Slowly Dying (a traumacore playlist)

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  • čas přidán 11. 04. 2021
  • Spotify playlist: open.spotify.com/playlist/32E...

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  • @rainy4967
    @rainy4967  Před 3 lety +18924

    This is for everyone watching this:
    I love you and I hope everybody is doing fine. Even if you feel lonely, depressed or scared you gotta stay strong and don't forget that there will always be a little hope in everything

    • @cone8347
      @cone8347 Před 3 lety +158

      @@silliestmanever I hope you get better soon, and that your not alone.

    • @aurora_boketto7746
      @aurora_boketto7746 Před 3 lety +116

      thank you lovely

    • @Ultra_Hyper_
      @Ultra_Hyper_ Před 3 lety +115

      @@silliestmanever I will cheer you up if I ever can,buddy

      . .
      ✨ 💜
      💙 . ✨
      ✨ . 💚
      💛 . ✨
      ✨ . 🧡 .
      ❤️ .
      . ✨ | |
      Have this love :>

    • @taikonix_oni1679
      @taikonix_oni1679 Před 3 lety +63

      kawaii..., but life will never be perfect

    • @FollowerofDuck
      @FollowerofDuck Před 3 lety +61

      @@taikonix_oni1679 but we can do our best to make it as enjoyable as we can

  • @neveyya
    @neveyya Před 3 lety +3962

    "being a teen is fun," they said "these are your golden years," they said
    so why do we all wanna go back to being a child?

    • @_doring_5875
      @_doring_5875 Před 3 lety +112

      I really don't want to go back, way to much trauma

    • @moving8176
      @moving8176 Před 3 lety +22

      @@_doring_5875 same

    • @bibi161
      @bibi161 Před 3 lety +78

      I'd go back to me as a child to actually focus on my studies and not disappointing the shit outta everybody,, but at the same time I don't want to go back to childhood traumas. I just wanna die yknow

    • @cjthatsit
      @cjthatsit Před 3 lety +16

      Ik I dont. Childhood was trash yo.

    • @BakuhoeLove2
      @BakuhoeLove2 Před 3 lety +31

      A good childhood?
      What's that? 👁️👄👁️

  • @greenie7360
    @greenie7360 Před 2 lety +6631

    "My child is fine," are they, though? They cry whenever they're alone, make up fictional scenarios to fall asleep, and wish they were dead. Are they really okay? No.

    • @GALA89
      @GALA89 Před 2 lety +74

      How are you?

    • @greenie7360
      @greenie7360 Před 2 lety +167

      @@GALA89 Terrible, thanks for asking. You?

    • @GALA89
      @GALA89 Před 2 lety +99

      @@greenie7360 not bad, some anxiety for some exams, but good overall. Whats making you feeling terrible?

    • @artlimitless5688
      @artlimitless5688 Před 2 lety +35

      @@eeinahyena1092 #relatable can we be friends?

    • @artlimitless5688
      @artlimitless5688 Před 2 lety +17

      @@eeinahyena1092 :)

  • @Wolfsta
    @Wolfsta Před 10 měsíci +6571

    Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt.
    (PS thank u for ur lovely comments under my songs, means a lot 🖤)

    • @lillybiddle2925
      @lillybiddle2925 Před 10 měsíci +23

      Yea and that’s just the truth😢

    • @cinnamoroIIz
      @cinnamoroIIz Před 10 měsíci +15

      this is me rn lmao

    • @alicekat23
      @alicekat23 Před 10 měsíci +13

      I was trying to forget that

    • @Wolfsta
      @Wolfsta Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@lillybiddle2925 😔

    • @Wolfsta
      @Wolfsta Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@cinnamoroIIz 😢

  • @aha_a_depressed_froggo5442
    @aha_a_depressed_froggo5442 Před rokem +860

    “Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt, and being real gets you hated”-Johnny Cash

    • @user-qn6vi9di4z
      @user-qn6vi9di4z Před rokem +19

      Но, дорогой, лучше упасть, чем никогда не летать:)
      Но что больно всë равно правда

    • @WallySnarling
      @WallySnarling Před 6 měsíci +5

      Thank you for the message

    • @notacoolguy5845
      @notacoolguy5845 Před 6 měsíci

      ​@@user-qn6vi9di4z what hurts is most true

    • @jaysonpicard-gravel5808
      @jaysonpicard-gravel5808 Před 2 měsíci +1

      never has truer words been spoken before, i trusted people and got betrayed, i loved people and once again got betrayed and the moment i started being real i was hated for it. is there a single thing in this world that doesnt get you betrayed and hated?

  • @christine3226
    @christine3226 Před 3 lety +10211

    I thought being a teenager was going to be fun and now that I am, it sucks. I'm losing reasons to live everyday and I just wanna disappear lmfao.

    • @coolbinny5532-4
      @coolbinny5532-4 Před 3 lety +183

      You have so many reasons to live plz don't die :

    • @exactly_518
      @exactly_518 Před 3 lety +188

      i feel you, hang in there homie :(

    • @sweatysockzaha
      @sweatysockzaha Před 3 lety +88

      If you need to talk lmk

    • @kae6597
      @kae6597 Před 3 lety +49

      @@sweatysockzaha can i?

    • @jenzo1627
      @jenzo1627 Před 3 lety +61

      let me tell you something, it wont get better it gets worse day by day, ive come to a point where i just want to die in my sleep and accept death if it is right in front of my face

  • @ipreferalfredo9874
    @ipreferalfredo9874 Před 2 lety +4774

    “I’m just tired.”
    _”Did you not get enough sleep?”_
    “No, I did. It’s not that, I’m just. Tired.”

    • @rawel_pedalamankece
      @rawel_pedalamankece Před 2 lety +39

      HAY SEPONGBOB 🧽

    • @shade7115
      @shade7115 Před 2 lety +41

      Just tired.

    • @GeckoGacha
      @GeckoGacha Před 2 lety +80

      glad im not the only one whos mentally tired

    • @nycto5147
      @nycto5147 Před 2 lety +58

      I never thought of this as a symptom of depression. I just beat myself over it because I tend to be more mentally tired during school. It's so hard to focus now. I don't know what happened. I use to be the gifted kid.

    • @jellyfish7806
      @jellyfish7806 Před 2 lety +31

      Tired of life tired of being beaten up at school and coming home with bruises and hurting limbs can I vent here? I need a therapist

  • @izabellahernandez3054
    @izabellahernandez3054 Před rokem +963

    it hurts when strangers on the internet understand you more than anyone you know does

  • @itsanimechanmichaelsimp
    @itsanimechanmichaelsimp Před rokem +731

    They didn't notice you were crying
    They didn't notice you were sad
    They didn't notice you were tired
    They didn't notice you were alone
    They didn't notice how attentive you were
    They didn't notice how sweet you actually are...
    They didn't notice how you actually Try to make others smile
    They did notice you failing grades
    They did notice your unattractive
    They did notice the mean side of you
    They did notice all of your mistakes
    Thay did notice all of your flaws
    They did notice you weren't g̶o̶o̶d̶ e̶n̶o̶u̶g̶h̶ for 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒
    But you stayed strong
    You kept going on
    You never gave up on hope
    You never let them take you down
    And you knew they weren't good enough for you
    And thats what makes you stronger!
    -a random stranger

  • @chillgilli3200
    @chillgilli3200 Před 2 lety +9468

    depression: I hate living
    Anxiety: I'm afraid of death
    I can't win.

  • @izzie3931
    @izzie3931 Před 3 lety +8616

    “Were all just suicidal kids telling each other suicide is not the answer.” -unknown

    • @waterproofsocks1
      @waterproofsocks1 Před 3 lety +337

      True. I tell people good advice like, “hey your perfect no need to cover it up with makeup.” Or I say, “your body is prefect don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!” But yet I never follow my own advice I just have to same struggles as everyone else. I just like to help people :)

    • @haileywilson9764
      @haileywilson9764 Před 3 lety +82

      I agree 100% but your body & face are beautiful with or without makeup, and I love youu!:)

    • @habibi8311
      @habibi8311 Před 2 lety +73

      why tf is this so god damn true ?

    • @akemi_kozume2701
      @akemi_kozume2701 Před 2 lety +23

      Ikr

    • @kion9714
      @kion9714 Před 2 lety +27

      no one follows their advice saly

  • @rainy4967
    @rainy4967  Před 10 měsíci +136

    It's been 2 years and ty y'all for the support and the comments. ( I hope all of you are doing better

    • @raelynwalsh2328
      @raelynwalsh2328 Před 10 měsíci +2

      I feel like I have the biggest pair of rose tinted glasses on that have on Lenses that keep falling pit and each time it does it just shatters till I glue it together I used to get little flicks and small looks or sighs to let me know I said something wrong near my mom it hurt a little I thought that was just like a spanking like just disabling but I told a friend sry a bunch of friends and only two thought it was normal and I panicked each time they looked at me with that look like I was some broken child it broke those glasses till I repaired them I cried a lot the last few years so much holding back tears behind those glasses that I never feel them slip out of my eye till they hit my shirt neck or cheek I’m fine … oh another tear….

    • @eva-ov8sp
      @eva-ov8sp Před 10 měsíci

      you ok?

    • @eva-ov8sp
      @eva-ov8sp Před 10 měsíci

      @@raelynwalsh2328 how are you?

    • @wixenlol9897
      @wixenlol9897 Před 5 měsíci +1

      Lifeless as always and i find no joy in living + no motivation to do anyting i just keep smiling and move on with my day Cool playlist (if your worried iw been lifeless without any emotions since iw been 8 or 9 shorty im turning 18 we will see what my future will look)

    • @haaheehuuheho
      @haaheehuuheho Před měsícem

      ⁠@@wixenlol9897itll get better ❤ thank u for holding on

  • @alejandratmsi7449
    @alejandratmsi7449 Před rokem +112

    “Being tired and wanting to die doesn’t mean dying permanently,it’s wanting to leave that feeling” -me

  • @user-du4bu7pi2f
    @user-du4bu7pi2f Před 3 lety +1028

    Who remembers when you were like 5yrs old and you said you wanted to be 17 or 19 so you can do whatever you want?
    Yo- wtf why is this so popular-

    • @Yowdykowabunga
      @Yowdykowabunga Před 2 lety +25

      when i was 6 i wanted to cut off from my family , change my name to Zachary Williams ( hense the name ) live in a cottage or apartment in the middle of nowhere and either have a cat named Oliver or two boys named Oliver and Levi , i also wanted to a book shelve of bl manga entirely to myself , dream lasted for 4 years 😏

    • @meeme2447
      @meeme2447 Před 2 lety +8

      I regret that wish now.

    • @alainacaresse2115
      @alainacaresse2115 Před 2 lety +1

      It sucks

    • @peopleareboring8737
      @peopleareboring8737 Před 2 lety +5

      Me 14 and now I regret it I don’t want to live anymore

    • @dnll.
      @dnll. Před 2 lety +6

      i really want to be a kid again, where's the "back to 6 years old" button?

  • @popsocket6885
    @popsocket6885 Před 2 lety +3768

    “I dont wanna die but sometimes I wish that I wasnt even born at all”
    -Freddie Mercury

    • @alexdanieloliveira2294
      @alexdanieloliveira2294 Před 2 lety +9

      If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it by the way do not be shy to call for help

    • @casiii1275
      @casiii1275 Před 2 lety +83

      @@alexdanieloliveira2294 sometimes it’s the family and friends that cause the suicide

    • @partygoer1930
      @partygoer1930 Před 2 lety +43

      "hee hee"
      edit: shit wrong person

    • @xxdekodyvibinxx1738
      @xxdekodyvibinxx1738 Před 2 lety +15

      @@partygoer1930 I- uhm I wanna laugh but I think thats disrespect-

    • @partygoer1930
      @partygoer1930 Před 2 lety +10

      @@xxdekodyvibinxx1738 amongus sussy balls

  • @karlosbread7213
    @karlosbread7213 Před rokem +1797

    YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
    Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
    Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
    Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
    Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
    Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
    Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
    Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
    Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
    I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
    Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
    New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
    Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
    this is for myself

  • @Adena-fo6sh
    @Adena-fo6sh Před 4 měsíci +51

    My parents found out about my self harm recently and my dad is the only one who actually seems to care about it.
    My mom doesn't seem to care much and gives me a very annoyed face when I show any sad emotion or fear in telling her I'm struggling with math or something at all as if she truly only said those nice words when we were talking about my self harm because my dad was there and she didn't want him to know how little she cared.
    I don't know how I'm not used to it by now but it hurts a little bit.
    Stay safe now people,
    You made it this far in life which is amazing.
    I'm proud of you.
    -a random 12 yr old girl on the internet

    • @Viilikulho5555
      @Viilikulho5555 Před 2 měsíci

      i dont belive

    • @radiodust4life
      @radiodust4life Před měsícem +7

      @@Viilikulho5555 hey, this person can be going thro rlly bad shit and u say "i dont believe" you spelled it wrong. dont be doin that. Love to the person that is going thro all that

    • @sbubwoofer
      @sbubwoofer Před 10 dny +1

      it probably makes her sad. She misunderstands you. She doesn't understand how she is supposed to react. Regardless of how true the assumption is, many people think that self-harm is a way of attention-seeking, so your mom probably thinks if she ignores it then you'll stop or do it less.
      I came back to this video after about three years. I was here when it was posted, when it was new. I was like you, and around your age. I don't know how to tell you how quickly things will get better, but you have a whole life ahead of you and it's hard to see that when you're young. It's heartbreaking, but you should try and understand the way your parents act in this crucial part of your life. Understand that you are at a point where them treating you maturely and them protecting you intersects. It may feel awful, but at the end of the day you will always have your family.
      There are a lot of younger kids here. If you could do anything for yourself, spend less time online or on social media, real-life friends are the most important thing in the world, take it from me.

  • @rajanyasen1914
    @rajanyasen1914 Před 3 lety +12579

    I don't wanna stop living, I just wanna stop living like this.

  • @thatrandomcockroachunderyo2167

    “I lost myself trying to please everyone. Now im loosing everyone trying to find myself” - idk lol.

  • @gabs6201
    @gabs6201 Před rokem +253

    The fact that I was very depressed 2 years ago and now coming back to this playlist I’m like wow I’ve come a long way and I’m happy finally!

    • @PainRL_LYH
      @PainRL_LYH Před rokem +7

      I congratulate you. You are very lucky, once again congratulations).

    • @erickmelara239
      @erickmelara239 Před 11 měsíci +5

      Im happy for you @gabs6201 and try to not feel like those two years ago right now your happy and free
      You free now i love you bro (no homo tho) take care
      - YourUnknowedStranger.

    • @DazzleDaKid
      @DazzleDaKid Před 11 měsíci

      Soup.

    • @user-vj4kw8mx2o
      @user-vj4kw8mx2o Před 11 měsíci +1

      nice, good job you made it to happiness

    • @Lalaisurgirl
      @Lalaisurgirl Před 11 měsíci

      Howw

  • @missdann
    @missdann Před rokem +108

    To any kids here, I am older now but as a teenager this feeling felt suffocating and never ending. Don’t follow through with any dark thoughts, keep pushing towards the positive ones and I swear I come back to this feeling of depression and I feel a little lighter stronger and safer as I get control❤ I’m sorry we’re all here

    • @Nomi..is..g4y
      @Nomi..is..g4y Před 10 měsíci +3

      9yr old suffering here :))

    • @Mirage_Main321
      @Mirage_Main321 Před 7 měsíci +2

      14 yr old here, about to go homeless. Don't see any positive moments coming up anytime soon.

    • @ashpuppeton
      @ashpuppeton Před 6 měsíci +1

      @Mirage_Man321 14!? Holy crap! Are you okay now?

    • @Mirage_Main321
      @Mirage_Main321 Před 6 měsíci

      @@ashpuppeton Idk still seeing what happens.

    • @ashpuppeton
      @ashpuppeton Před 6 měsíci +1

      @Mirage_Main321 dang, hope everything goes well for you 🫶

  • @phrog744
    @phrog744 Před 3 lety +6676

    "I always like walking in the rain, so no one can see me crying." -Charlie Chaplin

    • @arcban510
      @arcban510 Před 2 lety +73

      That hits soo different man

    • @luxqas
      @luxqas Před 2 lety +86

      Ive done it before and honestly its amazing.

    • @turtlefact
      @turtlefact Před 2 lety +46

      waitwiat.. charlie chaplin said that??

    • @phroggy8563
      @phroggy8563 Před 2 lety +9

      woah

    • @rand0mg1rl57
      @rand0mg1rl57 Před 2 lety +16

      o-m-g, what- si. SII, WACHO RE SI

  • @meganking2304
    @meganking2304 Před 2 lety +4731

    Depression is being colorblind and constantly told how colorful the world is. -Atticus

    • @j0mana4
      @j0mana4 Před 2 lety +68

      This comment is underrated

    • @fourearwolf3315
      @fourearwolf3315 Před 2 lety +55

      That’s actually a pretty interesting way to put it🤔

    • @sobhan6867
      @sobhan6867 Před 2 lety +30

      its facts that made me depressed

    • @_MR.KITTY_
      @_MR.KITTY_ Před 2 lety +2

      @@sobhan6867 same

    • @mozartmozi7776
      @mozartmozi7776 Před 2 lety +40

      @@sobhan6867 you see scientists have studied and discovered that smart people tend to be deppresed more often soo....

  • @Emuuxi
    @Emuuxi Před rokem +138

    Hey there.
    What are you doing here so late?
    Can't sleep?
    Ah. Coming to cry in the middle of the night.
    I get that.
    It feels nice to do that, so I understand.
    Take all the time you need.
    You know, I just happened to find you stumble upon the video where I'm taking a break.
    Wanna sit down for a while?
    Tell me about what's bothering you?
    Oh, don't worry about me. I don't find you annoying.
    I wanna be here for you.
    I'll try to help as best as I can.
    I won't judge you. Everyone has their own story.
    Ah, that sucks.
    I can't begin to imagine how you must feel.
    You're so tough for getting through all of that.
    I'm so proud of you for not giving up.
    Of course I understand.
    One broken soul to another.
    I just want to remind you.
    No matter how hard it gets, please stay strong.
    Take care of yourself.
    You can't go into a battle already wounded.
    You can't wave the white flag without trying your hardest.
    This will all be over soon.
    And hey.
    If you ever need to take another break, I'm always here.
    Helping people is my specialty.
    They always find their way, one way or another.
    You can come sit down with me any time.
    I'll try to lend some advice, or just an ear to listen.
    And if this is your last time visiting me, I'm proud of you.
    My job is done.
    Go take on life with all your energy, and remember that you have one soul always cheering you on.
    You'll always have my support.
    I can't wait to see the great things you'll achieve.
    Before you go...
    I love you. ❤

  • @alguest9730
    @alguest9730 Před rokem +95

    To everyone who is doing homework,
    leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
    To everyone who is trying to sleep,
    leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
    To everyone who is feeling sad,
    grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
    To everyone who is creating something,
    you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
    _________________________________________________
    -Not mine, but pass it around!

    • @NamesAreBadness
      @NamesAreBadness Před 7 měsíci +2

      Thanks ^^

    • @user-sf1rb2dz8p
      @user-sf1rb2dz8p Před 6 měsíci

      who does homework at home fucking nerds

    • @Millerrobotics
      @Millerrobotics Před 6 měsíci +2

      Thank you for the suggestion but I will have to decline. You see, I only do this wallowing every so often. Sometimes it's good to taste tragedy

  • @naomilexinemanzanillo2124
    @naomilexinemanzanillo2124 Před 2 lety +1865

    "i dont wanna die. but im just so tired of life. so tired." -unknown

    • @victoriamalik9450
      @victoriamalik9450 Před 2 lety +10

      This.

    • @bymatteh_4093
      @bymatteh_4093 Před 2 lety +2

      pará señor depresion XD

    • @IvyFreeman
      @IvyFreeman Před 2 lety

      this.

    • @GatoHomosexual
      @GatoHomosexual Před 2 lety +2

      @@bymatteh_4093 hmm es verdad que el comentario suena algo deprimente, pero realmente piensa: hay personas que se sienten así y quizás compartiéndolo por aquí se sientan algo mejor o al menos más "comprendidos" no sé. Además, ¿quién no se ha sentido alguna vez así? Pasa que nadie o casi nadie lo dice, pero yo creo que la gente se siente así, no toda pero si una gran mayoría.

    • @ilikecatsmeowmeow
      @ilikecatsmeowmeow Před 2 lety

      This.

  • @Shm3mo
    @Shm3mo Před 3 lety +3157

    I really need a 30 minute long hug from someone who isn’t my pillow.
    Edit: Thank you all so much for all the hugs!!!😭😭 HUGS TO EVERYONE!!!🥰

    • @user-fn1gd9yc8j
      @user-fn1gd9yc8j Před 2 lety +89

      I really wish I could give you a real hug, but I can’t. Still sending a virtual hug tho! 🤗

    • @Shm3mo
      @Shm3mo Před 2 lety +40

      @@user-fn1gd9yc8j thank you😭🤗

    • @jopyy.26
      @jopyy.26 Před 2 lety +31

      ⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃ soz it isn't a real one ♡

    • @b3atricks
      @b3atricks Před 2 lety +35

      I'm sending a virtual hug, pls wait....
      I'm sorry it will take a while bc it's a 54 minute hug

    • @AREAYYN
      @AREAYYN Před 2 lety +28

      **hugs** 💖👉👈💖

  • @amouriist
    @amouriist Před rokem +29

    i’ve seen everyone sharing stories. so i thought i would too.
    i can’t really remember a lot of stuff from when i was younger, i can only remember my parents always fighting when i was 3 and seeing my dad leave because of my mom. but i didn’t think much of anything until 2nd grade, bullying and growing up made me put me in a different mind. and i realized the trauma from when i was 3 was very wrong for such a young age. i used to dream of it and think about it a lot and i got scared of loud screaming for a long time, especially when people yelled at me. and my mom got worse throughout the years, yelling at me for no reason and always finding something to yell and hit at me for. and always making my mentality worse. “why can you be like her?” “stop eating” “you’re too young to feel like this” “i wasn’t like you” “things were different back then, there are kids who don’t have anything so stop crying” *always blaming me for everything* *always manipulating me* *always taking her anger out on me whenever she’s in a bad mood* i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in middle school. i always thought of killing myself, and doing stuff but always backing out. pulling knives on my neck or holding pills in my hand. my first suicide attempt was when i was in 7th grade, i took half of a bottle of pain pills and a few of my own pills. i was listening to music and messaged my mom “i love you” even if she didn’t love me. she even admitted it one time too. i ended up at the hospital and they took me to a mental hospital and i was there for 6 days, lying when they asked me on how i was feeling. someone told me that if we tell them the wrong things or act a certain way they make us stay longer and i didn’t want to so i lied. i never told anyone how i felt. i smiled telling the doctor and nurses “i’m fine.” after, my mom didn’t talk to me about it. she acted like nothing ever happened. now im in 10th and i still have thoughts about kms, i recently found out that my mom was on birth control pills while doing the deed with my dad so i am indeed a mistake. my mom didn’t want to have another child, im just a burden to her. before i found out about it i tried opening up to my mom after i had a panic attack at school. she told me “i don’t care about your problems” and she was being a hypocrite, saying “do you wanna get thrown out on the streets?” and then she starts talking about taking her cat to the vet. my sister said “just throw the cat out of the house” “why would i do that? that’s so heartless!” oh. wow. so i had a mental breakdown when i got home and she left. i let it all out, screaming and crying and my closer sister comforted me while i felt like i was struggling to breathe and my mind was all clouded. crying out “she doesn’t care, she never did” “why am i alive” “please kill me.” my sister stayed with me, and now i trust her even though i have trust issues. i got into a fight with my oldest sister recently because she was talking about me to me so i did too. she starting hitting me while we were in the car and my mom defended her so i started screaming at them calling them names and telling them how they act. i didn’t even try to hit them while they tried hitting me because my sister is pregnant. i tried stopping them from hitting me and they did eventually but when i got home i got in trouble because my mom and my oldest sister said i was trying to hit her belly where her baby is. i didn’t get anywhere near her stomach so i just stood quiet and went to my room. i’ve learned to control my emotions and i just got out of hand so i calmed myself trying not to get mad. my brother came and got mad at me and tried hitting at me and i got out of control and started yelling at him so everyone came in my room blaming me for everything saying “you started this” but anyways here i am now just a few days after getting my phone back and going permanently virtual. this is probably too long and im probably gonna get trashed for this but🤷‍♀️

    • @mcqewanmcavoy
      @mcqewanmcavoy Před rokem +1

      Endure,in enduring grow strong.

    • @the.seagull.35
      @the.seagull.35 Před rokem +1

      I hear you... i read the whole thing. you've been treated so wrong in your life. I'm really sorry. Words are failing me in this situation honestly. Do you have anyone else to talk to? Like a friend or counselor, or pastor... it may be good to get an outsider to help you.
      I've been through some similar experiences... too many to get into here. When I was at my lowest and nobody cared about me, Jesus cared. He showed me that he forgave me... he gave his life for my sins. He answered prayers in miraculous, impossible ways. He's been there with me as a friend and Savior, in the darkest nights of my life. I know he cares so much about you... I'm here to tell you. He loves you personally. He wants to rescue you. ❤

    • @user-pz1bx9np9b
      @user-pz1bx9np9b Před 6 měsíci

      call someone. your clearly not safe there, so go and leave that house. please, consider it for me-no. consider it for YOU.

    • @Oul362
      @Oul362 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Are you doing better? Are you out of this household because there are much better places for you.

    • @georgeluke6781
      @georgeluke6781 Před 19 dny

      Just don't do it, from one to another, for what its worth

  • @Astrids_Inferno
    @Astrids_Inferno Před rokem +77

    i really can't believe this is already a year old. let me just say this: thank you. this playlist helped me get through 2021. this gave me my taste in music. i still love it even so long after. i was in an extremely low point in my life when i found this and it seriously helped me. thank you for everything you've done for me rainy, and don't stop.

  • @Azrael_Wayne
    @Azrael_Wayne Před 2 lety +2656

    "you are just lazy"
    "you're lying"
    "you haven't had anything yesterday"
    "just be normal"
    "you have everything so silent"
    "you got it from your phone"
    "what other people would pay for what you have"
    "be sociable"
    "you just say that to make you interesting"
    "you just want attention"
    "you just don't want to go to school"
    Thank you to my great parents for such great support.

    • @Ash-lc7in
      @Ash-lc7in Před 2 lety +79

      Same here...but hold on. It's gonna be okay. Believe me♡ be strong!♡

    • @ashtnoloi7523
      @ashtnoloi7523 Před 2 lety

      Fuck your support, be happy that your alive

    • @thatoneking
      @thatoneking Před 2 lety

      this 8 year old kids is getting on my nervers with this bullshit

    • @toki4111
      @toki4111 Před 2 lety +55

      yea this hits home

    • @Maki_Itsune
      @Maki_Itsune Před 2 lety +61

      I can relate so much, not to everything but particulary to:
      "be sociable"
      "you got it from your phone"
      and to
      "you are just lazy".....

  • @sofiaiamne
    @sofiaiamne Před 2 lety +3189

    “I don’t wanna die, sometimes I wish I was never born at all” _ Freddie Mercury

    • @ze4lda
      @ze4lda Před 2 lety +53

      I love him so much. I wish he was never dead :( ..

    • @sofiaiamne
      @sofiaiamne Před 2 lety +26

      @@ze4lda yes!! He was just so awesome!! :/

    • @Noah29431
      @Noah29431 Před 2 lety +12

      Now that's literally what I think of everyday :)

    • @loquatic
      @loquatic Před 2 lety +24

      without deez nutz you wouldn't have been born :/ -freddie

    • @okix2828
      @okix2828 Před 2 lety +3

      i put a happy face :)

  • @AposingHeavy
    @AposingHeavy Před 7 měsíci +18

    As a 20 y.o. man. The world has gone to shit. I got stranded in the hole I dug myself into. "Sometimes the only way to get through your pain is to walk away from it" -SennaRose. A good friend named Senna said this to me in my darkest and deepest times. I have truly seen how horrible my home life has been. The abuse. The malnutrition. Thankfully, after that, 18 years of hell, I'm out. This playlist helped.

    • @user-hu5kv4nu8e
      @user-hu5kv4nu8e Před 4 měsíci

      im glad your happy

    • @Oul362
      @Oul362 Před 3 měsíci

      It's great to hear you're out of your home and actually living now. Also anyone who guys by aposingtf2merc is a chad.

  • @springrolls4ever582
    @springrolls4ever582 Před rokem +37

    I listen to this playlist for I think over a year now. i remember when I cried to this because I felt so bad.
    It was one of the worst times in my life, but I'm in a bit better place now mentally.
    I just wanted to say that this playlist still comforts me, and to this day, it still helps me with sleeping in.
    Ik it sounds weird, but it feels like a hug when no one can see what's happening inside of you.
    I love it. Thank you so much. You don't know how glad I am to discovered this playlist.

    • @rainy4967
      @rainy4967  Před 10 měsíci +4

      I'm rlly happy for you:>. I wish you the best

    • @springrolls4ever582
      @springrolls4ever582 Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@rainy4967 Thank you sm! I wish you all the best as well! :)

  • @user-ix4mg2vw7j
    @user-ix4mg2vw7j Před 2 lety +2331

    'Crying is how your heart speaks, when your lips can't explain the pain you feel.

    • @jok7723
      @jok7723 Před 2 lety +38

      go to a psychologist

    • @loquatic
      @loquatic Před 2 lety +75

      "there's more than one purpose for those lips" -me

    • @-LoverGirl-
      @-LoverGirl- Před 2 lety +52

      @@jok7723 go find your dad :p

    • @-LoverGirl-
      @-LoverGirl- Před 2 lety +14

      Tbh this is true and kinda hits different, this comment deserves more love ❤️

    • @chuxchu1
      @chuxchu1 Před 2 lety +11

      such a writer !

  • @fryingpan2329
    @fryingpan2329 Před 2 lety +1346

    *When people in CZcams comment sections are more supportive than family/friends*
    🥲

  • @Zysa28
    @Zysa28 Před 10 měsíci +27

    Its been 2 years. I made it. Thought i wouldnt be here to say this, but, even though things are much rougher now, im doing okay. Well, even. I did it, i really pushed through, im really still here.
    And, honestly, it feels amazing being able to say that.

    • @daniADKapi80826
      @daniADKapi80826 Před 9 měsíci +4

      Good to see!!! 💕💕💕

    • @Zysa28
      @Zysa28 Před 6 měsíci +4

      Having this comment liked is great, getting reminded to keep going strong because I've made it this far already ^^

    • @EditorCerealist
      @EditorCerealist Před měsícem +1

      Keep going man. We, strangers on the internet gotchu.

    • @Zysa28
      @Zysa28 Před 21 dnem +1

      ​@@EditorCerealist tysm dude. A whole lot has changed since this comment, and things have gotten much much worse with me, but I'm still holding up 👍👍👍 hope ur doing well man

  • @JyrGT
    @JyrGT Před 5 měsíci +21

    Nothing hurts more than laying in your bed, not having anyone, knowing your lonely, knowing you have 6 people in your phone and 1 real friend you don’t even get to see, going to school with a fake smile getting made fun of and that one friend being god.

    • @jeffreypasta
      @jeffreypasta Před 5 měsíci

      whatup😎dog🐶I'm😏the😎alpha 🐺

  • @mackd2367
    @mackd2367 Před 3 lety +1834

    Yeah pretty much- it sucks too :/ aren't we teenagers? I thought this was supposed to be the best years of our lives. Yet here we are, in a pit that will probably be the death of most of us.

    • @toshinoriyagi6263
      @toshinoriyagi6263 Před 3 lety +36

      Ya
      I wouldn't be surprised if I got a heart attack and died because I eat so much to take my mind off of them so anyways bai💖

    • @strawbrryribbon
      @strawbrryribbon Před 3 lety +17

      Nah.... I'm a regular 14 year old and these songs really calm me. So no I'm not depressed. Hope your doin good tho

    • @hintofall9354
      @hintofall9354 Před 3 lety +19

      Yeah, it's hard to live up to our parents expectations. They want us to grow up but when we do they tell us we can't make decisions because we're kids. I really don't get it

    • @kownampla8035
      @kownampla8035 Před 3 lety +9

      Im just 13 and pretending to be fine. My friends knows that but still they’re trying to cheer me up but im not feeling like it. I felt like it’s just me here who dont wanna live anymore. I felt sorry for them but i just dont wanna breathe anylonger

    • @davionnit5211
      @davionnit5211 Před 3 lety +1

      bruh i have dementia and i am still happy
      fuck depresssion
      [i forgot what i wanted write here]

  • @user-ft4dn3uf7w
    @user-ft4dn3uf7w Před 3 lety +3257

    This is the perfect playlist. That’s all. That’s the comment.

  • @gorehoundanatomy
    @gorehoundanatomy Před 9 měsíci +32

    I’m proud of you for waking up.
    I’m proud of you for brushing your hair.
    I’m proud of you for blinking.
    I’m proud of you for breathing.
    I’m proud of you for making your bed.
    I’m proud of you for eating.
    I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat.
    I’m proud of you for drinking water.
    I’m proud of you for being here.
    I’m proud of you for being you.
    I’m proud of you for smiling.
    I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
    I’m proud of you for standing up.
    I’m proud of you for blinking.
    I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
    I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth.
    I’m proud of you for standing up.
    I’m proud of you for sitting down.
    I’m proud of you for defending yourself.
    I’m proud of you for believing in yourself.
    I’m proud of you for simply trying.
    I’m proud of you for being alive.
    IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥
    not mine, just passing it around for people who need it the most

  • @Skullzzzz101
    @Skullzzzz101 Před rokem +19

    Kid me: I wanna be older now
    Me now: can I be a kid again.. no? Okay..
    My mind in school: don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail
    My mind at home: why are my parents screaming at me I did nothing..
    My mind with friends: what if they are fake friends I just wanna vent to them I try they never listen to me they only vent to me why can’t I never vent
    My mind with my crush: I love them just stop being scared just tell them you love them.. oh they moved away I never got to tell them….
    My mind: GO JUMP OFF I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN SCHOOL IS THE ONLY FUN PLACE IM A CRYBABY BITCH I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME

    • @Millerrobotics
      @Millerrobotics Před 6 měsíci

      The static of facade mask the noise of the cries and pleas. Don't kneel. Don't submit to death. That's exactly what it wants you to do.

    • @user-pz1bx9np9b
      @user-pz1bx9np9b Před 6 měsíci

      be strong. look at those who are hurting you, and laugh. the second you love someone, just see if they don't despise you, then become friends. tell your parents to give you space, or to leave you alone. just listen to your friends, then slowly release small stories about yourself, venting that way. be strong, get better, rest, eat, drink, hug a stranger, anything... for those who secretly love you.

  • @jesushatsunemiku6165
    @jesushatsunemiku6165 Před 3 lety +1802

    Just a reminder to people: traumacore isn’t an aesthetic, it’s a coping mechanism
    Edit: not trying to ‘gatekeep’ in anyway, just wanted to put this out there so people don’t treat it like a style e.g goth, cottagecore, Lolita etc
    Edit 2: ur all missing my point lmao. Traumacore is a creative coping mechanism, where you can create playlists or audio or images or literally anything. I understand there’s creativity and a sort of beauty in it but again, it’s not an aesthetic.

    • @DvrkLv4R
      @DvrkLv4R Před 3 lety +34

      Exactly.

    • @malikazimulinda5810
      @malikazimulinda5810 Před 3 lety +40

      the songs i fire but why make trauma aesthetic. 2021 is whack at this point.

    • @andrewkvk1707
      @andrewkvk1707 Před 3 lety +49

      Don't idolize the bad, but the art can still contain beauty.

    • @OfficiallyOtto
      @OfficiallyOtto Před 3 lety +8

      Yep

    • @cupidcuts3558
      @cupidcuts3558 Před 3 lety +24

      mhm, i hate it when people make it as one, it's truly sickening.

  • @dddamintyio4290
    @dddamintyio4290 Před 2 lety +799

    remember those days when we pretend to be sad? haha, the table really took a backflip after we hitted our teenage years.

    • @Jasper380
      @Jasper380 Před 2 lety +20

      I used to fake adhd and it backfired because now i have to take stuff for it because i actually have it

    • @dddamintyio4290
      @dddamintyio4290 Před 2 lety +7

      @@Jasper380 lmao samee, I truly regret it

    • @peopleareboring8737
      @peopleareboring8737 Před 2 lety +2

      Facts

    • @applebaby1968
      @applebaby1968 Před 2 lety +11

      I truly regret doing all that stupid shit

    • @Emmarhurt
      @Emmarhurt Před 2 lety +7

      Bestie are u okay? Drink some water and go outside. I'm here if you need me, but otherwise have a good day today okay? Atleast try. I know you can do it :)

  • @LifeWithGia12
    @LifeWithGia12 Před 10 měsíci +2

    It really hurts when you’re giving hints left and right that you’re depressed or when you’re not comfortable but some strange reason no one ever notices

  • @alicsaep
    @alicsaep Před 6 měsíci +13

    *gives virtual hugs to everyone struggling because I know what it's like and want everyone to know that it's not their fault and that they're a wonderful person :3* (IDK HOW TO COMFORT I'M SO SORRY IF THIS SOUNDS CHEESY)

  • @KIDDO-kid
    @KIDDO-kid Před 2 lety +2330

    "Wanting to die isn't wanting to disappear forever, its wanting to go to a better world, a world you wished was better that this one"
    -- me

    • @oilman6937
      @oilman6937 Před 2 lety +45

      you can't quote yourself unless someone else quoted you first

    • @KIDDO-kid
      @KIDDO-kid Před 2 lety +29

      @@oilman6937 oh really? I didn’t know that

    • @KIDDO-kid
      @KIDDO-kid Před 2 lety +15

      @@oilman6937 should I fix it?

    • @oilman6937
      @oilman6937 Před 2 lety +50

      @@KIDDO-kid nah i gotchu, quoted you outloud to someone so you can now quote yourself

    • @KIDDO-kid
      @KIDDO-kid Před 2 lety +15

      @@oilman6937 ooooh ok cool :)

  • @she-they6046
    @she-they6046 Před 3 lety +631

    Traumacore isn't supposed to be an aesthetic, it's a coping mechanism. That's the point of this playlist, but sadly, there are some people who think its "edgy", thanks for making this playlist btw,♡

    • @juliar4804
      @juliar4804 Před 3 lety +45

      literally every "alt" girl on tiktok made traumacore an aesthetic like wtf

    • @joovsf
      @joovsf Před 2 lety +19

      @@juliar4804 alt ppl can be toxic sometimes, but some dont make it an aesthetic

    • @ioveoru
      @ioveoru Před 2 lety +12

      core means a type of aesthetic but okay

    • @Emmarhurt
      @Emmarhurt Před 2 lety +22

      Calling it "core" means that it's an aesthetic. That's why so many people are complaining. Before the word "Traumacore" even came to be, people still used music as a coping mechanism. It doesn't mean we need to suddenly call it "traumacore" because all that does is makes is easy for people to glamorize trauma and that just puts a heavy influence on kids these days. We can't let them grow up in a society where they want to have the traumacore aesthetic. Because most of us here know that having trauma isn't all sunshine and rainbows. (But it also doesn't mean that you can't come through it in the end!) I'm just saying that we shouldn't normalize the word "traumacore" because it's messed up to throw it in the same category as cottagecore, kidcore, clowncore, goth, "alt" , etc. Because those are all aesthetics. See where I'm coming from?

    • @Emmarhurt
      @Emmarhurt Před 2 lety +6

      @@juliar4804 although I would fit the stereotype of "alt" I don't agree with making "traumacore" an aesthetic.

  • @Hoo207
    @Hoo207 Před 7 měsíci +5

    “The internet ruined you.”
    No. The internet raised me. That was supposed to be your job. Why didn’t you do it? I get you love me. And that you wanted me. But love just isn’t good enough. Mum

  • @rhomtown2000
    @rhomtown2000 Před rokem +16

    Traumacore music are the only playlists I can listen to while having a migraines. It hurts physically to think but my mind can’t stop driving a hundred miles an minuye. This helps me sort of daze off. Thank you 💜

  • @lov33.toniii
    @lov33.toniii Před 3 lety +205

    when i was a kid all i thought was "oh i cant wait to grow up!!" "i cant wait to be a teenager!" oh boy how was a wrong..all i do these day is stay up until 6 in the morning and wake u at 4pm and never leaving my room..9 and its been like this for almost 2 -3 years now and my mom is always saying to come out of my room, and she'll come to me asking if i need therapy but i just dont like talking to people and not seeing someone for about 1 year the social anxiety has gotten even worse.. and then there is my sisters who "joke' around and say stuff like "OMG PLS BAHAHA SHE ACTS DEPRESSED IT HONESTLY EMMBERESING" do you know how much that hurts to hear from your sisters? honestly sometimes i actually do think about leaving the earth but then again i dont want to die yk? i just want to be somewhere where i dont have to care or think about anything no stress, no parents yelling at me, no school, no nothing in general somewhere where i can just sit and read without anything to care about in the world...

    • @furballscave4431
      @furballscave4431 Před 3 lety +4

      same especially that last part, thats all i want, to not stress, not have to worry about the future and everything, not feel trapped, etc.

    • @MarissaChillya
      @MarissaChillya Před 2 lety +1

    • @x.soph.x1111-tiktok
      @x.soph.x1111-tiktok Před 2 lety

      Uno reversee

    • @goroulatte2645
      @goroulatte2645 Před 2 lety

      i still wanna grow up. that way, i can go out and escape from “home”.

    • @Thatduck4life
      @Thatduck4life Před 2 lety

      You alright? But listen here.. sometimes talking to strangers about how you feel are better then talking with a therapist nothing too personal just talk about how you feel and they’ll understand you so well! That it feels like a dream knowing a stranger knows you and understands you more well then your own parents!

  • @user-0613
    @user-0613 Před 2 lety +624

    “whats wrong”
    i can’t tell you without being silenced.

    • @loquatic
      @loquatic Před 2 lety +2

      silenced by deez nutz ONG BRO

    • @3o29wje
      @3o29wje Před 2 lety +10

      @@loquatic wtf this ain't a joke

    • @loquatic
      @loquatic Před 2 lety +1

      @@3o29wje this ain’t build a bitch :/ you don’t get to pick and choose :(

    • @user-0613
      @user-0613 Před 2 lety

      @@loquatic we

    • @lesserafimlover69
      @lesserafimlover69 Před 2 lety +1

      @@loquatic can i have ur alpha pp🥺🥺🥺

  • @vixxleenaxx8950
    @vixxleenaxx8950 Před rokem +11

    I just found this playlist while I browsing for music so I can write my letters. I feel empty and tired of living this life and I just don't want to keep going. I was comforted with this playlist and was able to have a good cry. I think I was saving all these tears and to finally let them out is a relief I haven't felt in so long. I may feel depressed and suicidal but this playlist and the comments I read have given me a little more motivation to keep going. Thank you 💗💗

    • @user-pz1bx9np9b
      @user-pz1bx9np9b Před 6 měsíci

      hey. stay strong. make a friend, have a good cry, get a hug from a stranger, anything. be tough, get better, rest... small things mean everything when your like this. i hope your a little better.

    • @Oul362
      @Oul362 Před 3 měsíci

      You still there?

  • @betaBeta-cx8yp
    @betaBeta-cx8yp Před 7 měsíci +9

    It’s been 2 years now, time moves on fast doesn’t it? This playlist got me through so many things, this playlist is one of the few reasons I’m alive. And for that, I am grateful internally it always helped me de-realize and think of alternate dimensions where I can be happy and that’s my goal. Life comes through with many obstacles, it may seem quite literally impossible to get through some. But just know that no matter what if you’re willing to try, if you can reach out, just know there will always be people who’ll be there to have your back. I completely know that not a lot of people may revisit this video after a few more years but to those who do and come across this comment I hope you’re having a wonderful life. I’ll be more than happy to give advice and reach out, but that’s only if you’ll try

    • @Lisaisboredagain
      @Lisaisboredagain Před 7 měsíci +1

      I love you so much! 🧡 You're inspiring! 🤗✨

    • @layall.
      @layall. Před 7 měsíci +1

      For the first time in a long time I decided to read the comments and your words... I really needed this. You made my day better, thanks ❤❤

  • @quirinoguy8665
    @quirinoguy8665 Před 2 lety +503

    "The obsession with suicide is characteristic of the man who can neither live nor die, and whose attention never swerves from this double impossibility."
    -Emile Cioran

  • @jaz5164
    @jaz5164 Před 2 lety +668

    Okay pls tell me I’m not the only one who uses daydreaming, books, and art as a way to disconnect with reality cuz I low key hate it here lol

    • @rostumbellosillo1549
      @rostumbellosillo1549 Před 2 lety +9

      ur not the only one bestie :)

    • @wil8743
      @wil8743 Před 2 lety +9

      not the only one. For me those escapes feel more real than reality

    • @fhrog
      @fhrog Před 2 lety +6

      it's the only way I cope lol

    • @ImazuKyoko
      @ImazuKyoko Před 2 lety +8

      That's free therapy for me. Yes

    • @Sunkisfather
      @Sunkisfather Před 2 lety +3

      your not, i do the same

  • @shinybearevidra
    @shinybearevidra Před 10 měsíci +6

    There are a lot of people in the comment section who are in... not good places mentally.
    For all of you, I swear it can get better,
    I'm someone who got through it: after years of getting worse (up to self punishments and attempts of ending it all) even with the "help" of various psychologists, I got a diagnosis for anxiety and depression and finally found the help I actually needed.
    It was scary at first, feeling... sad, like I had given up, the worthlessness, they were better than the numbness of feeling almost nothing at all: it was like the void left by their absence was too big to be filled by anything else.
    Eventually, though, with therapy (one of my assignments was to participate in group projects, then I met a few times a therapist) and the few friends that sticked around even when I started spiraling, eventually it was enough.
    I won't say the Sun seemed to shine brighter and the grass was greener, it doesn't work like that: instead, it felt like I finally wasn't being carried around, dragged by the current, or that my feet moved mindlessly on their own, but instead I was the one walking, I was the one speaking, not just a voicebox, I found myself wanting to do something with myself for the first time in a long while. I found myself crying easily, instead of not having any more tears to spare, and even the laughter sounded more genuine to my friends.
    It's okay to be depressed, it's okay to fall and it's okay to rest for a while.
    It's okay to feel worthless, it's okay to just not want to be there.
    It's fundamental to understand, though, that nothing stays still, even if it appears to be so: we are always changing, for better or worse, and it's beautiful, as it allows us all to find new paths, wherever they might take us.
    I'm not trying to "cure your depression" here, I know it doesn't work like that, I just wish that, if you read this far, you could find something to hold on to, someone to confide in, and allow those who care about you to help.
    Because one of the things I learned through this and even later looking back, is that even if I felt alone, it was actually a wall I ended up building myself after getting hurt one too many times and I had made it too high.
    I'm 22 now, the scars I have on my arms are white, almost invisible, against the light tan and I have a new diagnosis in a folder, ADHD with a sprinkle of autism and I can't help myself sometimes and I think that, had I known it earlier, it would have saved me a lot of issues.
    All in all, I can finally say that I'm alright. Not the happiest person in the world, sure, but it's enough.
    I'm enough.
    You are enough.
    If you can't talk, then write, draw, play an instrument, sing: I don't even mean about you and your experience, it can be about anything.
    Just let it out.

  • @Stephanie-uk5de
    @Stephanie-uk5de Před 6 měsíci +7

    If you think you are useless, your not. Think of the white colored pencil. Everyone called it useless but its perfect for drawing on black paper or for blending other colors. You are a bit different like the white colored pencil. Sure you may not be as good at things as most others but you are far from useless. Keep going. If not for yourself do it for the fact that you mean a lot to someone out there. You may not know them but out there you may be someones world. So dont stop. It doesn't matter how slow you move as long as you keep going. ❤

    • @nebulaticbee
      @nebulaticbee Před měsícem +1

      This, This is what I needed, I actually started crying reading this...

  • @justbeignsily
    @justbeignsily Před 2 lety +570

    “ People will leave you without a single reason and come back with a million excuses. “
    - Unknown

  • @harpermerritt13
    @harpermerritt13 Před 3 lety +649

    ah, they said being a teenager would be fun. not being sexually harassed on the internet.

    • @pablo_giustiniani
      @pablo_giustiniani Před 3 lety +13

      Get out of Discord, like, yesterday

    • @harpermerritt13
      @harpermerritt13 Před 2 lety +1

      @@pablo_giustiniani wre you yelling me to get off discord ?

    • @pablo_giustiniani
      @pablo_giustiniani Před 2 lety +32

      @@harpermerritt13 Pro tip: don't EVER interact with strangers in Discord, people there are sad people at the very least, irredemable degerates at the worst

    • @cannedsodapop7047
      @cannedsodapop7047 Před 2 lety +20

      I'm sorry are you okay, I don't know how it feels to be in that situation but I hope you are doing better now.Best of luck.

    • @harpermerritt13
      @harpermerritt13 Před 2 lety +8

      @@cannedsodapop7047 i’m okay now ! :)

  • @Mannixxpa
    @Mannixxpa Před rokem +11

    Playlists like these help me a lot when I start to dwell on my past. I have lots of medical and mental health trauma, so hearing these songs and seeing positive comments always helps me. ^^
    And for those who say that traumacore is disgusting, please understand that it is for those like me who have had traumatic experiences and need help calming down. It’s not an aesthetic that is being glorified.

  • @zombocularsbinoculars5050

    If anyone sees this I just want to tell you, that it will hurt today, and it will hurt tomorrow, it will probably hurt the day after and after and after but, eventually it doesn’t hurt as much

  • @rawrmydude7368
    @rawrmydude7368 Před 2 lety +1546

    This hits so much harder when you sitting in school and you check your grades to see that you failing in multiple classes after being the "gifted kid" all your life
    Edit: Hey so I saw a lot of replys relating which makes sense so if any of you need to vent you are welcome too! Just I hope you all know that your grades shouldn't determine how you or your family treats you. Also your grades should not determine if you do certain things you need to do for human surival like eating, sleeping, ect. Just know that atleast one person in the world cares about you and if tour still alive, happy, or whatever. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a person on the internet just know that someone cares about you. (Sorry if that was kinda cringe I just want you all to know that you matter)

  • @elizabethcasanova6656
    @elizabethcasanova6656 Před 2 lety +386

    Someone once said "The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" please remember that

    • @metalfamilyfanandqueenfan
      @metalfamilyfanandqueenfan Před rokem +2

      True, people say I have pretty eyes but I do cry alot.

    • @nopolegamer2029
      @nopolegamer2029 Před rokem +2

      How do I copy it?

    • @TheOmniBandit
      @TheOmniBandit Před 11 měsíci +3

      The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" almost all of those fit me but the prettiest smile the prettiest eyes i dont feel like that i feel like i have lost all my chuldhood even though im still a child i have ruined my life i feel like i dont deserve to cry the man cant even spell yeah because iam a kid and corrupted i try to sceam for hepl but i know its just gonna not work i try to ry out i try to fit in i hope im diffrent i dont know if i am or im i jsut dont know i nee hep i dont know please does anyonek know how to fix my broken childhood I DONT KNOW please anyone please ii dont know please i dont know will someone tell me how t o live as achild again i wish i coldd forget i want to orget but icant someoen please help edit sorr yfor all the spelling mistakes i just type to fast sometimes sorry

    • @TheOmniBandit
      @TheOmniBandit Před 11 měsíci +3

      ..please dont hate me please im actually scared now

    • @FiredEggs_on_pawz
      @FiredEggs_on_pawz Před 10 měsíci +1

      the sad thing is I have all of those things

  • @RinLikesDinosaurs
    @RinLikesDinosaurs Před rokem +15

    Traumacore playlists really help me cope with the ptsd I have. Tysm for making these

    • @DazzleDaKid
      @DazzleDaKid Před 11 měsíci

      Soup. Gray. 😂.😅. Orange. Yeet.

  • @rika_chan0019
    @rika_chan0019 Před 6 měsíci +5

    Those feelings that your chest is heavy but not a single tear drop down

  • @gansetsukon
    @gansetsukon Před 3 lety +379

    I miss my girlfriend, she passed away last month due to covid, I just want to hug her one more time, say how much I love her, and reasure her that everything will be ok so she can go in peace
    I just can't believe this happened, after years of relationship, since we were teenagers, almost half of our lives together, and I couldn't even say goodbye
    We were so close to get married too

  • @legalalienyes3160
    @legalalienyes3160 Před 3 lety +282

    We are all slowly dying just some faster than others

  • @Star_Siri24
    @Star_Siri24 Před rokem +5

    A few years before I was born, my mom almost drove herself into a light pole. Now i sit here knowing that if i did something, then people would be sad, but it hurts knowing that my dad is off living his life with his wife and daughter. A daughter that is better than me. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough dad. I'll try better next time...

    • @iLeviathan
      @iLeviathan Před 5 měsíci

      I do hope you know that youre not worse than her, nor inferior. It is not ever caused by such a black and white issue, nothing is that simple. You probably are not even fully aware of what caused this situation not to defend him, but just so you realize you dont need to try for that.

  • @jemjem461
    @jemjem461 Před rokem +7

    To anyone who needs this, I hope you feel better soon!
    If you are going through a bad time please talk to someone, a lot of people care about you and will listen!
    Bad times always pass eventually, you are so strong and I know you can get through this!
    You are worth so much and you deserve happiness!
    Always prioritize your mental health, take breaks when you need them!
    You are doing great, I'm so proud of you

    • @wolfywolves
      @wolfywolves Před 9 měsíci +1

      "a lot of people care about you" you know the reason a lot of people are depressed and suicidal is because they DONT have someone

    • @jemjem461
      @jemjem461 Před 9 měsíci

      @@wolfywolves I'm sorry that my words hurt you, that was never my intention.
      I thought that sometimes some people don't realize that others care about them and will listen to their problems.
      I thought maybe giving a little reminder that there are people that care about them would help.
      But perhaps I thought wrong or my execution of the message wasn't good.
      Is there is any way I could say it better or is there is something else I could say?
      Again I'm sorry for hurting you and/or others with my words.
      I hope you have a good day and that things get better for you

  • @probablyabutterfly1026
    @probablyabutterfly1026 Před 2 lety +261

    y'all know that feeling when you're crying and, at a random point, you just go find yourself a mirror then start doing weird faces to laugh at, later realizing how miserable your life is, or is it just me??

    • @jopyy.26
      @jopyy.26 Před 2 lety +7

      (っ^_^)っI do that too

    • @jok7723
      @jok7723 Před 2 lety +1

      go to a psychologist

    • @skatrboy9748
      @skatrboy9748 Před 2 lety +3

      yeah, except I'm like
      ✌😗💧✌

    • @plshelpme4475
      @plshelpme4475 Před 2 lety +9

      @@jok7723 woah so cool, telling everyone to go to a psychologist like it means something

    • @tfabrygel
      @tfabrygel Před 2 lety +1

      @@skatrboy9748 And i found the dsmp fan i was looking for in the comments :>

  • @mersi--2887
    @mersi--2887 Před 3 lety +2235

    Parents:where is the old u? U changed
    Idk man u killed her she's not coming back -,-

  • @isamaee8416
    @isamaee8416 Před rokem +4

    I hope you know that I just recently rediscovered this playlist. This playlist really did help me through some super tough times. I tried to find this for like an hour because I wanted to push myself back to the time I was in such a terrible mental state but still didn’t care what others thought of me. I wanted to rediscover that side of me (aside from the bad mental state thing) . Thank you 💓

  • @sallsara4549
    @sallsara4549 Před rokem +3

    I listen to this playlist every single day for how long it's out (about a year and some months i think). It's my escape from reality playlist. I listen to it when I am reading, drawing, eating and all kinds of times. Thank you for this playlist. It helped me trough rough
    times when I was mostly mentally abused by my parents, so thank you. I really mean this.

  • @KumoriKid
    @KumoriKid Před 3 lety +663

    for anyone who cried thru this
    me too dude :(

    • @averyburn
      @averyburn Před 3 lety +9

      I hope you feel better:) get some rest and try to pick yourself back up:) I know it rough but try your best:) even if it seems hopeless
      Lmao sorry I just feel like your going through something. And if your not I'm sorry for bothering:/

    • @amityblight9448
      @amityblight9448 Před 3 lety

      same bro

    • @keiramartin8185
      @keiramartin8185 Před 3 lety +2

      I cant cry anymore.

    • @cjthatsit
      @cjthatsit Před 3 lety

      TvT

    • @Balloony222
      @Balloony222 Před 3 lety

      I’m currently uncontrollably crying, holding a pocket knife, contemplating cutting myself

  • @bitesthedutch6926
    @bitesthedutch6926 Před 2 lety +931

    The only good thing about when i'm alone is the fact that I can imagine a perfect life, Without screaming and shouting coming from the other room.

    • @leorichard7955
      @leorichard7955 Před 2 lety +9

      if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.

    • @stronglylondon4180
      @stronglylondon4180 Před 2 lety +3

      i hope you feel better i know i can't do anything about it but if this keeps happening try listening to a song that you like or cover your head with a pillow so its not as loud, i know this may not help..at all but hey just remember even if that goes on were ever you are just know your loved and you should not harm yourself because of this. stay safe

    • @mishmishglicher5283
      @mishmishglicher5283 Před 2 lety +2

      well , when my parents had fights i was playing video games to ignore it

    • @mymdice9795
      @mymdice9795 Před rokem

      😢

    • @Chiswum
      @Chiswum Před rokem +1

      I come to this video often,, I suit this comment with my parents yelling at my brother, him yelling, just a web of in-humane screaming and threats. All I can do is try to stop it or sit down and cry

  • @ChupapiMynana
    @ChupapiMynana Před 7 měsíci +3

    Tbh I found that Video only today and I was Just listening music and reading comment's, and they make me cry (or music,or both but Who care if even I dont care) and I reiterated the fact that there would be no false comments under such videos, just to get attention. We are just strangers to each other, maybe even from another country and speaking a different national language, but we are united by this type of video. Thank you to all the authors of such videos, you make our lives That is filled with hatred for people and fatigue better. Thank you so much. Love you all

  • @FantimeNarjis6646
    @FantimeNarjis6646 Před 10 měsíci +4

    Tysm for this I well always play this cuz these are my last 2 month in this earth but for who ever is reading this live your life to the fullest and have fun while u can and always remember that you are beautiful no matter what ❤

  • @greyy7638
    @greyy7638 Před 3 lety +638

    This playlist makes my chest hurt, but no matter how hard I try the tears just won't come out :/

  • @tiffanytarrazona4176
    @tiffanytarrazona4176 Před 3 lety +750

    Ive stopped doing it! Im proud of myself, i may have lost my friends and my grades got lower but i've coped with it now. Goodluck to all of you

    • @fahriya7916
      @fahriya7916 Před 3 lety +40

      So damn proud. You got this. You deserve the best there is, so keep going strong! Lots of love!

    • @aisamutu3668
      @aisamutu3668 Před 3 lety +32

      You're doing right sweetie, please keep up, you're strong and you got this!! We're proud of you please don't forget that

    • @aphelion7756
      @aphelion7756 Před 3 lety +20

      I’m so proud of you!! You deserve that freedom and love so much. I love you, keep doing what your doing as long as it makes you happy 💜

    • @Two_7042
      @Two_7042 Před 3 lety +13

      congrats! stay strong, im proud of you!!

    • @Ps-qd4us
      @Ps-qd4us Před 3 lety +13

      SO PROUD!!!!! CAN WORDS EVEN DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM FOR YOU!!!!!

  • @multihorse
    @multihorse Před 3 měsíci +1

    this playlist has helped me feel related to and understood to some degree for the past two years through the end of high school to college. thanks for making it.

  • @ashpuppeton
    @ashpuppeton Před 6 měsíci +4

    The internet is basically my home. There's a lot of toxic people, but there's people that understand me more than people I know irl. Honestly, it hurts. I don't know why people that know me more than strangers don't understand my pain, but strangers do. I always wanted to talk to someone about my problems, but nobody in my life ever did. Only the people on the internet. One person in real life that would talk to my about my psin, and would relate to me is my best friend. I'm so grateful for her. But then again, why can't anyone else do the same?

  • @a.lexbeaulieu
    @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety +200

    " you guys blame and gang up on me, but now you're gonna pretend to be good people? " - kokichi ouma
    this quote just stuck to me, because it's exactly how my family is, they do it. every time. they ask why I'm always on my phone, it's because it is what makes me happy, they just give me dysphoria, panic attacks, and a ruined mood. and it's like they "try their best" to make me happy, but they just need to shut up and accept me for who I am. thank you for coming to my ted talk

    • @MAMRA
      @MAMRA Před 2 lety +4

      this quote speaks my life

    • @a.lexbeaulieu
      @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety

      @@MAMRA same

    • @meguumy8747
      @meguumy8747 Před 2 lety +3

      i kinda need that idk why

    • @marybeth2968
      @marybeth2968 Před 2 lety +4

      as a kokichi kinnie, and let alone, a victim of emotional abuse, this quote also sticks with me.

    • @a.lexbeaulieu
      @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety

      @Y0kū the dysphoria is gone, but my anxiety is getting worse. Stay strong too, you got this

  • @legallydeaf
    @legallydeaf Před 2 lety +63

    I love how some people on the internet have talked to me more in the span of ten minutes more than my family has in ten years
    and by love I mean it doesn't surprise me anymore

  • @htsgm
    @htsgm Před rokem +7

    i remember listening to this aproximately 1 year ago
    im just glad its better now
    if anyone is reading this it gets better never lose hope no matter which situation you are in right now

    • @htsgm
      @htsgm Před 10 měsíci

      look at where im at again
      dont lose hope if anyone reads this

    • @htsgm
      @htsgm Před 21 dnem

      im never going to get better am i

  • @crptpw3472
    @crptpw3472 Před rokem +1

    its been 2 years and i still listen to this play list, thank you!

  • @josephjoestar9576
    @josephjoestar9576 Před 2 lety +1055

    people in the comments "TrAuMa iSnT aN aEsThEtiC" stfu this is just a playlist of songs that are calming and helping to let go of your feelings. I listen to this because it allows me to cry, and it helps me if i cry. Trauma isnt an aesthetic, but traumacore is just a lable for playlist that can give comfort.

    • @starlightfoxie6470
      @starlightfoxie6470 Před 2 lety +50

      Traumacore literally makes an aesthetic out of trauma.

    • @mewhenthedogsout6723
      @mewhenthedogsout6723 Před 2 lety +31

      They're tryna say it for people who dont understand/ think that it is an aesthetic
      :)

    • @squiddlyyee4750
      @squiddlyyee4750 Před 2 lety +14

      I have been scrolling the comments, r/iam14andthisisdeep material, come on, that "unkown" is you

    • @lxx_55
      @lxx_55 Před 2 lety +14

      @@starlightfoxie6470 maybe but it helps :/

    • @starlightfoxie6470
      @starlightfoxie6470 Před 2 lety +11

      @@lxx_55 No it doesn't.

  • @ovie.is.irrelevant6848
    @ovie.is.irrelevant6848 Před 2 lety +569

    Once upon a time there lived a kid. The kid had caring but strict parents, so they felt that they couldn’t be themselves around them. The kid has friends but they were only friends with the person the kid pretended to be. One day the kid was walking and saw a very sad and tired looking person. The kid thought “wow that person is really sad looking. They should go talk to someone or find help” after each day the kid walked by the person and noticed that they never spoke to anybody in the same tone they spoke to them selfs with. And that they never tried to seek help with the way they were feeling. The kid felt pity for the person. One day the kid decided to try to talk to the sad person but as they got closer to the person the kid came to a realization. The thing they saw wasn’t a person. It was a mirror.
    Hello.
    I am the kid.

  • @Article_99
    @Article_99 Před rokem +9

    Honestly I’m not depressed I just wanna look for good music and this is the best thing right now

    • @gachalusaxxx.770
      @gachalusaxxx.770 Před 10 měsíci

      damn, true tho, and sometimes some heart-hitting music is what you need.

    • @Article_99
      @Article_99 Před 10 měsíci

      @@gachalusaxxx.770 DAWGGGGG THAT WAS 11 MONTHS AGO CHILL TF OUT

    • @gachalusaxxx.770
      @gachalusaxxx.770 Před 10 měsíci

      @@Article_99 I AM CHILLL!!

    • @Millerrobotics
      @Millerrobotics Před 6 měsíci

      Outlier

  • @ajarofworms7
    @ajarofworms7 Před 2 lety +1840

    I don’t want to die
    I just want to go into an alternate reality where everything is perfect
    All people are nice
    All food tastes good
    All days are weekends
    Everyone is friends
    Everyone is happy
    Everyone is kind
    Nothing is wrong…

    • @crowdycrowded2278
      @crowdycrowded2278 Před 2 lety +41

      There is no such thing as a perfect world... that is why I must erase it...
      *play Chosen By The Planet*
      Walks away in a wall of flames
      "COME BACK YOU FIEND! COME AND FIGHT!"

    • @ajarofworms7
      @ajarofworms7 Před 2 lety +7

      @@crowdycrowded2278 YES

    • @leorichard7955
      @leorichard7955 Před 2 lety +4

      @@ajarofworms7 If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help...

    • @meatperson9949
      @meatperson9949 Před 2 lety +6

      If the world was perfect it also wouldn't be because people would take it away, good and bad are nonexistent

    • @ajarofworms7
      @ajarofworms7 Před 2 lety +6

      @@leorichard7955 ok, but the thing is, I said in the very first line I don’t want to die-
      Bc if I die my friends and family will be sad
      Also living is kinda, cool

  • @rav8634
    @rav8634 Před 2 lety +737

    At one point, idk when, but my tears just stopped and now i just lock myself in my room and laugh pathetically at my misery because no one except a bunch of strangers online get it

  • @strawberryfrog4132
    @strawberryfrog4132 Před rokem +3

    I love this playlist and the comments I can relate to them so well and it’s nice to know I’m not alone in this anymore

  • @thedarktemper1652
    @thedarktemper1652 Před rokem

    Thank you for this playlist much appreciated

  • @aris9547
    @aris9547 Před 2 lety +616

    "I rather be alone then be with the wrong person"- L from deathnote.

    • @ChaoticVine
      @ChaoticVine Před 2 lety +7

      I forgot he said that. So sad to see now

    • @aris9547
      @aris9547 Před 2 lety

      @ruupaduuri same ;/

    • @aris9547
      @aris9547 Před 2 lety

      @ruupaduuri ??

    • @-jay-sam-
      @-jay-sam- Před 2 lety +1

      @ruupaduuri so? They said same? It ok if they have L as a confort person..
      Pls stfu

    • @mandyko
      @mandyko Před 2 lety +3

      @ruupaduuri light yagami isnt the best example of a comfort person lol

  • @amandazoe6783
    @amandazoe6783 Před 2 lety +1319

    "Strangers hurt you" what a big lie ... Strangers have helped me, thanks to people I do not know, they have helped me a lot to open my eyes and realize the bad and the good that surrounds me, thanks for making me stronger, I adore them

    • @decentlysmartforanidiot8284
      @decentlysmartforanidiot8284 Před 2 lety +32

      Strangers on the internet have been way more help to me than my real life family and friends.

    • @Faeridollz
      @Faeridollz Před 2 lety +8

      I agree- tbh Parents and strangers are literally Giving me pain I’ve always feel uncomfortable whith their words but ofc I’ve always hated my brother he ruined my childhood and hit me really badly and in this day I will never forgive him

    • @ThySillyOne
      @ThySillyOne Před 2 lety +8

      Correction: online stangers. Or at least in my opinion, i dont trust irl strangers

    • @decentlysmartforanidiot8284
      @decentlysmartforanidiot8284 Před 2 lety +4

      @@ThySillyOne true

    • @ako7647
      @ako7647 Před 2 lety +4

      Aww don't worry we will be always here if you needs us 😊

  • @skwisheslemonade3513
    @skwisheslemonade3513 Před 4 měsíci +3

    It hurts when even your close friends seem distant.

  • @ayesha7778
    @ayesha7778 Před rokem +1

    i listen to this everytime i get hard flashbacks and it helps,thank you:")

  • @Red-ph3cd
    @Red-ph3cd Před 3 lety +456

    i love how this has 1M views. Shows how lowkey depressed our generation is god DAMN!

    • @whiteeyedshadow8423
      @whiteeyedshadow8423 Před 2 lety +20

      Every generations been like this, the thing about the internet is that it makes everything visible
      the world hasn't gotten any more racist, but we know more about it, same thing here.

    • @avuaronar6815
      @avuaronar6815 Před 2 lety +5

      True but it's just me having this on loop 24/7, half of the views are mine 😩😩

    • @avuaronar6815
      @avuaronar6815 Před 2 lety

      @@jackie4734 im not a girl bestie

    • @gleesyy
      @gleesyy Před 2 lety +1

      @@whiteeyedshadow8423 well said

    • @trinity121_fire6
      @trinity121_fire6 Před 2 lety

      2.1 mil actually

  • @a.lexbeaulieu
    @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety +131

    " think about it, suicide means you killed the most important person. *yourself* " - monokuma

    • @roozufahkerson729
      @roozufahkerson729 Před 2 lety

      @@will_byers9246 same lmao

    • @tsuihozaki9788
      @tsuihozaki9788 Před 2 lety

      @Filip Sobczak nobody is useless, we all have something to do in life. you are someone's important person without you realizing it. even if i don't know you at all, i genuinely care about you as well.

    • @a.lexbeaulieu
      @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety

      @Filip Sobczak you alright bro?

    • @a.lexbeaulieu
      @a.lexbeaulieu Před 2 lety

      @Filip Sobczak you're strong, you got this!

  • @toraisrael12
    @toraisrael12 Před rokem +4

    "traumacore" didn't know trauma was an aesthetic

  • @Sunflower.Brains
    @Sunflower.Brains Před rokem +1

    pt 2, please! This is the best traumacore playlist I know.