Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important. You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much! Love and Prayers....Patti B.
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
I'm 14 and am really struggling, I watch videos like this to try to remind myself that It can get better. I love you so much Marie, you're so strong and brave and beautiful. Sending much love 🖤
I m sorry that I am only seeing your comment now....I just want to make an observation....I grew up before social media and I thank God every day that I did not have to deal with that as a teenager. I was suicidal and severely depressed. But the judgments and the rumors about me only stayed at school. They weren’t out there on the internet forever. And I Could walk away when kids were bragging about how great their lives were. I didn’t have the fakeness put in front of me every day. Like today s Facebook.
know that you are loved and not alone .please ask for help , i struggled with severe depression in my teens but got better little by little and within 1,5 year i felt like myself again. But now... it left me traumatised later on , i just turned 25 and a few months ago i had severe anxiety attacks about my past. so please try to get therapy early on so it won't catch op on you later on in your life.
I know this comment is 3 years old, but I’m 13 and I’m currently struggling too. I hope your doing okay now, showing that I will get better at some point.
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
As a person who is open about my suicide attempts and showing my scars on my arms, let me just say I am so proud of you for being so brave. There is still a lot of stigma surrounding mental health. I hope you are doing well :) sending love from Australia.
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
Thank you for all that you do on this channel. You may not know me but I feel like I know you and I’m so grateful that you’re trying so hard to turn your life around and just BE ALIVE! I love you Marie, and I think you’re amazing. ❤️
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
Thank you so much for making this video Marie , it makes me feel like I am not alone with things. You are so strong for making this video. Love you so much 💙 -Erin
You have come so so far, we are so proud of you not only for how you are learning to cope with life, but how you use your platform to educate and advise people on mental health with how open you are. We love you x
It makes me sad watching this, im sorry u have had to been through all this, you dont deserve this💔 but you do make me feel a lot better and help me with my mental illnesses so thank you and stay strong marie❤️❤️
This makes me feel so much better, I’ve been suffering with mental health issues for years and it’s so good to know that I’m not the only one. You are so strong and I’m proud of you ❤️
Hey Marie just wanted to say how proud I am of you, your a very kind hearted supportive mentor and inspiration to others in situations you have been through, Sending Best Wishes to you
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
You go Marie. So so so proud of you!!! Been a follower for a long long long time and have watched you go through all of this and to see you now is so so cool. You have done a complete 180 and changed your own life and mind. It’s so freaking neat to see. Ah it’s just friggin awesome. Keep it up! You GOT this!!!
Her voice is shaking the entire time and that makes my heart break, but on the other hand, it makes me feel so good that she’s staying strong and I’m so proud of her for doing so! 💕
I completely understand what u went through, I’m going through a lot of stuff rn really bad anxiety and depression but this video actually helped, I love you so much cause you’re honest, and I can relate to a lot of the stuff in this video, it really helped, love you, stay strong💕
Your story is so powerful I was moved by it. It’s amazing how you survived through all of that and it’s awesome to hear your story. Thank you for posting this 🙂
I have depression anxiety and ptsd. Youwere kind of explaining the same things I feel and talk to my counselor about I told my counselor today that I feel like I can see the world but it's just like I'm trapped in a bubble that I can't get out ofto actually enjoy daily and enjoy the world.
really enjoyed this video marie :) really helps to keep my mind off of things bothering me. i have a college open day this weekend and i'm so nervous about it!! listening to you helps the nerves
Your amazing marie. Talking about mental health is a very emotional and hard . I'm so glad your better and able to go through this an turn it into a positive .im a 4 time suicide attempt survivor and its so hard to relive those feeling and emotions . god bless you
I'm so incredibly proud of you and I'm so grateful you're still with us and making videos💕💕💕 you've inspired my recovery SOsososo much Also, like not a joke, fall/winter of 2018-early 2019 was for real just like the end of the world for a lot of people's mental health including mine, I was hospitalized twice. It was a brutal year but look at you, killing it💕💕💕💕💕💕 (Why is there a police car in the back😹)
Thank you for your videos 💗 I can relate to you so much especially the idea of thinking you're a sociopath i remember feeling that way for a long time.
last year my mental health was at an all time low and i would watch your videos and find so much comfort in them, so thank you.as someone who has and still deals with dissociation issues a lot, i felt everything you said about depersonalisation and realisation. i am so beyond happy that you've come so far. remember this hopeful feeling incase you ever end up in the dark again angel. i love you, marie !
thank you for talking about the derelalization oh my god i literally relate to that 100% when you were having those dp/dr breakdowns. i struggle with it everyday and no one gets it it's scary and i relate to that self harm too in the dpdr way fuck i felt you sooo much thank you for saying this
I thought it was just me who thought like this/ had all of these situations and episodes of serious mental health problems. Thank you for talking to someone, I think I’m going to start helping myself from now on. No more settling for rubbish medication, thank you for this video absolutely just effin thank you. I am so glad you are getting there xx
I found you after your video about leaving Bali early. I know it was tough for you, but that video helped me so much. It made me feel validated in my feelings, my experiences and it made me feel better about my scars.
When you're ready it would be great to hear you talk more about psychosis. Every story counts on this topic. I hope to work as a psych nurse in the future and hearing the ones affected talk/write about it when they're healthy is truly so important to me. I struggle with mental health myself and find myself so grateful for your ability to be open about your own experiences on this channel - they mean the world to me. I'm so happy you're better now! :)
hey you, reading this comment , you are so loved🦋
salenaa • you’re such a sweet human and I hope you know how lovely you are ❤️🌸❤️
Thanks so are you!
lol
No I’m not no one cares about me anymore
Grace and trinitee Vlogs I do
there’s so much shakiness in her voice.. it breaks my heart 💔
She's doing a great job.
kenzie parker i think it’s a side effect from her medication
She looks very very tired. Not physically but emotionally.
it’s from her meds
I’ve never seen someone so strong
😭💗
marieroseeee what triggered your psychosis?
I got this video recommended again. We miss you dearly, beautiful Marie. Rest easy, girl.
Rest easy? Oh 😢 I didn't know
Can we just take a minute to tell this lady how beautiful she is?
Uno reverse to u hon
She is
Yes she is
You are pretty too
It’s a shame looks don’t determine our mental health as she would be beyond happy
Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Ditto ❤ love to all
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
You are loved. Jesus loves you I promise you are valuable on this earth
@@itsmamawolf Thank you very much Girlie❤❤❤❤
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
Lys Rose girl same
Lys Rose same, the other day I said something similar to this to my friend who is also mentally ill and even she was super concerned ahaha
Me too 😔
You’ve litterally saved ny life. Ily
I hope you’re ok hun 💙
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
ebby how can u care about someone you have never met. People in my life don’t give a shit about me
Jackie Kirstein hey how are you? ;3
U still here:)?
29:08 even though you’re gone marie, you’ll never be just another statistic
She’s not gone is she?
@@Zydonie she is dead.
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
That's hard to understand?
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important.
You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much!
Love and Prayers....Patti B.
2 months without you sweet girl. may you rest in peace
How did she pass?
I started counselling and if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have
im so glad, i hope it goes well and helps you xxxx
marieroseeee thank uu xx
There is no such thing it's a control system 🤦♀️
7 months without you fly high mareiiiiiii 💋
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
Aww am so sorry for ur loss and I hope u have a great day or night
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
4 years ago today💔 devastated doesn’t even touch the surface, rest easy gorgeous soul x
I'm 14 and am really struggling, I watch videos like this to try to remind myself that It can get better. I love you so much Marie, you're so strong and brave and beautiful. Sending much love 🖤
I hope you've gotton help and are doing better 💜
I m sorry that I am only seeing your comment now....I just want to make an observation....I grew up before social media and I thank God every day that I did not have to deal with that as a teenager. I was suicidal and severely depressed. But the judgments and the rumors about me only stayed at school. They weren’t out there on the internet forever. And I Could walk away when kids were bragging about how great their lives were. I didn’t have the fakeness put in front of me every day. Like today s Facebook.
know that you are loved and not alone .please ask for help , i struggled with severe depression in my teens but got better little by little and within 1,5 year i felt like myself again. But now... it left me traumatised later on , i just turned 25 and a few months ago i had severe anxiety attacks about my past. so please try to get therapy early on so it won't catch op on you later on in your life.
I know this comment is 3 years old, but I’m 13 and I’m currently struggling too. I hope your doing okay now, showing that I will get better at some point.
rest in peace Angel. ❤
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
Oh I feel so seen by the derealization. "And the gap just aches"
As a person who is open about my suicide attempts and showing my scars on my arms, let me just say I am so proud of you for being so brave. There is still a lot of stigma surrounding mental health.
I hope you are doing well :) sending love from Australia.
thankyou so much Bree, this means a lot to me xxx
@@marieroseeee You're welcome xx
Thank you for making this ❤️
Rest easy Marie you was such a kind girl with a beautiful heart ❤
Thank you so much for sharing! I really needed this today xxxx
I’m so proud of you thank you so much for sharing your story xx
I believe that you’ve gone through everything you have to tell your stories and spread awareness xxx
Omg this video!!!!!! ur so amazing love you ❤️
I really love this video you have helped me so much by talking about what you’ve been through and I just wanted to say thank you
I missed seeing you! Its good to have you back! Keep fighting! we love you
You’re so inspiring💜
Your so amazing and strong!! Love you lots xxx
Keep on going. You can do this♥️🙏🏻
Really helped me through a lot ❤️
so so proud of you, you are the strongest person❤️❤️thank you for helping all of us!!
I am so proud of you, you’re so strong Marie. Thanks for sharing your story!
Currently going thru a lot, thank you for opening up it has helped me.
You are so strong, it's crazy♥️
Loved this video! Love all your videos 💓 so happy you are doing well
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
She sadly took her life last year.
Honestly so proud of you Marie 💗💕💓💖💞💘
I love you so much, this has really inspired me
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
Thank you for posting this video. Every time I hear about someone else's mental health story, it helps with my own. Goodluck for the future.💖
It honestly makes me so happy to see you looking so happy and glowing!! i’m literally sat here crying lol❤️
Your such an inspiration!!💘
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
so so guuuud Marie. Your story is incredible to hear and i'm so very grateful for the opportunity to. thank you and love ya loads xx
Thank you for all that you do on this channel. You may not know me but I feel like I know you and I’m so grateful that you’re trying so hard to turn your life around and just BE ALIVE! I love you Marie, and I think you’re amazing. ❤️
Such an amazing and open video. Thanks for sharing and big hugs 🤗
the biggest inspiration, thankyou
You're such an inspiration, Marie! Keep going and always remember how many people you make happy daily :) ❤
I just finished the video and I’m in tears. You are such an amazing person and I love your videos so much. You have helped me so much ❤️😭🥰🥰😘😘
You are so brave and we are all proud of where you are and how far you’ve come🥰 you are my inspiration and I want to say thank you 😘
Thank you for sharing ! I can see myself a lot in you and it helps to don't feel so lonely with problems anymore ♡
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
Thank you so so so SO much for sharing.
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
Have shared this to my Facebook for world mental health day because I find it to be such a genuinely inspiring and positive video. ❤️
you're amazing!!!!!
Thank you for sharing your story💜
Thank you so much for making this video Marie , it makes me feel like I am not alone with things. You are so strong for making this video. Love you so much 💙 -Erin
I get such good vibes from you! ❤️
You have come so so far, we are so proud of you not only for how you are learning to cope with life, but how you use your platform to educate and advise people on mental health with how open you are. We love you x
It makes me sad watching this, im sorry u have had to been through all this, you dont deserve this💔 but you do make me feel a lot better and help me with my mental illnesses so thank you and stay strong marie❤️❤️
You are a true inspiration xxxx
I hope to be as brave as you. Your resilience and no matter the demons, thoughts or doubts you push on.
you are such an inspiring soul, your videos give me nothing but hope for the future and i genuinely am so grateful that you exist
This makes me feel so much better, I’ve been suffering with mental health issues for years and it’s so good to know that I’m not the only one. You are so strong and I’m proud of you ❤️
This was probably the most helpful video I’ve ever seen about recovery. Thank you so much for being so open
Hey Marie just wanted to say how proud I am of you, your a very kind hearted supportive mentor and inspiration to others in situations you have been through, Sending Best Wishes to you
you have so much to offer marie💞ilysm and you’re such an inspiration. thank you for being you. you’re so strong💘
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
You go Marie. So so so proud of you!!! Been a follower for a long long long time and have watched you go through all of this and to see you now is so so cool. You have done a complete 180 and changed your own life and mind. It’s so freaking neat to see. Ah it’s just friggin awesome. Keep it up! You GOT this!!!
Her voice is shaking the entire time and that makes my heart break, but on the other hand, it makes me feel so good that she’s staying strong and I’m so proud of her for doing so! 💕
Marie you are genuinely amazing & so brave, the biggest inspiration to my mental health recovery 💖 Thank you SO much x
I completely understand what u went through, I’m going through a lot of stuff rn really bad anxiety and depression but this video actually helped, I love you so much cause you’re honest, and I can relate to a lot of the stuff in this video, it really helped, love you, stay strong💕
Your story is so powerful I was moved by it. It’s amazing how you survived through all of that and it’s awesome to hear your story. Thank you for posting this 🙂
I have depression anxiety and ptsd. Youwere kind of explaining the same things I feel and talk to my counselor about I told my counselor today that I feel like I can see the world but it's just like I'm trapped in a bubble that I can't get out ofto actually enjoy daily and enjoy the world.
really enjoyed this video marie :) really helps to keep my mind off of things bothering me. i have a college open day this weekend and i'm so nervous about it!! listening to you helps the nerves
You're one of the strongest people out there! I'm so so so proud of you!
It takes a lot to talk about this, ly Marie, please can you do weekly vlogs ❤️❤️
Your amazing marie. Talking about mental health is a very emotional and hard . I'm so glad your better and able to go through this an turn it into a positive .im a 4 time suicide attempt survivor and its so hard to relive those feeling and emotions . god bless you
Had a really bad day because of some awful experiences so thanks for this. It kinda helps me feel less alone ♥️
i’ve got no words, i just love you so much. you inspire me more and more everyday💖happy mental health day xxx
I'm so incredibly proud of you and I'm so grateful you're still with us and making videos💕💕💕 you've inspired my recovery SOsososo much
Also, like not a joke, fall/winter of 2018-early 2019 was for real just like the end of the world for a lot of people's mental health including mine, I was hospitalized twice. It was a brutal year but look at you, killing it💕💕💕💕💕💕
(Why is there a police car in the back😹)
Thank you for your videos 💗 I can relate to you so much especially the idea of thinking you're a sociopath i remember feeling that way for a long time.
Thanks Marie, you inspired me to create my own mental health channel 😊💕🌙
You inspire me to get better everyday, thank you and love you ❤️
last year my mental health was at an all time low and i would watch your videos and find so much comfort in them, so thank you.as someone who has and still deals with dissociation issues a lot, i felt everything you said about depersonalisation and realisation. i am so beyond happy that you've come so far. remember this hopeful feeling incase you ever end up in the dark again angel. i love you, marie !
your video provides light through the darkness. by the way, could totally relate to boken leg notion. Thanks
You are so incredible and so loved. I am so inspired by your story, thank you so much for sharing!
thank you for talking about the derelalization oh my god i literally relate to that 100% when you were having those dp/dr breakdowns. i struggle with it everyday and no one gets it it's scary and i relate to that self harm too in the dpdr way fuck i felt you sooo much thank you for saying this
Excellent video!! Keep up the good work in taking care of yourself .
I thought it was just me who thought like this/ had all of these situations and episodes of serious mental health problems. Thank you for talking to someone, I think I’m going to start helping myself from now on. No more settling for rubbish medication, thank you for this video absolutely just effin thank you. I am so glad you are getting there xx
I found you after your video about leaving Bali early. I know it was tough for you, but that video helped me so much. It made me feel validated in my feelings, my experiences and it made me feel better about my scars.
you are so gorgeous honestly i cant think of anyone prettier or stronger than you are xxx your so inspiring and have saved my life many times xxxx
When you're ready it would be great to hear you talk more about psychosis. Every story counts on this topic. I hope to work as a psych nurse in the future and hearing the ones affected talk/write about it when they're healthy is truly so important to me. I struggle with mental health myself and find myself so grateful for your ability to be open about your own experiences on this channel - they mean the world to me. I'm so happy you're better now! :)