this is what losing a best friend feels like.

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  • čas přidán 21. 08. 2024
  • hi i know this is a bit different from my usual videos,
    but today is my close friend's 20th birthday. it's been 2 years without him and i wanted to share this painting of him on Mt. Kiltepan, Sagada with you guys. If you're wondering what I wrote around the canvas, it's a poem written by him back in 2nd grade called Heaven. :)
    tell your friends you love them & check up on them from time to time. stay safe everyone and i'll see you in my next video. ♡
    i know the lighting sucks, but i would usually paint late in the night or through the am
    edit: hi, for anyone saying i’m using this video for “clout” and that it’s “evil”, that’s not the case at all. i made this video for his family, because they wanted to share it with all his friends and family during his death anniversary. unfortunately, it was cancelled due to covid. so, i decided to post it on my channel. i had no idea it would blow up or any of that sort.
    music: now that you're gone by lewis ross ( • Lewis Ross - Now That ... )
    i pretty much listened to these songs on repeat too: • Video
    • FINNEAS - I Lost A Fri...

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  • @petaleish
    @petaleish Před 4 lety +12585

    you can see the sun dies and the moon rises...

    • @silverplayz9703
      @silverplayz9703 Před 4 lety +8

      I see

    • @hehehehe6530
      @hehehehe6530 Před 4 lety +72

      - R E N T L E S S Ś H A I M A- it’s hard to reply because it’s just so soulful and idk empowering

    • @norafila83
      @norafila83 Před 4 lety +32

      It's a new beginning

    • @yasmintyb
      @yasmintyb Před 4 lety +2

      petaleish ً yea

    • @pigsbrain7324
      @pigsbrain7324 Před 4 lety +17

      petaleish ً sigh.... I feel the nights to be too short.. I just don’t want the mornings to come

  • @vuf7624
    @vuf7624 Před 4 lety +11398

    My sister lost her friend due to cancer, it's been a tough time for her, she cries at least everyday, she's only 6 years old.

    • @thatonecandor
      @thatonecandor Před 4 lety +1427

      The fact that she's only 6 makes me sad even more knowing her friend was way too young and she's way too young to not be happy 💔

    • @gold-7710
      @gold-7710 Před 4 lety +407

      damn, this one made me cry

    • @sarastonebell9053
      @sarastonebell9053 Před 4 lety +295

      Thats so sad.. She was so young and that just makes it even more sad.. 😞

    • @mrtomu2230
      @mrtomu2230 Před 4 lety +76

      Oh no;__;

    • @vuf7624
      @vuf7624 Před 4 lety +114

      Yeah it’s been a hard time for her family, we are trying to help them.

  • @ifmmm
    @ifmmm Před 4 lety +1889

    it's sad to see people go because the suffering leaves them to grow onto us...

    • @hycraut
      @hycraut Před 4 lety +1

      It’s sad, we gotta keep it inside tho, not publish it on the internet

    • @marimationsowo
      @marimationsowo Před 4 lety +4

      Hycraut wdym?

    • @TheAngelHero
      @TheAngelHero Před 4 lety +42

      Hycraut we all cope in different ways, this person decided to make something to remember and honor their friend’s life so please be respectful

    • @marimationsowo
      @marimationsowo Před 4 lety +4

      The Angel Hero i agree

    • @ifmmm
      @ifmmm Před 4 lety +11

      @@TheAngelHero I second that. I genuinely believe that if it makes you happy and it lets you be free, then do it (if it's safe).

  • @cynthia-6927
    @cynthia-6927 Před 4 lety +2646

    I lost my bestfriend to Suicide April 29 2019 and my birthday is May 29. He loved to draw, he loved to be creative, he was such a kind soul. He was my bestfriend for 8 years and I don't have a lot of friends, he was the only one that knew exactly everything about me and when he killed himself..it was like he killed a part of me. I don't blame myself one bit because I was the one that warned everyone in his life soo many times, his family and close friends. But they didn't take his depression like an illness. What he did killed a part of me yes, but it changed me for the better. I don't take people for granted, my relationship with my family and friends are deeper now, I care and show love in a whole different level now and it also showed me how strong I am. A few months later, 10 February 2020 I lost my beloved aunt due to an aggressive form of cancer. It took 3 weeks from when she got sick to her last breath.. but I am still going strong for my family, for my aunt, my bestfriend and most importantly myself. I choose life over anything.

    • @malakbnessa139
      @malakbnessa139 Před 4 lety +74

      Literally, I can't stop crying, I know very well what you're feeling right now ,I'm sorry for that ,God blessed you, stay strong❤❤

    • @nyct0ph1liaa9
      @nyct0ph1liaa9 Před 4 lety +43

      I'm crying for you. I'm so sorry... 😔

    • @cynthia-6927
      @cynthia-6927 Před 4 lety +37

      @@nyct0ph1liaa9 Life can be so cruel but it can also be beautiful.. and we all have that individual power to choose how we want to see life as and how to move on. Thank you for your compassion

    • @charadreemurr9081
      @charadreemurr9081 Před 4 lety +26

      I’m pretty young. Only 12 years old, but I’m sorry.

    • @cynthia-6927
      @cynthia-6927 Před 4 lety +16

      Chara Dreemurr Thank you! Take care of yourself❤️

  • @caukicaukicauki
    @caukicaukicauki Před 4 lety +2540

    It reminded me a lot to IU’s song “8”, she lost two friends who committed suicide and she sings about sunset as a moment when time frozes and she relives their memories together

  • @catfivesixonetwothreefour6653
    @catfivesixonetwothreefour6653 Před 4 lety +1548

    Why did I already start crying when she was taking the plastic off the canvas

  • @hoemeyou9834
    @hoemeyou9834 Před 3 lety +314

    My best friend left me a letter after he took his own life. He wrote "I'm not dead. I'm just gonna travel into a place that actually I have no idea about. We travel a lot together, without plans because you said unplanned things are the most wonderful. Now, I'm traveling alone, I hope that you'll find a strength to keep on traveling without me. I love you so much. You're like a baby sister to me, im sorry that I left... though I know that you hate people who leaves. I hope you find someone you can run into at midnight when you can't sleep. I will watch you forever, guide you forever, be with you forever.
    I'm with papa!"

    • @denizzzakell
      @denizzzakell Před 3 lety +8

      I cried whilie reading this. I hope he is okay. Rip 🤍

    • @mariasophiaculaban
      @mariasophiaculaban Před 3 lety +4

      this is so sad that I cried my eyeballs out

    • @demensia_
      @demensia_ Před 3 lety +7

      This made me cry , I hope you're ok now , even thinking about living without my best friend makes me scream and u lost yours I am very sad for you , take care

  • @Nani_1
    @Nani_1 Před 4 lety +503

    The way that blue paint is dripping on the canvas it’s like tears

  • @maggiepeers7582
    @maggiepeers7582 Před 4 lety +2259

    I lost my best friend Raven, he killed himself, he did it over 2 weeks ago, I'm still broken

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 Před 4 lety +120

      I’m so sorry 💜 it must really hurt. I hope you find someone to talk to, or a way of relieving yourself. Don’t lose hope

    • @ifesjournal
      @ifesjournal Před 4 lety +56

      I’m really sorry for your loss, I hope you feel better. I know I probably sound really annoying, but I believe Jesus heals, and if you’d just reach out to Him and ask if He’s there, He’ll show Himself and help you with what you’re dealing with. Jesus loves you and I pray that things get better for you 💓💓
      “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”
      ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬
      www.bible.com/116/1pe.5.7.nlt

    • @fellanefnaf3960
      @fellanefnaf3960 Před 4 lety +26

      May he rest in power and peace..

    • @rejoyce555
      @rejoyce555 Před 4 lety +40

      im so sorry for your loss.. hearing these stories make me remember how people would feel if i committed suicide, which i attempted last night but luckily im still here..

    • @repent.
      @repent. Před 4 lety +11

      OH MY GOSH. I'm so sorry! You'll make it through, don't worry! 🥺❤️

  • @user-zq8um4qq9o
    @user-zq8um4qq9o Před 4 lety +3043

    I love how the comment section turned into a small therapy for people so tell their stories, truly beautiful.
    I am so sorry for anyone who lost someone. I am happy to say that i don't have a story to share. Stay strong y'all

    • @Ruby-ov1rn
      @Ruby-ov1rn Před 4 lety +15

      For a second I thought you were making fun of them, well said👍

    • @itzcrystalzz
      @itzcrystalzz Před 4 lety +10

      I lost my baby sister on like her 3rd day of life

    • @and-lj9vv
      @and-lj9vv Před 4 lety +7

      I can't take you seriously with our picture on the side!!! hahaha! ok back to being sad... :(

    • @user-zq8um4qq9o
      @user-zq8um4qq9o Před 4 lety +5

      @@and-lj9vv hahahah sorryy

    • @M4DD1.X
      @M4DD1.X Před 4 lety +7

      @@itzcrystalzz I'm so sorry that happened ❤

  • @mial9648
    @mial9648 Před 4 lety +374

    All the dislikes are from people who were crying too hard and missed the like button.
    Sending love ❤️ stay strong people

  • @elizavenne511
    @elizavenne511 Před 4 lety +836

    Didn’t know a painting could tough my heart like that😔

  • @domainii7089
    @domainii7089 Před 4 lety +2569

    I genuinely don’t know why people dislike stuff like this

    • @rarayas5088
      @rarayas5088 Před 4 lety +47

      They don't dislike the video
      They dislike her

    • @daciatorres7855
      @daciatorres7855 Před 4 lety +17

      Maruchanえみ but why though?

    • @rarayas5088
      @rarayas5088 Před 4 lety +49

      @@daciatorres7855 I used to be a hater of a small animation youtuber maybe not all think the same but I think it can be because they do the same things as her and want to get recognized just like her and instead of working they try to bring her down with them

    • @victoriasloan8370
      @victoriasloan8370 Před 4 lety +6

      ikr!

    • @aciddecay
      @aciddecay Před 4 lety +28

      Maybe the video is too sad and they dislike just the idea of sad videos idk

  • @leahholliday547
    @leahholliday547 Před 4 lety +2767

    I lost my best friend as well. She wasn’t human but she was my best friend. She was my dog and I lost her in January. It has been really really tough. 🕊1-16-20🕊

    • @b3lla322
      @b3lla322 Před 4 lety +43

      Ik exactly what ur going through my dogo was my best friend too... tmrw is his 1 year mark 5-26-19 I promise u eventually it’ll get better.💕🥺

    • @kfjat4429
      @kfjat4429 Před 4 lety +13

      7-09-16. Forever in my heart, Buck.

    • @vanillahibiscus486
      @vanillahibiscus486 Před 4 lety +15

      I lost my cat back in 2018 and it still hurts so bad. I'm sorry for your loss..💚

    • @lisalinkeln9300
      @lisalinkeln9300 Před 4 lety +8

      I lost my dog too... Just 2years ago 💔 forever in my heart Roy

    • @sammy-2650
      @sammy-2650 Před 4 lety +9

      Lost my cat 1-17-20 by an car accident. I wish her only The best in heaven❤

  • @desireeshayne7479
    @desireeshayne7479 Před 4 lety +381

    I lost my best friend before we even start college. We both applied for the same course but she shifted. It’s okay for me because not all the time we’ll be together. We started to drift away when first semester in college started. I blamed myself for what happened to us (which by the way was not good). She messaged me that she needed the space to grow, so I let her. But to be honest, I didn’t take it lightly. It felt like I’ve just gone from break-up, but this is much worse than break-up because you lost someone dearly. What hurts me is that she’s with her new friends. I know that I should be happy for her. I just can’t help but to think that that should be me, with her. Laughing at my- our silly jokes. she outgrown me, I should grow too.
    If you ever find this message, I’ll still be here, I’m always available whenever you need me. Silently supporting you. Whenever you find yourself lost. You’ll know where to find me

    • @hansikarose51
      @hansikarose51 Před 4 lety +23

      Hey. It’s OK. I guess it’s not the same thing that you’re going through but
      One of my best friends I’ve known my whole entire life and our parents have known eachother their whole entire life starts being really rude all of a sudden. She became really insensitive and she acted like she didn’t want to be my friend anymore. Set a true realize that we were drifting apart. And then I realize they had no real friends that really did care about me at all. We still talk every day but she’s just rude to me and she doesn’t even try to be nice. I feel so alone right now knowing I have absolutely no one. I’ve never gone through a loss of someone but it feels like a loss right now. I cry every day thinking about how alone I feel and how we have no true friends. I guess the only one I had was her and now she’s drifting apart. I hope this stage ends that I hope she’s back to herself again I don’t know when it will. Right now, the comments section is the only place I have....

    • @desireeshayne7479
      @desireeshayne7479 Před 4 lety +13

      Gucchi Monkey hey we got each other’s back. Sometimes talking to a stranger is much more better than those people you know. No judgement at all, and that’s the beauty of being a stranger 💜 hope you’re doing okay tho 😊

    • @gudetamacafe1032
      @gudetamacafe1032 Před 4 lety +5

      y'all are going to get through this I know you are stronger than that , u grow every single day and just sharing this you are brave enough , believe in yourself there are people out there for you ❤️ that's what I tell myself to cope with life every single day when even the simplest is hard to do..hope this helps others like me 🖤

    • @saf.081
      @saf.081 Před 4 lety

      @@gudetamacafe1032 that's true

    • @robertaformenti7227
      @robertaformenti7227 Před 4 lety +5

      Hey, i'm really sorry for your story....well i think it will happen the same to me....my only best friend is starting to drifting away, she never amwser at my messages and when i write to her she always say that shes busy but then i see that shes chatting in the class group with all my classmates that kinda hates me....
      I always been there for her but its like i dont exist for her, everytime she says that shes busy but if u are that busy that u cant talk with you best friend then who are u going to talk to? Im feeling like im alone and i cant say my feelings to anyone.

  • @hehfhfhfhffhrelqpslwkwkakek
    @hehfhfhfhffhrelqpslwkwkakek Před 4 lety +299

    I didn’t lose my friend, I lost my grandma. She raised me, while my mother couldn’t take care of me, she was there. She thought me to walk, to talk, to count. I did everything with her, she taught me everything I know. I lost her two years ago the day before my birthday, August 17th. She was put on that life control thing until the 19th, and then died. I miss her so much. You never know what you have until you lose it. It’s cliche but true.. I got so mad at her all the time. When she said “I love you” I said “I love you too” but I didn’t mean it. Because I said in my head that I’d see her tomorrow. That I’d greet her tomorrow. But she wasn’t there. That was the last thing I said to her. I love you. But I didn’t even mean it. I wish I meant it, I wish I treated that like it was the last I love you I’d say. I wish I knew.

    • @Rahaf-xk1cu
      @Rahaf-xk1cu Před 4 lety +3

      Im sorry for your loss, stay strong

    • @jendeukiebear48
      @jendeukiebear48 Před 4 lety +2

      Sorry for your lost🖤

    • @sm1le_b1g
      @sm1le_b1g Před 4 lety +2

      Sevetta Delgado I feel you so bad

    • @lauren-qp1we
      @lauren-qp1we Před 4 lety +3

      Whenever this happens, we all wish we had known. But they are watching you, seeing you grow to be older, don't let their death stop you from being you. It may take a while but, the love you have for them now will make them happy

    • @mibkle
      @mibkle Před 4 lety +2

      I’m sorry for your lost. My grandmother was the one who raised me, too. My ex best friend told me to get over my grandmother’s passing..

  • @dreamybeats4531
    @dreamybeats4531 Před 4 lety +3988

    I haven’t lost anyone. Yet The comments make me really grateful my friends and family are safe! I’m sorry for everyone’s loss! :(

    • @irelyneasterling2311
      @irelyneasterling2311 Před 4 lety +22

      I agree, and I'm apparently the 100th person that does too!

    • @tabinarahman5428
      @tabinarahman5428 Před 4 lety +1

      yea same

    • @dywsliws
      @dywsliws Před 4 lety +4

      that day will come

    • @uMaud
      @uMaud Před 4 lety +6

      😅 On a less sad note for my part:
      I never really lost my own best friend, I just realised she wasn't a good friend and I had to cut off with her for my and my current best friend mental health.
      But I think I'm starting to realise my current bestie might feel like she's slowly loosing me, as I'm isolating myself more and more, so I (again) feel bad for not being as present, supportive and cheerful as I used to because she honnestly deserves the best.

    • @lilyHussey
      @lilyHussey Před 4 lety

      It's hard....

  • @averivaughn6678
    @averivaughn6678 Před 4 lety +635

    The dislikes are from people who can’t stand to see her sadness.

    • @birdtabloid1704
      @birdtabloid1704 Před 4 lety +1

      They are just people who don't care

    • @martynauranowska5809
      @martynauranowska5809 Před 4 lety

      They just think that if they hurt someone and the person would feel bad they'd be less sad (idk if you understand)

    • @birdtabloid1704
      @birdtabloid1704 Před 4 lety

      @@martynauranowska5809 well that's just stupid if you don't like it don't press anything
      You don't need to make someone feel upset especially after reading the title

  • @nightlife1578
    @nightlife1578 Před 4 lety +358

    I lost 12 family members in the spam of 2 months and I want everyone in the comments to know that your loved one will never be forgotten sending love and prayers and I hope one day you'll be able to think of your loved one and it not be so painful anymore ❤️❤️❤️
    Edit: Thank you everyone for your love and support though I am in pain I still think it's very important to spread love. Be safe everyone❤️

    • @rainingtacos7693
      @rainingtacos7693 Před 4 lety +8

    • @scaravsstt
      @scaravsstt Před 4 lety +34

      Oh my fucking god i'm so sorry that hapened to you, please be strong ♥️

    • @nesrin1116
      @nesrin1116 Před 4 lety +11

      I'm sorry

    • @doyoulikejazz6659
      @doyoulikejazz6659 Před 4 lety +11

      Be strong, I’m sorry this happened to you. ❤️❤️

    • @vidia2649
      @vidia2649 Před 4 lety +7

      I'm so sorry this happened, sending loves and hugs to you❤ you can get thru this ❤❤

  • @oliviazito8636
    @oliviazito8636 Před 4 lety +43

    I remember this one girl..she was the first friend I have ever made in school. We were in Kindergarten all the way to 2nd grade until I moved schools. She always suffered from some type of breathing problem, and was always sent to the hospital to be hooked up on machines. When I looked her name up online not so long ago, it appeared that she had died the year after I had left to my new school.
    The doctor told her that she wasn’t gonna live for long, so instead of her suffering she removed the breathing mask when nobody was around. Basically committing suicide before actually dying. She was only 9 years old, but goddam without her I would have been alone for my first 2 years of school with her.

    • @fionarutledge
      @fionarutledge Před 4 lety +1

      That little gir was so strong to be able to do that.

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ Před 4 lety +1

      omg...hope she rests in peace..she was so brave and strong..😢❤

  • @velvet1834
    @velvet1834 Před 4 lety +2053

    *The dislikes are from people crying that they didn’t see it was the dislike button.*

    • @noctluccae
      @noctluccae Před 4 lety +7

      70 dislikes and u have 80 likes now haha u r true

    • @ikutie5685
      @ikutie5685 Před 4 lety +10

      They have no heart

    • @user-ro9ed9lc7v
      @user-ro9ed9lc7v Před 4 lety +17

      It's called Mislikes

    • @ave7949
      @ave7949 Před 4 lety +4

      this comment is used way too much like maybe they disliked it because, well.... *maybe they didn’t like it that’s the whole point of the dislike button*

    • @Idontknow_418
      @Idontknow_418 Před 4 lety +5

      W- what are you doing here human pikachu

  • @AutumnRusso
    @AutumnRusso Před 4 lety +1562

    *sending virtual hugs to everyone who lost someone* 🤗💓

    • @Sanjana-pd3ob
      @Sanjana-pd3ob Před 4 lety +4

      Thank you it means a TON 😊

    • @moonflower3097
      @moonflower3097 Před 4 lety +2

      ^~^
      > >
      Ty for da hug, these replies remind me of all the friends i have. I move alot because of personal stuff, and i never had a friend that i would have as a friend forever. But i have some people online as friends atleast =3

    • @jenztopia
      @jenztopia Před 4 lety +2

      Air hugs :D

    • @wassserechweinnn45
      @wassserechweinnn45 Před 4 lety +2

      Thank you so much!♡♡♡ It means a lot for me😊🤗 Btw I wanna send a virtual hug for you too!❤❤

    • @lilyh0207
      @lilyh0207 Před 4 lety +3

      Thanks 💖

  • @matiasrijofilipe
    @matiasrijofilipe Před 4 lety +54

    I was diagnosed with Leukemia. And my best friend told me when I came to the first class on 1 grade,she said she felt so happy that I was good and healthy, now I know that I always count on her. She is my savior and my hope that I’m here right now. Healthy and relieved that the leukemia as passed away. When I saw this video I now that when she moves to a different city or country I will paint a poem that she written on 4 grade. Its called the roses are you. Best and the most beautiful human being in my life.

  • @777q
    @777q Před 4 lety +86

    I haven’t lost a friend yet but my cousin did pass away from cancer when she was around 11 or 12. The sad thing is I never really got time to hang out with her...she came over to my house once and we had fun and talked a bit, I just wished I could have hangout with her more when she was here....it’s been about what 2-3 years since then and I still think about her to this day.
    edit: I just lose a aunt yesterday from a overdose of alcohol and I pretty sure were going to here funeral at Friday since she live far away and we have to travel far. She was a great aunt and mom to her children. Now here daughter’s daughter’s won’t have a grandma no more...I’m sad since she was like the best aunt u would probably want tbh. I wish she was still here and I could see her at least one more time.

    • @thevipblink8571
      @thevipblink8571 Před 4 lety +3

      **virtual hug**

    • @s_eclipse6282
      @s_eclipse6282 Před 4 lety

      I have a very close cousin who has not died but i have a bff who i lost named Lilly because a car crash

  • @minifinchy811
    @minifinchy811 Před 4 lety +953

    I lost a friend due to a bike accident, he was hit by a car riding his bike. He was also my hockey teammate and I think about him almost everyday.

    • @izzzyglizzy
      @izzzyglizzy Před 4 lety +7

      Im so sorry 😔

    • @vernicyy9280
      @vernicyy9280 Před 4 lety +6

      my best friend died a slow, painful death. but at least he was with me the whole time.
      ✨🕊1972-2018🕊✨

    • @grakatacc
      @grakatacc Před 4 lety +4

      Finchy I’m praying for you, God bless. ❤️

    • @ivyiel3631
      @ivyiel3631 Před 4 lety +1

      I- I'm so sorry to hear that

    • @rawwr2927
      @rawwr2927 Před 4 lety +1

      Sorry for your lost

  • @PurpleKim97
    @PurpleKim97 Před 4 lety +2978

    This reminds me of my childhood friend 11 years ago. She died of cancer. She was loved by so many people, her family, her friends. She had everything she needed but she wasn't able to do something what she really wanted. It really hurts.

    • @klikklock
      @klikklock Před 4 lety +54

      I’m sorry, let’s believe she helps paint the sun. Whenever you see the sky, think of her.

    • @shreyashi9397
      @shreyashi9397 Před 4 lety +10

      Ah..this is very sad to hear....😶☹️

    • @kathleenacosta4200
      @kathleenacosta4200 Před 4 lety +3

      😢😢

    • @wandersonsynn5343
      @wandersonsynn5343 Před 4 lety +10

      Same. It was 2018, my bestfriend died cause of cancer, I don’t know why I didn’t want to face the truth that she have cancer and keep wiping it off and say maybe she is sick and she have some other illness losing her hair, I was numb at her funeral and couldn’t think anything else, since I already bursting out tears when the teacher announced the news at class.

    • @soph.22
      @soph.22 Před 4 lety +5

      StrongGirlCrush my aunt died of cancer last December. I miss her so much and this video just brought me to tears. I know what it feels like to loose someone you love. I also lost my godmother in March of 2019. It really sucks and hurts.

  • @lillaw5257
    @lillaw5257 Před 4 lety +148

    Dear stranger,
    I hope you’re all doing alright! I know times can get tough but I know that you’ll get through them. You might feel worthless and sad sometimes and that’s completely alright. You might burst out crying and that’s completely alright . I believe in you, stranger, even if you don’t believe in yourself.
    Stay strong
    Love from Angel

  • @carzy_s.9274
    @carzy_s.9274 Před 4 lety +44

    While watching this it reminded me of the time when my two bestfriends and i got into a fight over a stupid small thing and we literally ignored each other for like months and everytime i see them together and happy without me just hurts... I sometimes try to fix things but it just ends with them pushing me away further...
    I sometimes cry myself to sleep and blame myself for everything..
    and this one time one of my ex bestfriends literally told me that they’re better without me....
    We eventually apologised to each other and became friends again but it doesn’t feel the same anymore... it doesn’t feel real anymore...i just hope that they’re both happy and safe...

    • @lucialopez-ibor7607
      @lucialopez-ibor7607 Před 4 lety +2

      I hope you feel better soon

    • @jenniferrincon7973
      @jenniferrincon7973 Před 4 lety +3

      This is happening to me, exactly the same thing but more recent. I don’t know what to do but it hurts so much. This video was in my recommended and I was so hurt/shocked/offended by it haha, but I kinda needed to read these comments especially yours. But as bad as the situation is I’m glad someone understands what I’m going through

    • @carzy_s.9274
      @carzy_s.9274 Před 4 lety +2

      Jennifer Rincon i hope you’re okay now

    • @carzy_s.9274
      @carzy_s.9274 Před 4 lety +1

      Lucía Lopez-ibor i’m okay now we actually talked about it and are trying to move on and forget the past and start again..

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ Před 4 lety +1

      the same thing is happening to me..and we're still in the ignoring stage..and i know she never was my friend..cause like i tried so many she didn't i tried so many times to talk like best friends and she replied to me like a stranger..it kinda breaks my heart...but i know she doesn't deserves me..and if she's fine without me..ik i will be fine without her...she even said that "we were never best friends or even friends" like what..i have been friends withher for 7 years..

  • @Hyunlyn69
    @Hyunlyn69 Před 4 lety +1911

    I lost my best friend to suicide.
    He was an amazing person, he was very shy and I still remember his smile when he got to know my other friends, I miss seeing his eyes sparkle when he would tell me about astronomy or something funny that happened. He was going to surprise me by coming to illinois to visit me. I didn’t deserve him, he was an angel. He was there for me when I needed him most, he supported me, he made me laugh, he was a part of me.
    It’s been a year. I have moments where I know he’s with me and I’m thankful for that. His birthday was a couple of months ago. I miss you, Alex. 💜
    Edit: You’re all very sweet and deserve the whole world, I hope you all are happy and thriving. 💗

    • @deaddez7913
      @deaddez7913 Před 4 lety +55

      He sounds like he’s an amazing person :)

    • @toxicflatulence9437
      @toxicflatulence9437 Před 4 lety +55

      I am back! (I'm just trying to make you happy)

    • @Hyunlyn69
      @Hyunlyn69 Před 4 lety +19

      Desu R He was, thank you 🥺

    • @Hyunlyn69
      @Hyunlyn69 Před 4 lety +34

      Alex Lol, I appreciate the thought.

    • @cansusel4273
      @cansusel4273 Před 4 lety +42

      Don't think that you don' t deserve him. Of course you do. You have a high opinion of him. You are loving him. That shows youre deserving him. I bet your best friend was loving you too. My English may not be so good, sorry for that. Be good 👋🏻

  • @chilenayrarafrann7896
    @chilenayrarafrann7896 Před 4 lety +4385

    My close friend overdosed last August and yeah, it’s really hard to listen to some music or watch some movies with sobbing and I know I’ll probably never truly move forward, this pain and grief is probably something I’ll always live with and I’m fine with it, my grades are still good and i still laugh but there’s also that emptiness when I achieve stuff bc all I can think is ‘would she be proud of me??’ This video is truely gorgeous and my heart is with all of those who have lost a dear friend, it’s hard but trust me everyday gets easier to breathe and to get out of bed. Some days you will fall back into bed and cry and that’s fine, we all fall back sometimes but we must learn to stand up and dry our tears. We can’t let life’s moments pass us by 💕💕

    • @mariaalqudah2373
      @mariaalqudah2373 Před 4 lety +52

      I really needed to read that..... Thanks😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

    • @jaybonn5973
      @jaybonn5973 Před 4 lety +19

      This is the kind of that death can cause not a falling out.

    • @Pillow-talking
      @Pillow-talking Před 4 lety +26

      You're such an inspiration. I can't imagine being that strong had I been in a similar situation. God bless🌻

    • @lifeasatree3999
      @lifeasatree3999 Před 4 lety +15

      Chilenayrara Frann my brother died and yes I understand what you’re saying completely you still laugh and live life but with the emptiness you can’t really replace

    • @Chloe-nr2uw
      @Chloe-nr2uw Před 4 lety +9

      You're such a good best friend!Yes she is very proud of you watching you from above.Don't let anybody down,please continue and stay strong!love you,tpwk!

  • @jerami.ad06
    @jerami.ad06 Před 4 lety +709

    Literally, I lost a Friend a few hours ago. A very very best friend.
    ---
    Sometimes I wonder if the FBI Is really watching me through my phone.
    Edit: thanks for the likes guys.. Ya'll legit made me smile today..
    I'm still tryna move on without my friend but don't worry, I'm doing alright..
    Thank you all very much...-

    • @thesupplyofpower
      @thesupplyofpower Před 4 lety +37

      I‘m so sorry for you, it will all be fine I promise! Have a good day/night

    • @mihriyam4078
      @mihriyam4078 Před 4 lety +17

      I'm so sorry I hope you will feel better later

    • @kchehe
      @kchehe Před 4 lety +15

      I’m so sorry for your lost. I hope everything becomes better soon.
      And I was wondering the same thing. When I had issues with my friend, I didn’t search up or watch anything about it. But my CZcams recommendations were filled with how to fix friendship “therapy” videos.
      When I fully lost her as a friend, it was filled with hating best friend videos.

    • @jerami.ad06
      @jerami.ad06 Před 4 lety +4

      @@kchehe thank you very much
      &I hope you get better soon.
      Gotta move on in this cold world :`(

    • @felicityjuckes6152
      @felicityjuckes6152 Před 4 lety +9

      Im so glad you can still make jokes after everything that has happened!

  • @skybright9447
    @skybright9447 Před 4 lety +3

    "Verily, with great hardship comes ease"

  • @Sugiiboo
    @Sugiiboo Před 4 lety +1855

    Loosing a best friend is the worst thing ever. I lost my best friend(bf at the time aswell) do to cancer, i wasnt allowed to go to his funeral neither was able to, i wished i could've said ily one more time. I made his wish and kept on going for music, kept on living, depression hit me for a while cause i didnt know who to lean on after that. I was able to keep on going because of some friends, but there is never a second were i dont miss him.
    Alot of love to everyone who is having a hard time ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @citrus8884
    @citrus8884 Před 4 lety +1027

    I’m so sorry. I only have 1 person in the world, my best friend and I can’t imagine living without her.

    • @emmahart1549
      @emmahart1549 Před 4 lety +13

      Yeah, my best friend was in Japan when covid came along and now she's trapped in Japan until 2021. Everything is rather bleak now.

    • @emmahart1549
      @emmahart1549 Před 4 lety +7

      I can't imagine living without her forever though

    • @agnesgabriele6502
      @agnesgabriele6502 Před 4 lety +16

      Be happy about having this person in your life. I have some friends, but none of them is a real close friend. I'm always thinking about what to say or to do. I really like them and they like me but I think I need them more then they need me and I am never 100% comfortable with them.

    • @leafychu7991
      @leafychu7991 Před 4 lety +2

      Same, Citrus. My best friend is the only person that really cares about me, I care about her to

    • @luna_4721
      @luna_4721 Před 4 lety +1

      Same... My life truly depends on my two best friends

  • @lynagamer2918
    @lynagamer2918 Před 4 lety +43

    My best friend of 7 years messaged me and said " i don't want to be your friend anymore, o found better friends and i don't need you," i said " what about our 7 years of friendship" she said "and? Idc lol"
    I cried for a week 😭
    I've been noticing that she has been talking to me less but i wasn't expecting that 😭
    edit : i'm sorry for who lost their best friend by passing away may they rest in peace
    and if you lost your best friend by losing friendship i'm also sorry
    it's been a year since she sent me that message and it also was on my birthday ,i'm still sad about it everyday and i can't ferget about her at all and no i have no friends and i'm always alone

    • @mag2094
      @mag2094 Před 4 lety +3

      I’m sorry about that but just remember everything must come to an end and she finished her chapter of your friendship and you must to but never forget

    • @veelinqs
      @veelinqs Před 4 lety +3

      Oml im so sorry i Hope you find better friends ❤

    • @y0vg0tm33
      @y0vg0tm33 Před 4 lety +1

      It's the same for me..

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ Před 4 lety +4

      you didn't lose her.....she lost you❤...you are a queen....and you deserve the world and not friends like that

    • @lynagamer2918
      @lynagamer2918 Před 4 lety +1

      @@levisteacup_ thanks 💗

  • @lucasscheider7808
    @lucasscheider7808 Před 4 lety +22

    This made me remember when I was about to start highschool. But 2 days before school starts, I was so excited especially my uncle. He was excited to see me grow and I made a promise that I will ace everything. But he passed away... It broke my heart. I became so depressed, I was still young and naive then. Yes... I achieve what I wanted, I made him my motivation. My uncle became my bestfriend. Someone who I can lean on with my problems. He is the reason why my talents developed, Because of his support on what I thought I couldn't do. Many people praised me with my talent... But soon enough, It felt empty. Everyone said, They envied me. I became popular, By my singing, dancing, art, and studying... But they haven't seen me broken down into tears before. They thought I was happy, and cheerful. But deep inside I was empty.
    And yes... I attempted suicide before... But my friends opened my eyes especially my teachers. Soon enough my teachers talked to me on whats wrong, because they heard me broke down in one of the bathroom stalls. I told them everything... And one thing that I realised.
    Suicide is never the answer. I was naive at that time. My brain kept me thinking that it was the end of e world. But it actually isn't. You have your family, friends, people there for you. Before you do anything rash. Think about it. Is this really the end? Am I really giving up? What would everyone think about when I die? If you feel that you are alone. Talk to someone, that knows how to give you advice.
    Because in the end of the day... There is hope. This is what life is. It is filled with so much hardship that we should face. Because they are obstacles, Yes sometimes we will hit rock bottom. But we should know how to climb back. Because you always have a chance to get back up to your own fit. You learn from your mistakes.
    Stay safe everyone~

    • @mag2094
      @mag2094 Před 4 lety +2

      I am so glad you achieved your goals and found a person to talk to

  • @sabiealdover
    @sabiealdover Před 4 lety +1518

    coincidental that this gets recommended to me. a close friend of mine died just earlier in march, and i miss her dearly. i miss her, so so much. we had been classmates for 4 years. we were going to graduate to senior high together this may. the last week before our classes were suspended due to the virus was the week we said our final goodbyes. her wake, her last mass, the very last time we saw her. i feel sad a lot, i mourn a lot, but i am learning to heal, too. i remember her in all the small, beautiful things that i see. i remember her in sunrise, in the sunset. in purple skies (her favourite colour was purple). in songs that she covered and let me hear (everglow by coldplay will never be the same again), and in movies we loved together (i can't watch black panther without missing her). it hurts, to only have memories; to only have what was; to only have what might have been, but she still brings me happiness in those small ways. she was an angel to many during her short time on this earth, and i gain comfort in the fact that she will forever be an angel, up there in the skies. she's a star. she will always be a star to me. i love you, b.

    • @itsmehoney9468
      @itsmehoney9468 Před 4 lety +53

      I'm SO sorry to hear that, I hope that you are recovering. you seem like an amazing person and doesn't deserve this. But God is there and will help you, believe in yourself. If you need any company I'm more than happy to help. may God bless you ♥️

    • @jelly.beanz_
      @jelly.beanz_ Před 4 lety +16

      I'm happy you're learning to heal. 💜

    • @guisanteelvenus
      @guisanteelvenus Před 4 lety +28

      This comment made me cry, I feel so sorry about you, all my support dear stranger

    • @castrophee7279
      @castrophee7279 Před 4 lety +9

      I’m so sorry for your loss, I pray that god is with you in this sad time in your life and that all your memories of her will soon bring you happiness instead of pain💜😇

    • @avie103
      @avie103 Před 4 lety +10

      I’m not crying your crying 😢

  • @kirstyhutchinson7171
    @kirstyhutchinson7171 Před 4 lety +436

    I lost my dad to cancer 2 months ago, I feel heartbroken. To anyone who’s going through the same thing, just know people are there for you at all times, I know your doubting it. I’m there.

    • @marianafarias7928
      @marianafarias7928 Před 4 lety +8

      I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my dad 3 months ago so I know what you're going through

    • @daniella4673
      @daniella4673 Před 4 lety +6

      same mine died this year on january 5th

    • @yo_9499
      @yo_9499 Před 4 lety +4

      @belle rip 😔 my dad went to buy milk 4 years ago

    • @funky2121
      @funky2121 Před 4 lety +1

      @@yo_9499 That Is sad 😔✋-

    • @awkwardambivert7874
      @awkwardambivert7874 Před 4 lety +2

      I felt this,, I also my lost ny dad 3 months ago and it really sucks and I miss him everyday. All I have is my mom and I don't know what to do if I lose her too.

  • @becca_equinexx9674
    @becca_equinexx9674 Před 4 lety +75

    I lost my best friend Dolly my horse. She was always there as support whenever i needed her and was a way of coping with all the things that went on in my life...a sort of comfort blanket. Our rides together were...interesting but even if we werent as good as the olimpic riders and horses we were best friends and nothing could break us apart. I knew her since i was 5 and im now 13. She was put down 3 month ago on the 30.4.20. Things have never been the same without her and seeing the pictures of us together around my room makes me cry everyday but nothing will ever make me take them down because she is the most special thing to me in the whole world and losing her made me....feel empty. Like i didnt have a place here anymore because now i had lost my best friend and there was nothing i could do to get her back. I wish i could have given her one last cuddle and a goodbye. If there was anything i would say to her it would be this- Dolly, thankyou SO much for being with me. You have no idea how much i love you and how much you mean to me. Seeing your headcollar hung up on my door makes me remember all the amazing times we got to have together and i cant thank you enough for it. You taught me so much and not just how to ride but you taught me that no one is perfect, patience,resilience and to sit back after a jump...i learned the hard way when i didnt sit back...i fell down your neck and hurt my spine but that didnt stop me from getting back on and trying again because you were always willing to try again with me. Thankyou SO MUCH i love you more than you will ever imagine. I cant wait to see you again one day you crazy bean💖I love you Dolly💖30.4.20💫

    • @slekdidwbfi8692
      @slekdidwbfi8692 Před 4 lety +2

      Sending you all the love❤

    • @mimoseae6215
      @mimoseae6215 Před 4 lety +3

      I’m so sorry for your loss, stay strong!! ❤️❤️

    • @mihriyam4078
      @mihriyam4078 Před 4 lety +2

      I'm so so sorry for your loss

    • @averyprice6134
      @averyprice6134 Před 4 lety +1

      I understand your pain. I love my pony Seymour. He’s my best friend. I can’t Imagine losing him. Even though I know it will come one day. I try to spend as much time with him as I can. He understands me just like how I understand him. He makes me feel loved everyday. I love him i am scared for the future when he will pass but right now I have him and that is all that madders. I’ve lost one other horse when I was little. She was also my best friend and I loved her. I wasn’t there to say goodbye and it still hurts me today. But I know I still have her with me whenever I ride. I love her even though it’s hard to still remember what she looks like. The one memory that I have is of us standing in the barn me hugging her head and her giving me as much love I have her back. I’m so happy that I got to love her before she passed. I still remember the night when I got the call from my grandma. I cried for a while. But I still have her with me. And everyday I am so thankful that I am even able to have such an amazing animal that cares and loves you as much as you love and care for them. Thank you Seymour and Delaney for always being there for me. I love you with all of my heart ❤️

    • @becca_equinexx9674
      @becca_equinexx9674 Před 4 lety +1

      @@jossymarie that is so sweet💖 Dolly had arthritis in her back legs for a while and at one point i stopped riding her because of it but i didnt mind. One day after school i went to the farm where she was kept and fed her treats and gave her cuddles until the sun was gone and i am SO grateful that the last thing i ever told her was "i love you Dolly". One morning she woke up and the arthritis made her collapse and she couldnt move or stand up so she was put down. Putting her down was the best thing we could do for her because the vet said there was nothing they could do to help her.
      I didnt get to see her pass as the UK (Where i live) was in full lockdown bc of corona. Her grave rests peacefully under the apple tree in the field💖🐎

  • @leperdacash6633
    @leperdacash6633 Před 4 lety +28

    I know my story is like none of the ones here. I mean I haven't really lost anyone to death but I did lose my elder sister. She left us when I was about 7 years old or something. I don't really remember and I can't ask my parents because We just never talk about it. I miss her so much sometimes. I just think about how my life would be so different if she was still with me but she's not. She left me voluntarily. I think that's why it pains more. I don't know how to feel about her because everyone just talks about how mean and rude and selfish she was. All I remember is how much she loved me and how we used to have so much fun together like dancing and how she taught me how to braid my hair. And then she just left me and never looked back. I have this photo where I am with her and I am so happy. I just look at it whenever I feel lonely and sad.Its the only picture that I have of me and her. I always felt safe when I was younger because I always thought she would be with me every step of the way. I just remember a few happy memories with her. I can't recall other memories at all. Its like as if my mind is protecting me from those bad memories of her leaving and my parents suffering. It's all a blur and I am grateful for that. I used to be really sad but now I am at a really good place because I finally trust God. I am happy to say that I finally understand now that everything happens for a reason.

  • @shin6985
    @shin6985 Před 4 lety +152

    It looks like the canvas is crying too with the paint dripping down...

  • @robynbridge
    @robynbridge Před 4 lety +4017

    if anyone dislikes this video i’m gonna *throw hands* this is beautiful 🥺☁️

    • @triciarose6501
      @triciarose6501 Před 4 lety +13

      im so happy that no one disliked :((

    • @naive.834
      @naive.834 Před 4 lety +36

      there's one that disliked, y'all wanna raid 😌

    • @Melody_Bird
      @Melody_Bird Před 4 lety +33

      I guess i got a couple hands to spare

    • @hiyaitsmoriah
      @hiyaitsmoriah Před 4 lety +13

      alright, im ready to attack and make them feel the wrath of my chinelas

    • @aleciaguilbeau1980
      @aleciaguilbeau1980 Před 4 lety +9

      omg someone disliked ATTACK

  • @syidaz3643
    @syidaz3643 Před 4 lety +2

    Personally, i feel like no one will ever heal from losing best friends.
    It hurts not being appreciated, it hurts to always be the last option and it hurts to not be anyone's priority. It hurts so much when you lose someone that you'll never be able to see again. But it also hurtsa lot to see someone drift apart, still around you but you no longer feel the same love you received before. It hurts. And they're happy while you're alone feeling fucked up for feeling your feelings.
    I lost mine, now they're just strangers that i used to know.

  • @doggolover2174
    @doggolover2174 Před 4 lety +37

    I have just lost a friend unexpectedly. She just texted me and another friend ‘I have blocked you and we are not friends anymore’ she then unblocked us for a minute and said ‘Something has happened to me and I don’t feel like being friends’
    I’m upset,very upset but as long as she is happy I’ll be alright.
    Our friendship has lasted 2017-2020 we bonded over shows like Steven Universe. I never saw this coming.
    I have lost a friend
    I have lost some light
    I’m gushing with tears
    I need some more light
    But no one can you replace you
    Not even a kite
    - Dizzii Star 28/06/20
    It means losing a friend is losing some light. The kite part might not make sense but it rhymes lol
    I’ll miss you.

  • @elianaw2583
    @elianaw2583 Před 4 lety +267

    reminder, to everyone- even when it feels impossible, the sun still rises. nothing hurts more than you hurting yourself. please be easy on you, you’re amazing inside and out and you deserve the best. everything happens for a reason. it will be ok. i promise. keep your chin held high👑 you can do this.

  • @NeverLiveToRegret
    @NeverLiveToRegret Před 4 lety +502

    I've lost my best friend due to a car accident last august. I am concerned that I will lose my parents one day but oh boy, nothing prepares you for that one call. That call that you would have NEVER expected in lifetime. That call that would change life forever. I thought I would be the first to pass away but life is unpredictable. I was the one who called the other friends to tell them, and again, it's one thing to handle your pain, but another to "cause" pain to others because it's you who tell them. I have so much love and gratitude for her and she was the best what could've happened to me.
    I feel so sorry for all of you who have gone through grief. Life isn't fair at all. But we can just feel happy for the fact that we could have spent time with them,no matter how much of a time.
    Amo, ich lieb'dich.

    • @goldfinch907
      @goldfinch907 Před 4 lety +9

      I’m so sorry, while I’m lucky to have never lost a friend, I can’t imagine how horrible it is. ❤️ I hope you are doing well. I am not really good at giving people support or anything, but I hope you feel better soon. ❤️

    • @lenabellacinderella2049
      @lenabellacinderella2049 Před 4 lety

      I am haunted. My birthday is in August and last August I didn’t have a birthday. Oof. And sorry for your loss... I lost my bestie from just not hanging out anymore. We just lost each other...

    • @goldfinch907
      @goldfinch907 Před 4 lety

      @@lenabellacinderella2049 That's how I lose most my friends sadly, we just slowly drift apart.

    • @talithamenting788
      @talithamenting788 Před 4 lety

      I also lost my best friend 2 years ago. I was too the one that had to tell my other friends in person. It was the most hardest thing i had ever done in my life. Is still think of that one day every day.
      I'm so sorry for you.

    • @NeverLiveToRegret
      @NeverLiveToRegret Před 4 lety

      @@talithamenting788 i am sorry for you, too.
      And I do think about it every day. And I guess it will never really "go away" but slowly we can learn to live with it.

  • @Ari-tr2uh
    @Ari-tr2uh Před 4 lety +2

    I remember my bestfriend. He died in a gang shoot out...his body was discovered 5 days later...he was shot on the arm and in the stomach. Doctors said he died from bleeding out and stomach infections that ate away his body tissue. Losing a bestfriend is like losing a soulmate that understood you. ❤ lots of love down !!

  • @suggamumma9003
    @suggamumma9003 Před 4 lety +10

    she's so pretty inside out, deserves genuinely so much in life.

  • @ericdtrt4260
    @ericdtrt4260 Před 4 lety +3239

    i never thought watching a painting timelapse would bring tears to my eyes shucks. your feelings reached me. i can't imagine waking up each day knowing someone who i became so close with leave for a life time. ghaaad why is this making me so emotional geez hahaha

    • @misty56770
      @misty56770 Před 4 lety +16

      Eric VIncent Dotarot same here. I’m not a big crier, but I’m bawling right now.

    • @Ouiamsart
      @Ouiamsart Před 4 lety +2

      Eric VIncent Dotarot same

    • @xo.thevoid
      @xo.thevoid Před 4 lety

      ebby same

    • @MochWochi
      @MochWochi Před 4 lety +9

      Yeah it really sucks, staying up all night wondering what you did wrong, and wishing you could go back and change how things happened but you cant....... there gone forever... and that's really the worst part of it. I was writing this through tears so sorry if I spelled snyhting wrong.

    • @skyemishuku4415
      @skyemishuku4415 Před 4 lety +2

      huhu bro its gon be aight

  • @itsbritneybitch8426
    @itsbritneybitch8426 Před 4 lety +1276

    Ik how it feels, I made friends w/ a girl who was depressed. She got better, we became bffs, then something happened at school.....the next day I didn’t see her, and it continued....so I when to her house and saw her dad a mum yelling at her for being lesbian. So I slapped them and took her to my place. She asked for a shower and that’s the last time I saw her perfect smile.....

    • @ria4330
      @ria4330 Před 4 lety +40

      She commit suicide?

    • @kaoshiyuki
      @kaoshiyuki Před 4 lety +92

      Oh my gosh, that must've been horrible for you... I'm so sorry

    • @buggies
      @buggies Před 4 lety +35

      Did she commit suicide?...

    • @jgoh662
      @jgoh662 Před 4 lety +63

      im so so sorry. i cant even begin to imagine how awful that must be. sending love and prayers...

    • @christelmoya7957
      @christelmoya7957 Před 4 lety +13

      So sad 😢

  • @ebjdas8075
    @ebjdas8075 Před 4 lety +3

    It's so sad that you never realise how much you love somebody until they dissapear.....

  • @elizabethwhittenberg2989
    @elizabethwhittenberg2989 Před 4 lety +2

    i lost my bff 5 months ago and literally thought i was going to die it hurt so bad. if anyone is going through that rn remember ur not alone and it’s gunna get better even if it doesn’t seem like that rn. if the way they r treating u is wrong it shows more about them then it does u. u r loved and ur here for a beautiful purpose. u can change the world with a smile! ❤️ ☀️ 😊

    • @Blackbutterflyt888
      @Blackbutterflyt888 Před 4 lety +2

      I found light, Luna your light and it's equal to my darkness. I'm so sorry for taking a long time to find it. Please keep watching over me I can't do it without you.... please. (Read my description)

  • @itzjustelli1129
    @itzjustelli1129 Před 4 lety +466

    Why am I watching this?
    Oh right, cuz I feel like Im losing my BestFriend...

    • @---qm4go
      @---qm4go Před 4 lety +32

      If you feel like you're losing your best friend, try talking to her about your insecurities or hers/his. It will really help. I lost my best friend, my soulmate because I did not talk with her, have a heart to heart conversation. All relationships needs talk and trust. These two is the most important thing in a relationship. Be it love or friendship. Remember, do not do anything that you will regret. Let me tell you, it fcking hurts.

    • @itzjustelli1129
      @itzjustelli1129 Před 4 lety +9

      萱狼之 Thanks.... and hope you stay safe during this pandemic. Dont lose hope!

    • @crazyvarun319
      @crazyvarun319 Před 4 lety +6

      Same 3 of them

    • @cassandrablake4503
      @cassandrablake4503 Před 4 lety +2

      I lost her already.

    • @kchehe
      @kchehe Před 4 lety +5

      I lost my best friend.
      It was almost our 5th year anniversary and a week before my birthday.
      We were kinda losing touch anyways. And at least she’s happier with her new friends.
      But at least she’s not completely gone like others so I’m grateful.
      And if you can’t fix your friendship, maybe it wasn’t meant to be. It’s easier to let go sometimes then to try fix or hold on to them. I’m sorry if I’m being rude or a bit careless to your feelings.
      Hope everything works out for you guys.

  • @nimuemae623
    @nimuemae623 Před 4 lety +624

    I want him back... I'd do literally everything. He was my best friend for over three years and my partner for half of the time. I was never without him.
    But I hurted him so hard... I'm so sorry I can't describe it.
    I still love him, but I made him lose his trust in me...
    This video made me cry really bad. So please, everyone who reads this, do it how she's saying in the description, show your friends your love and be honest to them.

    • @Ana-mw3iv
      @Ana-mw3iv Před 4 lety +11

      I'm so sorry to read this.. I don't know what I'd do without my best buds..just know wherever he is he loves you as much as you do.. 💓

    • @skyadolescent3175
      @skyadolescent3175 Před 4 lety +7

      You are not alone

    • @deki2928
      @deki2928 Před 4 lety +1

      im so sorry

  • @Lniy.
    @Lniy. Před 4 lety +4

    I haven't in my entire life lost a person, but living with depression, feels like i lost everyone even myself,, like im lost and alone in 1 world..
    Idk how it is to lose someone soo, but i know 1 thing..
    Everything will get better, and you're not alone :)

  • @kaasbroodje1329
    @kaasbroodje1329 Před 4 lety +6

    I lost my stepdad, I found him laying dead on the floor with blood after he had an heart attack. I was about to turn 11 now I’m almost 12 so it has been a year. After fighting every tear I am so grateful with what ended up with and I’m really sorry for everyone who has lost one of their family members, friends or any other loved ones. ❤️

  • @katelynsummerlove6365
    @katelynsummerlove6365 Před 4 lety +549

    I lost my sister when i was 6. She was 9. She was all i had at that time. My sister, my best friend, my family, my everything. I'm glad it happened when i was so young and couldn't really understand. I can't imagine loosing her later in life. My prayers to all the people that are going through that kind of phase right now. Stay strong. You are loved and people need you. We love you❤️

    • @rowan6955
      @rowan6955 Před 4 lety +21

      I almost lost my older sister. Because she was suicidal and had depression. It hurt for me and her. It was the worst year. Having to keep a smile on knowing every thing was falling apart. Parents arguing and me having to grab my tablet so my sister could call the suicide hotline. She doesn't have it today or she just doesn't talk about it. My bestfriend doing perverted things to me (this was only last year). I'm an outcast and probably will always be. Im young but it hurts to think about the past. I'm sorry that happened to you.(╯︵╰,)

    • @lisamarie137
      @lisamarie137 Před 4 lety +8

      @@rowan6955 u okay now? Can I help?

    • @zannatulsneha2400
      @zannatulsneha2400 Před 4 lety +10

      @@rowan6955 I think you and your sister should listen to and read the lyrics of the song "Don't Leave Me" by BTS. Believe it or not, their songs and the meanings and messages behind it has saved many lives. I have recovered from a slight depression I had before it got worse after listening to their songs as well!
      And no, I'm not promoting them or anything, I'm not forcing you either. It's just something that worked for me and many other people. So, I suggest you and your sister to try listening to some of their songs as well
      And please don't forget to let me know how you thought of it

    • @zannatulsneha2400
      @zannatulsneha2400 Před 4 lety +7

      @@rowan6955 And please, do not ever call yourself an outcast. You're important like anyone else. Everyone is unique, special and beautiful in their own ways. They just need realise it

    • @katelynsummerlove6365
      @katelynsummerlove6365 Před 4 lety +2

      @@rowan6955 ohhh i hope everything turns out ok:( im so sorry to hear that.

  • @bobthebuilder3392
    @bobthebuilder3392 Před 4 lety +728

    for the sadness should not carry on, but should not be forgotten either :]

  • @JenniferSim_
    @JenniferSim_ Před 4 lety +1

    A painting that looks like a man has reach the heaven but still feels like he missing something, but know that he'll be fine after all even it's hard.

  • @l3afyx921
    @l3afyx921 Před 4 lety +1

    I've never tought a painting could make me cry

  • @ambar.nicole
    @ambar.nicole Před 4 lety +768

    IM SO SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO HAS LOST SOMEONE THEY LOVED OR CARED ABOUT 🥺😭stay strong

    • @rainingtacos7693
      @rainingtacos7693 Před 4 lety +1

    • @s_eclipse6282
      @s_eclipse6282 Před 4 lety +7

      I lost my friend Lilly due to a Car crash thank you for that lovely message stay strong it helps me who lost Lilly love you so much Lilly as I'm writing this im crying hard it's very hard to lose her

    • @Alex-sj4sq
      @Alex-sj4sq Před 4 lety

      Tysm

    • @pedrogoncalves6662
      @pedrogoncalves6662 Před 3 lety

      I lose everyone I love😭😔

    • @rihamelkholi7514
      @rihamelkholi7514 Před 3 lety

      I am sorry for myself

  • @minyoonca5187
    @minyoonca5187 Před 4 lety +560

    My best friend has killed himself only a little over two months ago.. i feel your pain.. he was the only reason why I was alive and he was my everything but now he’s gone... ( I’m sorry for my bad English I’m from Austria...)

    • @ermida8588
      @ermida8588 Před 4 lety +40

      I hope that you are doing ok :(.

    • @cafe_noir8996
      @cafe_noir8996 Před 4 lety +35

      * virtual hug * 💕

    • @hehehehe6530
      @hehehehe6530 Před 4 lety +21

      That’s horrible. I’ll give you something to live for. Idk what but please. Stay with us 💞

    • @stephanie-nm3pr
      @stephanie-nm3pr Před 4 lety +2

      Me trying to understand this comment: 👁👄👁

    • @zoemartinez2438
      @zoemartinez2438 Před 4 lety +9

      I'm so sorry 😔

  • @krishellenberg5715
    @krishellenberg5715 Před 4 lety +6

    I lost an online friend, who didn’t die, he just was fake. He seemed nice at first, but he turned out to be toxic and showed his true colors. His words make me weaker.

  • @yoimiya2558
    @yoimiya2558 Před 4 lety +2

    Aw man i feel bad for everyone who lost their bestfriends 💕
    Most of my childhood i never had true "friends" they always call me names and such they talk behind my back and more.. But now i meet someone who was feeling the same way she used to take out her anger to me but she slowly realized what she was doing now we usually talk everyday but when online school came we dont talk that much, we play games with each other, now i am happy to meet someone like her. I truely am grateful to have such an amazing best friend. Again, i am sorry to people who have lost their best friend, i hope you feel better soon :)

  • @Leonardomgabriel
    @Leonardomgabriel Před 4 lety +92

    I lost my bestfriend too, to suicide, that is kind of how we met, both in the hospital because of suicide we were suppose to be better at least I got better but right when he had the chance to get out of the house he run in front of a train. He was missing for 2 weeks before the police could connect the dots. It gave me hope that he was just wandering but no, he was gone the day he got missing. I was the last person to talk to him. I miss him so much

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 Před 4 lety +2

      I’m so sorry 💜💜 It must have hurt like a bitch and it probably still does. I hope you found a way to be okay. I wish you the best 😔😔

    • @Leonardomgabriel
      @Leonardomgabriel Před 4 lety +1

      @@melitaalmazor8106 yeah and when I watched this video I started crying in my kitchen floor :')

  • @vinodhinijs4399
    @vinodhinijs4399 Před 4 lety +6

    idk why this popped up in my recommendations, and oddly I felt everything. the painting, the vibe, the heartbreak and everything. cause I used to have a few bestfriends,and for some reason I failed to notice that over the years they've moved on and became bestfriends w each other without me, it hurts but I tell myself that I have to move on. I keep thinking back to when we were together and all. sure it isn't as hurtful as what you're going through rn, but I. idk it still hurts and I dk

  • @disnamed8165
    @disnamed8165 Před 4 lety +5

    I lost my friend recently to suicide... this truly inspires me so much, I could feel my friends presence next to me when I started to watch this video, so thank you... I'm grateful that your video made her come back to me, even if it was just for a few minutes, I'm so grateful for just feeling her energy around me, thank you for making that happen...I know the pain that happens when you lose a friend, you feel so depressed...so useless...so guilty... or, at least that's what I felt.... just, again, thank you, I know your friend is looking at you from heaven, and they are proud of you for being strong, and so are we

    • @sm1le_b1g
      @sm1le_b1g Před 4 lety +2

      Dis Named I’m so sorry for your loss. Btw are you a Directioner?🥰

    • @disnamed8165
      @disnamed8165 Před 4 lety +1

      @@sm1le_b1g thank you, and yes, I am a Directioner....and an ARMY too

  • @poclgbtanddisabledlivesmat2254

    When I was 6 years old my best friend drowned in a river not long before my birthday. I remember my 7th birthday it all felt so wrong. My mum says I even wrote him on the invite list to my party. It was just automatic. Losing him almost 10 years ago is something I still struggle to get over. I'm 15 now and there's a lot of feelings I know I don't understand that can be rooted back to my child hood, with losing a friend and having a topsy-turvy home life too. They always say with time you'll heal but I can tell you that you don't. That pain carries with you especially since I was so young and we were so close when it happened that I've never set my feelings straight. When people ask why I'm sad I just say "I've loved and I've lost. Nothing new". All you can do is be brave and stomach it, knowing there's nothing you can do.
    I don't have many memories from when I was 6 years old but I do remember when my dad told me that he had died, I remember where I was and what I was wearing and what i was doing. I also remember setting off balloons at school in his memory; but balloons fly away and eventually pop so I also remember feeling like it was so pointless, like "well 100 yellow balloons won't bring him back".
    I understand how hard it is. In fact, I'm crying right now because I'm thinking about it again.
    I'm 15 and I cry about something that happened 9 years ago. I cry regularly and what hurts me most is that I don't believe in a God anymore, I just believe in solid peace. I hope he's in peace along with your friend that you have also lost. It hurts me because we can only believe, no one knows what comes after all this, and that's what's so hard about death; leaving/letting go. Because to let go is to accept that it's all over, what they were is all over and for nothing except pain and sorrow.
    But it gets better, you heal but you will still hurt. I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you don't feel hurt because you will and I want you to know it's normal to still hurt even after lengths of time and don't tell yourself your feelings aren't valid because they are. You're allowed to hurt; it's the only way to heal.

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock Před 4 lety +14

      I'm only 10 but I'm crying even looking at your comment XD

    • @elchinitofeliz1699
      @elchinitofeliz1699 Před 4 lety +2

      U need a psychologist

    • @animalistic.
      @animalistic. Před 4 lety +8

      Elle Playz Not the time to Put XD rn

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock Před 4 lety +2

      @@animalistic. Sorry....

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock Před 4 lety +2

      @@animalistic. btw how do you have 117 subs and u don't have any videos yet I make videos and I only have 8😭

  • @erinphillips5341
    @erinphillips5341 Před 4 lety +362

    I know that losing a friend relationship wise isn’t as bad as physically but seriously this video made me remember all the time me and my ex bff spent together and actually made me cry my eyes out.

    • @fallenhyakuya2272
      @fallenhyakuya2272 Před 4 lety +6

      I'm exactly in the same situation:(( since I read the title of the video it started hurting for some reason, though I'm glad she can express her feelings through such beautiful art

    • @jungwonloml
      @jungwonloml Před 4 lety

      Same, but I'm glad we're Nutt friends anymore. She was very toxic

    • @BitterJoyXx
      @BitterJoyXx Před 4 lety +1

      Same 🤧

    • @limabeans5430
      @limabeans5430 Před 4 lety +4

      I know how you feel, but it still hurts too. I had a best friend that had severe depression and he said a lot of things towards/about me that I really didn't like. I tried my best to stay strong through it all but the emotional pain got to be too much. So I confronted him about it and we both decided that we'd be better off strangers rather than friends. It still hurts though, thinking about all the fun memories we had together. And how we won't make anymore.

    • @sho_iiii_
      @sho_iiii_ Před 4 lety +1

      Same. I knew a friend since I was seven, befriended her when I was eight and recently we kinda just stopped being friends. I’m sad, but it was for the best probably because she was becoming very toxic. Even after we stopped being friends she continued to try and make life hard for me and my other friends just because she hates all of us now.

  • @pissywissy11
    @pissywissy11 Před 4 lety +2

    This really touches me because I nearly lost my best friend because of suicide and I’ve known her my whole life.

  • @Blackbutterflyt888
    @Blackbutterflyt888 Před 4 lety +12

    He would love that painting he really would.i can tell.

  • @ericwilliams8371
    @ericwilliams8371 Před 4 lety +64

    I love how you included his backpack. I lost my friend Lauren when she fell while rock climbing almost exactly one year ago. When you lose someone, you remember pieces of them vividly like their hair, their eyes, where their locker was, etc. One of her possessions I can picture so well is her backpack. I was jealous of her because she had that backpack for all of high school (I think), but I went through three backpacks in high school! Lauren, I miss you so much and even though you didn’t live long enough to solve the global warming crisis by becoming an environmental engineer, you inspired me and thousands of other people to have your same attitude and drive for life :) 💚

  • @tsu6912
    @tsu6912 Před 4 lety +809

    I lost my best friend when I was in 2nd grade. It all started when one day at school she told me that she is gonna have to change schools. And I was very sad and she was sad too. She stayed with us(class) for a few days before she left. And one time when I came to class I saw she wasn't there and I knew she had already left. Because I came late to school. :( But when I entered the class it was very quite. And my homeroom teacher was standing at the front. So I just walked to my seat and sat down. I asked one of my friends what's going on. And she said that the teacher is going to tell us something. And the teacher said "since everyone is here I would like to say something." She said it was about our friend. And everyone was curious who is that _friend_ . And she said that (my bff) died. When I first heard that I was shocked. She told everyone the story. It's when it was her first day of her new school. And she used a transport to get there(a school van). And while the driver was driving there is a big truck behind them who drove full speed. And then it crashed. The van was kinda flipped. And there were students who had been injured. But my friend didn't survive. The next morning they have burned her. And collect her ashes. And let it go in the sea. And then everyone in my class prayed including me. I am now a prep student. And this is my first year of high school. And yet I will never forget about her. :(
    Edit: Thank you guys so much! All your nice and positive comments means a lot to me! I realized that some of you were about to cry. But don't worry at least my friend is in a better place now... I just wanna say that I really appreciate all your lovely comments! And also thank you for the likes! Stay safe everyone!
    💛💛💛

    • @angelaluisiana6629
      @angelaluisiana6629 Před 4 lety +16

      Thus is so sad :'(

    • @vidrovszki
      @vidrovszki Před 4 lety +16

      I'm so sorry❤️

    • @kalila701
      @kalila701 Před 4 lety +18

      Awh..that so sad :,(
      I'm so sorry about your lost..
      I just wish your best friend is in peace now..
      I hope you the best of luck!
      Just stay strong and never give up on anything
      And I'm pretty sure your best friend is smiling in the clouds watching over you

    • @tsu6912
      @tsu6912 Před 4 lety +3

      @@kalila701 Thank you so much :)

    • @tsu6912
      @tsu6912 Před 4 lety +6

      Thank you all ♥️

  • @Lironf
    @Lironf Před 4 lety +1

    im so sorry for anyone who has lost a loved one, stay strong and remember that it's okay to feel sad

  • @summeronvacation3449
    @summeronvacation3449 Před 4 lety +2

    I did not lose my best friend..but watching this vid made me feel bad for the ppl who lost their loved ones.

  • @elaine3990
    @elaine3990 Před 4 lety +402

    Who hated this video?
    SHE LOST HER BEST FRIEND

    • @genesislopez6840
      @genesislopez6840 Před 4 lety +14

      Maybe they think she is doing it for attention but shes not 😔

    • @sarahjavid4600
      @sarahjavid4600 Před 4 lety +10

      @@genesislopez6840 how could she be doing it for attention it makes mo sense 😔 ( not you but the people who disliked )

    • @lejla5314
      @lejla5314 Před 4 lety +6

      Haters ofc...

    • @dewdrop1169
      @dewdrop1169 Před 4 lety +15

      This might be weird but, there's people who lost a someone and feels really bad, so they get mad because this remembers them their lost and well... they dislike. I do not explain myself well, but every person is different and in my case sometimes that's how I feel like with situacions that are so hard for me. I'm not english native, hope you get it.

    • @yurialpizar7172
      @yurialpizar7172 Před 4 lety +2

      Did her friend die?

  • @flyeon9429
    @flyeon9429 Před 4 lety +237

    I’m sorry to everyone who lost someone, I just hope the good memories can comfort you.

    • @zahiraaaaaaaa
      @zahiraaaaaaaa Před 4 lety +7

      Better memories with them makes me feel worse. Everyone is different, right? I mean, I haven’t really experienced losing a friend, but I have experienced losing other people I love. I’m sorry if any of you have lost someone you loved, cared about, someone who brighten them up when they feel low.
      - much love, Zahira.

  • @Ash-pe6cl
    @Ash-pe6cl Před 4 lety +1

    I am in Grade 6 and recently I've found out that all my friends where fake to me. They would talk behind my back saying I was fat,ugly shouldn't be in the classroom and other hurtful stuff. My parents decided to change me schools to a cheaper school and I was sad because I couldn't meet my real best friends that didn't change,talk behind my back nor leave me alone but at the same time I was happy I couldn't see those jerks again! I've tried thinking to just leave the world but that this video made me think to just move on and start a new friends and life and leave all the toxicity away.

  • @SimoneSensato
    @SimoneSensato Před 4 lety +1

    This painting is beautiful, the way that u drew ur best friends above the clouds, with a back pack, looks like he/she is on a journey to happiness. There is so much pain, and sorrow, but most importantly Love, in this painting. It’s my new fav, and I wish u happiness, remember that he/ she are happy and rested in peace ❤️❤️

  • @19mp11
    @19mp11 Před 4 lety +784

    This is weird.. Its in my recomended, and my two best friends decided during quarantine that they were enough for eachother and didnt need me and my other two friends... Our 7 year long friendship has fallen apart, and i miss them so much. I just wish them the best of luck and move on cuz i still have my Two other friends that i care about a lot more than anything. Hope everyone is safe :)

    • @agathaplayziez4953
      @agathaplayziez4953 Před 4 lety +23

      stay strong, i hope you're okay 💪✨ i feel you, i had this one best friend three years ago and i trust her really much, but one day she started treating me as if i'm nonexistent. she would ignore me and avoid questions about me, and- yeah we stopped talking to each other. thankfully, i have found new friends who were there for me! :)

    • @19mp11
      @19mp11 Před 4 lety +11

      @@agathaplayziez4953 yeah, im ok! And i also hope you are ok. People can sometimes be tough. 💕🥺

    • @makenzie6515
      @makenzie6515 Před 4 lety +8

      I'm going through the same thing and all I do is cry and it sucks

    • @19mp11
      @19mp11 Před 4 lety +6

      @@makenzie6515 it's ok to cry and feel that way, don't be afraid to reach out to someone, to a cousin, teacher, mom, dad or someone you trust. And just so you know nothing lasts forever, it will eventualy go away (the sadness). ❤️❤️❤️Stay strong! 🥺❤️❤️

    • @nuzeee_k
      @nuzeee_k Před 4 lety +2

      Ya I just lost my 2 of bffs yesterday 😧
      They decided they r enough and I don't need 😢

  • @lauratan8847
    @lauratan8847 Před 4 lety +413

    hey. I don't want to act like I know how you feel, because one thing's for sure, grief is different for every person. I lost my friend a year ago and up until now, I still feel like she's not gone. I see her in flowers that bloom when I step out of our door, I see her in the scorching sun. She was very fond of sunflowers and she's the type of person who brings light to everyone around her. I miss her hugs everyday. I miss her beautiful smile. I miss her angelic voice. One thing is that, pain doesn't go away, we only learn how to adapt to it and feel less hurt each time. Stay strong. Do stay strong. Lots of love.

    • @hibbyak
      @hibbyak Před 4 lety +4

      ❤️🌻

    • @xg0thic960
      @xg0thic960 Před 4 lety +3

      this is beautiful

    • @elviraekenback7249
      @elviraekenback7249 Před 4 lety +11

      I already cried, but this comment made me cry more. (What is wrote sounds stupid-)

    • @oliviahancock2274
      @oliviahancock2274 Před 4 lety +5

      I lost my best friend to Suicide three years ago and she was our sunflower girl too. Radiant and kinder and funnier than anyone I know. So smart and talented. I wish beautiful people like our friends had stayed.

    • @sanjanarx4641
      @sanjanarx4641 Před 4 lety +2

      i cried at this comment, it is so beautiful

  • @slippyperson653
    @slippyperson653 Před 4 lety +8

    I watched this when it first came out a month ago. But since then, things have changed. So a girl a little older than me in my class used to be bullied, her parents were divorced, her sister didn’t treat her right, she had no one to talk to, she was depressed. She rarely saw her dad, and her mum had her own problems. So my friend and I felt bad, so we started hanging out with her, and it turned out, she was pretty fun. Normally once a week she’d have a bad day and be angry with everyone, including me, but my friend and I always stuck with her, no matter what. On the last week before school closed because of the virus, she was mad at everyone. Sticking up the finger at me and my friend. But just like all the other times, we stuck with her. But then our school closed. 13 weeks into quarantine I was bored, so I got Snapchat again, and unsurprisingly, all of my snaps I couldn’t see as they were all from about 50 weeks ago, all apart from one. 9 nine weeks ago, she snapped me even though she knew I didn’t have snapchat at that time. I was confused. I asked my other friend if she had heard from her but apparently she wouldn’t answer her snaps. From the first day I got snapchat I started snapping her everyday. I’m still waiting for a reply.

  • @maisie1529
    @maisie1529 Před 4 lety +3

    Luis would’ve loved this. Just know, even though he isn’t physically here, he’s emotionally here for you!

  • @lorelikesthings
    @lorelikesthings Před 4 lety +275

    I know this barely scratches the surface of what it’s like to lose someone, but I’m very sorry. I’m not going to say I know what it feels like to lose someone, because I don’t. But I do know what it feels like to lose family, and it’s very hard. Again, I’m sorry for your loss, and I’ll say it, even though I know how meaningless those words can be

    • @emiliealban1000
      @emiliealban1000 Před 4 lety +1

      I just lost my best Friend and they meant a Lot even though it was not meant for me❤️❤️

    • @jello3171
      @jello3171 Před 4 lety +6

      The worst of all this lose , when it comes from that best friend , after years and years of being together over 6 years , she just left like nothing happened between us , it's not related but it feels exactly like you lost someone so important, when you'll never be able to see each other or talk again tho we're still alive somewhere, it's just feels like a death , huge part of me felt like dead after that time, I'm sorry, I loved you, thank you and please, never think or remember me again,
      RIP for every soul that left and its being is important for someone 💜

  • @kiarradutchak4351
    @kiarradutchak4351 Před 4 lety +491

    Now I didn’t lose anyone to passing away, but I had a best friend for 5 years (to now) and she’s become depressed (diagnosed by a doctor) and she was slipping away from me. I was always there to comfort her. She was replaced and she just couldn’t let go of that other friend. She got over it eventually and started expressing herself to me more often (she has trust issues) a new student came to our school and they became very close. She and I weren’t too close until basketball season. We came close then but there was one thing that bothered me. My best friend started telling her things instead of me. She had only known her for about 2 months and I told her it was upsetting. We kinda stopped hanging out and became distant. We joined a 4-h club to have better reasons to hang out. Later she quit on me. I only joined to be in it with her and I’m not aloud to quit. In school we both realized our friendship was dying, we did our best to search up how to save it but never actually did anything. Remember the girl who replaced her? Yeah, she ran back to her and ditched me for her (she did have a crush in her for 2 years though) and not just that, no no, she took the newer girl to completely replace me. Now it seems like we just pretend to even be friends. If you read that whole rant thank you

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 Před 4 lety +27

      Maybe she wasn’t worth it. Don’t lose hope yet ok? You will find someone just right to be your best friend. Hang in there 💜

    • @queenlizs
      @queenlizs Před 4 lety +9

      ah,, same this is happening to me rn but with my online bestfriend,, her ex recently came back to her and since she was inlove with her they're trying to make a healthy relationship,, i really am happy for her but it really feels like she's replacing and we've been really distant lately to the point she wanted distance to our whole friend group :(

    • @nyct0ph1liaa9
      @nyct0ph1liaa9 Před 4 lety +8

      I read this whole thing.. sometimes I'm sad or mad and I honestly dont know why.. I'm not gonna get closing into my life story because it doesnt matter. God bless your heart.

    • @kiarradutchak4351
      @kiarradutchak4351 Před 4 lety +1

      @@nyct0ph1liaa9 hey,share with me! sorry im seeing this late but im gonna listen (well read ig) and it does matter.

    • @kiarradutchak4351
      @kiarradutchak4351 Před 4 lety +1

      @@queenlizs its okay. if they arent there for you,they shouldnt be. let the bad ones go even if you learn from them theres a time limit and extension to how much you learn

  • @adinchoung
    @adinchoung Před 4 lety +3

    i think the unfocused shots are absolutely beautiful. it reminds me of the blurry vision you get when you’re crying and makes the piece just 100 times more real. your painting is beautiful 🤍

  • @sowmyaveera
    @sowmyaveera Před 4 lety +2

    I haven’t lost anyone but after watching this it makes me feel more grateful for my parents I am sorry for yours and everyone else’s loss.

  • @shigari_kun
    @shigari_kun Před 4 lety +87

    Just the thought of loosing my best friends seems so scary...
    I'm so sorry for your loos, stay strong and I truly wish you the best

    • @mrittwikaduttagupta2835
      @mrittwikaduttagupta2835 Před 4 lety +3

      I was thinking the same thing. I can't imagine the World without my best friends. Even though they aren't in my life everyday because of long distance, I cannot imagine my life without them. We meet at most twice a year, but I wouldn't trade out that time for anything in this World.

  • @carrot777
    @carrot777 Před 4 lety +210

    this makes my heart ache so much. i lost my friend to dark and sad thoughts last year and he was so young. he was the sun on a dark day, the light in the night, the one who would smile and make you smile on a bad day. i miss you so much damien. i hope they’re treating you well up there and that you are happy and free from all the people who told you those rude and messed up words. we love and miss you so much damien...

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 Před 4 lety +6

      Helena Iik i’m so sorry to hear about your loss and i send you all good wishes and good luck. my deepest sympathy goes out to you. i hope that you are doing well and hope your friend can guide you and help you through life. i hope you are surrounded with love and good memories of your friend. my heart goes out to you and i hope with every ounce of sunshine that you are doing well for yourself. i’m sending healing and comforting hugs to you, your friend, and all the people your friend knew and loved. take care helena and remember that no darkness lasts forever, so a new day and a new light will bring new opportunities. 💜💜

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 Před 4 lety +4

      Helena Iik glad i can help out ☺️ i hope you have an amazing day and that you take care! remember that you are special, precious, cared for, and loved. best of wishes! enjoy every moment of the past, the present, and the future. you are a star that is unique and can do anything! remember to love yourself and my best wishes go out to you. good luck!! ☺️💜💜

    • @moonflower3097
      @moonflower3097 Před 4 lety +3

      @@carrot777 oh wow.....my story isnt that relatable but i had a friend too..
      I met them at the park, they were twins brother and sis. The sister turned out to be one of the best friends i ever had and so was her brother. (I actually kinda liked him, he also liked me back) but one day my mom told me we were moving to somewhere because of personal stuff. I cried so much on that day. After i moved I never had saw them again, i hope someday in the future ill find them once again.

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 Před 4 lety +2

      Moon flower i’m so sorry to hear about that. let’s hope that in the future you can contact them and continue your friendship. i wish you the best of luck to find your friends and that everything will be good when you can contact them again 🥺 i hope that you and your friends are doing well and are happy. i wish you good luck, happiness, and good fortune for the future! remember to keep on dreaming because dreams are the gateway to our reality! good luck and i hope you find your friends!! 💜☺️☺️

    • @sudiptaabhattacharya7105
      @sudiptaabhattacharya7105 Před 4 lety +2

      I lost one of my closest friends just 2 months earlier. Tomorrow will be exact 2 months since she has passed away. She too was 17 and hanged herself because of dark and sad thoughts because of some toxic people in her life! She will always be in my heart and I pray for her always.

  • @ariannabattad8046
    @ariannabattad8046 Před 4 lety +6

    This made me cry since my aunt passed away last April 13,2019,she died cause of accidentally pulled the trigger a gun on her head,yet after that my bonding with my family started to crumble apart,and now this quarantine made me depressed since my friends called me a attention seeker,liar and a fake friend,i guess its true since i lied my age and gender, it's not because i dont want to tell it to social media,its because my mom told me to not tell it and well...im happy that one of them still is my friend and im happy for it..

    • @simran-hz1ox
      @simran-hz1ox Před 4 lety

      I’m sorry all of that happened to you l, you shouldn’t have to hide who you truly are.

  • @ylx2777
    @ylx2777 Před 4 lety +4

    I never felt how losing best friends felt like.
    But.
    I don’t want to, because I know it hurts.

  • @sriontimaitra6804
    @sriontimaitra6804 Před 4 lety +32

    I lost one of my best friends to a seizure earlier this year, a couple of days after New Year. Funnily enough, your painting reminded me of a time he made me and some of our other friends walk through a nature reserve at midnight to watch fireworks from the top of a hill in London. The sky was full of colours, just like it is here. I miss him everyday. Thank you for sharing your pain and healing with us.

    • @sotiria9477
      @sotiria9477 Před 4 lety

      I am sorry:"( hope you are feeling a bit better now, he is proud of you

  • @asdfghjk4877
    @asdfghjk4877 Před 4 lety +1389

    Can i just voice out my thoughts? I like how it started all blue, thinking of blue reminds me of many things water thats endless ( water has memory - frozen 2) all the memories she had with this bestfriend, blue may also represent some sadness imo and those tear drop like thing hit me hard idk why so suddenly. Then i saw the colors yellow orange the making of a sunset or sunrise it just reminds me of how things end and start, but we will forever remember those days i hope the youtuber sees this but idk its too long and wordy it might not get noticed in the comment section but if you read this stay strong and know that your feelings has reached someone like me who has went throught the same thing :))
    IDK WHY IM CRYING AAAAA
    edit thank you to the 500+ ppl that liked and understood what i said and thankfully my message was noticed have a great day everyone stay strongg

  • @megisa1111
    @megisa1111 Před 4 lety +1

    This is proof that if a artist has a very sad painting,he or she is sad in the inside too

  • @evamunoz1133
    @evamunoz1133 Před 4 lety +6

    I lost my aunt due to Leukemia cancer... she had been struggling with it her whole life...I’m glad she is at peace now.

  • @mystixxo
    @mystixxo Před 4 lety +34

    "Happy 20th Birthday, Luis
    We miss you everyday 🤍" Hit me hard, I'm really sorry, I've never lost a friend before, but it's probably really hard..

  • @jadyn9988
    @jadyn9988 Před 4 lety +580

    To anyone who has lost anyone close: God will get you through this. HE’S ROOTING FOR YOU!!!

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh Před 4 lety +14

      i lost my 2 bestfriends today. i have 1 left. please help me i have no one to talk to i wanna cry but im around people please tell me what to do i wanna disappear i just want to die right now in this bed im sitting on

    • @jadyn9988
      @jadyn9988 Před 4 lety +12

      eunxoiia I know it’s hard, I get it. Even though I my friend didn’t pass away me and her had a separation for a while. You don’t realize how much you need them til they’re gone. (Luckily me and her are friends again).
      But you have a huge purpose in life even if it’s not clear and you feel like you want to die. God has made you for a reason, and although it doesn’t seem like it, He is working out everything. I will be praying for you. The best of luck to you❤️

    • @chloelevi9829
      @chloelevi9829 Před 4 lety +1

      @@joudyh hey, we can talk about it anytime. You can dm me on insta @pabloturkey8. Don't worry, I'm here for you please don't feel alone I'm sorry.

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh Před 4 lety +2

      @@jadyn9988 thank you so much. i needed that.

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh Před 4 lety +2

      @@chloelevi9829 i would love to talk to you but my parents banned me from having online friends. infact, they banned me from talking to my online friends i already had. im so sorry. i would talk to you if i was able to acces the real world. im so sorry

  • @spookyhamilton2732
    @spookyhamilton2732 Před 4 lety +1

    I haven’t lost anyone, yet this video has left me in tears. I can’t imagine what I would ever do without her. I have many best friends, but I haven’t seen the one I’m closest to in five months due to the virus. I miss her more than anything. This video is truly an incredible reminder of how lucky we can be and not even realize it.

  • @amandam7544
    @amandam7544 Před 3 lety +1

    I’m 16 and I lost my best friend this year on December 15th. Kenny was in a car accident visiting colleges in North Carolina. We live in Illinois. I don’t know anyone else who was planning their future so far ahead. She was going to the Olympics. She set every swim record at our school and was my bright light. I love her to death and miss her more than anything. Today has been hard because it’s Mother’s Day and I know how badly her mom is hurting. She loved her mom so so much. Her dad and dog also died in the accident, but her parents were divorced. This painting is beautiful and reminds me of how beautiful
    she is. The sun sets and the moon raises. I love everyone in these comments & sending lots of love💐

  • @ih8mylife110
    @ih8mylife110 Před 4 lety +645

    this made me emotionally cry cause my aunt also died not too long ago cause of the stupid coronavirus

    • @CiaraGan
      @CiaraGan  Před 4 lety +134

      my condolences :( i hope you're getting by and staying safe 😔❤

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 Před 4 lety +45

      I h8 my life I’m so sorry My Great Grandpa died from Corona too his funeral was yesterday ❤️😢

    • @louizelapira169
      @louizelapira169 Před 4 lety +40

      @@miraculousdanibug3543 glad yall still have funerals. in our country theyd straight up burn dead bodies.

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 Před 4 lety +18

      knythd kzohqz oh no I’m so sorry😢 I watched a livestream I didn’t actually go because I have asthma and they say it’s not good to go out because of Cornavirus

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 Před 4 lety +4

      knythd kzohqz Also where are you from?