Audio RP | Comforted and Cared For by Your Incubus Boyfriend [M4A]
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- old habits die hard
Content Warnings: [references to trauma][references to fictional tragedy and loss of life][survivor guilt]
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Gavin's playlist: • Incubus Boyfriend [Gavin]
"Freelancer Season Three" playlist: • |Series| Freelancer Se...
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I love that Gavin's coloring changed. His thumbnail covers used to be vibrant, sexy hot pink, but now they're a soft pretty pastel pink. He's still himself, just so much gentler.
i... didnt even notice...omg i love him..
i noticed that too 👏 im sure he'll get hot pink again in the future but its fun that theres a little tell if we're getting the spicy or sweet side depending on the shade of pink
Yeah like cam's
It's the color of all the other audios apart of Fluffweek!
i did not even realize that 😭
Me: “I’m not easy to crack”
Gavin: “what’s wrong my love?”
Me: “cracked.”
shattered like a lightbulb on a tile floor
Broken like a pencil
your pfp speaks volumes
splintered like a glass mirror
Whenever Gavin says "i love you" or "i'm here" it just exudes such comfort. And when he called FL his sky, that was just so precious. I missed him so much, and I'm glad that both he and FL are working through what happened to them, together.
19:26 “you’re my sky / the space between my stars” y’all… shakespeare has absolutely NOTHING on gavin
And to think we met this wonderful demon getting blown in a 7/11. He’s honestly amazing and had wonderful character development❤️
Righttttt😂😂😭❤️💕
Nah the fact I imagined a 7-11 too is crazy bro
*I don't remember if it's canon 😭*
Man, Gavin really said "we deserve a soft epilouge, my love. We are good people, and we've suffered enough."
I'm not crying you're crying (I say as I sniffle). I love him so much, he's come so far.
He's a poet!
I will never get over the reaction ay 2:25 when freelancer breaks down and Gavin is just so soft & full of genuine care - it just melts my heart. yes Gavin has his spicy characteristics but he is so gentle towards freelancer. I cry
I lost a close friend to cancer yesterday morning. Words cannot express the pain I feel, and it's been so long since I've experienced grief this heavy that I don't even know what to do with myself. I just wanted to tell you how appreciative I am of all these audios discussing grief - this audio was very helpful in particular, and Huxley's aftershock audio has been helpful as well. This week is going to be filled with emotional whiplash, due to both the loss of my friend and celebrating my birthday in a couple days, but it's nice to know I have a sort of safe space with these videos and that they can help me process things and to help me understand that grief isn't linear; that wounds like these will take time to heal. I struggle a lot with putting other people's emotions before my own too: I've been telling myself that it's okay to be upset, but another part keeps saying that their parents have it so much worse, etc. It's nice to have someone tell me that my feelings are valid and that it's okay to cry. I hope everyone else here can understand this too, that your feelings matter. Please don't forget that.
i am so sorry...
I hope you get better soon sunshine,they're taking care of you in heaven
Hope they rest in peace 💜
take care of urself please, i’m so sorry for what happened. it will get better ❤
Losing a friend is so hard. Big hugs to you.
Losing someone special it's hard, but it will get better. Don't forget to take care of yourself please, sending warm hugs ❤️
“You’re my sky. The space between my stars.” BRO SHUT UP IM CRYING IN THE CLUB fr I used to dislike Gavin so much but this shit? Unbelievable. The character development on this man is incredible.
Wheeeeze, What’s your beef with Gavin??
@@Red_Thread_Dolls Thought he was annoying asf
Yeah he’s not for everyone
@@Red_Thread_Dolls honestly I love him now but at first I was like "This bitch-"😂
It’s so funny though like walk into 7/11 and exist and man was like “Umm Rude”
01:24 “what’s wrong my love” 🥺
09:22 “You’re safe, my love” 😭
Gavin: i'm dating a trauma sponge and they just broke into a million pieces. We need to smother them in love and care. But be gentle. They're still fragile.
Told to put this in the actual comment section
I feel like now FL has broken down they will feel more raw even if the release has helped. Definitely in need of gentle hands.
Can we appreciate how much Gavins comforting skills have improved? He used to comfort freelancer by simply distracting them with sex (remember them confiding in him about Vega and Kody)) and now he is comfortable just holding them and opening up to them. It makes me so happy and emotional seeing how far they have come.
I feel like what he gets sustenance from has changed. He's no longer feeding on sexual attraction alone but on tenderness, care and love. Of course he's still very flirty and him and FL still enjoy a full sex life but I think in terms of his species's needs he'd be just as well 'fed' as it were if they just cuddled.
The fact that the emotions during the Inversion were doing that to Gavin is …. Terrifying. :0 I didn’t really put it together that he was literally coming apart. Holy shit. But I am so glad he and Freelancer have this time with each other now. Damn, do they deserve it.
Wait why did you dislike him before? Aside from him being a dick in the beginning and basically used us for sex the next time after we first met. If that was not all of
when they were in his ward i imagined it like, his eyes glowing, nose bleeding, crying everyone elses tears like blue diamond from steven universe, and his edges blurring and crackling like solid light. nice to know i was on the right track
The freelancers story is probably my all time favorite and after the inversion I think we have all been waiting for them to break down. This was so perfect and comforting! Wonderful job 👏🏻 💖 my tears won't stop 🥲
especially since we saw Xavier die in front of us and we could do nothing about it
well freelancer has had a very bad past and has never really had someone to cry too so ya I agree
ITS HAPPENING AHHHHHH
Anyways, now it's time to cry-
edit: Gavin saying "my love" made me feel some type of way-
edit 2: I felt so called out, when Gavin mentioned how when freelancer sees people hurting and they want to help, that's exactly what I do AND THEN I also put others feelings before my own because I always wanna help them before I help myself
same
every time gavin says "my love" i have a different heart attack
It finally happened freelancer's walls broke but I'm glad Gavin was there for them like mirroring the moment between them during inversion. And Gavin made a very good point that I overlooked about the impact that freelancer had on inversion by just being there for Gavin and the lives they saved and likely helped. There's a saying I'm not sure where it comes from but someone said that good deeds have the possibility to create these ripples of goodness that spread through others which leads them to do good as well and then the cycle repeats. The ripples don't always guarantee that some one is going to do something good but it's the fact that even just one small act can have the possibility to create a much bigger impact and that's exactly what freelancers character does despite the hardships they face, they don't succumb to they keep going and keep trying to help and that's something as Gavin said "Beautiful" about them.
“Magic is bound to emotion… and I am Magic given form. I would have come apart”
I kinda feel like this is important. It made me think of Avior and Starlight. There seems to be an ongoing theme with a demons emotions being so strong that their magic comes lose and does stuff that is extraordinary to sheer impossible (ex. Gavins ward or Avior sending Starlight home). I’m interested to see how or whether this will continue to come up in the future and might be important for getting out of hell
Interesting to hear the different ways the characters are coping with the aftereffects of the inversion.
“What’s wrong, my love?”
My heart: *shatters*
ALSO: CONGRATS ON 100K i’m so proud of you!!
Thank god I wasn’t the one that just, broke down after hearing that.
Omg when he said that I think I died for a solid second. This entry video exudes comfort and love.
Tbh I was so upset because I was definitely looking forward to a reverse-comfort video…. I was kind of scared Gavin would avoid talking about his feelings so that my first thoughts were:
No! No this is not how this is supposed to go! I am supposed to comfort you!! You are hurting so much worse!! I need to help YOU!
And I think in that moment I was channeling so much Freelancer energy and not the good kind 😂😅
I’m convinced that Gavin is the type of bf to after this go to your friends and be like: take care of her she’s still in bad shape and doesn’t want to burden you with her trauma but you have to be there for her as much as she is here for you…
Gavin: i'm dating a trauma sponge and they just broke into a million pieces. We need to smother them in love and care. But be gentle. They're still fragile.
@@soragraythorne8408 why is this only in a reply, babes go post this beauty in the actual comment section its fuckin glorious and made me laugh so hard at 11:37 at night
@@thealtoftheblooberrie thank you thank you. but i fear that out of context no one shall understand.
@@soragraythorne8408 the context will be understood, it’s Gavin XD you can put Gavin to the others before the actual trauma sponge part lll
@@thealtoftheblooberrieTbf Gavin's a demon/daemon. They derive the bulk of their nourishment from emotion. They are almost literal trauma sponges. As for Freelancer? They have strong caregiver energy and don't like to emotionally bleed on others.
“You put everyone’s feeling before your own” it’s always Gavin calling me out 😭😭
“You’re safe my love” I AM DYING 9:20
When Gavin said to freelancer that they carry the burden for everyone else and that they put eveyone's feelings before their own. And that it cannot sustain forever, I started crying. Because that is exactly what I have done for a very long time.. and that hits really hard..😢😢
This audio is exactly what i needed, thank you...
I missed Gavin and I’m so happy he’s back. He’s a huge comfort character and I’m always happy when I see he has a video coming in. I always melt when he says “my love.” It makes me feel good.
“You saved so many lives, mine included.” The way Gavin and the freelancer rely on each other is something beyond the way my brain understands.
“The space between my stars”
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Excuse me wtf stop poking my heart with your fire brand of words how dare you come up with something so beautiful I end up shutting down and restarting emotionally
I love wen gavin the space between my stars it is vary sweet and loveing
I think that “Old habits given new life” is genuinely one of the most beautiful and perfectly-phrased descriptions I’ve ever heard to describe trauma aftermath. Tucking that one away for a rainy day.
Another one going straight to "Repeat playing when comfort is needed" list - thank you
Gavin is so caring. I'm glad he at least lets Freelancer inside his walls
i disintegrated when gavin said "my love"
“your feelings are safe with me” made me cry , that hit so hard
The fact that it took me a few times to hear the whole thing, all the way through speaks to how comforted by Gavin's voice I am. And the fact that when I DID hear it straight through, I cried speaks to how much I needed to hear Gavin's words. Obviously I can't relate to the exact situation, but Freelancer's coping mechanism and their stated ways hits close to home. This was beautiful, as is any time Gavin said "I've got you" and "my love".
"you're my sky, the space between my stars" BRO IM ALREADY SOBBING IN HERE STAWPH
I've been wondering about Gavin and the freelancer, and I'm happy they're both getting help. I'm happy Gavin is feeling better also, although it does make me wonder about Caleum, but I'm sure we'll see how he is eventually. They deserve eachother so much, and this is as amazing as all your other work, I'm upset and crying and I'm happy about it and I'm 100% invested in this story, it's become my favourite notification to see, I love this and you honestly deserve so much for how amazing your content is :)
Yeah. We haven’t seen caleum which worries me. See I want to see this video but with caleum cuz he we helped him.
The unholy scream I let out when I saw this notification.
'What's wrong, my love?' Brb gonna find a wedding dress real quick
This is such a beautiful example of helping someone through huge feelings. To steal from someone else: “Don’t just do something. Stand there.” Be with them. Don’t fill the space, don’t distract or smooth or anything. Stand there. Be with them in this darkness. In this horrible moment, just be there with them. Fully. Validate the feelings, offer understanding, offer compassion, grace, and care. Stand there with them.
“My love” just hits right in the soul. Wow.
Ahh, damnit I'm crying again 😅; its good to hear Gavin sound a little more himself, like he's slowly starting to find his center again. As for the survivors guilt, coupled with the part about that consistent tendency to place the needs of everyone else ahead of your own.... yeah that stung purely because of how much it resonated. This was really beautiful, and I'm sure I'll come back to this any number of times when I need a reminder that feeling things, and feeling things intensely, is not synonymous with being a burden.
Needed this today. Freelancer has always been the listener character I feel the most like and stacking my emotions behind everyone else’s is a big reason why
Guess I just needed someone to tell me it’s okay to let go of the stranglehold I keep on my feelings so I don’t burden others with them
Hearing Gavin's voice feels so comforting, like a massive hug! 🥰✨
Dammit why do me and Deviant have to be the exact same person.... I cried through this whole video man....
“You are loved.” Hit me like a sledgehammer.
fr
I think I started tearing up just seeing the thumbnail, and it just. Didn't. Stop. 😭 The explanation of everyone falling back on familiar coping strategies WRECKED me in the best/worst way possible. It was so easy to picture Freelancer burying their own emotional reaction Post-Inversion, both because of old habits dying hard but also from guilt over their emotions literally adding to the overwhelm and pain Gavin felt while they were trapped.
Echoing what others have said about relating a bit too much to Freelancer as a caregiver/trauma-sponge/therapist friend (and one who became an actual therapist) this is definitely getting saved for those especially hard days 💚
I've always appreciated the way you write moments like these. Just. Tender and intimate, and sweet heartache in the best way. I love the arc with these two, so much.
Gavin has me crying over here. Thank you for the wonderful-ness that is you and your character's comfort.
I've already watched this three times, and I'm sure I will many more. There's just something so special about Gavin, truly one of my favourite characters in any media, and I love this relationship so much. "You're safe, and loved, and known, here in my arms" ❤️
There’s just something about the way he says “my love” that will always ALWAYS make my heart melt. I love Gavin so much. 🫠❤️
I'm glad it's a comfort audio cause I'm about to cry... GAVIN MY BELOVED 😔
To be honest I kinda expected fl to break down eventually. So glad Gav was there for them 🥺
They both went through so much, and helped e/o basically through it all. I'm really touched, I seriously never thought I would hear Gavin this soft and caring, but his development hits me every time like a wave. I'm not complaining of course. I'm in tears but it's good 😆
I also lose it every time he calls fr "my love", but the “You’re my sky. The space between my stars” was so much better, like 😭
Gavin is definitely one of my favs, along with Vincent. Best boys, fight me on that
“ you’re my sky, the space between my stars”
Haha I’m sobbing
“You put the feelings of others before your own, I put mine behind a facade.”
Yet another reason why it makes sense that the two of them seemed to connect during their second/third meeting (and why they managed to grow so much closer since then).
Honestly, I love how many different aspects of the characters (including their dynamics with each other) were put into perspective. From how some of their initial habits seemed to resurface in different ways, to what types of feelings might’ve been held beneath their walls.
All in all, this was a lovely video, as always (Hopefully I catch up with this series soon enough)!!
I never thought quietly sobbing would be a thing I do often. But here we are 🥲.
gavin showin how much he loves freelancer is my favorite genre of all these videos. i needa five dozen more of them Lmao.
time stamps for people like me who don’t wanna go through all the lore
4:41 - 8:04
10:46 - 14:25
"So scared to say the wrong thing that he chose to say nothing at all"
That hits a little too close to home for me,
this video felt like a warm hug i didn't know i needed.
Omg, this was such a comforting audio. Hearing the reassurance in his voice is just ✨chefs kiss ✨
I know this is about the inversion and other stuff to do with it but omg this hit my heart so hard man. Gavin simply saying “you can cry” made me genuinely cry man.
i love how much growth Gavin’s accomplished, he is one of my favs
also when he called Freelancer “my love”
0=0
I'm so glad they have eachother. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm glad that they have hux, damien, lasko, and caelum. But, gavin's comfort is just the best (for me). I feel like he always knows the right words to say whenever he comforted others.
I love this audio. It so greatly deals with guilt and grieving, and letting go of the past while still learning from it.
Its such a comfort, I love it.
God the mention of Xavier hurt, because that was one of the moments that got me sobbing during Inversion.
Oh my god, Gavin is getting a counselor too?! I'm so proud of him, I'm glad he's getting the help he needs.
*(Hold on is the counselor possible Cam?? That would be interesting)*
I am also glad he pointed out that breaking down doesn't mean failure, because I've struggled with those emotions and it is so gratifying to hear him say that.
Oh shit, I almost cried when he said "You are loved" *Am I such a mess that those words make me instantly happy?*
Honestly so amazing, thank you so much Erik, and once again, congrats on 100K we are all so proud of you!
I keep coming back to this video over and over again so often - I know it's probably pathetic and most likely egocentric and overly dramatic, but it made me realize that this video is my safe space, and I just... Thank you, so much, for creating this (and the other stories) and sharing it with us Erik
the way that it's so comforting, sweet and makes me feel safe ... like I'm not sure how many times I came here to listen to it ... Gavin is just my everything 😢😢❤❤
You have no idea how much I needed this. I have been so stuck in my head. Perfect timing!
The words “my love” makes my brain flood with memories of a special person who once had my heart and still does and probably always will :) I love it so much! These video are amazing and full of real emotions
I… felt Gavin’s hug through the screen 🥺♥️
Thank you for the much needed cry I’ve been holding in for awhile now 💜
so proud of you for hitting 100k subscribers erik!!! such a huge milestone and i’m glad i’ve been here to see you grow so much. i love all of your content so much and i can’t wait for what’s to come in the future!!
Wow... haven't cried so hard in months, this was very needed. Thank you. 🙏
AWUUAHHH CONGRATS ON 100K ERIK!! we're all here for you and super excited
Congratulations on 100,000 subscribers, Erik! Thank you for your delightful content, it has provided a lovely community, and an enthralling universe, filled with captivating stories.
This audio made me cry so hard!! It's so comforting and I really really need this right now! Thank you 💛
Gav has the biggest character development ever 😭
Ouch, Gavin coming for my feelings like this feels like an attack. Wrapped in a hug.
I hope the therapist Crux put Gavin in contact with was Cam!
Your content is so amazing and helps so many people in so many ways, thank you for all the work you do
Probably the best and most calming asmr I've come across so far - I've listened to this like 5× now and still haven't heard more than the first 3 minutes of it because it makes me fall asleep like instantly!
Freelancer is like irl me and I'm living for it 💅
I normally only drop comments nowadays when I can think of something funny to say (a fatal flaw), but for Gavin I'll make an exception. The exception is just me saying I'm down bad for Gavin, and that as someone whose personal tenets include "avoid being an inconvenience", this vid's message made me very soft, thank.
The softness in Gavin's voice is so powerful. Like a gentle, healing touch.
This audio is so thoughtful and well done. You always manage to be respectful of the subject matter, and your voice is incredibly soothing. Thank you so much. Also, congratulations on 100k subscribers! Not sure if you hit it with this video, but this is where I first saw it. I'm glad it's with Gavin, he is a favorite boy of mine! 😊
I love Gavin so much I'm gonna cry
Gavin! My favorite. Shall report back after I finish the tears.
Oh my gosh, I missed Gavin Sooooo much! I was waiting so "calmly" for his video...
Edit: I gotta say, I love our new nickname: my love. It gets to me
Gavin is one of my favorites...ughhhh...there is just something about him 💜🥰 thank you again Erik I love your videos 💜 you are awesome dude 😎😁🥰💜
Congrats on 100k omg, you deserve it! (and more) ❤️
I come back to this whenever I just need to cry.
💕 Gavin!!! 💕 I've missed him so much, and this was the perfect soother for that heartache. The audio was truly beautiful. It was so indescribably amazing, that I'm honestly at a loss for words. And as I sit here, all teary-eyed at my keyboard, I know that this is one of those installments that will forever stick with me. There were things said in this audio that I didn't know I needed to hear, until I heard them ❤️ Every word of this is gorgeously written, and perfectly expressed. The variety of subject matters discussed here are handled with such compassion and authenticity. And hearing it from Gavin...😭❤️😭❤️ It was the best! This audio radiates warmth and love, comfort, vulnerability, trust and safety. Again, this is an absolute masterpiece - Even now, I'm still struggling to put my feelings fully into words, this installment is just THAT INCREDIBLE! Mentioning that, oh my goodness... The audible sob that erupted from me when Gavin revealed the truth about unraveling...🥺💔 That's utterly terrifying, and I now want to hug him tightly for the rest of time! Plus, the talk of Xavier... It all made my heart just crumble to bits. Still though, in balance, there were many moments that also made my heart so happy: Any time Gavin uses the phrase, "My love," or, "I'm here," I just...💖😭💖😭😍😍😍 And when he referred to Freelancer as his, "sky"... Oh, then the happy tears arrived!
So, in conclusion: This audio is the most beautiful thing ever. It made me feel a waterfall of emotion, to the point where I am now just a babbling, weepy disaster - And I genuinely love that! It's so impactful. Also, I adore Gavin more and more, with each passing second, haha 💖 This was a great continuation to the storyline, and I can't wait for more.
Favorite lines: "You don’t have to hold it all together right now. You can just hold onto me. I’ve got you."
"You know just how much I mean it when I say if anyone understands how hard that’s going to be, it’s me."
"Your feelings are safe with me. In whatever forms they take. You honor me by trusting me with them. By feeling safe enough to share them with me. They are not a burden. And neither are you. You are loved. You’re my sky, Deviant. The space between my stars. What I feel for you… in a lifetime of sensing the emotions of others, I never imagined I could feel like this. This much. And I am so grateful for it. And for you.
Of course. I’ll hold you all night if you want me to. You’re safe. And loved. And known. Here, in my arms."
Here I am again, I adore these heartfelt intimate moments you record. 100k subscribers 100000000% deserved Erik :)💛💛💛
IM SO EXCITED
EDIT: ALSO CONGRATS ON 100K ERIK !!!
Congratulations on 100k!!!
Also Gavin got me tearing up 😭
I love this so much ❤️ And I needed this so bad 😭 You might have saved me ... Thank you so much, Erik
My favorite incubus is backkk 😩❤️
"whats wrong my love" MY HEART 🥲
also congrats on 100k, so proud of u 🤍
I've migrated to another country this week, haven't felt fine tbh these past few days ... and I can't tell anyone about it since I don't want them to think I can't do it ... this comforted me more than you can imagine, during these hard times, thank you for being there and making these video
This is so sweet and kind omg but thank u so much i really needed this 🥰
Congrats on the 100k Eric, very well deserved
i guess this can, in a way, count as a sleep aid but since it's also definitely very context-heavy and emotionally intense, i am still literally begging _on my knees_ for a proper Gavin sleep aid audio, ideally a more light-hearted one that i can just listen to without having to emotionally suit up to avoid weeping like a baby at the end of it 🥺 so like... please 🙇🏻♀️
Amazing video as always redacted 😩❤️
Hi, Eriiikkk!! First of all, CONGRATULATIONS TO 100K SUBS!! 🥳😭
WE'RE SO PROUD OF YOU AND WILL ALWAYS BE THANKFUL WITH ALL THESE COMFORT AUDIOS AND WHOLE UNIVERSE/LORES THAT YOU ARE MAKING. 😭
(Whenever you upload, I always feel like it's worth 1M views or SO much more than that. You need to be highly recognized and appreciated. ☺️💯)
I don't know about the timing. But, when you upload today's update this morning, i feel like it is something I needed. I've been doubting myself and my abilities (which don't usually happen) these past few days. And it's really pretty unhealthy, frustrating and depressing, I guess.
Soooo, thank you so much as always. I am always stopping by because I feel genuine comfort and love with all your audios/masterpieces. ❤️
The feels... hits right in the feels...