I also had a dark moment years ago, my 3 babies had kept me going, but I went even darker.. It was a kind Dr who saved me me, he said, "Go home (with only 5 tablets) and think about YOU, not your babies or anything else, just you. Then come back in 5 days, if you're still as you,are now, I will have to admit you to the psychiatric ward" I went back and told him that I was leaving my toxic marriage and he said "Good! Now we can get you better"
@@NickyAlanPsychicMediumI have been trying to kill myself for 9 years and I am only just learning to love myself, I am attending What is the Law Of Asdumption Workshop today to work self scceptance and loving myself, in 2019 I was diagonosed with Depression by my Gp surgery and the Crisis Team at the Whittington Hospital assrssed me and I had counselling last year and this year I felt so much pain especially in January and Frbrusry, I learnt on the 18 Msrch 2024 that I am a Star seed I dont quite know that is and my number is 9999989 I lived on numerous galaxies and milky ways, I want to write a book and I am going to call it Spiritual Sacred Atlantis Order Angels as focus on spiritual side helps me more than the grim human side I am 25 years old I have Autism, I find focusing on the book makes me happy and I acvessed my Akashick readings record and found out that I am the oldest soul on universe and have a First Class connection with Atlantis and found out the reason 9999989 is such an important number is me and my connection to my star famimy and Star guides too.
My nana, who went through SO MUCH PAIN throughout her life would always advise; Be patient... Take one day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time... This too shall pass... May you find peace, pleasure, love and belonging...
Hi Nicky! I too had that dark night of the soul. What literally saved me was Alex Ferrari of Next Level Soul and all his guest interviews which you were one of that led me to your channel and many others. It was all of you that awakened me to learn there is so much more. I am like a sponge soaking up all the spiritual knowledge I can. So thank you for your sharing and your beautiful energy! Much love and light! ❤
I found a wonderful teacher on utube called Trevor Ilesley. He specialises in dark night of the soul healing and without his input I think I’d have given up.
I also experienced this dark night of the soul when my husband announced he had met someone he was in spiritual love with. It hit me like a freight train and shocked me into searching for a meaning to life, which i found in reading spiritual books, yoga, meditation and other experiences. I now know why i needed this reality to kick start my learning in a spiritual way, learning to awaken and accept this hard experience. Once i came through the darkness the light started to shine. I forgave my husband and he asked if he could return, which he did and we both gained a deeper understanding of why it happened. It has been a long time since that happened but i know why it had to happen and i am grateful for my spiritual awakening. It is so special and precious to learn to forgive and understand more and more each day. Thank you for your videos, you are a special being. ❤
I had dark night of the soul for 6 or 7 years, I too thought of leaving here but my wee darling dog saved me,I couldnt do that to her,she has now passed recently at age 15 yrs.Tears would be streaming down my face,not crying just broken but I too had to learn to break old patterns etc an return back to my spirituality. I came across you Nicky after my dog AvaPuffens passed,your content was massive help to me. Thanks
My father physically abused me until he passed away. My life changed after that. Mum met someone else then i was pushed aside. Homeless then ended up in a terrible flat with no heat but it was a roof over my head. I was 17 had enough. Got a bottle of paracetamol and took a handful. Then i thought, oh god what have i done. I went to th toilet and made myself sick to bring them back up . . I am 66 now gone through a car accident, pain , divorce, my partner drowned and had to get by but i am Here . And if I wasn't here i would not have met you on here . Mediumship has helped me, meeting lovely people like Mavis Patiila, Gordon Higginson and many others. Thank you for your help because you have helped me. 💐💐
There are two legends right there xxxx bless you for being such a brave and beautiful soul and for sharing xxx may the angels bless your every day 💜💜💜💜
My dark night lasted almost 10 years until I surrendered and asked Jesus and my Angels to take the wheel. Life has been wonderful since then. Yes, I have shit going on but it doesn’t phase me. I hand it over to my A team❤😇
I’ve also been through 2 very dark times, the first one was probably the worst looking back to the point that I had to sing out loud just to stop myself thinking about what was happening and have some sort of sanity and function for my then very small kids - but now in hindsight it had to happen and I learnt so much from both experiences even though it was heartbreaking at the time and I didn’t want to be here anymore. If these things hadn’t happened I wouldn’t have had my two younger children or got the family support I desperately needed! I also have RA and Degenerative Disc Disease so I know the constant physical pain too, but to anyone going through their dark night always remember it will pass, there is a reason and the path will become clearer when the sun comes out again ❤🥰 xxx
At 75 I have gone through many dark nights of the soul. But I am here to say that each one brought me closer to the Path I was called to be on. And just this past week I was thrust into another one, totally unexpected, yet NOW I can see the Light much sooner, and I find gratitude through my tears, and I accept and move on, knowing that I am never alone. I remind myself of all my blessings, and I know that I am that much closer to my eternal Home and all who are waiting for me there. (Meanwhile, I have a lot of people who love me here and I mustn’t leave them yet.) Nicky, again you have blessed me so much! Thank you for sharing your soul and your laughter. You are loved!❤️❤️❤️
I so resinate with you, Nicky. I have fibromyalgia and went through the dark moments, I had a nervous breakdown, I also had a blood clot on the brain, I wanted to die in the past, I didn't love myself, I came off all my medications even my asthma etc, I now love myself, I work with spirit, I am a Healer and empath, I love meditating and listening to music, love going to the seaside , thank you Nicky for all you do, ❤️
Oh my word Nicki, I am so sorry that you've gone through all of this. Bless your heart. You are an amazing inspiration - thank you for sharing your story 💚🙏 xx
I've had a couple DNS's. Excruciating. But it's what I came to Earth School to do. I have fibro, epilepsy, ME, and ADHD. I am so grateful for all of it. ❤
Oh bless you, if you want to live the needle on your health look up Anthony Williams Medical Medium. His books are incredible for healing a host of your conditions you have. 🥰💜
I’m there now. I was on a pleasant path of spiritual awakening & then BAM! I lost my parents, husband, & best friends…a couple to suicide. I lost my only sibling to prison…he crumbled. I have a 19yo with severe, nonverbal autism & I’m in fear every time I wake up. I’m sending light & love to all of you who are suffering with similar accounts! ❤️☀️
Thank you. You have paved the way and showed that every thing is possible. I have been through misabuse from childhood, two devorses and bringing 4 kids up alone, got breastcancer and fibromyalgi.I have been throgh " dark night of the soul" As you, I did not love my self. Now I am 64. I have been a spiritual teacher for many years, I am a medium and healer. I have courses for our community for manage depression with turning and mind their thoughts. Much love and blessings from Oddny ❤ Norway
Nicky I just want to thank you so much for being my mentor and voice whilst I’m gardening here in rural Devon. I do it full time, I feel blessed and finding your channel has really kept me company! I lost my home last year, I lost my business and I nearly lost my family. I felt like ending it all. I managed to find a landlady ❤ who is an angel and who would rent to me, but it meant moving from the mental south east and my family to rural Devon. I could write a book on my very colourful life! I certainly didn’t opt for the easy ride. I’m hoping to collaborate my gardening and taking a course in counselling to offer my skills to people in need. If it wasn’t for the dark night of my soul last year I would still be on that hamster wheel. You are a blessing and a special soul. Thank you ❤
IMO this dark night is an essential cut - the way a diamond is cut to reveal its true brilliance. And Nikki is so right about sound frequencies! I’m working with them now and getting great results. ❤
I have had my dark night of my soul, and what I came out of it was That I am Worthy and I was told to spread that We are Worthy and we are always Worthy and I/we will be Worthy with every breath we breathe ❤. We are Worthy of Love for we were made from Love. 🥰
Hi Nicky. Thank you for this inspirational talk. I have gone through this and I also suffer from fibromyalgia. I was retrenched at age 50 from a career spanning 33 years. I was shocked and ill prepared. There were so many things that had come to a dead end. 12 years later and I am living by the sea, selling homes to wonderful people. I was rock bottom for several years and thought my life was over as all my relationships failed and people I was closest to passed away. You are 💯 right. Thank you for sharing this. These demons cannot keep us down. Sending you lots of love and light. ❤
I’m so starting to wake up!! It’s such a process to learn to love yourself but I’m trying my darned everyday!!! The last few weeks have been darn draining but sunny Spring is coming with all its blessings!! 🩷
Hi like you I had M E for 15 years I still have fibromyalgia every thing you said that was me apart from my hubby Paul he believed in me and together we faced it one day at a time ,it was sad because my parents didn’t believe me as well as my sister and many other people but like you I had my dark night of the sole , now we live in France and I am very grateful everyday , it’s not always easy and I am in a lot of pain most days but I get throw it with laughter and nature and listen to the birds and going for walks ❤
Fellow ME person here. I bought your book some time ago, just to have a sort of remote one-sided 'chat' with someone who knows the challenges this condition brings. Recently, and out of nowhere the word "surrender" came into my mind. It then kept cropping up all over the place so it's a word I was supposed to hear. I'm not altogether sure what it means, though, and I'm not alone because there are entire books and videos about that one word! Still, I've interpreted it as just letting go and trusting. I've found myself drawn to meditation and as I cannot get through a day without literally dozens of sightings of 11 or 22, I trust that it's a sign that I've got a toe on the path.
I am SO grateful for all the difficult times in the 77 years that I have been blessed to be here on this beautiful, amazing planet. It's what we came here for, what I call the "bodhisattva bootcamp". Loving the self back into the Circle of One.
The raw truth hurts . however it helps others know none of us are ever alone, bless your soul , you are a an amazing woman Nicky ❤. May the rest of your days be filled with joy, love and blessings.
What a wonderful talk. I, too, have had a dark night of the soul, but I didn't know what that was. So many times, I asked God to take me, but he wouldn't. I have a strong feeling we were either married to the same man, or they were from the same mould. At the time, I lost my home and any financial stability. But I am still around. I burst into tears when you mentioned 555. When choosing my handle, I asked my guides for inspiration. I heard silently 555. So blown away, am I!!! Thank you, Nicki ❤
Yes all my life,as a child I didn't know, so I did live with being happy, but inside very alone, very alone...but now I'm connected, so I'm still alone..60yrs..I need to see a sharman..I have a block, I did love myself then learnt to hate myself..but now I know..love ya sista ❤
Thank you Nicky. What a beautiful message to start my day. I had so many dark nights of the soul from the age of 18. At 35 and 37 I had my 2 beautiful boys and from then i knew suicide was forever off the table. I would never do that to them. Besides they bring me so much joy. 20yrs worth and counting. ❤
❤ YES NIKKY YOU MUST NOT FOCUS ON YOUR PAST ACCIDENT FOCUS ON TODAY AS YOU SAY YESTERDAY IS GONE AND YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL TODAY TOMORROW IS NOT HERE. MUCH LOVE TO YOU 😘
I hit bottom after some car accidents. Fibromyalgia diagnosis after seeing several doctors. Similar story. In January I woke up. ❤❤❤ prayers and healing for you all.
Thank you Nicky for talking about this. Realizing it & doing something for yourself as quickly as possible is so important! Finding the right help is another. I know exactly what you're saying about the physical & spiritual. Lovely to come out the other side.
WoW what an inspiration 👏, my little Sister is going through hard time and I am concerned for her . Been up for almost 3 hours praying for her . I am hopeful that she will pass through this season. Thank you for sending light❤
Best video you've ever done, and I've watched them all. Nicky I can't thank you enough. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE can you do a part 2. We all need this right now.
After tearing 2 discs in 2009. 52 today and the only reason I'm here, is my kids. That's it. 15 years of PURE agony. I haven't lost everything because I literally hurt myself at Work but Physically and Mentally. I'm Spent. I've Screamed Surrender, Nothing. My kids don't understand. I think people like You and I Nicky who've had this much negativity in such a Bang ALL at once, Until it happens to someone personally. It's near impossible to Understand. I never thought I'd be where I am today. A fit, do anything, anywhere Any Time to going back to bed. I'm done. Love You so much I really do and I cried hearing your story the first time I heard it and it still hits my Heart. This Dark Night better End soon Lots of Love from Australia Beautiful ❤ 🙏🏻💙✌️💐🖖❤️
I started going through three years ago and l still have not completely recovered from the anxiety and depression associated with it. It started with the covid isolation. Omg...all my trauma came up. Up to that point l was fairly successful. With the help of therapy and determination l was able to get through the worse if it. Some consider this a spiritual awakening. And indeed this experience open me up so much and enhance my spiritual gift. Today, l am dealing with grounded myself and finding my true path.
Thank you, thank you , thank you 💗💗💗 Mine was a few years ago… I threw my dolls out of the pram, shouted at spirit , burnt all of my oracle cards , stamped on my spiritual books and burnt some of those as well (😮😂) Listening to this now , it made me emotional. I am in a much better place now and I know it is getting better and my connection to spirit is much deeper . Thank you dear soul for helping all who are going through it and have done through it. You are a miracle gift to us all 💗💗💗
Thank you Nicky!! You are such a blessing to me. Thank you! I’ve been in a dark night of the soul recently this past 15 months. It’s been a very dark time. It’s also been an extremely growing time for me. A very painful time, but I’m working through it and I know that I will come out of it better and stronger. ❤
I had NDE at 16 (I took an aspirin, and turned out I'm allergic to the pill). Rushed to ER, and the drs told my parents that if they were 5mins late, they wouldn't be able to save me. I started remembering what I saw 5 yrs ago (I'm now 39). I saw the light and I was walking towards it, I was in a black pitch tunnel? I'd say a bridge between earth and another realm. That light was so bright, beautiful, full of love, and so peaceful. I heard my mum's voice calling me to come back, then I turned around and woke up surrounded by drs and nurses. That's when I went through the dark night. It's like my soul was no longer aligned with my body. I was in pain mentally, couldn't leave the house for a whole year, fear of everything and was losing my mind. Drs gave me antidepressant (dianosed with anxiety and depression) and I knew it was not helpful, so I stopped taking it after 3 months. I'm still going through it but much better than before. I know I came back with a "gift", I'm very sensitive and can sense energy. I'm connected to animals, I cannot watch any sad videos of animals... I literally go into deep depression, I love animals so much and how I wish I can rescue them all. My friend (a psychic) told me that I have a gift and that I need to accept it but tbh I'm so scared and I'm not ready to see the "unknown" 😅. Sorry if I'm not making much sense, currently having anxiety 🫠
Thank you Nicky, this podcast couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. I feel stronger and more hopeful today. Thank you for the reminder to be strong, to look within and even see the humor when the fan starts to spin.
Thank you for the message Nicky, I lost my Mum and got antenatal depression - even though I'm still going through it, I already know that it's helping me to better support others as I now know what they're going through so I am grateful. Looking forward to getting to the other side and getting some direction to my life. ❤
Thank you Beautiful Nicky .i had 8 years of the " Dark night of the soul" i felt like a hamster on a wheel and could not get off. Everything was for a reason but i have surrended to it now and i feel like i am healing. I too thought of leaving but i have 3 fur Babies it was them that was My Saviour. They really are Angels💗 Your podcast really helped me ❤❤❤❤
I was a letter carrier in the US. Went through similar things, injury, fibro, starting decades ago. 63 yo, and I have never really lived, yet. I was led here. Lost my entire family. Everyone, everyone, everyone. Now, we begin...
Hi Nikkie…. Great story. I also had the 5 year in bed. ( bottom after my son committed suicide ). And thru the addictions. And I walk around today .. so light and smiling. It’s all amazing. Listen to her, anyway new here.. she’s talking about it!!! And I’m living it
Thanks Nicky sending gratitude to your dogs 🐕 for keeping you with us they seem to do that I know,it's their little faces looking at you that you think twice and more b4 doing anything silly ❤🎉😊
WOW ♥️ what U have been through ... Is total hell...& U R such a amazing powerful WOMAN. Through it All & I can say....Hey!!!! Mama...look at Nicky NOW.... It is a honour 2 have encountered U... Beautiful Nicky Allan🌹🌈🕊️🙏😶🌫️ Namaste 🔔🍭
Thanks for sharing your story you gorgeous soul 💚 I am still going through the dark night of the soul. Its been a long slog. I am dreaming of the day i come out of it because words cant describe the anguish and all I do is dream of going home 💖 🌌⭐
Thank you Thank you Thank you Nicky, for keeping it real podcast. There is so much insight information how to connect to the. Angelic world and to my love ones as well as, communicating with my guides. 😊🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️💜💜
I’m having a total life change without my little animals and feel like I lost a big part of me as many of us do, so we try , yes we can get others but still that loss is there , thank you for your uplifting words Nicky, I just searched 555 it came up change ,,,, xx
I think I am going through this....last few years have been hell. I feel like something is happening to me spiritually. This makes all the sense in the world to me. I wrote about it in my email to you..(I know you can't get through them all, you're probably inundated with emails from so many people 😊) but yeah....going through so much & I know so many other people are too....I just hope they find you Nicky!!! You are such a light 💜!!! Thank you for all that you share with us!!!
Thank you for all you have done for all ❤I had a very hard life cause I taught that was what I had to do to survive but I know better now and I because of all that I pass threw I became a better stronger and more beautiful person ❤ and I love me ❤
Nicky hello from one of your cousin's across the pond lol 😅 you never cease to amaze me inspire me 💗 I've known the darkness dark night of the soul the bitch knocked me down to my ass but in the darkness I also found a light that light was me I sit here and going through some things and then you reminded me dear that I'm here for a reason that I have a purpose and I don't need to be scared anymore Your helping me look at this fibromyalgia CFS and whatever not as a victim but as a light warrior'. You're helping me to remember I'm not alone and when you were mentioning to Google the frequency of 555 I glimpse up to see the clocks reading 222 ❤ and I knew that was the Angels my Devine team and spirit sending me confirmation as well and in that moment I felt peaceful loving comfort wonderful energy 🥰 love you all sending you all healing light strength. Ohh and I will definitely be trying the 555 frequency to help me further ❤ p.s. no I don't need to people please if they dont like me for me or respect my boundaries oh well I will never be another doormat and neither should anyone else who reads this.
Wow, I’ve had some dark times but not this, listening was not nice but I did resonate with what you said. I give tks you came through and are able to devote yourself to the divine and help others. Bless you angel you’re suffering is for others to benefit from, what a sacrifice to the Divine. Love and healing to you always ❤🙏🏼😇
Thank you for this Nicky, although it made me cry. I am again in the maelstrom of yet another Dark Night of the Soul and felt like packing it all in because as you say you start to think “what’s the point of it all” Your kind and thoughtful words bring me comfort and after listening to this I saw a burgundy rose twice.!! Not sure if it was relevant but I’ll take that…❤❤
Am absolutely distraught at the moment, have lost my job, have had bailiffs at my door, no support networks, don't know where to turn. Cannot cope anymore
Isolation has been my friend for many years and still is, i lost everything,im no longer materialistic, i have a list of health issues, and had and have on and off suicidal thoughts a few times.. i still dont want to be around people, dont even want to go work no energy finding a way out is so hard at present but just want to go home i have nothing here, its so boring me.thankyou nicki
I have experienced a dark night of the soul. I was on the wrong path in life. So much negativity around me and I put up with it. I ended up having a breakdown waking up in the hospital with my stomach being pumped.. I have no recollection of the lead up to this. I didn’t have suicidal thoughts.. I do believe that something took over me and took me to the lowest of the low points. My first concern was how dare I do that I have two children. After that, I reflected on my life, and the life was then shone on what I needed to see. And that was the negativity that was around me I had to walk away because my path did not need the people around me that were holding me in a dark place. It wasn’t intentional. It was just circumstances.. I now look at my Breakdown as a breakthrough. This is where I embarked upon my spiritual journey, because out of the dark, I stepped into the light. I knew I had become a person who was navigating through my heart. From that moment. In time I felt different I felt lighter. I actually felt empowered, even though the path in front of me, I didn’t know where I was going. I had nothing. I’d lost my job to no fault to my own, I had to move house, I didn’t have the deposit. I truly believe that my tough times my hard times I had to experience them.. and I worked through them with the mindset of everything is how it should be and everything is gonna be okay. I didn’t listen to the fear thoughts/voices in my head. Eternally grateful for my experience, the tough times the hard times the lonely times. Because without them, I wouldn’t be where I am today, enlightened, and standing within my power of a spiritual being experiencing and witnessing my human being life. it’s okay to become lost emotionally. Just don’t let it consume you I think is this it because it’s not. Thank you so much for sharing everything that you do Nicky. What an amazing lady you are and your gift, what you share is like the light from the celestial beings and you are holding the torch. if people find it hard to believe in miracles, just remember you are one. You were the 1st to the egg. 😊
Oh my God Nicky I'm a Saggitarius ,,I've been true afew dark nights of the Soull. ,,my older sister bulling me since a little girl ,,when my husband passed away ,she took over again. ,,& making a scapegoat for decades now . ,,I'm isolated from my toxic family. ,,i couldn't understand why? ,,now i do know ,I'm true my spiritual Awkenning. ,,i have so much to heal. ,,my sister is 81 years today & still working against me with family & out the family. ,i forgive them all with love & light Sydney Australia ❤❤❤
I also had a dark moment years ago, my 3 babies had kept me going, but I went even darker.. It was a kind Dr who saved me me, he said, "Go home (with only 5 tablets) and think about YOU, not your babies or anything else, just you. Then come back in 5 days, if you're still as you,are now, I will have to admit you to the psychiatric ward" I went back and told him that I was leaving my toxic marriage and he said "Good! Now we can get you better"
Oh what a wonderful dr! Xxxx
@@NickyAlanPsychicMediumI have been trying to kill myself for 9 years and I am only just learning to love myself, I am attending What is the Law Of Asdumption Workshop today to work self scceptance and loving myself, in 2019 I was diagonosed with Depression by my Gp surgery and the Crisis Team at the Whittington Hospital assrssed me and I had counselling last year and this year I felt so much pain especially in January and Frbrusry, I learnt on the 18 Msrch 2024 that I am a Star seed I dont quite know that is and my number is 9999989 I lived on numerous galaxies and milky ways, I want to write a book and I am going to call it Spiritual Sacred Atlantis Order Angels as focus on spiritual side helps me more than the grim human side I am 25 years old I have Autism, I find focusing on the book makes me happy and I acvessed my Akashick readings record and found out that I am the oldest soul on universe and have a First Class connection with Atlantis and found out the reason 9999989 is such an important number is me and my connection to my star famimy and Star guides too.
A rare and lovely Doctor, x
@@NickyAlanPsychicMedium I am currently going through the Dark Knight of My Soul.
My nana, who went through SO MUCH PAIN throughout her life would always advise; Be patient... Take one day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time... This too shall pass...
May you find peace, pleasure, love and belonging...
I’ve thought for a couple of years now that frequencies will be the healer for us all in the future and big Phama will fall 🧡
Hi Nicky! I too had that dark night of the soul. What literally saved me was Alex Ferrari of Next Level Soul and all his guest interviews which you were one of that led me to your channel and many others. It was all of you that awakened me to learn there is so much more. I am like a sponge soaking up all the spiritual knowledge I can. So thank you for your sharing and your beautiful energy! Much love and light! ❤
I found a wonderful teacher on utube called Trevor Ilesley. He specialises in dark night of the soul healing and without his input I think I’d have given up.
@@Starlight22215 So happy for you too. Thank you...I'll check out his channel as well! Many blessings to you! 🙏💕
You keep soaking my beautiful angel 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚
@NickyAlanPsychicMedium Thank you Nicky and many blessings to you! 💕
I also experienced this dark night of the soul when my husband announced he had met someone he was in spiritual love with. It hit me like a freight train and shocked me into searching for a meaning to life, which i found in reading spiritual books, yoga, meditation and other experiences. I now know why i needed this reality to kick start my learning in a spiritual way, learning to awaken and accept this hard experience. Once i came through the darkness the light started to shine. I forgave my husband and he asked if he could return, which he did and we both gained a deeper understanding of why it happened. It has been a long time since that happened but i know why it had to happen and i am grateful for my spiritual awakening. It is so special and precious to learn to forgive and understand more and more each day. Thank you for your videos, you are a special being. ❤
Wow, amazing story of forgiveness followed by unconditional Love. Good on you two!!!❤
Thank you for sharing x
I had dark night of the soul for 6 or 7 years, I too thought of leaving here but my wee darling dog saved me,I couldnt do that to her,she has now passed recently at age 15 yrs.Tears would be streaming down my face,not crying just broken but I too had to learn to break old patterns etc an return back to my spirituality.
I came across you Nicky after my dog AvaPuffens passed,your content was massive help to me.
Thanks
Your love for your dog shines through your words. 💖💕🙏
I just lost my kitty. It hurts. But I feel his essence fill me with love. Your pet will always be with you. ❤
@@nathantonge3785you didnt lose your kitty, but the cute fursuit.. do feel for him around you. x
My father physically abused me until he passed away. My life changed after that.
Mum met someone else then i was pushed aside.
Homeless then ended up in a terrible flat with no heat but it was a roof over my head. I was 17 had enough. Got a bottle of paracetamol and took a handful. Then i thought, oh god what have i done. I went to th toilet and made myself sick to bring them back up . . I am 66 now gone through a car accident, pain , divorce, my partner drowned and had to get by but i am Here . And if I wasn't here i would not have met you on here .
Mediumship has helped me, meeting lovely people like Mavis Patiila, Gordon Higginson and many others.
Thank you for your help because you have helped me. 💐💐
There are two legends right there xxxx bless you for being such a brave and beautiful soul and for sharing xxx may the angels bless your every day 💜💜💜💜
My dark night lasted almost 10 years until I surrendered and asked Jesus and my Angels to take the wheel. Life has been wonderful since then. Yes, I have shit going on but it doesn’t phase me. I hand it over to my A team❤😇
Wellndone xx
I’ve also been through 2 very dark times, the first one was probably the worst looking back to the point that I had to sing out loud just to stop myself thinking about what was happening and have some sort of sanity and function for my then very small kids - but now in hindsight it had to happen and I learnt so much from both experiences even though it was heartbreaking at the time and I didn’t want to be here anymore. If these things hadn’t happened I wouldn’t have had my two younger children or got the family support I desperately needed! I also have RA and Degenerative Disc Disease so I know the constant physical pain too, but to anyone going through their dark night always remember it will pass, there is a reason and the path will become clearer when the sun comes out again ❤🥰 xxx
At 75 I have gone through many dark nights of the soul. But I am here to say that each one brought me closer to the Path I was called to be on. And just this past week I was thrust into another one, totally unexpected, yet NOW I can see the Light much sooner, and I find gratitude through my tears, and I accept and move on, knowing that I am never alone. I remind myself of all my blessings, and I know that I am that much closer to my eternal Home and all who are waiting for me there. (Meanwhile, I have a lot of people who love me here and I mustn’t leave them yet.) Nicky, again you have blessed me so much! Thank you for sharing your soul and your laughter. You are loved!❤️❤️❤️
What a beautiful and valid post to make xx thank you we are all humbled I’m sure 💜💜💜💝💝💝💝
Sending blessings dear Nicky. You are so right about total surrender and then life just takes off and miracles happen !
I so resinate with you, Nicky. I have fibromyalgia and went through the dark moments, I had a nervous breakdown, I also had a blood clot on the brain, I wanted to die in the past, I didn't love myself, I came off all my medications even my asthma etc, I now love myself, I work with spirit, I am a Healer and empath, I love meditating and listening to music, love going to the seaside , thank you Nicky for all you do, ❤️
Oh my word Nicki, I am so sorry that you've gone through all of this. Bless your heart. You are an amazing inspiration - thank you for sharing your story 💚🙏 xx
You didn’t lose yourself though. Thank God for that. We all need you ♥️
I've had a couple DNS's. Excruciating. But it's what I came to Earth School to do. I have fibro, epilepsy, ME, and ADHD. I am so grateful for all of it. ❤
Oh bless you, if you want to live the needle on your health look up Anthony Williams Medical Medium. His books are incredible for healing a host of your conditions you have. 🥰💜
@@janemoore8361 ty so much 💓
I’m there now. I was on a pleasant path of spiritual awakening & then BAM! I lost my parents, husband, & best friends…a couple to suicide. I lost my only sibling to prison…he crumbled. I have a 19yo with severe, nonverbal autism & I’m in fear every time I wake up. I’m sending light & love to all of you who are suffering with similar accounts!
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Sending prayers and love to you! Hang in there! ❤
Holy shit! Lots of love to you,from Finland & Sweden ❤
Oh my gosh bless you, and your child. Have you ever heard of Anthony Williams Medical Medium he’s got a book on cleanse to heal for curing autism. 🥰
Thank you. You have paved the way and showed that every thing is possible. I have been through misabuse from childhood, two devorses and bringing 4 kids up alone, got breastcancer and fibromyalgi.I have been throgh " dark night of the soul" As you, I did not love my self. Now I am 64. I have been a spiritual teacher for many years, I am a medium and healer. I have courses for our community for manage depression with turning and mind their thoughts. Much love and blessings from Oddny ❤ Norway
Bless you 🙏🏻💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
Nicky I just want to thank you so much for being my mentor and voice whilst I’m gardening here in rural Devon.
I do it full time, I feel blessed and finding your channel has really kept me company!
I lost my home last year, I lost my business and I nearly lost my family. I felt like ending it all.
I managed to find a landlady ❤ who is an angel and who would rent to me, but it meant moving from the mental south east and my family to rural Devon.
I could write a book on my very colourful life! I certainly didn’t opt for the easy ride.
I’m hoping to collaborate my gardening and taking a course in counselling to offer my skills to people in need.
If it wasn’t for the dark night of my soul last year I would still be on that hamster wheel.
You are a blessing and a special soul. Thank you ❤
Oh hun you are my neck of the woods where are you? What a beautiful story 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 thank you 💓💓💓
Finding this video at this exact time was not a coincidence...gratitude for your freakin honesty!
So welcome 💓
IMO this dark night is an essential cut - the way a diamond is cut to reveal its true brilliance. And Nikki is so right about sound frequencies! I’m working with them now and getting great results. ❤
I have had my dark night of my soul, and what I came out of it was That I am Worthy and I was told to spread that We are Worthy and we are always Worthy and I/we will be Worthy with every breath we breathe ❤. We are Worthy of Love for we were made from Love. 🥰
Hi Nicky. Thank you for this inspirational talk. I have gone through this and I also suffer from fibromyalgia. I was retrenched at age 50 from a career spanning 33 years. I was shocked and ill prepared. There were so many things that had come to a dead end. 12 years later and I am living by the sea, selling homes to wonderful people. I was rock bottom for several years and thought my life was over as all my relationships failed and people I was closest to passed away.
You are 💯 right. Thank you for sharing this. These demons cannot keep us down.
Sending you lots of love and light. ❤
I’m so starting to wake up!! It’s such a process to learn to love yourself but I’m trying my darned everyday!!! The last few weeks have been darn draining but sunny Spring is coming with all its blessings!! 🩷
Yes!!!!! 🙏🏻💪🏻💓💗😂💜💜💜💜
I’m struggling with self love ❤️ & boundaries too, but getting there xxx
Hi like you I had M E for 15 years I still have fibromyalgia every thing you said that was me apart from my hubby Paul he believed in me and together we faced it one day at a time ,it was sad because my parents didn’t believe me as well as my sister and many other people but like you I had my dark night of the sole , now we live in France and I am very grateful everyday , it’s not always easy and I am in a lot of pain most days but I get throw it with laughter and nature and listen to the birds and going for walks ❤
Omg I needed this I am in such a dark place our living situation is unbearable ❤ you are such a beautiful soul xxx
Fellow ME person here. I bought your book some time ago, just to have a sort of remote one-sided 'chat' with someone who knows the challenges this condition brings. Recently, and out of nowhere the word "surrender" came into my mind. It then kept cropping up all over the place so it's a word I was supposed to hear. I'm not altogether sure what it means, though, and I'm not alone because there are entire books and videos about that one word! Still, I've interpreted it as just letting go and trusting. I've found myself drawn to meditation and as I cannot get through a day without literally dozens of sightings of 11 or 22, I trust that it's a sign that I've got a toe on the path.
Yep let go and embrace the change xxxx
❤🫂🙏🏻Nicky Allan Dios te Bendiga amada hija de Dios gracias por darnos tu enseñanza de la vida gracias Bendiciones
I can not believe it!! It's like you are telling my story!! Thank You
I am SO grateful for all the difficult times in the 77 years that I have been blessed to be here on this beautiful, amazing planet. It's what we came here for, what I call the "bodhisattva bootcamp". Loving the self back into the Circle of One.
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The raw truth hurts . however it helps others know none of us are ever alone, bless your soul , you are a an amazing woman Nicky ❤. May the rest of your days be filled with joy, love and blessings.
What a wonderful talk. I, too, have had a dark night of the soul, but I didn't know what that was. So many times, I asked God to take me, but he wouldn't. I have a strong feeling we were either married to the same man, or they were from the same mould. At the time, I lost my home and any financial stability. But I am still around. I burst into tears when you mentioned 555. When choosing my handle, I asked my guides for inspiration. I heard silently 555. So blown away, am I!!! Thank you, Nicki ❤
Wow what beautiful synchronicity 💜💜💜💜
Yes all my life,as a child I didn't know, so I did live with being happy, but inside very alone, very alone...but now I'm connected, so I'm still alone..60yrs..I need to see a sharman..I have a block, I did love myself then learnt to hate myself..but now I know..love ya sista ❤
Wow Niki!! You are so strong!! Thankful you've made it through and are around for you and us! Lord of love my dear!
Thank you Nicky. What a beautiful message to start my day. I had so many dark nights of the soul from the age of 18. At 35 and 37 I had my 2 beautiful boys and from then i knew suicide was forever off the table. I would never do that to them. Besides they bring me so much joy. 20yrs worth and counting. ❤
❤ YES NIKKY YOU MUST NOT FOCUS ON YOUR PAST ACCIDENT FOCUS ON TODAY AS YOU SAY YESTERDAY IS GONE AND YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL TODAY TOMORROW IS NOT HERE. MUCH LOVE TO YOU 😘
I hit bottom after some car accidents. Fibromyalgia diagnosis after seeing several doctors. Similar story. In January I woke up. ❤❤❤ prayers and healing for you all.
Thank you Nicky for talking about this. Realizing it & doing something for yourself as quickly as possible is so important! Finding the right help is another. I know exactly what you're saying about the physical & spiritual. Lovely to come out the other side.
WoW what an inspiration 👏, my little Sister is going through hard time and I am concerned for her . Been up for almost 3 hours praying for her .
I am hopeful that she will pass through this season. Thank you for sending light❤
She will x
Best video you've ever done, and I've watched them all. Nicky I can't thank you enough. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE can you do a part 2. We all need this right now.
It’s all channelled divinely times, so I put out what they want me to xxxx more to come on the podcasts that will help xx
After tearing 2 discs in 2009. 52 today and the only reason I'm here, is my kids. That's it. 15 years of PURE agony. I haven't lost everything because I literally hurt myself at Work but Physically and Mentally. I'm Spent. I've Screamed Surrender, Nothing. My kids don't understand. I think people like You and I Nicky who've had this much negativity in such a Bang ALL at once, Until it happens to someone personally. It's near impossible to Understand. I never thought I'd be where I am today. A fit, do anything, anywhere Any Time to going back to bed. I'm done.
Love You so much I really do and I cried hearing your story the first time I heard it and it still hits my Heart.
This Dark Night better End soon
Lots of Love from Australia Beautiful ❤
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Had a dark night of the soul last summer, and so so glad I was able to get support and help and get through it. Thanks for this video.
I started going through three years ago and l still have not completely recovered from the anxiety and depression associated with it. It started with the covid isolation. Omg...all my trauma came up. Up to that point l was fairly successful. With the help of therapy and determination l was able to get through the worse if it. Some consider this a spiritual awakening. And indeed this experience open me up so much and enhance my spiritual gift. Today, l am dealing with grounded myself and finding my true path.
Thank you, thank you , thank you 💗💗💗
Mine was a few years ago… I threw my dolls out of the pram, shouted at spirit , burnt all of my oracle cards , stamped on my spiritual books and burnt some of those as well (😮😂)
Listening to this now , it made me emotional. I am in a much better place now and I know it is getting better and my connection to spirit is much deeper .
Thank you dear soul for helping all who are going through it and have done through it. You are a miracle gift to us all 💗💗💗
I think you just changed my life. Thank God found you on CZcams.
Wow I'm so glad to be able to make the show 🎉
Me too
So glad to see you there xx
I feel like I’ve been in the dark night of the Sol for 75 years, but so far still hanging onto hopes that things will get better!
I've had over 45 years of agarohopbia and depression im so glad i found you xxxxx❤❤❤❤❤
So glad you did xxx
Thank you Nicky!! You are such a blessing to me. Thank you! I’ve been in a dark night of the soul recently this past 15 months. It’s been a very dark time. It’s also been an extremely growing time for me. A very painful time, but I’m working through it and I know that I will come out of it better and stronger. ❤
This was golden - you are a blessing - I'm reading the Rise and Fall now and I've M.E. Myself and I twice - don't stop my sister virgo❤
Just want to say how much we appreciate you .
Thank you 💕💕💕💕💕💕 that does mean a lot especially when I get a bad day 😂😂😂😂😂
I had NDE at 16 (I took an aspirin, and turned out I'm allergic to the pill). Rushed to ER, and the drs told my parents that if they were 5mins late, they wouldn't be able to save me. I started remembering what I saw 5 yrs ago (I'm now 39). I saw the light and I was walking towards it, I was in a black pitch tunnel? I'd say a bridge between earth and another realm. That light was so bright, beautiful, full of love, and so peaceful. I heard my mum's voice calling me to come back, then I turned around and woke up surrounded by drs and nurses. That's when I went through the dark night. It's like my soul was no longer aligned with my body. I was in pain mentally, couldn't leave the house for a whole year, fear of everything and was losing my mind. Drs gave me antidepressant (dianosed with anxiety and depression) and I knew it was not helpful, so I stopped taking it after 3 months. I'm still going through it but much better than before. I know I came back with a "gift", I'm very sensitive and can sense energy. I'm connected to animals, I cannot watch any sad videos of animals... I literally go into deep depression, I love animals so much and how I wish I can rescue them all. My friend (a psychic) told me that I have a gift and that I need to accept it but tbh I'm so scared and I'm not ready to see the "unknown" 😅.
Sorry if I'm not making much sense, currently having anxiety 🫠
Thank you Nicky, this podcast couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. I feel stronger and more hopeful today. Thank you for the reminder to be strong, to look within and even see the humor when the fan starts to spin.
Thank you for the message Nicky, I lost my Mum and got antenatal depression - even though I'm still going through it, I already know that it's helping me to better support others as I now know what they're going through so I am grateful. Looking forward to getting to the other side and getting some direction to my life. ❤
Thank you Beautiful Nicky .i had 8 years of the " Dark night of the soul" i felt like a hamster on a wheel and could not get off. Everything was for a reason but i have surrended to it now and i feel like i am healing. I too thought of leaving but i have 3 fur Babies it was them that was My Saviour. They really are Angels💗 Your podcast really helped me ❤❤❤❤
I was a letter carrier in the US. Went through similar things, injury, fibro, starting decades ago. 63 yo, and I have never really lived, yet. I was led here. Lost my entire family. Everyone, everyone, everyone. Now, we begin...
Yes we do right here 💪🏻💗💗💗💗💗💗
Love love love your readings Nicky. I literally got goosebumps while listening to this one. 🌟
I sooo resonate with you, on sooo many fronts.. I love your honesty. Bless you.. 💐💐💐
Hi Nikkie…. Great story. I also had the 5 year in bed. ( bottom after my son committed suicide ). And thru the addictions. And I walk around today .. so light and smiling. It’s all amazing. Listen to her, anyway new here.. she’s talking about it!!! And I’m living it
Thanks Nicky sending gratitude to your dogs 🐕 for keeping you with us they seem to do that I know,it's their little faces looking at you that you think twice and more b4 doing anything silly ❤🎉😊
You are a angel Nikki❤
Your story has given me strength and hope. Wish you all the love ❤❤❤
Thank you Nicky💖🙏I so needed to hear this!!! Bless you❤❤❤❤❤
WOW ♥️ what U have been through ... Is total hell...& U R such a amazing powerful WOMAN. Through it All
& I can say....Hey!!!! Mama...look at Nicky NOW.... It is a honour 2 have encountered U... Beautiful Nicky Allan🌹🌈🕊️🙏😶🌫️ Namaste 🔔🍭
Thank you so much for your work your amazing 👏 ❤ xx
Thanks for sharing your story you gorgeous soul 💚 I am still going through the dark night of the soul. Its been a long slog. I am dreaming of the day i come out of it because words cant describe the anguish and all I do is dream of going home 💖 🌌⭐
Nicky, thanku thanku thanku ❤
Thank you, Nicky! ❤❤❤
Thank you Thank you Thank you Nicky, for keeping it real podcast. There is so much insight information how to connect to the. Angelic world and to my love ones as well as, communicating with my guides. 😊🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️💜💜
Wow I’ve been going through it for 18 years. Thank you for sharing your helping me so much ❤
Thank you Nicky❤ I love you ❤
I'm in it now, I am giving up to it. Thank you!
What an awesome message totally needed to hear this. Sending you love Nicky ❤
I love your personality you are incredibly strong and beautiful inside and out ❤
Thank you so much for these words, Nicky! I needed to hear this. ❤
Thank you ❤🙏
I loved this so much ❤ needed this today, sending love from Ireland ❤
Thank you…❤🌹
I Am so greatfull ,that i made came through it
I’m having a total life change without my little animals and feel like I lost a big part of me as many of us do, so we try , yes we can get others but still that loss is there , thank you for your uplifting words Nicky, I just searched 555 it came up change ,,,, xx
Yep xxxxxxxxx change darling embrace it xx
Thank you I needed to hear this today
Bless you ❤
Thank you 🌸 ❤
Thank you Nicky❤
Thanks Niki!❤
I think I am going through this....last few years have been hell. I feel like something is happening to me spiritually. This makes all the sense in the world to me. I wrote about it in my email to you..(I know you can't get through them all, you're probably inundated with emails from so many people 😊) but yeah....going through so much & I know so many other people are too....I just hope they find you Nicky!!! You are such a light 💜!!! Thank you for all that you share with us!!!
Thank you for all you have done for all ❤I had a very hard life cause I taught that was what I had to do to survive but I know better now and I because of all that I pass threw I became a better stronger and more
beautiful person ❤ and I love me ❤
I really needed to hear this today. Thank you ❤
I went through my dark night when I had lots of health issues related to bad fad diets I am recovering now ❤
Nicky hello from one of your cousin's across the pond lol 😅
you never cease to amaze me inspire me 💗 I've known the darkness dark night of the soul the bitch knocked me down to my ass but in the darkness I also found a light that light was me I sit here and going through some things and then you reminded me dear that I'm here for a reason that I have a purpose and I don't need to be scared anymore Your helping me look at this fibromyalgia CFS and whatever not as a victim but as a light warrior'. You're helping me to remember I'm not alone and when you were mentioning to Google the frequency of 555 I glimpse up to see the clocks reading 222 ❤ and I knew that was the Angels my Devine team and spirit sending me confirmation as well and in that moment I felt peaceful loving comfort wonderful energy 🥰 love you all sending you all healing light strength. Ohh and I will definitely be trying the 555 frequency to help me further ❤ p.s. no I don't need to people please if they dont like me for me or respect my boundaries oh well I will never be another doormat and neither should anyone else who reads this.
Wow, I’ve had some dark times but not this, listening was not nice but I did resonate with what you said. I give tks you came through and are able to devote yourself to the divine and help others. Bless you angel you’re suffering is for others to benefit from, what a sacrifice to the Divine. Love and healing to you always ❤🙏🏼😇
Thank you so much Nicky!! Love and light always 🩷😘
❤ you helped Nicky ❤️ Thank you
Thankyou Nikki❤ Your words really do help Sending you love from Australia!😊
Thank you for this Nicky, although it made me cry. I am again in the maelstrom of yet another Dark Night of the Soul and felt like packing it all in because as you say you start to think “what’s the point of it all” Your kind and thoughtful words bring me comfort and after listening to this I saw a burgundy rose twice.!! Not sure if it was relevant but I’ll take that…❤❤
Thankyou For this .❤
Am absolutely distraught at the moment, have lost my job, have had bailiffs at my door, no support networks, don't know where to turn. Cannot cope anymore
Isolation has been my friend for many years and still is, i lost everything,im no longer materialistic, i have a list of health issues, and had and have on and off suicidal thoughts a few times.. i still dont want to be around people, dont even want to go work no energy finding a way out is so hard at present but just want to go home i have nothing here, its so boring me.thankyou nicki
Yep I have been there my love xxxxx
You are amazing Nicky you have helped me so much over the months. This was so interesting thank you, thank you, thank you ❤
I have experienced a dark night of the soul. I was on the wrong path in life. So much negativity around me and I put up with it. I ended up having a breakdown waking up in the hospital with my stomach being pumped.. I have no recollection of the lead up to this. I didn’t have suicidal thoughts.. I do believe that something took over me and took me to the lowest of the low points. My first concern was how dare I do that I have two children. After that, I reflected on my life, and the life was then shone on what I needed to see. And that was the negativity that was around me I had to walk away because my path did not need the people around me that were holding me in a dark place. It wasn’t intentional. It was just circumstances.. I now look at my Breakdown as a breakthrough. This is where I embarked upon my spiritual journey, because out of the dark, I stepped into the light. I knew I had become a person who was navigating through my heart. From that moment. In time I felt different I felt lighter. I actually felt empowered, even though the path in front of me, I didn’t know where I was going. I had nothing. I’d lost my job to no fault to my own, I had to move house, I didn’t have the deposit. I truly believe that my tough times my hard times I had to experience them.. and I worked through them with the mindset of everything is how it should be and everything is gonna be okay. I didn’t listen to the fear thoughts/voices in my head. Eternally grateful for my experience, the tough times the hard times the lonely times. Because without them, I wouldn’t be where I am today, enlightened, and standing within my power of a spiritual being experiencing and witnessing my human being life. it’s okay to become lost emotionally. Just don’t let it consume you I think is this it because it’s not. Thank you so much for sharing everything that you do Nicky. What an amazing lady you are and your gift, what you share is like the light from the celestial beings and you are holding the torch. if people find it hard to believe in miracles, just remember you are one. You were the 1st to the egg. 😊
What incredible words xx we are all blessed to read this 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚
Oh my gosh I have been seeing 555 for the past few days 😮
Oh my God Nicky
I'm a Saggitarius
,,I've been true afew dark nights of the Soull.
,,my older sister bulling me since a little girl
,,when my husband passed away ,she took over again.
,,& making a scapegoat for decades now .
,,I'm isolated from my toxic family.
,,i couldn't understand why?
,,now i do know
,I'm true my spiritual Awkenning.
,,i have so much to heal.
,,my sister is 81 years today & still working against me with family & out the family.
,i forgive them all with love & light Sydney Australia ❤❤❤