Neptune 1st house (Pisces Rising) | Your Secrets, Fears & Ghosts | Hannah's Elsewhere
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- Hi Cosmic Warriors and welcome back!
This video is directed towards those of you who have Neptune in the First house and a Pisces Rising. Neptune is the planet of Spirituality, fantasy, imagination, dreams, secrets, addiction, fears, phobias and delusions. The influence of Neptune represents your hidden self and the unseen (what's invisible - hence the word ghosts in the title).
If you want to pick up a copy of the Pisces eBook I created then you can find the download link through my website: www.hannahselsewhere.com/astr...
The eBook breaks everything down and it also provides real life examples as to how the Archetype of Pisces plays out within everyday life. The purpose of the eBook is to help you cultivate your own Pisces energy, Neptune energy and Twelfth House energy, which in turn can help you feel more empowered and energized. It also touches on the Pisces/Neptune/Twelfth House Interception in the Natal Birth Chart as well along with Npetune Retrograde.
I hope you find it to be helpful, and that you can also use it practically and constructively.
As always, feel free to leave your thoughts and opinions down below!
Thanks for watching!
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Neptune in the 1st house here (Capricorn rising) I seem to be one of few people enjoying isolation in my apartment 😁
Same 😂😎🙌🏿
Me too! Lol
Neptune in the 1st house and capricorn rising here as well. I was quite surprised to find out my daily routine is called "quarantine" loll
Neptune, Saturn and Venus first house for me and Cap rising too :)
Same girl I’m a Capricorn rising too with Neptune in my 1st house as well! (:
I have Neptune in my first house and this is so true , I always have felt guilty for doing what I want to do
Same. I still do but getting way better the past 3 years. Just keep following my instinct.
How lol I have a lot of Pisces but f that. F what people think. I have Uranus so idgaf.
SweetCupcake I have no idea lmaoooo
Just dont give a fuck what others think
Omg this is putting me on the verge of tears..... Neptune in my first house. Very hypersensitive. Can pick up on a persons true character right of the bat. It’s good and bad. Feeling like a ghost as a child. I was an only child surrounded by adults. This is so accurate. My mums birth was very traumatic resulting in a emergency section as she was in labour for 3 days. My father died as a result of mental health issues. Depression is evident on both side of the family but everything is all good. Not a sob story I just wanted to give you an example of how accurate your description of this placement is.
😭😭😭😭😭
I hope you're doing okay OMG I'm so sorry you went through all that
You have my energies I hope you're in a good place now
@@yashkevinsingh1975 oh jeeze I forgot I even posted this. Thank you for your lovely messages. Good days and bad days like everyone else. I’ve been through so much in my life but I am still blessed because some people have it so much worse. I believe that god has a plan and that’s what gets me through. Strength to fight, faith to win ☺️💜. Thank you for your positive energies sending them right back at ya. Love And light 💫
My story is sooo similar to yours!!! My dad also died from depression and bipolar and took his own life.
This placement is very complex. They can pickup emotions very easily which makes them very emphatetic but which also drains them emotionally. They like to be like others. I learn a lot on your videos. Great work.
I don’t remember much about my childhood... however, I love being alone. Neptune in 1st house of Sagittarius ❤️
Same
Yep.
I can relate to this so much, I always got blamed by things I didn’t do by others in the past, especially my parents. Whenever I get blamed by things I didn’t do now, even the little things, I can let my dark side out without me knowing. I suffered quite a lot as kid and teen and was not seen much so brightening def helps with Neptune in 1st house
So sorry ❤️❤️❤️🌺
I apologize for anyone who was hurt you and made you feel like this. I know I probably can’t understand but I can say i’m sorry.
She just described my childhood.... she just described every problem I have in my life.... I don’t like it 😂
I find it quite accurate. All years in school I felt invisible, and there was even cases when I was literally told that me trying to do things my way was egoistical, like how I dare to demand stuff when my sibling was suffering, like my parents didn't have time nor energy to spend on me. It's still struggle for me to ask things for myself, even to separate others peoples' needs and emotions from mine, to at least recognise them. My moon in pisces in 1st house didn't help here either 😅.
Thank you for your video 😊
I have a Capricorn rising but my first house has Neptune, Uranus, Mars, and Saturn (venus maybe if you use Placidus but I like to stick with the whole sign system as its more accurate based on my life experiences). My sun and mercury are in Pisces. Once I had my Saturn return, I realized that many people love to project their stuff on to me. It taught me to put up boundaries, to love myself, and learn that it is not my responsibility to heal/fix/save everyone. Good analysis! This is not a bad placement by any means despite its challenges. I love it for its psychic/intuitive and creative abilities. :)
Amen to that, I really resent that bit about having this placement. I grew up having to apologize for things that weren't my fault. Not enough people really hold themselves accountable for their actions and us as capricorn risings are the types hold ourselves too accountable even Neptune takes that a bit further. I respect you for putting that out there I still haven't been through my Saturn return yet😓 bc my Saturn is in aries.
Word of wisdom for Pisces rising Neptune=》
Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world and all there ever will be to know and understand.
Just use the Neptune energy for your benefit 😏
I will forever think of this thank you ❤️
Honestly I love this and I so agree
Sweet
Thank you! So much of this is accurate for me, especially the early childhood environment. I escaped through books and daydreamed constantly. I have Neptune conjunct Uranus in the first house.
Damn you read my childhood to the T. I’m studying my birth chart and on a healing/spiritual journey. Love and light to anyone who reads this ✨
Pisces in first house (and rising). This video really shocked me to my core from how accurate it is...
-i almost died of umbilical chord suffocation being born
- my father had bipolar and parents divorced
-my mother was codependent with men and with me
- she later in my teen years developed physical ailments and intense suffering
- we always joke that I am the mother and she is my child
- when I was little I remember the pain of being sooo deeply sensitive and feeling EVERYTHING from EVERYONE around me... When I got to school, the cruel world really hit me hard.
- to this day I fantasize and go into my own world so much that I feel like life is passing by. It makes me so sad but it's also so hard to cope in this world.
I didn't mean to share all this, but I just wanted other pisces risings to know they're not alone 💞
I have this placement and it's tough. What you said is so accurate. I always thought my nana was my real mum cos I must have felt some disconnect from my real mum, still do if I'm honest. I also find people only want to be around me if I'm of use to them, once they don't need me I don't hear from them, also as a child I remember my mum calling me "that child" which I didn't like and she never defended me to adults who were rather nasty to me. I feel like my mum fakes any maternal feelings she has towards me.
Neptune in the 1st house in sagittarius anyone?
Me
Bro the accuracy is making me emotional.
Sun in Pisces, Ascendant in Pisces, Mercury in Pisces
This is why I cant smoke weed or do any sort of drugs because I cannot handle how intense everything already is for me. I'm too sensitive. I've worked really hard to build my boundaries while also exuding love & my sense of self. Self love has been a focus & I'm so proud of how far I've come to love myself & be able to love others while protecting myself. I'm an iridescent chameleon & I've grown to love that about myself.
i'm pisces rising, i smoked weed and became addicted to it. Drugs are just a no-go zone
Love this 1st house stellium here: Ascendant, Neptune, Uranus and Saturn! Great video 🤙
Anna Luna How does Uranus and Saturn manifest for you here?
Same, but 1st house is ruled by capricorn, for me 😮😁🧚♀️🔱♑
I have a cap ascendant . My uranus us at 4 degrees and my Neptune and Saturn are at 12 degrees. I wonder what having Saturn and Neptune at the same degree in cap mean? I wish that there were more videos about ppl born in 88 and 89 with Uranus, Saturn, and Neptune in Capricorn
NRGRX I have this too, makes you a very compassionate but Stern loner all in one, Uranus and saturn kind of helps me keep boundaries and more aware of when when I'm being taken advantage than the average Neptunian I feel, it's a nice balance but you often feel like your always on the outskirts of life just looking in but unable to ever truly be part of anything, almost like staring into a fish bowl or something and just observing life happening
I have this stellium too. All in capricorn and sagittarius rising.
I’m a Pisces rising and I’m going to be a super star 💫
This is one of the most interesting and informative video's I've watched regarding Neptune in the First House. A lot of this was my childhood. I have heard many many times that my mother suffered greatly during labor(36 hours) lots of drugs and I was forcibly removed with forceps. I have Neptune in the First house with Scorpio Rising/Pisces Sun/Pisces Venus. I lived in a dreamy dream world, because there were lots of hardships, scary things, nightmares and I was told all the time that I was an overly emotional child. I lived in a world of make-believe, and found most people did not understand me. The part where you said about feeling invisible, but so connected to everything going on, that is me. 100% an HSP(Highly Sensitive Person) I am not the typical Scorpio Rising, having a few of the attributes, but a lot (or more)of Pisces qualities as well. AND yes, boundaries were not existent. I had to learn the hard way to set boundaries.
You just explained my whole life..how can this info be so accurate 😳
My mom almost died when I was born. My whole early childhood is a blur to me, I only have memories as of 5 years old, nothing before that. And I am very emotional and have had a lot of internal struggles, and I do feel like merging like others.
Sagittarius rising with Neptune in the 1st and yes I experienced sexual trauma throughout my life since the age of 4 and interestingly enough I have Venus conjunct Pluto Jupiter and Mars all in the 12th house! So a lot of my insecurities and lack of boundaries are shielded by my subconscious mind due to my childhood traumas . So with this placement I’m constantly running through life trying to escape my subconscious mind by keeping myself busy even if that means doing things I don’t want and following modern capitalistic values but thankfully I had my spiritual awakening and learned about Jupiter my chart ruler and dove deep into spirituality which funny enough due to my Neptune placement I found myself using spirituality to escape from my problems until I fell into the dark night of the soul where I was forced to look at myself deep within and acknowledge this wounded child
I recognize myself in this. I will say that I'm way more grounded than that I was as I child. I dunno what my childhood was like actually before the age of 8 there was so much going on. But still, I think it is also a great placement to have because you are so intuned with others and yourself, also as a Neptune 1st house I'm very creative in a lot of areas! I'm an Aries moon Scorpio sun Sagutarius rising Scorpio Mercury, Sagittarius Venus. Jupiter Sagittarius. I have quite a lot of fire in my chart besides Scorpio and Libra. :)
Pretty amazing information in this "In Depth" Video Hannah!
Most of what you described was accurate , you did great with this description hannah.
I have my neptune in my 1st house and eeeeverything you said was so on point that I even got emotional 🤧 it was so crazily on point!
I'm Pisces Rising, and wow Hannah this was (scarily) accurate!! Thanks again for another one of your super insightful videos on natal chart placements :)
WoW Fantastic! This video got me to subscribe. I’m a professional astrologer and help people with trauma resolution going on my 6th year giving astrological counseling sessions 18 years doing trauma work, intuitive sessions, animism mentoring and energy healing. I love hearing other people’s info and interpretations in astrology. This is the closest thing to what I’ve experienced and know for myself with this signature.
You’re SO accurate. I have Neptune EXACT in conjunction to my AC in the 1st. This is 100% spot on. I was born as a triplet 3 months early and died several times- my mom was deeply traumatized by all of what happened my older triplet (I’m the middle) passed away at 18months old. She’s been a guide in spirit with my twin sis and my mom as well. Addiction, projection, emotional baggage, overly empathic experiences overwhelm- All of that. I’ve definitely had people show parts of themselves they claim to not have ever revealed to anyone else as well as unresolved traumas being projected. I literally JUST told my partner I’m feeling better and better at being in my body balancing from the coping & survival style of spending time in the “other worlds” Both ethereal worlds and earth physical are a must for me.
I tend to isolate more than cling to people, very much enjoy my alone time and instead focus my energy to help other people-
Alone Time in Nature is an absolute must for me. So much inner work around state regulation with my nervous system, vagus nerve and body movements to stay present/ embodied. I’ve started teaching these techniques which has truly been a game changer for many people as well. You’re so talented! Beautiful video 🙏Thank you so much for your sharing! Keep it up!
As a Pisces rising, this video resonated with me a lot. Everything you said was spot on!
Woww... this was so on point all of this, I felt so “seen” watching this! 😭😭
Why did this video make me cry😭
Pisces Rising here, I wasn’t expecting for such a heavy video 😅 everything was so spot on 🥺🤍
Love you girl! Your amazing! Thanks for all you do!!!!!!
I absolutely love your work Hannah, thank you so much for doing what you do. Amazing! 🙏🏻💗
Yayyyyyy Neptune in 1st House ! Pisces rising and Pisces moon girl here I am ! Ahahah thanks Hannah I'm so excited to watch and learn mooooore about this placement 😍😜😁
As always your videos are spot on. Neptune 1st house in Sagittarius here, and you totally sang my life aloud in this video regarding this nebulous placement.
Wow this explains why I’ve always felt invisible and i had to search for my own privacy in my family’s small house with 8 family members. I honestly don’t know how I did it when I was a kid because that was a hectic childhood. Thank you for this! Slowly I’m realizing how this placement is prominent in my life
I loved this video! I’m newly subscribed to your channel. I’m a Pisces rising and this video was very accurate in my opinion.
omg no wonder your a pisces rising you look like a mermaid, beautiful woman ❤️
I’m a Pisces ♓️ Rising in 1st house and Pisces ♓️ moon in the 12th house. I resonate with this . Thanks for sharing and enlightening. I’m a Empath 💚 I also love to astral travel.
You always tell me exactly what I need to here
I am a natal Pisces Ascendant!!! Thank You Hannah!
Yess love I’m a Pisces rising
im half way thru the video. i have neptune in the first and i relate to a lot of what ur saying ❤️
I have natal Neptune rising in my 1st house. I definitely resonate with the content in this video.
Woooooow! You are sooo on point 😪
Hi! great video! Neptune squares my ascendant and some of these qualities came up, for example when I was a child I believed that I was adopted lol. thanks for the video. :)
Gemini sun, Cancer moon, Scorpio rising with Neptune and Uranus in the 1st house. You hit everything on the nose!❤️
Spot on! Thank you!
Spot on very accurate!
That was stunningly accurate. Neptune conjunctions my sun in my first house
Wow - this makes so much sense now. I'm a Libra Sun with Pisces Rising. Really fascinating.
omg i’m also a libra sun and pisces rising
Omg this is totally my mum ... she is a piscis sun, piscis moon and has Neptune in the 1st house. She is the most selfless person I know, a huge lack of boundaries. Then she goes into victim mode. I do my best so as to she doesn’t feel bad, but she feels things very deeply. I love her so much
Ive seen now many Neptune first house videos and this one was so spot on! I now learn even more things, for example that this placements leads to strong ,,pieces-like“ energy.
The point with my mother: it’s true, she had a lot of pain doing birth, I didn’t want to ,,come out“ I was a late one, so she was drugged and cutting off her stomach bc I was to big already.
I felt somehow this responsibility to be emotionally there for her, she was very strict, she closed me in my room so I could to school work, she had this ,,idea“ of me and was very disappointed when I wasn’t the best out of the best ones in my class of whatever. Now I’m 22 and still live with her, I feel like I can’t leave, I got depression a few years ago, so I’m seeing all these videos to find answers and it’s really helping me understanding my emotions more!! I also have cap rising and first house moon aqua, so it’s double harder for me to understand my emotions and set boundaries. My parents always were disappointed when I say ,,no“ to even the littlest things like ,,I don’t wanna eat right now.“ ,,I don’t wanna go with you guys in the city“ ,,I’m not going to this family visit“ etc.
My mom even screamed at me when my appearance wasn’t the same as in her head, she always ALWAYS told me to change into something different.
It’s now hard for me to find my own preferences and set boundaries, even defending my own emotional needs. I’ve never done that in my life.
My mom was spying on me a lot, she was always in my room during my school time and checked all my notebooks and writing little notes down were I made ,,mistakes“ like drawing pictures or something in it.
So I thought it was really normal for a long long time…
Now I have to conditionally change everything what I though was totally normal through all these years in my life…
Thank you very much you really help me all the time
Within the first couple of minutes of the video, its a miracle i didnt die when i was born (or during my mother's prgnancy). It was all very violent. And as a gurl I literally did questiin who my father was. Its undeniable who he is but the circunstances were blurry. I look forward to finishing the video.
YEYEYEY!! Literally like Christmas day! Uranus and Neptune in 1st house ~ + Saturn in pieces in my 2nd D: .. PLUS the polar opposite of my sunsign. Can't get away from this energy-- I love it though.
My daughter is a Pisces rising 3 degrees with the sun conjunct within 2 degrees in the 1st and Neptune at 9 degrees conjunct the sun. She does escape and does so through astral travel and dreams, very intuitive and my phrase I give to her is to ask her body to stop healing everyone else and to call all her energy back to herself🥰
Neptune 1H , I cried :)) Thank you
neptune 1H and my mother fell deeply into her addiction soon after my birth because her father died shortly after. also having sympathy/empathy for mothers struggles resonates with my neptune 1H, especially in my case bc my mother & i are both virgo moons 😭
I definitely resonate to a lot of this
I liked your reactions on you want to say things but also don't want to hurt the pisces rising 😂🌹
Thank you, this describes my childhood so well.
Aquarius sun
Sagittarius moon
Pisce rising
AHH THE ACCURACY
I have this placement and is so true in my life your spot on
It can be very overwhelming
Spot on so accurate
Thank u hannah for helping me understand my stellium in the first house which are neptune,uranus and sun latter two are conjuct and i relate to this video alot probably I'm neptune dominant 🤩.
I don't know if you'll still see this, but my mom died when I was very young. Like five almost six, and after she died I stole her entire personality, her favorite color, I even wore her clothing style.
I've always felt like an actor trying to play up a persona, and i'm not even sure who I was before all this. We truly are just as mutable as water.
explains a lot lol .. thanks, helps me figure out myself more
Interesting thanks. I have a stellium Moon, Venus Neptune all in Scorpio in the 1st house .
Paranoia? Hah…i’m that one person that always checks if people r still breathing when their asleep. (Scorpio south node & pisces rising)😭
Oof. Right in the feels, right when transiting Pluto is flirting with my natal Venus. Value stuff is really up for me bigtime, and especially my frustration with "every time I act on my own desires" creating a collision.
so true ! Pisces cusp in my 1st house and cusp in my 12th house !
“Spiritual experience early in life” My dad was a literal pastor girl lol.
Neptune in the first house, found out I’m adopted when I turned 21 😊
I have Neptune and the moon in my first house
Pisces ☀️ and Neptune in my 1st house ! I have a lot going on in my first house🙇🏻♀️ lol
I’m shook 😮
My mother was pregnant with me for 10months only because the doctors couldn’t figure if she was pregnant or not. All the test kept coming back negative. So during this time she still continued to party and live life as a normal 18 year old.After being born the nurses almost lost me due to the fact I was absolutely fair skin so the didn’t think I belonged to my mother. During this time people where stealing babies out of the hospital so of course this was hard on mother.My mom suffered through pain my entire up brining and so on. I finally detached myself and moved out when I turned 21. That’s when my somewhat emotional/ psychic abilities started to surface through making my own moves in the world. Since then I’m still learning that other peoples emotions don’t always have to bring me down as well. I’m in shock... thank you 🙏🏾
you are gorgeous
@@nikaboolove Im also a pisces rising and I too almost died when my mom was giving birth to me. My umbilical cord was tightly wrapped around my neck and was suffocating me. My mother was slowly dying too because I was killing her from the inside, so the doctor ordered a C-section. I was also born 3 months early so I wasn’t fully developed, when I came out the womb I was as small as my mothers thumb. The doctors kept me and nurtured me to a steady health for a month. After my eyes were developed my mother was finally able to hold me.
I was born with very pale skin and hazel green eyes so when my mother was finally able to see me she wasn’t aware if I was even her child. “ That’s my baby?? “ haha..
I have neptune in Aquarius in the 1st house and moon in capricorn and chiron in the first house but I'm a capricorn rising 😁🤷♂️⬆️
I have Neptune in the 1st......a lot of what you mentioned here is true, but I also have Saturn in 12th so I also like separation from others. Also I developed a fear of other people's anger, yes I get a lot of projections: Saint or Sinner.
As far as parents coddling and dumping their fears on me: everytime I was going to achieve something big, they stopped me. I had to apply force. But fun fact is that my mom describes my birth as super easy.
Capricorn Rising here with Neptune and Uranus in 1st house. I just feel very confused when it comes to my own identity. I often let define others who I am or I change my role frequently.
I wonder what is more dominant in general: the sign the 1st house is in or the planets in the 1st house... does anybody have an idea?
the planet
Neptune conjunct ascendant exactly in Sagittarius. My mother almost died giving birth to me and I almost died as well. I am an empath. I have prophetic dreams and have suffered from sleep paralysis all of my life. I see spirits. I also have a thing I have called pre deja vu. When something happens I know that it is going to happen again.
I have Mars Venus Neptune Uranus Jupiter in the 1st house house Capricorn ! Overwhelming 😢
Neptune in 1st with sidereal chart
Yes, Neptune in 1. House (Scorpio rising), have felt like a mirror (water) for other peoples shadows 😑
Neptune and Uranus between my 1st and 2nd house. Sag Rising ☺🙌🏻
Same
I'm a Capricorn ascendant with Neptune conjunct and I have always felt like a victim and being a ghost and ignored and being walked on my dad was into alcoholism and my mom was deep into depression when I was born I have barely any memory of my childhood I just remember very few things and like I just I have no boundaries what so ever with people
I have Neptune in the 1st house and a Pisces moon in the 4th house.
Dear Hannah, your sharings are always so deeply penetrating and to the POINT. Do you have any sharings that focus on the needs and support of the Feminine in particular? Especially when it comes to Astrological Principles? Thank you for being here dear siSTAR.
wow crazy rigth
I have Libra rising
Neptune and BML in the first house.
You read me to a T!!!!
Touches ascendent in a sextile aspect. Everything (that's known anyways) reigns true with me...scary.
Aquarius rising..but Pisces intercepted in 1st containing Pisces moon..along with Neptune conjunct sun and MC in 10th
I’ve had so many bizarre memories as a child of going to different dimensions and things not making sense to me.. like I had good memory so the things that happened to me were so weird.
Also my cousin Julie (mother figure) was shot in the head in Chicago and her moon was in Pisces. And my mom told me the doctors drugged my mother to keep her from having labor because I was coming our forcefully and premature.
neptune 1st house, my mom was given a medicine that caused her womb to get smaller, so when i was born i was essentially dead 😭😭 and had to be resurrected back to life
That’s a entrance 😂 💪🏻
too accurate omg, cap rising w nept 1 house here haha
Just want to mention kourtney kardashian.. she seems to have a lot of these issues.,.Im sure she is a pisces rising. Thanks for the vid! love your channel Hannah
I also discovered that Kim kardashian and Kylie Jenner have Neptune in the 1st house too! Thanks for watching 🦋💫
So this is what you do during your coronavirus home quarantine?→ Celebrity gossip 😞
Kayne West is the best Kardashian ok. Seriously get back to work pls
I have Neptune in my 1st house and my daughter has pisces rising..oh boy.. 😂.This was so accurate that it's scary.. 😂
This is the explanation that so far fits the best with my early childhood.
I contaraced polio, when I was six months old and only breastfed, and I was admitted into 2 different hospitals for 6 months. My family was split up in tiny bits because of my farthers illness and unemployment, so with only one visit pr week untill I came home the day before my one year birthday, i didn't know any of my family members. It took my 3 older brothers 3 weeks to make me smile.
From I was 5 -15 I went through 7 major surgeries, and I was never alloved to say no. furthermore I was sexually abused for about 5 years untill I was 15... No wonder I still struggle with setting boundaries, but... I also benefit from all the positive sides og Neptune: I've been a proff singer and I'm an artist 😌 Not everything is negative 🙃🙂🙃