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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Chris, a schizophrenic man on Skid Row.
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  • @blessingo6100
    @blessingo6100 Před 3 lety +4326

    He looks like a war is going on in his head. Hope he gets the help he needs.

    • @bluenightgrinner8620
      @bluenightgrinner8620 Před 3 lety +26

      Either you know or you understand. That's what it is.

    • @rrai-
      @rrai- Před 3 lety +30

      @@lostcause2195 actually sir, I do

    • @brucegwynn8509
      @brucegwynn8509 Před 3 lety +2

      4 Xanax a day will certainly help

    • @sandibutler4877
      @sandibutler4877 Před 3 lety +6

      @@rrai- I honestly think he means stupid comment by @muscleman8562.

    • @lrrrruleroftheplanetomicro6881
      @lrrrruleroftheplanetomicro6881 Před 3 lety +15

      @@brucegwynn8509 for a month, then they don't.
      Benzos are great for crisis intervention, until long term meds have time to take hold.

  • @taylorjean6512
    @taylorjean6512 Před 2 lety +3278

    Being homeless is HARD. Being a addict is HARD. I know what that feels like. But being homeless, being a addict AND having schizophrenia.. now that’s another type of hard that I don’t know about. I can’t begin to imagine his pain.

    • @btchsssgirlaaa7540
      @btchsssgirlaaa7540 Před 2 lety +8

      he's not addicf bruh , her have shizoprenia. please read on google what meaning of shizoprenia (mental illness)

    • @peterrusso8050
      @peterrusso8050 Před 2 lety +68

      @@btchsssgirlaaa7540 he mentioned that he does crystal meth

    • @btchsssgirlaaa7540
      @btchsssgirlaaa7540 Před 2 lety

      @@peterrusso8050 okey palatao

    • @twstdreality
      @twstdreality Před 2 lety +6

      It’s his white privilege

    • @dremzahkrii1282
      @dremzahkrii1282 Před 2 lety +60

      @@twstdreality this is a joke right?

  • @connorcash1033
    @connorcash1033 Před rokem +1979

    This looks like one of the hardest mental illnesses to deal with for the person who has it and for their loved ones. My heart goes out to everyone who is or knows someone how is struggling with schizophrenia

    • @mediaking9270
      @mediaking9270 Před rokem +24

      my brother is schizophrenic, its a 24/7 struggle, he doesnt do any drugs tho except cigarettes, he lives with us but very hard to get help from doctors as he is not a danger to people, if thats the case they would just institutionalize him and drug him up..crazy

    • @imissdetroit
      @imissdetroit Před rokem +28

      I was an RN (before the vax mandate took my job away) and I had a 21 year old kid who was schizophrenic. It was the saddest case I ever had, and Ive had some really brutal ones. The security guards that had to sit inside his door so he didn't take off (again) were the real heroes. They would sit and talk with him for hours and keep him calm. Everything that could be harmful to him or himself was taken from the room and off the walls. He was a nice kid, but you couldn't have a coherent conversation with him. It was all over the place. I felt so bad, he was so young, healthy, fast as hell (he would tell you that), but just absolutely tormented. Brutal disease

    • @pricklycats
      @pricklycats Před rokem +14

      It's basically like having 5 different mental illnesses in one

    • @mediaking9270
      @mediaking9270 Před rokem +12

      @@imissdetroit I was told its actually that "genius" gene.. so ur either functional and become a genius or it takes over your brain and become schizophrenic.. it makes a little sense because I know 2 people before they got sick and were very very smart.

    • @jespersorensen4462
      @jespersorensen4462 Před rokem +3

      My Uncle had it. (now deceased). He was 'the most vulnerable' of 6 brothers with an abusive father. I'm thinking the this young man appears dulled out only because of too many meds (or maybe drugs). All the best young fella - I hope you find the help you need.

  • @eboniearmstrong8277
    @eboniearmstrong8277 Před 2 lety +1608

    His flat affect is very prominent. With schizophrenics their thoughts are constantly disorganized and when watching this, it’s like u can tell he’s fighting his mind to keep his thoughts intact and flowing linearly when answering questions. I truly feel for him.

    • @Jv_reality
      @Jv_reality Před rokem +6

      Do you think he on drugs during this interview or is this how terrifying schizophrenia is.. ?

    • @ms.communication8464
      @ms.communication8464 Před rokem +29

      @@Jv_reality he seems to be hallucinating to me.

    • @ruthgarza920
      @ruthgarza920 Před rokem +45

      @@Jv_reality why assume it's drugs all the time??

    • @Jv_reality
      @Jv_reality Před rokem +12

      @@ruthgarza920 the majority of the episodes are tied with addiction no matter what the subject. I haven’t seen the video in weeks. Didn’t mean to upset you. Sorry.

    • @leehooper7063
      @leehooper7063 Před rokem +5

      TBH i think its the medication

  • @kimmiecakes4388
    @kimmiecakes4388 Před 3 lety +15149

    I’m a nurse. For those of you saying don’t of drugs. A lot of times schizophrenics go to drug use to cope or escape the voices. I worked in mental health for years and I have such a soft spot for them. They are a population of people who are often judged and forgotten about. Stay strong sweetie. Know that you are so strong to even deal with that everyday.

    • @miapdx503
      @miapdx503 Před 3 lety +170

      Bless you. 🌺💕

    • @johncena04101
      @johncena04101 Před 3 lety +273

      Thank you for being a kind compassionate nurse. We need more like you. ❤

    • @chocolateolive4345
      @chocolateolive4345 Před 3 lety +175

      Same here,I'm a nurse of 17 years and I love psychiatric nursing. It's also personal to me because my youngest brother has this diagnosis.

    • @Sunshine-gh6vy
      @Sunshine-gh6vy Před 3 lety +47

      I love this message ♥️👏🏽

    • @twelvelookslike
      @twelvelookslike Před 3 lety +205

      Psychedelics can induce schizophrenia in people who are more prone to it

  • @vois
    @vois Před 3 lety +2204

    He looks exhausted. It’s almost like he’s waiting for the voices to finish and then he answers your question.

    • @yogalyfe
      @yogalyfe Před 3 lety +87

      They do. If you watch anyone struggle with this illness they pause before answering

    • @bonechimesquad
      @bonechimesquad Před 2 lety +45

      Also a consequcene of taking antipsychotics, chronic use makes thinking 10 times slower. May also be just a result of progressing negative symptoms. You can also notice him having a somewhat shocked expression before speaking; he is either scared by loud voice, or kicked by sudden approach of train of thought, because negative symptoms +/or antipsychotics turn those pauses between thoughts into brief catatonia + there's a side effect of neuroleptics called tradive dyskinesia

    • @guiguijol
      @guiguijol Před 2 lety +15

      "Voices" never shut up.
      And it's different than voices, it's something else which is impossible to describe.

    • @silverbushb448
      @silverbushb448 Před 2 lety +2

      @@guiguijol It's different than voices, but the best way you can describe it to others who dont experience it themselves, is to describe it as "hearing voices"? Or would you descrive it some other way? Thanks. 🙂

    • @Strictened
      @Strictened Před 2 lety +4

      @@krystynamotlasz7967 it’s nothing like anxiety or depression. Why did you even mention that. News flash Those are both feelings not disabilities or illnesses. Everyone gets sad and everyone gets anxious. People are fucking scary. Get over it and stop trying to label yourself

  • @AlexxCloud
    @AlexxCloud Před rokem +138

    My best friend growing up started showing signs of schizophrenia at the age of 22. By 26 he was no longer a person that anyone knew. Still kills me to see him walk the streets of my city

    • @damienholland8103
      @damienholland8103 Před rokem +10

      It's a progressive disease. I've never seen someone acquire this condition reverse it. I have seen some on the right medication function, though, in a slowed down but more grounded state (antipsychotic medication).

    • @Frankoshack
      @Frankoshack Před rokem +9

      I can relate. He doesn't even recognize me. And he just killed his mom last week smh

    • @martingreenborgh5637
      @martingreenborgh5637 Před 8 měsíci

      @@damienholland8103 Look into niacin treatment of schizophrenia by Abram Hoffer

    • @brianthomas7417
      @brianthomas7417 Před 23 dny

      My best childhood friend ended up commiting suicide after never having been diagnosed, but i was certain he was in the beginning stages.

  • @gigi-fl5bv
    @gigi-fl5bv Před rokem +385

    Mark offering to direct Chris to available mental health resources for him is the sweetest thing. I am so glad there’s people like Mark giving their time to help Chris and others in his situation.

    • @sgtulas12345
      @sgtulas12345 Před rokem +5

      One of the saddest stories yet. Just makes me think of what a hard life he has.

    • @bocawilliams9200
      @bocawilliams9200 Před 8 měsíci

      Yeahhhhhh but mark really only wants to "help" the hookers so he can take advantage of the situation and have a lil fun!

  • @dafucksgoinon
    @dafucksgoinon Před 3 lety +3503

    You physically see his brain fighting things off, trying to grasp reality. This shit really hurts me to see. I hope my man stays safe and gets help.

    • @marleyhill34
      @marleyhill34 Před 3 lety +58

      I'm in bed watching this trying to keep my grip on reality. I have BPD and I'm medicated and in psychotherapy twice a week. I feel incredibly alone and isolated. There's no one but the professionals I can depend on and they can't go for a walk with me in the park every week.

    • @dafucksgoinon
      @dafucksgoinon Před 3 lety +49

      @@marleyhill34 I’m really sorry that you feel alone, it’s the worst feeling honestly. If there’s any way I can help hit me up! I always have time to talk

    • @melodymac1
      @melodymac1 Před 3 lety +23

      @@dafucksgoinon you’re a sweet person. Thank you for caring for others this way.

    • @dafucksgoinon
      @dafucksgoinon Před 3 lety +6

      @@marleyhill34 Ah yea, hopefully you can get some in person interaction soon. My counselor closed in person visits because of covid too and the video chats just aren't the same.

    • @marleyhill34
      @marleyhill34 Před 3 lety +7

      @@dafucksgoinon the only reason I'm still sane in these London lockdowns is because I saw my person trainer outside twice a week to have a rant, exercise get fresh air and sunlight. It's still not the relaxing and fun that you get with seeing friends, family and romantic partners. The current restrictions make it hard to even do anything and meet people outside.

  • @jayeli6402
    @jayeli6402 Před 2 lety +4373

    He’s fighting so hard. He seems so exhausted and in need of rest. God bless him. :(

    • @lntrlp4936
      @lntrlp4936 Před 2 lety +9

      God says NO!

    • @jayeli6402
      @jayeli6402 Před 2 lety +121

      @@lntrlp4936 stay in your lane.

    • @silaslizzie43
      @silaslizzie43 Před 2 lety +37

      It appears your god didn't "bless him."

    • @peterd9427
      @peterd9427 Před 2 lety +26

      Say there is a god, and one specific one out of the thousands people have come up with, ie the one you are refering to because that's the one you grew up with. Then he is a f'd up sadistic son of a B isn't he? But hey, he helps football players win their match, and is an excuse for our government to not help him like every single other western country would. God bless him... What an evil, self serving piece of crap sentence that is!

    • @jayeli6402
      @jayeli6402 Před 2 lety +17

      @@peterd9427 A word of advice, if I were you I wouldn’t mess with my God. You speak so ignorantly, it is clear you don’t know Him, therefore you don’t know what He’s capable of doing or what He’s already done.
      If I choose to pray to bless him, it’s my right and none of your business. You are nobody to dictate how someone wishes well upon someone else. Stay in your lane.

  • @TheScunion
    @TheScunion Před rokem +447

    You can see him struggling to differentiate between his audio hallucinations and Mark’s actual questions; hence why he keeps asking Mark! “What did you say?”

    • @felixgreen9165
      @felixgreen9165 Před rokem +12

      He could also be having visionary hallucinations as well, I feel bad he can't even have basic dialog, I've had a family member who is sczophrenic ,but much more coherent ,but has the same spaced out vibe and easy questions would be one worded answers with no additional comments or or questions, that's probably common for this type of schizophrenia, I have also overheard homeless people talk seems to be a lot of dialog with no substantial meaning ...or logic I'm assuming it's probably common to have different forms of communication per person...I'm going to watch more vids to see if there are high functioning communicative types with this mental illness ..

    • @vsichkismeludi
      @vsichkismeludi Před rokem +13

      Not only that, but there is severe deficit in cognitive functioning in schizophrenic people. It's difficult for them to pay attention, remember instructions and structure their thought. This gets worse the longer the disease persists.

    • @felixgreen9165
      @felixgreen9165 Před rokem +3

      @@vsichkismeludi Noted well he was also diagnosed with add , so it must be really hard for him to focus with the street drugs I imagine it's 100 fold worse , to have all those mental illnesses and be a junkie is got to be tough , I'm not comparing but it's already quite a drain as normal individual with no voices or auditory hallucinations to make it through the day with the noise that is thrown at day to day people ,but when you ignore life distractions and negative or toxic people its quite easy ..I hope the best for him ..before perma damage sets in....

    • @hannahkaplan8227
      @hannahkaplan8227 Před rokem +7

      Not everyone with schizophrenia has hallucinations. People with schizophrenia that goes untreated lose lots of white brain matter and their brain processes things slower, hence why he talks slow and has trouble comprehending what he’s saying.

    • @ashasweetyu
      @ashasweetyu Před 11 měsíci

      He’s probably high as kite

  • @sethp5640
    @sethp5640 Před rokem +113

    This one was brutal to watch and such a heartbreaker. I hope he’s gotten the help he needs.

  • @mike4619
    @mike4619 Před 2 lety +2387

    The horror of being trapped in your own mind. I hope he gets the help he deserves.

    • @stonedasapebble8175
      @stonedasapebble8175 Před 2 lety +13

      As someone who went through suicidal thoughts and thinking about doing it being trapped in the thoughts scared me so I can only imagine how he feels

    • @olsim1730
      @olsim1730 Před 2 lety +19

      We are all trapped in our own minds. Think about it.
      And yes, it is horrific.

    • @Laminabeauty
      @Laminabeauty Před 2 lety +9

      It is really a nightmare. I had sounds and voices they were trying to talk to me but in a high speed. I never understood what they were saying. I was around 6 was very scary for me and my mom too. The doctors thought i had schrizophenia. One of the child psychiatrists wanted to gave me some medication but my mom told her not to do. I had few crazy and scary years in my childhood. But I started to understand what’s going on and tried to think something else when the voices came back. Years went by and it turned out i had a sleeping disorders. Now im healthy and lucky the voices never came back. Im still scared of them to be honest. I never want to go through. Its the worst thing can happen with you to be trapped with your thoughts. Because nobody can understand you, hard to explain what you go trough. Its a very difficult, scary disease.

    • @davidpagan1254
      @davidpagan1254 Před 2 lety +2

      Aren't we all?

    • @jessie6600
      @jessie6600 Před 2 lety

      I wonder why his parents aren’t helping him

  • @Nyah_Renee
    @Nyah_Renee Před 3 lety +3056

    What’s going through that poor baby’s head when he’s just sitting there.. absolutely broke my heart. I truly wish the best for him.

    • @essteex4656
      @essteex4656 Před 3 lety +27

      Maybe hearing voices

    • @Seekingtruth-mx3ur
      @Seekingtruth-mx3ur Před 3 lety +11

      Nice hair

    • @BobetoSlim
      @BobetoSlim Před 3 lety +120

      @@sesedancer10111 actually schizophrenia is not just hearing voices. Maybe you should try that google out too. Most hear voices, but about 25% dont, and can suffer just extreme disorganization and trouble thinking or speaking coherently and holding conversation. My cousin is one of those 25%, sometimes see things, like shadows and stuff and is convinced they are demons trying to posses him, he rarely hears anything, according to him. He takes alot of medication to help suppress it all, but he still sees them. Says the meds do more to help his depression than the hallucinations. Im sure every case is unique.

    • @vendetta1454
      @vendetta1454 Před 3 lety +3

      You’re beautiful oh my days

    • @iloveToonLink101
      @iloveToonLink101 Před 2 lety +2

      @@Seekingtruth-mx3ur thank you for this comment. People are such assholes for no reason

  • @matthiasrosseels
    @matthiasrosseels Před rokem +578

    Man... this is heartbreaking. I wonder how he is doing now. I hope he's ok..

    • @xxforeverkissedxx6132
      @xxforeverkissedxx6132 Před rokem

      Hes on meth so I'm sure hes doing just fine lol

    • @boog110
      @boog110 Před rokem +11

      I deal with anxiety. I thought I had it bad. This broke my heart.

  • @warteam2023
    @warteam2023 Před rokem +625

    This is really tear jerking. I feel so sorry for this gentleman. I just cannot imagine how hard and difficult his life must be. This is a wake up call for someone like me who always thinks I have it hard. I'm humbled with compassion. Hope this young man gets the help he needs and lives a better life soon. 🙏🏻 God bless.

    • @houtbay9
      @houtbay9 Před rokem +7

      God bless?? A bit late for that, right

    • @Nobo35
      @Nobo35 Před rokem +16

      @@houtbay9 it's never too late for a blessing and we should never be ungrateful for any type

    • @houtbay9
      @houtbay9 Před rokem +4

      @@Nobo35 What is a blessing? It sounds like a nice name for a magic potion.

    • @ItsJADA
      @ItsJADA Před rokem +17

      @@houtbay9 A blessing can be something that you overlook... like your health. A blessing could be someone in your life you overlook... like a good mom. A blessing could be an epiphany
      Just like Mike and SWU is a blessing to anyone he interviews and to the general public that grows from this...
      Being a contrarian will close your eyes to possibilities

    • @houtbay9
      @houtbay9 Před rokem +1

      @@ItsJADA So its up to me to decide what is a blessing and what not. If it's good its a blessing; fits bad it's a curse; if its neutral? But - what is bad for you may be good for me. Quite confusing.

  • @bullock4211
    @bullock4211 Před 2 lety +3585

    This is somebody's son and as a father this absolutely breaks my heart.

    • @felixchampagne
      @felixchampagne Před 2 lety +9

      I like your comment.

    • @busyboo13
      @busyboo13 Před 2 lety +17

      My daughters father has schizophrenia 😔 it is heartbreaking to watch

    • @TrillShatner
      @TrillShatner Před 2 lety +3

      terry a davis.

    • @jackielegz8689
      @jackielegz8689 Před 2 lety +37

      Yea, I used to be a pretty careless guy. Didn’t care about fighting or cheating on women basically didn’t care about anyone. It was crazy. One day it just hit me that everyone was a baby at one point. Everyone had someone who cared for them as a baby just like me. Everyone has people who have fond memories as them as a small child. It just blew my mind and it’s crazy that the realization didn’t happen till I was in my mid twenties

    • @RardTangler
      @RardTangler Před 2 lety +5

      @@TrillShatner my man, may he rest easy.

  • @jonathanfontenot5048
    @jonathanfontenot5048 Před 3 lety +151

    one of the scariest, loneliest battles to fight is when your own mind declares war on you and you have no defense. Poor guy, wish I could help

  • @stldiva76
    @stldiva76 Před 2 lety +199

    I've just recently discovered soft white underbelly, and I love the way you bring attention to things a lot of people stigmatize and with compassion for the human beings struggling with different issues. Whether they genuinely want help or not, it's discussions we need to have.

  • @CraicDealer
    @CraicDealer Před rokem +168

    I can't even begin to imagine how exhausting it must be to have your own brain working against you 24 hours a day. I truly hope he was able to find help

    • @mommabear8745
      @mommabear8745 Před 8 měsíci +2

      Good way to look at it

    • @conniehanses
      @conniehanses Před 6 měsíci +2

      You are so right...Truly struggling..just saw the latest interview, and it's alarming. Feel so bad..💙🌎

    • @bryanbryan6108
      @bryanbryan6108 Před 4 měsíci +1

      I think all of our brains work against us and it’s up to us to manage them, which is made way way harder with schizophrenia.

  • @candykizz3z68
    @candykizz3z68 Před 3 lety +898

    In the portrait Mark took of him, he captured the struggle, illness, and sadness in his eyes 🥺

    • @wezz5777
      @wezz5777 Před 3 lety

      He also used makeup on his cheeks to make him look dirty. Wonder why that was necessary

    • @tired_of_u_ppl7985
      @tired_of_u_ppl7985 Před 3 lety

      @@wezz5777 - really? Where in the video did you see that

    • @wezz5777
      @wezz5777 Před 3 lety

      @@tired_of_u_ppl7985 the picture in the thumbnail

    • @leyala3718
      @leyala3718 Před 3 lety +26

      @@wezz5777 it’s not makeup it’s his cheeks look carefully in the video he’s just more red on his cheeks so it looks darker or “dirtier” in black and white

    • @mamiijayy308
      @mamiijayy308 Před 3 lety

      🥺😭😔

  • @SkyHighMediaGroupSMG
    @SkyHighMediaGroupSMG Před 2 lety +2720

    The way he chuckled when he was asked about his goals as if he couldn’t even imagine himself in a better position broke me

    • @H_Grunt
      @H_Grunt Před 2 lety

      @@kleebraden26 Spread your legs then.

    • @burdsallangela
      @burdsallangela Před 2 lety +247

      "Goals" seem like such a high-society concept when you're barely surviving one day to the next.

    • @meechh3782
      @meechh3782 Před rokem +13

      Ur assuming that you don’t know if that’s what he was thinking

    • @cherylmaloney8841
      @cherylmaloney8841 Před rokem +46

      I work with people like this every day the difference is insurance pays for therapy and meds. This country is supposed to be the "greatest country" yet mental health is still not truly considered a disease. Don't get me started on how ins. denies or makes us jump through hoops to prove someone still "needs more help" it is despicable. Most of these people want help, but they have been denied so many times they give up!

    • @papasboy81
      @papasboy81 Před rokem

      Bud did u change no

  • @youllneverguesswho886
    @youllneverguesswho886 Před 11 měsíci +32

    It’s heartbreaking to see such a kind young man suffering like this. You can see how much he’s trying to maintain the conversation despite being tortured by the voices. No one deserves to live like this.

  • @chimiahawkins8668
    @chimiahawkins8668 Před rokem +46

    I have a brother with schizophrenia, this really hits hard for me . God bless him , he’s fighting a very tough fight .

    • @ladylady7848
      @ladylady7848 Před rokem +1

      ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @Singularity2Singularity
      @Singularity2Singularity Před 5 měsíci

      Me too ... i'm overwhelmed by the thought of not being able to help them much either .... it's so heartbreaking.

    • @brooksrebeccam
      @brooksrebeccam Před 3 měsíci +1

      Does your brother take medicine? I ask because my son was diagnosed last year. He won't take any meds and has become very violent. He destroyed everything we own. He believes he hears God.

  • @meirbirdman3482
    @meirbirdman3482 Před 3 lety +235

    That huff he made when he was asked if he has any goals broke my damn heart. He probably has never been asked that.

  • @TerraDiASMR
    @TerraDiASMR Před 2 lety +10553

    This is so heartbreaking. Seeing how he's trying to respond to the questions while there are voices in his head. I can't even imagine the struggles he goes through, every single day 😔

    • @ACUNA909
      @ACUNA909 Před 2 lety +264

      I was thinking the same thing.. you can tell it’s confusing him with the questions and voices, so sad.

    • @sunnydaze3131
      @sunnydaze3131 Před 2 lety +115

      Yes, it is very noticeable. Do you think the hallucinigenics caused the schizophrenia?

    • @sunnydaze3131
      @sunnydaze3131 Před 2 lety +75

      How tragic. Such a good looking, well-groomed guy. Did the schizophrenia come before or after the bath salts, LSD, Salvia, etc.?

    • @sensitivegangster162
      @sensitivegangster162 Před 2 lety +218

      @@sunnydaze3131 the academic research im this area points to the idea that psychedelics may bring out schizophrenia earlier in someone who was eventually going to become schizophrenic anyway, but it wont happen if you werent ever gonna get it. thats schizophrenia not psychosis which can technically happen to anyone from a psychedelic drug but it's far from a common condition and it's almost never permanent

    • @thirtysilver33
      @thirtysilver33 Před 2 lety +50

      THose "voices" are not his Schizophrenia, it's from drugs.

  • @Zayne_24
    @Zayne_24 Před rokem +428

    I have schizophrenia and it’s sad how much our minds can go far away from us. It’s like our brain is out of our head and we’re trying to find it

    • @samskyrider88
      @samskyrider88 Před rokem +11

      My sister was just diagnosed with it after having 2 psychosis breakdowns. She's doing much better now after being on meds and the yearly shot but her anxiety is really bad she can't even work because she can only focus on one thing at a time. It's sad to see and realize she will probably never fully be herself again or work ever again.

    • @Zayne_24
      @Zayne_24 Před rokem +9

      @@samskyrider88 first I just wanna say I’m sorry about your sister getting this horrible diagnosis. I promise it’s not the end and me personally I can give you this advice… get doctor to apply her or get the ball rolling for her to get ssi or ssdi. If she’s worked for long periods of time she could potentially get a good amount of money each month. I myself am on ssi (for another diagnosis) if she’s on a good medication regimen i promise she can be her normal self again and could potentially work again. My cousin has paranoid schizophrenia and he’s doing great he’s started his own company for a moving business. Im trying to get a part time job cause what I get isn’t enough to live off of if I ever decided to move out.

    • @stringpicker2335
      @stringpicker2335 Před rokem +3

      My heart breaks for you man, stay strong brother

    • @Zayne_24
      @Zayne_24 Před rokem +10

      @@stringpicker2335 it’s totally ok brother. The injection and pills I’m on works really well, plus I’m in therapy. But thank you so much

    • @NeuralOscillations
      @NeuralOscillations Před rokem +6

      @@Zayne_24I appreciate you sharing this bro u have my respect and I wish you well

  • @jennifermccain6062
    @jennifermccain6062 Před rokem +169

    My favorite uncle was schizophrenic and I admired him so much. He was a genius and had such a sweet nature but people would treat him like he was stupid because he had a mental illness. It's the same way they treat me as I am schizo-affective. It is really hard when you are intelligent and people talk to you as though you are a child or incapable of understanding simple things. My heart goes out to this young man and I wish I could give him a hug. Voices are scary. I take zyprexa too but it makes me tired all the time and i feel like a zombie. It is a struggle just to stay awake. and every time you have a psychotic break its like you loose another piece of yourself until eventually you arent you at all. It is a horrible disease.

    • @drloveluna7062
      @drloveluna7062 Před rokem +5

      if your taking Zyprexa and your tired lower the dose my son on 5 mg only with ativan and he is doing well talk to your doctor about the side effect even low dose of ablify will give you enegry hope it works out for you take care god bless.

    • @alexanderkowal5710
      @alexanderkowal5710 Před 8 měsíci +2

      It is something that is possible to recover from, I have a very similar story with myself and my uncle, he’s incredible, a very talented artist (scholarship into big London uni). I’m on quetiapine which is brilliant but I think I’m building tolerance to it. I have no advice other than the advice my uncle gave me when he could see I was self absorbed; focus on other people, it’s not sustainable all the time but it’s incredible, so liberating, although I know the guilt is horrible. I also got a dog who’s the best

    • @alexanderkowal5710
      @alexanderkowal5710 Před 8 měsíci

      It’s dopamine that causes the hallucinations, so antipsychotics cut dopamine off, which makes you very depressed and clears your head. For me, I can empathise with alcoholics for the regret and reality is very difficult to face, nigh on impossible

  • @brettfordlakecityiowa4301
    @brettfordlakecityiowa4301 Před 2 lety +4303

    Thank you, for this story. I , was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, 34 years ago at age 12. I want to emphasize to the public, that although we, schizophrenics, DO have obvious mental struggles....that almost always, we are well aware of our own struggles and aware of how the general public ....and even our OWN FAMILIES oftentimes view us, talk about us, and treat us. PLEASE, just always know.....that our hearts hurt just the same as healthy people. PLEASE understand we do not mean to be and did not choose to be so very different from healthy people. Please, be kind. We are HURTING.

    • @maddyberkley1836
      @maddyberkley1836 Před 2 lety +7

      Bless you honey, i know you get sympathy for physical illness but people with mental illness deserve sympathy too. You're no different and no less than anyone else💖

    • @brettfordlakecityiowa4301
      @brettfordlakecityiowa4301 Před 2 lety +44

      @@maddyberkley1836 , Thank you for your comment. It genuinely warmed my heart to read it. And your comment could not have come at a more appreciated time. I really needed that. Thank You sooooo much.

    • @matthewl2980
      @matthewl2980 Před 2 lety +34

      Hello! Thank you for commenting and I hope you know there are people who understand and care about you and what you’re going through. My longtime girlfriend was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about 2 years ago. It is hard some days but I love her. How has your diagnosis affected your life and changed over the years? Have you been able to get help and be happy? I’ve been struggling with the painful circumstances lately. I love my girlfriend and she is my best friend. She is lovely, kind, and has a heard of gold. Sometimes, though, I wish it could all go away and I get angry at the world. I’m not going anywhere-I’m her rock and she means the world to me. Do you have any advice on how to stay strong? Do you have anything which may put my mind at ease? I’m young-21 years old. My mom’s health is declining as well. I have big aspirations and beautiful goals, but I struggle to get out of bed some days. I have my own issues as well. I lost my sister at a young age. I’m working as a firefighter and trying to become an air tanker pilot despite having type 1 diabetes, which affects both of these things. Does it get easier? I find it hard to juggle my own trials while remaining a constant in the life of someone I love so dearly.

    • @brettfordlakecityiowa4301
      @brettfordlakecityiowa4301 Před 2 lety +24

      @@matthewl2980 , Thank you for your comments and questions. I have soooooo much to say on these topics that you have asked about, I don't know where to begin. Other than to say, that yes, and no. Meaning.....to be honest , it does not get easier. It does become more difficult in time to deal with. But just like any great struggle- struggles , produce change. So although it does not get easier, it DOES get better. The key? It's to attain a state of UNWAVERING , and unconditional love of your own life- regardless of how hard it gets.......and to ALWAYS be aware how fortunate we are to be living, breathing, beautififul human beings with the capacity to experience our experiences here....good or bad. Love your life and love living it. Even if it means accepting some pain and some losses while you're loving being alive. I will refer you directly to the lyrics of the song now, called Fully Alive, by. Flyleaf. The song says it ALLLLL. Listen with your heart, before your ears.

    • @daniellebill7478
      @daniellebill7478 Před 2 lety +15

      Ugh I wish I could hug you. Xoxo

  • @oldandeerie
    @oldandeerie Před 3 lety +6050

    He looks like he's resetting every Few minutes like a computer.. that can't be easy... Be thankful for what you have.

    • @yamigurl822
      @yamigurl822 Před 3 lety +137

      This comment made me feel so accepted and more understood. Thank you for you comment and for you’re willing ness to get to understand all the different kind of people in this world.

    • @yamigurl822
      @yamigurl822 Před 3 lety +90

      I am not drug induced schizophrenia because I was lucky enough to have the right people around me to keep me away from them because they make this disorder so much worse and then everyone just treats them like a junkie when they were just born with a disorder and it went unprotected and untreated

    • @lillkillen333
      @lillkillen333 Před 3 lety +99

      You can see that he's hallucinating, that's why he cannot hear the questions 🥺

    • @jasminerodgers9553
      @jasminerodgers9553 Před 3 lety +21

      He doesnt even hear what he says till after the fact

    • @robandjesshackney8546
      @robandjesshackney8546 Před 3 lety +36

      That’s so true. The brain is very much like a computer and that’s almost exactly what’s happening.

  • @cm7343
    @cm7343 Před rokem +39

    Thank you for this. I grew up with a schizophrenic father and when he passed my aunt (his best friend) said to me, “your dad has been tortured for 30 years. He finally escaped.” This video meant a lot to me.

    • @arkham5940
      @arkham5940 Před 10 měsíci +1

      That’s the worst thing some relative could’ve said

  • @MuscleTraditional557
    @MuscleTraditional557 Před rokem +10

    My grandma's schizophrenia has been a challenge for our family, but this video reminded me that I'm not alone. It's heartwarming to see others share their stories and experiences, and it gives me hope that we can break the stigma surrounding mental health. Thank you for doing this.

  • @nkyryry
    @nkyryry Před 2 lety +2455

    Guy seems like there are 47 voices talking to him and he’s trying his best to focus on yours.

    • @scooterss2112
      @scooterss2112 Před 2 lety +41

      You were sayin?

    • @Mrs.Oddball
      @Mrs.Oddball Před 2 lety +125

      Thats exactly what is happening and he is trying to weed out the other voices to hear his but its taking him a moment.

    • @quantumtechcrypto7080
      @quantumtechcrypto7080 Před 2 lety +13

      I got the feeling he was looking for just the one voice.

    • @harlock321
      @harlock321 Před 2 lety +49

      Yeah man it's sad.. you can clearly see he is struggling. Wish there was something they could do to help people with this illness

    • @big7491
      @big7491 Před 2 lety +8

      wish my gf would understand, aside from my bad hearing and just everything

  • @nolarthegreat9562
    @nolarthegreat9562 Před 3 lety +3062

    This was a hard watch for me.. those long pauses of his, he is hearing voices. My father had schizophrenia most of his adult life.. seeing this interview puts me right back in the mental institution where I was visiting him as a child. He was hearing voices from God and wouldn't even respond to me. I was 9 years old and was just begging him to acknowledge that I was there, but he couldn't. Schizophrenia is a horrible, horrible disease. It's completely unfair. Sincerely, the child of a schizophrenic.

    • @Jepse89
      @Jepse89 Před 3 lety +118

      My first love got diagnosed with schizophrenia and do look a like this guy. He ended up homeless as well, wandered the streets and stealing stuff to survive, and I live in a country where homelessness is not very often.
      When I see this guy it breaks my heart.
      My ex was such a gentle soul and this disease changed him, it’s like he lost all the feelings he had.
      He is now in a prison mental hospital but no support from his family and no hope.
      I still have nightmares 10 years after the break up, even though I have new life now.
      Think it will haunt me for the rest of my life
      I think this is the worst disease someone can have, it’s like you are alive but dead at the same time

    • @mrshetfield81
      @mrshetfield81 Před 3 lety +11

      Im sorry you had to go through that. Xx

    • @mrshetfield81
      @mrshetfield81 Před 3 lety +2

      Nolar

    • @cometface
      @cometface Před 3 lety +23

      @@Jepse89 it's not your fault that the relationship didn't work out. I can understand why you still feel haunted by it, but it truly isn't your fault. A bit of speculation, but if you've ever felt that you could help them or heal them, that isn't your role nor responsibility. I want to help my own dad, but it's not my role. The only person that can help him is himself. It's just so painful to see his despair, and his unwillingness to help himself. But I just have to realize that it is not my responsibility, and if I make it my responsibility, I'm only hurting myself. Sorry for making it about me for a second there, I just wanted to point out a connection

    • @Jepse89
      @Jepse89 Před 3 lety +9

      @@cometface yeah of course, I think the connection is really important in these situations, since we all feel so hopeless. You are 100% right, that’s exactly what my psychologist told me, it is his responsibility even though he is so ill, no one can do it for them.
      And I made things my responsibility and even his mom and him blamed me for leaving him which did not help at all with my blaming myself.
      The truth is I broke up before I even knew his diagnosis, I broke up because he did not care for the relationship and was doing drugs and hang out with some bums all the time.
      I was trying to help him later when he became homeless and was in and out of mental institution but of course with no success.
      But yeah the key is to know your responsibility and I totally blurred the lines between mine and his.

  • @kdubs3
    @kdubs3 Před rokem +16

    I've seen a lot of your interviews, and many times I've thought man this was the hardest one to watch. This one falls in that category for sure. Without your videos I never really would have had any sense of what folks who live the hard life experience. It's a real eye opener.

  • @Ajgirl1991
    @Ajgirl1991 Před rokem +16

    Don't ever stop filming. Society needs this.

  • @liluhaas
    @liluhaas Před 2 lety +2643

    He’s a really sweet soul. The saddest part about mental health issues is that it usually is most prominent with gentle and kind hearted vulnerable people.

    • @tanyailoveny1176
      @tanyailoveny1176 Před 2 lety +23

      Till the voices tell him otherwise.

    • @liluhaas
      @liluhaas Před 2 lety +84

      @@tanyailoveny1176 Some people’s schizophrenic thoughts sound like abusive people that made a huge impact in their lives. Anyone can be made to feel worthless when you’ve been programmed to believe it. I hope he finds loving thoughts.

    • @alien4453
      @alien4453 Před 2 lety +27

      I am schizo too... From 2017 till 2020 I was seeing weird hallucinations... 2020 was the turning point when I went missing... I am taking medication now...

    • @Peakfreud
      @Peakfreud Před 2 lety +2

      @@tanyailoveny1176 Exactly, Son of Sam comes to mind.

    • @tanyailoveny1176
      @tanyailoveny1176 Před 2 lety

      @@Peakfreud yep, and he even didn't have any known mental issues , just was taking most common drug of that era .

  • @footballmom2502
    @footballmom2502 Před 2 lety +3690

    My son lost his battle to this horrific disease April 27 2020. I’m still lost. I always will be. I spend much of my time trying to understand. He did not openly tell us about the voices until the day he took his life. I wish I could go back in time. If you are a parent of a child you suspect of a mental illness please move heaven and earth to help them. I’m not ashamed of what my son had nor what he did. If it can help one child or adult I would shout it to the rooftops. Stay on top of your child’s mental health. Be involved in the counseling sessions when appropriate. And listen. My sweet Tyler was only 21. He was a gentle loving soul. Loved by so so many, and we never believed it could happen. It did. God bless all who are struggling with this cruel disease. My heart and prayers are with you.

    • @ObiAmajoyiSrMD
      @ObiAmajoyiSrMD Před 2 lety +143

      Posts like yours are important for others to read, even in tragedy and loss. I don’t know what to say. Condolences will never be enough but sometimes it’s all we have. I thank you for being you and for your honesty and for sharing. God bless you and your family. Stay strong, love and support one another.

    • @connorkamp8855
      @connorkamp8855 Před 2 lety +30

      you will be able to get thru this, tho i cannot imagine your pain. sending love your way

    • @TheGreatArlei
      @TheGreatArlei Před 2 lety +24

      Hi internet mom, I wish you the best and I truly hope you stay strong during these difficult times. I know it's hard and I know you sometimes feel lonely being the only one to feel and understand your own pain but know that better days will come and that you have people around you that really do care. Enjoy and cherish your life and the life's of your loved ones. You are strong so keep going!

    • @47dark
      @47dark Před 2 lety +39

      "Stay on top of your child's mental health" I really manifest it to all parents around the world

    • @michaelyolch79
      @michaelyolch79 Před 2 lety +9

      Truly and deeply sorry for your loss. I can't possibly imagine your sorrow; and the precious part of your life and heart that is missing until your last breath. I hope you're actively involved with grief counseling. May the Lord be with you. :(

  • @vetechgrl2000
    @vetechgrl2000 Před rokem +8

    My heart hurts for this young man. I hope that he can find help. I hope he has people in his life that are fighting FOR him and not against him. Mark, thank you for these videos and for continuing to remind us that some of us aren't as lucky. We all need a reality check!

  • @DarkDiaspora
    @DarkDiaspora Před rokem +8

    This was tear jerking, my heart goes out to all with the struggle of life and loss. God bless you all.

  • @jaem.9711
    @jaem.9711 Před 2 lety +2290

    His photo is heartbreaking. You can literally see the pain in his face. Bless him.

    • @SMITHapk
      @SMITHapk Před 2 lety +32

      That picture really is painful to look at.. I hope he is doing better.
      Thankfully mental health is beginning to be taken more seriously..

    • @quintfl
      @quintfl Před 2 lety +21

      @@SMITHapk Not serious enough.

    • @mk11fan87
      @mk11fan87 Před 2 lety +1

      He’s a junkie lol what bless? Is he a doctor or a paramedic?

    • @00_itachi25
      @00_itachi25 Před 2 lety +2

      @@mk11fan87 i’m a junkie too i agree

    • @00_itachi25
      @00_itachi25 Před 2 lety +2

      i just do weed tho

  • @wuandelarete4557
    @wuandelarete4557 Před 3 lety +679

    Truly breaks my heart. Anyone sees Chris out there. Have patience for him and give him a lending hand. So sad

  • @ryanhill7318
    @ryanhill7318 Před rokem +6

    Poor lad. you can really feel that pain. This is a great channel, I feel like people need to see these videos. On the flip side, its really nice seeing the interviewer offer help at the end. What a great use of CZcams. Share this stuff and help it grow

  • @sarahelfaize1657
    @sarahelfaize1657 Před rokem +77

    I’m a student in psychology and schizophrenia is THE worst mental disorder someone can have due to their disconnection with the real world. Schizophrenics show the wrong type of emotion for the situation (you can see how confused he is for a simple interview) and they have trouble communicating with people. Social exclusion is one of the worst things someone can experience, and most schizophrenics choose social isolation themselves since one seems to understand them and they just appear “annoying”
    My heart rlly goes out for him, he’s such a pretty boy❤

    • @sarahelfaize1657
      @sarahelfaize1657 Před rokem +2

      @Peanut hello Mr. Peanut, if u think I spread misinformation, instead of telling me to change my area of study, why won't you add more information to comment, since you clearly know more than me. 😊 I wasn't gonna talk about all the lectures I had about schizophrenia, but I just wrote I tiny summary of what the disease consists of

    • @karole7345
      @karole7345 Před rokem

      @@sarahelfaize1657 go back to the kitchen leave the gym 2 me

    • @alexanderkowal5710
      @alexanderkowal5710 Před 8 měsíci +3

      It messes up the semantics, our minds work by attaching things to feelings, or we remember things based on how much emotion it invoked. My memory is completely shot, I remember extremely little, although antipsychotics are a godsend for they clear my head a bit

  • @strings53notlob50
    @strings53notlob50 Před 2 lety +1273

    A friend of mine who has this in a moment of lucidity said to me, “You know, it really sucks when your own mind is against you.”

    • @stanberryman9882
      @stanberryman9882 Před rokem +22

      My friend has said the same to me before in moments of clarity

    • @eddyf4426
      @eddyf4426 Před rokem +10

      Gzus that is heavy :(

    • @gangstersleaguethebook
      @gangstersleaguethebook Před rokem +32

      Most peoples minds are against them, but the healthy person can reverse that and guys like this maybe cannot

    • @lannyqualls9428
      @lannyqualls9428 Před rokem +7

      That is a deep, powerful statement. I will benefit from hearing that. Thank you so much.

    • @coredetta
      @coredetta Před rokem +12

      I don't have schizophrenia but my mind is always against me I'm always arguing with it inside my head that I often shake my head just to stop the intrusive thoughts

  • @jourdanwinters7644
    @jourdanwinters7644 Před 3 lety +289

    He’s so handsome and his face so expressive. Perfect photography, Mark. My heart hurts for him.

    • @bennyhaha66
      @bennyhaha66 Před 3 lety +5

      @@ghostsof6tharmy644 RUN!

    • @imbroken3860
      @imbroken3860 Před 3 lety

      @@ghostsof6tharmy644 holy shit it does look like chris watts lol wtf?

    • @jourdanwinters7644
      @jourdanwinters7644 Před 3 lety +14

      Y’all it’s my husband 🙄😂

    • @fdadsfgasdfg
      @fdadsfgasdfg Před 2 lety

      Very good looking guy! But this video breaks my heart

  • @74Rockme
    @74Rockme Před 2 lety +2

    Omg watching this brought me to tears! He looks exhausted and seeing him struggle is heartbreaking! God bless him. I pray for a good update on him.

  • @alexaadamczyk9607
    @alexaadamczyk9607 Před rokem +255

    You can see that he's having a hard time in this video hearing the interviewer over other stuff that he's hearing in his head. It's so sad that schizophrenia doesn't have the awareness platform that other things do like anxiety and depression, epilepsy, autism... these people are so stigmatized and demonized and if society would do a better job educating itself we could do a lot to help these types of people.

    • @astromax485
      @astromax485 Před rokem +2

      well said

    • @lrn_news9171
      @lrn_news9171 Před 9 měsíci

      How are they stigmatized and demonized? Everyone knows what schizophrenia is in 2023

    • @alexaadamczyk9607
      @alexaadamczyk9607 Před 9 měsíci +9

      @lrn_news9171 my fiance is schizophrenic. People think they know what it is but it's horrible what people assume about people that have it. It's honestly disgusting how little it is talked about and how often people assume that just because someone is schizophrenic that they basically deserve to be treated inhumanely. I see it all the time. The father of my child is schizophrenic and would not ever harm anyone. But when people find out he has it, they stay far away as if it's contagious or something and a lot of people have very little concern or care for those found shoeless on the side of the road talking to someone who isn't there. There is not enough funding to raise awareness for it unlike breast cancer or autism. It's unfair that they recieve so little representation.

    • @oneill6291
      @oneill6291 Před 7 měsíci

      Like that's going to stop people.@@lrn_news9171

  • @craigwantsnack
    @craigwantsnack Před 3 lety +1145

    Just goes to show you don’t know what inner struggles people are dealing with. Be nice to one another.

    • @michelledoyle1969
      @michelledoyle1969 Před 3 lety +12

      Yes best comment hands down

    • @twinkletoes110
      @twinkletoes110 Před 3 lety +7

      Definitely

    • @JenDoe1
      @JenDoe1 Před 3 lety +4

      Amen!

    • @JenDoe1
      @JenDoe1 Před 3 lety +20

      @@ghostsof6tharmy644 I do think it’s possible to kind to everyone, until they give you a reason not to be. That’s the key.

    • @hey_its_ty1297
      @hey_its_ty1297 Před 3 lety +2

      Your right

  • @wandererofthewasteland400
    @wandererofthewasteland400 Před 3 lety +551

    Imagine hearing voices constantly, not your conscious thoughts out loud but actual other voices. We all should really appreciate what little we got.

    • @brayastarkey9519
      @brayastarkey9519 Před 3 lety +27

      i have schizophrenia and it is really crazy. hearing my name called, random classical music that isn’t there and huge spiders along with a lot more. it’s very scary to deal with everyday. it also personally makes me disassociate a lot which is especially scary. i feel like nothing is real.

    • @jordyntaylor877
      @jordyntaylor877 Před 3 lety +1

      @Eve R. same

    • @jordyntaylor877
      @jordyntaylor877 Před 3 lety +2

      @@brayastarkey9519 with your experience and just generally speaking what do you think triggers schizophrenia a lot of people on here cities drugs which I'm not dismissing that could be part of some people's beginning with schizophrenia but I also wonder if it's trauma or extreme stress? rather than just now we're down to drugs or hereditary illness.

    • @brayastarkey9519
      @brayastarkey9519 Před 3 lety +3

      @Eve R. that definitely could be. interesting way to put it. and it’s not like mine comes from a fear base because i’m not too bad with like normal house spiders ans i absolutely love big spiders like tarantulas. they’re just there. it’s very strange

    • @brayastarkey9519
      @brayastarkey9519 Před 3 lety +9

      @@jordyntaylor877 i definitely think it could be trauma. i think mine personally came from a little bit of trauma. i was diagnosed at 12 with severe depression and anxiety. ive attempted suicide multiple times. thank god i’ve never been psychically abused, or sexually assaulted or anything like that. i think what actually triggered mine the most was actually weed. ive never done any hard drugs because i know my mental space could not handle those drugs. i get THC psychosis when i smoke (and i don’t smoke AT ALL anymore bc of it) and that can trigger schizophrenia, just like probably any other drug. i honestly haven’t done a lot of research about hard drugs and schizophrenia but i know a little bit about schizophrenia and weed because that’s my experience. drugs can’t cause schizophrenia but it can trigger it. like you’re already predisposed to it. the last time i got high i had the absolute worst psychotic episode i’ve ever had. it started out by me laying in bed, watching tiktoks and having a high good time. but for some reason it started feeling like there was 100s of people in the room watching me and they started getting on top of me and crushing my chest. i texted my mom who was upstairs when i was living with my parents and told her what was going on and she was just like okay just go to sleep you’re freaking yourself out. when she left the “devil” came up to my bed and started actually talking to me. it was a man that had no face and wasn’t very tall. he kept telling me that he was real. the devil is real. to write down on a piece of paper that the devil is real. very strange because i don’t personally believe in the devil whatsoever. i got myself into the shower somehow and started freaking out even more. i thought that i had slit my throat and killed my self. i had no weapons that i could have done that with. i kept tasting blood pool in my mouth and i kept spitting the blood out. i obviously hadn’t done that. i couldn’t be alone because i thought i wasn’t going to make it through the night. that i was going to die that night and the devil would take me. i ended up going upstairs and sleeping on the couch since my room was in the basement. i kept seeing the devil peaking out from around the corner and just watching me. not saying anything at that point, just watching. i was in a very bad state like that for a few days after. i don’t experience things that intense on a daily basis thank god. i am very fortunate compared to a lot of people with schizophrenia

  • @shaneviola8848
    @shaneviola8848 Před rokem +123

    This one was extremely relatable. I have schizophrenia and long hair as well. I used to talk like this a lot and sometimes I still do. I am on medication but I had a very supportive family and environment when I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 16. I have since been to a psych ward 10 times but 8 of those times were before I was 18. I had social workers I would meet with twice a week until I was 21. In my senior year in high school I went to a special school for people with mental illness and got therapy twice a day. It was really bad the first three years. My symptoms got worse during covid, I once tried to cut my arm off with a steak knife in front of my entire family. But my meds mostly work and I managed to graduate from college at the top of my class with a 4.00 GPA and I now work full time. I have my license and even own a car. But the first 3 years I really thought I’d end up in the psych ward my entire life or homeless in the street.

    • @luigidecol9506
      @luigidecol9506 Před rokem

      How are you now? @shaneviola8848

    • @romarssieverything9667
      @romarssieverything9667 Před rokem +5

    • @rogerc9053
      @rogerc9053 Před rokem +1

      If you don’t mind me askin. Why does he take so long to answer and why does he have to have him repeat the question every so often?

    • @romarssieverything9667
      @romarssieverything9667 Před rokem +3

      @@rogerc9053 not OP but prolly because he is hearing voices in his head and can't hear him asking the question.

    • @rogerc9053
      @rogerc9053 Před rokem +3

      @@romarssieverything9667 ahhh ok. Man I really feel for this kid. The struggle is as plain as day.

  • @user-mp3es8wv2m
    @user-mp3es8wv2m Před 8 měsíci

    Your amazing for reaching out to him. I have 2 cousin that are skitophranic and my aunt gave up on them a day put thm in crazy hospitals. I'm so touched by your interview with this young man. God bless 🙌 🙏 ❤️

  • @Forwardslashhug
    @Forwardslashhug Před 2 lety +2842

    The way he sorta chuckled at the idea of having goals in his life broke my fucking heart. It's so hard to think about such things when you are in such a terrible place. I really hope Chris is okay.

    • @SplendidKunoichi
      @SplendidKunoichi Před 2 lety +11

      but he can still say "yeah", to me that's the most powerful part of the interview, easily

    • @MattAlexanderMe
      @MattAlexanderMe Před 2 lety +8

      I think the chuckle was directed at someone else

    • @OhZjuchi
      @OhZjuchi Před 2 lety +31

      Bro... Schizophrenic people chuckle at random times... Don't translate that laughter as you would to a normal person...

    • @AngelRodriguez-sd7eh
      @AngelRodriguez-sd7eh Před 2 lety +5

      shit made me tear up

    • @MakeLivesHappen
      @MakeLivesHappen Před 2 lety +13

      He didn't chuckle, he said "Huh". He is crazy tired from smoking meth all the time, he is super burnt out, maybe malnourished, and just because someone called him schizophrenic and gave him some meds one time doesn't mean that some inherent condition is responsible for his fucked up state of mind. This guy should consider getting him someplace quiet and safe to sleep 8 hours a night for a month to see if he miraculously becomes able to carry a conversation before making him take zyprexa, an intensely psychoactive drug that messes with your emotions and has all sorts of weird side effects.
      Fun fact: zyprexa makes you extremely hungry and tired. If you take it, you will eat and sleep. He needs to sleep every night and eat three meals a day to regain functionality. If he got the kind of help he was offered, doctors probably forced him to take pills and noted gradual improvement, failing to question whether he needed the pills at all to accomplish this.

  • @natayahlee4606
    @natayahlee4606 Před 2 lety +342

    It’s so crazy because it looks like he is actively coming in and out of a dissociative state.

  • @kingamac6575
    @kingamac6575 Před rokem +2

    This one breaks my heart the most. I wish I knew you and could help you. You seem like you have such a sweet soul.
    God bless you Chris. And your family who care for you and want you to be safe. I pray you find warmth, comfort, peace, safety and love.

  • @ashleyarcher147
    @ashleyarcher147 Před rokem +15

    He is so polite and he did a great job showing us what its like. His mind seemed so loud like there were many others saying something in response to the questions before he uttered his response. Beautiful man my heart and prayers are with you

    • @ashleyarcher147
      @ashleyarcher147 Před rokem +1

      @@DG-ie5ip I understand the fact he is on drugs and I understand what that looks like and how psychosis can be induced by drugs. Schizophrenia psychosis is very similar to drug induced granted, but psychosis is scary either way. Its as though his mind is full of many personalities in there, many disembodied voices all trying to house one body. Either way its torment and sympathize with that. There is so much misunderstanding with mental illness and drug addiction is only a symptom of mental illness we got to get deeper to the root and not distracted by the symptom sir. Grown man or not he needs help period and compassion the dude is still human.

  • @Chipiliro613
    @Chipiliro613 Před 3 lety +514

    His mind was not doing well during this...
    I'm glad Mark was patient.

    • @daeysham
      @daeysham Před 3 lety +3

      Yes!!! I was thinking this

    • @mikehemens9359
      @mikehemens9359 Před 3 lety +7

      Mark was tone deaf as usual. He's still a saint in my book.

    • @Ali-Renee
      @Ali-Renee Před 3 lety +3

      Mark is ALWAYS beautiful & patient with the people he interviews. He's a truly kind soul

    • @mozarella9386
      @mozarella9386 Před 3 lety +3

      @@mikehemens9359 how can someone so interested in the plight of others miss every cue??!

    • @damienholland8103
      @damienholland8103 Před 3 lety +4

      @@mozarella9386 I doubt Mark missed anything. I have a family member who had schizophrenia. Mark was just talking to him fine.

  • @oo0itsmaria
    @oo0itsmaria Před 3 lety +1849

    He genuinely tried sooo hard to do this You can see he gave it everything he’s got. I have two sons. As a mom this hit me so hard. I thought how I’d feel if this was one of my boys, my heart sank. 24 years old…a baby. God help him.

    • @RileyBanksWho
      @RileyBanksWho Před 2 lety +11

      Ikr. My son just turned 1 and for some reason I kept imagining him being like this. My heart would break! That's why every morning when I wake up, its instantly a good day for the simple fact that I can see, hear, think, walk, feel etc... like a normal human being and I wish nothing for the best for my son (and yours!)

    • @madamlt5758
      @madamlt5758 Před 2 lety +16

      @Thomsa Jaja right? Doesn’t need “gods help” he needs peoples help.

    • @aprilMichelleXJRL
      @aprilMichelleXJRL Před 2 lety +5

      Yes I have 2 teens 13 and 15 and I'm stone cold scared to DEATH!!!! this can't be it

    • @kelseyarciniega5319
      @kelseyarciniega5319 Před 2 lety +3

      Same I’m a mom of 2 this ripped my heart out

    • @anarcholarpism9506
      @anarcholarpism9506 Před 2 lety +1

      It's a figure of speech

  • @adamgardiner5869
    @adamgardiner5869 Před rokem +149

    Our brains are such complex wonderful things, yet when they work against us...I can't imagine how hard it must be for this kid. He deserves nothing but love and support. I hope things get better for him.

    • @cmz85
      @cmz85 Před 9 měsíci +1

      You must want to get out of that

    • @rkymtnchi503
      @rkymtnchi503 Před 8 měsíci

      ​@@cmz85what

    • @cmz85
      @cmz85 Před 8 měsíci

      @@rkymtnchi503 in order to recover (get clean) you first need to want to recover. He must first WANT to get better. Capish?

    • @rkymtnchi503
      @rkymtnchi503 Před 8 měsíci

      @cmz85 yes, thank you. It makes sense when you add context instead of throwing a vague comment out there.

  • @_Lnnh
    @_Lnnh Před 2 měsíci +1

    My brother has schizophrenia and the way that Chris asks for clarification or repetition a lot reminds me of my brother. He is clearly overwhelmed with what he experiences in his mind and it’s so upsetting that it never ends.

  • @ceecue5367
    @ceecue5367 Před 3 lety +229

    My heart broke every time he asked "what were you saying?"

  • @isisocumares5976
    @isisocumares5976 Před 3 lety +193

    He’s so handsome and yet he looks filled with sadness it breaks my heart.

  • @TheKeltris
    @TheKeltris Před rokem +6

    This guy absolutely breaks my heart!!! I hope he gets the help he needs!!!

  • @johneverett4299
    @johneverett4299 Před 2 lety +47

    Thank you for “seeing” him Mark. For him, and so many like him, just to be seen means more than anything in a world that passes by them daily. I pray he got/gets the help he deserves.

    • @thehighpriestess8431
      @thehighpriestess8431 Před rokem

      Mark is such a lovely person. I just love how respectful and considerate towards the folks he interviews and photographs.

  • @SandiByrd
    @SandiByrd Před 3 lety +395

    When he said "maybe there's hope for me" my heart broke. This is so sad....I hope that someone can help him get his meds and get his life on track.

    • @GateKeeper36
      @GateKeeper36 Před 3 lety +3

      The meds make it worse. I don't know if he's aggressive or not but they want him not aggressive

    • @luke-zi6gs
      @luke-zi6gs Před 3 lety +7

      @@GateKeeper36 Yeah. I'm not a patient, but I study a variety of different drugs. There's also an elevated risk of early mortality with antipsychotic and anti-depressants. Honestly, I think neurology is gonna be the end psychiatry when we understand the brain since psychiatry is a soft science while neurology is concrete. By concrete I mean brain scans and stuff like that.
      Psychiatry is a soft science because it's all conjecture rather than concrete fact resulting in abysmal health outcomes frequent misdiagnoses and frequent overdrugging

    • @GateKeeper36
      @GateKeeper36 Před 2 lety +1

      @@luke-zi6gs yup, the only answer is to turn them into soulless people so they are not a danger out on the streets.

    • @SandiByrd
      @SandiByrd Před 2 lety +2

      @@GateKeeper36 That was not what I meant and you know that. I'm aware that finding the RIGHT meds that work for you are important - and the effects can be worse than the benefit - but to dismiss the medication for someone with a mental illness by saying they make him soulless is absurd and quite frankly dangerous. If he feels that way - he can tell his doctor and they can try another avenue to find what will help him the most.

    • @ladylady7848
      @ladylady7848 Před rokem +1

      @@SandiByrd Facts 💪❤️

  • @agencyeditor8379
    @agencyeditor8379 Před 3 lety +189

    Man, this poor kid. You can tell he’s distracted by auditory hallucinations. Praying for him.

  • @michaeloelgeschlaeger7704
    @michaeloelgeschlaeger7704 Před 6 měsíci +2

    My late mother had schizophrenia, showing early signs of it in the mid 1960‘s, when I was around 3 years old. She never was homeless, though and didn‘t take illegal drugs.
    She lived with us, until she had to be moved to a mental hospital and later to an assisted living facility. Took her medication.
    Seeing this interview, I am reminded of my conversations with her. She pretty much lived in her own world. Got along well with the other patients.
    I didn‘t see her for around 10 years, so when I visited her at the facility there was that huge gap and after 30 minutes there was nothing to talk about.
    She was happy to see me, when I visited my hometown, but she didn‘t see me grow up. Finishing school, apprenticeship and getting a job in another area.
    All in all, my mother had a great support and I am thankful for that.

  • @JeagerGray
    @JeagerGray Před rokem +23

    Man the video quality is beautiful. Looks like a painting

  • @von11k89
    @von11k89 Před 2 lety +2734

    He is truly fighting a battle that most of us can’t even comprehend. Chris u have my respect and so much bro. Sending love ur way fs.

    • @fl333gfx4
      @fl333gfx4 Před 2 lety +13

      spiritual ware fare

    • @duckman5849
      @duckman5849 Před 2 lety +3

      Why do you have respect for a druggie ?

    • @Darkdevil1584
      @Darkdevil1584 Před 2 lety +42

      @@duckman5849 talking like that gonna get you bad karma. maybe dont test your luck and have children.

    • @stephensarmento3529
      @stephensarmento3529 Před 2 lety +30

      @@duckman5849 did you even watch the video asshole? man clearly is batteling demons in his head be it the schizophrenia along with the drugs which he probably tried to hide the voices with the drugs along with whatever he has going on mentally. man needs support and help. not lifeless dirtbags on the internet like yourself with no compassion compassion human life

    • @joeyd.6172
      @joeyd.6172 Před 2 lety +1

      So who’s to blame for the drug use then…him, the mental illness, the health care system, his family…..

  • @worleyzack
    @worleyzack Před 2 lety +1745

    you can tell as soon as he answers a question, he immediately goes back into his own world. I deal with pretty bad anxiety, and that’s hard enough as it is. I couldn’t imagine this.

    • @eeeee7908
      @eeeee7908 Před 2 lety +42

      I could imagine that he also has anxiety imagine having loud voices shouting at you id be so paranoid

    • @user-vh1pn9ks6v
      @user-vh1pn9ks6v Před 2 lety +14

      Same, anxiety is hard. I have horrible anxiety as well, but on this level, it's unbelievable. Living through this must be hell on earth, wish him all the best.

    • @RONPEE-STINGER
      @RONPEE-STINGER Před 2 lety +2

      Its all self induced mental illness

    • @mwilliams4498
      @mwilliams4498 Před 2 lety +22

      @@RONPEE-STINGER I've heard this take many times before never been proven, however science says it's the other way around. I'll go with science on this buddy.

    • @luxtobeyou
      @luxtobeyou Před 2 lety +21

      @@RONPEE-STINGER He's self inducing visual and auditory hallucinations and delusions?

  • @brendana3798
    @brendana3798 Před rokem +2

    Heartbreaking, God bless you Mark, for raising awareness,and hopefully some empathy.

  • @3314285
    @3314285 Před 2 lety +291

    The black and white photo posted is powerful. You can literally feel is pain and sorrow through the photo. He looks so lost, its heartbreaking.

    • @Zach-un1ou
      @Zach-un1ou Před 2 lety +11

      It’s not even pain and sorrow. It’s confusion as to why he can’t get back to normal. There is no emotion and it’s hard to see someone stuck feeling like they can never be normal again.

  • @feo786
    @feo786 Před 3 lety +252

    The video thumbnail is all you need to see to know how Chris is feeling.

  • @plajsare1886
    @plajsare1886 Před rokem +4

    I can't even remember last time I cried, but this made me realise so many things that it made me break apart.

  • @17573240
    @17573240 Před 2 lety +6

    Those long pauses he takes are heart wrenching. Poor dude

  • @slikkelly2112
    @slikkelly2112 Před 3 lety +223

    I started crying watching this. Uncontrollably. Never have I ever felt so bad for someone like this. Wow. A true war of chaos going on in his head.

    • @bakerog2850
      @bakerog2850 Před 3 lety +4

      Weak hearted pussy!!

    • @electricfil
      @electricfil Před 3 lety +13

      @@bakerog2850 🤣 do you need a hug?

    • @WalkingPaceWP
      @WalkingPaceWP Před 3 lety +2

      First time one of these videos make me want to cry

    • @Seekingtruth-mx3ur
      @Seekingtruth-mx3ur Před 3 lety +5

      @@bakerog2850 come on dude no need to be mean

    • @kass_G59
      @kass_G59 Před 3 lety +5

      @@bakerog2850 You’re a 13 year old edgelord.

  • @nathansugden9332
    @nathansugden9332 Před 2 lety +642

    He's so tired,and in pain,absolutely heartbreaking.

  • @BellaARE
    @BellaARE Před rokem +9

    I’ve come across a lot of content on CZcams for better or worse, and this to me is the single most important and provocative channel on the platform. Thank you for what you do my friend, it helps break the stigma of a lot of these conditions.I hope this reaches the world to a degree that it makes an impact

  • @alanabernstein2081
    @alanabernstein2081 Před rokem +2

    He reminds me of my Brother, he passed 3 yrs ago. people with schizophrenia are the Strongest people I ever met!

  • @laurabonengel2369
    @laurabonengel2369 Před 3 lety +571

    I just want to hug him 😔 he seems exhausted. I can’t even imagine what it’s like for him.

    • @atuablithy1222
      @atuablithy1222 Před 3 lety +7

      I’m tired ...

    • @saudasiri6019
      @saudasiri6019 Před 3 lety +2

      Yeah that what he needs!

    • @shineymcshine5026
      @shineymcshine5026 Před 3 lety +4

      Right? seeing him go in & out of his conversational thoughts; enough to block out the questions being asked. Jesus Christ. I pray for Chris. i feel that having schizophrenia is quite a blessing but its more of a "curse"

    • @amandajohnson8116
      @amandajohnson8116 Před 3 lety +2

      Same. It is so sad to watch. I hope for the best for him.

    • @sternleiche
      @sternleiche Před 3 lety

      2/3 of diagnosed schizophrenics are not even schizophrenic

  • @ddcristo
    @ddcristo Před 3 lety +161

    I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia. It's the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life. The only reason I'm not homeless like Chris is because I have a good support team.

    • @jalennelson6008
      @jalennelson6008 Před 3 lety +4

      Thank you for sharing. I'm praying for you! God does love you!

    • @wheatbread2002
      @wheatbread2002 Před 3 lety +1

      That's awesome. I'm sorry it so tough, but you are strong 💪.

    • @Jahneen24
      @Jahneen24 Před 3 lety +12

      I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder so I feel you. I've feared being homeless for a while. My meds definitely help my condition. I really hope Chris can get his meds in order.

    • @nealanderson9719
      @nealanderson9719 Před 3 lety +8

      @DanOfTheWild You seem so angry man...It's better to interact with people from an empathic standpoint (unless you aren't capable). When you are humbled in life and mature, You will see the light. Your actions have a great effect on the world around you. I hope you find peace of mind soon.

    • @louise-yo7kz
      @louise-yo7kz Před 3 lety

      God bless you. Prayers for peace and healing on this journey

  • @Sandalphon13729
    @Sandalphon13729 Před rokem +42

    His expression on his face in his photo is absolutely heartbreaking!!! I hope with all my heart he finds happiness somewhere, somehow.

  • @JohnSmith-lk8cy
    @JohnSmith-lk8cy Před rokem +42

    My son is 24 too and thriving. This is so sad to see and hear.. I need to learn more about this terrible mental illness. Thank you for opening my eyes.

    • @Peteski-0
      @Peteski-0 Před rokem

      My son is 24 also and I couldn’t be more proud of him.
      . I’m so ignorant over schizophrenia, I really had no idea. I really hope Chris gets some support, he seems a lovely soul tormented to the extreme.

  • @yellowswallowtail33
    @yellowswallowtail33 Před 3 lety +1531

    I immediately got the feeling that someone/something is talking to him. The voice is so loud he cannot stay focused on the questions being asked. His face...his face in the black and white still shot brought me to tears. I can see the man inside that is being attacked. It breaks my heart. I wanted to reach through my phone and hug him.

    • @MayMayboris
      @MayMayboris Před 2 lety +7

      wow yeaaa i didnt think of that !!

    • @katherineclontz1113
      @katherineclontz1113 Před 2 lety +46

      That's usually what happens, the auditory or visual hallucinations pull that person's attention away from what's happening around them or what's being said.

    • @lisaanderson590
      @lisaanderson590 Před 2 lety +16

      Same here. He looks like he’s in pain in the black and white photo. So sad

    • @hotfudgecake
      @hotfudgecake Před 2 lety +17

      Its not always that . it looks more like thought blocking. Literally can't hold a thought or form a thought or speak. Its like Alzheimer's extreme. Very scary .

    • @bigbally5215
      @bigbally5215 Před 2 lety +16

      Yeah it’s more likely the constant loss of thought that makes it really difficult for him to process the question and think of an answer.

  • @haileykrueger1895
    @haileykrueger1895 Před 3 lety +565

    The sigh/laugh after the interviewer asked if he had goals...That was Chris.. you see the real him break out of the haze for a moment and it broke my heart.

    • @catt.1757
      @catt.1757 Před 2 lety +7

      That moment broke my heart as well

    • @craphenderson2283
      @craphenderson2283 Před 2 lety +31

      All of it is Chris

    • @Heidi.M
      @Heidi.M Před 2 lety +14

      At 8:05.

    • @adam8sixty133
      @adam8sixty133 Před 2 lety +2

      @@Heidi.M thanks

    • @darat7333
      @darat7333 Před 2 lety +4

      He started moving a lot more, almost like he was excited to hear someone ask him about his future. It made me sad but also happy he still has some hope.

  • @andrewsalters2192
    @andrewsalters2192 Před rokem

    one of the most heartbreaking things i have ever seen. just the emptiness that you can see in him and hear in his voice. I hope that chris can find a way out and that life gets better for him.

  • @smellylorenny
    @smellylorenny Před rokem +6

    He is so beautiful... Really so heartbreaking to see such a gorgeous young man suffer from such a mental weight... day in day out like that. He must be exhausted... I hope to god he pulls through. This kid deserves to find some peace in the world, he seems real lovely.

  • @yourpersonaldatadealer2239
    @yourpersonaldatadealer2239 Před 3 lety +279

    We met a schizophrenic dude a couple of weeks ago. Thought he had been stood up as he was crying into his drink alone in the pub so invited him over. He was just like this dude when talking and you could tell he was just so lost and distracted by his own thoughts. So sad and wish there was better help out there

    • @reeset3435
      @reeset3435 Před 3 lety +24

      You're a good dude for doing what you did, respect. I use to sell crack, something i deeply regret and think about everyday. One day i meet this kid named Flex, 20 years old, homeless, a crack addict and suffering from schizophrenia. Use to buy him breakfast. Kid had the sadest life story i ever heard.

    • @yourpersonaldatadealer2239
      @yourpersonaldatadealer2239 Před 3 lety +5

      @@reeset3435 don’t be too harsh on yourself, we’re all flawed dude. I honestly advice trying Sam Harris podcasts and meditation. Especially his stuff on lack of free will. I used to do a lot of drugs also and meditation / learning about the brain has defo helped over the years. Good luck on your path and you’re heading the right way.

    • @reeset3435
      @reeset3435 Před 3 lety +7

      @@yourpersonaldatadealer2239 appreciate it brother. I went from selling half keys and grabbing 50 plates of tree down here in fl at a young age, to getting hooked on percs, then roxies when florida was really the pill mill of the nation, and then when they started pressing fake roxys in the street with fentanyl i lost everything i had. Home, 4 cars, more importantly my family. 7 days ago i overdosed on fentanyl and today im 6 days clean. Ive been at the top and the bottom of the game and im only 26, this goes out to God for giving me another chance. Ran up a band yesterday, getting back to my old self. I use to think God wasnt real, but when your around death you tend to find God in the darkness. Thanks for the kind words brother, much love and respect to you.

    • @stlchevy95
      @stlchevy95 Před 3 lety +2

      @@reeset3435 thats some heavy shit. good luck to you sir you have my prayers🙏🏼

    • @2strokejunkie686
      @2strokejunkie686 Před 3 lety

      Not sure if you mean invited him over to your table or home, but Never ever give a Schizo your address, or show them where you live, although you did a really nice thing, one day they could believe you are trying to setup,kill or God knows what and things can end very badly, I say this because a good friend of mine was killed by her schizo cousin, from what her mother told me was ,because he thought she was trying to turn him into aliens that were after him. And he broke into her apartment and beat her to death in her sleep.

  • @southwestwifarm3516
    @southwestwifarm3516 Před 3 lety +129

    My brother was schizophrenic and a heroin addict, I was too young to realize what was going on with him for most of his struggles, later in his life he was clean but relapsed. He died alone in the middle of a forest from an overdose, I talked to him a week before he died, little did I know it was the most important phone call I ever had, we ended the call with “I love you”, something we never said. I hope this young man gets the help he deserves

    • @karyslindsy6009
      @karyslindsy6009 Před 3 lety +17

      My father is schizophrenic & my mother has severe depression. They had 5 kids together, all of which they couldn’t raise. Luckily, our grandmother raised us. I just found my mother a couple weeks ago, after a decade of not seeing or hearing from her. Thankfully, she’s alive. I see my father once every 1-2 years. I didn’t understand their illnesses when I was younger. I just thought they didn’t love my siblings & I. I hated our parents for leaving us, but now I understand. I now understand that they didn’t leave us on purpose. It breaks my heart that my father is now a meth user. I’ve worried so much about my parents since I was a little girl. My parents have been homeless for over 20 years. My parents are separated. I really don’t want my father to die alone in the woods. I just don’t know what to do. There’s no way of contacting my father because he rarely has a cellphone. The only way I ever see him is if he shows up every 1-2 years. I just wish I could help him. I know I can’t change him… I just hope it’s not too late.
      I’m very sorry for what you’ve gone through. I don’t mean to dump.

    • @sylviajones7573
      @sylviajones7573 Před 3 lety

      Was he using Heroin before he his Schizo? Reason I ask is my niece is a Heroin addict and I worry about her. She’s in & out of rehabs 30 yrs old. Works everyday at a hair salon

    • @grifyn882
      @grifyn882 Před 3 lety

      sad story :(

    • @southwestwifarm3516
      @southwestwifarm3516 Před 3 lety

      @@sylviajones7573 as far as I know he was not, it seemed like the mental health issues started in high school for him

    • @quard.artist
      @quard.artist Před 3 lety +1

      @@sylviajones7573 (sorry for my english) drugs can bring you schizoprenic and there is big chance if she have it her family. That is why I dont even smoke weed, cause we have it in family. But look on the internet for more accourate information.

  • @missmindymama6915
    @missmindymama6915 Před 2 lety +2

    Thank you for doing these interviews with total respect. You are amazing

  • @krisap1635
    @krisap1635 Před rokem +7

    I have no words for the sadness I feel for this young person. I pray he gets help.

  • @samanthaoscar21
    @samanthaoscar21 Před 3 lety +113

    This man has pain written all over his face its HEARTBREAKING

  • @joogface386
    @joogface386 Před 3 lety +237

    "What's been the lowest point of your life?"
    "I would say now."
    Damn man, best of luck to this guy

  • @irvken
    @irvken Před rokem

    you're a good man, these videos make me feel so lucky, i wish all your subjects nothing but hope x

  • @darrellbevins4228
    @darrellbevins4228 Před rokem +3

    He seems to just be torn apart and it breaks my heart to see him in such pain.We just need to reach these people on a closer level.God bless buddy.

  • @jozlynceleste
    @jozlynceleste Před 2 lety +809

    You can feel his exhaustion. I felt the headache he had just trying to drown out the voices. May he get the help he needs. Nobody should live feeling trapped within themselves

    • @christinabeaupre1853
      @christinabeaupre1853 Před 2 lety +1

      thanks be to god. amen. thank you.

    • @tijan8948
      @tijan8948 Před 2 lety +2

      How do you know he is hearing voices in his head?? Not sure it is possible to verify what is going on inside of someone’s head

    • @murraybalkwell9579
      @murraybalkwell9579 Před 2 lety +4

      @@tijan8948 I have schizophrenia and have only heard voices in mental institutions, some people don't hear them at all, that's not the difficult part of the illness the difficult part is what you can see clearly in the video, cognitive dysfunction.

    • @slowjamcdub
      @slowjamcdub Před 2 lety

      Wow your not to bright are ya? This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left.

    • @slowjamcdub
      @slowjamcdub Před 2 lety

      @@tijan8948 right!!! Wow This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left

  • @badbrain7163
    @badbrain7163 Před 3 lety +215

    My nephew recently committed suicide. He was 34 and struggled for years with schizophrenia. My heart aches for Chris.

    • @annieseaside
      @annieseaside Před 3 lety +5

      I’m so sorry! What a nightmare! Hugs!

    • @anotherplanet5828
      @anotherplanet5828 Před 3 lety +6

      So terribly sorry about your nephew. Sending love & comfort to your grieving heart. It’s a tragic disorder.

    • @gnarlycarley5550
      @gnarlycarley5550 Před 3 lety +4

      My condolences. I know what you're going through. take care x

    • @averageatbest6917
      @averageatbest6917 Před 3 lety +5

      My condolences, God bless u and ur family

    • @laymelow1979
      @laymelow1979 Před 3 lety

      Mine too

  • @WhiteLiteBarbie
    @WhiteLiteBarbie Před rokem +9

    He's already got tardive dyskinesia. He's on a lot of antipsychotics and has been for a while. I'm sending him so much love and light. There are ppl out there who don't judge others by their struggles... I think this whole comment section are some of those ppl. I hope he's able to get the help he needs.

    • @TellURide447
      @TellURide447 Před rokem

      Yeah Seroquel is great for short term use. I know people that have been prescribed 300mg a day for years. I try to warn them of the long term effects but it’s in their hands

  • @savanna4127
    @savanna4127 Před rokem

    My grandmother experienced schizophrenia. I always felt for her and my dad. I cant imagine how challenging it must have been for both of them. My heart goes out to this man. Mark did a great job and I love how he said I can show you where you can get support for your mental health. Who knows if the man will get help but just knowing Mark could show him where to go...there is a chance he could get the support he needs.🙏