperactivity linked with attention deficit) was so bad, but I never really had behavioral problems...
I'm so appreciative. I have struggled with school because I refuse to go back to Adderall, *even though it DID help*, I am very anti-medication, and it's hard and shameful for me to deal with. I know we live in a "pop-a-pill society," but that's NOT me!! I may VERY WELL be throwing away the future God wants for me because I'm too prideful to take medication.
God bless you for your transparency and bravery. You're helping a lot of people.
ade52286 thank you so much for your encouragement and blessing!!! I agree 100% that we do live in a pill popping society and I was very anti-medication until I realized that there are different contexts in which medication is handled. If taken responsibly and not abused,certain medications change lives and save lives! I realized after experiencing these struggles myself that I'd rather be in support of a person getting whatever help they may need to live a productive life and be able to their full potential. Everyone's situation is different and everyone needs different things. So don't be ashamed, and do whatever you need to do to make sure you're living out God's full purpose for your life.
God bless you for sharing. May I say I enjoyed the information, and the living room experience.
Thanks for sharing your story Kish :)
Maurice Huff You're so welcome and thank you for taking the time to listen to it!
I'm so glad you posted this. Perfect timing. :o)
Crisszilla Thank you so much!!! I'm so happy to read this!!!
Thank You for sharing your story and truth so honestly. ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm inspired.
Thank You, Nikisha.
thefd619 you're sooo welcome!!!
Thank you for this video I have had some of the exact same issues! No one understands.
Thank you! This blessed me today.
Jewel Barnett You're sooo welcome! I am so happy it blessed you!
Thank you for giving so many people hope. I had just blogged about something similar and then I saw your video. Much love to you and Cip and the whole fam :)
I lost a cousin to suicide in 2014 October he committed suicide the day and way his dad had committed suicide in 2003. I'm been having lots of suicidal thoughts but I'm trying to stay strong I've also been diagnosed with ADHD.
Lza MichelleI'm so sorry to hear this! It sounds like it may run in your family. There is no such thing as staying strong. Allow professionals and others who are going through the same thing help you. Please don't do it alone, that's the worst thing you can do for yourself.
*cyber hug* Thank you for sharing your story with us who are probably watching & dealing with similarities in their symptoms or know someone who does. Stigma continues to be placed upon mental illness because I feel most people rather think it doesn't exist. Those who are going through this, know that you can function and get through life normally; however there may be some assistance as you mentioned to be in place. Mental illnesses should be nothing that we run from instead embrace, accept and help each other. I feel there is no one alive who does not know one person who is going through some form of mental illness whether it is mild to severe.
I think you are very strong Nikisha and have a purpose in your life to touch others, guide them with your knowledge and experience and know it is going to be OK. To hold on, take a deep breath and know it will be manageable and able to cope. For some of us we have to do 5x more than the other person to get through the day. If it is what it takes, we must strive to do this but remain healthy. I like the idea of holistic living and incorporating it into self-care. For those who are undergoing personal challenges, you're not alone. It is better to seek help, advice on how to track your patterns, be mindful of your physiological responses and triggers. Many blessings to you Nikisha and your story will help those in need to first acknowledge where they are, second what steps to take and three say to themselves "I can and will get through this in my life."
lifejourney2bnatural thank you soooo much for your beautiful encouragement and blessings!!! And thank you for sharing such a beautifully written response to this! Our dialogue on this will help spread the truth and shed light for so many who need it!!! God bless you!!!
I was diagnose with Panic Disorder about a year ago. People would never guess I suffer with that unless I tell people. It's okay girl, we all have mental problems. Some people just haven't been diagnosed.
Gerrimil7 I hope you're doing better. Thank you for sharing.
UrbanBushBabes No, I thank you for sharing. This is a subject a lot of people will not touch. We all thank you for sharing a piece of your personal life with us. Hopefully this will get people to speak up and get checked out for their symptoms.
Thanks so much for sharing your story it is inspiring.
mellowkinks you're so welcome!!!! Thank you for taking the time to listen!
this is so not easy to talk about and I commend you for your bravery. I also suffer from anxiety and I know how HARD , esp in moments of panic. I sought out counseling and I regualrly practice meditation- both of whcih make a tremendous difference in controlling my anixety. If I need to do more in the future, I will..I was wondering if you tried any of those routes? My anxiety doesn't keep me in bed per se, but it does cause panic attacks and stagnation in life(I have been trying to get into graduate school for 2 years). Best of luck with everything - God bless!
TAG010 thank you soooo much for your blessing and your wonderful support!!! I was doing meditation with my Bible which helped for periods of time but not in the long term. I still do it, but my medication has made a huge difference!!!
I appreciate your video and message to other individuals who are struggling with similar challenges. I expect to graduate with a msw degree and plan to work with clients as a mental health clinician after May this year. Would you mind if I use your video as a support source for my clients who ate questioning the benefits of therapy and medication?
Dorian Parpari Thank you!!! You can absolutely share it!!!
Thank you Nakisha
Carol S you're sooo welcome!!!
(Hello fellow STEM major) Do you or have you ever considered a meditation regimen or even seeing a Reiki? I only ask from love, I went through some very dark times, prescription anti-psychotics included. I found things of this nature to be phenomenal and successful in my understanding and healing. Namaste ♥ ~Peace, Love, & Light
Thank you for sharing this video! I have dealt with similar background and issues. I am currently looking into EMDR. Have you looked into that? Might be something helpful.
barbararules You're so welcome!!! I have never heard of EMDR. Thank you for sharing! I will look into it for sure!!!