U.K Cocaine Addiction - My Story - 21 Years of Hell
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- čas přidán 23. 05. 2023
- Hi All, a big thank you for watching My story on drug addiction, I feel it is very important to raise more awareness on addiction and hope my story shows people the dangers and risks involved and ultimately will deter people from ever using or letting it escalate to where it can take full control of your life like it did with me. I also hope to show people that no matter how far gone you think you are you can turn your life around. please feel free to drop me a message or comment if you have any questions on this subject. I hope for anyone watching this you find peace and good health in your life.
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I’m addicted to watching people who are addicted talking about addiction
Well it's addictive.
🤣🤣🤣
I’ll give you a half hour of pure solid content for 50 quid.
Addiction is a hell of a drug😂😂
LOL. Great comment
When I used to get cravings I forced myself to concentrate on how awful and dirty I felt after the comedown. That was a good trick for me.
very effective way, I was taught to role play it out in my head what will happen if I consume, which for me would be , spend load money / not turn up for work / end up in debt / kicked out of my house / no gym / tell lies / feel like shit after /. and regret it .. etc the list goes on and on.. :)
I had thé same tactics . Just feeling so awefull afterwards made me not want to do it again soon...
Yea imagining the comedown kicking in when all the blow is gone. That sucks so hard you dont want to touch the stuff anymore
I used same tactic combined with chewing tobacco @DiariesofanAddict
Had an addiction for almost 15 yrs. spent literally 10’s thousands on coke. Lost jobs, nearly my home and my wife and kids.. I made the decision that enough was enough and I cut everyone out of my life who encouraged me or sold it to me… my life changed instantly, now 7 years without touching it, the thought of it now makes me feel sick..
Cracking bit of sherbet
Mate I don’t regret any of it, I had some fucked up times. Regret is to think about it and let it consume me further. It happened, I’m not proud of it, what I’m proud of is realising I had a problem and solving it. It can be done
@Klm458alright man shut up he’s done with that stuff.
@Klm458 alright man sorry
@Klm458 10 k is cheap as fuck man... in 15 years regular coke user expend like 100k
My mid thirties was by far the worst part of my life as well. My body couldn’t take the abuse anymore. Thankfully that is behind me.
That's where I am mate well done getting out
@@six1manillakid159 the sooner the better but never to late as long as you’re under 80. Next time I plan on getting extremely high is while on my deathbed. I think that would be a proper occasion for that but who knows I might even reconsider that depending on how miserable I feel. Took me a while to dig myself out of my hole and many things can’t ever be repaired but you have to own it and move on. Hopefully to make better decisions in the future.
I definitely had the autopilot, terrible when you are desperate to stop, even when going to the dealer I was thinking "I don't want to buy any" but would buy anyway... I am 99 days clean today.
Congrats on your recovery
wow amazing mate, keep it going :) so many people can relate to the story very nice to hear.totally agree autopilot could ware off then you think shit I've ordered it now its to late. horrible stuff, stay strong bro :)
Hey man, good for you, seriously I mean that.
@@DiariesofanAddictI was same eztascy mama raves .whizz .sniff never ends .lost count how many times I've said I've ad enough I'm done but then think and it let's get messy vicious circle
I started at age 15 now 51 Still at it
that's a stretch mate hope your well @@andrearaver1384
Dear Mark, I was a total speed freak in Bristol the the 80s. I have been sober for about 40 years. I had a psychotic break down, and at my worst I was 5 and a half stone. I am grateful for every day. I have a daughter and a grandson and a wonderful husband . I have been honest snd remain honest about my past. Some one recently asked me if I had ever tried drugs. I laughed and said there are not many I haven't.
hahah nice to hear and its great to have some humour about it also :) glad you are doing well you can live to tell the tale :)
You replied to a BOT! Look at he user name and compare it to others.. see a pattern.. No idea why they would be on your video, but it is a bot for sure...@@DiariesofanAddict
The last line made me laugh. I salute you 🙂
I was first given speed in my early to mid teens 15 by my aunty, I was very immature for my age due to being born with a club foot I could barely walk until I was old enough to go to school always in a cast or on my zimmer frame so I missed interaction in my formative years, I never got off it till I was forty it was my obsession, boy did that dumb me down it should be reclassified from class b aswell as weed, combining the two is absolutely lethal for the young mind, it did dig me out of a few holes aswell tho to be fair and i had many a good time on it, im 41 now it holds little appeal, i could use it again but im not going to for a loooooooooonv while as i feel im only getting to know myself as an adult at my ripe age
@@billyboomstick8657 Now life can begin x.
My story is exactly the same as yours it's crazy. Cash point at 12, pay on a Thursday and not going to work on a Friday, payday loans it's mad I used to do all the things you do and I'm still doing it. I'm 33 now and relapsed last week after 4 months but I'm a week clean tomorrow again and just got to keep trying
Hope you're doing well again! Keep on pushing... easier said than done of course. I let my mind and emotions get to me and feel hopeless then make my situation worse. I know I can do it though and have done it before and far worse but my circumstances and life situation is far worse which keeps me in a cycle that's bad. It's frustrating to be able to be fully self aware but seemingly not be able to control or change it and not knowing how without certain support but I've got to get over what I can't change and keep trying. Much love ❤
Did you end up using again?
It is rubbish, that is a BOT account! Why the hell are they here? What is going on with youtube these days?! Look at the user name, and look down the page, there are tons of them! always a name with a -74646 or some number after it... AI generated bots!@@hContentOftheInternet
good luck mate, you can beat this
Fuck it mate get back on it you gotta enjoy life g
I could remember several years ago, cocaine addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the
same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the
morning after. So no hangovers. No
depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now
have a more calm mind
How do I reach out? Can I find him on insta
I am sober from drugs and alcohol three years in January. I am 48 and took my first wrap of speed at 15ish. As it turns out alcohol never agreed with me but proved a gateway to debauched nights/days/weeks/months and years of drug abuse. I lied, I cheated and I even stole Es once.
I opened the recycling bin one morning before collection and couldn't fit more cans of Stella in. This was the point I decided enough was enough and I stopped right there. I sought help, I received help, I was honest with myself and addiction to alcohol and cocaine, over time, with desire and discipline vanished over the horizon. I am disciplined, I work hard and I am grateful for the Universe conspiring in my favour now. Happy, healthy and truly alive.
One Love and well done Sir ❤ ❤
Amazing words mate, I feel you! looking for alcohol in the bin is like wtf, I’ve done similar with Coke picking bits up from off the floor just to keep going!! Absolutely mental, I’m glad you are well to live and tell the tale!! We’ll dome amigo ♥️♥️♥️
so similar to my story - now coming up 7 years sober. It can be done! Great work :)
I'm sitting here now after having fought off "the craving" . I'm determined to do the same tomorrow 'cos i know it'll be back. But , tonight , i win. Cheers & good luck mate.
You win bro and you keep winning, I told someone today, once I was driving and I went through a bad craving when it subsided as I was driving home i unwinded my window and shouted as loud as possible “ f**K you craving your not taking me” do what works for you bro I wish you strength to get through that shit 💪💪💪
dont have a cheeky lifter.
I won again! I'm gonna do this. Feel better already. Cheers.@@888ssss
Bro..your name tag is f*ckin awesome 😂
Thanks for the video. Someone very dear to me has been struggling with this for 5-6 years now with no sign of stopping.
Hey mark! It’s amazing to see how you are nowadays! I hope you enjoy your new life and journey, stay strong! Vic e lucca - Amazonas, Brazil! 💚
Thanks 🙏 see you both soon ❤️
Raw, honest and inspiring! Respect bro
Haven’t been able to relate to a video about addiction more than this one, I’m only 18 but I have suffered from addiction for 4 years. I can really relate to those 2 different personalities that you brought up later on in the video. I am a 6 months clean from cocaine use and I’ve found these videos have really helped. Great video mate, thankyou
Glad your doing well bro keep going 💪♥️
It's good you became an addict so young but are also recovering young. I know you have suffered tremendously, but recovering addicts are some of wisest, deepest souls I know. In effect, with your struggles you have paid for very valuable XP that levels you up loads.
And the best thing is you've got the hardest bit already out the way! Now you have a whole life of freedom, wisdom and adventure before you. You have been blessed and will bless others. You will feel the hand of God on your shoulder and you will know there's a reason you're here, you'll be certain that you have a purpose.
I promise you, stranger, a great destiny is set before. Don't ever worry, try not to doubt and remember the virtue of patience. Prayers *often* get answered but not immediately.
Whatever you believe, I want you to know you're blessed and you. God's Peace bless and keep you always, stranger.
Keep going pal you have your whole life ahead of you
This story is amazing because I’ve been a heavy coke user for 20 years and this was like you telling me my life story on drugs it’s a sad existence when it gets a grip of you I hope everyone is doing well and stay healthy thanks for this
Hope your well bro, thanks for watching 😁
@@DiariesofanAddict I am lad I still do relapse from time to time but I am doing better your video was great it scared me to hear what you where saying all of it rang true to me apart from going to Spain to volunteer 😂thanks so much for sharing and u look after yourself 👍
This is the best insight into addiction I have ever heard. Very well explained and can fully imagine how you must have felt. Well done with your recovery journey.
Your story is so close to mine and will help so many people I’m so grateful that you chose to share your experience and how you came out of the deepest place you can be with addiction x
Wow thank you, no problem important to share so many people in this situation and yet never talked about, now we can build a community I hope you are well 💪
it scares me how many people are going to go through similar addiction issues as you’ve experienced yourself. drug culture surrounding cocaine in the uk at the moment is absolutely fucking horrendous. good luck with your recovery.
💯 agree with you. Thanks for watching 👍
I know rite? Its everywhere
@@DiariesofanAddictsmack head 🤡
thanks for this video man, watched the whole lot at nearly 4am, i’ve had a few sessions past 10 years or so but i’m pleased to say i’m sober now & looking to stay that way… respect to you
fair play mate, defo stay that way never worth it, appreciate your time :)
So honest. Thank you for this. My addiction was not as severe as yours but I am just coming to the end of 19 years of regular drug abuse. I can resonate with so much of what you said. Hope you are well
Cheers mate you to ❤️
Wow man your video is incredible. Your honesty and just pure openness is amazing. I just left a cocaine and alcohol addict after 14 years, I figured he just didn’t love me enough to stop. Emotionless is an understatement of his character while using. Everything you described I’ve lived directly alongside him begging and pleading for him to stop, not having a clue he was on autopilot and definitely another person .. whew …. Currently recovering from the character I’ve become thanks to him… Bravo mister 💐
Thanks for your comment, am sorry you had to experience it, sounds like he is unwell! I’m afraid the reality is unless he genuinely wants to stop and get off it the drugs will always come first, it’s very sad to watch! One day he may wake up and realise what he has lost. I wish you well ❤️
Congrats mate! 💪👏
My best to anyone struggling out there, you're all far stronger you than you may think
Thank you for being so honest. My addiction started in my late 30’s. Breaking up with my girlfriend. Went down a spiral, and Couldn’t stop….luckily I have a family that has the funds to get me in to a private clinic. Because I was also doing Benzos for the comedown of cocaine. And the benzos are fare more worse.
Very inspirational to see your recovery. Stay strong👍
thank you very much I'm glad your well now also :)
Break ups can definitely do something to you. I'm sorry that happened but glad you've got that support and hope you're good today!! I've heard benzos are actually one of the very worse and most dangerous to stop. You just don't hear about it much like you do heroin or even alcohol.
I did that too with the benzos, I wouldn't take High dosages but just enough to slow my heart a little bit. But I know people that take super high dosages of benzos to come down to the point where they're basically dried drunk and that is very very dangerous. I can't even imagine. But nowadays benzos are only if I'm having a panic attack or extreme insomnia, because I've had panic disorder since I was nine years old. I never really saw the addictive properties to benzos only because they're not necessarily actors on dopamine, but I see people that are alcoholics and get prescribed benzos, so they use them like alcohol and that's another really bad slippery slope. Proud of you by the way
Had a friend who died of benzos
I went through 8 years of my life like this. I was a functional addict, but also had a bad problem with tolerance as I could bend it like Beckham. Just so glad I moved away and was able to kill the addiction.
Smart move mate 🫶
Im trying to move, I know I have to get out of environment IM IN. Glad to hear this might help.
I can't describe how much I'm feeling for everyone here. I'm so glad mate that you're good now. I was crying about everything you went through. Decent of you to want to help others. I'm praying for us all my dear brothers.
Thank you very much yes wonderful people we are all connected 🫶🫶🫶
Thank you for telling us your drug addiction story and your insights into addiction. I am working to get over my own addictions and educating myself on how addiction works has been a real help.
No problem hope your well bro 🫶
Thanks for posting, everyone is so very different in this world and I think it’s important for people to understand people’s addiction stories.
Take care man ❤️ 🤗
💯 thanks mate
This just popped up on my feed and I thought I’d give it a watch since I was a coke addict for 5-6 year. Nearly 2 years sober now just stone cold quit one day and never looked back. It’s good to hear your story and how we all relate in how bad it had gotten. How you lie and do anything for a fix I would spend my pay same as you every Friday got riddled with Defaults and CCJ’s but I’m much happier where I am and looking back to where i used to be is scary
thanks for the watch 100 mate at the time you don't realise but from the outside looking in when you break it down how your life is/was to most people its very bad, glad your ok now sober life much better :)
Hi Mark. One of the best posts on addiction I’ve seen. A brave, honest account. God Bless. 🙏🏻♥️💐
thanks you very much I appreciate your kindness :)
I completely resonate with your description of oblivion.
The part where you said that your addiction personality has been satisfied is so true for me. Its almost like it just says thank you im done now and your the one who has to pick up the pieces.
Amazing video and upmost respect for sharing your story. I hope it helps others as much as it has me
Excellent video bro. Always great to see a guy turn his life completely around after a couple of decades of chaos. Well done champ 🏆 keep inspiring
Thank you bro, really appreciate the positive feedback! 💪💪
Thank you so much for sharing this. It's made the loneliness and shame of my addiction that much more bearable and helped motivated me to stay in control.
Much love mate
Your welcome brother 🫶
Thank you so much for this video. After 17 years of addiction, ive never heard a better explanation of it. Very inspiring🙏🙏🙏🙏
Thank you very much I hope it helps ♥️♥️
Thank you for sharing your story. Happy you are back on a good path brother. 🎉👊
Mark thanks so much for sharing your story! Really a truly WILD RIDE thru addiction and best luck to extending your recovery one day... one moment at a time.
❤️
How amazing I found this. I've suffered with cocaine addiction now for 18 years. It's completely destroyed my life and made my mental health conditions so much harder to deal with.
Glad it helped be strong mate you can turn it around 💯 don’t let that shit control your life you worth more. 🫶
@@DiariesofanAddict thanks brother.
Bro I know I don’t matter that much to u but I’m sure u have people that care about u. I believe in u you have to get through this I know u feel alone but don’t I believe in u and I know that other people do to I respect u
Perfectly put. You have literally the same journey as me (in my 18th year now) , Oblivion was one of my favourite games, ironically. Including the crying, binging and the damage routine. Very inspiring, I'll be with you on your journey of spreading the word to hopefully prevent harm to our younger brothers or sisters. Cheers mate 👍🏻
thanks hope your well :)
Man, thank you very much for your story! It is always important to hear that no matter what it is possible to change for better
No problem mate glad to help ❤️
Well done for sharing Mark. Glad to hear you managed to turn it around.
cheers mate :)
Thank you for sharing. I'm glad you found your way out
Cheers!!! Thank you so very much!!! I am so very grateful I found your video!!! I can relate 100%
I have been in the Northeast USA my whole life, a few decades and addiction has been and continues to be prominent in my area. I know it is prominent across the globe as well. Thank you so much for your time!!!
Thank you glad you enjoyed and found useful!! Hope you are well ♥️♥️
@@DiariesofanAddict Thank you so much...🙏🙏
Listening to you speak with clarity, I find it hard to imagine what you were like before you got soba.
a mess haha, thanks :)
Years of addiction made worse when I got a high paying job that end up losing to Coke. I wouldn't stop until my bank account was empty or the dealer didnt pick up the phone then I would wait for him to wake up and continue at 7am. I would cry watching my dog patiently waiting for my binge to stop so I can walk her. I suffered a heart attack - doctor's said it was a miracle i survived with arteries fcked from coke and blood pressure sky high. On the operating table I swore I am not going to touch this, for my dog's shake. I didn't want to leave her. 1.5 year clean now, cut off everyone, even changed countries - sometimes you have to do what you have to do. Hope everyone stays clean, coke is a terrible, very fiendish drug. Never again.
Great story mate!! And well done! I was the same waiting for people to wake up so I could continue! Ridiculous!! Glad your well now ❤️
Great video.
I like the explanation about split personality, the addicted mind taking over the real you.
Well done, this video is very honest, very helpful.
Very lucid description, thanks for sharing it.
You hero
:)
I just want to express how relatable this was to me. Good on you for getting through it and being where you are now. Commendable mate.
thanks mate hope your all good
What a generous and brave act to share you story and to give such hope. Thank you and I wish you all the best with your life changing journey, turning things round from hideous drug darkness to light, and changing other peoples lives for the better not just your own.
Thank you very much for your kind words I really appreciate ❤️
I am very proud of you man, thanks for sharing and motivating!
Cheers mate hope your well ❤️
I was lost on coke for 15 years. I had to literally throw my phone in the bin and move to another country to break the habit
It was such a relief to be somewhere where I just couldn’t get it. I didn’t get any bad withdrawals but had long term depression but that might just be my adhd
Good luck if you are battling this addiction.
Well done mate, sometimes we have to extreme measures to kick it!! I did the same.
How’d you afford it?
@@oddunb6190 it was the 90s and everyone was clubbing and it was easy to sell I would get a oz cut it a little bit with glucoses and sell half of it and keep 18 g for me
I was working full time as well. But it all spiralled in to a shitstorm. I would advise no one to touch cocaine It’s just to nice and if your like me with adhd and low dopamine anyway you first hit of coke is like you feel alive for the first time ever. That’s the problem. I’m 50 now and have been off it for 25 years.
really well put together video, congrats to you on your sobriety and success!
Absolutely outstanding! I was mesmerised watching this it takes a lot for me to cry but this really made me cry because I have a similar story and not many people understand the grip drugs and alcohol get on you
When you said about the 2 personalities and going in to auto pilot...WOW just wow because that is the most SPOT ON description of it!
You should be so proud of your self at getting over this and bettering yourself we are worth more we deserve to be healthy
I'm so glad you studied about addiction etc..knowledge is power!
You have a new fan here mark!!
Marie finnigan from Liverpool u.k❤
Amazing!! Thank you very much I hope you are well ♥️♥️
Absolutely brilliant well done.Enjoyed that.
Thank you for watching 🫶🫶🫶
Thank you for sharing your inspiring story!
No hay problema 🫶
Proud of you man, it’s not easy to get out of addictions but if you are able to do it when you are in that deep it shows serious will power.
thanks for your kind words ♥
Thank you for sharing, hell of a story & very motivating. Congratulations on pulling though 🙏
thank you apparecte the support hope your well :)
Thankyou so much that explanation of cravings makes so much sense, and has given me the motivation to carry on, especially the depression part, it makes you think what’s the point of staying sober if you feel so depressed. I think previously just the thought of using (and knowing I could use) gave me the dopamine hit. this video came up for a reason to me ❤
💯 the excitement to use in itself can give you a buzz, many people still get excited about that! You need to flip it and think of all the negatives! Thanks for watching mate
thanks so much i can relate to you so much in your videos its so refreshing, i was sober for 8 years and fell off the wagon 3 years ago- i cant wait to keep watching your vids, thank you!@@DiariesofanAddict
This is my life now. I am 34 every penny I've ever had in the past 12 years has been spent on it before I've got it. I've ruined my life. Live with elderly relatives. Destroyed the house. Don't talk to anyone. Can't hold a job down. Liverpool UK. This gives me hope
Hope you can get off that shit mate and get your life back!! Devil drug
Smart recovery- excellent program. Well done!
very well spoken. had similar experiences. thx for sharing & all the best m8 !
cheers bro hope your well :)
Thanks for sharing and congratulations turning your life around.
This was intense. Thank you for sharing your experience.
No problem was an intense lifestyle now finally calm ♥️
Fantastic information and insight into your own addiction and subsequent education and recovery. You sir are very eloquent and knowledgeable. Much love from a fellow Bristolian!
thank you very mate I appreciate :) hope your well :)
Bro I had to comment - 21 minutes in is the prefect explanation of a character within you that can take over from the smallest trigger - thank you for sharing it’s lit a fire in me
No worries bro 💪
All good son 💪
Great video man, I’m the exact same age as you and my story is scarily similar to yours, I’ve mostly been sober the last year with one or two slips along the way, but feel I’m almost there.
Appreciate the honestly of your story and well done on getting to where you are after all you’ve been through
great to here mate well done, if only you could just say im stopping and stop unfortunately it all takes time, determination, we all fail along the way but its about picking yourself straight back up and having another go, well done and keep going :)
@@DiariesofanAddict exactly man, I’ve had a few tough months this year and unfortunately turned to alcohol as it was my usual default. It only made things worse, but I’m in a better place now. Keep up the great content
My bad experience with class A is equally similar and unique, as every addiction story is. And the lesson I learned is that you and only you decide every step. Don’t blame the addiction, find out the reason why you need them. Go back to that kid and tell him/her that they don’t need them to get by. To anyone struggling - one day at the time, you can do it.
totally agree bro, nice to hear your thoughts hope your well now :)
This is the good advice. Real talk! Every fuck up ive done was through my own choice and astute therefore stopping won't actually make any difference to who I am!
Thanks for sharing your story. Hopefully it can be helpful to some struggling lads and a warning to others who are considering this lifestyle. Wishing you the best.
Wow... Very strong to talk about it so openly. I know that addictive personality part that takes over and you just don't have a chance anymore.... Just autopilot mode... You can be really proud to have done this.
Good luck furthermore 👍
Greetings from Germany.
thank you bro, hola Germany :) met dome great germans on my travels over the past few years :)
This has genuinely inspired me so thank you
thank you, your words have made me smile :)
Thank you so much for your share you have done soooo well to get clean and sober i know how hard it is and for me i go to CA meetings three times a week got myself a sponser who i love and trust to help me get through my 12 steps im on step 6 with him and am 95 days clean and sober. Im know getting my life back and my lifes so managable now thanks to the CA fellowship. If your watching this share he is not lieing how bad drugs have took him through hell just like it did to me. The drugs are not the problem its it us amd have to learn to stay in recovery. If ya reading this ya blessed and still alive to get the support
Thanks for your message… keep going you sound like you are in the right place :) I wish you all the best and sending you my strength ♥️
Respect. Very informative. Real stuff
Well spoken and very well explained. Thank you
cheers mate
You’ve earned a sub from a fellow Bristolian 👍🏻,Hearing your story and how you’ve overcome it is certainly wild,Iv been one of those “functional” addicts as you described it as it’s only ever been a every other weekend thing for me or iv had breaks/long stop periods between but over the course of 10 years now and have always suffered pretty bad most times with the come downs after,Whether it’s just outside or closer to the centre Bristol its a cursed place it’s been far too accepting of drugs for too long and too many people get drawn in as a result still going at it up into older age,The last couple of years have been far better than previous for me but iv occasionally “give in” in certain circumstances unfortunately even if it’s not been as manic as before…All I’d say to anyone is from my experience is get to the gym feel healthier and if you can just not put yourself in a situation your at risk of slipping up in the 1st place just avoid that situation/people entirely..Can be difficult when you know some people who arnt “bad” but you all continue down the rabbit hole together,Just remember to do what’s good for you and your health,All the best to everyone battling on 👊🏻.
great message mate, I'm with you on that!! stay strong 💪💪💪
For me, regular hard physical exercise (brazilian jiujitsu) ice baths and honesty have helped replace drug addiction.
I had a very similar story. Escaped to New Zealand, where drugs are expensive, got in to fight sports, and, specifically, Brazilian Jiu-jitsu which gives me enough dopamine hits to satiate that part of me. Ice baths help with this, too. At 45, a month ago, I found out I almost certainly have adhd and that my drug use was a way for me to regulate uncontrollably anxious thinking and dysregulated emotional response. Its been incredibly helpful to know this. I have softened to myself and my boys, who may have similar characteristics.
well done, bud. You’re not a new person - you’re the person you were always meant to be
Recently lost a friend through this. It’s awful and sad. Happy to hear that you are in recovery.
thanks :)
I've been an addict for a good few years, you either keep yourself in hell ,or pack all the drugs and send them instead. After addiction a person is able to live a better and appreciate life to a meaningful level ❤.
💯 you are right 🤝 hope your well ❤️
I started taking drugs when I was just 12. Starting with cannabis then speed, acid by the time I was 14 and then e’s at 16 this was in 92 when the e’s were really strong. I was a heroin addict by the time I was 18. I am now 47 and a cocaine addict. I managed to kick the smack into touch when my first daughter was born but I have just swapped on addiction for another. I am really struggling with life so it’s good hear recovery stories as it gives me hope. Well done mate
May I ask how heroin differs from your cocaine addiction?
I wish you the best of luck
@@samanthawho9591 good question. I’ve realised for me anyway there are many reasons for addiction but for me I see it like this. There’s the addiction to the feeling that for me came immediately. I loved the feeling of both heroin and cocaine. The second part is the physical side to addiction. Though cocaine doesn’t give you the same withdraws that heroin causes, Like shivers cold sweats, aching like you’ve never felt…it actually hurts it’s that bad, sickness, diarrhoea and this lasts for days but then there’s the psychological part to heroin, you know in your head what you need to feel normal, not hurting even been able to sleep cos that’s right out of the window when your going through withdrawal.
Cocaine however is a different beast, like I said you don’t get sick when u stop using coke it’s the psychological side that really affects you that need in your head that you need a line or a pipe or even a hit. It’s that wanting of the rush that feeling once again. Your question has made me think, the two drugs give very different feelings but if I’m honest I loved the both, I’ve always loved feeling different let’s say. So then I think about what it is about me, why do I feel the need to be like that.
Pls take it from someone who knows just stay away from both drugs, the cause nothing but misery.
Take care and thanks for reading and asking a good question.
@@samanthawho9591two different beasts, most heroin addicts will tell you you’ve never experienced true pain until you’ve gone through a rattle (withdrawal from smack). Withdrawal from coke isn’t nice but it’s definitely more manageable than smack.
Sat here now remembering that payday fear. Top man thank you for this vid.
17 years I've struggled with drink and cocaine im 35 now i cant do it no more 😢 ive tried stopping twice 7 months and 2 months please lord give me strength this time 😢😢😢it will kill me if i don't stop i know that im exhausted with. it i hate it and myself
Thank you for sharing your story. It is very brave.
no problem just to raise awareness of what may happen, especially to younger people :)
Great honest video, thanks
cheers mate ♥️
One of the best accounts of sobriety i’ve ever watched mate, found this very engaging from start to finish. I find it interesting that you’re from Bristol as well, as in recent times i’ve associated this place with drugs quite a lot. Fascinating to hear the story of someone who’s been in your previous position and has grown up there, and with the impact the city’s drug culture has on a person.
thanks mate hope your well
Great you've got such a positive message out there to so many people. Without elaborating I can relate very closely to your story. It's really frightening how wide spread cocaine use is nowadays, so many addiction and health problems in the post for the uk in the next few years. I'm grateful everyday turned my life around.
Great to hear keep going 💪
I’ve done it recreationally in the past only a handful full of times. One day I had a rough comedown and was angry that I wasted my money so I thought “fuck this” and never touched it again
Smart move
thats what i tell myself everytime....
Great video i must say explains everything in great detail i started of the exact same age now am 38 been 20 odd years of hell but going to get the help i need great to hear you came out the other side with so much good in your life well done
Everyone who has just started taking drugs needs to see this, good job my dude!
💯 💪
Very well put together. Nice one - and congrats for getting straight 👏
Cheers bro 🫶
Inspiring story mate great video
thanks for watching mate, appreciate :)
Thank you for this❤
No prob 👊
Thanks for sharing. I did e's in the early 90's and needed a bad experience of paranoid to eventually stop.
Very good choice mate 💪
Wow what a journey!! Your an inspiration ❤
I'm probably quite lucky that when I was a teenager I really loved drugs but my friends weren't that into them.
Great video man
Well done mate. Helping others is obviously your calling ,reason and purpose. God Bless.
Thank you mate appreciate your positivity ♥️♥️♥️
You're obviously a fighter. You have turned your very traumatic experience in to a tool to help others you're a person to respect. @@DiariesofanAddict
Thank you for your wonderful share. Very similar timeline as myself with cocaine. After two years sober I fell off for the better part of a year, losing everything like all the times before. I'm 35 now. It's always great hearing others with similar experiences overcoming addiction, gives us hope.
Wow amigo, thanks for your feedback! I hope you Get yourself back on track and learn from it mate :) amazing you went 2 years clean, every-time we relapse the same thing happens we go back to losing everything, don't worry you will over come it and recover :) stay strong any questions let me know :)
bless your soul thanks for the words of wisdom
ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT and congratulations Sir - very well spoken - i'm sure this video will help alot of people - PLEASE EVERYONE GIVE IT A THUMBS UP - Help get the word out , this will save some lives
Thanks bro , I hope to highlight to people what potentially could happen if you keep using like myself it could have serious impact on rest of your life and is not worth it for 1 second! Thanks for positive feeedback :)
solid video mate 👏🏻 very relatable, good on you 👊🏻
Cheers bro hope your well 👍💪
Praise the Lord for guiding you on this path, and I hope you continue to find strength and inspiration in your faith as you continue your journey. Your story is a beacon of hope for many, and I'm sure it will inspire others to make positive changes in their lives as well.
Keep up the fantastic work, and may your future be filled with even more blessings and happiness.
I appreciate your kind words thank you ♥️
It has nothing to do with "the lord" . The man did it for himself and should take full credit, if "the lord" was guiding him down a path why did he first take him down that path. Don't let religion take away someone's efforts.
Each to their own Chris