Lizzy McAlpine - doomsday (official video)
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Lyrics:
pull the plug in September
i don’t want to die in June
i’d like to start planning my funeral i’ve got work to do
pull the plug, make it painless
i don’t want a violent end
don’t say that you’ll always love me cause you know i’d bleed myself dry for
you over and over again
doomsday is close at hand
i’ll book the marching band
to play as you speak
i’ll feel like throwing up
you’ll sit and stare like
a goddamn machine
i’d like to plan out my part in this but you’re such a narcissist you’ll probably
do it next week
i don’t get a choice in the matter why would i? it’s only the death of me only the
death of me
pull the plug but be careful
i don’t wanna die too soon
i think there’s good in you somewhere i’ll hang on ‘til the chaos is through
doomsday is close at hand
i’ll book the marching band
to play as you speak
i’ll feel like throwing up you’ll sit and stare like
a goddamn machine
i’d like to plan out my part in this but you’re such a narcissist you’ll probably
do it next week i don’t get a choice in the matter why would i? it’s only
the death of me was so quiet
no friends and family allowed
only my murderer, you
and the priest who told you to go to hell and the funny thing is i would’ve
married you if you’d have stuck around
i feel more free than i have in years
six feet in the ground
doomsday is close at hand
i booked the marching band
to play as you speak
i feel like throwing up
you sit and stare like a goddamn machine
i’d have liked to plan out my part in this but you’re such a narcissist
that you did it on halloween
i had no choice in the matter
why would i? it’s only the death of me
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Extended credits:
Music Credits:
Written and performed by: Lizzy McAlpine
Produced by: Philip Etherington, Ehren Ebbage
Mixed by: Philip Etherington
Drums by: Aaron Sterling
Mastered by: Dave Kutch
Recorded in Los Angeles, CA at The Laundry Pile
Managed by Harbour Artists & Music
Video Credits:
Written by Lizzy McAlpine
Directed by Gus Black
Produced by:Jeremy Ivory-Chambers and Will Noyce
Production Company: Fengari
EP/director rep: Kelly Sarno, Agency Arts
1st Assistant Director: Becca Weston
2nd Assistant Director: Liz Holland
Unit Production Manager: Patricia Selznick
Production Coordinator: Audrey Huey
Key PA: MacKenzie Paulson
PA: Ben Weinswig
PA: Kevin Liang
Casting: Esprit Casting
Casting Directors: Copelan Cash & Emma Weinswig
Director of Photography: Nic Restrepo
Steadicam Operator: Luke Rihl
1st AC: Jorge Olortegui
2nd AC: David Cruz
DIT: Redamo Rosa
Photo Assist: Ariana Dixon
Stylist: Steph Collinge
Wardrobe Assist: Izzy Huynh
HMU: Maddie North
Makeup Assist: Misa Zuki
Production Designer: Caia Diepenbrock
Art Director: Ashley Barreda
On Set Dresser: Kiara Tenae
On Set Dresser: Danielle Kaufman
Art assist: Connor Beadles
Art PA: Anthony Vasques
Art PA: Serenity S’rae
Gaffer: Mike Butler
BBE: Isaac Martinez
Electric: Andy Grishikian
Electric: Daniel Santandrea
Key Grip: Matthias Linder-Madsen
BBG: Nate Cuboi
Grip: Micah Goldfarb
Editor: Gus Black
Colorist: Cameron Marygold
Audio Mixer: Donavyn Suffel
Cast:
Lizzy McAlpine as herself
Scott Albrecht as Brien
Frederick Lawrence as Janitor & Priest
Emma Weinswig as Amalia
Background:
Ivan Kudinov, Qi Gu, Kevin Garner, Tristian Goolsby, Nina Ortega, Brittany Julian, Annabelle Mayock, Angel Strittmater, Bella Doyle, Bryanna Wozniak, Philip Therton, Rebecca Mikelstein, Christian Hudson, Courtney Heagle, Iman Gupta, Lyssa Newsman, Sosana Shelah, Justin Ward, Tina Uhaniah, Taelor Moore, Kaele Kloc, Miguel Quicho
Marching Band:
Elena Wilds, Noor Romans, Zoey Kuhn, Alyssandra Lachica, Emily Salvado, Morgan Lih, Aimee Yokomizo, Lina Cho, Ian Kang, Lee Kiana, Brad Kim, Katherine Nam, Valerie Hernandez, Sofia Farmarco, Robin Kim, Elisa Argus, Finn Santana, Jason Liu, Mina Wu, McGregor Kenny, Aidan Lam, Charlie Miller, Christopher Kuizon, Abdiel Flores, Edward Zhao, Jake Lau, Sabastian Thompson, Ikenaga Ethan, Annant Konkar, Tilden Lee
#LizzyMcAlpine #Doomsday #fivesecondsflat - Hudba
'Older', the new album, out now!
lizzymcalpine.lnk.to/OlderAlbum
whoever was in charge of the music for the show school spirts know they put the most perfect song over the final scene. they did their big one. the writing the final scene and this song came together as one of the best combinations like ever.
OMG SAME THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG NOW
That’s why I’m here bby
I agree… i totally agree
couldn't agree more!
1000000% ❤
Put this in fukin cinemas blast this song everywhere what the actual fUk WAY TOO GOOD GOING TO SOB MY EYES OUT TO THIS ON TOUR
yes dodie also isn’t her phrasing and vocal tone incredible
ON TOUR! PLEASE IM GONNA HEAR THIS LIVE 😭😭😭
Love your music!
Skeleton face is the unintentional motif that I'm totally 'digging' lol. 'Doomsday', the short film, 'let it be', and Adam's song 'joyride'.
Wow, that's funny - was just thinking of 'Guiltless' which I absolutely adore also...
This song is featured in the last episode of School Spirits and the first time I heard it I was obsessed!!!!!
That's why am here, I heard it and loved it at first listen.
Same! Perfect song choice for the end of the season reveal.
Sameeee I added it to my playlist straight away
That melody of "I don't wanna die in June" right at the beginning gives me chills every damn time I listen to it. Soooo good!
It reminds me of a different song but I can’t put my finger on it…
@@Stargirl9071 right!!!
@@Stargirl9071 is it kiss from a rose by seal?
@@Stargirl9071 might be different direction to what you're going for but this song makes me thing of "Home" by Zero 7, something about the instrumentals.
@@Stargirl9071 It sounds a bit similar to some moody 90s songs by female vocalists like "Leave Me Alone" by Natalie Imbruglia or Lisa Loeb "Firecracker", or Avril Lavigne "I'm With You".
I'm a guitar teacher and a student just asked me to show them how to play this track tonight. From a music analysis viewpoint, man, so so much cool stuff in it.
There’s a post on the r/lizzymcalpine subreddit that has the tuning and chords
@@castor8710 can you send me the link? Please
Lizzy’s chord progressions have always been pretty good to be fair
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Sound alike DADGAD to me
I don't say this lightly: doomsday is a fucking masterpiece.
Thank the algorithm gods for recommending this to me, incredible talent & such a genuinely compelling song lyrically/musically. I've listened to this 20 times in the past 2 days and I seriously never do that.
Found this song because of your year end list and holy crap… masterpiece is no exaggeration
Listened to the song cause I liked the clip you used for your year end list and now I'm in love with this song, it gave me CHILLS
Literally a masterpiece that no one’s ever heard
I have a bit of a resentment for high school so the video doesn't do it for me, but the song is absolutely incredible. I live in radio range of where I went to college, and the nonprofit college station introduced me to this amazing song a few weeks ago. Thanks WSBF.
It is epic....
💛🦘💛🦘💛🦘💛🦘
My God, those bone dry vocals are so refreshing. I can hear every characteristic of her voice. The melody is amazing and that break down section is haunting.
This characteristic had me hooked from the opening line. It’s like she’s singing directly into your ear
100 Percent agree. Like Dodie's "These Things" bedroom demo video, this instantly makes you lean in and listen to every breath and syllable.. Effing huge in it's stark intimacy.
@@christopherjbutler Exactly. Ear candy.
i was just thinking the same thing...whoever mixed this did a phenomenal job...the compression on the vocal is perfect. keeps it right up front where it belongs and allows this song to feel so personal...the intricacies throughout are kept so even; fluid. cannot stop listening to this track
@@youslyfox Same… several times a week. lol.
I heard this song for the first time on School Spirits, and it's such a perfect choice of song! It's been on repeat in my ears all day.
I did too
Sameeee! hahah I'm obsessed
the video even matches with the show
Same!!n on repeat!
same!!!
this music video is my baby i can’t believe it’s out ….. what do you guys think of it ??????
Lizzy, the lyricism, the cinematography, the voice, the EVERYTHING. This is incredible.
i’ve been going feral for the past fifteen minutes tysm queen
CHILLS, Liz. Chills. I fell in love with this song when you posted it on Instagram ages ago, the finished product is just… chef’s kiss.
Lizzy its incredible. You're so talented i 💜 you! You encouraged me to learn the guitar and I'm hoping to be able to play it like you do! I wish you the best! 💜💜💜
ITS SO GOOD OMG I love all the details and your fit at the end and your acting ans song
"i’d have liked to plan out my part in this but you’re such a narcissist
that you did it on halloween" THIS PART, THE LYRIC CHANGE OMG THIS IS AWESOME
YES- it's a shock, a surprise, it knocks us for six as the listener... because it knocked her for six in the moment, getting dumped on halloween unexpected! we get to feel what she felt. literally geeniuusssss *chef's kiss*
i hate that i'm just now catching that she said that after a year of finding this album..
The fact that the line “only my murderer, you and the preist who told YOU to go to hell.” Saying how the preist told him to go to hell instead of her MURDERER. Lyrical Genius.
This song can also be interpreted way differently but this how I perceive it!! ( ex, “only my murderer ( you ) and the preist who told you to go to hell” )
School Spirits just gave this song a MIGHTY lift.
i cant wait to tell everyone that i am a fan of her since she was just starting
Me too
Same here. I know she’ll be big in the near future and I’ll be able to tell people I was here this early and I have two copies of her album 😎
Saaaameee
Been sending my sister her songs for ages, trying to get her to listen. Hoping this might catch her on.
absolutely
OKAY BUT THE BLACK SUIT OUTFIT!!!!!! LIZZY THIS WHOLE THING IS PERFECTION
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Just heard this from school spirits and fell in love immediately. There was so much happening but the music took most of my attention. Your voice is amazing. New fav ong
Finished school spirits and this song I can’t get out of my head
fr same
Oh, same
Me too
You’re probably my favorite artist right now, and this was such a massive step up! Can’t wait to see what you do next!
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Yo Mr. Beard a lizzy fan?!
@@peytonbaker4017 he's a based fella
Hi beard!
The combination of intimate moments and epic cinematic parts makes the song stand out even more. Good job
This song is such a kick in the gut. I could go on and on and on about how perfectly it captures those emotions, the atmosphere, the helpless sadness and anger at someone else’s actions…but instead I’ll just go listen to it again and enjoy how it makes me feel all the feels all over again.
i think its really funny that your song “Pancakes for Dinner” is what got me and my ex together. We broke up a couple days ago and this song matches exactly what i’m going through rn
Been holding off on watching this vid but today felt like the day. I’m glad i saw it :)
I guess same+a bit more, I have the near exact story where pancakes for dinner was "our song" and Doomsday could very possibly be our ending song. she came out as lesbian on Halloween, broke up with me right after our Halloween party and I was throwing up my guts in a church because I didn't know how to take it lol, and it's funny because I was so eager to plan our future together and stuff but when it ended it was like damn there goes that
hey, right there with you. 'pancakes for dinner' was our song, and it's so so hard to listen to all of the sweeter songs from give me a minute now. everything just hurts so much, but this single came at just the right time for me. still not feeling great but definitely needed the catharsis
@@seungkyeom that's so uncanny
THIS IS REALLY GOOD!
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It's highly possible that my interpretation of this is entirely not what these creators intended, but there's clearly so much thought and effort and passion put into this project that I want to explain what I got out of a few elements of the video:
The moment when she puts the mask on (3:42) could be when she decides to put on a face/persona to convince him to feel bad for her (which doesn't work enough to make him stay because he thinks she's faking it and/or because he's a jerk). Through the process of trying to express to him how hurt she is and trying to convince herself to not let him get under her skin (or to get him out from under her skin, I guess, because he already has gotten under her skin), she "dies" like their relationship -- that's why she's still a skeleton when the mask comes off.
I LOVE the part with her stabbing the pomegranate (2:34) and how that connects to Persephone and Hades -- the motifs of death, betrayal, heartbreak, etc.
The lighting, OH MY GOD, the lighting -- the dark hallway with a light at the beginning rather than the end, the blinding light through the windows, the fluorescent dullness of the classroom, the sunset alone on the bleachers, the sunrise with him on the bleachers, the soft glow of the church, the dusty brightness of the funeral, the clarity of the field that fades to black, the spotlight on the stage in front of an empty theater -- it all expresses her feelings so well and (despite, or perhaps because of the variety in the intensity of the lighting) ties the whole story together visually.
There's so much specificity that communicates such clear emotion, both lyrically, instrumentally, and visually -- I could go on and on about how well this is crafted.
Every choice in this song and music video (and in all my ghosts, which is one of my new favorite songs) is so brilliant. The fact that music like this exists restores my faith in humanity; I can't wait for the album!
Well said. Symbolism seems to be lost in modern music but this encapsulates it perfectly.
I really like your interpretation. Everything feels so gray and numb after a breakup/heartbreak so it honestly does feel like a type of death in a way. The death of your past self.
i think the death mask and her face painted is her coming to terms, he's left her and she's wallowing in self-pity in the ending of their relationship. she's like a walking skeleton, feeling empty.
Here from the Netflix tv show “school spirits” , they did they thing with this one !
I absolutely love this I heard it in school spirits and I was like I need to listen to this 1000000000000/100❤😂
i’m literally in shock lizzy this is amazing. the video is BEAUTIFULLY done, so much meaning behind every frame, the song is literally insanity your lyrics are absolutely ridiculous i find new meaning every time i listen. THANK YOU FOR YOUR ART literally so proud :’)))))
Your acting was fantastic in this! I can’t wait to see what’s next.
I absolutely love the way the melody curves at “you’re such a narcissist”, an instant hook!
School Spirits brought me. Bring on season 2!
nobody is doing it like lizzy this era is gonna be insane
This song is going to bring Lizzy the recognition she deserves
This was so incredibly needed. I'm going through a break up at the moment and this song hit just right.
I am such a big fan of your music and I absolutely adore everything you do. Another one to loop for days on end!
this song is so amazing, it gives off major heathers vibes, i’m obsessed
It feels so rare for a song and music video to match tone so perfectly. Incredible performance, editing, and sound mixing. Congratulations to all!
Just finished school spirits and this song ripped my heart out
I think this is a level of refinement that just goes beyond what you’ve done before. There’s an incredible amount of nuance in this song, not just lyrically, but melodically and vocally as well. I think this song will be around a good while 😄
Wow, the part of your funeral is absolutely impressive. The change of the melody, the recording, the amazing control of your voice, the intensity and the bad milk of the message leaves you wanting to send the bastard who probably hurt you to hell. Oh my gosh! I think I'm not the only one who wants more.
[Verse 1]
Pull the plug in September
I don't wanna die in June
I’d like to start planning my funeral
I've got work to do
Pull the plug, make it painless
I don't want a violent end
Don’t say that you'll always love me
'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you
Over and over again
[Chorus]
Doomsday is close at hand
I'll book the marching band to play as you speak
I'll feel like throwin' up
You'll sit and stare like a goddamn machine
I’d like to plan out my part in this
But you’re such a narcissist
You'll probably do it next week
I don’t get a choice in the matter
Why would I? It's only the death of me
Only the death of me
[Verse 2]
Pull the plug, but be carеful
I don't wanna die too soon
I think there's good in you somеwhere
I’ll hang on 'til the chaos is through
[Chorus]
Doomsday is close at hand
I'll book the marching band to play as you speak
I'll feel like throwin' up
You'll sit and stare like a goddamn machine
I'd like to plan out my part in this
But you're such a narcissist
You'll probably do it next week
I don't get a choice in the matter
Why would I? It's only the death of me
[Bridge]
It was so quiet
No friends and family allowed
Only my murderer, you, and the priest who told you to go to Hell
And the funny thing is I would've married you
If you'd have stuck around
I feel more free than I have in years
Six feet in the ground
[Chorus]
Doomsday is close at hand
I'll book the marching band
To play as you speak
I feel like throwin' up
You sit and stare like a goddamn machine
I'd have liked to plan out my part in this
But you're such a narcissist
That you did it on Halloween
I had no choice in the matter
Why would I? It's only the death of me
lizzzzzyyyyyy the “to be continued….” IS MAKING ME EVEN MORE EXCITED THAN I ALREADY AM FOR THIS NEW ERA
Finished School Spirts when the finale came out and I’m just now discovering this amazing song, what an amazing song choice and what an amazing twist
OKAYY the production on this song is genuinely transcendent
philip & ehren went hard
the music, concept, acting, cinematography *CHEF’S KISS*
love everything you do
fr the cinematography completely blew me away when i first saw the video, i'm still in awe of that shot where theres those two lights behind her, it's beautiful
(also so sry for the selfpromo but i covered the song, so if you want to check it out feel welcome to do so! it'd mean a lot to me
All I can say is WOW!
Thank you School Spirits! ❤
i can’t listen to this song without getting full body chills, it’s PERFECTION
School Spirits❤🖤
This is probably one of the most complete works of art I've seen in a while. Lizzy is truly amazing
This song is fucking incredible
It’s ominous and haunting but also so beautiful.
And the line:
“I feel more free than I have in years, six feet in the ground”
… like wow you did that. Thanks for making music, never stop!!
The dynamic contrasts in this song are beautiful and paint such a clear feeling
Just my feeling
@@chrisgri1758 what 🧍
Lizzy, YOU have worked so hard… you are the most passionate talented sweet artist I have fallen in love with over and over with each creation!!!! Love you girl!!! So freakin proud of you and your explosive growth ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Oh, that line. “I’d like to plan out my part in this, but you’re such a narcissist.” Killed me.
i still hear maddie’s screams
This is probably the best song, and to just pair it with school spirits finale was absolutely enchanting
I’m here after “School Spirits” AMAZING SONG!!!
I’m here after hearing it on School Spirits. Wow, so good.
every inch of my body is moved by this
The one I gladly whipped out my Shazam without embarrassment cos I really needed to know what this song was. It’s so beautiful!
4:10 she really said 🧍🏻♀️😂 we love you Lizzy
Amazing song! Here from the School Spirits Final
I first heard this song while watching School spirits and I was hooked!!! Her voice gives me goosebumps!! Beautiful song! I’ve started listening to her other music and it’s also really, really good! I’m glad I came across her music.
THE BRIDGE LIKE-
OMG
This song is so refreshing to listen to. Her songs are like listening to a beautiful story. I can't wait to see her career blossom even more!
The “only the death of me” and narcissistic lines were amazing
My man out there hustling. Priest and janitor.
I keep playing this with no context when I teach my US History class and all the kids get quiet and are a bit speechless everytime. They normally just either ignore the background music but something about this song just grabs your attention and keeps it! My favorite artist here making moves
Sitting in the grocery store parking lot crying because this is so good. She knows exactly how to use her voice her music is so unique.
School Spirits brought me here and I’m so happy that it did!
I found this through a movie and omg im so happy I found it 😭🤚
(Movie is School Sprits)
the way lizzy compares being broken up with to being murdered is so beautiful. a couple months ago, i was in the same situation. i knew it was coming, and i knew she wasn’t staying, but i did everything in my power to keep her. i still wish that i could’ve had a say in it.
I love this song so much aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i'm here from the show Scholl spirits! i fell in love with this song from the first listen!!! ♥ 😍😍😍
This is such an emotionally perfect song. It's the exact feeling of breaking up with someone who you love but who you know simply doesn't (or can't) care about you. Just so futile and maudlin and frustrating. 10/10 absolutely no notes.
This made me feel things I don’t want to feel.
I literally just heard this in the middle of a mall after hearing for so long. I just had to hear it again after today. Such a good song. I’m also so glad school spirits showed me this song. I’m glad the song made its way into that show
There's nothing like listening to a unique song like this one. Every second of it is a surprise. It's so creative! Congratulations! I'm glad I found your music.
Song has been stuck in my head since I heard it on school spirits
Same
school spirits gang !!
What an amazing song can't stop listening to it, school spirits to thank
I first heard this song in School Spirits, and what made me fall in love with it was the " but your such a narcissist" UGHHH, TOO GOOOOD 🥺💗😱💘
Janet taking my home girl maddie body brought me here😢…Damn you Janet😡
Dammit Janet 😂
💀
this song actually scratches my brain in the best way im so obsessed with it
School Spirits brought me here. Very good song.
For anyone who going through a tuff time, just remember I'm here for you. I may be stranger, but just know I'm here for you. I'll be here no matter what, even if the people in your actual life can't. Remember you got this ❤ 🥰
The narcissist who took me to the edge, I ironically met in marching band - this song is healing for those us ravaged by this abuse. Thank you for sharing it ❤
Everything about this is amazing. The instruments. The voice. The mixing and mastering (sounds so wide and beautiful). The video. There is nothing I can fault here.
I'm sat here shaking my head in disbelief of what my ears are hearing.
School Spirits brought me here 🥳
new listener here, i’m OBSESSED
Big thanks to school spirits for introducing me to this song
one of the most powerful pieces of music ive heard in fifty years. thank you @LizzyMcAlpine!
Came here from Scary Pockets wondering what your solo stuff sounded like, and HOLY SHIT. This is amazing.
JUST FOUND YOU AND THIS SONG AND I AM SOOOOOOO IN LOVE
This song gives me literal CHILLS!!! The second it came on School Spirits I looked over at my wife and said this song sounds dark and heavy. I love it!
i have been streaming this for the past week. all people hear from me are marching band. every day is my doomsday. i have not yet mastered quite how to tune my guitar for this songs but ill do it because ill do anything for you lizzy! yeah!
There was a moment in the 90s when the depth and talent for women singer-songwriter alt-rockers were phenomenal. Liz Phair, Juliana Hatfield, PJ Harvey, Aimee Mann, Fiona Apple... many others. It was such an incredible period of themes and power and intelligent lyrics, as well as astonishing melody and music. I say this only because since then I've very rarely felt that in discovering a new artist. Definitely feels like you'd fit right amongst that illustrious pantheon.
@3:34 I heard this for the first time today. Me and my ex of 4 years were supposed to get married. It was so toxic, and broke me so badly that I thought the only way out was to commit. So I overdosed one night when he pushed me too far. @3:34 made me realise that if he wouldn't have did me the favor of leaving soon after that, I would have married him. And been stuck in that horrible life, cause I couldn't walk away. I truly believe I would have died if he stayed. For the first time in years, I believe that I can live again, and I am free. I would have found freedom in disguise in death. But now I'm understanding I'm free.
You have been through such hell I'm so happy that you've made it through❤
Keep going! Glad to hear you got through it
I think it was my 9'th or 10th playthrough that I realized the priest is also the custodian.
I can't stop listening to this.
I also heard this for the first time on School Spirits. I instantly stopped the show and replayed the part with this song. Then spent an hour online trying to figure out the name of it and who sings it! Caught my attention instantly!! Congrats!! Great song!
feels like the intro to or ending to an amazingly funny and deep broadway show or climax to a movie
i heard this for the first time when you played it live in Seattle. The first chord hit me right in the chest, and as your voice rang out across the audience and the lyrics and their meaning settled, i just started weeping. several months prior i’d gone through the worst break up and heartbreak i’ve ever felt. this song was like therapy, pain, and medicine all at once. thank you your angelic voice and talent. it was a visceral, spiritual experience i’ll never forget.
My interpretation of this song is that she's going through grief, and she's not the one dying. The boyfriend who was always there for her is going to die soon, maybe because of suicide or illness. She doesn't want him to go, and there's some much pain. She's angry because he wouldn't stay for her, but he would stay forevermore for him. She wants everyone to celebrate him and say goodbye to his life, but he doesn't seem to notice her efforts. When she sings, "I don't get a choice in the matter, it's only the death of me," she means it metaphorically. Sure, she's not dying, but he is. Then, he's gone. She wants to hang on and make sure he doesn't get a bad name, but it's hard when he left her alone. She doesn't have a choice when he dies, ultimately hurting her with a wave of grief like death. If he would've stayed, she would've married him, but once he's gone, she feels free. It hurts, and there's no way to recover from it, but there's comfort and freedom beyond it. It hurts that the preacher says he's going to hell. It aches how he died on a holiday. Grief is wounding, and it can cause so much despair that it feels like death.
But, I don't know. That's just how I saw it.
that's actually a pretty interesting take, I like it. I think though she wrote it more about just the despair of loving someone who is completely selfish, and their final act (cheating, leaving, etc) causes such pain and then numbness it feels like dying.
omg i've been a fan for more than a year now and THIS IS JUST CHEF'S KISS I hope it gets more recognition!!! u deserve queen