The Uglier Side of Mental Illness - my experience with schizophrenia and things we don't talk about

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  • čas přidán 5. 08. 2024
  • Hi!
    the stigma around mental health is huge, and even though the conversation is being brought up more often I still feel like there is a lot surrounding mental illness that we don't dare talk about yet. We still look away from the real truth of how mental illness can look like and how deeply it can affect a persons life and state of mind. in this video im diving a little deeper to what it can look like, even though it can be gross, embarrassing and feel exposing...
    thank you for watching! 💚
    contact: kimberlyhallberg95@outlook.com
    #schizophrenia #mentalhealth #livingwithschizophrenia
    Chapters:
    0:00 Intro
    0:31 - Hygien
    5:03 - Weight
    07:20 - Home life
    10:15 - Relationships
    13:08 - Finances
    15:02 - Inpatient care
    17:48 - Cognitive function
    19:32 - Outro
    Equipment:
    Camera: iphone 13
    Editing software: final cut pro
    Thumbnails: canva, procreate
    Music: epidemicsound
    All of my music is from epidemic sound! www.epidemicsound.com/music/f...
    Tags: schizophrenia, mental health, living with mental illness, the ugly side of mental illness, stigma,

Komentáře • 267

  • @kite6864
    @kite6864 Před 28 dny +8

    with less finances we lose out on alot of hobbies as well, since those cost money, art supplies, photography, games, music . even be social going out with friends can cost money and we might not always be able to

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 28 dny +3

      exactly! Money buys a lot of freedom and comfort unfortunately. 💔

  • @sky2333
    @sky2333 Před rokem +71

    Thank you for being so vulnerable. We need more people like you

  • @frankieharvey4353
    @frankieharvey4353 Před rokem +49

    I have 24/7 support workers, so I am continuously prompted to do things, and most of the time I don't want to do ANYTHING! The fact that you cope on your own speaks volumes. You are an inspiration to me.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +17

      Oh thank you Frankie! 🥹💚 I hope you're doing good, there is no shame in having support! I don't even want to think about the state my apartment would be in if my mother didn't help me from time to time! ❤️

    • @vickistrouse850
      @vickistrouse850 Před rokem +1

      Kimberly, you are so sweet. I struggle with mental illness and schizophrenia. I am 66 years old, a widow, with a 32 year old son. You are not gross. You are ill. These struggles go hand in hand with schizophrenia. Be kind to yourself and know you are not your illness. You need support and you need to understand not to feel shamed because you need help. You are really courageous to be honest and real about your illness. Their is no shame for needing help. Your mental disability isn't obvious like the a physical disability of someone in a wheelchair who needs help taking care of. You are a wonderful advocate for us and I am very proud of you. You are in my prayers for healing and strength to overcome and know how precious you are.

  • @franceslock1662
    @franceslock1662 Před měsícem +7

    My son has this illness. He is very thin. He doesn’t get any service support. I worry about him. He is a child in an adult’s body. Don’t feel so bad. Lots of people have a cleaner, a dishwasher, a large dryer, and a 10 kg washer. All these enable people to work more. Where I live, we have rubbish bins at our back door so it’s easy and quick. Menial tasks can be obstacles to increased productivity and creativity. Don’t beat yourself up. Find work you are passionate about and delegate menial tasks.

  • @karinbaird2499
    @karinbaird2499 Před rokem +42

    Sweetie you are not gross at all. You are lovely at any size.❤️❤️❤️

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +10

      thank you! 🥹❤❤❤

    • @anitahood196
      @anitahood196 Před 11 měsíci +5

      Not gross graciously telling your story.

    • @SchizophrenicFilms
      @SchizophrenicFilms Před 5 měsíci +4

      Yeah, your not gross at all. I know how it is having schizophrenia, you are less likely to do things that you used to normally do.

    • @OnwardChristianSoldiers.
      @OnwardChristianSoldiers. Před měsícem +4

      @@KimberlyHallberg you are definitely a beautiful young woman and well spoken.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před měsícem +3

      @@OnwardChristianSoldiers. thank you! 💚

  • @hollywebster6844
    @hollywebster6844 Před rokem +15

    Thank you for your bravery. Unless someone has had up close experience of mental illness, do not judge other people. You have no idea of the daily struggle for survival of those who live with serious mental illness.

  • @myredpencil
    @myredpencil Před měsícem +6

    There's no shame in taking out trash bags! Just like I say there's no shame in clean clothes when I just leave them in the basket for weeks. You're not a burden or any kind of unpleasant at all! My first time watching your channel, I adore your kind voice! Subscribed.

  • @carolvalentine8158
    @carolvalentine8158 Před 11 měsíci +7

    I am schizophrenic and bipolar . I have found that I am good and clean showering every three days . Showering is such a challenge that showering day that is all I do , that is all that I expect from myself . Doing dishes is next to impossible . I have to use paper plates and plastic utensils . I never cook . I have my own washer and dryer and I actually enjoy doing laundry . I like hearing the machines work - working is so hard for me.... All this being said , I have really adjusted to my mental illness negative symptoms and executive dysfunction . I am a happy person .

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 11 měsíci +1

      Hi! yes,, doing basic things can be very hard sometimes and sometimes you have to learn and use shortcuts I believe! thank you for watching! 🥰

    • @kite6864
      @kite6864 Před 28 dny +1

      every 3 days isn't too bad... it's not really good for our skin and hair to be washed everyday anyway.

    • @LLS710
      @LLS710 Před 16 dny +1

      I like the sound of the washer/dryer too.

  • @OnwardChristianSoldiers.
    @OnwardChristianSoldiers. Před měsícem +7

    I truly appreciate your honesty no judgment here. I completely understand.

  • @rosebuddud0307
    @rosebuddud0307 Před rokem +26

    So awesome to hear someone be honest about living with mental illness. Yes! Yes! To all these things! I struggle to shower and change my clothes often. My partner does the laundry so I could change more often but I don't want to make more work for him. Plus it's just plain hard to do. To hear someone on CZcams admit they struggle too, is just amazing. Thank you Kimberly. I have also found it difficult to maintain friendships. My partner and I don't mix with others much. But at least we have each other. Our relationship is anything but normal however. But we do laugh together and I think it's this that keeps us afloat. I wish for you more friendships and especially those which are genuine. You deserve it.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +6

      oh thank you! 🥹❤️ I'm glad that you have support from your partner and that you care about each other! sending you both my best well wishes! ❤️❤️

  • @lindarosenthal6835
    @lindarosenthal6835 Před měsícem +4

    I have a brother with schizophrenia and bipolar polar. This lack of self care is one of his symptoms that I, as well as his caregiver, struggle with a lot. Thank you for sharing.

  • @user-km9hf9vr3o
    @user-km9hf9vr3o Před 8 dny +2

    Thank you for being so honest it's hard for people who have never experienced severe depression to understand how debilitating it can be. You are not gross you are very human, doing the best you can and doing it very openly sharing with
    others who are going through the same thing. We need to normalise the less savoury side of depression and not feel shame or embarrassment for being human. Love your blog! 💙💙

  • @tacoking7155
    @tacoking7155 Před rokem +19

    Thank god, I'm not alone on this struggle. I have been having the worst time taking out my trash, cleaning my house, everything, literally everything and I have been having the hardest time telling my Dr & Therapist what struggles i'm having and somehow this video completely encapsulates that... They keep asking what I think are "stupid questions", like how are you doing, not direct questions! Like when was the last time you took a bath, are you taking out your trash, do you have more then one set of dishes clean, did you forget to take your medicine any since the last time we met, how long does it take for you to leave your house and get ready each day on average, how many hours a day average would you say you feel almost completely lost and pace around the house/room for literally no reason whatsoever talking to yourself... These questions to me, indicate the cognitive deficits associated with this illness sooo much more than the questions they have been asking me. I cannot be the only one that struggles answering , and it's super disappointing to see other people with this illness present so easily the symptoms i'm dealing with yet they fail completely to pick up on that.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +4

      you are definitely not alone! 💚 and I agree with you, they very often ask about mood not how you're holding everything up! thank you for watching! 🥹💚

  • @sand352
    @sand352 Před rokem +9

    Hi from Russia! Its not your fault! In fact just by living with that illness you already doing more than all other people! All that doesn't make you ugly and you are very brave for being so vulnerable

  • @rebeccamariscal8091
    @rebeccamariscal8091 Před měsícem +4

    You are so smart, brave, caring. Thanks for sharing.

  • @cherylmiller2272
    @cherylmiller2272 Před rokem +16

    You described my son to a "T". He is improving some, but still has a ways to go. He has a representive payee, which helps a lot. Thanks for being truthful and willing to tell it like it is. Blessings on you.. .I love your channel.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +4

      Oh thank you! 💚 I'm send you and your son my best wishes, it gets better! it just takes some time! ❤️

  • @emmelinesprig489
    @emmelinesprig489 Před rokem +7

    Thank you for being so bold and sharing your experience! I believe I have CPTSD, chronic depression, anxiety, and possibly Avoidant Personality Disorder (none diagnosed, because I’ve never been to therapy yet).
    I experience most of these struggles too. I’ve lost a tooth because it was too damaged by my hygiene neglect and bad diet. Many of my teeth are de-calcified and discolored. I feel self conscious about it sometimes. It’s an outward signal of how depleted I have been inside.
    I’ve lost most of my friends because of my self isolation.
    One step at a time. I’ll probably always struggle with caring for myself and with maintaining relationships, and that’s ok. We need more time and support than typical people, and anyone who shames us for that is ignorant and irrelevant. Even most typical people really need more support than they are given.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +2

      thank you! 🥰 and yes, I believe you have to learn to live with your illnesses and remember that it will become easier with time 🥰

  • @elizabethmershon52
    @elizabethmershon52 Před 3 dny +1

    I am so right there with you. And it is embarrassing. And I (don’t want to say it) we are gross. I never thought of these these coming from mental illness. Makes sense. I know one of my sons is just like me. I need to tell him what I’ve learned, but I’ve procrastinated so far

  • @sunny4lady
    @sunny4lady Před rokem +6

    Before my diagnosis in 2018 I was super active, showered every Day, brushed my teeth twice a Day, I also biked a lot, played the piano and went to Martial arts! Now I shower every second Day, brush my teeth once a Day, dont play the piano and dont bike! My father does cook food for me, cleans my apartment, does my laundry etc. I dont have the same motivation anymore 😓

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +2

      I'm sad to hear and I can relate, lost many hobbies and fun things because of low energy and motivation! i'm sending you my best wishes! ❤️

  • @lauragreen2008
    @lauragreen2008 Před rokem +7

    I too struggle with all this when Ill. I sleep in my day clothes then carry on the next day for weeks. I also suffer with agoraphobia when Ill as the outside world is scary and overwhelming. I have started on new medication and it's like night and day, or maybe it's because my symptoms vary through the season. God I love spring! By the way you look lovely in your video and you have a bunch of new friends here.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +2

      thank you! 🥹 glad to hear you are feeling better! I wish you well! 💖

  • @blairj1188
    @blairj1188 Před rokem +13

    I related to a lot of things you discussed in this video. I have bipolar disorder and I have struggled with almost everything you mentioned. I think it's good that you are bringing to light the reality of mental illness to anyone who comes across this video. Thanks for sharing, Kimberly.

  • @tanyatalkstoomuch
    @tanyatalkstoomuch Před měsícem +3

    I was at the dentist just last week. The nurse was very understanding of my mental health issues and when I told her I don't brush my teeth. But when the dentist himself came in and she said that to him he was like are you actually kidding me you don't brush your teeth? And I was like no I'm not kidding you I have mental illness. It was so sad 😕

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před měsícem

      Thats a shame, some people really don't understand how debilitating mental illness can be.. I hope it didn't discourage you from going back to the dentist. 💚

    • @tanyatalkstoomuch
      @tanyatalkstoomuch Před měsícem +1

      @@KimberlyHallberg I'm not in any rush to go back but I will at some point...

  • @MadeleinesMadeleines
    @MadeleinesMadeleines Před rokem +10

    I appreciate your honesty cause I wouldn’t be able to talk about my most vulnerable times with anyone
    Especially seeing how cold and mean the world can be
    and I think it’s impressive that you improve despite those hardships
    It’s hard for people who are not in a similar situation to relate or even understand so I just wanted to let you know that as long as we do our best we can really pat ourselves on the back

  • @faustina6708
    @faustina6708 Před 25 dny +2

    Thank you for your bravery. I was recently diagnosed wirh bipolar one with psychotic features and i was in a period of dark loneliness until i found resources like you. You are a lifesaver. ❤

  • @gerberdaisies
    @gerberdaisies Před 10 dny +1

    It does need to be talked about. You’ve made me feel so relieved about what I’ve been through too. Thank you

  • @alpage9306
    @alpage9306 Před rokem +11

    My energy levels are flat to l,
    sometimes when I'm out I have to rest for a while even take
    a few minutes nap
    On a park bench or wherever I can
    and it's such a contradiction to the paranoia I suffer at times,
    It has
    me depressed, I'm only 31 I shouldn't be this tired...
    There are men way older than me that have loads of more energy.
    Stay positive and thanks for being brave and sharing this.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +5

      thank you for watching! ❤ and yes, having to take naps is common for me too, sometimes I feel like i'm 100 years old always taking afternoon naps 😅

    • @rebeccaphillipsmullins8124
      @rebeccaphillipsmullins8124 Před rokem +1

      Me too

    • @alpage9306
      @alpage9306 Před rokem +2

      @@KimberlyHallberg you welcome I hope all is going well

    • @alpage9306
      @alpage9306 Před rokem +1

      @@rebeccaphillipsmullins8124 yeah it's rough, especially being young I hope all goes well

    • @barbarahenninger6642
      @barbarahenninger6642 Před měsícem

      I never realized the extreme fatigue that goes along with mental illnesses. Thank you for sharing your experience.

  • @brylaw
    @brylaw Před rokem +5

    I so appreciate this video! Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing. I don't have schizophrenia, but I am autistic and have PTSD and ADHD, and so much of this is relatable.
    I wish the US had access to the kinds of supports that you described. A lack of support has me trapped in a cycle of burnout, and it would be incredible to be able to access resources.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +3

      thank you! i'm glad you like it! 💚 sad to hear that you're getting burnt out because of the system, I'm very lucky to have these resources if needed. thank you for watching and leaving a comment! 🥹💚

  • @elizabethmershon52
    @elizabethmershon52 Před 3 dny +1

    I’m not able to work a job anymore, and don’t have enough to go to a doctor at all. I can’t manage Vito take the time and focus to find any resources that might be out there

  • @MsLoma1212
    @MsLoma1212 Před 29 dny +2

    I've been struggling with depression and anxiety and can relate to it so much.
    Thank you for sharing this ❤
    When I go through episodes when I don't take care of my hygiene I feel so much guilt. But I continue to sabotage myself and it makes guilt stronger. It's like a vicious cycle. It's almost like you need someone to come and say to you it's enough please go and shower...

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 28 dny

      thank you for watching and sharing, I agree that it becomes a vicious cycle. 💚

  • @Gurpreet_vlogging
    @Gurpreet_vlogging Před rokem +10

    i've experienced all these things, thanks for sharing.

  • @ptlovelight2971
    @ptlovelight2971 Před 6 měsíci +3

    Oh sweetie, no one here will judge you for these! We all understand that it's a part of the disorder. Ironically, i have also done some of these, and i don't have schizophrenia. At my worst times in life, when i was probably suffering from major depression, i didn't bathe either. The longest i think was 2 weeks. When i finally did get the energy to clean myself, the bathtub looked awful! I was so ashamed. I also struggled with binge eating junk foods; i was so emotionally dead that the only time i felt good was when i was eating salty chips, sweet desserts, pastries, sandwiches, cereals, and sweet coffee drinks. Same with the trash....i was forced to clean up once maggots got in it :( Definitely one of the first signs that someone is not doing well mentally is when they struggle to take basic care of themselves.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 6 měsíci

      sad to hear you can relate, we really shouldn't feel ashamed but its hard when you are embarrassed about not being able to take care of yourself properly. I can also relate to the emotional eating, sometimes I just didnt care about anything... thank you for sharing and commenting! ❤

  • @hxjdjdn6236
    @hxjdjdn6236 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Thank you so much❤ At every point I was like, YES! ME TOO!!!
    I am learning so much about my depression. I am at a stage when I am learning how I can take care of myself. It is very different how I used to be or what is considered as "normal" or not a big deal. The big thing I had to accept that I just can't do it all. If I manage to wash my hair, I will not have energy to do dishes, if I decide to cook, I can't also wash my clothes and so on and on...some days I can manage a bigger task and some days we are talking about shall I brush my teeth or have a bowl of cereal. I wish the world stops a bit so I can catch up but it seems like I just have to get used to my new pace 😊

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 2 měsíci +2

      oh thank you! that means a lot for me! I hope you feel better soon, just remember (even though it's hard) that to let it take time. everything needs to heal and sadly that can take time so be patient. 💚 you'll catch up eventually in your own pace! 💚

  • @silverdweller2809
    @silverdweller2809 Před rokem +9

    I really appreciate this video. I've gone a few months without showering before. It can be really bad. I just can't make myself do it sometimes. You're not alone.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +4

      Thank you for watching and your lovely comment! sometimes its nice being reminded that your not alone with problems like this 🥹❤️

  • @scotchmist...
    @scotchmist... Před rokem +4

    Another excellent video. I think especially the bit about friends hits hard- I lost most of my friends after I was diagnosed. I see it as starting a new chapter in life

  • @madelinegrace7575
    @madelinegrace7575 Před rokem +7

    Wonderful video Kimberly. I relate to a lot of what you're talking about. Since my last psychotic episode I feel like cognitively I'm not the same. My attention span has become quite damaged and I can't concentrate on tasks for very long or get deep concentration. For example I used to be able to read hundreds of pages of a book, now I struggle with reading which was a hobby I loved. I also find that I struggle with taking care of myself and cooking and things like that because I don't have the motivation. Thanks for sharing xx

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +3

      thank you for watching! 💚 I also struggled a lot with concentrating, I haven't read regularly until last year so it took a couple years to get it back and I still have times where it's impossible. sending you my best wishes! ❤️

  • @PammyJ6107
    @PammyJ6107 Před rokem +10

    This was such an important video Kimberly, I have struggled myself with many of these things and have been frustrated and even embarrassed just like you mentioned. The good thing is every new day gives us the opportunity to work on these things and get better! Hope you have a great week :)

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +3

      Thank you Pam! 💚 I hope you get a nice week as well! 💚

  • @the3underwoods
    @the3underwoods Před 16 dny +1

    I relate to everything you are talking about and ots shameful how shameful we feel about ourselves. I too have no friends and feel very very lonely but my social skills are non existent x

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 16 dny

      Sad to hear, Im also very awkward with getting to know people and find it hard to make friends. I hope to meet new people soon maybe at art school. 💚

  • @mlieli
    @mlieli Před rokem +6

    Thank you for sharing! Your honesty is comforting and it's soothing to watch your channel. Makes me fell less alone in my own struggle.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +3

      Thank you so much! that makes me so happy to hear! you are definitely not alone! 🥹💚

  • @mizachs
    @mizachs Před rokem +6

    I recognize these things too. Thanks for sharing! I have not discussed my symptoms a lot with anyone.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +3

      Thank you for watching! ❤️

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      @uuuuhgggyg3267 Před 9 měsíci

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  • @Elle-ht3km
    @Elle-ht3km Před 5 dny +2

    Thank you, you’re honestly is beautiful, and so are you ❤

  • @Velvetwings9
    @Velvetwings9 Před rokem +4

    You are so brave and so articulate! ❤ i can totally relate. I am also struggling with these things too. The ‘walk of shame’ is so familiar 😅

  • @tamiknopping3501
    @tamiknopping3501 Před 22 dny +1

    Kim - thank you so much for your transparency . I have a daughter that suffers and your sharing this helps me so much to understand. I hope you know your impact is valuable and you sharing so honestly is so courageous. Thank you! (And your Enlish is excellent!)

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 22 dny

      thank you for watching and for leaving such a kind comment! I'm glad my video can have some use, my best wishes to you and your daughter. 💚

  • @jeancardoza4442
    @jeancardoza4442 Před rokem +6

    Wonderful video, so honest and well presented! It does not change my opinion of you. You are a very intelligent, creative person--I admire you very much. I have great compassion for what you and others with a serious mental health condition go through. Thank you for helping us become more enlightened.

  • @pauline_raabe
    @pauline_raabe Před 16 dny +1

    Everything you said here mirrors me. Thank you so much for talking about it in depth. I needed to hear this. Even to comment on it is a big step for me.
    Thank you 💞💐

  • @BasedRaven96
    @BasedRaven96 Před rokem +4

    Thanks for being so honest and open! Much respect! I have schizophrenia also, and I recognize myself in a lot of the things you brought up, like cognitive difficulties, sometimes having a hard time with keeping up with hygien and so on!

  • @Holly858
    @Holly858 Před rokem +4

    I struggle also with my depression and sometimes I used to go 2 weeks without showering. Iam so tired all the time which makes it hard not to be a little messy at times.Some days I do pretty good and other days I struggle.Thank you for all your videos as It helps me realize I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing your personal information;you are truly an inspiration to anyone out there that suffers from any type of mental illness! You are stronger than you think you are! Holly

  • @susanmargaretwills6432
    @susanmargaretwills6432 Před 21 dnem

    "... dental treatment has cost me a few more CROWNS" - Kimberly cracked a joke in the midst of her sad video🤣

  • @SchizophrenicFilms
    @SchizophrenicFilms Před 5 měsíci +2

    I have used food as a coping mechanism too. I now weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life. I'm now 264 pounds. I've gained a lot over the past year, as my previous weight was 230 pounds. When I first got schizophrenia, I stopped eating or did not eat as much, and lost a ton of weight and got down to 185 pounds in 2018.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 5 měsíci +2

      Food has been a big issue for me, it took me quitting zyprexa in order to finally start losing weight properly but sadly the diabetes came first... but it has been a lot easier since quitting zyprexa. 😊

    • @SchizophrenicFilms
      @SchizophrenicFilms Před 5 měsíci

      I hated Zyprexa. That's the problem with all anti-psychotics is that you are more likely to get diabetes. Personally, I think having an arm or leg chopped off from diabetes is worse than having mental illness, so personally, I don't want to be on anti-psychotics anymore. I've known 2 people that had legs chopped off from diabetes and now, both are dead. Now, the only thing I take is Prozac and a bunch of stuff for high blood pressure, metformin, and acid reflux disease pills. @@KimberlyHallberg

  • @user-pe9tm1bz4s
    @user-pe9tm1bz4s Před měsícem +1

    thank you for your honesty and vulnerability ❤

  • @tf1316
    @tf1316 Před rokem +4

    Its so brave and great that you talk about these things. I can relate to many things 💚

  • @SchizophrenicFilms
    @SchizophrenicFilms Před 5 měsíci +2

    I often wear clothes for 4 days in a row too. I was never like this before I got schizophrenia. I got it late in life at the age of 45 years old. I use to shower every day. I guess living with mental illness makes you less likely to take care of yourself. I do brush my teeth every day though. That is my one obsession.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 5 měsíci +1

      same here, I did however get a scare with my teeth and now brush them and floss the way I should. right now im doing better with the hygiene stuff but its usually the first thing to go when I get ill... 😕

  • @nickdangelo3266
    @nickdangelo3266 Před rokem +2

    Kimberly I feel you on all the things you talked about, I have the same problems

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      sad to hear! I hope this video made you feel less alone with the struggles 💚

  • @LLS710
    @LLS710 Před 16 dny +2

    You aren't kidding about not having the energy to function.

  • @murielmoloney1043
    @murielmoloney1043 Před 29 dny +1

    Bless you for your brave honesty

  • @Filthycoffin
    @Filthycoffin Před měsícem +1

    Hi I’ll be your friend!! 🎉😊 Hugs I hope you’re having a good day. I totally understand where you’re coming from. I think a lot of symptoms comes from trauma and abuse. You’re brave strong beautiful encouraging resilient caring and are totally needed here. ❤

  • @chryssanthistell
    @chryssanthistell Před měsícem +1

    Congratulations on coping with your illness. I understand that it is not a piece of cake, but you make it seem that is something that is possible to harness. You need not feel ashamed. It's not the end of the world skipping some showers or carrying four bags of garbage in the night. Take good care of yourself.

  • @barbarahenninger6642
    @barbarahenninger6642 Před měsícem +1

    You have such a wonderful way of analyzing and explaining. I feel really lucky that your video came onto my CZcams I do not have schizophrenia, but I can still relate to the problems you talk about, especially about being reclusive to the point where I lose friends.

  • @sofiamuller4027
    @sofiamuller4027 Před rokem +1

    Very important to talk about. Thank you!

  • @Jazzypurr
    @Jazzypurr Před rokem +2

    Thanks for being so real and telling it like it is. ❤❤❤❤❤!

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      thank you for the super thanks and for watching! ❤❤❤

  • @user-km9hf9vr3o
    @user-km9hf9vr3o Před 5 měsíci +1

    Thank you for being strong enough to share this just be kinder to yourself you are doing the best you can. i have experienced the same things and totally get where you are coming from.

  • @FM-st4yn
    @FM-st4yn Před rokem +3

    I love your videos (and I think I wrote that in every video of yours that I saw!)
    Your honesty and simplicity in explaining just how it is is so touching.
    I send you hugs from England!
    I am also one of your first followers, I remember a video that you were thanking having a couple of hundreds of followers and now you surpassed 1.5k !
    You are helping a lot of people . Thank you ❤️

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +2

      Thank you so much! I'm glad you like them and thank you for sticking around for so long! 🥹💚

  • @eggcouncil629
    @eggcouncil629 Před rokem +2

    I tried to cope for years on my own, it doesn't work but now I have some short term support and I'm going to use that support to also get long term support. For years I didn't want help so I was in and out of hospital but recently a support worker helped me to avoid a hospital stay so it works, mental illness really sucks

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      I hope it goes well for you! sending my best well wishes, as you said mental illness can really suck... 💚

  • @narainpamedceciliamalmberg

    Tack så jättemycket för ditt mod och din ärlighet! Du betyder så mycket! Jag har både Schizoaffektivt syndrom och Asperger och känner så igen mig.. Så, tack igen och en varm kram!

  • @peterbengtsson
    @peterbengtsson Před rokem +2

    Fantastic video! Keep doing what you are doing! God bless!

  • @jackwetherall9350
    @jackwetherall9350 Před rokem +2

    Thank you for your share this is all part of being a "Normal Schizophrenic" I'm just like you and it bothers me too ,sometimes we just have to wait it out till we are better , you are a wonderful person and very courageous

  • @robertstone8056
    @robertstone8056 Před rokem +4

    good video kimberly.....im in the same boat😑

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      Thank you Robert! Sad to hear but I'm sending you my best wishes! 💚

  • @LouiseFalt
    @LouiseFalt Před rokem +2

    Thank you for making this video. You said so many good things and had so many great points. ❤ Let's break the stigma.
    Take care 💕

  • @Lisa-fv7pp
    @Lisa-fv7pp Před měsícem +2

    You are absolutely wonderful and amazing ❤️❤️💐

  • @Ashleyiza
    @Ashleyiza Před 7 měsíci +1

    I understand some of your struggles. It sucks. Thank you for sharing your story ❤ I think you're beautiful!

  • @Bir1953
    @Bir1953 Před měsícem +1

    Your honesty is refreshing and your video has been very informative...thank you for sharing.❤

  • @johnmadden1605
    @johnmadden1605 Před rokem +2

    Kimberly this is John Madden from the United States Pawtucket Rhode Island USA in Southern New England I love and appreciate the work that you do

  • @johnmadden1605
    @johnmadden1605 Před rokem +2

    Yes I understand Kimberly I've been in the same boat

  • @SeriNe-fj9gh
    @SeriNe-fj9gh Před rokem +2

    I know this struggle all too well and it‘s awful because taking care of oneself does actually contribute to well being. Thanks for making this video and talking about what most don‘t want to talk about!🌸

  • @ariahathaway5517
    @ariahathaway5517 Před rokem +2

    Thanks Kimberly... Taking a shower in the morning is like climbing Mount Everett... 😂 I get it all completely. I think you're doing really well tho...thanks for speaking about these things also. It makes me feel less alone and hopefully you too when you see how many people here share your struggles... Much love 💕

  • @Marei.172
    @Marei.172 Před rokem +3

    Hi dear! Really loved this video, you really saved some of us a lot of time explaining to loved ones who are not very well caught on yet about mental illness. This video is spot on. I really hope that we all can do better for ourselves for example more self love and self compassion on the daily. Thank you for your time and effort and vulnerability. God bless you. 🎉

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      oh thank you! 🥹 it makes me so glad that you had some use or enjoyment from the video, even if its just feeling less alone! thank you! 💚💚

    • @Marei.172
      @Marei.172 Před rokem +2

      @@KimberlyHallberg yes I did feel less alone after watching this. Hugs

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      @@Marei.172 that makes me glad to hear! hugs ❤

  • @thegnarlyvagabond
    @thegnarlyvagabond Před rokem +2

    I struggle with cleaning. Showering isn't a problem for me, because I love knowing that I'm all fresh, clean and smell good. I don't feel motivated to clean at all, once I get going I usually don't mind it but I just can't get started. It all comes down to being low energy. When you are tired, and even just going for a walk is a monumental task how are you going to find the energy to clean, and maintain your hygiene and surroundings? Still, I am slowly making progress.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem

      yes, it can really feel like such a big hurdle to start cleaning and it just becomes more daunting the messier it gets... thank you for watching! 💚

  • @originalvonster
    @originalvonster Před 11 měsíci +1

    Thank you for being so honest. I have bipolar and I think the struggles are similar especially being on antipsychotics.

  • @gypsyskyy9451
    @gypsyskyy9451 Před rokem +2

    Thank you again Kimberly for sharing your challenges and vulnerbilities. You help so many people including myself. I have a lot of thoughts on all the things you talked about because I have struggled with the same but to a lesser extent. I feel so lethargic and like a slug, because of my depression and the meds. I want to do so much and cant so that is depressing. If I dont go out for a few days my garbage in right by my front door the whole time. And the trash cute is just down the hall, I live in an apt. Not as bad as what you do through, but I still feel like I can relate, the not cooking and cleaning etc. You are really helpful to people no matter what their mental illness is. God bless! Keep sharing! Hugs from Mary Ann . . .🤗💜💜💜

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      Thank you Mary Ann! 🥹💚 As you said, not being able to do these things also worsen the depression because you do want to do them. I'm sending you a big hug to you too! ❤️

    • @gypsyskyy9451
      @gypsyskyy9451 Před rokem +1

      @@KimberlyHallberg Thanks so much Kimberly! 💜

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      @@gypsyskyy9451 no problem! ❤

  • @hayleyprice8345
    @hayleyprice8345 Před měsícem +1

    Very well explained

  • @karenterrell8843
    @karenterrell8843 Před rokem +1

    Thank you for sharing.

  • @ritini2335
    @ritini2335 Před rokem +3

    I think you are amazing!

  • @Jazzypurr
    @Jazzypurr Před rokem +1

    Thanks!

  • @Kim-uh8hc
    @Kim-uh8hc Před 25 dny +1

    I have schizo affective disorder and I struggle with the same things I also have a son it's so hard

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před 25 dny +1

      @@Kim-uh8hc sad to hear that I can’t imagine how tough it must be raising a child at the same time, my best wishes to you! ❤️‍🩹

  • @thebutterfluffman6855
    @thebutterfluffman6855 Před rokem +1

    Inpatient from everything Ive heard sounds very terrifying, I don't know how I would I respond to being essentially held kidnapped. However I like to think because of my occupation I'd be fine.

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem

      its not that scary really, you basically just eat, sleep, smoke and drink coffee/tea and meet with doctors and sometimes have therapy. 🙃

  • @user-pm7ge9wh8s
    @user-pm7ge9wh8s Před rokem +1

    You are lovely and very sincere homest and humble.

  • @margepaz
    @margepaz Před rokem +2

    I think you have tremendous courage.

  • @fredrikscoaching9343
    @fredrikscoaching9343 Před rokem

    are there any mental health groups in your city? like a "community" of people who meet and talk, this can be helpful to meet people who is also struggling and can maybe understand your situation better, otherwise to cope with loneliness is to try to spend more time away from your apartment (eg walk in nature). I think find some people/groups (or just try to limit the time in the apartment) is crucial for getting better, because then the isolation begins to break which can release the depression

  • @alexandermatthewsmusic
    @alexandermatthewsmusic Před rokem +3

    I'm schizophrenic and lost all my friends it seems the same way as you lost a few... I like going to a cafe or go to an open mic and talk to a few people but don't have one person I could go for a coffee with... I went to a concert last night by myself aurora she's Norwegian the whole time I was nervous and struggled a bit today after... Anyway the thrill of illness what fun... Wish you lived in new Zealand could start a mental health vlog coffee group ha

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      hi, im sad to hear that you also have the same troubles 😔 and yes a mental health coffee group would have been a dream! if you would like to talk to other people with schizophrenia I can link you a forum if your interested? thank you for your comment!💚

    • @alexandermatthewsmusic
      @alexandermatthewsmusic Před rokem +1

      @@KimberlyHallberg hi thanks for your reply and generous offer... I'm 43 and lived with it for a while I'm pretty set in my ways so I won't join the forum right now but I'll keep it in mind thanks again... I've started some vlogs and am enjoying listening to others stories here on CZcams though thanks for your contribution it's great :) keep it up it's worth it!

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      @@alexandermatthewsmusic thank you! and if you change your mind just comment and I will paste the link to it 😊

  • @cynthiahurlburt2819
    @cynthiahurlburt2819 Před rokem +1

    So enjoy your insight and straight forward information. This topic describes my son to the " T ".
    Once a go getter ,now not so.
    How does one approach the sensitivity of personal hygiene without demeaning in any manner

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem

      thank you! 💚 to be honest I don't know, i would perhaps suggest shortcuts, using mouthwash, dry shampoo, deodorant an so on but its hard to make another person care about it themselves if there isn't any motivation, sadly! 😔

    • @cynthiahurlburt2819
      @cynthiahurlburt2819 Před rokem +1

      Thank you. Take one day at a time. Come summertime I foresee balloon water fights, lol 😆 ❤️ 🌻

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem

      @@cynthiahurlburt2819 ❤

  • @user-wc2xd5yb6m
    @user-wc2xd5yb6m Před 3 měsíci +1

    You are very brave.

  • @mandia469
    @mandia469 Před 7 měsíci

    Well i dont have the hygeine problems, but i do go through some days where im low on energy and will go at least 2 days without brushing. I work full time and i also have fibroids that make me look pregnant. So alot of times im in pain, and feeling drained and my place just gets dirty throughout the week and wont get cleaned for awhile. I often daydream about coworkers who are totally together, keep a clean home on a regular basis, and im like "how,",!! And when im in unravel mode, say if ive been off my meds for a while, sometimes im scared to even get out of bed due to my anxieties! Doing the minorest things while im unraveled feels like an unsafe torment! So i just stay in bed, under the covers to make me feel protected!

  • @heathergray5808
    @heathergray5808 Před 4 měsíci +1

    I have the same diagnosis and you are not gross I do the same thing. It's a fight sometimes and I am 51 and 200 lbs. Even though I got gastric sleeve.

  • @lauragreen2008
    @lauragreen2008 Před rokem +1

    Thanks

  • @Dianaandtheroses
    @Dianaandtheroses Před rokem +2

    For me it has been staying in bed too much and My back is getting damaged

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      ouch! I can relate somewhat, I have gotten pain in my back because I laid in bed for too long but no real damage! sending you my best wishes! ❤️

    • @eggcouncil629
      @eggcouncil629 Před rokem +1

      Same

  • @hayleyprice8345
    @hayleyprice8345 Před rokem +1

    I use to forget to eat however since I've been on medication I've gained weight also however I do walk regularly to help with that

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem

      I think exercise can be very useful when you take medications that cause weight gain! 😊

  • @alessandragentile6892
    @alessandragentile6892 Před rokem +1

    Grazie.

  • @uuuuhgggyg3267
    @uuuuhgggyg3267 Před 9 měsíci +2

    du är duktig ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @legacysjourney6034
    @legacysjourney6034 Před 4 měsíci +1

    I'm practicing communicating with my family In just unsure of myself right now so . I want to stay in my lane n focus on my purpose having my own life n lifestyle n in a better financial situation so I can have more flexibility to come n go as I please ... I can relate to most of this I have to ask what my diagnosis..is the meds help sometimes.. the phsycwards help me w little when I go out it felt like I rather stayed in .cus my thought were heavy i did know how to feel normal at home .. n just leaving the house felt like a struggle

  • @uuuuhgggyg3267
    @uuuuhgggyg3267 Před 9 měsíci +2

  • @Silver_the.cat.lady.
    @Silver_the.cat.lady. Před rokem

    Two weeks that’s really not a lot with mental illness and fatigue …. With depression i once didn’t showered or brush my teeth for a month I didn’t leave my bed and barely ate anything… my cousin didn’t shower for 3 months even though he was working daily as a mechanic !

    • @KimberlyHallberg
      @KimberlyHallberg  Před rokem +1

      some are more functioning than others despite having mental illness. for me not showering for 2 weeks was a lot since I usually like cleanliness. but brushing my teeth was hard, I can honestly say I went months without brushing them. but as I said, some are more functioning than others when it comes to mental illness, I have people around me who are able to work full-time despite having serious mental illnesses.