ZHEANI - DIRT ON THE NAME OF STEVEN
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#zheani #dirtonthenameofsteven - Hudba
"I can't forgive him or myself" hits too hard
Laniya Inc. right 😔
It really does
Real shiat
Laniya Inc. me too.
Damn does it ever
The rawer she goes the more I’m hooked. This is real, this feels real. And it’s rare to find something like this in the music industry.
Modern pop music really does my head in, we're listening to about 5 dudes' music collections at this point. We need more artists like this on the radio.
Rawer? Lmao
Alejandra Alvarez that is the perfect way to describe it! Hell yeah perfectly articulated and I couldn’t agree more
@@HowYouuuDoinnn More raw if you prefer mister grammar nazi?
If you like her and look for more good music use Spotify Artist Network.
I feel this song so deeply.
I felt dirt bike so deeply.
Growing up was chaos.
To be a girl in this world.
And everyone is trying to touch you.
And no one was ever there to listen.
And somehow It still is chaos at 45.
But now I’m safe from all those fingers and hands
I love you Zheani.
I agree. I’m 46 and learned to become the bad man who keeps the bad at the door myself. But the chaos is still there leftover I guess.
Yesss baby!!!
♥️🖤♥️🖤
If anyone ever dares to touch me w/out my permission again, ima break all 10 fkn fingers, then i'll really go to work on em.
Exactly it's such a confusing place...
I respect her strength, as well as her ability to turn her pain into art. She is such a beautiful and interesting human.
Super agreeable. She reminds me of a couple of girls I’ve known...and the super-steel strength of their personality is what makes them so loved. Their personality is seriously like a strong piece of beautifully bent metal....
& teddy bears.
@@cdrom887 black lives matter so STFU RACIST
@@cdrom887 if you don't support black lives matter and Jews. I hope you get put in your place
Esotericno1 ok, crazy...I’ve never hated anyone for being themself.
Where the fuck is this weird shit coming from? You called me a racist for no reason.
@@cdrom887 you better. This is America so you don't have a choice. You feel me. Jews are the chosen people
Wow..the more she tells her stories the more we realize a lot of us grew up the same, with only a few minor differences.
This song gave me goosebumps
It made me go on a 2 ish hour drive through the TN foothills at 2 AM with Zheani's music on repeat. I found some hillside overlook around 4 AM and cried my eyes out until the sun started coming up. I thought I was alone but some trucker apparently had his truck pulled over in the dark and I woke him up...So he checked on me. I think he thought I was going to jump. I wasn't. I just bottle up too much for too long and I don't like crying around people.
It was definitely a moment
We are all stuck in this hell together, pain unites us and makes us stronger! 🖤
@@tibicenlinnei4014 I hope your feeling better hon🧡🧡
I hope you heal from your past . You are divine. John 10 34
Dude this whole song gives me shivers
Dude... no kidding... i cant get enough of it, honestly
Who is Steven??? What's up w the title. And who she talking about? What's the storyline behind this piece
Diana Sosa Steven is her father, she talks about him on Dirtbike too!
Genie H I am her father!
@@seahorsefairy6181 her dad
Why does the most beauty come from the most pain...
Sincerity
Because the beauty
Because it's real.
Don't know, just does, that's the bitch bout life
Best comment
Zheani's music is always so experimental with the production that it makes every song really distinct sounding from both others she's released and the industry at large. Her sound is well away from what I typically listen to, but she always goes hard as fuck on the track and the producers take real risks that somehow work for me, even though I probably wouldn't like tracks from other artists that sound somewhat similar. She's broadly in the pop and hip hop genres, but she's all over the place with it and she drips with conviction in her performance. The lyrics strike me as targeted for a younger audience, but they give it an authenticity that is often lacking elsewhere, and I hope she keeps writing her own songs
couldn't agree more, never heard anything similar to her music
You nailed it - I feel exactly the same way about Z.
Honestly she is one of my favorite artists ever
Another tune, Zheani is due to blow up.
Soon 2021 gunna be the year
She deserves to
Rock Star I hope 2020
Idk If Zheani reads her comments. We talked on IG briefly. This song is everything about my dad I couldn't convey since I found him with half his head missing.
I've been beating myself up for so long because I said nothing at his funeral. I can't even remember crying. My last chance to say anything at all in his presence and I didn't.
I can't help but sob to this.
Why was half his head missing, if I may ask?
I hope u find the strength this year to get over your guilt because you have nothing to feel guilty for. You were shaken & too traumatized to say anything at his funeral. It surely can't be easy to verbalize/ comprehend how you feel so shortly after such traumatic event. May you detach from the guilt & get the darkness out of you eventually and heal, with the help of the love you're surrounded by from your friends & family. Set free... lots of love ♡
My friend was a singer and when her mom was on her deathbed she asked her to sing one last song for her...she just shook her head no. Years later she still thinks about it. But life isn’t a movie and things aren’t wrapped up neatly for an ending. Because the thing is we can never truly see the “ending” meaning there’s got to be something else for closure. I believe...
Awww love ❤️
Love you
Zheani keep telling your stories please. Our secrets keep us sick. Shining the light on raw truth is the way to healing and inspiring others to heal. Love your work girl.
"Our secrets keep us sick" is a powerful statement- my mom's mom got dementia from being so secretive in her life.
"the past I have left it behind. But the guilt is still on my mind" God that hit me nearly to tears dude
I KNOW RIGHT
I can't forgive the Australian government for suppressing this incredible artist.
Me neither, so fuckin true 👍❤️
@@jitterstheclownqq Zac-ct
THIS.
What happened?
Please Share more, her fans need to fully understand.
I lov you zheani, you’re such an inspiration to us all ✨✨
Looking forward to the whole album.
wenn man durch die kommentare scrollt und einfach deutsche youtuber findet. ja moin. guter geschmack.
The whole album was soo 🔥😍
Great nostalgia and lyrics, Mik killed it on the visuals. Na Zdrowie !!
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god DAMN i can't wait for this ep
“the demons of the past r always fucking in the back seat” :( i love you zheani u put it into words im so glad i have your music it’s so special to me
One of her best songs imo, the lyrics hit so hard, beautiful and painful. Singing / rapping along at "at the funeral I couldn't cry, I rap this shit with tears in my eyes" part actually usually brings tears to my eyes too. So glad I found this wonderful artist this year 💜
She said Polish word "Na zdrowie" which means "Cheers"/"Bless you" It is so damn good
The fact Z is part Polish makes her 100% perfect.
@@joeyj6808 Is Zheani Polish?
W teledysku znajduje się nawet nasze godło :) 0:31
@@joeyj6808 ??? how you know that Zheani is part Polish?
@ChainsawwNalia that must be where the Russians got their "на здоровье" from, typically used as a toast before drinking or to as a retort as opposed to saying "your welcome", also used as a blessing
And the past I have left it behind, but the guilt it is still on my mind.
Most unrated girl on CZcams, and I like it. She don't need to be famous, she just need to be listened. Love her story, love how fu"cking tough she is.
still makes me cry. in a good way.
Intro]
Aaron
[Chorus (Condensed)]
I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck, I got stories to tell
[Verse 1]
They called my dad a creeper when they stripped me away from him
On sad days I believed them, dirt on the name of Steven
Teenage cuts, cuts that ain’t stopped bleeding
To feel is fuckin' freedom, I got my Eastern Dreamin
Swimmin', he’s a fiend, chances are he’ll make a scene
There he goes again, rude cunt, real cunt
(Yah) Mongrel blood is deeper, drownin' with no culture
Some boys think they’re predators when they’re really vultures
Hell is bubblin’ over, tell me can you smell the sulfur?
Take another toke and melt into the sofa
You need a bad man to keep the bad men at the door
Only god is keeping score, I’m Madonna and the whore
And they keep on wanting more and I keep on letting blood
Even though I gave it all, mind’s racing back and forth
Shoulda fuckin took that call, reaper man was at his door
And when he died his heart was sore
[Chorus]
And I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell
And I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell, I got stories..
[Verse 2]
These country kids are spittin' as they’re calling me a freak
But I’m on a winning spree, despite of my pedigree
Always thought I was better, my momma calls me judgemental
Thats why I’m not sentimental
And the past I have left it behind
But the guilt it is still on my mind
At the funeral I couldn’t cry
I rap this shit with tears in my eyes (Yah)
I find it hard to sleep, cunt
I’m thinking of some whack shit
The demons of the past are always fuckin' in the back seat
Sugar cane and bad heat
Mosquito bites and dank weed
The kids that once harassed me
Will never fucking pass me
Red dust in the rear view, I can’t fucking see you
I got a bad man, he keeps the bad man at the door
'96 Bonnie and Clyde, mother fuck the law
Bubba grew up poor, that's why I want it all
[Chorus (Extended)]
I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell
And I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell, I got stories..
Can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell
And I can’t forgive him or myself
“Na zdrowie!” Pour it out for health
Just a mutt bitch that grew up in hell
And fuck I got stories to tell, I got stories..
Thank you💖🦋
Thank you so much!!!
Aw
Whatever afterlife you aspire to reach after your departure, you truly deserve. Ty. No shade to the video editor, it's very well done, just not the easiest to try to follow while while singing when still learning the lyrics. This really helps that lol I fuckin love this song and this chick I just really struggle to decipher her words with her accent and sometimrs heavy ass vocal distortion, let alone the Lingo from down under that I'm likely not hip too lol
Please, could someone translate this in French ? 🙏🙏✨ I really want to understand the lyrics but i can't 😢
Wow, the flow is so different in this one and I like it
This song makes me cry every time I listen to it.
This is really beautiful . I’m going to come back to this. I needed this I’m going through an investigation right now with a stalker. He knew me and no one believed me Zheani
I'm dealing with stalkers to from me doxxing pedos and rapists
loonylightsgood I hope you find justice and closure 🤍 sending positive vibes
The Prophet we gotta protect yourselves if no one will!
@@loonylightsgood i couldn't fight my way out of a wet paper bag but I'll buy a Glock soon enough gotta wait on my stimulus
I believe u and i hope ur safe
Never once has a Zheani song disappointed me, this song is no exception
This is solid GOLD line for line
It’s soft and hard at the same time and I can’t stop replaying 😳
This my favorite Zheani song
I fight for you , i would never hurt any other human , never a woman , fight for woman ! ❤🍄❤
This is another emotional bomb that I'm absolutely in love with. And now turns out you have Polish roots, can I relate to you more, girl
Właśnie to zauwazylam i jestem jak 👁️👄👁️
Nazdrowie
Zheanie- Sitting here bawling. I’m from the same place💜. We are sisters. Thank you for putting this out- Unfortunately you will never be all poured out. Take it from me- I’m 49 and still have tankfuls of it to spare. I’m just really proud of you for STANDING there naked for ALL of us. Not only standing- Standing in front of the WORLD.
Forgive now if you can- It only gets harder the more that you live. That key lies in my belly and my head is in the lock box that sits on my shoulders. If there is ANY way for you to throw up that key, do it now!💜
How has she not had millions of veiws yet??
I love it especially with that few polish accents. I just started discovering her music and every time I love her more. Muza pierwsza klasa tak jak i artystka
hej, możesz podzielić się tym co wiesz? chciałam zrozumieć o czym jest piosenka
@@zyznak301 hej. Wygląda na to że straciła ojca w jakiś sposób i przez to miała zle dzieciństwo o wybaczaniu trudnym dzieciństwie cięciu się o tym że uważają ja za freek. A po Za tym ma polskiego chłopaka który z nią współpracuje i nakręca jej teledyski. To tak w skrócie
Fajnie zobaczyć tu innych Polaków :)
Jest jeszcze linijka "My momma calls me judgemental" i pojawia się wisiorek z serduszkiem i z imieniem Renata :) Nie zdziwiłbym się gdyby np. jej rodzice byli Polakami
@@TrueRealDeathMetal tak, jej mama to Renata, powiedziała na ig
this song is the definition of an underrated song
te amo Zhe
This is my favorite Zheani song. Hands down. 1000% This is the one i listen to on repeat. A true masterpiece.
Please never stop making music
My dad tried to call the week before he took his life, n died of an overdose... but I missed it and there was no way of contacting him back... and, I can’t forgive him, or myself...
Sorry. 🙏
Music is therapy. 💜💜💜
i didnt understand her music at first but now im a die hard fan 100%
IMO this is her best sound
love it
That fkn swingset gets me EVERY DAMN TIME !!!!
im not crying ...youre crying !!!!!!!
I love her art, hard work, genuine personality and the shit SLAPS. Love you Zheani
the animation paired with the song.. stunning line work its really great
Zheani I’m crying my eyes out I love you
"And fuck I got stories to tell."
Damn. That hit me deep.
Beauty comes from great suffering and pain.
This song cradles me, making me feel less lonely. Makes me fucking sad that you had to go through so much shit too, though. But you're such a clever person who can but all these damn feelings into words, can only say that I'm sorry for the shit life has put you through but also thank you for sharing your stories to people like me.
The most inspiring woman of our times ❤️ Love you Z.
Mik Shida coming through with the visuals. Your music never ceases to amaze and astound me and move me in incomprehensible ways. I really felt this in a guttural way. Thank you.
I found out about zheani adter the die antwood drama over a year ago and im so glad I discovered her back then cuz shes put out some really good stuff. This is in my top 3 for sure. Shes so talented and artistic. I love it
zheani conveys so much emotion through her music, i can’t wait to see what else she creates
My favourite song from her!
You are a angel who’s wings have been ripped from her soul. But I see you for who you are
The lyrics are so powerful and well written. I love this song and video is insanely beautiful.
Your music helps me with being myself and it reminds me what's important for me. Thank you for creating this art, love u
oh my God.... ZHEANIIIIII ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
This gives me goosebumps, so raw omg 🤍
this almost brought me to tears, i can’t wait for the EP, zheani 🖤
I feel you got deep inner strength and a strong will as being very talented I dug you the first time I heard you so stay up and strong, much love and respect MICHAEL PROBST sr.
America loves Zheani
This song is incredible
"And when he died his heart was sore"
That's some really amazing writing.
The work here is magnificent. Creating your own mythology
Everytime i hear this song i gotta stop myself from crying
Thank you for showing me this you make my life easier knowing there are other people out there you make make dark days lighter❤
0:08 and "na zdrowie!"
Underrated, genius, profound, 🔥, here for it
This lyric video is so pretty
Greetings from Poland, really nice song
I'm going through a really hard time right now and you're music is honestly getting me through it. Knowing you've been through it like me and worse, and are kicking ass to this day makes me want to keep going.
Honestly I love this. My ex's name is steven and this song helps me get over him
I can feel her inner child in this- as well as the woman she is fighting for her. This is too personal. She brave asf releasing this.
Bless you from Poland
Just discovered her last night (thanks CZcams recommendations! You're almost always on point) and she's a really interesting artist. Definitely going to stick around to see where she goes. Was happy to find her stuff on Bandcamp since I dislike so many other services. This one isn't out yet on there though, but I'll snatch it up when it is :)
It’s rare that a song brings you to tears first time you hear it. Thanks for your magnificent art, Zheani 🦋
This song is soooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 your Flow is on POINT! 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌💯
i value the raw truth of this. she doesn't hide behind metaphors, she just explains everything in her personal life. because that is all she's got. i relate to her a lot.
First time i watched with Z, ny jaw was dropped the entire time not even just saying that, legit this is medicine. Mik you fucking took my heart and pulled it thru the journey zheanis goddess soul sung to it . Thankyou both so much for every drop of yourselves you pour into these fragments of your legacy
A R T I love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Mexico loves you!!! 💖 🇲🇽
I love this song!!! ❤️🙌🏼
A Work of Art Zheani
Are we gonna ignore that lil Aaron produces this
what's up with him?
Halfeti he co-wrote Selena Gomez song and is very popular in the underground scene and a bit in the mainstream
Omgggg jus enjoy the song and get over it....
@@kennethschencks3614 what did I say that
MLG WOLF 007 I think that Kenneth thought you were being like “omg zheanis going mainstream! Boooo!” That’s the only thing I can think of of why Kenneth would say that.
You’re music hits different.. it’s so beautiful I’m over year crying by myself❤️
This is what I always knew zheani could be''musically''. Keep up the good work !
Besides the good lyrics, this song flows with me
I love the visual of her dancing from dirt bike
Love this song & I love the passion and true feelings u put into ur music 🖊..Keep just being you! 💋 🖤
I've listened to this countless times and each time I get more emotional. Thank you for being a real one Zheani 💚
Respect feels like Cold Steel through my soul.You are DEEP Z girl.
Thank you, Zheani! You choose the way of channeling your enormous pain into creating art instead of destroying yourself (anymore) or others. This is what we all have to deal with in life - accept the trauma&pain, take responsibility and do not become an abuser of other people yourself.
You have been hurt to the core Zheani and managed to survive it. I feel you. The pictures tell it - the words between the lines are heavy emotional burden. Thank you for helping other victims: for creating a space via art to express those emotions/pain and therefore a way to release it step by step. From darkness to light!
I like how she allows herself to tell those stories she got. It makes art even more beautiful.
This song woke me up. Hahaha 96 Bonnie and Clyde. I completely understand.
Awesome someone else understands.
Fav track on the album
how can a person take all her pain and turn it into such beautiful art? you amaze me all the time. love love love!