I Am Not The Man (poem version)

I wrote and recorded this a few days ago. It reflects a very strange and challenging time i've been having which i've talked about on LinkedIn as well as here. Sorry i look so rough haha!
I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Don’t know who I am,
I just need to feel free.
No, I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Did the best I can,
Now I need the real me.
Yes I have played the game,
It drove me near insane,
And now everyday's the same,
Its groundhog day, again.
Said I’m done playing the blues,
I’m done with being used,
Gaslit and abused,
So I’m starting life anew.
Cos I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Don’t know who I am,
I just need to feel free.
No, I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Did the best I can,
Now I need the real me.
See I’m done overthinking,
Over spending, smoking, drinking,
Cos’ I’m forever sinking,
So I’m rethinking everything.
Can’t pass another relapse,
Won’t last another psych ward,
Said help me Lord,
I need to be restored.
Cos I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Don’t know who I am,
I just need to feel free.
No, I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Did the best I can,
Now I need the real me.
And before I go,
I got let you know,
Don’t make the same mistakes,
That I have seemed to make.
Please retain control,
If you share your soul,
Be careful what you sign,
On the dotted line (and make copies).
And please make sure they pay,
If they sell your story away,
All around the world,
And they keep all of the pearls.
Cos I met my Waterloo,
And oh how did I lose,
All I’ve left my tambourine,
So I’m gonna be a dancing queen.
Cos I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Don’t know who I am,
I just need to feel free.
No, I am not the man,
They want me to be,
Did the best I can,
Now I need a real me.

[@suzannealsop3394]

I think your poems and delivery are really good 💚💚💚

[@messpilo]

👍Very good.

[@tolstoy431]

You are looking good Johnny.....like your poem.....they are great.

[@Turb0ed]

I stumbled on your video showing the sometimes happenings around you, and it’s been the biggest breakthrough for me in my life. I’ve spent the last 3 days watching your videos and going over my life again making comparisons, and now everything makes sense. Thank you, now I know what I’m working with, and now I gotta figure out how to discuss this with my psychologist, and with my family…
Times are tough now, and I’m rootin for yeh, thanks again.

[@mrjonnybenjamin]

Thanks for your comment. It might help to write a letter to your family and psychologist. Sometimes the words come easier that way. I still find it hard being open with people. It's easier talking to the camera. So you're definitely not alone. I believe in you man!

[@tolstoy431]

So just be yourself, don,t be pushed around.....

[@yvonnebowles4534]

Awesome u go get some therapy cognitive rehabilitation specifically love the poem mwaaaaaaaz

[@fomoran]

So pleàed to see a post from you on my feed buddy.
I hope youre doing well
And this was more performance than something that chimed with you personally