The mornings are hard
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- čas přidán 3. 02. 2021
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I know it sucks. But you are still doing it - one foot in front of the other. One day at a time. You are taking care of your daughter and driving and working despite the anxiety. And that’s freaking amazing.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for sharing. I have never found someone who deals with agoraphobia in the same way as I do. I feel exactly the same as you in the mornings, and this has been beyond helpful. I finally feel like someone understands. Anxiety effing sucks, and we’re warriors.
Oh Lauren - (hello fellow Lauren!) I'm so sorry that you struggle, too - but you certainly aren't alone. It does indeed suck sometimes but it also always brings me to the loveliest people, and for that I am very, very grateful!
Bless your heart Lauren. I know exactly how you feel looking at those other moms 🥺 You are NOT ALONE. You are my toilet anxiety twin! Every thought, emotion, and physical issues are something I can relate with. Especially the mornings 😣 The starting over, the questioning of how the day is going to go. Having to TRY... TRY SO HARD, for just a little of the others "normal". Feeling so accomplished just to be knocked down in the panic. Feeling like it's the VERY FIRST TIME all over again 😣 Getting to that point of numbness because you're just exhausted. Not being able to actually enjoy the good days, or even moments because you know "its" going to come again. It's so SO HARD! But... We CAN LAUREN! As hard as it is we have, we can, and we will! My CORE fear with my bowels and panic is death. In a car is the worst for me because I'm trapped and don't want to cause a scene bringing embarrassment and judgment on to myself. We're the hardest on ourselves. I would not judge or make someone else feel embarrassed that was going through what I was going through. It takes so much effort, but I do my best to change focus and count my blessings. There's so much love and support from my family and friends. I still have to be me at the end of the day. I still have to deal with THIS. BUT WHEN I CAN GET OUT OF MY HEAD AND REALLY THINK CLEARLY AND FEEL CLEARLY, I KNOW THAT THE ME I CAN BE TAKES SO MUCH STRENGTH AND I HAVE TO GIVE MYSELF SOME CREDIT. I am constantly saying, "THIS SUCKS SO SO BAD, BUT I WILL GET THROUGH IT," my self-confidence and who I used to be and who I am now makes me so depressed. I took an enneagram test and was a six. Thinking about the questions, I know I would have answered them differently in the past. For me, it's finding truth in God's word about WHO I REALLY AM. The "me" I am in these dark moments isn't who I truly am. I know this, because of who I was before. I may never be her again but I won't be stuck here. You won't either ❤️
oh my gosh JoAnn...all of this!!! Yes, we are anxiety twins :P Thank you so much for this. It helped, it really did. Your words are so powerful and just as much for me as for you. Thank you.
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I get this so much... the school thing... 😞
Me too!!, it's horrible.
I am from india. Very same feeling like you. Suffering without going to college. Not going anywhere because of this
You are NOT self absorbed, please don't say that! All of your feelings are legit and a ton of people could never shoulder the burden you do. You are a champ!
Well, thank you!
I have pulled over on the side of the road so many times for the bathroom. You are doing the best you can panic attacks are so hard. I know you will get there soon. The meds really do help me. You are in my thoughts.
Thank you Helen.
Lauren stop beating yourself up. You are doing the best you can. Trust me I have had PTSD since was a child and I’m older than you. On and off and back on meds. Don’t give up and please take care of yourself. You’re worth it. And your videos help a lot of people. Including me. God Bless you
Thank you Bob!! You're so lovely.
That's the hardest part of the day for me as well. Sometimes, when I have to leave home in the morning, I spend the whole day before without food, so that I can go out. I thought that working from home and giving my lessons online would make things easier, but it's just the same. The fear of asking students to hold on a second so I can go to the toilet is the same.
I wonder if this will ever be different...
I really believe it will. I mean, some days I don't. Some days (like this day) I am so down in the depths and the muck and the mire that I can't see beyond my own hands. But also, I have been through it when it was different. It was wonderful. And I suppose it couldn't have been helped that a global pandemic came along and knocked everyone on their ass!
I'm with you, anyway, whatever the outcome.
I feel you ❤️
thank you!
@@LaurenRose. Sweetie, the imodium can disturb your gut's microbiome as well... which then disturbs the vagus nerve (brain-gut connection) and Serotonin levels which can cause more depression. I'm sure that you know that the stomach is known as the second brain. How's your eating habits?
You are not alone 💜⚘ xxxxxxx
Thank you so much, Laura
Fuck, do I ever relate to this ♡
You are so string and an inspiration to all of us. You deserve to love yourself (at least as much as people love you). Sending you a big HUG
I meant "strong"... Damn you autocorrect
Haha autocorrect will get you every ducking time!
Thank you for the warmth, I appreciate it
😕 God ... I understand perfectly.. and I feel guilty of suffering of it sometimes and rushing through everything and panicking and dragging my husband and kid in my mental mess.. but it’s what it is.. you’re not alone. We are a lot going through the same, I am better for a while and you and your video helped me a lot! It will get better.. it’s always ups and downs unfortunately with this anxiety 😥
Thank you sweetheart.
Aww Lauren this had me crying 😢 It breaks my heart knowing you have come so far and for it all to fall back again. I totally get it. It’s the same for me. All that hard work, and it feels like it was for nothing... but it was. Because not only did you get to enjoy some time with friends and family, you also learned that you can get through this. It’s friggin hard, but remember how it made you feel. That probably doesn’t help right now, and I really wish I could cuz it’s awful knowing you’re hurting and there’s nothing we can do. I just wish there was some sort of switch we just flick and it’s all better lol wishful thinking 🤔 thank you for being transparent ❤️
Thank you Rachael
@@LaurenRose. just know you are never alone in this ❤️ you may be the other side of the world from me but I’m always here if you need to talk ❤️
Saaammmee! You are not alone girl my anxiety, pee anxiety, and agrophobia were all doing so much better and covid hit and 1 year of lockdown here in the Philippines made it comeback with a force.
It sucks feeling you are going backwards after all the suffering and progress that we have endured.
My anxiety is the highest in the mornings, settles down by the afternoon. But I noticed my anxiety is most intense during my period a week before and a week after. I feel like I have a hormonal imbalance that triggers it more. May the Good Lord Bless you.
MTN N, are you here from the PH?
Covid has really done a number, hasn't it!!!!!
I so wish I was there sitting next to you and tell you everything I see in you that is AMAZING and Incredible and inspiring. Believe me when I say I know EXACTLY how you feel. I wish that I couldn’t say that but I do. It’s sooooo tough and so shit and it’s not conceited and it’s not selfish, it is what it is and that is Anxiety and Depression. You have seriously changed my view on things over these years of following you and I’ve learnt soooo much. What is so so important to say is - the world is going thru a worldwide Pandemic and the changes that have been brought to our lives are not ‘normal’ and not conducive to those of us with these challenges. One step one shaky step one more step in front of another. Big hugs, Belinda. xo
You are so right, Belinda. Thank you, thank you so much for your lovely kind words and for hearing me. I am so grateful ❤️
I feel you, I have also cried and cried as I'm so sick of living this life like when do I get a break!! I just want to be normal 😔 I have been diagnosed with Agrophobia at the age of 20 im nearly 35. I would say its mild as I can do pretty much anything although I avoid the supermarket unless its very quite and in the morning I feel like such a werido my kids don't understand why Dad has to always run into the Supermarket. Sending you a big hug xx
Thank you, Jen. I hear you! Sometimes it just feels like an impossible mountain to climb, but then...I guess we are doing it every single day!
@@LaurenRose. Yup thats it!
I hate toilet anxiety! It makes my life miserable, especially in the mornings, like wtf? I feel the same way, I just can’t with this anymore.
This is the exact reason why I hate mornings.
Sending you so much love, it is bloody tough!
For me mornings are a lot easier than nights, at least during the late morning/afternoon, and if I’m going out for an exposure later in the day is harder for me because I built up that anticipatory anxiety a lot more than if it was earlier in the day because if it’s earlier in the day I don’t have time to get super worked up about going out.
You are so brave to show your true feelings to us. I can't thank you enough for doing this for us. But it is good you are being so honest about yourself. Lots of times I try to ignore it or deny it and think it will just go away. But when I do finally admit it, I realize I am taking my first step to feeling better. It always gets better. I get those dark times, but somehow, someway they go away. I just keep saying out loud "It Will Get Better" to myself. Usually I just don't believe what I'm saying. But every once and awhile it will mean something to me. And that makes it all worthwhile. It's okay to go backwards. You won't be going backwards forever. God can help you. Accepting Christ as my Savior has given me more hope than I could ever dream. It's not a cure-all, but it just makes your life whole and He helps give me strength when I'm just tired and want to give up. One step at a time. We can do it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙂🙂🙂🙂
Thank you Trixie. It doesn't feel brave..just feels like I'm saying the same ol thing lately! But I'm so grateful that you've taken the time to write me such lovely advice, I appreciate it so much
@@LaurenRose. Absolutely! Anytime!
Hopefully you doing well. 🙏
Thank you
I've lived with toilet anxiety for over 30 years. Over these 30 years it the has come and gone. It never really goes away permanently. People like us I think have a genetically predisposition for anxiety, so it’s not your fault, it’s the body you were given from birth with all it’s quirks. I think acceptance that this is part of your life, and not your fault is important. Acceptance not only that you have this condition but that you won’t be like the other Mums (which may not necessarily be a bad thing :)). I find meditation in the morning helps. Helps your nervous system go from sympathetic to parasympathetic. Keep sharing.
Thank you!! I really appreciate your words. I'm sorry you've had to deal with this for so long, but I'm glad to hear that it has ebbed and flowed rather than been a constant. That's what I've found for my anxiety, too.
Idk how you do it, I think im suffering from toilet anxiety after having a horrible experience on a long road trip and most days now I cant even leave the house, or walk down the street without my heart racing which leads to my stomach churning. I feel lost.
But you are sick even if it is anxiety. It's just the anxiety part is invisible to others. It interferes with your daily life. I totally understand what you are going through. Please ask for help. Your hubby is right. Ive lived with anxiety all my life. There are times of despair and easier times. I felt like the fucked up mom when my kids were small. Anxiety and agoraphobia is part of me.. learning to surf the highs and lows... is they key that helped me. ... i wish i could say more... but you know all this. Just know that I am holding space for you. I am purplepenelopee on insta
Thank you Kim! I love what you said about learning to surf. It is definitely a balancing act and sometimes you eat the waves, sometimes you ride them out.
And of course, I know who you are
My heart is bleeding for you right now! I totally get it. I go through times where im good, and then in one fell swoop the agoraphobia is rearing its ugly head. Please hang tight, things will get better. Have you ever tried an anti anxiety med like klonopin for the awful times?
Thanks Melissa! I do use valium on occasion, if things are really yuck. I do find that it just slows things down though, so it helps for sure, but not so much with the depression side of things. I don't believe I've ever tried klonopin (it's pretty difficult to get prescribed even Xanax or Valium over in Australia) but I'm grateful for the suggestion!
Hello there, AnxietyMamma! It was only the other day that i watched your video and finally got an answer to my question to what is going on with me?! Im from the Philippines and i had this since july 2019 i think. It started when one morning i delivered my daughter to school with my husband and after that, we decided to take out breakfast at mcdonalds. My husband went inside and i was just at the car. Then while i was waiting at the parking lot, suddenly and out of the blue came to my mind, “what if my stomach aches and i poop here???” Then boom! It literally happened! I started to feel butterflies to my stomach, my heart beats really fast and i was shaking in nervousness! I hurriedly jumped out of the car and went inside the mcdonalds, walk as fast as i could to reach the restroom😭 after that incident, i became totally scared to go out. When im driving or even im just a passenger, i am palpitating. I hate malls, supermarket because i dont want to wait in line. When in restaurant, i cannot eat plenty because im afraid it will happen again😢 but you know what, after watching your videos and reading comments, i feel RELIEVED that i was not the only one experiencing this. And yesterday, i tried to drive, went to the mall and guess what? I was totally fine the whole time i was outside! Because in my mind, i know im not alone. It only proves that this phobia is ONLY IN OUR MINDS! Our minds is our enemy. So when you think that you are not alone, somehow it will make you feel glad and relieved. And little by little, you will completely forget the demons in your head. Hugs to everyone! We can win this!❤️
Yes, it’s all in our heads. I’m feeling better and doing better knowing everything will be okay.
Lauren- I understand you’re taking Luvox. I am in a bad way again & am going to be going up on my Luvox. I’ve been on the 50mg for 8 yrs. That was after going down from the highest dose of 300mg! I was on 300mg for 3 years. Took 150 in the morning & at night. When I got to a better place situationally- I started going down (as it was very altering- but I took it over the feelings of terror). I stopped going down at 50mg & that is what I’ve taken since. I never thought I’d have to go up on it again. I won’t be taking 150 twice a day but I have to do something. I just wanted to recommend going up on your Luvox. I know your at 75mg. Why not try 100mg? That’s probably what I’m going to try. I’m just like you & feel all the sensations. So I’ve been putting off doing it. But I just want to say that when I was on that super big dose- it regulated my nervous system. I was going in & out of hyper arousal type feelings & it stopped that. So I believe you’d find more relief going up on the dose.
Thank you so much for sharing, Lin Ry, and for your advice!! The sensations are so hard when you are experiencing it from that dark place. This video was a while ago, and I have since found a nice balance with my medication (still on 75mg of luvox) so things are in a nice easeful space right now, thankfully. I think it has helped that the pandemic has more or less blown over in Australia, too.
@@LaurenRose. Super happy to hear that gurl
@@LaurenRose. Hi Lauren, It’s the first time I see your chanel, and I guess it needed a reason for it to pop in my recommended feed. I know this video is old, I saw ur recents too, I’m so glad you are back feeling good again. You know… I’m not feeling that great, and I was tapering down my dose as well! But after a bit and my anxiety started coming back… I had to go back the starting dose. I’ve been back on normal for a month a half, things are better, but, beside the discourage because before I was great, now I have 3/4 days great and then 3/4 days bad each week. It’s slightly improves the good ones every week, but it’s slow… I was wondering: how long have you noticed to feel the good days were actually more than the bad ones after you got after getting back on antidepressants? I’m finding your videos, especially theese, now that I’m such in a delicate spot of my life, so comforting, and you seems so lovely!!!!!! Ugh I cried when I watched this video. I felt everything you were describing: it’s actually a bit worst to feel back at this point after fighting a lot to get to a great point and staying there for a while. I’m struggling, but there are good days, but it’s hard, right now.
I send you a very big hug. 🌈
@@yourstrulylindsayHey Lindsay I’d love to hear your thoughts too, that would be nice. Hi!!
Hugs. Also, have you had your gut checked? I did and had some diagnosed issues. And there seems to be a gut-brain connection. So, working on my gut is helping with anxiety.
Thank you! Yes - totally agree with this. I have IBS, I've had colonoscopies and things so there is a lot going on in there. It is definitely a two way street with the gut and the brain, for sure.
Have you considered a retreat with The Linden Method?