Week 1 end without Monty

This marks the end of week 1 with out Monty. It was done in a single shot, no practice. I wanted it real, and not rehearsed. Believe it or not I am an "Old School" man from the era of real men do not cry. Sorry, but can't help myself as he was such a huge part of my world.
Yes, I did forget to mention things. Everyone is different, there was no anger on my part towards Monty which some say is common. Currently at the end of week 1 there is missing Monty greatly, a lot of heavy sadness. There is a void, and it hurts. I really try to remember nothing but the good, but the good things remembered trigger the deep sadness because it just brings home what we have lost.
I suppose that time will make it better. I hope it does.
Monty I miss you.