ya mate, got you there, before i was a happy person i laughed a lot, i was almost hyperactive, and now i'm like a soldier with a 1000 miles stare all the time, i feel like a side of my personality was ripped out of me
I nod my head along with you when watching your videos like we're actually having a conversation because you're so good at making it feel like just a conversation with a friend
My dream is to get my Ph.D. in psychology, and specialize in schizophrenia. You make me realize I'm on the right path, and I will be so passionate about what I'll do. I plan on trying to figure out if the "after life" plays any part in the illness as well. I commend you for making these videos. And I thank you. Wish you the best :)
What if you have schizophrenia because you are too smart/sensitive? Like you get to a point where you have too much information or something then you breakdown, and the illness manifests itself because of the breakdown and you see things differently. Does that make any sense?
IN SCHIZOPHRENIA INTELLIGENCE DOES NOT CHANGE OR DIMINISH IN ANY WAY ACCORDING TO STUDIES.IN FACT MANY SCHIZOPHRENICS ARE ABOVE AVERAGE TO HIGHLY INTELLIGENT
11:37. What you said from this point on has changed my life. You will never know the burden that I finally allowed myself to discard from my mind because of this simple statement. Thank you.
PTSD might not be schizophrenia, but it definitely fucking changed me. I was lucky that I was able to overcome it over time (though I have never been the same since then, and not for the better), but when I was in the deepest throes of it -- and I mean in my everyday life, not just when I was experiencing flashbacks/triggers -- it absolutely changed me. Of *course* it did. I was traumatized. I couldn't laugh, smile, relax; it felt like my entire personality was wiped out, and I was in constant agony inside. I won't pretend to understand schizophrenia like anyone that has it - conversely, please don't make such casual comparisons of your illness to others. I love your channel, it's incredibly interesting - but please don't be disrespectful towards the illnesses or traumas of others, *_especially_* if you haven't researched it and you're fully ignorant on the matter.
I think that DID (dissociative identity disorder) changes everything about a person; which by the way it's also known as multiple personality disorder.
I guess the problem with schizophrenia mainly happens after one loses the old personality before finding the new one... some people get so confused... they basically no longer have the ground under their feet to support them while their personality is shattered... Your new person is really beautiful Jacob... and you know you are strong as a person... that's why you can still be happy and still love and be loved... You know you can lose your identity today due to schizophrenia or stress, or something else but have the strength inside to find the new better person inside... It's not a delusion... I am not a schizophrenic but I have been losing my identity due to various reason throughout my life and have been finding the new updated versions that have always been deeper... wiser... more experienced... more loving and empathetic.. and stronger... Whatever happens out there believe in your strength... believe in Love... You are unique... it's not a disease... It is you... monks are fasting and depriving themselves of sleep in order to get those heightened sensations... but they also routinely pray and exercise in order to be stronger to withstand these new sensations without been blown away by them... too keep inner integrity... to be open to change means you are strong enough to regenerate... I really hope you are and always will be.... Thanks for sharing...
i have the same opinion . When i decided to change my old personality , and then , make the new me , i start feeling symptoms of derealisation/depersonalization .
Hi. I have a friend who's schizo and he's depressed has mood swings and such, mostly depressed. Do you by, any chance, know people who are such, depressed apart from base condition? He's on clozapine and diazepam.
***** So what shall I say to my friend, he doesn't know that. He's even suicidal. I spoke about to another participant here and he told me the list of the meds he's taking. So, finally I got my friend to think about changing meds and finally letting know his doctor about depression and not always telling how everything is fine, because it's not, obviously, it's quite the opposite. He was telling the doctor he's fine while being suicidal and severely depressed. I didn't know this was the case. Thank you!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I think I may be getting some type of schizophrenia but I also went back to smoking 420. not sure, definitely feel like someone else. much love!
The trick is you have to keep smoking. Seven or eight times a day, including night time, and then you will be fine. It is when you stop for a day then smoke again that the feelings come. If I stopped I always made sure that the first smoke of the day, I smoked by myself away from people out in nature, the woods nature trail or even a cemetery.
I think mental illnessess can give you a very different perspective on the world. I have DP/DR, i have overthinked and overanalyzed my existence so much i feel like i've lived for centuries. Past lives. Feelings i can't describe. I don't know, it's beautiful. I wouldn't want to be a shallow, all-content-with life and myself person.
so glad u decided to mk a video. was wondering what happened. i guess it is addicting watching your videos. lol. ive heard others say that too. u r very interesting to watch. Im very happy for you that you are so happy in your new relationship.
I have the same story. I've had it all my life but only found out a month after I turned 15. It really does allow you to think more. If anything it makes you overthink. I hate this illness because of what it doesn't allow me to do yet I love it because of who it makes me as a person. Since I've had this my whole life, i can't imagine how I'd be without it. Because my very personality comes from the disorder.
It's quite similar to bipolar 1 because they both can be induced by marijuana and they both can lead to psychotic episodes. It's similar to ADHD because people who have either illness have dysfunctional frontal lobes. It's similar to OCD because of obsessive thoughts. The only thing not beautiful about schizophrenia is that your brain breaks down faster than normal (abnormal nuerotransmitters pruning). People who have bipolar seem like 4 completely different people that alternate depending on the mood and energy level. I think you see the relationship between all things easier than other people which is similiar to manic people.
I have schizophrenia and so does my boyfriend (we've been together about five months) and it can make the relationship difficult at times but he is my confidant and someone who actually understands when I'm talking about meds, or symptoms. I hate taking meds. I don't take them if I can get away with it. He's very compliant with his but medication has nearly killed me (Clozapline fucked my heart up) so now I'm even more wary of them than I was before. I think I'm becoming sick again. I don't want to be sick. But meds do nothing for me.
im wondering if i have schizophrenia. over the course of months i have been hearing things. it started with someone blowing in my ear and the worst instance i had was hearing layers of voices talking at different levels. i ran outside because i thought it was people, im telling you i have never experienced anything like that
Ptsd changes the way a person lives, and that in itself kinda changes them. Like if they're aware of their triggers, they'll live around them. And depending on what those triggers are, it could totally destroy their ability to function as an entire human being-their potential is just sliced in half, and in the end what's left of them is definitely different compared to what they could've been (without ptsd). So yeah it changes people.
I hate when people use anxiety for attention.... Because I have anxiety and I'm extremely embarrassed of it. I try especially hard to hide it from people.... I would be petrified if someone saw me having a panic attack even my parents. But Sally Mcfuck in public is just like "I HAVE ANXIETY" Like do you really? ... because that shit isn't something you should want people to know .... unless they're like your doctor or something. then again everyone's different. Maybe it isn't as big if a deal to some people... Maybe I'm just too worried about self image.
I will miss diagnosed with Schizophrenia and bipolar I don't know the proper name for it but I was diagnosed with ADHD PTSD borderline personality disorder major depression and anxiety and it sucks but I have read a lot about what you have and I don't have some of the symptoms of it but I would never judge you. You seem like a really cool guy
Hi I've missed your vids, glad to see you again, you look well, you seem more in control these days, take your life back and have a wonderful life with your partner and enjoy life
Sorry but most people who are suicidal are not suicidal because they want to be pitied. They're suicidal because they're in intense mental anguish and they want it to stop. I have clinical depression with psychotic symptoms and at my worst I 100% believed the world would be a better place without me and that I deserved to die. There was no rationale behind it, I was just delusional and in terrible pain. I don't want to be like this any more than you want to suffer from your worst hallucinations.
sometimes it hits people in late adulthood. i came down with it two years ago im 42. im wondering if it will get worse in about ten to twenty years. idk
orangeblueandlavenda typically schizophrenia will hit a high point early on but get better(less symptoms) nearing your 50's. that is the 'typical' schizophrenia route. :))
I wish people knew more about schizophrenia, too. That's why I make videos myself. I've had it for almost a year now and it has changed my life completely. Oooh yes and I hate pity!!!
If i had the ilness I coulnt handle it. I would be so stressed.You probobly have to be a strong person.I totally agree about you say about embracining life. Im happy just as long Im healthy and enjoy evry day as it was the last.
I'm 17, I hope I don't develop schizophrenia. I know that I'd be alone through it and I just wouldn't be able to lol. I have no family nor permanent friends, and no girls like me. Schizophrenia would be too much for me
Hey guys, have any of you tried B12 vitamin supplement and does it help in schizophrenia? I read it works in all CNS depressions and nerve issues. Search it and you'll find a lot of info. I know it works in insomnia and fatigue, because I used it myself and in those cases works greatly. Also vegans become deficient in B12 and iron with time, so it's useful for all of people who don't eat animal stuff.
I can see why u think of schizophrenia as beautiful, like it’s a dark enchanting forest. My mental illness makes me a passionate and very caring person. I agree I sometimes wish I didn’t have it And sometimes I’m grateful for it
I "like it" before I even watch it cus I know it's going to be good! In fact, I think ill even watch it again - see what I can learn...that I don't already know. Yes, this schizophrenia is beautiful alot of times but there are bad days that you wish would go away but its for life so we just have to learn to deal with it.
You seem nice just one thought... At the beginning you said: It hit's you like no other sickness hits you. And then you talked about the suicidals. Would be nice if you would show a little more respect to others illnesses and also to respect your old self a little more. You were great before and now. You can also think deep without schizo... My aunt has it and yeah. For her it is HORRIBLE, because she changed into a mean, lazy and cruel person. Not funny for her and neither for the people around her.
I had troubles downloading Elder Scrolls Online as well, and when I finally had it working, I had to battle with updates failing in the future. I ended up quitting the game because of it. It's a shame because it's a fun game. Best of luck man
Jasmine Wilder It definitely wasn't something that was completely earth shattering, but I think they did pretty well for an MMO based on the elder scrolls universe after the revision that came around a year after launch. It was God awful before the rework
Nilgawn I never saw the fixed version actually, interesting. I ended up back at world of warcraft with legion because of all other MMOs seemed lesser lol guild wars 2 was pretty good but no one to play with.
Jasmine Wilder Yeah, in the end, an MMO is only as good as it's community. Graphics and play I found were 7-8/10 but the community paled in comparison to established MMOs. Anyway, I quit as I often do to play other games with my friends
It's cool that you're optimistic towards having schizophrenia nowadays, and you've come to have more and more positive outlooks. But it seemed like you were trying to romanticize having mental illness. This video just seemed...really different compared to your others. Idk. I'm glad your gf is making you this happy tho
Dont talk about being happy to strangers because they might envy you and want that happiness taken away. Just friendly advise. Lots of jealous people out there. Evil eye is real. I deactivated my facebook because of it. You'd think people are happy for you and their dissatisfaction won't affect our happiness but boy are you wrong about that. Yes. I am a different person too now. I have bipolar though with psychotic symptoms. It changed me alot. It made me think about lots of things I otherwise wouldn't have. I wouldnt be who I am without it. There's some relief in acceptance. And I am grateful about it.
hey i hope u see this!! im not taking my mids correctly and i feel kind of schizophrenic right know. do you know the show back off haters miranda? the lady that acts kind of slow and has big red lipstick. I was watching that i don't know u but that friken show made me so paranoid. im sick hate having this schizophrenia :( but i really feel like idk im crazy i feel like people know my life and secrets that they should not know. its scary i also feel like i act retarded and i feel low. Im paranoid and suspicious. is like i dont know if the sickness makes me act different from others? do you feel like that? sucks feeling like this.... somehow i post nice pics of me in the internet because i feel hated by a lot of people that i know. i really wish u could help me. Do u think i act weird or is there something wrong with me? i just think to much. i even feel like people right know are watching what im writing. i feel sad n really thinkable n scared. n low too. hate this so much i just wish i could be in a room alone forever just with my mom. sucks being crazy. n i say that "CRAZY" because i feel less hurt. than slow. i think to much. my brain is paranoid as fk
i feel paranoid and taking to u and ur girlfriend makes me feel better i feel scared. i hope u dont think paranoid too and think that i wanna hurt u. u guys act normal n cool. but i feel like i act slow and i think thats why i never had friends ... i feel confused i wonder if i didnt have thins if i would have friends. i think i am normal but maybe i just feel slow or if thats what my schizophrenic mind think. i dont know why but sometimes i think u guys hate me too. but the thing is that if u guys do hate me i dont care because for some reason i like u guys a lot!! maybe coz u guys know the suffering hell is to have schizophrenia. i suffered a lot so much that right know i feel like crying. wish u can help me.
Do you have Elder Scrolls Online for PS4? If so, could you comment your user name? I understand if you wouldn't share it, I wouldn't share it to the public. But I want to play with you lol
dont say its awesome its suffering man schizophrenia its not treatable you will have this for the rest of your life but as you say you must focus on goodthings good thoughts prayer also helps sometimes its like splitting in two your good and your bad self tell me your thoughts on how your symptoms are i will be glad and respond keep it positive
feels like I'm hanging out with a friend when I watch your videos love them man!!💃💃
also glad to see you so happy 😇
True! Haha
forreal
your vidoes are down to earth and deep , love em so much. :)
schizophrenia has changed me but i wouldnt call it beautiful. i feel like i lost my personality. i feel more like a zombie now.
It is gonna get better. I have schizophrenia too, and had the same problem. Now I am way better...Check out my channel for more infos!
ya mate, got you there, before i was a happy person i laughed a lot, i was almost hyperactive, and now i'm like a soldier with a 1000 miles stare all the time, i feel like a side of my personality was ripped out of me
I feel you. But stay strong and keep fighting!
It's the medication, mental illness medication, especially SSRI are major causes for this. Badly researched, highly marketed, big profits.
I take an SSRI for depression/anxiety... It doesn't make me feel like a zombie, it does the exact opposite
I love how positive you are Jacob.
I nod my head along with you when watching your videos like we're actually having a conversation because you're so good at making it feel like just a conversation with a friend
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My dream is to get my Ph.D. in psychology, and specialize in schizophrenia. You make me realize I'm on the right path, and I will be so passionate about what I'll do. I plan on trying to figure out if the "after life" plays any part in the illness as well. I commend you for making these videos. And I thank you. Wish you the best :)
Just curious are you still on your path to tour ph.d and treating schizophrenia
be very proud of yourself you've helped hundreds and thousands of people With Your Videos. Jacob Keep Up The Work 💛
What if you have schizophrenia because you are too smart/sensitive? Like you get to a point where you have too much information or something then you breakdown, and the illness manifests itself because of the breakdown and you see things differently. Does that make any sense?
IN SCHIZOPHRENIA INTELLIGENCE DOES NOT CHANGE OR DIMINISH IN ANY WAY ACCORDING TO STUDIES.IN FACT MANY SCHIZOPHRENICS ARE ABOVE AVERAGE TO HIGHLY INTELLIGENT
did you have derealization ?
Wow
11:37. What you said from this point on has changed my life. You will never know the burden that I finally allowed myself to discard from my mind because of this simple statement. Thank you.
Thanks for the encouragement.. i really needed it!! Thanks soooo much for these videos.
PTSD might not be schizophrenia, but it definitely fucking changed me. I was lucky that I was able to overcome it over time (though I have never been the same since then, and not for the better), but when I was in the deepest throes of it -- and I mean in my everyday life, not just when I was experiencing flashbacks/triggers -- it absolutely changed me. Of *course* it did. I was traumatized. I couldn't laugh, smile, relax; it felt like my entire personality was wiped out, and I was in constant agony inside. I won't pretend to understand schizophrenia like anyone that has it - conversely, please don't make such casual comparisons of your illness to others. I love your channel, it's incredibly interesting - but please don't be disrespectful towards the illnesses or traumas of others, *_especially_* if you haven't researched it and you're fully ignorant on the matter.
Thanks for another great video man
Another very good video. I always love to watch them. Keep up the good work! :)
Awesome video Jacob!
I think that DID (dissociative identity disorder) changes everything about a person; which by the way it's also known as multiple personality disorder.
I guess the problem with schizophrenia mainly happens after one loses the old personality before finding the new one... some people get so confused... they basically no longer have the ground under their feet to support them while their personality is shattered... Your new person is really beautiful Jacob... and you know you are strong as a person... that's why you can still be happy and still love and be loved... You know you can lose your identity today due to schizophrenia or stress, or something else but have the strength inside to find the new better person inside... It's not a delusion... I am not a schizophrenic but I have been losing my identity due to various reason throughout my life and have been finding the new updated versions that have always been deeper... wiser... more experienced... more loving and empathetic.. and stronger... Whatever happens out there believe in your strength... believe in Love... You are unique... it's not a disease... It is you... monks are fasting and depriving themselves of sleep in order to get those heightened sensations... but they also routinely pray and exercise in order to be stronger to withstand these new sensations without been blown away by them... too keep inner integrity... to be open to change means you are strong enough to regenerate... I really hope you are and always will be.... Thanks for sharing...
I love this comment because the first sentence is so accurate
i have the same opinion . When i decided to change my old personality , and then , make the new me , i start feeling symptoms of derealisation/depersonalization .
don't do that on purpose... or find a decent spiritual guru who will lead you there:))
I sometimes feel the same way about my Schizophrenia as well. I’m hoping the best for you Jacob.
Good to see you back.
as a schizophrenic, I kinda agree, I don't think its beautiful, but it has upsides, a lot of people don't seem to notice its not just downsides...
Hi. I have a friend who's schizo and he's depressed has mood swings and such, mostly depressed. Do you by, any chance, know people who are such, depressed apart from base condition? He's on clozapine and diazepam.
Clozapine has been linked to depression because it affects the dopamine levels in the brain
*****
So what shall I say to my friend, he doesn't know that. He's even suicidal. I spoke about to another participant here and he told me the list of the meds he's taking. So, finally I got my friend to think about changing meds and finally letting know his doctor about depression and not always telling how everything is fine, because it's not, obviously, it's quite the opposite. He was telling the doctor he's fine while being suicidal and severely depressed. I didn't know this was the case. Thank you!
*****
Woops, I failed to find the link between the two, all articles on Internet say clozapine relieves depression in schizophrenics.
codergames I also had depression, but the best solution is not meficating
glad to see your life taking a good change man!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I think I may be getting some type of schizophrenia but I also went back to smoking 420. not sure, definitely feel like someone else. much love!
Luis Martinez pot helps w the symptoms of schizophrenia at least for me.
The trick is you have to keep smoking. Seven or eight times a day, including night time, and then you will be fine. It is when you stop for a day then smoke again that the feelings come. If I stopped I always made sure that the first smoke of the day, I smoked by myself away from people out in nature, the woods nature trail or even a cemetery.
I think mental illnessess can give you a very different perspective on the world. I have DP/DR, i have overthinked and overanalyzed my existence so much i feel like i've lived for centuries. Past lives. Feelings i can't describe. I don't know, it's beautiful. I wouldn't want to be a shallow, all-content-with life and myself person.
so glad u decided to mk a video. was wondering what happened. i guess it is addicting watching your videos. lol. ive heard others say that too. u r very interesting to watch. Im very happy for you that you are so happy in your new relationship.
This is the best vid you've done that I've seen btw
I have Bipolar 1 disorder with psychotic features and it DOES change you as a person IMMENSELY.
Agreed.
I have the same story. I've had it all my life but only found out a month after I turned 15. It really does allow you to think more. If anything it makes you overthink. I hate this illness because of what it doesn't allow me to do yet I love it because of who it makes me as a person. Since I've had this my whole life, i can't imagine how I'd be without it. Because my very personality comes from the disorder.
It's quite similar to bipolar 1 because they both can be induced by marijuana and they both can lead to psychotic episodes. It's similar to ADHD because people who have either illness have dysfunctional frontal lobes. It's similar to OCD because of obsessive thoughts. The only thing not beautiful about schizophrenia is that your brain breaks down faster than normal (abnormal nuerotransmitters pruning). People who have bipolar seem like 4 completely different people that alternate depending on the mood and energy level. I think you see the relationship between all things easier than other people which is similiar to manic people.
I have schizophrenia and so does my boyfriend (we've been together about five months) and it can make the relationship difficult at times but he is my confidant and someone who actually understands when I'm talking about meds, or symptoms.
I hate taking meds. I don't take them if I can get away with it. He's very compliant with his but medication has nearly killed me (Clozapline fucked my heart up) so now I'm even more wary of them than I was before.
I think I'm becoming sick again.
I don't want to be sick. But meds do nothing for me.
im wondering if i have schizophrenia. over the course of months i have been hearing things. it started with someone blowing in my ear and the worst instance i had was hearing layers of voices talking at different levels. i ran outside because i thought it was people, im telling you i have never experienced anything like that
Ptsd changes the way a person lives, and that in itself kinda changes them. Like if they're aware of their triggers, they'll live around them. And depending on what those triggers are, it could totally destroy their ability to function as an entire human being-their potential is just sliced in half, and in the end what's left of them is definitely different compared to what they could've been (without ptsd). So yeah it changes people.
I hate when people use anxiety for attention.... Because I have anxiety and I'm extremely embarrassed of it. I try especially hard to hide it from people.... I would be petrified if someone saw me having a panic attack even my parents. But Sally Mcfuck in public is just like "I HAVE ANXIETY" Like do you really? ... because that shit isn't something you should want people to know .... unless they're like your doctor or something. then again everyone's different. Maybe it isn't as big if a deal to some people... Maybe I'm just too worried about self image.
I will miss diagnosed with Schizophrenia and bipolar I don't know the proper name for it but I was diagnosed with ADHD PTSD borderline personality disorder major depression and anxiety and it sucks but I have read a lot about what you have and I don't have some of the symptoms of it but I would never judge you. You seem like a really cool guy
Hi I've missed your vids, glad to see you again, you look well, you seem more in control these days, take your life back and have a wonderful life with your partner and enjoy life
your videos make me happy~ I miss messaging you.
Sorry but most people who are suicidal are not suicidal because they want to be pitied. They're suicidal because they're in intense mental anguish and they want it to stop. I have clinical depression with psychotic symptoms and at my worst I 100% believed the world would be a better place without me and that I deserved to die. There was no rationale behind it, I was just delusional and in terrible pain. I don't want to be like this any more than you want to suffer from your worst hallucinations.
Well said.
sometimes it hits people in late adulthood. i came down with it two years ago im 42. im wondering if it will get worse in about ten to twenty years. idk
orangeblueandlavenda typically schizophrenia will hit a high point early on but get better(less symptoms) nearing your 50's. that is the 'typical' schizophrenia route. :))
Hoe are you doing these days?
I wish people knew more about schizophrenia, too. That's why I make videos myself. I've had it for almost a year now and it has changed my life completely. Oooh yes and I hate pity!!!
If i had the ilness I coulnt handle it. I would be so stressed.You probobly have to be a strong person.I totally agree about you say about embracining life. Im happy just as long Im healthy and enjoy evry day as it was the last.
I'm 17, I hope I don't develop schizophrenia. I know that I'd be alone through it and I just wouldn't be able to lol. I have no family nor permanent friends, and no girls like me. Schizophrenia would be too much for me
How is it dealing with emotions, having schizophrenia?
Hey guys, have any of you tried B12 vitamin supplement and does it help in schizophrenia? I read it works in all CNS depressions and nerve issues. Search it and you'll find a lot of info. I know it works in insomnia and fatigue, because I used it myself and in those cases works greatly. Also vegans become deficient in B12 and iron with time, so it's useful for all of people who don't eat animal stuff.
I can see why u think of schizophrenia as beautiful, like it’s a dark enchanting forest. My mental illness makes me a passionate and very caring person. I agree I sometimes wish I didn’t have it And sometimes I’m grateful for it
I "like it" before I even watch it cus I know it's going to be good! In fact, I think ill even watch it again - see what I can learn...that I don't already know. Yes, this schizophrenia is beautiful alot of times but there are bad days that you wish would go away but its for life so we just have to learn to deal with it.
You seem nice just one thought... At the beginning you said: It hit's you like no other sickness hits you. And then you talked about the suicidals. Would be nice if you would show a little more respect to others illnesses and also to respect your old self a little more. You were great before and now. You can also think deep without schizo... My aunt has it and yeah. For her it is HORRIBLE, because she changed into a mean, lazy and cruel person. Not funny for her and neither for the people around her.
do we have any other young teenaged girls with schizophrenia in the audience if so can we talk
Hazel Inch i
Oh yes
NOT catfishing hey I wanna know your behaviour and how it effects u
I have been Hiv for 30 years now I'm very lonly.
I had troubles downloading Elder Scrolls Online as well, and when I finally had it working, I had to battle with updates failing in the future. I ended up quitting the game because of it. It's a shame because it's a fun game. Best of luck man
Nilgawn I don't think it lived up to potential at all tbh :( made me sad
Jasmine Wilder It definitely wasn't something that was completely earth shattering, but I think they did pretty well for an MMO based on the elder scrolls universe after the revision that came around a year after launch. It was God awful before the rework
Nilgawn I never saw the fixed version actually, interesting. I ended up back at world of warcraft with legion because of all other MMOs seemed lesser lol guild wars 2 was pretty good but no one to play with.
Jasmine Wilder Yeah, in the end, an MMO is only as good as it's community. Graphics and play I found were 7-8/10 but the community paled in comparison to established MMOs. Anyway, I quit as I often do to play other games with my friends
You are in touch with the other world
We are the losers.
It's cool that you're optimistic towards having schizophrenia nowadays, and you've come to have more and more positive outlooks. But it seemed like you were trying to romanticize having mental illness. This video just seemed...really different compared to your others. Idk. I'm glad your gf is making you this happy tho
Empathy is not your strong suit hmm...
Vape guys have no chest hair
Dont talk about being happy to strangers because they might envy you and want that happiness taken away. Just friendly advise. Lots of jealous people out there. Evil eye is real. I deactivated my facebook because of it. You'd think people are happy for you and their dissatisfaction won't affect our happiness but boy are you wrong about that.
Yes. I am a different person too now. I have bipolar though with psychotic symptoms. It changed me alot. It made me think about lots of things I otherwise wouldn't have. I wouldnt be who I am without it. There's some relief in acceptance. And I am grateful about it.
hey i hope u see this!! im not taking my mids correctly and i feel kind of schizophrenic right know. do you know the show back off haters miranda? the lady that acts kind of slow and has big red lipstick. I was watching that i don't know u but that friken show made me so paranoid. im sick hate having this schizophrenia :( but i really feel like idk im crazy i feel like people know my life and secrets that they should not know. its scary i also feel like i act retarded and i feel low. Im paranoid and suspicious. is like i dont know if the sickness makes me act different from others? do you feel like that? sucks feeling like this.... somehow i post nice pics of me in the internet because i feel hated by a lot of people that i know. i really wish u could help me. Do u think i act weird or is there something wrong with me? i just think to much. i even feel like people right know are watching what im writing. i feel sad n really thinkable n scared. n low too. hate this so much i just wish i could be in a room alone forever just with my mom. sucks being crazy. n i say that "CRAZY" because i feel less hurt. than slow. i think to much. my brain is paranoid as fk
i feel paranoid and taking to u and ur girlfriend makes me feel better i feel scared. i hope u dont think paranoid too and think that i wanna hurt u. u guys act normal n cool. but i feel like i act slow and i think thats why i never had friends ... i feel confused i wonder if i didnt have thins if i would have friends. i think i am normal but maybe i just feel slow or if thats what my schizophrenic mind think. i dont know why but sometimes i think u guys hate me too. but the thing is that if u guys do hate me i dont care because for some reason i like u guys a lot!! maybe coz u guys know the suffering hell is to have schizophrenia. i suffered a lot so much that right know i feel like crying. wish u can help me.
i wrote this two. coz i want to know how many people that have schizophrenia can relate to me. !!!!!
Damn sounds deeeeep
Do you have Elder Scrolls Online for PS4? If so, could you comment your user name? I understand if you wouldn't share it, I wouldn't share it to the public. But I want to play with you lol
What type of schizophrenia do you have ? The last time I checked I had schizoeffective
I have schizoaffecte, too. :)
dont say its awesome its suffering man schizophrenia its not treatable you will have this for the rest of your life but as you say you must focus on goodthings good thoughts prayer also helps sometimes its like splitting in two your good and your bad self tell me your thoughts on how your symptoms are i will be glad and respond keep it positive
You are a good looking chap.
nice vape bro
it is harder to be Hiv I will never have someone in my life😯
You are unique
You have a gift
Every mental illness is beautiful ! ❤️❤️
thanie huynh no they're not
Yes they are ❤️
Yup because suicidal depression is definitely beautiful
It really isnt
Are your ears natural or did you got otoplasty?
Honestly it's not different it's just that you have lived looking through a pin hole at least in comparison with other mental illnesses.
Hey, do you experience ASMR? If you don't know what it is, you should look it up. I am a schizophrenic and I experience it quite a lot. Let me know :)
when are you becoming agressive? do you thing that Jesus can save you out of hands of that illnes? God bless you😊
Read some R. D. Laing. Don't read Szasz. Szasz gives absolutely NO explanations for anything, and did a lot for the benefit of Scientology.
possessed?
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