Depression Spoken Words poetry (I do not own this video it is clickfortaz)
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Many say to me.. be happy but it is not that easy.. many say to me if something bother me i should talk about it.. but no one is ready to be there when you really need it.
I just wish it was so simple that you just could talk.. but it is not.. Depression is something serious... It's not just "Go away" when you ask for it.. Well i hope you enjoy this video.
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The same question
“Are you ok..?”
The same lie
“Im fine..!”
This lie will be found in everyone who is depressed
That includes me
I never get this kind of questions because they think I cry for attetion.
Mrs.øøf sometimes that happens to me
I would be so damn happy if someone asks me that
@@mutiilation4038 that's everyone's excuse. When I first started high school I cried a lot for no reason, I didn't even know what was wrong with me...
The best way to keep your heart from breaking is to pretend you don’t have one.
at this point I'm afraid I lost it forever
•Itz•Camila• Cookie• --heheh!~
Yeah.
Well said 👏👏👏 I felt that
Why is this the only thing I can relate to
No one notices your tears,
No one notices your stress,
No one notices your tears,
No one notices that you are depressed
They Only Notice Your Mistakes.
Danieca Dumanlang yes💔💔
I just tell them “I’m fine” then they just move on💔
yes that is very true for most of the people but the people going through the same thing see the opposite
My life everyday
I think too
My nightmares don’t end when I wake up. They begin.
That is honestly one of my favorite quotes.
Angelica Demere I just woke up and now I'm scared bc I'm must put my fake face on and pretending to be happy.. I'm so tired to repeat this shit everyday
@Royal_冰魄 When I show my true self, my friends and classmates start to say, that I'm weird just bc I don't smile or laugh with em..
That's good, keep up with things that makes you REALLY happy 😊
@Royal_冰魄 I don't have a lot of friends either but I think that they say that bc I have a killer view :') Before I never smiled or laughed and I was a loner and since October 2019 I've opened myself, even if not too much, I'm not as shy as I used to be and with the time, they started to talk with me and yeah.. Now I have friends and I'm the clown of the class :)
Yes it is 😂 Thanks, hope you'll feel better soon too 😊
I have nightmares about my actual life like things that have happened to me on repeat
*There’s no point in crying because nobody hears my screams of help*
Nobody hears me either, it took my parents a year to see the dead me... Now, I don't know if I'M even alive anymore
Shadowolf In our editing I don’t even know if I EVER existed, just a figment of people’s imaginations and I’m slowly getting boring...
@@izzywiz2179 some words I used to say are true
"She's smiling out there
Laughing her face off everywhere,
But
With every smile,
She's crying
And every laugh
She's dying inside.
Fall asleep
Or fall apart is what she'll do..."
And trust me, I think those words are repeated now...
So true...
Friendly advice to all of you. Stop hiding from people you love. Even if you think everybody hates you. Ask for help. I'm telling this because i have experienced it. I was hiding for more than 7 years and the result was constant suicide attempts. My life is ruined just because i never spoke those simple words about my pain and my death wish because i am sure everybody hates me anyway
Literally never related to something more in my life
Same but some other videos like this
They don't understand
Same
Same first time hearing this and it's my life
Excuse me sir. I'm your 400th like 😁
Everytime I've told someone, how I felt, they said stay strong... But no one tell me how...
Same. They tell me, its something you have to figure out on your own. I tell them I dont know how and I need them. And it hurts so much when someone you love, dosent know how to make you feel strong, and neither do u too. You feel afraid, bcs it hurts when someone dosent know how to fix you. You feel broken and you dont want to stay broken....you want to be fixed.....I dont even know....I'm just rambling and it probably dosent making sense just want you know ur not alone..
I don't know how I'm sorry I can't help but here in the comments we are all Friends I'm sure someone maybe has some advice We love you okay we all do
By breathing even when you don’t want to, not giving up. By believing in yourself and knowing you aren’t alone. No matter what you aren’t alone, and you can get through this. I am so proud of you for living. If you ever need someone I am here you aren’t alone. Reaching out to people, trying to work through the pain. And when you feel like giving up know there are others helping you fight. I am here for you and you are not alone. ( I hope this helped
I have to always pretend to be happy with a fake smile....I smile even when somebody makes fun of me or teases me at school, so they think I am strong, but my little heart has shattered and I don't know where to find it. Living with depression just cuz of my parents. They don't have no one else except me....
thye tell you to be strong and ull be fine and u ask how they say figure it out. i still havent figured out how to be storng yet, but i take it each day at a time. each morning i force myself out of bed and say ok, u got this, even tho im about to break down in to tears, and every hour i try and breath. its hard to stay strong in a world that u dont feel loved in or ur sick of being in.but i find music helps, if i need to be strong i listen to music, or i find a good book to read and escape into that persons life
It's not even funny when people pretend they have depression and anxiety.
i know right people act like its a excuse they can say to get away with things, but the real ones who have it dont even show it thats why nobody will feel pitty for them because they dont care anymore
@@Literally.just.Ali. exactly sjdnsnxns
Cmdc _32 it's not I have depression rn and I am confused when something comes that is good and j am just sad
@@woosh_lsln I know the feeling like wtf widnsjdjsnd
Oh my god so many people at my school just want people to pay attention to them and they have took the meaning out of depression and anxiety
“Stop showing off”
“Stop attention seeking”
“Your just tired”
“Just breathe”
“Your too young”
“I don’t want to hear your excuses”
“Did a doctor tell you that, no”
“Act your age”
“Your BFF is a good example of how you should be”
Stops telling them their problems
“Why will you not talk to me!?”
Hmm related ,
depression is a serious problem but or family just take it as a joke😔💔
I hate how this is highly accurate.
This has happened to me
Exactly. I opened to to my mom. She brushed it off. Gave me a whole lecture about how depression isn't an excuse for missing or late homework. Or being too tired all day. Or constantly crying. She told me to stop complaining.
For several months I did. I cried silently and told no one, then she yells at me to come to her room. She found a drawing of me, that I made. I was in the corner crying she gave me a lecture about how I should open up more.
Haha. Oh now you want to her me talk?
@@User-ib9nk or at least she could have talk to you nicely . Btw be strong you can tell me if you want to :)
having depression and anxiety is like being scared and tired at the same time. it's the fear of failure but no urge to be productive. it's wanting friends but hate socialising. it's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. it's caring about everything then caring about nothing. it's feeling everything at once then feeling paralysingly numb
Damn! Man u just bought my thoughts to words....I- I felt like my head's gonna just blast out because of these random thoughts running in my mind, and I just wanted to write those down so that I can atleast calm down....and as I read ur comment....I realised my thoughts have been bought into words ....I feel much better...
But at the same time...I'm empty now...I'm totally numb...
Random thoughts still running through my mind , though this tym I don't really care...cuz I'm tired...tired of umm... everything....
I've not been diagnosed as depressed or anxiety ....but I have a lot of symptoms of those and I can literally see it getting worse and worse...
I dunno what to do now...how to deal with it....now that my brain has so many thoughts and I still feel empty....
I feel like I'm drowning....
All I want is to stop the thoughts ....my head hurts...but I don't really feel the pain...
I dunno what I've become...😣
@@tasmiyah6992 hey sorry i replied late i am deeply sorry for how you are feeling i felt like that way too n still do but ive grown to live with never ending pain and exhaustion and im not big help but i really wish you open up to someone u trust and soon this pain leads to other things if it helps get tea and take a nap listening to relaxing music idk how to advice u well but i hope you know that you are loved and as though the thoughts will not end and grow worse just remember that you are alive loved and wanted and if youre thoughts grow worse draw or read a book {stuff i do} i am sorry that you feel this way and i wish you the best DAY/NIGHT
@@strawberry_boki Aah...it's ok buddy... I just wanted to calm down...I was literally shaking last night.... overthinking was all over me...and...I just wanted to write those thoughts...so that at least I can calm down...
Well, it somehow worked...
Thanks for replying 🙂 u may not know...but it means a lot...the words are confronts...that slowly heal me...
Although in real life , noone ever told me these words...but I was desperately waiting someone to say those words...that mean so much yo me...whatever u said in your comment...I love every word...
Thanks again! ....😊
Remember....I love u! I dunno who u r, where u r from...but I'll never forget your words.....never ever...
I didn't really expect u to reply...but since u did...I really really love u💜💜💜💜🥰🤗✌️
Thank you for explaining it to the people that don't understand
@@tasmiyah6992 it could be an idea to see a doctor. I have found that medication can help; it can slow those thoughts down and take away some of the anxiety.
I had depression for nearly an year
Im to scared to talk to my parents about it because they will say its because of my phone.
Im to scared to go to a therapist,to scared to take those pills for depression,i'm scared even talking about it.....
I'm scared....
Once
My dad noticed something but I told him I was alright.
I regret that so much....
I was just scare to even cry infront of them.
I just feel empty,I feel unhappy,I feel sad,I feel scared.
I don't know why i'm telling this but I just felt like I need to comment about it.
To all people that are depressed make sure you call some help or talk about it to someone close
Because I might too.....
I feel you buddy. But we will get through this❤️. Stay strong
I know it might be to late to say anything yo help but tell them bc that's the only way u can feel full bc if your thoughts can't run over what people actually help and try to support I have depression amd I've hade it for 6 years and I told my bff and she is helping me with it
Shinrin im living thru this right now
I'm ashamed of my illness so I can't speak up🙂
It's difficult to speak up, but it's better to tell someone about it. You don't have to be alone...
Depressed person: I'm depressed
People: Is that a joke? Stop pretending! You're crazy! Get a life!
Depressed person: *commits suicide*
People: Poor soul, rest in peace.
I think it's better to keep it all myself. You might think it's a joke but this what exactly is happening.
Neko I know this is my life everyday. People ask if I’m ok, I say I’m fine and they just walk away. Are people so oblivious to the fact that the ones they love and the ones they spend time with are depressed or upset? Like they don’t bother seeing if I’m really ok. And suicide to them is a joke.
People won't Hear your screams. Until your Screams have gone Silent.
Not always.
Are you ok now
Tbh it’s true and I might have anything I can dream but I don’t have happiness and when I talk they say your jokes are so weird
Does anyone feel and relate to this and want to talk to someone about this like your parents but your afraid to talk to anyone about it because you’ll feel weak and your afraid they are going to say something like your only doing this for attention or your not really depressed or you don’t really have anxiety that it’s just a phase or a stage in a teenagers life but you know it’s not.
Yea
Nah... they well say i’m too emotional and barely rational and that i need to think straight
Alina Camacho that is exactly what's going on rn
Yeah.... even now it hurts to say if anybody wants to talk about it I’m here. So many people have turned my cries for help away like trash.
Sim...
"I create this character, and she is perfect, she is invincible" - these words stood out to me the most, I don't want to express my pain because I have this constant fear that people will judge me and misunderstand me. I hide my pain so well that everyone close to me thinks I'm strong, but I'm not strong.. I'm suffering an internal war, don't be fooled by my front
Yep two girls the easiest thing in the world to do is fake a smile
I don’t fear that people will judge me and misunderstand me I know that they have and that I will never go back to being myself I will always be another person that isn’t even close to me
I will be whenever everyone else wants me to be
Them: are you okay?
Me: I’m fine!....
Them: you sure?
Me: ye I’m just tired....
My mom won't even ask that question
My parents don’t even notice. Maybe I’ve just gotten to good at lying. I’ve been lying since I was a kid. Granted that was more for my supposed “anger issues” and hiding my grades and papers from my parents because I was scared of their reactions. I dreaded going home with anything close to a bad grade because then I would get scolded or yelled at. And the thing is they would always say they want the best for me. And sure maybe at one point they did but the way they went about it was wrong. And it never really got better, I just got better at hiding and lying to them. I essentially stopped lashing out and fighting back because that would just make it worse. I stopped crying for myself because that got me nowhere so I guess I ended up burying it. That sadness and anger has to go somewhere. I don’t know, I’m just so tired of this empty tired feeling that won’t go away. I only get a reprieve when I distract myself with other things like anime or CZcams videos. And my thoughts lately scare me, I’m scared of myself and what I might possibly do if I have a bad enough day or if I’ve had enough. I’ve never been diagnosed but I think I have to be depressed if I actually considered drinking bleach or falling off a high building. That’s not normal right? I can see it so clearly and that scares me.
And yet know one knows what "fine" means.
It means "pain". Or "I need help. Please." When anyone says "I'm fine" to this question, they are hurt inside. Deeply.
they don't understand that we can not tell people what's inside of us.. its too much for them nd they don't even understand.. don't ask if you don't ready for the answer 🙄
I know no one will read this cause its too long but i need to vent. I tried telling my mom that i think i may be depressed she said its just a phase ive been feeling down and suicidal for years i feel like im just a burden to my family and i want to stop messing up their lives but i cant bring myself to commit suicide ive thought about running away but i have a cat (that my parents hate cause he claws up the furniture and he attacked me once) so if i left i know they will just put him in a pound and i cant do that to him. The other day i was in my room with the lights and tv off with the door closed on my phone like i always am and my mom opened the door and joked about me thinking im depressed so i shouldnt have my door closed and laughed while saying it. Another time my dad lost his phone and i always keep my old phones so i gave him one and i forgot to sign out of my youtube and he saw my search history of songs about depression. My mom told me (while laughing) that he was worried about me cause i was listening to "sad songs". I was going to ask her to get me checked but i wont dare bring it up again just for her to laugh about it. I know she doesnt mean to but that doesnt mean it hurts any less. If you read all that i appreciate it and thanks for reading.
Storyline Creater i love you, don’t forget that! your cat is the reason why your here and that is Gods way of saying that he wants you here. you are so strong you will do amazing things in live i know it i love you you are perfect and beautiful
@@haileyhardt5569 thank u i appreciate it
I'm sorry Ik it feels I really do and I can't say life will get better bc that would be a lie bc Ik it won't bc it hasn't for me. Family will never understand or depression even we don't know why it picked us
I love you so so much 🥰🥰🥰😔
@@silentgamer-wh9sq hey it seems it's almost an year. How r u now 😇 I wish u r good.
It breaks my heart how much I relate to this
Then your safe I relate and feel nothing!!!! Not hurt sad angry months ago that's all I felt and now I would kill to get it back because it much worse to feel nothing. You are Lucky to feel hurt.
Me too
Same
I told my teacher about my depression yes she listened but she didn't understand the pain she comforted me but it didn't even make me feel better..it hurts so much
read quran
I can’t tell anyone about it lmao
Relatable. I told my teacher I was feeling sad, she got me our school councillor, but I guess.... I was shrugged off.
@@deemotaku7924 stfu. Read quran has nothing to do with depression.
I too talked to my teacher she too understood but still said you are being like a depression patient
ppl the girl speaking her youtube is called click for taz
when I was listening I was like omg she sounds like taz
well the ytber put tazs yt in the desc of the vid
Yeap I know when I heard her I knew it
YESSSSIR
Her:” i have a great family, amazing friends, good academic results on paper everything is okay”
Me:”cant relate”
Lucky, she has amazing friends... all I have are fake friends
Same
Yea same..but your pfp and name made my day a little brighter, even made me smile I dare say. Thank you.
I can relate that's why it made me tear up more
@@jerlinishiah same i can relate a lot and it hurts
"It's not that I don't want to be happy,
it's just despite how hard I try, I can't bring myself to be happy."
That line is so relatable... no matter how many times I smiled, I'm never TRULY happy...
By the way good video👍
True I fake a smile just to look ok deep inside I'm not ok ..
Same
"Great family"
(who though of me as a badluck in our family)
"Amazing freinds"
(they say something behind my back)
"Good academic result'
( its still not enough for my parents)
This is my life btw
"I am Tired" I Tell My friends. "I am Tired" I tell my Parents. "I am Tired " I tell my Boyfriend. "Why are you Tired" He responds. "I am Just tired". .."What Are you tired Of"....."Living"..That moment he Gives me A Hug I never knew I needed.
They can’t see my pain...
They can’t see me cry...
They just can’t see...
I really wanna die...
They don’t know my pain...
They haven’t seen my smile...
The only thing they know is..
I haven’t smiled in a while...
Even though I have friends...
And a great family at home...
There’s a deep burning feeling...
Buried in my soul...
They tell me take some medicine...
They tell me it’s ok...
They tell me that tomorrow...
Will be a better day...
So I laugh and I smile...
And pretend it’s ok...
But in reality...
I might not make it to another day...
No one will cry...
No one will be sad...
In fact...
Everyone will be glad...
This feelings not a disease...
Or an infectious virus...
But a way people feel...
Cause something’s burning deep inside us...
...but if you too feel this way,
Don’t worry cause it will all be ok.
No matter what happens,
No matter what they say.
Just keep thinking happy thoughts
And it will all be ok.
Even if your friends keep lying
Or your dad hates your gay.
Keep moving forward.
Make it to see another day!
Just know that people love you
No matter what they say.
And love yourself
Cause your perfect, in every single way!
By: Anabelle Urias.
So nice poem girl
This is awesome!! 💞💘
Arnima ty 🥺
_the_d1n0_ nugget_ wow i like this poem did you made this?
@@meigeledquilang9865 yea I did! 😁 and ty!
When I was crying and screaming in a park, telling my friend how I feel, saying I wanted to die. She said, stop seeking attention, you are such an attention seeker. That’s the reason I hide it, keep it from everyone in case they react in the same way. Blame me for wanting attention, when really I hate it.
she's blind as hell if she doesn't believe u
Yeahh people in social media says frnd if you are feeling low or if you are sad just talk to me but real they don't listen and judge you thay you are doing it for attention or to prove that you are right
Honestly, I watch these videos to make myself cry, but not because I’m faking it or want attention. It’s just that it’s the only way I can feel emotion. I haven’t been genuinely happy in such a long time.
I can't even cry at this I can't feel emotion anymore :( But all the people in the comments are here for you okay Just try I'm sorry I don't have something better to say...
The story of my life. I've started a habit of waking up at 1 PM and not wanting to even get out of bed. I've even started to hate music. For those who don't know music is my passion. Well...was. I stopped singing and playing instruments like a month ago. Now when I'm alone I sit in pure silent and break TF down. Tear after tear hours go by I fall asleep, then wake up do my daily routine for a show and repeat the samething every night.
Jacob Mullens aw its ok. if you ever need someone to talk to im here. Im going through the same thing
Dont be stad im Toine to the same thing my advice is plakband listen to music!😊🎶🎶🎶
when your friend goes through the same thing you are and you keep telling them everything is gonna be okay everything is fine you have me and all of this talk when you yourself don't believe it bcs you have heard this and nothing had changed
who can relate
Here I am holding my tears... I'm so tired crying and crying cuz' it's worthless. I'm afraid of going out because people might judge, I want to change my negative thinking but I just couldn't. Sometimes my parents order me to buy something outside then I said why? I didn't answer then they become angry and go on talking nonsense. When I go out,It's like the feeling inside me the rain start to become a storm. Sometimes when I saw some sad eyes, oh I want to stay with them so I will see their eyes shine,maybe I'll be happy with them too. It's annoying when your having depression the whole month then the next month you're incredibly happy, then the next moth the depression comes back,like wtdaheck Earth stop playing with me, I'm H-U-M-A-N you know. I always think oh maybe I should die but I just couldn't do it.
Aki I feel the same way one day or a month I was actually depressed for 3 months in a row in my room sitting there trying to hold back my tears and all I was doing was causing more I tried to be happy and finally something came to me a MIRACULOUS EPISODE but I then became upset again and returned to my cycle of depression it is so hard to deal with this living hell in side me it’s a monster eating me up and the only way to find my happiness is by finding something that makes me happy they tell me to be happy you got to love yourself but how can I do that if you can’t make someone love you or feel loved by anyone how can you love yourself isn’t that was depression is a hell inside you eating you up and lowering your confidence I’m a Leo ♌️ so it should be easy for me to be confident and a introvert but no it’s not it’s the most hardest thing in the world I may act confident and brave but without that force field I’m nothing I’m just a piece of shit and that piece of shit is what I call depression it waites for me when I wake up form a 1 hour sleep “nap” all I do it sleep or got to sleep late so I wake up late or just stay in my room all day and lock my self up there I don’t think there is nothing more torturing than yourself and I feel your pain every single day and no one that has depression should say I have it worse because tbh we all have it the same we all want to kill ourself sometimes we all hate ourself we look at our selves like complete monsters and then we cry because it’s the only thing we know how to do it’s so upsetting I sometimes think of killing myself but this will only make you feel worst thinking about your family or siblings or even pets we all have a life for a reason we all have a passion a talent a path we just have to find it but for now I’ll just stay over here in my bed with the blankets covering my face and crying the whole night
Aki: Depression is not something you have one day and next not.. depression is something you have all the time.. some days are better than others.. i have lived with mine for almost 10 years.. and i know how it feels when your body is shaking when you wanna give up and just lay down and cry all the time.. or when you don't can go outside for weeks.. when you have depression you also loose some of your interests.. that is why i was gone from CZcams for a while.. even if i have had my channel for a long time.. and i know depression is different from person to person.. but the point is still the same.. you can't have it one day and next day or month it is gone.. as i said it is always there and linger around your head.. you maybe not show it outside. And i know because i have had mine for soon 10 years.. and i also know how it can be when you want to give up.. i have been there to..
I do not mean anything bad or rude but if you wanna talk send me a pm on one of my social's media's. c:
@@ElectraFH I also know how it feels to comfort someone who has depression even if you also have depression
I know how it is and how you just don't want to get up, and it makes it worse when like I don't have the guts to tell anyone, no one knows, but I think I can handle it myself but really behind the fake face I put on is my depression, my I can't get up, and me just laying in my bed feeling all alone. Even tho people tell me that I have a lot of people who love me all I can say is I know... But I really don't, I can only imagine some things good, but I am more of an outcast that keeps to herself, who has no tolerance for anything and just manages to push people away and when she doesn't, and she lets them in... They brake her... She makes the wall again mends her fake face and puts it back on but actually it just gets worse, you let yourself go, and no one understands why, and if you tell them they might never think of you the same way again... The only thing that keeps me from hurting myself is I am scared to die... But I stay strong and keep my walls up and that is where I am today besides trying to get my self to cope
@@Broesamle23 i really like how you typed it, and so many times there is i have/want to hurt myself again, i stopped with my selfharm when i met my ex gf.. and we was together for 4 years.. so i did not hired myself for over 4 years.. but then for around 2-3 months ago me and a friend started to fight really bad.. we had fought before but not this bad.. and I got deeper and deeper in my depression.. so I started with self harm again.. and now that is the routine of my life.. i just wish i got better but i think i cant..
1:52 - " And so I carry on live these two lives, one for the public and one just for me late at night cause that's easier then admitting you have a problem." I feel that
When im wiv others: im a cheery, happy person that plastera on a smile for others but when im alone i feel like im drowning in darkness nd loneliness that i cant escape from.
Exactly me too🙃
This poem just explained most of my life.
I also love her accent. ❤
7 years and I still keep coming back to this feeling. Been listening to this video for the past 3 years it’s a hard battle.
Take care brothers it was nice knowing y’all 🫡
Felt the same. Don’t end it. I’m here for u bro ❤️
❤
They dont believe me when I say I'm depressed because my acting has become so good that the thought of it is like believing that time travel is possible. To the point I cant cry even when I want to and I'm by myself as that happy smile is glued onto my face so tight that all the things I want to release cant get through and the only thing that I can do is pretend nothing's wrong.
And the sad part is that its easier for me to tell a bunch of people I'll never meet than the people that can actually do something.
The worst part of being strong is that no one ask you if you're *OKAY*
are you okay? xx
This is basically EVERYTHING about my depression.. it explains everything
This is a beautiful poem.To anyone else that has depression or feels that they have it, you are not alone. I'm sorry if your family or friends don't accommodate how you feel, I hope you find someone or have found someone that makes you feel like you're worth more than the dirt on the ground. I wish I could lie to you and say that you'll be better tomorrow, but we all know how unpredictable waking up in a good mood can be when you have depression..
I myself, suffer from MDD and I'm using youtube as a hobby to keep me active instead of sitting in the house hiding from the world. maybe youtube will connect me with the world again one day.
The part about everything being ok on paper I felt so hard.
Same :)
I love this poem, it’s one of my favorites
For those who are hurting right now , please remember you’re needed. We were all put on this earth for a reason , if not we wouldn’t be here at all. Although sometimes they might be horrible at showing it , ur family loves you , ur friends love you and I love you. After the rain theres always a rainbow. You *will* get through this , maybe alone or not alone. But whatever you’re going through it’s just temporary. Please keep breathing. I’m here.
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[Music]
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it's not that I don't want to be happy
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it's a despite how hard I try I can't
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bring myself to be happy I feel
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suffocated embarrassed ashamed why did I
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have to be this way I have a great
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family amazing friends good academic
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results on paper everything is ok yeah
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all I ever seem to see is sadness and
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grain it's like this is burden on me
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pulling me to the ground and however
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hard I try I can't bring myself up I
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can't bring myself to key about anything
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not me not him not her living has become
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this constant nightmare it's just not me
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Society will tell me to try yoga go for
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a walk listen to meditation I tell them
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that this cannot be solved by exercise
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or medication it's a disease I bet every
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aspect of my life my work my
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relationship my education until this day
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despite my best efforts to explain I am
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always met with mind hesitation people
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ask me why are you always so sad I tell
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them I don't know I don't know what I do
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know is that I wake up every morning
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feeling like absolute and now
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that's become my norm I'm afraid of the
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world I'm afraid of but my god out in
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the buta I will be judged for some of
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the I could not control where's the
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fairness of it all do you think I like
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to watch with a ball it just all go to
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stop hate jamming though so I hide them
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I put up a wall that is so high you will
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never see my pain or any of applause we
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create this character but she is perfect
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she's invincible
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and so I carry on living these two lives
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one for the public are one just for me
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late at night because that's easier than
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admitting I have a problem and that's
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the problem
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stigma is real people
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and they will not go away until you
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realize a mental health is a big deal
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it's a hidden disease I bet so many lies
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wake up and listen to the swinger cries
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it's a kid who never speaks or the man
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who's always tired
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the woman was too emotional the guy just
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got fired because he was obstacle he
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couldn't get us off our bed you just met
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to help but do you think any of his
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colleagues neither
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depression is that hello inside of me
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and it eats me up daily
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[Music]
How & why?
Dude this must have taken so long. I-
ahh thank you so much i appreciate you
Let me copy these
Every single word she said I can relate so much. It's hard for me to express how I feel and every word she said just expressed how I feel.
It's not that i dont want to be happy It's a despite, how hard i try I can't being myself to be happy.
I feel Suffocated, Embarrassed, Asshemed
Why did i have to be this way?
I've a great family,
Amazing works,
Good Academic results,
On paper everything is Okay
Yet all i ever seem to see is sadness and grey
It's like There's this burden on me pulling me to the ground and however hard you try you can't bring myself out I cant bring myself to care.
About anything
not me,
not him,
not her.
Living has become the constant nightmare.
And it's just not fair.
Society told me to try yoga,
go for a walk,
listen to meditation.
I tell them that this cannot be solved by exercise or meditation.
It's a disease that affects every aspect of my life,
My work, my relationship, my education
And to this day
Despite my best effort to explain I am always met with blind hesitation.
People ask me
"Why are you always so sad" I tell them I don't know...I dont know
What i do know
is that I wake up every morning feeling like absolutely shit and that that's become my norm.
I'm afraid of the world,
I am afraid of putting my guard down in the fear that I will be judged for something i cannot control
Where's the fairness of it all? Do you think I like to watch my self fall? Into this hole of self hate, shame and loathe
So i hide them
i put up a wall
That's so high
You will never see my pain or any of my flaws
I create this character
and she is perfect,
She's invincible.
And so i carry on live these two lives, one for the public and just one for me late at night cos that's easier than admitting you have a problem and that's the problem.
The stigma is real people
and it will not go away until we realise that mental health IS a big deal.
it's a hidden disease that's affecting so many lives,
Wake up and listen to the silent cries
It's a kid that never speaks
or
the guy who's always tired,
the women who's too emotional,
the guy who just got fired cos he was absent a lot he couldn't get out of bed due to his mental health but do you think any of his colleagues knew that? course not.
Depression is the hell inside of me And it eats me up daily.
finally i found something that related the most to me
Although I'm depressed to the max, videos like this seem to soothe my soul and ease my mind. I guess I oughta watch these more often!
I can relate to the whole poem and now my mom is putting me in therapy..
how are u now?
@@apellpie I was okay until last week where I had the worst breakdown.. didn’t leave my room for 2 months
@@apellpie i should be happy I mean I’m living the dream but I don’t feel happy
FOUR ELEMENTS FIRST
WATER:when it rains it means a great person jousted died
Air : people are lacking to breath cause they feel tired of living
Earth:someone who just got buried because the pain they where feeling.
Fire: the people who are on fire play the biggest role they kill other peoples depression and give themselves and others a reason to live
Always remember to be you and dont let others change that no matter how hard it gets because there will always some one to love you for being the person you where born as.
One day you'll look back and see all the tough times but you'll see a person who survived who made during the tough times so dont give up on yourself because others wont be giving up on you.be a fighter and just stay strong💖
but who am I? I've pretended so long I can no longer tell the facade from the genuine.
This is a video that honestly made me feel like someone actually understands how I feel everyday
"People who cry not because they are weak, It's because they have been Strong for too long".
The worst feeling isn't when your friends don't know if your smile is real or fake, it's when your parent's can't tell the difference...
😢 its painful
This poem just mostly described how I feel. Maybe one day I'll fade away leaving my pain behind
Some month ago a friend of mine asked me why we are never talking about feelings. And I was shocked. Not about his question, but instead about the fact that I really needed to talk about feelings. But I blocked his question and passed over it with a joke. I was to afraid. Cause the only feelings I had back then were fear, loneliness and grief. I just didn’t feel worthy to bother him with my feelings. I know that he would have listened to me. But I hated myself so much back then, I thought I didn’t had the right to speak.
Hey, depressed people.... Please don't lose hope, don't act like you don't have a heart, it hurts the other people, I've experienced it myself, my elder brother is the coldest person I've ever met, he doesn't care, he hurts people unintentionally, breaks hearts, acts like be doesn't have a heart but at the end of the day, we're all humans, we all do have feelings, I know, I know how hard it is to go through a heartbreak, but stay strong, there's always someone better than him/her for you 💜
Idk why I'm here, this just makes me feel worse. I have never felt this sad, depressed, and lonely in my life.
You are not alone, almost everyone here is depressed we are Friends here it's save to tell your problems we love you! 💕😔 I'm sorry you have to feel this way..:(
A tearful virtual hug to the writer and everyone who can relate:):
Your skin in not a paper don’t cut it...🥺
Your body is not a book don’t judge it💔
Your life is not a movie don’t end it 😞
You are loved
You are wanted
You are beautiful
Yes you are ❤️❤️❤️
Just reading the comments already make me cry... It's not that i have depression or anxiety, it's just that... I can feel what they feel... They say you should get a therapy but i say you should find someone who you can truly trust and let out all your problems...
My mom: “wanna go to you friends house?”
My mind: “I don’t have any friends that want to see me... I’ll say yes”
Me: “sure”
Mom: “okay”
*days pass*
*i don’t go to a friends house*
No one notices how you feel,
How you cry
How you smile
That’s why you can always fake a smile,
How you scream,
How you stay silent,
And sometimes feel happy
I feel you if you need help I'm here
And sometimes into CZcams shorts
Well written, well expressed. It was really deep. I haven't felt this was for days.. But there are a few days when things feel dark. It's unbearable. So facing that on a daily basis is definitely hard.
It's really difficult or we can say impossible to make people understand how it feels when someone is suffering from depression or any other mental illness.
People should open up and talk about about mental health......
There's nothing to shame to be mentally unhealthy.....spread awareness ... .
I have been struggling with depression and OCD...but now 2 years after I am alright just bcoz my family supported me..... understood me.....
How am I supposed to be happy when the same scene plays on repeat? Every single time I feel somwhat happy, I see a picture, then inside I die again... I just can't say Sayanara to you Ash.
Samenhere..that scene that horrible one
This is one video that could describe my whole life
many people ask me to get out from the dark side but I can't do that
Thank u for putting it in words and now i feel like i can understand myself more
I remember coming across this poetry way back 2020 and became my inspiration to write a poetry myself.
Hello! I know you are sad right now. Depression, anxiety, overthinking, loneliness? I know you are bringing them right now. But remember, you can't carry all of those! Why don't you try to surrender them, all at once to Jesus. He will heal your heart, and bless you with all His might. Just trust in Him!
Shit...i literally teared up from the very beginning of this. So freakin true. I relate so hard.
I have to admit,This is the best poetry i watch so far
this is how i feel , it was perfectly described , im not good with words so expressing myself is hard and this is an amazing poem.
It make me happy to know some people felt me before
The words I used to say were:
"She's smiling out there
Laughing her face off everywhere,
But really...
She's crying with every smile
And dying with every laugh
Time to fall asleep
Before she falls apart...."
Sometimes....I still say those words...
“I’ve a great family,
amazing friends,
good academic results,
on paper everything is okay.”
Damn that hits hard for me 😔
Same
You just explained my feelings that I can't put into words. Honestly, when I watched this, it is the only time I cried again. Because of too much pain, I just feel nothing. Nothing hurts me anymore. It is not that I got stronger, but I got used to the pain that now... I'm numb. I just want to be happy, to have that peace but I think it was too hard to asked. I hate myself. I am nothing. Everyday I punished myself in any ways for being me. No one knows and that is my tragedy. No one can understand my silent cries. No one knew that I'm dying inside. I don't understand why my life turned out like this and the truth I cannot run from is the reality that I have no home. I feel sorry for myself, that I'm not good enough. If death is the freedom then I will choose myself for once just to free myself. I'm tired. If only if...
I wish that I never existed.
I'm sorry...
Guys the life isn't bad think positive and everything will pass
Life is not bad the day is
Think about the days you were laughing think of the days you were loved
Not everyone needs love we need happiness
Happiness is a decision and our decision is happiness
Did you know that the funniest class clown is the most broken person at least thats my life
I literally screen recorded this just so I can speak it to a big crowd
Only to realize they listen to the little things
And no matter how much I say it
They don’t listen
And it kills me
And then after watching this
I question everything around me
My family, my life, my emotions and even my friends
I don’t understand any of them
And it breaks me down
To realize how small I am
In this big world
Where people are actually happy
And forget about the bad things
And society says the should know about the bad things
But if you know about the bad things you think about them often
How you are never actually happy
How you are never actually sad
But
You are always jealous
Of the people that surround you and myself
We are nothing
But worthless
Small
Balls or emotions and fear
_”Why did I have to be this way”_ It hit close to home
This fits me so perfectly still after all these years. When will I feel better
To the people who are here, with depression and anxiety. We can do it. I believe in you.
😢
I have A's I have a family which cares for me and I have GREAT friends... And my mum even suffered from depression too, but I can't talk to her.
I have trusting issues, insomnia, anxiety and depression... My life is a mess... I'm lonely and I cry me to sleep almost every night... I'm not afraid of dying... Living is my nightmare... And every time someone asks:,, Hey, how are you feeling?" I say:,, I'm great" And then there comes my fake smile...
I've had this since I was almost nine.. I'm now twelve... I want to kill myself because of the depression but my anxiety won't let me... I can't talk to anyone either.. I'm used to faking my smile... Nobody could know about it. It's like waking up... I HAVE to do it every day it's a never-ending cycle...
i get how you feel, but if you have a great family good grades and great friends why are you still sad, and I’m not saying this to make you think there’s something wrong because I have depression and anxiety as well, but I don’t have a good family at all, I’m practically failing school, I have good friends but that’s like the only good thing i have in life, I want you to feel grateful for the life you have, try to open your eyes and see the world around you, to see that you’re living in peace.. I’m not living peace, you’re lucky to have the life you have, and I’d give anything to live a simple life like yours but life thinks I don’t deserve it, going to sleep hurts because I just know the next day will be like the previous, nothin f ever gets fixed just more shit gets piled on, and I’m so tired of it, tired of fighting. So please I want you to see that you are lucky to have a good family, good grades, good friends, you are going to have an amazing future, and I really hope you wake up to realize all this one day, realize to see that you’re living in peace, there are people out there living in the worst situations so I just want you to know that everything will be ok for you💗 and I really hope that you stop feeling all these horrible things one day because you don’t deserve it❤️❤️
@@zashaperez444 thank you, this really made my day but... Let me explain.. They expect me to be perfect and since I don't wanna disappoint them so I try really hard to keep everything up, my great family doesn't know the real me... Nor do my friends... I can't trust anyone enough to show them... well... I got bullied too... 3 years and they made me feel worthless... I will never forgwt what they did to me...
i lived with depression for more than a year, and during that time i lestined to this audio almost everyday. it used to make me feel like i am expressing all my thought an feelings via listening. i'm healed now and living a very good life, and just come across this video accidently. it bring back all memories of thedarkest days of my live and therefore i think i need to send love and support for you that watch this vedio crying or just lay down feeling numb and depressed. i want to tell you that i love you and you are worthy no matter what. just please dont give up .....
poetry has so much power n meaning to it 😢
the sad thing is i can relate to this a lot
I was going through a bad patch. But now I'm ok.
I don't know what to say to you, but I know that God only creates beautiful souls.
May God make it easy for you all Ameen.
You may not believe, but if you cry out to God, then He will hear every word.
Thx God Bless You 🙏
This is a beautiful poem. Sometimes i just feel sad for no reason.
i relate to the two lives thing. during therapy, the struggle is to put down the "everything is all right" mask. sometimes i even forget that it's there and when i'm dealing with hard situations i'm forced to remember that i'm lying to myself, that i'm not that happy, not that strong... not that willing to live. i'm glad i found this audio talking about a fight i thought i was the only one to go through
Just , my friend fakes depression to make me feel im not lonely....
Ok sometimes I’m happy and laugh. But every time I’m happy and forget about the bad stuff someone says are u ok or u look sad...Then I remember.
The world always see me happy but I'm not .... i relate myself in this video... love this video by the way ♡
You know you are really blessed to at least feel.. Rather than staring at the video.. Wanting to cry.. And not a single tear comes out..
How many times do I have to die for someone to *finally* grieve me?
This is what I've wanted to tell my parents for about three years..
It's just that I cant get out, y'know?
I taught myself to put on a fake smile and people believe it so i became the happy kid but no one sees behind all the foundation hiding the bags under my eyes and they believe it all of these videos help me realise I’m not alone and I know it’s a bad thing but it makes me happy to know I’m not alone ❤️❤️
That two character he/she build... One for public and one for him/her-self...
It strike me right in my chest... Cuz that's who i'am.... But dont know it's a depression or anything like that... But all those words you've said... Really relate with who i'm now...
Never related to something so much.
Your amazing
You can be amazing.
You are amazing too
This makes me feel less alone. Thank you!
I haven’t felt depressed in a while but lately I’ve been getting back into that “bizz” and it’s getting rough, but I’m glad I got to listen to this, to know there’s some kind of voice I can listen to that isn’t mine
Hey there everyone.... Let me be your friend :)
It’s true
I never had problems with depression but I like this Videos about Life, sad things & depression. I really don't know why because I’m happy inside & outside & i have everything what I need in life & it is a amazing feeling to have person who cared about you & be always there for you... it's not normal that way...
***to all suicidal person***
don't give up on yourself, fight for life & happiness, you deserve it and perhaps at these time, right now I don't know you can't be happy & can't control your life... I promise you, that you will be happy again & depression is just the way with life test you & your look on life. You will find a solution to fight against anything bad in your life & if you need help... I will be always there for you & other people!
I... I have no words to describe this poem, I want to say that even my two different sides take over my life, but I also want to say how relatable this poem is... I always feel like saying something, just something but I can't, because I don't know how to express my feelings. I... I don't know.... 🖤