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Yes its true about Wish I bought many things from Wish but i dont think I can recommend it to anyone what i recieved is so different from the things I ordered..

Not all are DOS games, not all from the 90s and worst of all... no names of the games! wtf dude?!

Ek twyfel dat jy die boek deeglik gelees het? Dit blyk of jy genot put uit Deon, Christel en Marthella (asook haar verkragting) se moord! Weet jy ooit iets van plaasmoorde? (Siende dat jy dit so afgewater laat klink)?!

Am afraid of buying on joom

Where do i get my products

John they were caught off guard imagine such a small guy killing his whole family

This is very helpful for me. I ordered from Joom and I like it for the free shipping. But I have been waiting for my orders from 20 September. And I'm still waiting.

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I hope I see you again, Nina. I haven't for weeks now though. You said you have no one to talk to. Well, try me then. I'm free to talk at anytime. I'm here listening to you, Nina, that I promise. I'll be here always. 🙂

Oh my gosh you’re back! Hey Nina!

i know all these people in yo comments. I see you, Nina.

It is just what you need. Fur babies give unconditional love. Everyone should be so blessed.

Sweetest angels!!!! 🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰 Aww... as soon as they heard you mention depression they came rushing to give you some love 🥰🥰 My own little angel is sick today. His stomach's been rumbling and he's been crying all day. I'm taking him to the doctor tomorrow to get him looked though. He got groomed yesterday and he's looking so fresh--and smelling fresh too for once 😆

😂 I literally thought those were real until you turned on the light lol I have something similar for a nightlight. I have an essential oil diffuser with changing color lights in it so I can see pretty colors all night. It's pretty cool.

It's good to see you again, Nina. As for your questions, I feel up after watching your videos because I know you're still holding on. I agree with you, by the way. You can't just move on from grief at the snap of your fingers. There's no set time period for grief either, and the stages are different for everyone. I'm sorry to hear your coworkers can't understand that. One of the hardest things about living with major depression or anxiety is that lack of understanding. People will always say, "just get over it, be stronger, don't think about it, etc," as if one could just will away mental illness. But that's why I'm glad you make videos, because when you do the people who have that empathy will be there for you. And I'm here now telling you it's okay to be how you are. You are not a bother, a downer, or whatever. If it helps you at all making videos and talking about it then I hope you make one day 🙂 Loving that cozy space of yours, by the way. It looks like it could be a place of healing for you, which the other one definitely wasn't. My very best wishes to you, sweet Nina 🙂

Nina!!!

I missed seeing you, Nina. Glad to hear about all the positive changes. Sorry to hear though about the lingering depression. I think the feathers are a definite sign. He's flying up high but he's making sure you see those feathers dropping down as if to say he hasn't forgotten you down below. And as all signs, it's a sign that is also saying hold on, like you said; your story isn't finished. Hold on, Nina. Good things are coming your way. Though you can't fill a hole in your heart, you can make it beat again, to pump life through your veins and make you feel invigorated. And, hey, the short hair is cool! Definitely like the new look. I'm going the opposite way myself. Long hair. Congrats on the diploma as well! I just got my first degree/diploma at 30, so I'm right there with you, Nina :) I've been meaning to message you more, actually. I have no idea what to say though. But it's right there in my google calendar (Message Nina, daily reminder). I have been keeping up with you on Facebook though. You're one of my favorite people I follow. Speaking of Facebook, I'm in a few groups now that have to do with Katelyn Nicole Davis. That's actually how I first heard of you. I can across one your comments on a video someone made about Katelyn and I decided to check out your channel. I'm very glad I did. Anyway, in these groups we talk about issues like suicide and depression--and we talk honestly about them to each other and we make sure we're there for each other. You should join as well. Your perspective is valuable and needed and I think (I hope) that you can find a bit of healing among us. As always, thank you for the video, Nina. I wish you the best always =)

I miss seeing your videos, Nina. I miss seeing you, bright soul :) I know I see you post on Facebook occasionally, but it ain't the same. I really hope you are well. I messaged you a while back (I forgot what I said) but you didn't respond. Just want you to know that I'm thinking of you, and I'm thinking of you at peace and finding a place where you know you belong. My best wishes to you always, Nina. Peace =)

its a sad story

I'm so so sorry, Nina. I wish I was there to hug you. You do belong, Nina. Your videos have helped me feel like I belong too, because I know I'm not alone in pain. Yours is greater for sure, but if you don't belong, neither do I. I feel I don't some days, but I know it's always possible to carve out a place. As long as I have imagination and a iron will anything is possible. Or so I've found, at least what's humanly possible that is. I don't know why we're here either. If there's a reason, I feel it's to suffer greatly. Maybe there is a god and he's amused by it. I don't know. Fuck him if he is. If not, fuck him still. I only need myself in life. It's what I've found time and time again. Is it enough? Nothing ever is, but then again, I know my will is good, as are my actions. That's the only god I need, myself and others doing good for the sake of ourselves and the rest. Blessed be you always, Nina. You are so so worth it. Love, light, and all the healing energy in the world to you, Nina. Peace.

I watch all that afterlife stuff too, all the NDEs and such. It only makes me feel worse sometimes. A lot of them say we choose all the suffering we have in life, but honestly, who would choose to experience what you have? It must be an extreme form of self hatred that I had for myself if I would've chosen that. And I don't know why, but as soon as you explained the grief surfer thing I wanted to draw it or write a story about it. It's profound, probably the best explanation of grief I've come across. Some people only fortunately ever surf on little waves. Others like you are tossed into a tsunami and have to try and surf out that storm. Yes, we're all important, though, all so special. I just wish each of us would realize it.

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Nina, I understand you would feel guilty about leaving him. But, Nina, _you_ have to come first. The way I see it, if you don't take care of yourself before him, he's just going to drag the both of you down. You aren't a bad person, Nina. Bad people don't think about others as much as you do; they only think about themselves. You are a supremely good person, Nina. If only there were more like you in this world, it wouldn't be in such a sorry state.

Nina, you are one of the most authentic people I have ever come across. Sorry to hear about your family pushing you. Grief is something you cannot just push away, but a lot of people don't seem to understand that, which is one reason why mental illness is so stigmatized. You're not a bad person either, Nina. You haven't been using him; he's been using you as a means to fuel his narcissism. From what it sounds like, he knew the whole deal when you moved in and he was okay with it as long as he could continue to use you as such. By the way, I'm the same way with my mom. She's the one person I care about most in this world and if she died I'd probably kill myself, to be honest, since I care about no one else--I've tried too, but I'm just too dead inside to form connections anymore, if I ever could. There's no shame in being sick either. I've dealt with IBS before. It's embarrassing as hell but that's life for you, though I've found for me it was only life when I was under too much stress. It was my body's way of telling me to get out of a stressful situation.

saw both videos. and i agree. pretty bad. I hope to make a video to add to these by today. great content, Nina.

I completely believe in these signs too; you're not crazy, at least not alone in that craziness if you are. I get them all the time, and yes, they mean a lot to me. I've always said you're a warrior, Nina. Yes there's so much more to life, so many colors we can't see with our colorblind eyes. I get these intuitive thoughts/feelings that have to do with situations/people. For instance, I can sometimes feel and just _know_ when the trees will be blooming in spring. It feels like a celebration of new life, like a party that I'm invited to but with no idea how to actually get there. I also pick up on the emotions of others. For instance, my brother broke up with his girlfriend a while back. When he came over, I got this feeling of darkness about him. He was walking about the house, not out of the ordinary for him, but I had a thought that maybe he was disturbed in some way. I dismissed it, only to find out later that his girlfriend, whom he was about to marry, had been cheating on him and left him. I also get little things on the road. Like when it's dark out and I see the lights of a car way up ahead, more often than not the correct person it belongs to will pop up in my mind, and I'll see I'm right once they come closer. Of course, all these things also have alternative explanations (e.g., my brother was skulking about and people who skulk might just have something wrong with them), but those are pretty ordinary most of the time. Like with my brother, he mostly could be said to skulk about the house, so I don't know. Anyway, I appreciated the video, Nina. Peace out :)

You will never forget the memories and the hurt never goes away but in time the hurt will get less and less I promise you. I know from experience. Everything has a purpose and although our minds may not be able to wrap around what that purpose is now later beyond this life the purpose will become known ❤❤❤

"You feel like you're drowning..." You're doing these videos for me and Phillip and the CZcams army. I know what drowning slowly feels like. We miss certain people. I suspect that we miss certain folks the way a crying baby misses God. As babies we learn to get over it but it's the same feeling. I've been suggesting to people lately who pray to try a prayer without words. I'm almost manic when it comes to words. But I prefer now praying without them. Jesse Lee Peterson is a person who can describe it well. I'll be looking out for ya, Nina.

I'm so sorry, Nina. You don't move on. From what I've heard, no one ever does, they just get used to it and it sort of fades into the background eventually. I want you to talk about him too. I'll listen; we'll listen here. Thank you for talking now. I'm sure there's more some stuff you can talk about. Empty is how I've felt my whole life; I'm doubting if I ever won't feel empty, no matter who comes into my life. I feel jealous of those people who are just so in love with life and take great joy in pretty much everything. They have a million friends, and everything just seems to fall into their lap how they want it. It's hard living on the outside of life. By the way, you on Facebook, Nina? I recently got an account there. Feel free to message me on there anytime. Peace, Nina.

Well said. I lost the love of my life two years ago, and I'm still living through the tomorrows. We had the rest of our lives planned out, and now life is an exercise in what will never be. I pay my bills and laugh at the appropriate moments and no-one ever sees her ghost at my side. Thank you for sharing.

Its actually a yorkshire, Her hair got so long and tangle that we had to have her shaved, you can't go near her with scissors then the jaws of life open hehehehe, she is like a tiny stapler. A rescue doggie, we found her at the side of the road, and people in our street said someone just dropped her off, we found her a almost too late as she had been hit by a car and had damage to her tail and spine, But she is all better and loving her life and home with my mom. She is thankful for everything but yet sometimes you still see fear in her. My mom loves her to bits and she has been a semi replacement for me since i moved out.

Ohh, god!!! He--or is it she?--is so precious :D What kind of dog is that? Whatever the case, he's beautiful. Thank you for sharing, Nina :)

So glad to see you again, Nina! :D :D :D :D :D I agree, Nina. You don't ever have to forget your friend; I think people who say you do don't realize what they're asking of you, as if you could just erase the most important person who ever came into your life from your mind. I think people who ask that probably haven't experienced that sort of grief--and in that they're lucky, I guess. I haven't either, I should say, and I pray I never will. And yet, I feel like I'm living in a spiritual wasteland still, day in and day out, and I'm struggling to connect with anyone. I wonder sometimes, given all the talk I've heard of twin flames, could my twin flame/soul mate have died before I ever met her? Maybe that's why I've felt unable to connect with anyone my whole life. I don't know. I am learning to appreciate the small things though, to just take a moment and breath and forget the future and just enjoy the fact that I'm alive. It helps some. Love, light, and all my very best wishes in the world to you, Nina. Peace :)

Poor child. Doing babysitting for her brothers.

Here's the story of my narcissist: czcams.com/video/63LNrZTAkpw/video.html Hope everything is going well now, Nina. I wish you the best always. Peace :)

Happy birthday Nina 👍😁

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I'm so glad you're enjoying your new job, Nina! Oh, and Happy Birthday 😁😁😁😁 🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂

Congrats nina. Been ever seen you on here. Glad thing going well.

YES!!! YOU DID IT! Let's celebrate 🎉🎊🎁🎉🎊🎁🎇🎊🎈🎉🎊🎁:D I'm so proud of you!

Congrats, Nina! A manager, huh? That's huge. I'm so happy for you, Nina :) I'm not a morning person either, though I'm trying to be more of one. Glad you're surrounded by nice people too. That can make all the difference. As for me, I'm good. Still looking myself (and I'm juggling some interesting offers, though in my field, software engineering, some places seem to take forever just to give you the first call), but for now I'm shifting my focus on my own business--I do contract work and I'm working on hopefully getting clients for my own company before I get a job at another company. And lol. That freaked me out at the end there. I'm also hoping to do another video soon. I mostly plan to use my channel to advocate for mental health and awareness, but maybe some other stuff too. Anyway, you take care, Nina. Peace :)

I guess no news is good news, but just to let you know, I still got all my fingers crossed for you.

I'm keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed for you, Nina! Also, you asked me in the comments on your last video if I got a job yet, and the answer is no--but I might soon! I mean, I have some work right now (some small contract stuff) but it's just to maintain me until the "job" job comes around. So I'm still hunting too, but it's looking up. Though there's days I wish I hadn't turned down two offers already, but oh well. I'm wishing you the best. Luck, Nina :)

I don't blame you for being scared of it. Sounds spooky :0 I don't blame you for being scared of the dark either. Considering what you've been going through, it's got to be a major trial to deal with the things you can't see. Also, I do think we're visited. And I think they're always there, in a way. Their consciousness extends far beyond our own, and they're able to see things we can't and stay with us without losing focus on other things. At least that's how I view it. Love the name of your dog, by the way. Anastasia is one of the only 90s animated films I never saw (or maybe I did and forgot it), but I love that you took your baby's name from there :)

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sorry for not getting the job

Yes. I've dealt with narcissists my whole life. They're unbearable to be around, and I'm sorry you have to deal with them. You got the description of them down pat though. In reality, the things they say are a reflection of their own lack of self worth. For every criticism they have of you, there's one exactly like it or similar that they've never been able to deal with. Sounds like you've met the overt narcissist. They do not in fact love themselves. In actuality, they hate themselves, hence the constant need to promote themselves as amazing and awesome in hopes others will latch onto it and give them the love they cannot give themselves.

I know that feeling of really wanting it and not getting it. And I hear you about feeling like you have no place. I've felt that way my whole life. Also, it wasn't your fault, Nina. A lot of these decisions just come down to a whim. Sometimes two people will really have wanted you for the position but one with more power will come in and choose the other. It's a toss up. By the way, sometimes you can ask (using certain carefully selected wording) and get feedback on why they decided to go with someone else. That could sometimes be a big help with the next opportunity that comes along. Look at it this way. They interviewed you, meaning they were interested in what you had to offer, which means that other places will likewise be interested--and perhaps they're an even better fit for you, and you would be happier there. You're in my thoughts, Nina. Best wishes to you always.

I don't understand.. can you explain in a simple way to me please Nina???