Neon Genesis Evangelion nearly drove me to suicide. Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the isolation of the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic. I sought emotional refuge in the Evangelion fandom on social media, hoping they’d understand me and provide me with answers that would grant me peace of mind. Instead, they downplayed my trauma, going so far as to spread a rumor of my past to shame me of my mental illness, spiraling me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now. I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters. There’s a reason why I keep coming back to Evangelion; something that reminds me of nothing but pain. I want to prove to myself I’m not crazy for feeling this way, that Evangelion really did force me to relive my trauma, that my depression is not just a figment of my imagination or another anime plot point. I want to feel that my fear and resentment towards Eva is justified. But the fact I’m the only one I know in existence who’s been traumatized by an anime makes me feel like I really am crazy. But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way. But if things hadn’t turned out that way, I wouldn’t be here today.
dude are you for real? that sounds sad,I didn't thought Evangelion was that violent, anyways I wish for the best to you and hopefully you'll get recover from that
The Infamous Man had Shinji (specifically this one, the original anime version) summoned as a Lancer by Kayneth and Sola-Ui in Fate/Zero Sense. Kayneth was an even BIGGER dick to poor Shinji than he was to Diarmuid, but Sola-Ui was much kinder to him, so much so that she’d later personally MURDER Kayneth to claim sole rights as Shinji’s Master, but by all accounts her love and affection for the boy was completely genuine. His three Noble Phantasms were a miniaturized version of the Lance of Longinus, specifically capable of shattering virtually any barricade before it, his AT Field, capable of deflecting attacks, and Unit 01, as deadly as in canon but crucially he couldn’t use any of them simultaneously. He lost Unit 01 to Rider Kamina but managed to kill the poor guy with the Lance immediately after. Following the destruction of the Grail he took Gilgamesh’s place of being submerged in Grail mud and achieving physical materialization. From there he and Sola-Ui would go on to live fairly happily in Fuyuki. Considering everything he suffered through, he certainly deserved the break.
Nice, can I use this video for my character analysis? I’ll attach in the cards on my video Ps. I do it in Thai language and I’m not getting any money just wanna do it cause I love to do some researching stuffs for free
![I Like You | Netflix Evangelion English Dub [HD]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/FGTRMJIJiXM/mqdefault.jpg)
Shinji:😭
Ikari:👹
I love this boy.
я плачу я его так люблю😭😭
Neon Genesis Evangelion nearly drove me to suicide.
Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since.
I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the isolation of the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive.
Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up.
Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic.
I sought emotional refuge in the Evangelion fandom on social media, hoping they’d understand me and provide me with answers that would grant me peace of mind. Instead, they downplayed my trauma, going so far as to spread a rumor of my past to shame me of my mental illness, spiraling me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now.
I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters.
There’s a reason why I keep coming back to Evangelion; something that reminds me of nothing but pain.
I want to prove to myself I’m not crazy for feeling this way, that Evangelion really did force me to relive my trauma, that my depression is not just a figment of my imagination or another anime plot point. I want to feel that my fear and resentment towards Eva is justified.
But the fact I’m the only one I know in existence who’s been traumatized by an anime makes me feel like I really am crazy.
But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way.
But if things hadn’t turned out that way, I wouldn’t be here today.
dude are you for real? that sounds sad,I didn't thought Evangelion was that violent, anyways I wish for the best to you and hopefully you'll get recover from that
Damn wtf
Dude i see you comment this on every shinji related video ive seen, are you okay fr???
he just like me... fr
@@Akavalt no. I’m not okay. I want the world to know what Eva did to me
This is better than the rebuild sh*t
THANK YOU SM OMG
Карина лучшая🛐
СПАСИБО!!!
Litteraly me
Love you 🛐🛐🛐❤❤🛐❤🛐❤🛐❤🛐❤🛐❤🛐❤🛐❤
Hi
The Infamous Man had Shinji (specifically this one, the original anime version) summoned as a Lancer by Kayneth and Sola-Ui in Fate/Zero Sense. Kayneth was an even BIGGER dick to poor Shinji than he was to Diarmuid, but Sola-Ui was much kinder to him, so much so that she’d later personally MURDER Kayneth to claim sole rights as Shinji’s Master, but by all accounts her love and affection for the boy was completely genuine.
His three Noble Phantasms were a miniaturized version of the Lance of Longinus, specifically capable of shattering virtually any barricade before it, his AT Field, capable of deflecting attacks, and Unit 01, as deadly as in canon but crucially he couldn’t use any of them simultaneously.
He lost Unit 01 to Rider Kamina but managed to kill the poor guy with the Lance immediately after. Following the destruction of the Grail he took Gilgamesh’s place of being submerged in Grail mud and achieving physical materialization. From there he and Sola-Ui would go on to live fairly happily in Fuyuki.
Considering everything he suffered through, he certainly deserved the break.
Will there be something like the shinji core?
Nice, can I use this video for my character analysis? I’ll attach in the cards on my video
Ps. I do it in Thai language and I’m not getting any money just wanna do it cause I love to do some researching stuffs for free
0:51 , 1:02 , 1:20
What episode is the clip at 2:38 from?
Episode 9
is this it? all the scenes he appears in?
No there’s a bunch more but the video would be like half an hour long if they added every single clip
@@zoreh4279 ohh okay
@@zoreh4279 Hi
@@deuterium4.028 hi
@@BladerDraws hello
hiw do i kiss him