I am going through this right now, depression is seen as weakness. I have a different story from my childhood till now but since Fri 25th Oct 2019 I am re-writing my new story. So like you I am on a journey, the ending of this video has really motivated me. God bless you and lets commit to healing girl.
When the child is broken, she goes to survival mode and everything she does going forward is protect her most vulnerable. A situation broken by surrender. Surrender to the full breath and length of the brokenness. You must find this child. She will be in that dark, cold, isolated and windowless place as she cowers in the corner, folded in fetus position, whimpering and rocking herself . Go to her, embrace her. Hold her close and you will sense with great clarity what the pain is that stunted her. Grieve with her, cry with her, hope with her, heal with her. Once you are reunited, your life cannot be the same ever again. Thank you for sharing your life story because you are doing so in real time and not as a zamani za kale narrative.
I feel that you are telling my story. everything from childhood trauma, debt, sexual assault in primary school, suicide attempts and having no 'home'. Like you, I also discovered I have depression in my adulthood. And yes mental health in Kenya is expensive, a big reason why I also got into debt. Thanks Beth for being bold and telling this story.
Beth you are my young self . I just needed to be loved though i lived at home. You have articulated my life to a tee only in campus we loved alcohol. I was so hard working i got a nervous breakdown and thats when i found i was severally depressed. Its been up and down but imagine finally we parted company! And these grandmas are just a gem. God is very very able.Hugs and prayer and you too shall part company
Beth, l pray that you and depression will part ways soon. May you receive healing. I know what you are talking about. You are beautiful and l love you voice.
I'm so sorry for your pain Beth. You are God's wonderful creation and that wounded inner child that harbours all the sorrow, grief and rejection presenting itself as depression will receive healing, love and light. Your story is not over...and you will be victorious in your brokeness♥️ Hugs
Beth my dear glad you concluded by stating that your life is not over yet. I experienced very serious depression as a teen and like you I had a loving grandma. I felt misunderstood and sometimes overly punished by high handed parents for minor things. Like you I wanted and attempted to take my life.if it wasn't for the wisdom of my grandma who was alerted about my suicide attempt and brought me back from the abyss. Her simple words of encouragement to me were embodied in these few words. Every time you face a challenge just say 'Ningugeria' meaning 'I will try' she made me promised to always stop and say these words to myself whenever I doubted my ability or whenever I was unhappy. I did take her advice. It worked like a charm. I started to see positivity I. Everything and I started to enjoy life again. I still say this to myself even though she's been gone over 35 years ago. So say to yourself Beth Ningugeria and see if that my grandmas remedy will make a difference in your life. Also be aware that depression meds when missed take you to a new low. So not saying avoid drugs but explore herbal remedies as well. Take this hug from me and subscribe to my channel. I will address this issue of children left to grow with their grandparents and those rejected by their relatives. You have special placement in this universe. Discover snd harness your special grace which is evidenced even in your professional success. Congratulations for reaching your goals and I pray you will get out of debt soon and start smiling again.
Thank you for your vulnerability and your strength in sharing your story Beth. I love how you own your depression and talk about it as another part of you. It is part of you, like it is part of me, but we are not defined by it. One day at a time, this too shall be conquered. You deserve it because you are enough, and because you are good enough.
Don't accept depression as your condition. You can overcome because you strong beautiful lady. I feel to hug you so much and agree with you it's shall be well.
Depression is a normal disease just like any other. The only way she can get help is first acceptance, identity every stage or phase of it including her emotions when struggling before she dips so could ask for help right away. Accepting isn’t a weakness or labeling. Depression is real and dangerous that’s why we’re having lots of suicidal cases coz fear of stigma and judgment. Proud of of Beth for coming out.
Beth stop calling it your depression, it doesn't belong to you gal. Surrender it to Christ, and find your freedom in him, he makes all things new, gives hope to hopeless and i tell you for he who the son sets free is free indeed (John 8:36).
I would consider it temporal ownership, theres a part she says we are walking along each other. Accepting is the 1st stage of healing, it now has a name it no longer hides in your head. My opinion
I am going through this right now, depression is seen as weakness. I have a different story from my childhood till now but since Fri 25th Oct 2019 I am re-writing my new story. So like you I am on a journey, the ending of this video has really motivated me. God bless you and lets commit to healing girl.
When the child is broken, she goes to survival mode and everything she does going forward is protect her most vulnerable. A situation broken by surrender. Surrender to the full breath and length of the brokenness. You must find this child. She will be in that dark, cold, isolated and windowless place as she cowers in the corner, folded in fetus position, whimpering and rocking herself . Go to her, embrace her. Hold her close and you will sense with great clarity what the pain is that stunted her. Grieve with her, cry with her, hope with her, heal with her. Once you are reunited, your life cannot be the same ever again. Thank you for sharing your life story because you are doing so in real time and not as a zamani za kale narrative.
I feel that you are telling my story. everything from childhood trauma, debt, sexual assault in primary school, suicide attempts and having no 'home'. Like you, I also discovered I have depression in my adulthood. And yes mental health in Kenya is expensive, a big reason why I also got into debt. Thanks Beth for being bold and telling this story.
Beth you are my young self . I just needed to be loved though i lived at home. You have articulated my life to a tee only in campus we loved alcohol. I was so hard working i got a nervous breakdown and thats when i found i was severally depressed. Its been up and down but imagine finally we parted company! And these grandmas are just a gem. God is very very able.Hugs and prayer and you too shall part company
Beth, I can hug you so tight right now...sending you loads of love and light.
Beth, l pray that you and depression will part ways soon. May you receive healing. I know what you are talking about.
You are beautiful and l love you voice.
Hugs Beth,I pray you find solace in the Lord.
I'm so sorry for your pain Beth. You are God's wonderful creation and that wounded inner child that harbours all the sorrow, grief and rejection presenting itself as depression will receive healing, love and light. Your story is not over...and you will be victorious in your brokeness♥️ Hugs
Beth my dear glad you concluded by stating that your life is not over yet. I experienced very serious depression as a teen and like you I had a loving grandma. I felt misunderstood and sometimes overly punished by high handed parents for minor things. Like you I wanted and attempted to take my life.if it wasn't for the wisdom of my grandma who was alerted about my suicide attempt and brought me back from the abyss. Her simple words of encouragement to me were embodied in these few words. Every time you face a challenge just say 'Ningugeria' meaning 'I will try' she made me promised to always stop and say these words to myself whenever I doubted my ability or whenever I was unhappy. I did take her advice. It worked like a charm. I started to see positivity I. Everything and I started to enjoy life again. I still say this to myself even though she's been gone over 35 years ago. So say to yourself Beth Ningugeria and see if that my grandmas remedy will make a difference in your life. Also be aware that depression meds when missed take you to a new low. So not saying avoid drugs but explore herbal remedies as well. Take this hug from me and subscribe to my channel. I will address this issue of children left to grow with their grandparents and those rejected by their relatives. You have special placement in this universe. Discover snd harness your special grace which is evidenced even in your professional success. Congratulations for reaching your goals and I pray you will get out of debt soon and start smiling again.
Thank you for your vulnerability and your strength in sharing your story Beth. I love how you own your depression and talk about it as another part of you. It is part of you, like it is part of me, but we are not defined by it. One day at a time, this too shall be conquered. You deserve it because you are enough, and because you are good enough.
I've been through this girl. You even know part of my story. Things will work out. This was so well put
Love and healing to you. You are a brave and beautiful lady. Hugs!
Depression can be real.... this world we live in can sometimes drive us to dark places,...
Don't accept depression as your condition. You can overcome because you strong beautiful lady. I feel to hug you so much and agree with you it's shall be well.
Depression is a normal disease just like any other. The only way she can get help is first acceptance, identity every stage or phase of it including her emotions when struggling before she dips so could ask for help right away. Accepting isn’t a weakness or labeling. Depression is real and dangerous that’s why we’re having lots of suicidal cases coz fear of stigma and judgment. Proud of of Beth for coming out.
@@makenanyakio6 it's a condition not her condition. I have been there and i overcame. I didn't want her to declare negative words on herself.
@@annkinyua2024 fair enough
we will overcome someday.
Beth stop calling it your depression, it doesn't belong to you gal. Surrender it to Christ, and find your freedom in him, he makes all things new, gives hope to hopeless and i tell you for he who the son sets free is free indeed (John 8:36).
Every one experiences depression differently. Shes just talking about her version. I know her personally shes an amazing human
I would consider it temporal ownership, theres a part she says we are walking along each other. Accepting is the 1st stage of healing, it now has a name it no longer hides in your head. My opinion
You're more than enough beth
It feels like she still wants them to love her becoz even now she could not mention the rapist.. Protecting the victimiser is not good