I don't Love Myself
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- čas přidán 24. 04. 2016
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I am having a hard time with life and maybe need some alone time
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I want this trip to work out for you so badly. You need to make time for yourself and this will be a good way to start.
I hope you are able to go through with it, and i hope it truely is something that you can enjoy.
Hey, I love this video.
Regarding the trip: Do it. You're young, you're healthy, you're in a place where you can do this.
And holy mother of internet, I get what you're saying. For me it comes down to the stuff I went through as a kid. People generally learn how to feel about themselves form their parents, and my mother loved me but she was not able to show that love in the way I needed her to because she was so messed up. Take care.
I think it's important to take time to understand yourself. Without any outside opinions or input. Being alone with your thoughts for a long period of time can be tarifying. But also very eye opening. Your the only person you spend your entire life with. Don't you think it's important to get to know your self, and learn to love what you find?
I hope it works out for you. It's crazy because listening to you talk was like hearing myself speak but in my own head… it's so brave of you to disclose this and be so openly vulnerable! I couldn't except to people closest to me. Like I'm pretty much you except older and a woman 😂. I was dying in your other video about hi-5ing everyone and needing validation that if you don't say you love me I assume you hate me except not as extreme… anyway good luck! And hopefully you and I both find our way to ourselves!!! 🎊🎉🎊🎉
+farhapsody Thanks for taking the time to comment! yea I wasn't able to be vulnerable at first on CZcams but after while I felt so much support from my viewers that I feel very comfortable doing it now because I know people can relate and it helps others feel more normal.
this has me listening but thinking deeply at the same time...
and by the way, I think your videos are fantastic. You are so creative and talented. You are not afraid to speak out about things and I think its incredible. I wish I could do half of the things you do and speak with such conviction and honesty.
+Deborah Murray Thanks soo much! I appreciate it. You probably can do most of the things you think you can't, you just have to try! ;)
I think this trip will be good for u .You may finally realize what a great person u are and what other people think of u as a person . I think u are the coolest person and I became friends with u on younow. The first time I watched your broadcast I thought u were a cool persona and that was only the first broadcast . So give your self a chance to realize what u mean to most people .
I hope you decided to do it! Aside from it being an amazing experience on its own, it would be a great opportunity for you to learn things about yourself along the way.
Also, I LOVE getting to know my big brother through these vlogs. I'm so proud, not just because of who you are but because you really do such an awesome job. Keep it up!
Xoxo Danielle
+Danielle Walters ayeeeeeee wassup sis! thanks for watching and supporting!
I'm sad by your tears Eric :( I understand deeply on a heart level what your saying and seeing what others see but not seeing it in yourself. It's because when ppl see you they can already tell who you are. Like as if you didn't have flaws or anything wrong. On your part your growing to find that out each day. I think from my opinion you don't see your own heart for yourself. So it's why you can't see what there seeing. A part of knowing ourselves more is knowing our entire heart. Because we don't only love from this place but we feel ourselves too and have a sense of who we are from the root of here. I think you see how your heart has an effect on others and you already know it has the capacity to love big but then you feel the way it loves others it rejects you. So your left out by yourself. This is what makes you in return feel unloved. But people know the way you love them that 'you' exist. They see your here and It's coming from who you are at your core. So each person lights up as you mentioned because they get to be apart of that. :D I think also it's why you enjoy people and love being around them because you love 'presence' when someone is 'present' there alive so they become a mirror and shine the light every time into who you really are. Your constantly getting to be reminded of that all the time with others and it's exciting because your still learning about yourself each moment. I know it's not easy too but I would say don't worry. You will learn more about yourself and grow to love yourself even more than half people do. And it will be great for you because you took time to understand each part which makes all the difference :D
Eric. I wish you the best of luck. I think the travelling sounds like a great idea. I wish I was in a position to do it. I feel if you are young enough and you have the opportunity, you should definitely do it. I completely get what you are saying. Trust me!! I feel ya brother.
Just do it you can come back and do the "smart" or "safe" thing later if it all falls apart.
The idea sounds amazing! to travel through biking..will you vlog while you do it? That will be so great to see :p
I hope you're okay. Maybe you would benefit from therapy? It may be useful for you to get perspective from an outside, objective source to see why you feel that way because self-love is so important- when you love yourself it's you don't need approval from anybody else. I really hope you find it, and doing what makes you happy might be the first step towards getting there.
So,are you dead bro?