I know that feeling of really wanting it and not getting it. And I hear you about feeling like you have no place. I've felt that way my whole life. Also, it wasn't your fault, Nina. A lot of these decisions just come down to a whim. Sometimes two people will really have wanted you for the position but one with more power will come in and choose the other. It's a toss up. By the way, sometimes you can ask (using certain carefully selected wording) and get feedback on why they decided to go with someone else. That could sometimes be a big help with the next opportunity that comes along. Look at it this way. They interviewed you, meaning they were interested in what you had to offer, which means that other places will likewise be interested--and perhaps they're an even better fit for you, and you would be happier there. You're in my thoughts, Nina. Best wishes to you always.
Its not nice to say this but its nice to know that you are not the only one who has felt like they did not belong or had no place. I told my dad the other day, this world is not for me and he just stared at me. But i hang in there for people who care for me like my parents, its just so heartbreaking to break their hopes and dreams over and over and over again. I just want a hut at the sea and live my life free. hahaha fantasy. Thanks for your wishes, still have you in my thoughts and prayers as well. Hoping you will also find your place, your happy place.
I think the world only feels like it's not for any of us when we're at our lowest and stay there for too long--or for what feels like too long. Who knows? Maybe there's a reason for our being in this state for so long. I ask myself what is something positive I can take away from this ordeal? I'm not entirely sure but I think it has to do with _will_ . I now have a stronger will to push through the problems I encounter and to create, because I've been pushing through problems my whole life by nature of continuing to exist. Creation, I find, is key. I feel like I've been the way I am my whole life because of a lack of creativity. I am a brown and barren desert, spiritually. So any little bit of creativity will seem like the first bits of spring green to ever come to that barren land--and it'll be like the discovery of a new and supremely beautiful color, especially because of the contrast with the desert, a barren place now visited by the first signs of life. I think I'm working my way towards that first blooming, and finding something worth living for. But I'm still not totally there yet. The creativity is still lacking but I can feel it coming on. So there is a place for you too, Nina. Even if your life has also been a desert, because even deserts experience bloom after some point in their long lives. Also, I want to say I think your parents, because you say they care for you, care for you regardless of where you're at. I think when people who care for us see us at our lowest it makes them care for us even more, because they know we need that greater care. This world is for you, Nina. And for me, and all those like us. It is for us mostly, I'd say, because we need it the most. The others don't appreciate it half so much because they've always taken it for granted. And thank you for all the well wishes. You have mine as well. Peace, Nina.
Indeed, one day we will bloom, we must just keep on going, in hard times and this is very childlike, i see Dory in finding Nemo and i just start to sing just keep swimming just keep swimming, people think i am crazy but its small things like this that keeps me going and still a little silly 😋
I think that's awesome, Nina! And I don't think that's childlike at all. At least it's not exclusive to children, or shouldn't be if it is. We all have that something in us that makes us want to shout out and laugh and sing at times and just display our energy to the world. So I guess that's all to say, stay silly, Nina 😋😋
I know that feeling of really wanting it and not getting it. And I hear you about feeling like you have no place. I've felt that way my whole life.
Also, it wasn't your fault, Nina. A lot of these decisions just come down to a whim. Sometimes two people will really have wanted you for the position but one with more power will come in and choose the other. It's a toss up.
By the way, sometimes you can ask (using certain carefully selected wording) and get feedback on why they decided to go with someone else. That could sometimes be a big help with the next opportunity that comes along.
Look at it this way. They interviewed you, meaning they were interested in what you had to offer, which means that other places will likewise be interested--and perhaps they're an even better fit for you, and you would be happier there. You're in my thoughts, Nina. Best wishes to you always.
Its not nice to say this but its nice to know that you are not the only one who has felt like they did not belong or had no place. I told my dad the other day, this world is not for me and he just stared at me. But i hang in there for people who care for me like my parents, its just so heartbreaking to break their hopes and dreams over and over and over again. I just want a hut at the sea and live my life free. hahaha fantasy. Thanks for your wishes, still have you in my thoughts and prayers as well. Hoping you will also find your place, your happy place.
I think the world only feels like it's not for any of us when we're at our lowest and stay there for too long--or for what feels like too long. Who knows? Maybe there's a reason for our being in this state for so long.
I ask myself what is something positive I can take away from this ordeal? I'm not entirely sure but I think it has to do with _will_ . I now have a stronger will to push through the problems I encounter and to create, because I've been pushing through problems my whole life by nature of continuing to exist. Creation, I find, is key. I feel like I've been the way I am my whole life because of a lack of creativity. I am a brown and barren desert, spiritually.
So any little bit of creativity will seem like the first bits of spring green to ever come to that barren land--and it'll be like the discovery of a new and supremely beautiful color, especially because of the contrast with the desert, a barren place now visited by the first signs of life.
I think I'm working my way towards that first blooming, and finding something worth living for. But I'm still not totally there yet. The creativity is still lacking but I can feel it coming on.
So there is a place for you too, Nina. Even if your life has also been a desert, because even deserts experience bloom after some point in their long lives.
Also, I want to say I think your parents, because you say they care for you, care for you regardless of where you're at. I think when people who care for us see us at our lowest it makes them care for us even more, because they know we need that greater care.
This world is for you, Nina. And for me, and all those like us. It is for us mostly, I'd say, because we need it the most. The others don't appreciate it half so much because they've always taken it for granted.
And thank you for all the well wishes. You have mine as well. Peace, Nina.
Indeed, one day we will bloom, we must just keep on going, in hard times and this is very childlike, i see Dory in finding Nemo and i just start to sing just keep swimming just keep swimming, people think i am crazy but its small things like this that keeps me going and still a little silly 😋
I think that's awesome, Nina! And I don't think that's childlike at all. At least it's not exclusive to children, or shouldn't be if it is. We all have that something in us that makes us want to shout out and laugh and sing at times and just display our energy to the world. So I guess that's all to say, stay silly, Nina 😋😋
sorry for not getting the job