Trick interview-Sang
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- čas přidán 24. 08. 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of sang, a trick in South Central LA and Skid Row.
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He passed away on skid row, funeral was on 8/5/23 - a dozen of his friends from high school attended his funeral. May he finally rest in peace...
Where are you getting this info from? A lot of you just make shit up for likes. Lets get the info.
Is this true? I hope his passing wasn't from homicide 😿
source?
Is this true?😢
How sad. He didn't look or sound like he lived a life as a junkie, especially on skid row. Sad...just.......sad
I was his wife for over 20 years I disconnected myself from him and his family since i was divorced. That was only way to save myself and my kids. I am still going through lots of sadness, anger, loving memories about him. I hope he is heaven with no pain.
I’m very sorry for your loss!
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being brave enough to share this with us. I think you did the right thing despite how much it must of hurt to let someone you love go. I can only imagine how much pain you’ve experienced. If you’d like to grab some coffee sometime, let me know and I’ll share my email. Stay strong.
Did he pass away??? 😢 im sorry for your loss
I am sorry.....
I’m sorry for your loss and I’m sorry for your struggles. I hope you and your children are OK.
“I don’t regret the missed opportunities… I regret hurting people.” - sang. The most honest and self aware.
I regret both. I definitely regret hurting people more though. I’m sure a lot of people have forgotten about me, but I will never forget the few people I’ve hurt.
Makes perfect sense. He was highly successful in his academic career, was married, had kids. Drugs didn't keep him from that...but when he started going down a selfish path is when it went from the drugs not just hurting himself, but everything around him and that's the part he regrets. Definitely highly self aware at least. He was looking for something to fill the void of monotony and couldn't find fulfillment and thought drugs were the answer, but found it to be completely the opposite after he was already down that dark path. Hope he finds what he's looking for.
This was a very thoughtful and honest interview. This line especially jumped out at me, and also the bit that followed about how drugs slowly replace the self with emptiness. He seems self-aware and intelligent enough to pull himself out if he wants, but he also said that he's in search of peace and quiet and wouldn't mind dying, so maybe he's exactly where he wants to be.
💯
Damn he was my professor. It’s real sad to see him down bad. Honestly he was really nice. I never knew he was going through it at the time he was teaching our labs.
Where was he teaching?
Y'all lets respect this man and let him keep his job
youre a liar
Wow thats crazy!
@@Roger-tv7sf why do you want that
I get this guy. I am also plagued by a feeling that there's something missing and I run after it. I also am educated, with a good job, and a family, but I don't always feel connected. I often want to be alone and I suffer from depression and anxiety. People think I'm always productive, but it's because I feel like I have to justify my existence.
Hope your ok
I understand you 100%.
No matter what you achieve you will feel like it's not enough. It's the foundation of anxiety.
@Don Melado,
I wish you joy , happiness and eternal peace. 💖
Please do not be to hard on yourself, based on your comment, you seem like a wonderful person.
I pray to God Almighty , the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, that you find your sense of purpose and emotional healing.
You will find your way. Take it one day at a time.
I think America leaves people empty. The emphasis on achievement and things leaves people hollow. I left America and live in a member to member society, where relationships with other human beings is the focus. Family is everything, and your community is very interconnected. America with the individual and $$ being everything, is empty. It's not a country with much humanity.
@@lf1496 This is so true.
I’ve never seen anyone be able to critique themselves in such a 3rd party way. He is very self aware and able to take out any bias which is extremely rare amongst people
You would love me lol
@@113charlie7 doubt it
Have you Spoken to many addicts? For real? Like ask them their story you’d be surprised how self aware they are.
Very well said.
I have the same trait. It's a desire to be honest about everything because I see gain and rightousness in being honest, even about myself.
Of all the interviews I've watched on this channel, Sang had the greatest fall from grace. Went from being a college professor with a PhD, working at IBM, and having a loving wife and two children to smoking crack, tricking, and living on Skid Row. Fascinating but unfortunate
No one is infallible.
Said he started smoking crack back in 89. So that was well before he even got married and had children.
@@dre3k78 it ultimately took everything from him.
He's tired of living the SIM family life
The accomplishments are not a measure of real success. They are just a series of meaningless hoops one jumps through to impress others.
Real success is spiritual, not material.
It doesn't matter how much money you make, what you own, or status you hold. It only matters what you have done to yourself and others. Have you left this world better or worse than you found it?
“I don’t know what I’m running from but I have to run some days… I still don’t know what it is that I’m running from, and I feel like if I don’t find out soon it’s gonna kill me. That would be okay too though, at least I’ll have total silence.”
I started tearing up because I’ve never related to something so much from anyone on this channel. Thank you for your insightful thoughts Sang.
Whatever you are going through. I hope u make it through.
So beyond true.
This, I absolutely relate to. Whatever we portray on the outside is almost never what we are on the inside. I know Ive been running for a while, but have yet to feel Im getting closer to Whatever the destination is.
Aa 4 me, unable(uninformed)/unwilling to face my past equalled a feeling of running. Feelings can be strong enuf to control us.....this is why we need other humans and a culture......to watch and question us, and give us stability. Essential.
Me too
I'm continually impressed by the bravery and honesty of these interviewees.
Then you don’t understand the human ego
@@dcul8812 I dunno. I was pretty sure that someone overly impressed with themselves would eventually need to stroke their ego by saying something like that.
People love to talk about themselves
@@taylorlibby7642 well you’re 0 for 2 then
@@dcul8812 Learn to keep score. With you doubling down I'm 2 for 2.
As an Asian I appreciate these stories because it helps show that we don’t all fit the same stereotypical mold society puts us in.
His life outside of the drugs is literally the exact Asian stereotype.
This might sound glib, but the most un-Asian/stereotype-breaking thing about him might actually be that he’s still alive and hasn’t commited suicide. Given the spot he’s at and given how many in Asian culture seem to do so over much less (self-perceived failure and dishonor). Now, suicide isn’t uniquely Asian. Far from it. That said, those self-perceived levels of failure tend to be academic performance or career-related and have inspired the installation of suicide nets at tall schools and business buildings, and “The Suicide Forest” is a known cultural element in the zeitgeist, like it or not. Now, whether that’s exaggerated or not, and whether it’s more of a Japan thing than China or in Sang’s case, South Korea, I don’t know. With so much family and peer shame that likely leads to such an epidemic, though, I find it amazing that he’s alive.
It doesn't need to be said because people are already saying it to you.
However, what isn't being said is that there's a moral mold that we should all adhere to for the sake of society. We all know what that is. Don't steal, cheat, lie, or harm. Do contribute, be kind, compassionate, and sympathetic.
Most people break these rules willingly and without remorse. To such a degree that we develop pathologies that protect us from scrutiny. Religion was the great equalizer in that they recognize their conscience as God. We don't do this today. What was a half measure has now become no measure whatsoever.
Ie, people like yourself embellish and overcompensate for the fact that you are a minority. It's selfish and predatory behavior. There are impoverished white people throughout the South who are criticized, demonized, and outcast due to their status and belief in this society. You are not special. None of us are. Good and bad coexist within all of us. You shouldn't blame others for your insecurities as a human being. Seek out the kind and compassionate people in the world. Be that yourself. I mean, really be that. Don't act the part. Believe in it.
Start by referring to yourself as a human instead of an Asian. Because the the flaw in your thinking lies within that alone.
There are stereotypes for all people. And with Koreans it's mostly positive stereotypes like them being smart, sucessful and working hard, just like Japanese. So I don't see the problem :P
@@LordOfSweden I'm not asian but i imagine that being put into a mold, even if it is positive takes away from your human indiviality. Also not all are positive. Ppl say their all nerdy and boring saying mean things about their private parts so yeah lol
1:40 - I try not to judge people
2:20 - Understanding of humans
3:30 - Ph.D. Holder
4:20 - Pressure. Asian Culture
5:20 - Married for 23 years
5:40 - Picking up girls
6:40 - Going through 2, 3 girls a day
7:00 - Expressing instability
7:20 - I don't believe in love
8:10 - Responsible anger
9:10 - Stress vicious circle
10:00 - A past life knowing
10:40 - Understanding of want & need
12:00 - Constraint. The need for rules
12:40 - Drug history & Ecstacy
13:40 - Running from yourself.
14:10 - Always working. The need to learn constantly keeps the mind active
15:10 - "I have to run" "After all the therapist hours, I still don't know what it is that I'm running from"
15:40 - Going through schooling while using drugs
18:00 - $800 - $1000 a night. Income
18:50 - How often do you pick up
19:40 - Acting skills that wows him. Lies a huge turn off
21:50 - "When the hustle comes to an end, the tools have to be put down"
22:00 - "I don't think she knows who she is" "Shes put on too many masks"
22:20 - The End of the Marriage.
22:30 - Pursuit of knowledge keeping him sane
23:40 - Functional addict?
24:20 - Facade of addiction.
25:00 - Try covering up, but the darkness will be there.
25:20 - Regret getting into drugs?
25:40 - I would have hurt less people
26:10 - "What seems to be... If it sounds too good to be true, it probably isn't true"
26:40 - The void only Christ can fill
27:20 - Drugs is never the answer
Thanks - am so glad to have these chapters! You spent time :)
You must be a virgo
Great summation! You should get paid for these. So many videos and not enough time to watch…such detailed summaries mean more people watch at least parts of a video that they would likely have passed over entirely before.
I'm an astrologer and that never occurred to me. I just saw it as super helpful and thoughtful. If that's Virgo, then I have a newfound appreciation!
@Sierra Hutton You're welcome
This is by far the best interview I’ve seen. He is so authentic and honest. It’s unbelievable honestly. His rawness and wisdom is a gift. Through pain and struggle we find truth.
“The little emptiness you had will grow into a vast emptiness”. He’s so honest!! And I think I could talk to him all day. So philosophical, level headed and smart. Best of luck to you Sang
best wishes Sang. you are the prize.
I wrote it down as well, including, "Crack does not fill the spot. It basically replaces you with emptiness...[So the little emptiness you had, grows into a vast emptiness wherein, you will never see you, no more.]"
Borderline Personality Disorder: "chronic feelings of emptiness", "substance abuse"
I can't imagine the amount of shame you get from being with a prostitute. The post-nut clarity must be profound. I think the only scenario where I'd use a prostitute would be if we were the last humans alive in an apocalypse and it's my final chance to fuck lol. Then I might consider it.
I already get a weird shame/anxious/empty feeling when I can't fully satisfy my girlfriend who I'm very comfortable with (like the vibrator dies or some shit). So just the idea of using a girl for her body and her not getting any pleasure the entire time just kills my soul
@@moondog7694 This is a joke right? You just described like 80% of mental illnesses that exist 😂🤦♂️ You need at least 5-10 symptoms to even get close to being able to diagnose someone 2 is literally nothing.
The man is unapologetically honest, and I respect it. Life is what it is
One the best interviews, Mark. I could listen to Sang's insights and perceptions on things all day. There's no faking and over dramatising with his narrative. Just pure honesty. What I mostly like about Sang is that he is not trying to impress anyone or put blame, play victim or get sympathy, anything of that sort. Just his genuine story and his realization. Sang is very well spoken too.
Hope we get an update about Sang. Or just another interview. I'm sure this man have wisdom that a lot of people can learn.
What he shares about his life and addiction, in general, is undeniably profound.
This is my favorite interview, wisdom, humanity, candid, honest, it’s the honesty I think the most.. Lee you are a GEM!
I could listen to Sang talk for hours. He had a very soothing voice.
This guy is rare in his honesty and his intelligence. I found his testimony fascinating and I relate strongly to what he has shared. His observations about how he is both appalled and fascinated by the girls' acting abilities was very insightful. He is living fully, deeply and fearlessly. I admire his thirst for knowledge in general and knowledge of self. Sang is a compelling character with much integrity. I wish him the best.
He is not living "fully."
I'm not sure why you are saying his intelligence is rare. Would you like to expound a bit on that?
He’s also rare in being Asian-American & on this channel. Something I noticed a while back.
....are you in love with him?😑
This man owned crack. It may seem like it but crack did not own him. This man is a shark, not a human (because of the old school Korean cultural influence as well) so crack gave him his gills to breathe in this world. Thats an insane level of sane.
- Korean American Baltimore, Maryland
Wow. What an articulate and deep thinker this man is. He is as sharp as a blade! I’m blown away by his self awareness and ability to self critique so objectively. This interview had me glued to the screen. I respect Sang and his words of wisdom. He is a man who can pass on invaluable advice to so many of us.
I feel exactly the same after watching
Yes, but it concerns me when people are that clear. He could be high on crack here ,or on a manic high .
He's a con man. The fact that anything this man said passed as wisdom proves you're foolish. This man is a slave to his selfishness. Wisdom? Really? Jesus Christ.
Amazing guy with lots of wisdom. I hope he has a fulfilling rest of his life. I think he would make a great friend.
This is by far one of my favourite interviews, Mark, thank you for asking all the right questions and for giving anyone and everyone a chance to speak. Sang's words truly reached deep.
I almost skipped this because of the subject. I'm so glad I didn't. What an amazing man with an amazing story. The insight is so deep. Ty mark. I learn something from your channel every video.
Questuon.. So a trick is basically a "goody goody squarehead nerdy geeky good guy", seeking sex and paying for it? They are squareheads that have no criminal connections such as a connect to buy from weed cocaine?
Cos i grew up being a bad boy and subsequently a "gangster and living the 0-100 hardcore life" when i was 16-25... im 27 now, still have connections but ive always been working a 9-5 job, living a double life. Sometimes i would go pay for sex (even during when i had a girlfriend/relationships). . . So im not a trick right? I dont quite understand rhat word and definition of it. But i do have a good idea of what it means.
Lol thanks!
@@Jason.cbr1000rr it's not for everyone. You can be good inside and foul outside. Don't forget he mentioned how many people he's hurt along the way. Threw away marriage kids and $. He's in therapy and clawing himself or not out of a horrible situation. He doesn't have anything anymore. U have to decide if you want to sacrifice everything as well:(
@@Jason.cbr1000rr doesn't mean you're a square or don't have any connections for drugs....trick is simply anyone that pays for sex
@@DesperadoDufel oh ok now i know. Is it a bad thing? Say for people in the mid to late 20s. One says they just paid for it. And hes friends will laugh at him and say oh you cant pick up etc..?
@@CarlottaTrouble i hope so, otherwise everything happens for a reason, our paths and life is set already (imo) and whatever happens is supposed to be.
Of all the interviews I’ve watched so far this one really broke my heart. I got that ache in my chest. At the same time I’m amazed at his intelligence and self awareness. Very intriguing to listen to. I hope he finds what he’s running from and finds true peace.
Gripping. Especially the poignant conclusion when he describes the emptiness of drug addiction. The sadness and regret in his eyes touched me. I would love to watch a follow-up interview.
What’s a trick
@@vissays634 paying to make a sausage disappear
That conclusion got me too, but I didn't think it was just about drug addiction, but about trying with anything, including advanced degrees, to fill that hole, but it just gets bigger because none of it is what you need, which seems to be connection with your heart or your self. His upbringing has distanced him from knowing himself
@@philbond3306Tell that to a kid. Then stand back and watch the results. 😂
Loved this interview. Amazing how we can never know what people are going through; obviously highly intelligent, he exudes a calm wisdom - I could listen to him for hours.
This is one of the best interviews! It’s his whole vibe! Honest and very smart! Need more like this!
This was a deep conversation with a strong message. We are all human and we all bleed the same. Thank you for sharing your story, Sang.
Yes we generally bleed the same blood but also important to note (for treatment purposes not for minimizing someone’s experience/pain regarding their bleeding etc. ) that we do not bleed the same type of blood nor have similar opportunities for bandages, transfusions, donations etc.
@@moriah1394this fucking guy
This guy has so much wisdom. I appreciate the honesty and depth of this man.
Probably the best video on this channel. I hope this man’s thorough understanding of his addiction leads him to better times.
I loved his authenticity ...He dropped many nuggets of wisdom. "You have to have lines or you're just an animal" His description of life through experience was touching. His was raw and open in sharing while baring his imperfections and errors which just made him relatable and connectable. He took ACCOUNTABILITY for a lot of things that went on in his life and did not make excuses or play the victim card. He touched on culture demands and expectations. It was even more intriguing learning about his impressive education background and positions held in his previous career. We are all human no matter the education or money we possess we all have fears, demons and go through things that can alter our trajectory in life good or bad. I would be interested in a FOLLOW UP interview.
I second that!! I’d love a follow up
I third that!
Marjay marjay dayum chocolate you bomb af
Yall are weird af. The man grew up privileged and partied hard like any other rich white professional dude. I feel yall are doing the most cause hes asian an plainly dressed.
@@disneytoysr4fun975 Now you’re being prejudicial because he’s asian and educated. If he was behind the curtain and we didn’t know what he was I would still be impressed regardless of his race and background.
I’ve watched a bunch of your videos, there is something very special and intimate about this one. I can relate to this person better than with someone that has gone through tons of trauma, and has a extreme life. It’s lovely that we can have diverse type of interviews. I am very thankful for your hard work and passion.
It's because he's almost egoless..most people "act" out the image they have of themselves in their heads, so it's not genuine, most of us do this ...he has no fucks left to give, so he is just his raw self
Im not sure why.. but this gentleman made me cry.
I hope he finds what brings him back to happiness
He is super intelligent and philosophical, yet he seems to be lost without a real purpose. Its really sad.
I don't think he's ever had happiness, from a lifetime of being driven to meet goals
@@BelleTolles You've missed his point. It has nothing to do with others but himself.
He's dead. Passed away last year
He passed away 10 months ago
One of the best description of addiction I have heard in a long time. His honesty is heart warming and bitter sweet.
I have been a fan of this channel for a couple years now, watched almost every video. This was the only one I have watched twice, very profound. Thank you Sang for sharing your story. I hope you can get clean from Crack and fill up the emptiness and find true happiness. You deserve happiness and peace.
Yeah I definitely watched it twice my man had some gems
One of my favourites, Sang had me hanging on every word. There’s a deep wisdom here completely free from the delusions of an overbearing ego that most of the others have. The irony of designating him a mere trick. I would love to hear more from this humble, insightful man
by far my favorite interview from your series. would love to see part two with more insights. thanks for doing this.
One of the most interesting people he’s interviewed by far
agree
This man’s honesty was really humbling. I’ve never struggled with drug addiction but my husband has and he’s always said the same thing: you abuse substances to cover up whatever pain you’re feeling but then you’ve ended up with a worse problem (drugs) and the problems you were trying to cover up are still there.😔
Serious question: How was his honesty “humbling” to you? People say this a lot and it’s hard to understand what is meant.
@@asynchronicity in other words, “his honesty about such significant problems shows how fragile my ego is because I can’t even be honest about much smaller things”. Therefore I am humbled because I realize I have such a big ego and therefore need to be more humbled
@@morrishbs yep! That’s exactly right. Perfectly said
So true
So when we come to that point it's the Merry Go Round that we CHOOSE not to leap from. I made a conscious decision to get off that ride by self reprogramming my subconscious mind...what an amazing experience. Reach for it my addictive brothers and sisters it's tangible. 💪🏾
Wasn’t expecting much from this and it ended up being my favourite interview on the whole channel
He articulated what an addict is soo well. I’m so intrigued by his outlook. So profound.
This is the first interview I have sat down to watch…..normally I just listen. I loved it so much. ♥️♥️♥️
Probably most honest interview I saw in this channel, No BS, no personal grandiose facade , no fake emotions just what is is.
Definitely have a series with him please he’s so humble
This is the best interview I’ve seen on here so far. So much to take away.
I really admire his honesty and self awareness. He's an interesting and intelligent man.
I have never seen such a positive response from almost everyone . Sang please keep pushing . Your mind is magnificent!
You need a podcasts sharing your wisdom and magic being the world, your way with words really captivates and the way you explain it is so clear and easily understood.
Much love ! Best of luck
He needs much more healing first. He is emotionally out of touch with himself…relying on intellect and philosophy ….no wonder the need for excessive counter balancing with drugs and prostitution.
Sang needs his own CZcams channel! So much wisdom in him!
Please do a followup on Sang. There's so much wisdom and clarity in what he says, and I truly feel for him and hope he finds his peace someday and can truly enjoy life.
he died.
@@PhukTrump2024 source?
@@justayoutuber1906It was on the comment section. 8/5/23 is the funeral the wife also commented
Sang seems like a very genuine dude who knows he’s got issues but an all around good guy. Thanks for your story!
I just think he talks a good game.
@@disneytoysr4fun975 yeah some of the things he said about the prostitutes was scary and really bordering on mental illness. He spoke with clarity about a lot of things but when it came to his “hobby” there’s really something going on.
I have been following this channel for awhile, without any doubt Sang is the brightest mind - he is able to articulate his testimony so personally. I wish you well Sang, you have a good heart when you said your only regret is to not hurt so many people (presumably your family)
22:40 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I tried to hold on to the marriage AND the crack 😅
Gosh THE BEST interview so far. I can relate quite a bit. To speak so highly of something so stigmatised and “negative” AND mean it, is enlightening. I love how he says the little emptiness u have will grow, cos it does. Love and light to u Sang. Osu!
Probably one of my most favorite interview thus far. This is a very wise man.
I really wish I could be friends with this guy the wisdom he was dropping in the calm manner too. I feel alot of peace listening to him
One of my favorite interviews. Love the perspective he has on life and ideas.
Raw, real, intelligent, insightful. I will be listening to this one twice. Thank you Sang.
The wisdom in many of these interviews, particularly this one is breath taking, would love to meet this guy and just talk to him for hours.
I am sad he is stuck. I am impressed at his achievements and his candor. Wishing you better days!
We need a part 2. I was glued to his every word.
he is so aware, this interview was great. i appreciate how vulnerable and open he was, it’s not often you see an asian (especially a older korean man) person speak in this way and share their real life struggles.
I admire his honesty and wisdom hope everything goes well for you Sang
Very interesting, articulate, well-spoken man. Much more than a Trick.
Really enlightening, sometimes I chuckled and other times felt sad, especially when he talked about the people he had hurt. I hope he finds inner peace and love.
I’ve watched many of your interviews & this one is one of the best! His story is intriguing.
Listening to you was like a therapy session for me. Thank you so much for sharing.
I love listening to Sang!! He is very interesting and wise! I wanted to hear more from him.
Agreed. Love to hear more
He sounds so wise. I could listen to him for hours.
What a brilliant mind!!! Definitely glad I watched this episode. So honest and candid. Much of what he says makes a lot of sense!
Authentic, raw, and brutally honest. What a rare admission.
Addiction comes in all shapes and sizes. He’s spent a lifetime searching for something he’ll never find, until he puts the pipe down. He knows it too. And he will never change. A working addict is not as rare as people think. Great perspective for an interview.
this is the interview which has resonated with me the most, wish nothing but the best for Sang and hope he finds some peace within the endless search for it
WOW. What an interesting story! This man is obviously incredibly intelligent and aware. He is so honest and upfront. This was one of the best interviews I have seen in a while on this channel. Very genuine and a great perspective.
Wow! So much to share with others. He should do public speaking. Beautiful human being right here! God bless you SANG!
I really would love to see another interview with Sang. Maybe some more therapy could help him do figure out the sense of emptiness he’s feeling. Wishing he can get the help he needs. Amazing interview, I know you’ll get through this, Sang 🙏🏽
Wow, this is probably the best interview of this channel…
No... computer hacker is legendary.
@@svenkateswaran7516 he is. I feel like we didn't get to the bottom of sangs issues. I'd like to hear more about his involvement in gangs and his upbringing and how he turned that around to become and engineer and complete a PhD!
I see this comment on every video...
@@celestialasmr9624 he didn't complete his PHD he was about to he said he was doing year 3 and working full time at IBM and teaching 2 classes for his professor... thats what made him snap.
@@liltreefort2804 finishing a PhD is about self control and fortitude/perseverance. There is something to be said for being able to control oneself. That is often something that people seemingly have forgotten nowadays. It is important for whatever path one takes.
This was a great interview. I actually went back and listened to it a second time. I was expecting his answers to be canned answers I’ve listened to so many times but his answers were on a totally different level. Very deep and thought provoking for me. I hope there is a follow up interview in the future. Good luck Sang!
This is one of the best SWU I've ever seen, hope and good luck to Sang.
One of the BEST interviews I’ve watched. His honesty about the good the bad & the ugly in his life was truly transparent. His reasoning on why not to touch these drugs was one of the best I’ve ever seen! Why?because he spoke with no shame!
I pray that one day he reaches full sobriety! So that he can empower other’s to do the same. If you ever read this, pleas know that you could be the POSITIVE light for other’s but first you must completely step out of the dark 🙏🏼💛
Mark, I came here to tell you I LOVE this background draping. It's by far my favorite! Color is amazing, it looks steamed and draped nicely. Thanks for the hard work!
What an honest interesting interview .Sang sure is a special insightful human who speaks his truth, no bullshit no blame..
Hearing Sang talk about the facets of life that addicts feel are always missing resonated deeply with me. The insights of someone that would come off as incredibly high-functioning and accomplished but was completely derailed by a habit he couldn't let go of is scary as fuck, because it seems as though the he can see past the tunnel of addiction but his thirst for annihilation was too strong to be lulled. I really appreciate his candor and hope that he finds what the piece of him that is missing, though I know the feeling of being snared by compulsion and desire.
Opiates did to me what crack did to him. It filled me with more emptiness and left a new need that could not be satiated. Love, money, experiences, they all pale in comparison to something as visceral as your drug of choice rushing through your bloodstream and taking you back to the place you crave above all things. He dropped some real game for anyone that is on a similar trajectory, it's worth heeding his words and deeping his story. Thanks for providing the platform for perspective and reflection as always Mark, these videos are filled with invaluable anecdotes.
As a former high-functioning workaholic and opiate addict, I could really relate to a lot of things Sang was saying. How it was either one or the other: work/school or drugs, and I was using both to run from something. How sometimes you don't actually need the drug- you aren't physically dependent but you're mentally tied down. How some people want to use because they just need something to take themselves out of their bodies, to escape their horrible internal reality for a little, and continue to use because when they "come to" (sober up) they can't stand who they are as a person or their history or what their life is now. Loving to learn because it takes you out of reality. Sometimes you have so much trauma that being alone with your thoughts can feel like you're suffocating. You become desperate to distract yourself with anything that can get your brain to focus on something else.
I feel like high functioning addiction is something more common than we think but not many people know about it. People have this concept that a drug addict is lazy, stupid, ignorant, unmotivated, low-achieving- but I feel its a myth more than half the time. At the height of my addiction, when I was taking overdose levels of oxycodone everyday, I graduated from a top university undergrad program with summa cum laude, two years early. Nobody knew a thing because I was achieving and was so careful to hide it, I held two jobs while maintaining my GPA and had job offers lined up after graduation. I kept justifying my habits were fine because I was doing so great in terms of achievements. Being high functioning was a double edged sword because its never forever. Your drug of choice will win the fight eventually and someday the scales just tip on you.
After losing a friend to overdose and nearly ODing myself, I went to rehab. I have been doing okay since. Been clean for over 2 years now, but its for sure a daily battle. I hope Sang can get out of it.
Good on ya doll! Hope you keep going ;)
I feel you. I've worked in the trades with many high functioning addicts. Mostly alcohol, opiates, meth and cocaine. For myself it was the Frickin Oxy's back when they were cheap and plentiful. I developed a daily habit for years all whilst working and raising a family. I hate thinking about it now though. Hundreds of thousands of dollars down the drain that should have went towards my kids future. But your right, many addicts can keep up appearances in polite society and everyone thinks they are just normal tax paying citizens.
@@outdoorloser4340 some are saying Alex Murdaugh could not have been doing that many pills for that many years without people knowing. So you think he could have been high functioning and hiding it?
@@outdoorloser4340I also hate thinking about all the wasted money and time..that part is the part that's the worst for me.
Good for you! I'd venture to say that the vast majority are addicts of some sort whether it be nicotine, caffeine, social media, sugar, mmj, work, alcohol etc. Ive been self medicating since I was 13 and only recently realized how much of an addict I've been since. I graduated at 15, worked 2 jobs while paying for college, had kids, bought a house etc and bc I've lived a seemingly normal life(from the outside), it took me 20 years to realize that I'm an addict and it's a problem. I don't ever use a lot of any 1 drug, it's just that I'm always constantly looking to just take the edge off my current reality and by the end of the day, I'll realize I've used up to 10 different drugs. They may be very small doses, but it's wild how often I go searching outside of myself to numb myself from reality.
One of the best interviews I’ve ever seen . Best of luck sang 🙌🏼
Sang is such an interesting guy. Very easy to listen to. One of the best interviews yet on this channel.
Bring him back! The interview just kept getting better and better.
He regrets hurting people most of all. What a soul. ❤
This was an incredible interview. I love Sang's unflinching honesty and humility.
Hey Sang I do the exact same work (IT contact platform work field nation , work market, etc) and I'm also a recovering addict (crack and heroin). I can relate so much with what you shared. I was also married 20 years from 96' and then we split in 2016 over drugs. Thank you for sharing and I pray that you find your peace my brother 🙏
Programming is very hard on the mind. , because you can't shut it off. You find yourself coding and debugging in your sleep. I can only program for a month at a time, and it starts making me depressed. I could never do it as a full time job .
Wow. That was an incredible interview. Thank you Mark & Sang.
Wow. What a deep thinking fellow. I haven’t encountered a person like this in a very long time. Sang talked about many different things in this one interview that was thought provoking for me. Would love to see him more on this channel
This interview was so deep and calm. If that makes sense. Loved it.
I was just going to say the same: deep & calm 🙏🏼🙏🏼
This dude is deep. I like listening to him.
Philosophy expert..Be ok Sang. Good dude..
Thnx Mr. Mark for interview too thnx
Out of all interviews on this channel, this one is my favorite.
I really enjoyed this interview. I could listen to him speak about his experiences all day.
Loved this interview so much he taught me something just by listening and understanding ♥️ wish him nothing but the best
Damn… I really enjoyed listening to him . He was so genuine 😮💨
That last quote is gold , i've struggled with my own addiction issues over the years and he encapsulated the twisted relationship of addiction so incredibly well.
When You partake in your addiction and consume a little bit of you in order to feel whole , in truth yo uare trading a bit of yourself to the addiction and after you make that trade for al ong time eventually You are more a slave to the addiction the you are yourself anymore.
It's like traveling down a road in search of something only to look back and realize the path behind you has dissapeared .
I hope he is able to recover and thank him so much for doing this interview.
I learnt a few important lessons here and those are few and far between in one's life. Thank you for your honesty, Sang
Filling the void has been a theme for many people in this day and age. Really nice interview of a man's personal resolve.
Really great interview. I would love to see him back on here with an update or to hear some more of his stories. Wishing you the best Sang
I enjoyed this interview so much. I will pray for Mr. Sang.
It seems to me Sang is beyond wise about life and has gone through much introspection. I like what he said, "what seems to be is almost never real." There is so much truth behind this statement. I hope Sang gets the help he needs and overcome his addictions and demons.
Yeah that statement is one of dissociation and philosophy …he is not yet feeling himself only his thoughts…alive above the neck only and even there more general than personal. Easy to miss that in our culture of hyper intellectualization and minimal recognition and deep understanding of vulnerability