I F*****G GIVE UP!!! (Life With Stage 4 Cancer)

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  • 🎩 About This Video:
    I F*****G GIVE UP!!!
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    I've always been a storyteller. I've written hundreds of short stories and multiple books, but I always sensed I was meant to share a different story.
    MY story.
    I wasn't sure what that was until I was diagnosed with STAGE 4 Alveolar Soft Part Sarcoma (a SUPER rare type of cancer for which there is NO CURE).
    I decided to embrace my motto of Living Out Loud and started sharing my journey in vlog format.
    This is my story. Real. Raw. Unfiltered.
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Komentáƙe • 541

  • @entronetcalitz6567
    @entronetcalitz6567 Pƙed 10 dny +93

    Please go to the hospital where you can get stronger pain meds and oxygen to breathe. It literally breaks my heart to see you like this!😱

  • @emilys1743
    @emilys1743 Pƙed 10 dny +117

    My thought: you might need a few days in hospital to get your symptoms under control so you can feel better at home. If you go to Emergency and tell them what you've told us, I'm confident they will admit you. They WILL help you.

    • @SmilingBeaver-ou7nc
      @SmilingBeaver-ou7nc Pƙed 10 dny +16

      I'm thinking the same thing, especially with being home by himself.

    • @bluesmoke8826
      @bluesmoke8826 Pƙed 10 dny +5

      Best comment by you. He needs assistance

    • @antonygikonyo7914
      @antonygikonyo7914 Pƙed 10 dny +6

      Am sure he has already done that previously,...it's now about riding the storm with medication running in the system, until the negative symptoms subside....!!

    • @lnewbury1
      @lnewbury1 Pƙed 10 dny +4

      I agree.

    • @debrahanko3978
      @debrahanko3978 Pƙed 10 dny +12

      Don't feel like you're complaining. We all care and are here for you. Please take care of you. Let your doctor know where you're at. I pray for your comfort.

  • @helikahe
    @helikahe Pƙed 9 dny +35

    Dear Guillaume, I’m sorry you feel so poorly lately. I work with cancer patients every day and I know that cancer pain is one of the worse pains known to human kind. Unfortunately, popping occasional Tylenol won’t cut it, definitely not in stage 4. You need proper pain management agents and schedule to be worked out by palliative care team. Please request this as otherwise your quality of life will suffer immensely. I agree with other people here that you should admit yourself to the hospital ASAP (if not done yet) as cumulative dehydration, malnutrition and pain will only make your overall health worse. Please don’t wait 🙏 Gentle hugs đŸ€— ❀

  • @Noodles.FreeUkraine
    @Noodles.FreeUkraine Pƙed 10 dny +67

    Guillaume, when the pain never goes away, your treatment is insufficient. One pill per day isn't a law of nature, you need what you need. I don't advise to just pop in whatever you get your hands on, but rather talk to your doc and explain the situation. In this day and age, there is absolutely _no_ reason to suffer from pain. Also ask for anti-emetics to get a grip on that puking sensation.
    Another thing most people don't have on their radar: In your situation, pain isn't medicated when it rears its head, but _before._ That means, you need a medication plan that allows you to stay pain-free in the first place. This is not a headache where you take a pill if it happens once in a blue moon.

    • @janwarriner6554
      @janwarriner6554 Pƙed 10 dny +5

      Put yourself on a pain management schedule. DONT wait UNTIL you’re in pain. It doesn’t work that way at all. Seems nighttime is worse so start taking more of whatever before nighttime. That should help minimize pain so you can hopefully sleep more.
      I’m sure there will be more suggestions. Mine comes from my mom’s cancer doctor. May she RIP. Have they tried morphine or stronger yet?

    • @penneynadalini216
      @penneynadalini216 Pƙed 10 dny +1

      Take pain meds it will help your body heal! You do not have to suffer.

    • @JerseyLynne
      @JerseyLynne Pƙed 10 dny +2

      Maybe it's time to go to the hospital to get pain management straightened up. Do you have O2 at home. Do you need to have a humidifier? I'm so sorry to hear.

    • @JerseyLynne
      @JerseyLynne Pƙed 10 dny +1

      You should have narcotics. Like a patch. Go to the hospital. You said it yourself, you can't handle it right now

    • @mmmmlllljohn
      @mmmmlllljohn Pƙed 10 dny +1

      Yes, a humidifier would help you. Many drug stores carry them and also have free delivery.

  • @tiffanys9493
    @tiffanys9493 Pƙed 10 dny +33

    Rn here. Please go to the ER or contact your doctor. You don’t need to be suffering like this. You need better pain control and better control of the nausea so you can eat. You are in a bad cycle of most likely dehydration which is creating even more dehydration.

    • @IRAM_rehman
      @IRAM_rehman Pƙed 9 dny +4

      These are normal side affects. My mum had the same...

  • @deannsmith8903
    @deannsmith8903 Pƙed 10 dny +62

    I wish you had someone with you right now. I’m asking the lord to help you even though you don’t believe in him. You are still his child.

    • @jdmmg4904
      @jdmmg4904 Pƙed 10 dny +3

      pls don't annoy ppl with beliefs they don't have. The majority of the world believes in something different than you. Why do you think you are more right than all of them? Just send your good wishes and leave it like that.

    • @deannsmith8903
      @deannsmith8903 Pƙed 9 dny

      @@jdmmg4904 Good morning and mind your own business!! Don’t worry about what I say to the man ok because I’m not talking to you!

    • @caroltardif5999
      @caroltardif5999 Pƙed 9 dny +7

      Nobody is annoyed. Everyone has different beliefs and they can express them as they want to

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +3

      @@deannsmith8903 Thanks 🙏. Much appreciated.

    • @cheshirecat4802
      @cheshirecat4802 Pƙed 7 dny

      🙏 to whatever God you believe in, the more the merrier❀❀!! It doesn't hurt to cover all of your bases😂​@@jdmmg4904

  • @trendachristensen4859
    @trendachristensen4859 Pƙed 9 dny +29

    You should start palliative care. They will help,with pain and you can still continue treatment. Palliative and hospice are not giving up but gives you a much better quality of life.

    • @Catlady11123
      @Catlady11123 Pƙed 8 dny +2

      I agree!

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Are those services for people who are on their deathbed?

    • @Catlady11123
      @Catlady11123 Pƙed 7 dny +2

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C it’s just pain management 
. You don’t have to be on your deathbed
.i wish you strength and comfort 💜

    • @Julzkai
      @Julzkai Pƙed 7 dny

      Just found your channel. I'm sorry u are suffering. It's really not fair. Take care. Xxx

  • @deannsmith8903
    @deannsmith8903 Pƙed 10 dny +29

    You are venting to us and it’s ok. You need to vent. We are listening.

  • @angeladee8789
    @angeladee8789 Pƙed 10 dny +17

    This is where pain management shines. Because you're stage 4 you should get decent assistance. One thing that won't be helping is taking half doses of the Tylenol. It's using up your daily limit in an ineffective way and contributing to you not getting a break. A pain management appt will help you plan to cover your pain and stay ahead of it. Also you need to get your breathing assessed and you might get relief from portable oxygen. One thing that helps with breathing is a fan blowing in your face. There's many strategies that can help reign in your symptoms and improve the way you feel each day but you do need to speak to pain management via your oncology team. It is crucial you do this.

  • @b.abrackus6403
    @b.abrackus6403 Pƙed 10 dny +27

    Don't apologize for making this video, this is REAL and if the viewers can't handle feeling uncomfortable while you grapple with everything, they need to watch another channel! Best wishes Sir❀

  • @thecraziestcatladyyouknow
    @thecraziestcatladyyouknow Pƙed 10 dny +13

    I am so sorry you’re going through all of this. SCREAMING IT ON THE MOUNTAIN!! You have every right to feel what you feel and to say what you need to say. That’s what most of us are here for. We are here to listen and to support you through the good days and bad. I been fighting cancer for 12 years but I was never a stage 4 so I cannot put myself in your shoes but know this, there are people who care and people who pray for you and I am one of them. I am so sorry your hurting

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      Thanks 🙏. And you're absolutely right. I am incredibly lucky to be surrounded by so many caring and supportive people.

  • @Dublin1008
    @Dublin1008 Pƙed 10 dny +27

    The doctors should admit you to hospital. They can give you infusions when you cannot eat at least. I'm so sorry for you❀ I really hope that you feel better soon! Are you alone at home? Is there someone from your family.? Sending you much healing love and hugs❀

  • @Sandra-jv4fk
    @Sandra-jv4fk Pƙed 10 dny +14

    There are no words to describe how badly I feel watching you struggle and be in so much pain G. I know you're super strong,smart and independent but please ask for help. We are worried.😔😓

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      Don't worry. I'm not suffering in silence. I always keep my doctors informed of everything that happens.

  • @dawnhaynes8090
    @dawnhaynes8090 Pƙed 10 dny +25

    I’m very worried about you, please go to the hospital ❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Sorry I worried you, but I assure you everything is fine. Things are gradually getting better.

  • @Arthur-hg7ny
    @Arthur-hg7ny Pƙed 10 dny +18

    You need a pain management team to oversee your cancer pain.

  • @DeeDee-co3lx
    @DeeDee-co3lx Pƙed 7 dny +5

    Never give up fight life my dad had stage 4lung cancer its five years since we found out and hes still here please go to the hospital and get help you got this stay strong

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +2

      Sorry to hear about your dad, but in glad to hear he's still here 5 years later. That's awesome!

    • @DeeDee-co3lx
      @DeeDee-co3lx Pƙed 7 dny

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C glad that your hear too so how are you

    • @DeeDee-co3lx
      @DeeDee-co3lx Pƙed 6 dny +1

      I'm fine how are you how have you been feeling

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 5 dny +2

      @@DeeDee-co3lx Better. Things are slowly getting better. Thanks for asking 🙏.

    • @DeeDee-co3lx
      @DeeDee-co3lx Pƙed 5 dny +2

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C your welcome I was touched by. Your video and I know how you feel cause I've been there with my dad I have twin daughters and two years ago my family got the worst news ever she has a pulitary hormone tumor it's no cancerous but still so horrible and hurtful for our family and with medicine and her Dr taking care of her she'll be ok so I also surport and donate to help out do you accept any donations please let me know I'll send something to help you out I do it for a lot of ppl well stay blessed and thanks for texting back have a good day

  • @kathygrech6739
    @kathygrech6739 Pƙed 10 dny +27

    You need to be admitted to hospital; you are not meant to suffer like this alone in your apartment. You can be given meds for nausea, hydration & food via IV if necessary & strong pain medicine. Tylanol won’t cut it. I pray you will go to the ED asap & get the urgent help you need. đŸ„șđŸ™đŸŒđŸ™đŸŒđŸ™đŸŒđŸ™đŸŒâ€ïž

  • @rosemarys2465
    @rosemarys2465 Pƙed 10 dny +8

    You have reached your limit of tolerance for this situation. You said you are broken...I agree. Please get admitted into hospital where you can get better controlled pain meds and help breathing.....it will give your body a chance to recover so that you feel better. Sending love and hugs for healing.

  • @Zee-ob1pe
    @Zee-ob1pe Pƙed 10 dny +10

    Poor guy ❀ wish you could be cured of this horrible cancer

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Thanks 🙏, but I like to think that everything happy for a reason, so I'm trying to make the most of this experience.

  • @lanebashford3982
    @lanebashford3982 Pƙed 10 dny +12

    Can you get put on hospice? They will come daily and check on you and make sure you are comfortable. Praying for you daily and hope you find some comfort.

  • @Pawnlust
    @Pawnlust Pƙed 6 dny +2

    I'm sorry you're going through this. I wish you the best. No one should have to go through this.

  • @NiechZyjePolska48
    @NiechZyjePolska48 Pƙed 10 dny +39

    Just relax and don’t make videos when you are struggling. We will wait until you feel better

    • @naomijones8564
      @naomijones8564 Pƙed 9 dny +3

      I think he is finding it cathartic to have a rant, to empty his head bless him x

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@NiechZyjePolska48 This was more about than catharsis than storytelling. Sometimes you just need to relieve the pressure.

  • @elainesimon9547
    @elainesimon9547 Pƙed 9 dny +3

    I am so sorry to see you in this state. Please go to the hospital to get help with the pain, coughing and breathing difficulties. Sending prayers from Normandy France.

  • @bellawinfield8577
    @bellawinfield8577 Pƙed 8 dny +3

    So very sorry! I also have stage 4 lung cancer that I know how hard this is for you. I Pray and the Lord gives me relief for a while. Prayer 🙏 for you

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Sorry to hear that. I hope it's not too painful for you. How long have you had it?

  • @lindashur8986
    @lindashur8986 Pƙed 10 dny +8

    Please do not worry about providing more videos right now! Bless your sweet heart! I feel the grandmother in me coming out strongly right now! I wish I could just reach out and put a cool cloth to your forehead and bring you a big soft pillow and sing you to sleep😱 I agree with others that you need to reach out very soon to your hospital and Oncologist if possible, please.
    Keeping you in prayer always!!❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Thanks 🙏. You're very kind.

    • @lindashur8986
      @lindashur8986 Pƙed 6 dny +1

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C You are very, very lovable and so inspiring!❀

  • @pierrettehebert3044
    @pierrettehebert3044 Pƙed 9 dny +3

    I know how you feel. I too have cancer. Last night my back pain was unbearable. It’s been that way for 2 months. I also have constant low grade nausea. I too am due for a break. Today I ‘gave up’ & resigned myself to doing nothing but coping. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a reprieve for us. Recommend relax, try not thinking too much, pain meds & rest. If nothing else, I’ll be in better shape emotionally tomorrow to deal with it. You’re hopefully not giving up
just taking a much needed rest

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      @@pierrettehebert3044 I'm sorry you're going through that. I hope things get better for you soon. You deserve a break.

  • @nancymcquaide8867
    @nancymcquaide8867 Pƙed 10 dny +12

    Please reach out to your team. I think you need more care for a short time. I know it is hard to ask for help but you deserve it.

  • @JamesCaldecott
    @JamesCaldecott Pƙed 10 dny +6

    Keep fighting mate, I know you must be feeling terrible with this going on for 2 weeks, however just know you had a TON of people cheering you. Having a bad day is absolutely fine, like you said give up, get up and go again. Huge love brother.

  • @dragoncult666
    @dragoncult666 Pƙed 10 dny +20

    I'm concerned, please go to hospital. 🩋

  • @positivelastaction3957
    @positivelastaction3957 Pƙed 10 dny +6

    I am so sorry to see you in this much pain. We are all with you brother. 💌

  • @zengwenyoga2894
    @zengwenyoga2894 Pƙed 7 dny +3

    Radical acceptance-you got it! It is not giving up!

  • @julieseattle
    @julieseattle Pƙed 8 dny +4

    Please get that pain under control- a pain management team can really assist! Not tolerating food is a reason to be admitted to the hospital.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Oh, I have plenty of "good" reasons to be admitted. It's just not something I'm interested in. I've spent enough time in hospitals to know when it's best to be home and whan it's best to be in the hospital.

  • @marciajones2993
    @marciajones2993 Pƙed 9 dny +4

    They can do something to help you with the pain. Constant pain will affect your ability to cope as will lack of sleep. Call this a fuckit day, tomorrow’s a new one, it’s okay to have a bad day. Lots of love and light. 💙💙💙💙💙

  • @Sunshine-zi4nq
    @Sunshine-zi4nq Pƙed 10 dny +13

    This has been going on for a few days and doesnt look like it is going to go away on its own. Please go to the hospital. Insist on being admitted . If the leg pain gets worse you may have difficulty taking public transport. Please do something about this before that happens.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      @@Sunshine-zi4nq Thanks for caring, but I don't WANT to be admitted. That is the last thing I want. And things have been getting better these last few days, so we're definitely moving in the right direction.

  • @susansimon5105
    @susansimon5105 Pƙed 8 dny +4

    As a chronic pain patient (13 major spinal surgeries) no one should have to be in constant pain! Over the years I have had various doses of pain medication depending on the stage of my recovery from surgery. I know that many doctors currently don’t want to prescribe pain medication sufficient to alleviate the pain. The pendulum has swung way too far from treating pain patients with copious amounts of pain medication to insufficient amounts of pain medication for fear that they will lose their medical license! I hope you can find the help you deserve! ❀

  • @ThePerezHilton
    @ThePerezHilton Pƙed 8 dny +2

    Sending you light!

  • @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz
    @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz Pƙed 10 dny +3

    I get where you are coming from- for whatever it's worth. I told my home healthcare social worker that I wish AZ had passed that death with dignity law so I could end this sooner. I get it. Every day brings even more. You just throw your hands up and holler "STOP IT!!!

  • @mmmmlllljohn
    @mmmmlllljohn Pƙed 10 dny +5

    Hi Guillaume, I feel so badly for you. Instead of going to ER and waiting, call the specialist’s office and ask that he call you. Tell him that you can’t get a break between the pain, coughing, and throwing up. He can have a prescription sent to your pharmacy or I think he may want to admit you to hospital so they can give you oxygen and monitor pain meds to see what you need. This is craziness that you are going through all this. You need a break from the pain as this is not acceptable when it can be managed. I’m praying for better days ahead and I hope you will say a prayer too. May God bless and heal you my friend. â€ïžđŸ‡šđŸ‡ŠđŸ™

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      Thanks 🙏. And don't worry, I keep my doctors up to date on everything that happens.

  • @kerrymapstone6924
    @kerrymapstone6924 Pƙed 9 dny +2

    you just popped up on my you tube page .i just wanted to say im so sorry for what you are going through. cancer is such a horrible disease. you will be in my thoughts and i pray you get some relief soon.

  • @JoycePrivette58
    @JoycePrivette58 Pƙed 10 dny +7

    I agree with others that you need to go to the emergency room and let them help you get stabilized, please🙏. It's not weakness to go ask for help đŸ€—đŸ™. You need some rest and don't worry about making videos, we're still praying for you and we'll be right here... Never ever ever give up đŸ™đŸ€—

  • @Edlas22158
    @Edlas22158 Pƙed 10 dny +3

    Going through all that pain and suffering by yourself is really hard and difficult. Hugs and blessings for you!

  • @okallie
    @okallie Pƙed 10 dny +7

    This sounds really hard. I think it’s important you are sharing this side too. Perhaps ask for stronger meds at least for a bit of relief so you can sleep well. Tylenol might not be enough right now. Just something to think about. You absolutely do not suck at everything btw. Sending love your way.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      @@okallie Thanks 🙏. And you're right. I just suck as SOME things đŸ€Ł.

  • @DebraWright-md7sd
    @DebraWright-md7sd Pƙed 9 dny +1

    So sorry for your pain, hope it gets under control soon. Keep strong ❀xx

  • @lindsayholden5959
    @lindsayholden5959 Pƙed 9 dny +2

    So so so very sorry that your health journey is horrid. Praying that you get comfort soon. Much love from Australia xx

  • @suesmith3744
    @suesmith3744 Pƙed 10 dny +6

    I am heartbroken and SO worried about you , if I were with you now I would call an ambulance and give you a ( motherly ) hug . You are like me stoic , too much for your own good sometimes , hate complaining and making a ‘ fuss’ . Well you need to make a bloody fuss on this occasion , you need HELP ‌. You cannot be expected to cope with this level of pain and discomfort on your own , please please for us if not yourself pick up the phone and ask for help 
. Never worry about venting in front of us , this is REAL life not some fairy tale and people don’t have to watch 
. Please @G ask for the help you need and deserve , post whenever you are able , I wish I could be with you right now , take care darling , you are in my thoughts and prayers 💙

    • @Sunshine-zi4nq
      @Sunshine-zi4nq Pƙed 10 dny +4

      Agreed. He should call an ambulance that way they will have to admit him. I hope a neighbour, friend or family member can help if he is too weak. I fear if he collapses when alone, nobody will know.

    • @suesmith3744
      @suesmith3744 Pƙed 10 dny +3

      @@Sunshine-zi4nq SO worried about him , amazing guy who deserves SO much better 💔

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      I appreciate your concern and your kind words (as usual). However I assure you that I am doing what is necessary. Not only do I keep my doctors up to date on everything that happens, but I have never chosen to not go to the ER and regretted it. I always do whatever is best for me and feels right, even if some people misinterpret it as me "trying to be brave" or "ignoring reality".

  • @unshartedterritory
    @unshartedterritory Pƙed 9 dny +1

    Although it’s cancer your battling, this past year of getting knocked down constantly and having to get back up is completely relatable. Knowing that we don’t have the option to give up is a gift. You’re a warrior my friend, you really are. ❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      @@unshartedterritory Thanks for your kind words 🙏. Much appreciated.

  • @Simply_Sadie
    @Simply_Sadie Pƙed 9 dny +1

    I'm so sorry. You're getting a lot of good advice here. I hope you get some relief.

  • @joanbeach644
    @joanbeach644 Pƙed 10 dny +6

    My friend I agree with a few people here. You may need some hospital time to sort things out. Praying for you. I wish you had help with you.
    â€ïžđŸ™đŸ»đŸ‡ș🇾

  • @colleenbonamico9143
    @colleenbonamico9143 Pƙed 4 dny +1

    I have stage 4 terminal lung cancer,had to go to the hospital early this week due to breathing as well,then a dumb cough from radiation treatment....and bad nausea too,cancer sucks,I need a break from this lunacy too,this ridiculous crap never seems to end,I totally get you!! Let's hang in there and keep fighting ,hell,we've gotten nothing more to lose.

  • @LindaH444-b2u
    @LindaH444-b2u Pƙed 10 dny +1

    Praying for you. So sorry you have to go through this.

  • @GuadalupeGuacamole
    @GuadalupeGuacamole Pƙed 5 dny +2

    Fight until you can’t, we have hospice to help you.❀

  • @endtimeawakening5557
    @endtimeawakening5557 Pƙed 5 dny +1

    We can search for words that don't exist to bring comfort, feeling helpless to help. I only know to pray, which can seem pointless when physical pain and emotion overwhelms the spirit. Father, have humble mercy on this young man. If this is his time to depart this realm, may it be swift and painless. MERCY, MERCY, MERCY!!! â€đŸ™

  • @holliethomson6147
    @holliethomson6147 Pƙed 10 dny +2

    Bless your beautiful heart ❀ I’m praying so hard that you start to feel better very soon. I’m sending you so much love always xxxâ€ïžđŸ™

  • @RavencrowProductions
    @RavencrowProductions Pƙed 10 dny +3

    Hey man. I've followed you since the beginning and love your attitude. That said I would go to the hospital to be safe.

  • @fixinfkinsandwiches6183
    @fixinfkinsandwiches6183 Pƙed 9 dny +5

    You don’t have to live like this, your pain can be better controlled. Please let your Dr. know what’s going on. They may be able to send a home health nurse to help you a lot. Or go to the ER, sorry to have to suggest that because it sucks, but so does suffering. I hope you are feeling much better soon.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      I know you're trying to help and I appreciate it. What I don't understand is why some people assume I'm doing nothing. I keep my pivot nurse up to date on everything that happens and she is in contact with all my doctors. It's not like I'm suffering needlessly in silence.

  • @lorettamaddaloni7925
    @lorettamaddaloni7925 Pƙed 9 dny +1

    Praying u feel better ❀

  • @annehull7169
    @annehull7169 Pƙed dnem

    Sending love and prayers ❀❀❀❀

  • @zengwenyoga2894
    @zengwenyoga2894 Pƙed 7 dny +1

    You definitely NEED a break-the pain is crazy-making! I understand not wanting to go to hospital, I totally do-but I just want you to have a bit of peace. Suffering is just so isolating and lonely. Just know that your words ring true to many of us out here.❀. You are loved in your brokenness!

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 6 dny

      @@zengwenyoga2894 "Loved in your brokenness." I like it đŸ€Ł. Thanks 🙏.

  • @daviddownie5594
    @daviddownie5594 Pƙed 10 dny +5

    Please get something stronger than Tylenol. There’s no virtue in suffering so much. I understand the desire to “take it”, I’m in my last 6 months of life and I want to be with it as much as possible, but I came to realize I don’t get a prize for being “strong”.

    • @maggietaylor9475
      @maggietaylor9475 Pƙed 10 dny +2

      Sending you peace and calm on your journey ❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +2

      Sorry you're going through that. Congratulations on choosing to go through it in the way that makes the most sense to you.

  • @DirlingSwervish
    @DirlingSwervish Pƙed 10 dny +3

    I don't know enough about cancer to know if you need a hospital right now, but what I do know is that when we feel poorly we don't always know what we need. It's hard to see the forest for the trees kind of thing. It would be worth it to consider the advice you've gotten here. Also, I'm proud of you for posting this vulnerable video.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      I appreciate it, but I will always do what feels right no matter what others say. If I listened to what others say, I would be in the hospital right now... but I would also have given up and I'd be waiting for death. So, although I really appreciate your concern, I don't regret not going to the ER.

  • @cheshirecat4802
    @cheshirecat4802 Pƙed 7 dny +2

    I'm sorry you're going through this 😔, you need to focus on getting out of pain and your quality of life will improve tremendously ❀❀❀. Please don't be afraid to take the narcotic pain medication that will help you. I'm praying for you đŸ™â€â€!!!đŸ’đŸ˜˜â€ïžđŸ™

  • @marjilaplante9579
    @marjilaplante9579 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    I'm so glad you felt you could come and talk about it without judgement and with so many who truly care about you.
    I'm so so sad to see you go through this but I'm glad to know to send you energy and love and light.
    It's a dark moment for you.
    You have to complain!! Why would you say you don't want to!! We all do. We need to be where we are for the time and feel it.
    And it's okay.
    Love and blessings... It's not negative to release!!

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      Thanks 🙏. You're always so kind and understanding. I really appreciate it.

    • @marjilaplante9579
      @marjilaplante9579 Pƙed 6 dny +1

      You deserve nothing less...♄
      We are on an RV road trip from Connecticut to Wyoming to visit our 44 year old daughter. We have our two sons and three cats and dog with us. So I'm not on much but I think of you and send beautiful energy to you everyday🙏

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 5 dny

      @@marjilaplante9579 That sounds amazing. Have fun!

  • @judyalbert6318
    @judyalbert6318 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    My heart goes out to u sharing the good with the bad is the best there’s no other way good luck

  • @rksk1990
    @rksk1990 Pƙed 10 dny +2

    You are loved❀

  • @brendaloman1059
    @brendaloman1059 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    What you are going through is really, really, really hard. I hope you can find more help to deal with the symptoms. I also hope you can find people to support you.

  • @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz
    @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz Pƙed 10 dny +4

    Hospice has meds that control pain; also helps with breathing; and even coughing. Call your local hospice. They will come see you- probably same day or next. They will provide you with meds, and things to help.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      @@JilSpangenberg-ys7fz Isn't hospice for people who are on their deathbed?

    • @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz
      @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C it's for those who have a terminal illness that may take their life in 6 months. But many people go on Hospice a year or more before. There is a lot more help from hospice than other palliative care options s,

  • @mpat100
    @mpat100 Pƙed 7 dny

    Blessings; healing strength and good luck for you; this too shall pass.

  • @wondereagle
    @wondereagle Pƙed 5 dny +1

    Good thoughts for you. ❀

  • @sheliadean9548
    @sheliadean9548 Pƙed 7 dny

    I am so sorry ❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 6 dny

      @@sheliadean9548 Thanks, but it's all part of the process. Things are better now.

  • @greensage395
    @greensage395 Pƙed 9 dny +3

    What about THC infused Edibles? They should stimulate your appetite and reduce nausea!

  • @joannawooten1984
    @joannawooten1984 Pƙed 10 dny +3

    Bless your precious heart. I wish I could help. You do need to catch a break. You're so strong. But I know you're also so very tired. Please KNOW im praying for you. I hope you sleep well and tomorrow is a better day. ❀

  • @CHA-CHA-
    @CHA-CHA- Pƙed 10 dny +1

    You are in my thoughts and prayers đŸ™â€ïž

  • @francesco5581
    @francesco5581 Pƙed 9 dny +2

    embrace from Italy, stay strong

  • @loriannehancock6364
    @loriannehancock6364 Pƙed 8 dny +2

    CBD has helped me. Feel for you man.

  • @clarkbrady2786
    @clarkbrady2786 Pƙed 10 dny +5

    I'm sorry it's so bad right now. I'm praying for you. Tylenol never works for me.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      Thanks for the prayers 🙏. And sorry to hear Tylenol doesn't work for you. It's worked quite well for me thus far.

  • @kerrihastings521
    @kerrihastings521 Pƙed dnem

    This is my first time coming across a video from you. I feel terrible, I hope you can get some help to manage the pain and breathing. No one deserves to suffer❀

  • @TheRapnep
    @TheRapnep Pƙed 8 dny +2

    God bless you. 🙏 You don't have to believe in Him. He believes in you and He is with you always. ✝

  • @lisaalbrecht3182
    @lisaalbrecht3182 Pƙed 8 dny +1

    May God bless you and lessen your pains and hold you in his arms forever i love you

  • @lnewbury1
    @lnewbury1 Pƙed 10 dny +2

    Damn! I’m so sorry to hear this and to know that you’ve been so miserable. Would it help to call the doctor? If nothing else, something for the nausea and strongly pain meds? I’d think they’d want to know.
    I’m a praying woman so I have you at the top of my prayer list. God is with you even though I know it sure doesn’t feel like it.

  • @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz
    @JilSpangenberg-ys7fz Pƙed 10 dny +4

    Hospice has access the😊 things for you that your doctors CANNOT provide.

  • @SmilingBeaver-ou7nc
    @SmilingBeaver-ou7nc Pƙed 10 dny +1

    Praying hard for you, and please consider going to the hospital.đŸ’™âœŒïžđŸ™đŸ™đŸ™

  • @EmmaBakesCakes
    @EmmaBakesCakes Pƙed 9 dny +3

    Oh Guillaume this is the first time I’ve seen and heard you truly so poorly 😱it’s time to get some better pain medicine and nutrition through intravenous drip. Oh goodness I send you sincere thoughts of healing and love ❀

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@EmmaBakesCakes Thanks 🙏, but this was more therapeutic (a way to relieve pressure) than anything else. Things are better now. Not back to normal, but heading in the right direction.

    • @EmmaBakesCakes
      @EmmaBakesCakes Pƙed 7 dny

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C glad to hear it. Take care xx

  • @patriciajoyner9871
    @patriciajoyner9871 Pƙed 9 dny +2

    You can be on hospice and always discharge or graduate off.

  • @Swist1213
    @Swist1213 Pƙed 7 dny

    I'm hoping that you've taken the advice of many people in the comments who sound like they have experience with what you need to do. I hope that you have found some relief. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Thinking of you and wishing you well.

  • @patriciajoyner9871
    @patriciajoyner9871 Pƙed 9 dny +2

    Hospice can control pain

  • @daruneepanyawan
    @daruneepanyawan Pƙed 9 dny +1

    Please stay strong and do not lose hope

  • @KC-ht4iu
    @KC-ht4iu Pƙed 10 dny +1

    So sorry to see u this way Ple take care of your self first..

  • @kathyarnusch7614
    @kathyarnusch7614 Pƙed 10 dny +4

    Dear heart, you deserve better.

  • @DefiantAngel87
    @DefiantAngel87 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    Prayers

  • @labchic
    @labchic Pƙed 10 dny +2

    I hope you get to an ER soon. Maybe they can help you at least feel better. Sending prayers.

  • @nesadcruz7840
    @nesadcruz7840 Pƙed 10 dny +4

    Am really 😱 for you. Do you have any appointments in the coming week? If you do , tell them it is too hard to manage. That you need help with the symptoms. A short hospital stay might be in order to give you some relief. It isnt about pushing yourself to your limit. That isnt going to help you, it will only wear you down.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@nesadcruz7840 Thanks 🙏, but this video was more about catharsis. Things are better now.

  • @susanmorris5520
    @susanmorris5520 Pƙed 7 dny +2

    I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. I just found this video and wanted to send you prayers but, if you’re so miserable and need medical help then I think you should go to the ER and low them to admit you into the hospital. If I may ask, why are you allowing yourself to go through this and if you’re not getting any help? My prayers are with you and also, what about meditation? It can help you to be calm and also a little better attitude too. I was born with a disability and use a wheelchair to get around and also a dialysis patient for 16 yrs. Have had breast cancer and the whole time I was going through the radiation treatments I kept a great attitude DN yes, it got hard on me but I kept moving forward. God bless you always. Sue in Florida.đŸ™đŸ™đŸ™đŸ€žđŸŒđŸ‘đŸ»

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      Sorry you had to go through all that. Sounds intense. But it sounds like you have a great attitude and are making the best of it.
      What I don't understand is why people automatically assume I'm doing nothing. I keep my doctors up to date on EVERYTHING that happens and we always do whatever is best given the situation. But difficult times are unavoidable and this happens to be one of them. Things always get better. ALWAYS!

  • @tracymayer-hv6rb
    @tracymayer-hv6rb Pƙed 9 dny +2

    I think you need to go to the hospital to get the proper care. No need to suffer. I had an emergency gall bladder surgery in March. I had vomiting and terrible pain in my upper back. Hospital gave me meds in my IV. I felt great almost immediately.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@tracymayer-hv6rb I appreciate your concern 🙏, but I keep my doctors updated on everything that happens and we're monitoring things closely and doing what is necessary.

    • @tracymayer-hv6rb
      @tracymayer-hv6rb Pƙed 7 dny

      @@LivingOutLoud-LWS4C I saw that you talked to your nurse. Glad to hear it.

  • @janelleabbott2227
    @janelleabbott2227 Pƙed 9 dny +1

    You are going through this. It will take time to heal trust the Lord. Its all in his timing.❀

  • @KathySong1
    @KathySong1 Pƙed 9 dny +3

    Chronic pain is a prison. Team that with sickness, it’s no wonder you are at the end of your tether.
    Please get to your team/ hospital soon where they can give you anti-nausea meds, and stronger pain relief until this passes.
    These symptoms can be better controlled with the support of your oncology team.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@KathySong1 Yeah. I keep my doctors up to date on everything that happens.

  • @blesseddc5093
    @blesseddc5093 Pƙed 10 dny +3

    My friend, I hope you have put in place a plan for emergency help. Living alone, you might need someone to call for help or bring you to the hospital. Toughing it out will only weaken you. I think given your diagnosis they should give you something stronger for pain. Also , why is the leg that previously not in pain now ache? I would ask to have that checked.
    Waiting and hoping to see you better.

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny +1

      @@blesseddc5093 Don't worry, I keep my doctors up to date on everything that goes on.

  • @ruthgoff3540
    @ruthgoff3540 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    Praying for you. Have you reached out to your pain management team? They are a game changer. I have two cancers and find that they are my greatest sense of comfort. Id be curious as to what you are taking. Stage 4 cancers are a beast. If you wait until the pain is intolerable, the pain med won't be as effective. Just my pain management. I am blessed to have my pain management team.

  • @Luvlacegrl
    @Luvlacegrl Pƙed 9 dny +2

    Please contact Hospice. If you have cancer that has no cure, you qualify. They will provide pain relief, oxygen, comfort care. Please, please, please call them! No one should live this way! I’m so sorry to see you go through this. 😞

    • @Luvlacegrl
      @Luvlacegrl Pƙed 9 dny +1

      @@KS-yp1jl I did not know this. He needs to start seeing a pain specialist then. Poor guy. 😞

    • @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C
      @LivingOutLoud-LWS4C  Pƙed 7 dny

      I have no idea how that works, but I always assumed it was for people who were on their deathbed.

  • @jan-olofpohlin8667
    @jan-olofpohlin8667 Pƙed 10 dny +1

    If you could find birch ash. I'm living in Sweden where you can buy it in a can. I take it in water with the desired spice without boiling it. Contains quantities of minerals and itÂŽs very strong basic. Spirulina and wheatgrass are healthy.. My best wishes to you!

  • @amiller2352
    @amiller2352 Pƙed 9 dny +3

    Can you not get hospice care? They will control your pain