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Ren - Diazepam (Official Visualizer)
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Oh my my my
I seem to feel so much better when it
kicks in, chemical kitchen
Feel my brain destruct
Oh die, die, diazepam you
turn the volume down on my demons and you
give me relief just for a second and you
make it all so numb
Oh why, why, diazepam do
you make me feel like every things not dissolving?
Spinning doors are revolving
Swallow a tablet I’m over indulging
I’ve tried, tried diazepam to
be the optimist and resist cards folding
You’re the crutch that I’m holding
Don't want tomorrow ‘cause right now I’m golden
Oh die, die diazepam
Done lie, lie diazepam
Oh my, my, my, my
When you leave why can’t I breathe like you’ve stolen
My very essence my coding
Went for a swim and then drowned in your ocean
Don't lie lie diazepam you
Promised me the world but now I’m rotting and moulding
and my face it feels swollen
Anaesthetic I block that emotion
Synaesthetic dreaming I’m carried away
Anaesthetic bleeding; a place for the pain
self destructive healing its one and the same
Oh, die, die diazepam
Synaesthetic dreaming I’m carried away
Anaesthetic bleeding; a place for the pain
self destructive healing its one and the same
Oh why, why diazepam
thank you! for the lyrics was looking for them
💯
You've missed the anaesthetic blocks that emotion. Much love though love the song.
Fuck you're cute. Big hugs🥰
I fucking love your music, keep on keeping on dude
Everybody sleeps differently. I sleep on my side, my non-existent boyfriend sleeps on his stomach, my cat sleeps on his back but The Whole World Sleeps On Ren's Amazing Music!
Aha what a poetic comment, I love it
Stolen comment
So does his stomach exist then?
@@dalydaly999 i don't think so?
So basically what you're saying is that your cat is floating
Everywhere I dig with Ren's catalog, I find gold. He is so ridiculously talented that other music today is no longer tolerable. Go get it Ren, it's your time now.
❤❤❤
Totally. I keep thinking I’ve heard my favourite Ren track, and then I find another one. 🎶 ❤️
Same for me, in my 63 years....
Amen to that brother haha I feel ya❤
Facts.
I'm on diazepam for terminal leukaemia. I can't listen to this without tearing up. How can some capture the essence of a tablet and it'd effects in a song like this just blows my mind
I lay still for a moment on my sofa in Greenwich just sitting with this comment. The internet crosses our lives with strangers in such curious ways like satellites passing in orbit and I guess we'll never meet but for however many days you are with us, I hope you're about to live them fully and with love.
How long is a long life really? I don't know.
@@LukeFlegg I went onto his CZcams channel, his name is Rob Hale from Thornbury. Rob sadly lost the battle to myleoid leukaemia about a month after he commented here. I hope he's resting easier now. RIP Rob 33 years young.
@@LukeFleggThis is such a precious reply.. So well worded & true.. The connecting part is so amazing.. Wishing love & peace to all from a gal here in North Carolina, USA!❤
Prayers for you and yours to spend as much time together.
Do you want to heal this ? Do not listen to doctors. Ignore everyone and every advertisement that cancer is terminal. Go raw vegan and do a longterm juice feast a.s.a.p. if yiu not better in 6 months i will apologise.
His voice has so much power, he is really an incredible artist
@@ajax1812 it really is
@@ajax1812 ikr
@@ajax1812 like how? They must have horrible music taste of they ain't here 😅
Love your music…it’s real! Powerful! And if people didn’t like poetry..it’s rap poetry with life! Much Aroha from NZ! Ur heard alover the world bro! That’s how many ppl ur reaching with ur music..words..real stories! ❤️
Did u guys hear the part from 0:00 to 3:30, that part was amazing
flawless really
Nah 0:00 to 3:30 was better imo. Boils down to preference I suppose
❤️
Shiiit I think I missed it. Let me run it back 3 or 4 more times just to be sure.
I didn't like the part that comes after 3:30 though
I do not care what anyone in this world says. This man is poet, so cliché but this music never changed my life but allowed me to feel seen and put words to the feelings. Love you, Ren, Thank you, man x
Ren will live as a legend for those who found him.
Yeah man.
Yuppum
It's a crime that everyone doesn't know. Thank God for Ren. A light shining, showing other artists the way.
Found him!! Thank goodness :)
I feel a bit lame for only discovering him when Hi Ren blew up. There's people that have been following him for actual years.
i am a 60 year old music lover of all kinds not a big fan of rap that being said discovering ren on line has been a moving experience a genius a true artist and a poet just freaking amazing i have never been so moved by a few songs in all my life
I am 52 and feel the same. One thing I love is what his music evokes. Music wise what's available commercially doesn't wake up your mind let alone your soul. Rens music lights up places I didn't even know I had.
53 and love all his music!
I’m 27 and also not a big fan of rap but yes I have to fully agree with 3 it’s great music!
46 and feel the same!
48 and been involved in music for years ..found Ren when his busking vids starting making waves a few years back ..always been of the opinion that he's the most talented, exciting and unique artists to come out of the UK for as long as I can remember...
Me showing your songs to my friends like a proud mom: 🥺🥺❤❤🥺❤🥺🇧🇷
YESSS
HONESTLYYYYY
Samesies! :)
Br fã de Ren? Achei que era o unico
tem alguns
It's not at all hyperbole to say that if Ren continues this trajectory he will be among the best artists of this generation.
He already is. He took his broken heart and made it into art.
He already is indeed
Of any generation coming from a 47-year-old
I keep telling everybody in most recent comments. We have to share him with the rest of the world eventually and these interactions with him are precious . He won't be as available the more he ascends into stardom
Yes he will.
Ren is what the world needs. It just doesn't know yet.
Absolutely agreed !!
The world can't handle Ren yet even though they so need him..
What is going on?!?!? ... Never heard of Ren until I stumbled upon him yesterday and now I just can't stop listening to all his music.. Ren if you read this I swear we have shared same experiences .. your music is sooo relatable 💯
Same
I've followed him from the beginning and at first I couldn't believe he wasn't massive but now he's got a huge following and he's earned it and deserves it. I show his music to everyone! So glad he's finally making it now. I love everything he's done from Freckled angels till now!
I'm so pissed off I discovered their music just 4 days ago. And I'm listening them since, every free moment I have. It was decades I wasn't so thrilled and happy to have discovered a new musician.
Exactly the same happened to me, and a few months later I have a YT channel, solely evolving around Ren!! 😅😅
Same ❤❤❤
It’s honestly crazy how EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. he manages to come out with a better tune. I always think “there’s no way he can do better than this” and he ALWAYS proves me wrong. Keep it up dude. Love from Sweden!
Right? Sometimes I think I am just so obsessed that I think, that every song he make is an absolute banger, but I am not the only one, so he is just perfect. Or also we're all obsessed.
Man does the dam ring always very consistent
nämen tjenare
Have you seen what he did 6 days ago? I'm new here. And holy shit this person is... In tuuuuuune
This was two years ago, you're in for a treat fam
His music is unequivocally perfect for every little thing he does with his style. Ren has literally formed a new genre for his music and is going to shape a generation once everyone sees the true power of his talent
I know... i think the same. He's such a talented man, I can't get tired of hearing his songs. I feel obssesed lol
By the way, if you’ve never taken diazepam this song is the next best thing 👌🏻
Couldn't be better said!
@@dalydaly999 my thoughts exactly
THIS COMMENT
Just discovered this Ren song today.
Never heard a song before that, for me, is so fucking personal.
I have been addicted, physically, mentally etcetera for 30-some years because of a string of over-enthusiastic doctors who could not find another single medicine that could begin to help my specific afflictions, many years ago.
I am agoraphobic now.
I haven't really left my house in more years than I even want to admit.
I literally cannot function without benzodiazepines. However, the days of those easy prescriptions are long long past.
So, my loved ones must descend into dangerous places and situations on the regular in order to avoid my withdrawals.
The first day is very bad.
The second day, I begin to slip, unwillingly, in and out of my own body.
The third day is when the seizures begin.
The third day, if I am here at all, I am a ghost with no power to do anything but watch the mayhem as if on a screen.
I have almost set my house on fire attempting to make soup.
I have called someone I didn't know well, told him I had been kidnapped by my husband. He showed up at our place with three big friends to 'rescue' me. I had no memory of this call. I was surprised and pleased to see him. My husband was trying to explain that this was a difficult situation and not one they would easily understand.
As they were discussing this, I apparently removed my pants and shoes and walked out into very busy traffic, smiling all the while.
At one point, I went to my mother's after miscalculating my medication. I was entirely crocked.
My family started looking up interventions for disrupting addiction to these medications.
Surprise surprise, no one ever mentioned it again.
When done correctly, it can take up to two years to withdraw, however, when one rushes it, they risk instigating PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome), which can take up to four years to recover from.
And all of the above estimates are for people who have no true underlying panic disorder. Maybe taking these drugs solely for recreational use.
I reassure myself that I will be free one day, when I am dead.
Because I can't recall anything. I have the most profound memory loss.
Every day seems dreamlike. Especially now, when many or most of the medicines we are able to acquire are actually 'pressies'.
Pressies are made in homes and biker clubs and Mexico and China. They contain fentanyl a lot. They contain many mystery or experimental research chemicals.
For almost a year, I had to take Ambien. It was literally all we could find. I don't remember any of it. You're really not supposed to take Ambien and stay awake. I don't know if Ambien is even a benzodiazepine, but because these were pressies, they contained something that prevented the withdrawals at least.
The other thing about medicine made by inexpert people without the correct equipment, is hot spots and not spots.
I'll let you surmise what that means.
I doubt anyone has taken the time to read this. But if you have, just for god's sake and your own, be careful whose advice you follow. Just because they have an M.D. does not make them any smarter than you are about your own body.
❤
@@Zonaskiosk1 Thanks for the love, bro.
Just re-read this, and was thinking about the general stupidity of the admission of criminal stuff online.
Didn't really remember writing it. But, I think I'll leave it because it's the only true credentials I have, and it might help someone?
For anyone who is trying to get off of benzos:
Please look up Dr. Ashton, (I think?)
She has a patient-directed protocol that, if followed, •would• work.
And don't lose hope. Your life is your own. People have successfully mastered ending this addiction, without ending their lives.
And my earnest love goes out to all those who are in this unholy mess.
And please forgive my whining. Obviously, I am exceedingly blessed by any measure.
Sending you love. You’ll find a way. ❤
I have so much respect and admiration for I know how even putting your struggle into words, is such a difficult thing and takes real courage to do. Rens music gives people courage to find their own strength and that's just what the world needs, I hope you find some peace, much ❤
Benzodiazepines have the worst withdraw hands down. Those and Alcohol are the only ones that can kill one vial heart attack seizure, or stroke.
I knew the dangers, got prescribed it. Thought I’d be fine.
I pray I can taper at 3%-6% a month. You are so right about it talking 1-2 years to taper off.
It is so rare to read
A comment like this/ someone else who is physically dependent on benzos.
I with you nothing but the best and wish more knew I would not wish
This withdrawal on my worst enemy.
I’ll try to spread the Knowledge of how bad the withdrawal is.
I’d rather and ironically be better off as a heroin addict.
One feels like they will die on opiate withdrawal but one doesn’t and is usually better much faster.
Sorry for the long comment. Hang in there, fuck benzos, I wish you a good day.
This guy has the whole package. He can sing, he can write, he can rap and also he can play the guitar. And yet he seems so down to earth. Hopefully he never gives up.
And piano. He's a prodigy
All that is true, and he fine!
awesome and original a man in a million
struggling with 150mg/day diazepam addiction and detox now for a week... its insanely relatable and brings tears to my eyes everytime i listen to this
Hoping you made it far Tommy! Much love man
Thinking of you, mate. Benzodiazepines are the literal devil.
How’s it going now!
Keep your head up brother this shit ain’t easy we don’t have to pretend that it is but there is joy, peace and love in life and you are worthy. I will save the speeches about being there and doing that just know that you are loved.
Big up Tommy
Telling everyone I can about your genius..
Same let's just continue on until he gets the recognition & respect, love & admiration that he deserves 💯✅😍💯❗❗❗
This absolute LEGEND has done more for my mental health since i stumbled upon him a year ago, than multiple psychiatrists, psychologists, counsellors, medication blah de blah de blah has done for me for the last 25 years. Unheard, cheated, misdiagnosis , the list goes on. . . 'Professionals' need to listen to you. You have single handedly helped me view my 'conditions' ( there's been a few!) differently and gave me the courage to scream and shout until i got the help i desperately need. For that, i thank you. Keep doing what you are doing. Superstar ⭐
Am so freaking glad to got to witness this amazing artist thank you god am finally living a sober life off drugs finally at 53 years old and living my life to the fullest and staying humble and kind no matter what thank you Ren let’s spread his message out to everyone ❤❤❤
Personally I think it's amazing that you are writing/making music regarding medicine that is frequently prescribed and mental illness struggles...So many of us have been there but often feel shameful about our experiences. You Ren have shone the light on all our dirty secrets and we love you for it...
The world is listening🎼❤️
Not medicine
It's a drug
@@saszablaze1 all medicines are drugs, but not all drugs are medicines. Diazepam is still a medicine that can be used for legitimate medical purposes, it's just also addictive and can be abused.
@@saszablaze1 it's a prescribed medication for anxiety, seizures and muscle spasms. The word "drug" is usually to refer to one's being used illegally, when it's your prescribed meds..its your medication.
@@ARL1977 usually, sure
these things cause harm. unl;ike changing your diet, your lifestyle,, learning to breathe and think different;ly to self regulate, instead of slapping a bandaid plaster on a chainsaw wound, never really addressing teh actual problem. i've taken diazepam aka valium. i used to take it for fun with a few beers, maybe a lil morphine. it's a drug, it has an effect which we can get by ourselves. it's also addicting.
just because they're prescribed by a bunch of corporate drug pushers doesn't make it any more healthful or legit.
I lived a real life purgatory for three years because of these little blue pills. Hell on earth, and inside my head, no exaggeration. Found your music a day ago - you’re the one. Be blessed.
I had a doctor prescribe me Ativan/Lorazepam 12 years ago, prior to that diazepam and Xanax. I have literally lost years of my life… memory problems, body is addicted, along with other terrible things. I would have never taken one had I know what I know today. Any benzodiazepines are not to be prescribed for more than a few weeks. 12 years later I get a new script every month for 90 2 mg tablets. I have sought help at recovery centers across the country. They all tell me they cannot help me because it’s prescribed. Unbelievable! To anyone who reads this, please DO NOT take these meds. You will get addicted very quickly and they destroy you and your mind.
Hell is right by the way!
@@melissawilliams1050 I’m so sorry to hear that, Melissa. There are a few twitter accounts and a whole community out there that you can get info about tapering off benzos, there’s also a CZcams channel called ‘Benzodiazepine Information Coalition’ which also has informative vlogs from a doctor who has first hand experience with benzos. I wish you all the very best .
@@melissawilliams1050 I wanted to also extend my love and good wishes to you.
If you could find a doctor who might be willing to read some probably unfamiliar research, refer them to the Ashton Protocol. They would have to be willing to allow it to be 'patient directed'.
Much luck and grace to you
@@melissawilliams1050your stronger than all of those
so theres been a road of epiphany ever since i stumbled on hi ren a few weeks ago... come to the realization my childhood diagnoses of depression and social anxiety are actually symptoms of my adhd, waiting on the dr now.... might have to go private route to expedite. saddens and enrages me that it took me to 45 years, turns out im not an asshole im just a burnt out mid aged nondiagnosed warrior... i dont know you, but i love you. thank you.... every thing makes sense now every little fckn thing in every fckn way.
From someone in recovery from multiple drug addictions, multiple prescription drug addictions, alcohol, smoking, multiple suicide attempts, self harm and mental health.. this hits in many different ways 💙
Glad you're in recovery too! I hope you discover trauma counseling - which can help with physical AND mental issues. Somatic tracking too helps with the dysregulated nervous system trauma causes, and Peter Levine's books and videos are wonderful. Good for you - quitting meds with all you've been through is amazing! You should be VERY proud of yourself. You're a Benzo Warrior, my friend!
I'm completely obsessed with this song rn. Such melancholic nostalgia, it kills me! What's the word?....Suadade!
Ren you're a genius gdi
Beautiful song, Having been addicted to benzo's for three years, becoming homeless and now clean for 6 months after going cold turkey (not recommended going cold turkey, the nightmares + general fear were insane) I can finally say i'm doing great, i'm renting a place, got an IT degree, and starting a new job.
I believe that you can too.
God bless you wonderful story
Oh I'm so glad you have got over the worst. I was on them for decades and been off 4 years, I cant say that the anxiety has let up for a moment since but I would never touch them again. Iwouldnt put myself through the initial withdrawal again. I decreased slowly until I was on 5ml daily and then stopped completely and youre right its a waking nightmare.
😊😊😊😊😊😊❤❤❤💜💜💜💜😀😀😀
I cannot go cold turkey I’ve been talking them for 20 years, a reduction has to be so slow. Any tips
🔥🔥🔥
"My very essence, my coding. Went for a swim and I drowned in your ocean." Love it!!
F the bs reaction videos. This is for real. The pain is real. Being lost in doctors prescriptions is a terrible thing. I know, I'm living it every day
Too true.. me? 32 years now.. I'm starting to fear i may be immortal
I hear you - was on benzos for 20 years. But I escaped from Benzo Oz and busted out of Pharma Prison. I'm free of them now - and thrilled to my toes. I got my life back, learned new ways to cope with the pain and insomnia that led me to them. Best of luck!
But why f the reaction videos.... what did they do?
All reactions I've seen are very supportive?
"dont want tomorrow cuz right now Im golden" hits my sweet spot
Especially after few Diazes xD
I'm a bit older now, my brother is four years younger than me, sister 1 year older. Our parents divorced when I was 13. Dad went downhill shortly after with failed relationships and whatnot. Then it was pshychiatrists and pills (anti-depressants, sleeping pills, valium, dexamphetamine etc.) for him, along with copious amounts of alchohol. Me and my brother lived through the worst of it, Ren outlines a part of it in Sick Boi. It made a big blow on me and him. Sis was with mum. It took a long time for me to understand the condition. The hardest part is constantly explaining to extended family. I feel like they think I'm cold about it, but I've dealt with it for so long that I'm done explaining how to deal, and that you just have to enjoy to good times and endure the bad. Sis didn't get to evolve with it and they had a falling out which hasn't been resolved. He's off the piss now, completely. Huge step, some 20 years later, never too late though.
I have to keep repeating myself with every song I hear from REN connection soul soup feeds the mind and heart - totally sated but keep going back for more and more - REN is on another level - Im in my 60s and it never ceases to amaze me how this artist has just appeared like a magician on the world stage of life to give us all peace of mind
52 and what you just said is spot on
You are amazing my new friend you have reached the heights of Rodger Waters with your guitar work. I am a 52-year-old from Australia and you have touched my heart with your words and music. ❤️
The name got my attention
Same
Same
same
The song is amazing dude seriously
+
"Self destructive healing is one in the same". .. sums up the song and Ren,'s perspectives of the health care system.
Wow. Yes, big pharma is killing more people than any addiction
I'm almost 50 and here I am on a Sunday morning just soaking up the sun and Ren's beautiful music
I wish him health and long happy life!
I just woke up at 1am and I'm waiting until sunrise to fall back asleep 🗿
I JUST GOT TURNED ON TO REN TODAY AND I AM OH MY GOD I CAN'T EVEN WRAP MY HEAD AROUND THIS GUY F****** AMAZING
One of the best artists I've ever met. Guys talent has always been untouchable, literally a different class ! ✌
Thankyou!!!❤❤❤
No doubt about it! I was always told to get over myself or ignored when trying to get help for my mental health when I was younger, so I am beyond thankful that Ren takes the time to speak to us and make us feel human again! ♥️ #LifeChangingMusic #ThankYouRen
Keep coming back to this tune. Still remember you playing it to me on your computer before you dropped it. Timeless painful beautiful truth in every word. I felt it.
Lush animation too, before you were proper famous. Kudos to this artist.
I feel like this is perfectly saying "let's treat the symptoms, not the problem"
Ren is a high on my list of priority gigs to see live once this corona shit is gone. Can't wait to see hear more from you Ren, Vinyl when? :)
Same! 🙌🏻
He busks in Brighton sometimes!
Would pay over a £1000 for a ticket or a chance to see them play, talent and beyond
See ya there then hopefully, this guy got bars a voice and lyrics that spot that truth! What more could ya want from an Artist?
@@realBarronTrump 😂😂😂
ironic because seems every feels the same way but it's like Ren and the music was tailored for my life. All of it, the deep emotional stuff and the upbeat rap, it's mad
Again a very impressing song.
I lost my husband and my father while they tried to overcome their diazepam- addiction.
They both comitted suicide because of the panic attacs snd the depression which comes with withdrawl.
Please everyone on diazepam:
If you want to get off it, dose down in VERY (!) small steps.
Wait after the first until it's ok,
then the next small step...
And to all the others:
Hands off.
Sorry for your loss. Sending you love
I'm so sorry. That's a huge and devastating loss. Diazepam stole from you all. Titration is so important, this is why I love Dr Peter Breggin, and don't trust many doctors at all. Thanks for your good advice, I hope you're ok, or on the way to being ok.
So true I’m down to 10mg a day I’m going to reduce to 5 soon n I know the withdrawals and I’m dreading them. So sorry for your loss 🙏
Every dictionary should have Ren’s picture beside the definition of what a real artist is 👨🏻🎤🗣💬🎙🎶🔊💯💥🔥🤴🏻🙌👏🙏❤️
Already know its gonna be a banger
Working my way through your catalogue.
All gems so far, not a scrap of filler anywhere.
Each song stands on its own merits, when you chain them together with little links I end up in emotional overload and have to time out to cool my heart.
You're a Wizard, Ren.
I was addicted to this for 11 years due to GAD and serious panic attacks and was the hardest thing to come off… I can relate to this made me cry
The chorus sounds like how Diazepam makes you feel especially those reverb falsetto group vocals. Plus the visuals of being surrounded in warm gold. Absolutely brilliant Ren. Love from Scotland xxx
Clean from vallium and Xanax now for a yr. 5 yr addiction from 19-24 started with 10mg a day endid up on 150mg-250mg had a fit when went cold turnkey. Stuff is bad news
Blasted this on my headphones walking around, engrossed in the music and detached from life, I imagine it's a similar feeling to diazepam. Also, Ren hitting the synths making an artificial sound to convey an artificial feeling is nuts.
As humans our emotions are a gift. If we have to block them then we are not really living.
Absolutely. You can't heal what you can't feel.
So sad I hadn't discovered you when you first started putting out music. To think I could have had all of this incredible art to listen to all these years. I started with HI Ren, sick boi, and jenny/screech/violet like everyone else and have listed to all of them... so many times now... but going deeper, I have been listening to 1 masterpiece after another no matter the style. Not a miss yet. Thank you. Thank you for putting all of this into the world. And, if you happen to read this, from one autoimmune patient to another, more importantly from one human trying to find their way in this life, I sincerely wish you the utmost success with your treatment and a life of physical wellness and inner peace.
I had an instant connection with this song. Because of the way you wrote this i was able to explain my mother how i felt. But also tell my therapist i wanted to quit this mediaction. It was hard but i did it. I thank you very much. Because your lyrics give me the right words to express myself without being unintentionally harsh or rude.
All Ren's work is incredible. My wife said "He just doesn't make a bad song". The guitar double stops on this are sublime and the solo is perfect with a beautiful tone. The vocals are so powerful and his range is phenomenal. Thank you Ren for all healing music you have given us. It's a great time to be alive.
One of those rare songs I can listen to on repeat and let the world just fade away.
I love how the instruments are muted while the vocals are sharp, almost overly so, on purpose. That effect really gives off the vibe of being on heavy opiates.
Ah seriously, stop now. It's been 48hrs now and I'm still discovering more amazing music from you. Give it a rest will ya, I've got my life to live too!
This song sings my medicated life. I hit rock bottom and got trapped in a place I couldn't see a way out of. I thought I had done so much wrong in the world there was no way back for me. Guilt, regret, self blame, Grief, hate, resentment and on and on kept me in hell and pushed me further in every day. The medication helped me forget and ignore my problems but prevented me from dealing with them.
This song is so true in it's story. Medication was my crutch and I held on to it tightly for 9.5 years. Medication allowed me to get out of bed, it allowed me to stop crying and to talk to family. FLIP side if used for long enough Medication will make you forget who you are and why you should be better. Mental health Medication is a must for a lot of people like me but it isn't a fix, it's a helping hand to a better place. I eventually found a true place to be settled in and I found it with Psilocybin. Everyone look it up.
Ren I'm sorry for bullshiting about myself but your music is just to relatable
Ren changed my outlook on life, straight up.. things are just different now for the better
One of my REN all time faves. ❤
Ur voice wtf it's unbelievably beautiful
❤❤❤
Very relatable, 6 years now on diazepam.. tapering off. I want my personality back and for this numbness to go away. Been hiding behind it, blocking my emotions for way too long now..
This song is one of my many favourites!
Nat, Australia (originally UK...) thanks Ren
You perfectly captured the feeling of when it kicks in, and it starts relieving your anxiety in the "ah - e - ah - e - ih ah - e - ah - e - i" part that's sang in an ethereal heavenly way. You captured the flipside also, where if taken too long and/or too often, it loses the relieving effect and just numbs you instead. It's good temporarily and taken not often, but beyond that, it's downwards you go. At that point, it subdues your thoughts and emotions, so you can never do the work you NEED to do on yourself. All Benzodiazipines included!
Back again-i'm a 71yr old sic puppy-i love chillin' with this song so much, even tho i had to go to rehab 40 yrs ago to get off valium. when detox got messy, i was attached to a pole, there were drains in the tile floor and there were water hoses involved. you get the picture. but what is sick, i'm remembering how it felt to be "golden". no worries, tho. i got other drugs to finally quit, not picking up any more.
I’m just so glad that you are repping us all. with mental illnesses. For years we were just stuffed under the rug or drugged up. Respect 🔥🤘🏻❤️
Fortunately, this song is unrelatable to me. I do love it anyways… I feel like my eyes are opened to a world of people who struggle around me, and I strive to be more aware. Thank you.
When I was 25-ish, I went to the doctor hoping I'll be sent to therapy or get some advice on my insomnia. I was prescribed a horse dose of diazepam. A random guy in the waiting room warned me he's back because those meds made his insomnia worse, and I got angry. I fixed the insomnia myself, tackling my anxiety on my own, out of spite. I kept the unused prescription as a reminder that I can do amazing s*it. 😉
You are so lucky. You averted a life of hell. Benzo withdrawal is worse than death. You angels were with you. Congratulations!
@@suesjoy ive been on klonopin for 5 years.......the day i get off of them will be the day i die once my 2 family members i have left pass away and it will be my time also. i only live for my family. klonopin helps me get by the day
I'm in awe of who you are and what you do. 'Hi ren' and the tales trilogy blew me away! For the future I'd love to hear something centred around a female character with mental health issues. Not sure how it would work since your stories can sometimes relate to yourself and your experiences. But anyway.... You're one in seven billion. Please keep up with your magnificent art, take care of yourself and know you've engaged me so much through your words. Much love and respect - Danielle xx
Not my general music taste but how can anyone not appreciate this talent. Amazing
same as
Same.
what kind of music you listen then?
I haven't had an artist hit me like this in idk how long, maybe never. Dude is on another level with tugging at the heart strings. I literally have to take breaks between Ren videos or I'll start balling my eyes out
Same here, suicide and do you believe hurts like hell...
This might be the weed talking but this song put me in a hypnotic trance a few minutes ago. I swear to god my soul left my body for a second.
Rens one of those artists where u can just feel his music in ur soul
I had an online relationship with a man that lived in Amlwch, Isle of Anglesey... he died in early 2022. He had a serious addiction to benzodiazapines & I only found out how sick he was after he died. This song hit hard 💙
I'm 14 I was prescribed diazepam first when I was 12 I think. I told CAMHS not to put me back on it because I have a history with addiction they didn't listen and put me on it with out consent when I was suicidal and now I'm fully addicted to it again I don't know what to do honestly . Ren this is an amazing song you talk about things that no one else does and it true helps so many
Revisiting. Haven't heard this in long while as Ren just keeps coming with the greatness...
Truly the topic,the beats, that guitar riff, the reggae vibe, that airy feel of Diazpam there, everything about this works for me. So 😊 revisited. This will be back on current playlist again.
I am deep in the rabbit hole right now. I don't want to come out, this art/poetry/rapping is just amazing. I don't have the words to explain how it makes me feel. I feel connected to amazing people on Patreon and on YT, and it's solely because of Ren's music. Thank you Ren! 🖤
Earworm!!!!!!! I can’t get it it out of my brain!
My sister listens to all your songs she was gonna buy your merch but she sadly passed away 2 months ago she introduced me to your music keep it up bro you got this I'm gonna save up some money an buy your merch!!
So calming
Came accross Hi Ren a few days ago. Been binge watching Ren and The Big Push videos since then, lost track of time tbh but who cares, this guy is something special. Massive fan now, so amazing to find someone with such raw passion for music and storytelling, a modern day bard.
Omg i cant believe this came out 3 years ago! Deffo one of my favourites ❤
ngl, as a recovering (diazepam) addict, this song hits different
I just found this. I know this stuff dissolves a life into a dull existence. The music and your vocals are golden.
Discovering this is like when kids heard Pink Floyd for the first time back in the day no other music gives me this.
Based 100%
Para los que hablan español..
Amigos míos, esta canción aun no la eh escuchado pero se que va a estar buenísima. Ren es un gran artista y por lo mismo sus canciones son geniales.!
Alch ya no puedo esperar. 😅❤️
Vaya que lo es
Merece más reconocimiento!!!
Desde chile descubrí a este artista y waaaa, tiempo escuchandolo ya
@@anira6451 yo estoy de acuerdo contigo
Same amiga
My father discovered your channel while browsing for "Twenty One Pilots" (one of his and my favorite bands). He showed me a few of your songs and now I am proud owner of both of your albums. Can't wait to see and hear where your path is going.
I love this so much! I showed ren and twenty one pilots to my mom, she's a teacher and is constantly asking me for deep music. She likes to make her students think xD
@@Purple_kiwi_ that's pretty cool
im so late oh my god but another twenty one pilots fan? that’s awesome man…
2023 was a monster year for Ren. Let's make 2024 even bigger.
Floating........ Regulating myself. Infinite thanks to your profound musical, creative self!!! So grateful for Ren. Needed him.
My mum was prescribed diazepam for more than 10 years when I was a child, took her over 2 years of cutting up her pills and having smaller and smaller doses to wean her self off. Was talking one day to someone about my experience and they said 'mum was at home but nobodies in' kinda summed it up for me. This isn't just about individuals these drugs impact the whole family, I guess on the positive my experience made me question the health system and I always research and make my own informed choices, consequently I've been able to avoid a lot of pharma. and choose more natural solutions.
Thank you Ren. I just stumbled across this vid. I'm a huge benzo addict but been clean for 1,5 months now. This song helped me even more! Legend🔥 everyone dealing with addiction, stay strong, it will get better. Trust!👊
I just found Ren what a shot of fresh air.
Just found your songs, and thank you for that!! When I was 20 I was the 6th person in Canada to be diagnosed with a rare Sarcoma in my spine, needless to say, I’m now in a wheelchair! I’ve been on diazepam for almost 20 years now, and I just wanted you to know how much I relate and respect your music! It really resonates and I appreciate everything you do!!!
I literally have a playlist dedicated to Ren, love your music man
You're literally my favorite artist right now, man. Unbelievable talent still exists, and you're the living proof. I'm happy you're here, hope you have a good night Ren.
I've met Ren today in his music.
Almost kept scrolling and then ,
And then I stopped and 6 videos later, I'm still here.
But my music is really connecting and the people who find it respect it
You got that right 💯♥️
I'm glad I was here before ren hit 1 million.
This song needs 1B views!!
I'm so fuckn glad my brother decided to click on "Hi Ren" last week....i hope he doesn't get too big of a head from everyone telling him how good he is.....there is no word for how good he is
Addicted on Diazepam here and this drugs destroys my life
I cried the whole song
The clip and lyrics are extremely relatable
Beautiful song I'll keep this one thanks Ren
Close family members are inescapably hooked on benzos, too, and I can only give you my deepest sympathies.
It saved my life. It's a shame people have to abuse it and make it harder for the people who really need it.
@@MrCoffeekelly 💯