My Failures as a Software Engineer

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  • čas přidán 29. 07. 2023
  • Hi guys. These are all my failures, from academia to industry.
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Komentáře • 319

  • @huyngxyz
    @huyngxyz Před 10 měsíci +601

    Everyone who is trying to learn code should definitely watch this video. Realistic and no sugarcoating. Too many videos on CZcams nowadays show how they got a developer job within 1,2,3,4,5,6 months of coding and it's honestly affecting beginners' mindset with the expectations that they also need to get a job within that time span. Thanks for this video bigbox

    • @Mel-mu8ox
      @Mel-mu8ox Před 10 měsíci +18

      Yer, it takes a while for youtube to stop showing you the 'learn to code in 10 days' rubbish, and start showing you vids like this...
      Harsh reality isn't as favoured by the algorithm or humanity in general :/

    • @penguinxed
      @penguinxed Před 10 měsíci +7

      fr tho, those clickbaiter goofballs should delete their channels

    • @henry_9
      @henry_9 Před 10 měsíci +6

      can't agree more! i am a self taught developer and it took me over 2 years and almost 1000 applications to land my first software engineer job. all these "i learned how to code and land my software engineer job in 6 months" definitely set a unrealistic expectation. yes it is possible to just learn how code and land a job in a short period time, however in order to do that, LUCK is a huge factor and most of these videos don't mentioned it at all.

    • @picodegallo7407
      @picodegallo7407 Před 10 měsíci +6

      Not only that, but those switching their careers believe that once they master programming they will succeed which is far from the truth . One week you’re killing it on the job , the next week you’re stressed out and staying up late nights working . Even senior software engineers struggle and bang their heads when they run into a problem that’s stressful to solve . But nobody acknowledges how taxing it is mentally, they acknowledge the high salary

    • @Mel-mu8ox
      @Mel-mu8ox Před 10 měsíci +9

      ​@@picodegallo7407 I think programming requires you to change the way you think in an extreme way.
      There's so much to learn, and software evolves so fast.
      Humans were not built for this.
      Mental problems and burnout become common things you must constantly look out for.
      (not to mention the toll on your body)
      If it was easy, companies would not pay so much

  • @fullmetaltheorist
    @fullmetaltheorist Před 10 měsíci +139

    Only in software development can a man survive six months without doing anything at their job.

  • @jossani6712
    @jossani6712 Před 10 měsíci +379

    this video really came in clutch, I'm from a poor country and in a month I'm going to travel to another country to persue my degree in cs, even though I already know how to program and have built projects on my own, I'm really afraid of failing, I'm only decent at math and my father passed away a few years ago, so I know all the effort my mother put in to give me this opportunity, I can't waste it, it kinda weighs on my shoulders, I'm afraid of letting my mother down, but I don't want to be either a failure

    • @karag4487
      @karag4487 Před 10 měsíci +43

      You won't, you'll do good even if you don't it doesn't matter. Don't let this weight on you bro

    • @penguinxed
      @penguinxed Před 10 měsíci +20

      good luck on your journey bro

    • @leoxvic4701
      @leoxvic4701 Před 10 měsíci +7

      wish you the best of luck bro!

    • @Ome26
      @Ome26 Před 10 měsíci +4

      Goodluck on your journey bro be tough!

    • @waffensultan7670
      @waffensultan7670 Před 10 měsíci +4

      You're gonna get it man, keep persevering it. Don't put pressure on yourself and just do the best you can.

  • @blossm1
    @blossm1 Před 10 měsíci +133

    holy shit. Such a respect to you for getting out of that situation. I wasted 1.5 year literally also procrastinating and I've learned that I don't want to waste the next year. Now I am literally scared of procrastinating so I guess I've got something from it. Thank you for that vid, now i don't really feel like I am alone in that situation where I wasted time.

    • @syed_4138
      @syed_4138 Před 10 měsíci +7

      dude i am procrastinating too i dont want to waste the next months i hope i can just discipline myself and start writing code again..

    • @monke1172
      @monke1172 Před 10 měsíci +8

      I am 8 months in a software support internship. I might have fixed a few bugs but I have absolutely no experience writing from scratch. In my remaining time from work, I am just wasting time on ricing my wm all day. I don't even know the basics. I hate myself so much for this. At times, I feel like there is no hope left for me. I am too low IQ to concentrate or learn anything anymore.

    • @NatnaelAbebe-og8bt
      @NatnaelAbebe-og8bt Před 10 měsíci +1

      @@monke1172 dont give up

    • @usernotfound342
      @usernotfound342 Před 10 měsíci

      ​@@monke1172how did you get the internship?

    • @monke1172
      @monke1172 Před 10 měsíci +1

      @@usernotfound342 bcoz in my college others were far worse

  • @mikoal1463
    @mikoal1463 Před 10 měsíci +63

    Thank you for telling your experiences to others, so people like me, who are on their own programming journey, won't make the same mistake.

  • @sahilsagwekar
    @sahilsagwekar Před 10 měsíci +20

    I can't tell you enough how much I relate with this. It's when you see people around you getting hired whilst you still stuck in tutorial hell.
    Stop watching, just start writing! Watching is easy writing code is difficult.

  • @kshtof
    @kshtof Před 10 měsíci +17

    You're incredibly courageous to post a video like this. Mad respect, and from the bottom of my heart - thank you.

  • @jan0195
    @jan0195 Před 10 měsíci +44

    It takes a grand amount of time to understand these truths and it is many time only after you look back into the dizzying haze of tutorial hell, bad habits, not knowing what to prioritize, not realizing what programming actually is, applying non-stop to jobs and being rejected ,of your past that you come to find these realizations. Looking back what once appeared as a huge impossible to make jump gap is now something you can close with one step, leaving you appalled thinking how could you be so stupid.
    You are one the best advisers of programming I've seen, you cut through miasma of unimportant stuff and state things as how they are.

    • @xydez
      @xydez Před 10 měsíci +1

      It's not that complicated. You build stuff until you become decent at building stuff. There is nothing more to it. And if you actually give it your best shot and that's not working for you, maybe you don't enjoy programming, maybe you just like the idea of it.
      There are no "grand lessons" to learn.

    • @jan0195
      @jan0195 Před 10 měsíci +3

      @@xydez You clearly misinterpreted what I said with my comment.
      It is not that there is a grand lesson, which I didn't say there were but instead, discovering the path forward is a big realization after a journey of not knowing how to progress and trying so many times.
      It might seem simple now but it is not clear at the beginning.

  • @Zoronoa01
    @Zoronoa01 Před 10 měsíci +10

    I cried watching this video because right now I related too much to what you've said, and you really gave me hope. Big love for big box!

  • @nobelrl8235
    @nobelrl8235 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks so much for being candid. Most SE content out there is huge success stories that make me feel inadequate and stupid. Refreshing to see someone else sharing my POV.

  • @ayenewill
    @ayenewill Před 10 měsíci +1

    I love hearing tidbits about your incredible journey! Keep it up bigbox 🤘🏾

  • @firemidg3
    @firemidg3 Před 10 měsíci +4

    I can relate. The story of your journey, the story of your failures, gives power to a person who is going through the same situation. It inspires and encourages them to embrace failures, learn from them, and never give up until they make it.😊

  • @yajirushik2871
    @yajirushik2871 Před 10 měsíci +20

    3 years. I'm learning for 3 years. Yes I know some stuff, most of front-end but basics of back-end too. CSS/ HTML/ JS/ TS/ REACT/ NODE many tools etc but my failure was, not building projects, for now I have 2 sensible projects build from scratch(chat app and movie db with 3rd party API) and thinking about building portfolio with Three.js. Still applying for jobs/interns for few months and mostly rejected but... I'm still trying. Of course it's hard and depressing but it's path which I have chosen and I want to achieve it.. to get into world of developers and get my first developer job.

    • @yajirushik2871
      @yajirushik2871 Před 10 měsíci +3

      With mostly rejected I mean for 30-40% of applications they just ignore me and don't ever bother to write 'sir, fk you, you are lame'.

    • @novedus
      @novedus Před 10 měsíci +3

      @@yajirushik2871 Senior SWE here, I've been looking for a job recently and my % of applications that ignored me was around 30% as well. So don't let this discourage you, it's kind of a standard in industry. Around 15-20% of job openings are dead (position filled already or a company creates an illusion of constant hiring process).

  • @sophiaonyoutube
    @sophiaonyoutube Před 10 měsíci +3

    thank you for sharing this. we need more content like this on social media.
    nowadays, all we see are successes of other people and although that is motivating sometimes, it can make some people feel down when they experience failure, as if failure does not exist.
    thank you again for sharing!

    • @xydez
      @xydez Před 10 měsíci

      "we need more content like this on social media"
      Or maybe you just stop being glued to social media

  • @jasinAmsterdam1976
    @jasinAmsterdam1976 Před 10 měsíci +5

    I am starting a frontend bootcamp soon. I have many worries similar to what you are describing. I’ve build many things already, but the imposter in me is strong, and causes much fear and worry.
    I always wonderd how others deal with this, it is nice to see a video like this. Coding is not easy, but what is even harder is dealing with myself and the way I approach things. Managing myself is just as crucial as learning and getting a new career in tech

  • @cody_codes_youtube
    @cody_codes_youtube Před 10 měsíci +32

    Oh man. Yeah, same boat. I failed multiple CS classes in college. Cared more about bartending or friends. Took a while to come out of school and actually got my act together

    • @encapsule2220
      @encapsule2220 Před 10 měsíci +7

      i didnt even go to college. i did drugs and partied until 24 lol

    • @cody_codes_youtube
      @cody_codes_youtube Před 10 měsíci +9

      @@encapsule2220 we probably would have been friends around that time!

    • @doublesushi5990
      @doublesushi5990 Před 10 měsíci +2

      tell me more about bartending

    • @doublesushi5990
      @doublesushi5990 Před 10 měsíci

      @@encapsule2220 share with me ur drvgs and fav songs haha.. this might be interesting

    • @cody_codes_youtube
      @cody_codes_youtube Před 10 měsíci +4

      @@doublesushi5990 not much to say other than I got a job as a bartender. Worked as many shifts as I could, and staying up to 3-4am isn’t conducive to studying computer science, ha

  • @inazumarai7690
    @inazumarai7690 Před 10 měsíci +16

    i'm glad i've learnt of the horrors of tutorial hell so i don't have to suffer through it myself.
    thanks bigbox

  • @muazabdool6047
    @muazabdool6047 Před 9 měsíci +3

    Its as if you talking to me ... sums up my life in the last 5 years i am so glad i found this channel

  • @santiagorottmann6948
    @santiagorottmann6948 Před 10 měsíci +13

    This is the situation i am living at the moment. Even if i still havent graduated having my first job i realized how undeveloped my skills as a programmer are. The overwhelming feeling of not being able of doing anything remotely dificult at your job and the pressure of maybe getting fired is something that burns inside. I would of course understand if i get fired but this was certainly a reality slap that i needed since it gave me motivation to start personal projects and actually learn stuff outside of tutorial hell. Porgraming is really hard.

  • @amadoubass3406
    @amadoubass3406 Před 10 měsíci

    love the honesty, so many people, like to say programing is easy but its not and it puts a lot of people into a position where they are afraid to do anything and never move forward

  • @JOMELLO
    @JOMELLO Před 10 měsíci

    This resonated with me so much.Starting from the IGCSE / A Levels to College. Thank you for this vid.

  • @ikram1899
    @ikram1899 Před 10 měsíci

    this is such a comforting video, thank you so much for sharing

  • @noumbissistael1470
    @noumbissistael1470 Před 10 měsíci

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It's encouraging

  • @Alucard_Seven
    @Alucard_Seven Před 10 měsíci +5

    I don't even have a degree. But I'm learning how to code. Been Hell at times but I enjoy it more than playing games all day

  • @code_kage_247
    @code_kage_247 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks man, just when I needed this😊

  • @syan224
    @syan224 Před 10 měsíci +2

    Your channel is like Fireship but calmer and more peaceful

  • @rostadhiakbar4213
    @rostadhiakbar4213 Před 10 měsíci

    in the edge of deperation and anxiety, this video calm my heart. Thankyou

  • @darkotheeon5759
    @darkotheeon5759 Před 10 měsíci

    I really like your videos and insights, thanks for everything bigbox

  • @RicardodeAbreu
    @RicardodeAbreu Před 10 měsíci

    wtf this story is a great motivator for me, thanks for sharing bro, keep the good work coming.

  • @caminari1522
    @caminari1522 Před 10 měsíci +9

    To make anyone feel better I am in my mid twenties and I have master's in chemical engineering but due to me not having enough experiance and finding out that scientific research does not count as experiance I made decision to learn back-end. I started like a month ago and it's a rocky path. I am also huge procrastinator due stress and anxiety but i am slowly getting better at controling it.

  • @PLAYER-sp9ms
    @PLAYER-sp9ms Před 10 měsíci

    You just explained my whole situation. Thanks for reminding me, I needed this. Returning to this video as many times as possible. Probably should put a .bat shortcut on my desktop

  • @braydenbuhler4682
    @braydenbuhler4682 Před 10 měsíci +6

    This video basically describes what I’ve been through. I tried to get into coding in high school but never actually built anything. I failed my first CS class and then barely passed the second time through only to fail out of the next class. It took me six years to graduate and now I feel like I still don’t know how to do anything. I did enough to pass the classes, I even got good grades some years. But I never built anything on my own. And now that I’ve graduated I don’t even feel like I can apply for jobs because I know that I don’t actually have the skills that I should.
    This video really helped me. It’s good to hear that someone else has been in my situation and was able to pull themself out of it.

  • @abdullahimran999
    @abdullahimran999 Před 20 dny

    So much realism in a video, Relatable as well. But Cheers to efforts that put us on right track. Thanks for sharing.

  • @joeljacob4685
    @joeljacob4685 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks for telling this straight to the point !! I couldn't agree more with you 🙂

  • @godhandinfamous
    @godhandinfamous Před 10 měsíci +2

    this video describes about 90% of people out there in the tech, thanks for sharing your journey

  • @bladekiller2766
    @bladekiller2766 Před 10 měsíci

    OMG this is very inspirational video, I want to say I love you for making this video.
    It feels that you made this video from your heart.

  • @AdrianMark
    @AdrianMark Před 10 měsíci +2

    You are the programmer we need. I completely understand your story.

  • @iAm50Cal_
    @iAm50Cal_ Před 8 měsíci +3

    Bigbox, you're a gem to the community

  • @louis_dev6981
    @louis_dev6981 Před 10 měsíci

    New subscriber here!! Just discovered your channel recently and this one is great, man, love your take on failure as a software engineer 👨🏻‍💻

  • @sam-nc8zv
    @sam-nc8zv Před 10 měsíci

    My boy is spitting facts 💯... love your content

  • @geneticallykashmiri
    @geneticallykashmiri Před 9 měsíci +2

    I almost didn't watch this video because I thought it'd be just another one of those humble brags about "How I failed my first interview, but then got into Google."
    But this was such a genuine and honest video. You have no idea how much I relate to this, as I've wasted a lot of time in a very similar way! This really made me feel better and helped me to keep going.
    Thanks for making this video, you deserve a lot of success!!

  • @mikeyim9985
    @mikeyim9985 Před 10 měsíci

    Yo this hits. Thanks for sharing the real stuff.

  • @davien001
    @davien001 Před 10 měsíci +12

    Yeah, this is very realistic, I tried to learn to code in the university and due to lots of school work couldn't keep up, after graduating and teaching for a year I decided to try again, reversing a string took 3 days and was discouraging but I stuck with it and doubled down to learning and doing challenges everyday, safe to say I'm far better than where I started, now I'm aiming to be a blockchain developer. I try to fail as much as possible so I learn the things that actually work.

    • @pddubey22
      @pddubey22 Před 10 měsíci

      Yes, brother do ita 😊😊

  • @Nvprazor
    @Nvprazor Před 10 měsíci +1

    As someone who is currently struggling with what you just described, thank you.

  • @bagussaputra7576
    @bagussaputra7576 Před 9 měsíci

    Thank you for telling your experiences to others🙂

  • @MayurPatilishere
    @MayurPatilishere Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks for the video! This was the most realistic and raw version of the actual reality of software eng.

  • @wirrexx
    @wirrexx Před 10 měsíci

    Love the short videos!!!!!! Underbart

  • @SuicideDog
    @SuicideDog Před 10 měsíci +1

    damn dude. thank you for this video. im right there, but at the start of it. im terrible att coding, stuck in tutorial hell. trying to keep up at school, really want to start my own projects but dont have the time to do it because i fail every assigment. Everything i do is copy pasting my teachers code without understanding it. damn im 35, i was really hoping front-end was going to be my out.
    people are like "dont worry, it'll come. or quit being modest" but i think its just that people really want to believe in the idea that "you can do anything" or that its just easier if people keep their hopes up.
    maybe its ok to suck, or not landing a job. i just look so much forward to making all the projects i want to start now that i know enough to get my creativity flowing:)
    the most important lesson of this vid is that its okey to fail. it might not be easy or even work for everyone. But other things can happen.

  • @jakubnowak7091
    @jakubnowak7091 Před 10 měsíci

    it's inspiring how much you failed and yet succeded in the end, thank you for sharing!

  • @marfurion1570
    @marfurion1570 Před 10 měsíci

    Great video man love your channel

  • @Kylegmail
    @Kylegmail Před 10 měsíci

    thanks for this man.. i really need this

  • @joaodiasconde
    @joaodiasconde Před 10 měsíci +10

    And now you run one of the best SWE youtube channels. Congratz man, never stop trying!

  • @jacobswiney9977
    @jacobswiney9977 Před 10 měsíci

    Inspiring story Bro. Thanks for the upload

  • @ipizza9941
    @ipizza9941 Před 10 měsíci

    Realest video on SWEing. I love you for this BBS.

  • @tony73811
    @tony73811 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks man, I needed this video. It's the end of my summer semester, and I'm very likely going to fail my math class. Feels bad man. Good video tho

  • @nicetrybeni
    @nicetrybeni Před 10 měsíci

    Thank you for being an inspiration

  • @fnfal113
    @fnfal113 Před 10 měsíci +6

    getting out of tutorial hell was the best decision I've made 3 years ago

    • @sunset7456
      @sunset7456 Před 10 měsíci

      how

    • @SR-zi1pw
      @SR-zi1pw Před 10 měsíci

      Build projects and learn from the flow

  • @guyperson6527
    @guyperson6527 Před 10 měsíci

    needed to hear this, thanks

  • @vinamramishra7157
    @vinamramishra7157 Před 9 měsíci +1

    Thanks for sharing!

  • @Savotiskas
    @Savotiskas Před 10 měsíci +2

    I just started learning cs, so far it's hard to understand, but there was also a choice between Java and Cs, but cs seemed more attractive, so I chose it. I already learning by creating projects your videos really helped Me.

  • @HrissW
    @HrissW Před 5 měsíci

    Man why you're so relatable!

  • @Maaaurinho
    @Maaaurinho Před 10 měsíci

    Bro you have a great content, keep it up

  • @maleldil9539
    @maleldil9539 Před 10 měsíci

    So damn relatable. Gives me courage to not give up.

  • @FreddyDFutureBeats
    @FreddyDFutureBeats Před 10 měsíci +2

    Thank you for uploading a video on the actual reality and resetting the expectations of coding. I'm sometimes sick of all the survivorship bias with people getting SWE in 6 months. I got my Doctor of Physiotherapy degree and trying to transition into IT and these videos are helping me keep calm patient and motivated with realistic expectations. Great work with the videos. Keep making more!

    • @Pclub4ever
      @Pclub4ever Před 9 měsíci +1

      nice humblebrag

    • @FreddyDFutureBeats
      @FreddyDFutureBeats Před 9 měsíci +1

      @@Pclub4ever lol I wish, even with my post grad I can't even get into IT. Let this be seen by others, your past degree don't mean anything.
      I realise it's all about doing projects to show your proficiency, a piece of paper won't get you in alone.

  • @Maconhaepaz
    @Maconhaepaz Před 10 měsíci +6

    Can you imagine learning how to play soccer by watching TV and studying the team's movements? Well, it's sort of the same with coding or any type of ability, really... We're dealing with a lower level side of our brain

    • @Feezwa
      @Feezwa Před 9 měsíci +2

      @Maconhaepaz
      Your soccer example reminds me of a funny saying we told to each other from the times when I was in a choir:
      If you can't sing, become a conductor. And if you cannot conduct either, become a musical critic. ^_^"
      You cannot be a musical critic, nor a conductor if you don't have a single idea of what singing is, because that's where the heavy lifting is. Same with soccer, same with coding.
      Indeed it is as you said: we deal with our lower part and its our job to elevate ourselves.

  • @vali69
    @vali69 Před 10 měsíci

    Haha yeah, I've just come out of college this past month and I feel like extremely unprepared for the software dev job market. Since I also don't really have any complete projects so I'm working on completing some of the ones I've had during my time at uni and also work on a few full stack web apps and deploy them/self host them also. I hope to get these things done by the end of the year and then start applying for jobs.

  • @MagnusReardon
    @MagnusReardon Před 10 měsíci

    I need to thank you for getting me out of tutorial before I even start collage

  • @bonusmeme49
    @bonusmeme49 Před 10 měsíci +2

    Man are you me? I've just graduated from a CS degree and I slacked off or procrastinated most of the courses and many of my assignments were tutorials from youtube with barely any modifications and right now I am trying to make some of my own projects to find a job and actually learn some technologies and keep it there in my skills and upgrade it as needed in the future. I really regret not putting more effort regardless of my ability and difficulty of the degree to actually understand and learn outside of my degree curriculum to gain some skills needed in the workforce. I really like programming and CS in general, but I am just to frustrated with the slow progress, what should take x amount of time feels like I have to do triple to understand.

  • @manuelreyes5113
    @manuelreyes5113 Před 5 měsíci

    Oh my god, you got my respect, dude. Feel the same sometimes.

  • @kennethlorenzg
    @kennethlorenzg Před 10 měsíci

    You never miss brother.

  • @gemsof279
    @gemsof279 Před 10 měsíci

    bro you elevated me i had the same path slightly better because i didnt finish college yet.

  • @mohammedaminelm7836
    @mohammedaminelm7836 Před 10 měsíci

    Bro humbled himself. Respect!

  • @TheBcoolGuy
    @TheBcoolGuy Před 10 měsíci +1

    This gives me some self-confidence that I didn't already have. I am a competent and skilled game dev, especially in programming. I have a project that is finally drawing to a close. I didn't go to uni, and yet you were worse off. Skill beats academia every time.

  • @chasingTruth007
    @chasingTruth007 Před 10 měsíci +3

    So, how old were you when you got your first job?

  • @ballz7577
    @ballz7577 Před 10 měsíci

    Thank you for this

  • @Falconbhai999
    @Falconbhai999 Před 10 měsíci

    bro , just touched the hearts of programmers. love 3000

  • @jabirmustafasulaiman5147
    @jabirmustafasulaiman5147 Před 10 měsíci +4

    That was true watching tutorial is waste of time,
    Start building your project, start from easy to advance

  • @golmaninit
    @golmaninit Před 10 měsíci

    I'm just 15 and due to this video I won't have to waste my time in the future thank you so much ❤

  • @hackzinchavoso9656
    @hackzinchavoso9656 Před 9 měsíci

    I'm too, I'm going to try again, I left the programming a year ago, now I'm coming back, we're going to program and this time I will finish my projects and I will not stop again.

  • @edwarda5584
    @edwarda5584 Před 9 měsíci

    I'd like you to expand on how your gap year was beneficial to you becoming a competent developer. Thank you

  • @meltygear5955
    @meltygear5955 Před 10 měsíci +5

    I quit my job a few months ago because of this feeling. Not only I was dragging it out, but I was also stuck in the "fill your linkedin profile with udemy courses" phase. I barely had any projects. Even now that I went through mooc and TWO udemy Spring Boot courses I decided to give up on Java because the first interview I got was asking me high school math that I suck balls at it, so I'm dropping Java too.
    What I'm doing now? Nand2tetris and SICP. Not because they'll help me with building more projects but because I want to fight that imposter rat inside my head telling me that I'm too old and I'm not good enough. They're both fun to read/watch but it's just not what I need right now, imo. But something tells me that if I drop them the imposter rat will laugh at me. What I REALLY need right now is do backend (I like it) and build projects.

    • @meltygear5955
      @meltygear5955 Před 10 měsíci

      Fwiw I dropped both and got a Udemy course for node and react fml

  • @nopecharon
    @nopecharon Před 10 měsíci

    Your editing is similar to fireship. I really love it!!

  • @bluetorpido5929
    @bluetorpido5929 Před 3 měsíci

    God bless you man

  • @sirelee5169
    @sirelee5169 Před 10 měsíci

    Wtf this hits right in the feels

  • @D2Synua
    @D2Synua Před 9 měsíci +4

    "I graduated without building a single project" bro 😭😭😭

  • @michaelmemory6938
    @michaelmemory6938 Před 10 měsíci

    Just got a poor mid-year rating in my first software engineering job today.
    So good timing, bro.

  • @JasonTubeOffical
    @JasonTubeOffical Před 10 měsíci +5

    So what was the first project you built during that time that changed your mindset?

  • @theguypersondude
    @theguypersondude Před 10 měsíci +1

    This sounds so normal to most people in any career. Its okay to suck when you start, it's okay to get internships that pay nothing or first real jobs that pay very little. All that is experience, and as long as you can push through it for years, and years, it will eventually pay dividends for you.

  • @rafaels.5503
    @rafaels.5503 Před měsícem

    Oh man... that was painful to watch. I wonder how much you dealt with these nagging feelings. I hope you found your way out enough of it so that you can muscle through it and realize your potential more (I admit I know nothing about you as of today, so nevermind if I said something inept).
    I myself am from the field of mechatronics and automation. I didn't want to pursue engineering, either electrical or automation. I am 41 and am doing distance college for "System Analysis" (it's a course we have here for programming bricklayers). As of now I am watching the same class for the third time to figure out constructors in C++, and since its not usual for me to not understand something, I have to stop it often and find my Zen so not to panic. Because at my age, I feel like I have no time to waste, even though I am well employed as a blue collar, though I am realizing I cannot stand it 10 more years.
    It's rough. We were taught that if you are really smart, then it comes effotlessly. Is it really how it is for smart people? What if I'm not smart... can I be resilient then? I know I picked a tough language, and it's helping me a lot because when it comes to school assingments, I have already subjected myself to far greater pains than they ask me to.
    But there is no pain like my ambitions. Or my elevated standards of self exaction. Sometimes I am weary from my 70 hours week of work at a factory as an electrician/automation techie, yet I still force myself to DO SOMETHING. Anything. I may have to come back to that class another day, but at least I will jam some commands on powershell or linux. At least I will roll a loop in Python to please the college overlords. At least I will watch a video on computer archtechture and build a boolean summing circuit on a logic simulator. I have done all that and more. I will cry blood if I have to, and I have, and sometimes my heart pounds in a different way, that feels kinda hurty, and I wonder if the day is near where I will feel a pain in my arm and collapse.
    It happened today, now that I mention. So I did what I seldom do: I served myself a glass of wine. And I am watching videos like yours on youtube. To learn about other people's pains and maybe learn to respect my own.
    I know I will make it. Because I will either make it or die from it. And I wish I knew another way.

  • @_ash64
    @_ash64 Před 10 měsíci

    your videos are therapy for my coding-life. not even kidding

  • @wrongin8992
    @wrongin8992 Před 10 měsíci

    Relatable, been coding for 10 years, this happened in my early years

  • @justintang6313
    @justintang6313 Před 10 měsíci +2

    Can you make a video describing the process of how "you got good and eventually came back" like you mention in the end of your video

  • @mithunmahaadevan463
    @mithunmahaadevan463 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks for sharing ❤

  • @doublesushi5990
    @doublesushi5990 Před 10 měsíci

    great vid, greater person

  • @Sinke_100
    @Sinke_100 Před 5 měsíci

    I never been into tutorial hell fortunately, so I don't know how it's like, but now I am in hibernating mode when I didn't program for over 3 months

  • @georgesalib5661
    @georgesalib5661 Před 10 měsíci

    thanks for someone like you being here

  • @letsplaygames2867
    @letsplaygames2867 Před 10 měsíci

    Amazing video! What is thang? or however you spell it?

  • @emilyau8023
    @emilyau8023 Před 10 měsíci

    You're probably the most honest person on the internet

  • @omar.mahmoud.ahmed10
    @omar.mahmoud.ahmed10 Před 10 měsíci +1

    I also wasted a good four year of college and graduated without making a single project to this day, I really regret wasting time instead of actually studying and building projects

  • @michaelsong8978
    @michaelsong8978 Před 10 měsíci

    Really appreciate all your videos. Give me more energy to keeping learning computer science. Is there any advice to new grad student this year? Since there is no company hiring entry level, new grad roles, even if I had three internship experiences on my resume, I didn't know what to do everyday. Keep doing leetcode, network with hrs of companies, and trying to learn more about backend. But except these, is there anything else I can do to increase the probability of receiving an interview?