why elden ring is such a hard game for women like me (jk this is another rant)

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  • čas přidán 25. 08. 2024
  • i’m deleted my discord bc god so out of hand
    have a good day

Komentáře • 248

  • @1jaymez
    @1jaymez Před měsícem +60

    to every weirdo who is weirdly obsessed with beks worry about ur rent instead of making hate servers about her over a discord server that didn’t even last a week you freaks

    • @1jaymez
      @1jaymez Před měsícem +8

      @@empireofpersiai honestly do not know, i am not a very discord person and was only made a mod cos me an becs are friends. from my understanding a lot of weirdos came in and got very obsessive over her and how she handled the server, the discord is gone (for the best) and a few of them have gone out of their way to make a hate server about her to insult her and such. freakish behaviour from actual cave dwellers

    • @Dookie_David69
      @Dookie_David69 Před měsícem +7

      I don't get why people feel the need to ruin others fun just because they are weird like keep that to ur self, this was the first server experience that I enjoyed and it's gone because of some freaks :(

    • @kimutone2970
      @kimutone2970 Před měsícem +1

      ​@@Dookie_David69 don't worry bro, we still have YT comments to vent I guess lol

    • @zerotian5661
      @zerotian5661 Před měsícem +1

      @@Dookie_David69 the greatest moment that week was us all getting on some roblox fashion game and someone with VIP making us dress up as buff stylish jerma

    • @thebigbadwxlf
      @thebigbadwxlf Před měsícem +4

      Wtf is wrong with people...

  • @sophisticated_patter
    @sophisticated_patter Před měsícem +108

    When the zoomer e-girl culture finally dies, only then will it be safe for youtube to become social again. Seriously though, I love this resurgence of vlogs.

    • @strawhatpro
      @strawhatpro Před měsícem +17

      Yeah this feels extremely nostalgic, reminds me of better days when SMOSH were lip-syncing the Pokemon theme song into their webcam. Maybe we’re heading back into the golden age :p

  • @lmao___
    @lmao___ Před měsícem +53

    She's weilding the holy trinity of interests: Jerma, Miku, and Weezer

  • @guest3440
    @guest3440 Před měsícem +32

    Damn, we just got weezer'd 💀

  • @distantsea
    @distantsea Před měsícem +22

    This form of content is sorely missed. It's nice to see something genuine like this again

  • @b_beavus
    @b_beavus Před měsícem +6

    It’s really nice seeing channels like this pop up.
    I can get your anxiety towards the growth of this channel, especially at your age, with…well, the people on here.
    Despite that, please don’t be afraid to post your thoughts and feelings (if you’re comfortable)! You have the potential to reach so many people that can relate to you and build connection from your experiences and thoughts.
    And please be sure to have confidence in yourself and your rants. You’re a very interesting person and a good orator, and I’m sure you’ll only get better as you continue to make content.
    Also, I’m proud of you for getting out and going to the therapist. I know that might not mean much from a stranger, but I know how hard it can be, from both personal and interpersonal experiences.
    Keep on going on; you’ll make it really damn far.

  • @sayo2409
    @sayo2409 Před měsícem +29

    Ahhh. We are ALREADY suffering from sucess...

  • @its3amandilostmypassword
    @its3amandilostmypassword Před měsícem +17

    I’m so happy people are doing 2010 type vlogs again I want to be I don’t have the confidence LMAOOO and I feel like I would get cancled

  • @pureyeetextract9176
    @pureyeetextract9176 Před měsícem +12

    Ugh, I hate people who say “I can fix her” that’s such a toxic sentiment and a gross thing to say

  • @Hallowmas
    @Hallowmas Před 20 dny +1

    I've had a really crappy week last week (and even more crap happening the last 5 years of my life). I found your videos about a week ago and theyve helped alot. I realized recently that even though i dont know what to do with my life and that life sucks sometimes i should just focus on improving myself.
    Also I really like Gorillaz/Blur/ anything Damon Albarn related and ive been obsessed with his stuff since 8th grade.

  • @gravity7619
    @gravity7619 Před měsícem +2

    I just wanna say that i just stumbled across your content completely out of the blue and have been so moved by a lot of what youve talked about. I am relatively similar to you in age and as someone around a lot ot 15, 16, and 17, year olds, ill say its very refreshing to see someone who is so open and hopeful about their growth away from the things hurting them.
    I have struggled aswell with fearing death and wondering what this is all for. But knowing to appreciate your moment and find love for everything can really help relax the stresses of everything else
    Surround yourself in positive influences, love what you love without letting anyone take that away from you, and stay HOPEFUL !!
    I love the open and honest nature of your content, there are many people who will find comfort here including myself so thank you and keep creating !!

  • @whiteren8749
    @whiteren8749 Před měsícem +7

    that living space looks so comfy

  • @Genesis1.28
    @Genesis1.28 Před měsícem +8

    cool vidoeo

  • @emorythebeetle
    @emorythebeetle Před měsícem +4

    im going through the same/similar journey rn , so im happy im not alone lol ( also you are SUPER rad )

  • @lolita_88
    @lolita_88 Před měsícem +11

    Well... At least I got in time to post a picture of my bunny on discord. Stay safe Bekzer, love from across the Atlantic ocean.

  • @GantzProxy
    @GantzProxy Před měsícem +2

    As someone who has been through a lot of the shit you are, the fact you're self aware and somewhat optimistic about the future is a really good sign you'll crawl out of this. I had a lot of terrible things happen to me at once, which I'm still trying to crawl out of 4 years later. Like a lot of people say it does get better and a lot of these internet strangers believe in you.

  • @sunnymist1198
    @sunnymist1198 Před měsícem +3

    I would like to say that I found you today, and you really make my day. Can relate to a lot of what you are saying even though we might not have the exact same experiences. I feel like we could be really good friends, I like people who rant, it’s nice listening to them.
    Hope you get better with your struggles you’ve mentioned previously and such. Have a great rest of your day!!

  • @cake260
    @cake260 Před měsícem +2

    Channels like these are a comfort with people talking about what ever comes to mind. Just adding this. I always find it shameful when people just talking about their life have weirdos on the internet spreading hate. I’m 18 myself and have always gravitated to online spaces with yt twitch and discord, but have recently in the past 2 years have become more open and being myself and started to make quite a few good friends to chat with and just be myself and have fun. Always been introverted and having adhd and probably a bit autistic (I haven’t been diagnosed with it though. People say it can be masked by adhd and vis versa) I found people found me a bit much not sure how to put it and I was just nervous to be myself. Been off my meds for a long while now and I think I’ve gotten a lot better certainly with being myself. Channels like this just reinforces my belief to be myself and open to others online and in person. Of course you gotta stay a lot more cautious with people online but hey it’s the internet. Anyway enjoying the videos and sad to see the discord got shut down didn’t even get a chance to join. But does look like it was for the best with people ruining it.

  • @formalbread
    @formalbread Před měsícem +5

    ur so relatable and its nice to hear, i hope thats the reason why people are sticking around

  • @Augustusgloop1994
    @Augustusgloop1994 Před měsícem +4

    Im proud of you for continuing to post :) I have similar issues to you. Sometimes Im too scared to even get groceries. I really enjoy your videos, you are honest and sweet.
    Im sorry about all the creeps :(

  • @linnyflowers
    @linnyflowers Před měsícem +2

    honestly just be aware of accidentally saying various personal info stuff online over time that can get pieced together especially when it’s a channel very about ur personality/who u are cuz people get reeeeally weird sometimes
    idk why these small vlog style channels have been making a resurgence recently or have been on my recommended but cool shit tbh. i like the vibe. ygmi

  • @eropt1498
    @eropt1498 Před měsícem +9

    Your music taste is awesome, I love Weezer especially Pinkerton. I usually listen to metal and hardcore punk bands AND MIDWEST emo as well as some other emo stuff. I've been listening to lot's of Eyehategod, Mortician, and Sex Prisoner recently, as well as the best midwest emo band ever Camping in Alaska. Also the seal photo goes hard, i have a framed picture on my bedside table of a golden snobnose monkey.

    • @eropt1498
      @eropt1498 Před měsícem +1

      @@_gunn_ honestly lot's of powerviolence, I recommend the Sex Prisoner self titled a lot, Weekend Nachos is also a 10/10 band their album Worthless is my favourite, and a really good underrated band is Livid, Life is Pain Life is Shit is prob my favourite release from them. What about you man?

    • @eropt1498
      @eropt1498 Před měsícem

      @@_gunn_ i don't listen to crust punk much, what bands you into? I really just listen to Disrupt and rarely Doom

  • @RyuPhrog
    @RyuPhrog Před měsícem +4

    Deyvon Hendrix?? you are the coolest person ever

  • @lapgirl7047
    @lapgirl7047 Před měsícem +2

    my fav manga is punpun too and i think in a way you can take a lesson from punpun that life moves on and life can always get better (even though in the story it seems like his life always gets worse). living is painful and violent but there will always be things to love/things that are beautiful (inio asano's beautiful artwork). i feel like a lot of my happiness these days comes from finding things that make me happy in all the boring stuff and doing what i want to do because i want to do it. i think you seem pretty optimistic already and thats cool, its hard being an optimist lol :)
    i also wanted to say that i liked your art in the last video and i was wondering what inspires u + if you could share some more? and if you like punpun you should check out the climber/kokou no hito by shinichi sakamoto, the first part of the story maybe doesnt seem like punpun but it changes writers after a bit and the feel of the story and the artwork morphs into something amazing.

  • @CrunchieCheese
    @CrunchieCheese Před měsícem +2

    Think I got this in my recommended cus of the Elden ring title lol, creating and consuming stuff related to souls games brings some weird stuff in from time to time. Interesting video regardless though. Also your music taste is pretty nice, Peggy’s been putting some new stuff out so I’m hype

  • @CoolMusicIMade
    @CoolMusicIMade Před měsícem +1

    I’m glad I found your videos, you seem like a nice and genuine person and I wish the best for you

  • @Snorplicus
    @Snorplicus Před 25 dny +1

    Your alarm going off activated my fight or flight response

  • @LordFloofMcGoof
    @LordFloofMcGoof Před měsícem +4

    Not enough phone storage is so real

  • @solidsnake8008
    @solidsnake8008 Před měsícem +4

    Although stage fright is really only something you can cure with more exposure to being "in front" of an audience, try not to worry about disappointing your viewers, since your rants, healing journey, and weird videos are what we've subscribed and watched you for.

  • @zerotian5661
    @zerotian5661 Před měsícem +7

    wait did they say Jerma?? did you say jerma if so hell yeah man

  • @VANISH223
    @VANISH223 Před měsícem +5

    rip the server i realy did like it

  • @Friedpan1939
    @Friedpan1939 Před měsícem +2

    Ii listen to an embarrasing amount of midwest emo, my fav band rn is an obscure j-rock band that only has a presence in japan and the only way to listen to all of their music without buying the cds is by downloading it off a youtube playlist of a guy who burned all their cds and put them up for download, my fav movie is "i saw the TV glow", bladerunner(1982) is a close runner-up tho, i really really love drawing, i love dnd and other ttrpgs but i suck at being confident around other people, im non-binary (they/them), im pansexual, im currently playing guitar but i really have always wanted to play bass (im saving up for one) thats about it oh and im starved for interacting w people i find cool (oh and i hate weezer im soory)

  • @dariusmain3531
    @dariusmain3531 Před měsícem +5

    uploading your game compilations is a good idea you should try it

  • @ShatteringWind
    @ShatteringWind Před měsícem +1

    Jerma's Chibi-Robo stream is my comfort series.
    Also Oyasumi Punpun messed me up, still debating if its in a good way or not.

  • @lolita_88
    @lolita_88 Před měsícem +3

    We are so close to her rawr xd phase... Or maybe we are past that and healing. Good job. Keep it up.

  • @UnconsciousCardanTheForgetful
    @UnconsciousCardanTheForgetful Před měsícem +1

    I’m so happy to see you’re feeling better and that everything seems to have turned out for the best. It was heart breaking to see you so distressed, having been in a very similar place at that age. I wish you good luck and all the best with everything. 🌈💐

  • @RealAXork
    @RealAXork Před měsícem +4

    Don't feel pressured to succeed, remember why you made the channel in the first place. Prioritize yourself and move at your own pace. Numbers are just numbers and no matter how many people watch it's not your job to entertain them. And of course, don't listen to creeps.

  • @airagog1016
    @airagog1016 Před 20 dny +1

    Be even more careful than that

  • @irascib1e
    @irascib1e Před 25 dny +1

    never upgrade your webcam please 😆I feel like I just went through a time machine!

  • @Nachtmahr616
    @Nachtmahr616 Před měsícem +2

    Hey, the YT algorithm has just put up your video since my YT is on autoplay, probably because you mention Elden Ring in the title, but I just wanted to chime in and maybe recommend trying to pick up an instrument. I was/am socially awkward and allergic to people, but having a hobby that forces you to concentrate helped in many ways. Not just to stimulate the brain, but becoming better at something is also quite satisfying and can help with self-confidence, which also resulted in less self-hate and pessimistic thoughts, which then helped me to be able to talk to and speak with people, until I became relatively chill among people. It's a nice snowball effect that helped me more than gaming, probably because our gaming group has no contact with each other any more, so the social aspect has fallen apart

  • @overefined
    @overefined Před měsícem +2

    just don't dox yourself is all i can say about staying safe

  • @neilfarren4925
    @neilfarren4925 Před měsícem +2

    I can relate to getting social anxiety from the size of your server, I'm barely active in it for that reason. But I'm glad to be your friend, don't let the weirdos get to you bekkie :3
    You know maybe I should be more active in your server, it looks fun and you're epic

    • @neilfarren4925
      @neilfarren4925 Před měsícem +1

      You should've mentioned the gym bros haha

  • @JefferyCuddletrousers
    @JefferyCuddletrousers Před 26 dny +2

    Damn... Awful that you had to deal with the creeps and freaks out and about. I hope ditching the Discord helps, just make sure you do not cut yourself off from the folks who passed the "dont be a creep" trials.
    I hope things get better, I've been unable to handle Discord myself lately, so I do empathise, it can really feel like far too much sometimes, even with the nice people who are not gross.

  • @steezy4609
    @steezy4609 Před měsícem +8

    this video feels old, i love it keep it up.

  • @caramelnoob
    @caramelnoob Před měsícem +1

    its a shame u had to close ur discord seemed like a genuinely fun time. really into these kinds of videos keep being u :)

  • @Blapze
    @Blapze Před měsícem +4

    this is so garlic core

  • @NotDalinoYT
    @NotDalinoYT Před měsícem +1

    these videos would be so good to fall asleep to

  • @kimutone2970
    @kimutone2970 Před měsícem +2

    Ppl can be nasty dude. Glad you're holding up. I recommend just taking walks around your neighborhood. I mean i know some ppl, live in unwalkable awful American suburbs, but if you can, it's therapeutic.
    Darksouls is digital masochism. Change my mind ✨

  • @Vintege1
    @Vintege1 Před měsícem +2

    U are going to be okay I promise. Being dedicated to getting better Is all you need to do. You have so much time to figure shit out! I was completely mentally fucked
    At ur age aswell
    It gets easier it just does

  • @youtubechanne5014
    @youtubechanne5014 Před měsícem +3

    Phone jumpscare
    WEEZER

  • @cyarain
    @cyarain Před měsícem +3

    this feels like backrooms found footage

  • @mementox_naix
    @mementox_naix Před měsícem +1

    I already thought u were cool and relatable before and then u mentioned literally one of my biggest hyper fixations (Sonic)

  • @ReonnXD
    @ReonnXD Před měsícem +2

    Sucks the discord got taken down just as i found the channel should of gotten some good mods for it but oh well Great content authenticity is underrated

    • @miasd3ad
      @miasd3ad Před měsícem

      sammee when she mentioned the minecraft realm it was like a knife thru the heart 😭

    • @ReonnXD
      @ReonnXD Před měsícem +1

      @@miasd3ad Right! lmao creepy incels ruin it for everybody

  • @ephemeraIl
    @ephemeraIl Před měsícem +2

    i love little channels like this

  • @LoafingMushroom
    @LoafingMushroom Před měsícem +1

    There's something in the algorithm. God bless you I hope you do well.

  • @guest3440
    @guest3440 Před měsícem +3

    Hope you are doing well. Too bad the discord didn't work out :(

  • @hjeriz
    @hjeriz Před měsícem +2

    Just found out your channel. Love listening to you, queen.

  • @krystalmcknight1834
    @krystalmcknight1834 Před měsícem +2

    Argh, that is horrible. People shouldnt even leave weird comments when you are older than 18... I wish more people would protect all young people from predators. I wish you well, and i hope your vlogs become very helpful to you!

  • @MtnDew4828
    @MtnDew4828 Před měsícem +3

    You have acquired 1.52k maidens but now you must beat the boss that is anxiousness, anyway got to love the 50 year old men who've had the most basic life 101 but talk trash and the guys who unironically say "i can fix" you oddly have a stinky odor coming from their room and dont even know how to fix themselves

    • @MtnDew4828
      @MtnDew4828 Před měsícem +2

      lol still not enough subs- maidens than me

  • @GrtBrt
    @GrtBrt Před 26 dny +1

    As a chronically elden ring enjoyer I'm severely disappointed in the lack of being in this convo. (JK love and appreciation the content 😌)

  • @eluvrrr
    @eluvrrr Před měsícem +1

    vaporwave and drain gang??? i literally love u

  • @betzcb3106
    @betzcb3106 Před měsícem +1

    crazy to think we're the same age! i thought you were like, 20. you're such a vibe, and im sorry people are so freaky. it's what happens to weezer lovers ig.

  • @jettaJJ
    @jettaJJ Před měsícem +2

    bekzer? more like pretty cool personzer. haha.

  • @MassiveMaleMonkey
    @MassiveMaleMonkey Před měsícem +1

    idk what to type but really love these videos and relate

  • @jay.w919
    @jay.w919 Před měsícem +5

    upload what you want tbh

  • @Kringerel
    @Kringerel Před měsícem +2

    ain't no way it's like 2010 youtub omg

  • @denvernuggsjeans
    @denvernuggsjeans Před měsícem +1

    this channel and what youre doing is awesome. pls keep it up :)

  • @ntrvp
    @ntrvp Před měsícem +1

    your camera quality is kinda comforting idk why but also youre so pretty

  • @LiminalFeelin-mq9gw
    @LiminalFeelin-mq9gw Před měsícem +2

    You're eerily a lot like my sister although her social anxiety is much worse

  • @dz4265
    @dz4265 Před měsícem +2

    I will finish it for u

  • @ollep0lle
    @ollep0lle Před měsícem +1

    My favorite manga is Berserk. Its 18+ though, mostly because of its graphic violence.
    But its very deep and meaningful, and you should look into it when you get older, unless you wanna check it out at once.

  • @russianguygang314
    @russianguygang314 Před měsícem +1

    Amazing person, so happy I found this channel.

  • @void1320
    @void1320 Před měsícem +2

    Sorry things turned out the way they did, you made the best choice considering the circumstances. Stay safe

  • @Pumpernickel5611
    @Pumpernickel5611 Před 27 dny +1

    Omg Jerma fans unite (the hyperfixation consumes me)

  • @punchthem7913
    @punchthem7913 Před měsícem +1

    im also living the jerma obsessed life right now its pretty great. Just waatching this video I looked over and saw a third of the recommended is Jerma stuff lol ITS NOT A PHASE ITS A LIFE STYLE MOM!.... also you should upload clips of the discord server stuff too

  • @lewstherin1745
    @lewstherin1745 Před měsícem +1

    AHHH!!! No Elden Ring??!?!

  • @PoloJESUS
    @PoloJESUS Před měsícem +2

    why youtube reccomending me this yap session

  • @skeleshooter7168
    @skeleshooter7168 Před měsícem +1

    Just don't worry about them people can be disgusting but some on here are cool and if people see this that plan on being creepy leave her the fck be

  • @7zmok
    @7zmok Před měsícem +1

    i love the smiths
    (i rly hope youre ok now :3)

  • @Shirochete
    @Shirochete Před měsícem +5

    I LOVE WEEZER 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️

  • @milksu
    @milksu Před měsícem +1

    misakibros ... we're so back

  • @gotex2796
    @gotex2796 Před měsícem +1

    ill help you with my strength build, but one day you have to beat it solo

  • @epicbeetrootmaster1235
    @epicbeetrootmaster1235 Před měsícem +1

    You should listen to frailty by jane remover! I was a lot like u when I was ur age and that album helped me through some really hard times. It seems matched with your music taste aesthetically too!

    • @bekzerekzer
      @bekzerekzer  Před měsícem

      i love jane remover a lot! she’s one of my favorite artists ever :3

  • @goawaygosh
    @goawaygosh Před měsícem +2

    Trying to heal while having a discord. That’s hardmode right there.
    Good luck and watch out for groomers.

  • @acjayc
    @acjayc Před měsícem +1

    4:05 PEGGY & DEVY MENTIONED‼️

  • @markpaladiy5748
    @markpaladiy5748 Před měsícem +1

    You look like the Parker character (played by Beth Reisgraf) in the drama-humor TV series, Leverage.

  • @yals
    @yals Před měsícem +2

    we're here to help

  • @VViralVibes
    @VViralVibes Před měsícem +1

    Yoo surely you post your Spotify your music taste is immaculate 👌

  • @BigSamthemanxXx
    @BigSamthemanxXx Před 18 dny +1

    Oh, Never mind. She's 16. No need for any fixing, you're 16.. if you were in your twenties though, this would be bad. lol

  • @pinkerhero
    @pinkerhero Před měsícem +1

    brain @ being a not bad troll: like the DreamWorks trolls? 8D

  • @LisZam1463
    @LisZam1463 Před měsícem +1

    Good luck with your channel and your life Becca! ^-^ I hope most people who come here can be respectful. Sadly there will always be people who won't be that "/

  • @perrytheplatypus2667
    @perrytheplatypus2667 Před měsícem +1

    MY DREAM JOB IS TO WORK WITH ANIMALS TO ESPECIALLY SEA LIFE

  • @Billy_Herrington1969
    @Billy_Herrington1969 Před měsícem +2

    deleting discord is good for your wellbeing

  • @ShaNaNa242
    @ShaNaNa242 Před měsícem +1

    Weezer is so great, I really relate to the loneliness and awkwardness of Pinkerton.

  • @icrmi
    @icrmi Před měsícem +2

    Yes on game clips!

  • @somberandaugustine
    @somberandaugustine Před měsícem +1

    Hi… I heard from your last video you wanting to read more, one of my hobbies is lit. It’s always interesting getting to talk with my generations exposure to weird stuff written from the old. Would you be willing to open a book/lit channel on your discord? If any of you guys are out there or anything.

  • @cooldummy8991
    @cooldummy8991 Před měsícem +2

    Be sure to take care of yourself!!!! Post whenever you feel like it 😸

  • @Employee985
    @Employee985 Před měsícem +1

    I really wanted to join your discord server but it said the link is invalid T_T No pressure though! Also your videos are awesome man, very relatable and interesting! :D I also adore Jerma, Minecraft, Weezer and Miku... I also thought of reading Goodnight Pun Pun but I'm not sure yet, should I check it out?

    • @bekzerekzer
      @bekzerekzer  Před měsícem +1

      i’ll work on fixing that and yes you def should! it’s alittle grim tho but i relate to aiko!

  • @sk1nep
    @sk1nep Před měsícem +1

    can't believe how i got so effortlessly women baited and sat through the whole vid waiting for opinion on elden ring...

    • @bekzerekzer
      @bekzerekzer  Před měsícem +1

      L

    • @chrismorel2576
      @chrismorel2576 Před měsícem +2

      Click bait is still called click bait regardless of gender. We stan for scam equality ✊️

  • @JeffTheKiller000
    @JeffTheKiller000 Před měsícem +1

    Sorry to hear your discord thing didn't work out