Who Hates Me, More Than Me?

One mornings musings by Satin on self hate and mental illness in general. completely unedited so you can have a glimpse into not only pure emotional thoughts, but the background environment she lives in.
Name: Satin Lacey
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Country: Australian
Living environment: Living in a City
Diagnosed: Severe General Anxiety, Long-term depression, Mild Borderline personality disorder, Insomnia
Family history?: Yes
Medicated?: yes
Therapy?: No
Inappropriate comments will be removed. While I normally do not stand for censorship, everything has a time and a place. There will be no bullying of any form. disagreement is fine when presented in a constructive manner that opens way for intelligent discussion. Let this be primarily about loving and coming to understand each other, not about trying to force one another to fit certain ideals.