Sympathy [Explicit Lyrics] - LuLuYam Official Song and Visualizer

Sdílet
Vložit
  • čas přidán 29. 10. 2023
  • VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.
    I'd like to make a statement about this song, so it'd mean a lot to me if you took the time to read this.
    I, like many others, was a victim of gr00ming and SA when I was a minor, as sad as that is to admit. It affected me in many ways through my 20's that I didn't even realize were connected to it until I finally began working on myself to heal wounds that I didn't realize were growing and festering within me.
    Although my life is so much better now, the pain of it still lingers with me and probably always will. I'm still working on trying to turn it all around. I urge you to get help if you're suffering with this same issue. Mental health is no joke. Your life doesn't have to end for good just because someone else tried to take it away from you.
    But writing a revenge song never really hurts, does it? Thank you for taking the time to listen to my music, and watch my visualizer. I worked very hard on all of this. And to everyone who's been a victim like myself, I see you. You matter so much.
    LuLu
    Coming to most streaming platforms
    Don't forget to follow me here and over on spotify:
    open.spotify.com/artist/4TAg5...
    Logo credit: Laurence Grube Jr.
    Song written, produced and performed by LuLuYam
    Visualizer video and art produced by LuLuYam
    LYRICS:
    Said you want a girl "young and erratic".
    But ya doesn't like it when she's "dramatic".
    Everything you've done to me
    is burned inside my memory and...
    "Shoulda known better! Had no excuses!"
    Victim blaming, all my attempts were useless.
    Everything you ever said
    Has never left my fuckin head.
    F**ked me, asked me not to tell.
    You know that you're going straight to Hell
    (in a hand basket, hope you wind up in a casket!)
    Lock him in a prison cell!
    Leave him with the guilt he's never felt.
    (And let him rot forever, just like he did to me!)
    Oh, I'd cut you in the throat!
    I'd stab you in the back,
    and watch your body float
    down the river in a sack.
    I'd break both your knee caps
    with one nail studded bat.
    And I would gladly laugh,
    as your bones begin to crack.
    YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
    That'd I'd be back,
    just like a ghost!
    ALWAYS clingin' to your back.
    I will not GO!
    Till your head ROLLS
    Into the grave.
    Sympathy is what I lack.
    P***phile! Predator! Where are you?
    Hiding in the dark again?
    Whatcha gonna do?
    You don't care about the way that you hurt her.
    I don't need therapy, I need murder!
    I won't be okay, till my knife is in your eye.
    Maybe cut your tongue out, so you can't tell more lies.
    I'll be waiting in the dark, next to candle light!
    You'll be waiting just to die,
    I bet you're terrified!
    You'd better become well acquainted
    With soil and maggots.
    Your death date's instated.
    Cuz I'm comin' for you,
    for the day that I've waited!
    Want your head on my mantel,
    Want your c**k silver plated.
    And I'll hang it, decorate it,
    Use it as a conversation starter!
    I'm the bitch to bury you.
    Hatred's what I fuckin' harbor.
    I don't want your apology
    MOTHER F****R!
    I want you deep in the ground.
    Oh, I'd cut you in the throat!
    I'd stab you in the back,
    and watch your body float
    down the river in a sack.
    I'd break both your knee caps
    with one nail studded bat.
    And I would gladly laugh,
    as your bones begin to crack.
    YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
    That'd I'd be back,
    just like a ghost!
    ALWAYS clingin' to your back.
    I will not GO!
    Till your head ROLLS
    Into the grave.
    Sympathy is what I lack.
    I'd gouge out both your eyes.
    Brand my name on your thighs.
    Leave a reminder, and let it continue.
    Ignore your helpless cries.
    Make you a feast for flies.
    I don't feel guilt, and I will not begin to.
    Oh, I'd cut you in the throat!
    I'd stab you in the back,
    and watch your body float
    down the river in a sack.
    I want your life to end
    Just like you ended mine.
    You think about it, none?
    I think bout it all the time
    OH
    YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
    That'd I'd be back,
    just like a ghost!
    ALWAYS CLINGING TO YOUR BACK!
    I will not GO!
    Till your head ROLLS
    Into a grave.
    Sympathy is what I lack.
    You should have known that I'd be back!
    Just like a ghost, always clingin' to your back.
    I want your life to end...just like you ended mine.
    You think about it, none?
    I think 'bout it all the time.
  • Hudba

Komentáře • 390

  • @owenw.1643
    @owenw.1643 Před 5 měsíci +185

    the fact that the comment section is 90% people saying "im also a victim of csa/sa" is so sad. these experiences are so common and yet so little talked about.

    • @luluyam_music
      @luluyam_music  Před 5 měsíci +86

      That's exactly why I wrote this song. I used to feel very alone in the aftermath of what happened to me until I realized just how big of an issue this is. It's all too common. It's saddens me to see how many people relate to the song, too. But at the same time, I'm glad I could help people cope a little better, too.

    • @user-uw9fs7fp1v
      @user-uw9fs7fp1v Před 14 dny +7

      @@luluyam_musicI’m not joking your the nicest person I met

  • @amanita_soulz8792
    @amanita_soulz8792 Před 7 měsíci +903

    “I DONT NEED THERAPY I NEED MURDER” My favourite lines in this song

  • @corndoggoddess2334
    @corndoggoddess2334 Před 8 měsíci +1454

    OK BUT AS AN SA VICTIM THIS ABSOLUTELY SLAPS SO HARD‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ can we PLEASE have more songs from victims expressing our anger for what we were forced to go through? the idea that sa/csa/grooming victims need to behave a certain way about what they went through is just making things worse. This is genuinely SO therapeutic, thanks for making this 😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
    Edit: to all my fellow victims who vibe with the song CONGRATS FOR BEING CORRECT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

    • @stanleyfrancis2502
      @stanleyfrancis2502 Před 6 měsíci +54

      Sorry for what you went through but I concur, THIS SONG ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SLAPS!!

    • @veritykinamon5292
      @veritykinamon5292 Před 4 měsíci +16

      IKR I was a victim too and this song pumps me up so much 🔥

    • @Bun0ie_HI
      @Bun0ie_HI Před 4 měsíci +11

      victim of online grooming here! and this song slaps!!

    • @zesty_zaney81
      @zesty_zaney81 Před 4 měsíci

      We deserve the anger !! We’ve earned it tbh !!!

    • @CrescentSxns
      @CrescentSxns Před 3 měsíci +11

      Ok as an victim as well this shit slaps hard. What the other victims went through was tough along with mine and yours I'm so sorry for what happened. but on god this song slaps hard

  • @luluyam_music
    @luluyam_music  Před 8 měsíci +696

    I hope it meets all of your expectations. Pls be kind. I ain't the most seasoned producer 😅.
    EDIT: Btw, this song and video does have a very significant message that I hope you can pick up on. There will also be clues in a lot of my work from here on out (starting with Cemetery Blues) that tells a story...have fun.

    • @GoreHeart
      @GoreHeart Před 8 měsíci +19

      It definitely will!! I can already tell!!

    • @mushroomtheelf2124
      @mushroomtheelf2124 Před 8 měsíci +21

      i already like part of the song that u teased on tiktok and your voice is amazing it def will go PASS it!

    • @galaxy_fox1124
      @galaxy_fox1124 Před 8 měsíci +7

      Your so talented ^^

    • @difficult_echidna
      @difficult_echidna Před 8 měsíci +4

      Ooooooh! So excited!!!

    • @xxaz_poofxx874
      @xxaz_poofxx874 Před 8 měsíci +8

      This is gonna be my new obsession! Great song, well done.

  • @Shy_bats
    @Shy_bats Před 7 měsíci +491

    AS A SA VICTIM THIS GAVE ME THE BOOST TO ABSOLUTELY GO BALLISTIC ON MY DAD AND FINALLY PUSHED ME TO REALIZE THAT I ACTUALLY DESERVE BETTER AND IT WASN'T MY FAULT
    THANK YOU LULU WE LOVE YOU!!

  • @breemarkov4841
    @breemarkov4841 Před 6 měsíci +142

    Not my abuser also being named Richard 💀

  • @thebrokenones8394
    @thebrokenones8394 Před 7 měsíci +282

    this song speaks to me. i may not be a SA victim but the anger and revenge in the lyrics speaks wonders as a abuse victim as well. this song is vary lovely to play on repeat and sing along to let off some anger. vary well done

    • @_.CH4RL1E._
      @_.CH4RL1E._ Před 5 měsíci +16

      yes.
      [idk what else to say other than I agree with you lol

    • @Loony_the_therian_cat
      @Loony_the_therian_cat Před 2 měsíci +8

      Frfr, I listen to this when my parents abuse me again, I know it’s abuse but I can’t do anything about it. I can’t call CPS because I don’t want to be taken away from my friends😢

    • @Sparkle8205
      @Sparkle8205 Před 3 dny +1

      aye, same here OP

  • @Undead_Astronaut115
    @Undead_Astronaut115 Před 8 měsíci +646

    I'm a victim of grooming. And this song is SO FVCUKING THERAPEUTIC to me! It explains all the negative emotions I feel towards the shit my groomer fvcking did to me, my friend, and others. I love this song SO SO much! I will now be adding this song to my coping playlist, thank you for this song

  • @arandomcatheehee
    @arandomcatheehee Před 6 měsíci +119

    This song honestly makes me feel so seen. I know neither of my groomers will ever suffer the consequences of what they did to me, and they definitely don't feel guilt over it. But listening to this song makes me feel stronger, as weird as it sounds. Like i'm not so alone.

  • @jesters_court24
    @jesters_court24 Před 7 měsíci +162

    I was a SA Victim and this song just puts all my thoughts into words, thank you for making this

  • @ThatDog1519
    @ThatDog1519 Před měsícem +5

    The absolute LACK of sympathy in this song truly makes it so special. The anger in the messages and in the voice cry for vengeance while showing just how badly it can hurt

  • @squisshhiieeee
    @squisshhiieeee Před 7 měsíci +81

    As an SA and grooming victim, this is AMAZING‼‼‼ YOUR MUSIC IS AMAING!!1!1!1!1!1!!

  • @EvieProbably
    @EvieProbably Před 8 měsíci +257

    Oh my god this is such an amazing and powerful song. I'm sorry about what you went through, and I hope making this helped you a lot! Phenomenal work as always!

  • @TrashBunBun
    @TrashBunBun Před 7 měsíci +103

    Hearing this was therapeutic for me, a musical manifestation of my feelings to the monsters that ruined me when I was under 13, all family members or in-laws. It always hurts to hear others went through similar, or worse, pain on this subject, but I'm glad you took what happened and made something so incredible with it. You're awesome!

  • @skykeenan9757
    @skykeenan9757 Před 8 měsíci +54

    Thank you for writing this song, I was groomed when i was 11 and she was 16. Everyone tried warning be back in school but i just didn’t listen, i know it isn’t my fault but my mom is still talking to her now and is making excuses for her. So thank you for writing this

    • @the_worlds_dumbest_bi
      @the_worlds_dumbest_bi Před 4 měsíci +9

      I feel you, my parents are still defending the person who groomed and SAed. I just want you to know that you aren't alone and you don't deserve a mother like that, your mother should have protected you like a good parent should.

  • @rushdieuoy
    @rushdieuoy Před 8 měsíci +50

    I am dedicating this song to three very sepeific men I have encountered in my life. The guy who tried to SA me when I was 5 and had premature puberty in some areas which also cost me a friend as he was the older brother. The boy who was much younger than me who wouldn't stop groping me even in front of his family but somehow I was still blamed and I lost another friend. Then finally, the guy who robbed my work and tried to kidnap me as the revenge portion in this song is exactly what I would do to him if I ever saw him. Or any of them for that matter

  • @nanaSenpai-of3rd
    @nanaSenpai-of3rd Před 3 měsíci +15

    "you think about it? None, i think bout it all the time" ngl but that line just resonates with me SO MUCH

  • @_spiralending_
    @_spiralending_ Před 8 měsíci +115

    I can't even name one favorite bit of the song, the ENTIRE thing hits so hard, as hard as her rightfully anger filled swings. Songs like these aren't for everyone but I think everyone should at least give it a listen for so many reasons, great job making another great song topped with an entertaining visualizer, the emotions are so much more clear here compared to your last song Everything (I have yet to watch the cemetery blues visualizer) can't wait for another one, I love your work 🤍🩶🖤

  • @DinoGeekLOL
    @DinoGeekLOL Před 7 měsíci +104

    Even though I’ve never experienced it myself (some of my friends have) this song is FIRE. In all seriousness Im sorry that happened to you, and even though I might not understand it, I hope you’ve recovered from this! Stay strong!

  • @MBiz.
    @MBiz. Před měsícem +5

    I havent experienced what this song is about (well, almost but didnt happen.)
    Sorry to people who have, and id like to say that this song is very catchy and very good at being a bop and conveying the message
    (i guess? Im sorry, im bad at putting thoughts into words)
    I would also like to add, i love your art.
    I hope anybody who has gone through anything bad gets the support they deserve.
    Thank you for reading my comment, have good days.

  • @littlebitbatty3562
    @littlebitbatty3562 Před 8 měsíci +55

    This song has been on repeat for me since it came out, I swear I can actually sing along after listening three times. As a SA survivor, this song has worked better than my therapy sessions.

  • @KittyTea
    @KittyTea Před 7 měsíci +27

    AS A VICTIM OF SA AND GROOMING THIS SONG SO POWERFUL

  • @Deviousmelani3
    @Deviousmelani3 Před 6 měsíci +11

    "You think about it none? Well i think about it all the time." OML I HAVE NEVER RELATED TO SOMETHING MORE THAN THAT

  • @mysteriousmimick5172
    @mysteriousmimick5172 Před 7 měsíci +15

    As someone who has been through more than I will ever be comfortable sharing, this song makes me feel safe.
    "You think 'bout it none, I think 'bout it all the time" hits too close to home. The moments in which it happened are hazy, but what lead up to it keep going on repeat. Every instance where I wish now that I had run when I had the chance keep playing over and over.

  • @gamergirl48
    @gamergirl48 Před 8 měsíci +66

    YO I SAW THIS ON TIKTOK AND I CAME SPEEDING OVER HERE! This is the first song I've ever heard done by you and I am IN LOVE! Everything about this song SLAPS!!!

  • @laminectomy
    @laminectomy Před 2 měsíci +3

    The police line saying STOP is such a neat detail

  • @porcelain_melody
    @porcelain_melody Před 8 měsíci +67

    LULUYAM THIS WAS A BLESSING. YOUR MUSIC NEVER CEASES TO AMAZE ME. ILYSM!!!

  • @muffinmuffin8946
    @muffinmuffin8946 Před 7 měsíci +27

    Oh my god, the symbolism, the rage throughout and then the burnout at the end, the trauma of what it does to your soul, my god ive listened to this song too many times 😅

  • @Thomasturbando123
    @Thomasturbando123 Před 5 měsíci +8

    I never imagined that someone would write a song about what I feel and think after being a SA victim of my aunt's ex-boyfriend, and still 6 days after that (If you stopped to think about what day I was abused by him...yes, it was the 25th. Exactly on Christmas). And I realized that I'm not the only one who thinks this when looking at the comments, thank you very much. This is my favorite song.

  • @wearytraveler2298
    @wearytraveler2298 Před 8 měsíci +28

    Yep, this is going into the playlist I listen to when I'm having bad ptsd days. This is the type of stuff I need to turn the fear and guilt into rage to be able to keep going. Thank you so much for making this ❤

  • @gutsydemise
    @gutsydemise Před 2 měsíci +3

    This is something I need more of. I and others get told pretty damn often to forgive and grow, be better, yadda yadda. no dude. We deserve to be angry.
    to all the commenters saying similar things, and to you as well;
    You're valid in your anger and hurt. You have every right to be. I am sorry anything happened to you. You're gonna get through it and there will always be spaces for you even if it feels like theres none. There are places and methods for you to heal. you will be okay, but being okay doesn't mean you cannot be angry and hurt. You're allowed to wish harm on someone who's wronged you in a way beyond death - you're not lesser for "not forgiving"- just make sure you have healthy outlets. Love y'all and wishing the absolute best.

  • @SAYLAMASK
    @SAYLAMASK Před 7 měsíci +31

    THIS SONG IS SUCH A VIBE!!!!!!
    DAMN! This makes me want to wear a tuxedo now!!! 😂 THANKS SO MUCH FOR THIS MASTERPIECE! THIS REALLY HITS CLOSE TO HOME AND MATCHES MY EXACT FEELINGS ABOUT THOSE WHO CAUSED MY TRAUMATIC PAST! THIS SONG IS A COMFORT!🥹
    I ALSO LOVE THE ART STYLE! ❤

  • @wigglymaggot666
    @wigglymaggot666 Před 4 měsíci +7

    We need more songs like this, I bet a lot of csa survivors and grooming victims such as I crave more songs like this. You did amazing!!

  • @fairygrotto00
    @fairygrotto00 Před 3 měsíci +3

    As a survivor, this is by far the most cathartic and comforting media I've come across. I feel so heard and seen about everything that happened. Thank you so much for writing this song

  • @_canineteeth_
    @_canineteeth_ Před 6 měsíci +12

    ... so much catharsis. Yeah, this music is a hidden gem. I extend my sympathies to you as a fellow victim, you are so strong and determined and I hope you continue to gather strength. Your resilience is commendable. Even if it's the only choice we had. Sending you hugs and healing energy.

  • @Chaos_Incarnet
    @Chaos_Incarnet Před 7 měsíci +24

    THIS IS SO GOOD
    It speaks to my PTSD in such a good way. I'm definitely gonna blast this.

  • @IAmHere4U665
    @IAmHere4U665 Před 6 měsíci +17

    I was a victim of gr00ming when I was 13 (im 14 btw) and this song HITS SO H A R D

    • @IAmHere4U665
      @IAmHere4U665 Před 6 měsíci +4

      Idk if I should explain the story or not cause it might sound like a vent

  • @hauntfae731
    @hauntfae731 Před 6 měsíci +12

    I didn't know I needed this song until I found it. As a C on C CSA/grooming victim I still suffer from things that were trained into me, I really resonate with "you think about it none, I think bout it all the time. Ive seen him since, in a happy relationship, my life is good too but seeing him is crippling. Thank you for making a song I can cling to as a way to regulate back to not feeling helpless

  • @bluemew32
    @bluemew32 Před 2 měsíci +2

    As a CSA survivor thank you, it's been years since the event and it still creeps up on me. But God, I appreciate the support and your work expressing and empowering victims. You're fucking awesomee, we are strong and not gonna bow to our abusers.
    Tw////
    It even means more since I was one of those victims that did, well retaliate in self defense against my predator, with a knife. And was called a monster and possessed for it and victim blamed. Thank you for the empowering song. I was not wrong to protect myself and you remind me of that.

  • @deeda1779
    @deeda1779 Před 8 měsíci +39

    Your work is very under rated. Seriously, keep it up. You have talent 👏 👏 👏

  • @seijunhoshi
    @seijunhoshi Před 7 měsíci +11

    3:01-3:20 is my favorite part of the song! Mainly because that's where your voice shines most in the song, along with the vocalizing at the end of the song too!

  • @Primadona_Doll
    @Primadona_Doll Před 8 měsíci +12

    This song is such a banger and such a great representation of how this can feel.
    Edit: this is seriously such a perfect song to rage sing/scream whenever I think of my groomer fr. Thank you for making it

  • @Novalvirri
    @Novalvirri Před 7 měsíci +8

    Gave this a chance after the first few times this showed up in my recommended. HOLY. SHIT. THIS SLAPS SO HARD.
    Now, I don't happen to be a victim of grooming or SA, but I have friends who were before, and I still feel second hand rage thinking about the monsters that did it to them. To everybody who's a victim of this, you deserve better. You deserve to heal, you're appreciated and loved. If you don't think anyone cares right now, I may be a stranger, but I want you to know that *I* care. I want you to receive justice and feel better. As I'm certain everyone else in the comment section here does.
    However, the lyrics still hit a chord with me. A very personal one.. If you feel like hearing a story even though it doesn't involve grooming or SA, then keep reading, just thought I'd share my own toxic/abusive relationship experience:
    So, I have a particular ex-boyfriend.. It was in high school, and I was naive as hell. As embarrassing as it is to admit, I'd cling to anyone who gave me affection in any capacity because my home life was absolute hell and school wasn't much better for me.
    I was a sophomore in high school, we weren't together that long, less than a month, but in that time, I was going through med changes for depression. The breakup.. hit me hard. REALLY hard, for obvious reasons. I tried to be mutual about it, but I was torn to shreds. He tempted me with the idea that maybe later we could "try again", only to block me later when I predictably got clingy and desperate. Didn't even want to be reasonable. HE KNEW ABOUT THIS AND STILL DITCHED ME. HE KNEW ABOUT MY SELF HARM AND STILL LEFT. He was really all I had in terms of comfort, so you can imagine how reality shattering it was to just suddenly be blocked without even being allowed to calm down and talk normally, and then when I physically tried to reconcile at school, he victim blamed me claiming I "broke his trust" and "always made crap about me", when all I ever did was do what I could to be there for him ESPECIALLY emotionally. Manipulated me so hard.
    He used me for his own selfish validation. Ditched me when I "became too much" for him. He drove me to both self harm and I attempted my life three separate times after the breakup, mainly during the summer between school years. He felt no guilt. NONE. He was even pissed off that I started dating one of his friends who actually gave a shit about me and did everything he could to make sure I was okay (who I'm still with btw, 5 years so far, we plan on getting hitched, I'm doing much much better, don't worry.)
    The rage this song conveys, is exactly how I feel about this specific ex. The violent, visceral rage is precisely how much I loathe him. Excuses, shifting blame, ditching me for friends.. I want him to physically feel every bit of pain he made me go through emotionally. I still do. Seeing any picture of him, hearing his name, anything that has to do with him ignites a blaze of fury unlike anything I've ever felt in my life. If there's anybody I could hear ended up dying, and I would be 1000% apathetic, it'd be that sack of shit. I just wish I could be the one to put him in the ground and that the last person he ends up seeing before he goes is mine. Just so he knows exactly how bad he fucked up. I want that waste of flesh castrated so he can't raise any kids to be like him. So he can't feel any of the intimate pleasures of life. He doesn't deserve to have any of it. Oh yeah by the way, he "bragged" openly to my own best friends about "what I was into", without consulting me if I was okay with it being shared. Said I was into "DDLG" which is disgustingly f*cking wrong. I'm glad my friends didn't believe him.
    I don't care how many people tell me "it's not normal" to be this angry towards someone. They don't understand what it's like to hit such a loving euphoria only to crash to being suicidal and being victim blamed for it (even by your own parents after a certain point). To come to the realization you almost ended your life over a narcissist who never loved you to begin with. Along with that, the countless others he probably did this to as well.. My ex deserves to f*cking BURN.
    I don't feel guilt, and I will not begin to.
    I may end up doing a vent pmv/amv only if that's okay with the creator, I'll 100% give full credit for the song under the circumstances that I'm allowed to. This song gives me an outsourced emotional validation that only my current boyfriend gives me, it makes me feel SO good.

  • @teo_303
    @teo_303 Před 6 měsíci +8

    AS A SA VICTIM, THIS EXPRESSES MY AND OTHERS ANGER SO WELL. I LOVE THE SONG AND YOU COULD JUST FEEL THE FRUSTRATION AND ANGER IN THEIR VOICE. btw BEAUTIFUL VOICE! AND THE ART STYLE?! GODDAMN, ABSOLUTE LOVELY 😢❤

  • @platinumherobrine1278
    @platinumherobrine1278 Před 2 měsíci +2

    I was introduced to you by a really good friend of mine a few days ago and as a R*pe Victim, this song goes so fucking hard. It's actually so fucking therapeutic to me and I love it so god damn much, the lyrics are so so SO accurate to what I was thinking/feeling towards my Abuser. I've been looping this song non-stop since my friend showed me it and I will probably listen to this for the rest of my life now. Thank you so much for this song!!!

  • @yukasaki2392
    @yukasaki2392 Před 8 měsíci +12

    as someone who was SA'd by someone named Richarde this has a special place in my heart

  • @thesillychro
    @thesillychro Před 8 měsíci +7

    I was in the premiere chat, this was actually so awesome??!!
    Liikee, the music, the style, the art?? It was all rlly cool, srsly amazing job!!!!!!

  • @kyleighdraws1095
    @kyleighdraws1095 Před 8 měsíci +16

    Glad this song was recommended to me! It's really good and now I have to check out more of your music. Great job, and keep up the good work!

  • @MochiJelly4877
    @MochiJelly4877 Před 3 měsíci +2

    Broo I was groomed when I was like 16 or so and how much this feels validating is like wow. How much anger I held towards that person for what they put me through and the years I had to take to unlearn everything they tried to teach me. I may have repressed most of my memories from my childhood in general but I do remember the anger I felt, and this song encapsulates that perfectly 🥰

  • @sayrosgabby9892
    @sayrosgabby9892 Před měsícem +2

    I'm on my knees, the best thing I've heard

  • @BlackCatCoalition
    @BlackCatCoalition Před 7 měsíci +3

    Seriously, your visualizers are so nostalgic from when I used to watch GHOST and Pals

    • @Visceral0
      @Visceral0 Před 6 měsíci +2

      SOMEONE WHO ALSO THINK OF GHOST AND PALS CAUSE OF THIS ART STYLE????

  • @iiMicrophone
    @iiMicrophone Před 8 měsíci +8

    I LOVE THIS!!!!!!! As someone whose been targeted by a certain p word by 3 different people this song is honestly so in powering, hope you're doing well now!! :)

  • @itsjesswheee
    @itsjesswheee Před 6 měsíci +4

    LULU!!! I've been with ya on TikTok since the beginning, and I'm genuinely so proud of how far you've come!

  • @poppy6919
    @poppy6919 Před 8 dny +1

    I was 13, my older cousin swore me to secrecy. Finally a song that lets out my inner thoughts. ❤

  • @violetanxiety2729
    @violetanxiety2729 Před 8 měsíci +1

    HOLY CRAP!! This is exquisite!! The story, the visuals, the pure emotion and feelings you’ve put into this!! Easily my favorite song now ^^

  • @OREOZUSE
    @OREOZUSE Před měsícem +2

    as a csa victim I can't stop listening to this song because I found it helps channel my anger -- not stop it, but instead of inflicting hurt onto myself I can just listen to this song and imagine myself beating my grandfather, my ex, and all of the others who've assaulted me half to death ❤

  • @Beanman-fh5xb
    @Beanman-fh5xb Před 8 měsíci +1

    Saw the thumbnail yesterday, was waiting to find this back in my fyp, this music is on of the best few songs I’ve heard in the last two weeks, I known I just found your channel but thank you, this goblin enjoys and vibes, may many trinkets and breads be upon you.

  • @Tikibunss
    @Tikibunss Před 8 měsíci +6

    This really resonates with me. A few other commenters said it's powerful, and that's the best word I think.
    It's also a banger! I love your style. 🧡

  • @UrSaltyDevil
    @UrSaltyDevil Před 7 měsíci +6

    This song really makes me feel empowered as someone who has been SA'd and groomed. I really wanna make an animatic with this song using my sona!

  • @SenaCyberfang
    @SenaCyberfang Před 7 měsíci +1

    Everything about this is phenomenal. Your voice, the art, everything is just CHEFS KISS !! This is absolutely amazing. 💕💕

  • @minecraftguy7755
    @minecraftguy7755 Před 22 dny +1

    I'm a guy who's been a victim of s.a. and the r word. I'm lucky that my experience wasn't as bad as other's, and to the others that have experienced it I'm sorry that someone made you go through that. I truly wish you all well in recovering from it and in life.

  • @tiny_bunny_go_brr
    @tiny_bunny_go_brr Před 5 měsíci +3

    This made me feel so validated, I've been harboring so many violent tendencies due to my sa. I've been told that I shouldn't act like this in response to- literal violence against me, so seeing something with the same violent response as I have been dealing with. Makes me feel not alone anymore
    I've been listening to this song on repeat

  • @duckityduckkk
    @duckityduckkk Před 8 měsíci +4

    ABSOLUTELY STUNNING THIS IS SUCH A COOL SONG AND THE ART IS GORGEOUS YOU ARE SO TALENTED AFGHH

  • @Nyoka_Cherry
    @Nyoka_Cherry Před 2 měsíci +4

    The fact his name was Richard hits too close to home

  • @fightingonisiononsight8185
    @fightingonisiononsight8185 Před 7 měsíci +4

    YES THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS

  • @GoldieGhostie
    @GoldieGhostie Před 7 měsíci +3

    I love when CZcams recommends me stuff like this, this is amazing!

  • @eeveechan5537
    @eeveechan5537 Před 7 měsíci +4

    How am I just now finding you this is absolutely perfect

  • @Tabizzy
    @Tabizzy Před 6 měsíci +2

    As a victim of grooming this song made me smile great job

  • @asslyasafoxx
    @asslyasafoxx Před 8 měsíci

    YES I WAS WAITING FOREVER FOR THIS TO COME OUT I AM SO HAPPY RN, I ADORE YOUR VOICE AND HOW THIS SOUNDS!!!

  • @glkittyz2004
    @glkittyz2004 Před 8 měsíci +2

    Found on recommended. Beautiful song, great rhythm. I love your voice. I’m so sorry you had to go through the things that made you write this, though. Hope you’re doing better these days 🩷

  • @kikitaru7300
    @kikitaru7300 Před 6 měsíci

    this was the first song I was introduced to like a few days ago and then I listened to ur other songs and omg I love themmm I also love the art and character designs so much, ur voice is also amazing ur so TALENTED JSNDBS ur songs haven't left my head and honestly I do not mind. You've even given me a bit of inspiration for my own art, keep it up PLS I rlly hope you get more attention and love for what you do, ur way too underrated it pisses me off and makes me a bit sad, it's also christmas today so merry christmas to you and everyone that reads this. Good day/night 💜

  • @deadinside7570
    @deadinside7570 Před 8 měsíci +1

    It's all so great! The visuals, the lyrics, the meaning, it's all so eye-catching and interesting! It's definitely worth the wait!

  • @masterendrancevr
    @masterendrancevr Před 8 měsíci +6

    I've been singing this nonstop. Thank you for such a powerful song, LuLu.

  • @The_Hyena_Queen
    @The_Hyena_Queen Před 8 měsíci

    Another absolute banger, yammy! Always look forward to hearing your work ❤

  • @annapetevazheleva9349
    @annapetevazheleva9349 Před 8 měsíci +4

    Damn! Keep up the good work, I'm adding this to my daily playlist! ❤🔥

  • @Blusterzz
    @Blusterzz Před 8 měsíci

    THIS SONG CAME OUT SO GOOD!!!! THE ART, THE EDITING, MUSIC?? MMMWAAHHH CHEF KISS ISTGGGG

  • @sandollerisawsome
    @sandollerisawsome Před 7 měsíci +2

    Just found your channel last night and I love every song!

  • @NeonPaltry
    @NeonPaltry Před 3 měsíci

    More.
    Nah fr, I love your music and your art! I was really hyper focused on your roaches video- to the point of looping it over and over.
    I'm excited to see more absolute slaps!!

  • @Kittkatkitti
    @Kittkatkitti Před 8 měsíci +1

    700th LIKE!! THE GROWLS, THE EFFECTS, THE RHYTHM AND THE LYRICS?? ALL OF IT IS SO AMAZING. BEST ARTIST EVER!!❤

  • @astralfloof
    @astralfloof Před 8 měsíci +2

    THIS IS SO GOOD!! THE RAW EMOTION DRIVES ME INSANE!!

  • @ravenbunker5364
    @ravenbunker5364 Před 8 měsíci

    I've been WAITING for this to come out! Definitely not disappointed

  • @AutysMm2_
    @AutysMm2_ Před 8 měsíci +2

    Bro the art is amazing. THE SONG IS AMAZING (I was listening to this while trick or treating-)

  • @jpgartist110
    @jpgartist110 Před 4 měsíci +2

    "You think about it none? I think bout it all the time" reminds me the people who hurt me probably dont even remember the shit they did to me, and i hatw that, but i love this song

  • @brainz_gutz
    @brainz_gutz Před 8 měsíci +1

    I am glad I waited for this!! I love it so much!! and I relate to it sm!! keep up the great work!!

  • @WhatIsRealitysos
    @WhatIsRealitysos Před 8 měsíci

    I love your voice! This was worth the wait!

  • @Katarina155
    @Katarina155 Před 5 měsíci

    Thanks for putting this out there. It's an awesome song and helped me feel the feels that I needed to.

  • @dreamyslife_
    @dreamyslife_ Před 8 měsíci

    I love this song, and I love how you expressed your feelings for what you went through in this💕

  • @Riley_the_Rat
    @Riley_the_Rat Před 8 měsíci

    I was so upset i had to wait for halloween to hear the song cuz i was so hyped for it this! Is! Worth! It! I love this song! I just recently found out about you and i love every song youve written

  • @sunraystarshine
    @sunraystarshine Před 8 měsíci

    I LOVE THIS SO MUCH i could BARELY wait any longer for this song to be released

  • @sleepyarchimedes
    @sleepyarchimedes Před 7 měsíci +3

    Stumbled across this, and fuck does it hit a spot in my heart, I won't delve into it, but I also have to say, you're voice is so fitting for the atmosphere this song gives
    I wish all who understand this song, may you get revenge on those who wronged you

  • @rex_ink
    @rex_ink Před 5 měsíci +2

    OH MY GOD THIS SONG SLAPS!
    Im 100% gonna make a metal cover of this soon..

  • @rotcityriot
    @rotcityriot Před měsícem +3

    This song healed something in my soul

  • @JustyDrawzStuff
    @JustyDrawzStuff Před 4 měsíci +1

    As a victim of grooming this is amazing. I like how her body is rotting with the worm (im assuming) coming out her eye ans i like how she states shes already been dead. "You think bout it known i think bout it all the time" hits so painfully hard.
    After going through something like this its really hard NOT to think about it every time i talk to someone now i immediately think of how they could use me and look for ways to avoid it.
    The depiction of being in constant decay was very well done >:] def listening to more songs under ur belt!

  • @phoenixlynnva
    @phoenixlynnva Před 7 měsíci +1

    This definitely like- struck a chord! I’m honestly in love. As a survivor myself I adore the absolute raw emotion behind this

  • @Anna-B-92
    @Anna-B-92 Před 8 měsíci +3

    Can't wait! I just know it'll be 🔥🔥

  • @max1mum_yt
    @max1mum_yt Před měsícem +2

    Oh this song is so therapeutic now because of what I went through today...

  • @Lunamoonrune
    @Lunamoonrune Před 8 měsíci +1

    OKAY I have to admit that was amazing. Good job.😁❤

  • @markparker2915
    @markparker2915 Před 8 měsíci +1

    THIS IS MY NEW FAVORITE SONG OH MY GOD YOU DID AMAZING

  • @TriannaCampos
    @TriannaCampos Před 13 dny +1

    As a S/A victim! this is helping my stress and helps me when I'm overthinking :]

  • @Miss.Dimitrescu
    @Miss.Dimitrescu Před 8 měsíci +4

    I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH YOU DID SUCH A AWESOME JOB