Real Talk: My Battle with Mental Illness | The Fit Curls | CW: Depression, Anxiety, ED
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- čas přidán 25. 03. 2021
- CW/TW: Depression, anxiety, eating disorders, suicidal ideation
So, I’ve been hiding something from you guys and I really needed to come clean and be honest with you. This is my story.
#mentalhealth #suicideawareness #depression #anxiety #edawareness
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Hi! I’m Angela! I’m a fitness professional - fully certified Pilates instructor - and a curly hair enthusiast and I use this channel to teach you how to keep your curls in shape. Here you’ll find honest product reviews, curl tips and tricks, hair tutorials, and side-by-side comparisons of products and techniques, all with a dose of science and humor. Don’t forget to subscribe and officially join the Fit Curls Family!
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I love you and you are not alone 🖤
Hi Angela, I usually watch everyone of your video's. I wasnt able to watch this one due to triggers. I deal with most of the same things, other than I havent been diagnosed with eating disorder yet. Thank you for letting us know more about you. I consider it an honor that you would be so honest with people that follow your channel. Love you lots
Poor sweetheart. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. From a fellow sufferer. I learned in therapy it stems from being brought up in an environment of ‘conditional love’ instead of the unconditional love each child deserves. Among other things. None of this is your fault, and I wish you a smooth journey in managing your symptoms and experiencing the happiness you deserve in your life. You are enough. You deserve joy and happiness. Your suffering is valid, and sometimes it’s necessary to make difficult decisions in order to put yourself and your mental health first. Hugs ❤️
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Looks like there are at least 6.39K members of the “We LOVE Angela” club here on CZcams and all those on Instagram too. 💕💕💕💕
You have been such a lovely presence in the Fit Curls Family and I am so grateful for you 💛
Awww I’m so happy you shared this with us. I’ve struggled my entire life in and off with depression and anxiety and I’m 60. I lost my son 3 years ago and I couldn’t leave my home in 2 years. I’m doing much better now. I’m happy you have reached for help and you have loved ones who care 🥰
I’m so sorry for your loss and glad to hear you’re doing well now. Thank you for watching and for sharing your story here ❤️
I’m sorry for your loss!
This is the bravest video I’ve seen in a long time, and my heart needed this. I struggle too and you aren’t alone ♥️ I’ve had depression and anxiety for years and am now learning to manage PTSD after leaving an emotionally abusive relationship several months ago. I’ve been having a really hard time - a good number of hurtful comments from my ex were about my body, hair, and how I take up space, so relearning to love the way I exist naturally has been a journey. I feel lucky to have a supportive therapist who encouraged me to get out and is helping me rebuild my self image, and lucky to have found this curly community that taught me to unconditionally love what grows out of my head, 2c/3a chaos and all. Ironically enough, I’m in application purgatory waiting to hear back from grad schools to pursue a career studying the role of stress and memory in depression and overall health (2nd year applying too 😬😬) and your videos in particular (which led to the discovery of my holy grail, Camille rose curl maker!) have helped to keep me sane over the last few months.
You matter, the work you do matters, and you are loved and appreciated. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. The world is a lovely place with you in it.
I am so proud of you for getting out of that abusive relationship and challenging the lies he told you about who you are. I feel your pain, my friend. Therapy is a game changer for sure, and I’m glad the curly community has been as wonderful for you as it is for me! Thank you for being a part of the Fit Curls Family and for sharing your story ❤️
I am diagnosed with the same things, along with PTSD and have fought the urge to commit suicide off and on for nearly 30 years. While meditation and therapy has been helpful, it definitely has not been a cure-all. I grew up in the church, but never truly turned my life over to Christ and developed a true relationship with him until this past year. It is when I did that and put my illness and faith fully in him that the weight lifted and I began seeing a real change in my mental health. I am going through MANY very significant trials this year, one after another, but as long as I keep my eyes on the Lord it doesn’t overtake me like it used to. Keep consistent with your treatment and keep even stronger in your faith. God bless you!
This wasn’t a downer at all, it was very life-affirming. Thanks again for being so brave and so vulnerable
I’m so happy to have found you. I’m in my late 50’s and I finally have great curls thanks to you. This video was very touching. It has opened my eyes about how words chosen are so important when speaking to children. The bullies have the problems and you were just a scapegoat. It wasn’t about you and I wish we would talk to kids more. You are a shining star- a beautiful person inside and out. I’m hoping you are doing well.
Hugs to you. 🤗 You’re a beautiful, sweet young lady and you are so cared about. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your life with us. Take care of yourself first of all. We will be here anytime you are. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much ❤️
So much of your story resonates with me, Angela: the childhood bullying, the perfectionism, the feeling of failure, the MDD, the GAD, the suicidal ideation. You're so strong for seeking the help you need and speaking out about your struggles, Angela. Take your time, be gentle with yourself, and keep leaning on those in your life who are supportive. ❤
Thank you, Heather 💛💛💛
A lot of your story resonates with me - I took the step as a teen to decide to put all the haters behind me and love myself for who I am not who I was told I am.
Thank you for sharing your story, and I can't wait to see more of your videos!
Oh my, Angela. I can really relate. I was bullied from 1st through 8th grade (we didn't have a middle school). I'm 67 now and it still hurts no matter how my life has been since. My torture let up in high school because I lived in a small town and we went to another town for high school so I made friends with the kids from there. Like you, even though my family loved me very much, I felt I was in it alone. I don't know why I went to school each day. I never knew why the kids teased me, they teased me about everything. I was lucky enough to not develop an eating disorder and no one thought about how it was affecting me mentally. I went on, got married, had kids (who were teased also). As you said, I got out of that town and have no desire to return, except to see family. I left that life behind me. I went to one class reunion and found I had nothing in common with any of them. Many of these people still live in the same area and get together reminiscing about the old days. Leave those people and that life behind. You have a husband and a new life. You don't need that old life. You are stronger than you know. Take care of you!
Being bullied is such a scarring experience and I’m sorry you and your kids went through it too 💛
Thank you so much for this video Angela. I’m 48 and like so many others I have treatment resistant depression since I was 22. It’s a miracle that I am still here. I have taken three attempts on my life starting at the age of 14 due to a very hard childhood. I now have multiple autoimmune illnesses, Lyme disease, Bartonella, chronic pain issues etc…… Due to my mental health I have never been married, never had children, I live with Mom and my dog and just sit in a chair all day from chronic pain and mentally not right. I deal with agoraphobia (at 22 didn’t leave my house for two years and had to drop out of college.) I have Depression, anxiety and panic attacks as well. I want to thank you for making this video. From watching your hair videos I have been encouraged to get my hair cut and dyed and figure out what styling products I am going to use. FYI, it’s hard for me to shower because of the pain but from watching you, I am motivated to wash and condition my curls and to style and diffuse. Please continue making both types of videos. Let us know how you are doing honey. Trust me, it helps way more people then you can imagine. You are an absolute sweetheart sweetheart and I just want to thank you again…….
Hi Angela, I know this video is over 2 years old, but I just found your channel on CZcams because I am trying to embrace my curly hair after a lifetime of products and tools to try and straighten my hair. I think your video is brave. It is important to promote an open dialog about depression and mental illness. I, too, have battled depression for decades and I am very open about that. We need to Stop The Stigma so that others feel safe to reach out for help. I hope you are doing well. Take care.
I also have major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. Now I’m also disabled with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome.
I thank God for the wisdom that has given us medications to help us with these things.
It is a struggle, but you’ll never be alone with it. ❤
Oh, sweet Angela, you are so brave. This is a story that so many of us share in silence and isolation. I am so happy for you that, at your young age, you found a therapist who could help you. I tried so many without success when, at age 42 following a cancer diagnosis, I finally found a good match and was also put on medication. Even then, my life went from black and white to color, probably for the fist time ever. But you are so right; it is a constant "war," with continuing bouts of crippling self doubt. Thank you for sharing, take good care of your beautiful soul, and please stay with us on this earth. We need you!
Thank you, Denise. I’m so glad you’re fighting the good fight too 💙
Girl, SAME. SAME. minus the college experience I was unable to handle community College...47 now. I've learned how to deal and stop the panic attacks, but, it never goes away. Insomnia, fighting my eating disorder, fighting the constant negative thoughts in my head, feeling pretty worthless and in general a waste of space. Put on my happy smile everyday. Things are fine. Ugh. Add to that a plethora of medical diagnosis plaguing me (and my children as I had no idea the things wrong with me had a name much less that they were not a matter of circumstance in gymnast, preemie etc but indeed genetic) until I was 40 and my kids and I were dxd.... no insurance .. so... last time I went to the community center for therapy (way before having any of my medical dx ) didn't go great. The therapist said she didn't know how I was still functioning and that if she had to do it with everything I had going on she would be in a corner crying. VALIDATING. So, at least I don't feel weak anymore. But that was 9 years ago and still wish someone could help me have a productive life. Despite everything having a dish and twisted sarcastic sense of humor is his I cope. It's how my children cope. But I'm existing not living. And won't let myself get into those dark places too often or for too long...(like wondering about how I will take care of myself or my children in the future should something happen to my dad or husband, can't plan anything, no goals) .I safe guard my mental stability best I can by avoiding things. Again not well ... being afraid of further failure has developed over the decades into not trying things. Wondering if I can handle anymore. 💜💜💜
Fear of failure is truly truly crippling. I encourage you to check out the resources I shared and hope you’re able to get the help you need soon. You deserve to live without fear ❤️
Thank you for sharing this. It takes an incredible amount of courage to be open and honest about mental health issues, especially when you experience them first hand. I hope and pray that you continue to find healing and wholeness on your journey. 🙏❤️
Thank you so much ❤️
I am new to your channel (this is my 3rd video) but not new to this topic. Thank you for sharing your story. The raw truthfulness to your testimony is valuable to others and allows us all to support you as well.
I too grew up with weight; the weight of not feeling to fit in, to not feel loved, to not feel safe in certain places a child should. I never fully realized the games my brain was doing through the years. Honestly I am still riding on the struggle bus. I vowed to be a better person and when I became a mom, also vowed to make it better for my children.
With every high and low in life I still carry the baggage with me. I can say for certain I would benefit a therapist. Thank you again for taking on this topic. I deeply thank a few particular special friends in my life for taking my hand and guiding my through dark times. We all need help sometimes... EVERYONE!
One of your new subscribers ❤️❤️❤️
This resonates with me alot. I struggled with feeling guilt when I was a kid for being so unhappy and suicidal because others had it so much worse...I couldn't pin down why I was so miserable. I didn't get medication until I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression after a breakdown after returning to work after having my daughter 6 years ago. Even then I felt weak and a failure for having bad brain chemistry!My god we know how to judge ourselves harshly don't we? It's now like maintenance on a house....keep doing healthy activities...keep talking...keep meditating...keep going outside...keep watching for signs that it's getting triggered again. But there can be so much beauty and joy in life I'm glad I didn't give in. Glad you didn't either hon. Thanks for sharing. Thinking of you today and sending positive vibes your way xxx
If everyone was honest and everyone felt that they could tell the truth abd be heard.... We'd all be severely shocked at how many people (including me) go through this... That doesn't make it easier to know... but know that you aren't alone... by any means
Thank you for sharing your story! Your story is my story except I was a figure skater. I still have days that I feel like my loved ones would be better without me and I’m 49 yrs old. I can tell you that once I was honest with people with how I felt and that I suffered with anxiety and depression, it was easier. Hiding mental health issues is so hard to do and is exhausting.
I love your channel and your channel is one of my favourites when looking for curly advise.
Thank you Angela for your selfless act of using your platform to share your very real struggle with Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety. I am extremely familiar with these topics and have been a caregiver for immediate family members of mine struggling just as you have and continue to do so. Making sure that your loved one KNOWS that you're there for them no matter what is so very important. But actually showing up and being an advocate is the most important. Especially when the depression is debilitating and requires help just making an appointment and getting to that appointment for help. I pray that your words reach and help many.
I’m glad you’re still here 💕
Thank you ❤️
"and where OTHERS had done ME wrong" - that phrase shows one aspect of how therapy has benefited you. Mental illness is SO common, and yet the complexity of all the layers that bring so many of us to experience metal illness can be hard to get to the bottom of
Sure, I love happy hair content, but more than anything else, I respect and admire when people are genuine. I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I have been there too, and may be there again someday. Wouldn’t wish it on anyone either, but it IS good to know we aren’t alone. You are not alone. You are loved. Thanks for being here. Thank you for being you.
Thank you, Lauren. Thank you so much for being here 💛
I have to say that I just discovered your channel and love everything about you…not just your stunning hair! Your beauty is not only on the outside but on the inside as well. I am so happy that you have such supportive friends.
Huge thanks for this video! Depression is horrible but we can crush it!
I am glad that you are still here too
Thank you for sharing Angela. So much of what you describe resonated with me. II’ve only just joined your channel for curly hair tips today and, stuff just got real, I am so grateful for your openness. I’ve typed and deleted my comments so much already, basically I just want to say thanks once more from Sunshine Coast Australia, you’ve made a difference in my life.
Thank you for sharing. I can relate, as I suffer from depression, and anxiety. It took a lot of courage to do this video, and I am so glad you did! Sending love and light!💞
Thank you 💛
Thank you for sharing this with us Angela 🤗 I’m so glad you’re getting help and that you are still with us! We 💖 you so much!
Thank you for being here 💛
Thank you ♥️
I appreciate you! Thank you for sharing
Thank you for watching 💛
You are so beautiful. Just started watching your videos for my hair and I will be honest, I can’t watch videos from people that seem fake and superficially perfect. Although I thought you were just another beautiful woman on here I was drawn in by your real personality. I found this video and watched because pretty much everyone in my family has mental issues. You are not alone and thank you for reminding us that we are not alone! I don’t want to take from your post by adding controversy but I must say that I believe that we are all broken in some way and for me it just shows how important my relationship with Christ is. God is making a way for me to overcome and make my life have purpose and depth. Much love 💕
So many of us suffer needlessly in isolation and don’t reach out for help. I am so in awe of you for taking the time to share your ongoing struggle. Feeling this way is energy zapping, emotional chaos not to mention that any energy we find during this is used up masking the way we feel. I am so glad you took the steps to find ways to cope when you are experiencing the worst depression. You said something during this that I found VERY unusual and that today was one of those days and you were going to take steps to take care of yourself AND just as importantly, surround yourself with your friends and people who you care about and who care about you! Kudos for learning this very important strategy and NOT ISOLATING which is what we all tend to do.
Happy you shared and glad you are still with us!!! ❤️
Thank you for sharing.
Yes, you are Soooooo not alone. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you ❤️
Word 🙌🙌🙌
HUGE respect for your courage to share!!!
This may sound a bit blasé but remember two things:
The only person you need an approval from is YOU!
The only REAL responsibility in your life is to take care of yourself!
Do things that bring YOU joy and if one of them is taking care of your curls on CZcams then... Keep them curls poppin' 😉
Glad to hear you're on your way up (if not out) and that you found help that's working for you.
You're not alone and we're here for you 💗
I do really love my little curly corner of the internet 🥰 thank you for being here 💛
Thank you so much for sharing your story and feeling. Sending you love and courage.
Thank you xxx
Prayers for your healing and thank you for sharing your story...you are not alone....
Angela, that little voice in the back of your head telling you you need to upload this is most likely God. I am extremely sensitive myself, always have been so I understand that. I struggle with depression, suicidal thoughts, chronic pain, and insomnia too but I’m much better and bouts of depression are shorter and less frequent. I lost my dad 5 months ago so I’ve had a bit of a setback but working through it. I’m sorry to hear about your struggles, honey. You clearly have a fighting spirit! I’m glad you reached out for help. Always hang on to hope and to God. Not religion, but a relationship with God. A lot of times, an upbringing in the church can give us a “spirit of religion” and drive us from God. Learning about the power and authority we have in Jesus as believers has changed my life and given me TRUE joy. Don’t want to preach but it IS true peace, hope, and happiness once we understand how immensely loved we are and what the devil is doing to try to steal our lives. He has targeted your generation for sure. I recommend Amanda Dawn Bovee and Ark of Grace on You Tube. And absolutely nothing wrong with taking medication. It certainly can be life saving! Keep fighting Girl! Thank you for sharing your heart, you are NOT alone. 💜 I’m holding you up in prayer right this very minute. God Bless you, Sweetheart.
Thank you so much for sharing ur story and having the courage to share ur very personal message! It is so important that we support each other and share our stories❤
So brave and beautiful! Sending love and hugs!
So much love to you, my beautiful Mili! Hope you are well 💛💛💛
Thank you so much for sharing this; for yourself, for myself, and others who suffer with mental illness and it's lifelong ramifications. I'm so glad you are getting help and please remember you are not alone in your darkest moments. What helps me so much is to remember how far I've come and I got through episodes before I can do it again even if it feels hopeless. It's not. Big hugs to you and I'm in the trenches with you. Post content when you are ready
Thank you so much, Romy. I know I’m more resilient than I’ve ever been and I’m so grateful for people like you reminding me that we are not alone 💛
Sending all the love to you
Thank you. 💛
My heartfelt sympathies. Well done for sharing, wishing you brighter days. 💙🙏🏻🕊🌞
I appreciate your journey and your genuineness! Take care ❤️
Thank you for being here 💛
Hugs to you Angela.
Your story brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing. I’m praying for you my friend.
Thank you for watching and for your prayers 💛
Thank you for sharing real life. It is eye opening and so important to helping our society understand mental illness is real and how much getting the right treatments can help us through it. You are so brave for sharing your story. Hugs and prayers for you ongoing. You are real and I appreciate that so much 💗
You have me in tears. This is such a raw and authentic video. Thank you for being so honest and delivering this message that so many need to hear. It’s also important that people understand there is no shame in taking antidepressants. It’s a necessity for people with a chemical imbalance and will make your life so much easier. As a new subscriber who has decided to embrace my curls, I can’t thank you enough for your informative, intelligent and fun (well, not this one) videos.❤️
Thank you for sharing. That was extremely brave of you. I too struggle with anxiety and depression. Therapy, meditation and surrounding myself with positive people who love me, has been my way of survival. Please stay strong and brave. I’m definitely part of the “we love Angela club” as well.
Also, We Need You to keep our curls fabulous. My curls never looked so good. So keep those fit curls videos coming. Take care, XOXO 💖
Needed this today. Thank you... xoxo
Thank you for watching 💛
Sending you love and support!
Thank you 💛
Thank you for sharing this! I sometimes feel like I'm alone with my story and my depression and hearing that you're not alone and that other people struggle with similar things and experienced similar trauma can be so powerful! It also took me way to long to realize that I needed to get help and also that it's okay to get help and to take medication for your mental health.
Mental illness is illness!! I’m glad you’re getting the help you need now, and you are most definitely not alone ❤️
You are beautiful!! Thanks for your honesty!
Thank you for watching 💛
Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds so much like my story. You are not alone. I hope that you can keep moving forward with your process and see things from a new and different perspective.
Thank you for watching and for sharing ❤️
I was told to stop crying when I was young. I’m still a crybaby and I’m 62 now! I cry at the drop of a pin! I use food as comfort and am obese, have depression and anxiety. Therapy is so expensive and can’t afford it. I wanted to die at the age of 12 but never attempted anything. I continue to keep going for my daughter.
I pray that each day finds you safe and strong in your walk. ❤ remember you are never alone.
So honest and heartfelt and enlightening..thank you ❤
Thank you for watching 💛
Hi Angela, thank you for sharing your heartfelt story, I know it was extremely difficult. I'm so sorry for your struggles and pain. I have been experiencing severe anxiety for a long time, and I know mental illness is no joke. You are a strong, beautiful, intelligent woman. Life is tough, but so are we. Starting your channel and creating your curly girl videos are a testament to your incredible strength and courage. You overlook your own struggles and bring happiness to others through your videos - it takes a very special person to be able to make others feel better about themselves and that is exactly what you do when you share your adorable curly hair journey with us. Thank you for that. God Bless you. 🥰
Thank you, Jamie. As an Enneagram 9 I definitely tend to others’ needs above my own until I can’t anymore, but I’m glad that by speaking my truth and taking care of myself that I can help others through this too 💛
You are incredibly brave. I know how hard it is to put your deepest feeling out to the world. I hope that both you and viewer no longer feel as if you are alone in dealing with depression and anxiety. I hope this helps you pull out of the depression that you are feeling now but I am sure you have helped others by talking about mental illnesses.
It needed to be said and I’m grateful that I said it 💛
Angela Thank you so much for being brave and sharing this my life as a similar story and I’ve been in therapy for many years it’s truly one of the best things and I hope more people see your video and my goal in life is to help people think that seeing a Therapist and getting help is the same as seeing a medical doctor and getting help
Amen to that - there’s not a person on this planet that wouldn’t benefit from therapy. We all have our trauma and we become better people when we face it and get the help we need to process it 💛
Thank you for your courage to share your mental health journey. You are an inspiration. ❤
I’m so proud of you sweetie, I’m sure it took a lot of strength to make this video. I’m so glad you found a good therapist and are getting the help you need. Your an amazing person and have helped me so much on my curly journey. Sending healing thoughts your way.
Thank you. Definitely went through a lot of tissues while filming this one 💛
Oh my goodness just seeing this video. You are so brave and courageous to share these feelings. I am so glad you found a therapist, were willing to take medication and you are taking care of yourself. You are beautiful and so courageous and I mean from the inside then outside!
Thank you, Christina. I am so glad that this curly community brought you into my life! 💕
I really felt this as you were speaking. I haven’t left my house in years due to anxiety, depression and feeling ‘stuck’ I don’t want to exist the pain is unbearable. Thank you for sharing your story I can relate
Please, please, if you have the wherewithal to do so, get some help. I’ve posted some resources in the description box 💛
Angela, You are so brave, beautiful, and inspirational in more ways than you may realize. Lots of love and prayers going your way🙏🏻💕
You are a lovely person and the world is a better place with you in it ❤
Hello Angela,
I've just started watching your video's with in the last 2 weeks and love them all. You have taught me some much about taking care of my curly hair. Thank you for that. I had been looking for resent video's and come upon this one. I truly pray that you are ok and doing better. As sad as it is to say, I 100% understand this video and wish you the best.
Thank you!!!!!
Karen
Sweet Angela.... I can relate so much about your struggles. I felt exactly like you for a long time and had no support from my family. I suffered so badly until 2010 when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, with chronic anxiety and depression. I was on and off medication prior to that and I wasn’t able to care for my young daughters. I do better today after long therapies but the struggle never really disappear.
We need to listen to ourselves and be able to know and feel when we’re about to crash. It will be a lifetime battle and I’m conscious of it. I’ m still trying to learn to love myself and caring for my hair was a lifesaver. I have the same hair type as you and I have been following you for a couple of months now. It’s a part of my healing journey. I have neglected myself and my hair for years and I went thru serious hair loss due in part to my medication. My daughter suffers from depression and anxiety as well plus she has Tourette’s. She has an IG account and she took some pictures of her exactly like yours to show people what it looked like to suffer as she did. Those pictures were disturbing to some people and even my own friends were telling me about those photos. She had black khôl pencil running down her face. That was the image of her soul. She was only 14 at the time. She quit school because it was too hard for her facing the other students. Angela, please know that wings can grow back, I promise. Let’s keep on caring for our hairs together and I am giving you a big hug 🤗 I feel like I found a new friend xxxxx
I am so humbled to be part of your healing journey, and I thank you so much for being a part of mine 💛
I'm so sorry that you (were) feeling that way! I have Truly Enjoyed your videos and have found them Very Informative and also Entertaining. ❤ I see they stopped awhile ago And that makes me sad... Thank you for sharing Luv! I Sincerely hope things are better now.! ❤ we all need our privacy sometimes, but hopefully you'll be back! 🫂😍🤩
my heart breaks for your pain. be well and know you are not alone.
Thank you 💛
Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story!! It took me til my mid 30s to get help for anxiety and ED, but it’s been so helpful (and difficult!). The very first time I found out a boy liked me (6th grade) I also got called fat. I was under 100 lbs and wearing size 3-5 juniors clothes. It always amazes me they way our brains retain and hold onto things.
Ughhhh kids are so cruel. I’m so glad you’re getting the help you need and that we get to choose to heal from our trauma now as adults!
Much love to you Angela and thank you so much for sharing this with us. I do hope that it has helped you in making this video and realising that you are not alone. I can really relate about having martyred myself to please others, which I am still trying to learn to stop doing. For me I have always felt like an outsider and I guess the people pleasing and perfectionism is a way of trying to fit in. But it isn’t sustainable to live like that and there is a price to pay. Your story make me feel sad, but also so pleased that you know how to help yourself now. Lovely dogs (mine in the profile pic!) and walks are so helpful..as are supportive friends and partners. Do carry on with your amazing curly content as you do such a great job and you are such a lovely, genuine person to follow. You take care of yourself. Louise 💕xx
Thank you, Louise - you’re such a wonderful presence in this Fit Curls Family 💕
Angela, please know that you are never alone in this fight. You are loved, blessed, and oh so important to this world. Having had some similar experiences, along with trying to manage my chronic pain, I've learned that I am also a highly sensitive person and an empath. There are times the world is unbearably overwhelming, but there are also times where the world is unbelievably beautiful. Be gentle with yourself and hugs from one mental health warrior to another 💜
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Thank you so much for sharing. I have had feelings like this in the past. I struggled with a learning disability. I never felt I was good enough. I thought why can't I do anything right. Why couldn't I be a better student or a better daughter. I would tune out because I felt what was the point no matter how hard I worked I couldn't achieve anything. My mother always said my heads were in the cloud and I need to wakeup I contemplated suicide. I now have a wonderful fiance and great kids and I am blessed. I have reasons to live.
Thank you for being willing to share your story. The wounds we receive in childhood run very deep and I feel your pain. I am so glad you’ve found your reasons for pushing through ❤️
You sound like you could have ADHD too. Have you checked that out? Does anyone in your family have it? It’s 70% genetic and goes undiagnosed in girls/women mainly because we tend to have less hyperactivity as a symptom compared to boys so many mental health professionals are reluctant to diagnose it, which totally sucks.
Yes I was finally tested in college. They told me I had ADD. While I was in school they never tested me for it. I was just put in special ed.
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Are you on medication for it? I couldn’t live without mine. The fog and disorganization is overwhelming otherwise, which leads to even more feelings of failure and despair.
I was on medication for a few years. I didn't have health insurance for a number of years so I didn't have meds. I still struggle a little with focus but not as bad.
You are so beautiful. I wish that you could see yourself with the eyes that people outside yourself and see you. I know very deeply and very personally so much of what you’re describing. I too was a dancer, and I never felt like I got the career that I really wanted because my self-esteem was so low. I was good enough to dance professionally for a little while but I also felt very ashamed, When I walked away because I realized I wasn’t succeeding. I too felt like a failure. And I too loved it more than anything and I’ve never really felt that way about anything else I’ve done. I’m a bit older than you are and I can say that if you can hang in and stay open to guidance, more truths reveal themselves. Despite being a person who really always consider myself to be seeking awareness, it took me until my mid 40s or more to really turn the soft talk around to that of love. What you’ve done here is so courageous. I’m sure if I were to scroll the comments I would find many people sharing similar experiences. It is not easy to be incarnate, And everyone has to find their way to being able to appreciate the piece of art that they are and we don’t live in a society where we pay attention to one another in that manner. We’re competitive. Of course no one knows how it feels to be in your skin and words of encouragement can sound very trite, but I have been very challenged in many of the same ways, And somehow I was able to hang in a bit longer and keep up the willingness to grow and I found that I really appreciated myself. I wish the same for you. You are such a beam of light. I watch your videos because you’re so masterful with your hair but actually more so, because you cheer me up. Do you know that you have that affect on people? You’re really beautiful. PS, now we celebrate the fact that I didn’t dance for a whole lot longer because I know so many people who were in the profession that have really messed up bodies. The replacement hip replacements constant pain… Just saying....bless you. Oh, and by the way your fourth day hair is Banging.
That feeling of inadequacy, of failure, that we feel when we walk away from dance is so painful. Thank you for sharing your story and thank you so so much for being a part of this Fit Curls Family 💕
@@TheFitCurls How many hearts you touched by being so courageous to share this with us. Also, while professional dance might not be something that you’re going to do going forward you can always find dance in your life. Once a dancer always a dancer
I hear you, I understand you so so much, feeling so alone because I am living fibromyalgia, PMDD, depression and suicidal thought, anxiety disorder, insomnia .... Would love to know what medication did help you if you want... I took some before but so much sides effects... It is discouraging... I hug you really hard, going throught the same right now and feel less aline in a way, thank you 😪🙏 for making that video 💙 I thought when I see your video that wow her she is so in shape mentally and was so wrong. Thanks from bottom of my heart 💙 Struggling so much so hard 🌈
so glad you listened to yourself to post this and it has inspired me to think about creating a video like this. I had a lot of scarring from elementary school by being called by a lot of people gay queer and fag and hey it really influenced my entire life. Therapy is so freaking important.
You are an amazing young woman, and it's heartbreaking to think that you've gone through times when you thought the world would have been better off without you. My Dr. once asked me as I was in his office dissolved in tears if I had ever thought of suicide. I said "no". Then he asked the magic question, "do you ever wish you just wouldn't wake up in the morning?" That was me! What did I have to offer the world, or more importantly, the people I loved? I believed they would be better off without me and my drama and sadness. Medication helped. That was 25 years ago, I tried to go off of the meds but I can't do it. My Dr. said I'm too sensitive. I feel everything too intensely. That's just how I am and I can't change. It's always a struggle to find a reason to go on, and honestly I don't know why we do it. But I'm sure glad your here, as I know all your followers are. You are worth the fight, whatever it takes. Please remember that. I know how hard it is. But God put you here for a reason. They are only words you've probably heard before, but they truly come from the heart. Take good care of yourself, PLEASE! XOXO
I hear SO MUCH of my own struggle in your story and I truly feel your pain. I’m so glad your doctor asked you exactly the right question so you could get the help you needed - the right meds are such a game changer! Thank you for being willing to share and for being a part of this Fit Curls Family ❤️
You are brave for sharing yourself with us. It’s so hard to share experiences that don’t really have an ‘ending’ the way we want and the we think our friends and family hope for. I hate that you were bullied. 😢 Your story pulls at my heart. I have 2 daughters who have struggled with mental health issues since about the same age as your bullying started. They are both in therapy now and on meds.
I struggled with depression since childhood. I looked back puzzled to figure out WHY?? My parents weren’t abusive or neglectful. I assume it’s in my genetics?
Mental illnesses can definitely be passed on genetically, and I’m so glad that you’re getting your daughters the help they need. We may not be able to share a “happy ending” but we are still here and that’s what matters right now ❤️
Big Hugs sweet lady 💗
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The I hate Angela club. Really? What is wrong with people? My heart is broken for you and for everyone that deals with mental illness. As a society we are definitely not taught to deal with our feelings or to respect the feelings of others and that is so sad. I'm so thankful that you didn't take your life and that you are getting the help you need. It's absolutely heartbreaking to know anyone has to struggle with feeling the way you have. I'm glad that you felt safe enough to be so open with us and I believe you'll help many others. Big hugs to you and I'm praying for you.
Thank you, Tomar 💛 childhood scars run very deep. I’m grateful for your prayers, your kind words, and your presence in this little Fit Curls Family ❤️
I want to say back that you are not alone 🥰 I’m finally in a good place now thanks to my fiancé who ”saved me” almost 5 years ago, I still have my struggles but I can handle them 💕 I went through simular things as a child and then I spent 11 years with my ex who is the father of two of my three children and an alcoholist who metally abused me for years before I threw him out one day. I get stronger for every day that goes by with the help of my loved ones 💕
I’m so proud of you for getting out of a relationship that was harming you and so glad you’re in a good place now 💛
That took a lot of courage. Its ok to not be "normal", you are who God made you - even if its just to be here to help others get through these same experiences and have a good hair day..lol 🙂. Be kind to yourself, continue to breathe in and out, put on cheerful clothing, love others like you want to be loved!
I struggle with keeping everything internalized for fear of being misunderstood as "dramatic" or "attention seeking", despite having NEVER been described that way by anybody, I have this debilitating fear that if I vocalize exactly how I feel, people will misunderstand where I'm coming from or why I'm saying it.
I spent a lot of my life believing no one would listen. It’s not worth the energy it takes to keep that belief alive. Thank you for sharing and I hope you remember that you’re worth hearing ❤️
Thank you for leaving the trigger warning!
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Thank you for sharing and helping others. I'm hoping we can make positive content too! :)
Thank you for watching 💛
@@TheFitCurls of course!
The mindfulness book "30 Days to Reduce Depression" by Harper Daniels is a great workbook.
As a Doctor, I just want to add that a lot of people develop anxiety because some doctor prescribed them some anxiety medication not even knowing the real symptoms. They take the anti anxiety medication not knowing how addictive it can be. Eventually once they start on these medications, there’s no going back because your body is going to need it. But there are cases that has nothing to do with this and it’s passed on through genetics and those people need medication. I’m glad you reached out to a psychiatrist. It’s very important that you talk to your doctor and be honest about everything so they can figure out the best way to help you. My best wishes to you.
I and my doctors definitely treated medication as a last resort but I’m so grateful that I’m on it now. I hope more families realize that being 100% against meds and throwing medication at every problem are equally harmful.
Do you have any sources you can share on this? It's the first time I've heard anything like this and I consider myself pretty well-read when it comes to anxiety...
Thankyou for being brave, and caring, and sharing your illness. I have suffered with similar for many years. At 67 yrs old I'm actually feeling that I'm getting on top of it. A huge help has been....councilling, prayer ministry, and brain supplements. A book called Memory Rescue by Daniel G AMEN, MD. is brilliant and the brain supplements he suggests have reduced my depression and anxiety hugely. I am quite astonished really. I've been taking them for about 15mths.
God Bless you 💗🙏🌸💕
Thank you for sharing, this was very brave. Another great CZcams video on this subject is The Mess on Planet Classroom Network. Summary: A multi-faceted take on one woman’s experiences with bipolar disorder.
Thank you for sharing this. We are in 2021 and this is one of few disorders or mental health problems that have not been resolved in this world to this day. We still continue to lose loved ones from suicide and if you have not personally lived it, there is no possible way that anyone can understand what one goes through when your mind is in a state of negativity. Blessing to anyone who is going through this. Everyone cures differently with their traumas. Therapy, “I AM” app of daily affirmations which I recommend to anyone to change your negative thoughts to positive, it is completely free, reading books from Daniel G. Amen, and taking Rhodiola Rosea 500mg daily. This is what has worked for me and now I’m back to my old happy, stress free self and loving every second of it. I’m 27 and have struggle with depression since I was 14. Hope this can help someone else. ♥️Stay Blessed
Hi Angela. I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through! I’m sure it is overwhelming and very hard to deal with.
I just wanted to share with you about Someone I know Who created you and loves you!
“Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.””
Matthew 11:29-30
I don’t know how you are feeling, but the Lord Jesus Christ does.
“Therefore, since the children share in flesh and blood, He Himself likewise also partook of the same, that through death He might render powerless him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all their lives.
Therefore, He had to be made like His brethren in all things, so that He might become a merciful and faithful high priest in things pertaining to God, to make propitiation for the sins of the people. For since He Himself was tempted in that which He has suffered, He is able to come to the aid of those who are tempted.”
Hebrews 2:14-15, 17-18
Angela, I pray that you will cry out to Jesus Who loves you and gave Himself up for you! He is the wonderful counselor, mighty God, everlasting Father, and Prince of Peace. Your life matters! He created you for Himself and He gave everything to save your life! The Son of God gave His very life for you to redeem you from your sin. I can’t tell you how many times He has lifted me up from the pit of depression and given me joy in the midst of my circumstances. May your soul find rest in His love!
Hi Jessica, I appreciate you watching and reaching out. I am actually a believer and I know in my soul that God led me to the doctors who saved my life by treating my illnesses as illnesses. I do often remind myself that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and I can believe that’s true because I’m getting the treatment I need. Be well and God bless ❤️
God loves you, you were made in His image and Jesus died for your sins. There is s hole in your heart that only He can fill. 💕 Angela, there is a phenomenal program that may be offered at a church near you called Regen. Many people have found real help through it. I’m so sorry that you have suffered and I will be praying for you.
I am actually already a believer and have gone through healing prayer as part of my recovery from trauma. I truly believe that God led me to my therapist and my psychiatrist and I’m grateful to Him daily for that 💛
It amazes me how different individuals react differently to trauma. I ate and ate. I think subconsciously I was trying to kill myself.
I’m so sorry to hear that 💛 I did basically the opposite - I would self-neglect and just wait. Sending you all the love and strength I can 🖤
@@TheFitCurls You too my angel. Real friends will pull you through and then you will find a strength and a bravery you never knew you had. How brave were you to have made this video. I must admit i am not much of a hair person but i will pop in now and then to see what you are up to. Go strong
Hi Angela. I am Fatima. I took the brave step of making my first video about my mental condition. No real lighting just a phone camera and an awful editing job. For me it was about releasing all that garbage I had bottled for so long. I applaud you and would love for you to check out my channel. I am a lot older than you and technology doesn't come easy for me so I'm going to see if I can post the link here for you
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