"I actually don't advocate for them to be non-judgmental. What I advocate for is for them to be authentic and compassionate." This is the moment when I my respect for you hit another level Dr.K. We face a world where people can't seem to bridge these two concepts. People are either "real" and cruel, or "nice" and fake and it absolutely doesn't need to be that way.
Someone once said sth. along the lines is that we dont need you "hard truths", where are your "kind truths", your "compaassionate truths", your "understanding truths" and so on. That really reminded me.
“If you’re smart enough you’ll realize I’m not able to read him because I’m different I can read him because I’m the same and you get humbled from that realization” amazing train quote
@@whitestguyuknow i cant tell if a guy with a troy user name is setting me up or not but its pretty obvious to know what he means at the part i was mentioning 0head dude
Holy shit this conversation was crazy. Train said so many amazing things, told crazy stories, I actually learned stuff from him. While before this interview I thought he was kind of scattered and hard to follow. But he really stood in his power here, damn. Awesome conversation!
This was BY FAR the best session I've ever seen. Spoke to myself and so many of my friends in an inexplicable way. I knew Train had led a different path and to hear the full story was truly beautiful. Thank you for probing him in such a way for him to open up in this way
It's interesting I see this comment on a lot of different videos. Each one speaks to a different person differently and it's proof this format is extremely helpful. So awesome
On the therapists telling their clients when something is fucked up: I think I would feel safer in that environment. If I know that someone is committed to always having a non-judgemental front even if they are judging me inside, I have no way to get rid of the worry that they are judging me because I wouldn't be able to clearly tell the difference. If I know they occasionally say something is fucked up when they actually think that, the rest of the time I can feel reassured that I really am not being judged.
I feel like the 'non-judgemental' therapists often just don't care and aren't invested in your situation. And in a sense, that is a judgement b/c they see you as not worth making an effort to help. And the main reason I'm in therapy in the first place is b/c people around me don't care about me or see me as having value.
@@SuperLotus Some therapists probably are burnt out and apathetic, but that isn't really the group I'm talking about. Therapists are trained to be blank and non-judgemental, so a lot of them would maintain that affect /because/ they care about you, because they've been taught that's the best way to help you, or because they are being professional and following their training, or both. Obviously I don't know your situation, reading your comment made me think about something Dr K sometimes points out to people. You're welcome to not read this next part if you don't want that kind of input from a stranger: "People around me don't care about me or see me as having value" sounds like the kind of thing that a mind could learn in a bad environment, and then keep believing even if it gets into an environment where some people do care. This might be something to bring up with your therapist because they might be able to help you with it. If your therapist really doesn't care, you deserve better than that. You deserve to have people in your life who care about you.
@Maria Hepburn idk he's kind of expecting the people he talks to to be "insane" in some way because he's a psychiatrist and that's his job. So it's not really a surprise. It probably takes a lot more to make him genuinely think "holy shit" than it would for you because he's seen so much of it before.
@@SuperLotus sounds like you're still slave to the intrusive thoughts that attract to toxic people and identify more with them. As someone who worked on a crisis line and has changed many people's lives, I am absolutely not judgmental, scorn and judgment are what stop people from seeking help in the first place. Judgment is absolutely the last trait a therapist should have.
I went through something very similar. Friend gave me half a roxy30, loved how I felt. Then the next time did a whole one, then a few weeks later snorted one, I would do it then stay away for a month. But eventually I moved to craving it and doing it once a week, then several times a week, then daily, then several times a day. Started smoking them which means you go through more, much faster. Eventually it got too expensive so I tried opanas, dauladid (sp?), then said fuck it and started smoking heroin. Once you try heroin, crack and meth don’t seem so bad so you try them too. I’m 3 years clean but fuck that was a wild ride and completely destroyed my life.
Dilaudid* aka hydromorphone. If you take a vicodin, your liver turns it into hydromorphone. I was exposed to vicodin and percocet in my mid 20s. I used them to cope with my intense work schedule. While I took your typical M30s you're talking about, I had an unlimited access to them. I never got into snorting or smoking them. Also, the way Train talks about drugs is the way other people who have been through drug use talk about it. It's a bit of self deprecation, reminiscing, and amazement that you put your body and mind through that.
This sort of stuff isn't spoken about often enough. Personally I can relate to this a lot. While I never dabbled in harder things like meth of Xanax I did spend some time doing way to much LSD and MDMA as well as having difficulty with Codeine. Weirdly enough though what got me to quit drinking was MDMA, having an amplified ability to love myself really made think about how much damage I really was doing to myself by drinking as much as I was.
You're lucky to have a good brain man. Most of junkies are usually only after the high, they don't evalute the experience as something more than a fix. It's not the drug, it's how you use it.
@@theDormanian hardness of a drug is all in the dosage period end of story even though weeds considered a safe drug I don’t think it’s safe in all circumstances plus I’m sure if you do crazy high edible amounts like 2000mg a day it will change from a soft drug into a problem but won’t kill you psychically but I sure as hell couldn’t get stuff done doing that much a day I take 250mg and I sleep for hours
I don't even watch Train's streams, but I absolutely love these conversations with Train. He's been incredibly insightful and his experience is both tragic but inspirational in a way.
I don't know jack shit about Train, who he is, or his audience, but Ive never found myself relating to a stranger at this intensity before. Thank you for asking the questions and talking about the things im still too scared to
I thought the same, but if you smell actual tobacco, like none of the pre-rolled Malboro bs, but just the "raw" tobacco that the ones who roll manually use (or with a pipe!), that actually smells really nice
I really resonate with that line, "There's two egos. One that's regular ego and one that's ego of having no ego" Because after my psilocybin binge, I experienced ego death, but for like a year after that, I felt more special than egotistical people. I have to check myself and go, "whoa holdupaminit" It's very, very deceptive. It's something that takes constant work and re-work. It's not one and done deal. It's for life. So let's keep at it everyone. And say no to hard drugs. :)
I'm grateful to see you guys educating others on this topic. Drugs aren't a joke, it's so sad they've all been glorified for so long. They kill, it's as simple as that and no one is immune to addiction.
I needed this steam 2 years ago. Everything they talk about from the ego and the trap door, the waking up and “being a different person”, to how doc talking about the 2 forms of knowledge. I struggle with addiction and everything I heard in this episode I needed so desperately.
Spent 10+ years mixing alcohol,valium and heroin in high quantities. Heroin was tested at over 90% purity when mate got busted once. Still battling with heroin after 25+ years. Lucky to still be here.
bro that overthinking with weed is so relateable, smoked so much during my youth and now it's almost impossible to enjoy as an adult due to this overthinking.
yeah it's just anxiety man, you gotta get really right with yourself to enjoy it I've been smoking since I was young and in periods of my life I couldnt hit any weed without freaking out and overthinking but in times when I'm feeling like I got everything together and I'm doing good I can enjoy it like I did when I first started as a carefree kid
I can heavily relate with his functional opiate experience. It's so functional and relatively safe that it's very hard to notice any inkling of denial. The problem with stopping is that opiates are the physical replacement of your emotions. Once you stop, you have to relearn what sadness feels like and how to handle it, and boredom, and happiness etc. He's right on with getting a new baseline for handling emotions, and needing something to love more than the drug. My problem was/is lack of good relationships, so the opiate was my happy relationship. I value my time so much that I get pissed when I have to put my time on hold and deal with someone else, I don't know why. I take low doses of kratom throughout the day and it gives me a motivation boost. Obviously it'd be great to not depend on that, but it got rid of opiates and I haven't had any desire to go back for years.
I can relate on some levels... For me it started with just 1-2 blues (Roxycodone)/day, because it suppressed the depression and helped me get shit done.... Within 6 months it quickly turned into a $150/day habit... just 5 pills. I blew through my entire savings (and then some). Yet it took me another year to get help and on suboxone, which actually saved my life in retrospect. The only way I was able to even transition to suboxone, was only through pure hatred/rage towards those damn blue pills that had such a fucking tight hold over my entire life. Because out of all the shit I got myself into, opiates were and still are the most painful shit I’ve ever tried to come off of. I mean, I thought I knew what a withdrawal was/felt like... but there is absolutely nothing that even comes close to the type of misery/pain that these so called “painkillers” inflicted on me... I fucking hate that shit, especially the motherfuckers (Purdue Pharma) that knowingly makes this shit.
I have a lot of respect for Train, being able to talk like this on stream. I'm sure this did good for a lot of people. I've seen loved ones OD, use heroin oxy meth etc., sell their parents jewelry, think they have it all together, never go past smoking it. It's nice to see people talk about this stuff.
Wow. This is actually insane to see. I've never related to anyone about this topic this much. It's been almost 3 years since I got clean and I'm still recovering, this definitely give's me some hope knowing Train eventually got through it all.
Love the drug discussion. I was an IV heroin user for years, took me 6 overdoses, 5 years of methadone, and counseling to get sober. I still abuse other classes of drugs, but I haven't touched an illicit opioid in 6 years now. (I specify "illicit" because methadone is an opioid, but it's a medically prescribed replacement therapy, and it doesn't get you high, been off the methadone for a year now as well though.) Hopefully one day I'll be fulfilled enough to quit them all. The "shivering" overdose death from heroin story seems weird, I overdosed 6 times, and every time, my friends just said It was like I was asleep, but turning blue from not breathing. The meth story though, I had a similar time. Except I was only up for 3 days playing LoL, and was pulling my hair out instead of picking my skin. Couldn't stand that stuff.
methadone 100% gets you high bud. shit suboxone gets you high and it is part blocker.. also sober means no drugs at all but good shit being off dope for a year hope it stays that way!
That last part about the ego of having no ego, I needed to hear that. Just perfect. It has been a confusing thing I haven't been able to address on my own which has kept me at a slight distance from others even though I've progressed since I saw Reckful's interview a year ago. Great talk, and thank you Train for bringing that up.
This got intensely profound with how Train described his bipolar changes. He related it to how people have gradual changes that he could have (or forcibly had) in the span of 3 months. I can’t imagine changing everything about myself that frequently or that quickly. This was a really interesting session to watch. Thanks Train and Dr. K👍🏼
This was definitely a highlight for HealthGamerGG. This was an awesome stream/video. Substance abuse is something that should be talked about within the gaming community.
The desire for chaos, never thought trainwreck, a person id normally disregard as a dummy drops some of the fattest truth of 2021. These discussions are so enjoyable and legitimately helpful in terms of self reflection
I can totally relate on the adventure stuff, lowkey I've enjoyed nights out the most when something bad happens and it comes down to solving the problem and having serious chats and stuff. When everything is going smoothly it's just boring
Also as an ex user, I love this conversation. Very relatable. Big ups to those who've gotten clean. Good luck to those still suffering we hope you find your way out :/ Edit: mine was only percs. So I'm glad even with as crazy as train went on the drugs, he made it out. Sorry last edit . 55:00 Sounds so on point. You have 2 people in you. The weak withdrawing version of yourself, and the high (and mighty) version. And you're constantly battling the version that wants you to feel "better" aka high. It's the reason why addiction is a disease. No one wants that.
Oh boy, took 1/8th of shrooms and my god the psychotic break I had was so bad, I’m experienced with acid so I thought 1/8th was a good dose so I took them and I had to go pee an hour in, got to the toilet and didn’t have to pee, I walked back and forward with this same action happening multiple times but it felt like the first time happening and I pissed myself unintentionally after like the 3rd time. And I thought that my fan was the alarm clock to my phone and my subconscious could hear it while I was in this living nightmare but I wouldn’t wake up, and I thought in order to wake up I have to leave and found out how I died and if I didn’t face it I would never wake up, so I walked a couple steps, fell and started rolling around on the floor banging my head against the ground screaming wake up, terrible
@@agarion101 i went through something very very similar... im so happy ur ok... shit is... scary to say the fucking least. that endless loop. u feel like uve been sent to hell. like ur all alone, forever. stuck.
Dr K, people often do not go to psychologists and psychiatrists because of the shame and the deep conviction that they will be misunderstood and that the professional won't be able to comprehend what they are trying to express. I just rarely felt understood the way I feel when listening to you if ever. You are saving lifes everyday and mine for the last year and a half since I found you. You don't even realize how impactful is what you are doing. Please, don't give up on us.
It’s July 5th, 2021. Took acid last night for a soft reset, ended on this wonderful Conversation that felt so apartment to then be left with the greatest piece of information about the ego I’ve ever received. Thanks again , doc
Big fan of the sharing he's doing. I've been the same on-off and had to keep my life together while living through horrendous shit. Streams are keeping me alive Dr. K many thanks
I can relate to this so much. When everything in my life is good, I get so bored I stir shit up myself. It's like a love/hate relationship to decadence and misery. Kind of like a "hey, at least something's happening, let's see how this goes..." mindset.
Addiction runs deeper than drugs I think, it is in every bad habit and frustration you have with yourself. Staying up too late at night, eating too much, not exercising, not getting schoolwork done etc.
@@marcustrevor1883 as a current drug addict, I've come to realise that addiction is way more complicated than saying "this chemical is addictive so you'll get hooked on it". While I obviously have my favourites I would say that the biggest and hardest to overcome addiction for me is just the feeling of being high. What I mean by that is that I constantly crave to feel different from my sober state in any way shape or form. I'm glad that this video is so well received because he is talking about stuff that I'm sure is relatable to most people in some way, and it might help them have more introspective.
That was actually really deep. When people think they are different they start thinking that the rules of life don’t apply to them and that sort of ego can be very dangerous.
Train is such a character y'kno. You can literally throw him into any social situation and he'll come out as friends with everyone. I don't know, y'kno. I could go on for hours but I won't so just use your imagination. There's always some fucked up shit y'kno, like it's straight out of a movie - crazy shit, it's insane.
Watched this live. I absolutely loved the discussion about fronting vs authenticity. I don't really watch Train but I really vibe with him during these interviews
Dude you can tell this man is so fucking nice. Like, genuinely nice, no bullshit facade people be pulling. Like his mannerisms and politeness is just impeccable
It's so crazy how differently substance abuse effects people. For instance, I can't relate to a single one of these experiences as he explains them and I've lived through them all. Good cast.
I really hope Mr. K's channel and coaching program is going to see a prosperous future and gain worldwide recognition, the topics brought up in his videos are real eye openers to me and I hope for many many other people aswell. So many things, in this video resonated with me, especially the fourth chapter about quitting addictions since I had quit smoking tobbacco and weed since end of December, and then the talk about ego and authenticity just had my mind and attention captured and gave me motivation not to just dwell on thing I could be, but actually performing the right actions to fully realize, understand and become what I want to be. Most love and respect from Austria to Mr. K, and the entire comment section.
What a profound conversation. As someone who had the god mentality too, that it didn’t matter what drugs I did I would be fine I’m not like others, I found my self sweating and vomiting on the floor of a “friends” bathroom alone after drinking all night and then snorting Xanax. I’ve smoked weed and done shrooms and acid and never before that had I felt like I was so close to losing myself. I had done Xanax a few times before but never with alcohol and never snorted. As I lie on the floor shivering and falling in and out of consciousness I told myself if I can get out of here tomorrow I will never put myself in this situation again. I thought of my family, my nieces and nephews just growing. My students I teach in music and in education. I couldn’t leave yet. I couldn’t disappoint everyone. Thankfully I walked out of that bathroom the next morning and never looked at Xanax or psychedelics again.
My girlfriend had the neighbor’s son fall flat on his face in her front yard due to an overdose because of the whole “returning to your original dose” prospect when he was fresh out of rehab. His parents had to sit there and witness in horror for almost 2 hours because the coroner lived over an hour away, and it was a Sunday. Avoid hard drugs.
In middleschool, after I ran away several times, my mom sat on my bed cross-legged in front of me and passed me her pipe and she instructed me how to use it, I was like 13. I guess she was sick of me causing trouble for her. I became really passive for the rest of my teenage years, I was always a part of their rotation. I also suffered trauma in my life. I heard Dr. K say that family experiences plus early use of weed can make me like psychotic! I don't want to be that way... And I remember that sleep is really important too, I pulled soooo many all-nighters when I was around this age too. And sexual trauma.
As someone who has had perhaps similar experiences with drugs, though not nearly to the extent or depth that Train has, I can appreciate the gravity of the experiences he’s trying to express when he says stuff like ‘it was actually fucking mental’ or ‘the craziest shit I’ve ever experienced’. It seems like an exaggeration or a figure of speech but honestly there’s no way to describe or explain how these substances can effect your mind. Especially to the level that he has been through.
From when Train started talking about his many therapists- I never realized that it could be so difficult to find someone you vibe with! I got lucky on the first try and I am even more grateful for that now that I know how difficult the process could have been!
wow. i've always just kinda pushed train to the side as being cold. this has really opened me up to him and i'm so glad it did. to be so open about addiction and mental health is so incredibly courageous. i'm very glad i stumbled upon this!!
i’m dealing with some pretty difficult circumstances in life at the moment. i’ve been a substance abuser for several years - usually uppers, my DOC is cocaine - and have gotten some extreme pulls to dip my toe into the realm of heroin and opioids to escape the feelings, even for a night and get some relief from the anxiety. i appreciate hearing trains perspective on the baseline addiction process, and the message of “never even once” being painted in that light helped a lot to discourage some of those self sabotage pulls that i’m having. great talk, thanks to the both of you
Don’t try opiates, it’s opening a huge can of worms. I used pretty much every other class of drugs before with no issue but once I got into opiates I became a drug addict. Using fentanyl in the worst of it. It’s just so, so not worth it. Stick to literally anything else
18:30 this is a gem. Spent so much time as a host at TGIF just seeing people try to drink through their pain or get into fights due to issues they had back home. The bar is home to so much pain.
Only issue I have with the bar scene is that a lot of people there glorify alcohol and make it seem like it's totally okay. But then they'll go on about "eww those people who do MDMA, snort a line of coke, drop acid, pop a xan and smoke some weed or whatever are monsters compared to us". Alcohol and cigarettes are soft drugs but they're socially accepted.
holy shit man what an enlightening interview. I truly believe train has gazed into the abyss and come back to tell the tale. you can see the thought in his eyes when Dr. K askes him a question about something that's particularly difficult to explain. I gained some new respect for train man
1:28:35 I totally agree with that. I smoked weed for about 5 years, on a daily basis, often several times a day, and I lost so much of my memory. I forgot most of my teenage years and childhood - I'm 22 so I don't have much else to forget tbh - and even if, now, after several months of sobriety I remember some stuff, there will forever be holes in my mind where I don't know what I did, what I experienced, what important conversations I had, whom I was friends with. Drugs really take away a piece of you.
yeah, as a dude who blazed damn near daily for 7+ years the people who defend it as "not a drug" coz "its from tee eart mon" or whatever are mega coping. it's addictive as hell
To be completely honest this does not go for everyone and you must have already been neurochemically pre-disposed to a likely chance of forgetting your memories. I mean, you forgot who you were friends with? Seriously? I'm in my twenties and I have smoked daily for years, none of these memory problems apply to me or my friends. I can remember everything a-okay.
This made me realise I need to be more careful with substances. I have never strayed into drugs like heroin or meth, but I have used other drugs pretty extensively and sometimes irresponsibly. I balance good university attainment with unnecessary risk because it hasn't taken me down yet. My body and mind is not indestructible. Even drugs like acid and weed which aren't toxic, which I have indulged in can have a significant effect on your mental state. I also think I risk alcohol addiction sometimes... I do get the feeling that I am not prone to addiction and maybe there is some science to that, but I don't think anyone's completely immune.
1:06:00 bruh that's fucking advanced. Only 16 so i feel like listening to this kind of content is especially useful for personal development and maturity in this early phase of self reflection I have found myself in, especially during all the time I have to myself from covid atm. Although, this comment would seem immature to older readers but either way idk how else to explain my view. Thankyou for existing and producing this content Dr K.
You're comment isn't immature at all. Good for you! Just realize that you are young, so don't be harsh on yourself or compare yourself to others! You have plenty of time for growth. Focus on what you have accomplished and don't diminish it, no matter how small, because it is more than what you were doing/did before!
"It takes a piece away from you when you touch these drugs - I'd say any drugs realistically, even the softest of drugs, what we don't even classify as drugs." "Well, caffeine doesn't count, caffeine's happenin no matter what, yaknowwhatI'msayin?" lol!
I don't know why but i never got into watching trainwrecks due to my predispositions but in the end i love the stories he shared and i thing they are of big value, specialy for me i relate to a lot of what he is saying ,thanks for sharing my guy will look to support the streams !
On judgement, my policy is every adult can do whatever they want until that hurts someone else. Theres lifestyle choices and these are different than dangerous people. Everything is either a lifestyle choice I either appreciate or fail to appreciate or a threat to a potentially dangerous person. The state recognizes this the same way, im an expungement paralegal. Whether the public is served by keeping the information public is a huge factor in whether to grant an expungement. So in dealing with people, I make a conscious decision based on my perception of their character and its progress on the heros journey and decide whether to mentally expunge the fact they used to do drugs. Otherwise, my capacity to make judgements is seriously limited because....sigh...im a schizo.
Wings doesn't want to face or solve his problems. He does his absolute best to avoid doing so. Dr. K can only help those who help themselves. I'd give huge props to Wings if he did come on but I doubt he would
It somehow relates to any kind of addiction and It's just so good and valuable to listen to, this episode is so good, I just feel so lucky learning from it.
What I learned from hearing Dr. K's choices in college we both sound very similar. Anxiety, depression, snapping the door closed. Distracting myself with games and fucking up my life.
I'm a little worried about trains situation, he seems to feed his addictive personality with gambling these days and has lost a ton of weight. Dude really has a ghoulish look to him and I find it odd that people aren't really talking about this since gambling can really fuck you up.
Train is an absolute degenerate. He's everything we all are behind closed doors. That's why ppl connect to him. We all have a little train in us, he's relatable and watching him helps ppl understand what NOT to do and he knows that's his purpose. He's ok with showing his self just be thankful we have an example like him.
Respect to trainwrecks. I was an IV meth and cocaine/crack user (and opiates) since 16 still struggling to stay clean but I would have never guessed he was an addict
Thank you for this interview, I sent you an email if you would ever like to talk to somebody about substance abuse again. I appreciate you guys so much.
Train: I have this split personality bipolar thing where i change completely and have no memory of the past 6 months and have to deal with the fallout of it. Dr K: Yes i kinda felt the same thing because Im a gamer. bruh
"There is having an ego, and there is having an ego about thinking you don't have an ego." Absolute 5head quote.
But does recognizing that you may have an ego for thinking you don’t have an ego mean you really don’t have an ego
That’s what I’m saying
@@anthony-vp3dq waytoodank
@@anthony-vp3dq self-awareness does not absolve you of your egoism, or anything else for that matter
utruth is u gotta have an ego to live in this human body, the body is the ego, but non dualism is the key to being free of the egoo... drainn ganggg
"I actually don't advocate for them to be non-judgmental. What I advocate for is for them to be authentic and compassionate." This is the moment when I my respect for you hit another level Dr.K. We face a world where people can't seem to bridge these two concepts. People are either "real" and cruel, or "nice" and fake and it absolutely doesn't need to be that way.
Someone once said sth. along the lines is that we dont need you "hard truths", where are your "kind truths", your "compaassionate truths", your "understanding truths" and so on. That really reminded me.
Train struggles to express himself but the insight he holds is truly astounding and I wish I could get a glimpse of it for myself. He made a new fan
watch the scuffed, it's good
@@TheTheawesomeguy35 does he talk about his stories and personal life/struggles? I watched a bit once and its like 10 people talking about random shit
@@brooo4219 depends usually they talk about dick for 4 hours but sometimes they talk about issues and deep stuff
@@kerox3288 no they talk dick and then politics the whole time
Don’t be a fan, be an enjoyer... 🧔
"ya know"
"so anyway"
"It was some crazy shit"
“On a stack”
"ay"
“Or what ever the fuck”
Train was "off the rails".
‘Some fucked up shit’
It sounds like Train gazed into the Abyss and the Abyss stared back
nietzsche appreciation
would that be that same as the Jungian shadow?
He aligned himself with chaos and then he really knew chaos.
@@GamingUbered shit thats what addiction is. chaos.
You got it wrong dude. The abyss stared into train and train stared back.
“If you’re smart enough you’ll realize I’m not able to read him because I’m different I can read him because I’m the same and you get humbled from that realization” amazing train quote
Amazing as in it doesn't make sense?
@@whitestguyuknow i cant tell if a guy with a troy user name is setting me up or not but its pretty obvious to know what he means at the part i was mentioning 0head dude
Idk about you but this sounds like the best summary of the plot to Fight Club I've heard
dam he must have been insanley high if he started playing MLB 2k9
Agreed.
MLB games are almost the bottom of the barrel.
Baseball is not meant to be a video game, whatsoever lol
I wouldn’t boot up an MLB game if I had 3 guns to my head on god
@@gginterlude6356 😂 on god
and for 6 fucking days?!
Holy shit this conversation was crazy. Train said so many amazing things, told crazy stories, I actually learned stuff from him. While before this interview I thought he was kind of scattered and hard to follow. But he really stood in his power here, damn. Awesome conversation!
Am wondering if "Om meditation" helped him collect his thoughts...
"any last thoughts?" "I like you, Dr. K." made me smile
This was BY FAR the best session I've ever seen. Spoke to myself and so many of my friends in an inexplicable way. I knew Train had led a different path and to hear the full story was truly beautiful. Thank you for probing him in such a way for him to open up in this way
He did tell the story before, 2 times actually but i get the point
It's interesting I see this comment on a lot of different videos. Each one speaks to a different person differently and it's proof this format is extremely helpful. So awesome
Preach
True
@@Ay_Ali 👍
On the therapists telling their clients when something is fucked up: I think I would feel safer in that environment. If I know that someone is committed to always having a non-judgemental front even if they are judging me inside, I have no way to get rid of the worry that they are judging me because I wouldn't be able to clearly tell the difference. If I know they occasionally say something is fucked up when they actually think that, the rest of the time I can feel reassured that I really am not being judged.
I feel like the 'non-judgemental' therapists often just don't care and aren't invested in your situation. And in a sense, that is a judgement b/c they see you as not worth making an effort to help. And the main reason I'm in therapy in the first place is b/c people around me don't care about me or see me as having value.
@@SuperLotus Some therapists probably are burnt out and apathetic, but that isn't really the group I'm talking about. Therapists are trained to be blank and non-judgemental, so a lot of them would maintain that affect /because/ they care about you, because they've been taught that's the best way to help you, or because they are being professional and following their training, or both.
Obviously I don't know your situation, reading your comment made me think about something Dr K sometimes points out to people. You're welcome to not read this next part if you don't want that kind of input from a stranger:
"People around me don't care about me or see me as having value" sounds like the kind of thing that a mind could learn in a bad environment, and then keep believing even if it gets into an environment where some people do care. This might be something to bring up with your therapist because they might be able to help you with it.
If your therapist really doesn't care, you deserve better than that. You deserve to have people in your life who care about you.
@Maria Hepburn idk he's kind of expecting the people he talks to to be "insane" in some way because he's a psychiatrist and that's his job. So it's not really a surprise. It probably takes a lot more to make him genuinely think "holy shit" than it would for you because he's seen so much of it before.
@@SuperLotus sounds like you're still slave to the intrusive thoughts that attract to toxic people and identify more with them. As someone who worked on a crisis line and has changed many people's lives, I am absolutely not judgmental, scorn and judgment are what stop people from seeking help in the first place. Judgment is absolutely the last trait a therapist should have.
I went through something very similar. Friend gave me half a roxy30, loved how I felt. Then the next time did a whole one, then a few weeks later snorted one, I would do it then stay away for a month. But eventually I moved to craving it and doing it once a week, then several times a week, then daily, then several times a day. Started smoking them which means you go through more, much faster. Eventually it got too expensive so I tried opanas, dauladid (sp?), then said fuck it and started smoking heroin. Once you try heroin, crack and meth don’t seem so bad so you try them too. I’m 3 years clean but fuck that was a wild ride and completely destroyed my life.
:/ sad to hear that
Everyday is new man. 3 years is amazing!
You're doing great man
Oh jesus dude. Can relate. Lol. Now liv8nh thr good life but damn I sort of miss the adventure.
Dilaudid* aka hydromorphone. If you take a vicodin, your liver turns it into hydromorphone. I was exposed to vicodin and percocet in my mid 20s. I used them to cope with my intense work schedule. While I took your typical M30s you're talking about, I had an unlimited access to them. I never got into snorting or smoking them.
Also, the way Train talks about drugs is the way other people who have been through drug use talk about it. It's a bit of self deprecation, reminiscing, and amazement that you put your body and mind through that.
This sort of stuff isn't spoken about often enough. Personally I can relate to this a lot. While I never dabbled in harder things like meth of Xanax I did spend some time doing way to much LSD and MDMA as well as having difficulty with Codeine. Weirdly enough though what got me to quit drinking was MDMA, having an amplified ability to love myself really made think about how much damage I really was doing to myself by drinking as much as I was.
You're lucky to have a good brain man. Most of junkies are usually only after the high, they don't evalute the experience as something more than a fix. It's not the drug, it's how you use it.
Imagine thinking mdma isn't a hard drug but benzos are. OK buddy
@@bishbach310 oh yes the spiritual aspect of smoking crystal meth is not respected enough
@@theDormanian hardness of a drug is all in the dosage period end of story even though weeds considered a safe drug I don’t think it’s safe in all circumstances plus I’m sure if you do crazy high edible amounts like 2000mg a day it will change from a soft drug into a problem but won’t kill you psychically but I sure as hell couldn’t get stuff done doing that much a day I take 250mg and I sleep for hours
@@theDormanian Benzodiazepines are wayyyy worse for withdrawls and abuse
I don't even watch Train's streams, but I absolutely love these conversations with Train. He's been incredibly insightful and his experience is both tragic but inspirational in a way.
yall can meme him but he is still one of the most real people on twitch
I don't know jack shit about Train, who he is, or his audience, but Ive never found myself relating to a stranger at this intensity before. Thank you for asking the questions and talking about the things im still too scared to
These interviews with Train are so inspiring. The two of them (him & dr. k) really bring out the best in one another I think.
this was the first time i've ever heard someone saying that ciggarette smoke smells good. That's so weird and that's comming from a smoker.
Yeah, was thinking the same thing. Even worse when people's clothes smell like stale cigarettes. Weed smells fucking nasty, too
CZ weed smells great tbh
I thought the same, but if you smell actual tobacco, like none of the pre-rolled Malboro bs, but just the "raw" tobacco that the ones who roll manually use (or with a pipe!), that actually smells really nice
I dont smoke and I think it smells great
I think I can relate on some level to what he's saying, but cigar shop smells hit a bit different
New stream with Train, y'know.
fuuuuuck i didnt notice until you said it smhhhhhhhh
Oh thanks bro, didnt know what I clicked on...
@@CZcamsCZcams-te2ny he says y’know just abt every sentence is the joke
Drinking game-take a shot every time train says y’know 😂
@@nts.design no shot bucko
I really resonate with that line, "There's two egos. One that's regular ego and one that's ego of having no ego"
Because after my psilocybin binge, I experienced ego death, but for like a year after that, I felt more special than egotistical people. I have to check myself and go, "whoa holdupaminit"
It's very, very deceptive. It's something that takes constant work and re-work. It's not one and done deal. It's for life. So let's keep at it everyone. And say no to hard drugs. :)
Bro you just described my life LOL
You did it again ;))) could never be me ;;;)
So we're actually talking about this today.
alas
Ey build up for content yk yk
it's about time
yo the story starting at 21:06 is just too hilarious, I can´t xD
I lost it at the ass cheeks part
Feels like one of those super over exagerated stories you tell where 10% true the rest is made up xD
Imagine having someone clapping cheeks every time you turn around.
@@skyscraper908 at a college party i'd say thats pretty realistic, depending on where youre attending tho.
I swear Train is so fucking funny
I'm grateful to see you guys educating others on this topic. Drugs aren't a joke, it's so sad they've all been glorified for so long. They kill, it's as simple as that and no one is immune to addiction.
Uh who is glorifying drugs?
@@g1llifer the world
they dont always kill
I needed this steam 2 years ago. Everything they talk about from the ego and the trap door, the waking up and “being a different person”, to how doc talking about the 2 forms of knowledge. I struggle with addiction and everything I heard in this episode I needed so desperately.
Spent 10+ years mixing alcohol,valium and heroin in high quantities. Heroin was tested at over 90% purity when mate got busted once.
Still battling with heroin after 25+ years.
Lucky to still be here.
Please, do not give up. You got this.
It's gonna be interesting to hear a serious discussion about this funny memes aside, especially when it's with Dr. K
wait until he mentions the way he smells and tastes
I too still support and love Brand New.
@@chopst11x92 lets get some new music boys. Science fiction was s class
Just throwing my hat in the ring to say that Brand New slaps
@@sxyspaz but the devil and god is such a fucking classic tho, it's damn near impossible to pick a clear favorite with this band
bro that overthinking with weed is so relateable, smoked so much during my youth and now it's almost impossible to enjoy as an adult due to this overthinking.
yeah it's just anxiety man, you gotta get really right with yourself to enjoy it I've been smoking since I was young and in periods of my life I couldnt hit any weed without freaking out and overthinking but in times when I'm feeling like I got everything together and I'm doing good I can enjoy it like I did when I first started as a carefree kid
@@simonk5826bro just dont smoke weed 😂😂 why does everyone try to ignore their bodies and brains telling them not to do something?
I can heavily relate with his functional opiate experience. It's so functional and relatively safe that it's very hard to notice any inkling of denial. The problem with stopping is that opiates are the physical replacement of your emotions. Once you stop, you have to relearn what sadness feels like and how to handle it, and boredom, and happiness etc. He's right on with getting a new baseline for handling emotions, and needing something to love more than the drug. My problem was/is lack of good relationships, so the opiate was my happy relationship. I value my time so much that I get pissed when I have to put my time on hold and deal with someone else, I don't know why. I take low doses of kratom throughout the day and it gives me a motivation boost. Obviously it'd be great to not depend on that, but it got rid of opiates and I haven't had any desire to go back for years.
I can relate on some levels... For me it started with just 1-2 blues (Roxycodone)/day, because it suppressed the depression and helped me get shit done.... Within 6 months it quickly turned into a $150/day habit... just 5 pills.
I blew through my entire savings (and then some). Yet it took me another year to get help and on suboxone, which actually saved my life in retrospect.
The only way I was able to even transition to suboxone, was only through pure hatred/rage towards those damn blue pills that had such a fucking tight hold over my entire life.
Because out of all the shit I got myself into, opiates were and still are the most painful shit I’ve ever tried to come off of. I mean, I thought I knew what a withdrawal was/felt like... but there is absolutely nothing that even comes close to the type of misery/pain that these so called “painkillers” inflicted on me... I fucking hate that shit, especially the motherfuckers (Purdue Pharma) that knowingly makes this shit.
I love how he laughs at trains story with Kyle lmaoo
man train is such an interesting dude. I loved hearing his perspective
The story with the asscheeks is the one time Dr K’s confusion is justified.
I have a lot of respect for Train, being able to talk like this on stream. I'm sure this did good for a lot of people. I've seen loved ones OD, use heroin oxy meth etc., sell their parents jewelry, think they have it all together, never go past smoking it. It's nice to see people talk about this stuff.
Wow. This is actually insane to see. I've never related to anyone about this topic this much. It's been almost 3 years since I got clean and I'm still recovering, this definitely give's me some hope knowing Train eventually got through it all.
Love the drug discussion.
I was an IV heroin user for years, took me 6 overdoses, 5 years of methadone, and counseling to get sober.
I still abuse other classes of drugs, but I haven't touched an illicit opioid in 6 years now.
(I specify "illicit" because methadone is an opioid, but it's a medically prescribed replacement therapy, and it doesn't get you high, been off the methadone for a year now as well though.)
Hopefully one day I'll be fulfilled enough to quit them all.
The "shivering" overdose death from heroin story seems weird, I overdosed 6 times, and every time, my friends just said It was like I was asleep, but turning blue from not breathing.
The meth story though, I had a similar time. Except I was only up for 3 days playing LoL, and was pulling my hair out instead of picking my skin.
Couldn't stand that stuff.
methadone 100% gets you high bud. shit suboxone gets you high and it is part blocker.. also sober means no drugs at all but good shit being off dope for a year hope it stays that way!
@@Kouzie28 by not making him high he meant he was prescribed just enough to be at an equilibrium.
"I like you Dr. K"
"I like you too, Train"
I cracked up so hard
I never thought Train would be so worried about sounding crazy. Love him.
This video has set me on a course for recovery. Thank you for making this available
That last part about the ego of having no ego, I needed to hear that. Just perfect. It has been a confusing thing I haven't been able to address on my own which has kept me at a slight distance from others even though I've progressed since I saw Reckful's interview a year ago. Great talk, and thank you Train for bringing that up.
This got intensely profound with how Train described his bipolar changes. He related it to how people have gradual changes that he could have (or forcibly had) in the span of 3 months. I can’t imagine changing everything about myself that frequently or that quickly. This was a really interesting session to watch. Thanks Train and Dr. K👍🏼
This was definitely a highlight for HealthGamerGG. This was an awesome stream/video. Substance abuse is something that should be talked about within the gaming community.
I think it's cute (and I mean this genuinely) how Train always says love you to Dr. K when he says goodbye.
The desire for chaos, never thought trainwreck, a person id normally disregard as a dummy drops some of the fattest truth of 2021. These discussions are so enjoyable and legitimately helpful in terms of self reflection
i'm realising so many people have a much deeper internal life and wisdom than i would've assumed watching dr. K's videos.
Yeah the desire for chaos is bad lol I was so bored at one point in my life that I joined the Navy. =*D
@@zhenyucai8688 well that can be a learning experience as well
I can totally relate on the adventure stuff, lowkey I've enjoyed nights out the most when something bad happens and it comes down to solving the problem and having serious chats and stuff. When everything is going smoothly it's just boring
You and Train has some great chemistry. Such a good conversation :)
Also as an ex user, I love this conversation. Very relatable. Big ups to those who've gotten clean. Good luck to those still suffering we hope you find your way out :/
Edit: mine was only percs. So I'm glad even with as crazy as train went on the drugs, he made it out.
Sorry last edit . 55:00 Sounds so on point. You have 2 people in you. The weak withdrawing version of yourself, and the high (and mighty) version. And you're constantly battling the version that wants you to feel "better" aka high. It's the reason why addiction is a disease. No one wants that.
For everyone who had induced pyschosis, know how mentally thought Train is for experiencing it
i only experienced it for about 24 hours but 2 and a half months? oh my fuck dawg
Oh boy, took 1/8th of shrooms and my god the psychotic break I had was so bad, I’m experienced with acid so I thought 1/8th was a good dose so I took them and I had to go pee an hour in, got to the toilet and didn’t have to pee, I walked back and forward with this same action happening multiple times but it felt like the first time happening and I pissed myself unintentionally after like the 3rd time. And I thought that my fan was the alarm clock to my phone and my subconscious could hear it while I was in this living nightmare but I wouldn’t wake up, and I thought in order to wake up I have to leave and found out how I died and if I didn’t face it I would never wake up, so I walked a couple steps, fell and started rolling around on the floor banging my head against the ground screaming wake up, terrible
@@cyrus707 try 3 years
@@agarion101 i went through something very very similar... im so happy ur ok... shit is... scary to say the fucking least. that endless loop. u feel like uve been sent to hell. like ur all alone, forever. stuck.
@@deitybeloved yeah bro, especially those damn loops man
Wow. I found this really special. Much kudos to Train for being so open and honest here. I feel like I understand addiction on a deeper level now.
Dr K, people often do not go to psychologists and psychiatrists because of the shame and the deep conviction that they will be misunderstood and that the professional won't be able to comprehend what they are trying to express. I just rarely felt understood the way I feel when listening to you if ever. You are saving lifes everyday and mine for the last year and a half since I found you. You don't even realize how impactful is what you are doing. Please, don't give up on us.
I relate to this guy a lot. Glad he was able to become successful. Psychosis is incredibly terrifying.
It’s July 5th, 2021. Took acid last night for a soft reset, ended on this wonderful Conversation that felt so apartment to then be left with the greatest piece of information about the ego I’ve ever received. Thanks again , doc
Big fan of the sharing he's doing. I've been the same on-off and had to keep my life together while living through horrendous shit. Streams are keeping me alive Dr. K many thanks
I can relate to this so much. When everything in my life is good, I get so bored I stir shit up myself. It's like a love/hate relationship to decadence and misery. Kind of like a "hey, at least something's happening, let's see how this goes..." mindset.
Self destruction. Know all about it.
I've never used drugs in my life (nor smoked/drank), yet this seems very relatable and understandable somehow.
Addiction runs deeper than drugs I think, it is in every bad habit and frustration you have with yourself. Staying up too late at night, eating too much, not exercising, not getting schoolwork done etc.
@@marcustrevor1883 as a current drug addict, I've come to realise that addiction is way more complicated than saying "this chemical is addictive so you'll get hooked on it". While I obviously have my favourites I would say that the biggest and hardest to overcome addiction for me is just the feeling of being high. What I mean by that is that I constantly crave to feel different from my sober state in any way shape or form. I'm glad that this video is so well received because he is talking about stuff that I'm sure is relatable to most people in some way, and it might help them have more introspective.
That was actually really deep. When people think they are different they start thinking that the rules of life don’t apply to them and that sort of ego can be very dangerous.
Damn, this was a super enlightening stream. I'm grateful that Train was willing to be so open and honest about his experiences
Train is such a character y'kno. You can literally throw him into any social situation and he'll come out as friends with everyone. I don't know, y'kno. I could go on for hours but I won't so just use your imagination. There's always some fucked up shit y'kno, like it's straight out of a movie - crazy shit, it's insane.
@sgt cakes Most people wouldn't believe it y'kno but you better believe it idk, y'kno.
y’kno this is pretty damn true y’kno?
imma keep it a buck fifty
@@someasiankid6323 y'kno
Watched this live. I absolutely loved the discussion about fronting vs authenticity. I don't really watch Train but I really vibe with him during these interviews
Dude you can tell this man is so fucking nice. Like, genuinely nice, no bullshit facade people be pulling. Like his mannerisms and politeness is just impeccable
It's so crazy how differently substance abuse effects people.
For instance, I can't relate to a single one of these experiences as he explains them and I've lived through them all.
Good cast.
I really hope Mr. K's channel and coaching program is going to see a prosperous future and gain worldwide recognition, the topics brought up in his videos are real eye openers to me and I hope for many many other people aswell. So many things, in this video resonated with me, especially the fourth chapter about quitting addictions since I had quit smoking tobbacco and weed since end of December, and then the talk about ego and authenticity just had my mind and attention captured and gave me motivation not to just dwell on thing I could be, but actually performing the right actions to fully realize, understand and become what I want to be.
Most love and respect from Austria to Mr. K, and the entire comment section.
Man I wish I had a doctor like this 10 years ago
What a profound conversation.
As someone who had the god mentality too, that it didn’t matter what drugs I did I would be fine I’m not like others, I found my self sweating and vomiting on the floor of a “friends” bathroom alone after drinking all night and then snorting Xanax. I’ve smoked weed and done shrooms and acid and never before that had I felt like I was so close to losing myself. I had done Xanax a few times before but never with alcohol and never snorted. As I lie on the floor shivering and falling in and out of consciousness I told myself if I can get out of here tomorrow I will never put myself in this situation again. I thought of my family, my nieces and nephews just growing. My students I teach in music and in education. I couldn’t leave yet. I couldn’t disappoint everyone. Thankfully I walked out of that bathroom the next morning and never looked at Xanax or psychedelics again.
My girlfriend had the neighbor’s son fall flat on his face in her front yard due to an overdose because of the whole “returning to your original dose” prospect when he was fresh out of rehab. His parents had to sit there and witness in horror for almost 2 hours because the coroner lived over an hour away, and it was a Sunday. Avoid hard drugs.
I wanted to hear more about Dr. K's bad experience with meditation.
Me too 😭
In middleschool, after I ran away several times, my mom sat on my bed cross-legged in front of me and passed me her pipe and she instructed me how to use it, I was like 13. I guess she was sick of me causing trouble for her. I became really passive for the rest of my teenage years, I was always a part of their rotation. I also suffered trauma in my life. I heard Dr. K say that family experiences plus early use of weed can make me like psychotic! I don't want to be that way... And I remember that sleep is really important too, I pulled soooo many all-nighters when I was around this age too. And sexual trauma.
Im so sorry you experienced those horrible things. I hope you are doing better than ever now. Sending good luck your way!
As someone who has had perhaps similar experiences with drugs, though not nearly to the extent or depth that Train has, I can appreciate the gravity of the experiences he’s trying to express when he says stuff like ‘it was actually fucking mental’ or ‘the craziest shit I’ve ever experienced’.
It seems like an exaggeration or a figure of speech but honestly there’s no way to describe or explain how these substances can effect your mind. Especially to the level that he has been through.
From when Train started talking about his many therapists- I never realized that it could be so difficult to find someone you vibe with! I got lucky on the first try and I am even more grateful for that now that I know how difficult the process could have been!
Usually the process is really difficult but I've been through a bunch, love my current o e
wow. i've always just kinda pushed train to the side as being cold. this has really opened me up to him and i'm so glad it did. to be so open about addiction and mental health is so incredibly courageous. i'm very glad i stumbled upon this!!
Train has been through some real shit, I’m glad he’s still with us. Not everybody makes it out of some of the stuff he did
i’m dealing with some pretty difficult circumstances in life at the moment. i’ve been a substance abuser for several years - usually uppers, my DOC is cocaine - and have gotten some extreme pulls to dip my toe into the realm of heroin and opioids to escape the feelings, even for a night and get some relief from the anxiety. i appreciate hearing trains perspective on the baseline addiction process, and the message of “never even once” being painted in that light helped a lot to discourage some of those self sabotage pulls that i’m having. great talk, thanks to the both of you
Don’t try opiates, it’s opening a huge can of worms. I used pretty much every other class of drugs before with no issue but once I got into opiates I became a drug addict. Using fentanyl in the worst of it. It’s just so, so not worth it. Stick to literally anything else
Can’t believe I used to hate Train. I would love hanging out with him
Thanks for opening up about this Train! Glad to see you healthy and recovered. Keep it up brother.
18:30 this is a gem. Spent so much time as a host at TGIF just seeing people try to drink through their pain or get into fights due to issues they had back home. The bar is home to so much pain.
Only issue I have with the bar scene is that a lot of people there glorify alcohol and make it seem like it's totally okay. But then they'll go on about "eww those people who do MDMA, snort a line of coke, drop acid, pop a xan and smoke some weed or whatever are monsters compared to us".
Alcohol and cigarettes are soft drugs but they're socially accepted.
@@Robin-kp1nv Alcohol is a hard drug, and frankly so are cigarettes
I had my ears plugged with water for 3 months and felt like I was going insane. Great analogy.
I find the references very useful. Working in a detox center as a case worker.
holy shit man what an enlightening interview. I truly believe train has gazed into the abyss and come back to tell the tale. you can see the thought in his eyes when Dr. K askes him a question about something that's particularly difficult to explain. I gained some new respect for train man
1:28:35 I totally agree with that. I smoked weed for about 5 years, on a daily basis, often several times a day, and I lost so much of my memory. I forgot most of my teenage years and childhood - I'm 22 so I don't have much else to forget tbh - and even if, now, after several months of sobriety I remember some stuff, there will forever be holes in my mind where I don't know what I did, what I experienced, what important conversations I had, whom I was friends with. Drugs really take away a piece of you.
yeah, as a dude who blazed damn near daily for 7+ years the people who defend it as "not a drug" coz "its from tee eart mon" or whatever are mega coping. it's addictive as hell
Yeah this describes me pretty well. Except I'm 30. It's bad. I don't want to smoke weed anymore but I couldn't stop.
To be completely honest this does not go for everyone and you must have already been neurochemically pre-disposed to a likely chance of forgetting your memories. I mean, you forgot who you were friends with? Seriously? I'm in my twenties and I have smoked daily for years, none of these memory problems apply to me or my friends. I can remember everything a-okay.
Did you start smoking under 18?
@@user-mq5mk4rl7c 19 for me, it became regular once I got a job at like 21-22
ngl, kind of going through what train went through in college rn in life, this video helped a bunch thank you! Dr K keep it up!
"so uhhh, ay, yeah, ya know?"
no, Mr. Trainwreckstv I do, in fact, not know
True and, yeah that's pretty true, that's true and.. yeah that's true, that's true, that's true, that's pretty true, that's pretty true, i mean... that's true yeah, that's true. Umm.. that's true, that's fucking true. Umm... That's how it is ah hah ha
This made me realise I need to be more careful with substances. I have never strayed into drugs like heroin or meth, but I have used other drugs pretty extensively and sometimes irresponsibly. I balance good university attainment with unnecessary risk because it hasn't taken me down yet. My body and mind is not indestructible. Even drugs like acid and weed which aren't toxic, which I have indulged in can have a significant effect on your mental state. I also think I risk alcohol addiction sometimes... I do get the feeling that I am not prone to addiction and maybe there is some science to that, but I don't think anyone's completely immune.
1:06:00 bruh that's fucking advanced. Only 16 so i feel like listening to this kind of content is especially useful for personal development and maturity in this early phase of self reflection I have found myself in, especially during all the time I have to myself from covid atm. Although, this comment would seem immature to older readers but either way idk how else to explain my view. Thankyou for existing and producing this content Dr K.
You're comment isn't immature at all. Good for you! Just realize that you are young, so don't be harsh on yourself or compare yourself to others! You have plenty of time for growth. Focus on what you have accomplished and don't diminish it, no matter how small, because it is more than what you were doing/did before!
You know what's really addicting? Watching these videos!
Lol underrated comment
"It takes a piece away from you when you touch these drugs - I'd say any drugs realistically, even the softest of drugs, what we don't even classify as drugs."
"Well, caffeine doesn't count, caffeine's happenin no matter what, yaknowwhatI'msayin?"
lol!
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I don't know why but i never got into watching trainwrecks due to my predispositions but in the end i love the stories he shared and i thing they are of big value, specialy for me i relate to a lot of what he is saying ,thanks for sharing my guy will look to support the streams !
What a great voice Train has.
This is a fantastic episode. Great appreciation to Trainwrecks for sharing us his story, and Dr K as always
On judgement, my policy is every adult can do whatever they want until that hurts someone else. Theres lifestyle choices and these are different than dangerous people. Everything is either a lifestyle choice I either appreciate or fail to appreciate or a threat to a potentially dangerous person. The state recognizes this the same way, im an expungement paralegal. Whether the public is served by keeping the information public is a huge factor in whether to grant an expungement. So in dealing with people, I make a conscious decision based on my perception of their character and its progress on the heros journey and decide whether to mentally expunge the fact they used to do drugs. Otherwise, my capacity to make judgements is seriously limited because....sigh...im a schizo.
This is one of those video I will go back to multiple times. Thank you train and dr K
Dr. K please consider having WingsOfRedemption on
Not to be that guy... but I seriously doubt Wings would ever consider coming on
it would be the hardest talk yet
Yoooooooooooo
dude so delusional i dont know tbh
Wings doesn't want to face or solve his problems. He does his absolute best to avoid doing so. Dr. K can only help those who help themselves. I'd give huge props to Wings if he did come on but I doubt he would
They go down the most interesting rabbit holes. I could listen to these two forever.
1:04:16 Even Dr.K got fed up with the stalling :D
I think he was moreso giving him the push down the slide like "Its gonna be alright fam just take the plunge and say it" lol
It somehow relates to any kind of addiction and It's just so good and valuable to listen to, this episode is so good, I just feel so lucky learning from it.
Im so happy we got the good Timeline with Train.
What I learned from hearing Dr. K's choices in college we both sound very similar. Anxiety, depression, snapping the door closed. Distracting myself with games and fucking up my life.
I'm a little worried about trains situation, he seems to feed his addictive personality with gambling these days and has lost a ton of weight. Dude really has a ghoulish look to him and I find it odd that people aren't really talking about this since gambling can really fuck you up.
Train is an absolute degenerate. He's everything we all are behind closed doors. That's why ppl connect to him. We all have a little train in us, he's relatable and watching him helps ppl understand what NOT to do and he knows that's his purpose. He's ok with showing his self just be thankful we have an example like him.
Respect to trainwrecks. I was an IV meth and cocaine/crack user (and opiates) since 16 still struggling to stay clean but I would have never guessed he was an addict
Train interviews are definitely one of my favourites
Thank you for this interview, I sent you an email if you would ever like to talk to somebody about substance abuse again. I appreciate you guys so much.
Train: I have this split personality bipolar thing where i change completely and have no memory of the past 6 months and have to deal with the fallout of it.
Dr K: Yes i kinda felt the same thing because Im a gamer.
bruh
When did they say that?
Train re-clarifies afterwards.
I love hearing Train speak, he's so authentic and is totally "real" so to speak. Im gonna be waiting for the next episode with him.