Oink Oink.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I was trying to sleep.. this Giant Teddy Bear was sitting on top of my Bed.. this Giant Teddy Bear kept on waking me UP.. telling me She misses YOU.. that She wants to know where YOU at.. and Calls YOU MOMMA.. I am wondering.. WHO is MOMMA.. is it MAMA.. or I am not sure and I would turn my Head to look.. I tell this Giant Teddy Bear.. I need my sleep.. I need some rest tonight.. I just could not sleep the Other night.. and I would look at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I saw Your picture.. when I saw YOUR picture.. I just could not wake my eyes off of YOU.. and I would be having the Picture underneath the Pillow and I pulled it off.. holding in my hand is Your Picture and I showed this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. do you see.. take a good look.. like a Flower.. the Most beautiful Flower.. do YOU see the One whom I love.. take a LOOK for me.. and the Giant Teddy bear looks at your Picture.. and starts to say.. YOU are her MOMMA.. and starts to cry asking me to take her to YOU.. I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close.. I want it.. really really want it.. but what am I suppose to do now.. I see the Square Box on top of a stand.. I brought the Giant Teddy Bear with me.. I have your picture.. which I am looking at it right Now.. I have come this very far.. but.. I need this Heart.. my finger points and touches the glass.. it does not matter any more because Now I know what I need.. what I want is this.. the Big Heart.. I don't want to steal it.. I just can't carry it off.. but I want this Heart.. this Big Heart.. my finger taps and taps the Glass of the square Box.. this Giant Teddy Bear has lead me here.. why.. if I can't take this Big Heart with me.. if this Square Box is attached to the Stand.. I tried to pull the Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU..
I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.. but I did come here so that I can remove my Heart.. I have made an appointment and have given a date for the Heart surgery.. will you be the doctor who can do the Heart surgery for Me.. YOU can at least see my Heart.. can touch my Heart and pull away this Heart from me.. I am much more happier if it is YOU.. because I know that I can give YOU MY Heart.. I know you are telling me that I can die if I get this surgery.. but I need this surgery.. I do not want this Heart any more.. it is killing me Now so Please.. get rid of this Heart which is killing me.. I rather die with YOU holding my Heart then to live without you when I keep on loving YOU.. why can't you be the doctor for me..
YOU know that I have been loving you just too long.. see the Heart who loves YOU.. and then I can finally let go.. because I can't live when YOU are gone and out of my life.. so please let me speak to the one who is in charge of this surgery.. because I can't live without you.. LOOK how you have made me cry.. as the two lines of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. He showed me a Picture.. I have never seen such a Great big Smile from his Face.. always He was sad and depressed.. when he showed me the Picture.. I looked.. WHY does it has to be YOU.. from ALL of the women in this World.. WHY does he show me the Same Picture.. I was Lost.. I was confused.. I was shocked in my heart.. I have never seen this Friend of Mine being so Happy.. but.. I begin to feel so Sad.. He looks at me and asked me WHY am I not celebrating with HIM.. I told HIM.. I was.. but.. How could I.. I have always loved YOU.. but Never thought YOU be with another man.. Of course.. He ordered some Flowers and Told me that the Woman is going to pick it UP tomorrow.. and He paid for the flowers and He left.. of course.. I am so happy for HIM.. HE is very smart and truly successful.. has a Good job and makes good Money.. I work at this Flower Shop.. I can I think about loving YOU.. if I don't have Anything to Give YOU.. as I am making the Flowers for the Friend.. setting off Different flowers and putting into this Box.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. HE told Me all the Good things about YOU.. How he wanted to marry YOU.. He wanted to raise a Good family.. He wanted to give YOU everything He had.. wanted to take YOU to nice places to eat and traveling was a part of the Plan.. I started to Look at the picture of YOU.. I wanted to cry.. I wanted to cry and Just needed to pour Out this Angry inside of me unable to Love YOU.. As I would cut the petals off.. One by One flower goes into the Box and I put the Lid over.. and Just started to wait for YOU.. Loves YOU.. then what happens to Me.. am I not aloud to Love you any more.. what If I starts to Miss YOU.. I am already missing YOU right Now.. but my Heart hurts.. shattered after hearing.. It should be GOOD right.. but why do I feel like It is Not for me.. I have already spent some time in the back yard.. growing more flowers for YOU.. wanted to give you these Flowers that came from the Root.. just to say I love YOU.. why can't YOU see me.. WHY can't you see the Heart of Mine.. why do YOU have to love Another Man.. it hurts to know that I can love YOU too.. but YOU are giving a chance to another man.. but I have come this Far loving YOU.. if you only have two Hearts.. it be nice to able to share the Other Heart with me.. but I know that YOU have one Heart.. as I am looking down.. looking at Your Picture.. the Door Opens and I lift UP to see.. YOU look so Amazing.. YOU look so Lovely.. YOU look so wonderful as YOU are walking into the work shop and You stop to see me.. and I just want to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU look so good tonight.. YOU look so beautiful.. of course.. I know the reason why YOU look so Beautiful.. I see you standing there.. Yes.. are YOU confused.. I know you are not Lost.. because I know now that YOU love someone else.. But.. WHY NOT ME.. Why can't YOU ever love me and see me the way I am.. YOU know that I have already told YOU that I loved YOU.. but it seems Like you don't believe my words.. and I want to give YOU this Box.. the Man who Loves you came yesterday.. and ordered some flowers.. and He wants to tell YOU how much He loves YOU.. But.. How about me.. How about my Love.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you so much that even through this Pain I am going through.. I am able to give you this Box.. which has full of flowers.. another man who loves YOU.. But do YOU KNOW that I have a Heart too.. inside me lives a Heart which I can feel my Heart is breaking.. DO YOU want to come near and Hear my heart breaking.. It is crying for YOU.. crying and asking WHY can't YOU love me.. why can't it ever be me.. If you do not want to answer this Question.. YOU do not have too.. but I am Not a Fool.. because I am a man who knows HOW to love YOU.. I see you take a step closer.. and I lifted up the box with both Hands.. I don't want YOU to take this Box.. Please tell me that YOU want this Box to stay behind.. because YOU don't love HIM.. and YOU love me instead.. I see both of Your Hands hold the Boxes.. and YOU take it from my hands.. But WHAT about Me.. How about MY HEART.. how about the Breaking of my Heart.. do YOU NOT KNOW that I am aching so Much.. unable to be loved BY YOU.. but YOU are choosing to be with Someone else instead.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. WHY are you hurting me.. so.. is this How you treat someone who loves YOU MORE.. is this what happens when a MAN really loves a Woman like me.. then WHY HURT ME.. if YOU never loved me in the first place.. WHY hurt me.. I am hurting so much right now.. Please.. look at the Other way.. and Please go.. it is so hard to look at you at this Point because it causes My Heart to keep on breaking.. I see you turn the Other way.. holding the Box with both Hands.. I see you start to walk.. leaving this Work Shop.. my hand on my Chest.. I can hear my Heart crying.. and I would hit to the ground.. and I sat on the floor.. begin to SOB.. crying Out my Heart.. and just pouring my tears looking at the Floor.. I wanted to be with YOU.. I want you.. I need YOU.. but WHY HURT ME.. why love another Man.. what do I do.. what am I suppose to do and I would SOB.. my hand beating against my Chest.. It hurts me bad.. this Love.. why do I have to love when It hits me the wrong way.. I am looking at the ground.. tears hitting the floor.. but I do not hear the Door.. I am wondering.. are YOU still here.. or did you leave.. So slowly I get UP and I don't see YOU.. But.. I see the Box on the Floor.. the Flowers are all over the Place.. I am wondering.. Am I suppose to feel GOOD or Bad.. I am confused.. I think I am lost.. but.. this is the Box I just gave YOU.. and I see few flowers scattered around the place.. I am thinking.. so WHY did I cry so Loud.. WHY cry with bitterness.. if this Box is YOURS.. why did you leave it behind me.. and where are YOU.. where did YOU go.. my friend just bought these flowers for YOU.. he told me that He loves YOU and He paid for them to me.. so that I can give this to YOU.. YOU are suppose to take the Box of Flowers with YOU.. and I am looking around.. wondering.. did YOU go to the restroom.. as I am standing there.. I would stand here for 15 minutes waiting to see.. I did not see YOU come Back.. I looked down at the counter.. I don't see your Picture.. Much better in person.. YOU look more beautiful.. I am not sure why I would be meeting YOU if YOU are so Beautiful.. but.. I guess it was just me.. I see you taking a seat.. and YOU told me I can sit on that Other side of the Seat.. So I sat down.. But.. My Words.. I can't say a Word to you.. what am I suppose to say to YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful.. that I get stuck.. my mind gets stuck.. my Heart gets stuck.. I want to tell YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I wonder what YOUR response would be when Meeting a person for the First Time.. I would take a Sip of the Cup of Coffee.. and the way YOU dress.. it is your Dress you wore.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. as I sat there.. there was nothing but Silent.. I don't want YOU to feel uncomfortable because there are many words running through my head.. but.. if I say something.. YOU might Not like what YOU would hear.. As I am standing in the Work Shop.. I feel so sad.. just thinking about the first day we Met.. I was unable to say any words to YOU that day because I felt very shy.. YOU were so beautiful.. that my words.. I couldn't think words to say to YOU.. I hear the Door Open behind me.. and I would turn to look back.. I see YOU standing there.. the Door closes.. I am wondering.. WHY do you have to Hurt Me.. if YOU love another man.. Why didn't you tell me this Before.. I won't ask for Your Heart.. or for Your Love.. and WHY did you come.. if YOU do not Love me.. tell me why did YOU lead me On and Now.. do you like the idea of breaking My Heart.. Do you know that it hurts to Love YOU.. it was very hard from the start to Love YOU.. but.. then Why did you come back to this Work shop.. If you know that My Heart is hurting at this Point..
Is it really Fun to Hurt me.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see that YOU could not tell me anything.. How about saying to me that YOU are sorry.. so YOU are sorry.. is that the reason why YOU came to this Work Shop.. when I find Out that YOU have someone to Love.. It felt like my tears.. the tears ran Blood through my eyes.. this pain.. My Heart hurts right Now.. I am Not feeling so well because.. I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then How come.. why would you want to do that.. Does hurting me makes YOU Good because.. to Me.. It is Unfair.. I gave YOU my Heart.. I shared with YOU my Love.. I even gave YOU some of the Time so that I can Love YOU.. YOU know that I really meant what I said.. that I love YOU.. So.. did YOU come to get this Box.. it had Your Flowers inside this Box and yes.. I have collected all of the flowers and placed into this Box.. so.. If you want the Box.. Please.. take it and go.. before YOU take this Box of flowers.. where is the Picture.. I had Your Picture on this Counter top.. and No.. it is not the same Picture of the Other friend gave me.. It is the Picture I took with the camera.. so.. YOU are Not to take that Picture.. it belongs to Me.. YOU should of asked first before YOU took it.. with my permission first because that Picture is Mine.. and Not yours.. tell Me.. why did you come back.. is it the Flowers that my friend has bought for YOU.. here.. First.. give me My Picture.. Oh.. you are wondering what am I going to do with that Picture.. Just because you are with Another man does Not means I won't love YOU.. It does not matter who YOU are with.. DO I CARE.. you can be with Him all you want.. But.. I love YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. yes.. it hurts.. and my Heart was crushed when I found Out.. but.. Loving you has a totally different meaning and Purpose for me.. I can't stop loving YOU because I have already Loved YOU.. YOU know I can always Love YOU right.. No matter where YOU GO or WHO you spend time With.. as Long as I can get my Love across and get TO your Mind and Your Heart.. as Long as YOU know who can Love YOU more.. I will even fight For My Love.. if it means something to me.. and yes.. I will be asking YOU.. give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please.. give me a chance.. so that I can really Love YOU and one day.. YOU will know the true meaning of what it means to receive Love.. SO.. I have the Box.. it has lots of flowers inside.. so please come and take it.. of course.. YOU know that I have a garden in the back.. I can give YOU plenty of flowers.. all the flowers YOU want.. and ALL the flowers you need if it means I love YOU.. so Please.. take this Little BOX.. I have a Large garden.. Plenty of room.. for more room of flowers to grow for YOU.. this Little BOX.. I can give YOU much more Bigger BOX.. full of love in the flowers which will make YOU smile.. come.. and I see YOU pulling Out the Picture and I am wondering.. that is Not the Picture I had on the counter.. what picture is this.. and I would take few steps and I grab the picture.. as I take a Look at this Picture.. it is YOU standing at the Back of the Garden.. with Flowers in the back ground.. but.. YOU are in a beautiful Dress.. the same dress the day I met you for the first time.. I am wondering.. when did you take a Picture of this.. WHY are you so beautiful.. How come you are giving me this Picture for.. what does this means.. WHY are you giving me this to me.. are you telling me that I can still love YOU.. even though you tell me NOT TO LOVE YOU.. I will always love YOU.. I don't care because I loved YOU then.. and still I love you right Now.. it has not changed at ALL.. it is YOU who are changing on me.. YOU told me that YOU loved me.. I heard those words coming Out from your Mouth.. but why this change of Your Heart.. why don't you love me anymore.. do I smell bad.. did I say something wrong.. to offend YOU.. I am not sure what I said before.. but.. I only wanted YOU TO KNOW.. that I wanted to Love YOU.. why are you making things so much Harder for Me.. No matter how hard things are.. or difficult it is.. I am not going to stop loving YOU.. as long as YOU can open Your heart.. I am only asking for a Peek.. a Peek open is enough because I know.. it starts somewhere like that down the road.. but.. I know that I can love YOU.. Love you and Love YOU.. and keep on loving YOU.. tired of this.. I still can love YOU.. as I see you stand there.. I grab the Box.. and I gave it to YOU.. Just remember.. this is a Little.. small Box.. I can give you the back of the Garden if YOU want.. Promise me.. YOU will make a little Room for me.. that even very little.. YOU have save a space for me.. a room in your heart.. I am Not asking much.. but just a Pinch of it.. Open Your Heart.. so that I can tell YOU a lot more than just this.. so much more because I love YOU from the Bottom of My Heart.. only if YOU are able to do that for me.. it is already hard and complicated.. but.. It does Not matter.. because I can Love you where it does Not bother me in any means.. Because I love YOU.. I truly Love YOU.. My Heart feels like It has been broken.. Shattered into Pieces.. As I am looking at Your Picture.. tell me Why does it has to be YOU.. WHY must I shed another Tear.. as I am wiping these tears flowing down the two eyes.. the More I look at Your Picture.. the More I want YOU close to Me.. but why is it that I can't go to YOU.. I want to go to YOU to show YOU.. Look what YOU have done to My Heart.. I feel so Hurt because I just want to be with YOU.. WHY does it has to be YOU.. I am standing at the work shop.. Only my thoughts are on YOU.. I can't get YOU off my Mind.. I just can't get YOU off my Heart.. if I am unable to go to YOU.. can I ask YOU.. Please come to Me.. come to Me so that I can Love YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU just Once.. How about give me few Hours.. If YOU don't fall for me in those Hours.. I won't bother YOU any More.. I guess that Means.. I have to let YOU GO.. so Please.. give me a day with few Hours.. let me show YOU what this Man can do.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to hold YOU and tell YOU.. my Heart so that YOU can listen to Your Heart.. will you let me love YOU.. Please.. give me a TIME.. a Day.. I want to know if I can still Love YOU.. I hurt because I am unable to see YOU.. WHY must I feel this Way.. WHY is it only Me.. that is why I need Your Time.. so that.. maybe if I get the chance to tell YOUR HEART.. you can feel the same way as I DO.. I want to Love YOU.. tell me.. I want to love YOU.. why Not.. tell me please that I can love YOU.. I need to know because I need YOU right Now.. I really need YOU.. so that I can love YOU.. More and More love YOU.. help me so that I can Love you and that.. if YOUR HEART can Open to receive.. this Heart of Mine.. Last Night.. while I was working at this Work Shop.. My Friend came to this Shop.. He wanted to buy some Flowers and Yes.. I work at this Flower Shop.. and told me he has found someone WHO he truly admires.. WHO he truly adores and thinks like he is going to fall.. He tells me He loves someone.. and wanted to give.. and I wanted to know who this Woman is.. and I am walking through the Field.. as I am thinking of YOU.. only thing I can say is that YOU make me smile.. even though I am walking and I would stop.. I am wondering do you think of Me.. Do I ever cross Your Mind.. and I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and I only see the work Shop.. the work Shop where YOU and I use to be.. but I am Not at the Work shop but Out side.. the Open field.. I do see flowers everywhere.. a sign that shows me Your Beauty.. I want to know why are YOU so Beautiful.. WHAT am I doing here.. why am I keep on waiting for YOU even though I know that YOU are long gone.. and I know that we are miles apart.. and I am walking here all alone.. I know that I should Not be here.. because YOU are with some one else.. WHY do you have to be with someone else.. if It is ME who be loving YOU.. I know that I loved YOU first.. the first time I saw YOU.. when we were YOUNG.. as I stop.. and I see the flowers across the field.. and has spread Out.. I just want YOU to come here.. even I was inside the Work Shop.. I did Not see You there.. so I am thinking if I come Out here.. in the field.. may be YOU would come here.. as I would walk down.. and there is the Field.. in the Middle of the field is the Tree.. and I would look.. this Tree.. I remember I would stand there.. waiting for YOU.. telling me that YOU will come to meet me at this Tree.. I would walk through the field and for some reason I stop by this Tree.. This tree has been standing here for a Long time.. when we were once YOUNG.. playing Hide N Go seek.. as I stop next to this tree.. my hand touch the Tree.. I wish that you can come over here.. there was so much laughter.. we did not care about anything else.. but just knowing in my Heart how much I loved YOU.. Do you remember when I first confessed My Heart to YOU.. telling YOU that I needed to say something.. Not to be surprised because I wanted to reveal..
What is IN MY HEART and I told YOU.. I truly loved YOU.. of course.. YOU did not say a word to Me.. we were Both working in the Work Shop.. and of course.. When I did not hear any words Back.. I knew that Maybe YOU did Not feel the same way.. because I would see your Face turning away.. I be asking YOU.. is it wrong for me to tell YOU My Heart.. revealing that I just couldn't hold back anymore.. that I needed to tell YOU.. because If I don't... I may regret for the rest of my Life before it is too Late.. but only thing I saw is that YOU just did not want to tell me anything.. and I saw YOU start to walk off from this Tree.. My Heart.. I felt like what is wrong with my Heart Now.. is this means that YOU are rejecting Me.. telling me to back Off.. are you telling me that YOU have no feelings for Me.. I became so Sad.. because I thought that YOU knew.. I would give YOU signs that I wanted more than just friends and I member YOU telling me Not to cross the Line.. YOU only liked me as friends but not more than That.. as I saw YOU walk off.. I would ask myself.. why can't I be more than just friends.. what is wrong with me.. as I stood by this tree.. I saw YOU going into the work shop.. I was hurt and did Not want to see YOU because I felt like I thought something More could be made.. but when YOU told me that only friends is enough for YOU.. I stood by this Tree.. WHY was my Heart hurting.. it felt so crushed.. I just felt like I could Not breathe that well.. I watched the Sun setting.. as the Sun goes Down.. I knew that it is not going to be the same anymore.. and I would ask myself.. if this was to happen.. I should of kept it to myself.. I should of Not told YOU anything because LOOK at what I am feeling Now.. I was torn.. felt like my Heart tearing from the Inside.. as I stood by the Tree.. I was shaken and Now what.. what am I suppose to do Now.. I have made it known to YOU.. and I have told YOU my Heart.. what I felt.. How am I suppose to face YOU as friends if I am starting to Love YOU.. I can't take the words Back because I already confessed to YOU.. as I would turn back to look at the work Shop.. I see the lights turned Off and it was pitched dark.. means I know that YOU left.. so.. Do you love someone else.. does the man loves YOU more than I do.. I mean if that man can treat YOU well and can make you the most happiest.. gives YOU joy and can share his Love to YOU.. then I know that I should back Off.. but.. YOU don't give me any chance.. why don't you see me.. YOU do not know unless you can give me the chance too.. WHY can't I be close to Your Heart.. why can't YOU give me the chance.. why are YOU giving the Other man the chance but Not Me.. is it really only friendship YOU want.. but what if I don't want to be just friends.. what if I want more.. that is why I have made this known to YOU.. I want more than just friends.. I know that if YOU just give me a chance.. there is a better chance that YOU can love Me.. I don't want YOU to be with someone who will Not love YOU.. what If He does not love YOU.. or cannot tell YOU how much He loves You.. but YOU know that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How much I need YOU.. how much I need you close in my life that I can keep on loving YOU.. Why can't Your Heart be open to Me.. Please tell me.. so that I would know.. I know that I can love you where YOU will know that YOU are being loved.. only if YOU can open Your Heart.. let me IN so I can show YOU.. tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I stood.. looking at the work shop being pitch dark.. I can see the MOON.. as I would star to walk away from the tree.. and I would head to the work Shop.. I do open the door to go inside.. it is dark.. and it is empty inside this room.. only the window I can see.. as I turn to look through the Window.. I am inside the Work Shop.. only thing that I feel is that I am missing YOU now.. even though I don't want to be here.. but for some reason.. it is because I started to Miss YOU lead me back here.. I get closer to the Window.. I see a Picture.. I am wondering.. WHY is this Picture here.. and I get closer and closer to the window.. as My hand grabs the Picture.. I take a LOOK.. and I look.. the Picture belongs to YOU.. it is YOU.. the Work shop is dark.. the room is empty.. but only thing that is here is Your Picture.. I put my hand on the chest.. missing YOU like crazy.. and looking at this Picture does Not help me at ALL.. I know that this Picture was not here.. I remember coming to this Work shop before I went to Outside.. in the back.. the tree and the field.. I came here first.. when it was day time.. I looked at the same window.. but I did not see it.. as I look through the Window.. I see someone.. in a beautiful dress.. and I am thinking.. it is the same dress in this picture of YOU.. and I see the person walking towards the Tree.. and I am thinking.. is it really YOU.. YOU told me that YOU never loved Me.. that YOU told me that YOU only wanted to be friends.. and I remember you telling me.. YOU started to love someone else.. and that he treats you well.. and he tells YOU how much he loves YOU.. when I hear those words as YOU would smile telling me about Him.. My Heart.. it felt like sharp pains into my chest.. I wanted YOU to stop telling me about another man loving You.. but.. I would only listen to Your words and like YOU said.. I had to be Your friend.. I remember that Day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work here anymore.. that YOU are going to leave this work shop.. I felt so hurt.. Now.. YOU are pushing me off.. I thought that YOU wanted to be friends.. I wanted to ask YOU.. maybe I can adjust and try to be Your friend.. losing YOU would be the most painful in my Heart.. as long as YOU are close.. I know I had to accept even though I did not want too.. but I knew to be close to YOU.. to love YOU distance even though I am close.. maybe I can still put up a fight.. maybe when YOU are near even just to be friends.. I can try to convince YOU.. that I be waiting for YOU.. not as friends but as someone who Loves YOU.. just has to be patient by being YOUR FRIEND.. but I would hear you tell me.. That YOU are now leaving work.. why then did YOU say let us be friends.. I guess YOU Just knew that it be the hardest part for me because I loved YOU.. but if I truly love YOU.. even being a friend can be good as long as someday will come.. just hoping that day be sooner and never be later.. and I wanted to try.. and I told YOU.. then let us be friends since YOU wanted it that way.. and when I saw YOU turn away from the tree.. heading back to the work shop.. I would hear.. YOU are leaving work and has decided to move on.. I just can't believe those words.. why you be telling me be friends.. I guess YOU knew that it was Not going to work.. maybe because YOU know that my Heart is stronger.. My feelings and emotions are stronger to love YOU.. because I know that I can love YOU.. as much as YOU can open Your Heart to me.. I know I will tell YOU.. keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but Now.. leaving me.. telling me you wanted to be friends.. rejecting me that YOU don't love me.. that YOU love someone else.. it hurts to feel this UP and Down.. because I want YOU for myself.. So I had to let YOU go.. I watched YOU go into the Work Shop.. the lights were On.. I saw the Lights turn Off.. I just knew this was the end for me.. false Hope and wishes.. as I walked back alone.. I went into the Work Shop.. I stood all alone in the pitch dark room.. I started to cry.. as I would look out the window.. what made it worse is that the rain started to fall.. I saw the rain pouring down.. and I would sit on the ground.. leaning on the wall.. I just could not take this pain any more.. I was loving YOU just too long.. I did not even confessed too you because I did not want to feel this way.. which for some reason it did hit me harder.. I sat in the Work shop.. dark room.. I would raise my head UP too look at the window.. watching the rain shower down waters.. but I kept on hurting.. My Heart kept on feeling this Pain.. this ache of eating me deep inside.. and I would tell myself.. what if I kept it to myself.. what if I did not tell YOU anything at ALL.. then YOU would still be here.. YOU would not leave the work shop.. am I so foolish.. I should not say anything at all.. but to kept to myself.. then I can still love YOU being near.. but it has been so long I was hiding this feeling inside.. I was so scared to tell YOU because of this.. YOU give me memories of many joy and laughter.. I would smile More.. Looking at the mirror looking at my face.. trying to dress better to impress you.. Now.. there is NO ONE here.. and I see just the rain falling down.. can hear the sound of the rain hitting on the window glass.. WHY did I tell YOU.. I should Not say anything to YOU.. then YOU be close to me.. but I begin to want more.. want you closer than just.. wanted to say I love YOU.. and was hoping for YOU to accept my Heart so that I can tell YOU these words.. telling YOU how much I wanted YOU.. needed you and to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my Life with YOU.. holding YOU close in my arms.. as I am standing in the dark room.. of the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I am standing.. looking at your Picture.. looking at Your Dress.. as I would look through the window.. I see someone who is wearing the same dress.. and by the tree.. I see the hand touch the tree.. I am wondering.. Is that YOU.. Is it really YOU there.. I was over there.. for hours waiting for YOU.. I was there when the Sun was UP.. Now the Sun comes down and the MOON comes UP.. I am here.. inside the work Shop.. if it is YOU.. can you please turn around..
I am here.. inside the work shop.. I have Your Picture with me.. if it is YOU who has put the picture.. I have Your picture.. if it is YOU.. Please turn around and YOU will see me looking through the window.. I want to show YOU that I got Your Picture.. did YOU put this picture by the window inside the Work shop.. if YOU have placed it inside and knew that It is I who was Out there by the tree.. Please tell me that it was YOU who placed it here.. I want it to be YOU.. it has been so long since I have seen YOU.. but.. I want to Know.. do YOU know that I never stopped loving YOU.. I am here waiting.. for a long time I came here wondering.. maybe one day.. some day YOU be here too.. I wanted to see YOU but only chance and only hope was this One door.. I would stand by the door.. I would tell myself.. Just don't give UP and I started to knock on this door.. it felt like this door is never going to open.. but looking at Your Picture.. there must be a reason why your Picture came to my door.. and I wanted to find Out Why.. and just knowing YOU are like a Flower.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. so Beautiful.. I just had to keep on trying.. At first.. it did not make any sense of keep on knocking.. it was hard after a while.. because this Door did not open.. I did not hear any foot steps.. No sounds coming from the insides.. I hear nothing.. and I would keep on knocking.. but.. I would see Pictures changing.. and I knew.. YOU know that I want Love.. YOU know that I wanted love from YOU and that I wanted to give all of my Love to say to YOU How much I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I loved YOU and I still love YOU.. I kept on trying as I would be knocking.. after awhile it felt like nothing is going to ever happen.. but I kept on knocking because I started to feel.. that I wanted to start loving YOU.. and it became Love in my Heart and I started to love and enjoy knocking because I started to love YOU more.. why.. I just do love YOU that is why.. I tried to Stop.. but I would go back.. as I open the Door and I go into the Work shop.. it has been years since I left the Work Shop.. ever since I heard the News and How you started for another Man.. I just could not stay in this Work Shop.. but for some reason.. I have come back.. as I enter the Room.. and I stand in silent.. My Heart.. it hurts that Now.. the Work Shop is empty.. nothing left but only Memories of Laughter and tears.. so I would stand there.. By Myself.. I would look around and started to Miss YOU all over again.. I wonder where YOU are Now.. as I would pull out the Picture.. I miss YOU so Much.. tell me where YOU are.. Please tell me that YOU are doing well.. Now.. I would close both of my eyes.. and Only thing I see is the past.. I can feel my tears.. it feels so Heavy in my Heart.. and I just let my tears Go.. I wish that I can be with YOU.. I wish that It would be Me that YOU be loving.. WHY do you love someone else.. Why can't You ever love me.. why can't you just give me the chance.. and I would go back.. a Little Boy.. In the back yard.. I have a flower in my hand.. a Sun Flower.. which only makes me smile.. I remember I heard YOU were coming with Your Family.. this Orphan Boy.. Who do Not know How to Love.. WHO has never Loved before.. as I am out side.. I am just waiting for YOU.. I hear foot steps Coming.. as I am looking on the Ground.. I hear the Foot steps and as I lift UP my Head.. I see YOU.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Can I give YOU this Flower.. would you please take this Flower with YOU.. I have been waiting for YOU.. just to tell YOU.. Like this Flower.. YOU are so Beautiful.. More Beautiful than this Flower.. and If you take this Flower and receive it.. YOU know that is the greatest feeling.. when a gift is given and YOU take it and receive It.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I see YOU smile.. as I am looking at YOU.. I lift UP my arm.. hand grabbing the Sun Flower.. WILL you please take this Flower.. I know that this is Not much.. and I really have Nothing to give.. but I want you to know that It was hours I been at this Back yard of the Garden.. I been looking around.. all over the Place just to find this Sun Flower.. it was hiding.. by the Tree.. it was hiding behind the Big Tree.. when I found this Sun Flower.. My Heart started to race.. it would beat so Fast because I knew that YOU were coming to the Orphanage and I wanted to show YOU something I discovered.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. but I wanted to give and tell YOU something.. When I found this Flower.. hiding behind the Big Tree.. I just could Not believe what I found.. I know that to you it may be Nothing.. But I been in the Back Yard of the Garden for hours.. digging UP the grounds.. but.. When I went around the Big Tree.. I just could not believe what My eyes saw.. this Sun Flower.. I ran.. I went to grab it.. pulled it out of the Ground and I was thinking of YOU all day.. my mind was running.. Heart be racing and just wondering when WILL you come to this Orphanage.. and I begin to think.. WHAT IF you don't show UP.. then what is going to happen to this Sun Flower.. what am I to do when it does not belong to me.. but I wanted to give it to YOU.. it belongs with YOU.. The Owner of the House would call for me and I heard the voice and I ran to Her.. the owner of the House says.. YOU were coming.. and my Heart leaped with great Joy.. that YOU are coming with both Parents.. and that they wanted to spend the time with the Children who lives in the Orphan.. I know that No one loves Me.. so I would think.. then How do I love when I can't receive any Love.. HOW am I to give Love if I never received.. and the Owner of the House looks at me and smiles.. looking at the SUN FLOWER in my hand.. and I felt.. It is for the One who is coming.. I want to give this Sun flower.. I remember walking into the House.. just waiting.. that is all I can do is to wait for YOU.. I went out side because I did not want to wait inside.. as I look down on the Ground.. I would wonder.. when will YOU come.. when will you show UP.. sometimes I hate to wait when it takes a long time.. I heard a foot steps coming forward.. of course I did not think that it was YOU.. as I see the shadow.. and I lift up my head.. I see YOU.. and I am wondering.. am I just imagining.. am I just wishing.. Am I just dreaming.. is this just a vision but.. I knew that it was Not.. I remember you looked at my hand.. Holding a Sun Flower.. YOU were asking.. why was I holding that Flower.. and I remember.. I would lift.. my eyes would look at this Sun Flower and I would say.. It is for YOU.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. because YOU are the Most Beautiful Flower.. I know you will make this Flower look so Good.. and I have been waiting.. waiting for YOU to come so that I can show and tell YOU.. this Flower does Not belong to Me.. but wondering.. if I can give YOU this Flower so you can take this Flower with YOU.. it be better if the Flower goes with YOU.. I saw YOU as I would lift.. Your hand grabs the Sun Flower.. My Heart.. it started to Beat.. Started to Beat faster as I see YOU looking at the SUN FLOWER.. YOU look so Beautiful.. I think the Sun Flower shines because She is with YOU.. and Now.. YOU are even more Beautiful than this Flower.. Only If I can go back.. and can find More Flowers.. and gather all the Flowers.. the Sun Flowers.. would you please take them home with YOU.. even these flowers need love too.. just like me.. I know that I am Not a flower.. but.. Children who lives in the Orphanages feels like No one loves them.. and It hurts that NO ONE LOVES me.. but.. if I see YOU and YOU can love this SUN FLOWER.. It starts with One.. I believe that YOU can love well.. I know that these Sun Flowers will blossom well.. because of Your Love.. I want to see the Sun Flower blossom in full.. I know that YOU can Love.. if YOU are able to show me what it means to Love.. and I see the Sun Flowers become very Pretty and Beautiful.. I will know that YOUR LOVE is real and I would love to receive this Love.. I want to believe in Love.. can I believe in Love.. but I needs to see How Love is done.. will you show me How to Love.. Teach me How to love because I don't know How to Love YOU.. but I do want to learn how to Love.. but.. How.. and I look at YOU.. will you show me.. will you teach me how to Love so that I can love YOU well.. if NO one shows me how to Love.. then how can I love you well.. Please.. show me.. Please tell me.. Please teach me so that it be YOU who can say.. I am good at loving YOU.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding the Sun Flower.. YOU place you nose close to the Sun Flower and I see you smelling this Flower.. Is that How you suppose to Love.. does it start with smell.. then Can I smell you first.. do you smell like this Flower.. as I am waiting for Your Answer.. All I see you is closing both eyes.. and YOU open.. you put your Lip on the Sun Flower and YOU kiss it.. I want to be this Flower.. WHY can't I be the flower instead..
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('오늘도보람' 채널 업로드영상 '보람씨야' 재업)
이 영상은 서브채널에 업로드 됐던 영상입니다!
저의 브이로그 채널인 '오늘도 보람' 채널이 '보람씨야' 채널로 이사합니다💚
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 아니 브이로그의 8할이 먹는영상이네여 ㅋㅋㅋ 할말 다하시지만 결국 다드시는..ㅋㅋㅋ 핵귀요밍 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
자기전까지 계속 올라와랏 ^^ 전부 한번식 다시보기중 ♡♡♡
진짜 자막 이런 거 재밌게 잘 넣으시는 것 같아요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 버려볼게요, 사랑이 배변 장면에서 저뇬이 등등ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 센스가 ㅋㅋㅋ 다시 봐도 재밌네요~~
브이로그 영상이 잔잔한 일상 이라 편안하게 기분좋게 볼수 있네요
언니도 팥이랑 흑임자 이런거 좋아하는 할매 입맛이군요 ,, 할매입맛은 사랑입니다 ,,💖
맛있는거 먹을때가 젤루 행복하죠.^^
폭풍업뎃 오늘하루 행벅 이쁜냥이들옆에이쁜보람언니;);)😘😉
먹방채널~~눈 호강~^~^
먹는건 빠지질 않는 구나!! 너란 녀석~~
뽀람 왜케 잘드심??
살안찌는거 보면 연예인 이군요🤣🤣
브이로그 너무 좋아..
재미있게 볼게요!!!
01:35 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ너무 귀엽잖아요
보람이 누나 항상 건강하세요
버려볼게요ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ다시 봐도 너무 웃겨ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
업로드되면 바로 보겠습니다~!
시청 가야g~!
5:56 이부분은 봐도봐도 웃기넹ㅋㅋㅋ
굴의 계절이 다시 왔어요 언니!!!
다이어트 끝나고 굴 마음껏 드시기를𖤐
메리크리스마스 보내세요🎄
what a great appetite
Mrs Boram ..eat well because we will have to sing a act strong ..i love your Music ! ,😘🐎🐎🇰🇷🇲🇽
what is your .favorite food Mrs Boram ??,😊
잘먹는것도 복이지요 ㅎㅎ
오우💗💝💖
올라오자마자 바로 보기...
다음주 거제 영천에서만나요..ㅎ
요리도 잘하셔 ㅎㅎ
언니 스케줄 10월에도 많으시던데 날씨 추워지는데 몸 관리 잘하세요 ㅎㅎ화이팅♥
7:36 아가가 우유먹는거 같아요 ㅋ 피부가 하얗고 뽀얘서... 현실은 으른 커피🤣
보람이누나가 밥해줘는것 한번이라도 먹고 싶다
😸
보라미 사랑스럽
❤
떡볶이.어묵 진짜 맜있겠다👍❤
먹는 모습이 너무 귀엽고 이뻐요😄
역시 부모님이 전라도분이시네요..
팥칼국수라 하지않고 "팥죽"이라고 하는걸보니..ㅎ
그리고 팥죽엔 설탕이죠..ㅎ
잘보고갑니다..항상 응원합니다..
저 집 고양이가 되고싶다 ㅠㅠ
17:38 다운이 사람처럼 앉아있는거 같음 ㅋㅋ
1:32 알바생 입장에선 상당히 곤란한 상황입니다만?ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
13:00 쪼렙 도로의 하극상…?
이보람 (가야g) 신곡 결국엔 너에게 닿아서 많은관심 부탁드립니다 ❤️ 🙏 💕 🎶
누님 고정한번해주십쇼.
지금계속작업하시나보네요 새 브이로그도 기대됩니다
1등!!
Oink Oink.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I was trying to sleep.. this Giant Teddy Bear was sitting on top of my Bed.. this Giant Teddy Bear kept on waking me UP.. telling me She misses YOU.. that She wants to know where YOU at.. and Calls YOU MOMMA.. I am wondering.. WHO is MOMMA.. is it MAMA.. or I am not sure and I would turn my Head to look.. I tell this Giant Teddy Bear.. I need my sleep.. I need some rest tonight.. I just could not sleep the Other night.. and I would look at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I saw Your picture.. when I saw YOUR picture.. I just could not wake my eyes off of YOU.. and I would be having the Picture underneath the Pillow and I pulled it off.. holding in my hand is Your Picture and I showed this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. do you see.. take a good look.. like a Flower.. the Most beautiful Flower.. do YOU see the One whom I love.. take a LOOK for me.. and the Giant Teddy bear looks at your Picture.. and starts to say.. YOU are her MOMMA.. and starts to cry asking me to take her to YOU.. I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close.. I want it.. really really want it.. but what am I suppose to do now.. I see the Square Box on top of a stand.. I brought the Giant Teddy Bear with me.. I have your picture.. which I am looking at it right Now.. I have come this very far.. but.. I need this Heart.. my finger points and touches the glass.. it does not matter any more because Now I know what I need.. what I want is this.. the Big Heart.. I don't want to steal it.. I just can't carry it off.. but I want this Heart.. this Big Heart.. my finger taps and taps the Glass of the square Box.. this Giant Teddy Bear has lead me here.. why.. if I can't take this Big Heart with me.. if this Square Box is attached to the Stand.. I tried to pull the Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU..
I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.. but I did come here so that I can remove my Heart.. I have made an appointment and have given a date for the Heart surgery.. will you be the doctor who can do the Heart surgery for Me.. YOU can at least see my Heart.. can touch my Heart and pull away this Heart from me.. I am much more happier if it is YOU.. because I know that I can give YOU MY Heart.. I know you are telling me that I can die if I get this surgery.. but I need this surgery.. I do not want this Heart any more.. it is killing me Now so Please.. get rid of this Heart which is killing me.. I rather die with YOU holding my Heart then to live without you when I keep on loving YOU.. why can't you be the doctor for me..
YOU know that I have been loving you just too long.. see the Heart who loves YOU.. and then I can finally let go.. because I can't live when YOU are gone and out of my life.. so please let me speak to the one who is in charge of this surgery.. because I can't live without you.. LOOK how you have made me cry.. as the two lines of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. He showed me a Picture.. I have never seen such a Great big Smile from his Face.. always He was sad and depressed.. when he showed me the Picture.. I looked.. WHY does it has to be YOU.. from ALL of the women in this World.. WHY does he show me the Same Picture.. I was Lost.. I was confused.. I was shocked in my heart.. I have never seen this Friend of Mine being so Happy.. but.. I begin to feel so Sad.. He looks at me and asked me WHY am I not celebrating with HIM.. I told HIM.. I was.. but.. How could I.. I have always loved YOU.. but Never thought YOU be with another man.. Of course.. He ordered some Flowers and Told me that the Woman is going to pick it UP tomorrow.. and He paid for the flowers and He left.. of course.. I am so happy for HIM.. HE is very smart and truly successful.. has a Good job and makes good Money.. I work at this Flower Shop.. I can I think about loving YOU.. if I don't have Anything to Give YOU.. as I am making the Flowers for the Friend.. setting off Different flowers and putting into this Box.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. HE told Me all the Good things about YOU.. How he wanted to marry YOU.. He wanted to raise a Good family.. He wanted to give YOU everything He had.. wanted to take YOU to nice places to eat and traveling was a part of the Plan.. I started to Look at the picture of YOU.. I wanted to cry.. I wanted to cry and Just needed to pour Out this Angry inside of me unable to Love YOU.. As I would cut the petals off.. One by One flower goes into the Box and I put the Lid over.. and Just started to wait for YOU.. Loves YOU.. then what happens to Me.. am I not aloud to Love you any more.. what If I starts to Miss YOU.. I am already missing YOU right Now.. but my Heart hurts.. shattered after hearing.. It should be GOOD right.. but why do I feel like It is Not for me.. I have already spent some time in the back yard.. growing more flowers for YOU.. wanted to give you these Flowers that came from the Root.. just to say I love YOU.. why can't YOU see me.. WHY can't you see the Heart of Mine.. why do YOU have to love Another Man.. it hurts to know that I can love YOU too.. but YOU are giving a chance to another man.. but I have come this Far loving YOU.. if you only have two Hearts.. it be nice to able to share the Other Heart with me.. but I know that YOU have one Heart.. as I am looking down.. looking at Your Picture.. the Door Opens and I lift UP to see.. YOU look so Amazing.. YOU look so Lovely.. YOU look so wonderful as YOU are walking into the work shop and You stop to see me.. and I just want to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU look so good tonight.. YOU look so beautiful.. of course.. I know the reason why YOU look so Beautiful.. I see you standing there.. Yes.. are YOU confused.. I know you are not Lost.. because I know now that YOU love someone else.. But.. WHY NOT ME.. Why can't YOU ever love me and see me the way I am.. YOU know that I have already told YOU that I loved YOU.. but it seems Like you don't believe my words.. and I want to give YOU this Box.. the Man who Loves you came yesterday.. and ordered some flowers.. and He wants to tell YOU how much He loves YOU.. But.. How about me.. How about my Love.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you so much that even through this Pain I am going through.. I am able to give you this Box.. which has full of flowers.. another man who loves YOU.. But do YOU KNOW that I have a Heart too.. inside me lives a Heart which I can feel my Heart is breaking.. DO YOU want to come near and Hear my heart breaking.. It is crying for YOU.. crying and asking WHY can't YOU love me.. why can't it ever be me.. If you do not want to answer this Question.. YOU do not have too.. but I am Not a Fool.. because I am a man who knows HOW to love YOU.. I see you take a step closer.. and I lifted up the box with both Hands.. I don't want YOU to take this Box.. Please tell me that YOU want this Box to stay behind.. because YOU don't love HIM.. and YOU love me instead.. I see both of Your Hands hold the Boxes.. and YOU take it from my hands.. But WHAT about Me.. How about MY HEART.. how about the Breaking of my Heart.. do YOU NOT KNOW that I am aching so Much.. unable to be loved BY YOU.. but YOU are choosing to be with Someone else instead.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. WHY are you hurting me.. so.. is this How you treat someone who loves YOU MORE.. is this what happens when a MAN really loves a Woman like me.. then WHY HURT ME.. if YOU never loved me in the first place.. WHY hurt me.. I am hurting so much right now.. Please.. look at the Other way.. and Please go.. it is so hard to look at you at this Point because it causes My Heart to keep on breaking.. I see you turn the Other way.. holding the Box with both Hands.. I see you start to walk.. leaving this Work Shop.. my hand on my Chest.. I can hear my Heart crying.. and I would hit to the ground.. and I sat on the floor.. begin to SOB.. crying Out my Heart.. and just pouring my tears looking at the Floor.. I wanted to be with YOU.. I want you.. I need YOU.. but WHY HURT ME.. why love another Man.. what do I do.. what am I suppose to do and I would SOB.. my hand beating against my Chest.. It hurts me bad.. this Love.. why do I have to love when It hits me the wrong way.. I am looking at the ground.. tears hitting the floor.. but I do not hear the Door.. I am wondering.. are YOU still here.. or did you leave.. So slowly I get UP and I don't see YOU.. But.. I see the Box on the Floor.. the Flowers are all over the Place.. I am wondering.. Am I suppose to feel GOOD or Bad.. I am confused.. I think I am lost.. but.. this is the Box I just gave YOU.. and I see few flowers scattered around the place.. I am thinking.. so WHY did I cry so Loud.. WHY cry with bitterness.. if this Box is YOURS.. why did you leave it behind me.. and where are YOU.. where did YOU go.. my friend just bought these flowers for YOU.. he told me that He loves YOU and He paid for them to me.. so that I can give this to YOU.. YOU are suppose to take the Box of Flowers with YOU.. and I am looking around.. wondering.. did YOU go to the restroom.. as I am standing there.. I would stand here for 15 minutes waiting to see.. I did not see YOU come Back.. I looked down at the counter.. I don't see your Picture.. Much better in person.. YOU look more beautiful.. I am not sure why I would be meeting YOU if YOU are so Beautiful.. but.. I guess it was just me.. I see you taking a seat.. and YOU told me I can sit on that Other side of the Seat.. So I sat down.. But.. My Words.. I can't say a Word to you.. what am I suppose to say to YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful.. that I get stuck.. my mind gets stuck.. my Heart gets stuck.. I want to tell YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I wonder what YOUR response would be when Meeting a person for the First Time.. I would take a Sip of the Cup of Coffee.. and the way YOU dress.. it is your Dress you wore.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. as I sat there.. there was nothing but Silent.. I don't want YOU to feel uncomfortable because there are many words running through my head.. but.. if I say something.. YOU might Not like what YOU would hear.. As I am standing in the Work Shop.. I feel so sad.. just thinking about the first day we Met.. I was unable to say any words to YOU that day because I felt very shy.. YOU were so beautiful.. that my words.. I couldn't think words to say to YOU.. I hear the Door Open behind me.. and I would turn to look back.. I see YOU standing there.. the Door closes.. I am wondering.. WHY do you have to Hurt Me.. if YOU love another man.. Why didn't you tell me this Before.. I won't ask for Your Heart.. or for Your Love.. and WHY did you come.. if YOU do not Love me.. tell me why did YOU lead me On and Now.. do you like the idea of breaking My Heart.. Do you know that it hurts to Love YOU.. it was very hard from the start to Love YOU.. but.. then Why did you come back to this Work shop.. If you know that My Heart is hurting at this Point..
Is it really Fun to Hurt me.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see that YOU could not tell me anything.. How about saying to me that YOU are sorry.. so YOU are sorry.. is that the reason why YOU came to this Work Shop.. when I find Out that YOU have someone to Love.. It felt like my tears.. the tears ran Blood through my eyes.. this pain.. My Heart hurts right Now.. I am Not feeling so well because.. I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then How come.. why would you want to do that.. Does hurting me makes YOU Good because.. to Me.. It is Unfair.. I gave YOU my Heart.. I shared with YOU my Love.. I even gave YOU some of the Time so that I can Love YOU.. YOU know that I really meant what I said.. that I love YOU.. So.. did YOU come to get this Box.. it had Your Flowers inside this Box and yes.. I have collected all of the flowers and placed into this Box.. so.. If you want the Box.. Please.. take it and go.. before YOU take this Box of flowers.. where is the Picture.. I had Your Picture on this Counter top.. and No.. it is not the same Picture of the Other friend gave me.. It is the Picture I took with the camera.. so.. YOU are Not to take that Picture.. it belongs to Me.. YOU should of asked first before YOU took it.. with my permission first because that Picture is Mine.. and Not yours.. tell Me.. why did you come back.. is it the Flowers that my friend has bought for YOU.. here.. First.. give me My Picture.. Oh.. you are wondering what am I going to do with that Picture.. Just because you are with Another man does Not means I won't love YOU.. It does not matter who YOU are with.. DO I CARE.. you can be with Him all you want.. But.. I love YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. yes.. it hurts.. and my Heart was crushed when I found Out.. but.. Loving you has a totally different meaning and Purpose for me.. I can't stop loving YOU because I have already Loved YOU.. YOU know I can always Love YOU right.. No matter where YOU GO or WHO you spend time With.. as Long as I can get my Love across and get TO your Mind and Your Heart.. as Long as YOU know who can Love YOU more.. I will even fight For My Love.. if it means something to me.. and yes.. I will be asking YOU.. give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please.. give me a chance.. so that I can really Love YOU and one day.. YOU will know the true meaning of what it means to receive Love.. SO.. I have the Box.. it has lots of flowers inside.. so please come and take it.. of course.. YOU know that I have a garden in the back.. I can give YOU plenty of flowers.. all the flowers YOU want.. and ALL the flowers you need if it means I love YOU.. so Please.. take this Little BOX.. I have a Large garden.. Plenty of room.. for more room of flowers to grow for YOU.. this Little BOX.. I can give YOU much more Bigger BOX.. full of love in the flowers which will make YOU smile.. come.. and I see YOU pulling Out the Picture and I am wondering.. that is Not the Picture I had on the counter.. what picture is this.. and I would take few steps and I grab the picture.. as I take a Look at this Picture.. it is YOU standing at the Back of the Garden.. with Flowers in the back ground.. but.. YOU are in a beautiful Dress.. the same dress the day I met you for the first time.. I am wondering.. when did you take a Picture of this.. WHY are you so beautiful.. How come you are giving me this Picture for.. what does this means.. WHY are you giving me this to me.. are you telling me that I can still love YOU.. even though you tell me NOT TO LOVE YOU.. I will always love YOU.. I don't care because I loved YOU then.. and still I love you right Now.. it has not changed at ALL.. it is YOU who are changing on me.. YOU told me that YOU loved me.. I heard those words coming Out from your Mouth.. but why this change of Your Heart.. why don't you love me anymore.. do I smell bad.. did I say something wrong.. to offend YOU.. I am not sure what I said before.. but.. I only wanted YOU TO KNOW.. that I wanted to Love YOU.. why are you making things so much Harder for Me.. No matter how hard things are.. or difficult it is.. I am not going to stop loving YOU.. as long as YOU can open Your heart.. I am only asking for a Peek.. a Peek open is enough because I know.. it starts somewhere like that down the road.. but.. I know that I can love YOU.. Love you and Love YOU.. and keep on loving YOU.. tired of this.. I still can love YOU.. as I see you stand there.. I grab the Box.. and I gave it to YOU.. Just remember.. this is a Little.. small Box.. I can give you the back of the Garden if YOU want.. Promise me.. YOU will make a little Room for me.. that even very little.. YOU have save a space for me.. a room in your heart.. I am Not asking much.. but just a Pinch of it.. Open Your Heart.. so that I can tell YOU a lot more than just this.. so much more because I love YOU from the Bottom of My Heart.. only if YOU are able to do that for me.. it is already hard and complicated.. but.. It does Not matter.. because I can Love you where it does Not bother me in any means.. Because I love YOU.. I truly Love YOU.. My Heart feels like It has been broken.. Shattered into Pieces.. As I am looking at Your Picture.. tell me Why does it has to be YOU.. WHY must I shed another Tear.. as I am wiping these tears flowing down the two eyes.. the More I look at Your Picture.. the More I want YOU close to Me.. but why is it that I can't go to YOU.. I want to go to YOU to show YOU.. Look what YOU have done to My Heart.. I feel so Hurt because I just want to be with YOU.. WHY does it has to be YOU.. I am standing at the work shop.. Only my thoughts are on YOU.. I can't get YOU off my Mind.. I just can't get YOU off my Heart.. if I am unable to go to YOU.. can I ask YOU.. Please come to Me.. come to Me so that I can Love YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU just Once.. How about give me few Hours.. If YOU don't fall for me in those Hours.. I won't bother YOU any More.. I guess that Means.. I have to let YOU GO.. so Please.. give me a day with few Hours.. let me show YOU what this Man can do.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to hold YOU and tell YOU.. my Heart so that YOU can listen to Your Heart.. will you let me love YOU.. Please.. give me a TIME.. a Day.. I want to know if I can still Love YOU.. I hurt because I am unable to see YOU.. WHY must I feel this Way.. WHY is it only Me.. that is why I need Your Time.. so that.. maybe if I get the chance to tell YOUR HEART.. you can feel the same way as I DO.. I want to Love YOU.. tell me.. I want to love YOU.. why Not.. tell me please that I can love YOU.. I need to know because I need YOU right Now.. I really need YOU.. so that I can love YOU.. More and More love YOU.. help me so that I can Love you and that.. if YOUR HEART can Open to receive.. this Heart of Mine.. Last Night.. while I was working at this Work Shop.. My Friend came to this Shop.. He wanted to buy some Flowers and Yes.. I work at this Flower Shop.. and told me he has found someone WHO he truly admires.. WHO he truly adores and thinks like he is going to fall.. He tells me He loves someone.. and wanted to give.. and I wanted to know who this Woman is.. and I am walking through the Field.. as I am thinking of YOU.. only thing I can say is that YOU make me smile.. even though I am walking and I would stop.. I am wondering do you think of Me.. Do I ever cross Your Mind.. and I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and I only see the work Shop.. the work Shop where YOU and I use to be.. but I am Not at the Work shop but Out side.. the Open field.. I do see flowers everywhere.. a sign that shows me Your Beauty.. I want to know why are YOU so Beautiful.. WHAT am I doing here.. why am I keep on waiting for YOU even though I know that YOU are long gone.. and I know that we are miles apart.. and I am walking here all alone.. I know that I should Not be here.. because YOU are with some one else.. WHY do you have to be with someone else.. if It is ME who be loving YOU.. I know that I loved YOU first.. the first time I saw YOU.. when we were YOUNG.. as I stop.. and I see the flowers across the field.. and has spread Out.. I just want YOU to come here.. even I was inside the Work Shop.. I did Not see You there.. so I am thinking if I come Out here.. in the field.. may be YOU would come here.. as I would walk down.. and there is the Field.. in the Middle of the field is the Tree.. and I would look.. this Tree.. I remember I would stand there.. waiting for YOU.. telling me that YOU will come to meet me at this Tree.. I would walk through the field and for some reason I stop by this Tree.. This tree has been standing here for a Long time.. when we were once YOUNG.. playing Hide N Go seek.. as I stop next to this tree.. my hand touch the Tree.. I wish that you can come over here.. there was so much laughter.. we did not care about anything else.. but just knowing in my Heart how much I loved YOU.. Do you remember when I first confessed My Heart to YOU.. telling YOU that I needed to say something.. Not to be surprised because I wanted to reveal..
What is IN MY HEART and I told YOU.. I truly loved YOU.. of course.. YOU did not say a word to Me.. we were Both working in the Work Shop.. and of course.. When I did not hear any words Back.. I knew that Maybe YOU did Not feel the same way.. because I would see your Face turning away.. I be asking YOU.. is it wrong for me to tell YOU My Heart.. revealing that I just couldn't hold back anymore.. that I needed to tell YOU.. because If I don't... I may regret for the rest of my Life before it is too Late.. but only thing I saw is that YOU just did not want to tell me anything.. and I saw YOU start to walk off from this Tree.. My Heart.. I felt like what is wrong with my Heart Now.. is this means that YOU are rejecting Me.. telling me to back Off.. are you telling me that YOU have no feelings for Me.. I became so Sad.. because I thought that YOU knew.. I would give YOU signs that I wanted more than just friends and I member YOU telling me Not to cross the Line.. YOU only liked me as friends but not more than That.. as I saw YOU walk off.. I would ask myself.. why can't I be more than just friends.. what is wrong with me.. as I stood by this tree.. I saw YOU going into the work shop.. I was hurt and did Not want to see YOU because I felt like I thought something More could be made.. but when YOU told me that only friends is enough for YOU.. I stood by this Tree.. WHY was my Heart hurting.. it felt so crushed.. I just felt like I could Not breathe that well.. I watched the Sun setting.. as the Sun goes Down.. I knew that it is not going to be the same anymore.. and I would ask myself.. if this was to happen.. I should of kept it to myself.. I should of Not told YOU anything because LOOK at what I am feeling Now.. I was torn.. felt like my Heart tearing from the Inside.. as I stood by the Tree.. I was shaken and Now what.. what am I suppose to do Now.. I have made it known to YOU.. and I have told YOU my Heart.. what I felt.. How am I suppose to face YOU as friends if I am starting to Love YOU.. I can't take the words Back because I already confessed to YOU.. as I would turn back to look at the work Shop.. I see the lights turned Off and it was pitched dark.. means I know that YOU left.. so.. Do you love someone else.. does the man loves YOU more than I do.. I mean if that man can treat YOU well and can make you the most happiest.. gives YOU joy and can share his Love to YOU.. then I know that I should back Off.. but.. YOU don't give me any chance.. why don't you see me.. YOU do not know unless you can give me the chance too.. WHY can't I be close to Your Heart.. why can't YOU give me the chance.. why are YOU giving the Other man the chance but Not Me.. is it really only friendship YOU want.. but what if I don't want to be just friends.. what if I want more.. that is why I have made this known to YOU.. I want more than just friends.. I know that if YOU just give me a chance.. there is a better chance that YOU can love Me.. I don't want YOU to be with someone who will Not love YOU.. what If He does not love YOU.. or cannot tell YOU how much He loves You.. but YOU know that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How much I need YOU.. how much I need you close in my life that I can keep on loving YOU.. Why can't Your Heart be open to Me.. Please tell me.. so that I would know.. I know that I can love you where YOU will know that YOU are being loved.. only if YOU can open Your Heart.. let me IN so I can show YOU.. tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I stood.. looking at the work shop being pitch dark.. I can see the MOON.. as I would star to walk away from the tree.. and I would head to the work Shop.. I do open the door to go inside.. it is dark.. and it is empty inside this room.. only the window I can see.. as I turn to look through the Window.. I am inside the Work Shop.. only thing that I feel is that I am missing YOU now.. even though I don't want to be here.. but for some reason.. it is because I started to Miss YOU lead me back here.. I get closer to the Window.. I see a Picture.. I am wondering.. WHY is this Picture here.. and I get closer and closer to the window.. as My hand grabs the Picture.. I take a LOOK.. and I look.. the Picture belongs to YOU.. it is YOU.. the Work shop is dark.. the room is empty.. but only thing that is here is Your Picture.. I put my hand on the chest.. missing YOU like crazy.. and looking at this Picture does Not help me at ALL.. I know that this Picture was not here.. I remember coming to this Work shop before I went to Outside.. in the back.. the tree and the field.. I came here first.. when it was day time.. I looked at the same window.. but I did not see it.. as I look through the Window.. I see someone.. in a beautiful dress.. and I am thinking.. it is the same dress in this picture of YOU.. and I see the person walking towards the Tree.. and I am thinking.. is it really YOU.. YOU told me that YOU never loved Me.. that YOU told me that YOU only wanted to be friends.. and I remember you telling me.. YOU started to love someone else.. and that he treats you well.. and he tells YOU how much he loves YOU.. when I hear those words as YOU would smile telling me about Him.. My Heart.. it felt like sharp pains into my chest.. I wanted YOU to stop telling me about another man loving You.. but.. I would only listen to Your words and like YOU said.. I had to be Your friend.. I remember that Day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work here anymore.. that YOU are going to leave this work shop.. I felt so hurt.. Now.. YOU are pushing me off.. I thought that YOU wanted to be friends.. I wanted to ask YOU.. maybe I can adjust and try to be Your friend.. losing YOU would be the most painful in my Heart.. as long as YOU are close.. I know I had to accept even though I did not want too.. but I knew to be close to YOU.. to love YOU distance even though I am close.. maybe I can still put up a fight.. maybe when YOU are near even just to be friends.. I can try to convince YOU.. that I be waiting for YOU.. not as friends but as someone who Loves YOU.. just has to be patient by being YOUR FRIEND.. but I would hear you tell me.. That YOU are now leaving work.. why then did YOU say let us be friends.. I guess YOU Just knew that it be the hardest part for me because I loved YOU.. but if I truly love YOU.. even being a friend can be good as long as someday will come.. just hoping that day be sooner and never be later.. and I wanted to try.. and I told YOU.. then let us be friends since YOU wanted it that way.. and when I saw YOU turn away from the tree.. heading back to the work shop.. I would hear.. YOU are leaving work and has decided to move on.. I just can't believe those words.. why you be telling me be friends.. I guess YOU knew that it was Not going to work.. maybe because YOU know that my Heart is stronger.. My feelings and emotions are stronger to love YOU.. because I know that I can love YOU.. as much as YOU can open Your Heart to me.. I know I will tell YOU.. keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but Now.. leaving me.. telling me you wanted to be friends.. rejecting me that YOU don't love me.. that YOU love someone else.. it hurts to feel this UP and Down.. because I want YOU for myself.. So I had to let YOU go.. I watched YOU go into the Work Shop.. the lights were On.. I saw the Lights turn Off.. I just knew this was the end for me.. false Hope and wishes.. as I walked back alone.. I went into the Work Shop.. I stood all alone in the pitch dark room.. I started to cry.. as I would look out the window.. what made it worse is that the rain started to fall.. I saw the rain pouring down.. and I would sit on the ground.. leaning on the wall.. I just could not take this pain any more.. I was loving YOU just too long.. I did not even confessed too you because I did not want to feel this way.. which for some reason it did hit me harder.. I sat in the Work shop.. dark room.. I would raise my head UP too look at the window.. watching the rain shower down waters.. but I kept on hurting.. My Heart kept on feeling this Pain.. this ache of eating me deep inside.. and I would tell myself.. what if I kept it to myself.. what if I did not tell YOU anything at ALL.. then YOU would still be here.. YOU would not leave the work shop.. am I so foolish.. I should not say anything at all.. but to kept to myself.. then I can still love YOU being near.. but it has been so long I was hiding this feeling inside.. I was so scared to tell YOU because of this.. YOU give me memories of many joy and laughter.. I would smile More.. Looking at the mirror looking at my face.. trying to dress better to impress you.. Now.. there is NO ONE here.. and I see just the rain falling down.. can hear the sound of the rain hitting on the window glass.. WHY did I tell YOU.. I should Not say anything to YOU.. then YOU be close to me.. but I begin to want more.. want you closer than just.. wanted to say I love YOU.. and was hoping for YOU to accept my Heart so that I can tell YOU these words.. telling YOU how much I wanted YOU.. needed you and to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my Life with YOU.. holding YOU close in my arms.. as I am standing in the dark room.. of the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I am standing.. looking at your Picture.. looking at Your Dress.. as I would look through the window.. I see someone who is wearing the same dress.. and by the tree.. I see the hand touch the tree.. I am wondering.. Is that YOU.. Is it really YOU there.. I was over there.. for hours waiting for YOU.. I was there when the Sun was UP.. Now the Sun comes down and the MOON comes UP.. I am here.. inside the work Shop.. if it is YOU.. can you please turn around..
I am here.. inside the work shop.. I have Your Picture with me.. if it is YOU who has put the picture.. I have Your picture.. if it is YOU.. Please turn around and YOU will see me looking through the window.. I want to show YOU that I got Your Picture.. did YOU put this picture by the window inside the Work shop.. if YOU have placed it inside and knew that It is I who was Out there by the tree.. Please tell me that it was YOU who placed it here.. I want it to be YOU.. it has been so long since I have seen YOU.. but.. I want to Know.. do YOU know that I never stopped loving YOU.. I am here waiting.. for a long time I came here wondering.. maybe one day.. some day YOU be here too.. I wanted to see YOU but only chance and only hope was this One door.. I would stand by the door.. I would tell myself.. Just don't give UP and I started to knock on this door.. it felt like this door is never going to open.. but looking at Your Picture.. there must be a reason why your Picture came to my door.. and I wanted to find Out Why.. and just knowing YOU are like a Flower.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. so Beautiful.. I just had to keep on trying.. At first.. it did not make any sense of keep on knocking.. it was hard after a while.. because this Door did not open.. I did not hear any foot steps.. No sounds coming from the insides.. I hear nothing.. and I would keep on knocking.. but.. I would see Pictures changing.. and I knew.. YOU know that I want Love.. YOU know that I wanted love from YOU and that I wanted to give all of my Love to say to YOU How much I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I loved YOU and I still love YOU.. I kept on trying as I would be knocking.. after awhile it felt like nothing is going to ever happen.. but I kept on knocking because I started to feel.. that I wanted to start loving YOU.. and it became Love in my Heart and I started to love and enjoy knocking because I started to love YOU more.. why.. I just do love YOU that is why.. I tried to Stop.. but I would go back.. as I open the Door and I go into the Work shop.. it has been years since I left the Work Shop.. ever since I heard the News and How you started for another Man.. I just could not stay in this Work Shop.. but for some reason.. I have come back.. as I enter the Room.. and I stand in silent.. My Heart.. it hurts that Now.. the Work Shop is empty.. nothing left but only Memories of Laughter and tears.. so I would stand there.. By Myself.. I would look around and started to Miss YOU all over again.. I wonder where YOU are Now.. as I would pull out the Picture.. I miss YOU so Much.. tell me where YOU are.. Please tell me that YOU are doing well.. Now.. I would close both of my eyes.. and Only thing I see is the past.. I can feel my tears.. it feels so Heavy in my Heart.. and I just let my tears Go.. I wish that I can be with YOU.. I wish that It would be Me that YOU be loving.. WHY do you love someone else.. Why can't You ever love me.. why can't you just give me the chance.. and I would go back.. a Little Boy.. In the back yard.. I have a flower in my hand.. a Sun Flower.. which only makes me smile.. I remember I heard YOU were coming with Your Family.. this Orphan Boy.. Who do Not know How to Love.. WHO has never Loved before.. as I am out side.. I am just waiting for YOU.. I hear foot steps Coming.. as I am looking on the Ground.. I hear the Foot steps and as I lift UP my Head.. I see YOU.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Can I give YOU this Flower.. would you please take this Flower with YOU.. I have been waiting for YOU.. just to tell YOU.. Like this Flower.. YOU are so Beautiful.. More Beautiful than this Flower.. and If you take this Flower and receive it.. YOU know that is the greatest feeling.. when a gift is given and YOU take it and receive It.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I see YOU smile.. as I am looking at YOU.. I lift UP my arm.. hand grabbing the Sun Flower.. WILL you please take this Flower.. I know that this is Not much.. and I really have Nothing to give.. but I want you to know that It was hours I been at this Back yard of the Garden.. I been looking around.. all over the Place just to find this Sun Flower.. it was hiding.. by the Tree.. it was hiding behind the Big Tree.. when I found this Sun Flower.. My Heart started to race.. it would beat so Fast because I knew that YOU were coming to the Orphanage and I wanted to show YOU something I discovered.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. but I wanted to give and tell YOU something.. When I found this Flower.. hiding behind the Big Tree.. I just could Not believe what I found.. I know that to you it may be Nothing.. But I been in the Back Yard of the Garden for hours.. digging UP the grounds.. but.. When I went around the Big Tree.. I just could not believe what My eyes saw.. this Sun Flower.. I ran.. I went to grab it.. pulled it out of the Ground and I was thinking of YOU all day.. my mind was running.. Heart be racing and just wondering when WILL you come to this Orphanage.. and I begin to think.. WHAT IF you don't show UP.. then what is going to happen to this Sun Flower.. what am I to do when it does not belong to me.. but I wanted to give it to YOU.. it belongs with YOU.. The Owner of the House would call for me and I heard the voice and I ran to Her.. the owner of the House says.. YOU were coming.. and my Heart leaped with great Joy.. that YOU are coming with both Parents.. and that they wanted to spend the time with the Children who lives in the Orphan.. I know that No one loves Me.. so I would think.. then How do I love when I can't receive any Love.. HOW am I to give Love if I never received.. and the Owner of the House looks at me and smiles.. looking at the SUN FLOWER in my hand.. and I felt.. It is for the One who is coming.. I want to give this Sun flower.. I remember walking into the House.. just waiting.. that is all I can do is to wait for YOU.. I went out side because I did not want to wait inside.. as I look down on the Ground.. I would wonder.. when will YOU come.. when will you show UP.. sometimes I hate to wait when it takes a long time.. I heard a foot steps coming forward.. of course I did not think that it was YOU.. as I see the shadow.. and I lift up my head.. I see YOU.. and I am wondering.. am I just imagining.. am I just wishing.. Am I just dreaming.. is this just a vision but.. I knew that it was Not.. I remember you looked at my hand.. Holding a Sun Flower.. YOU were asking.. why was I holding that Flower.. and I remember.. I would lift.. my eyes would look at this Sun Flower and I would say.. It is for YOU.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. because YOU are the Most Beautiful Flower.. I know you will make this Flower look so Good.. and I have been waiting.. waiting for YOU to come so that I can show and tell YOU.. this Flower does Not belong to Me.. but wondering.. if I can give YOU this Flower so you can take this Flower with YOU.. it be better if the Flower goes with YOU.. I saw YOU as I would lift.. Your hand grabs the Sun Flower.. My Heart.. it started to Beat.. Started to Beat faster as I see YOU looking at the SUN FLOWER.. YOU look so Beautiful.. I think the Sun Flower shines because She is with YOU.. and Now.. YOU are even more Beautiful than this Flower.. Only If I can go back.. and can find More Flowers.. and gather all the Flowers.. the Sun Flowers.. would you please take them home with YOU.. even these flowers need love too.. just like me.. I know that I am Not a flower.. but.. Children who lives in the Orphanages feels like No one loves them.. and It hurts that NO ONE LOVES me.. but.. if I see YOU and YOU can love this SUN FLOWER.. It starts with One.. I believe that YOU can love well.. I know that these Sun Flowers will blossom well.. because of Your Love.. I want to see the Sun Flower blossom in full.. I know that YOU can Love.. if YOU are able to show me what it means to Love.. and I see the Sun Flowers become very Pretty and Beautiful.. I will know that YOUR LOVE is real and I would love to receive this Love.. I want to believe in Love.. can I believe in Love.. but I needs to see How Love is done.. will you show me How to Love.. Teach me How to love because I don't know How to Love YOU.. but I do want to learn how to Love.. but.. How.. and I look at YOU.. will you show me.. will you teach me how to Love so that I can love YOU well.. if NO one shows me how to Love.. then how can I love you well.. Please.. show me.. Please tell me.. Please teach me so that it be YOU who can say.. I am good at loving YOU.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding the Sun Flower.. YOU place you nose close to the Sun Flower and I see you smelling this Flower.. Is that How you suppose to Love.. does it start with smell.. then Can I smell you first.. do you smell like this Flower.. as I am waiting for Your Answer.. All I see you is closing both eyes.. and YOU open.. you put your Lip on the Sun Flower and YOU kiss it.. I want to be this Flower.. WHY can't I be the flower instead..