Mad Tsai - in my head (Official Music Video)
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- čas přidán 25. 04. 2023
- hi my loves--
there's so much to say. this song is probably the most special song that i've ever released, and it means the world to me that i can give it to the world now. for those who don't know, my original plan was to release a different song to follow up stacy's brother, but my grandmother unfortunately passed away in december from her battle with cancer. she was my favorite person in the entire world, and we used to play this song for her while she was in the hospital. i wanted this song to come out in her honor and to create a short film that would connect into the world that i've been creating with this project. this song is dedicated to my amah, who was the most special person in my life. i hope you all can resonate with this song and that it connects to a part of you. love you all.
(p.s. for those who caught on, yes, i did interpolate avatar the last airbdender into this song!!)
- mad
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Starring: Mad Tsai and Sam Vicchiolo
Story/Concept by Mad Tsai
Directed by Eliot Lee
Produced by Tali Weizman
Executive Producers: Galileo Mondol & Lopes
Production Company: BT Studios
1st AD: Tay Thai
Production Manager: Nour Sayeh
Production Coordinator: Natalie Jastrow
Director of Photography: Gabriel Araujo
1st AC: Max Riley
Steadicam Operator: Garet Jatsek
Gaffer: Matthew Pang
Key Grip: Nathan Kadota
Swing: Eric Crain
PA: TJ Gormley
Photographer: Jake Miller
Stylist: Mad Tsai
VHS Cover Design by Lucy Andrews
Edit by Eliot Lee
Color by Cameron Marygold (Ethos Studio)
VFX by Justin Nguyen
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in my head (lyrics):
your starring role
played the part of my lover
heart spilled but ran through the gutter
maybe i’m better off walking home
broke my heart
said our love was like movies
i’m not the one that you’re choosing
god why do i always love alone
but in my head you never left
and at the start i’d fix this end
so in another world we’d be again
but in this life i’m not complete
you found someone I can’t compete
so guess I’m stuck with loving you inside my head
cause in another world we’d be again
i know it’s selfish to wish that you’re hurting
just to prove it was worth the
pain and the joy that you put me through
we’re slow dancing in grocery aisles
pretend to hear our wedding bells
oh tell me baby
where did we go wrong?
cause’ in my head i’m on your bed
we’re singing songs from 2010
and i pause every frame to see you smile again
but truth is we weren’t meant to be
you own my heart but lost the key
so now you tell me bout’ the new lover you met
so guess i’ll keep our story in my head
do you ever think of me
the pieces of what we used to be
just meet me at the place inside my mind
our world goes on and on
and we keep on dancing to this song
i live in little moments and rewind
but in my head i don’t pretend
i never lost my only friend
cause’ in another world we’d be again
but in this life i’m not complete
you found someone I can’t compete
guess happy endings only happen in my head - Hudba
every time when someone like this comment i come back and listen this song again
Oops
Or you could save it to a playlist......
listen to it rn
Come back rn
Time to listen to the song again while you cry 🥲
if you guys didn’t know :
this song was already hinted before but it was hinted to his grandma first
sadly, she passed away in december
thus the message “for Amah”
sorry for your loss Tsai
Yeah....rip tsai's grandma💞💞
🕊
Rest in peace tsai's grandma☠️🕊️
@@celinemetzger2706horrible choice of emojis.
Rest In Peace
Damn what a long "guess happy ending only happens in my head".
This line broke my heart and got me in tears. *crying rn
Same, this song had me sobbing.
Jesus Christ love you!!, he died for you friends
Fr 😭
Knowing that Stacy’s Brother was all in his imagination makes this ten times sadder
😢
A continuation of “Stacy’s Brother”? Oh I can already tell it’s gonna be amazing IM SO EXCITED AHHHHHH
OMG FR
ooo that's a good idea :o
Stacy's brother can be a whole ahh drama 😫😫
@@patlnzwaa555- fr fr. what's stopping netflix to make a series of it??
@@tangerinu_u right?? NETFLIX I DEMAND A SERIES. pls 😔
The fact that this song is a sad truth that happens to a lot is the true pain. We go thru this thought in our head, a happy one, we never want to think of what bad can happen until we let it happen. And as the song says “cause happy endings only happen in my head”, we’re happy cause their in it until they actually leave, probably forever. Thank you tsai 💜
That's so true.
I'm aroace so luckily romantic heartbreak is something I'll likely never have to experience. Yet still, this song made me a little emotional.
This ATLA inspiration is beautiful... I’ve never been more touched before, since avatar has always been special and key to me. Congrats on releasing this amazing song.
Bruh I noticed the beats in the background were from avatar. Glad I'm not the only one lol
Everyone keeps saying it and i can't see itttttttttt
Atla?
@@lilydrimm6626the melody at the start 😉
@@goldentoast69avatar the legend of aang
一直以来都很喜欢mad的嗓音，相信阿嫲在天之灵也对宝贝孙感到光荣！
+1 mad tsai 真的很好聽
我的祖母也去世了……但她永遠在我心中。 :)
I already know I will have this one on loop. Mad Tsai never failed to gave us amazing song and music video. We love you Tsai. The LGBTQ+ community just feel better with you. Thank you 💛
I couldn't have said this better. ❤
Your comment is good you said it better than me ♥️ but please next time LGBTQ+ 🙏 I'm not hating on you 😗💗just for next time 😅
@@donaldwilliamson5165 I changed it because some people can feel offended by this, I only forgot to put the +. So Thank you sweet heart
@@iamamiraclearmy6461
❤️
Ikr?
IVE FOLLOWED HIM SINCE 2020 AND NOW HE'S MAKING AMAZING MUSIC.
For me it was only from 2021
Sameee
for me it was boy bi. so proud of how far his come tbh.
SAME.
@@tangerinu_u real i was here from then
This song genuinely made me cry. I’m going to be graduating this year and I’m going to be leaving so many of my friends behind. This song has always made me feel a sort of nostalgia that I’m very thankful for❤❤❤
So sorry for your loss, Mad. The pain becomes bearable with time. I remember when I lost my Mma nukwu, I was so sad that I shaved my hair in grief. She was a gruff, statuesque woman with a penchant for overfeeding her grandkids. Your Amah is never truly gone because you keep her in your heart.
I only recently discovered Mad Tsai, and while I've only heard the music, I would like to thank him for his content. I didn't grow up in an outright homophobic household, however, certain expectations were always...expected. The content that this young man makes dramatizes the person I wish I was when I was younger. Proud, confident in who they are, and willing to express themselves in both a theatrical and genuine way. I've been bumping Boy Bi acoustic on my way to work on the daily, when it comes on the playlist, it's always a recentering moment. An entertaining and playful song, whilst also expressing an insecurity that I'm sure some of us are all too familiar with. Keep on rocking in the free world Mad Tsai, excited for everything you do.
Dramatic has never been a compliment for a male or a female. You have allowed others to warp dignity with what I gather you perceive as sex-based prejudice. It's not sex- based.
@@TryingtoTellYou please don’t rain on a compliment. Dramatizes was used in this case to refer the theatrical production of a drama the reflected their own life. You read it as a derogatory word such a drama queen or many of the drama derogatory statements used against me in the past. Two different contexts with two different meanings.
@@jerrygray5510 Dramatic has never been complimentary when referring to a character trait. I am just saying it how it is.
I did not expect the constant ATLA musical references, just makes me love the song even more❤️
Yess !! And i think it's fit perfectly to the song ❤
IKRRR AHHH
What's atla?
Yes!! As soon as the song started, I knew
@@arya.07 Avatar: The Last Airbender
It's really incredible how an independent artist can make an amazing masterpiece... imagine what he is capable to create with the support of a record label or music producer?
When I was younger all these happy fantasies were all in my head, now that I am old and happily in my third relationship I still have the fear of living alone in my senior years.
Okay but can we talk about how genius the music video is? Like, not only is it so so creative, but also extremely well made, and both Mad's and Sam's acting is spot on. Obviously though I can't go without appreciating the song itself, it's raw and beautiful, it's painful and honest. Big thanks to everyone who worked on this, and to Mad - i can picture your grandma being so so happy that you released it in her honour. Congratulations!!
It's based on his grandma? How?
@@goldentoast69 he played this song for her while she was in the hospital, and released it in her honor after she had passed. the desc explains it all
REPENT NOW FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS COMING!!!!
I shed a tear knowing as I’m close to graduating high school that this love problem (break ups, etc) is something I’ll never experience. I’m so grateful for the content you create. It allows me to envision and mourn the teenage life I could never have had. I only hope I grow up to be confident and fully authentic. Because as sad as this is I don’t wish for this all to be in my head. For once I want to have a real true moment that exists out of my phone and mind. Ty ❤❤
you described exactly how I'm feeling. i relate with you so so so much.
@@uselessSam ahh that’s kinda a relief to hear. I don’t know if this will happen but I hope to have queer friends in the future. Bc I think that type of community and understanding will help me. 🥰 and same for you if you’re alone as well.
@@kenny4900 yeah I'm alone af too....but even worse my country is homophobic af so it's hard to find lgbtq friends. but i like to hold onto the hope that there is someone for everyone 😭😭😭
It's so nice to hear someone who feels the exact same as I do
Just becoz u didn't have a relationship in school doenst its the essence of teenage life loll. There's so much more to life than relationship at school lol
This song hits me hard when I just know that "I love you" at the beginning was your grandma voice ❤
Sending all the love to you and family.
OMG just heard Mad Tsai for the 1st time and I'm 51 years old crying from being reminded of a x bf that I still wonder if he thinks of me today. So many happy beautiful memories that ended with us both balling our eyes out as I took him to the airport and him being forced to go back home to China because his parents found out about us. We were only 30 years old at the time but hearing this song made it feel like it happened just yesterday!
I love how he visioned this song to be opposite of Stacy's Brother. Like the opposite of fairytails. More music Mad Tsai this was so good.
REPENT NOW FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS COMING!!
@@comicbookingno one rlly cares
@@mrpreppy72288It's not about 8f you care or not, it's truth
no....
no one asked, we dont care shut up@@comicbooking
@@comicbookinghow do you know
Hope you don't forget us when you become a famous singer because this is too good to be underrated
FR THO
The song is literally really good, and Rest In Peace to Amah.
I cried…i literally cried…cuz I’m literally going through a breakup right now…and this song just hit me hard…❤️
God, I already know this song's gonna be a banger just because it's by Mad Tsai and I'm gonna be talking about the mv for ages.
fr
I found a directioner right there!!!
@@user-rh1yt6tq9s OI OIII
This song is truly so beautiful, i teared up watching this. The Avatar sample… I’m living for this!
This story made me cry sm and the fact that he continued Stacy’s brother is so amazing
I only stumbled upon this incredible artist today, and god knows how many times ive rewatched this mv. Thank you Mad from the bottom of my heart ❤
5 days before it comes out and I already know this will be a masterpiece
Are we ignoring the fact, that it starts with the ATLA music, i love it! And the Song itself is just amazing
this song is so emotional and raw. and my heart is with you, Mad Tsai. i know ur grandma is proud of u and watching u, i know this feeling. much love for u and ur family.
you have a fan in brazil
It was the "For Amah" for me, that got my dying with tears😭✨
I’m crying my eyes out watching this 😭😭❤️❤️
mad tsai is a true bi ✨ICON✨
all of his songs i admire so much and his music really helped me through hard times. Thank you for this masterpiece i love how this turned out ❤️❤️❤️
BICON
Hah! GAI!!
This was an amazing song great job, this brought back many nostalgic memories from my past, thank you. Also I know this video was dedicated to you grandma, I'm sorry for your loss. I still have my grandma she is 86 and I love her very much I could not imagine life without her, I get it. You are a brave and wonderful person. Your crew did an amazing job with filming keep up the great work 😸☺️
my sincere condolences for your loss, your new song touched me a lot, my heart is hurting while listening to it. I expected another ending for stacy's brother but now after listening to her I feel it couldn't be different. stay well Mad.
They were THE saddest and most beautiful 4 minutes of my day, I Love your music you are truly amazing
I LOVE IT! It’s so good and I love how it’s a continuation of your last song and how it’s about stories you make up in your head of how think things are going to happen a certain way but then it doesn’t go as you planned and after you're just sitting there wondering where you went wrong and then coming to the realization that it will never be the way you imagined and trying to figure out how you’re going to move on
This song is enough to make a grown ass man cry dude
If you listen closely to the last part of the song at 3:41 - 3:51 that instrumental I think was from the closing of Avatar the Last Airbender which is a good way to end the song honestly, gave me goosebumps when I heard it.
Yeah! I noticed!
first part too
This song hit me hard and made me wept. I’ve been in that situation. I had just moved to a new city to help a friend out with rent and met a guy. We dated for 5 months but had to part ways. He was graduating from college and was heading back home to plan his next steps. I was moving back to my hometown as well because my friend was also graduating. But we had promised each other that we were going to move back to that city together. But then Covid happened and I lost contact with him ever since :/ and all those dreams of starting a new life went out the window. Pains me when I think back to it and what never was. But we cannot dwell on dreams forever can we?
im really excited for this!!!
I loved the stacy’s brother MV so i’m 100% certain that i’ll enjoy this one!
Stay safe ❤
Had to stop the song midway through I can't stop crying over this. It reminds me of all the times I lost my heart to someone who couldn't love me back. You're music is beautiful. Thank you for your gift of song. I hope to hear more music from you.
I'm about to cry. Tsai I'm sorry for your loss and this song it's amazing ❤
Awww knowing the heart behind this piece and how much it meant to your grandma, just thank you for baring your soul to us. Its beautiful, creative and artistic. Keep bringing us bangers.
Another amazing song by Tsai, this has to be my favorite one so far! Thank you for always making amazing music. You never disappoint!
OMG, you write some of the saddest, most beautiful songs. I love this song. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us! ❣
I can't believe this is fully out now! Thank you for this song!
Looking forward to this!! Thank you Mad for the music you make ❤, keep it up
So excited I have been listening to mad Tsai so much lately and his new songs are always a work of art.
Omg, I love your music it hits hard I cried so hard in this song! I love you and hope you go very far in life! You deserve it every bit of it all your songs are amazing and I absolutely love Stacy's Brother! I hope you get everything you wish for and love you again❤️❤️❤️
The music is so cool. And his voice is so amazing. So very talented. It's incredible. Hate i always find these amazing people so late. Wish he knew I love his music. And think he's absolutely amazing. Good for him. God bless him. I wish him nothing but success and happiness. Anyone one be lucky just to know him let alone be loved by him. Mad S Rules the World!!😊❤
Was waiting for it king 👑
I know you're gonna slayyyyyyyy it ❤️
THANK YOU MAD!! You are a staple of my life right now, and your music has helped me through so much. I love your music so so much....thank you!! You also have helped so much people find themselves and love who they are. I love you so much~ and I hope you are happy!! Stay safe and healthy. Thank you so much for your music and impact. Love you!!
I’ve been waiting for this song for like a year, since the time you sang it on your ig live… so proud of you💕
This is painfully relatable, but so sad... beautiful and realistic, Mad... I have no words. Just keep doing what you're doing.
May your grandma rest in peace, I'm sure she will be very proud of you! Another amazing song from an amazing person! I hope to see this become a series one day 😂💖
This song is beautiful. I've listened to it nonstop since it came out. It brings back many memories and makes me cry every time I listen to it. Your music is always amazing and never fails to amaze us. This song is the one I never knew I needed, thank you.
I remember when I saw the original post, and you did so amazing. I can tell that your Grandma loved this when she heard it. I actually cried, you are literally such an amazing song writer.
This song meant alot and I really love it. You are an amazing artist. Keep up the great work!
I cannot imagine how beautiful the strings intro and then the chorus ??!! Tsai never disappoints
I haven't been able to cry since I got rejected by my own best friend that I shared everything with but 1 minute in listening to this made me ugly sobbing at 2 am. This is so good and damn I hope this gets so many love that it deserves ❤❤❤
Perfect!! U are a king of music
Oh, and i hope you can feel better with this song, your grandma would probably love it, she must be proud of you ❤
I’m so sorry you lost your grandmother and tysm for posting even when it’s hard❤😊
Really waited a long for your song released so much excited ❤❤ look forward for that day🥰🥳🥳
I’m so excited for this can’t wait I already know it’s gonna be good
You never disappoint and this song is simply amazing keep up the good work ❤
I love it! Your vocals and etc are so good!!😭
It will surely be beautiful. I am so excited hear Mad Tsai that all my sadness melted away. Love you .
We don’t even need to wait I know this will be popular the second it premieres
I love the cinematography!!! First song i knew from you was Boy Bi and it's amazing to see you evolve as an artist throughout the years
Well now I'm crying, thanks for gifting us with this masterpiece!!!
When I watched a video about mad tsai I was impressed for the perfect combination of rhythm of his song and the video was just perfect. I realize how strong and powerful is love and Ithink all the path that you had to pass to be that famous. I´m so happy and proud of you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I know this will be one of my top songs really quickly!!! (And is this just me or does this feel like a continuation to Stacy's Brother)
It is :3
omg
It is watch the end of the video
Oh, I love this song sm, and the MV, thank you, thank you
this song gives me vibes of 'movies' by conan gray
in my head:
"said our love was like movies"
"i guess i'm stuck with loving you inside my head"
movies:
"in my head we're dancing in the dark, in my head we kiss under the stars"
"in my head we never grew apart, in my head you never break my heart"
"'cause baby this ain't like the movies" "i want a love like the movies"
i already know this is going to be my favorite mad tsai song im excitedddd
I’m so sorry for your Amahs passing Mad, Although this was 4 months ago, I hope she settled happily in Heaven looking down at you and everyone she loved 🩷💜💙
This was so beautiful omg and I’m so sorry for your loss. I know your amah is looking down at you so proud of everything you’ve accomplished and will in the future! So glad to see a continuation of Stacy’s brother. Hope there’s a happy ending for those two 🫶🏻
I just love the world you’re creating Mad ❤❤❤❤
i am unwell
i am so so unwell
i relate to this song on such a deep level and i also lost my grandma in december of 2022
thank you, for everything
Dude what you do is art please never stop
Thank you for this masterpiece really needed this ❤
Just amazing 😢😊❤. Love it so much. Watch it every night after work. I've loved and lost so much. Makes me cry.
I came here after randomly finding Stacy's Brother. I was not ready!
i know it sounds silly but i cry everytime i hear this song..... such a beautiful song....
This honestly made me cry. It made me think about this friend I have who likes me, but I don’t like her back, and I feel like I’m making her feel bad BECAUSE I don’t love her back. But this is such a beautiful yet sad story ❤
This hurt me so much more cause it's legit what I'm going through right now... Love your music sm tho thank you for making such great music
Omg I’m so excited I’ve been trying to wait patiently for new music and it’s paid off only one more day and a few hour’s til it’s released!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Omg I can’t wait to have this on my Spotify playlists!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so sorry about your grandmother. I absolutely love this song. hope ur doing well and better💜💜💜💜
This song really touched me, thank you for sharing such an intimate record, it's truly magnificent.
I knew my heart was gonna be in pieces the minute I heard the Last Airbender music.
A song and music video haven’t made me this emotional since Katy Perry’s “the one that got away”. 😭
Well done!!!
My condolences as well. I’m sure your grandmother was a wonderful woman.
CAN'T WAIT ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Love your music and your dedication to your art. Beautiful song and story telling. ❤❤❤❤
Going through exactly this right now. He was my best friend for 3 years and threw me away like it was the easiest thing he has ever done. Hope you can all heal whoever is feeling this.
2 years ago i would've been balling my eyes out to this song till they were blue and red
This seriously made me cry. I can't express how deep this masterpiece is. Great Job, ;)
IT CAME OUT!!! This song is such a banger you did awesome!!!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR MUSIC VIDEOS 🫶🏼❤️ & YOUR LYRICS 🫶🏼❤️ Your voice!! You’re amazing!! Thank you and always supporting!!!
My ama is 90 years old and I will be visiting her in Taiwan in August for what will most likely be the last time. I am really sorry for your loss, Mad Tsai.
Ah yes. Now I'm sitting in the corner of my room and crying. This song was beatufull and story behind it just... I can't say anything more than "thank you Mad"