Trigger ⚠️ Late night Panic Attacks - This is my life
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- čas přidán 17. 11. 2023
- There’s a lot of things that you don’t know about me, although I shared a lot about my past with you I have barely scratched the surface. I carry around a lot of baggage that weighs me down and I feel like I’m walking through mud. Last night I had a bad panic attack, and for some reason I picked up my phone and started recording the process of me talking myself through it as I do most nights. This is very common for me and I’ve dealt with it my whole life.
I’ve struggled with whether or not I wanted to post this, but at the end of the day I think it’s important to be real. Often times we look at the people that influence and inspire us and we compare our lives to theirs, and when their life seems perfect it can cause us to feel like we aren’t as good as them. To portray my life as anything more than what it actually is, I feel would be a disservice to the people that put their faith in me. Moreover if someone like me can accomplish all the things that I have it’s proof that you can too, because if I can do this literally anyone can. 💙🤙
#learnwithcasey #ptsd #anxiety #depression #panicattack #nevergiveup #mensmentalhealth
Casey, we aren't going anywhere. Wanna know the truth? Down to the bone truth? Most of us came for your artistry, but stayed & subscribed because of you. We really like you and care very much. We are as close as your computer. Stay strong our brother❤
So true 🙏🏼
Yep!
The truth is none of your business, plus you wouldn’t relate.
Truth right there. Which doesn't imply that the art is not enough to subscribe, but a human to look up to who has actual character and morale really makes the art speak volumes also, and vice versa the human, being you. Dus. This video is a good step, for instead of the wall you want to build you allow for vulnerability. You are a soldier who has the capacity to cry AND create. Isn't that beautiful? 😮
Welcome to my world! We just have to adapt and overcome brother. Us army guys got to stick together. We are after all our own worst enemy.
You ok? All of us subscribers are with you
Yes we are
Yeah
hey man can it be helped ok you're a character selfless artist what's not ok, hey man you're a good man shake it off that crying makes you a real man, hang in there bro don't make excuses for anyone, you've shown with your unselfishness that you're a real friend, please, my friend, get out of that shit... there are rare real people like you... greetings and respect for everything you have taught others about art, so maybe you were hungry, but you are a real friend of people, thank you for being there, BROTHER, MY GREETINGS FROM BELGRADE FROM SERBIA YOU ARE NOT ALONE...
To my frend
YA!!
I have had PTSD since I was 15 years old. I am now Sixty. The nightmares at night for me are the worst! I can say going to a therapist did help, keep in mind... You are right, it never goes away. The only thing anyone in our situation can do is learn how to deal with it. The pain of what you went through, the frustration of dealing with it, knowing you can not, no matter how hard we try make it go away. I had to try and forgive everything. Even the people who did this! I know that's a hard one. However with everything you did go through, you got this! Sometimes it just takes a friend you trust to say, It's going to be ok! You're ok! Slow deep breaths, in your nose out your mouth.. sounds silly but that does help. No you are Not a weak man at all. It takes a very strong person to deal with this shit from day to day! I would say we are Iron man and Iron women! Good affirmations about yourself in the mirror every morning. This I thought was nuts, but something about saying it to yourself every day, makes your mind change for the better! I don't know why your video came up in my feed, but I'm glad it did! God moves in mysterious ways. Have a very blessed day.
Thank you, for your wise words 🙏🏼 I‘ve got PTSD too, 40yo now… I will keep your advices at heart ❤️
As someone who doesn't have PTSD and doesn't know what it feels like, I hope it's not too hard to deal with it and I hope everything will be better for you and all the other people with PTSD.
To everyone who is reading this : Have a fantastic day and life! ❤️❤️❤️
@@madara_senju7988 Just wanted to say Thank-you. I think the more people understand that most people with PTSD have it because of a very traumatic event or years of it! Something like soldiers who go to war. That's just one example, however each person could have very different things happen to them, but they All understand each other. The symptoms are the same. The reason for saying this is, the more we all try to understand each other, and have compassion and empathy. We would all do so much better!
@@pagevaughn9194 Yeah I agree. If people without PTSD tried more to understand people who have it, the world would already be a much better place! And thank YOU for two things :
First, thank you for thanking me.
And second, thank you for explaining to me what causes it. I didn't know it was caused by traumatic experiences like soldiers who go to war and see horrible things there.
Have an AMAZING day! ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Hang in there! This will pass and you'll be blessing us very soon! You're needed, you're making a difference in people's lives, you're an amazing man
to all of you out there: you might have someone in your life who deals with issues like this. show them u care before its too late. be there for them. hug them. you never know who's dealing with what. stay strong out there my brothers
Dear Casey, I’m Angie from Switzerland. I know, far away and I can’t just come by and hug you.
I really respect you being in front of a camera, in these moments especially. You being you, not a fake „influencer persona mask“.
I’m diagnosed with PTSD, depression and a f‘ing strong anxiety disorder. You’re not weak, I know what it means to live with these monsters inside. You are sensitive, you feel a lot more than other people. It’s easy for your real life people, to try and step on you.
You’re not a victim, you’re stronger than that, I know! Let these feelings out, talk to us, cry. It’s ok, you’re a good man!
I don’t know you personally, but if you were my brother - I would tell you, I love you and you‘re gonna be alright! You’re worth more than every piece of gold on this world combined. You’re a good man!
You lived through situations and things, other people would break. That’s why your brain goes haywire. It’s normal to react like this. You’re not worthless, I wish I could hug you and tell you in persona.
I had my first breakdown with 23, now 40yo. Lost jobs, lost friends, lost a lot. I was told I‘m worthless for years, it was normal to me to feel like a failure. Still struggle with it, but less. Depression still pins me down, preventing me from doing things.
But you know what? I changed my job. From office to retirement home. My talent is at caring for our precious grandmas and grandpas… especially palliative care ❤
And you know what? At the end, you just have to be at peace with YOURSELF… so please do, what you love to do. Care for your dogs, your partner, whatever makes you feel at peace and happy.
Let the monsters inside go, even if they try to come back. You’re so much more than your diagnosis.
Thank you, Casey 🙏🏼 for sharing your feelings! I virtually hug you. And tell you: you will be ok and your way will be a good one ❤
We never escape our past. We can get to the point where it doesnt affect us so pointedly, but there will always be those times we need to let it out. Keep fighting brother. I'm glad you're there for those that need your message!
We are here for you my brother. If no one told you they love ya today brother I just did. We are all looking for our peace. One step at a time.
Thank you for keeping it real. Greetings from the Netherlands, Europe!
You are one tough man, dont try to escape your past, its a lesson it has shown you what you dont want. You are not expendable. You are doing so well, Keep going.
People say that being a man means bottling your feelings, being the "alpha", and all that stuff, but to me I feel like a real man is the person who can do something like this. A real man DOES have emotions and it's this kinda vulnerability is what really raises my respect for them.
Exactly!!!!😮🎉🎉🎉
I feel this so hard. Just know that you are NOT alone. We are all praying for you to find your peace. Your a good man and you deserve your peace. ❤
I have seen so many creative souls like myself describe exactly what you are saying with emotionality cutting to their core left and right. It is so much easier to be kind, accepting, and compassionate to others than it is to yourself when you feel this way at times. You deserve all of the love you think you don't. Stay strong brother we're all here for you ❤
I feel you brother.
YOUR STRONGER THAN YOU THINK!!
Much respect from the UK.
Keep your chin up.
If you want a pen pal from England,
hit me up.
Your a very selfless person.
Your an inspiration to many, many people.
Your no looser. Not worthless,
and I value your art work.
Peace brother.
It's ok to admit your not doing ok, thanks for sharing, hang in there brother! 😅
Hang in there. I wake up every night with weird anxiety and it's killing me slowly. Been watching your content. Trying to start drawing again, have since I was a kid. Hope you find your peace. ❤️💯
Casey you might be an empath, which is a gift. Counseling can really help you understand your powerful emotions. Keep being Casey the world needs more people like you right now!
You're not weak man. You've been through some shit and you're still here. You're a good dude and I hope you keep up the good work.
You're so so strong Casey, not everyone is as strong as you to show the people that they feel all this and going through all this. You're one of the most amazing people i have seen on the internet and i hope everything will be fine soon...
The strongest people are the people who share their weaknesses, Hope you feel better!
It's alright man, don't apologize for feeling things deeply, some of us do and it's a tough road. Everything that you said in this video deeply resonates with a lot of us here.
You're not alone. We need more people speaking out about mental health and the struggle that comes with it. We hear you, and we are here for you! ❤
Being an empath is not a bad thing, regretting the past hasn't helped me, we just keep swimming ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Sending healing love and light to you.💛💫💛 Crying is ok. You must let out your pain .I'm a empath and have a very hard time these days. You have amazing gifts and with that comes hard feelings. You're awesome. Love from Ontario, Canada 🇨🇦 💛💫💛🙏
Hey, it’s OK to cry even the toughest people cry sometimes and if you think you’re tough and everything and you can’t cry that’s dumb everyone cries at some point it’s OK to cry and I feel like you just need to open up to your subscribers and be brave like this because you are just so brave for putting this video out on the Internet for everyone to see and how are you love that because you are so brave but if you need anything ask your subscribers ask us we are here to help
The pain is real. #MensMentalHealth
I'm starting my journey with sobriety. I'm day 2 clean from a 4 year percocet addiction. I feel the same and I get confused about how I ended up here. But I will say you are an inspiration to me. And I really hope I can get as far as you in the sobriety mission. I'm 27 and both my mom and dad are passed away and I get lost emotionally fast. Stay strong my brother I look up to you!!!!
Hang in there Casey. I was going through this not long ago, I finally got it under control, but it's an ongoing struggle. We're all here with you buddy 💜
This is why you are my favorite CZcamsr because you are the most raw and relatable CZcamsr out there literally such an influential and creative and beautiful soul love you man keep doing what you doing
You're so strong Casey!! I love you with all my heart!! You are enough! You are loved. I'm so proud of you! You're an amazing artist, man, friend, creator, and such a beautiful soul! The world is so much better with you here with us! Sending you love from Louisville Kentucky 🥰 💙 ❤️ 😍 💕 ♥️ 🥰
You're not a failure! Look at all the people you have inspired. You're an amazing person who is loved by so many. I know it's hard but you can always text me or call me, I'll always be here for you. Love you Casey 💖
my brother & I suffered from ptsd, depression & by some miracle I survived 3 attempts. unfortunately my brother didn't make it, he cried & regretted that his self destructive decisions lead to where he was. we had to watch him go in pain, please take it from someone who's found the peace & quiet.
it exists, it's real. I promise it's real, don't be swallowed whole by the abyss, it's not all there is. I'm on the road to recovery, I've kicked drinking, smoking & all the substances. I found a group of people who love me & a wonderful wife. it's okay to be selfish & to feel small. just like on our best days we're bigger & kinder than life itself.
we do it for love & peace. 👊 - nick
Stay calm and strong bro you are not alone....you are a good person
Casey, I haven't really been watching your videos for a long time, but you are incredible man. I admire your talent, bravery and authenticity so much. You might never see this, but I pray you get past everything and heal.
Casey, thank you for posting this. As a fellow sufferer of PTSD I know how hard it is to be vulnerable and allow yourself to feel the emotions and not stuff them back inside and hide away from the whole universe. And to broadcast it to so many people, it's honestly inspiring to me that you have the strength. I don't know what demons stalk the darkness of your past, but I want you to know that in the present there are so many people who appreciate you. The world is just a little bit better because of you and your contributions to it. Sometimes when my torment is at its worst, I'll watch your spraypaint art videos and feel motivated to face my problems. I truly, deeply relate to everything you said in this video. I've only recently begun my journey of healing and people such as yourself show me that I'm not alone, that I'm not an alien who will never understand or be understood. Again thank you for posting it and I wish you the best.
Stay strong Casey you will be ok we are all here for you and we all care about you you will be blessed soon love from South Carolina
My man, we are here for you. The night is the worst when we hear the demons. But thank you for sharing and teaching us. You are a BMF.
Much love
Stay strong Casey. Best wishes from the UK.👌👍
Casey, you still got your whole life ahead of you. There's no way to forget the past, but it can be used as a foundation. I believe what you obtain is something special; the aspiration to reach new heights while experiencing intermittent torment. Many lacked this ability as they took the easy way out... but you still breathing and working on yourself means everything to us the viewers. You're a huge role model to us and you inspire us to better ourselves everyday. The artsy videos are only a plus but it's you and your example that keeps us intrigued.
Keep influencing us! We care and love for you Casey! Sha Sha!
Thank you for being real and vulnerable with us Casey. You never owed us that, but as someone who has a lot of struggles of my own, it helps to see someone I admire share their struggles and demonstrate that not everything is rosey all the time.
When you say you think about ‘you know what’ every day, so do I. Every single day. But I’ve reached a point where I don’t let those thoughts tunnel into me anymore - I think about it, but I can confidently say that I won’t do it.
Instead, I do the same as you - I sit with it and let myself feel until it passes. It was validating for me to hear your say that, because I’ve been in a major depression pit for the last week (or three) and I’m just coming out of it, so to see someone I admire so much share a similar experience reminds me that no-one’s life is as perfect as it looks.
Thank you, Casey.
Thank you for putting so much good out into the world.
Thank you for showing yourself at your most vulnerable, reminding folks like me that we’re not alone.
Thank you for giving me some true perspective tonight - after the week I’ve had I really needed it.
You’re awesome, dude. Keep being awesome ❤️.
I love you Casey I know the exact issue you are going through. I've been told before that things don't come easy to people who are unique to this world. Our gifts that we have to offer sometimes get overlooked and taken advantage of. We beat ourselves up all the time. But I do feel their is light at the end of the tunnel. You're a great guy and you inspire me with your words and art. Thank you.
I did 4 tours in the desert. I deal with the same stuff it’s hard to describe it to ppl that have never been through what we have and I still struggle with it everyday. I am here for you brother. You do what you need to to work through this stuff.
You were meant to be here. People love you and there are a TON if angels around you at the moment. They are there guiding you, and right by your side when it feels the hardest.
Bro you have strength beyond your knowledge. Take all that pain, and make it work for you. Not everyone/everything is as it seems. A lot of people are wearing a mask, a facade. But those who show themselves, like what you're doing for instance, that is what matters. You don't have to carry all these things that weigh you down alone. Allow those around you to lend a hand (metaphorically or physically). If you are able to tear yourself down you can also build yourself back up even stronger. You're a smart man with a lot of heart, and you will find your peace. Life as you know will always throw punches at you, you can roll with them or punch back. Keep your head held high bro, you're doing far better than you know 😎
You inspired me to take up art. Thank you for being you! Keep going you've got this!
Hey brother, I found your page yesterday. Vet to Vet - keep fighting, you are really helping people. I sat up for 6 hours this morning watching reel after reel because I was having an episode. Thank you. Honestly, thank you. Much love brother.
Brother you're a very strong person and an inspiration to a lot of people including me, I bought a few cans of spray paint today to try to do some art, because I love your work. Stay strong brother and keep on fighting the bad days you're one of the good guys out there.
I hope that you can eventually find peace. Whether it be through entertainment, religion, or the addition of someone in your life that changes it for the better.
Hope everything works out ok. Remember that you have a large community of people who respect you and care for your health. ❤
You are strong to be this honest with us, but with yourself too. Stay strong and stick with us, you are doing good things and you have a good impact on everyone watching you. You bring joy to all our us 😊
It’s truly amazing that you’ve been through so much and so many hard things and yet you remain the kind and caring human that you are. I’m sure many of your followers would happily be there for you is you ever need to reach out. Stay strong and stay safe.
Be strong 💪 bro I know how you feel
If I had anything that i could say, I would say it a million times over. You are the greatest inspiration to me, stay stronk man
Dude thx for expressing this bc I get this aswell man may God bless all and keep praying for no sins that you may have caused in have good night /day luv all bruddas
You make a LOT of ppl happy w your gifts and personality. Sometimes we have to let our guard down and lean on those around us to pick us up when we feel low. Love from Indiana❤
Your pain hurts my heart. I have Cptsd, adhd and asd. I'm 62. I was undiagnosed until I was 59. I am what people call a highly sensitive person. I know, without a doubt, that people like you and I matter! Never be ashamed of your tears! They're just our way releasing some of the overwhelming pain we feel. You're a kind, caring person Casey and, these days that can come with a lot of pain. I became a people pleaser as a child to keep the peace. I'm now discovering my voice. Don't let the past devastate your future as I did. Good people matter. They always have. I'm sending you lots of momma hugs🫂 and love 😘🥰. You deserve it, and you always have deserved it. BTW, I named my daughter Casey, spelled the same as yours. It's a wonderful name for a wonderful person.❤
You have no clue what beautiful impact you have on us.. your videos, the colours, your voice brings smile on our faces and peace within.
You are soooooooooo important and you matter 😊❤
I’ve gone through similar things and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you realize you have 1.7 million people who truly love you and enjoy your content, 1,700,000 people, that is a huge number to have supporting you and I hope that you can understand how loved you are
Bro therapy really will help you. Love you bro and I hope you remember all of us are here to support you. Stay strong man ❤
Huge amount of warmth and love thrown your way, bud. This video has resonated with me, a lot. Love, Lee 🇬🇧
Always remember you have value Casey. Your fans are drawn to you because they see a person who's joy in life is to be creative and share it with the world which definitely has value. When my six year old niece comes to visit us she rushes to my computer room to see me so we can watch videos. She loves to watch your spray painting tutorials and I've even got her to start saying sha-SHA! Stay strong, you've got this!
You're very strong for showing us your emotion. Hang in there. You are doing amazing!
Stay strong my brother.
Ive seen many of your shorts but subscribed after this video. I struggle also but hide it. Since seeing this Ive been a little more open about it. I appreciate you sharing your internal struggles as I feel less alone. Thanks
Your posts like this add value to my life brother, know you are not alone 👊🏽 and I hope when you read some of these comments that you know you're not worthless or a loser. Keep sharing your soul, it truly helps this world ✌🏽
Stay strong brother. You are amazing. Thank you for your videos.
I feel you brother. We hear you loud and clear. It’s real life for me too. Sending love man!
I grapple with the very same feelings you feel. I’m with you. I cried watching this. Even if you just sit there and stare at a wall, YOU ARE SO WORTHY CASEY! You are loved and valued. You are a freaking warrior and I’m proud of you for fighting through this. Forging through the fire. I’m sending you my love and prayers ❤ you are NEVER alone.
You have a beautiful soul. Your peace is within you, and your strength is an inspiration to me.
Thanks for sharing, brother! You're never alone. While talking through these issues helps you, posting it helps untold numbers of fellow sufferers. Keep doing what you do and know that you are admired and loved by many!
This happens to me too bro!! We fight this battle together! ❤ keep your head up high! Just let us know what you need from us! The greatest gift we can give eachother is time. You've given us so much of your time. You'd be shocked how many people would show up for you!
I’m glad I get to share a timeline with you. You’ve inspired me and so many other people. You’ve accomplished and touched more peoples lives than you could ever realize. Love ya brother sha sha
You can do hard things 💪 we are here for you!! The things you’ve been through made you the person you are today and you are AMAZING. I’m sorry you feel things deeply, it hurts so bad but is also beautiful ❤ This too shall pass. SO glad you’re here Casey. You will find your peace. Happiness comes in waves, but will always come.
Sorry you’re having a hard time dude. Please know you’re not alone, people love and respect you and appreciate you being open and vulnerable with us, it takes a lot of guts. It helps people to know that they are not alone in the dark times. Thank you for being you and bringing me joy when I need a time out and watch your videos. Sha shar 🤘 🪐🌔💛
It takes an enormous amount of strength to walk around hypervigilant 24/7. I've found it helps not only me but others when I'm open about C-PTSD and autism. It helps others realize they aren't alone. You make an excellent point. We wouldn't be "us" without the trauma.
Prayers up for you. It’s okay to feel everything that you’re feeling. You’re not alone. Don’t give up.
We got you never be afraid to talk to us all your subscribers love you and are here for you ❤
Stay strong bro!! Ur an inspiration for many, and God will not forsake you.
Sending prayers man.🙏🏽 Just ran across the screen grab and saw a person in need. Things may be hard but you will get through. Internally it's a fight but you are not alone and from the looks of it you're subscribers definitely support you blessings man
Thank you for putting yourself out there to show others they're not alone
You are an amazing human. Your emotions and tenderness help make you you. Just keep going...you got this.
Man, you bring me and my family so much joy watching your art! Wish we could hug you! Find time to seek counseling. My New Year’s resolution is to do the same for myself.
Wish the best for you man, you’re an awesome person ❤
It’ll be okay man, we all here for you, you are strong and just know I’m the same way and sometimes you just gotta talk about it with someone you really trust and I know it’s hard but you can do it you’ll get through this, and you are amazing and worth it!!!
I always thought that your content was awesome.... but this just makes you even more awesome. Thank you for sharing this.
Casey your in my prayers.. you are a amazing artist.. im proud of Casey never be ashamed of who you are you are loved
Sending my love your way you will get through this ♥️🙏🏽
Gods got your back Casey& we have your back as well ❤❤ all the health and love too you friend 😊
Bro you are doing great man. Keep going. Your content is more impactful and more genuine than most. Keep going and god bless you brother.
Thank you so much for this Casey! You and I think about life so similarly, it’s crazy. I definitely have not suffered anywhere near as much as you, not even close (I’ve had a good life, with some downs but mostly a ton of ups), but somehow we’ve come to the same conclusions. Recently I’ve been realizing much of the same things about myself that you have: we need to cry, we need to let emotions out, we need to feel, we need to think about what we feel, we need to think about life, if we want to give back, if we want to be productive, if we want to create. We are creators. That’s why we’re here. And creators have to think. Creators have to feel. That’s what we do. We think a lot; not a single moment goes by without some thought pervading the conscious. And we feel. We feel, then we create what we feel, to help others cope with what they feel. So thank you for sharing this moment Casey, you’ve helped me understand life so much more because of it.
hang in there dude,am so glad i found ur channel. u r valued by all of us on ur channel and the people who needs ur paintings and all crafts n ur socks. we r all here for u dude
Casey, anyone that may say you are weak are the weak ones. We all try our best. You're not bulletproof, my dude... And neither are we! You are strong enough. Keep on keeping on ❤️
You're awesome Casey and your heart is great. praying for you brother for peace and rest. i know im a random stranger on the internet but im here for you man. if you reply or anything ill reply back. You're strong and you have value. your life has a purpose.
ive had many seasons of my life where i felt like i was in a constant state of torment, so much that feeling alone or worthless felt more comfortable than being happy.
The is a light at the end of the tunnel
You are an inspiration to me and so many more. You inspired me to try spray painting and you are an amazing person
I go thru the same thing almost everyday it sucks I feel your pain 😢
Praying for you Casey! Hope you’re okay brother. You’ve got a lot of people who love you on here brother and we’re here for you!
I feel ya Casey, I’m the same way, I feel so invisible in public and I feel like just venting all my anger in the worst way. Just remember always, depression is a liar, it lies to make you feel the way you do, we love you brother, stay strong 💪🏻
Hang in there man. The fact that you can articulate your feelings so well means you are in control of you feelings and that is mission critical. You are a great artist that makes people happy and smile. That is your purpose in life. Be kind to yourself, it's ok.
You are such an amazing inspiration! The first person I ever saw spray paint stuff !! For Christmas my wife bought me like a butt ton of spray, paint the mask and gloves, and the goggles and everything man. And you're the first one. I learned how to do anything from me and you are awesome. You were amazing bro. Life is life man. Just freaking wake up and do it. You're helping a lot of people. Stay clean and giving them an inspiration and therapy method to stay out of negativity. Thank you so much!
I dig you man. You are real and i feel you represent a lot of us. Anxiety and depression are the evil duo that have infected me. I saw a comment that sa8d we came for your art and stayed for you. I 100% agree. I get you. I just turned 50 and have been inspired by you to do 9 planet pics so far. Thank you for sharing so much more. Do your best to stay you even though its difficult sometimes. There are ups yoo. Thank you for your shares.
Fairly new follower here. I really appreciate all of your efforts to turn these feelings into something bigger and something that helps ground you. Mental health has been a huge struggle in my life and it's one that so many people go through. Keep fighting the good fight. These monsters ebb and flow. You have a network of people in this world that are experiencing so many similar things. Wave after wave if turmoil seems to hit me and its hard not to feel unlucky. Accept your traumas. Accept that they hurt. And start the healing process. Know you're not alone. Truly would be honored if you ever felt like reaching out to discuss your feelings. There's always an open ear.