Powerful Tips to Heal and Move On From Your Narcissist Ex
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"I can make you feel sorry for me in a way that at the deepest levels you feel sorry for the child inside you that was abandoned. You think that if you rescue me, you're kind of rescuing yourself." Brilliant, Richard! I love you!
"They're not getting any more of my fucking time" -- another excellent "clips" installment, thanks
Amen!
Yes. No more until it's changed.
YES
I think part of the struggle is accepting responsibility for my own decisions to help people when I wouldn’t do the same things to help myself. I have to accept I’m not as smart as I wanted to think I was, and that their was nothing ‘special’ about me that a narcissist will hook to any host that provides them nurturing. Both are some serious ego checks that I’m facing. If I have no self respect than I’m inviting this drama into my life.
Keep learning and going forward. It gets better.
I think you're just finding more ways to beat yourself up about it. THAT is what attracts the narcissists. There are no consequences no matter how badly they treat us!! Because we have been conditioned into taking on all the blame for other people's shit. We have to heal these unconscious wounds or we will continue to attract narcs. I'm still unlearning that response. It's difficult as this is a blind spot.
There are of course very special things about you, and you are clearly smart, as you are here, thinking it through, unlike our exes, abusive parents, narc bosses etc. Who will keep doing the same thing over and over. The person you chose saw the parts of you they could take advantage of. I wouldn’t beat yourself up about that, we are all vulnerable somewhere. We know better now, now we can find people who adore us fully, who appreciate us, or we show them the door. 💚
Their = there
Than = then
Garima Heath thank you from reminding me that I’m grammatically challenged. It actually proves the point I’m not that swift. 😉
The bond is anger we have on ourself to be so blind 🤯🧛♂️
So true 👍
Thank you lea to be honest I forgive myself but the thing is he still live in the same house with me 🧛♂️
YES
Thank you Lea I’m in the process to change my situation but it takes a bit more time my narc bf is also drug addict and right now he is in illusion mood he is really dangerous 🧛♂️ I don’t wanna give him any chance to destroy my life thank god I have very supportive friends and family they are helping me to get red of this devil🙏
I don't think it's blindness I think it's hope because we are naturally wired to look for the good in people and no one wants to believe that someone can be that inhuman.
I felt anger, disappointment, betrayal, confusion, lonelyness, loss, hate....but I processed them all...and I kept on telling the story...exactly what Richard says...
I want to get on with my life like a sovereign adult. Yes. It's extremely annoying that I feel like I just cannot stop focusing on him... sounds so simple. Bottom line... this person doesnt love nor respect you. Move on.
Way easier said than done for someone like me.
Thanks for all you do. You are a beacon of hope. Wonderful articulation mixed with your down-to-earthness and humor regarding such a complex subject that you explain very clearly makes for an awesome coach. You work hard and it's very much appreciated!
Thank you for this, even though my therapist has helped me see this; these videos still help in my "weak" times. I think when I really started healing was when I realized that, yes, he did what he did, but I was the one who held the door wide open for him to come in. I fell in quick with the sad stories and all the self deprecation and felt sorry; I saw in him things that had not fully been discovered or processed (and definitely not helped) within me. My abandonment issue was probably the biggest one. Many times I actually did want to leave, but when I would pull away, my narc would either be super nice and sweet and flood me with attention or he'd come to me with some sad story and I'd get puled back in because I don't want to abandon someone; I know how horrible that feels. And I can't say how many times I broke down crying in guilt because I felt I had abandoned him, which I said I would never do. He even said, when we broke up that he hurt so much because, I abandoned him, and that played over and over in my mind those first six months after the break up. So, there was (and still is) a guilt, mixed with the shame of having accepted all these things that, before him, I was certain I'd never get into. My very first boyfriend (not the most recent ex) was abusive, emotionally and physically, and I told myself I'd never get into a relationship like that again because I knew all the signs and games, and it's been hard realizing that I let myself fall right back into one, and that I was always apologizing and I was always giving and giving and making myself small to make things work, when he couldn't have cared less; he never had to budge any farther than he wanted. It's like there was a line in the sand between us and I was always coming over to his side, while he'd rarely even walk up to the line for me. And I'm the one still dealing while he probably forgot all about me within a few weeks of us officially breaking up, lol.
I think one of the most telling things that I feel like I'm on the right (though, slow) path to healing is that I can talk about most of the stuff without crying or feelings sad and I can even laugh about some of it. This person was just an unfortunate bump in the road, but it did open me up to realizing that I wasn't as emotionally and mentally strong as I thought I was. I hadn't dealt with things I thought I had (I'd buried them and acted like I had fixed them). So, weirdly enough, I thank my narc for knocking me down and realizing I still had/have work to do.
Don’t give up, life after this is peaceful eerie at first. I was stuck with my map and grief for 3 years i was destroying myself. I’d turned into this tornado of grief and emotions, sad and angry, to bitterness, anger then Repeated over and over. It took years to get this way and it took a few to start to unravel my own mess, it was mine!! I’d become a paranoid defensive bitch, my hair did fall out, weight gain and loss, cortisol levels made me sick and crazy. This path to healing is hard but it’s been worth it. Who knew what I did thinking I’d get approval from my parents, and if I didn’t do x, y, or z the wouldn’t love me is where this started.
I’m becoming the person I was envy of. The one who doesn’t panic when they make a mistake, and say yes to everything and everyone. More to it shocked me at how easy it is to say NO, so simple...
Thanks for sharing. I want to get where you are at, but every time I stand up to the bullying and passive agressive behavior , she presses my guilt and shame buttons and I roll over and I end up being the one apologizing for trying to stand up for myself because standing up for myself is upsetting to her. Writing this I logically know how crazy this cycle is but on an emotional level its like i'm being remote controlled. How did you break out of your cycle and find peace??
The problem is admitting to yourself that they purposefully used a strategy on you, to lure you in. It makes me feel like all the lovely thinks they said about who I was, may not be true, if they said them to capture me. I want to believe the nice things they said about me. Somehow, their opinion seemed more valuable than the opinion of others. Perhaps it was because my parents never said anything nice to me about who I was. Perhaps they realised I needed someone to notice me and say nice things. The crux of the recovery problem, is that thinking it was a strategy makes me feel I'm not those things.
But you ARE those things. It's just they took advantage of you not believing in yourself because that was how you were wounded while your sense of self was forming. Just imagine what you would say to a good friend
if they started beating themselves up over a failed relationship. You are retraumatising yourself all over again. Would you say these things to anyone you loved? So try to be kinder to yourself not harsher. Look after yourself, you ARE a good person!
7:24 "I can make you feel sorry for me, the way you feel sorry for you at the deepest levels, the way you feel sorry for the child inside of you that was abandoned. You think that if you rescue me, you're kind of rescuing yourself..."
Wow, that's deep. I never thought of it that way, but it makes sense. The initial image I had of him was of someone who was so goodhearted, who just wanted to love & be loved, but who got misunderstood & mistreated & cruelly discarded by people who did not see the true value in him. Someone who was so worthwhile inside, but who didn't fit in because they were quirky & eccentric & socially awkward. Someone who just needed love & loyalty in order to blossom into their highest self. Someone who was essentially the human equivalent of a shelter dog- they were given a hard lot in life, but they had a heart of gold, & they would love the shit out of you for the rest of their lives if you claimed them & adopted them as your own.
But really, that's the image I have of myself as a little girl- a misunderstood, lonely, shelter dog of a little girl. I thought (unconsciously) that by seeing the good in him & loving him, I was seeing the good in myself & loving myself... I thought that we were kindred spirits, but really he was just a mirror image of the child I need to go inside & heal.💜
Wow, your description of your ex is almost EXACTLY the same as mine. Mind blowing.
And i believe the same thing! I realized how much I had abandoned myself and this relationship ending has been a catalyst into my own healing. And so for that i am grateful!
Yeees! Very well said. My biggest motivation to stay in the relationship and be loving to him when most he did was manipulate and hurt me was the idea that if I gave him enough love and understanding and show divine loyalty that he would EXACTLY *blossom*. It's the co-narcissist - you give them all your love and you completely forget yourself. May we all heal ourselves and love ourselves from now on!
Wow you just spoke my life. Thankyou for sharing. Very eye opening. All the good I see in him is MY good. He really is a monster, a savage dog that probably needs to get put down. I am the beautiful shelter dog that I need to give that love to, not him 💜
SPOT ON EMMA~!
Thank you , the guilt and shame is the worst part.
It's not even YOUR guilt or shame... it was dumped on you by someone else who couldn't even stomach themselves. And they did it in the hope that if they dumped it somewhere, they could walk away feeling better, but you can bet your bippy that they didn't get that at all either.
Just dump it by the roadside... it's not your rubbish - imagine you opened your front door to go to work one morning and found someone else's rubbish in your way... you'd angrily put it on the kerb, but you certainly wouldn't hang onto it!!!! It's not your responsibility.
When your self esteem systematically eroded all your life , it is entirely different .
Do we feel guilt and shame because those things were programmed into us, or do we feel this way because we understand that we are dealing with children in adult bodies? I understand that we need to preserve ourselves, it is very sad that we have to distance ourselves from people that we love to preserve our own sanity.
David . a child is not evil and malicious , they do a tantrum and move on .They enjoy the pain they are inflicting , even to the point of suicide. Sorry just having a horrible time. At the point like Richie says of not been able to articulate it.
@@joyearls8879 I'm sorry you are going through a rough patch.
There's no need to feel shame or guilt because you let in the wrong person. I think it is possible your unconscious has been leading you toward re-traumatisation (seemingly destroying your life) in order for you to understand and wake up at least this time and see: today, now, is different from the times before, you are safe and this time you'll survive...this thought helped me making peace with everything that happened the last three decades of my life.
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Thank you for this incredibly exquisitely put understanding. I'm going to make a note to self of this ☺️
@@1dayfree glad that it could help! :-D
Emotional literacy is brilliant! Ive found words for the pain and anger and lost and im starting to not react to everything because i have words to Express my emotions.ive been able to trace the emotions bk to the real source. Anyone who hasn't got it ,get it !it works it really works .Richard u life saver .
Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
OMG it’s sooooo true!He’s my boss but acts like my baby infant brother. It’s been a shit show journey but I realize how much I’ve grown. That “A HA” moment at 50 freakin years old is both debilitating and freeing! Your teachings have been sooooo helpful and bring new hope. It takes time and is another rollercoaster on top of the one they put you through, but while healing at least your going in on your terms with more wisdom! Much care, empathy, sympathy, hope, courage, strength...fuckin firewall, whatever it takes! Peace, hope, joy, love to you all 🥰
Im just really starting to get what it means to be trauma bonded. It's going back to the person (u love & trust) that hurt you.... because you're co-dependant you go back to them. It doesnt make sense, explain it to me...what? (My) Love hurt(s) me? You want to love them so they'll be nice to you.... to make sense of the pain. ...that's what we learned as children, it's a flashback! If i stay inside me, i can solve it. Thank u Richard!
So true. I’m 4 years out and I had to laugh knowing I did the same exact thing for two years. I still have snippets of trauma bonding but I’m still working on me and I know that will eventually fade away.
My heart is beating at an unmeasurable beat listening to you cause you are so damn right! And yes, I am writing it all down which gives me clarity. But now I will listen to you too cause I am fed up of that energy I feel which is holding me back. No more !
I really loved this. Especially how you described the wall - that’s what I’m doing with my narc. I read and research so much about npd and I keep saying how bad he is how wrong he is . When all along I’ve been allowing him to do this to me. It has taken me a year to realise that the fault is within me. I’m lucky that I’ve not been with this person too long, but he’s such a horrible person that he’s actually making it easier to walk away. So many times he’s hurt me, and every time it gets turned around and I end up apologising and begging for him to come back to me. And every time he has more power and he destroys me a little bit more . Well, today I have decided to walk away ( for the tenth time) but this time I’m doing it differently. This time I am not hoping for him to get back to me or to call. This time I’m hoping he WONT call. This time I’m doing it for my self worth, not to get him to change. Pray for me that I bc an get out of this. I never realised codepencency is such a big thing. I never realised how messed up I am until today. Thank you for this video ❤️
Good luck girl i really hope he still is out of your life by this time now xxx
Just signed divorce papers yesterday... after two years of waiting....
Note to self: don't drink the poisoned, narc, golden child milkshake. 🖒
Detoxing any from addiction is possible. Even trauma bonds. ❣ great vid thanks Richard
Damn u was on point here I am in one of thee worst break ups in history missing her dearly blaming myself doing the research all to find out it really was me who was the victim!! Every single word describes my life crying missing her when she verbally abuses me manipulated me to think it’s my fault!!! Smh I have given her all of my energy and she walks right off everytime
Hello Mr Odenore He can recover
your relationship back
Whats"app him ....
+2349055574121
Zesty shots of Rich’s hard truths keep the empowered empath train rolling.
Mindfullness, awareness, taking stock (whichever term appeals to you), as Richard says, is the only way you can trust yourself after a narcissistic-codependent relationship. Isn't nice to have to go through, the realisation that you have trauma issues yourself and it's not completely the narc's fault (however, don't let your codependency give that narc an inch due to this when you're feeling alone). Accessing the shame is useful and once you feel stronger, you'll be able to mix this awareness with calm-assertiveness (i.e. listen to your gut this time, have the bloody difficult or embarrassing, confronting conversations, express your needs or say 'no', let that person do their own thing then and there and walk away), life becomes better, you can apply this assertiveness with a bit of courage to all situations, not just relationships but work, family, friendships and everything else. Thank you Richard.
Wow! That's it, the truth in a nutshell. So grateful I was brave enough to face the hard truth . Thank you Richard, much love and gratitude.
Honestly Richard, I do not think you comprehend the fullness of my appreciation. You simply cannot. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
People who have never lived with a narcissist does not realize how much control they have over you. It is like an addiction. I know first hand the mental and emotional pain they cause. I met my ex 2 weeks ago to see how he was. Oh he wanted to start back seeing me and see where it would lead. Take it slow he said. I left his home devastated in tears. This man is fixing to marry the lady of his dreams so fake. When you get all this great knowledge use it. Go No Contact !!! You can get your life back. Take time to heal. Love yourself. Everyday is a New Day!
“Can’t escape the maze by looking at the walls of the maze” really resonated with me
Thank you. Great timing as exactly what I need to hear right now after recent hoovering and additional grief. No more mapping. Fuck it. Time to move on.
Highlights for me you admitted to going through it twice yourself. I think it definitely takes time to recover from ptsd and yes the work and admitting you had your own reasons for accepting the behavior
I am appalled at the sheer number of narcissists (both men and women) that exist today. No wonder relationships are going down the toilet. Very very sad. Thanks for the vid, Richard.
It’s so clear that you’ve had a huge transition in your recovery lately Richard. It really shines though. So much strength and confidence. Nice one :)
I’ve been thinking about how we apply this to Narc parents and I think it’s the same thing as a relationship in that we are hooked in by them. But that they have already done the programming in childhood. So it’s harder to break what you can’t see without a baseline of who you were. Plus society expectations, guilt etc. I’m through my trauma bond with my NPD mother. It took 5 years to do. I’m now physically detoxing! 🤣🤣
Thank You Richard..I have only followed for the this year and your intelligent and compassionate message has been a clear guide in owning my CPTSD and taking on the work of emotional literacy.
It is clearly obvious you have personally reached an improved place of being. And I'm going for mental health and wholeness myself. Thanks Again🤗
I am an open person and I dont have problems to admit mistakes or failures....I know life on Earth is a journey...a learning experience...
Physically speaking my teeth have fallen out.. My sanity was next.. Opened CZcams first video.. Ahh the mind reading AI serious note this video really helps right now.
This was actually quite humorous!! I loved it!!
I love how you described the Charlie meme from It's Alway Sunny. LOL
I've been learning to feel the feels and it does get better. I had never thought I was actually able to process, or even survive all that. But my hair and teeth are literally falling out 🤣
I have moved forward in my life and am glad it is now a thing of the past.....this is what has helped me get out of it....I am glad...you resonated with my own personality so well....you explain things so clearly....it makes sense.....I have no wish to go back...the guy had no morals and lied to my face.....I am not interested in having a relationship that has absolutely no trust in it at all....thank you Richard for being there......I just have a few loose ends like getting back to exercise...reducing my drinking and my life is happy again....
Love you a little bit today. Life with them IS like a childish sibling argument!!!!
Much love to you brother, thank you for making these videos. They are really eye-opening and healthy.
I love the new format. Very structured, condensed, easy to understand and captivating. Thank you Richard Grannon! 👍🙂
It’s so beautiful to see your videos reflect your own road to healing Richard. I do believe that’s why your messages have such a liberating affect and effect on those who follow you. It’s RUTHLESS AUTHENTIC ACCOUNTABILITY. Powerful. Namaste!
The humiliation doesn't bother me... i see it more as an indication of actually how pathetic THEY are as a human being... they're sooooooo inadequate and weak that they have to use manipulation and lies just in order to get you interested in them coz they know that if they did what YOU do, and had the balls to live their real selves, no-one would ever come near them... and that is a truth they can't stomach.
They can't even stomach themselves... ugh... why would I like them?
But I like me... no wonder THEY like me!!!
I need some new teeth and hair, growing up is tough.
This video really hit home, please do a part 2 Richard 🙏🏻❤️
I love this so much!! Thank you Richard!! Super helpful and the part with the hair and teeth made me crack up👍😂
Keep doing what you are doing please. It is much appreciated! 🙏
Thank you for addressing bitterness. You hit that right on the head!
This was THE BEST VIDEO I've ever witnessed. THANK YOU, RICHARD!!!!
One of your best videos so far. 👍👍
Besides the obvious pain of toxic abuse, the concept is totally true for most other miseries and sufferings of life. Thank you. 🙏
Perhaps that big map and the key to understanding it all that they are looking for, is the confirmation that it isn't they themselves that have the personality disorder - that they are "normal" and not "crazy" as they've been led to believe.
The "love bombing" phase is just so intoxicating, so convincing, that it seems unfathomable when they discard you the day after saying "you're my world, you mean everything to me forever and ever". All that intensity and passion is turned off like a switch, and the average person tries to make sense of it all, while the narc moves on as though those words were never said, those feelings never happened.
They leave an indelible mark, whereas you are deleted as easily as an old file.
So true love how you don't sugar coat it just the brutal truth thanks
Bravo! Bravo! Thank you for this straightforward and timely message!
Who is putting subtitles to this? I heard loss and it was written lust...
that made me laugh freud would laugh too.
Haha
Rev.com .... repressed perverts !
@@RICHARDGRANNON that was very funny, anyway. It must have been your British accent that confused them. I had thought some words have American spelling, before. I once looked into this type of jobs. They usually pay the transcribers very little money with a lot of work load.
yeah he obviously said 'loss' - it annoyed me that they wrote 'lust' as well!
Excellent info Richard. Thank you. Your videos are so helpful. 💙
I love 💕 this video and the straight talk!!!! Thank you so very Richard!!!!
I needed this ‼️ So many red flags ignored ‼️
I've watched about 200 videos on NPD and can honestly say this is one of the best.
I dont think I felt high amounts of shame...but I think that I felt some shame...because the whole experience is so reality-shaking and confusing..they try to diminish your trust in yourself....but he did not succeed in that in the end...😂
Perfect timing.
Desperately need to hear this. Thank you!
Great stuff, thought I was all healed but it stirred up some deeper layers of the onion, the putting aside parts of myself to please others, because of shame, the belief my stuff isn’t as important as other people’s. The guilt of doing my creative stuff, or even reading a book, as a child I read secretly as it was considered self indulgent and wasting time. Intellectually I know the truth but I’ve been programmed! The reprogramming continues on a deeper level. 💚
Thank you so much for posting this video. It helped me a lot 🔥🔥🔥
Black sheep empath OMG!!! That is me!!! I had to pause the video and go cry 😭.... you are amazing
digging the new video editing
Absolutely incredible insight into how I’m actually feeling at the moment, it’s been 4/5weeks now since I cut off the source she had from me, this video will help me massively..Thank Q so much fella🙏🏼😎
This world is full of pretenders! You can't save somebody who doesn't wanna be saved! Never heard trauma bond til watching this and wow blown away cause its so true! Be careful with your hearts 💛💛💛🙏🏼
Oh Richard... this is so good. IoPT... all of it. Thank you so much.
I hear you Richard, thank you. Stopped proving others with the map but hanging in there for years cause no one showed the codependent and cptsd trail. Since a short time i felt in this by accident (thanks to the internet) Now buckling up for the "healing the super ego" 🙂
It is a very beautifully visual artistic video ( sorry, my English is not so good but what I meant is I enjoyed how Richard is talking in a very simple ambient and then, a coloured image come to picture what he is saying. THat is very beautiful for a very tired mind which is constantly battling with thoughts, ruminating and struggling to find calm and clarity. Those red dice rolling on the green canvas were amazing!! ). THank you, Richard Grannon! Your work( through time) put myself back in my own story and that is a genius work of you, since I was living in other people's movies.
If I could like this a million times I would....very empowering, thank you 💖
I've got a long way to go, but you've saved my life to some degree. It's like a massive weight off my shoulders just understanding a little of what I've been dealing with for over 10 years
OMG, this is so for me...Right on time, as usual. Like, How does Richard always know? I was one trying to understand, talk it out...writing essay-novels trying to explain wtf just happened, and why is there a pattern here? Getting thru that need to understand period took a while. I'm doing the Discipline now and emo lit homework daily and it's helping me feel like I am better and actually moving forward. Thanks Richard!
Thank you again Richard 💗 I’m enjoying “growing up” but it can feel very lonely at times!
We do choose how long we suffer. Getting out of denial is not easy. Getting through acceptance is another tough one. It is at snail speed, but it is doable .. we can heal, we can thrive ❤️
Richard, thank you for this one. It really helps. You do great work. No one explains not understands codependency as well as you. Thank God for you. I have a lot of work to do but it has to be done. Xx.
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This really spoke to me. Thank you.
I dont even want to hear the word narcissist ever again....I dont even want to listen to utube clips any more that discuss the issue....
Excellent Richard. "Gut Spill" yes we do that for sure; if we can find someone to listen and not alienate them in our repetition of spills. Rescuing self through the Narc, you've failed yourself again. Now what? I'm mad at the time I've given them mentally. It's hard to heal your inner child and hang onto the golden bobble too. I'm trying to "make it work", and yes, my hair and teeth are falling out. Thankyou!!!
I am so grateful for the work that you are doing, Richard. Thank you for your videos and information. 🌹🌹🙏🏽🎁
Wow, I stupidly believed I didn't need to do all this. You have confronted me with the vast amount of shit I need to deal with, from infancy till now.
It's overwhelming
This is brilliant
This is powerful thank you !!
Are you processing all of the emotions? ..... Exactly. Emotional literacy rocks.
Brilliant on not avoiding that door leading to sadness and exploring/processing emotions Richard. It IS the right door..even if it follows Alice’s rabbit for a while!
always enlightening
Spot on about the abadoned child reference.
Somebody has smashed my head with a big bad BOULDER.
Truth hurts....
dude this is how I feel, seriously she broke me and i still wanted her back. It's insane their seduction they have. False love and reels you in with sex
on top of that she's pregnant and claims its my kid even tho she sleeps around.
This just ... what a turning point. Wow.
Grief and lust? Sping lambs? maybe do a subtitle check for this excellent video.
I can SO relate to this and you’re so right. There’s NO way to understand why a narcissist did what they did. It’s just f*cked. And going over the story, talking about it and trying to understand it- it’s all a way of avoiding the trauma grief and pain...
Hello Mr Odenore He can recover
your relationship back
Whats"app him ....
+2349055574121
Another great video. I'm a fan of radical responsibility. Its comforting to hear why I didnt deserve abuse and be absolved of causing it but I need to learn how to process Aaaaallllll... oooohhlllll of the emotions lol
thanks alot! 3AM here, doing my best to work on my self and you said it best....it is a trauma bond, all we do is keep fighting about what we did to each other in the past and it just never ends and boundaries are broken, we cuss each other out and it brings out the worst in me, im so tired of it. Im ready to let it go and grow out of this. It took 3 years of my life my esteem. shit am i writting a story....lol anyways thanks.
In tears...I can't even explain how heard I felt
I've been in therapy for about 5 months now and when I started, I didn't know which way was up. I was diagnosed with CPTSD from past abuse and have been with my husband for almost 14 years. I attempted suicide because I was convinced that I was crazy, unlovable and toxic to everyone I loved. It's true my behavior was unhealthy and my coping skills were/are limited but I'm learning how I ended up here. I've been operating from a trauma response for most of my life. Violent childhood, institutional abuse in a long term treatment facility when I was a teen and then one abusive relationship after another including my marriage now. Trauma bonds created in these types of relationships are so so strong especially when you have been conditioned to accept that kind of behavior or in my case accept the blame for how I allow others to treat me. I never learned how to walk away from toxic situations, I was only taught to endure them. Working on myself and finding support from ACOA and other groups has been important in keeping myself grounded. These videos are amazing and really help me to understand things better.
Omg - this map story makes me laugh 🤭😂... so good ! ... it feels so good to laugh...these codependency relationship pattern are so crazy & so subtle...i allow myself to heal from these pattern .
Someone had to tell us ✌🏻