"I'm fine" - Stiles Stilinski | audio

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  • čas přidán 1. 02. 2017
  • I own nothing but the editing!! if you use it please credit me on here or my instagram @acciostilesx
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    Song: love & loss by Mattia Cupelli (thanks to someone in the comments for pointing that out, posted this awhile ago and didn't realize I put the wrong song in the description)
    Tv - show: Teen Wolf (2x11)
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  • @notinuse4232
    @notinuse4232  Před 5 lety +1270

    Hi! I am the maker and publisher of this video, and I would just like to say that I am truly OVERWHELMED by the feedback I’ve gotten. I made this video not thinking much about it, I was just experimenting and doing what I loved - editing.
    Regarding all the comments: I do hope you don’t use this as a reason to kill yourselves. It might not feel like it right now, but you truly are loved - if there is one positive thing I have gotten out of reading the comments, then it is the fact that the world hasn’t gone to shit just yet. Not everyone are evil and rude, so many have offered to help and be someone others can talk and vent to. I really believe it’s good for anyone who is suffering something - anything really - to talk to someone. It doesn’t matter who, as long as you feel comfortable telling the person. If you would rather talk to a stranger than someone you know - go ahead! Take someone up on that offer! If you don’t want to talk to a stranger, please, do talk to someone in your family, or a friend, a teacher, a colleague, someone that you trust, and just maybe you will feel a little better. Killing yourself is NOT the solution, it never was. You have SO much to live for, and if you don’t believe me then I guess you will just have to wait, LIVE, and see for yourself. Everything gets better. Don’t strive to have the perfect life. Just live YOUR life, it’s worth it. If you are feeling down one day, that’s totally ok. It’s completely normal. You aren’t supposed to feel your best every day, that’s just going to kill your spirit. Everyone has ups and downs, and that’s ok. Everything might not be ok right now, but if you just hold on and live you will see that things can and will be.
    Please, live your life. You deserve that.

    • @nguyenjamie297
      @nguyenjamie297 Před 3 lety +3

      Thanku ♥️ bestrong
      Loveyou

    • @jeffjeff2139
      @jeffjeff2139 Před 3 lety +3

      ...if so, they might've listened to it, but they didn't hear it. Well done. Keep up the good work.

    • @AvatarArrowYT
      @AvatarArrowYT Před 2 lety +2

      i dont deserve life, not after what I did

    • @jeffjeff2139
      @jeffjeff2139 Před 2 lety +6

      @@AvatarArrowYT those with the biggest smiles, are often the very same that have shed the most tears. So, if it was really that bad, than it was to make you wonderful. "Be the change..." ☝️🖤

    • @alanthornthwaite9509
      @alanthornthwaite9509 Před 2 lety +1

      That is some inspirational words :) thank u. Great edit and keep up the good work 👏

  • @germansheperdlover4599
    @germansheperdlover4599 Před 5 lety +2629

    we are all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids suicide is not the answer

    • @davidparkinson6372
      @davidparkinson6372 Před 5 lety +44

      If your life's shit tho what's the point

    • @fiaxtea
      @fiaxtea Před 5 lety +62

      yeah, i’m trying my hardest to give out support to people throughout the comments in these certain types of videos to assure them and give suggestions where they can go to vent, deal with shit, etc. but while doing that, it hurts to know that i have no one to do the same for me.

    • @davidparkinson6372
      @davidparkinson6372 Před 5 lety +22

      I feel shit now nobody to turn to

    • @germansheperdlover4599
      @germansheperdlover4599 Před 5 lety +7

      @@fiaxtea ikr

    • @gsrtsere3
      @gsrtsere3 Před 5 lety +17

      @@davidparkinson6372 If you wake up and you have a heart beat in your chest and air in your lungs that means god is not done with you yet he sees you he loves you and he has a plan for your life, talk to someone, anyone. You know every person who has tried to commit suicide off the golden gate bridge and survived to tell the tale said the second they let go of that railing they instantly regretted their decision. You've survived 100% of your bad days dont let this day be your last, Godbless and hope you get better. also this might help you a lot of his videos helped me (czcams.com/video/L33djEEMEE8/video.html)

  • @Jessica-ue2fe
    @Jessica-ue2fe Před 6 lety +4410

    the saddest part? we’re all just kids being told “you don’t know what sadness is,” so we pretend to be okay.

  • @thelostonere-acclaimed1976
    @thelostonere-acclaimed1976 Před 2 lety +624

    Why does it hurt so much to hear this but feels so natural?

    • @theforsakenhorde
      @theforsakenhorde Před 2 lety +8

      Im with you......your not alone my friend....shit sucks

    • @detromine
      @detromine Před 2 lety +3

      because its our turn to go and leave it all behind

    • @bee-square3145
      @bee-square3145 Před 2 lety +2

      I feel the same way

    • @bee-square3145
      @bee-square3145 Před 2 lety

      @@theforsakenhorde it dose suck

    • @carolinetorres8706
      @carolinetorres8706 Před 2 lety +12

      Bc your so used to the pain and tears that it's just normal to you

  • @realbarry
    @realbarry Před 2 lety +112

    "I'm not suicidal to the point where I want to kill myself... but rather to the point where I don't care if I die."

    • @jeffreydarmisco7088
      @jeffreydarmisco7088 Před 2 lety

      if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..

    • @assilem5054
      @assilem5054 Před 2 lety +10

      It’s like trying to die without killing yourself

    • @vikrammeena6614
      @vikrammeena6614 Před 2 lety

      @Sev i can relate, things can get worsen rapidly.
      I am also going through same, i think i have things under control. A phone call saved me last time🥺, don't know how I'll hold up if things worsen again. I'll recommend you to talk to someone, not necessarily your family or friends. Internet is beautiful place and many are here to help. Write about all those things matter, don't be shy sharing with someone, read books. chin up and don't give up.

    • @jeffreydarmisco7088
      @jeffreydarmisco7088 Před 2 lety

      @@vikrammeena6614 if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help

    • @akashicuzumaki3520
      @akashicuzumaki3520 Před 2 lety +1

      @@jeffreydarmisco7088 what if you don't have anyone who really cares and people shun you before even giving you a chance?

  • @Leila-mp1pf
    @Leila-mp1pf Před 3 lety +769

    The real pain is when you want to cry but cannot so you lay there and then think “I’m being dramatic, I’m so ridiculous why would anyone want to have you”

    • @user-co8gs6lw9v
      @user-co8gs6lw9v Před 3 lety +20

      That’s the thing..., we tried to show our true feelings but society, people, parents, friends and etc, they just shut us out..., and telling us things like grow up/man up, something like that..., it’s just hurts u know...

    • @kotheral-hasan4499
      @kotheral-hasan4499 Před 3 lety +5

      yea. just know in that moment your thoughts are not always true. you ARE stronger than the thoughts :)

    • @iloveu5576
      @iloveu5576 Před 3 lety +3

      AprilFoolsPony i do the same every single night cause at the night time i always cry and let my feelings out hating on myself and why i am good enough and even tho we don’t know i hope you will have the best day/night of your life and i love you

    • @disposedjewel4256
      @disposedjewel4256 Před 3 lety

      I agree it happens every night to me

    • @loonaris1127
      @loonaris1127 Před 3 lety

      This hit too hard

  • @ira9635
    @ira9635 Před 3 lety +672

    I dont wanna die I just wanna feel ok without faking it

  • @kinleighpasher6516
    @kinleighpasher6516 Před 3 lety +67

    Sometimes when I say “I’m ok” I want someone to look me in the eyes hug me tight and say “I know your not and that’s ok”

    • @MattyzBeatz
      @MattyzBeatz Před 3 lety +4

      Worst part, no one I've ever said that too has noticed. So I personally don't think anyone will no offense hun, but unless it's another person like us in pain, they'll never notice our fake smiles and lies

    • @axelfulk8887
      @axelfulk8887 Před 3 lety +1

      You are right. It never happens...

  • @Bl0_0nd3
    @Bl0_0nd3 Před 2 lety +31

    "If it's about survival, isn't a little agony worth it?"
    That line fucking gave me goosebumps because it's so true...

    • @robmarthin7156
      @robmarthin7156 Před 2 lety

      if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help...

    • @MyExperienceSoFar
      @MyExperienceSoFar Před 2 lety

      But is it? Maybe a little agony but a lifetime of it that just gets worse and stacks on top of itself? I don't think so. I could survive a whole lifetime but it's all so pointless, even if I lived a great life, it's garbage

    • @MyExperienceSoFar
      @MyExperienceSoFar Před 2 lety

      @Sam Baker there isn't any!!! That's what makes this all so fucked, all this suffering at the best of times... And for what

  • @ekho1083
    @ekho1083 Před 3 lety +758

    It's scary how easy it is to fake a smile

  • @eef9624
    @eef9624 Před 3 lety +1337

    I don’t want to die
    I don’t want to kill myself
    I just wish to simply exist no longer

  • @mrwruble1842
    @mrwruble1842 Před 2 lety +29

    I'm not scared of dying, I'm only scared of hurting the people who really do care about me. I have always said "if I were gonna die, I don't think I'd stop it. But I'd want to apologise for leaving first."

  • @andreamae9116
    @andreamae9116 Před 3 lety +57

    Our parents say “Don’t talk to people online” but....
    Maybe strangers are the ones who understand us most.

    • @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet
      @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet Před 2 lety +1

      I feel you, my biggest relationships are online people from all across the world, and I feel deeply that I can trust them more than anyone I know in real life, because all they know are the things I tell them (e.g. I’m having problems at home) I never tell them personal things like names, specific roads/ buildings (unless public e.g. Big Ben, Windsor, London, Buckingham palace (I don’t talk about these they’re just big places in my country)), ages or anything like that we just chat and talk about random things like “oh once this girl came up to me and asked me this stupid question” (obv just referring to them as girl/ boy/ them/ it) and it makes the relationship stronger for me to not know them in person, maybe know what they look like or hear their voice but nothing past that. Because everyone I’ve ever known in person feels like they are going to leave me whenever they want and judge me however they want even right in front/ behind me. E.g. I had these 2 girls in my class and everyday I was sat in front of them I didn’t know what they were talking about me for (I could only hear giggling and my name) and it made me so mad that I couldn’t hear those girls cause I seriously wanted to out them so much. I do have a few friends I feel okay with (I don’t talk about personal issues with them) and they all don’t really have good feelings with the girls I was just talking about, anyways. Never trust anyone you know in real life always trust the ones who don’t know you, cause they can’t do anything to you if they don’t know you. (Not saying it for people you’ve built a good relationship with online but trust them more than face to face relationships.
      EDIT: that’s the end of my writing marathon and have a nice day

    • @andreamae9116
      @andreamae9116 Před 2 lety +1

      @@Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet i totally understand… it’s kind of like when you can have occasional interactions over the internet it’s easier to tell them what going on because they won’t tell anyone you know because it’s anonymous. the interaction can be like bestfriends over the internet but faceless. i can put my trust in you even tho you may not put yours in me. i can do that because i know that you don’t know me personally. the everyday people don’t. have that trust has they kno to much about me already. i feel like you have your own problems that you can’t tell your friends or family but when you are completely down, to say the least going on to youtube and opening some sad songs to cry to while searching for comments that relate, it’s honestly everyone’s sanctuary. i really appreciate you reaching out to me and expressing your thoughts. i’m only 13 but i can tell that this is something everyone is struggling with. trust.
      that’s also the end of my writing marathon too. i did this during my google meet. lockdown in new zealand haha
      wishing you all the best

    • @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet
      @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet Před 2 lety +1

      @@andreamae9116 same to you, wishing you the best. Idk bout these days but it’s never the angry teens anymore it’s all the depressed ones. I don’t mind about reaching out literally anyone can reach out to me because I’m kinda considered the therapist friend LOL.

    • @andreamae9116
      @andreamae9116 Před 2 lety +1

      @@Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet bahahah same. taking on everyone’s problems and helping them with it.

    • @thoelalger2244
      @thoelalger2244 Před rokem

      @@andreamae9116 I dont think you should people as much as you think especially online

  • @angelpirtle6789
    @angelpirtle6789 Před 3 lety +767

    Who’s here in the middle of night.. trying to keep yourself together

  • @Mami4u
    @Mami4u Před 3 lety +307

    The worst thing about depression is that you don’t want to die but you don’t want to go through the pain either

    • @ellyxa2525
      @ellyxa2525 Před 3 lety +1

      This is so true.

    • @gachafoxgirl7431
      @gachafoxgirl7431 Před 3 lety +11

      'I'm empty inside,
      I just don't feel alive and
      I don't wanna live but
      I'm too scared to die.' - Empty. The most relatable song ever..

    • @axelierman
      @axelierman Před 3 lety +1

      Omg yes. So true

    • @theogernie464
      @theogernie464 Před 3 lety

      This is makeing my tear up. I swear...

    • @jacqulinesims6285
      @jacqulinesims6285 Před 3 lety

      That has to be the most accurate comment i have heard in years

  • @jeans6808
    @jeans6808 Před 2 lety +28

    I love stiles, we have a lot of things in common.
    The sarcastic personality, Always trying to help their friends and the constant feeling of worry, being scared and trying to cover everything up by being sarcastic.

  • @gracie1583
    @gracie1583 Před 2 lety +15

    I love stiles he’s just so cute but he’s lost he’s funny but he’s also scared.This scene broke me that he feels like this I know it’s a series but still it literally broke me

  • @hamshaiwb5849
    @hamshaiwb5849 Před 4 lety +10872

    I laugh so much in school hiding the fact that i'm broken inside
    3 years update: I have all I thought I couldn't have, or thought I was undeserving of. If I hadn't held on, I wouldn't have known what it's like to live out my dream life.
    I cannot even begin. I am just so, so happy. I am filled with so much love, I have become attractive and my family has been financially doing so well.
    I hope this will be used as inspiration, I was so scared of my future when I wrote this comment, not knowing that happiness was just around the corner. Sending lots of love to everyone.

    • @Jhyxzl
      @Jhyxzl Před 4 lety +190

      I can relate so much

    • @dorenmnelosp8656
      @dorenmnelosp8656 Před 4 lety +394

      And sad that no one notices but at the Same time you're glad they didn't cause you dont want to drag them down it your puddle of self regret

    • @Jhyxzl
      @Jhyxzl Před 4 lety +63

      @@dorenmnelosp8656 EXACTLY!!!

    • @payleigh4797
      @payleigh4797 Před 4 lety +53

      I do too...

    • @Philippians-kc4it
      @Philippians-kc4it Před 4 lety +53

      I feel that man

  • @meher6353
    @meher6353 Před 3 lety +1119

    "Why didn't you tell anybody?"
    "Nobody asked"
    Not my words, but it's scarily relatable

    • @arisa575
      @arisa575 Před 3 lety +11

      and if you tell them, they don’t understand.

    • @terezastepanikova3432
      @terezastepanikova3432 Před 3 lety +5

      I told them, no one belived me, that I survived two suicide attepms. They started think it might be true after I read them my suicide note. I should have kept it to myself.

    • @denki_kaminari_the_human_c8488
      @denki_kaminari_the_human_c8488 Před 3 lety +1

      Bruh.. The only one that o trust in school just told something that was supposed to be a secret to the whole class... Wow... The other one listened to me then the next day she said that if i'm gonna seek for her attention again she's gonna block me... On the gc where the whole class was.... Wow... Now i don't have anyone to trust..
      And now my only friends are my dog, my bird, and my cat.. 🙂And 4 fake friends

    • @jamessanchez8719
      @jamessanchez8719 Před 3 lety +4

      Literally happened to me and now I lost people who I thought actually cared. They never asked what was wrong or bothered to want to be there

    • @hairypotato8469
      @hairypotato8469 Před 3 lety +3

      Personally I don’t tell anyone cause I don’t want to feel like a burden

  • @lucabennison1433
    @lucabennison1433 Před 3 lety +24

    When you can't live but dying would hurt others so you have to suffer for them and it crushes you every day to pretend it doesn't

  • @anneroberts9534
    @anneroberts9534 Před 3 lety +24

    Every single day I live, I wonder about the future. Everyday I can feel this overwhelming sense of grief and just anger that I’m stuck in this world that doesn’t care about me. Everyday I look for someone to care, I look for someone to ask what’s wrong, but every time it becomes more apparent I’ll never be with people who care. I’m depressed, I’m tired, I’m so very tired... but I’m the fun friend, I’m the one who always has a smile on my face making sure everyone else is okay. I’m the friend that is always there, but I have no friends who are always there. I’m just tired

    • @MasterOfPuppet714
      @MasterOfPuppet714 Před 3 lety

      I feel you. And im you my friend 🤗

    • @oreo_fox4731
      @oreo_fox4731 Před 3 lety

      Same, I searched too, found my dog who was right next to my side the whole time..(I hated him and blamed him for my moms cancer/death as childish as it may sound). It’s still oh so hard but.. the nights are warmer with my buddy...

  • @varonika4644
    @varonika4644 Před 3 lety +815

    Every time I come here the comments are so fresh...

    • @darknox3621
      @darknox3621 Před 3 lety +17

      That....pain. that is pain, my friend. Pain of the other people, who are lost like we are. Lost in a cold, deep, dark void without emotions and sounds. That is pain

    • @varonika4644
      @varonika4644 Před 3 lety +3

      @@darknox3621 hmm and the no. of these people are gonna just increase

    • @Apparently-An-Otter
      @Apparently-An-Otter Před 3 lety +3

      Hanako-

  • @seiki697
    @seiki697 Před 3 lety +836

    Is it just me or is it easier to talk to people on the internet you don’t even know and they can make you feel so much better then the people in front of you because they don’t get it or say it’s just a phase?
    Edit* if anyone wants to talk to me my discord is “Kami17#8790”

  • @mars4079
    @mars4079 Před 2 lety +18

    I’ve faked being okay for so long I’ve started to believe that feeling this way is okay. It’s like I don’t think about it anymore. When I need to cry, I can’t. I just want to scream it out but I can’t. I think that’s the worst feeling in the world. And I don’t even know why I’m this way. It just feels so dull.

  • @allynianusser4826
    @allynianusser4826 Před 3 lety +54

    “Depressed people tend to have the best advice, but they still can't follow it themselves.”

  • @avah3316
    @avah3316 Před 5 lety +255

    Do you ever feel like your giving out soooo many hints to friends and family that your not okay and hurting inside but they just brush it off like it’s nothing. Well if so.. same.

    • @Artemis-pn1ni
      @Artemis-pn1ni Před 5 lety +8

      Ava H same you give off so manny hints your not ok there’s something wrong but friends and family ignore it they don’t want to see that your so obviously not fine. I feel the same way

    • @avah3316
      @avah3316 Před 5 lety +3

      Haley Baker ik it’s like I say stuff that is sooo obvious and it’s like the topic changes really quick. Ugh good to see I’m not alone tho haha :/

    • @Artemis-pn1ni
      @Artemis-pn1ni Před 5 lety +3

      Ava H I know it’s cool I’m not the the only one

    • @anayanicole2809
      @anayanicole2809 Před 5 lety +9

      Same but with me people never know cause i keep this stupid ass smile on my face every fucking day😭😭😭 im sick of this smile but then again who would care anyway 😒

    • @jessicalackey6726
      @jessicalackey6726 Před 5 lety +1

      Yes! Exactly

  • @amber9269
    @amber9269 Před 3 lety +704

    The fact that this has 7 million views
    And people still ask what is wrong with the world

  • @bbsxscry_2715
    @bbsxscry_2715 Před 2 lety +28

    If my family knew I watch video's like these they would probably think I'm trying to find reasons to be depressed and feel sorry for myself, but I'm not trying to do that. I just want to know that other people feel these things that I feel it gives me a sense of relief that I'm not alone. And I love how strangers know exactly how we feel better than people whom claim to love us

  • @shanley7334
    @shanley7334 Před 3 lety +29

    This kinda reminds me of the quote that bojack horseman said "usually when someone asks how I'm doing the real answer is I'm doing shitty, but I cant say I'm doing shitty! Cause then they ask why what's wrong and I just say, idk

  • @andisitinafaalifya2256
    @andisitinafaalifya2256 Před 3 lety +193

    I wish, when i say "im fine" someone would just hug me tight n say "i know ur not". But that'll never happen. My depression wants me to die. But my anxiety is scared to die. Yknow what, this is the reality of having mental healt issues. This is how ya feel sometimes.

    • @sherryward5267
      @sherryward5267 Před 3 lety +2

      But when you do fight no madder what there are people like you and. .... I am like you so we get through it together

    • @meow8111
      @meow8111 Před 3 lety +2

      The one friend that knows im lying just laughs and says same. Never a hug. Just a that sucks me too.

    • @psynyx
      @psynyx Před 3 lety +1

      @@meow8111 same

  • @eden8358
    @eden8358 Před 3 lety +1239

    So i see the depressed people in 2021 have appeared

    • @abxsnce
      @abxsnce Před 3 lety +18

      Started the year of crying alone at midnight this year is gonna be great................ I wish 😔

    • @eden8358
      @eden8358 Před 3 lety +10

      @@abxsnce started the year off drunk and on call to one of my friends then cried

    • @hazel6571
      @hazel6571 Před 3 lety +3

      @Lotte same lmao

    • @jamesjacobaleena5939
      @jamesjacobaleena5939 Před 3 lety +2

      @@abxsnce me too 😔

    • @Tina-vv1qb
      @Tina-vv1qb Před 3 lety +4

      So yuor riht i'm depressed😞😞😞😞😞😫😩

  • @yessir1149
    @yessir1149 Před 2 lety +32

    "it's not just a feeling though it's like a panic attack" That hits hard

  • @ketxmineking
    @ketxmineking Před 2 lety +18

    Drowning actually hurts. That one breath burns for the brief moment of time you take it.

  • @hey-uc3dd
    @hey-uc3dd Před 3 lety +114

    *Depression is like a black hole, once your in it, it’s almost impossible to get back out*

    • @hey-uc3dd
      @hey-uc3dd Před 3 lety

      Kennedi Aldrich Yup- ❤️

    • @kaitlynbuckner3264
      @kaitlynbuckner3264 Před 3 lety +3

      But when you do, it’s a huge accomplishment and everyone’s proud of you for doing it. Other people trapped look up to you for it. You yourself will be so happy and proud of yourself. It’s worth the fight, I promise

    • @gachafoxgirl7431
      @gachafoxgirl7431 Před 3 lety +1

      Almost

    • @ilikedarknes3351
      @ilikedarknes3351 Před 3 lety +3

      You're just waiting for the person to pull you out but they never come

  • @DASBOTSCH
    @DASBOTSCH Před 3 lety +192

    "One Day You're Gonna Look Around And You're Going To Realise That Everybody Loves You...But Nobody Likes You. And That's The Loneliest Feeling In The World."
    -Bojack Horseman

    • @benpanaser3923
      @benpanaser3923 Před 3 lety +1

      Pushing on has to be better than seeing the view from halfway down

  • @LilyGraceySa
    @LilyGraceySa Před 2 lety +26

    I don't know when the idea of dying because of drowning first took over me.. Since then, I just fear water, for real.
    Turns out, I'm drowning everyday, you don't need water to drown.

  • @kylieh833
    @kylieh833 Před 2 lety +11

    I remember him saying this… I listened to much and knew what he was saying and it honestly made me wanna cry. I love stiles so much and people don’t realize how he is the friend that helps everyone but needs help

  • @MoonlitPhoenix0
    @MoonlitPhoenix0 Před 3 lety +155

    How can stiles be so sarcastic and depressing at the same time, in the same sentence

    • @alashea5104
      @alashea5104 Před 3 lety +8

      Yeah I know he literally went through so much and he still managed to be the happy one

  • @ThatBoiBlaster
    @ThatBoiBlaster Před 3 lety +243

    The scariest thing is how recent these comments are

  • @miilvn
    @miilvn Před 2 lety +23

    The people suffering most,
    Are the ones suffering in silence.

  • @Ollie-nt9vq
    @Ollie-nt9vq Před 2 měsíci +17

    The way that this audio actually helped me not kms in high school. The idea of just holding on for one more second has been the best I could do so many times, for years straight

    • @cxg6037
      @cxg6037 Před měsícem

      And look where you are bro, your still here and there’s a reason for that. I’ve been through some nasty mental health situations the past few years. But now my mindset is focused on myself. Fuck every single other person out there, become your own best friend learn to love yourself and love spending time with yourself. I am me, despite my problems and I’m learning to love it. You can to bro. Love yourself, suicide doesn’t stop the pain. It only moves it. Good luck

  • @milfolsen
    @milfolsen Před 3 lety +144

    Does anyone else feel so broken that you feel your heart literally breaking and falling to pieces?
    Yeah...Me too.

    • @jaydenlindley6954
      @jaydenlindley6954 Před 3 lety +3

      Every day

    • @kaib_0798
      @kaib_0798 Před 3 lety +1

      Yeah.... every.single.day. Yet I still say “I’m fine”
      I’m pretty good at lying. I think a lot of people are.

    • @ilikedarknes3351
      @ilikedarknes3351 Před 3 lety +1

      @@kaib_0798 it's because people that aren't in depression don't realize that smiling and laughing doesn't mean you're happy it means you're hiding that you're not happy

    • @veronicabomar9232
      @veronicabomar9232 Před 3 lety

      Me every day every single second

    • @moonchild4832
      @moonchild4832 Před 3 lety

      Every second of every day

  • @dopedino431
    @dopedino431 Před 5 lety +47

    You knew I was hurting,
    You knew I was crying,
    You knew I smiled to hide the pain,
    You knew I was dying,
    You knew I was tired,
    You knew I was breaking,
    You knew I just wanted an escape,
    You knew I just wanted happiness,
    You knew I just wanted peace,
    You knew I just wanted to be pretty,
    You knew I just wanted to be skinny,
    You knew I just wanted a normal family,
    You knew you could pick me up, and you did.
    Then,
    Time suddenly shifted when I realized that you’d left.

    • @josh_joseph_159
      @josh_joseph_159 Před 5 lety

      Never have I related to a thing more in my entire life

  • @christinaokeefe1133
    @christinaokeefe1133 Před 2 lety +28

    You be surprised what a smile can hide.And the words I'm fine.

  • @valeriesaena6227
    @valeriesaena6227 Před 6 lety +85

    "If you're going through hell. . . Then keep going."
    Just for all the people who was waiting for this part.

  • @littlebears
    @littlebears Před 6 lety +84

    teen wolf is one show i miss so fucking much. its characters have marked my heart and i will never, ever forget that show and what’s it’s done for me

  • @louie_loudstien
    @louie_loudstien Před 2 lety +28

    Whats wrong with me that I come back to these videos. Just to make myself feel sad. I guess feeling sadness is better than feeling nothing at all.

    • @Animefireblade13
      @Animefireblade13 Před 2 lety +1

      Not just that. It’s something that reminds you there are tons of people suffering just like you. And that makes the weight feel just a bit lighter. Just look at the comment section! You are not alone.

    • @Bl0_0nd3
      @Bl0_0nd3 Před 2 lety +1

      Jeez, you and I feel the same way, better off feeling sad than nothing at all, emptiness is way worse, it's those times that you don't know why you feel empty, and that, fucking hurts.

    • @Animefireblade13
      @Animefireblade13 Před 2 lety +1

      @@Bl0_0nd3 I feel you there.

    • @gugumakhubu2597
      @gugumakhubu2597 Před 2 lety +2

      no, because same.

  • @Tombobas
    @Tombobas Před 2 lety +18

    People with big hearts feel empty
    People with no hearts feel full.

  • @ary3490
    @ary3490 Před 4 lety +73

    I'm tired of having that feeling of wanting to tell someone, but not wanting to bother them.

    • @Sarah-bu4rl
      @Sarah-bu4rl Před 4 lety

      Me too, Chloe Huttner. me too..... I'm sorry....

    • @ary3490
      @ary3490 Před 4 lety +1

      @@Sarah-bu4rl Hope things get better, bro. I wish you luck

    • @CORVIDZZ_
      @CORVIDZZ_ Před 4 lety +1

      i wanna vent to people but i dont wanna weigh them down with my emotions

  • @luzzuniga9373
    @luzzuniga9373 Před 4 lety +64

    It is weird how this was in 2017, but we need this now in 2020.

  • @maddy_lawrence
    @maddy_lawrence Před 3 lety +20

    It's like I'm drowning and everyone is watching me drown, and no one will care until I stop breathing.

  • @modernlion2372
    @modernlion2372 Před 2 lety +21

    The people who laugh the most generally have the deepest sadness. We use humor to hide our sadness. The darker the humor the deeper the sadness...

  • @cattballz
    @cattballz Před 3 lety +144

    We’re just suicidal people telling other suicidal people not to commit suicide

    • @gamerane06yt
      @gamerane06yt Před 3 lety +5

      Yep that's what happens

    • @justarandomlizard2218
      @justarandomlizard2218 Před 3 lety +4

      some suicidal people have lived other lives and have the experince of pain and should spread joy to others because it may save a life whose life needs to be saved.

    • @lju2640
      @lju2640 Před 3 lety +1

      Broken souls lost in the same abyss but still trying to help another to see the light we dont see ourselves

    • @kaitlynbuckner3264
      @kaitlynbuckner3264 Před 3 lety

      Very true👌

    • @stormyogletree2053
      @stormyogletree2053 Před 3 lety +1

      It’s true tho 🙂

  • @riccardomorariu4727
    @riccardomorariu4727 Před 3 lety +61

    You know... I’m that funny guy at school, the one that with his friends and in public always laugh, but the nobody knows... when school finishes, that guy returns home, that guy goes into his room and starts crying...

    • @lunnight6641
      @lunnight6641 Před 3 lety

      Friends are there because they care about you. They appreciate you for being yourself and they can't help you if you don't let them know. Your friends are you friends because they like who you are. You are loved and cherished. Don't forget that ❤️

    • @alexisbaxter2893
      @alexisbaxter2893 Před 3 lety

      Talking to people about it helps.

  • @xLeafx520
    @xLeafx520 Před 3 lety +20

    8 million people.. just like each other have watched this. To whoever is seeing this have a great day! You are adored, you are loved, there will always be someone to talk to and encourage you to see the the hope in the world. I know when you start watching these again its when things are getting bad again. Just know i may not know you but i am here. If you do need me.

  • @angelinarampersad8263
    @angelinarampersad8263 Před 3 lety +12

    i read this in a few comments in different videos,
    "we are all suicidal kids, helping other suicidal kids.."
    so true >_

  • @emmapresley8104
    @emmapresley8104 Před 4 lety +39

    The fact that someone else in the world is watching this the same time I am makes me sad that someone else is feeling the same or maybe worse than me...whoever you are, I’m sorry. 💜

  • @Amelia-fq5pc
    @Amelia-fq5pc Před 5 lety +60

    Is it just me or when you help someone else through a hard time it's like they give their
    Emotions to you

    • @LK-lz6lk
      @LK-lz6lk Před 4 lety

      Amelia, I know your comment is 6 mths old now but I just had to reply...in case you don't already know. What you are describing is called Empathy. It sounds like you've got the gift of being an Empath (aka: a healer)! If you don't know much about it, might I suggest you look it up. It is, no doubt, a spiritual gift! Although, many empaths say it's a gift that comes with lots of personal challenges as well. Learning more about it, can help you better understand how to use it & how you can protect & care for yourself as well.
      🤞💜 & 💫 to you!

  • @LoveOnPages
    @LoveOnPages Před 8 měsíci +25

    6 years later, this is still a comfort video of mine

  • @avaroy688
    @avaroy688 Před 4 lety +58

    we say we’re fine cause we don’t want other people to think we want everything to be about us. or at least that’s how i am. i hate when other people worry about me.

  • @laurenwilliams4792
    @laurenwilliams4792 Před 4 lety +35

    It’s even worse when you’re crying so hard you can’t breathe, and your whole body is shaking all while you’re wondering why you can’t ever be enough for anyone in your life. You wonder why the love of your life will never choose you. You wonder why it is so GOD DAMN hard for you to be loved. But then again you’re used to it by now

    • @stephv7930
      @stephv7930 Před 4 lety +1

      that hit.

    • @mariannesmess
      @mariannesmess Před 4 lety

      You all will make it, your life is more than what it seems. You will all be sad for now but it's not forever. Trust me, I tried to commit suicide a few years ago. Now today I'm in an amazing relationship and my family is more supportive than ever. Life gets better but it can not if you are not in it. I'm addressing this to everyone who posted a comment, you will be okay. my Instagram is instagram.com/officialkiwisimmer/ use this if you need a friend or a complete stranger to talk to, I will not and will never be judgemental and I will listen wholeheartedly. I'm also coping a pasting this into all the comments that are sad because you all need to see this. Talk to me or someone else who will listen because there are people who care, even if its a complete stranger.

  • @sarahpatricia9641
    @sarahpatricia9641 Před 2 lety +12

    Some lines just never grow old. They're ageless.

  • @hopexmary
    @hopexmary Před 3 lety +13

    The fact that this video is published 4 years ago but the comments are so recent is honestly heartbreaking

  • @twentynestylesatthedisc6845

    This quarantine needs to end. I feel like I’m going back to the dark place that was so hard to leave. I made it through once but I’m scared about what will happen if I return to that state of mind.

    • @sylvansprecher7933
      @sylvansprecher7933 Před 4 lety +8

      You know it's bad when you start coming back to these

    • @shanycarriere3397
      @shanycarriere3397 Před 4 lety +2

      Cuddlez really bad...

    • @isaigarcia8835
      @isaigarcia8835 Před 4 lety +2

      Fr now that I’m always home I feel so alone with me and my thoughts
      And I just feel so sad and empty

    • @twentynestylesatthedisc6845
      @twentynestylesatthedisc6845 Před 4 lety

      Alexander Barker thank you so much! This mean a lot to me. Not many people offer to talk so just reading this comment made me feel better. Also if u need someone to talk to I will always be here.

  • @itshailey5756
    @itshailey5756 Před 3 lety +64

    you know it’s getting worse when you come back to watch these..

  • @thatoneweirdo-fj9hl
    @thatoneweirdo-fj9hl Před 2 lety +15

    Usually when someone drowns it's not from in-experience in swimming, it's usually due to panic, interpret that how you wish.

  • @turtlefox2758
    @turtlefox2758 Před 2 lety +37

    When you wanna make a joke but it's inappropriate for the context because not just 14 year olds feel this way but a lot of adults do too....

  • @nxtkyzh
    @nxtkyzh Před 3 lety +251

    Someone: hey are you ok your looking a bit down..
    Me: oh, yeah I’m fine!
    I’m Fine with crying all night
    I’m Fine with getting bad grades
    I’m Fine with arguing with my parents every day
    I’m Fine with having no friends
    I’m Fine with having no one love me
    I’m Fine with having everyone avoid me
    I’m Fine with people ignoring me
    Fine with putting in a mask everyday to cover up my ugly face
    I’m fine with being called names
    I’m fine with crying myself to sleep
    I’m fine with failing school
    I’m fine with not paying attention in class
    I’m fine with my brother hurting me
    I’m fine with being called ugly
    I’m fine with being depressed
    I’m fine with not having fun
    Someone: oh ok!
    Me: bye!

  • @moon-ys9dc
    @moon-ys9dc Před 5 lety +80

    *it’s so much easier to just say “i’m fine” instead of having to explain yourself.*

    • @user-ws1qt2oj5z
      @user-ws1qt2oj5z Před 5 lety +1

      True

    • @Emryth-eb4zq
      @Emryth-eb4zq Před 5 lety +1

      It takes practice. Being vague is okay too. It allows the other person to ask more questions or leave it as is. I tend to say Meh, not really, sort of, or I'm alive. It took me awhile to get comfortable with these. Sometimes people don't know how to approach the subject with those of us who are struggling. The phrases I mentioned can open the door to deeper conversations, or simply let them know that you're struggling. They can then offer support and encouragement. Learning to accept those are ... Not always easy but definitely worth it. It's important to learn how to self advocate, it's So much healthier than the standard brush off of "I'm fine "
      Nothing worth anything is ever easy. Easy has no worth and only short shallow comfort. Easy does not last.

  • @skyowens1145
    @skyowens1145 Před rokem +37

    you know It’s bad again when you start listening to these.

  • @fish27ja1
    @fish27ja1 Před 3 lety +21

    When you want to die, but you want to live. But at the same time your scared to live. When your tired and you want to sleep, but your fully aware of everything around you. When you feel like going home when your already in a place called home. When everyone you cared about forgets that you even exist. Even though they talk to you or see you on the regular. Depressions in the beginning, When you really feel sadness. There’s nothing that can give you it all back. People ask, why do you want to die, why would you do that to your family. Your friends, your life. Sometimes people are at the end of their string and aren’t even themselves anymore. When a person is done, They’re done. They don’t kill them selves over sadness, they do it over pain. It’s like getting shot every mildly
    inconvenience’s that person. When that inconvenience might just be a small obstacle for an average person.
    That’s real sadness.

    • @girlwithaterriblevoice5674
      @girlwithaterriblevoice5674 Před 3 lety

      That's so true, one time I got so worse in my life that I tried to commit and now I feel like everyone hates me no I'm just DONE.😭😭😭😭

  • @iamthewolfie_
    @iamthewolfie_ Před 5 lety +50

    The moment u feel happy for once but then ur depression kicks in and you feel alone and sad and feel like no one wants you around or anything and u lock urself in a room and cry till u fall asleep

    • @cloroxbleach5734
      @cloroxbleach5734 Před 3 lety

      I had that. I was driving and I actually felt happy for a moment. Then I saw a group of high schoolers in the back of a truck having a good time with their friends and it felt like a stab to the heart.

  • @eijiroukirishima4687
    @eijiroukirishima4687 Před 3 lety +149

    I think its nice how all of these suicidal people have come together, and were all telling each other to not give up.

    • @viiiviii1
      @viiiviii1 Před 2 lety

      Ejiro???? Why are you here-

    • @eijiroukirishima4687
      @eijiroukirishima4687 Před 2 lety

      @@viiiviii1 shhhh I came from the shadows child :>

    • @viiiviii1
      @viiiviii1 Před 2 lety

      @@eijiroukirishima4687 YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

    • @viiiviii1
      @viiiviii1 Před 2 lety +1

      @@eijiroukirishima4687 Don't stop bein manly bro

    • @eijiroukirishima4687
      @eijiroukirishima4687 Před 2 lety +1

      @@viiiviii1 of course dude, same to you! You seem very manly!

  • @notfound18195
    @notfound18195 Před 3 lety +58

    My parents: "You can tell me anything, I wont judge."
    Me: *I can't tell you shit if you're the problem.*

    • @ravenraven3588
      @ravenraven3588 Před 3 lety +4

      I feel that. I feel that, so god damn much, and I'm sorry that you understand. It's good to have some real friends to rely on though, friends who will be there for you, who will help you. Or maybe a therapist.
      I hope you're happy and healthy.
      Stay safe love, stay strong ❤️

    • @_notreallyhere0088
      @_notreallyhere0088 Před 2 lety +1

      This hit too hard, why can’t parents ever see that they’re the ones causing the problems. You say I can tell you anything and then the minute I mention mental health you undermine it and say that mental health isn’t really that important. That I don’t have mental health, but yet you drove me to the point of sh and trying to choke myself. I wish one day you would just step back and see how far you’re driving me and how horrible you’re treating me.

  • @veren771
    @veren771 Před 2 lety +15

    Its like freezing even though it's warm outside or the heat in your home is on. Drowning is a good way to put it. Feeling under attack all the time. Feeling a constant panick or anxiety attack at all times; unable to breathe even standing still.

  • @toriloehn5740
    @toriloehn5740 Před 5 lety +76

    For all of you feeling hopeless, depressed or suicidal...
    You don’t _really_ want to die. You just want the pain to go away. What if that pain _could_ go away? Your life would be so much better, right? So what if it could go away? It can. It totally can. You are not an exception to all the people who get better out there. You are not a mistake. You are not an accident. You are put here for a reason, and if you struggle with finding that reason, you can’t give up. Ever. Sure, there’s terrible things going on in your life right now, in your head right now, through your eyes right now... but there is always something to hold on to. Whatever brings you joy, or even used to bring you joy, find that. Whether it’s the sunshine on an autumn day. Whether it’s late night reading by the fire in winter. Whether it’s hanging out with friends, laughing with family. Whether it’s writing in your diary, or rocking out to your favorite song. You wouldn’t want to give that up. I know I wouldn’t. Ending your life is _not_ an option to stop your pain. Speaking up and getting help *is*. This is your life. You need to live it to the fullest, because you only have one. It’s gonna be hard, but who _ever_ said it would be easy? Rough patches make you stronger. Wow I typed a lot and clearly you can see I’m passionate about this kind of thing haha... what I’m trying to say is just hang in there. If you feel hopeless, talk it out. Get the help you deserve. Because _everyone_ deserves a bright future, and a beautiful life. 💫

    • @robinaniqkarabulut4943
      @robinaniqkarabulut4943 Před 5 lety +2

      Thank you, I really needed to hear that

    • @robertstanley4573
      @robertstanley4573 Před 5 lety

      I totally agree Tori Loehn but people do speak up and ask for but what do we get pills thrown at us or pointless counciling thats of no use if and when you fall into your darkest times the mental health service and civilians need to help more

    • @haleynicole1159
      @haleynicole1159 Před 5 lety

      I kind of think you're being mean and don't understand people I don't deserve a bright future stop thinking everything is ok because it's not

    • @knightwolf7807
      @knightwolf7807 Před 5 lety

      Tori !
      To say these words you must have lived em
      And you know what pain is
      But like you I’m here to save these souls
      I won’t let this fucked up life get to em
      I know that pain.. of being :p nvm lol
      But you are an amazing person
      *huggles*
      You are really special ya know !
      Take care love be safe always

    • @aaaaa-zx1fk
      @aaaaa-zx1fk Před 5 lety

      Your lying stop lying

  • @autumnleleika2470
    @autumnleleika2470 Před 4 lety +66

    5.8 million people clicked on a video called "I'm fine" let that sink in ☹

  • @Jellyfish7273
    @Jellyfish7273 Před 10 měsíci +22

    “Isn’t a little agony worth it…” I’ve been told this by so many people…and after years and years no it’s not. It is not worth going through pain for some speck of happiness that will eventually fade away and turn back into that agony.

    • @The-real-mirage
      @The-real-mirage Před 9 měsíci

      Yes..but if you manage to get that speck of happiness...then that means if you keep fighting, you’ll find the rest of the happiness.....so in the end...it is worth it after all....
      I know...because I managed to make it through...and if I can do it...then you can too

  • @Enjerulin
    @Enjerulin Před 5 měsíci +22

    I still listen to this audio till this day. I've been constantly thinking about the agonizing pressure we suffer as children, teens, and even adults. We all think it's a phase, but it's not. It's that false accusation we tell ourselves to move pass. Yet, we still continue to grow and that agonizing pain or pressure is still a build up of our lives. As people ask us, "how are you," the response is always "i'm fine or i'm good." This is because, no one is interested in what we feel, because they can do nothing about it. They don't care. We realise until the immense build up we endured throughout our lives is at it's peek that it wants to burst. Society these days are messed up and we all know that if we end things right there and then, we've shut down generations. It's selfish to die from such thing but its as if we were born to live with it.

  • @disgraceful318
    @disgraceful318 Před 4 lety +66

    you know it’s bad when you start watching these videos again

  • @pinnochiosbrokencoc9476
    @pinnochiosbrokencoc9476 Před 4 lety +34

    You know shits hitting the fan when you’re back to listening to this kind of stuff

  • @SG.equines
    @SG.equines Před 2 lety +14

    To whoever is feeling alone/tired/depressed/sad/worthless/ugly/insecure
    One day you will look at yourself snd think, “Dang. I went through all of that by myself snd I made it this far. I’m proud of myself”
    Yoh are not alone, so many people feel the way yoh do but that does not make your feelings any less valid. So beautiful/handsome boy/girl I hope you have a good night/day. Get up and get out of bed, put your phone down and get ready for the day! Go out with your friends and family, do something you enjoy…

  • @danielle.l0uise
    @danielle.l0uise Před rokem +28

    i used to sit and listen and cry to this for hours as an early teen

    • @julianneblanchard
      @julianneblanchard Před rokem +2

      I am a late teen and I sit and listen and cry to this for hours

    • @claraknowles4505
      @claraknowles4505 Před 10 měsíci +1

      Me too man me too and now we are back and what has changed everything and nothing at all

  • @allyssalevine3986
    @allyssalevine3986 Před 6 lety +47

    i feel like the nogitsune, he symbolized more than just an angry fox spirit.
    it symbolized the darkness. the anxiety, the depression, the sadness, the grief stiles never allowed himself to show.
    it symbolizes what so many of us go through. we all have a nogitsune. all of us. its only a matter of how strong it is, how much it shows.
    *and this is what happens when its 2 in the morning and i find myself in stiles stilinski audios. thank you.*

  • @charred_crow
    @charred_crow Před 4 lety +42

    This was originally typed for someone else, but I feel like everyone needs to hear it.
    Turn off all the lights in a room your most comfortable being in. Sit int he middle of the room, and focus on breathing. Any negative thought you have, walk away from it, any positive thought you have hold on tightly to it, and do not let go. The second you let go, is the second the water floods in, the second you start drowning, but if youre drowning, you still see the light from the surface. If you can see the surface your instinct is to swim to it. In this case the water, is tears. Humans cry because of pain, sometimes physically, some times emotionally, and sometimes mentally. Sometimes we just need to cry, we need to fill the ocean, that is our negative thoughts, but what we cant do, what we cant do is have the urge to walk in alone. You cannot traverse alone, for what will happen if things go wrong? No one will be there, but if you have someone with you, weather its family, friends, a pet, an imaginary friends, maybe even an ancestor, someone to hold your hand and guide you, youll be okay. Its a bad day, its a bad couple of nights, its a bad couple of weeks, months, years even. But its not a bad life, its not a wasted life, not unless you make it. Its all about how its perceived, if you want it to be bad, it will be. If you want it to be good, it will be. No thing, and no one will hit you harder then life, it will knock you down to your knees and keep you there if you let it, but what matters is you dont. What matters is that you have the strength, you have the courage to stand up and hit back. It doesnt matter if your tall or short, strong or weak, obese or thin. You are you, and as long as thats who you are, then theres no one else you need to be. Theres no one else you need to impress, if someone isnt proud of your best, then forget them. As long as you gave it your all, gave it everything you have, then thats what matters, and if your not proud of yourself, im proud of you. You reached out, you asked for help from complete strangers, the world isnt all sunshine and rainbows, but rainbows wont light up the sky unless you let it rain, and candles just wont glow until they burn, but you cant give up your laugher cause your scared of a little pain, thats a lesson that the hole world needs to learn, and if you ever need someone to talk to, you ever need a shoulder to cry on, you ever need someones hand to hold. Ill be that someone, ill be that shoulder, ill be the hand that you need to hold.

    • @midhattasneem7101
      @midhattasneem7101 Před 4 lety

      Thank you

    • @sageverkerk2008
      @sageverkerk2008 Před 4 lety

      Wow this is wow.. I really appreciate this and I’m sure more people
      Will find it at the time that they need to. So I’m saying thank you now bc now is when I need it.

  • @cookieglitz
    @cookieglitz Před 2 lety +17

    "If it's about survival, isn't a little agony worth it?"
    This is what I don't understand. Why would you rather live if you're in agony...? It's not like I have anything to live for...

    • @kara4243
      @kara4243 Před 2 lety +1

      Create something for you to live for, then every time when you are in agony you’ll remember that you have to keep living for that one thing or that one person.

    • @heyyamu
      @heyyamu Před 2 lety

      Agony comes together with survival.
      Trying to survive is not going and live through everything and ignoring everyone.
      you think you feel agony from continued trying and surviving but believe me,
      it’s all worth it at the end.
      I’m still on my breaking point where I overdosed a few weeks ago and I sat there waiting for the doctor thinking.
      ,,what am I gonna achieve with overdosing? I’m too young”
      My path still goes on or starts and you will find your way too

  • @nxt3223
    @nxt3223 Před 3 lety +13

    This scene hit so different. I had already heard the audio before, but given the context... it just hurt.

  • @lunacxx1330
    @lunacxx1330 Před 4 lety +138

    I'm scared of living but I'm scared of dying.

    • @roukilouis9133
      @roukilouis9133 Před 4 lety

      Well better being scared of something you know you can make a difference than one you know nothing about.

    • @micahmonk2496
      @micahmonk2496 Před 4 lety +1

      @@roukilouis9133 how can you make a difference

    • @roukilouis9133
      @roukilouis9133 Před 4 lety +1

      @@micahmonk2496 dying i believe i just stop existing as a consciousness and alive i experience what exist and it's my only chance i have.
      The god envy us because we're mortal. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
      Experience new things. Work to get opportunity and keep what you love close. Loving hurt cause your heart is layed on your hand. People can shared there heart or hurt yours when it's layed before you. Identify yourself and move in this mess the way you can enjoying most of it. Pain gets no results so why would you act like a victim. Overcome obstacles and don't take to much time to it slowing you down.

    • @micahmonk2496
      @micahmonk2496 Před 4 lety

      @@roukilouis9133 well its hard to enjoy life if theres nothing to enjoy bud

    • @roukilouis9133
      @roukilouis9133 Před 4 lety

      Theres plenty but your ungrateful

  • @biancagoncalves4376
    @biancagoncalves4376 Před 4 lety +43

    FOR EVERYONE WITH DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY OR JUST FEELING LOW, WATCHING THIS VIDEO:
    I think it's very important that you realize that their conversation did not end here, on that desperate note of him wondering wether if it'll only get worse.
    In the actual TV show, teen wolf, she concludes saying a quote from Winston Churchill "if you are going through hell, keep going". I feel that the difference is huge, who listens to this and ends up in doubt will feel worse, but if you have a chance of reading the concluding quote, I think it might give you strength.

    • @jaylana1997
      @jaylana1997 Před 4 lety +1

      Bianca Goncalves Teen Wolf is so real man!!!

    • @jaylana1997
      @jaylana1997 Před 4 lety +1

      THE ISSUES IT TACKLES NOT THE SHOW

    • @biancagoncalves4376
      @biancagoncalves4376 Před 4 lety

      @@jaylana1997 yes, especially when styles went through this, I related to it on a whole new level

  • @Anna...MayBug
    @Anna...MayBug Před rokem +31

    Truth is, we're all just a bunch of suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn't the answer..

  • @QueenGreenflame
    @QueenGreenflame Před 2 lety +28

    I do not wish to die,
    *I wish to have never existed in the first place...*

    • @matheodaniel1364
      @matheodaniel1364 Před 2 lety +2

      if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help...

    • @QueenGreenflame
      @QueenGreenflame Před 2 lety +1

      @@matheodaniel1364 I wish life was that easy, but thanks for your kind words :)

    • @yourimagination8137
      @yourimagination8137 Před 2 lety +1

      Yup.

  • @jayswonderland_
    @jayswonderland_ Před 3 lety +111

    the fact that this has 7,4 million views says a lot about our generation...

  • @Froocy-
    @Froocy- Před 4 lety +57

    This was posted in 2017 yet there are comments from just hours ago. This is a powerful video

    • @tofix3308
      @tofix3308 Před 4 lety

      I was here 2019 and here I'm again

  • @jordanpettit6451
    @jordanpettit6451 Před 3 lety +18

    It's like being in a war. A war that you wanna surrender. A war that is pushing you to the point where you just wanna give up. A war that has to many voices that you are trying to ignore. A war that makes you feel like your not worth anything in this useless world.. A war that makes you wanna quit.. what I mean by quit..is surrender..This war wants us to surrender.. But we will fight. We will fight to the point where the war is gone.. We will win this god damn war.. WE WILL WIN!!.. We will make it!!. Unlike the war. We will push the world away and ignore it..We will FIGHT!.

  • @TikTokmemo42
    @TikTokmemo42 Před 11 měsíci +20

    It’s like a never ending cycle of pretending, laughing just to get home and cry but you body won’t let you every little thing just seems impossible

  • @laurenskordas333
    @laurenskordas333 Před 3 lety +21

    Wherever you are in the world, know you are loved and that you are not alone

  • @rubenhamadouche3020
    @rubenhamadouche3020 Před 6 lety +34

    The pain is his voice, the way he explains it.. damn that hit me..

  • @TheSilverizer
    @TheSilverizer Před 4 lety +45

    It's a heavy weight in your chest that makes you not wanna get up. That it's so difficult to breathe, every night is the reoccurring pressure and it always hurts. That this pain will NEVER go away..as if im in an endless hallway and no matter how much i try to reach the end it just goes further and further away, then the tears fall for hours on end the insomnia continues and the thoughts of "I can't" or "I won't" echo through my head. I cry out for help but my parents call it an excuse, they dont understand. Dad never really cared...Mom only turned my issues into a financial crisis, like it's my fault I have anxiety and depression. 12 years of special education thought my parents were doing what was best, but after those 12 years I developed PTSD from my teachers and classmates, the thoughts got worse. Started stealing and lying and getting into all sorts of trouble cause it was the only way to get noticed. Started taking medications for anxiety and depression. It helps but it only masks how I truly feel. The scars of memory cause nightmares, just reliving each day in and out, time after time, and it makes the pressure in my chest get worse and worse until I feel my body will finally give out from the stress. That I may finally achieve peace. But I can never be that fortunate..

  • @crankydoople
    @crankydoople Před 3 lety +19

    For those who haven't seen the show the next line she says is " if you're going through hell, keep going "

  • @smolbean8311
    @smolbean8311 Před 2 lety +23

    The fact I accidentally memorized this whole thing thing- also when my mom found out I was selfh4rming myself bc my councilor at my school told her she just got mad at me and proceeded to threaten to take away my phone which I which I use as a coping mechanism, after she stopped yelling at me I locked myself in my room and had a panic attack and ever sense then she’s acted like nothings ever happened and hasn’t helped me in the slightest- 😃

    • @smolbean8311
      @smolbean8311 Před 2 lety +3

      I would also like to note that this was what? A year or two ago? I don’t even know at this point- days and time just get all jumbled up together but I do know that it’s been some time since that happened and she still hasn’t done anything-

    • @theoblivioustaryn5721
      @theoblivioustaryn5721 Před 2 lety +1

      Keep strong. YOU deserve to live. To have a good life. And if she can’t see that, fuck her. You deserve better...

    • @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet
      @Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet Před 2 lety +1

      I would like to say that I am not addicted to my phone or any other electronics… I am simply using the internet and the online world as a coping mechanism for my childhood trauma and I’m not even 18 yet so I’ll probably get more ✨childhood trauma✨