Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I'm so happy that people are resonating with my words. My biggest fear going into this was not representing the OCD/mental health community well enough. Your kind comments are proving to me that I did it to the best of my abilities. To any of the negative commenters: your misunderstanding of other people's struggles push me to end the stigma that comes with mental illness even more than before. To all of the people that found solace in my words: thank you for hearing me; you are not alone. MUCH LOVE MARK
thank you for sharing your story and experience Kate! it seems like you’re really self aware and emotionally intelligent now since growing through the OCD
Kate I also have OCD and started having terrible issues with it very young at like 5 or 6. It’s really hard to have an issue that you know logically doesn’t make sense but that you are still compelled to do. I had to have psychological therapy for OCD for a long time. It improved from what it once was. I still have issues especially when stressed out. And who isn’t stressed out these days. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
@@tiffb1300 how so? I think whatever ways she contributed must pale in comparison to all the things she did right. Honestly she's super lucky, of course relatively considering having OCD isn't lucky, because even most well off parents wouldn't know what was going on and react super poorly. Her mother appears to basically support her without putting any guilt on her for not doing it herself at her age. Most parents would have probably done the whole "tough love" routine and kicked her out to figure out her problems alone... which would be obviously bad. I could go on but seriously her mom sounds much better than most in that situations
I have never heard someone admit to the things she has admitted too. I can relate to some of the things she deals with as far as intrusive thoughts. Very brave of her to be so vulnerable and transparent.
Same it's crazy because I thought I was crazy for having these intrusive thoughts and have never felt validated and I've always been scared to voice these ugly thoughts I have been able to deal with it on my own but just hearing her story lifted such a big weight of my shoulders you're so brave and thank you for doing this for all of us and letting me now that I'm not alone in this 🫶🏽
@@Sunnydayz5656 a friend of mine told me one time that “we are not our thoughts” that helped me understand to disconnect thoughts and my self. As a newly religious person, I chalk it up to the devil trying to confuse me or bring me down. A few prayers and the devil ain’t got shit on me!
Same!!! I'm so grateful to her for being so vulnerable cause some things you just feel like you can't tell people because they'll think you ARE your thoughts.
Yeah, the first time I even knew what OCD was when I was 16 watching a CZcams video. Didn’t go to a physiatrist till I was 22, this was my whole life and I didn’t tell my parents till I was 22. If you haven’t seen a professional I would recommend it, Prozac really helps.
@@patrickcirenza1824 i take prozac!! it’s been great for me. i’m glad you’ve been able to recognize the help you needed, i know it can be hard. i was diagnosed at 16 but didn’t really understand why until i spent time researching it and in therapy.
I had ocd as a young boy and was washing my hands down to the bone from dry skin especially in winter time. As an adult I don't wash my hands enough yet feel much better lol
People have no idea how someone with an active imagination and anxiety can torture themselves. Especially if they are sensitive and empathetic. Living HELL.
I know exactly what it’s like to have gone through most of what you have as a result of OCD. Thank you for being brave enough to speak out about what it’s like living with OCD!
I’ve had OCD for 7 years and one thing I’ve found with people with OCD is that they are very self aware and gentle people. We are gentle because our OCD beats us down until we are humble. And we are self aware because we spend 80% of our day in our heads trying to understand our thinking and constantly analyzing our behavior. It’s exhausting. But at least it makes us have some good qualities we might not have developed without it.
Just want to say be kind to yourself and your OCD thoughts/behaviors. We are self aware and many times beat ourselves down because of the OCD behaviors. Just allow the thoughts to happen and let them pass. Don't speak negatively to yourself. It only makes the anxiety worse and spiral into panic attacks
The ocd around telling your mom about all of your sexual experiences makes sense to me. Durning the time you were being molested, it was a secret that you wanted to tell but couldn’t, and felt shameful about. And then as a teenager having sex and feeling ashamed about it, you were immediately compelled to tell. Something you weren’t able to do as a kid. You’re an amazingly strong, beautiful person.
She understood the assignment 👏🏾. One question and she took us the entire journey. OCD is a very serious overlooked disorder. She’s right, it’s not a joke or something cute like people make it seem. It is utterly exhausting. I pray she continues to get better.
You know what must be so frustrating for her? When people say "Oh I have OCD, that's why my cushions have to be neat on the bed". Like, really? What this woman has gone through and the volume of knowledge she has on this horrific illness is astonishing. She is so strong to have come out of this without a major addiction to opiates or alcohol or anything that temporarily quiets the mind
Absolutely! It’s quite annoying hearing people mention that they “have” OCD when they know absolutely nothing about the true horrors and struggles with the disorder. I’m 30 and still battling it but it does go overlooked.
I forget what vitamin. I think B complex? Dr. Berg covers this on his video on OCD. It covers anxiety and OCD. It's going to give relief. I have a friend who was only eating chicken, sugar and carbs. What a mental nightmare until she changed her diet. What finally pushed her to healthier eating behavior was the candida and rashes, I think hair loss, too. I had to tell her the physical and mental were all related. She's doing well, now.
I agree…. I think it’s definitely Overused and thrown around carelessly, almost like it’s just the “trendy” thing to do…claim to have OCD, the same way they muse Anxiety. BUT……. I think just because someone doesn’t have it as severe as this woman Doesn’t mean they don’t also have it. It’s always a spectrum with things like this and yours doesn’t have to look like hers in order for you to feel like you can also acknowledge that you too may have OCD.
@@EboniFlowersI agree, I have always said I have Tourette’s, but a mild case. I think it’s also a spectrum. I was never diagnosed but I have ticks that I can’t control very long. I read that ADHD causes ticks too and I have many of the symptoms of that so… IDK!!!
It’s true - most therapists are not trained in how to treat OCD. You have to ask if the therapist has had experience successfully using ERP to treat it. Most do not.
@@endokrin7897 Therapists are typically like GP. They can identify there is a problem and point you were to go. Sure they can treat a fever or a sprained ankle but if you have cancer or a badly broken ankle they will send you to a specialist. Most therapists have a general knowledge but if you want trauma treatment for C-PTSD/PTSD then you seak out that specifically. If you have OCD you seak out someone who has extra knowledge on the subject. It's no different. No need to hate on the guy who is saying this helped him be a better shrink.
Wow. I wonder if this young lady realizes just how many people she is helping and in which ways by being so candid on this interview. Hats off to her for her courage. She’s articulate and very self aware. Love her depth and I wish her peace and health.
Hello, two common things Kate and the other guy with OCD have is traumatic childhood with sex abuse. What do you guys think, is sex abuse important trigger for OCD, or abuse happens as a consequence of being vulnerable like people with other mental illnesses often are? OCD is pretty interesting to me because i have this tendency to count stripes at zebra crossings, floors of the buildings, floor tiles and similar. If numbers are not even, or sometimes odd like 14 instead of 12 i wish they were, this feeling goes away in a few seconds so it doesn't really bother me. The same thing is going on when doing electronics where i prefer certain numbers over others, in the last three days i was kind of bothered by getting 273 volts instead of 275 when both are technically correct, they could be well over 10V higher or lower. In my twenties i told this to a social worker who thought it is happening because my intellectual capacity wasn't used to full potential, which made sense at a time. I hope what i wrote makes sense, English is not my native language.
I'm 53. I have developed the existential ocd. My whole entire mind is consumed with death and dying. Its causing panic attacks, last night was the worse one yet. I was completely convinced I was dying. Im glad this came to my feed when it did because I think I understand the problem now.
@@lori5404 Try psychologist? Dealing with ocd like this on your own must be hard, i mentioned psychologist because some of them can help us change very fast.
Listen to every word this girl says, as an OCD sufferer myself, she hit the nail on the head, down to every last theme, every thought every compulsion. Wow, I’m not alone.
That pedophile fear is very common in OCD sufferers with intrusive thoughts. You explained it so well. Our biggest fears actually become our biggest fears. This is such an in-depth, well explained, interview on OCD, especially the intrusive thoughts. Most people think OCD is just repetitive behaviors, they forget or don't realize that intrusive thoughts are a big component. Coping mechanisms help us survive until they don't. Thank you so much for this interview. Kate is strikingly beautiful and so intelligent, I wish her love and peace xx
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I wasn't molested, but your spiral into OCD from childhood is almost exactly what I went through. From the intrusive thoughts, seeking reassurance, dissociation, religious compulsions, confessions to mom, and obsession with socks/underwear fit. It's wild and stuff I never thought anyone would share in such fine detail. Thanks for sharing, Kate.
Same!!! I am so shocked at how this is literally me and I didn’t even know about OCD. So many realizations today about my life. I always thought something is just wrong with me
Same!!! I had so many similar experiences especially being confused about thoughts that sounded and felt like they weren’t coming from me. I wasn’t correctly diagnosed until my 20s
Being “a prisoner in my own mind” was the most on target description of OCD I’ve heard. Thank you for sharing your experience. Listening to your story was therapeutic to say the least. Never forget how much you are helping people.
A lot of people ask me why I spend so much time alone and I always say , "My brain is too loud. It's easier that way." What she describes is why. Thank you for being so honest and explaining it so clearly.
Yup, fighting with your own thoughts is exhausting. I have a lot of the same obsessions as her that I've never admitted to anyone. Its good to know at least we aren't alone.
Yes 🙌🏻 ⭐🙌🏻 **This Comment is It** The Roaring in my head 😢 Gives me headaches If I'm awake 😔 n listen 👂🏻 to it too long too, Then I lay here aggravated at Me for 🚫 Being asleep by Now 🥱 my head hurts from the Roar of thoughts crashing together 🤢 😉💭❣️
@@jjd903I've had OCD since I was about 9, so 56 years. In order to deal with my brain racing I began drinking at 18 and finally quit at 50. I thought I'd get worse with my mind being more clear without alcohol, but instead, my OCD lessened even though I still have some obsessive/compulsive thoughts. Thank goodness it didn't get worse because always waiting for when the other shoe would drop was exhausting.
I had no idea about OCD went this deep. What an intelligent, articulate, well put together woman considering the struggles she has. So happy she has a supportive mom, and others around her. Best of luck to this young lady!!
Me neither. Had no idea it could affect the thoughts so hard😢 Sweetie, keep fighting this OCD bitch and what she's saying to you. It'not real, it's not true!! You are such a kind hearted ,loving, intelligent young woman´ i hope they'll find something to shut up these voices for good❤😢
Mark, thank you for the OCD videos. My daughter has OCD and it has completely taken over her life. its an awful disorder. Kate, your articulate details have helped me immensely to understand the struggle my daughter goes through everyday. thank you both.
I understand your daughter's frustration as my form of it is washing my hands a million times a day and don't know why! It's sooooo frustrating, especially at work!! I can hide it at home but Omg I'm sick of it!! I hope your daughter heals, truly 💗
My son also has ocd, it started when he was 8. My son is now 31, he didn’t tell me until he was 15. He says he didn’t know how to explain it until he did some research of his own. He started therapy immediately. Now he suffers with severe depression and has suicidal tendencies 😢 I completely understand how you feel as a mother. My son until this very day is under psychiatric care and sees a therapist weekly . It breaks my heart 😢 And yes, Thank You Mark ❤
My daughter also has OCD. Existential OCD along with order, cleanliness. She's 24 she still lives at home because of the severity of her mental health. It's a heartbreaking and terrifying disorder. Sending everyone hugs and prayers here in this thread. ❤️🤟
I healed my ocd doing three things: ERP, Meds and doing the heavy metal detox cleanse from medical medium. It saved my life, please check it out for your daughter.
"The anxiety is much worse than the actual event." This is so true. Having OCD myself, I was constantly worrying about getting cancer and that it would be the end of the world if I got it. I did end up getting cancer when I was 20, but turns out, it wasn't the end of the world; I handled it pretty damn well.
Crazy I watched this because my wife saw this video and felt completely validated. She has had this her entire life as well and has always thought she was crazy. Recently we had been talking about her possible having OCD and after she say this video she could relate to so much! There needs to be more awareness to this in society so less people suffer in silence.
Thank you for 👀 for your Wife, ❤️ Says Alot There as mine is Worse as I get older, I'm threaten to be put in Home, Told go to mental Hospital, or that I'm Ret*&+:$😭❣️🙏🏻 God be with Us All 🛑 the thoughts 🧐💭 n Mental Illness We Have 😇💯❣️
I was in total shock for a bit when I saw Kate's face pop up on my Subscriptions page. We lived in the same city and hung out in mutual circles a few years back. She always struck me as insightful and empathetic and beautiful. It's inspiring to see her share her truth in an interview like this. Nicely done, Kate
“This thought does not hold power over me. It is just a thought”. I will remind myself of this when my mind & anxiety tries to take over me. Thanks for sharing your story.
Oh wow! I didn't get to that part of the video yet, but I was once told by a psychiatrist to think of the thoughts as independent thought bubbles traveling through my brain. Almost like a comic strip thought bubble. He told me these thoughts are distressing to you and you don't want them, so they're obviously not your thoughts. Allow them to pass and keep moving?.
I had to comment on this. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and fears. I’m 29 and was diagnosed with OCD last year. Once I was diagnosed I realized that I’ve had this most of my life. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. It feels like you’re under a spell. It’s debilitating and I felt like a monster at times. You describing the fear of hurting someone while you’re asleep is something I fear every night. You’re not alone & you seem wonderful 💚
Mark, thank you for videos like this. One of the main reasons I watch them is that they give me a window into the minds and world of people who I would never otherwise be able to see. I constantly relearn the lesson about being kind to others because you never know what they are going through.
Kate, when you mentioned your grandfather dying it reminded me of something. People with severe anxiety can be extremely competent and strong when something serious actually happens. They have to face their fears over and over every day for years in advance. Often when the event or loss they fear occurs, they respond far better than they ever anticipated. People around them often observe how they manage better than everyone else.
This is extremely accurate. I can help others in very bad situations, but myself...not so much. Minus death of loved ones bc I've anticipated it for so long - it's the suicides & sudden deaths that bother me, but even suicide, I can deal with it. I guess that's why I make a very good CO in jail/prisons. 🤷🏼♀️
This is so true. I have bad anxiety but I’m level headed and take action when actual emergencies happen. Same with other people I know who have anxiety.
Yes indeed....at a young age i witnessed my brother pass away. Then at 17 i went into the Army in 2005 mind you. I feel like after youve witnessed so much trauma and tragedy you dont go into shock when things happen around you. You stay calm and take action to try and help.
I have never heard anyone explain so precisely and completely what is in my head. I'm speechless. Thank you so much for telling your story. Love from Nova Scotia
As another person with OCD, thank you for your bravery & vulnerability in this video. So much of what you shared are also things I’ve experienced/continue to struggle with. The derealization, the doubting. Your knowledge and wisdom was wonderful to get to hear. Thank you.
Hi Kate, my name is Javen. I went inpatient a few years ago on my 18th birthday. My brain absolutely snapped. Every single thought you are describing, I was stuck on for about 2 years. Sadly it won't really ever leave and it's terrible. Seeing your video actually helped me, I tell my fiance constantly I wish I would meet someone who is experiencing what I felt and thought, but would never wish it on anyone. Yet here you are. Thank you for talking about all of this, I'm hoping in my future I'll be able to think that there are others like me. It is true when you say it attacks everything you care about. I ended up using my fiance as my compulsion, the same way you used your mom. It's heartbreaking to have to explain these things to someone you love. Even if they love/care, it still tortures your brain and makes you worry that they think you ARE what you're telling them. I can't express enough how much I appreciate you sitting down and explaining these things going on in your brain. You helped me immensely.
I have NEVER heard something so relatable. All of this. Your story is very close to mine. As much as it is torture to live with, I’m just relieved to know that my experiences are valid. Thank you for being so honest. I can’t even imagine the courage this took. There’s so much shame attached to our thoughts with OCD… I admire you.
Me too, I feel so incredibly understood. Even down to the absolute minutiae of my obsessions and compulsions, like having to confess again b/c I'm afraid they forgot the original confession, or I wasn't detailed enough the first time. It's maddening!
I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for 14+ years and I’m so glad to finally see a video that talks about true OCD, the intrusive and obsessive thoughts, etc. So many people say “oh, i have ocd i have a clean house” and stuff like that. And downplay the seriousness of what OCD really is. It is debilitating. Thank you for this video, Mark! And thank you, Kate, for sharing your story! You’re amazing!
I have OCD as well. It can be so exhausting. I have had people ridicule it. I have told them, before they judge so quickly, they could not last one day in my mind and body. It takes a strong individual, to have this disease.
@@rebeccalavoy6655 OCD is a form of poisoning/damage to the brain, the main culprit is childhood vaccines. There is a way to detox the toxins out of the body (sweating, herbal cleanses etc.) but nutrition is key as well -- brain food is plant based nutrients from whole foods from the garden.
Same ❤️ hate it when people use “ocd” as being an adjective to describe themselves just because they like order. People have no idea how hard it is to live with everyday
This was the hardest "Like" I can think of. I don't "like" knowing what this poor angel has been through, but I do very much "like" the courage it took for her to open up like this, and I very much appreciate and LOVE to the profound social good this channel is bringing to the world, by educating the masses. I just hope it never gets shut down or censored, because however difficult these stories are to hear, they are so preciously important to voice
The human mind is so very powerful. I manage my intrusive thoughts through prayer. This may not work for everyone, but it works for me. This young lady & I have a lot in common. I’m a 48 year old African American man, & leading Up to me viewing this video, I thought that I was the only one with a mind that functions like this young lady. I pray though, & I’m not going to stop. 🙏🏿
Thank you for your bravery Kate. This is a perfect description of the hell that is OCD. Anyone reading this, I’ve come to know from suffering from OCD for decades, that we are the least dangerous people on earth. It’s your brain wiring torturing you and the fact that you’re horrified or afraid of your intrusive thoughts just goes to show, everything it’s telling you is bullsh*t. Be kind to yourself. Find someone who’s a specialist in OCD and go hard with exposure therapy. It’ll prove to you, that OCD is full of sh*t. You can be free of it’s grasp or at least get better at ignoring it. Sending Kate and all of you fighting this beast love 😃😀 Xx
Yes her description is point on. I have battled as well and also tried to deal with this with only cognitive behavioral therapy. Without health insurance the suffering goes on. We need universal healthcare in this country. We are seeing the results with shootings and suicides sky high due to all the conditions people are suffering with untreated.
@@katewilliams5230 you're awesome Kate I pray for you and wish the best mental health is a huge problem in this country thank you for this video you're helping a lot of people out stay blessed ✌️✌️
@@supermikeb Yes but its not that simple when you have worn superhighways in your brain telling you the same things without mercy. Like a lightswitch you cant turn off. You have to do what addicts cant even do and thats fight each impulse to think something and not give in. If it were as simple as your remark we wouldnt have people in such distress and suicidal. Ocd is addiction, addiction to giving in and we do it because weve meshed pleasure and pain together. We have to abandon the security and familiarity of the negative thoughts. Once you break the patterns they no longer have power but as I said its an addiction and fighting your very brain is not as simple as hearing a quote.
I’m a 24 year-old man and I have OCD similar to yours, although slightly less severe. I just want to thank you for doing this interview. Your in-depth explaination of the disorder is invaluable. I’m going to show this video to my close friends and family so they can see I’m not alone. You’ve done an immense service to all of us who suffer from real OCD and also to those who interact with us and need a better understanding. Thank you so much again and I wish you lots of love and serenity on your journey of life ❤
@@Jason.cbr1000rr Hi thanks for the question! I personally am unable to work so I’m in the process of applying for disability here in Iceland. I’m fortunate enough that the health care system in my country is excellent. Working a normal job with OCD is damn near impossible, especially if one is on the autism spectrum as well, such as myself. I believe this is the case for most people with the disorder. It’s best to seek support. How easy it is to get accepted for disability benefit differs greatly from country to country. Nevertheless, I would encourage everyone in my shoes to start the process because it can be a lenghty one.
Kate is just lovely. She has opened my eyes to this torture of OCD. I think she could definitely become a therapist to help others with OCD. Not often enough patients go through treatment with Doctors who DO really understand. Her being there for others could make the cure / ease the symptoms, easier to achieve.
Absolutely, i could begin to understand what she must go through everyday of her life. Shes had a bit of a raw deal since childhood. She would certainly make a great therapist.
This hit home so hard. I’ve never related to a video so much in my life. Thank you Kate, I can’t tell you the relief I feel to hear someone speak about almost the exact same intrusive thoughts. It’s one of the least understood illnesses and it’s so refreshing to hear someone explain it as more than just hand washing and light switches
My husband was diagnosed with OCD before I met him. The part where you talked about how if you didn't think your mother understood you so you would say it again was eye opening for me. My husband does this. He repeats the same point over and over and insists I don't understand him to the point that I'm so over stimulated and frustrated I have to leave. Now it's clicking that this is probably part of his OCD. It helps me to be more patient with him knowing it's not something he can help.
I'm glad you had this understanding because I have ruined every single relationship I have ever been in by doing stuff like this. *Doing stuff like your husband
We (OCD sufferers) usually don’t understand how exhausting the reassurance seeking is to those around us until some light has been shed on the disorder by a proper diagnosis/ therapist. It would probably help to sit in on a therapy session w your husband and get some guidance on how to handle reassurance seeking so that it doesn’t drive you nuts. ❤
This is amazing. I had no idea OCD was this deep and paralyzing. This condition sounds so hard and exhausting. I really hope the medication and therapy helps.
Thank you. I’ve experienced 25 years of ocd. Your journey is so, so similar to mine . I know profoundly how difficult it is to talk of these things but you did so well. Thank you for explaining it. I didn’t realise I had ocd for so many years and it destroyed me. You cannot explain how devastating it can be. Thank you for expressing such a profoundly difficult illness with so much insight.
I admire how beautiful you make everyone look in your interviews. I don't know whether it's the frame, angle, lighting, etc., but everyone you put on that stool becomes a thing of beauty; regardless of whether they are attractive or not.
This is so true. Mark is great at this. It’s quite remarkable isn’t it. One person can take the same picture as another, one will look fantastic, and the other not so much. That ability has always fascinated me. I realise with Mark there’s a lot of thought goes into the shot, but still, it’s a great natural ability that not everyone possesses. The lighting, colour coordination with the backdrop, and all because he wants the person to look beautiful, and they always do ❤
Agree....it may be that he sees the beauty in each individual and somehow that translates. Although to be fair, this girl IS stunning so not hard to do with her.
People need to realize how many of these horrible mental health issues are solely from sexual abuse or some other childhood trauma. Why are SO many kids being abused. It's absurd. I know more people who have been abused than haven't. It's so horribly sad. I was as well, and here I am, I also have OCD, BPD, and probably CPTSD. Our children need to be protected so much better.
@@PeaceLoveeNSN be careful. It seems to me like the surge in mental disorders diagnosis is a scam by the pharma companies to hook you on medication. It doesn't mean you don't have problems, but it might not be an actual mental illness and medication might not be the solution.
I too have OCD and it came on during childhood. I could relate to SO much that you talked about and experienced. Funny thing is that I am a master level social worker and now help others dealing with OCD and other mental health challenges just as you are endeavoring to do. You will change lives and help so many , not only through this interview but also through your profession. Thank you for sharing your story and your courage!
I'm so happy that there is someone who is able to explain and describe what people with Obessive-Complusive Disorder suffer with. I have had OCD for the better part of my life and I never knew I had OCD until I was professionally diagnosed. There were things I did that was questionable. And I would ask my mom why do i HAVE to touch this? Or I would say I saved her from unaliving because I touched a certain object. My friends thought it was a funny querk I had. I was late diagnosed at the age of 22. I was suffering with panic attacks and would end up in the ER because I thought i was dying and having a heart attack. I dealt with those things by myself until I met my sweet husband. He's been such a great support system. Although I do still have OCD tendencies, I was able to get help with some of them through therapy. It just feels refreshing that we have someone recorded and posted online to tell the whole world what OCD actually is. I am tired of people saying they have OCD but its just being neat and clean when in reality yeah that is an obsession too but not to the extreme like people who actually has OCD. This video brought back so much memories of my childhood that I only remember as being traumatic, and how lucky I was to have such a loving family that cared so much for me and was so patient with me. I am 29 now and on medication, I dont think i'll ever get off medication to help with my OCD because if I am off I am a completely different person. Thanks again Kate, I appreciate the video and I hope you are doing well now. Also thank you to Mark for uploading this video for everyone to see.
If I wasnt at work watching this right now I would be crying tears of gratitude. I'm really struggling with keeping it together right now. I am not diagnosed but I figured out by doing my own research that I am likely OCD and everything you just explained makes me feel so validated and understood its like a door just opened up. I'm going to ask my fiance to watch this because I think it will really help him understand me better. Kate, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You just changed the way I think about me.
My partner has OCD intrusive thoughts and this video has explained so much about the condition to me. I wish I had this information earlier in our relationship. We have been through a lot. It is very difficult for me sometimes, but he's worth it. Don't forget, a hug can make a huge difference if your partner is struggling a little.
Kate, I can listen to you talk about OCD all day. You really made me completely understand. I don’t have OCD, but I too struggle with anxiety, and panic attacks, and the way you described your panic attacks, is exactly how I experience mine. I also have bipolar disorder with mood swings, and now recently have been diagnosed with agoraphobia which I am in therapy for. I hope things get better for you! The struggle with these issues is no joke!
I’ve never related to a SWU video as much as this one. Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest, some of the things you shared I’ve never heard another person say. I really felt so alone in so many of my thoughts. Thank you Kate, you’re incredible.
This interview shows how painful and tiring it is to live with a sick mind. While you are physically absolutely fine but in so much agony inside. And it just reiterates how crucial your childhood is. And how important it is for the parents to nourish and keep their children safe. Hope you get well soon sweet child. Thank you for sharing your life with us like this.
You are truly amazing. What a succinct and articulate description. I am sure you are helping so many people see in depth the reality of OCD and the anxiety that comes with it.
As someone with OCD and an eerily similar story- I promise you all that you can't imagine how much bravery went into her doing this interview. OCD is humilating and terrifying So much respect for her 😭😭 I'm so glad she had a good parent around to help
My 17 year old son is also in therapy for OCD and treated with ERP...it's such a tough road..OCD is ever changing for my son and so incredibly difficult at times!! Kate is just lovely and inspiring!!! Wishing you and your son the best of luck!!
I am just being diagnosed as being OCD at the ripe old age of 36. It puts so much into perspective, it's so validating and so is hearing you tell your story. I hate the thought that others are going through this, but it's comforting that other people understand. So many people invalidate everything by thinking it's only about obsessive cleaning, but they don't understand the actual complexities. You are doing great darlin and I am proud of you, you brave, beautiful soul!
What a selfless and courageous woman to share her story! My heart hurts for people who have this struggle. I can’t imagine a life with this mind battle. God bless this sweet Kate! ♥️
I definitely suffer with intrusive thoughts that I know I don’t mean, and never had an explanation until now. All thanks to her being so fearlessly candid.
same! I am so happy that people come out to talk about this. :) Sometimes it is helfpul just knowing that there are other people out there who have similar struggles.
Yeah man I’ve struggled my whole life with intrusive thoughts. I didn’t cope all that well as a teenager but in my adult life I think I cope a lot better, still really irritated with them tho. I’ve the religious side of OCD and have recently been diagnosed with having an extra chromzone in the 7th gene 🧬 which is an explanation as to why I do struggle a lot.
I am literally in tears…I feel seen. I have so much respect and admiration for you to be able to share your story and your thoughts to educate I would love to learn more from you!
I feel the same. She exposed issues here that haunted me for a long time and I never dared to share with anyone. It can be dark and lonely. Kate is a very articulated and bright young woman and I am positive she will help many people in her life.
Same. There are things I can recall from my childhood.. very similar. The part about her Mom saying “she can’t lie,” hit me hard, bc I remember my mom saying the same about me. Omg I needed professional help. I still do. Thank you so much for your honesty, bc I don’t feel so alone rn.
I never, ever thought I would hear someone describe my experience so well. I was never molested, but I began having similar “bad thoughts” when I was around 7, and I always had to tell my mom. Those thoughts made me feel sick to my stomach and I walked around terrified of accidentally thinking something bad. It’s crazy to hear that other people had similar experiences. Thank you so much for sharing this, I am so appreciative to hear your story❤
This is truly one of the best videos I’ve ever watched on SWU and so validating for those with OCD. Kate, thank you for being courageous and sharing your story. ❤
As an 11 year old I knew something was wrong with me when I had OCD thoughts, rituals etc, but I later learned it was my brain’s way of coping with trauma. I’m 37 and still deal with it including anxiety, anxiety attacks, depression etc. Hearing someone talk about issues similar to mine really help me understand and cope with mental health issues. Thank you for sharing your experience with us here on CZcams.
I’m like you: started having OCD symptoms at 11-12 and in my thirties now. It’s nice to hear someone else talk about it. I feel like it’s so misunderstood by others and hopefully her speaking about it will help others be more compassionate. ❤
Her description of not having the words when she was younger and how it makes her feel now.. that is exactly what it felt like finding out I'm autistic at 30. So many hurts could have been avoided.
I’m 34 and I’ve never known what I was going through, when my wife saw this she instantly shared it with me and knew this was what I have been going through my whole life. Thank you so much I’ve never heard anyone describe these things that can be crippling and make you feel so alone. I have a beautiful family and a business and now I feel like I can move forward with the right help when I go through a “thought attack”. Thank you so much for sharing.
This was such a valuable talk for me. The obsessive and intrusive thoughts are so relatable. This is a reminder to not believe the thoughts in your head. Look at your reality in front of you rather than the mind’s explanations. The existential anxiety is a big one for me too. Thank you. Thank you.
as someone who developed OCD in high school this was really cathartic for me. Extreme weight loss because I believed my food was poisoned, spending hours at my locker checking the padlock until it felt right and I could walk away, convincing myself I had contracted HIV because I scratched my hand on a nail while working on a set piece for the Drama department. The anxiety attacks were horrible, especially when my mind was so out of control that I couldn't remember things I had done minutes prior to recalling them. I eventually got help, but I couldn't talk about it for the longest time because of the subsequent shame I'd feel about hitting that kind of a low point in my life and believing no one could relate to it. Things got better going into my 20s and now, on the eve of 30, it's nowhere near the constant oppressive companion in my life that it used to be. Thank you.
I’d love for her to do another video with her mother. It must have taken so much love to believe your child and get her the help she needs. That mother sounds like she was really there for her.
Thank you for sharing this…I can’t tell you how relatable some of this is and how healing it is to hear that someone else has gone through the same. Wishing you all the best in the battle against your brain, I’ve gotten better at it over the years and I think you will continue to do so as well❤
Kate's story is so similar to mine and it is very relieving hearing it being told. I hate that when I say I have OCD, people's immediate thoughts are "she's just very organized, she's a neat freak.." and the struggles that I actually go through don't cross their minds. This video is a great first step to having people understand where OCD stems from and how severe and debilitating it can get. Thank you Kate and Mark!
I think the problem is that the word is vastly overused. People that are extremely organized or particular about certain things call themselves OCD. It’s used lightly by people that don’t understand what it actually is. I had a traumatic childhood and started developing symptoms in my mid teens but thankfully was able to overcome it before it overcame me. It’s obsessive thought patterns and takes over your whole life. People don’t understand that part of it. For me it started with dieting and then branched out to other things. If I had certain thoughts I’d have to wash my hands until they got raw and bloody. I was so lost and nobody even knew. I don’t follow religion but became really spiritual. God saved me. God and Matchbox 20 lol
I though I knew what OCD was until I listened to Kate explain it. Especially around the intrusive thoughts part as I always thought of OCD as mostly "behaviors". Kate, you are so intelligent and articulate - you would be an amazing teacher. Hugs to you and thanks for your profound insight. Mark, you also have profound insight for carefully selecting the individuals that you do and for so artistically bringing out their life story and experience.
My stepdaughter we recently (about 8 months ago) got full custody of bc of a abuse situation with her mom. She’s been driving me crazy w these weird obsessions and thoughts and repeating questions daily. We have her in therapy but listening to you and your thinking is exactly what her kid brain explains to me when I pry in to the “why” thank you so much I’m going to advocate for professionals to look in to this because it describes her behavior and what she tells me way more than “anxiety” I’ve been told.
What an amazing video, your explanation of your OCD is so clear. It sounds so hard for you but I love your resilience & self support. It is wonderful to hear your mum is supportive. What a strong young woman you are. Love to you from Ireland ❤
I commend her on her raw honesty. She expressed her disorder where anyone Could have an ear to understand with no judgment but compassion. Masterclass by her in explaining her disorder. I was a student listening.
This really helped me to understand people with OCD way more than I originally have. I am a Psych major and this interview was really enlightening and she is amazing at explaining what she experiences. I am truly grateful for this video.
@@Rebecca-hv2rbocd literally is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which is literally a MENTAL ILLNESS 😅 . You constantly live with invasive thoughts hence the obsessive compulsion. She said she doesn’t act on it. You’d be surprise how many people have these thoughts and have no way of giving an explanation to it. The people who act on it are different.
Couldn't agree more Jacqueline, I loved this interview w/ Kate. She really made the most of this opportunity & did such a great job @ conveying her thoughts & how her OCD had manifested itself in her life... She's such a sweet soul & a very beautiful young lady, obviously smart as a tack... I really liked Kate & hope she continues on to do great things. Happiness & Health for you Kate🦋
@@Rebecca-hv2rb mentally ill means child molester, rapist, beastiality to you? If suggest you look up the meaning of mental illness. Me, my mother and brother are both mentally ill(aka dealing with mental health issues) . We are none of those things. LEARN before you spew. It'll save you embarrassment.
@@Rebecca-hv2rb washing your hands repeatedly is a very very small part of ocd. You sound so painfully dumb it hurts. I dare you to read an article on ocd. Double dog dare ya. But I know how you fucks like to avoid research like the plague
So thankful for this interview Mark. And Also to you Kate for being vulnerable and caring enough to present your story and explain things so well. I too suffer with OCD and I can relate to many of the themes that you mentioned. I kept saying, yep, in my head. I don’t know when mine began but I do know that the genes are strong in my biological family. You explained it better than just about anyone I’ve heard or read. You are well spoken and very smart. I pray that you will have much success with therapies and that you can find peace with Existential OCD. That’s a BIG one for me as well. Probably my hardest. Hugs !
Thank you for stepping forward and telling your story. I have a soft case of OCD with intrusive thoughts. My biggest compulse being keeping my body clean I will take 2-3 showers a day. I also have intrusive thoughts, but most of mine just pertain to worst case scenarios in whatever is causing me anxiety at the time. I can't imagine what you went through/are going through. You're so strong for coming forward and I hope this video can help people. It absolutely helped me.
Excellent explanation of OCD. Mine started in grade 2 and was on and off throughout my life. I am now 63 and had to deal with it myself. You did not talk about mental health in the 70’s. Once in University my psychology courses helped me to research this condition and that helped a lot. This young lady will help so many people just by discussing what it is. Excellent talk!!!
Your mother is an amazing person. The world would be such a better place if parents afforded more empathy, patience, and compassion to their children. Thank you for sharing your story with us, Kate
Thank you for the transparency in describing your struggles with OCD. I have had such a difficult time talking even with my therapist about these things because of the fear of what their reaction might be. Watching this is mind blowing. I don't feel alone in this anymore.
Thank you Kate! You have incredibly big balls for coming on here talking about this. I think your video will help a lot of people. I suffer from OCD, and it really can feel like you are going crazy, and can be so terrifying. It’s nice to know we are not alone. Thanks Mark and Kate!
@@unknown-sx8sn it’s internet slang. Get used to it. People will be who they are and use the language they do. You can choose not to read it, or ignore it.
Just because ignorant, immature teens use this”slang” doesn’t mean you have to spread it further by commenting on a lady sharing her story. Grow up and use proper etiquette in your comments from here forth.
As someone who suffered from intrusive thoughts in the past, this is pretty much a perfect description of what was going on in my head at that time. Big kudos to Kate for having the courage to tell her story.
This is definitely what I went through and my story is so similar. Thank you for your transparency and sharing your story!! It’s nice to know we’re not alone with this.
Wowza! She has a wonderful way of telling her story. I didn’t know much about this before watching her discuss it, and gosh this poor lady has had a lot to deal with. Be well and keep speaking. You have a gift.❤
Wow. I just realized I have OCD since I was a child. Everything she explains is what I have felt and struggled with. I thought it was just general anxiety.
Holy Smokes! This is one of Marks best videos! Kate- you are an incredibly brave and beautiful young woman. It’s heartbreaking to hear your plight, but you explained it so so well. I wish you the very best of luck and love- you certainly deserve it. And your Mom sounds so lovely. ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I relate so much. I have OCD - specifically contamination OCD and harm OCD and it is one of the scariest things in the world. The negative intrusive thoughts are something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. While I hate seeing other's go through this same dreaded disease, it is comforting to know that someone as so well put together as yourself also struggles with the same thing. Mental health disorders really do not discriminate. I wish you nothing but the best, Kate and hope you are able to continue to overcome your OCD. You are a beautiful soul. Take care❤🙏
Wow Kate, you are incredible and unbelievably brave for telling your story. I have never been able to relay to others how my OCD has affected me like you have mostly out of fear of what others think, you are truly inspirational. Thank you
Don’t know what to say! This lady has succinctly and eloquently given insight into disorder that has at many times totally ruined my life, made me question my sanity and why I’m here. Thank you Kate!!!
OCD is an incredible struggle. I’ve struggled my whole life, it’s a monster. I was completely convinced I had HIV in high school even though I had no reason to. I thought it was on every surface. At 25 I can say it still finds ways to surprise me. I’ve had the insane rumination flare ups that unwillingly move in and take over my life completely. Childhood trauma absolutely amplifies it especially when family doesn’t recognize it and you’re alone. Thank you so much for making this video Mark. I wish all the best to Kate. I hope she can continue to work through her OCD.
Interesting. I run a subreddit called HIVparanoia and a lot of people have obsessions that they have HIV even though there’s no way for them to have contracted it. I always wondered why that specific disease plagues peoples brains.
Kate, thank you so much for telling your story. There were so many points in this video where I felt like you were telling my story as well. I really struggled with OCD from ages 9 to ~20 and I think if I had seen this video then I would’ve felt much less alone. There’s so little representation of what OCD is actually like, I think this video will help a lot of people.
Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I'm so happy that people are resonating with my words. My biggest fear going into this was not representing the OCD/mental health community well enough. Your kind comments are proving to me that I did it to the best of my abilities. To any of the negative commenters: your misunderstanding of other people's struggles push me to end the stigma that comes with mental illness even more than before. To all of the people that found solace in my words: thank you for hearing me; you are not alone. MUCH LOVE MARK
They are just words after all, its the meaning you attach to them which create the heartache, you will be fine, I know it .🙂
You are amazing Kate.
thank you for sharing your story and experience Kate! it seems like you’re really self aware and emotionally intelligent now since growing through the OCD
Kate I also have OCD and started having terrible issues with it very young at like 5 or 6. It’s really hard to have an issue that you know logically doesn’t make sense but that you are still compelled to do.
I had to have psychological therapy for OCD for a long time. It improved from what it once was. I still have issues especially when stressed out. And who isn’t stressed out these days.
Thank you for sharing your story with us.
All the best to you, Kate. Thanks for sharing your story.
Her mother was definitely an amazing woman for not ignoring or downplaying her daughter’s condition.
But also contributed to it. Let's be honest. Unintentional obviously but yep
@@tiffb1300 how so?
I think whatever ways she contributed must pale in comparison to all the things she did right. Honestly she's super lucky, of course relatively considering having OCD isn't lucky, because even most well off parents wouldn't know what was going on and react super poorly. Her mother appears to basically support her without putting any guilt on her for not doing it herself at her age. Most parents would have probably done the whole "tough love" routine and kicked her out to figure out her problems alone... which would be obviously bad.
I could go on but seriously her mom sounds much better than most in that situations
Many doctors would say she actually made it worse. Ocd is only a 1st world problem.
@@craigslist6988 totally agree with this, her mom seems really supportive
I totaly disagree. Her mother did not protect her from the beggining of her life. She's her fault what her child is getting through.
I have never heard someone admit to the things she has admitted too. I can relate to some of the things she deals with as far as intrusive thoughts. Very brave of her to be so vulnerable and transparent.
Same it's crazy because I thought I was crazy for having these intrusive thoughts and have never felt validated and I've always been scared to voice these ugly thoughts I have been able to deal with it on my own but just hearing her story lifted such a big weight of my shoulders you're so brave and thank you for doing this for all of us and letting me now that I'm not alone in this 🫶🏽
Very brave, and so appreciative that she did...think i have ocd.. intrusive thoughts are pure torture.
@@Sunnydayz5656 a friend of mine told me one time that “we are not our thoughts” that helped me understand to disconnect thoughts and my self. As a newly religious person, I chalk it up to the devil trying to confuse me or bring me down. A few prayers and the devil ain’t got shit on me!
Same!!! I'm so grateful to her for being so vulnerable cause some things you just feel like you can't tell people because they'll think you ARE your thoughts.
i’m on the verge of tears… this is the first time anyone’s explained how OCD feels almost perfectly for me. she did a great job.
Yeah, the first time I even knew what OCD was when I was 16 watching a CZcams video. Didn’t go to a physiatrist till I was 22, this was my whole life and I didn’t tell my parents till I was 22. If you haven’t seen a professional I would recommend it, Prozac really helps.
@@patrickcirenza1824 i take prozac!! it’s been great for me. i’m glad you’ve been able to recognize the help you needed, i know it can be hard. i was diagnosed at 16 but didn’t really understand why until i spent time researching it and in therapy.
@@patrickcirenza1824i wish I had access to resources like that. I’m religious ocd, it’s so hard
I had ocd as a young boy and was washing my hands down to the bone from dry skin especially in winter time. As an adult I don't wash my hands enough yet feel much better lol
People have no idea how someone with an active imagination and anxiety can torture themselves. Especially if they are sensitive and empathetic. Living HELL.
Your such a sweet caring girl ❤
I felt this
I know exactly what it’s like to have gone through most of what you have as a result of OCD. Thank you for being brave enough to speak out about what it’s like living with OCD!
Sums me up in one paragraph. It is
This video has made me realize that I am not alone. OCD of this nature is a living hell. It makes you believe you are evil.
"The anxiety is worse than the actual event" is so relatable. Thank you for sharing.
In chess there is a saying that the threat is stronger than the execution
So real
So real
I feel like I do this to myself on purpose cause I overhype the event so it’s not so bad but leading up the anxiety kills me
My tattoo say “the fear of suffering is far worse than the suffering itself” I feel this
I’ve had OCD for 7 years and one thing I’ve found with people with OCD is that they are very self aware and gentle people. We are gentle because our OCD beats us down until we are humble. And we are self aware because we spend 80% of our day in our heads trying to understand our thinking and constantly analyzing our behavior. It’s exhausting. But at least it makes us have some good qualities we might not have developed without it.
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yes! very much so that I am finally realizing to always detect my energy level and to know when to recharge and replenish with food . you know?
This is so beautiful. Thank you for this, brought a lot of comfort to me.
Just want to say be kind to yourself and your OCD thoughts/behaviors. We are self aware and many times beat ourselves down because of the OCD behaviors. Just allow the thoughts to happen and let them pass. Don't speak negatively to yourself. It only makes the anxiety worse and spiral into panic attacks
"we" ?
The ocd around telling your mom about all of your sexual experiences makes sense to me. Durning the time you were being molested, it was a secret that you wanted to tell but couldn’t, and felt shameful about. And then as a teenager having sex and feeling ashamed about it, you were immediately compelled to tell. Something you weren’t able to do as a kid. You’re an amazingly strong, beautiful person.
Agreed…
Said Sew Well ❤😊🥰❣️... Makes Sense to me 😉💭❣️
She understood the assignment 👏🏾. One question and she took us the entire journey. OCD is a very serious overlooked disorder. She’s right, it’s not a joke or something cute like people make it seem. It is utterly exhausting. I pray she continues to get better.
You know what must be so frustrating for her? When people say "Oh I have OCD, that's why my cushions have to be neat on the bed". Like, really? What this woman has gone through and the volume of knowledge she has on this horrific illness is astonishing. She is so strong to have come out of this without a major addiction to opiates or alcohol or anything that temporarily quiets the mind
Absolutely! It’s quite annoying hearing people mention that they “have” OCD when they know absolutely nothing about the true horrors and struggles with the disorder. I’m 30 and still battling it but it does go overlooked.
I forget what vitamin. I think B complex? Dr. Berg covers this on his video on OCD. It covers anxiety and OCD. It's going to give relief. I have a friend who was only eating chicken, sugar and carbs. What a mental nightmare until she changed her diet. What finally pushed her to healthier eating behavior was the candida and rashes, I think hair loss, too. I had to tell her the physical and mental were all related. She's doing well, now.
I hope she continues to get better also.
Thank you
There you have it, I’ll never say I have OCD again. What a brave person.
I agree…. I think it’s definitely Overused and thrown around carelessly, almost like it’s just the “trendy” thing to do…claim to have OCD, the same way they muse Anxiety.
BUT……. I think just because someone doesn’t have it as severe as this woman Doesn’t mean they don’t also have it. It’s always a spectrum with things like this and yours doesn’t have to look like hers in order for you to feel like you can also acknowledge that you too may have OCD.
@@EboniFlowers Excellent point, thanks 🙏
It took you this long to figure that out? We’ve been saying this for a decade at least
@@EboniFlowersI agree, I have always said I have Tourette’s, but a mild case. I think it’s also a spectrum. I was never diagnosed but I have ticks that I can’t control very long. I read that ADHD causes ticks too and I have many of the symptoms of that so… IDK!!!
Thank you from a lifelong ocd sufferer.
"OCD makes you debunk every truth you tell yourself." .... Yeah. I felt that. Thank you for putting that in words xx
Fascinating. I’m a therapist and just learned more about OCD from this interview than in all of my study and experience. Thanks!
Not making a very good case for seeing a therapist.
Dr.Nick Riviera college I presume.
It’s true - most therapists are not trained in how to treat OCD. You have to ask if the therapist has had experience successfully using ERP to treat it. Most do not.
@@ToniMilakUnfortunately. However, they should be.
@@endokrin7897 Therapists are typically like GP. They can identify there is a problem and point you were to go. Sure they can treat a fever or a sprained ankle but if you have cancer or a badly broken ankle they will send you to a specialist.
Most therapists have a general knowledge but if you want trauma treatment for C-PTSD/PTSD then you seak out that specifically. If you have OCD you seak out someone who has extra knowledge on the subject. It's no different. No need to hate on the guy who is saying this helped him be a better shrink.
Wow. I wonder if this young lady realizes just how many people she is helping and in which ways by being so candid on this interview. Hats off to her for her courage. She’s articulate and very self aware. Love her depth and I wish her peace and health.
The brain is a scary place no one knows what’s going on in there , thank you for your story.
“You all stare, but you’ll never see. There’s something inside me.”
I'm 52..I've had crippling OCD my whole life..this had me in tears. What a beautiful soul❤
What should we do? What helps?
@@LBowen-wg5rnlots of practice and building a strong support system
Hello, two common things Kate and the other guy with OCD have is traumatic childhood with sex abuse. What do you guys think, is sex abuse important trigger for OCD, or abuse happens as a consequence of being vulnerable like people with other mental illnesses often are?
OCD is pretty interesting to me because i have this tendency to count stripes at zebra crossings, floors of the buildings, floor tiles and similar. If numbers are not even, or sometimes odd like 14 instead of 12 i wish they were, this feeling goes away in a few seconds so it doesn't really bother me. The same thing is going on when doing electronics where i prefer certain numbers over others, in the last three days i was kind of bothered by getting 273 volts instead of 275 when both are technically correct, they could be well over 10V higher or lower. In my twenties i told this to a social worker who thought it is happening because my intellectual capacity wasn't used to full potential, which made sense at a time. I hope what i wrote makes sense, English is not my native language.
I'm 53. I have developed the existential ocd. My whole entire mind is consumed with death and dying. Its causing panic attacks, last night was the worse one yet. I was completely convinced I was dying. Im glad this came to my feed when it did because I think I understand the problem now.
@@lori5404 Try psychologist? Dealing with ocd like this on your own must be hard, i mentioned psychologist because some of them can help us change very fast.
Listen to every word this girl says, as an OCD sufferer myself, she hit the nail on the head, down to every last theme, every thought every compulsion. Wow, I’m not alone.
Check out Dr. Chris Palmer.
Right. I've never been diagnosed with anything except major depressive episodes but wow. This makes me feel less alone in some of my experiences.
Have you seen the clown, Steve? He not only tells it from his perspective, but he does it in a funny, yet admittedly priveleged way. @@pinkandjewels
Group therapy was a game changer for me and I realized that I wasn't going crazy, they are very similar themes
you're never alone
That pedophile fear is very common in OCD sufferers with intrusive thoughts. You explained it so well. Our biggest fears actually become our biggest fears. This is such an in-depth, well explained, interview on OCD, especially the intrusive thoughts. Most people think OCD is just repetitive behaviors, they forget or don't realize that intrusive thoughts are a big component. Coping mechanisms help us survive until they don't. Thank you so much for this interview. Kate is strikingly beautiful and so intelligent, I wish her love and peace xx
She is beautiful she could be a model
I never knew this
-Come over here and see this content where I have got a transcribed recording from the 7th day of the trial, of Johnny Depp chasing Amber Heard with a sharp object
Did you see the one with the clown man. That was a really good OCD explanation too!
This!!
I wasn't molested, but your spiral into OCD from childhood is almost exactly what I went through. From the intrusive thoughts, seeking reassurance, dissociation, religious compulsions, confessions to mom, and obsession with socks/underwear fit. It's wild and stuff I never thought anyone would share in such fine detail. Thanks for sharing, Kate.
Same
Sameeee
same wow
Same!!! I am so shocked at how this is literally me and I didn’t even know about OCD. So many realizations today about my life. I always thought something is just wrong with me
Same!!! I had so many similar experiences especially being confused about thoughts that sounded and felt like they weren’t coming from me. I wasn’t correctly diagnosed until my 20s
Being “a prisoner in my own mind” was the most on target description of OCD I’ve heard. Thank you for sharing your experience. Listening to your story was therapeutic to say the least. Never forget how much you are helping people.
A lot of people ask me why I spend so much time alone and I always say , "My brain is too loud. It's easier that way." What she describes is why. Thank you for being so honest and explaining it so clearly.
Yup, fighting with your own thoughts is exhausting. I have a lot of the same obsessions as her that I've never admitted to anyone. Its good to know at least we aren't alone.
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The Roaring in my head 😢 Gives me headaches If I'm awake 😔 n listen 👂🏻 to it too long too, Then I lay here aggravated at Me for 🚫 Being asleep by Now 🥱 my head hurts from the Roar of thoughts crashing together 🤢 😉💭❣️
We'd say stay out of your own neighborhood! But no joke, I was lucky to grow out of it
@@jjd903I've had OCD since I was about 9, so 56 years. In order to deal with my brain racing I began drinking at 18 and finally quit at 50. I thought I'd get worse with my mind being more clear without alcohol, but instead, my OCD lessened even though I still have some obsessive/compulsive thoughts. Thank goodness it didn't get worse because always waiting for when the other shoe would drop was exhausting.
I had no idea about OCD went this deep. What an intelligent, articulate, well put together woman considering the struggles she has. So happy she has a supportive mom, and others around her. Best of luck to this young lady!!
Me neither. Had no idea it could affect the thoughts so hard😢 Sweetie, keep fighting this OCD bitch and what she's saying to you. It'not real, it's not true!! You are such a kind hearted ,loving, intelligent young woman´ i hope they'll find something to shut up these voices for good❤😢
Can we just appreciate her honesty and vulnerability to tell her story..I hope this beautiful girl gets peace one day...
The confessions, the need for reassurance, the cycles. It's a living hell.
Her childhood trauma triggering her OCD makes a ton of sense. She’s a very strong young woman, thanks for telling your story.
Mark, thank you for the OCD videos. My daughter has OCD and it has completely taken over her life. its an awful disorder. Kate, your articulate details have helped me immensely to understand the struggle my daughter goes through everyday. thank you both.
I understand your daughter's frustration as my form of it is washing my hands a million times a day and don't know why! It's sooooo frustrating, especially at work!! I can hide it at home but Omg I'm sick of it!! I hope your daughter heals, truly 💗
My son also has ocd, it started when he was 8. My son is now 31, he didn’t tell me until he was 15. He says he didn’t know how to explain it until he did some research of his own. He started therapy immediately. Now he suffers with severe depression and has suicidal tendencies 😢
I completely understand how you feel as a mother. My son until this very day is under psychiatric care and sees a therapist weekly . It breaks my heart 😢 And yes, Thank You Mark ❤
@@valleychick2509 what was his OCD if you don't mind me asking?
My daughter also has OCD. Existential OCD along with order, cleanliness. She's 24 she still lives at home because of the severity of her mental health. It's a heartbreaking and terrifying disorder. Sending everyone hugs and prayers here in this thread. ❤️🤟
I healed my ocd doing three things: ERP, Meds and doing the heavy metal detox cleanse from medical medium. It saved my life, please check it out for your daughter.
"The anxiety is much worse than the actual event."
This is so true. Having OCD myself, I was constantly worrying about getting cancer and that it would be the end of the world if I got it. I did end up getting cancer when I was 20, but turns out, it wasn't the end of the world; I handled it pretty damn well.
Crazy I watched this because my wife saw this video and felt completely validated. She has had this her entire life as well and has always thought she was crazy. Recently we had been talking about her possible having OCD and after she say this video she could relate to so much! There needs to be more awareness to this in society so less people suffer in silence.
Thank you for 👀 for your Wife, ❤️ Says Alot There as mine is Worse as I get older, I'm threaten to be put in Home, Told go to mental Hospital, or that I'm Ret*&+:$😭❣️🙏🏻 God be with Us All 🛑 the thoughts 🧐💭 n Mental Illness We Have 😇💯❣️
I have never heard a more reliable, uncensored source than Kate. I love her and Thank You!
For real Amenn
I was in total shock for a bit when I saw Kate's face pop up on my Subscriptions page. We lived in the same city and hung out in mutual circles a few years back. She always struck me as insightful and empathetic and beautiful. It's inspiring to see her share her truth in an interview like this. Nicely done, Kate
Hey girl hahaha
“This thought does not hold power over me. It is just a thought”. I will remind myself of this when my mind & anxiety tries to take over me. Thanks for sharing your story.
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Oh wow! I didn't get to that part of the video yet, but I was once told by a psychiatrist to think of the thoughts as independent thought bubbles traveling through my brain. Almost like a comic strip thought bubble. He told me these thoughts are distressing to you and you don't want them, so they're obviously not your thoughts. Allow them to pass and keep moving?.
I had to comment on this. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and fears. I’m 29 and was diagnosed with OCD last year. Once I was diagnosed I realized that I’ve had this most of my life. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. It feels like you’re under a spell. It’s debilitating and I felt like a monster at times. You describing the fear of hurting someone while you’re asleep is something I fear every night. You’re not alone & you seem wonderful 💚
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Mark, thank you for videos like this. One of the main reasons I watch them is that they give me a window into the minds and world of people who I would never otherwise be able to see. I constantly relearn the lesson about being kind to others because you never know what they are going through.
Kate, when you mentioned your grandfather dying it reminded me of something. People with severe anxiety can be extremely competent and strong when something serious actually happens. They have to face their fears over and over every day for years in advance. Often when the event or loss they fear occurs, they respond far better than they ever anticipated. People around them often observe how they manage better than everyone else.
This is extremely accurate. I can help others in very bad situations, but myself...not so much. Minus death of loved ones bc I've anticipated it for so long - it's the suicides & sudden deaths that bother me, but even suicide, I can deal with it. I guess that's why I make a very good CO in jail/prisons. 🤷🏼♀️
This is so true. I have bad anxiety but I’m level headed and take action when actual emergencies happen. Same with other people I know who have anxiety.
This is so true. It’s almost a relief to have something to channel the anxious energy into
Yes indeed....at a young age i witnessed my brother pass away. Then at 17 i went into the Army in 2005 mind you. I feel like after youve witnessed so much trauma and tragedy you dont go into shock when things happen around you. You stay calm and take action to try and help.
Anxiety cases make the best fighter pilots.
I have never heard anyone explain so precisely and completely what is in my head. I'm speechless. Thank you so much for telling your story. Love from Nova Scotia
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❤no kidding! She explains it perfectly
As another person with OCD, thank you for your bravery & vulnerability in this video. So much of what you shared are also things I’ve experienced/continue to struggle with. The derealization, the doubting. Your knowledge and wisdom was wonderful to get to hear. Thank you.
Hi Kate, my name is Javen. I went inpatient a few years ago on my 18th birthday. My brain absolutely snapped. Every single thought you are describing, I was stuck on for about 2 years. Sadly it won't really ever leave and it's terrible. Seeing your video actually helped me, I tell my fiance constantly I wish I would meet someone who is experiencing what I felt and thought, but would never wish it on anyone. Yet here you are. Thank you for talking about all of this, I'm hoping in my future I'll be able to think that there are others like me. It is true when you say it attacks everything you care about. I ended up using my fiance as my compulsion, the same way you used your mom. It's heartbreaking to have to explain these things to someone you love. Even if they love/care, it still tortures your brain and makes you worry that they think you ARE what you're telling them. I can't express enough how much I appreciate you sitting down and explaining these things going on in your brain. You helped me immensely.
I have NEVER heard something so relatable. All of this. Your story is very close to mine. As much as it is torture to live with, I’m just relieved to know that my experiences are valid. Thank you for being so honest. I can’t even imagine the courage this took. There’s so much shame attached to our thoughts with OCD… I admire you.
Same here. ❤
Me too, I feel so incredibly understood. Even down to the absolute minutiae of my obsessions and compulsions, like having to confess again b/c I'm afraid they forgot the original confession, or I wasn't detailed enough the first time. It's maddening!
Same.
Me too! 💖
I feel a lot less alone going through this now...
I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for 14+ years and I’m so glad to finally see a video that talks about true OCD, the intrusive and obsessive thoughts, etc. So many people say “oh, i have ocd i have a clean house” and stuff like that. And downplay the seriousness of what OCD really is. It is debilitating. Thank you for this video, Mark! And thank you, Kate, for sharing your story! You’re amazing!
I have OCD as well. It can be so exhausting. I have had people ridicule it. I have told them, before they judge so quickly, they could not last one day in my mind and body. It takes a strong individual, to have this disease.
@@rebeccalavoy6655 OCD is a form of poisoning/damage to the brain, the main culprit is childhood vaccines. There is a way to detox the toxins out of the body (sweating, herbal cleanses etc.) but nutrition is key as well -- brain food is plant based nutrients from whole foods from the garden.
@@harveyplantharvester1502 She was molested as a child but sure, must’ve been the vaccine.
Same ❤️ hate it when people use “ocd” as being an adjective to describe themselves just because they like order. People have no idea how hard it is to live with everyday
do you take medication
This was the hardest "Like" I can think of. I don't "like" knowing what this poor angel has been through, but I do very much "like" the courage it took for her to open up like this, and I very much appreciate and LOVE to the profound social good this channel is bringing to the world, by educating the masses. I just hope it never gets shut down or censored, because however difficult these stories are to hear, they are so preciously important to voice
The human mind is so very powerful. I manage my intrusive thoughts through prayer. This may not work for everyone, but it works for me. This young lady & I have a lot in common. I’m a 48 year old African American man, & leading Up to me viewing this video, I thought that I was the only one with a mind that functions like this young lady. I pray though, & I’m not going to stop. 🙏🏿
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Thank you for your bravery Kate. This is a perfect description of the hell that is OCD. Anyone reading this, I’ve come to know from suffering from OCD for decades, that we are the least dangerous people on earth. It’s your brain wiring torturing you and the fact that you’re horrified or afraid of your intrusive thoughts just goes to show, everything it’s telling you is bullsh*t. Be kind to yourself. Find someone who’s a specialist in OCD and go hard with exposure therapy. It’ll prove to you, that OCD is full of sh*t. You can be free of it’s grasp or at least get better at ignoring it. Sending Kate and all of you fighting this beast love 😃😀 Xx
Thank you
Yes her description is point on. I have battled as well and also tried to deal with this with only cognitive behavioral therapy. Without health insurance the suffering goes on. We need universal healthcare in this country. We are seeing the results with shootings and suicides sky high due to all the conditions people are suffering with untreated.
@@katewilliams5230 you're awesome Kate I pray for you and wish the best mental health is a huge problem in this country thank you for this video you're helping a lot of people out stay blessed ✌️✌️
A shrink told me one time that you are not your thoughts, and your thoughts are not facts. It helped me so much.
@@supermikeb Yes but its not that simple when you have worn superhighways in your brain telling you the same things without mercy. Like a lightswitch you cant turn off. You have to do what addicts cant even do and thats fight each impulse to think something and not give in. If it were as simple as your remark we wouldnt have people in such distress and suicidal. Ocd is addiction, addiction to giving in and we do it because weve meshed pleasure and pain together. We have to abandon the security and familiarity of the negative thoughts. Once you break the patterns they no longer have power but as I said its an addiction and fighting your very brain is not as simple as hearing a quote.
I’m a 24 year-old man and I have OCD similar to yours, although slightly less severe. I just want to thank you for doing this interview. Your in-depth explaination of the disorder is invaluable. I’m going to show this video to my close friends and family so they can see I’m not alone. You’ve done an immense service to all of us who suffer from real OCD and also to those who interact with us and need a better understanding. Thank you so much again and I wish you lots of love and serenity on your journey of life ❤
Quick question how do people with ocd even work a job? Do you work a job? I think most dont work
@@Jason.cbr1000rr Hi thanks for the question! I personally am unable to work so I’m in the process of applying for disability here in Iceland. I’m fortunate enough that the health care system in my country is excellent. Working a normal job with OCD is damn near impossible, especially if one is on the autism spectrum as well, such as myself. I believe this is the case for most people with the disorder. It’s best to seek support. How easy it is to get accepted for disability benefit differs greatly from country to country. Nevertheless, I would encourage everyone in my shoes to start the process because it can be a lenghty one.
Kate is just lovely. She has opened my eyes to this torture of OCD. I think she could definitely become a therapist to help others with OCD. Not often enough patients go through treatment with Doctors who DO really understand. Her being there for others could make the cure / ease the symptoms, easier to achieve.
Absolutely, i could begin to understand what she must go through everyday of her life. Shes had a bit of a raw deal since childhood. She would certainly make a great therapist.
I thought the same thing
This hit home so hard. I’ve never related to a video so much in my life. Thank you Kate, I can’t tell you the relief I feel to hear someone speak about almost the exact same intrusive thoughts. It’s one of the least understood illnesses and it’s so refreshing to hear someone explain it as more than just hand washing and light switches
What a beautiful, well-spoken and pleasant young lady. I learned a lot and I wish her the best.
Yes to that…..
She can get the D
Totally disagree. I think she is an attention seeker and her issue is no issue. (Except for the molestation)
That's exactly what I thought, a beautiful articulate woman
My husband was diagnosed with OCD before I met him. The part where you talked about how if you didn't think your mother understood you so you would say it again was eye opening for me. My husband does this. He repeats the same point over and over and insists I don't understand him to the point that I'm so over stimulated and frustrated I have to leave. Now it's clicking that this is probably part of his OCD. It helps me to be more patient with him knowing it's not something he can help.
Why not watch mohan c Lazarus in English version.
I'm glad you had this understanding because I have ruined every single relationship I have ever been in by doing stuff like this.
*Doing stuff like your husband
I can't imagine how frustrating OCD must be to outsiders....it's frustrating having this and understanding from our families is so important!
We (OCD sufferers) usually don’t understand how exhausting the reassurance seeking is to those around us until some light has been shed on the disorder by a proper diagnosis/ therapist. It would probably help to sit in on a therapy session w your husband and get some guidance on how to handle reassurance seeking so that it doesn’t drive you nuts. ❤
This is amazing. I had no idea OCD was this deep and paralyzing. This condition sounds so hard and exhausting. I really hope the medication and therapy helps.
Thank you. I’ve experienced 25 years of ocd. Your journey is so, so similar to mine . I know profoundly how difficult it is to talk of these things but you did so well. Thank you for explaining it. I didn’t realise I had ocd for so many years and it destroyed me. You cannot explain how devastating it can be. Thank you for expressing such a profoundly difficult illness with so much insight.
I admire how beautiful you make everyone look in your interviews. I don't know whether it's the frame, angle, lighting, etc., but everyone you put on that stool becomes a thing of beauty; regardless of whether they are attractive or not.
This is so true. Mark is great at this. It’s quite remarkable isn’t it. One person can take the same picture as another, one will look fantastic, and the other not so much. That ability has always fascinated me. I realise with Mark there’s a lot of thought goes into the shot, but still, it’s a great natural ability that not everyone possesses. The lighting, colour coordination with the backdrop, and all because he wants the person to look beautiful, and they always do ❤
It really outshined in this interview with Kate. The olive green background 👌
Agree....it may be that he sees the beauty in each individual and somehow that translates. Although to be fair, this girl IS stunning so not hard to do with her.
He had nothing to do here.
@@aliciae8751 indeed
People need to realize how many of these horrible mental health issues are solely from sexual abuse or some other childhood trauma. Why are SO many kids being abused. It's absurd. I know more people who have been abused than haven't. It's so horribly sad. I was as well, and here I am, I also have OCD, BPD, and probably CPTSD. Our children need to be protected so much better.
Also holy moly I think I'm starting to realize a lot of my spirituality wasn't actually spirituality and was just OCD
@@PeaceLoveeNSN be careful. It seems to me like the surge in mental disorders diagnosis is a scam by the pharma companies to hook you on medication. It doesn't mean you don't have problems, but it might not be an actual mental illness and medication might not be the solution.
Completely agree and appalled
Agree
So true. It blows my mind as well. Every single girlfriend I've ever been with has at least A story of some abuse or molestation.
I too have OCD and it came on during childhood. I could relate to SO much that you talked about and experienced. Funny thing is that I am a master level social worker and now help others dealing with OCD and other mental health challenges just as you are endeavoring to do. You will change lives and help so many , not only through this interview but also through your profession. Thank you for sharing your story and your courage!
I'm so happy that there is someone who is able to explain and describe what people with Obessive-Complusive Disorder suffer with. I have had OCD for the better part of my life and I never knew I had OCD until I was professionally diagnosed. There were things I did that was questionable. And I would ask my mom why do i HAVE to touch this? Or I would say I saved her from unaliving because I touched a certain object. My friends thought it was a funny querk I had. I was late diagnosed at the age of 22. I was suffering with panic attacks and would end up in the ER because I thought i was dying and having a heart attack. I dealt with those things by myself until I met my sweet husband. He's been such a great support system. Although I do still have OCD tendencies, I was able to get help with some of them through therapy.
It just feels refreshing that we have someone recorded and posted online to tell the whole world what OCD actually is. I am tired of people saying they have OCD but its just being neat and clean when in reality yeah that is an obsession too but not to the extreme like people who actually has OCD.
This video brought back so much memories of my childhood that I only remember as being traumatic, and how lucky I was to have such a loving family that cared so much for me and was so patient with me. I am 29 now and on medication, I dont think i'll ever get off medication to help with my OCD because if I am off I am a completely different person.
Thanks again Kate, I appreciate the video and I hope you are doing well now. Also thank you to Mark for uploading this video for everyone to see.
If I wasnt at work watching this right now I would be crying tears of gratitude. I'm really struggling with keeping it together right now. I am not diagnosed but I figured out by doing my own research that I am likely OCD and everything you just explained makes me feel so validated and understood its like a door just opened up. I'm going to ask my fiance to watch this because I think it will really help him understand me better. Kate, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You just changed the way I think about me.
Good luck out there, Olivia ❤️ see someone for this if you can as well because life can be hard and it helps to get help
My partner has OCD intrusive thoughts and this video has explained so much about the condition to me. I wish I had this information earlier in our relationship. We have been through a lot. It is very difficult for me sometimes, but he's worth it.
Don't forget, a hug can make a huge difference if your partner is struggling a little.
Kate, I can listen to you talk about OCD all day. You really made me completely understand. I don’t have OCD, but I too struggle with anxiety, and panic attacks, and the way you described your panic attacks, is exactly how I experience mine. I also have bipolar disorder with mood swings, and now recently have been diagnosed with agoraphobia which I am in therapy for. I hope things get better for you! The struggle with these issues is no joke!
I’ve never related to a SWU video as much as this one. Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest, some of the things you shared I’ve never heard another person say. I really felt so alone in so many of my thoughts. Thank you Kate, you’re incredible.
This interview shows how painful and tiring it is to live with a sick mind. While you are physically absolutely fine but in so much agony inside. And it just reiterates how crucial your childhood is. And how important it is for the parents to nourish and keep their children safe. Hope you get well soon sweet child. Thank you for sharing your life with us like this.
With mental illness that would be untreated the physical problems could soon follow... Like muscle cramps, eating disorder, self harm, anorexia, etc.
I love that Mark knows when to just let someone talk. This was fantastic and gave me so much insight into my own thoughts.
She's so classically beautiful. She's like a 1920s Hollywood star
You are truly amazing. What a succinct and articulate description. I am sure you are helping so many people see in depth the reality of OCD and the anxiety that comes with it.
As someone with OCD and an eerily similar story- I promise you all that you can't imagine how much bravery went into her doing this interview. OCD is humilating and terrifying
So much respect for her 😭😭 I'm so glad she had a good parent around to help
OCD is a bully in our brain. I have a mild case and my son has it too. He’s in erp therapy. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
It’s that the truth!
My 17 year old son is also in therapy for OCD and treated with ERP...it's such a tough road..OCD is ever changing for my son and so incredibly difficult at times!! Kate is just lovely and inspiring!!! Wishing you and your son the best of luck!!
It’s so hard to get through interviews when they use the word “um” and “uh” constantly 😓😓😓
Oh my my son and I both have it. It is hard to watch him battle everything I have already been through
I wish I could talk to you more
I am just being diagnosed as being OCD at the ripe old age of 36. It puts so much into perspective, it's so validating and so is hearing you tell your story. I hate the thought that others are going through this, but it's comforting that other people understand.
So many people invalidate everything by thinking it's only about obsessive cleaning, but they don't understand the actual complexities.
You are doing great darlin and I am proud of you, you brave, beautiful soul!
What a selfless and courageous woman to share her story! My heart hurts for people who have this struggle. I can’t imagine a life with this mind battle. God bless this sweet Kate! ♥️
I definitely suffer with intrusive thoughts that I know I don’t mean, and never had an explanation until now. All thanks to her being so fearlessly candid.
It’s unreal. ☘️
same! I am so happy that people come out to talk about this. :) Sometimes it is helfpul just knowing that there are other people out there who have similar struggles.
Same! I don’t feel alone now. I never understood my intrusive thoughts until now. Thank you for that!!!
Lots of people do actually even none ocd people.
Yeah man I’ve struggled my whole life with intrusive thoughts. I didn’t cope all that well as a teenager but in my adult life I think I cope a lot better, still really irritated with them tho. I’ve the religious side of OCD and have recently been diagnosed with having an extra chromzone in the 7th gene 🧬 which is an explanation as to why I do struggle a lot.
I am literally in tears…I feel seen.
I have so much respect and admiration for you to be able to share your story and your thoughts to educate
I would love to learn more from you!
I feel the same. She exposed issues here that haunted me for a long time and I never dared to share with anyone. It can be dark and lonely.
Kate is a very articulated and bright young woman and I am positive she will help many people in her life.
Same. There are things I can recall from my childhood.. very similar. The part about her Mom saying “she can’t lie,” hit me hard, bc I remember my mom saying the same about me. Omg I needed professional help. I still do. Thank you so much for your honesty, bc I don’t feel so alone rn.
Me too. I’m tears.. thankfully I no longer suffer from it but so glad I wasn’t alone with some of the thoughts I had prior to professional help.
I never, ever thought I would hear someone describe my experience so well. I was never molested, but I began having similar “bad thoughts” when I was around 7, and I always had to tell my mom. Those thoughts made me feel sick to my stomach and I walked around terrified of accidentally thinking something bad. It’s crazy to hear that other people had similar experiences.
Thank you so much for sharing this, I am so appreciative to hear your story❤
This is truly one of the best videos I’ve ever watched on SWU and so validating for those with OCD. Kate, thank you for being courageous and sharing your story. ❤
As an 11 year old I knew something was wrong with me when I had OCD thoughts, rituals etc, but I later learned it was my brain’s way of coping with trauma. I’m 37 and still deal with it including anxiety, anxiety attacks, depression etc. Hearing someone talk about issues similar to mine really help me understand and cope with mental health issues. Thank you for sharing your experience with us here on CZcams.
I’m like you: started having OCD symptoms at 11-12 and in my thirties now. It’s nice to hear someone else talk about it. I feel like it’s so misunderstood by others and hopefully her speaking about it will help others be more compassionate. ❤
It's genetic, trust me. It has nothing to do with trauma
@@mikimarkos4696those two things are not always mutually exclusive
I have no take on whether OCD is one or the other. Just noting.
@@mikimarkos4696"It is x, not z"
In actuality, it is x and z plus y and also
Things are typically multi-faceted and dynamic. Peace.
Her description of not having the words when she was younger and how it makes her feel now.. that is exactly what it felt like finding out I'm autistic at 30. So many hurts could have been avoided.
I’m 34 and I’ve never known what I was going through, when my wife saw this she instantly shared it with me and knew this was what I have been going through my whole life. Thank you so much I’ve never heard anyone describe these things that can be crippling and make you feel so alone. I have a beautiful family and a business and now I feel like I can move forward with the right help when I go through a “thought attack”. Thank you so much for sharing.
This was such a valuable talk for me. The obsessive and intrusive thoughts are so relatable. This is a reminder to not believe the thoughts in your head. Look at your reality in front of you rather than the mind’s explanations. The existential anxiety is a big one for me too. Thank you. Thank you.
as someone who developed OCD in high school this was really cathartic for me. Extreme weight loss because I believed my food was poisoned, spending hours at my locker checking the padlock until it felt right and I could walk away, convincing myself I had contracted HIV because I scratched my hand on a nail while working on a set piece for the Drama department. The anxiety attacks were horrible, especially when my mind was so out of control that I couldn't remember things I had done minutes prior to recalling them.
I eventually got help, but I couldn't talk about it for the longest time because of the subsequent shame I'd feel about hitting that kind of a low point in my life and believing no one could relate to it. Things got better going into my 20s and now, on the eve of 30, it's nowhere near the constant oppressive companion in my life that it used to be.
Thank you.
I’d love for her to do another video with her mother. It must have taken so much love to believe your child and get her the help she needs. That mother sounds like she was really there for her.
That’s a great idea! 15:55
@@jmarrocco it might give people who have children with these challenges hope and some guidance.
Thank you, this echoes parts of my story too. OCD is exhausting and so difficult to explain to others. I appreciate you sharing your story.
Thank you for sharing this…I can’t tell you how relatable some of this is and how healing it is to hear that someone else has gone through the same. Wishing you all the best in the battle against your brain, I’ve gotten better at it over the years and I think you will continue to do so as well❤
Kate's story is so similar to mine and it is very relieving hearing it being told. I hate that when I say I have OCD, people's immediate thoughts are "she's just very organized, she's a neat freak.." and the struggles that I actually go through don't cross their minds. This video is a great first step to having people understand where OCD stems from and how severe and debilitating it can get. Thank you Kate and Mark!
Same same
I think the problem is that the word is vastly overused. People that are extremely organized or particular about certain things call themselves OCD. It’s used lightly by people that don’t understand what it actually is.
I had a traumatic childhood and started developing symptoms in my mid teens but thankfully was able to overcome it before it overcame me.
It’s obsessive thought patterns and takes over your whole life. People don’t understand that part of it. For me it started with dieting and then branched out to other things. If I had certain thoughts I’d have to wash my hands until they got raw and bloody. I was so lost and nobody even knew.
I don’t follow religion but became really spiritual. God saved me. God and Matchbox 20 lol
I though I knew what OCD was until I listened to Kate explain it. Especially around the intrusive thoughts part as I always thought of OCD as mostly "behaviors". Kate, you are so intelligent and articulate - you would be an amazing teacher. Hugs to you and thanks for your profound insight.
Mark, you also have profound insight for carefully selecting the individuals that you do and for so artistically bringing out their life story and experience.
My stepdaughter we recently (about 8 months ago) got full custody of bc of a abuse situation with her mom. She’s been driving me crazy w these weird obsessions and thoughts and repeating questions daily. We have her in therapy but listening to you and your thinking is exactly what her kid brain explains to me when I pry in to the “why” thank you so much I’m going to advocate for professionals to look in to this because it describes her behavior and what she tells me way more than “anxiety” I’ve been told.
What an amazing video, your explanation of your OCD is so clear. It sounds so hard for you but I love your resilience & self support. It is wonderful to hear your mum is supportive. What a strong young woman you are. Love to you from Ireland ❤
I commend her on her raw honesty. She expressed her disorder where anyone
Could have an ear to understand with no judgment but compassion.
Masterclass by her in explaining her disorder.
I was a student listening.
This really helped me to understand people with OCD way more than I originally have. I am a Psych major and this interview was really enlightening and she is amazing at explaining what she experiences. I am truly grateful for this video.
@@Rebecca-hv2rbocd literally is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which is literally a MENTAL ILLNESS 😅 . You constantly live with invasive thoughts hence the obsessive compulsion. She said she doesn’t act on it. You’d be surprise how many people have these thoughts and have no way of giving an explanation to it. The people who act on it are different.
Couldn't agree more Jacqueline, I loved this interview w/ Kate. She really made the most of this opportunity & did such a great job @ conveying her thoughts & how her OCD had manifested itself in her life... She's such a sweet soul & a very beautiful young lady, obviously smart as a tack... I really liked Kate & hope she continues on to do great things. Happiness & Health for you Kate🦋
@@Rebecca-hv2rb mentally ill means child molester, rapist, beastiality to you? If suggest you look up the meaning of mental illness. Me, my mother and brother are both mentally ill(aka dealing with mental health issues) . We are none of those things. LEARN before you spew. It'll save you embarrassment.
@@Rebecca-hv2rb YOU are the only one misinterpreting the meaning of words. Grow up, put on your big girl panties, and learn meanings.
@@Rebecca-hv2rb washing your hands repeatedly is a very very small part of ocd. You sound so painfully dumb it hurts. I dare you to read an article on ocd. Double dog dare ya. But I know how you fucks like to avoid research like the plague
So thankful for this interview Mark. And Also to you Kate for being vulnerable and caring enough to present your story and explain things so well. I too suffer with OCD and I can relate to many of the themes that you mentioned. I kept saying, yep, in my head. I don’t know when mine began but I do know that the genes are strong in my biological family. You explained it better than just about anyone I’ve heard or read. You are well spoken and very smart. I pray that you will have much success with therapies and that you can find peace with Existential OCD. That’s a BIG one for me as well. Probably my hardest. Hugs !
Thank you for stepping forward and telling your story. I have a soft case of OCD with intrusive thoughts. My biggest compulse being keeping my body clean I will take 2-3 showers a day. I also have intrusive thoughts, but most of mine just pertain to worst case scenarios in whatever is causing me anxiety at the time. I can't imagine what you went through/are going through. You're so strong for coming forward and I hope this video can help people. It absolutely helped me.
Excellent explanation of OCD. Mine started in grade 2 and was on and off throughout my life. I am now 63 and had to deal with it myself. You did not talk about mental health in the 70’s. Once in University my psychology courses helped me to research this condition and that helped a lot. This young lady will help so many people just by discussing what it is. Excellent talk!!!
Your mother is an amazing person. The world would be such a better place if parents afforded more empathy, patience, and compassion to their children. Thank you for sharing your story with us, Kate
Thank you for the transparency in describing your struggles with OCD. I have had such a difficult time talking even with my therapist about these things because of the fear of what their reaction might be. Watching this is mind blowing. I don't feel alone in this anymore.
This, all of this. I have OCD and relate SO much to this. Thank you for sharing your struggles. I often feel so alone
Thank you Kate! You have incredibly big balls for coming on here talking about this. I think your video will help a lot of people. I suffer from OCD, and it really can feel like you are going crazy, and can be so terrifying. It’s nice to know we are not alone. Thanks Mark and Kate!
Gross! Please reword and this time use adult language.
@@unknown-sx8sn it’s internet slang. Get used to it. People will be who they are and use the language they do. You can choose not to read it, or ignore it.
big balls?
c'mon, u couldn't think of a better phrase?
@@hacky_sackin it's a dumb phrase- especially, to a young lady
Just because ignorant, immature teens use this”slang” doesn’t mean you have to spread it further by commenting on a lady sharing her story. Grow up and use proper etiquette in your comments from here forth.
As someone who suffered from intrusive thoughts in the past, this is pretty much a perfect description of what was going on in my head at that time. Big kudos to Kate for having the courage to tell her story.
This is definitely what I went through and my story is so similar. Thank you for your transparency and sharing your story!! It’s nice to know we’re not alone with this.
Wowza! She has a wonderful way of telling her story. I didn’t know much about this before watching her discuss it, and gosh this poor lady has had a lot to deal with. Be well and keep speaking. You have a gift.❤
Wow. I just realized I have OCD since I was a child. Everything she explains is what I have felt and struggled with. I thought it was just general anxiety.
Holy Smokes! This is one of Marks best videos! Kate- you are an incredibly brave and beautiful young woman. It’s heartbreaking to hear your plight, but you explained it so so well. I wish you the very best of luck and love- you certainly deserve it. And your Mom sounds so lovely. ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I relate so much. I have OCD - specifically contamination OCD and harm OCD and it is one of the scariest things in the world. The negative intrusive thoughts are something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. While I hate seeing other's go through this same dreaded disease, it is comforting to know that someone as so well put together as yourself also struggles with the same thing. Mental health disorders really do not discriminate. I wish you nothing but the best, Kate and hope you are able to continue to overcome your OCD. You are a beautiful soul. Take care❤🙏
Wow Kate, you are incredible and unbelievably brave for telling your story. I have never been able to relay to others how my OCD has affected me like you have mostly out of fear of what others think, you are truly inspirational. Thank you
Don’t know what to say!
This lady has succinctly and eloquently given insight into disorder that has at many times totally ruined my life, made me question my sanity and why I’m here.
Thank you Kate!!!
OCD is an incredible struggle. I’ve struggled
my whole life, it’s a monster. I was completely convinced I had HIV in high school even though I had no reason to. I thought it was on every surface. At 25 I can say it still finds ways to surprise me. I’ve had the insane rumination flare ups that unwillingly move in and take over my life completely. Childhood trauma absolutely amplifies it especially when family doesn’t recognize it and you’re alone. Thank you so much for making this video Mark. I wish all the best to Kate. I hope she can continue to work through her OCD.
Interesting. I run a subreddit called HIVparanoia and a lot of people have obsessions that they have HIV even though there’s no way for them to have contracted it. I always wondered why that specific disease plagues peoples brains.
I went through that too
The health anxiety part of OCD absolutely sucks. My first manifestation was being convinced I had schizophrenia.
@@joshforeman1648 I was just going through that earlier this year, you’re definitely not alone
@@jaxonfordham6862 thank you bro, I hope you’re doing well.
I’m never saying I have OCD ever again 😢
Kate, thank you so much for telling your story. There were so many points in this video where I felt like you were telling my story as well. I really struggled with OCD from ages 9 to ~20 and I think if I had seen this video then I would’ve felt much less alone. There’s so little representation of what OCD is actually like, I think this video will help a lot of people.
IT WOULD BE GREAT IF SHE WOULD DO THIS INTERVIEW AGAIN IN LIKE 10 YEARS.
Yeah, kind of like the "Up" Series.