HEY GOOD MORNING I'M VERY HURT , I CAN'T GET OVER THE FACT THAT MY PARENT/ MOTHER DON'T LIKE/ LOVE ME, THAT'S WHAT SHE'S TELLING ME ON A DAYLY BASIS, PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS 💯🙏💪💙💨🫂, I LOVE MYSELF TODAY AND FOREVER HAVE A BLESSED DAY TEE,O.G ( NEED LOVE TO 💨🫂✌️🤪 )
im really scared of venting to someone as they could be suffering worse than me. i always think to myself that i shouldn't be depressed because, well, i'm me. no one sees me as a sad person so i guess i've been trying to live up to that expectation. i find myself denying the fact that im sad and going out of my comfort zone even though my mind is screaming at me to stop. thanks psych2go for this amazing and educational vid, stay safe everyone
I understand and its not really fair is it? Theres always that little attention seeker who always say it and get the comfort and everything. I'm a bit different from you though. OI often joke around with the situations and people never take what I say seriously cause im just like a comedy show that keeps them laughing amd they dont think any of it is real.
0:38 Destructive perfectionism 1:40 Belittling your own hardships in comparison to others 2:26 Guilt 3:06 Toxic people around you 3:43 Running from negative feelings
"I'm fine. I don't have it as bad as others" That hit me really hard. Honestly, that is probably my main reason for convincing myself it's nothing. I have been doing it for every little problem I face and I feel like that literally sums up my life. I never expected any video I watch to include that detail. It really caught me off guard
I agree. I live a comfortable life in an upper-middle-class suburb with a stable family and amazing friends in the United States, and yet, I feel miserable every day. Even typing this makes me feel so crappy and horrible for feeling such a way, when billions would kill to be where I am. As a result, I keep trying to downplay my feelings and try to accept what's around me, and it only makes things worse.
@@intreoo Could not have said it better myself. Then what happens is I start getting confused whether I should be paying attention or disregarding my thoughts, so I switch between both and have no idea what's the right way to go. I just stick to believing I'm overdramatic
I agree because I feel like absolute shit most of the time but I have to keep telling myself that some people out there are starving or smth to not have a mental breakdown haha
Everyone is always used to me feeling happy all the time and I would occasionally “joke” about oh I’m very tired today I’m dying haha when I’m not feeling ok it was going on for a couple months now
This speaks my truth. I never know how to ask help and it’s scary sometimes that I’m the only one that keep me up from being depressed. I avoid being sick, looking weak and suppress feelings. I’m scary to voice all this to my bipolar partner because they can spiral thinking that they are the cause why I’m like this
I related from start to finish, especially when it explained how we tend to suppress feelings and not knowing how depressed one is, I’m aware I need help but don’t ask for it
Right now, at 11:53 p.m., I was crying in front of my family. Because they stated I was overreacting to minor matters, I felt terrible embarrassment. When I couldn't recall what I did yesterday, I sobbed in front of them because it made me feel so miserable. My mother informed me that only mad people would respond the same way I did, and my father advised me to stop crying since it would only make the situation worse. I attempt to reassure myself that I am well and that stress is natural; yet, I feel like my family is currently criticizing me due to my mental breakdown.
First of all, your family is making a grave mistake here, idk if this is just starting for you but get help FAST, i literally have/had (the ambiguety of that is there because it is STILL happening) a situation were i asked for help to heal from depression and just got ignored or interrupted and lost the will to ask, multiple times and every time i fail the gap in the attemps are wider than the last i think the last time i tried was last year around april or something, seriously, before you get to a very dangerous place on your mind, im still here for the fact that i just chiken out at the last moment when im overwhelmed by the negativity
This really hit me. I tell myself whenever I feel depressed that I'm just overreacting and that I'll get over it. I keep a smile around everyone and I worry if I'm a burden on everyone, that I don't deserve what I've been given. I try to keep my reputation of being nice, kind and a good student so people don't wonder about me. I asked my close friends about this and even then, I still feel empty. Sorry about this, I just wanted somewhere to vent how real this felt to me.
I agree nobody knows about it and i never can bring myself to tell anyone about it.I always smile in front of others.They think im always happy and everything.Whenever i cry in front of my parents they say shut up or i will ground u once i told my best friend and she said So what? it really broke my heart when my best friend my only best friend wrote me as her eniemy in her diary when i was playing truth or dare with my friendhe asked me why are u still best friends with her when she talks behind her back.But i still hope maybe one day things will be better.Always belive in yourself!
No... there's no need to be sorry you just descibed my whole personality right there. Just put a smile on and no one will know what's really going on with you.
I used to relate to so many of these points but when I stopped hiding from my feelings and got help I grew so much. I hope the people who still relate to this can heal too. Thanks for bringing awareness to this Psych2go 💜
I've seen a lot of signs and I feel I have a huge amount of anxiety depression, I've spoken to my school counselor a little about it and she's helped, but it's still hard to get more help.
@@oreomaster5873 well I will die soon I can't tell my parents that I need help I just pretend to be fine but my smile is a mask but I will comment suicide soon so please put me out of my pain
This really makes me think about myself. I am always keeping up an appearance that I'm fine, because I don't want the people around me to think that I'm faking it for attention, or to start looking at me in a different way and stop telling me things about themselves, or worse, me that are upsetting them. I have been dealing with this stuff for a while, but I have been having it much better due to these videos. It feels better knowing somebody out there cares.
Hi, likely psychopath here. You're not being forced to put on a mask. We are. We have no other choice. So just know you're not the only one hiding their true self.
I can say from my own experience that people who have seemingly "perfect" and "easy" lives, won't always feel that way. Everyone should understand that depression hurts, no matter how great their lifestyle is ; Take the people who confess their hurt and sadness seriously, it takes a lot of courage. Stay strong ❤
Yeah I say I’m fine when I’m not and I have never known how to cope I honestly thought this is how everyone feels because my life is terrible I haven’t been truly happy since I was three when I turned four parents divorced two months later my dog dies I get constantly bullied at school now I know this it’s still not good for me but in exchange for my mental health I prefer to make others better and if you see this or anyone don’t do what I did and act like your fine I’m not I cry myself to sleep almost every night but I hope letting people know why they shouldn’t act fine when they aren’t is something you shouldn’t be afraid of don’t do what I did I hope everyone who sees this gets better ❤
This. Especially on social media. I remember when a friend who i hadnt spoken to in a while reached out to me saying that he was depressed rn but seeing how well i do cheers him up. ...I have been starving myself for days, unable to get up from bed and drowning in a scary fantasy world to escape. I just thought... Huh. Glad you think so. Glad it helps you.
About "Guilt". Recently, a person I really care about has distanced itself because of the many carelessness I had with myself. Comparing myself a lot to others, not caring about eating well, being too slow to socialize with other people, and many many other things. I noticed that a lot of things on my life have been based around of "it wasn't enough, you are not doing enough", and honestly, having this feeling hurts a lot. And now here I am, telling some stuff happening in my life to random people on the internet.
@@gjeshurunnesakumaran9394 Heya and thanks for the comment. It has been a year since I commented this, and I can say that I'm better now. Not a lot for sure but the bad thoughts have been gone for a good while now. I still have a lot to overcome but I know that I made a good step towards having a healthier mental health. To all the folks out there, keep trying to be better even if it is a small step. Every step counts and eventually the good things will start to occupy more and more of your everyday life, little by little. Love y'all, and stay safe.
i hate asking others for help for several reasons, one of them being the fact that i dont act depressed and normally im making jokes and stuff so im scared they wont believe me, the other reason being im just too scared to ask for help because i dont see anyone else asking for help so i dont wanna be judged for the the only known depressed one here and i also just feel like i cant be depressed, my life isnt even that bad sure i get bullied and everyone ive trusted turned out to be a liar but thats it i have a caring family, a roof over my head what do i really have to be depressed about?
And also you being called as an "emo" kid. I am an emotionally repressed person so I bottled all my emotions up since I can't rely on anyone including my own family. Last week, even for just a moment of me sharing my experience, it is a miracle that I ever tear up. And bro, as I lived with "optimism(basically means I bottle all my emotions)" it is very bad experience. Its either things are not so low so I can't get sadness or I can't take it anymore and I can't control myself feeling so numb and empty as im crying. Wish we all would've found someone to talk to
I honestly relate to this. I have this fear of being judged which leads to me not opening up to anyone. My mom always tells me that there's nothing to be depressed about and that i don't really have any problems in life. If i try to tell her how I feel she just tells me that I'm being ungrateful and not appreciating the things I have. I honestly don't know what to do anymore or who to talk to. 😔🔫
@@BTS-fi9go I think it's an automatic answers. They have this in most of their videos, but for this topic it is a bit insensitve. They shouldn't put auto reply on topic like this.
@@minhmeo5010 i dont think its auto. Its both not sensitive, and not appearing at every comment. I think psych2go might just not know what to comment. Sometimes it can be tough knowing what to say
I've been through all of these. Yet, I just realized about it. But now, I guess I've recovered from it.But I still do experience these every once in a while. It's comforting to know that there are people out there that understands these things too. God bless you all❤️
"You might have convinced yourself that you are not depresed by constantly telling yourself that others have it worse than you in life and because you're better off you can't or shouldn't be depresed." 1:49 literally me!
I worry about everything, try to keep my personality cheerful and happy and at the end of the day I'm worn Out. I always put everything into my hands and if something goes wrong I'll blame it on myself. Even if you do have the same symptoms, it doesn't mean you have depression. It's like taking a gamble. Well here I am sharing my life with random people on the internet, a coping strategy I do is I try think of other people more than myself. You can fal into the trap of caring for everyone except yourself.
"1:40 Belittling your hardships in comparison to others" Why this is relate to me, sometime i think the worst day of my life. And i said "why i feeling bad, there is still Soo many people out there having worse trouble than me, you weak, just be strong like other, tomorrow still have something to do, don't make ur task be bothered with this useless feeling" thats my mindset. I know its bad, i don't have someone to lean on.
I’m really trying to keep up this impression that “I’m fine!” All my life My parents have brushed aside my feelings. If I’m upset or in a bad mood then I’m “just hungry” or “just tired” I hate it. I want people in my life to see that I’m struggling but I can’t vent to people because I don’t trust people anymore. I can’t vent because I feel like they probably have if so much worse than me and like my “best friend” used to say; “you just want attention stop pretending to be hurt lol!” I was 6 and I got sexually abused by my “best friend” I can’t emotionally connect with people because my worries surround me and I don’t know how to hide them. My grades have been dropping in school and it’s getting really hard. My parents got divorced this year and I used to be this perfect girl who would always have good grades and have a “perfect life” now school is so stressful and I keep beating myself up. I can’t help but check my weight 3 or 4 times a day and comparing myself to others. I’m sorry… I’m just so tired. I just want to have someone who actually loves me and isn’t using me for my body. I just want somebody to love me again. I just want to be okay.
You have no business being so relatable.you experienced so much all at the same time. I'm probably another stranger on the internet but i want to send you a virtual hug because you deserve it and nothing less💌
As someone used to do number 2 all the time I'd like to reinforce to everyone that other people's struggle, even if it seems 'harder', doesn't nullify YOUR struggle. You should be proud of what you've been through, always.
*_I feel guilty for running from who I really am._* *_Some say our negative feelings is a part of what makes us... ourselves. I've been told many times, and perhaps others felt this, that being depressed, sad, or even unwell (Emotionally, Mentally, Physically, or Socially), is prohibited in society. We used to look in the mirror and treat ourselves as a friend we swear to never leave nor abandon. We used to play with only ourselves when we have no one else. But when people come in to say that we can't "create imaginary friends" (Don't worry, once you are accepting of who you are, they need not to have to direct you, BUT you can use them to inspire your work), this only enrages me._* *_I was told to rid of everything bad and remain good, and for what? How can I live happily when I fail to acknowledge my flaws and learn how to embrace them without excessive fear? What is an artwork that holds no shades of black or white? We grow tired of being happy at some point, and we must bide our time to taking care of ourselves in all aspects, not just by looks. I wish I could distance myself from those that only worsen my condition. No one can truly be trusted, not even personal circles. Once you tell the truth, you can only be met with shame or disregard. And now I'm here, trying to overcome my strange rumination because of the accumulated pressure from everyone and everything._* *_Although I don't really have to stand out, I only want to be like other artists. And I know the artists carry the same pain as they grow._* *_So please, stop scarring yourself like I did. I'm only doing it to ward off everyone that tells me otherwise. I can only pray and wish for liberation for the gifted and the talented people out there... including mine._*
I should die I want to kill myself I am a mess I can't get better I have been depressed for two years and it's not getting better and I have been have thoughts of suicide for 5 months so yeah been in a lot of pain
0:00 intro 0:38 1、Destructive perfectionism 1:38 2、Belittling your own hardships in comparison to others 2:26 3、Guilt 3:04 4、Toxic people around you 3:42 5、Running from negative feelings 4:29 outro
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here
Psychedelics are the reason why i didn’t take my life when i was at my end. I was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity and even though i still battle anxiety and depression, I’m doing better everyday and will never think in such a self destructive way again.
LSD and mushrooms completely changed my whole outlook on life. I became a better version of myself This experience gave me a lot of confidence about my self and my body. A bunch of bad thought / behavior patterns were broken. One of these was pretty bad OCD that made me wash my hands a lot. It gave me a lot of hope that things will be fine, this is the one thing that I heard throughout the trip: Everything is alright. The main reason for the trip was my severe depression and it definitely helped me (although it's not gone). Before all I could do was lay in bed. Now I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time which wasn't possible before."
Last year, I took shrooms at Las Vegas thinking it was going to hit like an edible or something. Shit was scary at first but amazing once you start getting deeper into your thoughts
TW: mentions of abuse my parents make my depression so much worse and i dont know how to get away from it i live with them and i have nowhere else to go and im still young so i cant move out, it just feels like im overreacting and that im trying to give myself problems but being around them is so exhausting and hard to deal with, i feel like im being abused but i also feel like im just being dramatic and i really dont know what to do, my parents have times when they aren’t horrible so maybe im just looking too much into it but i still cant shake the feeling like i cant do it anymore, being around them just makes me realise more and more that i hate having to interact with them and that sometimes i’m even scared of doing anything wrong ever even a tiny mistake because im scared of how they would react, im honestly scared of them and its hard being around them and having to see and talk to them all hours of the day and theres nothing i can do about it. im so stuck someone please help
Hey! Sorry to hear that :(. I have a pretty similar situation, my suggestion would be trying to talk to them about the way you feel (I know it can be hard because of their possible response) but asking for a therapist may let them see that you are struggling and you want to improve your situation. I hope this helps!
@@sofiar4500 thank you :) ive tried those things before though and i’ve had many therapists but everytime i talk about my parents the therapists tell my parents and then they get mad at me :(
@@valamelonn omg that's horrible ;(( a therapist should keep your privacy ALWAYS unless you are going to hurt somebody or yourself. Try finding a specialist who will actually make you feel safe. If that's not possible, try to fill time with hobbies that relax you, as you get older you will be able to set boundaries
I had my perfectionism literally since i can think, only to be good enough for school, work etc. Now i am worried about myself and my existence. Thanks anyway for making daily content about mental health and making it more accessable for others.
Out of the many videos I've seen on your channel, this is one of the few which I can completely relate to. I relate to every one of these points: I envy others, sometimes to the point that I forget myself. I'm in a college program where contingency and high grades are praised, so the toxic environment is present and my destructive perfectionism is just as toxic. It's very easy for me to think that I'm inadequate compared to the high class. We have very different lives, but go to the same classes, so when they're better, therefore praised by the class, I think I'm pathetic inside because I didn't study enough or I'm not good enough to receive any form of appreciation by the others. But why should I complain? I have it so much easier than in other parts of the world. So I smile through the pain, giving a perception that others might accept more easily (even if it doesn't work), all because I want to escape any form of weakness and because I want to avoid being belittled by the system. Despite all of this though, this channel helps identify these problems with videos like these, so thanks a-lot psych2go, you help many (including me) with your profound and valuable knowledge in the art of psychology.
Thank you Pysch2Go for this video. It really does hit most people hard. Lucky for me, in high school, I had that 1 teacher who I could trust to vent to even though he had his own problems. He even let me take time off his class if I wasn't feeling or my depression had hit hard. And I am forever thankful and greatful for that teacher for noticing the signs. The biggest thing was talking about it, to you who you can trust 100%. My girlfriend was the same, however she vents to me and I put everything else down and give her my full undivived attention until she feels better about it. And again. I am super greatful to that teacher for also helping me learn some techniques I can use to help people better who suffer from mental health.
@@Psych2go pretty much all of them. It also gave me the techniques to help others. I once saved 2 people who were about to jump on the freeway to end their lives. Just by talking to them and listening to their story. Cops gave me an award because I saved them. This was back in 2018 when I started to watch your videos.
I relate to all of them... and it has been like this for the past year... My classmates have been extremely toxic to me and having no friends for the past year have been taking a toll on me... I always try to hide my anxiety and my sadness, but people always belittle them... It doesn't help that whenever I hurt others unintentionally I say sorry many many times but when they hurt me they act as if nothing happened... All these really hurt me on the inside and I'm not sure how long I can continue this hidden double life...
I have an online friend like that. But I fucked up big time and they have blocked me. It is better for them tbh, but it sucks nonetheless. Hope you get better fellow stranger.
I relate to all these signs of depression, but I wanted to ask for help and I find it very difficult to do so. I will try to suppress my feelings while I am at school, doing animations and I feel like I am going nuts or my mind is being torn to pieces. Thank you Psych2go for helping another animator to handle depression in a better and healthy way.
This video honestly managed to break me from the sheer amount of fact I can empathize with. It really opened my eyes to my feelings & all those little signs I had since childhood. Running from negative emotions really seems to be my specialty- Thank you for posting content that allows me to understand my true myself better
@@lukecohen9833 I know this feeling well Luke! But it is sad to hear that u are hiding true feelings under a smiling mask. I hope that one day you will gradually manage to gather some strength & take some of those feelings outside to relieve yourself ❤️ wish u all the best in future! good luck
This reminds me of myself quite a lot, though no matter how much I try it doesn't help with how I feel and I know it doesn't. I have tried to get help but nothing has happened about it, I was told " no you're okay, there is nothing wrong with you" as my therapist says. Honestly now a days I feel I am faking it which never changes how I feel and it sucks. I hope everyone who needs help never feels scared to go and ask for it even though situations like mine can happen, it is best to give it a go. I hope everyone is well :)
@Itz Rowan I'm so sorry you haven't got the help and support you needed, I hope that you find a better therapist in the future that doesn't dismiss your feelings and emotions
@@ShinjiInui91 I'm sorry the same treatment came your way too, it isn't fair in anyone to have such an experience. Perhaps one day we both may find a good therapist, I dearly hope so at least. I wish you a great day/night :)
I was afraid I was watching this video only because I was seeking attention but after watching it through I’ve come to realize every single sign is relatable
This is true for me because I kept feeling like this everyday (I don't wanna tell this to my parents because I might get offended or they might say I'm like a kid) Even though I'm depressed I'm still happy :I
I think something that makes depression worse is the fact that i constantly put myself down for feeling depressed which obviously doesn’t help. Your videos are a big help in understanding myself, thank you.
@@Psych2go I related to 2, 3, and 4, but I still got sad at the other facts because my mind decided to make imaginations of other people suffering... My imagination is too powerful that I'd just get depressed, which is why sometimes I'm more into Romcom than something like One Piece (Wano), etc. Since it's more happy happy.
When I was first diagnosed with severe depression someone in my life asked me if I was "putting on a show" by making it seem like I was alright. I'm still not exactly sure what she meant fully.
they meant if you were masking your true feelings under a fake smile 😅 (I hope this doesn’t sound insensitive but I also do this a lot whenever i’m in a social situation so that people don’t see what is going on inside me..)
Man all these signs are so accurate, my life has been hard a lot, while I just keep trying on Keep smiling and staying positive all them even tried to study hard for my family. I didn't rlly want them to see me as "Stupid" that's why I'm trying my best to study hard. And when I feel depressed I just play game or watch funny videos to get rid or avoid the feeling
I have moderate depression, and this is really true. Usually my teacher relies on my friends to help me when I have mental problems, and I feel sorry for them because sometime we will have arguments and problem when I have to also deal with them, they aren’t toxic though, and I feel grateful to have them as friends. I just had a school trip lately and one of my friends is starting to feel that I may be something else to her, I send her an apology for my attitude, I hope she would give me a second chance.
i have friends! i don't have financial issues! i don't need to get a job! i am provided for! i am smart! i don't have trauma, i think. my friends who are happy have been through much worse. i've really had a great life. *i should be happy.*
I remember the day one of my friends found an excuse to bring me outside in order to inform me my gf cheated on me. When I got home I just ignored her and her two friends and tried to keep a cool composure for half a hour but I was broken inside and my heart was beating so fast and painfully in my chest. I was tryna look at my screen on the pc as usual but painful thoughts were just all over my head and she was acting cute and got on my legs but this time I couldn't look at her neither hug her for real this time. At last I told her she was going nowhere and told her friends to go because I was gonna give her a "talk" she ain't dodging this time. The same night I got ridda she was here no more. Now I feel better than ever, I found a well paid job, got time to work on my ytb videos for my best friends and I'm keeping myself from toxic people. Never let borderline people into your lives.
I’m always feeling sad and I try to bottle it up smiling. Telling myself people have it worse like my friend who lives in an apartment with his dad in jail, brothers on drugs, and mom working so hard. I sometimes put myself in these scenarios where I have it bad, but I don’t know why. sometimes at night I will say a random memory in my head and start crying so hard I lose my breath. At school I would try to smile but still end up crying, like that one time I took a test in math, getting a lower grade on the test then last time, saying over and over that I’m stupid and I am a failure. I also start tearing up when I see that I have a C or lower in school because my parents get mad take my stuff away and ask why they have to keep telling me to fix my grade when I say I have “everything under control”. And I think I’m torturing myself, hoping and praying me and my crush will get together even though he has a girlfriend, I might be obsessed but I just love him and don’t know how to let him go because he’s so nice, kind, generous, handsome, and I would mourn for a long time after deciding to let him go. I don’t know why my life is just so difficult in these years though I’m so young. I don’t want to talk with my parents, but I don’t want a therapist. I don’t know what to do about this, what should I do?
As a person who hits 4/5 of these signs This YT channel actual relates to my problems and can be helpful and helpful to give me mental health tips to make depression better for me.
That's what I'm doing all the time I feel the same pain over and over again And the happy face is just for show there are 10 Memories that are replaying over and over and over for 5 years and nobody knows how I'm actually feeling 😢😢😢🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤💔💔
Believe i have depression. Usually feel guilty because of the whole i take care of others bit and having to deal with my depression alone for a long long time. Even with having people that understand mental health and a bf that wants me to talk to him when i am depressed, still struggle. Mostly from being in a household that is a bit dismissive of mental health and used to mock the anxiety/depression commercials, even if just side effects of medicine. To even hear that someone should just get over it…that…that’s really painful and cold. I’ve had to hide my emotions/depression. Even I’ve gone into the some people have it worse than me bit. It doesn’t make me feel better though. I’ve rebuilt myself from the ground up alone and even with that, I still crack from time to time
When my grandpa had passed away, I went through a hard time and felt incredibly down and unmotivated, always feeling sad and never wanting to do anything, and I don’t think it’s ever left. I still feel unmotivated sometimes and it’s really tough for me to try and snap out of it. I’ve never really tried to do anything about it or speak out.
Seeing that there are people out there who are dismissing their own hurt and pain almost brought me to tears. I'm sorry for whatever you're going through, and I'm proud of you for making it this far, I'd give you a hug, but I can't, so this flimsy, digital one will do ❤️
0:04 I am but Ik bc I’m forced i’ve always been the one that’s happy,the one who makes friend with everyone smiles threw everything even if I’m bullied I’m bullied every day by 2 people but because of how my parents treat me I am scared to tell them😔🤕😢😭
@@leticialorraine2167 I know I don't know about your situation, but Hurting yourself to please others is counter productive. Hope what you're going through gets better 🙏🙏
I don't even smile My face turned into a permanent frown I'm rarely smiling either fake or genuine and most of time I force a smile while I cry myself to sleep knowing I won't make it past 20 I just turned 18 two weeks ago Home isn't even home...I stay in my messy room most of the time so I don't get hurt but then I'm forced to get hurt to protect someone else I need help...but I can't get and family won't allow me to
This video filled my eyes with tears because every single point that has been stated above was tooo accurate. I don't think I really have someone I can vent out to, so I've been bottling up my emotions just to realise that it would never help it. I need someone to talk to, someone who can advise me and listen to me. I'm tired of being the therapist friend some I too need someone who can listen to me. Now I cannot blame my friends since I'm the one who just cannot share much. But this video hit me hard in the chest and I felt something hard in my throat, not to mention my vision got blurry because of the tears. Well anyways thanks for the video 🫶
The saddest part is that you dont know that y9u are depressed or you are overthinking you really cant tell it i felt like that this this video realy helped me thank you and keep doing what you are doing you helped all us of more than you think and everone out there who are depressed its ok we all feel them its better if we let them out or try to heal instead of trying to ignore it you will feel much better
My problem is that over time when I'm with friends I forget that I don't necessarily feel good as if all my problems and my feelings disappear in my own eyes then when I have time to think to me for just 2 seconds everything comes back to me all at once It's really an oversight I put aside and when I'm asked if "are you okay?" I answer what seems more logical to me than "Yes" because at the time I don't realize that in reality I don't really feel well 😕
My teenager friend Catie has been showing signs of depression, but she was diagnosed with epilepsy, as she does suffer from epilepsy, but she could be having another problem, which could be depression, because of what happened to her in brick and mortar schools, and in foster care, she was bullied and abused in in-person schools, and foster care, and she is still an epileptic person, but she could have depression, and she is afraid to tell anyone because they might not believe her, and they might tell her that she is just faking it. She is still sad, but she acts like she is not depressed, but she knows things are going down, and I've seen her self-harm attacks, as I had seen knife caused scars on each of her arms and legs. She can't have a safe space to process anything, because of her toxic older brother, no matter how many times she tries to tell him, he won't listen and he always says "DEPRESSION IS A MADE UP THING! IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD! BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!" and so on, so Catie doesn't have a door to her room, because of her brother kicking down her door, and she wanted to kill herself, but at the same time, she wants to kill him, but she doesn't want to be thrown into jail, and lose all hope for her dreams to become real. Her dreams are to become a famous video game designer. She is afraid that she might not make it, too, and she slowly loses motivation, and she rarely does her chores. Her bedroom is a mess, but her bed is near her doorway, and she always has a fear that her brother would come in with a woodcutting saw, and saw her head off, but she remembers the day that her brother threw a metal cup at her head, and gave her a scar on her eyebrow. The injury in her eyebrow is now a scar, but on that day when the metal cup yeeted at her face, it wasn't a scar, it was a bloody mess, but luckily, it was taken care of. Catie wants to throw a metal cup and maybe even a glass jar at her brother, and scream "HOW DOES IT FEEL NOW, PUNK?!?!?!? I WILL MAKE YOU SUFFER EVERY PAIN YOU CAUSED ME TO SUFFER, AND I WILL MAKE YOU FEEL THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH IN FOSTERCARE, AND BRICK AND MORTAR SCHOOLS!!!!!!" At him. She is in a cyber school, and she always says "hellos! How is everybody doin'? I am great as always!" In the chat during her live lesson classes, basically, zoom meetings that her school has. She has been fighting depression, secretly, and she knows part of it, and she always tries to be perfect, and such, but she doesn't feel like it wax enough, and she thought drowning herself in the bathtub once, but an inner voice that sounded like Scatman Crothers said "don't kill yourself, you're needed, and you could be a hero, in any way. You could act like a mom, to a 5 year old kid, who went to the park on his/her own, and is being stalked by a creep eho preys upon kids, because you look like an adult, instead of a 17 year old teenager. You can use your appearance as an advantage to deter pedos and such, but sometimes an advantage like that, can come with a disadvantage, such as if you are trying to get a boyfriend who is around your age, the parents of a teenaged boy would say "she's a pedo. Don't talk to her." Until you showed them evidence that you were a teenaged minor girl, and adult men who would target adult women to rape, would go after you too." then Catie stopped herself from committing suicide, and so she hasn't tried again at all, and she has been thinking of the possibilities that she has. Also, she wants to try to find a way to get more things to fix herself up with, but she can't afford them, and she has mugwort tincture as her medicine for her epilepsy, because of the bad side effects of the medication that doctors prescribe, and her parents fought to get her off the medicine tthatthe doctors prescribed to her, and now, she has mugwort and mugwort tincture as her medicines, for her epilepsy. Catie also wishes she was better at speaking and sometimes, she wishes that she was not an epileptic person, and sometimes, she wishes that she could find a boyfriend for herself, but she can't and such, and she rarely goes outside, and she is occasionally paranoid, scared, and anxious. Catie does compare herself to others, and her mental conclusion is she is inferior compared to others.
I'd just like to take the time to say thank you to Psych2go for making all these amazing videos, they help so many people to understand their feelings better. I tend to keep things to myself because the one time I did open up, it got dismissed and I was told its just my anxiety - I have anxiety so I know what that feels like but this is different - but when I was told it's not depression and just anxiety, I lost all faith that people care about me.
Living with my toxic parents made me kinda perfectionist I realised it 2 years ago when corona virus was spreading I wasn’t doing really well in school and they were super harsh on me , we had those online classes and stuff to study through and that’s when I knew a couple of new friends, also I had a new life on social media which is of course entirely different from real life, and that’s where I knew my crush , when I felt so lonely and used to hurt my body and stuff he was always there comforting me and actually he is the reason why I’m alive today, I loved him and I still love him because he was my one and only and he was my home I don’t know if he felt the same way I did because I didn’t have the courage to tell him about my feelings even when I do it comes out in a friendly way that he won’t understand, I used to talk to him every day and my online school friends know I have a crush on him until one day he sent me a message saying that he will delete his account cause of his anxiety saying that he will never forget me and had a special time with me , by the time I read his message he had already deleted it, it was a shock for me and it always make me wonder if it’s my fault and if I made him feel uncomfortable and I always feel guilty about it, then I found an old chat of my online friends saying horrible things about me for just falling in love with him, since then I never made any new or any friends in school cause I had trust issues and it’s really painful when my only friends were toxic and were just scumbags, this was 1 year ago and since then I just feel numb and I guess I have depression and I just can’t open up to someone cause they don’t understand. Jeez this is the first time I talk about this + sorry for making it too long.
I think the one thing keeping me from thinking I have depression is the fact that I’m not sad constantly, or even often. It’s only when I get into major episodes that cause me to think I have depression, and that I’ve put up such a good facade that I’ve convinced myself that I’m alright.
This was me one year ago... Now I realized to have depression, I said it to one of my "friends" but she did LITERALLY NOTHING. Neither try to let me feel better... So I can't confess it to anyone else. I'M TIRED 😭😭😭
Sometimes, I always label myself as a sad clown. I use my silliness, goofiness and smile to hide my pain, sadness, guilt, insecurity and anger. Been wearing the happy mask for a very long time.
I don't care if someone sees this but I want to write it down. These last few weeks have been fucking tough, and im really feeling it weigh on me, I really feel like I cant do it any more, I feel like crying but that's not something im capable of, I feel like doing something stupid but I know i won't, I know I need to speak so someone but that's not something im capable of, but hearing these video's help more than I can express, it keeps my head up and my feet in the right direction just enough to keep going.
I had went to my counsler on the last few days of school since she was the only one i could really trust. She helped me make a list of things i liked and who i was in a positive way and signed it for me. Its permanently on my wall now
Yeah I got a lovely mixture of guilty and running away kind of depression with belittling my hardships sprinkled on top. I like to think I'm getting better with help with my psych but it's kinda like a bad habit, where I find myself sometimes slipping in and out of that habit why of thinking. 😅
you are allowed to express your emotion, you shouldn't be afraid to Express your feelings just because others may fail to understand you, stay strong💞💕
I've been been dealing/feeling depression for years on end up to the point now to where I haven't felt happiness and can no longer really feel any feelings associated with happiness. Because of various mental illnesses that I have, my family usually goes to those problems first and brings it up my doctors, which I definitely don't appreciate. So I do my best to be outwardly happy when inside I'm completely miserable. Whenever someone asks me about my feelings or whether or not I'm happy or suicidal especially when dealing with mental health, health, I've learned that best way for me is to lie to them and tell them what they want to hear. Because as bad as my depression might seem it definitely won't get any better staying in a psych ward.
What do you do if you are scared to get help? I know that i have a depression since i took a lot of tests and i can realate to all of your depression videos but Im too scared that Im gonna cause that other people gets worried and sad that i don’t want to get help. My Mom tells me all the time that i can talk to her if Im sad/ stresset but Im scared and anxious about the questions people ask me too since i don’t know why Im depressed, do you know What to do?
Im definitely smiling through the pain right now. Having a lot of expectations put onto me, and when i don't reach what others expect me to reach, I shut down. Especially being in Korea, the culture being of not causing trouble towards others, supressing emotions became natural. I try to talk about it to people around me, but they always say i should just keep it in. And i'm sick and tired of it.
my family always said to me that i'm too young to be depressed and i'm faking, and i'm nervous to tell anyone about it but, i don't have anyone on my side.
Here's the thing, nothing in this video surprised me. I know I'm "smiling through the pain" but I can't stop. I don't the time nor money to the help I need. I honestly don't know how long I can keep feeling this way. Not to say I have plans/desires to harm myself or anyone else but because I really don't know. I know I can't literally explode but that's the road I feel like I'm on. So I tell myself that other people have it worse and that if I still feel depressed, it's because I'm ungrateful or need to grow up and keep pushing because it's all I can do.
I'm talking with a therapist assigned by my school. He doesn't think that I am depressed, but he doesn't want to be so sure yet. I don't know if I am depressed, based on what I told him he thinks that if I am depressed then it has been so long that it just feels normal to me now. And I believe he is right, I remember feeling this way when I was 9 but I didn't know what it was. I was prone to self harm from that age but I never wanted others to think something was wrong so I hid it and pretended that nothing was wrong. Not like they noticed anyways, everyone was always too busy to notice.
I think i relate to destructive perfectionism. Because of my unrealistic standards, i try to make everything flawless. Even i feel so exhausted i always act im energetic. Whenever i feel numb inside i forcefully smile to others and say'em im so grateful. Sometimes pain covers my whole soul and body and still i try to hide it. People found me too optimistic and calm. But i just dont want them to feel the same way as i feel.
I recently went to a wellness check up and I’ve known that I may have been depressed and filled with anxiety but I brushed it aside with these EXACT thoughts but when the doctor informed my mom she gave us a few places to get help and I’m headed the right way, but I still feel this way every day.
I just find the people around fighting through stuff worse than me.. so i feel like my promblems are just not enough for me to say anything about it. So the second one really really speaks to me..
Story of my life. I work in retail, and I have to put on a “smile” in front of customers. My smile conceals within it a lot of emotional pain and holds back a myriad of tears. Plus, I mask my depression in the presence of my family and friends. It’s not easy.
Man 24 here. I used to be quite shy and introverted as a kid due to being bullied and low self-esteem. At one point, I was diagnosed with BDD but someohow I got over it. Nowadays, I quit my job due to the toxicity in there. I went to study abroad but despite getting the highest mark of my class still, my confidence didn't improve. When I came back I seeked a job at what I studied but to no avail. Now I feel sad and I start crying out of the blue. I dwell on the past. I think that all these people who bullied me were right after all. I feel sad when I see other people having fun. I feel intimidated around other people especially beautiful women. It may be only in my mind but still why can't I do anything?
This really helped me understand my emotions, I've always listened to other people's emotions and i made them talk about it with me about it because i like to give other people advice and when i feel like this i think that I'm a coward and i don't dare to tell anyone about it... And i always wonder why i feel like this
I'm getting so identified with this situation. I have to simulate that I'm happy, when in reality I'm 😔 and feel useless and excluded from the society.
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im really scared of venting to someone as they could be suffering worse than me. i always think to myself that i shouldn't be depressed because, well, i'm me. no one sees me as a sad person so i guess i've been trying to live up to that expectation. i find myself denying the fact that im sad and going out of my comfort zone even though my mind is screaming at me to stop. thanks psych2go for this amazing and educational vid, stay safe everyone
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Mhm, ever since I moved to Australia I've missed my home country and everyone I knew in it.
STAY HEALTHY ..... STAY ALIVE ... FIND HAPPINESS.....
FIND HELP
I can relate I always feel guilty when I feel bad because I see myself as selfish for thinking of myself
I understand and its not really fair is it? Theres always that little attention seeker who always say it and get the comfort and everything. I'm a bit different from you though. OI often joke around with the situations and people never take what I say seriously cause im just like a comedy show that keeps them laughing amd they dont think any of it is real.
0:38 Destructive perfectionism
1:40 Belittling your own hardships in comparison to others
2:26 Guilt
3:06 Toxic people around you
3:43 Running from negative feelings
Toxic has hit me
Thank you!
why do I have all these traits?....
@@oxkia648 read the title
Damn that fucking hits home
"I'm fine. I don't have it as bad as others"
That hit me really hard. Honestly, that is probably my main reason for convincing myself it's nothing. I have been doing it for every little problem I face and I feel like that literally sums up my life. I never expected any video I watch to include that detail. It really caught me off guard
I agree. I live a comfortable life in an upper-middle-class suburb with a stable family and amazing friends in the United States, and yet, I feel miserable every day. Even typing this makes me feel so crappy and horrible for feeling such a way, when billions would kill to be where I am. As a result, I keep trying to downplay my feelings and try to accept what's around me, and it only makes things worse.
@@intreoo Could not have said it better myself. Then what happens is I start getting confused whether I should be paying attention or disregarding my thoughts, so I switch between both and have no idea what's the right way to go. I just stick to believing I'm overdramatic
my mom always tells me that whenever I have a health anxiety attack
I agree because I feel like absolute shit most of the time but I have to keep telling myself that some people out there are starving or smth to not have a mental breakdown haha
Everyone is always used to me feeling happy all the time and I would occasionally “joke” about oh I’m very tired today I’m dying haha when I’m not feeling ok it was going on for a couple months now
This speaks my truth. I never know how to ask help and it’s scary sometimes that I’m the only one that keep me up from being depressed. I avoid being sick, looking weak and suppress feelings. I’m scary to voice all this to my bipolar partner because they can spiral thinking that they are the cause why I’m like this
Thanks for sharing and sorry to hear that :( How many signs did you relate to?
same
I related from start to finish, especially when it explained how we tend to suppress feelings and not knowing how depressed one is, I’m aware I need help but don’t ask for it
And there is still a big stigma with mental health sadly.
Omg same
Right now, at 11:53 p.m., I was crying in front of my family. Because they stated I was overreacting to minor matters, I felt terrible embarrassment. When I couldn't recall what I did yesterday, I sobbed in front of them because it made me feel so miserable. My mother informed me that only mad people would respond the same way I did, and my father advised me to stop crying since it would only make the situation worse. I attempt to reassure myself that I am well and that stress is natural; yet, I feel like my family is currently criticizing me due to my mental breakdown.
I hope you get through this
First of all, your family is making a grave mistake here, idk if this is just starting for you but get help FAST, i literally have/had (the ambiguety of that is there because it is STILL happening) a situation were i asked for help to heal from depression and just got ignored or interrupted and lost the will to ask, multiple times and every time i fail the gap in the attemps are wider than the last i think the last time i tried was last year around april or something, seriously, before you get to a very dangerous place on your mind, im still here for the fact that i just chiken out at the last moment when im overwhelmed by the negativity
Its gonna be ok i had one at 4:35 today
Someone who's like me...if u need me i'm here
I'm so sorry your parents misbehaved like that. You shouldn't feel so bad because you had a human response.
This really hit me.
I tell myself whenever I feel depressed that I'm just overreacting and that I'll get over it. I keep a smile around everyone and I worry if I'm a burden on everyone, that I don't deserve what I've been given. I try to keep my reputation of being nice, kind and a good student so people don't wonder about me.
I asked my close friends about this and even then, I still feel empty.
Sorry about this, I just wanted somewhere to vent how real this felt to me.
I agree nobody knows about it and i never can bring myself to tell anyone about it.I always smile in front of others.They think im always happy and everything.Whenever i cry in front of my parents they say shut up or i will ground u once i told my best friend and she said So what? it really broke my heart when my best friend my only best friend wrote me as her eniemy in her diary when i was playing truth or dare with my friendhe asked me why are u still best friends with her when she talks behind her back.But i still hope maybe one day things will be better.Always belive in yourself!
No... there's no need to be sorry you just descibed my whole personality right there. Just put a smile on and no one will know what's really going on with you.
Same
I want to be dead and then I feel guilty that I want to be dead for no reason, and that I’m just weak or dramatic and people around me have it worse.
Your not alone I am the same
I used to relate to so many of these points but when I stopped hiding from my feelings and got help I grew so much. I hope the people who still relate to this can heal too. Thanks for bringing awareness to this Psych2go 💜
Ty❤️
Good to hear you were able to transcend it! Thanks for sharing and inspiring ❤
im so proud of you, you're doing amazing and i'm so glad you're feeling better :)
I've seen a lot of signs and I feel I have a huge amount of anxiety depression, I've spoken to my school counselor a little about it and she's helped, but it's still hard to get more help.
Sorry to hear and thanks for sharing. How many signs did you relate to?
I hope you continue to heal 🥺 I know it can’t be easy
@@Psych2go 4-5 of the signs because of the being around toxic people one, my family doesn't support me that much so that's the main reason why
@@khalilahd. ty..really
@@oreomaster5873 well I will die soon I can't tell my parents that I need help I just pretend to be fine but my smile is a mask but I will comment suicide soon so please put me out of my pain
This really makes me think about myself.
I am always keeping up an appearance that I'm fine, because I don't want the people around me to think that I'm faking it for attention, or to start looking at me in a different way and stop telling me things about themselves, or worse, me that are upsetting them.
I have been dealing with this stuff for a while, but I have been having it much better due to these videos. It feels better knowing somebody out there cares.
Thank you so much 🙏
This is exactly how I feel
@@kylvsyou well I am in the same boat as you but I can't tell them that I am in pain
Hi, likely psychopath here. You're not being forced to put on a mask. We are. We have no other choice. So just know you're not the only one hiding their true self.
The "I don't want the people around me to think that I'm faking it" is so relatable
This is surprisingly super relatable
I can say from my own experience that people who have seemingly "perfect" and "easy" lives, won't always feel that way. Everyone should understand that depression hurts, no matter how great their lifestyle is ; Take the people who confess their hurt and sadness seriously, it takes a lot of courage. Stay strong ❤
Yeah I say I’m fine when I’m not and I have never known how to cope I honestly thought this is how everyone feels because my life is terrible I haven’t been truly happy since I was three when I turned four parents divorced two months later my dog dies I get constantly bullied at school now I know this it’s still not good for me but in exchange for my mental health I prefer to make others better and if you see this or anyone don’t do what I did and act like your fine I’m not I cry myself to sleep almost every night but I hope letting people know why they shouldn’t act fine when they aren’t is something you shouldn’t be afraid of don’t do what I did I hope everyone who sees this gets better ❤
This. Especially on social media. I remember when a friend who i hadnt spoken to in a while reached out to me saying that he was depressed rn but seeing how well i do cheers him up.
...I have been starving myself for days, unable to get up from bed and drowning in a scary fantasy world to escape. I just thought... Huh. Glad you think so. Glad it helps you.
If you could reverse something in life, what would that be and why?
Me being born... living is tough but quitting makes me think of the ones that'll be left behind.
@@GGray. Exactly i feel like killing myself or never brought into this world
Me turning to bad coping mechanisms. I regret it but I also don't.
Wouldnt have drank those glasses
Everything of myself. I think I'm already done with myself. I think I'm fine but I'm not really inside truly. Not sure
About "Guilt". Recently, a person I really care about has distanced itself because of the many carelessness I had with myself.
Comparing myself a lot to others, not caring about eating well, being too slow to socialize with other people, and many many other things.
I noticed that a lot of things on my life have been based around of "it wasn't enough, you are not doing enough", and honestly, having this feeling hurts a lot.
And now here I am, telling some stuff happening in my life to random people on the internet.
Idk if this is true but I think one of my friends is planning to break up with me…
Hello brother! Your comment is actually relatable 😢.........dw let us fight this thought together!! 😊
@@gjeshurunnesakumaran9394 Heya and thanks for the comment.
It has been a year since I commented this, and I can say that I'm better now. Not a lot for sure but the bad thoughts have been gone for a good while now. I still have a lot to overcome but I know that I made a good step towards having a healthier mental health.
To all the folks out there, keep trying to be better even if it is a small step. Every step counts and eventually the good things will start to occupy more and more of your everyday life, little by little. Love y'all, and stay safe.
@@thebigr3dfox glad to hear that, my friend!! God be with you!! 😉🫂
i hate asking others for help for several reasons, one of them being the fact that i dont act depressed and normally im making jokes and stuff so im scared they wont believe me, the other reason being im just too scared to ask for help because i dont see anyone else asking for help so i dont wanna be judged for the the only known depressed one here and i also just feel like i cant be depressed, my life isnt even that bad sure i get bullied and everyone ive trusted turned out to be a liar but thats it i have a caring family, a roof over my head what do i really have to be depressed about?
And also you being called as an "emo" kid. I am an emotionally repressed person so I bottled all my emotions up since I can't rely on anyone including my own family. Last week, even for just a moment of me sharing my experience, it is a miracle that I ever tear up. And bro, as I lived with "optimism(basically means I bottle all my emotions)" it is very bad experience. Its either things are not so low so I can't get sadness or I can't take it anymore and I can't control myself feeling so numb and empty as im crying. Wish we all would've found someone to talk to
@@nyeowsz fr
I honestly relate to this. I have this fear of being judged which leads to me not opening up to anyone. My mom always tells me that there's nothing to be depressed about and that i don't really have any problems in life. If i try to tell her how I feel she just tells me that I'm being ungrateful and not appreciating the things I have. I honestly don't know what to do anymore or who to talk to. 😔🔫
Thanks for sharing! Did you relate to any of these points?
@@Psych2go is that all ur gonna reply w?
@@BTS-fi9go I think it's an automatic answers. They have this in most of their videos, but for this topic it is a bit insensitve. They shouldn't put auto reply on topic like this.
@@minhmeo5010 i dont think its auto. Its both not sensitive, and not appearing at every comment. I think psych2go might just not know what to comment. Sometimes it can be tough knowing what to say
Same but it's my father
That's exactly how I feel, I never tell people about my problems, I'm just afraid they won't understand. Thank you for that video
I've been through all of these. Yet, I just realized about it. But now, I guess I've recovered from it.But I still do experience these every once in a while. It's comforting to know that there are people out there that understands these things too. God bless you all❤️
"You might have convinced yourself that you are not depresed by constantly telling yourself that others have it worse than you in life and because you're better off you can't or shouldn't be depresed." 1:49 literally me!
Oh.. I relate to all of them! But I don't really know if I actually have depression. Thank you for the information psch2go! Love your videos
Do you plan to get diagnosed?
@@Psych2go yep:) in the future!
I worry about everything, try to keep my personality cheerful and happy and at the end of the day I'm worn Out. I always put everything into my hands and if something goes wrong I'll blame it on myself. Even if you do have the same symptoms, it doesn't mean you have depression. It's like taking a gamble.
Well here I am sharing my life with random people on the internet, a coping strategy I do is I try think of other people more than myself. You can fal into the trap of caring for everyone except yourself.
"1:40 Belittling your hardships in comparison to others"
Why this is relate to me, sometime i think the worst day of my life. And i said "why i feeling bad, there is still Soo many people out there having worse trouble than me, you weak, just be strong like other, tomorrow still have something to do, don't make ur task be bothered with this useless feeling" thats my mindset. I know its bad, i don't have someone to lean on.
I’m really trying to keep up this impression that “I’m fine!” All my life My parents have brushed aside my feelings. If I’m upset or in a bad mood then I’m “just hungry” or “just tired” I hate it. I want people in my life to see that I’m struggling but I can’t vent to people because I don’t trust people anymore. I can’t vent because I feel like they probably have if so much worse than me and like my “best friend” used to say; “you just want attention stop pretending to be hurt lol!” I was 6 and I got sexually abused by my “best friend” I can’t emotionally connect with people because my worries surround me and I don’t know how to hide them. My grades have been dropping in school and it’s getting really hard. My parents got divorced this year and I used to be this perfect girl who would always have good grades and have a “perfect life” now school is so stressful and I keep beating myself up. I can’t help but check my weight 3 or 4 times a day and comparing myself to others. I’m sorry… I’m just so tired. I just want to have someone who actually loves me and isn’t using me for my body. I just want somebody to love me again. I just want to be okay.
You have no business being so relatable.you experienced so much all at the same time.
I'm probably another stranger on the internet but i want to send you a virtual hug because you deserve it and nothing less💌
As someone used to do number 2 all the time I'd like to reinforce to everyone that other people's struggle, even if it seems 'harder', doesn't nullify YOUR struggle. You should be proud of what you've been through, always.
*_I feel guilty for running from who I really am._*
*_Some say our negative feelings is a part of what makes us... ourselves. I've been told many times, and perhaps others felt this, that being depressed, sad, or even unwell (Emotionally, Mentally, Physically, or Socially), is prohibited in society. We used to look in the mirror and treat ourselves as a friend we swear to never leave nor abandon. We used to play with only ourselves when we have no one else. But when people come in to say that we can't "create imaginary friends" (Don't worry, once you are accepting of who you are, they need not to have to direct you, BUT you can use them to inspire your work), this only enrages me._*
*_I was told to rid of everything bad and remain good, and for what? How can I live happily when I fail to acknowledge my flaws and learn how to embrace them without excessive fear? What is an artwork that holds no shades of black or white? We grow tired of being happy at some point, and we must bide our time to taking care of ourselves in all aspects, not just by looks. I wish I could distance myself from those that only worsen my condition. No one can truly be trusted, not even personal circles. Once you tell the truth, you can only be met with shame or disregard. And now I'm here, trying to overcome my strange rumination because of the accumulated pressure from everyone and everything._*
*_Although I don't really have to stand out, I only want to be like other artists. And I know the artists carry the same pain as they grow._*
*_So please, stop scarring yourself like I did. I'm only doing it to ward off everyone that tells me otherwise. I can only pray and wish for liberation for the gifted and the talented people out there... including mine._*
I should die I want to kill myself I am a mess I can't get better I have been depressed for two years and it's not getting better and I have been have thoughts of suicide for 5 months so yeah been in a lot of pain
0:00 intro
0:38 1、Destructive perfectionism
1:38 2、Belittling your own hardships in comparison to others
2:26 3、Guilt
3:04 4、Toxic people around you
3:42 5、Running from negative feelings
4:29 outro
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here
Psychedelics are the reason why i didn’t take my life when i was at my end. I was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity and even though i still battle anxiety and depression, I’m doing better everyday and will never think in such a self destructive way again.
LSD and mushrooms completely changed my whole outlook on life. I became a better version of myself
This experience gave me a lot of confidence about my self and my body. A bunch of bad thought / behavior patterns were broken. One of these was pretty bad OCD that made me wash my hands a lot. It gave me a lot of hope that things will be fine, this is the one thing that I heard throughout the trip: Everything is alright. The main reason for the trip was my severe depression and it definitely helped me (although it's not gone). Before all I could do was lay in bed. Now I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time which wasn't possible before."
[_James_tray]
Got psychs
@@sarahh321 Where to search?? Is it IG?
Last year, I took shrooms at Las Vegas thinking it was going to hit like an edible or something. Shit was scary at first but amazing once you start getting deeper into your thoughts
TW: mentions of abuse
my parents make my depression so much worse and i dont know how to get away from it i live with them and i have nowhere else to go and im still young so i cant move out, it just feels like im overreacting and that im trying to give myself problems but being around them is so exhausting and hard to deal with, i feel like im being abused but i also feel like im just being dramatic and i really dont know what to do, my parents have times when they aren’t horrible so maybe im just looking too much into it but i still cant shake the feeling like i cant do it anymore, being around them just makes me realise more and more that i hate having to interact with them and that sometimes i’m even scared of doing anything wrong ever even a tiny mistake because im scared of how they would react, im honestly scared of them and its hard being around them and having to see and talk to them all hours of the day and theres nothing i can do about it. im so stuck someone please help
Hey! Sorry to hear that :(. I have a pretty similar situation, my suggestion would be trying to talk to them about the way you feel (I know it can be hard because of their possible response) but asking for a therapist may let them see that you are struggling and you want to improve your situation.
I hope this helps!
@@sofiar4500 thank you :) ive tried those things before though and i’ve had many therapists but everytime i talk about my parents the therapists tell my parents and then they get mad at me :(
@@valamelonn omg that's horrible ;(( a therapist should keep your privacy ALWAYS unless you are going to hurt somebody or yourself. Try finding a specialist who will actually make you feel safe. If that's not possible, try to fill time with hobbies that relax you, as you get older you will be able to set boundaries
@@sofiar4500 thank you :) im really trying to stay and be happy and your advice is really nice to hear thank you 💕
I had my perfectionism literally since i can think, only to be good enough for school, work etc.
Now i am worried about myself and my existence.
Thanks anyway for making daily content about mental health and making it more accessable for others.
Out of the many videos I've seen on your channel, this is one of the few which I can completely relate to. I relate to every one of these points: I envy others, sometimes to the point that I forget myself. I'm in a college program where contingency and high grades are praised, so the toxic environment is present and my destructive perfectionism is just as toxic. It's very easy for me to think that I'm inadequate compared to the high class. We have very different lives, but go to the same classes, so when they're better, therefore praised by the class, I think I'm pathetic inside because I didn't study enough or I'm not good enough to receive any form of appreciation by the others. But why should I complain? I have it so much easier than in other parts of the world. So I smile through the pain, giving a perception that others might accept more easily (even if it doesn't work), all because I want to escape any form of weakness and because I want to avoid being belittled by the system. Despite all of this though, this channel helps identify these problems with videos like these, so thanks a-lot psych2go, you help many (including me) with your profound and valuable knowledge in the art of psychology.
Thank you Pysch2Go for this video. It really does hit most people hard. Lucky for me, in high school, I had that 1 teacher who I could trust to vent to even though he had his own problems. He even let me take time off his class if I wasn't feeling or my depression had hit hard. And I am forever thankful and greatful for that teacher for noticing the signs. The biggest thing was talking about it, to you who you can trust 100%.
My girlfriend was the same, however she vents to me and I put everything else down and give her my full undivived attention until she feels better about it. And again. I am super greatful to that teacher for also helping me learn some techniques I can use to help people better who suffer from mental health.
We hope this video helped you in some way. How many signs did you relate to?
@@Psych2go pretty much all of them. It also gave me the techniques to help others. I once saved 2 people who were about to jump on the freeway to end their lives. Just by talking to them and listening to their story. Cops gave me an award because I saved them. This was back in 2018 when I started to watch your videos.
I relate to all of them... and it has been like this for the past year... My classmates have been extremely toxic to me and having no friends for the past year have been taking a toll on me... I always try to hide my anxiety and my sadness, but people always belittle them... It doesn't help that whenever I hurt others unintentionally I say sorry many many times but when they hurt me they act as if nothing happened... All these really hurt me on the inside and I'm not sure how long I can continue this hidden double life...
It is hard to live a double life like that. Hold out and try to find the right people that understand and will help you through
Thanks for sharing and sorry to hear :( What do you plan to do next after this realization?
@@Psych2go To be honest, I have no idea... I'll probably try to connect with online people? Or try to discuss with my family
I have an online friend like that. But I fucked up big time and they have blocked me. It is better for them tbh, but it sucks nonetheless.
Hope you get better fellow stranger.
“You yourself don’t want to accept your struggling”
nearly had me crying but once again I pushed away my feeling saying
“I am fine…”
sending a hug...
I relate to all these signs of depression, but I wanted to ask for help and I find it very difficult to do so. I will try to suppress my feelings while I am at school, doing animations and I feel like I am going nuts or my mind is being torn to pieces. Thank you Psych2go for helping another animator to handle depression in a better and healthy way.
This video honestly managed to break me from the sheer amount of fact I can empathize with. It really opened my eyes to my feelings & all those little signs I had since childhood. Running from negative emotions really seems to be my specialty-
Thank you for posting content that allows me to understand my true myself better
I am in a lot of mental pain and I smile the pain my smile is my mask
@@lukecohen9833 I know this feeling well Luke! But it is sad to hear that u are hiding true feelings under a smiling mask. I hope that one day you will gradually manage to gather some strength & take some of those feelings outside to relieve yourself ❤️ wish u all the best in future! good luck
@@mitsukaii well I can't take it off cause I will comment suicide soon and it's over it's all over no one knows that I am in pain
This reminds me of myself quite a lot, though no matter how much I try it doesn't help with how I feel and I know it doesn't. I have tried to get help but nothing has happened about it, I was told " no you're okay, there is nothing wrong with you" as my therapist says. Honestly now a days I feel I am faking it which never changes how I feel and it sucks. I hope everyone who needs help never feels scared to go and ask for it even though situations like mine can happen, it is best to give it a go. I hope everyone is well :)
Thanks for sharing and sorry to hear :( How many signs did you resonate with?
@Itz Rowan I'm so sorry you haven't got the help and support you needed, I hope that you find a better therapist in the future that doesn't dismiss your feelings and emotions
@@marincater1603 You are too kind, I shall be alright. I plan on getting a new one in a few years.
@@Psych2go Most of them
@@ShinjiInui91 I'm sorry the same treatment came your way too, it isn't fair in anyone to have such an experience. Perhaps one day we both may find a good therapist, I dearly hope so at least. I wish you a great day/night :)
I was afraid I was watching this video only because I was seeking attention but after watching it through I’ve come to realize every single sign is relatable
This is true for me because I kept feeling like this everyday (I don't wanna tell this to my parents because I might get offended or they might say I'm like a kid)
Even though I'm depressed I'm still happy :I
The art is so good. The shadow and the light how it blend together, and with context it gives this alone nostalgia feeling.
I think something that makes depression worse is the fact that i constantly put myself down for feeling depressed which obviously doesn’t help. Your videos are a big help in understanding myself, thank you.
Watching this video made me depressed, it helped me alot, thanks!
IM SO SORRY I LAUGHED.. BUT SAME I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON
Glad this helped somehow :( How many signs did you relate to?
@@Psych2go I related to 2, 3, and 4, but I still got sad at the other facts because my mind decided to make imaginations of other people suffering... My imagination is too powerful that I'd just get depressed, which is why sometimes I'm more into Romcom than something like One Piece (Wano), etc. Since it's more happy happy.
When I was first diagnosed with severe depression someone in my life asked me if I was "putting on a show" by making it seem like I was alright. I'm still not exactly sure what she meant fully.
they meant if you were masking your true feelings under a fake smile 😅 (I hope this doesn’t sound insensitive but I also do this a lot whenever i’m in a social situation so that people don’t see what is going on inside me..)
Man all these signs are so accurate, my life has been hard a lot, while I just keep trying on Keep smiling and staying positive all them even tried to study hard for my family. I didn't rlly want them to see me as "Stupid" that's why I'm trying my best to study hard. And when I feel depressed I just play game or watch funny videos to get rid or avoid the feeling
Sometimes a smile can be more important than you realize. It hurts but keep going, hard times don’t last forever.
See, the thing is, you never know that you may be dealing with something really, REALLY terrible, or you're just overreacting. - 😭
I have moderate depression, and this is really true. Usually my teacher relies on my friends to help me when I have mental problems, and I feel sorry for them because sometime we will have arguments and problem when I have to also deal with them, they aren’t toxic though, and I feel grateful to have them as friends. I just had a school trip lately and one of my friends is starting to feel that I may be something else to her, I send her an apology for my attitude, I hope she would give me a second chance.
i took a all nighter watching your videos, both for me and my friends. thank you for everything.
i have friends! i don't have financial issues! i don't need to get a job! i am provided for! i am smart!
i don't have trauma, i think. my friends who are happy have been through much worse. i've really had a great life.
*i should be happy.*
I remember the day one of my friends found an excuse to bring me outside in order to inform me my gf cheated on me.
When I got home I just ignored her and her two friends and tried to keep a cool composure for half a hour but I was broken inside and my heart was beating so fast and painfully in my chest. I was tryna look at my screen on the pc as usual but painful thoughts were just all over my head and she was acting cute and got on my legs but this time I couldn't look at her neither hug her for real this time. At last I told her she was going nowhere and told her friends to go because I was gonna give her a "talk" she ain't dodging this time. The same night I got ridda she was here no more.
Now I feel better than ever, I found a well paid job, got time to work on my ytb videos for my best friends and I'm keeping myself from toxic people. Never let borderline people into your lives.
I’m always feeling sad and I try to bottle it up smiling. Telling myself people have it worse like my friend who lives in an apartment with his dad in jail, brothers on drugs, and mom working so hard. I sometimes put myself in these scenarios where I have it bad, but I don’t know why. sometimes at night I will say a random memory in my head and start crying so hard I lose my breath. At school I would try to smile but still end up crying, like that one time I took a test in math, getting a lower grade on the test then last time, saying over and over that I’m stupid and I am a failure. I also start tearing up when I see that I have a C or lower in school because my parents get mad take my stuff away and ask why they have to keep telling me to fix my grade when I say I have “everything under control”. And I think I’m torturing myself, hoping and praying me and my crush will get together even though he has a girlfriend, I might be obsessed but I just love him and don’t know how to let him go because he’s so nice, kind, generous, handsome, and I would mourn for a long time after deciding to let him go. I don’t know why my life is just so difficult in these years though I’m so young. I don’t want to talk with my parents, but I don’t want a therapist. I don’t know what to do about this, what should I do?
As a person who hits 4/5 of these signs
This YT channel actual relates to my problems and can be helpful and helpful to give me mental health tips to make depression better for me.
I decided two weeks ago to stop pretending that everything is ok or will be ok. One of the best things I have done for myself in a very long time.
I relate to all of this😢 I always hide myself by smiling 😊
We hope this video helped. Thanks for sharing. What do you plan to do next after this realization?
Great video, thanks for helping others identify these 'seemingly fine' signs ❤️
Thanks for watching! Did you relate to this video?
That's what I'm doing all the time
I feel the same pain over and over again
And the happy face is just for show there are 10 Memories that are replaying over and over and over for 5 years and nobody knows how I'm actually feeling 😢😢😢🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤💔💔
sup hope everyone's day is good
Hey! You too.❤
Thank you :)
Well but I'm here because I want to confirm some things. So that's not a good thing 😔
my days are never good
Thanks, you too
Well don't hope for that, COZ it's NOT
Believe i have depression. Usually feel guilty because of the whole i take care of others bit and having to deal with my depression alone for a long long time. Even with having people that understand mental health and a bf that wants me to talk to him when i am depressed, still struggle. Mostly from being in a household that is a bit dismissive of mental health and used to mock the anxiety/depression commercials, even if just side effects of medicine. To even hear that someone should just get over it…that…that’s really painful and cold. I’ve had to hide my emotions/depression. Even I’ve gone into the some people have it worse than me bit. It doesn’t make me feel better though. I’ve rebuilt myself from the ground up alone and even with that, I still crack from time to time
When my grandpa had passed away, I went through a hard time and felt incredibly down and unmotivated, always feeling sad and never wanting to do anything, and I don’t think it’s ever left. I still feel unmotivated sometimes and it’s really tough for me to try and snap out of it. I’ve never really tried to do anything about it or speak out.
Seeing that there are people out there who are dismissing their own hurt and pain almost brought me to tears.
I'm sorry for whatever you're going through, and I'm proud of you for making it this far, I'd give you a hug, but I can't, so this flimsy, digital one will do ❤️
0:04 I am but Ik bc I’m forced i’ve always been the one that’s happy,the one who makes friend with everyone smiles threw everything even if I’m bullied I’m bullied every day by 2 people but because of how my parents treat me I am scared to tell them😔🤕😢😭
sending a hug... i'm holding you... its going to be okay... this is hard.... but i'm with you and i believe in you... please stay strong...
That's the same with me
I can't seem to tell anyone, fearing they will spill the beans
I'm the one who brings smiles, so I can't abandon such greatness for others
@@leticialorraine2167 I know I don't know about your situation, but Hurting yourself to please others is counter productive. Hope what you're going through gets better 🙏🙏
The lighting and shading of the animation looks so good
I just want to hug everyone, give them comfortable warmth and tell them that everything is fine
I don't even smile
My face turned into a permanent frown I'm rarely smiling either fake or genuine and most of time I force a smile while I cry myself to sleep knowing I won't make it past 20
I just turned 18 two weeks ago
Home isn't even home...I stay in my messy room most of the time so I don't get hurt but then I'm forced to get hurt to protect someone else
I need help...but I can't get and family won't allow me to
I have major depression and i do all of those stuff so thank you for the video its amazing! I do go to therapy and take anti depressants 👍
Thanks for sharing. We hope this video helped you somehow. Did you relate to any of these points?
@@Psych2go Yeah i did relate 💚
This video filled my eyes with tears because every single point that has been stated above was tooo accurate. I don't think I really have someone I can vent out to, so I've been bottling up my emotions just to realise that it would never help it. I need someone to talk to, someone who can advise me and listen to me. I'm tired of being the therapist friend some I too need someone who can listen to me. Now I cannot blame my friends since I'm the one who just cannot share much. But this video hit me hard in the chest and I felt something hard in my throat, not to mention my vision got blurry because of the tears.
Well anyways thanks for the video 🫶
The saddest part is that you dont know that y9u are depressed or you are overthinking you really cant tell it i felt like that this this video realy helped me thank you and keep doing what you are doing you helped all us of more than you think and everone out there who are depressed its ok we all feel them its better if we let them out or try to heal instead of trying to ignore it you will feel much better
My problem is that over time when I'm with friends I forget that I don't necessarily feel good as if all my problems and my feelings disappear in my own eyes then when I have time to think to me for just 2 seconds everything comes back to me all at once It's really an oversight I put aside and when I'm asked if "are you okay?" I answer what seems more logical to me than "Yes" because at the time I don't realize that in reality I don't really feel well 😕
It depends on what your going through like if you gotta stop and feel deep inside your gut and express it to your friends do it
My teenager friend Catie has been showing signs of depression, but she was diagnosed with epilepsy, as she does suffer from epilepsy, but she could be having another problem, which could be depression, because of what happened to her in brick and mortar schools, and in foster care, she was bullied and abused in in-person schools, and foster care, and she is still an epileptic person, but she could have depression, and she is afraid to tell anyone because they might not believe her, and they might tell her that she is just faking it. She is still sad, but she acts like she is not depressed, but she knows things are going down, and I've seen her self-harm attacks, as I had seen knife caused scars on each of her arms and legs. She can't have a safe space to process anything, because of her toxic older brother, no matter how many times she tries to tell him, he won't listen and he always says "DEPRESSION IS A MADE UP THING! IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD! BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!" and so on, so Catie doesn't have a door to her room, because of her brother kicking down her door, and she wanted to kill herself, but at the same time, she wants to kill him, but she doesn't want to be thrown into jail, and lose all hope for her dreams to become real. Her dreams are to become a famous video game designer. She is afraid that she might not make it, too, and she slowly loses motivation, and she rarely does her chores. Her bedroom is a mess, but her bed is near her doorway, and she always has a fear that her brother would come in with a woodcutting saw, and saw her head off, but she remembers the day that her brother threw a metal cup at her head, and gave her a scar on her eyebrow. The injury in her eyebrow is now a scar, but on that day when the metal cup yeeted at her face, it wasn't a scar, it was a bloody mess, but luckily, it was taken care of. Catie wants to throw a metal cup and maybe even a glass jar at her brother, and scream "HOW DOES IT FEEL NOW, PUNK?!?!?!? I WILL MAKE YOU SUFFER EVERY PAIN YOU CAUSED ME TO SUFFER, AND I WILL MAKE YOU FEEL THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH IN FOSTERCARE, AND BRICK AND MORTAR SCHOOLS!!!!!!" At him. She is in a cyber school, and she always says "hellos! How is everybody doin'? I am great as always!" In the chat during her live lesson classes, basically, zoom meetings that her school has. She has been fighting depression, secretly, and she knows part of it, and she always tries to be perfect, and such, but she doesn't feel like it wax enough, and she thought drowning herself in the bathtub once, but an inner voice that sounded like Scatman Crothers said "don't kill yourself, you're needed, and you could be a hero, in any way. You could act like a mom, to a 5 year old kid, who went to the park on his/her own, and is being stalked by a creep eho preys upon kids, because you look like an adult, instead of a 17 year old teenager. You can use your appearance as an advantage to deter pedos and such, but sometimes an advantage like that, can come with a disadvantage, such as if you are trying to get a boyfriend who is around your age, the parents of a teenaged boy would say "she's a pedo. Don't talk to her." Until you showed them evidence that you were a teenaged minor girl, and adult men who would target adult women to rape, would go after you too." then Catie stopped herself from committing suicide, and so she hasn't tried again at all, and she has been thinking of the possibilities that she has. Also, she wants to try to find a way to get more things to fix herself up with, but she can't afford them, and she has mugwort tincture as her medicine for her epilepsy, because of the bad side effects of the medication that doctors prescribe, and her parents fought to get her off the medicine tthatthe doctors prescribed to her, and now, she has mugwort and mugwort tincture as her medicines, for her epilepsy. Catie also wishes she was better at speaking and sometimes, she wishes that she was not an epileptic person, and sometimes, she wishes that she could find a boyfriend for herself, but she can't and such, and she rarely goes outside, and she is occasionally paranoid, scared, and anxious.
Catie does compare herself to others, and her mental conclusion is she is inferior compared to others.
I'd just like to take the time to say thank you to Psych2go for making all these amazing videos, they help so many people to understand their feelings better.
I tend to keep things to myself because the one time I did open up, it got dismissed and I was told its just my anxiety - I have anxiety so I know what that feels like but this is different - but when I was told it's not depression and just anxiety, I lost all faith that people care about me.
Ik im depressed but I could have everything I ever wanted and still be depressed idk what’s wrong, I am just never happy at all☹️
Living with my toxic parents made me kinda perfectionist I realised it 2 years ago when corona virus was spreading I wasn’t doing really well in school and they were super harsh on me , we had those online classes and stuff to study through and that’s when I knew a couple of new friends, also I had a new life on social media which is of course entirely different from real life, and that’s where I knew my crush , when I felt so lonely and used to hurt my body and stuff he was always there comforting me and actually he is the reason why I’m alive today, I loved him and I still love him because he was my one and only and he was my home I don’t know if he felt the same way I did because I didn’t have the courage to tell him about my feelings even when I do it comes out in a friendly way that he won’t understand, I used to talk to him every day and my online school friends know I have a crush on him until one day he sent me a message saying that he will delete his account cause of his anxiety saying that he will never forget me and had a special time with me , by the time I read his message he had already deleted it, it was a shock for me and it always make me wonder if it’s my fault and if I made him feel uncomfortable and I always feel guilty about it, then I found an old chat of my online friends saying horrible things about me for just falling in love with him, since then I never made any new or any friends in school cause I had trust issues and it’s really painful when my only friends were toxic and were just scumbags, this was 1 year ago and since then I just feel numb and I guess I have depression and I just can’t open up to someone cause they don’t understand.
Jeez this is the first time I talk about this + sorry for making it too long.
I think the one thing keeping me from thinking I have depression is the fact that I’m not sad constantly, or even often. It’s only when I get into major episodes that cause me to think I have depression, and that I’ve put up such a good facade that I’ve convinced myself that I’m alright.
This was me one year ago... Now I realized to have depression, I said it to one of my "friends" but she did LITERALLY NOTHING. Neither try to let me feel better... So I can't confess it to anyone else. I'M TIRED 😭😭😭
Sometimes, I always label myself as a sad clown. I use my silliness, goofiness and smile to hide my pain, sadness, guilt, insecurity and anger. Been wearing the happy mask for a very long time.
Thank you for sharing. What do you plan to do next after this realization? :(
@@Psych2go talk to someone, listen to some music or workout.
I don't care if someone sees this but I want to write it down. These last few weeks have been fucking tough, and im really feeling it weigh on me, I really feel like I cant do it any more, I feel like crying but that's not something im capable of, I feel like doing something stupid but I know i won't, I know I need to speak so someone but that's not something im capable of, but hearing these video's help more than I can express, it keeps my head up and my feet in the right direction just enough to keep going.
I had went to my counsler on the last few days of school since she was the only one i could really trust. She helped me make a list of things i liked and who i was in a positive way and signed it for me. Its permanently on my wall now
Yeah I got a lovely mixture of guilty and running away kind of depression with belittling my hardships sprinkled on top. I like to think I'm getting better with help with my psych but it's kinda like a bad habit, where I find myself sometimes slipping in and out of that habit why of thinking. 😅
I hide my depression cuz other ppl might just laugh at me or tell me im some kind of sad boy
Same
you are allowed to express your emotion, you shouldn't be afraid to Express your feelings just because others may fail to understand you, stay strong💞💕
Dw i totally relate that but u don’t deserve being laugh at ppl are just too dense to be understanding
I've been been dealing/feeling depression for years on end up to the point now to where I haven't felt happiness and can no longer really feel any feelings associated with happiness.
Because of various mental illnesses that I have, my family usually goes to those problems first and brings it up my doctors, which I definitely don't appreciate.
So I do my best to be outwardly happy when inside I'm completely miserable.
Whenever someone asks me about my feelings or whether or not I'm happy or suicidal especially when dealing with mental health, health, I've learned that best way for me is to lie to them and tell them what they want to hear.
Because as bad as my depression might seem it definitely won't get any better staying in a psych ward.
ur videos are literally my therapy
What do you do if you are scared to get help? I know that i have a depression since i took a lot of tests and i can realate to all of your depression videos but Im too scared that Im gonna cause that other people gets worried and sad that i don’t want to get help. My Mom tells me all the time that i can talk to her if Im sad/ stresset but Im scared and anxious about the questions people ask me too since i don’t know why Im depressed, do you know What to do?
I feel this way too. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Her voice is so comforting
Im definitely smiling through the pain right now. Having a lot of expectations put onto me, and when i don't reach what others expect me to reach, I shut down. Especially being in Korea, the culture being of not causing trouble towards others, supressing emotions became natural. I try to talk about it to people around me, but they always say i should just keep it in. And i'm sick and tired of it.
Thank you for this and all the other work that you present. It is a gift that I am grateful to receive.
my family always said to me that i'm too young to be depressed and i'm faking, and i'm nervous to tell anyone about it but, i don't have anyone on my side.
Ive been suffering depression for over 6 months, this just truly means someone is also suffering depression, just ignoring it
Thank you....
Now im know im smiling in pain...
All the sign is happend to me...
Here's the thing, nothing in this video surprised me. I know I'm "smiling through the pain" but I can't stop. I don't the time nor money to the help I need. I honestly don't know how long I can keep feeling this way. Not to say I have plans/desires to harm myself or anyone else but because I really don't know. I know I can't literally explode but that's the road I feel like I'm on. So I tell myself that other people have it worse and that if I still feel depressed, it's because I'm ungrateful or need to grow up and keep pushing because it's all I can do.
I'm talking with a therapist assigned by my school. He doesn't think that I am depressed, but he doesn't want to be so sure yet. I don't know if I am depressed, based on what I told him he thinks that if I am depressed then it has been so long that it just feels normal to me now. And I believe he is right, I remember feeling this way when I was 9 but I didn't know what it was. I was prone to self harm from that age but I never wanted others to think something was wrong so I hid it and pretended that nothing was wrong. Not like they noticed anyways, everyone was always too busy to notice.
No support and exhaused all options for help. Regardless... smiling through the hurt, working on creating my safe space.
I think i relate to destructive perfectionism. Because of my unrealistic standards, i try to make everything flawless. Even i feel so exhausted i always act im energetic. Whenever i feel numb inside i forcefully smile to others and say'em im so grateful. Sometimes pain covers my whole soul and body and still i try to hide it. People found me too optimistic and calm. But i just dont want them to feel the same way as i feel.
I recently went to a wellness check up and I’ve known that I may have been depressed and filled with anxiety but I brushed it aside with these EXACT thoughts but when the doctor informed my mom she gave us a few places to get help and I’m headed the right way, but I still feel this way every day.
I just find the people around fighting through stuff worse than me.. so i feel like my promblems are just not enough for me to say anything about it.
So the second one really really speaks to me..
I also used to have a really toxic friend...what i am trying to say this video really speaks to me
I'm so glad I found your channel!
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Story of my life. I work in retail, and I have to put on a “smile” in front of customers. My smile conceals within it a lot of emotional pain and holds back a myriad of tears. Plus, I mask my depression in the presence of my family and friends. It’s not easy.
Me…!
cried through this video, feeling someone finally can put my feelings in words, but still, I'm not able to speak...
Man 24 here. I used to be quite shy and introverted as a kid due to being bullied and low self-esteem. At one point, I was diagnosed with BDD but someohow I got over it. Nowadays, I quit my job due to the toxicity in there. I went to study abroad but despite getting the highest mark of my class still, my confidence didn't improve. When I came back I seeked a job at what I studied but to no avail. Now I feel sad and I start crying out of the blue. I dwell on the past. I think that all these people who bullied me were right after all. I feel sad when I see other people having fun. I feel intimidated around other people especially beautiful women. It may be only in my mind but still why can't I do anything?
This really helped me understand my emotions, I've always listened to other people's emotions and i made them talk about it with me about it because i like to give other people advice and when i feel like this i think that I'm a coward and i don't dare to tell anyone about it... And i always wonder why i feel like this
I used to be one of your videos.
But now that I'm free, I'll be taking my leave. Thank you
Relate to them all, Especially the blaming myself for things, sometimes the things I don’t do, I blame myself for. It really gets me.
I'm getting so identified with this situation. I have to simulate that I'm happy, when in reality I'm 😔 and feel useless and excluded from the society.