Multifandom | Nothing I Ever Did Was Good Enough
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- čas přidán 21. 02. 2021
- "...I resent you for the childhood I had..."
Fandom: Sharp Objects, New Amsterdam, Big Little Lies, Grey's Anatomy, Sex Education, Outer Banks, Riverdale, 9-1-1, Animal Kingdom, Hacksaw Ridge, A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints, Yellowstone, Rookie Blue, Life as a House
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Theme: Abusive/Toxic Parents, Broken Family/Home, Parents and Children
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Sometimes I forget that verbal abuse is also abuse. When abuse comes to mind, it's usually physical, not verbal.
I think a lot of people do, I also think that people excuse emotional/ verbal abuse easier or more than physical.
Verbal abuse is just as bad . I've experienced both my whole life.
I realised this after 21 years of emotional & verbal abuse.
It is easy to forget that verbal and emotional abuse are just as painful. It took me a couple years to stand up to my dad, because the abuse was getting to be too much to handle.
Passive aggressiveness is also verbal abuse.
I’m addicted to sad multi fandom
same. Its honestly starting to feel like a drug and im addicited again.
I sentence I can very much relate to.
@@Levi-jf4th 😌 it’s ok we’ll get through this
@Liam king righttt
@@jay.washereeee1136 yea thank you 🥀
that "love me anyway" kills me everytime :(
I want to see the movie/series? Do you know which one this clip is from?
@@sarahpatricia9641 its from a show called "9-1-1"
@@11203stacia Thank you very much 😁
i was crying the whole time but when he said that i fking balled
I grew up knowing my only sibling ( my older sister) was my parents favorite. My mom gets upset when I joke about it. I finally looked at her and said “ you really can’t see how painfully obvious you and dad made it can you?”
I fell this sometimes too. They pretend it's not there, but it is. you just have to know that you are important and loved and that you are worth so much, and you need to surround yourself with ppl who agree. Please remember you are worth so much.
It's totally opposite for me I'm older one and my younger sis is prefect for them
Its totally my story my older sister is the perfect child and I am ordinary not that important average
What was her response?
My younger brother is the favorite in my family even though theyll make it obvious that they love him more and that hes how they want their kids to be while im just the family fuck up it hurts knowing that i can never make them proud no matter what i do
It hits hard when you can actually relate to this............
@@unknownrythm_ hey!! I am really sorry for the late reply....but your reply has made my day you know....Thank you sooo much for this....i am really grateful to you! God bless you 🤗
@@unknownrythm_ It really means a lot to me....🤗💗
Yh
its hard when you actually still in there
"I resent you for the impatience" that hit home.
Yep
Throwing it right back at them. I
Some people see this as some “sad multifandom”, but the other people see this as their childhood, their daily reality. This is deep..
“I resent you for not feeling safe at home” hit me like a ton of freaking bricks bc… that’s exactly where the PTSD I’m still dealing with as an adult came from 😕
A "home" is supposed to feel safe and comfortable. Not a place where you don't know where you stand as a person.
i know this is 5 mnths ago. im real sorry your going through life like that. im also in ptsd and have an insane temper so hard to keep out of trouble. at the 1:32 mark SO YOU WANT SOME ADVICE ON BEING A FATHER? is that a movie or do you know where i could find that? take care of yourself
@@rustynail1020I know it has been a month but I believe that it is a tv series called Animal Kingdom. If it is not I am so sorry.
@@Stiles24_NewtA5 no no that helps thank you
@@rustynail1020 your welcome
Catch me crying because Buck, Maddie, and Chim all deserve better😫
They really deserved better. Chimney is a better father to Jee-Yum already
My girlfriend used to love her mom like god and she was always treated like a step child. She used to cry about how her mom's cold behaviour. She used to sleep sniffing her mom's dresses coz it calmed her, gave her sleep. To all those people who are not sure to give love unconditionally don't bear children. May god bless you BabyBub.. I still love u.
How is your girlfriend now?
@@yoshuaisnotok8794 wish I could answer this.. 😭
@@brokensoul6978 omg . I understand ...I feel so sorry ..😭😭
Pathetic
@@brokensoul6978 wait what happened?
4:48 ,,Love me anyway..."
parents. could. never. They always hurts you, over and over and over again...no matter how many times it was your fault, no matter how many times they said the're sorry....it will never change the past. It won't change their consequences on you. They may say they love you but deep down? I don't know a single person who ever wanted children/pray they hadnt had child in a first place (bcs it ruined their life).
Parents love only the version of you they want to love. The rest of you can get burried, because it will never be good enough for them.
Oh God
This!!!!
No
everyone around me makes me feel like I'm worthless and a waste of space
You're a beautiful human being and you're not a waste of space! You will find your place... One day, you'll find this place that just makes you feel amazing and safe and everything. You'll find that place. Just keep hoping and you'll let go of whoever hurt you and you'll be okay! You Will Be Okay!
Same... Not everyone but most people....
Youre not worthless
sweetie you are an amazing person and deserve all the love and respect you can get. know that you are strong, you can do it and the second you can get away from those toxic people, I beg you to take it. no one should have to be subjected to that. stay strong, I love you 💕
Hey don't get them judge u ,u r better than that
The "dad did you love me or not" hit me way too hard
What is that from? I can’t remember?
I know it's fiction but can't help but think that screenwriters took their own experiences to write those stories. Ideal scenario is having parents who went to theraphy first, got educated and then had kids. That rarely happens tho. Most of the time parents project their own undealt trauma onto their kids - germophobia, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, feeling like you're lazy all the time etc - take your pick. I'm never having kids - for many reasons, one of them is the fact that Ill never get through my issues enough to raise a good kid. I wish more people saw it this way, bc seeing my school bullies become parents - I feel bad for their kids. I was luckym when I think about it at most what I've experienced and unfortunately learned is emotional abuse. I need theraphy tho to figure it out for real. I can't imagine surviving verbal and physical abuse. I wish people should have to take some kind of mental ability to raise kids before getting to have them.
You're absolutely right
I feel this to my heart. I really relate to it. I pray we get through this eventually. It really is better for our children who aren’t ever gonna exist. They’re safe. With god. It’s for the good of both of us. I’ll never bear myself if I saw me through my child’s eyes being toxic.
I thought so too
At a point I want kids but sometimes I'm like noooo
What if I am a Shitty parent
What if I don't train them well and they'll end up becoming a menace to the society.
But sometimes I want them
I love that there's someone who has my genes that isn't me or my siblings or parents
With what I've been through
I'll need therapy to be able to raise those cuties 😉
@@deekshasasikumar6666 oh God the last line
Imagine your lil baby looking at you with disappointment in their eyes
Mehnn!!!!!
THIS. A lot of people say they don't understand when I say I dont want kids. They probably think I don't really mean it, they say I'll change my mind in 10 years. But it wouldnt npbe fair to my kids if I had them. My grandmother broke my mother, so my mother wanted to be better for me. But she couldnt. And neither can I.
“I’m not gonna waste one more emotion on you.”
That hit me hard
“Love me anyway” always hits me really hard
Exactly embracing yourself is the only solution sadly.
Having kids Is not for everyone jeez if u can't love them unconditionally then don't bother with kids.
Yh
Well too bad
Ppl have kids for slaves
Or to put their trauma and hurt and blame on them
Or because their sadistic bitches who love seeing the innocent suffer. There is no getting out
@@k.ferguson9385 honestly it's tiring
It's not like they didn't love me it was just they loved the other ones way more and didn't even realized it
Idk how to feel about this knowing it might actually be true... And you know what's the painful part? I never realized that and I always blamed myself for being so dramatic.. I'm sorry tho..
I'm very sorry that you had to go through that too.
i see buck and i instantly click on it.
but i relate to this a lot, thank you for this video.
Same
Fr
I was my parents' favorite child throughout childhood. They spoiled me rotten and gave me everything I asked for. As the result, my two older siblings didn't get enough attention, and feeling anything that they did wasn't good enough, while I didn't understand life's hardship... I didn't understand it until I was a young adult. The differences that made me and my siblings had... The problem both of them started by raising us wrong...
I'm an adult now and had finished my studies years ago in a city far away from my parents (and thank God, I got a reality check from my new friends), but my siblings never finished theirs due to their low self-esteem and had numerous problems with socializing themselves with people (caused partially by my parents).
Now, I lived in a house with my siblings, accompanying them while they try to finish college. I've seen them unable to take care of themselves in some part of their lives. They are getting better. Our relationship with our parents became rough... I called out to them about their mistake on my siblings numerous times when they didn't know what they did wrong and it always ended with disastrous fights... The funny thing was, they now tell me I also disappointed them...
The thing is, parents sometimes didn't know they did something wrong to their kids while raising them. It also wasn't the favorite's kid fault that they like them more. Still, it wasn't fair. My message is if we would someday have our own kids, remember to treat them equally cause they will always need parents' love and guidance....
facts tho fr
You sound like a really good sibling (and person)
It hits really hard when you can remember being in situations like these with your own parents.
Yh
Same I have younger sisters and it's obvious they are the favorites and I'm the black sheep of the family
Nah putting Buck and Meredith on the thumbnail destroyed me and video just ended me. Yeah let’s cry
Ugh that was heartbreakingly beautiful...amazing job 😭❤️
Thank you!
when he said 'to love me anyway', I straight up cried...
When someone looks u In the eye with absolutely no love at all it’s just so damn painful.
0:15 that statement summarizes my whole relationship with my parents 💯💯 i hate how accurate it is
What show it is ?
@@dominika6654 It's "New amsterdam" i think
Same
Honestly I can relate so hard it hurts
I was never physically abused but it doesn't change the fact that as a child my dad and siblings would get so mad that I would cry because I was afraid they would hurt me beyond repair and no child should ever EVER have to feel that. Your family should make you feel safe and definitely not afraid and no child should ever be left crying and wishing that they could go "home" when they already are
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Remember: *YOU* deserve better than what you've been through, honey.
Meredith's part made me cry. She deserved a better childhood and Ellie wasn't there for her anytime
Also, her father left her and he raised other daughters perfectly while Mer was alone.
Don't mencion that her mom had alzheimer, his father was alcholic and Lex and her took care of him.
I’m exhausted, my family never trusted me..
Nothing was good enough for them. All I ever did was wrong for them, and They’ve never been there for me, and their words cut deeper than a knife.. I just need somebody to care and to be proud of me and my choices… :((
i know this is year ago but i hope you are ok
Since everyone is confessing, my dad hates me and my mom. He made me hate myself and if I could count the times I wanted to use the gun I had by my bed that was meant to be for safety on myself, I'd be concerned. His whole motivation was making us angry and to hate each other. Constantly, he tried to make my mother out to be a lunatic, when she was the only thing keeping me from telling the world goodbye. Bullied at school and bullied at home, worthless was an understatement to how I felt. I only ever sought to protect my mom after a while in my life and now she, and my best friend are my only concern in life. How do you live your life around someone who hates when you're happy?
I dont have the best relationship with some people in my family etheir, just know things will get better. It is what I hold onto everyday. You deserve everything and what you father is doing isn't right. I am so sorry and I promise something will get better but it takes a long time. You can not give up before you reach that good time because living is proving to everyone who wronged you that you are stronger than them, more capable. Living a happy life is what is going to set you free, not ending it.
@@meganalexandra2705 so true ! The revenge is massive succes (succes: letting go, genuine happines, thankfullness etc..)
Hope ur ok? :(
I will never forget Buck. He was conceived to save the life of his older brother.
I love these videos. They allow me to cry and vent because whenever I try to vent to an actual human, they always turn it into their venting session or don’t understand.
When you feel like your not good enough your whole world becomes dark and you slowly find reasons to quit, to quit everything, life,work,friends, you give up, but life is a cycle and you will find happiness again,so don’t quit, not now,not ever.
why could I never be enough for you, please I only wanted to hear a "I'm proud of you" but I got "you can do better", " why can't you be like your brother". I'm sorry I was never enough in your eyes, And I hate myself constantly for not being enough for you. Mom I just wanted you to love me , I just wanted for to you care for me. I hate you and yet I love you, I hate how your form of love has become mine. I'm uncapable of showing it. I'm scared of loving someone and hurting them, scared of opening up to them to the point they can leave after seeing my scars. Also dad, was I not enough either, where you had to make another family, were they worthy enough to stop your drug addiction. Was I not enough to stay , you say you love me, but it feels so hollow that I can't believe you, mainly because I don't fucking know you. The moment I was born, the main thing I craved was love.... why was that so hard for both of you. And now you both look at me and wonder to why I became so distant and hollow inside.
I was very sad to read this. Such personal things bring to tears. I sympathize with you and understand. I hope you will find a family in other people and heal from the wounds of parental unlove at least half 💔
The transitions to each show and the words spoken are amazing
Sometimes we have to remember that parents aren't perfect, that we aren't perfect. We have to remember that somewhere out there, there is someone who loves us for who we are. We just have to find them. Family doesn't have to be just blood or DNA, family can be whoever we want it to be.
i cant even describe how much words can hurt, specially from a loved one like ur parents... im insecure but its like also bc of my parents like they dont understand what words can do to uus
02:48 my god!! How can a parent say that to their child 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺
until this day, this is still one of the best multifandom videos i've seen
This just made me cry so hard
I'm super close to my parents, and to imagine that from them........ To imagine that some people, that kids, have some of the same parents in this video kills me
Nailed everything I feel toward my “mother”
2:18 “dad, did you love me or not? Daddy I gotta know.”
God I would give anything to see my father figure again, he left when I was 11 when my mom was in jail, said he would come back for me and never did. Helped my mom raise me since I was 1. My bio dad has tried to come back in, he wasn’t ever really in it because of drug related problems so kept himself away but there was so many times I considered my father figure my real father, and I was devastated when he left.
It’s sometimes worse to know that they *did* love you- & yet still never made more than a single solitary ‘attempt’ to be a part of your life, when you were barely old enough to remember - that they went right back to their other family- & you spend _years_ wondering why didn’t they love you enough to _try_ & be a part of your life...
When I first started watching sad multi fandom I would cry so much but now no tear comes out at all I think I’m getting used to the pain already that It doesn’t hurt no more.
I see Oliver Stark, I click. it's practically habit at this point lol. Beautiful edit tho :)
Wow this was breathtaking. Absolutely stunning,. I couldn't take my eyes away for a minute, wow.
Thank you so much)))
My mum is now an amazing person and I've been nothing but a burden for past 7 years, I've been failing and failing and I didn't even try to work for it and I didn't even try to change and I was just on internet for past 7 years. I'm a useless thing and selfish.
you're not, okay? and if anyone ever tells you that, yourslef included tell them to shut the f up. Because you are an incedible person, and so important. And could never be a burden. Okay?
You’re mother is probably not as amazing as you believe, you probably have been made to feel like less than you’re entire life. It’s time to unlearn.
no please don’t ever say that you aren’t useless or selfish you are amazing and beautiful and you deserve to live the life you want to you are so important don’t ever give up i love you
mom, why was the idea of losing your family's good image more important than losing me? why was everything always more important to you than me? why you dismissed me as a plan gone wrong as soon as you realized that using me to glue the pieces of your marriage together wouldn't work ?
This really hits right now when I replay my child hood and the fact that my mom still won’t admit what she did to me and my brother the anger the struggle to let it go even now I have to carry it and pretend I’m not angry every time I think about it the rage it blows my mind that I can still be around her
I honestly feel like I am never enough, not to my parents, my brother, even my friends I just feel that I keep letting everyone down and I just can’t seem to do anything right anymore and I’m tired, I’m tired of fighting every single day, just to end up with the same result every time:feeling useless and a waste of space. I am so tired. I just want someone to notice all the stuff I go through and understand how truly broken I am. (Sorry for the rant just needed to get it out.)
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
This was so well done. I like that you showed different kinds of abusive behavior. Sometimes it's hitting a kid, but that's only one form of abuse. When a kid is abused physically, there is so much more trauma that the child goes through. And some parents who never abused their kid physically act like it's something to be proud of instead of the bare minimum. Parental abuse takes so many forms, and it leaves scars that aren't always visible.
I remember watching Sharp Objects and that scene when Adora tells Camille that she never loved her, filled me with so much rage. I don't think I've ever hated a tv character more in that moment.
Its like someone took a look inside my brain when i was younger 😔.
Thankyou for making this.
If i ever feel strong enough to cope with these feelings this will make me help explain them.
This is so heartbreakingly beautiful, I felt chills down my body.
Thank you for always making these kinds of videos so incredibly well. But also, I'm sorry, because I know anything made with this much heart must come from someone who can truly understand how it feels. I can too. These videos always make me feel better and less alone. Thank you. ♥️
Thank you so much)))
It's almost the end of the school year, and my mom saw my grades (four A's, one B- and a C+). She called me multiple times and kept asking me if I was embarrased. My parents are good and they treat me right, but when it comes to grades and me being "irresponsible" they get mad at me. I just want to hear them say "I'm proud that you got at least four A's" or "You did your best". But no. She gets mad at me. I make mistakes too mom and dad. Them doing this to me is going to lead me into depression. I cry myself to sleep a lot because I keep thinking of me being a "disappointment". Sure, they might not realize this, but they are causing their child to be stressed. It's their failt that I'm like this. I hate that they expect so much of me. They make me think that I'm not good enough and that nothing that I do will ever be good enough for them.
The amount of times I watched this without a break and cried silently and tried to release my emptiness is actually depressing 😂 does that even make sense lmao
“You’re my mother and you’ve always been so cruel to me.” This hurts.
multifandom gives me pleasure and reduces my pain
i,m grateful whoever started making them ❤️
But what hurts is the fact that I actually relate to buck but for so long I have been trying to convince myself that, that's just how they (my family) show their love and it's ok until it all blew into my face 😢 this was beautiful I loved it thank you
It’s damn the most difficult thing to let go off; the abuse that you had at the most precious time of your life. You know they intervened throughout your life yet you can’t help to control yourself from being affected of those traumas
Nobody deserves to feel this type of way nd if you’re going through this or feeling unimportant u deserve the best and always keep pushing ❤️
3:58 “you turned me into a ghost mama”
Honestly these videos are what kept me going.
Seeing things like your video make me feel happiness. Thank you. I'm a survivor too and having a hard time coping with things right now.
I've spent years being angry at you, bating you, feeling sorry for you, and doing it all over again...and I don't know when it happened but, I cant really feel anything for you anymore.
That was so relatable and beautiful
I look at this multi fandom and think, they accept what happened to them and they express it but me I can’t do I tuck it all away until it all just builds up inside and then Finally when the time comes it will all just burst out
My heart literally broke...I physically just felt my heart breaking right now...💔
My mom treated me differently from all of my 3 sisters. She was very calm and softly spoken to them. All I really ever wanted was to feel special, even just for a day. She even makes me jealous by hugging my sister near me and saying that she loves her very much while looking at me. There are also times she compared me to her. When people are talking about how I look much like her, she always disagrees and says that I'm ugly and will never look like her. She even made faces when people call me pretty. It broke my heart, It made me much more insecure. There's this one time that she stayed much longer in the toilet, even if I asked her if she can hurry up in the most polite way I can. She stayed there for more than 2 minutes. I confronted her because I told my sister that I'm gonna use the toilet next, then she came in first. She always does this whenever I need to go. She said angrily "What are u even saying?!". After that, she saw me crying and she didn't even humble herself to say sorry to me. This one time that we used the elevator to go to our parking lot. I said that it was 6th floor, she said "no it's 5th", I kept on saying it was 6th, she didn't listen. When we got out and tried to find our car on 5th floor she screamed at me and said "you said it was the 5th floor?!". Sometimes I hope I have a different mom who'll love me and treat me right. :(
Sorry for the wrong grammar
What goes around comes around and so on and so forth, but don't worry this time it's going to be a fair fight between an adult and an adult not a child and an adult!
Oliver Stark was amazing in that scene bc that l'love me anyway' still haunts all of us after all these years
The Buck one- never get me not emotional😭
все твои видео, связанные с отношениями родителей и детей, это прям вау!) 😍
спасибо тебе❤️
Спасибо!)))
@@levelen what show is 4:58
Love this! It has a lot of my favorite shows including 911. It’s one of my favorites right now along with 911 lone star. Yellowstone is also my favorite right now.
This was definitely relatable
story of my life ! ..but they called it caring !! 😒
No matter how hard you try , you are never enough ...
So, just stop ...
perfection is neither a standard nor a comparison....
it's being the best version of you .
reading all these comments made me think of how lucky I am that my parents actually treat me & my sister equally & i’m so sorry to all the people in the comments saying that their parents emotionally abused them/picked favourites among them or made them think that whatever they did was never enough
Wow, this made me realize how lucky I am with my parents. I really cannot imagine having to go trough this kind of pain. I am very sorry for everyone who is going trough sometihing similar or who went trough something like that.
i hate the fact that i sit here watching this and i can relate so deeply to all of this
Как же всё это близко знакомо💔
Спасибо, что радуешь нас новыми прекрасными видео💞💜🤍💙
И тебе спасибо за комментарий ❤️
@@levelen что за фильм/сериал на 00:16?
When I did something amazing or get grades even 100s my mother was never proud and would always verbally abuse me even ignore me and talk to my younger brother. Sometims I never gott food and would constantly being compared to other people. My brother would always do nuaghty things like break candles and break plates then I would get in trouble for not helping my brother bring his own plate to the kitchen. my brother who is younger than me would threaten to tell my mom that I hurt when I didn't do something for him. Now I'm 18 and finally get the freedom I long hoped for.
this is the best sad multifandom video i've seen
I love sad multi fandoms like this cause I can relate. My mom didnt do shit for me so I grew to love with it. I live with my dad now and its completely different
The sad part is most of them are adults and only now are realising and/or confronting their parents cuz you carry that with you for ever. It doesn’t go away once you move out or grow. That damage is so deep it takes awhile to deal with it.
This reminds me so much of my childhood
My mother thinks that because I forgived her that I forgot what she did to me. The traumas that she caused are still and when we talk about it she acts like it's nothing serious.
They can love us, they can care for us, but they can also hurts us, abuse us and torture us in many ways and they dont even realize what it does to us. The darkness it creates, sometimes the darkness is snuffed out but for others it lingers, it grows stronger every day, every minute, every second its grows. A kind of darkness that drives one insane. They only comfort is knowing that they'll be rotting in a grave long before you.
Eye opener
I have no words, just that Buck's words made me fucking cry. It hit too close.
These videos helps me breathe sometimes
my mom died when I was two years old and my father... I don't know what to say about him, he isn't an alcoholic but he sure drinks, he doesn't get drunk alot but when he does I don't feel save in my own home, he has never hit me but when he is druk and I loo into his eyes I'm always sure that that is gonna be the first time... I never thought much of it cause he gives me what I need, the truth came to me when he got drunk one time and my sister and me were in a huge hurry to get out of that house, we stayed at my aunts houst that night, she gave us love and comfort and I realied that is what a parent is supposed to do. I don't know why I say this here and no one is gonna read this but idk
The painfull part is when you relate to this....
It's weird to go from (speaking just for myself) loving someone and wanting them to approve of you so badly that you do your best to be perfect and meet all their high standards, and thirty-odd years later, to be at a point where you know that you love them but you can't really feel it anymore.
I wish it hadn't taken family trauma to make me see my dad for the deeply fucked-up, unchangeable person he really was. I wish he could have really understood me instead of freezing me in his mind as the little girl who used to adore him. I don't wish terrible things on him anymore, but he doesn't rule my life and I don't try to win his approval or understanding anymore, either. That's a sort of freedom.
The saddest thing is that no matter how much we try to hate them, we can't.
1:32 why he hit him like that *chills* 😭
What show is this
@@ismail_67 I think outer banks
Omg i feel so bad for jj
So sad I can totally relate to every single one of these videos
Gosh my heart aches watching this.
That's why I'm in therapy because nothing I ever did was good enough! That's true
Is it weird that I memorized this whole video, word for word
I remember feeling suicidal one time i told my parents instead of reassuring me the joked about screamed at me for being useless and they still ask why i have mental health issues
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?