A Guy Thinks to Himself
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- čas přidán 24. 06. 2019
- Just a guy and his thoughts.
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I laughed at this because if I didn't laugh I'd be crying.
Ay that's exactly how i deal with my problems
its okay to laugh and cry at the same time :)
Ow
Dude, I bursted out reading this because... fuck my life, that's why.
@@Soundwave1900 Oh it can't be that bad, can it?
"I'm not going to talk to myself in a way that I wouldn't talk to anyone else"
Dude, that hit me hard.
Marcos Vinicios Arcanjo good lesson
Dude that hit me even harder when i red it written. I felt something in mh throat
We are basically shit talking ourselves
That would apply to me if I *didn't* talk to other people in the same I talk to myself
might explain why I have no friends
Wow
Depression was like "nah mate, bye"
Depression was like: "HUUGSSS, hugss, 𝗛𝗨𝗚𝗦𝗦𝗦" With a grip tightening until you cant breath and pass out.
Depression just got called out and ran away
Breaking news! Depression rate drops to 0!
I think when the guy decided he wanted to be the person he was before depression, he set himself a positive goal that led to his depression leaving faster then my dad getting milk
that's not depression dumbass
Jesus christ I've been animating for days and this hit me hard
Same
I've been doing the exact opposite and it still hit me hard.
Just dont let this distract you from the fact that I post videos of an egg every day
I reluctantly click on this guys video because of how it makes me feel like shit with how he achieves with so minimal. Great work though!
burgertime you? Not even anything on your channel. You don’t animate, you want attention
This perfectly encapsulates a feeling not easily described by conversation or writing,
I can't write original stories or paragraphs because I have this type of mindset
@@trashmix2184 yes, thats the only reason im not in AP writing
It’s called self doubt
Self-loathing.
Did I just spot a Catfish and the Bottlemen profile pic?
Having conversations like this with yourself in your head quickly starts to feel unbearably meta
I know the feeling
Well the alternative is just listening, which would just bring you down.
Yeah. You start speaking and then you're like "why am I talking, w-ugh" and then you start thinking and are like "Why am I even using words *thisismyhead* ", and then you're quiet. Both in your head and with making sounds... and then I get back to it because I gotta practice my pronounciantion of english words (even though I'm pretty good I think, but I still have some rough edges)... and also because I have no one else to talk to.
@@saulo4302 I hope you can find someone to talk,and that you feel better, sorry for the late comment, and my English is horrible 😂😂
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Thing with the blue is he's just your brain's expression of the self-inflicted trauma that we call shame. Always interrogating yourself, blaming yourself for even trying. It's paralyzing. You feel like you're not even worthy of bothering someone with a question or something, so you just spend years of your life being silent and afraid. Afraid of an enemy of your own making. You think this enemy is yourself; but really, your enemy is the part of yourself that clings onto the shame. The shame found you at a young age, and ever since you've met it, you cling to it as it slowly kills you. One day; you realize the shame isn't you; and you let go. Then suddenly, you realise how easy change is. Without the shame weighing you down, you can breathe, and you can think clearly again. It takes you time to make that change; it takes you time to adjust to this new form of life that you rediscovered; the you that you were before you met the shame. But over time, your autopilot mode gets reset to match your post-shame mode; e.g. the real you before all the trauma hit you; the you that you theoretically should have been all along; that you slowly becomes entrenched as your new default. Your personality changes; to wit, you now have a personality. And a spine.
What creeps me out is that I had this epiphany exactly the same day that Mattias uploaded this video and I'm only just now watching realising it's about the same damn thing. Life do me like that sometimes.
Anyways; go learn to love yourself a little.
Watch Tuca and Bertie.
God be with ya'll.
Except it's not self-inflicted trauma. That would be like blaming yourself for trauma you had no control over. I think the inner critic is part of negative childhood happenings, the messages one unconsciously or consciously received from parents and other people around as a kid.
Little Uchiha - True, but there comes a point that you recognise your own internal re-creation of the external trauma; recognize your own role in the suffering, and let it go. Speaking for myself, I have issues with attention/neglect. I always blamed my surroundings; language barriers, busy parents, etc.; but while there were external causes, there was a real sense, at least in my lifetime, where I was my own abuser; blaming and cursing myself whenever something goes wrong, self-banishing and dissociating, which only exacerbates external conflict in the long run, starting a spiral of me kicking myself further and further down. I count myself lucky that this hatred wasn’t personified by someone else; it was mostly just me. External causes but the actual damage was enacted internally by myself. I know this isn’t the case for everyone. I can blame my parents for facilitating that situation but there came a point where I had to verbally forgive myself as well.
And yet for some of us, that epiphany, that realization that everything wrong that happened has put you down a road of the very thing you hated and that all the will, that raging unstoppable will, petered out, fizzled and died as the torrents of a force so complex ripped it so far out of your grasp and after years of solitude on an ocean of misery, finally deposits you and that will on an island, an island where you can finally carve out a new existence... yet you can't. Can't bring yourself to even pick back up that will - you don't have the will to do it. So you just wander, go along with your needs, stare into space to pass the day. At that ocean of misery you stare, from your palace of pointlessness that you built at the behest of others, at the beach, where your will lies covered in the sands of time, and then down to your dry and almost foreign hands. There is no rain, for there was no sadness. The sun beat its rays down, but it was not happiness. Birds chirp and flowers bloom, but there was no beauty. You laugh and speak mourn, but... there is no feeling. You see the shell of a bug on a branch, as hollow and fragile as you are now, devoid of it's earlier resident whom seemed so full of life and purpose, and feel kinship. You were that skin, left long ago by that almost inceasable clockwork of life, ever turning and pushing. I am that skin, my existence defined by the senseless, droning mediocrity that I had strove so hard to never become, waiting for the decay to take me so I can move on or for some sort of new life to once again sprout. Perhaps it will never come, but in the case that it never does, what then? Without a will to regain will, without a drive to forge a new path, all that is left is taking that path that was already taken so many times, droning through a meager existence to the same end. Or perhaps that was always the end I was heading for...
Realizing how miserable your former life was is only the first step. Once you unlearn the wrong way of living, there still remains the long process of learning how to be real.
Give this man a degree or something
wow why is this so accurate.
Delve what
nice to know I'm not the only artist who has an imaginary alternate version of myself I argue with all the time hahaaa
Anna Garland Are you saying you have a [STAND]
@@enumaelish9193 ...yes.
Go see a psychologist
I think it's natural.
I don't think that's normal...
"Don't you know what the alternative is? The alternative is that you're too positive, and you know what that gets you? It gets you nothing." - Me, anytime I think about how I hate my toxic thoughts.
well, nothing is a lot better than continuous self doubt and depression cycles. so I'd take that anytime
One of the most important quotes from this is "I have a thousand thoughts every day and all those thoughts aren't an extension of me."
Like, with this whole metaphor, Mattias isn't the red guy OR the blue guy. He's us, the viewer. He's watching both of them argue. And that means he can make the blue guy fade out, or interrupt a thought as it comes.
We aren't our thoughts. If we were, everybody would probably be in jail by now for doing some crazy shit.
You got this. ✨
Holy shit the timing is perfect! (while reading this they said it at the vid)
But if we are not our thoughts, then what are we?
Thanks man.
@@jimmyverse6783 we are simply a human being
@Joe Average bahahah noooo
big sad
and
big true
I didn't have these thoughts at all until about 2 years into animating "for" CZcams.
Oh crowne....😥
Oh, didn't think that I would see you here. Love your vids btw.
Damn bro
But hey congrats on the 3.4 million views on your latest video
People: you need to learn many years as a psychology major in order to truly understand ones problem
This guy: *hold my stickmen*
:D i am a psychologyst and indeed this cartoon sums up one of the most important aspects of cognitive therapy of all
Psycology is jumbled and stupified by all the broken education systems, teachers and textbooks tune psycology in the form of knowledge, not your own mind.
Madeline is very MAD
@@averagejoe5904 ya?
You just threw a ball of paper into a trash bin and got us all 100 percent on or text exams
*Bows*
Thank you
For those who struggle with this:
remember that “being positive” doesn’t mean “Never having negative thoughts/emotions/experiences.” It’s about finding self-empowering ways to deal with down days-however you define either. And you have the freedom to define both.
Also, when you create, you are getting better. By default. Focus on objectively identify improvements for your old work. When you can do so (without demeaning the work or its creator), you will be “there”: complete, and content with yourself, and with continuing to grow.
You are a creator, and your work is beautiful.
Another point:
Your early work is always bad, like Your early hand writing in school.
But keep writing is more important.
If you just see this channel's early videos they are bad compared to now. But this channel reached here only due to those bad videos at start
lmao damn dude
Hits hard
Why
Why is this hearted
@@mightypurplelicious3209 jealous?
@@aubymori1333 what for
Inner thoughts: kill everyone in this room with your trashy art
Me:*smiles**dies slightly inside*
I like the kirby in your avatar
@@shadydesu it adds layers to this
Okay edge lord
Hello ANIMATION! Tomorrow I will eat my face
😂
"A guy thinks to himself..."
*What a wonderful world...*
“And I think to myself...”
“What a wonderful world”
I don't know how you do it, but it's literally me talking to myself every day.
Not talking to yourself in a way you wouldn't talk to others -- that hits home for me.
Sai C. Hey, would you please be so kind and explain to me what that qoute means? I don't really get it i think :/
@@kloff9405 this video knowledges our inner thoughts that are really annoying, letting us stuck. I think we can't get rid of them, but if we understand them, how annoying they are, we will not listen to to them and actually just do the work. Without positives or negatives thoughts. Just do it. The thing is we shouldn't talk like assholes to ourselfs, as we dont trait others that way...
"Oh you left?"
"Hey im back"
*So FREAKING me*
"I have a long way to go, but I'm proud of how far I've come"
and "When you practice any art, your eyes level up before your hands, so you'll always find errors in even your greatest works. Learn to accept it and always take it as a challenge to do better next time." These two quotes have always helped pull me back when I'm starting to doubt myself.
I've heard that similarly as "your taste will outpace your ability"
This is oddly inspiring, knowing that people notably better than me are having similar self-defeating thoughts, but still manage them.
A deep exploration of self-limiting beliefs and how they manifest. I can definitely relate. I think my favorite part is "I'm not going to talk to myself in a way that I wouldn't talk to anyone else." I like that idea a lot!
This was me 5 minutes ago.. (while I tried to draw the anatomy of an arm)
Chiara Marker lol art is hard but no one judges
@smolberry Oh, I will never give up, because I want to be an artist. ^-^ But these situations can be frustrating sometimes ^^'
This is m like everyday wit my art
Epic Pizza Pets judge everyone and everything because i have way too much free time and i get bored
i come back to this video every time i feel especially shitty, and every time it manages to get a couple of tears out of me. these 'self-critical' thoughts which really are just the manifestation of self-hatred are so familiar. i hope one day ill be able to handle them a little better
You capture the feelings very well of an artists inner thoughts. Especially about the part where you wonder what people will think of your art. I wish i could just go back to being a kid and drawing for no one but myself, just doodlin garbage anime through the nights.
watch this instead of Netflix evangelion
MrNoIdentification1 exactly 👉🏻
It actually hurts to watch this and think of all the other people who feel this way
These are only stickmen but they are high quality. Look at their head, the circle is nearly perfect !
A little comfort is that I am not alone.
I'm so happy that Mattias talks about the other side of art, the side that's negative that no one talks about, and he shows us the solutions and reasoning behind it all so that we an work past these issues.
wow. I didnt expect to be attacked like this.
Notice that the negative thoughts always promise that by listening to them you'll get better or more productive or be more respected... but they actually lead to procrastination, not getting proper rest, second-guessing instead of moving forward... it calls you a loser for being "behind" but it's what's holding you back.
Mattias, you need a book called "Mindfulness in Plain English" big time.
Please, no more self help books, I'm drowning in them
Universe Artist There's this great self help book called "dealing with self help book hoarding" you should really check it out
@@foxygrin It isn't a self-help book. It's a book about meditation.
Arturo Medina
Meditation for what purpose?
@@TheWheatless For the purpose of being at peace with your "monkey mind". The blue character in this video is what's scientifically known as the "default network" mode of the brain, usually known as "monkey mind". Meditation can help a lot with that.
As someone with background of science and medicine, I find this channel very intriguing. The uniqueness of this channel is the honest emotional struggles and thought processes thar most art students and artists undergo during their career. Keep up the good work.
This is literally me. Recently I started suspecting I have another hidden personality (chill, I don't take it seriously in a fringe kind of a way, it's more like a metaphor) which is working against me and I was like this for a really long time which was destructive on my life, paralyzing my actions. So I kinda came up with a concept, that If I have some inner persecutor, then I should also have a defender. I trained "him" to step in whenever I'm self doubting and judging myself to make the best defense case for myself. And it sort of works. I got unstuck, able to slowly move forward and I dare to say something that wouldn't come out of my throat before - even happy?
And I'm also scared that I might become overpositive which will cloud my judgement. But in this state I'm at least able to move forward, and with time, when I become stronger and stop being so vulnerable, maybe I will be ready to take things on for what they really are. Right now I just need me to protect me from myself.
'Right now I just need me to protect me from myself' is so true.. because this stage you mentioned is where we are most undefended, unguarded. If that is a kind of war, then we should be on our own side.
Thanks CZcams recommendations for giving me my daily dose of depression
Something about your content keeps reminding me of stuff I've learned about spychology.
For instance, this video:
Most people are overly self-critical, and when asked why they often say that their self-criticism is their way of not letting themselves get off too easy. It's a way to keep themselves working and make sure they work well, but what studies found was that that exact self-ctriticism is detramental to motivation and just all around feelings of self-worth and happiness and such.
Also, "You are not your thoughts." It's something I learned from a video about meditation. When you meditate, you clear your mind which allows all kinds of intrusive thoughts that you suppress throught the day to come in. It can seem disturbing that your mind is capable of coming up with such things, but what you'll find after a while is that those thoughts are completely without substance. They aren't you. And if those thoughts aren't you, what thoughts ARE you? You aren't. Thoughts themselves are just a result of the brain, and the brain can do some weird stuff sometimes, but that doens't change who you are. You may think "Ok, but I'm a result of my brain, too." Alright, if someone programs a computer for a car, then programs a desktop PC, is that PC now a car?
Anyway, my point is, these videos are so damn random but I always find some way to thinking critically about them XD
"Hey, it's me.
Your inner T H O T S."
This resounded with me on a spiritual level. I banter with my thoughts all the time, and when I'm alone, I talk out loud to myself as if there were two of me
Dang, I felt this, I'm no artist or anything, but just normal daily routines. That end made me laugh a little, "I need a break." I was waiting for it lol. I agree that stepping away from something you are just being negative about definitely helps reassess yourself
Thank you for sharing this. It's beautiful
I love this, it is so relatable, especially to beginner artists. Great work!
I love your content but also it makes me depressed as all hell so i'll come back to this channel when i'm in a better place
you should watch things that make you feel better i think. also the massege here to me is that some thoughts are obscure and taking breaks is just as important as working hard
Relatable, love your work man.
Man I love your videos, especially this one- it hit me hard.
Just let the negative thought person give it a go and see how well he can animate.
It's those days when Bad-Thought-Man isn't around that I'm the happiest and more productive. Sometimes all it takes is a positive outcome, or a compliment, even from a stranger. Then the next day I wake up and I'm back to the same hell.
So hey Mattias, your work is great, both the philosophical, personal and the funny vids (monkey tale is my fav). Have a nice rest of the day.
This is one of my fav videos of yours
You really don't know how much this video helped me!! It just does what I've been trying to do myself but couldn't :identify what bothers me which is the negative thoughts! Thank you so much for this!!
T H O U G H T D E T E C T E D
B E G O N E T H O U G H T
I love you Mattias! :D
such good work Mat. *a tear just dropped out*
ur videos always hit me in the feels
3:38 did I just watch someone's use CBT on themselves without knowing it?
And it comes back and that's why we need therapists lol
I hope that you know how powerful your videos are and the impact they have. Thank you. This is too real, too relatable and just punched me and left me wandering about the idea of I am not my thoughts
hit too close to home thank u for this
Mother: Get back to work!
Thoughts: Hey now, buckaroo, not so faaaaast.
I’m the one on 1:25 😢
2:47 “you are” and “you feel” are two different separate things. Though they can intersect (maybe. Idk. ._.)
At the very end I loled a bit :)
Thank you Mattias (:
Erik R. Sorry, i didn’t understand at first when rereading what i meant back then 😅. At least this one comment from a while back is not self-cringe inducing. That’s something, already.. ._.
Yes, i think i was just picky on the correctness of language, (but expressed it not very well). I think i meant that the “feel” are an extra part of “you are”(you existing). No idea what i meant by “though they can intersect”
Also this felt/seemed like an encouraging/reassuring comment. Even if it’s not - thank you
This really hits me, you're videos always are meaningful to me, thank you
This was absolutely brilliant. Possibly the most relatable thing I've ever seen on CZcams. Keep it up dude!!!
wow. that was amazing.very deep ,funny and true!
You are my favorite creator on this platform.
So glad this was uploaded now. I am going trough such a period right now and it hits me hard.
This video really helped me when I was having self doubt several months ago. I hadn't commented at the time but thanks for making this.
Thoughts: God... What are people gonna think about this? What if it's published and then everyone hates it?
Him: Yeah, and what if it turns out -fine-, you know, like every time before?
Do I need to say anything?
We technically got 2 brains. You get where this is going.
that was acttualy really helpful,saved to watch when nedded
All of what is said is so relatable. I always talk to myself ending up doin nothing in the end, procrastinating like an idiot who had a whole day to do so but decided to do the actual work at the last minute. I often think a lot but I kept losing track on time. Time has always been my enemy but the actual truth is my enemy is myself. When you get so tired of self deprivation of happiness so you will search for funny videos, social medias and such that will entertain you but at the end of the day the problem is unsolved and yo' sittin' yo' ass on that bed unable to sleep because you didn't what you should have done. Please try to encourage other people even if you are like me, a total idiot. That encouragement meant more than you thought it is. That's why I just want to say, you are fantastic as you are. Stay on track despite various distractions and take the distractions as a reward after you finish the thing. Make accomplishments before taking the rewards. This is my way to talk to myself but it could also help you. That's all.
I think this is the best video of yours, so far. Very helpful, we should think very citickly about ourselves, improve, never changer who we are!
I love thia because its true
I'd like to meet this Thia. It sounds nice.
I kmow right
@@evan9114 yeah I kmow
KANNA!!!
this is great, deserves the publicity its getting and then some
Thanks for this inspiring video that suddenly popped up in my recommended page.
The longer I watch this the more relatable itt becomes and its getting a bit too weird now
A guy thinks to himself: i hope this loli hentai doesn't get me arrested
@@delve_ Its 2D officer's
It's worse when it's religion based lol
true
@@UncannyAura wait what
@@themanwiththebeard4632 Shhhh no need to know.
My senses perceive improvement. You’re still Mattias Pilhede. Good job.
Yea That's exactly me. "Oh Im gonna do this and this to improve in drawing" mins later "what if it's not good enough?"
My art: * exists *
me to myself: Your art is bad and you should feel bad
This needs to get more views.İt is truly amazing♥️💯
Ever since I watched this two months ago I've been feeling really good about myself. I know I'm not perfect and I can still improve with my life but I'm not gonna be ashamed of that fact. I'll improve my life at my own pace and I won't judge myself for it. The negative thoughts that have overwhelmed me these past years started going away when I decided to better myself.
This video helped me grow as a person and I am truly thankful for the person who made it.
Dude, another masterpiece. I felt harshly identified! I think It's time to go back to the psycologist! Am I right?
YoUr ArT iS bAd AnD yOu ShOuLd FeEl BaD tOo
*this video describes my brain every time I work on a project*
I keep rewatching this..
From the bottom of my heart, thank you ❤
Thank you!
I think a really important part was when you mentioned how we don't identify with our other thoughts (like, "what a great table for the room"). it shows how our identifying w it is irrational and doesn't need to be paid attention to so much. great vid
Me: I want to leave a comment telling this artist how much I relate to his art and way of thinking.
Also me: Nah , he's never gonna read it and your english is terrible, you won't find the right words and your comment will get lost in oblivion.
If you do read this, I really love your brain, cheers from Argentina!
Heh. This's the third "hello world, from Argentina" I've seen today alone... nice...
Nobody:
Me:
Thank you for this sincerely
My favorite video so far!
Can u plz be a little less accurate to what goes on inside my head thx
This is right brain vs left brain in a nutshell
Thanks for make me happy mattis
This video actually helped me a lot with a depressive rut so thanks
This is our secret, but for every person I know, including family, there’s been a moment where I think on how “I could kill them right now” and “why not?”
-My friend leaning over the edge of a window
-Finding my brother sleeping while having a blanket in hand
-Cutting vegetables with my mother talking on the phone
-My uncle helping me clean up a broken window
Seriously, in that lenguage, some cinnamon or a pair of socks can be as mortal as a rope or a knife
That feeling when you are the 5th view and the 15 like
That feeling when your the 6th view and 9th comment
@Angel Aniki stupid*? And I guess the feeling varies. I would say a feeling of disappointment.
A good art piece is honest and expressive, and boy is this all of those things. Also really gets you thinking about disrespecting yourself
den här videon var riktigt informativ! :D försöker tänka på det själv så ofta jag kan så var extra kul att se en kreativ svensk göra en sån bra video på det ^^
thank you very much for this video
Wait I thought i was the only one that felt this way. I would have these negative thoughts that would have a huge impact in the ways I viewed myself and my work. I related to this video so much and it's good to know that this is something other people have gone through before. Thank you for this video.