Oink Oink.. I hope that this MOON.. on the Night he sees YOU.. the MOON is able to tell YOU the Message I have sent to HIM.. that One day.. some day soon.. I will see YOU and will love YOU for the rest of my life.. for ever I shall love YOU...Looking so Good too.. you look young and always Beautiful in my eyes.. Do you want to see WHO is inside this Basket.. has a Covering over.. I cannot show YOU until YOU answer the First question.. Don't break My Heart.. the second is.. CAN I please have YOUR HEART.. I want Your Heart.. I want to take YOUR HEART with me so that MY HEART can be together with YOURS and be happy forever.. But let me see Your Heart.. I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding an Empty Glass Jar.. WHY don't you put Your Heart inside that Glass Jar.. and I can PUT your Heart inside this Basket.. I will walk away.. Only too tell YOUR HEART I can breathe again and can Live with a Smile.. I want to ask YOU THIS.. do YOU love Me.. Because I want to love YOU.. then Please Show me YOUR HEART.. I lifted UP the Basket.. grabbing the Cover Sheet and I would remove off and I see YOU walk closer and YOU look inside the basket.. And I look at YOU.. Look at what YOU have Done.. Do you see that Heart.. It is Me Heart.. Do you see that MY HEART is sick.. Told me that HE has caught a Flu.. and Tells me that HE is sick right Now.. Do you know WHY MY HEART is sick.. because of Loving YOU TOO MUCH.. Loving you for a Long time.. and Missing YOU every day.. My Heart wants to Die.. because HE is Not healthy.. I feel so SICK TOO.. because I want Your Love.. I want Your Love and Your Heart.. I told YOU.. WHY Did you break this Heart.. this Heart tells me HE IS SICK and DYING.. wants me to PUT IN the Basket.. I would hear HIM asking me For Your Heart.. telling me.. GO and ask HER for HER HEART.. we can lay together because we belong together.. MY HEART told me to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love you when I am sick.. I love you when there is a distance between US and I can't see YOU.. I love you because I want to see Your Heart.. I love you because I miss YOU.. I love you that MY HEART got Sick of just loving YOU and I got sick of watching MY Heart sick.. getting sicker because ALL MY HEART does is call for YOU.. I would ask.. WHY DO YOU KEEP ON calling for YOU.. My Heart tells me.. can I write Your name on This Heart.. SO that I don't feel so sick anymore.. that I am able to get back UP to love you More.. I would PUT MY HEART.. He Was laying on my pillow.. and I be looking at HIM.. as I would show MY HEART MY TEARS.. HE tells me.. why are YOU crying.. WHY do you show so much Emotions and keep on crying.. STOP Crying.. I would be wiping my Tears.. If you keep on laying ON this Pillow and YOU be telling me that YOU are Sick.. HOW can I not cry over YOU and for YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. IF you can sit UP and just Be a stronger Heart.. then I do not have to show you these tears anymore.. My Heart looks at me.. I am so Sick.. I feel so ill.. I love YOU.. I want to sit UP but I feel so weak because of Loving YOU.. I look.. tears and drops flowing Down.. WHY DO I have to feel this way TOO MUCH.. and My Heart tells me.. IF YOU want me to be stronger Heart.. more healthier Heart.. Please PUT me inside the basket and TAKE me to Her.. when I see Her.. which is YOU.. I know I can feel better.. will live and beat Once again.. Please.. put me inside the Basket and I will ask Her for Her Heart.. YOUR HEART.. I grab Me Heart.. I put HIM inside the basket.. and here I have come.. and I look.. My Heart would sit UP and Looks at YOU.. My Heart says.. As I see YOU looking at My Heart.. HE looks UP.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. wanting to tell YOU this for a Long time.. that I want YOU to ask YOUR HEART.. Can YOUR HEART please stay with me.. I will be YOUR HEART's best friend.. I will Not let anyone ever hurt YOU but to tell YOU.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I love you where I am able to walk at Night.. Looking at the stars and the Moon.. and even though I do not see YOU around.. I am able to close both of my Eyes and say to the Moon.. I am sure YOU are on the Other side.. Looking at the same Moon.. I know you can hear me.. YOU can try to ignore me but I know you can't.. because MY LOVE is so much stronger.. that It can go through the MOON and goes straight to YOUR HEART.. YOU can close your eyes.. Put your hands over your ears and say.. I don't hear YOU.. but MY WORDS which Has Love in my Heart.. my Words are stronger because I love YOU and I miss YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. will you let me be a part of your Life.. it does not matter where YOU are or what YOU Doing.. I am still in love with YOU.. as YOU are looking at My Heart.. MY HEART shows his arms.. WILL you let Your Heart come on over.. Tell YOUR HEART that I am a friend.. and I can protect Your Heart because I will always Love YOU.. will always love YOUR HEART.. Please.. pretty pretty Please.. tell YOUR HEART.. ask YOUR HEART.. come over to this basket so that I can really love YOU.. why don't YOU tell YOUR HEART.. what is that IN your Hands.. it is Empty.. I see a empty glass jar.. So are YOU asking MY HEART to go over to that Empty Glass Jar.. What are you going to do with MY HEART if He goes Over.. WILL YOU LOVE MY HEART the way I love YOU.. WILL you speak to MY HEART and TELL MY HEART how much YOU love HIM.. Misses HIM.. then Why did YOU bring that Empty glass jar for.. IS it to put YOUR HEART inside and give it to someone else who can't Love YOU.. why waste the TIME if I am the One you really really want and truly need.. I am a Friend but also a Great Lover too.. I can Love you where YOU can skip around a race track.. I can love YOU where your Confidence boost like a Rocket going to the sky. I can love YOU the way a real Man can Love YOU.. I can love YOU where you will say I don't need any love from someone else.. WHY DID YOU bring that Empty Glass Jar.. IF you can Love MY HEART and don't break MY HEART.. I can Put my Heart inside that GLASS JAR and YOU can walk away.. BUT IF you can't.. Please.. MY HEART can Love Your Heart.. can warm UP your Heart.. kiss YOUR HEART and tell YOUR HEART how much I love YOU.. I am sure Your Heart can beat again.. the beating that brings JOY and Music to YOUR HEART.. I want to love YOU.. WILL you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. so Please.. I am holding this Basket.. Let my heart be the One to love Your Heart.. COME so that MY HEART will not feel lonely anymore but have someone to Love.. I want to Love.. I really really want to Love.. LET ME LOVE YOU because I am ready to give you this Love of MINE to your Heart.. I look at MY Heart.. I guess.. SHE.. YOU are not ready yet.. I look at you.. I see you walking few steps back.. and I am wondering.. am I just moving too fast.. Am I suppose to walk few steps closer.. what Am I suppose to do.. Are you letting me know that It is NO.. or is it Yes.. because I want Your Answer to be a YES.. NOT to break my Heart by rejecting or pushing or going the Other way.. Please Don't go.. Please don't leave Now.. I will be waiting for YOU if I am scaring YOU.. I am not trying to scare you.. but just offering that I can love YOU.. will you Not step Back.. Please.. come closer.. so that I can see YOU.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able to speak to YOU.. if the Picture can speak back and tell me what is in your Heart.. what is IN your thoughts.. for a long time.. I wanted to hear what YOU have to say.. as I would look at your Picture.. I see the Glass Jar.. it is an empty Glass jar.. and I would be looking at this Window but has a Glass wall.. I am wondering about the Door.. I have pass by the Open door.. which I came to this second Line and I see the Empty Glass Jar.. I know that it is YOU who must left it behind.. even with this Picture TOO.. Where is the Door because I only saw the first Door opened.. How can I enter.. there is this Big Window.. and inside is the Glass Wall.. I am looking around.. does the Glass wall opens and slides.. I am not sure.. How am I suppose to get Inside.. I told YOU.. I came here only for One thing.. It is Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I want to Hold Your Heart.. I am asking if YOU can tell me How am I suppose to go inside.. my finger touches the Glass wall.. I know that If I step closer.. I see the third Line which is very close to the second line.. I know I cross the first line which is behind me.. Please tell Me.. did YOU leave a key behind.. I am holding this Glass Jar.. and I know that If the Glass Jar is empty.. it is telling me that I am suppose to put something inside and I know that YOUR HEART can fit in.. I know that I can put Your Heart inside this Glass jar..
MAH MAH.. I am sitting on the Ground.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as I am looking.. MAH MAH.. where are YOU.. I need to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I can feel the wind blowing against my face.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU some day.. I want to see YOU soon.. How about today.. my both hands holding the side of the Paper.. looking at Your face.. MAH MAH.. when Can I see you.. I want to meet YOU.. how about today.. and the rain starts to fall.. One drop falls from the skies.. and the rain becomes multiple rains and showers down lightly.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. When can I see YOU.. how about today.. If I come to see you today.. would you let me see your Beautiful face.. and I can see the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture of YOU getting wet.. getting hit by the rain as it suddenly falls harder.. and I would open my mouth and say Loud.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me see your face.. if I come to you.. how about tonight.. would you let me see you.. and I can see the Art sketch paper ripping before my eyes.. and I would start to cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. My father stands behind me.. watching me crying.. holding the ripped half papers in my hands.. putting it against my chest.. and My father holds me from behind.. pulls me Out of the ground.. as He brings me back into the home.. and I am standing next to YOU.. Looking at the bed of Flowers.. the place where My father is buried and laid in rest.. and I do remember I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I have never met you before.. But seems like I knew YOU.. and I turned to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not sure why YOU are here.. YOU do not belong here.. Why did you bring me to the Garden.. YOU belong in the Palace.. where YOU are suppose be.. Not to stand here next with me.. MY father was a servant.. He was the lowest of the lows.. and coming here is Not even a good idea.. I am a Son of a Low Born Slave.. I don't know why YOU are here.. I think it is good for YOU to go.. even though I love YOU.. I know that It is Not meant to Be.. because YOU belong to be Loved by the Prince.. and YOU are wondering.. why am I acting this Way.. why am I pushing YOU away.. It is because I don't belong with YOU.. I know this for a Fact.. but I know that I never stopped loved YOU.. ever since I saw the Art sketch paper.. My Father brought to me.. of course I had no idea.. even my Father too had no idea because YOU are a Princess.. so he just wanted to show me who he served and worked for the King.. and thought None of It.. MAH MAH.. I know that this is wrong.. what YOU are doing is wrong.. and I know that what I am doing is wrong.. but even though I am so wrong.. I just can't get YOU off my chest.. I just can't get you off my mind.. It is killing me because YOU live in my Heart.. live in my mind.. I tried so many times to erase YOU.. but as much as I tried too.. YOU just don't go away.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I know that coming here was a Bad Idea.. I told you many times that I have left this Garden and I don't know why you keep on bringing me to this Place.. I want to leave this Garden to start a new life.. a new chapter in my life but YOU keep on bringing me to this Garden.. How about going to the Palace.. so much More to see.. so much to do there but here.. there is nothing to see any more.. I just want to bury the old.. the memories.. to be gone and away.. as I would be looking at YOU.. there are three of my close friends.. who are guards comes.. and they stopped by me.. and I would turn around to see the three guards.. and I would look behind them.. I look and see.. More Guards are coming.. and they are wearing different helmet colors.. and I would say.. Protect the Princess.. Protect MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. please stay here and the three guards turns around.. and More guards are coming.. and they come into the garden.. I would pull out the sword and the three Guards with me.. they all pull out the swords.. and I would yell.. Charge.. Protect the Princess.. Protect CONG JU MAH MAH.. and I would run Up.. and two guards on the Other side.. they pull out the swords and they would run towards me.. I would swing my Sword UP and Down and jump Up and swing side ways.. and hitting the blades together.. as I land on the ground.. Charge.. Protect CONG JU NIM.. and the three of my friends they would run.. I see more Guards coming.. I hear branches shaking and I look up.. I see more guards.. standing at the Branches.. Arrows are shooting at me.. the three of my friends are behind me.. and I would swing my sword and cut the arrows into half.. and I turn to One friend.. Protect the Princess.. go and protect MAH MAH.. I will fight.. and One of the friends turns and runs back where YOU at.. and I look.. I see More Guards coming.. from the field into the Garden.. and I would run toward.. and the two friends would follow me.. the two friends fight off the two guards and they die.. I turn.. the two friends looks at me.. and we would run out of the Garden.. the guards up on the tree branches looks down.. arrow points and YOU turn.. the Guards on the tree branches knows YOU.. MAH MAH.. it is the Princess.. BOW your Knees and they climb down the tree.. and I am out in the field.. my sword is swing.. and blades hit each other.. I am swinging the sword right left.. up down.. side to side and jumps up swing my sword.. and it strikes one guard down.. and I turn around.. the two friends are behind me.. More guards fell on the ground by the edge of the swords.. I see more running in the field.. pulling out swords.. and I would run up and I would swing my sword.. left right.. right left and I would kick.. one of the guard on the Other side swings back his sword and the blades hit each other.. I would go back and I kick and swing the sword harder.. the guard drops the sword on the ground.. YOU run out of the Garden.. and more guards are coming.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH and the Guards all put the swords down and bows the knee.. and I am thinking.. are they not enemies.. and the two friends puts the swords on the ground and Bow to KNEE.. and I put my sword down.. BOW to Knee.. One of the Guards.. PEH HA is calling YOU to come back.. we are here to get YOU back to the Palace.. the King.. PEH HA is looking for YOU.. and I am looking on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. we will also go with YOU.. to bring YOU back to PEH HA.. and I hear your voice and I would get UP.. and I look.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. did you not hear the order.. your Father.. the King.. PEH HA is calling for YOU.. WHY are you not going.. PEH HA is asking YOU to go to HIM.. I told you that YOU do not belong here.. I will remain here if YOU go.. I just can't see you here because there is NO future here for YOU.. YOU Must go back to the Palace.. if YOU go.. I will stay here.. because it is better for me to stay here.. I belong here to the Garden.. but YOU don't belong here.. YOU before to be with the Prince.. going to the palace has much better future for YOU.. so Please.. why don't you listen to the voice of your Father.. I just showed YOU where my Father is buried.. in the garden.. I did not listen to his voice.. and look at the result of what happened to HIM because of me.. I don't want you to face what I had to go through.. YOU know that NO matter where you at.. I will always love YOU.. and I believe that I will see you again.. I believe that If I love YOU.. if YOU love me.. something will happen later on a better days that comes.. but right Now.. YOU must leave the Garden.. Please MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. going back the the Palace.. YOU be much happier there.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see you turning away and YOU are walking back into the Garden and I look.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. LOOK.. you have the special Body Guards.. they have come just to take you back Home.. I don't think they will leave until YOU go with them.. I see you walk into the Garden.. Now there is One Garden who gets UP and He pulls out the sword.. and I turn.. I see Him walking up.. I grab the sword.. and He walks up.. We both start to swing our swords.. hitting the blades left to right.. blades hits together and I would walk back and I would swing faster.. as he walks up and I jump up and swings my sword hitting hit blades.. and I use full force to knock the sword out of his hand and Put the sword on his neck.. and strikes him down.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and I turn and I would walk back.. into the garden.. I see you Nowhere.. and I am thinking.. by the tree.. so I would walk UP the hill.. the three friends are walking behind me.. and I see the Moon out.. the Sun has gone down.. and I see YOU standing by the tree.. but YOU are looking at the Soil.. as I would walk closer.. another Bed of flowers.. this is where My Mother is buried.. I stand next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't know why you are doing this.. this is where my Mother is buried.. My Father told me Once.. YOU are so much like her.. I can see why because just looking at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you don't have to do this.. I don't want you to feel so sorry for me because I am doing good Now.. I just wanted to show you the people who gave me birth and raised me are here.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why are you doing this and I see you turn and YOU look at the Moon.. and YOU smiled looking at the Moon and I turn to look at what YOU are seeing.. and I do remember.. when I first told YOU.. when I started to Miss YOU..
MAH MAH.. when I wanted to say I love YOU.. and I just could not say the words.. I would be looking at that Moon.. when words just could not come out right and I was afraid to say what If you don't want to hear me say anything.. I would be turning to that Moon.. and I would say what is in my Heart looking at that Moon.. I remember few years back.. when YOU came to the Garden and YOU would leave.. I even brought you a Flower.. to show YOU what it means when I look at YOU.. I would show YOU the Flower.. How I wanted to give it to YOU.. when YOU would leave.. I would run UP to this Hill top.. I would come here at Night.. I would see the Same Moon we are looking at this very Night.. when YOU were here.. I just could not say any words to YOU.. but only wanted to give you this One Flower.. I would be upset because My Heart wanted to say something more.. I would wonder.. why couldn't I tell YOU when you were hear.. but Now you have left the Garden.. I am standing here alone.. I look up to the Moon.. I am able to speak to that Moon about YOU.. I would open my mouth and speak.. sharing How my Heart felt about you to that Moon.. Now.. We are standing here at the same Hill top.. looking at the MOON I spoke of YOU.. and if YOU want to hear me say something to the MOON about YOU.. Please come closer and open your ears and open your Heart.. because it comes from MY Heart loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears.. I would come to my Father's grave.. I remember when I would be sad.. when I be hurt.. He would be next to me.. I would be crying as he would tell me all things be okay in the end.. Now MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that YOU may not remember my Father.. He was close to you Once.. and yes.. he was your servant.. the King.. PEH HA would put my father in charge to look after YOU.. I am not sure if YOU ever remember my Father.. of course something happened that my father went into the prison.. and he was sentence to death.. I saw HIM in the prison bars.. a carriage with bars.. and he told me.. never to Love YOU.. Never to love the Princess.. and I saw the carriage with bars leave off.. that was the last thing.. I think YOU were young back then.. because I was Young too when he died.. MAH MAH.. do you remember the Man who was your servant.. and I see YOU turn your head to look at me.. I see your head moving Up and down.. means YOU do remember my Father.. I think he told me YOU were so bright.. very bold and courageous.. Loves to shoot bows and arrows.. told me that YOU love riding Horses and loves to Hunt wild games.. has never seen any one like YOU before.. that My father believes if YOU were a Prince.. YOU be a Mighty warrior Prince is what he told me.. but YOU are a Princess instead.. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.. why would I love a Mighty Warrior Princess.. my father told me before He was going to prison.. Never Love the Princess.. Because something Horrible can happen to me in the end.. and Now.. I have brought YOU to the Man.. the one who use to serve YOU as a servant.. this is my Father's Grave.. this is the bed of Flowers I was talking to YOU about for a long time.. and now you were wondering how come I am telling YOU this HUH.. MAH MAH.. I know its be long years since then.. and many years has passed by.. there was No chance where I was able to tell YOU.. everything happened so fast.. I know that I should of never met YOU.. then I am sure I would never fall in love.. but what good is all that talk about the past when I am here in the present with YOU.. I told YOU that I am Not afraid to Die.. if I die because of loving YOU is a sin.. then Please.. Kill me for my Sin.. but I did not mean to love YOU this Long.. I did not mean to love YOU.. it just happened out of nowhere.. I remember it was the day my Father came from work.. serving YOU.. and He brought a Picture.. he brought the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. he told me when he came Home late into the night.. I was Not sleeping.. and showed me the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My father was smiling when He gave me the Picture.. the sketch paper.. telling me an Artist drew this Picture of CONG JU NIM.. I would be asking How YOU.. MAH MAH was like.. I was very curious because my Father who served YOU would always be smiling.. and He was very happy to be there as Your Servant.. of course.. I took the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU into my hands and I looked.. when my eyes first saw this Picture.. I would feel something was wrong with my Heart.. it would burn and kept on burning with me.. I would place my hand on the chest.. I don't know but something is wrong with me.. what is happening to My Heart.. it burns like fire within me.. and my Father would stand there and He looks.. He told me it should not be.. that this is Wrong.. and I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch paper.. My Father looks.. and he grabs the Sketch Paper and snatches off my Hands.. and He turns and walks off.. I remember I started to cry.. crying loud and loud.. asking for the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I want to see the Picture.. I want to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU.. I would be looking for it.. my father would tell me Not to love YOU.. I just can't.. I should Not.. because If the King knows that I do.. even he can die because of Me.. if the words get out.. and someone finds Out.. I can be executed with my Father and he tells me never to Love YOU.. I remember my father was sleeping in his room.. and I came into my father's room.. I see the Art Sketch paper laying next to HIM.. I went over and I grabbed the Art sketch paper.. walking into my room.. I would unfold and find myself looking at the Picture of YOU.. my hand goes across the paper.. and I just wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. can I ever see CONG JU MAH MAH.. would I get the chance to see YOU.. and I would sit by myself.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my Hands.. my arms.. putting the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch Paper to my chest.. I want to see YOU but I want to love YOU.. I saw my Father looking at me.. he stands in the room.. He sees my arms.. the Art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU close to my Chest..
MAH MAH.. Close to my Heart and I turn too look up.. I want to see CONG JU NIM.. CAN I SEE MAH MAH.. Father.. can I please see how CONG JU NIM is like.. Please Father.. and He gets very angry at me and grabs.. snatches it off.. take the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture and tears it into the pieces and tosses it out side.. and He walks off the house.. and I would look out side.. I see the Art sketch paper torn into pieces.. and I would cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would go out and sit.. picking UP the pieces toward.. trying to find each torn pieces of papers.. and the light rain would not help me at all.. as it became soak and wet over the rain fall.. I would try to put the pieces together but the rain and I would sit in the rain crying.. crying for YOU.. wanting to see the Picture of YOU and It torn my heart into pieces.. As I am now with YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. it was such a long ago when I first saw your Picture.. I wanted to glue it back.. some way and some how I wanted the Art sketch Paper.. I started to miss looking at you through the Picture.. asking My Father.. begging HIM to get an Artist to draw another picture.. from the Sketch paper.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. my Father kept on telling me that If I keep on doing this.. I will die sooner.. if the Word breaks Out.. I can be executed and told me to forget you.. and as I am now looking at the bed of Flowers.. I am standing next to you and I would show YOU.. this is my Father's grave.. I wanted to bring YOU to this Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU.. I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see YOU.. it made me the most happiest place.. then.. why did YOU tell me to come.. YOU are the one who got the Horse for me.. YOU are the one who asked me to come and follow YOU.. I only agreed too because YOU asked me.. and Now.. why are you changing your Mind.. if I let YOU go.. YOU should just let me Die here.. I don't want to go if I can't be with YOU.. if I can Not hold unto your wrist.. what is the point if I let it go now.. Let me just die here.. Let me fight these Guards.. if they win.. I will die here.. Bury me next to my Father.. Bury me here.. if I win this fight.. then you can be with me forever.. How about that.. and I see you turn your Head looking at me.. and I would fall on my knees.. kneeling with the five Guards.. I even drop my sword on the floor.. WHY do I have to let go.. I can't let your wrist go.. do YOU not remember How I got here.. ever since YOU came to the garden.. I would also take you to this Tree.. the reason why I have brought you to this tree.. my Mother is buried next to this Tree.. My Mother died giving me birth.. so I never met my Mother.. MAH MAH.. I have never met my mother.. so I have never seen her.. never heard the voice.. but My Father told me that she was very beautiful and was very bold.. had the Heart like a lion and would fight even in battles.. but giving birth to me was hard and gave her last breathe after I came into this world.. I remember my Father told me as He was watching YOU growing UP.. some reason YOU reminded of My Mother.. and told me a lot about her.. I remember when I was young boy.. I would follow my Father.. did not know where he was taking me and would take me to this Tree.. I would ask my Father.. what is this tree all about.. it must have a meaning because.. My Father would come nights.. He would be talking to this Tree.. and crying.. and told Me.. My mother is buried next to this Tree.. a little bed of flowers.. this is where.. and told me that MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is so much like Your Mother and One day.. he tells me that I am going to love YOU.. that is why my father would tell me never get too close to YOU.. I would laugh at those words.. but Now.. I realize that He is truly right.. because my father tells me I am so much like him.. and Now.. I do see myself more like my Father as time goes by.. Now.. I do miss my mother who I never seen before.. but when I look at YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. what my father said is so True.. I love YOU because YOU are so Strong and YOU are so bold.. courageous.. which I never met my Mother before.. I wanted to take you to this Tree.. so that I can introduce YOU to my Mother who is buried by this Bed of flowers.. but.. I did not want to tell YOU who.. but just wanted to show YOU there is someone very special and dear to me.. I believe my mother's spirit is here.. and I just wanted to tell my Mother.. her spirit.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is the One who I love.. I don't know why it has to be you.. if you are asking me.. WHY DO I LOVE YOU.. what am I suppose to say.. How am I suppose to answer if it is just because Y O U.. DO I needs to explain why or How much I love YOU.. isn't just enough to tell you that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. and Now you are wondering why DO I tell you this Now.. I just had to know for sure if YOU are the One who I truly Love.. I wanted to know for sure.. is it really CONG JU NIM.. is it really MAH MAH.. the princess.. and I had to hold it for years.. do you know how many years it had to cross.. how many times I had to ask myself if this is real.. if this is true and had to ask thousand times.. maybe even million times I had to ask myself before I would accept the truth.. and yes.. Like I said to YOU.. I have never felt like this way before.. because I just love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I just had to tell myself.. it can't be.. I would ponder on this for a long time.. my Father would look at me when I was young.. what am I suppose to do with his Son.. knowing that I was going to love YOU.. he told me.. I don't want me to love YOU.. but He knows that I was going to love you anyways.. my Father when he was alive.. looked at me.. told me never to get close to YOU.. it is going to hurt me more when I do.. it is going to tear my heart into pieces if I do.. Now.. Look at me.. I can't help but just fall in love with YOU..
MAH MAH.. I am holding unto your wrist.. I just can't let go.. but I see that YOU want me to let it go.. if I do let Go.. would you let me hold unto your wrist again and next time I do.. that you.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not going to let It go.. Please don't put my hand away.. because I won't let it go any more.. as I would look at you.. I open my hand and I release your wrist.. My Chest pains.. it comes and hits me Hard and I can feel this Pain growing stronger.. I just can't.. I see you walking forward.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. Will you please come back.. I am going to wait for YOU.. you know where to find me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please don't Go.. WHY do you have to go.. if you love me.. if YOU really really Love me.. would you not stay here with Me.. and as I would watch YOU keep walking.. I see the Five Guards getting UP.. and I see them also walking and they would follow You.. and I am here by the Tree.. my Heart.. and I would Open my Mouth Wide yelling.. WHY do you have to Go.. why do I have to let Your wrist Go.. my hand hits My chest.. I can't let YOU go.. and I get UP.. and I look.. my tears just falling from my eyes.. I grab the sword on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do YOU have to go and One of the Guard looks back.. and He has a sword.. and I grab the sword and I would start to run forward.. the Other Guards would turn too look back.. running and holding the sword.. the One Guard.. we both swings the swords at each other.. and the Blades hits and Hits together.. I see you turn around and YOU look.. I would jump UP.. yelling and screaming.. swinging the sword.. and the Guard swings back and I am jumping swinging the sword at the Guard.. another Guard runs up and Plunges the Sword into me.. and He pulls the sword Out and I drop the Sword.. and I am yelling.. I see you telling to Stop.. the five Guards stops and pulls back.. and I can feel.. I am dying inside.. I can feel the chills in my body as I would kneel.. and I know that I am going to die soon.. my tears.. my blood on the side.. my hand holding the side.. I see you running.. and as I am feeling like.. I am just like my father.. I am also losing YOU.. But I love YOU.. I love you so much.. I can feel this Ache MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to die like this without fully able to love YOU.. I want to love YOU and love you well.. but I think that I just can't.. Look at me and I would lay on the ground.. Bury me next to my Father.. or you can bury me next to my mother.. I am dying because I love YOU so much.. it hurts.. and I would cough blood.. and it is so hard to move.. and I see you next too me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if I hold unto your wrist.. I asked you.. if you come back.. can I hold to your wrist and this time.. Please don't go.. I am not going to let the wrist go.. as I would lay my head on your lap.. I can feel the wind blowing.. I see the grey clouds gathering.. and I see the sky darkens and I know it is about to rain.. I know this time.. when it rains.. I can go gone with the Wind.. I would ask YOU.. MAH MAH.. Send my ashes away.. to the waters that I love.. put my ashes into the waters where I can go as far.. I will be with YOU.. because I will still love you then.. I will love YOU forever.. and as I would close my eyes.. my eyes open.. And I am AT THE Outer Court.. Looking at YOU and the King.. and I cry Out.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I get your attention.. DO you remember the Tree incident.. and I see the King.. PEH HA and he sits on the Chair.. and YOU are next to Him.. Do you remember what happened at the Tree.. WHY did you save me.. I was close to death.. I was very close to dying.. why did YOU save me back there.. I asked of YOU to release me.. and I look at YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. if you just let me Go.. I would not be here.. Please tell the King.. PEH HA what happened.. and I see the King turns too look at YOU.. and you just stoop there speechless.. PEH HA.. CONG JU NIM is the one who saved me.. I closed my both eyes and sword plunged into the side.. and I knew that I was going to die that day.. but MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM saved my Life.. what does this Means.. and the King LOOKS at me.. and He turns too look at You.. if the ROYAL Family saves a Life.. there is a rule.. that I become a slave in that family.. and the King looks at me.. Am I not to be a Slave for the Princess.. I am Now a Servant for the CONG JU NIM.. and I would look at the ground.. and the King turns too look at YOU.. He gets UP and He leaves the chair.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I am your Slave Now.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Did YOU not tell me that YOU were never going to come Back.. YOU told me to Leave.. that YOU wish not to see me Any More.. YOU told me that YOU were never going to come back to see Me.. and those words left Bruises in My Heart.. YOU told me when I stood by this Tree.. You were with the Prince.. and YOU looked at my eyes.. telling me to Leave and that YOU wish that YOU would not see me again.. It really torn My Heart.. it really Hurt me deep inside when YOU told me.. YOU never loved Me and that YOU wished Never to see me again.. and TOLD me to Leave.. I just could Not help it.. as I would turn the Other way.. I looked down on the Hill TOP.. started to walk down this Hill.. My Heart just could not take it any more.. as I was walking down.. I felt heavy in My Chest.. My tears just could Not help but come down very fast and very Hard.. I just could Not believe the Words I had to hear.. WHY did YOU say in a Harsh Way.. that My Heart had to fall off.. I remember as I sat in the Room.. I just kept on crying.. sitting on the Bed.. I just could Not stop.. I felt so Bad.. Unfolding.. LOOKING at the sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I begin to think.. why was I still having this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. after hearing Your Words.. that YOU wanted me to Leave and Never wanted to see me again.. and How I had to linger on those words.. I was still holding unto the Sketch Paper.. I just could Not throw it away even though I knew that YOU never Loved me.. My hand pressing onto my Chest.. I would Unfold the sketch Paper.. My eyes would close.. Hand presses down on my chest.. feeling my Heart.. weeping inside and crying with Me.. I would say.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY.. WHY don't you love me the way I love YOU.. is it because I am a Lowly Person.. just a servant.. is it because I don't fit Your Standards to be Your Man.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. I really needed to know why couldn't YOU love Me.. is there a reason WHY you chose to Not.. DID I do something wrong.. Have I said something that Made YOU change Your Mind or YOU never felt anything for Me in Your Heart.. Then How about My Heart.. WHY can't you accept the fact that I love YOU.. I am Not expecting anything back.. but just to know How much I love YOU and that I just can't stop loving YOU.. WHY tell me YOU do not want to see me anything.. Is it really that WHAT you want.. is that the real reason WHY.. as I would be looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. and Now I grabbed Your Wrist.. MAH MAH.. do you not remember what YOU said to Me.. it was right here.. I was standing by this Tree.. YOU told me Never to come Back.. Never to come see YOU.. and TO Leave.. WHY can't you look me in the eyes and tell me why did you say those words to Me.. I still remember.. It hurts so bad when I think about that TIME you told me.. WHY would you say that to me and WHY would you bring me back to this Same spot where I was Hurt the Most.. And Now.. why can't YOU face me.. why are you looking at the other way.. Please.. CONG JU NIM.. Please.. turn Your Head and please look at me in the eyes.. I need the answers why.. I am still lingered of that thought because I cried all Night thinking of YOU.. is it because I am Not the prince.. Am I suppose to be the Prince.. is that WHAT YOU want.. a Prince.. but I am Not the prince.. I am now a Palace Guard.. but was a Lowly servant when YOU told me those words.. Please.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. MAH MAH tell me why.. I am trying to get YOU to look at me.. It seems like YOU did not want to answer.. I guess then I am Not going to ask YOU about it anymore.. But.. this Place.. gives me such a bad taste of memories.. I felt my Happiest but also the Worst in my Life when I was told.. YOU never loved Me.. and to Go.. as YOU can see.. I am still hurt of the Past.. don't know why because much Time has passed by.. maybe because I never let YOU go.. I always loved YOU here.. always wanted you to be Near.. always I would turn to look at the Big Palace.. asking if I can see YOU.. but.. No matter how many calling Out your name.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I would say here.. I would Not here YOU respond Back.. it would be Me always standing.. yelling Out.. calling Out to YOU to come.. that I would be missing YOU.. and just wish that YOU would stop by to at least to say HELLO.. but many times I stand here calling Out.. I would wait with silent.. it is because I love YOU.. and Have never left that thought.. But I do remember after I left this Behind.. I did not know where to Go.. I just wanted to Die.. WHY do I have to live if there is NO way for me to Love YOU.. So I tried to end my Life.. I drank something with Poison.. and ALL I remember I fell on the Floor.. on the ground.. but for some reason.. a MAN found me laying on the street.. on the ground.. and some way.. some how.. He took me In.. older MAN and
Would you please tell me How am I suppose to get to Your Heart.. I can look through the Glass WALL.. and I do See Your Heart.. I want that Heart.. as I am holding.. my arms are wrapped around this glass jar.. it is an Empty Glass jar.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around it.. I can hear something.. or is it someone.. I hear foot steps and I know that the foot steps is coming from Behind me.. so I turn around to look.. But.. I don't see anyone.. so I turn to look the Other way.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around.. I see someone.. I see YOU.. YOU are inside the ROOM.. because I looked at this Picture.. YOU are wearing the same outfit and I just can't believe.. as I am looking.. I see YOU stop.. and YOU are standing by the Heart.. YOU are standing next to Your Heart.. I see YOU smile.. I see that Beautiful Smile.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and why do you have so smile like that.. how am I suppose to get close to YOU.. and I am looking down.. I am looking at Your Heart.. that is the answer.. the answer is right where my eyes are looking.. I want Your Heart.. that is the only way I can take a step closer to YOU.. But How do I get inside.. I want to get into that room.. but this Big Window.. this Glass wall.. it is stopping me to go further.. I want to walk.. I want to make few steps so that I can go closer to Your Heart.. I want your Heart.. Please tell me.. How do I get to Your Heart.. if YOU are not going to tell me.. what am I suppose to do.. if the only thing I see is this Line.. I see the third Line.. but if I take the step to the third line.. would you let me In.. would you let me get close to Your Heart.. because I want Your Heart.. YOU have given me this Glass jar.. even leaving this Picture.. WHY would you leave it out here where I am able to get the access to It.. that means YOU know that I am coming.. YOU knew that someone would stop by.. and yes.. I have come and saw the door open.. Now what I want is Your Heart.. will you please tell me that I can have Your Heart.. I am able to hold.. grab hold unto that Heart.. I want want it.. and Yes.. I need that Heart.. but.. if the second line is the only Line I can come.. and cannot pass.. I just do not want to stop right here.. so I would take the steps and goes to the third line.. do YOU see that I have come closer.. but.. I know that I am stuck.. I don't want to be stuck like this.. Please tell me what am I suppose to do next.. are YOU telling me that it is my part to figure it out.. as I would close both of my eyes.. I am holding.. my arms holding around this Glass jar.. the empty Glass jar.. I want my arms to hold like this to YOUR HEART.. I want to hold Your Heart so that YOU know that I am gentle and that YOU can feel the other side of me.. more of the softer side which I love.. I would open both eyes and I am out at Night.. as I am standing ALL alone.. I am thinking back.. before I came to this House.. before I saw the Door has opened.. Now I am standing and it is at Night.. as I am looking UP to the sky.. I am looking at the Moon.. I have the Empty Glass Jar.. my arms still holding around It.. as I am looking at the Moon.. I would ask.. WHY do I have to be the One who is standing here.. I am asking for Your Heart.. I have the empty Glass Jar.. what am I suppose to DO if I can't get any closer.. I saw Your Heart.. tell me what am I suppose to do.. I want Your Heart but it seems like YOU don't want to give it away.. my hands grab on the side of the Glass Jar.. the empty Glass Jar and my arms lifted UP high.. I want Your Heart.. if YOU are listening to Me.. I am asking.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU.. that is why I am asking.. as I begin to look across the sky.. I start to see stars too.. it is shining and sparkles.. does it means YOU are answering through the Stars.. I am not sure because I want to know.. I need to Know.. from the back pocket.. I would pull out.. I do remember I wrote YOU a love Letter last night.. I did express my Heart as it was written.. the way my Heart feels about YOU.. and I would put the Glass Jar on the floor.. and I would open the Love Letter.. maybe this is the answer.. am I suppose to put the Love Letter inside this Glass jar.. am I suppose to give this to YOU.. would YOU please read it.. would you let me know if I tell YOU how much I love YOU.. so I put the Love Letter inside the Empty Glass Jar.. but Now.. there is the Letter inside.. as I would lift the Glass Jar.. my arms wraps around It.. my both eyes would close and I would Open the two eyes.. I am standing on the third Line.. and I would look through the Glass Wall with the Big Window around it.. and I would lift up the Glass Jar.. and I see you looking through the Glass wall and YOU see something inside.. I see YOU holding Your Heart.. Your arms wrapped around Your Heart.. Am I suppose to make a trade with YOU.. I need to Put your Heart inside this Glass Jar.. can YOUR HEART read.. I know that YOU can read.. I see you walking toward.. and I see YOU holding.. your arms around that Heart.. and I would smile.. and YOU stop by the Glass wall.. and I can see YOU closer.. I see your Heart closer.. and I know that only way YOU would open the Glass wall.. I think you are telling me.. So my hand grabs the Love Letter and I would pull it Out.. Putting the Glass Jar on the ground and I would unfold the Letter.. and I am looking at Your Heart.. and I look at YOU.. and I know that YOU want to hear what I needs to say to YOU.. AS I would Open my Mouth.. last night I could Not sleep.. I was struggling so much trying to get some rest.. I don't know why but I was toss and turning around.. I would close my eyes.. my eyes would open.. both eyes looking up at the ceiling.. I am wondering.. I am so tired.. but why couldn't I fall asleep.. there is my Pillow.. I would grab and hold unto the pillow.. thinking that it be YOU.. and try to fall asleep.. my Heart was telling me.. there is something that I must say.. I had to tell YOU something or I will not sleep.. I remember walking out.. Looking at the Moon.. and just thinking about YOU.. just missing YOU.. I would think of you day and night.. I would say.. why do you have to be so far from Me.. why can't you ever be near me.. the pain of missing YOU.. the agony of missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU close.. wanting your Heart for so long.. I want Your Heart.. after I would stand out the night.. Looking at the Moon.. looking at the stars in the sky.. after thinking of YOU.. I went back into my room.. and I would sit on the desk.. pulled out the pieces of paper with the Pen in my hand.. and I would look down.. and I wanted to say.. I know that YOU may not know me well.. and I may not know you well.. but I know that YOU can know me well.. because I keep on thinking of YOU.. if YOU are asking me.. if I don't know you well.. why would I love YOU.. How can I love YOU if I don't know you well.. it is because I do tell YOU like I know YOU.. do I have to know you well to love YOU.. I know that I still can love YOU even when YOU are so far away.. I don't think being so far or not knowing well has answers.. it is the One who Loves YOU.. when I look at YOU.. looking at your picture is enough.. but keep thinking of Us.. keep thinking of YOU and me.. and thinking of just loving YOU.. it just happens to be when I am over thinking about Us.. I want us to Happen.. I want YOU to know that Love has no barriers.. but it is the One who can truly Love that breaks down the walls.. ALL you do is wait.. all you do is knows that I love YOU.. it has no barriers or languages.. just because it is YOU.. I just want to love of being WHO you are and that is the only thing I can tell YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Let me ask you something.. why can't I just love YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. will you allow me and give me the permission to keep on going.. to continue just to love YOU.. is it my fault.. is it my heart's fault who first started to love YOU.. I just don't want you to push me away.. Please don't push me away.. I know that YOU have a Heart.. a Heart just like mine.. I know that YOUR HEART is so beautiful.. that is why I want and need Your Heart.. I be dying to tell YOU.. only YOU needs to be open to receive how much I love YOU.. I am holding the Shot glass into my hand.. as My other Hand holds the Bottle.. Bottle of SOJU and I am pouring into the Shot Glass.. Only words I would say to YOU.. I miss YOU.. I don't know why but this very Night.. I am missing YOU.. wishing that YOU are here with me.. I just want to hold YOU in my arms.. Hold YOU close.. Hold you tight.. But No matter how many times I call for YOU.. calling YOUR name.. it seems like YOU Never answer.. Can you Hear Me.. Can you hear my voice calling out to YOU.. calling out your Name.. I put the SOJU bottle down on the Floor.. my other hand holding the Shot Glass.. both eyes closes.. I open my mouth.. I would slam the Shot Glass.. the SOJU hits me.. as I would sit.. I put the Shot Glass on the ground.. Next to the Bottle of SOJU.. as I would open both eyes.. I look down at the Bottle of SOJU.. it is Now Empty.. I just finished taking many shots..
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오늘 하루도 수고 하셨어요 보람님👏👍
떠오르는 new먹방 가수~ 🎵
보람씨입맛에 맞는거 다 사드리고 싶당😊
뭐든 잘드시는..아이스라떼도, 저랑 입맛이 비슷하신듯👋😊
순두부열라면 고대로 한번 끊여 먹어 봐야 겠네요~^^
ㅎㅎ 맛있게 잘먹네요 먹방 ㅋㅋ ㅋㅋ
아구 귀엽당~!
브이로그 볼때마다 느끼는건데~ 우런니 커피 자주 마시는군요?
오홍~메모~~
도로와 다운이는 언제봐도 귀엽네요 ㅋㅋ
나 브이로그 보는거 좋아했네
평소 모습이 더 매력 터지시네 ㅋㅋ귀엽네
보람이 행복했으면 좋겠다~
먹는모습도 귀여워 다람쥐같아;);)🐿
맵고 짜고 달고 게다가 많이 먹는데 건강하다니 운동 정말 열심히 하나 봐요. 그 와중에 근엄한 다운이 ㅋ
순두부 열라면… 아직 한번도 못 해 먹었는데… 이번에 본가가면 도전해봐야겠네요 맛있겠다…
13:19 도로:으아아아ㅏ아앙.
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
언니는 라면 끓일 때 생수 넣으시네요! 아 배고파🥲
아까는 춤신춤왕이더니 이젠 먹방이네..
본캐가 뭐지?
다 잘해.. 유튭까지
아따 복스럽게 잘드시네요ㅋㅋㅋ
이전 채널에서 봤던거네요 ㅋㅋㅋ 열라면에 후추안뿌리셔서 속터질뻔했던 기억이 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
P 맞으세요??? 파워 J같은뎅.... 너무 부지런하고 깔끔하시다.. 언제 한 번 각 잡고 먹방 해주세요!!
10:30 Wow...I never knew that croissants can become waffle by just like that 🤯
도로 참 날렵하구려~🙀🙀🙀
퀸 보람! 왜케 잘 드셩. 이쁘다🥰🥰내가수.
"오늘도보람" 이사짐(영상) 빼는 속도가 빨라지는게 좀 서운해 지긴 하넴😭😭
순두부 열라면 급 땡기는데요🤡
맛있게 잘 먹어서 더 예뻐보임 ㅎㅎ
너무귀여워 요
순두부찌개 와 열라면은 내 최애라
한창 유행할때 해먹어 봤는데
안맞아서 ㅜㅅㅜ
도로 💜 다운
직접 편집하시나요?
라면 맛나겠네요 ~ ^^
우리 도로 어찌할꼬..누나 힘들게 하지 말고 언넝 철들어~^.^~
아우 조아
이제는 먹방까지?
진짜 고문이다ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
엇. 그런데 에그마요 스쿱 샐러드에 유통기한이 2022년 01월 18일까지라고 써 있네요?
2023년이 아닐까 큰 티비로도 계속 봤어요.
속 괜찮으신가요?
라면은 정말 땡기네요 ㅜ.ㅜ
ㅋㅋㅋ 이 영상 찍은 시기가 2022년 1월 초라서 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 딱 맞춰먹으시긴 했네요
@@seoman8033 아. 그렇군요. 다행이네요 ㅋㅋㅋ
누나 노래하시는 것도 좀 올려주세요😁
굿굿
잘 볼게요
이뻐요~❤
👍👍💖💖💖🌷🌷🌷👑👑
😋
브이로그보는거 좋아하는 친구한테 남의 일상 보는게 뭐 좋으냐 비난한 제 자신을 반성합니다.
와.. 화장안해도이쁘네요
채널합체하고 첫영상인가?
나혼자산다에서 섭외할법도한데..
보람씨~ 먼저 나혼산에 출연하고싶다고해보세여
보람씨나혼산에 나왔으면좋겠네여
식빵맨 ㅎㅇ
Oink Oink.. I hope that this MOON.. on the Night he sees YOU.. the MOON is able to tell YOU the Message I have sent to HIM.. that One day.. some day soon.. I will see YOU and will love YOU for the rest of my life.. for ever I shall love YOU...Looking so Good too.. you look young and always Beautiful in my eyes.. Do you want to see WHO is inside this Basket.. has a Covering over.. I cannot show YOU until YOU answer the First question.. Don't break My Heart.. the second is.. CAN I please have YOUR HEART.. I want Your Heart.. I want to take YOUR HEART with me so that MY HEART can be together with YOURS and be happy forever.. But let me see Your Heart.. I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding an Empty Glass Jar.. WHY don't you put Your Heart inside that Glass Jar.. and I can PUT your Heart inside this Basket.. I will walk away.. Only too tell YOUR HEART I can breathe again and can Live with a Smile.. I want to ask YOU THIS.. do YOU love Me.. Because I want to love YOU.. then Please Show me YOUR HEART.. I lifted UP the Basket.. grabbing the Cover Sheet and I would remove off and I see YOU walk closer and YOU look inside the basket.. And I look at YOU.. Look at what YOU have Done.. Do you see that Heart.. It is Me Heart.. Do you see that MY HEART is sick.. Told me that HE has caught a Flu.. and Tells me that HE is sick right Now.. Do you know WHY MY HEART is sick.. because of Loving YOU TOO MUCH.. Loving you for a Long time.. and Missing YOU every day.. My Heart wants to Die.. because HE is Not healthy.. I feel so SICK TOO.. because I want Your Love.. I want Your Love and Your Heart.. I told YOU.. WHY Did you break this Heart.. this Heart tells me HE IS SICK and DYING.. wants me to PUT IN the Basket.. I would hear HIM asking me For Your Heart.. telling me.. GO and ask HER for HER HEART.. we can lay together because we belong together.. MY HEART told me to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love you when I am sick.. I love you when there is a distance between US and I can't see YOU.. I love you because I want to see Your Heart.. I love you because I miss YOU.. I love you that MY HEART got Sick of just loving YOU and I got sick of watching MY Heart sick.. getting sicker because ALL MY HEART does is call for YOU.. I would ask.. WHY DO YOU KEEP ON calling for YOU.. My Heart tells me.. can I write Your name on This Heart.. SO that I don't feel so sick anymore.. that I am able to get back UP to love you More.. I would PUT MY HEART.. He Was laying on my pillow.. and I be looking at HIM.. as I would show MY HEART MY TEARS.. HE tells me.. why are YOU crying.. WHY do you show so much Emotions and keep on crying.. STOP Crying.. I would be wiping my Tears.. If you keep on laying ON this Pillow and YOU be telling me that YOU are Sick.. HOW can I not cry over YOU and for YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. IF you can sit UP and just Be a stronger Heart.. then I do not have to show you these tears anymore.. My Heart looks at me.. I am so Sick.. I feel so ill.. I love YOU.. I want to sit UP but I feel so weak because of Loving YOU.. I look.. tears and drops flowing Down.. WHY DO I have to feel this way TOO MUCH.. and My Heart tells me.. IF YOU want me to be stronger Heart.. more healthier Heart.. Please PUT me inside the basket and TAKE me to Her.. when I see Her.. which is YOU.. I know I can feel better.. will live and beat Once again.. Please.. put me inside the Basket and I will ask Her for Her Heart.. YOUR HEART.. I grab Me Heart.. I put HIM inside the basket.. and here I have come.. and I look.. My Heart would sit UP and Looks at YOU.. My Heart says.. As I see YOU looking at My Heart.. HE looks UP.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. wanting to tell YOU this for a Long time.. that I want YOU to ask YOUR HEART.. Can YOUR HEART please stay with me.. I will be YOUR HEART's best friend.. I will Not let anyone ever hurt YOU but to tell YOU.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I love you where I am able to walk at Night.. Looking at the stars and the Moon.. and even though I do not see YOU around.. I am able to close both of my Eyes and say to the Moon.. I am sure YOU are on the Other side.. Looking at the same Moon.. I know you can hear me.. YOU can try to ignore me but I know you can't.. because MY LOVE is so much stronger.. that It can go through the MOON and goes straight to YOUR HEART.. YOU can close your eyes.. Put your hands over your ears and say.. I don't hear YOU.. but MY WORDS which Has Love in my Heart.. my Words are stronger because I love YOU and I miss YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. will you let me be a part of your Life.. it does not matter where YOU are or what YOU Doing.. I am still in love with YOU.. as YOU are looking at My Heart.. MY HEART shows his arms.. WILL you let Your Heart come on over.. Tell YOUR HEART that I am a friend.. and I can protect Your Heart because I will always Love YOU.. will always love YOUR HEART.. Please.. pretty pretty Please.. tell YOUR HEART.. ask YOUR HEART.. come over to this basket so that I can really love YOU.. why don't YOU tell YOUR HEART.. what is that IN your Hands.. it is Empty.. I see a empty glass jar.. So are YOU asking MY HEART to go over to that Empty Glass Jar.. What are you going to do with MY HEART if He goes Over.. WILL YOU LOVE MY HEART the way I love YOU.. WILL you speak to MY HEART and TELL MY HEART how much YOU love HIM.. Misses HIM.. then Why did YOU bring that Empty glass jar for.. IS it to put YOUR HEART inside and give it to someone else who can't Love YOU.. why waste the TIME if I am the One you really really want and truly need.. I am a Friend but also a Great Lover too.. I can Love you where YOU can skip around a race track.. I can love YOU where your Confidence boost like a Rocket going to the sky. I can love YOU the way a real Man can Love YOU.. I can love YOU where you will say I don't need any love from someone else.. WHY DID YOU bring that Empty Glass Jar.. IF you can Love MY HEART and don't break MY HEART.. I can Put my Heart inside that GLASS JAR and YOU can walk away.. BUT IF you can't.. Please.. MY HEART can Love Your Heart.. can warm UP your Heart.. kiss YOUR HEART and tell YOUR HEART how much I love YOU.. I am sure Your Heart can beat again.. the beating that brings JOY and Music to YOUR HEART.. I want to love YOU.. WILL you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. so Please.. I am holding this Basket.. Let my heart be the One to love Your Heart.. COME so that MY HEART will not feel lonely anymore but have someone to Love.. I want to Love.. I really really want to Love.. LET ME LOVE YOU because I am ready to give you this Love of MINE to your Heart.. I look at MY Heart.. I guess.. SHE.. YOU are not ready yet.. I look at you.. I see you walking few steps back.. and I am wondering.. am I just moving too fast.. Am I suppose to walk few steps closer.. what Am I suppose to do.. Are you letting me know that It is NO.. or is it Yes.. because I want Your Answer to be a YES.. NOT to break my Heart by rejecting or pushing or going the Other way.. Please Don't go.. Please don't leave Now.. I will be waiting for YOU if I am scaring YOU.. I am not trying to scare you.. but just offering that I can love YOU.. will you Not step Back.. Please.. come closer.. so that I can see YOU.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able to speak to YOU.. if the Picture can speak back and tell me what is in your Heart.. what is IN your thoughts.. for a long time.. I wanted to hear what YOU have to say.. as I would look at your Picture.. I see the Glass Jar.. it is an empty Glass jar.. and I would be looking at this Window but has a Glass wall.. I am wondering about the Door.. I have pass by the Open door.. which I came to this second Line and I see the Empty Glass Jar.. I know that it is YOU who must left it behind.. even with this Picture TOO.. Where is the Door because I only saw the first Door opened.. How can I enter.. there is this Big Window.. and inside is the Glass Wall.. I am looking around.. does the Glass wall opens and slides.. I am not sure.. How am I suppose to get Inside.. I told YOU.. I came here only for One thing.. It is Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I want to Hold Your Heart.. I am asking if YOU can tell me How am I suppose to go inside.. my finger touches the Glass wall.. I know that If I step closer.. I see the third Line which is very close to the second line.. I know I cross the first line which is behind me.. Please tell Me.. did YOU leave a key behind.. I am holding this Glass Jar.. and I know that If the Glass Jar is empty.. it is telling me that I am suppose to put something inside and I know that YOUR HEART can fit in.. I know that I can put Your Heart inside this Glass jar..
MAH MAH.. I am sitting on the Ground.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as I am looking.. MAH MAH.. where are YOU.. I need to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I can feel the wind blowing against my face.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU some day.. I want to see YOU soon.. How about today.. my both hands holding the side of the Paper.. looking at Your face.. MAH MAH.. when Can I see you.. I want to meet YOU.. how about today.. and the rain starts to fall.. One drop falls from the skies.. and the rain becomes multiple rains and showers down lightly.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. When can I see YOU.. how about today.. If I come to see you today.. would you let me see your Beautiful face.. and I can see the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture of YOU getting wet.. getting hit by the rain as it suddenly falls harder.. and I would open my mouth and say Loud.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me see your face.. if I come to you.. how about tonight.. would you let me see you.. and I can see the Art sketch paper ripping before my eyes.. and I would start to cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. My father stands behind me.. watching me crying.. holding the ripped half papers in my hands.. putting it against my chest.. and My father holds me from behind.. pulls me Out of the ground.. as He brings me back into the home.. and I am standing next to YOU.. Looking at the bed of Flowers.. the place where My father is buried and laid in rest.. and I do remember I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I have never met you before.. But seems like I knew YOU.. and I turned to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not sure why YOU are here.. YOU do not belong here.. Why did you bring me to the Garden.. YOU belong in the Palace.. where YOU are suppose be.. Not to stand here next with me.. MY father was a servant.. He was the lowest of the lows.. and coming here is Not even a good idea.. I am a Son of a Low Born Slave.. I don't know why YOU are here.. I think it is good for YOU to go.. even though I love YOU.. I know that It is Not meant to Be.. because YOU belong to be Loved by the Prince.. and YOU are wondering.. why am I acting this Way.. why am I pushing YOU away.. It is because I don't belong with YOU.. I know this for a Fact.. but I know that I never stopped loved YOU.. ever since I saw the Art sketch paper.. My Father brought to me.. of course I had no idea.. even my Father too had no idea because YOU are a Princess.. so he just wanted to show me who he served and worked for the King.. and thought None of It.. MAH MAH.. I know that this is wrong.. what YOU are doing is wrong.. and I know that what I am doing is wrong.. but even though I am so wrong.. I just can't get YOU off my chest.. I just can't get you off my mind.. It is killing me because YOU live in my Heart.. live in my mind.. I tried so many times to erase YOU.. but as much as I tried too.. YOU just don't go away.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I know that coming here was a Bad Idea.. I told you many times that I have left this Garden and I don't know why you keep on bringing me to this Place.. I want to leave this Garden to start a new life.. a new chapter in my life but YOU keep on bringing me to this Garden.. How about going to the Palace.. so much More to see.. so much to do there but here.. there is nothing to see any more.. I just want to bury the old.. the memories.. to be gone and away.. as I would be looking at YOU.. there are three of my close friends.. who are guards comes.. and they stopped by me.. and I would turn around to see the three guards.. and I would look behind them.. I look and see.. More Guards are coming.. and they are wearing different helmet colors.. and I would say.. Protect the Princess.. Protect MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. please stay here and the three guards turns around.. and More guards are coming.. and they come into the garden.. I would pull out the sword and the three Guards with me.. they all pull out the swords.. and I would yell.. Charge.. Protect the Princess.. Protect CONG JU MAH MAH.. and I would run Up.. and two guards on the Other side.. they pull out the swords and they would run towards me.. I would swing my Sword UP and Down and jump Up and swing side ways.. and hitting the blades together.. as I land on the ground.. Charge.. Protect CONG JU NIM.. and the three of my friends they would run.. I see more Guards coming.. I hear branches shaking and I look up.. I see more guards.. standing at the Branches.. Arrows are shooting at me.. the three of my friends are behind me.. and I would swing my sword and cut the arrows into half.. and I turn to One friend.. Protect the Princess.. go and protect MAH MAH.. I will fight.. and One of the friends turns and runs back where YOU at.. and I look.. I see More Guards coming.. from the field into the Garden.. and I would run toward.. and the two friends would follow me.. the two friends fight off the two guards and they die.. I turn.. the two friends looks at me.. and we would run out of the Garden.. the guards up on the tree branches looks down.. arrow points and YOU turn.. the Guards on the tree branches knows YOU.. MAH MAH.. it is the Princess.. BOW your Knees and they climb down the tree.. and I am out in the field.. my sword is swing.. and blades hit each other.. I am swinging the sword right left.. up down.. side to side and jumps up swing my sword.. and it strikes one guard down.. and I turn around.. the two friends are behind me.. More guards fell on the ground by the edge of the swords.. I see more running in the field.. pulling out swords.. and I would run up and I would swing my sword.. left right.. right left and I would kick.. one of the guard on the Other side swings back his sword and the blades hit each other.. I would go back and I kick and swing the sword harder.. the guard drops the sword on the ground.. YOU run out of the Garden.. and more guards are coming.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH and the Guards all put the swords down and bows the knee.. and I am thinking.. are they not enemies.. and the two friends puts the swords on the ground and Bow to KNEE.. and I put my sword down.. BOW to Knee.. One of the Guards.. PEH HA is calling YOU to come back.. we are here to get YOU back to the Palace.. the King.. PEH HA is looking for YOU.. and I am looking on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. we will also go with YOU.. to bring YOU back to PEH HA.. and I hear your voice and I would get UP.. and I look.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. did you not hear the order.. your Father.. the King.. PEH HA is calling for YOU.. WHY are you not going.. PEH HA is asking YOU to go to HIM.. I told you that YOU do not belong here.. I will remain here if YOU go.. I just can't see you here because there is NO future here for YOU.. YOU Must go back to the Palace.. if YOU go.. I will stay here.. because it is better for me to stay here.. I belong here to the Garden.. but YOU don't belong here.. YOU before to be with the Prince.. going to the palace has much better future for YOU.. so Please.. why don't you listen to the voice of your Father.. I just showed YOU where my Father is buried.. in the garden.. I did not listen to his voice.. and look at the result of what happened to HIM because of me.. I don't want you to face what I had to go through.. YOU know that NO matter where you at.. I will always love YOU.. and I believe that I will see you again.. I believe that If I love YOU.. if YOU love me.. something will happen later on a better days that comes.. but right Now.. YOU must leave the Garden.. Please MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. going back the the Palace.. YOU be much happier there.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see you turning away and YOU are walking back into the Garden and I look.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. LOOK.. you have the special Body Guards.. they have come just to take you back Home.. I don't think they will leave until YOU go with them.. I see you walk into the Garden.. Now there is One Garden who gets UP and He pulls out the sword.. and I turn.. I see Him walking up.. I grab the sword.. and He walks up.. We both start to swing our swords.. hitting the blades left to right.. blades hits together and I would walk back and I would swing faster.. as he walks up and I jump up and swings my sword hitting hit blades.. and I use full force to knock the sword out of his hand and Put the sword on his neck.. and strikes him down.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and I turn and I would walk back.. into the garden.. I see you Nowhere.. and I am thinking.. by the tree.. so I would walk UP the hill.. the three friends are walking behind me.. and I see the Moon out.. the Sun has gone down.. and I see YOU standing by the tree.. but YOU are looking at the Soil.. as I would walk closer.. another Bed of flowers.. this is where My Mother is buried.. I stand next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't know why you are doing this.. this is where my Mother is buried.. My Father told me Once.. YOU are so much like her.. I can see why because just looking at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you don't have to do this.. I don't want you to feel so sorry for me because I am doing good Now.. I just wanted to show you the people who gave me birth and raised me are here.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why are you doing this and I see you turn and YOU look at the Moon.. and YOU smiled looking at the Moon and I turn to look at what YOU are seeing.. and I do remember.. when I first told YOU.. when I started to Miss YOU..
MAH MAH.. when I wanted to say I love YOU.. and I just could not say the words.. I would be looking at that Moon.. when words just could not come out right and I was afraid to say what If you don't want to hear me say anything.. I would be turning to that Moon.. and I would say what is in my Heart looking at that Moon.. I remember few years back.. when YOU came to the Garden and YOU would leave.. I even brought you a Flower.. to show YOU what it means when I look at YOU.. I would show YOU the Flower.. How I wanted to give it to YOU.. when YOU would leave.. I would run UP to this Hill top.. I would come here at Night.. I would see the Same Moon we are looking at this very Night.. when YOU were here.. I just could not say any words to YOU.. but only wanted to give you this One Flower.. I would be upset because My Heart wanted to say something more.. I would wonder.. why couldn't I tell YOU when you were hear.. but Now you have left the Garden.. I am standing here alone.. I look up to the Moon.. I am able to speak to that Moon about YOU.. I would open my mouth and speak.. sharing How my Heart felt about you to that Moon.. Now.. We are standing here at the same Hill top.. looking at the MOON I spoke of YOU.. and if YOU want to hear me say something to the MOON about YOU.. Please come closer and open your ears and open your Heart.. because it comes from MY Heart loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears.. I would come to my Father's grave.. I remember when I would be sad.. when I be hurt.. He would be next to me.. I would be crying as he would tell me all things be okay in the end.. Now MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that YOU may not remember my Father.. He was close to you Once.. and yes.. he was your servant.. the King.. PEH HA would put my father in charge to look after YOU.. I am not sure if YOU ever remember my Father.. of course something happened that my father went into the prison.. and he was sentence to death.. I saw HIM in the prison bars.. a carriage with bars.. and he told me.. never to Love YOU.. Never to love the Princess.. and I saw the carriage with bars leave off.. that was the last thing.. I think YOU were young back then.. because I was Young too when he died.. MAH MAH.. do you remember the Man who was your servant.. and I see YOU turn your head to look at me.. I see your head moving Up and down.. means YOU do remember my Father.. I think he told me YOU were so bright.. very bold and courageous.. Loves to shoot bows and arrows.. told me that YOU love riding Horses and loves to Hunt wild games.. has never seen any one like YOU before.. that My father believes if YOU were a Prince.. YOU be a Mighty warrior Prince is what he told me.. but YOU are a Princess instead.. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.. why would I love a Mighty Warrior Princess.. my father told me before He was going to prison.. Never Love the Princess.. Because something Horrible can happen to me in the end.. and Now.. I have brought YOU to the Man.. the one who use to serve YOU as a servant.. this is my Father's Grave.. this is the bed of Flowers I was talking to YOU about for a long time.. and now you were wondering how come I am telling YOU this HUH.. MAH MAH.. I know its be long years since then.. and many years has passed by.. there was No chance where I was able to tell YOU.. everything happened so fast.. I know that I should of never met YOU.. then I am sure I would never fall in love.. but what good is all that talk about the past when I am here in the present with YOU.. I told YOU that I am Not afraid to Die.. if I die because of loving YOU is a sin.. then Please.. Kill me for my Sin.. but I did not mean to love YOU this Long.. I did not mean to love YOU.. it just happened out of nowhere.. I remember it was the day my Father came from work.. serving YOU.. and He brought a Picture.. he brought the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. he told me when he came Home late into the night.. I was Not sleeping.. and showed me the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My father was smiling when He gave me the Picture.. the sketch paper.. telling me an Artist drew this Picture of CONG JU NIM.. I would be asking How YOU.. MAH MAH was like.. I was very curious because my Father who served YOU would always be smiling.. and He was very happy to be there as Your Servant.. of course.. I took the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU into my hands and I looked.. when my eyes first saw this Picture.. I would feel something was wrong with my Heart.. it would burn and kept on burning with me.. I would place my hand on the chest.. I don't know but something is wrong with me.. what is happening to My Heart.. it burns like fire within me.. and my Father would stand there and He looks.. He told me it should not be.. that this is Wrong.. and I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch paper.. My Father looks.. and he grabs the Sketch Paper and snatches off my Hands.. and He turns and walks off.. I remember I started to cry.. crying loud and loud.. asking for the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I want to see the Picture.. I want to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU.. I would be looking for it.. my father would tell me Not to love YOU.. I just can't.. I should Not.. because If the King knows that I do.. even he can die because of Me.. if the words get out.. and someone finds Out.. I can be executed with my Father and he tells me never to Love YOU.. I remember my father was sleeping in his room.. and I came into my father's room.. I see the Art Sketch paper laying next to HIM.. I went over and I grabbed the Art sketch paper.. walking into my room.. I would unfold and find myself looking at the Picture of YOU.. my hand goes across the paper.. and I just wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. can I ever see CONG JU MAH MAH.. would I get the chance to see YOU.. and I would sit by myself.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my Hands.. my arms.. putting the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch Paper to my chest.. I want to see YOU but I want to love YOU.. I saw my Father looking at me.. he stands in the room.. He sees my arms.. the Art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU close to my Chest..
MAH MAH.. Close to my Heart and I turn too look up.. I want to see CONG JU NIM.. CAN I SEE MAH MAH.. Father.. can I please see how CONG JU NIM is like.. Please Father.. and He gets very angry at me and grabs.. snatches it off.. take the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture and tears it into the pieces and tosses it out side.. and He walks off the house.. and I would look out side.. I see the Art sketch paper torn into pieces.. and I would cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would go out and sit.. picking UP the pieces toward.. trying to find each torn pieces of papers.. and the light rain would not help me at all.. as it became soak and wet over the rain fall.. I would try to put the pieces together but the rain and I would sit in the rain crying.. crying for YOU.. wanting to see the Picture of YOU and It torn my heart into pieces.. As I am now with YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. it was such a long ago when I first saw your Picture.. I wanted to glue it back.. some way and some how I wanted the Art sketch Paper.. I started to miss looking at you through the Picture.. asking My Father.. begging HIM to get an Artist to draw another picture.. from the Sketch paper.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. my Father kept on telling me that If I keep on doing this.. I will die sooner.. if the Word breaks Out.. I can be executed and told me to forget you.. and as I am now looking at the bed of Flowers.. I am standing next to you and I would show YOU.. this is my Father's grave.. I wanted to bring YOU to this Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU.. I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see YOU.. it made me the most happiest place.. then.. why did YOU tell me to come.. YOU are the one who got the Horse for me.. YOU are the one who asked me to come and follow YOU.. I only agreed too because YOU asked me.. and Now.. why are you changing your Mind.. if I let YOU go.. YOU should just let me Die here.. I don't want to go if I can't be with YOU.. if I can Not hold unto your wrist.. what is the point if I let it go now.. Let me just die here.. Let me fight these Guards.. if they win.. I will die here.. Bury me next to my Father.. Bury me here.. if I win this fight.. then you can be with me forever.. How about that.. and I see you turn your Head looking at me.. and I would fall on my knees.. kneeling with the five Guards.. I even drop my sword on the floor.. WHY do I have to let go.. I can't let your wrist go.. do YOU not remember How I got here.. ever since YOU came to the garden.. I would also take you to this Tree.. the reason why I have brought you to this tree.. my Mother is buried next to this Tree.. My Mother died giving me birth.. so I never met my Mother.. MAH MAH.. I have never met my mother.. so I have never seen her.. never heard the voice.. but My Father told me that she was very beautiful and was very bold.. had the Heart like a lion and would fight even in battles.. but giving birth to me was hard and gave her last breathe after I came into this world.. I remember my Father told me as He was watching YOU growing UP.. some reason YOU reminded of My Mother.. and told me a lot about her.. I remember when I was young boy.. I would follow my Father.. did not know where he was taking me and would take me to this Tree.. I would ask my Father.. what is this tree all about.. it must have a meaning because.. My Father would come nights.. He would be talking to this Tree.. and crying.. and told Me.. My mother is buried next to this Tree.. a little bed of flowers.. this is where.. and told me that MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is so much like Your Mother and One day.. he tells me that I am going to love YOU.. that is why my father would tell me never get too close to YOU.. I would laugh at those words.. but Now.. I realize that He is truly right.. because my father tells me I am so much like him.. and Now.. I do see myself more like my Father as time goes by.. Now.. I do miss my mother who I never seen before.. but when I look at YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. what my father said is so True.. I love YOU because YOU are so Strong and YOU are so bold.. courageous.. which I never met my Mother before.. I wanted to take you to this Tree.. so that I can introduce YOU to my Mother who is buried by this Bed of flowers.. but.. I did not want to tell YOU who.. but just wanted to show YOU there is someone very special and dear to me.. I believe my mother's spirit is here.. and I just wanted to tell my Mother.. her spirit.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is the One who I love.. I don't know why it has to be you.. if you are asking me.. WHY DO I LOVE YOU.. what am I suppose to say.. How am I suppose to answer if it is just because Y O U.. DO I needs to explain why or How much I love YOU.. isn't just enough to tell you that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. and Now you are wondering why DO I tell you this Now.. I just had to know for sure if YOU are the One who I truly Love.. I wanted to know for sure.. is it really CONG JU NIM.. is it really MAH MAH.. the princess.. and I had to hold it for years.. do you know how many years it had to cross.. how many times I had to ask myself if this is real.. if this is true and had to ask thousand times.. maybe even million times I had to ask myself before I would accept the truth.. and yes.. Like I said to YOU.. I have never felt like this way before.. because I just love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I just had to tell myself.. it can't be.. I would ponder on this for a long time.. my Father would look at me when I was young.. what am I suppose to do with his Son.. knowing that I was going to love YOU.. he told me.. I don't want me to love YOU.. but He knows that I was going to love you anyways.. my Father when he was alive.. looked at me.. told me never to get close to YOU.. it is going to hurt me more when I do.. it is going to tear my heart into pieces if I do.. Now.. Look at me.. I can't help but just fall in love with YOU..
MAH MAH.. I am holding unto your wrist.. I just can't let go.. but I see that YOU want me to let it go.. if I do let Go.. would you let me hold unto your wrist again and next time I do.. that you.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not going to let It go.. Please don't put my hand away.. because I won't let it go any more.. as I would look at you.. I open my hand and I release your wrist.. My Chest pains.. it comes and hits me Hard and I can feel this Pain growing stronger.. I just can't.. I see you walking forward.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. Will you please come back.. I am going to wait for YOU.. you know where to find me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please don't Go.. WHY do you have to go.. if you love me.. if YOU really really Love me.. would you not stay here with Me.. and as I would watch YOU keep walking.. I see the Five Guards getting UP.. and I see them also walking and they would follow You.. and I am here by the Tree.. my Heart.. and I would Open my Mouth Wide yelling.. WHY do you have to Go.. why do I have to let Your wrist Go.. my hand hits My chest.. I can't let YOU go.. and I get UP.. and I look.. my tears just falling from my eyes.. I grab the sword on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do YOU have to go and One of the Guard looks back.. and He has a sword.. and I grab the sword and I would start to run forward.. the Other Guards would turn too look back.. running and holding the sword.. the One Guard.. we both swings the swords at each other.. and the Blades hits and Hits together.. I see you turn around and YOU look.. I would jump UP.. yelling and screaming.. swinging the sword.. and the Guard swings back and I am jumping swinging the sword at the Guard.. another Guard runs up and Plunges the Sword into me.. and He pulls the sword Out and I drop the Sword.. and I am yelling.. I see you telling to Stop.. the five Guards stops and pulls back.. and I can feel.. I am dying inside.. I can feel the chills in my body as I would kneel.. and I know that I am going to die soon.. my tears.. my blood on the side.. my hand holding the side.. I see you running.. and as I am feeling like.. I am just like my father.. I am also losing YOU.. But I love YOU.. I love you so much.. I can feel this Ache MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to die like this without fully able to love YOU.. I want to love YOU and love you well.. but I think that I just can't.. Look at me and I would lay on the ground.. Bury me next to my Father.. or you can bury me next to my mother.. I am dying because I love YOU so much.. it hurts.. and I would cough blood.. and it is so hard to move.. and I see you next too me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if I hold unto your wrist.. I asked you.. if you come back.. can I hold to your wrist and this time.. Please don't go.. I am not going to let the wrist go.. as I would lay my head on your lap.. I can feel the wind blowing.. I see the grey clouds gathering.. and I see the sky darkens and I know it is about to rain.. I know this time.. when it rains.. I can go gone with the Wind.. I would ask YOU.. MAH MAH.. Send my ashes away.. to the waters that I love.. put my ashes into the waters where I can go as far.. I will be with YOU.. because I will still love you then.. I will love YOU forever.. and as I would close my eyes.. my eyes open.. And I am AT THE Outer Court.. Looking at YOU and the King.. and I cry Out.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I get your attention.. DO you remember the Tree incident.. and I see the King.. PEH HA and he sits on the Chair.. and YOU are next to Him.. Do you remember what happened at the Tree.. WHY did you save me.. I was close to death.. I was very close to dying.. why did YOU save me back there.. I asked of YOU to release me.. and I look at YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. if you just let me Go.. I would not be here.. Please tell the King.. PEH HA what happened.. and I see the King turns too look at YOU.. and you just stoop there speechless.. PEH HA.. CONG JU NIM is the one who saved me.. I closed my both eyes and sword plunged into the side.. and I knew that I was going to die that day.. but MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM saved my Life.. what does this Means.. and the King LOOKS at me.. and He turns too look at You.. if the ROYAL Family saves a Life.. there is a rule.. that I become a slave in that family.. and the King looks at me.. Am I not to be a Slave for the Princess.. I am Now a Servant for the CONG JU NIM.. and I would look at the ground.. and the King turns too look at YOU.. He gets UP and He leaves the chair.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I am your Slave Now.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Did YOU not tell me that YOU were never going to come Back.. YOU told me to Leave.. that YOU wish not to see me Any More.. YOU told me that YOU were never going to come back to see Me.. and those words left Bruises in My Heart.. YOU told me when I stood by this Tree.. You were with the Prince.. and YOU looked at my eyes.. telling me to Leave and that YOU wish that YOU would not see me again.. It really torn My Heart.. it really Hurt me deep inside when YOU told me.. YOU never loved Me and that YOU wished Never to see me again.. and TOLD me to Leave.. I just could Not help it.. as I would turn the Other way.. I looked down on the Hill TOP.. started to walk down this Hill.. My Heart just could not take it any more.. as I was walking down.. I felt heavy in My Chest.. My tears just could Not help but come down very fast and very Hard.. I just could Not believe the Words I had to hear.. WHY did YOU say in a Harsh Way.. that My Heart had to fall off.. I remember as I sat in the Room.. I just kept on crying.. sitting on the Bed.. I just could Not stop.. I felt so Bad.. Unfolding.. LOOKING at the sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I begin to think.. why was I still having this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. after hearing Your Words.. that YOU wanted me to Leave and Never wanted to see me again.. and How I had to linger on those words.. I was still holding unto the Sketch Paper.. I just could Not throw it away even though I knew that YOU never Loved me.. My hand pressing onto my Chest.. I would Unfold the sketch Paper.. My eyes would close.. Hand presses down on my chest.. feeling my Heart.. weeping inside and crying with Me.. I would say.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY.. WHY don't you love me the way I love YOU.. is it because I am a Lowly Person.. just a servant.. is it because I don't fit Your Standards to be Your Man.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. I really needed to know why couldn't YOU love Me.. is there a reason WHY you chose to Not.. DID I do something wrong.. Have I said something that Made YOU change Your Mind or YOU never felt anything for Me in Your Heart.. Then How about My Heart.. WHY can't you accept the fact that I love YOU.. I am Not expecting anything back.. but just to know How much I love YOU and that I just can't stop loving YOU.. WHY tell me YOU do not want to see me anything.. Is it really that WHAT you want.. is that the real reason WHY.. as I would be looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. and Now I grabbed Your Wrist.. MAH MAH.. do you not remember what YOU said to Me.. it was right here.. I was standing by this Tree.. YOU told me Never to come Back.. Never to come see YOU.. and TO Leave.. WHY can't you look me in the eyes and tell me why did you say those words to Me.. I still remember.. It hurts so bad when I think about that TIME you told me.. WHY would you say that to me and WHY would you bring me back to this Same spot where I was Hurt the Most.. And Now.. why can't YOU face me.. why are you looking at the other way.. Please.. CONG JU NIM.. Please.. turn Your Head and please look at me in the eyes.. I need the answers why.. I am still lingered of that thought because I cried all Night thinking of YOU.. is it because I am Not the prince.. Am I suppose to be the Prince.. is that WHAT YOU want.. a Prince.. but I am Not the prince.. I am now a Palace Guard.. but was a Lowly servant when YOU told me those words.. Please.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. MAH MAH tell me why.. I am trying to get YOU to look at me.. It seems like YOU did not want to answer.. I guess then I am Not going to ask YOU about it anymore.. But.. this Place.. gives me such a bad taste of memories.. I felt my Happiest but also the Worst in my Life when I was told.. YOU never loved Me.. and to Go.. as YOU can see.. I am still hurt of the Past.. don't know why because much Time has passed by.. maybe because I never let YOU go.. I always loved YOU here.. always wanted you to be Near.. always I would turn to look at the Big Palace.. asking if I can see YOU.. but.. No matter how many calling Out your name.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I would say here.. I would Not here YOU respond Back.. it would be Me always standing.. yelling Out.. calling Out to YOU to come.. that I would be missing YOU.. and just wish that YOU would stop by to at least to say HELLO.. but many times I stand here calling Out.. I would wait with silent.. it is because I love YOU.. and Have never left that thought.. But I do remember after I left this Behind.. I did not know where to Go.. I just wanted to Die.. WHY do I have to live if there is NO way for me to Love YOU.. So I tried to end my Life.. I drank something with Poison.. and ALL I remember I fell on the Floor.. on the ground.. but for some reason.. a MAN found me laying on the street.. on the ground.. and some way.. some how.. He took me In.. older MAN and
Would you please tell me How am I suppose to get to Your Heart.. I can look through the Glass WALL.. and I do See Your Heart.. I want that Heart.. as I am holding.. my arms are wrapped around this glass jar.. it is an Empty Glass jar.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around it.. I can hear something.. or is it someone.. I hear foot steps and I know that the foot steps is coming from Behind me.. so I turn around to look.. But.. I don't see anyone.. so I turn to look the Other way.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around.. I see someone.. I see YOU.. YOU are inside the ROOM.. because I looked at this Picture.. YOU are wearing the same outfit and I just can't believe.. as I am looking.. I see YOU stop.. and YOU are standing by the Heart.. YOU are standing next to Your Heart.. I see YOU smile.. I see that Beautiful Smile.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and why do you have so smile like that.. how am I suppose to get close to YOU.. and I am looking down.. I am looking at Your Heart.. that is the answer.. the answer is right where my eyes are looking.. I want Your Heart.. that is the only way I can take a step closer to YOU.. But How do I get inside.. I want to get into that room.. but this Big Window.. this Glass wall.. it is stopping me to go further.. I want to walk.. I want to make few steps so that I can go closer to Your Heart.. I want your Heart.. Please tell me.. How do I get to Your Heart.. if YOU are not going to tell me.. what am I suppose to do.. if the only thing I see is this Line.. I see the third Line.. but if I take the step to the third line.. would you let me In.. would you let me get close to Your Heart.. because I want Your Heart.. YOU have given me this Glass jar.. even leaving this Picture.. WHY would you leave it out here where I am able to get the access to It.. that means YOU know that I am coming.. YOU knew that someone would stop by.. and yes.. I have come and saw the door open.. Now what I want is Your Heart.. will you please tell me that I can have Your Heart.. I am able to hold.. grab hold unto that Heart.. I want want it.. and Yes.. I need that Heart.. but.. if the second line is the only Line I can come.. and cannot pass.. I just do not want to stop right here.. so I would take the steps and goes to the third line.. do YOU see that I have come closer.. but.. I know that I am stuck.. I don't want to be stuck like this.. Please tell me what am I suppose to do next.. are YOU telling me that it is my part to figure it out.. as I would close both of my eyes.. I am holding.. my arms holding around this Glass jar.. the empty Glass jar.. I want my arms to hold like this to YOUR HEART.. I want to hold Your Heart so that YOU know that I am gentle and that YOU can feel the other side of me.. more of the softer side which I love.. I would open both eyes and I am out at Night.. as I am standing ALL alone.. I am thinking back.. before I came to this House.. before I saw the Door has opened.. Now I am standing and it is at Night.. as I am looking UP to the sky.. I am looking at the Moon.. I have the Empty Glass Jar.. my arms still holding around It.. as I am looking at the Moon.. I would ask.. WHY do I have to be the One who is standing here.. I am asking for Your Heart.. I have the empty Glass Jar.. what am I suppose to DO if I can't get any closer.. I saw Your Heart.. tell me what am I suppose to do.. I want Your Heart but it seems like YOU don't want to give it away.. my hands grab on the side of the Glass Jar.. the empty Glass Jar and my arms lifted UP high.. I want Your Heart.. if YOU are listening to Me.. I am asking.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU.. that is why I am asking.. as I begin to look across the sky.. I start to see stars too.. it is shining and sparkles.. does it means YOU are answering through the Stars.. I am not sure because I want to know.. I need to Know.. from the back pocket.. I would pull out.. I do remember I wrote YOU a love Letter last night.. I did express my Heart as it was written.. the way my Heart feels about YOU.. and I would put the Glass Jar on the floor.. and I would open the Love Letter.. maybe this is the answer.. am I suppose to put the Love Letter inside this Glass jar.. am I suppose to give this to YOU.. would YOU please read it.. would you let me know if I tell YOU how much I love YOU.. so I put the Love Letter inside the Empty Glass Jar.. but Now.. there is the Letter inside.. as I would lift the Glass Jar.. my arms wraps around It.. my both eyes would close and I would Open the two eyes.. I am standing on the third Line.. and I would look through the Glass Wall with the Big Window around it.. and I would lift up the Glass Jar.. and I see you looking through the Glass wall and YOU see something inside.. I see YOU holding Your Heart.. Your arms wrapped around Your Heart.. Am I suppose to make a trade with YOU.. I need to Put your Heart inside this Glass Jar.. can YOUR HEART read.. I know that YOU can read.. I see you walking toward.. and I see YOU holding.. your arms around that Heart.. and I would smile.. and YOU stop by the Glass wall.. and I can see YOU closer.. I see your Heart closer.. and I know that only way YOU would open the Glass wall.. I think you are telling me.. So my hand grabs the Love Letter and I would pull it Out.. Putting the Glass Jar on the ground and I would unfold the Letter.. and I am looking at Your Heart.. and I look at YOU.. and I know that YOU want to hear what I needs to say to YOU.. AS I would Open my Mouth.. last night I could Not sleep.. I was struggling so much trying to get some rest.. I don't know why but I was toss and turning around.. I would close my eyes.. my eyes would open.. both eyes looking up at the ceiling.. I am wondering.. I am so tired.. but why couldn't I fall asleep.. there is my Pillow.. I would grab and hold unto the pillow.. thinking that it be YOU.. and try to fall asleep.. my Heart was telling me.. there is something that I must say.. I had to tell YOU something or I will not sleep.. I remember walking out.. Looking at the Moon.. and just thinking about YOU.. just missing YOU.. I would think of you day and night.. I would say.. why do you have to be so far from Me.. why can't you ever be near me.. the pain of missing YOU.. the agony of missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU close.. wanting your Heart for so long.. I want Your Heart.. after I would stand out the night.. Looking at the Moon.. looking at the stars in the sky.. after thinking of YOU.. I went back into my room.. and I would sit on the desk.. pulled out the pieces of paper with the Pen in my hand.. and I would look down.. and I wanted to say.. I know that YOU may not know me well.. and I may not know you well.. but I know that YOU can know me well.. because I keep on thinking of YOU.. if YOU are asking me.. if I don't know you well.. why would I love YOU.. How can I love YOU if I don't know you well.. it is because I do tell YOU like I know YOU.. do I have to know you well to love YOU.. I know that I still can love YOU even when YOU are so far away.. I don't think being so far or not knowing well has answers.. it is the One who Loves YOU.. when I look at YOU.. looking at your picture is enough.. but keep thinking of Us.. keep thinking of YOU and me.. and thinking of just loving YOU.. it just happens to be when I am over thinking about Us.. I want us to Happen.. I want YOU to know that Love has no barriers.. but it is the One who can truly Love that breaks down the walls.. ALL you do is wait.. all you do is knows that I love YOU.. it has no barriers or languages.. just because it is YOU.. I just want to love of being WHO you are and that is the only thing I can tell YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Let me ask you something.. why can't I just love YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. will you allow me and give me the permission to keep on going.. to continue just to love YOU.. is it my fault.. is it my heart's fault who first started to love YOU.. I just don't want you to push me away.. Please don't push me away.. I know that YOU have a Heart.. a Heart just like mine.. I know that YOUR HEART is so beautiful.. that is why I want and need Your Heart.. I be dying to tell YOU.. only YOU needs to be open to receive how much I love YOU.. I am holding the Shot glass into my hand.. as My other Hand holds the Bottle.. Bottle of SOJU and I am pouring into the Shot Glass.. Only words I would say to YOU.. I miss YOU.. I don't know why but this very Night.. I am missing YOU.. wishing that YOU are here with me.. I just want to hold YOU in my arms.. Hold YOU close.. Hold you tight.. But No matter how many times I call for YOU.. calling YOUR name.. it seems like YOU Never answer.. Can you Hear Me.. Can you hear my voice calling out to YOU.. calling out your Name.. I put the SOJU bottle down on the Floor.. my other hand holding the Shot Glass.. both eyes closes.. I open my mouth.. I would slam the Shot Glass.. the SOJU hits me.. as I would sit.. I put the Shot Glass on the ground.. Next to the Bottle of SOJU.. as I would open both eyes.. I look down at the Bottle of SOJU.. it is Now Empty.. I just finished taking many shots..
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