I have to listen to this song everyday multiple times, I'm coming up 8 months off the drink so when you say "pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down" that hits so hard it's unreal, I listened to your music all through my detox and you released this 5 weeks before I was admitted, it was perfect, I always read the comments and to see how many other people can relate to your music is so sad but also amazing we've all found a place that brings us happiness and it's all thank to you Vin, bless up 🙌
These passed few months i went throigh the greatest and worst things of my life so quickly i was calling the mental health line every night, there is always a light, my outer body experiences through anxiety attacks finally lead me to a greater awakening
Real talk dammn video hits hard on a vicious cycle we all live and never see from the outside in it’s always knocking at the door like your own personal dirty whhorebiscuit!
Stumbled upon brain dead, been listening to it off and on, I'm digging the lyrical talent fr and I definitely a sucker for a deep heavy beat too. This one is no exception, I love it. Literally not even 30 seconds in and I was like "Aight this guy's onto something." Manifesting a successful career for u sir
Dam bro I kinda found this song by accident and I tell ya man most the song hit home for me..as far as like drugs to numb the pain ect..maybe more than I could comprehend I guess..thanks for making this one homie.. Sure you'll never see this shit but for real thanks bro I'm sure it took a lot to be the man to get it out there like that ..
[Chorus] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down [Verse 1] Let's flash back to a moment in time When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind With psychedelics, cocaine and some smokin aside When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to die Yeah, I guess the damaged of feelin' fuckin' abandoned Left me torn so I was slammin' like every drug I was handed I managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's house Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now I couldn't tell that I was losin' myself And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help 'Cause I was busy tryna make a fuckin' noose with a belt But I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressed I was runnin' out of options and ways to cope with the stress I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect 'Cause I'm done with the pain Id rather hang to my death and say [Chorus] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down [Verse 2] I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeen Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave But all this pain I've been feeling, it's time to set it free Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream I waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin' Was thinkin' 'bout death I wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin' I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons So I crept downstairs, time to finally conquer my demons I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills Ran 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chills Wasn't nervous, I was ready, I was confident still Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to kill Yeah, I'm finally doing it, time to call in the eulogist I got what I deserved, I took my life and I ruined it Thirty minutes later my feelin's started to fade Went from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my grave I'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bed I was fadin' in and out, a few moments away from death But somethin' in my stomach was travelin' up my chest I just fell to the floor and started puking up red And now the medicine is coverin' my hands They were drenched in it This is not the way that it was planned I crawled to my bed, I was barely able to stand This is not what I intended, I got myself in a jam I fucked up, I was broken and weak I never wanted to die, I wanted a moment of peace Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep The next day and saw the suicide note at my feet And thought [Chorus] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain Battlin' the demons in my mind all day Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down You might also like The Alcott The National mine Kelly Clarkson The Feels Labrinth Embed About Have the inside scoop on this song? Sign up and drop some knowledge Start the song bio Ask us a question about this song Ask a question * Credits Produced By Fabri Beatz Written By Vin Jay Release Date April 14, 2023 Tags Rap Expand Comments Add a comment Get the conversation started Be the first to comment Sign Up And Drop Knowledge 🤓 Genius is the ultimate source of music knowledge, created by scholars like you who share facts and insight about the songs and artists they love. Sign Up Genius is the world’s biggest collection of song lyrics and musical knowledge About Genius Contributor Guidelines Press Shop Advertise Privacy Policy Licensing Jobs Developers Copyright Policy Contact Us Sign In Do Not Sell My Personal Information VERIFIED ARTISTS ALL ARTISTS: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T
i love you mon ami ! i'm French , i've learn english alone, Now i can understand every thing , but some time having the lyrics to be shure of what you hear is really nice :D Like you did it befor me i offer you a délicious 🥐🥐 with orange juice. I love to sing the lyrics of every musique i like, it's help so mutch for learning english ; Even if i can't get read of my good damn accents you know like people say " The " but i say " Zhe " or you say " Hello " i say "ello " What ever i hope you have a nice day and know that on this side of the sea you have a Friend of the great land of Baguette and pain au chocolat ( Et tartine de pain à la confiture de fruits rouge avec un chocolat chaud hum ... 🤤)
Wow how on earth is this song not more relavent it hits harder then rocky on his last ropes ffs! The words are us normal man and woman we are who we are brake done after brake down we continue more scared then the last but least lyrics make it clear we are not alone !♡
Your music hits right where it's real. Last year was the BOTTOM of my depression. I don't know how I woke up after a particular night. But I did and managed to figure out "well f, I'm still here, I guess I gotta change"... Thank you for battling your demons. You give us hope to do the same. 💕🤘
Vin my man, all my life I've struggled with addiction and suicidal tendencies and this song hit every part of me that is broken and man, thank you. I was thinking about acting on those thoughts but I chose to listen to the "this is Vin Jay" playlist on spotify and this song was second on shuffle and shit man, I cried for a good 20 minutes. Keep up the good work bro. ❤
I'm glad and grateful that you are still here Vin. ❤
It was so sad. Hits home ... Thank you for something real
No lie. This song gets me in my zone. This goes crazy
I never wanted to die just a moment of peace" hell yea man this hit me right in the feels. So Relatable its crazy
It's a fucking miracle i survived my drug days. Crazy how i can feel worse sober
I have to listen to this song everyday multiple times, I'm coming up 8 months off the drink so when you say "pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down" that hits so hard it's unreal, I listened to your music all through my detox and you released this 5 weeks before I was admitted, it was perfect, I always read the comments and to see how many other people can relate to your music is so sad but also amazing we've all found a place that brings us happiness and it's all thank to you Vin, bless up 🙌
I'm fighting drinking to brother callum. 😂 We can do it bruv
@@noahtapia154 I've just smashed a year sober bud, it's a horrible thing, keep going and get your life back like I did 💪🤜🤛
Damn Vin you bringing hip hop back from the dead you n gawne both murderous homie
Reminds me of how it went down for me, felt them lines about it traveling back up then seeing the capsules
King hail to the king
Keep the fire burning bro.🔥🔥🔥
Finally a real rapper in this current day and age.
👉🔥🎼🔥🎼🔥👈
Straight 🔥🔥
These passed few months i went throigh the greatest and worst things of my life so quickly i was calling the mental health line every night, there is always a light, my outer body experiences through anxiety attacks finally lead me to a greater awakening
💨💨💨💨💨
This song lit
First thing that hit was the beat right at the start, Vin Jay is a beast!!
True that story..😍
🔥
How has this not blown TF up yet??? I been listening to this. Been fire
Dope as fuck y'all know this. ♠️💯‼️‼️‼️‼️
Ngl I can relate to this song so much.👑👑👑👑👑 this is a fire track 🔥🔥🔥
Real talk dammn video hits hard on a vicious cycle we all live and never see from the outside in it’s always knocking at the door like your own personal dirty whhorebiscuit!
Vin is a Goat
Fire song man
Wow I can so relate ❤
when one day you realize life is just painful and just death. you come to the conclusion = there is nothing to fear,
❤❤❤
🙏🙏🙏
🔥🔥🔥
Thank you for awesome music!
Straighttttt Fire 🔥🔥
Oooo fire 🔥
16 year of depression and suicidal thoughts and im still standing
This was dope, I'm lo key getting Eminem/ Hopsin vibes...
Same along with some mass of man and jaytek
Same here my dude
Literally
D12 vibes for sure
Listen too Kogz, bros aussie Eminem
SIIICK ONE! woooh fire fire
CZcams recommendations is a godsend in so many ways! You just got a new fan and subscriber! This is 🔥
Holy sh!t man, you're lucky! I'm glad you made it to where you are today. 🔥
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
This hits on a whole nother level 100
That's awesome ❤️
❤ this 🔥
Stumbled upon brain dead, been listening to it off and on, I'm digging the lyrical talent fr and I definitely a sucker for a deep heavy beat too. This one is no exception, I love it. Literally not even 30 seconds in and I was like "Aight this guy's onto something." Manifesting a successful career for u sir
Wow powerful message!!!!
dope. Hopsin vibes
Fuck this slaps
Ohhhhh dammm this is fire 🔥
Full dedication towards watching your path flourish my man you are amazing, you know the way🙌👁🙏
Good beats bro . Keep it up . 53 still loving the beats
Fire!!❤🔥🧑🚒🚒🔥
Video opened off like how Weekend suffercated his old nature- we will call Weekday.
More like this please lol
Vin jay you are so talented
I'm surprised this gets advertisements when this is a video about suicide and severe depression
So good🎉🎉🎉
No idea how much I needed this
Fire
World's best rapper. Forshore
Dam bro I kinda found this song by accident and I tell ya man most the song hit home for me..as far as like drugs to numb the pain ect..maybe more than I could comprehend I guess..thanks for making this one homie..
Sure you'll never see this shit but for real thanks bro I'm sure it took a lot to be the man to get it out there like that ..
This was layed down well. Keep it up bro. 🎶 🎤 🔥
-StixXx 👊🇨🇦
Omg love it absolutely awesome song awesome job 🙏🇦🇺👍
You have no idea how much this music helps.
This to real
Reminds me hopsin
❤❤❤ great beat and real lyrics ❤❤love it! Thank you for sharing!!
bro this smack you wouldn’t understand unless you been in these shoes in about to peep out more of dudes tunes
damn bro went hard in this
I feel it
[Chorus]
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[Verse 1]
Let's flash back to a moment in time
When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind
With psychedelics, cocaine and some smokin aside
When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to die
Yeah, I guess the damaged of feelin' fuckin' abandoned
Left me torn so I was slammin' like every drug I was handed
I managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's house
Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now
I couldn't tell that I was losin' myself
And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt
And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help
'Cause I was busy tryna make a fuckin' noose with a belt
But I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressed
I was runnin' out of options and ways to cope with the stress
I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect
'Cause I'm done with the pain
Id rather hang to my death and say
[Chorus]
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[Verse 2]
I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeen
Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave
But all this pain I've been feeling, it's time to set it free
Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream
I waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin'
Was thinkin' 'bout death
I wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin'
I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons
So I crept downstairs, time to finally conquer my demons
I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills
Ran 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chills
Wasn't nervous, I was ready, I was confident still
Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to kill
Yeah, I'm finally doing it, time to call in the eulogist
I got what I deserved, I took my life and I ruined it
Thirty minutes later my feelin's started to fade
Went from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my grave
I'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bed
I was fadin' in and out, a few moments away from death
But somethin' in my stomach was travelin' up my chest
I just fell to the floor and started puking up red
And now the medicine is coverin' my hands
They were drenched in it
This is not the way that it was planned
I crawled to my bed, I was barely able to stand
This is not what I intended, I got myself in a jam
I fucked up, I was broken and weak
I never wanted to die, I wanted a moment of peace
Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep
The next day and saw the suicide note at my feet
And thought
[Chorus]
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
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i love you mon ami ! i'm French , i've learn english alone, Now i can understand every thing , but some time having the lyrics to be shure of what you hear is really nice :D
Like you did it befor me i offer you a délicious 🥐🥐 with orange juice.
I love to sing the lyrics of every musique i like, it's help so mutch for learning english ; Even if i can't get read of my good damn accents you know like people say
" The " but i say " Zhe " or you say " Hello " i say "ello "
What ever i hope you have a nice day and know that on this side of the sea you have a Friend of the great land of Baguette and pain au chocolat ( Et tartine de pain à la confiture de fruits rouge avec un chocolat chaud hum ... 🤤)
Keep striving and thriving, I resonate with your lyrics, love your rap, Im a supporter and will follow your journey 💪😎
what?
Wow how on earth is this song not more relavent it hits harder then rocky on his last ropes ffs! The words are us normal man and woman we are who we are brake done after brake down we continue more scared then the last but least lyrics make it clear we are not alone !♡
I wanna fine da beat so bad finally found this
❤ same! 😂😅❤
Me everyday 🙃
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯
Your music hits right where it's real. Last year was the BOTTOM of my depression. I don't know how I woke up after a particular night. But I did and managed to figure out "well f, I'm still here, I guess I gotta change"... Thank you for battling your demons. You give us hope to do the same. 💕🤘
This dude is a really good artist put my roommate heard this song for the first time and thought it was Eminem
big tune just heard this guy but its a banger
This is a straight banger 🔥🔥🔥 vin jay is one of the very few that can make a dark life lesson a hit and catchy af!
This track is 🔥 nice work bro
Please release all ur music on CZcams
lol imagine being a rippoff vinjay vevo, couldnt be me
I love this video, vin jay been killing it, I showed my girl you, and she’s in love. She even got a brain dead tattoo
Vin my man, all my life I've struggled with addiction and suicidal tendencies and this song hit every part of me that is broken and man, thank you. I was thinking about acting on those thoughts but I chose to listen to the "this is Vin Jay" playlist on spotify and this song was second on shuffle and shit man, I cried for a good 20 minutes. Keep up the good work bro. ❤
nice
14th sub❤ I really like this
June I'm giving up
Homie just read the letter left bro on the ground 😅
im your 6th Subscriber 🔥
substitute cutting with the pills and this is a identical explanation of my up bringing
How'd you get my story. I love this.. Props. Keep ya up
When did ya sell out?
If you are talking about the channel it isn't official.
This has way too little views
#demons
454 subs? Yea that's gonna change real quick.
This is a fake channel his real channel is just called vin jay
I want to bie bie too
O shiT m⁰n
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just had my little brother hang himself... this song hits like something else now. Masterpiece
what happened to the original? too dark for yt or something?
I tried something similar to this when I was 18 it's not worth it get help 😢
very fuck I valued the job
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