This is Mia Khalifa. (Full Interview)
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- Father Cooper sits down for an interview with the one and only Mia Khalifa…move over Oprah. Mia opens up about the struggles she faced while growing up as an immigrant in a post 9/11 society and the bullying and harassment that followed. She recounts the darkest time in her life and how she overcame global shaming, death threats, and ISIS. Mia tells her story with an inspiring amount of strength and affirms how one’s past does not define their future. It wouldn’t be an episode of Call Her Daddy without a little sex, and Mia shares one of the most intimate sexual experiences she has had with a partner. Lastly as always, therapy is the key to life. ENJOY DADDIES!
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Mia should write a book, I’d be so interested in learning more about her childhood etc
Or even like a docuseries would be so cool
I agree ☑️
not that interesting
"The childhood before everything"
MIA the song
Alex the way you interact with your guests is unlike any other podcast. You let them speak, don't interrupt and actually listen. You do the work, you do the research before going into it and it shows. The hard work is oozing out of you and I thank you. congratulations girl keep it up
Except her interview with tana was crucial to watch
Lol she definitely talked way more with this one
@@marni1296 Exactly, seriously treated her like trash. so sad.
she did interrupt her several times, she was too eager to relate to mia so she just cut her off with her thought of what mia was gonna say, its kinda like projecting. Its nicer when hosts let guests go on a full rant by themselves
Much better job than the interview with Miley... keep up the good work
The fact of how articulate mia is shows how much she’s went through. Self awareness is definitely an accumulation of the struggle and the desire for change from the loops we fall into
wdym "went through" lmfao? She volunteered to be a p0rnstar
Thanks for this interview Alex. This meant a lot to be able hear her struggles. As someone who also looked and felt so different, it was refreshingly very relatable content. 💕
So your islamaphobic
Stop
Stop justifying a hoe
@@OmniMale ???
Alex creates such a safe comfortable environment for women, it’s incredible
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@@TheNamronTV 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
@@char9793 had to shoot my shot lol
@@TheNamronTV fair play 😂👍
Does she for men as well ??
She seems so sweet. People are so immature to make fun of her because of her past job. I find that hypocrite when they still watch her content but insult her irl..
That’s not the point pornhub is still using her videos and making money off it when she only did it for 3 months also this whole thing started because they put out a video of her in a hijab on a porn site
@@marni1296 I don't think that many Non-Muslim people care about it that much. They're making jokes about "Seeing her in another site"
The internet will put any secrets & videos up that will come back to haunt, flatter or discredit you. So be ready.
You speaking nothing but facts
@@user-bz8sy9cj8e Yep.
Alexxxx, you have taken this podcast to another level. So stoked for you. Everything happens for a reason, keep doing what you're doing! Love it.
👋🏽👋🏽 Alisha
Another Hoe supporter
It’s so insane how when you heard the name “Mia Khalifa” you had this stigma of who she was & then after hearing her interview you realize she is so intelligent. She is awesome & deserve so much praise for what she’s been through.
I think its just human biases...but i agree because i was guilty of this even though i didn't really know her. I just heard my friend mention her name in a conversation we had about pornography.
The stigma surrounding her STAGE NAME may have followed her because she chose to continue using it for networking purposes. I can sympathize with feeling regrets of past decisions but shes a hustler and she is working her angles. Show us the receipts 💁🏼
@@lvl23barback81 Shes also a liar about everything that happened during her time in porn and its been proving via bangbros (legally) that she was paid WAY more than the 12k she claims, she had a FAIR contract and pay, she WILLING and had FULL creative control of ALL the scenes shes done, and etc etc. Bangbros created a website giving all the proof called factsbeatfiction
Yuppp
After the mask video, nah. Bs. If that’s really her.
Man.
Someone explain basic hygiene to this lady over there and after, let’s talk about intelligence. 🤢
“Shame is the most powerful emotion a human can experience. It’s crippling, it’s debilitating, it can change the way you look at yourself and others” that part Mia!!!!!
felt
No body forced her to have sex on camera,.
@@mr.flickyda-bean7221 🤢
Have you never experienced loss of a true loved one or a limb? Ignorance
these interviews do a rly good job of humanizing and understanding people. queen alex doesn’t miss✋🏼😌
another interview, more lies
/watch?v=ezaLF_9ZmZE
Who lied explanation please
@@Amyandmaci watch the video, Mia lying through her teeth 15 minutes into the interview lol
So true!
Tana's didn't at all lol. That's a miss hun 😘
having absolutely nobody is the worst feeling i cant even for a second imagine what mias been through. so much respect for this girl
Sooooo many gems dropped in this interview. I loved the transparency in this conversation.
I don’t keep up with call her daddy, but wow. Alex can interview. I love that Mia is doing the talking, Alex is asking the questions and giving minimal comments. I’ve always loved Mia and been inspired by her story, and Alex gave her a safe and comfortable forum to reach more women.
What’s your snap chat? you can get it
Inspired?? LMAO
@@user-bz8sy9cj8e platform for the girls with no dads, lol this who they look up to? Lol
Couldnt have said it better
Yes same here!! Couldn’t have said it better
I love her. She’s the kind of person you just wanna hug. She seems so loving and caring and she doesn’t deserve any of the hate she gets.
Yes, hug her very hard
Just don't get close to her mouth. Alot of BBC has been in there
@@efaciler2462 😂
Fr she’s so down to earth
esactly seems
Also your last few interviews have been noticeably amazing . So intriguing, insightful and truly heartfelt
Thank you so much for this interview, 8 minutes passed by and I’m just in love with the vulnerability. Let’s keep spreading awareness!!!😭❤️❤️❤️
love you
This was unexpectedly heartfelt, she’s been through so much 🥺
she was so sweet
yeah, all that money and interviewers hanging on her every word... so tough
yes and so much has been through her :)
@@dotaboy888 haha so funny 🙄🙄
Completely expected. This interview was long fated.
wow the “you’re mature for your age” HIT me. damn. at 18 i was in a relationship with a 27 year old and at the time i thought it was a compliment. BABES it’s because he’s not mature enough for women his age. red flags everywhere. RUN.
this!!
This!!!!!!! I tell people this all the time we can’t be so naive to the fact!!!
Boy oh boy what a miserable human being. To be that comfortable thinking the worst of the entire gender of men. I feel sorry for you. Life’s too short for you to be that hateful. I hope you seek some help.
@@TheThomasBlack Who is that reply too?
@@missshorts5467 he is probably a creep himself so he feels personally offended by this comment that has nothing to do with him & is about one woman’s personal life experience. we don’t give them any attention, queen 🥰
Alex this was seriously so good!!
alex ur interviewing style has gotten sooo much better. great episode
“You’re mature for your age”= PREDATOR
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I’m dead wtf
@@cambankrollmusic2673 HAHA
@@TheNamronTV dude relax ur commenting this to everY girl. Creep ass
@@rileyambrose3444 what’s your snap chat? You can get it
My heart broke watching this interview. Mia seems like such an amazing person. I hope people can see this and realize that the people you bully online are human just like you, just because you don't know them personally doesn't make the consequences any less real.
just search "mia khalifa this you" by bangbros and you'll see how much of a liar she is even yet another interview
@@RuneScapeNSA I sediment exactly. I am wondering her sincerity about this interview.
@@RuneScapeNSA what is she lying about and what happened to her???
look up her exboyfriend she was seeing while she was married. He exposed her, she was stripping, never went to college, used the N word, among other things. She’s a liar.
@@KatiKosta well I guess most porn stars have skeletons in their closet. Nothing surprised me with then.
God this was some quality content! Can we get a part 2? I just like the vibes here, it's so enjoyable to listen to both of you, telling stories and talk about the world and it's core problems. New sub here!
Such a beautiful conversation :') loved it! Keep up the good work!
clicked on this, not a call her daddy fan, wondering "what could mia khalifa have to say in this interview?" ....boy was i wrong, and shameful in myself for thinking that. im leaving a huge mia fan and huge call her daddy fan. props to you guys for making this happen! Mia is so incredible, her life story is so heartbreaking but touching, and relatable in more ways than I could think. She is so well-rounded and well-spoken, the way she describes everything you can tell how self aware she is. amazing two ladies and an amazing video! you're both so down to earth, i would love to be your friends. gained a fan here!! I see Mia in such high light now and she's just so cute too like in her little sweater she looks so cozy I can't shes too adorable
SAME!!
Well said! Totally agree
Iiar!
I really love how Alex is always so focused on the person she is interviewing, she never brings the conversation back to herself. It’s refreshing
lololloolololololololol
yess! i agree i love it
alex picked some of the best questions to ask, i learned so much about mia and i loved it !
Wow this was such a genuine and heart felt interview. I knew vaguely of Mia’s reputation but I loved learning more about her, it’s neat how we can all relate to one another in a way. So happy that she’s happy and healthy today. Beautiful to see ❤️
when she said that her dogs kept her alive i literally teared up🥺🥺🥺
Thats cringe tho
@@memesxd01 idk it touched me also wtf why is it cringe🥺
lmfao it’s cringy asf
NO ITS NOT.
@@memesxd01 how the hell is that cringe? my dog did the same thing for me. He also got my dads attention when I slit my wrist in the bathtub and no one could hear me calling for help. Dogs are angels. If that’s what is keeping you going, giving you hope everyday and a reason to get up, why the heck is that a problem?
Loved the interview. Alex did a great job. Secondly, did anyone else want SO BADLY to get that dang hair off of Alex's mic? My OCD was RAGING the whole time lol.
Could not stop looking at it, also mia’s mic also had hair, I’m guessing it was her dogs? Lol
I can’t watch because it’s annoying me soooo bad. Lmk how the video went...
Simp
Wow just started the video and now I can't not see it. Thank you sir
Tf is a pubg youtuber doing here lol
I loved watching this! I feel as if I am there with you guys in person. I absolutely love the authenticity from both of you guys.
Awesome interview! You girls are both amazing person. Keep up the good work.
paused the video just to say that it feels good to finally have someone interview Mia in a way where i feel like she’s respected and understood. I relate a lot to what happened to her for different reasons and it’s refreshing to see women be so open about how society and men affect our way of being, of thinking and i just wanted to say thank you!
It works identically for man too! My friend life was wrapped up by his girlfriend.
Thank you!
Alex.... YOU FUCKING KILLED THIS! Wow what an interview. You asked the perfect questions in such a professional yet intriguing way & Mia’s story was so interesting. Love love love this!!!!
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Skank
@@user-pj2zq3ty7m Tf? Chill lmao
Carmine Diego LOL shooting your shot with everyone 🤣
@@TheNamronTV DOWN BADDDDD
What an amazing, interesting, moving, educating interview. Two strong and very respectable woman. Just met you guys but became a huge fan! ✨🦋
This was amazing, love how Alex did this❤️
I can’t express how important this interview is. She’s so incredibly brave and strong!
good interview but even more lies lol
/watch?v=ezaLF_9ZmZE
@@RuneScapeNSA stay off my comment with your negativity idgaf what you have to say :)
@@JamesGames175 it’s not really negativity. Just giving the other side of the story. Alex even said she had to talk to her to make sure she didn’t talk about the wrong thing. Probably because her last interview with Anthony Padilla she lied about shit and kinda over shared. I enjoyed this interview but Mia has lied about a lot and has talked down on sex work and sex workers. This was a better side of her. Just my opinion though😊
Like her, you got to take good with bad. This isn't your comment area, it's the Internet!!
Lmao
I had to put this on pause because I needed to comment right away. This is such an important interview and so well done. Bravo to you both. None of these questions are easy to ask or answer. I'm sure that what you two created together is going to help so many people. Hope that this is the first of many collaborations you do together!
Oh my gosh! You are such a great interviewer! Wow! Thank you for this one, this was a great interview!
This episode made me emotional🥺 Thank you ladies!
Well done Alex. You showed such empathy & asked Mia some difficult questions but allowed her so much room to be comfortable & share her truth without you being scandalous or intrusive. Two queens 🤩💖
Pity she didn't do the same for Tana.
Mak Babe tana is too fake and high to do a good interview like this
Both Mia and Alex seem so down to earth and kind ❤️ loved this interview
You’re both so genuine and I wish I could come tell my crazy life story lol.
What a great conversation. Thank you for sharing.
Alex and sofia breaking up is the best thing that happened to call her daddy. These interviews are the best and have taken the podcast to a whole other level.
Very underrated interviewer..Thought she did great w Miley..She is full of shit but thats why u got to love her..
Sofia was dead weight. I don't want to say talentless, but she didn't bring nothing to the podcast. She was annoying and almost made Alex sound more dumb than she actually is.
@@chipplylar7006 can you elaborate what you mean by “full of shit”? Lol I’m new to the podcast but I’ve seen snippets here and there but I never felt like I could vibe with Alex, idk something about her personality that just seemed off-putting
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i liked their dynamic :/
Mia Khalifa is also a human, thank you Call Her Daddy for treating her with respect.
She’s human but a disgusting disrespectful one she literally wore hijab in Porn not once not twice but 8 fucking times and she tries to play the victim card she lies so much as well but y’all don’t wanna except tha facts
@@abdullahgashud4230 she was forced to wore it.. it eas in papers and signatures she didn't have right to chose what she's gonna wear in a video, she told them that they're gonna get her killed but they didn't care soo please..
@@abdullahgashud4230 who tf cares??? who says that religion is even correct lmfao, it’s disrespectful to YOU 😭💀
why shouldn't she be?
@@abdullahgashud4230 Damn son, you actually counted how much she wore a hijab
You have been lonely for hell lot of time, didn´t you?
My 1st video from you!!!!! 1st time listening to your podcast!! Hell ya I'm in the Daddy Gang now
This has been very eye opening for me. I’m so glad I decided to watch this.
As a hispanic women being bullied for being hairy or being “illegal” when I wasn’t.this gives me peace of mindI love this interview thanks babes!
Please dont pay attention to those comments. Its about them and their misery, its not about you
@Jai latinas are view as most attractive women in the world
it’s crazy, latinas went from being bullied and now are being fetishised
@@kem1233 it’s because we are
@@Yourmomma160 but when it comes to latino men, we know those women are.
ok but when mia said *“i let HIM tell me what i was worth”* i felt that
Thank you for doing this, it was very interesting to watch. Thank you for being open, honest and intelligent people. i wish you all the best.
It is so inspiring that after what she’s been through, she still holds such an amazing sense of empathy and kindness for everyone. I honestly don’t believe that i would be able to view humanity in any positive way if i had experienced life in the same way that she did. What an amazing woman and role model.
How can you call a regular online SLUT an amazing woman?? And a role model??? 😂 So a whores are a role models now
her:"You're a CHILD if you're not in therapy"
me:"I don't have HEALTH insurance"
I started therapy at 4. Now I need therapy for my therapy lol.
@@michellebastiani6470 heard that lmao
@@mattperez1705 I almost feel like they can't "teach" me anything more. Shame I need the meds forever though lmao. Sad but true.
@@michellebastiani6470 It is almost like now you know how to be your own therapist right haha
@@mattperez1705 Yeah it's to the point where I know what is going to be said to me and it's just easier to tell myself 😂
as a middle eastern woman i fully support mia and believe alot of middle eastern women in the west can relate to her story and struggle with our culture around sexuality and shame
100%
Get married. Simple
She’s catholic
You have no Rights lmao 😂
@softhalcyon mad because it's true
Thank you for this interview. Absolutely worth seeing
This is by far my favorite episode, what an amazing woman
thought I would just be checking this out briefly-sat through the whole hour. you guys have great chemistry which produced a really insightful and fulfilling conversation. you are both incredibly wise and bring a lot to the table in terms of personal insight and social commentary. alex you've shown that you are incredibly diverse: can go between being fun and humorous to thought provoking and heartfelt! uhg I loved this to much.
alex made such a good point about societies obsession with the father-daughter dynamic. young women are told that everything they do is for the validation of a man, and even worse it's their own father.
lmao. All women do is seek validation from men
Yeah this is what happens with no father figures, they seek validation from other men
@@That90sShow lmao sure Chad. As if the opposite gender doesn't do the same
its just an extention of societies obsession with womans sexuality.
thank you so much for this interview
ugh i absolutely loved this. so proud of the both of you❤️
Just became part of the daddy gang. This interview felt so raw and real, Im hooked. I can’t wait to binge all your content!
ok I agree therapy is cool and all but some people can't afford it and saying things like "if your not in therapy I don't want you in my life" idk lil harsh I guess
I was thinking the exact same. “If you’re not in therapy, you’re a child”.... or I’m broke trying to feed a family. 🥺
Go to your local college or ask a therapist for a sliding scale quote. Do the work and you’ll find affordable care.
i think it’s mostly just the concept of like if you’re not working on yourself & hurting other ppl bc of it others aren’t obligated to keep you in their life but i agree they should’ve worded that better bc accessibility to care is a huge issue and it is truly a privilege to be able to get that kind of help so i get it
we make money for what’s important
Yeah, it’s too bad we don’t live in country that supports mental health and provides us with those resources. It is very expensive
I’m going through some stuff like this and just hearing words that I can relate to just makes me feel like I can get through it and makes me realize and come to term with my own feelings. Thank you ladies. ❤️
www.allhitnews.com/2021/10/dirty-movies-mia-khalifa-sharing-her.html..muslim country problem
As a Persian girl who came to the u.s right before 9/11… had super controlling, religious parents who were not only abusive but my mother was mentally ill and my father was a drug addict… this is relatable AF. Had so many similar experiences
every single thing about this podcast is BEYOND incredible!!! Both of them did so great
I cant even begin to tell you how good of a job you did with this interview, you truly, respectfully, pour her self out, thank you because is really important the message you gave us with this interview, she is such an amazing strong woman and you gave her that space, thank you! Thank you for this
Mia’s story is such an important one to be told. Being a sex worker myself, I fully empathize with her experience. There’s a stark difference between being coerced into sex work & voluntarily making the decision for yourself. I’m on the opposite side of this spectrum & have been very fortunate to not only have started as an adult woman in my 30s but to also be doing it on my own terms with the support of my friends & family. Unfortunately, that’s not the case for a lot of sex workers. There also weren’t as many options & platforms for us to produce our content independently when Mia was coming up so for anyone considering, if you’re certain this is the job you want, explore those avenues first before you sign your life away to predatory porn companies. Create your own space, name your own price & accept nothing less than what you rightfully deserve.
I pray health, good life ahead and happiness for you.
This video made me feel so validated and so heard I love this channel so much 🥺
Wow that interview was 🔥🔥🔥
Mia is so beautiful, she’s so eloquent and just feels like such a good person
Yeah she was a huge part of my life growing up....
@Safaa Ezqeio surely you can do better than that. That insult is so generic I think you might be projecting
I am SOOOOOO happpy and enlightened to hear SHAME..aka Brené Brown totally reading all her books. Ppl avoid the word “shame” yet it is the root of SO much!! You ladies are so inspiring and encouraging and your talks are helping more ppl than you will ever know !! Daddy gang!!!!
When Alex said: Mia you're a strong and intelligent women, I had the tears coming down. You could see Mia heartlfelt that
I love how truthful this interview is love Alex for being so nice and comforting and letting her speak,Mia is so strong and deserves nun but love not the hate she gets she deserves more than she gets and I’m so proud of her
Alex was a really great host, made Mia feel at ease! This was one of the best podcasts! I loved watching their chemistry!
"If it wasn't for her I wouldn't be in a place to find someone who deserves me" good friends are so essential 💞
These interviews are great
28:26 "Everyone is fighting a battle that they feel like telling someone about... [but] they won't understand" 🙌🏼 🙏🏼
This really opened my eyes that it’s not right to judge anyone.. her story is heartbreaking and reminds everyone to have empathy. I’m glad she’s in a better place, I want to see her win and recover fully from her trauma
She traumatized herself tho?
Thank you!! I needed this ❤️
so important... you are helping people and that is golden...
This was definitely the first podcast I have listened to where I was so engaged. I loved hearing what you gals had to say. So awesome
“You’re a child if you’re not in therapy” or you don’t have health insurance/can’t afford it. I would love to be in therapy but I literally can’t afford it, and I am unable to get on Medicare. There are many reasons why someone doesn’t have access to therapy unfortunately, including living in rural areas without internet and living below the poverty line.
I think they both added that it also includes the fact you are actively working on yourself, therapy or not. They said they want to be associated with people who are in therapy OR actively working on them self, perhaps because they may have been heavily involved in people that weren’t doing either, which can be really damaging to an individual. It doesn’t need to involve money or wealth, it’s just a case of wanting to be a better person than you were yesterday and I think we all wanna be involved with people with that mindset
Or don’t need it at all
I’ve been told I have to go to therapy but I can’t afford it AT ALL.
@@Tolandruth i have yet to believe there is a single individual on this planet without problems they need to emotionally work through. for instance, i think you may be a man bc of your instant impulse u had to comment u didnt need it due to men being widely called “pussies” and “not man enough” when yall cry or talk ab how u feel yk, and i also think you may be a very closed off individual as a result of that (which i feel u bc same) oR youre a narcissistic person who feels perfect (which i dont think thats the case)
my point is we all have issues, im fucked up mentally and im cognitively disabled (i like to call myself a depressed stoner retard) however, thats not a bad thing and i think u should try it out if u can. if u cant afford therapy, i used to have 7cups downloaded on my phone, its kinda like a free text-therapist but they dont get any info from u unless u actually tell them, but u get connected to real ppl and real counselors unless youre more into a kinda “i would rather just talk to ppl who feel the same way in a group setting” they also have free support-groupchats. its pretty cool and either way u try therapy, app or not, i definitely recommend at least giving it a try.
btw im telling u all this mostly based on a gut feeling that i should so ye.. sorry if thats strange and i dont mean to insult u bc everything that i described that i imagine u feeling- is exactly how i am but im a woman😂 anyway i hope ur having a nice ass day/night just felt like i had to say something so disregard this if you wish haha
@PlumberGasfitter no here in the US it can be extremely expensive if you dont have some kind of insurance and health insurance is on its own expensive here it sucks that so many people dont have access to it. I think there are other like cheaper alternatives to traditional therapy like i hear about the app better help where its like a therapy app and you can talk to therapists but I think you still have to pay, and honestly I don’t know, it could be really good but I feel like its probably not the same as traditional therapy which not everyone has access too unfortunately.
Alex please bring back Mia in the future! Definitely one of my favorite episodes. ❤️
I'm a guy and I loved listening to this conversation. Such an eye-opener and very genuine. Thank you for this wonderful interview! All the best for both of you ladies!
this podcast flew by. i didn't realise that it was just over an hour. wow iconic🦋
I’ve only seen a few ‘Call Her Daddy’ episodes, but this one is by far my favorite! I learned so much about Mia, and I think a lot of that had to do with how comfortable Alex made her feel. This conversation was extremely eye opening because I didn’t know much about Mia’s story, but she seems so damn resilient. I can’t imagine going through her experience, but I’m so happy that she’s in a good place now. I wish her nothing but the best.💕
PS, I’d love to see more POC on here. I think it’s a great way to expand our understanding on women of color’s cultures and upbringings. I know Alex could do more great interviews!
Amazing interview. Mia is so strong and resilient and I wish her nothing but the best🖤
Okay say I have a friend who loves this podcast and I checked it out... Alex has incredible food way of listening 👂. And her guest. You are a warrior and opening up about yourself will empower so many!
I really needed this video especially the part about therapy I’ve been on the fence about going but this is my sign to go thank you
I steered away from call her daddy for a long time but this interview was so incredibly refreshing to see. Bringing light to mental health and topics like these was a great move
what video of Alex were they talking about? someone put the link please
Yeiii i clicked because I knew you wouldn't interview her like others
a girl can be fat, skinny, prude or free and other girls will have something to say about it. misery loves company and they'll find anything to gripe about.
Amaizing, thanks Alex for show the incredible person behind the disturb image that social media has been showing of Mia. Wishing the best for this new friendship :)
Love you both! One of my favorite episodes 💗
This is truly my favorite interview on call her daddy
Incredible and very important conversation! Alex has an excellent way of creating a safe and open environment to talk about these important topics. Both very articulate women, loved this episode☺️
I’ve never listened to one of these Podcasts before but honestly this interview was amazing! Made me open my eyes to quite a few things and change my perspective on a few things
Very well edited.
I relate so much to Mia and her talking about sticking through a relationship despite being unhappy, I always felt like I would be alone forever too.